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第43章

  honesty,goodness,manliness,tenderness,devotion,forheronlyexistedintheirpuritynowinthebreastsofunvarnishedmen;andherewasonewhohadmanifestedthemtowardsherfromhisyouthup。
  Therewas,further,thatnever-ceasingpityinhersoulforGilesasamanwhomshehadwronged——amanwhohadbeenunfortunateinhisworldlytransactions;while,notwithoutatouchofsublimity,hehad,likeHoratio,bornehimselfthroughouthisscathing“Asone,insufferingall,thatsuffersnothing。”
  Itwastheseperceptions,andnosubtlecatchingofherhusband’smurmurs,thathadbredtheabstractionvisibleinher。
  WhenherfatherapproachedthehouseafterwitnessingtheinterviewbetweenFitzpiersandMrs。Charmond,Gracewaslookingoutofhersitting-roomwindow,asifshehadnothingtodo,orthinkof,orcarefor。Hestoodstill。
  “Ah,Grace。”hesaid,regardingherfixedly。
  “Yes,father。”shemurmured。
  “Waitingforyourdearhusband?”heinquired,speakingwiththesarcasmofpitifulaffection。
  “Ohno——notespecially。Hehasagreatmanypatientstoseethisafternoon。”
  Melburycamequiteclose。“Grace,what’stheuseoftalkinglikethat,whenyouknow——Here,comedownandwalkwithmeoutinthegarden,child。”
  Heunfastenedthedoorintheivy-lacedwall,andwaited。Thisapparentindifferencealarmedhim。HewouldfarratherthatshehadrushedinallthefireofjealousytoHintockHouse,regardlessofconventionality,confrontedandattackedFeliceCharmondunguibusetrostro,andaccusedhereveninexaggeratedshapeofstealingawayherhusband。Suchastormmighthaveclearedtheair。
  Sheemergedinaminuteortwo,andtheywentinsidetogether。
  “YouknowaswellasIdo。”heresumed,“thatthereissomethingthreateningmischieftoyourlife;andyetyoupretendyoudonot。
  DoyousupposeIdon’tseethetroubleinyourfaceeveryday?I
  amverysurethatthisquietudeiswrongconductinyou。Youshouldlookmoreintomatters。”
  “Iamquietbecausemysadnessisnotofanaturetostirmetoaction。”
  Melburywantedtoaskheradozenquestions——didshenotfeeljealous?wasshenotindignant?butanaturaldelicacyrestrainedhim。“Youareverytameandlet-alone,Iamboundtosay。”heremarked,pointedly。
  “IamwhatIfeel,father。”sherepeated。
  Heglancedather,andtherereturneduponhismindthesceneofherofferingtowedWinterborneinsteadofFitzpiersinthelastdaysbeforehermarriage;andheaskedhimselfifitcouldbethefactthatshelovedWinterborne,nowthatshehadlosthim,morethanshehadeverdonewhenshewascomparativelyfreetochoosehim。
  “Whatwouldyouhavemedo?”sheasked,inalowvoice。
  Herecalledhismindfromtheretrospectivepaintothepracticalmatterbeforethem。“IwouldhaveyougotoMrs。Charmond。”hesaid。
  “GotoMrs。Charmond——whatfor?”saidshe。
  “Well——ifImustspeakplain,dearGrace——toaskher,appealtoherinthenameofyourcommonwomanhood,andyourmanylikesentimentsonthings,nottomakeunhappinessbetweenyouandyourhusband。Itlieswithherentirelytodooneortheother——thatI
  cansee。”
  Grace’sfacehadheatedatherfather’swords,andtheveryrustleofherskirtsuponthebox-edgingbespokehauteur。“Ishallnotthinkofgoingtoher,father——ofcourseIcouldnot!”sheanswered。
  “Why——don’t’eewanttobehappierthanyoubeatpresent?”saidMelbury,moremovedonheraccountthanshewasherself。
  “Idon’twishtobemorehumiliated。IfIhaveanythingtobearI
  canbearitinsilence。”
  “But,mydearmaid,youaretooyoung——youdon’tknowwhatthepresentstateofthingsmayleadto。Justseetheharmdonea’ready!YourhusbandwouldhavegoneawaytoBudmouthtoabiggerpracticeifithadnotbeenforthis。Althoughithasgonesuchalittleway,itispoisoningyourfutureevennow。Mrs。Charmondisthoughtlesslybad,notbadbycalculation;andjustawordtohernowmightsave’eeapeckofwoes。”
