Atthetimber-merchant’s,inthemeantime,theconversationflowed;and,asGilesWinterbornehadrightlyenoughdeemed,onsubjectsinwhichhehadnoshare。Amongtheexcludingmatterstherewas,forone,theeffectuponMr。Melburyofthewomanlymienandmannersofhisdaughter,whichtookhimsomuchunawaresthat,thoughitdidnotmakehimabsolutelyforgettheexistenceofherconductorhomeward,thrustGiles’simagebackintoquitetheobscurestcellarageofhisbrain。AnotherwashisinterviewwithMrs。Charmond’sagentthatmorning,atwhichtheladyherselfhadbeenpresentforafewminutes。Melburyhadpurchasedsomestandingtimberfromheralongtimebefore,andnowthatthedatehadcomeforfellingithewaslefttopursuealmosthisowncourse。ThiswaswhatthehouseholdwereactuallytalkingofduringGiles’scogitationwithout;andMelbury’ssatisfactionwiththeclearatmospherethathadarisenbetweenhimselfandthedeityofthegroveswhichenclosedhisresidencewasthecauseofacounterbalancingmistinessonthesidetowardsWinterborne。
“Sothoroughlydoesshetrustme。”saidMelbury,“thatImightfell,top,orlop,onmyownjudgment,anysticko’timberwhateverinherwood,andfixthepriceo’t,andsettlethematter。But,nameitall!Iwouldn’tdosuchathing。However,itmaybeusefultohavethisgoodunderstandingwithher。I
wishshetookmoreinterestintheplace,andstayedherealltheyearround。”
“Iamafraid’tisnotherregardforyou,butherdislikeofHintock,thatmakeshersoeasyaboutthetrees。”saidMrs。
Melbury。
Whendinnerwasover,Gracetookacandleandbegantoramblepleasurablythroughtheroomsofheroldhome,fromwhichshehadlatterlybecomewellnighanalien。Eachnookandeachobjectrevivedamemory,andsimultaneouslymodifiedit。Thechambersseemedlowerthantheyhadappearedonanypreviousoccasionofherreturn,thesurfacesofbothwallsandceilingsstandinginsuchrelationstotheeyethatitcouldnotavoidtakingmicroscopicnoteoftheirirregularitiesandoldfashion。Herownbedroomworeatoncealookmorefamiliarthanwhenshehadleftit,andyetafaceestranged。Theworldoflittlethingsthereingazedatherinhelplessstationariness,asthoughtheyhadtriedandbeenunabletomakeanyprogresswithoutherpresence。Overtheplacewherehercandlehadbeenaccustomedtostand,whenshehadusedtoreadinbedtillthemidnighthour,therewasstillthebrownspotofsmoke。Shedidnotknowthatherfatherhadtakenespecialcaretokeepitfrombeingcleanedoff。
Havingconcludedherperambulationofthisnowuselesslycommodiousedifice,Gracebegantofeelthatshehadcomealongjourneysincethemorning;andwhenherfatherhadbeenuphimself,aswellashiswife,toseethatherroomwascomfortableandthefireburning,shepreparedtoretireforthenight。Nosooner,however,wassheinbedthanhermomentarysleepinesstookitselfoff,andshewishedshehadstayeduplonger。Sheamusedherselfbylisteningtotheoldfamiliarnoisesthatshecouldheartobestillgoingondown-stairs,andbylookingtowardsthewindowasshelay。Theblindhadbeendrawnup,assheusedtohaveitwhenagirl,andshecouldjustdiscernthedimtree-topsagainsttheskyontheneighboringhill。Beneaththismeeting-
lineoflightandshadenothingwasvisiblesaveonesolitarypointoflight,whichblinkedasthetree-twigswavedtoandfrobeforeitsbeams。Fromitspositionitseemedtoradiatefromthewindowofahouseonthehill-side。Thehousehadbeenemptywhenshewaslastathome,andshewonderedwhoinhabitedtheplacenow。
Herconjectures,however,werenotintentlycarriedon,andshewaswatchingthelightquiteidly,whenitgraduallychangedcolor,andatlengthshoneblueassapphire。Thusitremainedseveralminutes,andthenitpassedthroughviolettored。
Hercuriositywassowidelyawakenedbythephenomenonthatshesatupinbed,andstaredsteadilyattheshine。Anappearanceofthissort,sufficienttoexciteattentionanywhere,wasnolessthanamarvelinHintock,asGracehadknownthehamlet。Almosteverydiurnalandnocturnaleffectinthatwoodlandplacehadhithertobeenthedirectresultoftheregularterrestrialrollwhichproducedtheseason’schanges;butherewassomethingdissociatedfromthesenormalsequences,andforeigntolocalhabitandknowledge。
ItwasaboutthismomentthatGraceheardthehouseholdbelowpreparingtoretire,themostemphaticnoiseintheproceedingbeingthatofherfatherboltingthedoors。Thenthestairscreaked,andherfatherandmotherpassedherchamber。ThelasttocomewasGrammerOliver。
Graceslidoutofbed,ranacrosstheroom,andliftingthelatch,said,“Iamnotasleep,Grammer。Comeinandtalktome。”
Beforetheoldwomanhadentered,Gracewasagainunderthebedclothes。Grammersetdownhercandlestick,andseatedherselfontheedgeofMissMelbury’scoverlet。
“IwantyoutotellmewhatlightthatisIseeonthehill-side。”
saidGrace。
Mrs。Oliverlookedacross。“Oh,that。”shesaid,“isfromthedoctor’s。He’softendoingthingsofthatsort。Perhapsyoudon’tknowthatwe’veadoctorlivingherenow——Mr。Fitzpiersbyname?”
