ItwassomewhatsingularthatGilesinhissemi-consciousstateacquiescedunresistinglyinallthatshedid。Butheneverforamomentrecognizedher——continuinghisrapidconversationtohimself,andseemingtolookuponherassomeangel,orothersupernaturalcreatureofthevisionaryworldinwhichhewasmentallyliving。Theundertakingoccupiedhermorethantenminutes;butbythattime,tohergreatthankfulness,hewasintheinnerroom,lyingonthebed,hisdampouterclothingremoved。
ThentheunhappyGraceregardedhimbythelightofthecandle。
Therewassomethinginhislookwhichagonizedher,intherushofhisthoughts,acceleratingtheirspeedfromminutetominute。Heseemedtobepassingthroughtheuniverseofideaslikeacomet——
erratic,inapprehensible,untraceable。
Grace’sdistractionwasalmostasgreatashis。Inafewmomentsshefirmlybelievedhewasdying。Unabletowithstandherimpulse,shekneltdownbesidehim,kissedhishandsandhisfaceandhishair,exclaiming,inalowvoice,“HowcouldI?HowcouldI?”
Hertimidmoralityhad,indeed,underratedhischivalrytillnow,thoughsheknewhimsowell。Thepurityofhisnature,hisfreedomfromthegrosserpassions,hisscrupulousdelicacy,hadneverbeenfullyunderstoodbyGracetillthisstrangeself-
sacrificeinlonelyjuxtapositiontoherownpersonwasrevealed。
Theperceptionofitaddedsomethingthatwaslittleshortofreverencetothedeepaffectionforhimofawomanwho,herself,hadmoreofArtemisthanofAphroditeinherconstitution。
Allthatatendernursecoulddo,Gracedid;andthepowertoexpresshersolicitudeinaction,unconsciousthoughthesuffererwas,broughthermournfulsatisfaction。Shebathedhishothead,wipedhisperspiringhands,moistenedhislips,cooledhisfieryeyelids,spongedhisheatedskin,andadministeredwhatevershecouldfindinthehousethattheimaginationcouldconceiveaslikelytobeinanywayalleviating。Thatshemighthavebeenthecause,orpartiallythecause,ofallthis,interfusedmiserywithhersorrow。
Sixmonthsbeforethisdateascene,almostsimilarinitsmechanicalparts,hadbeenenactedatHintockHouse。Itwasbetweenapairofpersonsmostintimatelyconnectedintheirliveswiththese。Outwardlylikeasithadbeen,itwasyetinfiniteinspiritualdifference,thoughawoman’sdevotionhadbeencommontoboth。
Gracerosefromherattitudeofaffection,and,bracingherenergies,sawthatsomethingpracticalmustimmediatelybedone。
Muchasshewouldhaveliked,intheemotionofthemoment,tokeephimentirelytoherself,medicalassistancewasnecessarywhilethereremainedapossibilityofpreservinghimalive。Suchassistancewasfataltoherownconcealment;butevenhadthechanceofbenefitinghimbeenlessthanitwas,shewouldhaverunthehazardforhissake。Thequestionwas,whereshouldshegetamedicalman,competentandnear?
Therewasonesuchman,andonlyone,withinaccessibledistance;
amanwho,ifitwerepossibletosaveWinterborne’slife,hadthebrainmostlikelytodoit。Ifhumanpressurecouldbringhim,thatmanoughttobebroughttothesickGiles’sside。Theattemptshouldbemade。
Yetshedreadedtoleaveherpatient,andtheminutesracedpast,andyetshepostponedherdeparture。Atlast,whenitwasaftereleveno’clock,Winterbornefellintoafitfulsleep,anditseemedtoaffordheranopportunity。
Shehastilymadehimascomfortableasshecould,putonherthings,cutanewcandlefromthebunchhanginginthecupboard,andhavingsetitup,andplaceditsothatthelightdidnotfalluponhiseyes,sheclosedthedoorandstarted。
