honesty,goodness,manliness,tenderness,devotion,forheronlyexistedintheirpuritynowinthebreastsofunvarnishedmen;andherewasonewhohadmanifestedthemtowardsherfromhisyouthup。
Therewas,further,thatnever-ceasingpityinhersoulforGilesasamanwhomshehadwronged——amanwhohadbeenunfortunateinhisworldlytransactions;while,notwithoutatouchofsublimity,hehad,likeHoratio,bornehimselfthroughouthisscathing“Asone,insufferingall,thatsuffersnothing。”
Itwastheseperceptions,andnosubtlecatchingofherhusband’smurmurs,thathadbredtheabstractionvisibleinher。
WhenherfatherapproachedthehouseafterwitnessingtheinterviewbetweenFitzpiersandMrs。Charmond,Gracewaslookingoutofhersitting-roomwindow,asifshehadnothingtodo,orthinkof,orcarefor。Hestoodstill。
“Ah,Grace。”hesaid,regardingherfixedly。
“Yes,father。”shemurmured。
“Waitingforyourdearhusband?”heinquired,speakingwiththesarcasmofpitifulaffection。
“Ohno——notespecially。Hehasagreatmanypatientstoseethisafternoon。”
Melburycamequiteclose。“Grace,what’stheuseoftalkinglikethat,whenyouknow——Here,comedownandwalkwithmeoutinthegarden,child。”
Heunfastenedthedoorintheivy-lacedwall,andwaited。Thisapparentindifferencealarmedhim。HewouldfarratherthatshehadrushedinallthefireofjealousytoHintockHouse,regardlessofconventionality,confrontedandattackedFeliceCharmondunguibusetrostro,andaccusedhereveninexaggeratedshapeofstealingawayherhusband。Suchastormmighthaveclearedtheair。
Sheemergedinaminuteortwo,andtheywentinsidetogether。
“YouknowaswellasIdo。”heresumed,“thatthereissomethingthreateningmischieftoyourlife;andyetyoupretendyoudonot。
DoyousupposeIdon’tseethetroubleinyourfaceeveryday?I
amverysurethatthisquietudeiswrongconductinyou。Youshouldlookmoreintomatters。”
“Iamquietbecausemysadnessisnotofanaturetostirmetoaction。”
Melburywantedtoaskheradozenquestions——didshenotfeeljealous?wasshenotindignant?butanaturaldelicacyrestrainedhim。“Youareverytameandlet-alone,Iamboundtosay。”heremarked,pointedly。
“IamwhatIfeel,father。”sherepeated。
Heglancedather,andtherereturneduponhismindthesceneofherofferingtowedWinterborneinsteadofFitzpiersinthelastdaysbeforehermarriage;andheaskedhimselfifitcouldbethefactthatshelovedWinterborne,nowthatshehadlosthim,morethanshehadeverdonewhenshewascomparativelyfreetochoosehim。
“Whatwouldyouhavemedo?”sheasked,inalowvoice。
Herecalledhismindfromtheretrospectivepaintothepracticalmatterbeforethem。“IwouldhaveyougotoMrs。Charmond。”hesaid。
“GotoMrs。Charmond——whatfor?”saidshe。
“Well——ifImustspeakplain,dearGrace——toaskher,appealtoherinthenameofyourcommonwomanhood,andyourmanylikesentimentsonthings,nottomakeunhappinessbetweenyouandyourhusband。Itlieswithherentirelytodooneortheother——thatI
cansee。”
Grace’sfacehadheatedatherfather’swords,andtheveryrustleofherskirtsuponthebox-edgingbespokehauteur。“Ishallnotthinkofgoingtoher,father——ofcourseIcouldnot!”sheanswered。
“Why——don’t’eewanttobehappierthanyoubeatpresent?”saidMelbury,moremovedonheraccountthanshewasherself。
“Idon’twishtobemorehumiliated。IfIhaveanythingtobearI
canbearitinsilence。”
“But,mydearmaid,youaretooyoung——youdon’tknowwhatthepresentstateofthingsmayleadto。Justseetheharmdonea’ready!YourhusbandwouldhavegoneawaytoBudmouthtoabiggerpracticeifithadnotbeenforthis。Althoughithasgonesuchalittleway,itispoisoningyourfutureevennow。Mrs。Charmondisthoughtlesslybad,notbadbycalculation;andjustawordtohernowmightsave’eeapeckofwoes。”
“Ah,Ilovedheronce。”saidGrace,withabrokenarticulation,“andshewouldnotcareformethen!NowInolongerloveher。
Letherdoherworst:Idon’tcare。”
“Yououghttocare。Youhavegotintoaverygoodpositiontostartwith。Youhavebeenwelleducated,welltended,andyouhavebecomethewifeofaprofessionalmanofunusuallygoodfamily。Surelyyououghttomakethebestofyourposition。”
“Idon’tseethatIought。IwishIhadnevergotintoit。I
wishyouhadnever,neverthoughtofeducatingme。IwishI
workedinthewoodslikeMartySouth。Ihategenteellife,andI
wanttobenobetterthanshe。”
“Why?”saidheramazedfather。
“Becausecultivationhasonlybroughtmeinconveniencesandtroubles。Isayagain,Iwishyouhadneversentmetothosefashionableschoolsyousetyourmindon。Itallaroseoutofthat,father。IfIhadstayedathomeIshouldhavemarried——“
Shecloseduphermouthsuddenlyandwassilent;andbesawthatshewasnotfarfromcrying。
Melburywasmuchgrieved。“What,andwouldyouliketohavegrownupaswebehereinHintock——knowingnomore,andwithnomorechanceofseeinggoodlifethanwehavehere?”
