首页 >出版文学> Their Silver Wedding Journey>第67章
  TheyagreedthattheymustwritetoMr。andMrs。Marchatonce;oratleast,Agathasaid,assoonasshehadspokentoherfather。Athermentionofherfathershewasawareofadoubt,afear,inBurnamywhichexpresseditselfbyscarcelymorethanaspiritualconsciousnessfromhisarmtothehandswhichshehadclaspedwithinit。“Hehasalwaysappreciatedyou。”shesaidcourageously,“andIknowhewillseeitintherightlight。”
  Sheprobablymeantnomorethantoaffirmherfaithinherownabilityfinallytobringherfathertoajustmindconcerningit;butBurnamyacceptedherassurancewithbuoyanthopefulness,andsaidhewouldseeGeneralTriscoethefirstthinginthemorning。
  “No,Iwillseehim。”shesaid,“Iwishtoseehimfirst;hewillexpectitofme。Wehadbettergoin,now。”sheadded,butneithermadeanymotionforthepresenttodoso。Onthecontrary,theywalkedintheotherdirection,anditwasanhourafterAgathadeclaredtheirdutyinthematterbeforetheytriedtofulfilit。
  Then,indeed,aftertheyreturnedtothehotel,shelostnotimeingoingtoherfatherbeyondthatwhichmustbegiventoalonghand-pressureunderthefrescoofthefivepoetsonthestairslanding,whereherwaysandBurnamy’sparted。Shewentintoherownroom,andsoftlyopenedthedoorintoherfather’sandlistened。
  “Well?”hesaidinasortofchallengingvoice。
  “Haveyoubeenasleep?”sheasked。
  “I’vejustblownoutmylight。Whathaskeptyou?”
  Shedidnotreplycategorically。Standingthereintheshelteringdark,shesaid,“Papa,Iwasn’tverycandidwithyou,thisafternoon。IamengagedtoMr。Burnamy。”
  “Lightthecandle。”saidherfather。“Orno。”headdedbeforeshecoulddoso。“Isitquitesettled?”
  “Quite。”sheansweredinavoicethatadmittedofnodoubt。“Thatis,asfarasitcanbe,withoutyou。”
  “Don’tbeahypocrite,Agatha。”saidthegeneral。“Andletmetrytogettosleep。YouknowIdon’tlikeit,andyouknowIcan’thelpit。”
  “Yes。”thegirlassented。
  “Thengotobed。”saidthegeneralconcisely。
  Agathadidnotobeyherfather。Shethoughtsheoughttokisshim,butshedecidedthatshehadbetterpostponethis;soshemerelygavehimatendergoodnight,towhichhemadenoresponse,andshutherselfintoherownroom,wheresheremainedsittingandstaringoutintothemoonlight,withasmilethatneverleftherlips。
  Whenthemoonsankbelowthehorizon,theskywaspalewiththecomingday,butbeforeitwasfairlydawn,shesawsomethingwhite,notmuchgreaterthansomemoths,movingbeforeherwindow。Shepulledthevalvesopenandfounditabitofpaperattachedtoathreaddanglingfromabove。Shebrokeitlooseandinthemorningtwilightshereadthegreatcentraltruthoftheuniverse:
  “Iloveyou。L。J。B。”
  Shewroteunderthetremendousinspiration:
  “SodoI。Don’tbesilly。A。T。”
  Shefastenedthepapertothethreadagain,andgaveitalittletwitch。
  Shewaitedforthelownoteoflaughterwhichdidnotfailtoflutterdownfromabove;thenshethrewherselfuponthebed,andfellasleep。
  Itwasnotsolateasshethoughtwhenshewoke,anditseemed,atbreakfast,thatBurnamyhadbeenupstillearlier。OfthethreeinvolvedintheanxietyofthenightbeforeGeneralTriscoewasstillrespitedfromitbysleep,buthewokemuchmorehaggardthaneitheroftheyoungpeople。They,infact,werenotatallhaggard;theworstwasover,ifbringingtheirengagementtohisknowledgewastheworst;theformalityofaskinghisconsentwhichBurnamystillhadtogothroughwasunpleasant,butafterallitwasaformality。Agathatoldhimeverythingthathadpassedbetweenherselfandherfather,andifithadnotthatcordialityonhispartwhichtheycouldhavewisheditwascertainlynothopelesslydiscouraging。
  TheyagreedatbreakfastthatBurnamyhadbetterhaveitoverasquicklyaspossible,andhewaitedonlytillAugustcamedownwiththegeneral’straybeforegoinguptohisroom。Theyoungfellowdidnotfeelmoreathiseasethantheeldermeantheshouldintakingthechairtowhichthegeneralwavedhimfromwherehelayinbed;andtherewasnotalkwastedupontheweatherbetweenthem。
  “IsupposeIknowwhatyouhavecomefor,Mr。Burnamy。”saidGeneralTriscoeinatonewhichwasratherjudicialthanotherwise,“andI
  supposeyouknowwhyyouhavecome。”ThewordscertainlyopenedthewayforBurnamy,buthehesitatedsolongtotakeitthatthegeneralhadabundanttimetoadd,“Idon’tpretendthatthiseventisunexpected,butIshouldliketoknowwhatreasonyouhaveforthinkingIshouldwishyoutomarrymydaughter。Itakeitforgrantedthatyouareattachedtoeachother,andwewon’twastetimeonthatpoint。Nottobeataboutthebush,onthenextpoint,letmeaskatoncewhatyourmeansofsupportingherare。HowmuchdidyouearnonthatnewspaperinChicago?”