ThespiritofWinterborneseemedtokeephercompanyandbanishallsenseofdarknessfromhermind。Therainshadimpartedaphosphorescencetothepiecesoftouchwoodandrottingleavesthatlayaboutherpath,which,asscatteredbyherfeet,spreadabroadlikespiltmilk。Shewouldnotrunthehazardoflosingherwaybyplungingintoanyshort,unfrequentedtrackthroughthedenserpartsofthewoodland,butfollowedamoreopencourse,whicheventuallybroughthertothehighway。Oncehere,sheranalongwithgreatspeed,animatedbyadevotedpurposewhichhadmuchaboutitthatwasstoical;anditwaswithscarcelyanyfalteringofspiritthat,afteranhour’sprogress,shepassedoverRubdownHill,andonwardtowardsthatsameHintock,andthatsamehouse,outofwhichshehadfledafewdaysbeforeinirresistiblealarm。
Butthathadhappenedwhich,aboveallotherthingsofchanceandchange,couldmakeherdeliberatelyfrustrateherplanofflightandsinkallregardofpersonalconsequences。
OnespecialityofFitzpiers’swasrespectedbyGraceasmuchasever——hisprofessionalskill。Inthisshewasright。Hadhispersistenceequalledhisinsight,insteadofbeingthespasmodicandfitfulthingitwas,fameandfortuneneedneverhaveremainedawishwithhim。Hisfreedomfromconventionalerrorsandcrustedprejudiceshad,indeed,beensuchastoretardratherthanacceleratehisadvanceinHintockanditsneighborhood,wherepeoplecouldnotbelievethatnatureherselfeffectedcures,andthatthedoctor’sbusinesswasonlytosmooththeway。
ItwaspastmidnightwhenGracearrivedoppositeherfather’shouse,nowagaintemporarilyoccupiedbyherhusband,unlesshehadalreadygoneaway。EversinceheremergencefromthedenserplantationsaboutWinterborne’sresidenceapervasivelightnesshadhunginthedampautumnsky,inspiteofthevaultofcloud,signifyingthatamoonofsomeagewasshiningaboveitsarch。
Thetwowhitegatesweredistinct,andthewhiteballsonthepillars,andthepuddlesanddamprutsleftbytherecentrain,hadacold,corpse-eyedluminousness。Sheenteredbythelowergate,andcrossedthequadrangletothewingwhereintheapartmentsthathadbeenherssincehermarriageweresituate,tillshestoodunderawindowwhich,ifherhusbandwereinthehouse,gavelighttohisbedchamber。
Shefaltered,andpausedwithherhandonherheart,inspiteofherself。Couldshecalltoherpresencetheverycauseofallherforegoingtroubles?Alas!——oldJoneswassevenmilesoff;Gileswaspossiblydying——whatelsecouldshedo?
Itwasinaperspiration,wroughtevenmorebyconsciousnessthanbyexercise,thatshepickedupsomegravel,threwitatthepanes,andwaitedtoseetheresult。Thenight-bellwhichhadbeenfixedwhenFitzpiersfirsttookuphisresidencetherestillremained;butasithadfallenintodisusewiththecollapseofhispractice,andhiselopement,shedidnotventuretopullitnow。
Whoeversleptintheroomhadheardhersignal,slightasitwas。
Inhalfaminutethewindowwasopened,andavoicesaid“Yes?”
inquiringly。Gracerecognizedherhusbandinthespeakeratonce。
Hereffortwasnowtodisguiseherownaccents。
“Doctor。”shesaid,inasunusualatoneasshecouldcommand,“amanisdangerouslyillinOne-chimneyHut,outtowardsDelborough,andyoumustgotohimatonce——inallmercy!”
“Iwill,readily。”
Thealacrity,surprise,andpleasureexpressedinhisreplyamazedherforamoment。But,intruth,theydenotedthesuddenreliefofamanwho,havinggotbackinamoodofcontrition,fromerraticabandonmenttofearfuljoys,foundthesoothingroutineofprofessionalpracticeunexpectedlyopeninganewtohim。Thehighestdesireofhissouljustnowwasforarespectablelifeofpainstaking。Ifthis,hisfirstsummonssincehisreturn,hadbeentoattenduponacatordog,hewouldscarcelyhaverefuseditinthecircumstances。
“Doyouknowtheway?”sheasked。
“Yes。”saidhe。
“One-chimneyHut。”sherepeated。“And——immediately!”
