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第45章

  Foritisnotasifyouwouldlosebysodoing;yourcourseisfarhigherthanthecoursesofasimpleprofessionalman,andthegratitudeyouwouldwinfrommeandminebyyourkindnessismorethanIcansay。”
  Mrs。CharmondhadfirstrushedintoamoodofindignationoncomprehendingMelbury’sstory;hotandcoldbyturns,shehadmurmured,“Leaveme,leaveme!”Butasheseemedtotakenonoticeofthis,hiswordsbegantoinfluenceher,andwhenheceasedspeakingshesaid,withhurried,hotbreath,“Whathasledyoutothinkthisofme?WhosaysIhavewonyourdaughter’shusbandawayfromher?Somemonstrouscalumniesareafloat——ofwhichI
  haveknownnothinguntilnow!”
  Melburystarted,andlookedathersimply。“Butsurely,ma’am,youknowthetruthbetterthanI?”
  Herfeaturesbecamealittlepinched,andthetouchesofpowderonherhandsomefaceforthefirsttimeshowedthemselvesasanextrinsicfilm。“Willyouleavemetomyself?”shesaid,withafaintnesswhichsuggestedaguiltyconscience。“Thisissoutterlyunexpected——youobtainadmissiontomypresencebymisrepresentation——“
  “AsGod’sinheaven,ma’am,that’snottrue。Imadenopretence;
  andIthoughtinreasonyouwouldknowwhyIhadcome。Thisgossip——“
  “Ihaveheardnothingofit。Tellmeofit,Isay。”
  “Tellyou,ma’am——notI。Whatthegossipis,nomatter。Whatreallyis,youknow。Setfactsright,andthescandalwillrightofitself。Butpardonme——Ispeakroughly;andIcametospeakgently,tocoaxyou,begyoutobemydaughter’sfriend。Shelovedyouonce,ma’am;youbeganbylikingher。Thenyoudroppedherwithoutareason,andithurtherwarmheartmorethanIcantellye。Butyouwerewithinyourrightasthesuperior,nodoubt。Butifyouwouldconsiderherpositionnow——surely,surely,youwoulddohernoharm!”
  “CertainlyIwoulddohernoharm——I——“Melbury’seyemethers。
  Itwascurious,buttheallusiontoGrace’sformerloveforherseemedtotouchhermorethanallMelbury’sotherarguments。“Oh,Melbury。”sheburstout,“youhavemademesounhappy!Howcouldyoucometomelikethis!Itistoodreadful!Nowgoaway——go,go!”
  “Iwill。”hesaid,inahuskytone。
  Assoonashewasoutoftheroomshewenttoacornerandtheresatandwrithedunderanemotioninwhichhurtprideandvexationmingledwithbettersentiments。
  Mrs。Charmond’smobilespiritwassubjecttothesefierceperiodsofstressandstorm。Shehadneversoclearlyperceivedtillnowthathersoulwasbeingslowlyinvadedbyadeliriumwhichhadbroughtaboutallthis;thatshewaslosingjudgmentanddignityunderit,becomingananimatedimpulseonly,apassionincarnate。
  Afascinationhadledheron;itwasasifshehadbeenseizedbyahandofvelvet;andthiswaswhereshefoundherself——
  overshadowedwithsuddennight,asifatornadohadpassedby。
  Whileshesat,orrathercrouched,unhingedbytheinterview,lunch-timecame,andthentheearlyafternoon,almostwithoutherconsciousness。Then“astrangegentlemanwhosaysitisnotnecessarytogivehisname。”wassuddenlyannounced。
  “Icannotseehim,whoeverhemaybe。Iamnotathometoanybody。”
  Sheheardnomoreofhervisitor;andshortlyafter,inanattempttorecoversomementalserenitybyviolentphysicalexercise,sheputonherhatandcloakandwentout-of-doors,takingapathwhichledheruptheslopestothenearestspurofthewood。Shedislikedthewoods,buttheyhadtheadvantageofbeingaplaceinwhichshecouldwalkcomparativelyunobserved。
  Therewasagitationto-dayinthelivesofallwhomthesemattersconcerned。ItwasnottilltheHintockdinner-time——oneo’clock——