“Yes。IhavenevergotanyhappinessoutsideHintockthatIknowof,andIhavesufferedmanyaheartacheatbeingsentaway。Oh,themiseryofthoseJanuarydayswhenIhadgotbacktoschool,andleftyouallhereinthewoodsohappy。IusedtowonderwhyIhadtobearit。AndIwasalwaysalittledespisedbytheothergirlsatschool,becausetheyknewwhereIcamefrom,andthatmyparentswerenotinsogoodastationastheirs。”
Herpoorfatherwasmuchhurtatwhathethoughtheringratitudeandintractability。Hehadadmittedtohimselfbitterlyenoughthatheshouldhaveletyoungheartshavetheirway,orrathershouldhavehelpedonheraffectionforWinterborne,andgivenhertohimaccordingtohisoriginalplan;buthewasnotpreparedforherdeprecationofthoseattainmentswhosecompletionhadbeenalaborofyears,andaseveretaxuponhispurse。
“Verywell。”hesaid,withmuchheavinessofspirit。“Ifyoudon’tliketogotoherIdon’twishtoforceyou。”
Andsothequestionremainedforhimstill:howshouldheremedythisperilousstateofthings?Fordayshesatinamoodyattitudeoverthefire,apitcherofciderstandingonthehearthbesidehim,andhisdrinking-horninverteduponthetopofit。Hespentaweekandmorethuscomposingalettertothechiefoffender,whichhewouldeverynowandthenattempttocomplete,andsuddenlycrumpleupinhishand。
AsFebruarymergedinMarch,andlightereveningsbrokethegloomofthewoodmen’shomewardjourney,theHintocksGreatandLittlebegantohaveearsforarumoroftheeventsoutofwhichhadgrownthetimber-dealer’stroubles。Ittooktheformofawidesprinklingofconjecture,whereinnomanknewtheexacttruth。
Tantalizingphenomena,atonceshowingandconcealingtherealrelationshipofthepersonsconcerned,causedadiffusionofexcitedsurprise。Honestpeopleasthewoodlanderswere,itwashardlytobeexpectedthattheycouldremainimmersedinthestudyoftheirtreesandgardensamidsuchcircumstances,orsitwiththeirbacksturnedlikethegoodburghersofCoventryatthepassageofthebeautifullady。
Rumor,forawonder,exaggeratedlittle。Therewere,infact,inthiscaseasinthousands,thewell-wornincidents,oldasthehills,which,withindividualvariations,madeamournerofAriadne,aby-wordofVashti,andacorpseoftheCountessAmy。
Therewererencountersaccidentalandcontrived,stealthycorrespondence,suddenmisgivingsononeside,suddenself-
reproachesontheother。Theinnerstateofthetwainwasoneasofconfusednoisethatwouldnotallowtheaccentsofcalmerreasontobeheard。Determinationstogointhisdirection,andheadlongplungesinthat;dignifiedsafeguards,undignifiedcollapses;notasinglerashstepbydeliberateintention,andallagainstjudgment。
ItwasallthatMelburyhadexpectedandfeared。Itwasmore,forhehadoverlookedthepublicitythatwouldbelikelytoresult,asitnowhaddone。Whatshouldhedo——appealtoMrs。Charmondhimself,sinceGracewouldnot?HebethoughthimselfofWinterborne,andresolvedtoconsulthim,feelingthestrongneedofsomefriendofhisownsextowhomhemightunburdenhismind。
Hehadentirelylostfaithinhisownjudgment。Thatjudgmentonwhichhehadreliedforsomanyyearsseemedrecently,likeafalsecompanionunmasked,tohavedisclosedunexpecteddepthsofhypocrisyandspeciousnesswhereallhadseemedsolidity。Hefeltalmostafraidtoformaconjectureontheweather,orthetime,orthefruit-promise,sogreatwashisself-abasement。
