首页 >出版文学> Their Silver Wedding Journey>第1章
  “Youneedtherest。”saidtheBusinessEnd;“andyourwifewantsyoutogo,aswellasyourdoctor。Besides,it’syourSabbaticalyear,andyou,couldsendbackalotofstuffforthemagazine。”
  “IsthatyournotionofaSabbaticalyear?“askedtheeditor。
  “No;Ithrowthatoutasabaittoyourconscience。Youneedn’twritealinewhileyou’regone。Iwishyouwouldn’tforyourownsake;althougheverynumberthathasn’tgotyouinitisabacknumberforme。”
  “That’sveryniceofyou,Fulkerson。”saidtheeditor。“Isupposeyourealizethatit’snineyearssincewetook’EveryOtherWeek’fromDryfoos?”
  “Well,thatmakesitallthemoreSabbatical。”saidFulkerson。“Thetwoextrayearsthatyou’veputinhere,overandabovetheoldstyleSabbaticalseven,arejustsomuchmoretoyourcredit。Itwasyourrighttogo,twoyearsago,andnowit’syourduty。Couldn’tyoulookatitinthatlight?”
  “IdaresayMrs。Marchcould。”theeditorassented。“Idon’tbelieveshecouldbebroughttoregarditasapleasureonanyotherterms。”
  “Ofcoursenot。”saidFulkerson。“Ifyouwon’ttakeayear,takethreemonths,andcallitaSabbaticalsummer;butgo,anyway。Youcanmakeuphalfadozennumbersahead,andTom,here,knowsyourwayssowellthatyouneedn’tthinkabout’EveryOtherWeek’fromthetimeyoustarttillthetimeyoutrytobribethecustomsinspectorwhenyougetback。Icantakeahackattheeditingmyself,ifTom’sinspirationgivesout,andputalittleofmyadvertisingfireintothething。”Helaidhishandontheshoulderoftheyoungfellowwhostoodsmilingby,andpushedandshookhiminthelikingtherewasbetweenthem。“Nowyougo,March!
  Mrs。FulkersonfeelsjustasIdoaboutit;wehadouroutinglastyear,andwewantMrs。Marchandyoutohaveyours。Youletmegodownandengageyourpassage,and——“
  “No,no!”theeditorrebelled。“I’llthinkaboutit;“butasheturnedtotheworkhewassofondofandsowearyof,hetriednottothinkofthequestionagain,tillheclosedhisdeskintheafternoon,andstartedtowalkhome;thedoctorhadsaidheoughttowalk,andhedidso,thoughhelongedtoride,andlookedwistfullyatthepassingcars。
  Heknewhewasinarut,ashiswifeoftensaid;butifitwasarut,itwasasupporttoo;itkepthimfromwobbling:Shealwaystalkedasifthefloweryfieldsofyouthlayoneithersideofthedustyroadhehadbeengoingsolong,andhehadbuttostepasidefromit,tobeamongthebutterfliesandbuttercupsagain;hesometimesindulgedthisillusion,himself,inacertainironicalspiritwhichcaressedwhileitmockedthenotion。Theyhadatacitagreementthattheiryouth,iftheywereevertofinditagain,wastobelookedforinEurope,wheretheymetwhentheywereyoung,andtheyhadneverbeenquitewithoutthehopeofgoingbackthere,someday,foralongsojourn。Theyhadnotseenthetimewhentheycoulddoso;theyweredreamers,but,astheyrecognized,evendreamingisnotfreefromcare;andinhisdreamMarchhadbeenobligedtoworkprettysteadily,ifnottoointensely。Hehadbeenforcedtoforegothedistinctlyliteraryambitionwithwhichhehadstartedinlifebecausehehadtheircommonlivingtomake,andhecouldnotmakeitbywritinggracefulverse,orevengracefulprose。Hehadbeenmanyyearsinasufficientlydistastefulbusiness,andhehadlostanythoughtofleavingitwhenitlefthim,perhapsbecausehisholdonithadalwaysbeenratherlax,andhehadnotbeenabletoconcealthathedislikedit。
  Atanyrate,hewassupplantedinhisinsuranceagencyatBostonbyasubordinateinhisoffice,andthoughhewasatthesametimeofferedaplaceofnominalcreditintheemployofthecompany,hewasabletodeclineitingraceofachancewhichunitedthecharmofcongenialworkwiththesolidadvantageofabettersalarythanhehadbeengettingforworkhehated。Itwasanincrediblechance,butitwasrenderedappreciablyrealbythenecessityitinvolvedthattheyshouldleaveBoston,wheretheyhadlivedalltheirmarriedlife,whereMrs。Marchaswellastheirchildrenwasborn,andwherealltheirtenderandfamiliartieswere,andcometoNewYork,wheretheliteraryenterprisewhichformedhischancewastobefounded。
