CHAPTERXXIII
ADAWNOFRAIN
ThatcrashoftheclosingdoordidnotawakeBeatriceonly;itawokebothElizabethandMr。Granger。Elizabethsatupinbedstraininghereyesthroughthegloomtoseewhathadhappened。TheyfellonBeatrice’sbed——surely——surely——
Elizabethslippedup,cat-likeshecreptacrosstheroomandfeltwithherhandatthebed。Beatricewasnotthere。Shesprangtotheblindanddrewit,lettinginsuchlightastherewas,andbyitsearchedtheroom。Shespoke:“Beatrice,whereareyou?”
Noanswer。
“Ah——h。”saidElizabethaloud;“Iunderstand。Atlast——atlast!“
Whatshouldseedo?Shouldshegoandcallherfatherandputthemtoanopenshame?No。Beatricemustcomebacksometime。Theknowledgewasenough;shewantedtheknowledgetouseifnecessary。Shedidnotwishtoruinhersisterunlessinself-defence,orrather,forthecauseofself-advancement。StilllessdidshewishtoinjureGeoffrey,againstwhomshehadnogrudge。Soshepeepedalongthepassage,thenreturning,creptbacktoherbedlikeasnakeintoaholeandwatched。
Mr。Granger,hearingthecrash,thoughtthatthefrontdoorhadblownopen。Rising,helitacandleandwenttosee。
ButofallthisGeoffreyknewnothing,andBeatricenaturallylessthannothing。
Shelaysenselessinhisarms,herheadrestedonhisshoulder,herheavyhairstreameddownhissidealmosttohisknee。Heliftedher,touchedherontheforeheadwithhislipsandlaidheronthebed。
Whatwastobedone?Bringherbacktolife?No,hedarednot——nothere。Whileshelaythusherhelplessnessprotectedher;butifoncemoreshewasaliving,lovingwomanhereandso——oh,howshouldtheyescape?Hedarednottouchherorlooktowardsher——tillhehadmadeuphismind。Itwassoondone。Hereshemustnotbide,andsinceofherselfshecouldnotgo,whyhemusttakehernow,thismoment!
HoweverfarGeoffreyfellshortofvirtue’sstricterstandard,letthisalwaysberememberedinhisfavour。
Heopenedthedoor,andashedidso,thoughtthatheheardsomeonestirringinthehouse。Andsohedid;itwasMr。Grangerinthesitting-room。Hearingnomore,Geoffreyconcludedthatitwasthewind,andturning,gropedhiswaytothebedwhereBeatricelayasstillasdeath。Foronemomentahorriblefearstruckhimthatshemightbedead。Hehadheardofcasesofsomnambulistswho,onbeingstartledfromtheirunnaturalsleep,onlywoketodie。Itmightbesowithher。Hurriedlyheplacedhishanduponherbreast。Yes,herheartstirred——faintlyindeed,butstillitstirred。Shehadonlyswooned。
Thenhesethisteeth,andplacinghisarmsabouther,liftedherasthoughshewereababe。Beatricewasnoslipofagirl,butawell-
grownwomanoffullsize。Heneverfeltherweight;itseemednothingtohim。Stealthilyasonebentonmidnightmurder,hesteppedwithhertothedoorandthroughitintothepassage。Thensupportingherwithonearm,heclosedthedoorwithhislefthand。Stealthilyinthegloomhepassedalongthecorridor,hisbarefeetmakingnonoiseupontheboardedfloor,tillhereachedthebisectingpassageleadingfromthesitting-rooms。
Heglancedupitapprehensively,andwhathesawfrozethebloodinhisveins,fortherecomingdownit,noteightpacesfromhim,wasMr。
Granger,holdingacandleinhishand。Whatcouldbedone?Togetbacktohisroomwasimpossible——toreachthatofBeatricewasalsoimpossible。Withanefforthecollectedhisthoughts,andlikeaflashoflightitpassedintohismindthattheemptyroomwasnottwopacesfromhim。Astrideandhehadreachedit。Oh,wherewasthehandle?