“Yes,yes。”saidFitzpiers。
Graceremainednolonger。Shepassedoutofthewhitegatewithoutslammingit,andhastenedonherwayback。Herhusband,then,hadre-enteredherfather’shouse。Howhehadbeenabletoeffectareconciliationwiththeoldman,whatwerethetermsofthetreatybetweenthem,shecouldnotsomuchasconjecture。
Somesortoftrucemusthavebeenenteredinto,thatwasallshecouldsay。Butcloseasthequestionlaytoherownlife,therewasamoreurgentonewhichbanishedit;andshetracedherstepsquicklyalongthemeanderingtrack-ways。
Meanwhile,Fitzpierswaspreparingtoleavethehouse。Thestateofhismind,overandabovehisprofessionalzeal,waspeculiar。
AtGrace’sfirstremarkhehadnotrecognizedorsuspectedherpresence;butasshewenton,hewasawakenedtothegreatresemblanceofthespeaker’svoicetohiswife’s。Hehadtakeninsuchgoodfaiththestatementofthehouseholdonhisarrival,thatshehadgoneonavisitforatimebecauseshecouldnotatoncebringhermindtobereconciledtohim,thathecouldnotquiteactuallybelievethiscomertobeshe。ItwasoneofthefeaturesofFitzpiers’srepentanthumoratthisdatethat,onreceivingtheexplanationofherabsence,hehadmadenoattempttooutrageherfeelingsbyfollowingher;thoughnobodyhadinformedhimhowveryshortlyherdeparturehadprecededhisentry,andofallthatmighthavebeeninferredfromherprecipitancy。
Melbury,aftermuchalarmandconsideration,haddecidednottofollowhereither。Hesympathizedwithherflight,muchashedeploredit;moreover,thetragiccoloroftheantecedenteventsthathehadbeenagreatmeansofcreatingcheckedhisinstincttointerfere。HeprayedandtrustedthatshehadgotintonodangeronherwayashesupposedtoSherton,andthencetoExbury,ifthatweretheplaceshehadgoneto,forbearingallinquirywhichthestrangenessofherdeparturewouldhavemadenatural。AfewmonthsbeforethistimeaperformancebyGraceofone-tenththemagnitudeofthiswouldhavearousedhimtounwontedinvestigation。
ItwasinthesamespiritthathehadtacitlyassentedtoFitzpiers’sdomicilationthere。Thetwomenhadnotmetfacetoface,butMrs。Melburyhadproposedherselfasanintermediary,whomadethesurgeon’sre-entrancecomparativelyeasytohim。
Everythingwasprovisional,andnobodyaskedquestions。Fitzpiershadcomeintheperformanceofaplanofpenitence,whichhadoriginatedincircumstanceshereaftertobeexplained;hisself-
humiliationtotheverybass-stringwasdeliberate;andassoonasacallreachedhimfromthebedsideofadyingmanhisdesirewastosettoworkanddoasmuchgoodashecouldwiththeleastpossiblefussorshow。Hethereforerefrainedfromcallingupastablemantogetreadyanyhorseorgig,andsetoutforOne-
chimneyHutonfoot,asGracehaddone。
Shere-enteredthehut,flungoffherbonnetandcloak,andapproachedthesufferer。Hehadbegunanewthoseterriblemutterings,andhishandswerecold。Assoonasshesawhimtherereturnedtoherthatagonyofmindwhichthestimulusofherjourneyhadthrownoffforatime。
Couldhereallybedying?Shebathedhim,kissedhim,forgotallthingsbutthefactthatlyingtherebeforeherwashewhohadlovedhermorethanthemereloverwouldhaveloved;hadmartyredhimselfforhercomfort,caredmoreforherself-respectthanshehadthoughtofcaring。Thismoodcontinuedtillsheheardquick,smartfootstepswithout;sheknewwhosefootstepstheywere。
Gracesatontheinsideofthebedagainstthewall,holdingGiles’shand,sothatwhenherhusbandenteredthepatientlaybetweenherselfandhim。Hestoodtransfixedatfirst,noticingGraceonly。Slowlyhedroppedhisglanceanddiscernedwhotheprostratemanwas。Strangelyenough,thoughGrace’sdistasteforherhusband’scompanyhadamountedalmosttodread,andculminatedinactualflight,atthismomentherlastandleastfeelingwaspersonal。Sensitivefemininitywaseclipsedbyself-effacingpurpose,andthatitwasahusbandwhostoodtherewasforgotten。
Thefirstlookthatpossessedherfacewasrelief;satisfactionatthepresenceofthephysicianobliteratedthoughtoftheman,whichonlyreturnedintheformofasub-consciousnessthatdidnotinterferewithherwords。
“Ishedying——isthereanyhope?”shecried。
“Grace!”saidFitzpiers,inanindescribablewhisper——morethaninvocating,ifnotquitedeprecatory。
Hewasarrestedbythespectacle,notsomuchinitsintrinsiccharacter——thoughthatwasstrikingenoughtoamanwhocalledhimselfthehusbandofthesufferer’sfriendandnurse——butinitscharacterasthecounterpartofonethathaditshourmanymonthsbefore,inwhichhehadfiguredasthepatient,andthewomanhadbeenFeliceCharmond。
“Isheingreatdanger——canyousavehim?”shecriedagain。
Fitzpiersarousedhimself,camealittlenearer,andexaminedWinterborneashestood。Hisinspectionwasconcludedinamereglance。Beforehespokehelookedathercontemplativelyastotheeffectofhiscomingwords。
“Heisdying。”hesaid,withdryprecision。
“What?”saidshe。
“Nothingcanbedone,bymeoranyotherman。Itwillsoonbeallover。Theextremitiesaredeadalready。”Hiseyesstillremainedfixedonher;theconclusiontowhichhehadcomeseemingtoendhisinterest,professionalandotherwise,inWinterborneforever。
“Butitcannotbe!Hewaswellthreedaysago。”
“Notwell,Isuspect。Thisseemslikeasecondaryattack,whichhasfollowedsomepreviousillness——possiblytyphoid——itmayhavebeenmonthsago,orrecently。”
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