Charmondshouldhaveheardthevillagenews,andbecomequitedisappointedinherexpectationsofGraceatfindingshekeptsuchcompany?
Fullofthisposthocargument,Mr。Melburyoverlookedtheinfinitethrongofotherpossiblereasonsandunreasonsforawomanchanginghermind。Forinstance,whileknowingthathisGracewasattractive,hequiteforgotthatMrs。Charmondhadalsogreatpretensionstobeauty。Inhissimpleestimate,anattractivewomanattractedallaround。
SoitwassettledinhismindthathersuddenminglingwiththevillagersattheunluckyWinterborne’swasthecauseofhermostgrievousloss,ashedeemedit,inthedirectionofHintockHouse。
“’Tisathousandpities!”hewouldrepeattohimself。“Iamruiningherforconscience’sake!”
Itwasonemorninglateron,whilethesethingswereagitatinghismind,that,curiouslyenough,somethingdarkenedthewindowjustastheyfinishedbreakfast。Lookingup,theysawGilesinpersonmountedonhorseback,andstraininghisneckforward,ashehadbeendoingforsometime,tocatchtheirattentionthroughthewindow。Gracehadbeenthefirsttoseehim,andinvoluntarilyexclaimed,“Thereheis——andanewhorse!”
OntheirfacesastheyregardedGileswerewrittentheirsuspendedthoughtsandcompoundfeelingsconcerninghim,couldhehavereadthemthroughthoseoldpanes。Buthesawnothing:hisfeaturesjustnowwere,forawonder,litupwitharedsmileatsomeotheridea。Sotheyrosefrombreakfastandwenttothedoor,Gracewithananxious,wistfulmanner,herfatherinareverie,Mrs。
Melburyplacidandinquiring。“Wehavecomeouttolookatyourhorse。”shesaid。
Itcouldbeseenthathewaspleasedattheirattention,andexplainedthathehadriddenamileortwototrytheanimal’spaces。“Iboughther。”headded,withwarmthsoseverelyrepressedastoseemindifference,“becauseshehasbeenusedtocarryalady。”
StillMr。Melburydidnotbrighten。Mrs。Melburysaid,“Andisshequiet?”
Winterborneassuredherthattherewasnodoubtofit。“Itookcareofthat。She’sfive-and-twenty,andverycleverforherage。”
“Well,getoffandcomein。”saidMelbury,brusquely;andGilesdismountedaccordingly。
ThiseventwastheconcreteresultofWinterborne’sthoughtsduringthepastweekortwo。Thewantofsuccesswithhiseveningpartyhehadacceptedinasphilosophicamoodashewascapableof;buttherehadbeenenthusiasmenoughleftinhimonedayatShertonAbbasmarkettopurchasethisoldmare,whichhadbelongedtoaneighboringparsonwithseveraldaughters,andwasofferedhimtocarryeitheragentlemanoralady,andtodooddjobsofcartingandagricultureatapinch。ThisobligingquadrupedseemedtofurnishGileswithameansofreinstatinghimselfinMelbury’sgoodopinionasamanofconsideratenessbythrowingoutfuturepossibilitiestoGrace。
Thelatterlookedathimwithintensifiedinterestthismorning,inthemoodwhichisaltogetherpeculiartowoman’snature,andwhich,whenreducedintoplainwords,seemsasimpossibleasthepenetrabilityofmatter——thatofentertainingatenderpityfortheobjectofherownunnecessarycoldness。TheimperturbablepoisewhichmarkedWinterborneingeneralwasenlivenednowbyafreshnessandanimationthatsetabrightnessinhiseyeandonhischeek。Mrs。Melburyaskedhimtohavesomebreakfast,andhepleasurablyrepliedthathewouldjointhem,withhisusuallackoftacticalobservation,notperceivingthattheyhadallfinishedthemeal,thatthehourwasinconvenientlylate,andthatthenotepipedbythekettledenotedittobenearlyempty;sothatfreshwaterhadtobebroughtin,troubletakentomakeitboil,andageneralrenovationofthetablecarriedout。Neitherdidheknow,sofullwasheofhistenderulteriorobjectinbuyingthathorse,howmanycupsofteahewasgulpingdownoneafteranother,norhowthemorningwasslipping,norhowhewaskeepingthefamilyfromdispersingabouttheirduties。
Thenhetoldthroughoutthehumorousstoryofthehorse’spurchase,lookingparticularlygrimatsomefixedobjectintheroom,awayhealwayslookedwhenhenarratedanythingthatamusedhim。Whilehewasstillthinkingofthescenehehaddescribed,Graceroseandsaid,“Ihavetogoandhelpmymothernow,Mr。
Winterborne。”
“H’m!”heejaculated,turninghiseyessuddenlyuponher。
Sherepeatedherwordswithaslightblushofawkwardness;
whereuponGiles,becomingsuddenlyconscious,tooconscious,jumpedup,saying,“Tobesure,tobesure!”wishedthemquicklygood-morning,andboltedoutofthehouse。
Neverthelesshehad,uponthewhole,strengthenedhisposition,withheratleast。Time,too,wasonhisside,forasherfathersawwithsomeregretalreadythehomelinessofHintocklifewasfastbecomingeffacedfromherobservationasasingularity;justasthefirststrangenessofafacefromwhichwehaveforyearsbeenseparatedinsensiblypassesoffwithrenewedintercourse,andtonesitselfdownintosimpleidentitywiththelineamentsofthepast。
