“No,no,theaircoolsmyhead。Ishallnotstaylong。”Hewassilentawhile;thenhetoldher,asnearlyasMartycouldgather,thathisfirstwife,hisdaughterGrace’smother,wasfirstthesweetheartofWinterborne’sfather,wholovedhertenderly,tillhe,thespeaker,wonherawayfromhimbyatrick,becausehewantedtomarryherhimself。Hesadlywentontosaythattheotherman’shappinesswasruinedbyit;thatthoughhemarriedWinterborne’smother,itwasbutahalf-heartedbusinesswithhim。
Melburyaddedthathewasafterwardsverymiserableatwhathehaddone;butthatastimewenton,andthechildrengrewup,andseemedtobeattachedtoeachother,hedeterminedtodoallhecouldtorightthewrongbylettinghisdaughtermarrythelad;
notonlythat,buttogiveherthebesteducationhecouldafford,soastomakethegiftasvaluableaoneasitlayinhispowertobestow。“Istillmeantodoit。”saidMelbury。
“Thendo。”saidshe。
“Butallthesethingstroubleme。”saidhe;“forIfeelIamsacrificingherformyownsin;andIthinkofher,andoftencomedownhereandlookatthis。”
“Lookatwhat?”askedhiswife。
Hetookthecandlefromherhand,heldittotheground,andremovedatilewhichlayinthegarden-path。“’Tisthetrackofhershoethatshemadewhensherandownherethedaybeforeshewentawayallthosemonthsago。Icovereditupwhenshewasgone;andwhenIcomehereandlookatit,Iaskmyselfagain,whyshouldshebesacrificedtoapoorman?”
“Itisnotaltogetherasacrifice。”saidthewoman。“Heisinlovewithher,andhe’shonestandupright。Ifsheencourageshim,whatcanyouwishformore?”
“Iwishfornothingdefinite。Butthere’salotofthingspossibleforher。Why,Mrs。Charmondiswantingsomerefinedyounglady,Ihear,togoabroadwithher——ascompanionorsomethingofthekind。She’djumpatGrace。”
“That’salluncertain。Bettersticktowhat’ssure。”
“True,true。”saidMelbury;“andIhopeitwillbeforthebest。
Yes,letmeget’emmarriedupassoonasIcan,soastohaveitoveranddonewith。”Hecontinuedlookingattheimprint,whileheadded,“Supposesheshouldbedying,andnevermakeatrackonthispathanymore?”
“She’llwritesoon,dependupon’t。Come,’tiswrongtostayhereandbroodso。”
Headmittedit,butsaidhecouldnothelpit。“Whethershewriteorno,Ishallfetchherinafewdays。”Andthusspeaking,hecoveredthetrack,andprecededhiswifeindoors。
Melbury,perhaps,wasanunluckymaninhavingwithinhimthesentimentwhichcouldindulgeinthisfoolishfondnessabouttheimprintofadaughter’sfootstep。Naturedoesnotcarryonhergovernmentwithaviewtosuchfeelings,andwhenadvancingyearsrendertheopenheartsofthosewhopossessthemlessdexterousthanformerlyinshuttingagainsttheblast,theymustsuffer“buffetingatwillbyrainandstorm“nolessthanLittleCelandines。
Butherownexistence,andnotMr。Melbury’s,wasthecentreofMarty’sconsciousness,anditwasinrelationtothisthatthematterstruckherassheslowlywithdrew。
“That,then,isthesecretofitall。”shesaid。“AndGilesWinterborneisnotforme,andthelessIthinkofhimthebetter。”
Shereturnedtohercottage。Thesovereignswerestaringatherfromthelooking-glassasshehadleftthem。Withapreoccupiedcountenance,andwithtearsinhereyes,shegotapairofscissors,andbeganmercilesslycuttingoffthelonglocksofherhair,arrangingandtyingthemwiththeirpointsalloneway,asthebarberhaddirected。Uponthepalescrubbeddealofthecoffin-stooltabletheystretchedlikewavingandropyweedsoverthewashedgravel-bedofaclearstream。
Shewouldnotturnagaintothelittlelooking-glass,outofhumanitytoherself,knowingwhatadefloweredvisagewouldlookbackather,andalmostbreakherheart;shedreadeditasmuchasdidherownancestralgoddessSifthereflectioninthepoolaftertherapeofherlocksbyLokethemalicious。Shesteadilystucktobusiness,wrappedthehairinaparcel,andsealeditup,afterwhichsherakedoutthefireandwenttobed,havingfirstsetupanalarummadeofacandleandpieceofthread,withastoneattached。
Butsuchareminderwasunnecessaryto-night。Havingtossedtillaboutfiveo’clock,Martyheardthesparrowswalkingdowntheirlongholesinthethatchaboveherslopingceilingtotheirorificeattheeaves;whereuponshealsoarose,anddescendedtotheground-flooragain。
Itwasstilldark,butshebeganmovingaboutthehouseinthoseautomaticinitiatoryactsandtoucheswhichrepresentamonghousewivestheinstallationofanotherday。WhilethusengagedsheheardtherumblingofMr。Melbury’swagons,andknewthatthere,too,theday’stoilhadbegun。
Anarmfulofgadsthrownonthestillhotemberscausedthemtoblazeupcheerfullyandbringherdiminishedhead-gearintosuddenprominenceasashadow。Atthisastepapproachedthedoor。
“Arefolkastirhereyet?”inquiredavoicesheknewwell。
“Yes,Mr。Winterborne。”saidMarty,throwingonatiltbonnet,whichcompletelyhidtherecentravagesofthescissors。“Comein!”
