首页 >出版文学> The Varieties of Religious Experience>第9章
  [23]Example:“Natureisalwayssointeresting,underwhateveraspectsheshowsherself,thatwhenitrains,Iseemtoseeabeautifulwomanweeping。Sheappearsthemorebeautiful,themoreafflictedsheis。”B。deSt。Pierre。
  AsregardstheoriginoftheGreekgods,weneednotatpresentseekanopinion。Butthewholearrayofourinstancesleadstoaconclusionsomethinglikethis:Itisasiftherewereinthehumanconsciousnessasenseofreality,afeelingofobjectivepresence,aperceptionofwhatwemaycall“somethingthere。”
  moredeepandmoregeneralthananyofthespecialandparticular“senses“bywhichthecurrentpsychologysupposesexistentrealitiestobeoriginallyrevealed。Ifthiswereso,wemightsupposethesensestowakenourattitudesandconductastheysohabituallydo,byfirstexcitingthissenseofreality;butanythingelse,anyidea,forexample,thatmightsimilarlyexciteit,wouldhavethatsameprerogativeofappearingrealwhichobjectsofsensenormallypossess。Sofarasreligiousconceptionswereabletotouchthisreality-feeling,theywouldbebelievedininspiteofcriticism,eventhoughtheymightbesovagueandremoteastobealmostunimaginable,eventhoughtheymightbesuchnon-entitiesinpointofWHATNESS,asKantmakestheobjectsofhismoraltheologytobe。
  Themostcuriousproofsoftheexistenceofsuchanundifferentiatedsenseofrealityasthisarefoundinexperiencesofhallucination。Itoftenhappensthatanhallucinationisimperfectlydeveloped:thepersonaffectedwillfeela“presence“intheroom,definitelylocalized,facinginoneparticularway,realinthemostemphaticsenseoftheword,oftencomingsuddenly,andassuddenlygone;andyetneitherseen,heard,touched,norcognizedinanyoftheusual“sensible“
  ways。Letmegiveyouanexampleofthis,beforeIpasstotheobjectswithwhosepresencereligionismorepeculiarlyconcerned。
  Anintimatefriendofmine,oneofthekeenestintellectsIknow,hashadseveralexperiencesofthissort。Hewritesasfollowsinresponsetomyinquiries:——
  “Ihaveseveraltimeswithinthepastfewyearsfelttheso-
  called’consciousnessofapresence。’TheexperienceswhichI
  haveinmindareclearlydistinguishablefromanotherkindofexperiencewhichIhavehadveryfrequently,andwhichIfancymanypersonswouldalsocallthe’consciousnessofapresence。’
  ButthedifferenceformebetweenthetwosetsofexperienceisasgreatasthedifferencebetweenfeelingaslightwarmthoriginatingIknownotwhere,andstandinginthemidstofaconflagrationwithalltheordinarysensesalert。
  “ItwasaboutSeptember,1884,whenIhadthefirstexperience。
  OnthepreviousnightIhadhad,aftergettingintobedatmyroomsinCollege,avividtactilehallucinationofbeinggraspedbythearm,whichmademegetupandsearchtheroomforanintruder;butthesenseofpresenceproperlysocalledcameonthenextnight。AfterIhadgotintobedandblownoutthecandle,Ilayawakeawhilethinkingonthepreviousnight’sexperience,whensuddenlyIFELTsomethingcomeintotheroomandstayclosetomybed。Itremainedonlyaminuteortwo。Ididnotrecognizeitbyanyordinarysenseandyettherewasahorriblyunpleasant’sensation’connectedwithit。Itstirredsomethingmoreattherootsofmybeingthananyordinaryperception。Thefeelinghadsomethingofthequalityofaverylargetearingvitalpainspreadingchieflyoverthechest,butwithintheorganism——andyetthefeelingwasnotPAINsomuchasABHORRENCE。Atallevents,somethingwaspresentwithme,andI
  knewitspresencefarmoresurelythanIhaveeverknownthepresenceofanyfleshlylivingcreature。Iwasconsciousofitsdepartureasofitscoming:analmostinstantaneouslyswiftgoingthroughthedoor,andthe’horriblesensation’disappeared。
  “OnthethirdnightwhenIretiredmymindwasabsorbedinsomelectureswhichIwaspreparing,andIwasstillabsorbedinthesewhenIbecameawareoftheactualpresencethoughnotoftheCOMINGofthethingthatwastherethenightbefore,andofthe’horriblesensation。’Ithenmentallyconcentratedallmyefforttochargethis’thing,’ifitwaseviltodepart,ifitwasNOT
  evil,totellmewhoorwhatitwas,andifitcouldnotexplainitself,togo,andthatIwouldcompelittogo。Itwentasonthepreviousnight,andmybodyquicklyrecovereditsnormalstate。
  “OntwootheroccasionsinmylifeIhavehadpreciselythesame’horriblesensation。’Onceitlastedafullquarterofanhour。