ThusMr。Melburywentoutofthehousestillunreconciledtothesacrificeofthegemhehadbeenatsuchpainsinmounting。Hefaincouldhope,inthesecretnetherchamberofhismind,thatsomethingwouldhappen,beforethebalanceofherfeelinghadquiteturnedinWinterborne’sfavor,torelievehisconscienceandpreserveheronherelevatedplane。
HecouldnotforgetthatMrs。Charmondhadapparentlyabandonedallinterestinhisdaughterassuddenlyasshehadconceivedit,andwasasfirmlyconvincedaseverthatthecomradeshipwhichGracehadshownwithGilesandhiscrewbyattendinghispartyhadbeenthecause。
Matterslingeredonthus。Andthen,asahoopbygentleknocksonthissideandonthatismadetotravelinspecificdirections,thelittletouchesofcircumstanceinthelifeofthisyounggirlshapedthecurvesofhercareer。
Itwasadayofratherbrightweatherfortheseason。MissMelburywentoutforamorningwalk,andherever-regardfulfather,havinganhour’sleisure,offeredtowalkwithher。Thebreezewasfreshandquitesteady,filteringitselfthroughthedenudedmassoftwigswithoutswayingthem,butmakingthepointofeachivy-leafonthetrunksscratchitsunderlyingneighborrestlessly。Grace’slipssuckedinthisnativeairofherslikemilk。Theysoonreachedaplacewherethewoodrandownintoacorner,andwentoutsideittowardscomparativelyopenground。
Havinglookedroundabout,theywereintendingtore-enterthecopsewhenafoxquietlyemergedwithadraggingbrush,trottedpastthemtamelyasadomesticcat,anddisappearedamidsomedeadfern。Theywalkedon,herfathermerelyobserving,afterwatchingtheanimal,“Theyarehuntingsomewherenear。”
Fartheruptheysawinthemid-distancethehoundsrunninghitherandthither,asiftherewerelittleornoscentthatday。Soondiversmembersofthehuntappearedonthescene,anditwasevidentfromtheirmovementsthatthechasehadbeenstultifiedbygeneralpuzzle-headednessastothewhereaboutsoftheintendedvictim。Inaminuteafarmerrodeuptothetwopedestrians,pantingwithacteonicexcitement,andGracebeingafewstepsinadvance,headdressedher,askingifshehadseenthefox。
“Yes。”saidshe。“Wesawhimsometimeago——justoutthere。”
“DidyoucryHalloo?”
“Wesaidnothing。”
“Thenwhythed——didn’tyou,orgettheoldbuffertodoitforyou?”saidtheman,ashecanteredaway。
Shelookedratherdisconcertedatthisreply,andobservingherfather’sface,sawthatitwasquitered。
“Heoughtnottohavespokentoyelikethat!”saidtheoldman,inthetoneofonewhoseheartwasbruised,thoughitwasnotbytheepithetappliedtohimself。“Andhewouldn’tifhehadbeenagentleman。’Twasnotthelanguagetousetoawomanofanyniceness。You,sowellreadandcultivated——howcouldheexpectyetoknowwhattom-boyfield-folkareinthehabitofdoing?Ifsobeyouhadjustcomefromtrimmingswedesormangolds——jokingwiththeroughwork-folkandallthat——Icouldhavestoodit。Buthasn’titcostmenearahundredayeartoliftyououtofallthat,soastoshowanexampletotheneighborhoodofwhatawomancanbe?Grace,shallItellyouthesecretofit?’TwasbecauseI
wasinyourcompany。Ifablack-coatedsquireorpa’sonhadbeenwalkingwithyouinsteadofmehewouldn’thavespokenso。”
“No,no,father;there’snothinginyouroughorill-mannered!”
“Itellyouitisthat!I’venoticed,andI’venoticeditmanytimes,thatawomantakeshercolorfromthemanshe’swalkingwith。Thewomanwholooksanunquestionableladywhenshe’swithapolished-upfellow,looksameretawdryimitationarticlewhenshe’shobbingandnobbingwithahomelyblade。Yousha’n’tbetreatedlikethatforlong,oratleastyourchildrensha’n’t。
YoushallhavesomebodytowalkwithyouwholooksmoreofadandythanI——pleaseGodyoushall!”
“But,mydearfather。”shesaid,muchdistressed,“Idon’tmindatall。Idon’twishformorehonorthanIalreadyhave!”
“Aperplexingandticklishpossessionisadaughter。”accordingtoMenanderorsomeoldGreekpoet,andtonobodywasoneevermoresothantoMelbury,byreasonofherverydearnesstohim。AsforGrace,shebegantofeeltroubled;shedidnotperhapswishthereandthentounambitiouslydevoteherlifetoGilesWinterborne,butshewasconsciousofmoreandmoreuneasinessatthepossibilityofbeingthesocialhopeofthefamily。
“Youwouldliketohavemorehonor,ifitpleasesme?”askedherfather,incontinuationofthesubject。
Despiteherfeelingsheassentedtothis。Hisreasoninghadnotbeenwithoutitsweightuponher。
“Grace。”hesaid,justbeforetheyhadreachedthehouse,“ifitcostsmemylifeyoushallmarrywell!To-dayhasshownmethatwhateverayoungwoman’sniceness,shestandsfornothingalone。
Youshallmarrywell。”
Hebreathedheavily,andhisbreathingwascaughtupbythebreeze,whichseemedtosighasoftremonstrance。
Shelookedcalmlyathim。“AndhowaboutMr。Winterborne?”sheasked。“Imentionit,father,notasamatterofsentiment,butasaquestionofkeepingfaith。”
Thetimber-merchant’seyesfellforamoment。“Idon’tknow——I
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