  thatGracediscoveredherfather’sabsencefromthehouseafteradepartureinthemorningundersomewhatunusualconditions。Byalittlereasoningandinquiryshewasabletocometoaconclusiononhisdestination,andtodivinehiserrand。
  Herhusbandwasabsent,andherfatherdidnotreturn。Hehad,intruth,goneontoShertonaftertheinterview,butthisGracedidnotknow。InanindefinitedreadthatsomethingseriouswouldariseoutofMelbury’svisitbyreasonoftheinequalitiesoftemperandnervousirritationtowhichhewassubject,somethingpossiblythatwouldbringhermuchmoremiserythanaccompaniedherpresentnegativestateofmind,sheleftthehouseaboutthreeo’clock,andtookaloiteringwalkinthewoodlandtrackbywhichsheimaginedhewouldcomehome。Thistrackunderthebaretreesandoverthecrackingsticks,screenedandroofedinfromtheouterworldofwindandcloudbyanet-workofboughs,ledherslowlyontillintimeshehadleftthelargertreesbehindherandsweptroundintothecoppicewhereWinterborneandhismenwereclearingtheundergrowth。
  HadGiles’sattentionbeenconcentratedonhishurdleshewouldnothaveseenher;buteversinceMelbury’spassageacrosstheoppositegladeinthemorninghehadbeenasuneasyandunsettledasGraceherself;andheradventnowwastheoneappearancewhich,sinceherfather’savowal,couldarresthimmorethanMelbury’sreturnwithhistidings。Fearingthatsomethingmightbethematter,hehasteneduptoher。
  Shehadnotseenheroldloverforalongtime,and,tooconsciousofthelatepranksofherheart,shecouldnotbeholdhimcalmly。
  “Iamonlylookingformyfather。”shesaid,inanunnecessarilyapologeticintonation。
  “Iwaslookingforhimtoo。”saidGiles。“Ithinkhemayperhapshavegoneonfarther。”
  “ThenyouknewhewasgoingtotheHouse,Giles?”shesaid,turningherlargetendereyesanxiouslyuponhim。“Didhetellyouwhatfor?”
  Winterborneglanceddoubtinglyather,andthensoftlyhintedthatherfatherhadvisitedhimtheeveningbefore,andthattheiroldfriendshipwasquiterestored,onwhichsheguessedtherest。
  “Oh,Iamglad,indeed,thatyoutwoarefriendsagain!”shecried。Andthentheystoodfacingeachother,fearingeachother,troublingeachother’ssouls。Graceexperiencedacutemiseryatthesightofthesewood-cuttingscenes,becauseshehadestrangedherselffromthem,craving,eventoitsdefectsandinconveniences,thathomelysylvanlifeofherfatherwhichinthebestprobablesuccessionofeventswouldshortlybedeniedher。
  Atalittledistance,ontheedgeoftheclearing,MartySouthwasshapingspar-gadstotakehomeformanufactureduringtheevenings。WhileWinterborneandMrs。Fitzpiersstoodlookingatherintheirmutualembarrassmentateachother’spresence,theybeheldapproachingthegirlaladyinadarkfurmantleandablackhat,havingawhiteveiltiedpicturesquelyroundit。ShespoketoMarty,whoturnedandcourtesied,andtheladyfellintoconversationwithher。ItwasMrs。Charmond。
  Onleavingherhouse,Mrs。Charmondhadwalkedonandonwardunderthefretandfeverofhermindwithmorevigorthanshewasaccustomedtoshowinhernormalmoods——afeverwhichthesolaceofacigarettedidnotentirelyallay。Reachingthecoppice,shelistlesslyobservedMartyatwork,threwawayhercigarette,andcamenear。Chop,chop,chop,wentMarty’slittlebillhookwithnevermoreassiduity,tillMrs。Charmondspoke。
  “WhoisthatyoungladyIseetalkingtothewoodmanyonder?”sheasked。
  “Mrs。Fitzpiers,ma’am。”saidMarty。
  “Oh。”saidMrs。Charmond,withsomethinglikeastart;forshehadnotrecognizedGraceatthatdistance。“Andthemansheistalkingto?”
