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第53章

  Shehadbegunbywatchingthewordsfromhislipswithamournfulregard,asthoughtheirpassagewerevisible;butashewentonshedroppedherglance。“Yes。”shesaid,“Ihavethoughtthat,too。And,becauseIhavethoughtit,Ibynomeansmeant,inspeakingoftheproprieties,tobereservedandcoldtoyouwholovedmesolongago,ortohurtyourheartasIusedtodoatthatthoughtlesstime。Oh,notatall,indeed!But——oughtItoallowyou?——oh,itistooquick——surely!”Hereyesfilledwithtearsofbewildered,alarmedemotion。
  Winterbornewastoostraightforwardtoinfluenceherfurtheragainstherbetterjudgment。“Yes——Isupposeitis。”hesaid,repentantly。“I’llwaittillallissettled。Whatdidyourfathersayinthatlastletter?”
  Hemeantabouthisprogresswiththepetition;butshe,mistakinghim,franklyspokeofthepersonalpart。“Hesaid——whatIhaveimplied。ShouldItellmoreplainly?”
  “Ohno——don’t,ifitisasecret。”
  “Notatall。Iwilltelleveryword,straightout,Giles,ifyouwish。HesaidIwastoencourageyou。There。ButIcannotobeyhimfurtherto-day。Come,letusgonow。”Shegentlyslidherhandfromhis,andwentinfrontofhimoutoftheAbbey。
  “Iwasthinkingofgettingsomedinner。”saidWinterborne,changingtotheprosaic,astheywalked。“Andyou,too,mustrequiresomething。DoletmetakeyoutoaplaceIknow。”
  Gracewasalmostwithoutafriendintheworldoutsideherfather’shouse;herlifewithFitzpiershadbroughthernosociety;hadsometimes,indeed,broughtherdeepersolitudeandinconsiderationthananyshehadeverknownbefore。Henceitwasatreattohertofindherselfagaintheobjectofthoughtfulcare。ButshequestionediftogopubliclytodinewithGilesWinterbornewerenotaproposal,duerathertohisunsophisticationthantohisdiscretion。Shesaidgentlythatshewouldmuchpreferhisorderingherlunchatsomeplaceandthencomingtotellheritwasready,whilesheremainedintheAbbeyporch。Gilessawhersecretreasoning,thoughthowhopelesslyblindtoproprietyhewasbesideher,andwenttodoasshewished。
  Hewasnotabsentmorethantenminutes,andfoundGracewherehehadlefther。“Itwillbequitereadybythetimeyougetthere。”
  hesaid,andtoldherthenameoftheinnatwhichthemealhadbeenordered,whichwasonethatshehadneverheardof。
  “I’llfinditbyinquiry。”saidGrace,settingout。
  “AndshallIseeyouagain?”
  “Ohyes——cometomethere。Itwillnotbelikegoingtogether。I
  shallwantyoutofindmyfather’smanandthegigforme。”
  Hewaitedonsometenminutesoraquarterofanhour,tillhethoughtherlunchended,andthathemightfairlytakeadvantageofherinvitationtostartheronherwayhome。HewentstraighttoTheThreeTuns——alittletaverninasidestreet,scrupulouslyclean,buthumbleandinexpensive。Onhiswayhehadanoccasionalmisgivingastowhethertheplacehadbeenelegantenoughforher;andassoonasheenteredit,andsawherensconcedthere,heperceivedthathehadblundered。
  Gracewasseatedintheonlydining-roomthatthesimpleoldhostelrycouldboastof,whichwasalsoageneralparloronmarket-days;along,lowapartment,withasandedfloorherring-
  bonedwithabroom;awide,red-curtainedwindowtothestreet,andanothertothegarden。Gracehadretreatedtotheendoftheroomlookingoutuponthelatter,thefrontpartbeingfullofamixedcompanywhichhaddroppedinsincehewasthere。
  Shewasinamoodofthegreatestdepression。Onarriving,andseeingwhatthetavernwaslike,shehadbeentakenbysurprise;
  buthavinggonetoofartoretreat,shehadheroicallyenteredandsatdownonthewell-scrubbedsettle,oppositethenarrowtablewithitsknivesandsteelforks,tinpepper-boxes,bluesalt-