Thedoorwasflungback,andtheresteppedinuponthematamannotparticularlyyoungforalover,norparticularlymatureforapersonofaffairs。Therewasreserveinhisglance,andrestraintuponhismouth。Hecarriedahornlanternwhichhunguponaswivel,andwheelingasitdangledmarkedgrotesqueshapesupontheshadierpartofthewalls。
Hesaidthathehadlookedinonhiswaydown,totellherthattheydidnotexpectherfathertomakeuphiscontractifhewasnotwell。Mr。Melburywouldgivehimanotherweek,andtheywouldgotheirjourneywithashortloadthatday。
“Theyaredone。”saidMarty,“andlyinginthecart-house。”
“Done!”herepeated。“Yourfatherhasnotbeentooilltoworkafterall,then?”
Shemadesomeevasivereply。“I’llshowyouwheretheybe,ifyouaregoingdown。”sheadded。
Theywentoutandwalkedtogether,thepatternoftheair-holesinthetopofthelanternbeingthrownuponthemistoverhead,wheretheyappearedofgiantsize,asifreachingthetent-shapedsky。
Theyhadnoremarkstomaketoeachother,andtheyutterednone。
Hardlyanythingcouldbemoreisolatedormoreself-containedthanthelivesofthesetwowalkinghereinthelonelyantelucanhour,whengrayshades,materialandmental,aresoverygray。Andyet,lookedatinacertainway,theirlonelycoursesformednodetacheddesignatall,butwerepartofthepatterninthegreatwebofhumandoingsthenweavinginbothhemispheres,fromtheWhiteSeatoCapeHorn。
Theshedwasreached,andshepointedoutthespars。Winterborneregardedthemsilently,thenlookedather。
“Now,Marty,Ibelieve——“hesaid,andshookhishead。
“What?”
“Thatyou’vedonetheworkyourself。”
“Don’tyoutellanybody,willyou,Mr。Winterborne?”shepleaded,bywayofanswer。“BecauseIamafraidMr。Melburymayrefusemyworkifheknowsitismine。”
“Buthowcouldyoulearntodoit?’Tisatrade。”
“Trade!”saidshe。“I’dbeboundtolearnitintwohours。”
“Ohno,youwouldn’t,Mrs。Marty。”Winterbornehelddownhislantern,andexaminedthecleanlysplithazelsastheylay。
“Marty。”hesaid,withdryadmiration,“yourfatherwithhisfortyyearsofpracticenevermadeasparbetterthanthat。Theyaretoogoodforthethatchingofhouses——theyaregoodenoughforthefurniture。ButIwon’ttell。Letmelookatyourhands——yourpoorhands!”
Hehadakindlymannerofaquietlyseveretone;andwhensheseemedreluctanttoshowherhands,hetookholdofoneandexamineditasifitwerehisown。Herfingerswereblistered。
“They’llgetharderintime。”shesaid。“Foriffathercontinuesill,Ishallhavetogoonwi’it。NowI’llhelpput’emupinwagon。”
Winterbornewithoutspeakingsetdownhislantern,liftedherasshewasabouttostoopoverthebundles,placedherbehindhim,andbeganthrowingupthebundleshimself。“RatherthanyoushoulddoitIwill。”hesaid。“Butthemenwillbeheredirectly。Why,Marty!——whateverhashappenedtoyourhead?Lord,ithasshrunktonothing——itlooksanappleuponagate-post!”
Herheartswelled,andshecouldnotspeak。Atlengthshemanagedtogroan,lookingontheground,“I’vemademyselfugly——andhateful——that’swhatI’vedone!”
“No,no。”heanswered。“You’veonlycutyourhair——Iseenow。
“Thenwhymustyouneedssaythataboutapplesandgate-posts?”
“Letmesee。”
“No,no!”Sheranoffintothegloomofthesluggishdawn。Hedidnotattempttofollowher。Whenshereachedherfather’sdoorshestoodonthestepandlookedback。Mr。Melbury’smenhadarrived,andwereloadingupthespars,andtheirlanternsappearedfromthedistanceatwhichshestoodtohavewancirclesroundthem,likeeyeswearywithwatching。Sheobservedthemforafewsecondsastheysetaboutharnessingthehorses,andthenwentindoors。
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