ButwhetherhemeditatedtheMusesorthephilosophers,thelonelinessofHintocklifewasbeginningtotelluponhisimpressionablenature。Winterinasolitaryhouseinthecountry,withoutsociety,istolerable,nay,evenenjoyableanddelightful,givencertainconditions,butthesearenottheconditionswhichattachtothelifeofaprofessionalmanwhodropsdownintosuchaplacebymereaccident。TheywerepresenttothelivesofWinterborne,Melbury,andGrace;butnottothedoctor’s。Theyareoldassociation——analmostexhaustivebiographicalorhistoricalacquaintancewitheveryobject,animateandinanimate,withintheobserver’shorizon。Hemustknowallaboutthoseinvisibleonesofthedaysgoneby,whosefeethavetraversedthefieldswhichlooksograyfromhiswindows;recallwhosecreakingploughhasturnedthosesodsfromtimetotime;whosehandsplantedthetreesthatformacresttotheoppositehill;whosehorsesandhoundshavetornthroughthatunderwood;whatbirdsaffectthatparticularbrake;whatdomesticdramasoflove,jealousy,revenge,ordisappointmenthavebeenenactedinthecottages,themansion,thestreet,oronthegreen。Thespotmayhavebeauty,grandeur,salubrity,convenience;butifitlackmemoriesitwillultimatelypalluponhimwhosettlestherewithoutopportunityofintercoursewithhiskind。
Insuchcircumstances,maybe,anoldmandreamsofanidealfriend,tillhethrowshimselfintothearmsofanyimpostorwhochoosestowearthattitleonhisface。Ayoungmanmaydreamofanidealfriendlikewise,butsomehumorofthebloodwillprobablyleadhimtothinkratherofanidealmistress,andatlengththerustleofawoman’sdress,thesoundofhervoice,orthetransitofherformacrossthefieldofhisvision,willenkindlehissoulwithaflamethatblindshiseyes。
ThediscoveryoftheattractiveGrace’snameandfamilywouldhavebeenenoughinothercircumstancestoleadthedoctor,ifnottoputherpersonalityoutofhishead,tochangethecharacterofhisinterestinher。Insteadoftreasuringherimageasararity,hewouldatmosthaveplayedwithitasatoy。Hewasthatkindofaman。Butsituatedherehecouldnotgosofarasamativecruelty。Hedismissedallreverentialthoughtabouther,buthecouldnothelptakingherseriously。
Hewentontoimaginetheimpossible。Sofar,indeed,didhegointhisfutiledirectionthat,asothersarewonttodo,heconstructeddialoguesandscenesinwhichGracehadturnedouttobethemistressofHintockManor-house,themysteriousMrs。
Charmond,particularlyreadyandwillingtobewooedbyhimselfandnobodyelse。“Well,sheisn’tthat。”hesaid,finally。“Butshe’saverysweet,nice,exceptionalgirl。”
Thenextmorninghebreakfastedalone,asusual。Itwassnowingwithafine-flakeddesultorinessjustsufficienttomakethewoodlandgray,withouteverachievingwhiteness。TherewasnotasingleletterforFitzpiers,onlyamedicalcircularandaweeklynewspaper。
Tositbeforealargefireonsuchmornings,andread,andgraduallyacquireenergytilltheeveningcame,andthen,withlampalight,andfeelingfullofvigor,topursuesomeengrossingsubjectorothertillthesmallhours,hadhithertobeenhispractice。Butto-dayhecouldnotsettleintohischair。Thatself-containedpositionhehadlatelyoccupied,inwhichtheonlyattentiondemandedwastheconcentrationoftheinnereye,allouterregardbeingquitegratuitous,seemedtohavebeentakenbyinsidiousstratagem,andforthefirsttimehehadaninterestoutsidethehouse。Hewalkedfromonewindowtoanother,andbecameawarethatthemostirksomeofsolitudesisnotthesolitudeofremoteness,butthatwhichisjustoutsidedesirablecompany。