  cellars,andpostersadvertisingthesaleofbullocksagainstthewall。ThelasttimethatshehadtakenanymealinapublicplaceithadbeenwithFitzpiersatthegrandnewEarlofWessexHotelinthattown,afteratwomonths’roamingandsojourningatthegigantichotelsoftheContinent。HowcouldshehaveexpectedanyotherkindofaccommodationinpresentcircumstancesthansuchasGileshadprovided?Andyethowunpreparedshewasforthischange!ThetastesthatshehadacquiredfromFitzpiershadbeenimbibedsosubtlythatshehardlyknewshepossessedthemtillconfrontedbythiscontrast。TheelegantFitzpiers,infact,atthatverymomentowedalongbillattheabove-mentionedhotelfortheluxuriousstyleinwhichheusedtoputheruptherewhenevertheydrovetoSherton。Butsuchissocialsentiment,thatshehadbeenquitecomfortableunderthosedebt-impendingconditions,whileshefelthumiliatedbyherpresentsituation,whichWinterbornehadpaidforhonestlyonthenail。
  Hehadnoticedinamomentthatsheshrunkfromherposition,andallhispleasurewasgone。ItwasthesamesusceptibilityoveragainwhichhadspoiledhisChristmaspartylongago。
  ButhedidnotknowthatthisrecrudescencewasonlythecasualresultofGrace’sapprenticeshiptowhatshewasdeterminedtolearninspiteofit——aconsequenceofoneofthosesuddensurpriseswhichconfronteverybodybentuponturningoveranewleaf。Shehadfinishedherlunch,whichhesawhadbeenaverymincingperformance;andhebroughtheroutofthehouseassoonashecould。
  “Now。”hesaid,withgreatsadeyes,“youhavenotfinishedatallwell,Iknow。ComeroundtotheEarlofWessex。I’llorderateathere。Ididnotrememberthatwhatwasgoodenoughformewasnotgoodenoughforyou。”
  Herfacefadedintoanaspectofdeepdistresswhenshesawwhathadhappened。“Ohno,Giles。”shesaid,withextremepathos;
  “certainlynot。Whydoyou——saythatwhenyouknowbetter?YouEVERwillmisunderstandme。”
  “Indeed,that’snotso,Mrs。Fitzpiers。CanyoudenythatyoufeltoutofplaceatTheThreeTuns?”
  “Idon’tknow。Well,sinceyoumakemespeak,Idonotdenyit。”
  “AndyetIhavefeltathometherethesetwentyyears。YourhusbandusedalwaystotakeyoutotheEarlofWessex,didhenot?”
  “Yes。”shereluctantlyadmitted。Howcouldsheexplaininthestreetofamarket-townthatitwashersuperficialandtransitorytastewhichhadbeenoffended,andnothernatureorheraffection?Fortunately,orunfortunately,atthatmomenttheysawMelbury’smandrivingvacantlyalongthestreetinsearchofher,thehourhavingpassedatwhichhehadbeentoldtotakeherup。
  Winterbornehailedhim,andshewaspowerlessthentoprolongthediscourse。Sheenteredthevehiclesadly,andthehorsetrottedaway。
  AllnightdidWinterbornethinkoverthatunsatisfactoryendingofapleasanttime,forgettingthepleasanttimeitself。Hefearedanewthattheycouldneverbehappytogether,evenshouldshebefreetochoosehim。Shewasaccomplished;hewasunrefined。Itwastheoriginaldifficulty,whichhewastoosensitivetorecklesslyignore,assomemenwouldhavedoneinhisplace。
  Hewasoneofthosesilent,unobtrusivebeingswhowantlittlefromothersinthewayoffavororcondescension,andperhapsonthatveryaccountscrutinizethoseothers’behaviortooclosely。
  Hewasnotversatile,butoneinwhomahopeorbeliefwhichhadoncehaditsrise,meridian,anddeclineseldomagainexactlyrecurred,asinthebreastsofmoresanguinemortals。Hehadonceworshippedher,laidouthislifetosuither,wooedher,andlosther。Thoughitwaswithalmostthesamezest,itwaswithnotquitethesamehope,thathehadbeguntotreadtheoldtracksagain,andallowedhimselftobesocharmedwithherthatday。
  Moveanothersteptowardsherhewouldnot。Hewouldevenrepulseher——asatributetoconscience。Itwouldbesheersintoletherprepareapitfallforherhappinessnotmuchsmallerthanthefirstbyinveiglingherintoaunionwithsuchashe。Herpoorfatherwasnowblindtothesesubtleties,whichhehadformerlybeheldasinnoontidelight。Itwashisowndutytodeclarethem——
  forherdearsake。
  Grace,too,hadaveryuncomfortablenight,andhersolicitousembarrassmentwasnotlessenedthenextmorningwhenanotherletterfromherfatherwasputintoherhands。Itstenorwasanintenserstrainoftheonethathadprecededit。Afterstatinghowextremelygladhewastohearthatshewasbetter,andabletogetout-of-doors,hewenton:
  “Thisisawearisomebusiness,thesolicitorwehavecometoseebeingoutoftown。IdonotknowwhenIshallgethome。MygreatanxietyinthisdelayisstilllestyoushouldloseGilesWinterborne。Icannotrestatnightforthinkingthatwhileourbusinessishangingfirehemaybecomeestranged,orgoawayfromtheneighborhood。Ihavesetmyheartuponseeinghimyourhusband,ifyoueverhaveanother。Do,then,Grace,givehimsometemporaryencouragement,eventhoughitisover-early。ForwhenI
  considerthepastIdothinkGodwillforgivemeandyouforbeingalittleforward。Ihaveanotherreasonforthis,mydear。I
  feelmyselfgoingrapidlydownhill,andlateaffairshavestillfurtherhelpedmethatway。AnduntilthisthingisdoneIcannotrestinpeace。”
  Headdedapostscript:
  “Ihavejustheardthatthesolicitoristobeseento-morrow。
  Possibly,therefore,Ishallreturnintheeveningafteryougetthis。”
  Thepaternallongingranonallfourswithherowndesire;andyetinforwardingityesterdayshehadbeenonthebrinkofgivingoffence。Whilecravingtobeacountrygirlagainjustasherfatherrequested;toputofftheoldEve,thefastidiousmiss——orrathermadam——completely,herfirstattempthadbeenbeatenbytheunexpectedvitalityofthatfastidiousness。HerfatheronreturningandseeingthetriflingcoolnessofGileswouldbesuretosaythatthesameperversitywhichhadledhertomakedifficultiesaboutmarryingFitzpierswasnowpromptinghertoblowhotandcoldwithpoorWinterborne。
  Ifthelatterhadbeenthemostsubtlehandattouchingthestopsofherdelicatesoulinsteadofonewhohadjustboundhimselftoletherdriftawayfromhimagainifshewouldonthewindofherestrangingeducation,hecouldnothaveactedmoreseductivelythanhedidthatday。Hechancedtobesuperintendingsometemporaryworkinafieldoppositeherwindows。Shecouldnotdiscoverwhathewasdoing,butshereadhismoodkeenlyandtruly:shecouldseeinhiscomingandgoinganairofdeterminedabandonmentofthewholelandscapethatlayinherdirection。
  Oh,howshelongedtomakeitupwithhim!Herfathercomingintheevening——whichmeant,shesupposed,thatallformalitieswouldbeintrain,hermarriagevirtuallyannulled,andshebefreetobewonagain——howcouldshelookhiminthefaceifheshouldseethemestrangedthus?
  ItwasafairgreeneveninginJune。Shewasseatedinthegarden,intherusticchairwhichstoodunderthelaurel-bushes——
  madeofpeeledoak-branchesthatcametoMelbury’spremisesasrefuseafterbarking-time。Themassoffull-juicedleafageontheheightsaroundherwasjustswayedintofaintgesturesbyanearlyspentwindwhich,eveninitsenfeebledstate,didnotreachhershelter。AlldayshehadexpectedGilestocall——toinquirehowshehadgothome,orsomethingorother;buthehadnotcome。Andhestilltantalizedherbygoingathwartandacrossthatorchardopposite。Shecouldseehimasshesat。
  AslightdiversionwaspresentlycreatedbyCreedlebringinghimaletter。SheknewfromthisthatCreedlehadjustcomefromSherton,andhadcalledasusualatthepost-officeforanythingthathadarrivedbytheafternoonpost,ofwhichtherewasnodeliveryatHintock。Sheponderedonwhatthelettermightcontain——particularlywhetheritwereasecondrefresherforWinterbornefromherfather,likeherownofthemorning。
  Butitappearedtohavenobearinguponherselfwhatever。Gilesreaditscontents;andalmostimmediatelyturnedawaytoagapinthehedgeoftheorchard——ifthatcouldbecalledahedgewhich,owingtothedrippingsofthetrees,waslittlemorethanabankwithabushuponithereandthere。Heenteredtheplantation,andwasnodoubtgoingthatwayhomewardtothemysterioushutheoccupiedontheothersideofthewoodland。
  ThesadsandswererunningswiftlythroughTime’sglass;shehadoftenfeltitintheselatterdays;and,likeGiles,shefeltitdoublynowafterthesolemnandpatheticreminderinherfather’scommunication。Herfreshnesswouldpass,thelong-sufferingdevotionofGilesmightsuddenlyend——mightendthatveryhour。