Graceadmittedthatshehadnotheardofhim。
“Well,then,miss,he’scomeheretogetupapractice。Iknowhimverywell,throughgoingtheretohelp’emscrubsometimes,whichyourfathersaidImightdo,ifIwantedto,inmysparetime。Beingabachelor-man,he’veonlyaladinthehouse。Ohyes,Iknowhimverywell。Sometimeshe’lltalktomeasifI
werehisownmother。”
“Indeed。”
“Yes。’Grammer,’hesaidoneday,whenIaskedhimwhyhecameherewherethere’shardlyanybodyliving,’I’lltellyouwhyI
camehere。Itookamap,andImarkedonitwhereDr。Jones’spracticeendstothenorthofthisdistrict,andwhereMr。
Taylor’sendsonthesouth,andlittleJimmyGreen’sontheeast,andsomebodyelse’stothewest。ThenItookapairofcompasses,andfoundtheexactmiddleofthecountrythatwasleftbetweenthesebounds,andthatmiddlewasLittleHintock;sohereI
am。’But,Lord,there:pooryoungman!”
“Why?”
“Hesaid,’GrammerOliver,I’vebeenherethreemonths,andalthoughthereareagoodmanypeopleintheHintocksandthevillagesround,andascatteredpracticeisoftenaverygoodone,Idon’tseemtogetmanypatients。Andthere’snosocietyatall;
andI’mprettynearmelancholymad,’hesaid,withagreatyawn。
’Ishouldbequiteifitwerenotformybooks,andmylab——
laboratory,andwhatnot。Grammer,Iwasmadeforhigherthings。’
Andthenhe’dyawnandyawnagain。”
“Washereallymadeforhigherthings,doyouthink?Imean,isheclever?”
“Well,no。Howcanhebeclever?Hemaybeabletojineupabrokenmanorwomanafterafashion,andputhisfingeruponanacheifyoutellhimnearlywhere’tis;buttheseyoungmen——theyshouldlivetomytimeoflife,andthenthey’dseehowclevertheywereatfive-and-twenty!Andyethe’saprojick,arealprojick,andsaystheoddestofrozums。’Ah,Grammer,’hesaid,atanothertime,’letmetellyouthatEverythingisNothing。
There’sonlyMeandnotMeinthewholeworld。’Andhetoldmethatnoman’shandscouldhelpwhattheydid,anymorethanthehandsofaclock。Yes,he’samanofstrangemeditations,andhiseyesseemtoseeasfarasthenorthstar。”
“Hewillsoongoaway,nodoubt。”
“Idon’tthinkso。”Gracedidnotsay“Why?”andGrammerhesitated。Atlastshewenton:“Don’ttellyourfatherormother,miss,ifIletyouknowasecret。”
Gracegavetherequiredpromise。
“Well,hetalksofbuyingme;sohewon’tgoawayjustyet。”
“Buyingyou!——how?”
“Notmysoul——mybody,whenI’mdead。OnedaywhenIwastherecleaning,hesaid,’Grammer,you’vealargebrain——averylargeorganofbrain,’hesaid。’Awoman’sisusuallyfourounceslessthanaman’s;butyoursisman’ssize。’Well,then——hee,hee!——
afterhe’dflatteredmeabitlikethat,hesaidhe’dgivemetenpoundstohavemeasanatomyaftermydeath。Well,knowingI’dnochicknorchielleft,andnobodywithanyinterestinme,I
thought,faith,ifIcanbeofanyusetomyfellow-creaturesafterI’mgonetheyarewelcometomyservices;soIsaidI’dthinkitover,andwouldmostlikelyagreeandtakethetenpounds。Nowthisisasecret,miss,betweenustwo。Themoneywouldbeveryusefultome;andIseenoharminit。”
“Ofcoursethere’snoharm。Butoh,Grammer,howcanyouthinktodoit?Iwishyouhadn’ttoldme。”
“IwishIhadn’t——ifyoudon’tliketoknowit,miss。Butyouneedn’tmind。Lord——hee,hee!——Ishallkeephimwaitingmanyayearyet,blessye!”
“Ihopeyouwill,Iamsure。”
Thegirlthereuponfellintosuchdeepreflectionthatconversationlanguished,andGrammerOliver,takinghercandle,wishedMissMelburygood-night。Thelatter’seyesrestedonthedistantglimmer,aroundwhichsheallowedherreasoningfancytoplayinvagueeddiesthatshapedthedoingsofthephilosopherbehindthatlightonthelinesofintelligencejustreceived。ItwasstrangetohertocomebackfromtheworldtoLittleHintockandfindinoneofitsnooks,likeatropicalplantinahedge-
row,anucleusofadvancedideasandpracticeswhichhadnothingincommonwiththelifearound。Chemicalexperiments,anatomicalprojects,andmetaphysicalconceptionshadfoundastrangehomehere。
Thussheremainedthinking,theimaginedpursuitsofthemanbehindthelightinterminglingwithconjecturalsketchesofhispersonality,tillhereyesfelltogetherwiththeirownheaviness,andsheslept。
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