  “Ah,Ilovedheronce。”saidGrace,withabrokenarticulation,“andshewouldnotcareformethen!NowInolongerloveher。
  Letherdoherworst:Idon’tcare。”
  “Yououghttocare。Youhavegotintoaverygoodpositiontostartwith。Youhavebeenwelleducated,welltended,andyouhavebecomethewifeofaprofessionalmanofunusuallygoodfamily。Surelyyououghttomakethebestofyourposition。”
  “Idon’tseethatIought。IwishIhadnevergotintoit。I
  wishyouhadnever,neverthoughtofeducatingme。IwishI
  workedinthewoodslikeMartySouth。Ihategenteellife,andI
  wanttobenobetterthanshe。”
  “Why?”saidheramazedfather。
  “Becausecultivationhasonlybroughtmeinconveniencesandtroubles。Isayagain,Iwishyouhadneversentmetothosefashionableschoolsyousetyourmindon。Itallaroseoutofthat,father。IfIhadstayedathomeIshouldhavemarried——“
  Shecloseduphermouthsuddenlyandwassilent;andbesawthatshewasnotfarfromcrying。
  Melburywasmuchgrieved。“What,andwouldyouliketohavegrownupaswebehereinHintock——knowingnomore,andwithnomorechanceofseeinggoodlifethanwehavehere?”
  “Yes。IhavenevergotanyhappinessoutsideHintockthatIknowof,andIhavesufferedmanyaheartacheatbeingsentaway。Oh,themiseryofthoseJanuarydayswhenIhadgotbacktoschool,andleftyouallhereinthewoodsohappy。IusedtowonderwhyIhadtobearit。AndIwasalwaysalittledespisedbytheothergirlsatschool,becausetheyknewwhereIcamefrom,andthatmyparentswerenotinsogoodastationastheirs。”
  Herpoorfatherwasmuchhurtatwhathethoughtheringratitudeandintractability。Hehadadmittedtohimselfbitterlyenoughthatheshouldhaveletyoungheartshavetheirway,orrathershouldhavehelpedonheraffectionforWinterborne,andgivenhertohimaccordingtohisoriginalplan;buthewasnotpreparedforherdeprecationofthoseattainmentswhosecompletionhadbeenalaborofyears,andaseveretaxuponhispurse。
  “Verywell。”hesaid,withmuchheavinessofspirit。“Ifyoudon’tliketogotoherIdon’twishtoforceyou。”
  Andsothequestionremainedforhimstill:howshouldheremedythisperilousstateofthings?Fordayshesatinamoodyattitudeoverthefire,apitcherofciderstandingonthehearthbesidehim,andhisdrinking-horninverteduponthetopofit。Hespentaweekandmorethuscomposingalettertothechiefoffender,whichhewouldeverynowandthenattempttocomplete,andsuddenlycrumpleupinhishand。
  AsFebruarymergedinMarch,andlightereveningsbrokethegloomofthewoodmen’shomewardjourney,theHintocksGreatandLittlebegantohaveearsforarumoroftheeventsoutofwhichhadgrownthetimber-dealer’stroubles。Ittooktheformofawidesprinklingofconjecture,whereinnomanknewtheexacttruth。
  Tantalizingphenomena,atonceshowingandconcealingtherealrelationshipofthepersonsconcerned,causedadiffusionofexcitedsurprise。Honestpeopleasthewoodlanderswere,itwashardlytobeexpectedthattheycouldremainimmersedinthestudyoftheirtreesandgardensamidsuchcircumstances,orsitwiththeirbacksturnedlikethegoodburghersofCoventryatthepassageofthebeautifullady。
  Rumor,forawonder,exaggeratedlittle。Therewere,infact,inthiscaseasinthousands,thewell-wornincidents,oldasthehills,which,withindividualvariations,madeamournerofAriadne,aby-wordofVashti,andacorpseoftheCountessAmy。
  Therewererencountersaccidentalandcontrived,stealthycorrespondence,suddenmisgivingsononeside,suddenself-
  reproachesontheother。Theinnerstateofthetwainwasoneasofconfusednoisethatwouldnotallowtheaccentsofcalmerreasontobeheard。Determinationstogointhisdirection,andheadlongplungesinthat;dignifiedsafeguards,undignifiedcollapses;notasinglerashstepbydeliberateintention,andallagainstjudgment。