Thebreakfasthourwentbyheavilyenough,andthenextfollowed,inthesamehalf-snowy,half-rainystyle,theweathernowbeingtheinevitablerelapsewhichsoonerorlatersucceedsatimetooradiantfortheseason,suchastheyhadenjoyedinthelatemidwinteratHintock。Topeopleathometherethesechangefultrickshadtheirinterests;thestrangemistakesthatsomeofthemoresanguinetreeshadmadeinbuddingbeforetheirmonth,tobeincontinentlygluedupbyfrozenthawingsnow;thesimilarsanguineerrorsofimpulsivebirdsinframingneststhatwerenowswampedbysnow-water,andothersuchincidents,preventedanysenseofwearisomenessinthemindsofthenatives。ButthesewerefeaturesofaworldnotfamiliartoFitzpiers,andtheinnervisionstowhichhehadalmostexclusivelyattendedhavingsuddenlyfailedintheirpowertoabsorbhim,hefeltunutterablydreary。
HewonderedhowlongMissMelburywasgoingtostayinHintock。
Theseasonwasunpropitiousforaccidentalencounterswithherout-of-doors,andexceptbyaccidenthesawnothowtheyweretobecomeacquainted。Onethingwasclear——anyacquaintancewithhercouldonly,withadueregardtohisfuture,becasual,atmostofthenatureofaflirtation;forhehadhighaims,andtheywouldsomedayleadhimintootherspheresthanthis。
Thusdesultorilythinkingheflunghimselfdownuponthecouch,which,asinmanydraughtyoldcountryhouses,wasconstructedwithahood,beinginfactalegitimatedevelopmentfromthesettle。Hetriedtoreadashereclined,buthavingsatuptillthreeo’clockthatmorning,thebookslippedfromhishandandhefellasleep。
ItwasatthistimethatGraceapproachedthehouse。Herknock,alwayssoftinvirtueofhernature,wassofterto-daybyreasonofherstrangeerrand。However,itwasheardbythefarmer’swifewhokeptthehouse,andGracewasadmitted。Openingthedoorofthedoctor’sroomthehousewifeglancedin,andimaginingFitzpiersabsent,askedMissMelburytoenterandwaitafewminuteswhilesheshouldgoandfindhim,believinghimtobesomewhereonthepremises。Graceacquiesced,wentin,andsatdownclosetothedoor。
Assoonasthedoorwasshutuponhershelookedroundtheroom,andstartedatperceivingahandsomemansnuglyensconcedinthecouch,liketherecumbentfigurewithinsomecanopiedmuraltombofthefifteenthcentury,exceptthathishandswerebynomeansclaspedinprayer。Shehadnodoubtthatthiswasthedoctor。
Awakenhimherselfshecouldnot,andherimmediateimpulsewastogoandpullthebroadribbonwithabrassrosettewhichhungatonesideofthefireplace。Butexpectingthelandladytore-enterinamomentsheabandonedthisintention,andstoodgazingingreatembarrassmentattherecliningphilosopher。
ThewindowsofFitzpiers’ssoulbeingatpresentshuttered,heprobablyappearedlessimpressivethaninhishoursofanimation;
butthelightabstractedfromhismaterialpresencebysleepwasmorethancounterbalancedbythemysteriousinfluenceofthatstate,inastranger,upontheconsciousnessofabeholdersosensitive。Sofarasshecouldcriticiseatall,shebecameawarethatshehadencounteredaspecimenofcreationaltogetherunusualinthatlocality。TheoccasionsonwhichGracehadobservedmenofthisstampwerewhenshehadbeenfarremovedawayfromHintock,andeventhensuchexamplesashadmethereyewereatadistance,andmainlyofcoarserfibrethantheonewhonowconfrontedher。
Shenervouslywonderedwhythewomanhadnotdiscoveredhermistakeandreturned,andwentagaintowardsthebell-pull。
ApproachingthechimneyherbackwastoFitzpiers,butshecouldseehimintheglass。Anindescribablethrillpassedthroughherassheperceivedthattheeyesofthereflectedimagewereopen,gazingwonderinglyather,andunderthecuriousunexpectednessofthesightshebecameasifspellbound,almostpowerlesstoturnherheadandregardtheoriginal。However,byaneffortshedidturn,whentherehelayasleepthesameasbefore。
Herstartledperplexityastowhathecouldbemeaningwassufficienttoleadhertoprecipitatelyabandonhererrand。Shecrossedquicklytothedoor,openedandcloseditnoiselessly,andwentoutofthehouseunobserved。Bythetimethatshehadgonedownthepathandthroughthegardendoorintothelaneshehadrecoveredherequanimity。Here,screenedbythehedge,shestoodandconsideredawhile。