  “That’sMr。Winterborne。”
  ArednessstoleintoMarty’sfaceasshementionedGiles’sname,whichMrs。Charmonddidnotfailtonoticeinformedherofthestateofthegirl’sheart。“Areyouengagedtohim?”sheasked,softly。
  “No,ma’am。”saidMarty。“SHEwasonce;andIthink——“
  ButMartycouldnotpossiblyexplainthecomplicationsofherthoughtsonthismatter——whichwerenothinglessthanoneofextraordinaryacutenessforagirlsoyoungandinexperienced——
  namely,thatshesawdangertotwoheartsnaturallyhonestinGracebeingthrownbackintoWinterborne’ssocietybytheneglectofherhusband。Mrs。Charmond,however,withthealmostsupersensorymeanstoknowledgewhichwomenhaveonsuchoccasions,quiteunderstoodwhatMartyhadintendedtoconvey,andthepicturethusexhibitedtoheroflivesdriftingaway,involvingthewreckofpoorMarty’shopes,promptedhertomoregenerousresolvesthanallMelbury’sremonstranceshadbeenabletostimulate。
  Fullofthenewfeeling,shebadethegirlgood-afternoon,andwentonoverthestumpsofhazeltowhereGraceandWinterbornewerestanding。Theysawherapproach,andWinterbornesaid,“Sheiscomingtoyou;itisagoodomen。Shedislikesme,soI’llgoaway。”HeaccordinglyretreatedtowherehehadbeenworkingbeforeGracecame,andGrace’sformidablerivalapproachedher,eachwomantakingtheother’smeasureasshecamenear。
  “Dear——Mrs。Fitzpiers。”saidFeliceCharmond,withsomeinwardturmoilwhichstoppedherspeech。“Ihavenotseenyouforalongtime。”
  Sheheldoutherhandtentatively,whileGracestoodlikeawildanimalonfirstconfrontingamirrororotherpuzzlingproductofcivilization。WasitreallyMrs。Charmondspeakingtoherthus?
  Ifitwas,shecouldnolongerformanyguessastowhatitsignified。
  “Iwanttotalkwithyou。”saidMrs。Charmond,imploringly,forthegazeoftheyoungwomanhadchilledherthrough。“Canyouwalkonwithmetillwearequitealone?”
  Sickwithdistaste,Graceneverthelesscomplied,asbyclockworkandtheymovedevenlysidebysideintothedeeperrecessesofthewoods。Theywentfarther,muchfartherthanMrs。Charmondhadmeanttogo;butshecouldnotbeginherconversation,andindefaultofitkeptwalking。
  “Ihaveseenyourfather。”sheatlengthresumed。“And——Iammuchtroubledbywhathetoldme。”
  “Whatdidhetellyou?Ihavenotbeenadmittedtohisconfidenceonanythinghemayhavesaidtoyou。”
  “Nevertheless,whyshouldIrepeattoyouwhatyoucaneasilydivine?”
  “True——true。”returnedGrace,mournfully。“Whyshouldyourepeatwhatwebothknowtobeinourmindsalready?”
  “Mrs。Fitzpiers,yourhusband——“Themomentthatthespeaker’stonguetouchedthedangeroussubjectavividlookofself-
  consciousnessflashedoverher,inwhichherheartrevealed,asbyalightninggleam,whatfilledittooverflowing。Sotransitorywastheexpressionthatnonebutasensitivewoman,andsheinGrace’sposition,wouldhavehadthepowertocatchitsmeaning。
  Uponherthephasewasnotlost。
  “ThenyouDOlovehim!”sheexclaimed,inatoneofmuchsurprise。
  “Whatdoyoumean,myyoungfriend?”
  “Why。”criedGrace,“Ithoughttillnowthatyouhadonlybeencruellyflirtingwithmyhusband,toamuseyouridlemoments——arichladywithapoorprofessionalgentlemanwhominherheartshedespisednotmuchlessthanherwhobelongstohim。ButIguessfromyourmannerthatyoulovehimdesperately,andIdon’thateyouasIdidbefore。”
  “Yes,indeed。”continuedMrs。Fitzpiers,withatremblingtongue,“sinceitisnotplayinginyourcaseatall,butREAL。Oh,Idopityyou,morethanIdespiseyou,foryouwills-s-suffermost!”
  Mrs。CharmondwasnowasmuchagitatedasGrace。“Ioughtnottoallowmyselftoarguewithyou。”sheexclaimed。“Idemeanmyselfbydoingit。ButIlikedyouonce,andforthesakeofthattimeItrytotellyouhowmistakenyouare!”Muchofherconfusionresultedfromherwonderandalarmatfindingherselfinasensedominatedmentallyandemotionallybythissimpleschool-girl。“I
  donotlovehim。”shewenton,withdesperateuntruth。“Itwasakindness——mymakingsomewhatmoreofhimthanoneusuallydoesofone’sdoctor。Iwaslonely;Italked——well,Itrifledwithhim。
  Iamverysorryifsuchchild’splayingoutofpurefriendshiphasbeenaseriousmattertoyou。Whocouldhaveexpectedit?Buttheworldissosimplehere。”