  “Fifteenhundreddollars。”Burnamyanswered,promptlyenough。
  “Didyouearnanythingmore,saywithinthelastyear?”
  “IgotthreehundreddollarsadvancecopyrightforabookIsoldtoapublisher。”ThegloryhadnotyetfadedfromthefactinBurnamy’smind。
  “Eighteenhundred。WhatdidyougetforyourpoeminMarch’sbook?”
  “That’saverytriflingmatter:fifteendollars。”
  “AndyoursalaryasprivatesecretarytothatmanStoller?”
  “Thirtydollarsaweek,andmyexpenses。ButIwouldn’ttakethat,GeneralTriscoe。”saidBurnamy。
  GeneralTriscoe,fromhis’litdejustice’,passedthispointinsilence。
  “Haveyouanyonedependentonyou?”
  “Mymother;Itakecareofmymother。”answeredBurnamy,proudly。
  “SinceyouhavebrokenwithStoller,whatareyourprospects?”
  “Ihavenone。”
  “Thenyoudon’texpecttosupportmydaughter;youexpecttoliveuponhermeans。”
  “Iexpecttodonothingofthekind!“criedBurnamy。“Ishouldbeashamed——Ishouldfeeldisgraced——Ishould——Idon’taskyou——Idon’taskhertillIhavethemeanstosupporther——“
  “Ifyouwereveryfortunate。”continuedthegeneral,unmovedbytheyoungfellow’spain,andunperturbedbythefactthathehadhimselfliveduponhiswife’smeansaslongasshelived,andthenuponhisdaughter’s,“ifyouwentbacktoStoller——“
  “Iwouldn’tgobacktohim。Idon’tsayhe’sknowinglyarascal,buthe’signorantlyarascal,andheproposedarascallythingtome。I
  behavedbadlytohim,andI’dgiveanythingtoundothewrongIlethimdohimself;butI’llnevergobacktohim。”
  “Ifyouwentback,onyouroldsalary。”thegeneralpersistedpitilessly,“youwouldbeveryfortunateifyoubroughtyourearningsuptotwenty-
  fivehundredayear。”
  “Yes——“
  “Andhowfardoyouthinkthatwouldgoinsupportingmydaughteronthescalesheisusedto?Idon’tspeakofyourmother,whohasthefirstclaimuponyou。”
  Burnamysatdumb;andhisheadwhichhehadliftedindignantlywhenthequestionwasofStoller,begantosink。
  Thegeneralwenton。“Youaskmetogiveyoumydaughterwhenyouhaven’tmoneyenoughtokeepheringowns;youaskmetogivehertoastranger——“
  “Notquiteastranger,GeneralTriscoe。”Burnamyprotested。“Youhaveknownmeforthreemonthsatleast,andanyonewhoknowsmeinChicagowilltellyou——“
  “Astranger,andworsethanastranger。”thegeneralcontinued,sopleasedwiththelogicalperfectionofhispositionthathealmostsmiled,andcertainlysoftenedtowardBurnamy。“Itisn’taquestionoflikingyou,Mr。Burnamy,butofknowingyou;mydaughterlikesyou;sodotheMarches;sodoeseverybodywhohasmetyou。Ilikeyoumyself。
  You’vedonemepersonallyathousandkindnesses。ButIknowverylittleofyou,inspiteofourthreemonths’acquaintance;andthatlittleis——
  Butyoushalljudgeforyourself!Youwereintheconfidentialemployofamanwhotrustedyou,andyoulethimbetrayhimself。”
  “Idid。Idon’texcuseit。Thethoughtofitburnslikefire。Butitwasn’tdonemaliciously;itwasn’tdonefalsely;itwasdoneinconsiderately;andwhenitwasdone,itseemedirrevocable。Butitwasn’t;Icouldhaveprevented,Icouldhavestoopedthemischief;andI
  didn’t!Icanneveroutlivethat。”
  “Iknow。”saidthegeneralrelentlessly,“thatyouhaveneverattemptedanydefence。Thathasbeentoyourcreditwithme。Itinclinedmetooverlookyourunwarrantedcourseinwritingtomydaughter,whenyoutoldheryouwouldneverseeheragain。Whatdidyouexpectmetothink,afterthat,ofyourcomingbacktoseeher?Ordidn’tyouexpectmetoknowit?”
  “Iexpectedyoutoknowit;Iknewshewouldtellyou。ButIdon’texcusethat,either。Itwasactingalietocomeback。AllIcansayisthatIhadtoseeheragainforonelasttime。”