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第62章

  “Indeed。Whereto?”
  TiminformedhimthattheyweregoingtoNewZealand。NotbutthathewouldhavebeencontentedwithHintock,buthiswifewasambitiousandwantedtoleave,sohehadgivenway。
  “Thengood-by。”saidFitzpiers;“Imaynotseeyouagain。”HeshookhandswithTimandturnedtothebride。“Good-by,Suke。”hesaid,takingherhandalso。“Iwishyouandyourhusbandprosperityinthecountryyouhavechosen。”Withthisheleftthem,andhastenedontohisappointment。
  Thewedding-partyre-formedandresumedmarchlikewise。ButinrestoringhisarmtoSuke,Timnoticedthatherfullandbloomingcountenancehadundergoneachange。“Holloa!medear——what’sthematter?”saidTim。
  “Nothingtospeako’。”saidshe。Buttogivethelietoherassertionshewasseizedwithlachrymosetwitches,thatsoonproducedadribblingface。
  “How——whatthedevil’sthisabout!”exclaimedthebridegroom。
  “She’salittleweebitovercome,poordear!”saidthefirstbridesmaid,unfoldingherhandkerchiefandwipingSuke’seyes。
  “Ineverdidlikepartingfrompeople!”saidSuke,assoonasshecouldspeak。
  “Whyhiminparticular?”
  “Well——he’ssuchacleverdoctor,that’tisathousandpitieswesha’n’tseehimanymore!There’llbenosuchcleverdoctorasheinNewZealand,ifIshouldrequireone;andthethoughto’tgotthebetterofmyfeelings!”
  Theywalkedon,butTim’sfacehadgrownrigidandpale,forherecalledslightcircumstances,disregardedatthetimeoftheiroccurrence。Theformerboisterouslaughterofthewedding-partyatthegroomsman’sjokeswasheardringingthroughthewoodsnomore。
  BythistimeFitzpiershadadvancedonhiswaytothetopofthehill,wherehesawtwofiguresemergingfromthebankontherighthand。Theseweretheexpectedones,GraceandMartySouth,whohadevidentlycometherebyashortandsecretpaththroughthewood。Gracewasmuffledupinherwinterdress,andhethoughtthatshehadneverlookedsoseductiveasatthismoment,inthenoontidebrightbutheatlesssun,andthekeenwind,andthepurplish-graymassesofbrushwoodaround。
  Fitzpierscontinuedtoregardthenearingpicture,tillatlengththeirglancesmetforamoment,whenshedemurelysentoffhersatatangentandgavehimthebenefitofherthree-quarterface,whilewithcourteouscompletenessofconductheliftedhishatinalargearc。Martydroppedbehind;andwhenFitzpiersheldouthishand,Gracetoucheditwithherfingers。
  “IhaveagreedtobeheremostlybecauseIwantedtoaskyousomethingimportant。”saidMrs。Fitzpiers,herintonationmodulatinginadirectionthatshehadnotquitewishedittotake。
  “Iammostattentive。”saidherhusband。“Shallwetaketothewoodforprivacy?”
  Gracedemurred,andFitzpiersgavein,andtheykeptthepublicroad。
  Atanyrateshewouldtakehisarm?Thisalsowasgravelynegatived,therefusalbeingaudibletoMarty。
  “Whynot?”heinquired。
  “Oh,Mr。Fitzpiers——howcanyouask?”
