Heappearedtotakenoheed,andshesaidasecondtime,“Mr。
Winterborne!”
Evennowheseemednottohear,thoughapersoncloseenoughtohimtoseetheexpressionofhisfacemighthavedoubtedit;andshesaidathirdtime,withatimidloudness,“Mr。Winterborne!
What,haveyouforgottenmyvoice?”Sheremainedwithherlipspartedinawelcomingsmile。
Heturnedwithoutsurprise,andcamedeliberatelytowardsthewindow。“Whydoyoucallme?”hesaid,withasternnessthattookhercompletelyunawares,hisfacebeingnowpale。“Isitnotenoughthatyouseemeheremoilingandmuddlingformydailybreadwhileyouaresittingthereinyoursuccess,thatyoucan’trefrainfromopeningoldwoundsbycallingoutmyname?”
Sheflushed,andwasstruckdumbforsomemoments;butsheforgavehisunreasoninganger,knowingsowellinwhatithaditsroot。
“IamsorryIoffendedyoubyspeaking。”shereplied,meekly。
“Believeme,Ididnotintendtodothat。Icouldhardlysitheresonearyouwithoutawordofrecognition。”
Winterborne’shearthadswollenbig,andhiseyesgrownmoistbythistime,somuchhadthegentleanswerofthatfamiliarvoicemovedhim。Heassuredherhurriedly,andwithoutlookingather,thathewasnotangry。Hethenmanagedtoaskher,inaclumsy,constrainedway,ifshehadhadapleasantjourney,andseenmanyinterestingsights。Shespokeofafewplacesthatshehadvisited,andsothetimepassedtillhewithdrewtotakehisplaceatoneoftheleverswhichpulledroundthescrew。
Forgottenhervoice!Indeed,hehadnotforgottenhervoice,ashisbitternessshowed。Butthoughintheheatofthemomenthehadreproachedherkeenly,hissecondmoodwasafarmoretenderone——thatwhichcouldregardherrenunciationofsuchasheashergloryandherprivilege,hisownfidelitynotwithstanding。Hecouldhavedeclaredwithacontemporarypoet——
“IfIforget,Thesaltcreekmayforgettheocean;
IfIforgetTheheartwhenceflowsmyheart’sbrightmotion,MayIsinkmeanlierthantheworstAbandoned,outcast,crushed,accurst,IfIforget。
“Thoughyouforget,Nowordofmineshallmaryourpleasure;
Thoughyouforget,Youfilledmybarrenlifewithtreasure,Youmaywithdrawthegiftyougave;
Youstillarequeen,Istillamslave,Thoughyouforget。”
Shehadtearsinhereyesatthethoughtthatshecouldnotremindhimofwhatheoughttohaveremembered;thatnotherselfbutthepressureofeventshaddissipatedthedreamsoftheirearlyyouth。
Gracewasthusunexpectedlyworstedinherencounterwithheroldfriend。Shehadopenedthewindowwithafaintsenseoftriumph,buthehadturneditintosadness;shedidnotquitecomprehendthereasonwhy。Intruthitwasbecauseshewasnotcruelenoughinhercruelty。Ifyouhavetousetheknife,useit,saythegreatsurgeons;andforherownpeaceGraceshouldhavecontemnedWinterbornethoroughlyornotatall。Asitwas,onclosingthewindowanindescribable,somemighthavesaiddangerous,pityquaveredinherbosomforhim。
Presentlyherhusbandenteredtheroom,andtoldherwhatawonderfulsunsettherewastobeseen。
“Ihavenotnoticedit。ButIhaveseensomebodyouttherethatweknow。”shereplied,lookingintothecourt。
Fitzpiersfollowedthedirectionofhereyes,andsaidhedidnotrecognizeanybody。
“Why,Mr。Winterborne——thereheis,cider-making。Hecombinesthatwithhisotherbusiness,youknow。”
“Oh——thatfellow。”saidFitzpiers,hiscuriositybecomingextinct。
She,reproachfully:“What,callMr。Winterborneafellow,Edgar?
