Foritisnotasifyouwouldlosebysodoing;yourcourseisfarhigherthanthecoursesofasimpleprofessionalman,andthegratitudeyouwouldwinfrommeandminebyyourkindnessismorethanIcansay。”
Mrs。CharmondhadfirstrushedintoamoodofindignationoncomprehendingMelbury’sstory;hotandcoldbyturns,shehadmurmured,“Leaveme,leaveme!”Butasheseemedtotakenonoticeofthis,hiswordsbegantoinfluenceher,andwhenheceasedspeakingshesaid,withhurried,hotbreath,“Whathasledyoutothinkthisofme?WhosaysIhavewonyourdaughter’shusbandawayfromher?Somemonstrouscalumniesareafloat——ofwhichI
haveknownnothinguntilnow!”
Melburystarted,andlookedathersimply。“Butsurely,ma’am,youknowthetruthbetterthanI?”
Herfeaturesbecamealittlepinched,andthetouchesofpowderonherhandsomefaceforthefirsttimeshowedthemselvesasanextrinsicfilm。“Willyouleavemetomyself?”shesaid,withafaintnesswhichsuggestedaguiltyconscience。“Thisissoutterlyunexpected——youobtainadmissiontomypresencebymisrepresentation——“
“AsGod’sinheaven,ma’am,that’snottrue。Imadenopretence;
andIthoughtinreasonyouwouldknowwhyIhadcome。Thisgossip——“
“Ihaveheardnothingofit。Tellmeofit,Isay。”
“Tellyou,ma’am——notI。Whatthegossipis,nomatter。Whatreallyis,youknow。Setfactsright,andthescandalwillrightofitself。Butpardonme——Ispeakroughly;andIcametospeakgently,tocoaxyou,begyoutobemydaughter’sfriend。Shelovedyouonce,ma’am;youbeganbylikingher。Thenyoudroppedherwithoutareason,andithurtherwarmheartmorethanIcantellye。Butyouwerewithinyourrightasthesuperior,nodoubt。Butifyouwouldconsiderherpositionnow——surely,surely,youwoulddohernoharm!”
“CertainlyIwoulddohernoharm——I——“Melbury’seyemethers。
Itwascurious,buttheallusiontoGrace’sformerloveforherseemedtotouchhermorethanallMelbury’sotherarguments。“Oh,Melbury。”sheburstout,“youhavemademesounhappy!Howcouldyoucometomelikethis!Itistoodreadful!Nowgoaway——go,go!”
“Iwill。”hesaid,inahuskytone。
Assoonashewasoutoftheroomshewenttoacornerandtheresatandwrithedunderanemotioninwhichhurtprideandvexationmingledwithbettersentiments。
Mrs。Charmond’smobilespiritwassubjecttothesefierceperiodsofstressandstorm。Shehadneversoclearlyperceivedtillnowthathersoulwasbeingslowlyinvadedbyadeliriumwhichhadbroughtaboutallthis;thatshewaslosingjudgmentanddignityunderit,becomingananimatedimpulseonly,apassionincarnate。
Afascinationhadledheron;itwasasifshehadbeenseizedbyahandofvelvet;andthiswaswhereshefoundherself——
overshadowedwithsuddennight,asifatornadohadpassedby。
Whileshesat,orrathercrouched,unhingedbytheinterview,lunch-timecame,andthentheearlyafternoon,almostwithoutherconsciousness。Then“astrangegentlemanwhosaysitisnotnecessarytogivehisname。”wassuddenlyannounced。
“Icannotseehim,whoeverhemaybe。Iamnotathometoanybody。”
Sheheardnomoreofhervisitor;andshortlyafter,inanattempttorecoversomementalserenitybyviolentphysicalexercise,sheputonherhatandcloakandwentout-of-doors,takingapathwhichledheruptheslopestothenearestspurofthewood。Shedislikedthewoods,buttheyhadtheadvantageofbeingaplaceinwhichshecouldwalkcomparativelyunobserved。
Therewasagitationto-dayinthelivesofallwhomthesemattersconcerned。ItwasnottilltheHintockdinner-time——oneo’clock——