  InallthreeinstancesthecertaintythatthereinoutwardspacetherestoodSOMETHINGwasindescribablySTRONGERthantheordinarycertaintyofcompanionshipwhenweareintheclosepresenceofordinarylivingpeople。Thesomethingseemedclosetome,andintenselymorerealthananyordinaryperception。
  AlthoughIfeltittobelikeuntomyselfsotospeak,orfinite,small,anddistressful,asitwere,Ididn’trecognizeitasanyindividualbeingorperson。”
  Ofcoursesuchanexperienceasthisdoesnotconnectitselfwiththereligioussphere。Yetitmayuponoccasiondoso;andthesamecorrespondentinformsmethatatmorethanoneotherconjuncturehehadthesenseofpresencedevelopedwithequalintensityandabruptness,onlythenitwasfilledwithaqualityofjoy。
  “Therewasnotamereconsciousnessofsomethingthere,butfusedinthecentralhappinessofit,astartlingawarenessofsomeineffablegood。Notvagueeither,notliketheemotionaleffectofsomepoem,orscene,orblossom,ofmusic,butthesureknowledgeoftheclosepresenceofasortofmightyperson,andafteritwent,thememorypersistedastheoneperceptionofreality。Everythingelsemightbeadream,butnotthat。”
  Myfriend,asitoddlyhappens,doesnotinterprettheselatterexperiencestheistically,assignifyingthepresenceofGod。Butitwouldclearlynothavebeenunnaturaltointerpretthemasarevelationofthedeity’sexistence。Whenwereachthesubjectofmysticism,weshallhavemuchmoretosayuponthishead。
  Lesttheoddityofthesephenomenashoulddisconcertyou,Iwillventuretoreadyouacoupleofsimilarnarratives,muchshorter,merelytoshowthatwearedealingwithawell-markednaturalkindoffact。Inthefirstcase,whichItakefromtheJournaloftheSocietyforPsychicalResearch,thesenseofpresencedevelopedinafewmomentsintoadistinctlyvisualizedhallucination——butIleavethatpartofthestoryout。
  “Ihadread。”thenarratorsays,“sometwentyminutesorso,wasthoroughlyabsorbedinthebook,mymindwasperfectlyquiet,andforthetimebeingmyfriendswerequiteforgotten,whensuddenlywithoutamoment’swarningmywholebeingseemedrousedtothehigheststateoftensionoraliveness,andIwasaware,withanintensenessnoteasilyimaginedbythosewhohadneverexperiencedit,thatanotherbeingorpresencewasnotonlyintheroom,butquiteclosetome。Iputmybookdown,andalthoughmyexcitementwasgreat,Ifeltquitecollected,andnotconsciousofanysenseoffear。Withoutchangingmyposition,andlookingstraightatthefire,IknewsomehowthatmyfriendA。H。wasstandingatmyleftelbowbutsofarbehindmeastobehiddenbythearmchairinwhichIwasleaningback。Movingmyeyesroundslightlywithoutotherwisechangingmyposition,thelowerportionofonelegbecamevisible,andIinstantlyrecognizedthegray-bluematerialoftrousersheoftenwore,butthestuffappearedsemitransparent,remindingmeoftobaccosmokeinconsistency。”[24]——andhereuponthevisualhallucinationcame。
  [24]JournaloftheS。P。R。,February,1895,p。26。
  Anotherinformantwrites:——
  “QuiteearlyinthenightIwasawakened……IfeltasifI
  hadbeenarousedintentionally,andatfirstthoughtsomeonewasbreakingintothehouse……Ithenturnedonmysidetogotosleepagain,andimmediatelyfeltaconsciousnessofapresenceintheroom,andsingulartostate,itwasnottheconsciousnessofaliveperson,butofaspiritualpresence。Thismayprovokeasmile,butIcanonlytellyouthefactsastheyoccurredtome。IdonotknowhowtobetterdescribemysensationsthanbysimplystatingthatIfeltaconsciousnessofaspiritualpresence……Ifeltalsoatthesametimeastrongfeelingofsuperstitiousdread,asifsomethingstrangeandfearfulwereabouttohappen。”[25]
  [25]E。Gurney:PhantasmsoftheLiving,i。384。
  ProfessorFlournoyofGenevagivesmethefollowingtestimonyofafriendofhis,alady,whohasthegiftofautomaticorinvoluntarywriting:——
  “WheneverIpracticeautomaticwriting,whatmakesmefeelthatitisnotduetoasubconsciousselfisthefeelingIalwayshaveofaforeignpresence,externaltomybody。ItissometimessodefinitelycharacterizedthatIcouldpointtoitsexactposition。Thisimpressionofpresenceisimpossibletodescribe。
  Itvariesinintensityandclearnessaccordingtothepersonalityfromwhomthewritingprofessestocome。IfitissomeonewhomIlove,Ifeelitimmediately,beforeanywritinghascome。Myheartseemstorecognizeit。”