  Itwasthenamagazineofanewsort,whichhisbusinesspartnerhadimaginedinsuchleisureasthemanagementofanewspapersyndicateaffordedhim,andhadalwaysthoughtofgettingMarchtoedit。Themagazinewhichisalsoabookhassincebeenrealizedelsewhereonmoreorlessprosperousterms,butnotforanylongperiod,and’EveryOtherWeek’wasapparently——theonlyperiodicalofthekindconditionedforsurvival。Itwasatfirstbackedbyunlimitedcapital,andithadtheinstantfavorofapopularmood,whichhassincechanged,butwhichdidnotchangesosoonthatthemagazinehadnottimetoestablishitselfinawideacceptance。Itwasnownolongeranovelty,itwasnolongerinthemaidenblushofitsfirstsuccess,butithadentereduponitssecondyouthwiththereasonablehopeofmanyyearsofprosperitybeforeit。Infactitwasaverycomfortablelivingforallconcerned,andtheMarcheshadtheconditions,almostdismayinglyperfect,inwhichtheyhadoftenpromisedthemselvestogoandbeyoungagaininEurope,whentheyrebelledatfindingthemselveselderlyinAmerica。Theirdaughterwasmarried,andsoverymuchtohermother’smindthatshedidnotworryabouther,eventhoughshelivedsofarawayasChicago,stillawildfrontiertowntoherBostonimagination;andtheirson,assoonasheleftcollege,hadtakenholdon’EveryOtherWeek’,underhisfather’sinstruction,withazealandintelligencewhichwonhimFulkerson’spraiseasachipoftheoldblock。Thesetwolikedeachother,andworkedintoeachother’shandsascordiallyandaptlyasFulkersonandMarchhadeverdone。ItamusedthefathertoseehissonofferingFulkersonthesamedeferencewhichtheBusinessEndpaidtoseniorityinMarchhimself;butinfact,Fulkerson’sforeheadwasgetting,ashesaid,moreintellectualeveryday;andtheyearswerepushingthemallalongtogether。
  Still,Marchhadkeptonintheoldrut,andonedayhefelldowninit。
  Hehadalongsickness,andwhenhewaswellofit,hewassoslowingettinghisgripofworkagainthathewassometimesdeeplydiscouraged。
  Hiswifesharedhisdepression,whetherheshowedorwhetherhehidit,andwhenthedoctoradvisedhisgoingabroad,sheabettedthedoctorwithallthestrengthofawoman’shygienicintuitions。Marchhimselfwillinglyconsented,atfirst;butassoonashegotstrengthforhiswork,hebegantotemporizeandtodemur。HesaidthathebelieveditwoulddohimjustasmuchgoodtogotoSaratoga,wheretheyalwayshadsuchagoodtime,astogotoCarlsbad;andMrs。Marchhadbeenobligedseveraltimestoleavehimtohisownundoing;shealwaystookhimmorevigorouslyinhandafterwards。
  Whenhegothomefromthe’EveryOtherWeek’office,theafternoonofthattalkwiththeBusinessEnd,hewantedtolaughwithhiswifeatFulkerson’snotionofaSabbaticalyear。Shedidnotthinkitwassoverydroll;sheevenurgeditseriouslyagainsthim,asifshehadnowtheauthorityofHolyWritforforcinghimabroad;shefoundnorelishofabsurdityintheideathatitwashisdutytotakethisrestwhichhadbeenhisrightbefore。
  Heabandonedhimselftoafancywhichhadbeenworkingtothesurfaceofhisthought。“WecouldcallitourSilverWeddingJourney,andgoroundtoalltheoldplaces,andseetheminthereflectedlightofthepast。”
  “Oh,wecould!”sheresponded,passionately;andhehadnowthedelicateresponsibilityofpersuadingherthathewasjoking。
  HecouldthinkofnothingbetterthanareturntoFulkerson’sabsurdity。
  “ItwouldbeourSilverWeddingJourneyjustasitwouldbemySabbaticalyear——agooddealafterdate。ButIsupposethatwouldmakeitallthemoresilvery。”
  Shefalteredinherelation。“Didn’tyousayaSabbaticalyearyourself?”shedemanded。
  “Fulkersonsaidit;butitwasafigurativeexpression。”
  “AndIsupposetheSilverWeddingJourneywasafigurativeexpressiontoo!”