thatGracediscoveredherfather’sabsencefromthehouseafteradepartureinthemorningundersomewhatunusualconditions。Byalittlereasoningandinquiryshewasabletocometoaconclusiononhisdestination,andtodivinehiserrand。
Herhusbandwasabsent,andherfatherdidnotreturn。Hehad,intruth,goneontoShertonaftertheinterview,butthisGracedidnotknow。InanindefinitedreadthatsomethingseriouswouldariseoutofMelbury’svisitbyreasonoftheinequalitiesoftemperandnervousirritationtowhichhewassubject,somethingpossiblythatwouldbringhermuchmoremiserythanaccompaniedherpresentnegativestateofmind,sheleftthehouseaboutthreeo’clock,andtookaloiteringwalkinthewoodlandtrackbywhichsheimaginedhewouldcomehome。Thistrackunderthebaretreesandoverthecrackingsticks,screenedandroofedinfromtheouterworldofwindandcloudbyanet-workofboughs,ledherslowlyontillintimeshehadleftthelargertreesbehindherandsweptroundintothecoppicewhereWinterborneandhismenwereclearingtheundergrowth。
HadGiles’sattentionbeenconcentratedonhishurdleshewouldnothaveseenher;buteversinceMelbury’spassageacrosstheoppositegladeinthemorninghehadbeenasuneasyandunsettledasGraceherself;andheradventnowwastheoneappearancewhich,sinceherfather’savowal,couldarresthimmorethanMelbury’sreturnwithhistidings。Fearingthatsomethingmightbethematter,hehasteneduptoher。
Shehadnotseenheroldloverforalongtime,and,tooconsciousofthelatepranksofherheart,shecouldnotbeholdhimcalmly。
“Iamonlylookingformyfather。”shesaid,inanunnecessarilyapologeticintonation。
“Iwaslookingforhimtoo。”saidGiles。“Ithinkhemayperhapshavegoneonfarther。”
“ThenyouknewhewasgoingtotheHouse,Giles?”shesaid,turningherlargetendereyesanxiouslyuponhim。“Didhetellyouwhatfor?”
Winterborneglanceddoubtinglyather,andthensoftlyhintedthatherfatherhadvisitedhimtheeveningbefore,andthattheiroldfriendshipwasquiterestored,onwhichsheguessedtherest。
“Oh,Iamglad,indeed,thatyoutwoarefriendsagain!”shecried。Andthentheystoodfacingeachother,fearingeachother,troublingeachother’ssouls。Graceexperiencedacutemiseryatthesightofthesewood-cuttingscenes,becauseshehadestrangedherselffromthem,craving,eventoitsdefectsandinconveniences,thathomelysylvanlifeofherfatherwhichinthebestprobablesuccessionofeventswouldshortlybedeniedher。
Atalittledistance,ontheedgeoftheclearing,MartySouthwasshapingspar-gadstotakehomeformanufactureduringtheevenings。WhileWinterborneandMrs。Fitzpiersstoodlookingatherintheirmutualembarrassmentateachother’spresence,theybeheldapproachingthegirlaladyinadarkfurmantleandablackhat,havingawhiteveiltiedpicturesquelyroundit。ShespoketoMarty,whoturnedandcourtesied,andtheladyfellintoconversationwithher。ItwasMrs。Charmond。
Onleavingherhouse,Mrs。Charmondhadwalkedonandonwardunderthefretandfeverofhermindwithmorevigorthanshewasaccustomedtoshowinhernormalmoods——afeverwhichthesolaceofacigarettedidnotentirelyallay。Reachingthecoppice,shelistlesslyobservedMartyatwork,threwawayhercigarette,andcamenear。Chop,chop,chop,wentMarty’slittlebillhookwithnevermoreassiduity,tillMrs。Charmondspoke。
“WhoisthatyoungladyIseetalkingtothewoodmanyonder?”sheasked。
“Mrs。Fitzpiers,ma’am。”saidMarty。
“Oh。”saidMrs。Charmond,withsomethinglikeastart;forshehadnotrecognizedGraceatthatdistance。“Andthemansheistalkingto?”