  “Right,right。”saidhe,hiseffusivenessshrivelledup。
  Astheywalkedonshereturnedtoherinquiry。“Itisaboutamatterthatmayperhapsbeunpleasanttoyou。ButIthinkIneednotconsiderthattoocarefully。”
  “Notatall。”saidFitzpiers,heroically。
  ShethentookhimbacktothetimeofpoorWinterborne’sdeath,andrelatedtheprecisecircumstancesamidwhichhisfatalillnesshadcomeuponhim,particularizingthedampnessofthesheltertowhichhehadbetakenhimself,hisconcealmentfromherofthehardshipsthathewasundergoing,allthathehadputupwith,allthathehaddoneforherinhisscrupulousconsiderateness。Theretrospectbroughthertotearsassheaskedhimifhethoughtthatthesinofhavingdrivenhimtohisdeathwasuponher。
  Fitzpierscouldhardlyhelpshowinghissatisfactionatwhathernarrativeindirectlyrevealed,theactualharmlessnessofanescapadewithherlover,whichhadatfirst,byherownshowing,lookedsograve,andhedidnotcaretoinquirewhetherthatharmlessnesshadbeentheresultofaimorofaccident。Withregardtoherquestion,hedeclaredthatinhisjudgmentnohumanbeingcouldanswerit。Hethoughtthatuponthewholethebalanceofprobabilitiesturnedinherfavor。Winterborne’sapparentstrength,duringthelastmonthsofhislife,musthavebeendelusive。Ithadoftenoccurredthatafterafirstattackofthatinsidiousdiseaseaperson’sapparentrecoverywasaphysiologicalmendacity。
  ThereliefwhichcametoGracelayalmostasmuchinsharingherknowledgeoftheparticularswithanintelligentmindasintheassurancesFitzpiersgaveher。“Well,then,toputthiscasebeforeyou,andobtainyourprofessionalopinion,waschieflywhyIconsentedtocomehereto-day。”saidshe,whenhehadreachedtheaforesaidconclusion。
  “Fornootherreasonatall?”heasked,ruefully。
  “Itwasnearlythewhole。”
  Theystoodandlookedoveragateattwentyorthirtystarlingsfeedinginthegrass,andhestartedthetalkagainbysaying,inalowvoice,“AndyetIloveyoumorethaneverIlovedyouinmylife。”
  Gracedidnotmovehereyesfromthebirds,andfoldedherdelicatelipsasiftokeeptheminsubjection。
  “Itisadifferentkindoflovealtogether。”saidhe。“Lesspassionate;moreprofound。Ithasnothingtodowiththematerialconditionsoftheobjectatall;muchtodowithhercharacterandgoodness,asrevealedbycloserobservation。’Lovetalkswithbetterknowledge,andknowledgewithdearerlove。’“
  “That’soutof’MeasureforMeasure,’“saidshe,slyly。
  “Ohyes——Imeantitasacitation。”blandlyrepliedFitzpiers。
  “Well,then,whynotgivemeaverylittlebitofyourheartagain?”
  Thecrashofafelledtreeintheremotedepthsofthewoodrecalledthepastatthatmoment,andallthehomelyfaithfulnessofWinterborne。“Don’taskit!MyheartisinthegravewithGiles。”shereplied,stanchly。
  “Mineiswithyou——innolessdeepagrave,Ifear,accordingtothat。”
  “Iamverysorry;butitcannotbehelped。”
  “Howcanyoubesorryforme,whenyouwilfullykeepopenthegrave?”
  “Ohno——that’snotso。”returnedGrace,quickly,andmovedtogoawayfromhim。
  “But,dearestGrace。”saidhe,“youhavecondescendedtocome;andIthoughtfromitthatperhapswhenIhadpassedthroughalongstateofprobationyouwouldbegenerous。Butiftherecanbenohopeofourgettingcompletelyreconciled,treatmegently——wretchthoughIam。”
  “Ididnotsayyouwereawretch,norhaveIeversaidso。”
  “ButyouhavesuchacontemptuouswayoflookingatmethatIfearyouthinkso。”
  Grace’sheartstruggledbetweenthewishnottobeharshandthefearthatshemightmisleadhim。“IcannotlookcontemptuousunlessIfeelcontempt。”shesaid,evasively。“AndallIfeelislovelessness。”
  “Ihavebeenverybad,Iknow。”hereturned。“Butunlessyoucanreallylovemeagain,Grace,Iwouldrathergoawayfromyouforever。Idon’twantyoutoreceivemeagainforduty’ssake,oranythingofthatsort。IfIhadnotcaredmoreforyouraffectionandforgivenessthanmyownpersonalcomfort,Ishouldneverhavecomebackhere。Icouldhaveobtainedapracticeatadistance,andhavelivedmyownlifewithoutcoldnessorreproach。ButI
  havechosentoreturntotheonespotonearthwheremynameistarnished——toenterthehouseofamanfromwhomIhavehadworsetreatmentthanfromanyothermanalive——allforyou!”