  “Itwasanotionthattemptedme;Ithoughtyouwouldenjoyit。Don’tyousupposeIshouldbegladtoo,ifwecouldgoover,andfindourselvesjustaswewerewhenwefirstmetthere?”
  “No;Idon’tbelievenowthatyoucareanythingaboutit。”
  “Well,itcouldn’tbedone,anyway;sothatdoesn’tmatter。”
  “Itcouldbedone,ifyouwereamindtothinkso。Anditwouldbethegreatestinspirationtoyou。Youarealwayslongingforsomechancetodooriginalwork,togetawayfromyourediting,butyou’veletthetimeslipbywithoutreallytryingtodoanything;Idon’tcallthoselittlestudiesofyoursinthemagazineanything;andnowyouwon’ttakethechancethat’salmostforcingitselfuponyou。Youcouldwriteanoriginalbookofthenicestkind;mixuptravelandfiction;getsomelovein。”
  “Oh,that’sthestalestkindofthing!”
  “Well,butyoucouldseeitfromaperfectlynewpointofview。Youcouldlookatitasasortofdispassionatewitness,andtreatithumorously——ofcourseitisridiculous——anddosomethingentirelyfresh。”
  “Itwouldn’twork。Itwouldbecarryingwateronbothshoulders。Thefictionwouldkillthetravel,thetravelwouldkillthefiction;theloveandthehumorwouldn’tmingleanymorethanoilandvinegar。”
  “Well,andwhatisbetterthanasalad?”
  “Butthiswouldbeallsalad-dressing,andnothingtoputiton。”Shewassilent,andheyieldedtoanotherfancy。“Wemightimaginecominguponourformerselvesoverthere,andtravellingroundwiththem——
  aweddingjourney’enpartiecarree’。”
  “Somethinglikethat。Icallitaverypoeticalidea。”shesaidwithasortofprovisionality,asifdistrustinganotherambush。
  “Itisn’tsobad。”headmitted。“Howyoungwewere,inthosedays!”
  “Tooyoungtoknowwhatagoodtimewewerehaving。”shesaid,relaxingherdoubtfortheretrospect。“Idon’tfeelasifIreallysawEurope,then;Iwastooinexperienced,tooignorant,toosimple。Iwouldliketogo,justtomakesurethatIhadbeen。”Hewassmilingagaininthewayhehadwhenanythingoccurredtohimthatamusedhim,andshedemanded,“Whatisit?”
  “Nothing。Iwaswishingwecouldgointheconsciousnessofpeoplewhoactuallyhadn’tbeenbefore——carrythemallthroughEurope,andletthemseeitintheold,simple-heartedAmericanway。”
  Sheshookherhead。“Youcouldn’t!They’veallbeen!”
  “Allbutaboutsixtyorseventymillions。”saidMarch。
  “Well,thosearejustthemillionsyoudon’tknow,andcouldn’timagine。”
  “I’mnotsosureofthat。”
  “Andevenifyoucouldimaginethem,youcouldn’tmaketheminteresting。
  Alltheinterestingoneshavebeen,anyway。”
  “Someoftheuninterestingonestoo。Iused,tomeetsomeofthatsortoverthere。IbelieveIwouldratherchanceitformypleasurewiththosethathadn’tbeen。”
  “Thenwhynotdoit?Iknowyoucouldgetsomethingoutofit。”
  “Itmightbeagoodthing。”hemused,“totakeacouplewhohadpassedtheirwholelifehereinNewYork,toopoorandtoobusyevertogo;andhadaperfectfamineforEuropeallthetime。IcouldhavethemspendtheirSundayafternoonsgoingaboardthedifferentboats,andlookinguptheiraccommodations。Icouldhavethemsail,inimagination,anddiscoveranimaginaryEurope,andgivetheirgrotesquemisconceptionsofitfromtravelsandnovelsagainstabackgroundofpurelyAmericanexperience。Weneedn’tgoabroadtomanagethat。Ithinkitwouldberathernice。”