ItistrueIwasjustsayingtomyselfthatInevercouldhavemarriedhim;butIhavemuchregardforhim,andalwaysshall。”
“Well,dobyallmeans,mydearone。IdaresayIaminhuman,andsupercilious,andcontemptiblyproudofmypooroldramshacklefamily;butIdohonestlyconfesstoyouthatIfeelasifI
belongedtoadifferentspeciesfromthepeoplewhoareworkinginthatyard。”
“Andfrommetoo,then。Formybloodisnobetterthantheirs。”
Helookedatherwithadrollsortofawakening。Itwas,indeed,astartlinganomalythatthiswomanofthetribewithoutshouldbestandingtherebesidehimashiswife,ifhissentimentswereashehadsaid。Intheirtravelstogethershehadrangedsounerringlyathislevelinideas,tastes,andhabitsthathehadalmostforgottenhowhishearthadplayedhavocwithhisprinciplesintakinghertohim。
“AhYOU——youarerefinedandeducatedintosomethingquitedifferent。”hesaid,self-assuringly。
“Idon’tquiteliketothinkthat。”shemurmuredwithsoftregret。
“AndIthinkyouunderestimateGilesWinterborne。Remember,IwasbroughtupwithhimtillIwassentawaytoschool,soIcannotberadicallydifferent。Atanyrate,Idon’tfeelso。Thatis,nodoubt,myfault,andagreatblemishinme。ButIhopeyouwillputupwithit,Edgar。”
Fitzpierssaidthathewouldendeavortodoso;andasitwasnowgettingonfordusk,theypreparedtoperformthelaststageoftheirjourney,soastoarriveatHintockbeforeitgrewverylate。
Inlessthanhalfanhourtheystarted,thecider-makersintheyardhavingceasedtheirlaborsandgoneaway,sothattheonlysoundsaudibletherenowwerethetricklingofthejuicefromthetightlyscrewedpress,andthebuzzofasinglewasp,whichhaddrunkitselfsotipsythatitwasunconsciousofnightfall。Gracewasverycheerfulatthethoughtofbeingsooninhersylvanhome,butFitzpierssatbesideheralmostsilent。Anindescribableoppressivenesshadovertakenhimwiththenearapproachofthejourney’sendandtherealitiesoflifethatlaythere。
“Youdon’tsayaword,Edgar。”sheobserved。“Aren’tyougladtogetback?Iam。”
“Youhavefriendshere。Ihavenone。”
“Butmyfriendsareyours。”
“Ohyes——inthatsense。”
Theconversationlanguished,andtheydrewneartheendofHintockLane。Ithadbeendecidedthattheyshould,atleastforatime,takeuptheirabodeinherfather’sroomyhouse,onewingofwhichwasquiteattheirservice,beingalmostdisusedbytheMelburys。
Workmenhadbeenpainting,papering,andwhitewashingthissetofroomsintheweddedpair’sabsence;andsoscrupuloushadbeenthetimber-dealerthatthereshouldoccurnohitchordisappointmentontheirarrival,thatnotthesmallestdetailremainedundone。
Tomakeitallcompleteaground-floorroomhadbeenfittedupasasurgery,withanindependentouterdoor,towhichFitzpiers’sbrassplatewasscrewed——formereornament,suchasignbeingquitesuperfluouswhereeverybodyknewthelatitudeandlongitudeofhisneighborsformilesround。
Melburyandhiswifewelcomedthetwainwithaffection,andallthehousewithdeference。Theywentuptoexploretheirrooms,thatopenedfromapassageonthelefthandofthestaircase,theentrancetowhichcouldbeshutoffonthelandingbyadoorthatMelburyhadhungforthepurpose。Afriendlyfirewasburninginthegrate,althoughitwasnotcold。Fitzpierssaiditwastoosoonforanysortofmeal,theyonlyhavingdinedshortlybeforeleavingSherton-Abbas。Hewouldwalkacrosstohisoldlodging,tolearnhowhislocumtenenshadgotoninhisabsence。