ItwasarimyeveningwhenhesetouttolookforGiles。Thewoodsseemedtobeinacoldsweat;beadsofperspirationhungfromeverybaretwig;theskyhadnocolor,andthetreesrosebeforehimashaggard,grayphantoms,whosedaysofsubstantialitywerepassed。MelburyseldomsawWinterbornenow,buthebelievedhimtobeoccupyingalonelyhutjustbeyondtheboundaryofMrs。
Charmond’sestate,thoughstillwithinthecircuitofthewoodland。Thetimber-merchant’sthinlegsstalkedonthroughthepale,dampscenery,hiseyesonthedeadleavesoflastyear;
whileeverynowandthenahasty“Ay?”escapedhislipsinreplytosomebitterproposition。
Hisnoticewasattractedbyathinbluehazeofsmoke,behindwhicharosesoundsofvoicesandchopping:bendinghisstepsthatway,hesawWinterbornejustinfrontofhim。ItjustnowhappenedthatGiles,afterbeingforalongtimeapatheticandunemployed,hadbecomeoneofthebusiestmenintheneighborhood。
Itisoftenthus;fallenfriends,lostsightof,weexpecttofindstarving;wediscoverthemgoingonfairlywell。Withoutanysolicitation,ordesireforprofitonhispart,hehadbeenaskedtoexecuteduringthatwinteraverylargeorderforhurdlesandothercopse-ware,forwhichpurposehehadbeenobligedtobuyseveralacresofbrushwoodstanding。Hewasnowengagedinthecuttingandmanufactureofthesame,proceedingwiththeworkdailylikeanautomaton。
Thehazel-treedidnotbelieitsnameto-day。Thewholeofthecopse-woodwherethemisthadclearedreturnedpuresttintsofthathue,amidwhichWinterbornehimselfwasintheactofmakingahurdle,thestakesbeingdrivenfirmlyintothegroundinarow,overwhichhebentandwovethetwigs。Besidehimwasasquare,compactpilelikethealtarofCain,formedofhurdlesalreadyfinished,whichbristledonallsideswiththesharppointsoftheirstakes。Atalittledistancethemeninhisemploywereassistinghimtocarryouthiscontract。Rowsofcopse-woodlayonthegroundasithadfallenundertheaxe;andashelterhadbeenconstructednearathand,infrontofwhichburnedthefirewhosesmokehadattractedhim。Theairwassodankthatthesmokehungheavy,andcreptawayamidthebusheswithoutrisingfromtheground。
AfterwistfullyregardingWinterborneawhile,Melburydrewnearer,andbrieflyinquiredofGileshowhecametobesobusilyengaged,withanundertoneofslightsurprisethatWinterbornecouldseemsothrivingafterbeingdeprivedofGrace。Melburywasnotwithoutemotionatthemeeting;forGrace’saffairshaddividedthem,andendedtheirintimacyofoldtimes。
Winterborneexplainedjustasbriefly,withoutraisinghiseyesfromhisoccupationofchoppingaboughthatheheldinfrontofhim。
“’TwillbeupinAprilbeforeyougetitallcleared。”saidMelbury。
“Yes,thereorthereabouts。”saidWinterborne,achopofthebillhookjerkingthelastwordintotwopieces。
Therewasanotherinterval;Melburystilllookedon,achipfromWinterborne’shookoccasionallyflyingagainstthewaistcoatandlegsofhisvisitor,whotooknoheed。
“Ah,Giles——youshouldhavebeenmypartner。Youshouldhavebeenmyson-in-law。”theoldmansaidatlast。“Itwouldhavebeenfarbetterforherandforme。”
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