“That’sMr。Winterborne。”
ArednessstoleintoMarty’sfaceasshementionedGiles’sname,whichMrs。Charmonddidnotfailtonoticeinformedherofthestateofthegirl’sheart。“Areyouengagedtohim?”sheasked,softly。
“No,ma’am。”saidMarty。“SHEwasonce;andIthink——“
ButMartycouldnotpossiblyexplainthecomplicationsofherthoughtsonthismatter——whichwerenothinglessthanoneofextraordinaryacutenessforagirlsoyoungandinexperienced——
namely,thatshesawdangertotwoheartsnaturallyhonestinGracebeingthrownbackintoWinterborne’ssocietybytheneglectofherhusband。Mrs。Charmond,however,withthealmostsupersensorymeanstoknowledgewhichwomenhaveonsuchoccasions,quiteunderstoodwhatMartyhadintendedtoconvey,andthepicturethusexhibitedtoheroflivesdriftingaway,involvingthewreckofpoorMarty’shopes,promptedhertomoregenerousresolvesthanallMelbury’sremonstranceshadbeenabletostimulate。
Fullofthenewfeeling,shebadethegirlgood-afternoon,andwentonoverthestumpsofhazeltowhereGraceandWinterbornewerestanding。Theysawherapproach,andWinterbornesaid,“Sheiscomingtoyou;itisagoodomen。Shedislikesme,soI’llgoaway。”HeaccordinglyretreatedtowherehehadbeenworkingbeforeGracecame,andGrace’sformidablerivalapproachedher,eachwomantakingtheother’smeasureasshecamenear。
“Dear——Mrs。Fitzpiers。”saidFeliceCharmond,withsomeinwardturmoilwhichstoppedherspeech。“Ihavenotseenyouforalongtime。”
Sheheldoutherhandtentatively,whileGracestoodlikeawildanimalonfirstconfrontingamirrororotherpuzzlingproductofcivilization。WasitreallyMrs。Charmondspeakingtoherthus?
Ifitwas,shecouldnolongerformanyguessastowhatitsignified。
“Iwanttotalkwithyou。”saidMrs。Charmond,imploringly,forthegazeoftheyoungwomanhadchilledherthrough。“Canyouwalkonwithmetillwearequitealone?”
Sickwithdistaste,Graceneverthelesscomplied,asbyclockworkandtheymovedevenlysidebysideintothedeeperrecessesofthewoods。Theywentfarther,muchfartherthanMrs。Charmondhadmeanttogo;butshecouldnotbeginherconversation,andindefaultofitkeptwalking。
“Ihaveseenyourfather。”sheatlengthresumed。“And——Iammuchtroubledbywhathetoldme。”
“Whatdidhetellyou?Ihavenotbeenadmittedtohisconfidenceonanythinghemayhavesaidtoyou。”
“Nevertheless,whyshouldIrepeattoyouwhatyoucaneasilydivine?”
“True——true。”returnedGrace,mournfully。“Whyshouldyourepeatwhatwebothknowtobeinourmindsalready?”
“Mrs。Fitzpiers,yourhusband——“Themomentthatthespeaker’stonguetouchedthedangeroussubjectavividlookofself-
consciousnessflashedoverher,inwhichherheartrevealed,asbyalightninggleam,whatfilledittooverflowing。Sotransitorywastheexpressionthatnonebutasensitivewoman,andsheinGrace’sposition,wouldhavehadthepowertocatchitsmeaning。
Uponherthephasewasnotlost。
“ThenyouDOlovehim!”sheexclaimed,inatoneofmuchsurprise。
“Whatdoyoumean,myyoungfriend?”
“Why。”criedGrace,“Ithoughttillnowthatyouhadonlybeencruellyflirtingwithmyhusband,toamuseyouridlemoments——arichladywithapoorprofessionalgentlemanwhominherheartshedespisednotmuchlessthanherwhobelongstohim。ButIguessfromyourmannerthatyoulovehimdesperately,andIdon’thateyouasIdidbefore。”
“Yes,indeed。”continuedMrs。Fitzpiers,withatremblingtongue,“sinceitisnotplayinginyourcaseatall,butREAL。Oh,Idopityyou,morethanIdespiseyou,foryouwills-s-suffermost!”
Mrs。CharmondwasnowasmuchagitatedasGrace。“Ioughtnottoallowmyselftoarguewithyou。”sheexclaimed。“Idemeanmyselfbydoingit。ButIlikedyouonce,andforthesakeofthattimeItrytotellyouhowmistakenyouare!”Muchofherconfusionresultedfromherwonderandalarmatfindingherselfinasensedominatedmentallyandemotionallybythissimpleschool-girl。“I
donotlovehim。”shewenton,withdesperateuntruth。“Itwasakindness——mymakingsomewhatmoreofhimthanoneusuallydoesofone’sdoctor。Iwaslonely;Italked——well,Itrifledwithhim。
Iamverysorryifsuchchild’splayingoutofpurefriendshiphasbeenaseriousmattertoyou。Whocouldhaveexpectedit?Buttheworldissosimplehere。”
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