  Thiswasundeniablytrue,andithaditsweightwithGrace,whobegantolookasifshethoughtshehadbeenshockinglysevere。
  “Beforeyougo。”hecontinued,“Iwanttoknowyourpleasureaboutme——whatyouwishmetodo,ornottodo。”
  “Youareindependentofme,anditseemsamockerytoaskthat。
  Farbeitfrommetoadvise。ButIwillthinkitover。Iratherneedadvicemyselfthanstandinapositiontogiveit。”
  “YOUdon’tneedadvice,wisest,dearestwomanthateverlived。Ifyoudid——“
  “Wouldyougiveittome?”
  “WouldyouactuponwhatIgave?”
  “That’snotafairinquiry。”saidshe,smilingdespitehergravity。“Idon’tmindhearingit——whatyoudoreallythinkthemostcorrectandpropercourseforme。”
  “Itissoeasyformetosay,andyetIdarenot,foritwouldbeprovokingyoutoremonstrances。”
  Knowing,ofcourse,whattheadvicewouldbe,shedidnotpresshimfurther,andwasabouttobeckonMartyforwardandleavehim,whenheinterruptedherwith,“Oh,onemoment,dearGrace——youwillmeetmeagain?”
  Sheeventuallyagreedtoseehimthatdayfortnight。Fitzpiersexpostulatedattheinterval,butthehalf-alarmedearnestnesswithwhichsheentreatedhimnottocomesoonermadehimsayhastilythathesubmittedtoherwill——thathewouldregardherasafriendonly,anxiousforhisreformandwell-being,tillsuchtimeasshemightallowhimtoexceedthatprivilege。
  Allthiswastoassureher;itwasonlytooclearthathehadnotwonherconfidenceyet。ItamazedFitzpiers,andoverthrewallhisdeductionsfrompreviousexperience,tofindthatthisgirl,thoughshehadbeenmarriedtohim,couldyetbesocoy。
  Notwithstandingacertainfascinationthatitcarriedwithit,hisreflectionsweresombreashewenthomeward;hesawhowdeephadbeenhisoffencetoproducesogreatawarinessinagentleandonceunsuspicioussoul。
  Hewashimselftoofastidioustocaretocoerceher。Tobeanobjectofmisgivingordisliketoawomanwhosharedhishomewaswhathecouldnotendurethethoughtof。Lifeasitstoodwasmoretolerable。
  Whenhewasgone,MartyjoinedMrs。Fitzpiers。ShewouldfainhaveconsultedMartyonthequestionofPlatonicrelationswithherformerhusband,asshepreferredtoregardhim。ButMartyshowednogreatinterestintheiraffairs,soGracesaidnothing。
  Theycameonward,andsawMelburystandingatthesceneofthefellingwhichhadbeenaudibletothem,when,tellingMartythatshewishedhermeetingwithMr。Fitzpierstobekeptprivate,sheleftthegirltojoinherfather。Atanyrate,shewouldconsulthimontheexpediencyofoccasionallyseeingherhusband。
  Herfatherwascheerful,andwalkedbyhersideashehaddoneinearlierdays。“Iwasthinkingofyouwhenyoucameup。”hesaid。
  “Ihaveconsideredthatwhathashappenedisforthebest。Sinceyourhusbandisgoneaway,andseemsnottowishtotroubleyou,why,lethimgo,anddropoutofyourlife。Manywomenareworseoff。Youcanliveherecomfortablyenough,andhecanemigrate,ordowhathelikesforhisgood。Iwouldn’tmindsendinghimthefurthersumofmoneyhemightnaturallyexpecttocometohim,sothatyoumaynotbebotheredwithhimanymore。Hecouldhardlyhavegoneonlivingherewithoutspeakingtome,ormeetingme;
  andthatwouldhavebeenveryunpleasantonbothsides。”
  Theseremarkscheckedherintention。Therewasasenseofweaknessinfollowingthembysayingthatshehadjustmetherhusbandbyappointment。“Thenyouwouldadvisemenottocommunicatewithhim?”sheobserved。
  “Ishallneveradviseyeagain。Youareyourownmistress——doasyoulike。Butmyopinionisthatifyoudon’tlivewithhim,youhadbetterlivewithouthim,andnotgoshilly-shallyingandplayingbopeep。Yousenthimaway;andnowhe’sgone。Verywell;
  troublehimnomore。”
  Gracefeltaguiltiness——shehardlyknewwhy——andmadenoconfession。