  ItwasallthatMelburyhadexpectedandfeared。Itwasmore,forhehadoverlookedthepublicitythatwouldbelikelytoresult,asitnowhaddone。Whatshouldhedo——appealtoMrs。Charmondhimself,sinceGracewouldnot?HebethoughthimselfofWinterborne,andresolvedtoconsulthim,feelingthestrongneedofsomefriendofhisownsextowhomhemightunburdenhismind。
  Hehadentirelylostfaithinhisownjudgment。Thatjudgmentonwhichhehadreliedforsomanyyearsseemedrecently,likeafalsecompanionunmasked,tohavedisclosedunexpecteddepthsofhypocrisyandspeciousnesswhereallhadseemedsolidity。Hefeltalmostafraidtoformaconjectureontheweather,orthetime,orthefruit-promise,sogreatwashisself-abasement。
  ItwasarimyeveningwhenhesetouttolookforGiles。Thewoodsseemedtobeinacoldsweat;beadsofperspirationhungfromeverybaretwig;theskyhadnocolor,andthetreesrosebeforehimashaggard,grayphantoms,whosedaysofsubstantialitywerepassed。MelburyseldomsawWinterbornenow,buthebelievedhimtobeoccupyingalonelyhutjustbeyondtheboundaryofMrs。
  Charmond’sestate,thoughstillwithinthecircuitofthewoodland。Thetimber-merchant’sthinlegsstalkedonthroughthepale,dampscenery,hiseyesonthedeadleavesoflastyear;
  whileeverynowandthenahasty“Ay?”escapedhislipsinreplytosomebitterproposition。
  Hisnoticewasattractedbyathinbluehazeofsmoke,behindwhicharosesoundsofvoicesandchopping:bendinghisstepsthatway,hesawWinterbornejustinfrontofhim。ItjustnowhappenedthatGiles,afterbeingforalongtimeapatheticandunemployed,hadbecomeoneofthebusiestmenintheneighborhood。
  Itisoftenthus;fallenfriends,lostsightof,weexpecttofindstarving;wediscoverthemgoingonfairlywell。Withoutanysolicitation,ordesireforprofitonhispart,hehadbeenaskedtoexecuteduringthatwinteraverylargeorderforhurdlesandothercopse-ware,forwhichpurposehehadbeenobligedtobuyseveralacresofbrushwoodstanding。Hewasnowengagedinthecuttingandmanufactureofthesame,proceedingwiththeworkdailylikeanautomaton。
  Thehazel-treedidnotbelieitsnameto-day。Thewholeofthecopse-woodwherethemisthadclearedreturnedpuresttintsofthathue,amidwhichWinterbornehimselfwasintheactofmakingahurdle,thestakesbeingdrivenfirmlyintothegroundinarow,overwhichhebentandwovethetwigs。Besidehimwasasquare,compactpilelikethealtarofCain,formedofhurdlesalreadyfinished,whichbristledonallsideswiththesharppointsoftheirstakes。Atalittledistancethemeninhisemploywereassistinghimtocarryouthiscontract。Rowsofcopse-woodlayonthegroundasithadfallenundertheaxe;andashelterhadbeenconstructednearathand,infrontofwhichburnedthefirewhosesmokehadattractedhim。Theairwassodankthatthesmokehungheavy,andcreptawayamidthebusheswithoutrisingfromtheground。
  AfterwistfullyregardingWinterborneawhile,Melburydrewnearer,andbrieflyinquiredofGileshowhecametobesobusilyengaged,withanundertoneofslightsurprisethatWinterbornecouldseemsothrivingafterbeingdeprivedofGrace。Melburywasnotwithoutemotionatthemeeting;forGrace’saffairshaddividedthem,andendedtheirintimacyofoldtimes。
  Winterborneexplainedjustasbriefly,withoutraisinghiseyesfromhisoccupationofchoppingaboughthatheheldinfrontofhim。
  “’TwillbeupinAprilbeforeyougetitallcleared。”saidMelbury。
  “Yes,thereorthereabouts。”saidWinterborne,achopofthebillhookjerkingthelastwordintotwopieces。
  Therewasanotherinterval;Melburystilllookedon,achipfromWinterborne’shookoccasionallyflyingagainstthewaistcoatandlegsofhisvisitor,whotooknoheed。
  “Ah,Giles——youshouldhavebeenmypartner。Youshouldhavebeenmyson-in-law。”theoldmansaidatlast。“Itwouldhavebeenfarbetterforherandforme。”