InleavingMelbury’sdoorhelookedbackatthehouse。Therewaseconomyinlivingunderthatroof,andeconomywasdesirable,butinsomewayhewasdissatisfiedwiththearrangement;itimmersedhimsodeeplyinson-in-lawshiptoMelbury。Hewentontohisformerresidence。Hisdeputywasout,andFitzpiersfellintoconversationwithhisformerlandlady。
“Well,Mrs。Cox,what’sthebestnews?”heaskedofher,withcheeryweariness。
Shewasalittlesouredatlosingbyhismarriagesoprofitableatenantasthesurgeonhadprovedtobedulinghisresidenceunderherroof;andthemoresointherebeinghardlytheremotestchanceofhergettingsuchanothersettlerintheHintocksolitudes。“’TiswhatIdon’twishtorepeat,sir;leastofalltoyou。”shemumbled。
“Nevermindme,Mrs。Cox;goahead。”
“Itiswhatpeoplesayaboutyourhastymarrying,Dr。Fitzpiers。
Whereastheywon’tbelieveyouknowsuchcleverdoctrinesinphysicastheyoncesupposedofye,seeingasyoucouldmarryintoMr。Melbury’sfamily,whichisonlyHintock-born,suchasme。”
“Theyarekindlywelcometotheiropinion。”saidFitzpiers,notallowinghimselftorecognizethathewinced。“Anythingelse?”
“Yes;SHE’Scomehomeatlast。”
“Who’sshe?”
“Mrs。Charmond。”
“Oh,indeed!”saidFitzpiers,withbutslightinterest。“I’veneverseenher。”
“Shehasseenyou,sir,whetherorno。”
“Never。”
“Yes;shesawyouinsomehotelorstreetforaminuteortwowhileyouwereawaytravelling,andaccidentallyheardyourname;
andwhenshemadesomeremarkaboutyou,MissEllis——that’shermaid——toldheryouwasonyourwedding-towerwithMr。Melbury’sdaughter;andshesaid,’Heoughttohavedonebetterthanthat。
Ifearhehasspoiledhischances,’shesays。”
Fitzpiersdidnottalkmuchlongertothischeeringhousewife,andwalkedhomewithnoverybriskstep。Heenteredthedoorquietly,andwentstraightup-stairstothedrawing-roomextemporizedfortheirusebyMelburyinhisandhisbride’sabsence,expectingtofindherthereashehadlefther。Thefirewasburningstill,buttherewerenolights。Helookedintothenextapartment,fittedupasalittledining-room,butnosupperwaslaid。Hewenttothetopofthestairs,andheardachorusofvoicesinthetimber-merchant’sparlorbelow,Grace’sbeingoccasionallyintermingled。
Descending,andlookingintotheroomfromthedoor-way,hefoundquitealargegatheringofneighborsandotheracquaintances,praisingandcongratulatingMrs。Fitzpiersonherreturn,amongthembeingthedairyman,FarmerBawtree,andthemaster-blacksmithfromGreatHintock;alsothecooper,thehollow-turner,theexciseman,andsomeothers,withtheirwives,wholivedhardby。
Grace,girlthatshewas,hadquiteforgottenhernewdignityandherhusband’s;shewasinthemidstofthem,blushing,andreceivingtheircomplimentswithallthepleasureofold-
comradeship。
Fitzpiersexperiencedaprofounddistasteforthesituation。
Melburywasnowhereintheroom,butMelbury’swife,perceivingthedoctor,cametohim。“Wethought,GraceandI。”shesaid,“thatastheyhavecalled,hearingyouwerecome,wecoulddonolessthanaskthemtosupper;andthenGraceproposedthatweshouldallsuptogether,asitisthefirstnightofyourreturn。”
BythistimeGracehadcomeroundtohim。“Isitnotgoodofthemtowelcomemesowarmly?”sheexclaimed,withtearsoffriendshipinhereyes。“AftersomuchgoodfeelingIcouldnotthinkofourshuttingourselvesupawayfromtheminourowndining-room。”
“Certainlynot——certainlynot。”saidFitzpiers;andheenteredtheroomwiththeheroicsmileofamartyr。
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