Drip,drip,drip,felltherainuponherumbrellaandaround;shehadcomeoutonsuchamorningbecauseoftheseriousnessofthematterinhand;yetnowshehadallowedhermissiontobestultifiedbyamomentarytremulousnessconcerninganincidentwhichperhapshadmeantnothingafterall。
Inthemeantimeherdeparturefromtheroom,stealthyasithadbeen,hadrousedFitzpiers,andhesatup。InthereflectionfromthemirrorwhichGracehadbeheldtherewasnomystery;hehadopenedhiseyesforafewmoments,buthadimmediatelyrelapsedintounconsciousness,if,indeed,hehadeverbeenpositivelyawake。Thatsomebodyhadjustlefttheroomhewascertain,andthatthelovelyformwhichseemedtohavevisitedhiminadreamwasnolessthantherealpresentationofthepersondepartedhecouldhardlydoubt。
Lookingoutofthewindowafewminuteslater,downthebox-edgedgravel-pathwhichledtothebottom,hesawthegardendoorgentlyopen,andthroughitentertheyounggirlofhisthoughts,Gracehavingjustatthisjuncturedeterminedtoreturnandattempttheinterviewasecondtime。Thathesawhercominginsteadofgoingmadehimaskhimselfifhisfirstimpressionofherwerenotadreamindeed。Shecamehesitatinglyalong,carryingherumbrellasolowoverherheadthathecouldhardlyseeherface。Whenshereachedthepointwheretheraspberrybushesendedandthestrawberrybedbegan,shemadealittlepause。
Fitzpiersfearedthatshemightnotbecomingtohimevennow,andhastilyquittingtheroom,herandownthepathtomeether。Thenatureofhererrandhecouldnotdivine,buthewaspreparedtogiveheranyamountofencouragement。
“Ibegpardon,MissMelbury。”hesaid。“Isawyoufromthewindow,andfanciedyoumightimaginethatIwasnotathome——ifitisIyouwerecomingfor。”
“Iwascomingtospeakonewordtoyou,nothingmore。”shereplied。“AndIcansayithere。”
“No,no。Pleasedocomein。Well,then,ifyouwillnotcomeintothehouse,comeasfarastheporch。”
Thuspressedshewentontotheporch,andtheystoodtogetherinsideit,Fitzpiersclosingherumbrellaforher。
“Ihavemerelyarequestorpetitiontomake。”shesaid。“Myfather’sservantisill——awomanyouknow——andherillnessisserious。”
“Iamsorrytohearit。Youwishmetocomeandseeheratonce?”
“No;Iparticularlywishyounottocome。”
“Oh,indeed。”
“Yes;andshewishesthesame。Itwouldmakeherseriouslyworseifyouweretocome。Itwouldalmostkillher。Myerrandisofapeculiarandawkwardnature。Itisconcerningasubjectwhichweighsonhermind——thatunfortunatearrangementshemadewithyou,thatyoumighthaveherbody——afterdeath。”
“Oh!GrammerOliver,theoldwomanwiththefinehead。Seriouslyill,isshe!”
“AndSOdisturbedbyherrashcompact!Ihavebroughtthemoneyback——willyoupleasereturntohertheagreementshesigned?”
Graceheldouttohimacoupleoffive-poundnoteswhichshehadkeptreadytuckedinherglove。
Withoutreplyingorconsideringthenotes,Fitzpiersallowedhisthoughtstofollowhiseyes,anddwelluponGrace’spersonality,andthesuddencloserelationinwhichhestoodtoher。Theporchwasnarrow;therainincreased。Itranofftheporchanddrippedonthecreepers,andfromthecreepersupontheedgeofGrace’scloakandskirts。
“Therainiswettingyourdress;pleasedocomein。”hesaid。“Itreallymakesmyheartachetoletyoustayhere。”
Immediatelyinsidethefrontdoorwasthedoorofhissitting-
room;heflungitopen,andstoodinacoaxingattitude。Tryhowshewould,Gracecouldnotresistthesupplicatorymandatewritteninthefaceandmannerofthisman,anddistressfulresignationsatonherassheglidedpasthimintotheroom——brushinghiscoatwithherelbowbyreasonofthenarrowness。
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