  InanearlierbookofmineIhavecitedatfulllengthacuriouscaseofpresencefeltbyablindman。Thepresencewasthatofthefigureofagray-beardedmandressedinapepperandsaltsuit,squeezinghimselfunderthecrackofthedoorandmovingacrosstheflooroftheroomtowardsasofa。Theblindsubjectofthisquasi-hallucinationisanexceptionallyintelligentreporter。Heisentirelywithoutinternalvisualimageryandcannotrepresentlightorcolorstohimself,andispositivethathisothersenses,hearing,etc。,werenotinvolvedinthisfalseperception。Itseemstohavebeenanabstractconceptionrather,withthefeelingsofrealityandspatialoutwardnessdirectlyattachedtoit——inotherwords,afullyobjectifiedandexteriorizedIDEA。
  Suchcases,takenalongwithotherswhichwouldbetootediousforquotation,seemsufficientlytoprovetheexistenceinourmentalmachineryofasenseofpresentrealitymorediffusedandgeneralthanthatwhichourspecialsensesyield。Forthepsychologiststhetracingoftheorganicseatofsuchafeelingwouldformaprettyproblem——nothingcouldbemorenaturalthantoconnectitwiththemuscularsense,withthefeelingthatourmuscleswereinnervatingthemselvesforaction。Whatsoeverthusinnervatedouractivity,or“madeourfleshcreep“——oursensesarewhatdosooftenest——mightthenappearrealandpresent,eventhoughitwerebutanabstractidea。Butwithsuchvagueconjectureswehavenoconcernatpresent,forourinterestlieswiththefacultyratherthanwithitsorganicseat。
  Likeallpositiveaffectionsofconsciousness,thesenseofrealityhasitsnegativecounterpartintheshapeofafeelingofunrealitybywhichpersonsmaybehaunted,andofwhichonesometimeshearscomplaint:——
  “WhenIreflectonthefactthatIhavemademyappearancebyaccidentuponaglobeitselfwhirledthroughspaceasthesportofthecatastrophesoftheheavens。”saysMadameAckermann;“whenIseemyselfsurroundedbybeingsasephemeralandincomprehensibleasIammyself,andallexcitedlypursuingpurechimeras,Iexperienceastrangefeelingofbeinginadream。ItseemstomeasifIhavelovedandsufferedandthaterelongI
  shalldie,inadream。Mylastwordwillbe,’Ihavebeendreaming。’“[26]
  [26]Penseesd’unSolitaire,p。66。
  Inanotherlectureweshallseehowinmorbidmelancholythissenseoftheunrealityofthingsmaybecomeacarkingpain,andevenleadtosuicide。
  Wemaynowlayitdownascertainthatinthedistinctivelyreligioussphereofexperience,manypersonshowmanywecannottellpossesstheobjectsoftheirbelief,notintheformofmereconceptionswhichtheirintellectacceptsastrue,butratherintheformofquasi-sensiblerealitiesdirectlyapprehended。Ashissenseoftherealpresenceoftheseobjectsfluctuates,sothebelieveralternatesbetweenwarmthandcoldnessinhisfaith。Otherexampleswillbringthishometoonebetterthanabstractdescription,soIproceedimmediatelytocitesome。Thefirstexampleisanegativeone,deploringthelossofthesenseinquestion。Ihaveextracteditfromanaccountgivenmebyascientificmanofmyacquaintance,ofhisreligiouslife。Itseemstometoshowclearlythatthefeelingofrealitymaybesomethingmorelikeasensationthananintellectualoperationproperlyso-called。
  “BetweentwentyandthirtyIgraduallybecamemoreandmoreagnosticandirreligious,yetIcannotsaythatIeverlostthat’indefiniteconsciousness’whichHerbertSpencerdescribessowell,ofanAbsoluteRealitybehindphenomena。FormethisRealitywasnotthepureUnknowableofSpencer’sphilosophy,foralthoughIhadceasedmychildishprayerstoGod,andneverprayedtoITinaformalmanner,yetmymorerecentexperienceshowsmetohavebeeninarelationtoITwhichpracticallywasthesamethingasprayer。WheneverIhadanytrouble,especiallywhenIhadconflictwithotherpeople,eitherdomesticallyorinthewayofbusiness,orwhenIwasdepressedinspiritsoranxiousaboutaffairs,InowrecognizethatIusedtofallbackforsupportuponthiscuriousrelationIfeltmyselftobeintothisfundamentalcosmicalIT。Itwasonmyside,orIwasonItsside,howeveryoupleasetotermit,intheparticulartrouble,anditalwaysstrengthenedmeandseemedtogivemeendlessvitalitytofeelitsunderlyingandsupportingpresence。Infact,itwasanunfailingfountainoflivingjustice,truth,andstrength,towhichIinstinctivelyturnedattimesofweakness,anditalwaysbroughtmeout。IknownowthatitwasapersonalrelationIwasintoit,becauseoflateyearsthepowerofcommunicatingwithithasleftme,andIamconsciousofaperfectlydefiniteloss。IusednevertofailtofinditwhenI