andoh,iftheroomshouldbelocked!Byamercifulchanceitwasnot。
Hesteppedthroughthedoor,knockingBeatrice’sfeetagainsttheframeworkashedidso,closedit——toshutithehadnotime——andstoodgaspingbehindit。
Thegleamoflightdrewnearer。Mercifulpowers!hehadbeenseen——theoldmanwascomingin。Whatcouldhesay?Tellthetruth,thatwasall;butwhowouldbelievesuchastory?why,itwasonethatheshouldscarcelycaretoadvanceinacourtoflaw。Couldheexpectafathertobelieveit——afatherfindingamancrouchedlikeathiefbehindadooratthedeadofnightwithhislovelydaughtersenselessinhisarms?HehadalreadythoughtofgoingstraighttoMr。Granger,buthadabandonedtheideaashopeless。Whowouldbelievethistaleofsleep-walking?ForthefirsttimeinhislifeGeoffreyfeltterriblyafraid,bothforBeatriceandhimself;thehairroseonhishead,hisheartstoodstill,andacoldperspirationstartedontohisface。
“It’sveryodd。”heheardtheoldmanmuttertohimself;“IcouldalmostswearthatIsawsomethingwhitegointothatroom。Where’sthehandle?IfIbelievedinghosts——hullo!mycandlehasblownout!I
mustgoandhuntforamatch。Don’tquitelikegoingintherewithoutalight。”
Forthemomenttheyweresaved。Thefiercedraughtrushingthroughtheopencrackofthedoorfromtheill-fittingwindowhadextinguishedthecandle。
GeoffreywaitedafewsecondstoallowMr。Grangertoreachhisroom,andthenoncemorestartedonhisawfuljourney。Hepassedoutoftheroominsafety;happilyBeatriceshowednosignsofrecovery。Afewquickstepsandhewasatherowndoor。Andnowanewterrorseizedhim。WhatifElizabethwasalsowalkingthehouseorevenawake?HethoughtofputtingBeatricedownatthedoorandleavingherthere,butabandonedtheidea。Tobeginwith,herfathermightseeher,andthenhowcouldherpresencebeaccountedfor?orifhedidnot,shewouldcertainlysufferilleffectsfromthecold。No,hemustriskit,andatonce,thoughhewouldratherhavefacedabatteryofguns。Thedoorfortunatelywasajar。Geoffreyopeneditwithhisfoot,entered,andwithhisfootpushedittoagain。Suddenlyherememberedthathehadneverbeenintheroom,anddidnotknowwhichbedbelongedtoBeatrice。Hewalkedtothenearest;adeep-drawnbreathtoldhimthatitwasthewrongone。DrawingsomefaintconsolationfromthefactthatElizabethwasevidentlyasleep,hegropedhiswaytothesecondbedthroughthedeeptwilightoftheroom。Theclotheswerethrownback。HelaidBeatricedownandthrewthemoverher。Thenhefled。
AshereachedthedoorhesawMr。Granger’slightdisappearintohisownroomandheardhisdoorclose。Afterthatitseemedtohimthathetookbuttwostepsandwasinhisownplace。
Heburstoutlaughing;therewasasmuchhysteriainthelaughasamangiveswayto。Hisnerveswereshatteredbystruggle,loveandfear,andsoughtreliefinghastlymerriment。Somehowthewholesceneremindedhimofoneinacomicopera。Therewasaludicroussidetoit。Supposingthatthepoliticalopponents,whoalreadyhatedhimsobitterly,couldhaveseenhimslinkingfromdoortodooratmidnightwithanunconsciousladyinhisarms——whatwouldtheyhavesaid?
Heceasedlaughing;thefitpassed——indeeditwasnolaughingmatter。
Thenhethoughtofthefirstnightoftheirstrangecommunion,thatnightbeforehehadreturnedtoLondon。Theseedsowninthathourhadblossomedandbornefruitindeed。WhowouldhavedreameditpossiblethatheshouldthushavedrawnBeatricetohim?Well,heoughttohaveknown。Ifitwaspossiblethatthewordswhichfloatedthroughhermindcouldariseinhisastheyhaddoneuponthatnight,whatwasnotpossible?Andweretherenototherwords,writtenbythesamemaster-
hand,whichtoldofsuchthingsasthese:
“’Now——now,’thedoorisheard;
Hark,thestairs!andnear——
Nearer——andhere——
’Now’!andatcallthethird,Sheenterswithoutaword。
Likethedoorsofacasketshrine,Seeoneitherside,HertwoarmsdivideTilltheheartbetwixtmakessign,’Takeme,forIamthine。’
First,Iwillpray。DoThouThatownestthesoul,YetwiltgrantcontrolToanother,nordisallowForatime,restrainmenow!“
Didtheynotrunthus?Oh,heshouldhaveknown!Thishecouldplead,andthisonly——thatcontrolhadbeengrantedtohim。
ButhowwouldBeatricefare?Wouldshecometoherselfsafely?Hethoughtso,itwasonlyafaintingfit。Butwhenshedidrecover,whatwouldshedo?Nothingrash,heprayed。Andwhatcouldbetheendofitall?Whomightsay?Howfortunatethatthesisterhadbeensosoundasleep。SomehowhedidnottrustElizabeth——hefearedher。
WellmightGeoffreyfearher!Elizabeth’ssleepwasthatofaweasel。
Shetoowaslaughingatthisverymoment,laughing,notloudbutlong——thelaughofonewhowins。
Shehadseenhimenter,hisburdeninhisarms;sawhimcomewithittoherownbedside,andhadbreathedheavilytowarnhimofhismistake。ShehadwatchedhimputBeatriceonherbed,andheardhimsighandturnaway;nothinghadescapedher。Assoonashewasgone,shehadrisenandcreptuptoBeatrice,andfindingthatshewasonlyinafainthadlefthertorecover,knowinghertobeinnodanger。
Elizabethwasnotanervousperson。Thenshehadlistenedtillatlengthadeepsightoldherofthereturnofhersister’sconsciousness。Afterthistherewasapause,tillpresentlyBeatrice’slongsoftbreathsshowedthatshehadglidedfromswoontosleep。
Theslownightworeaway,andatlengththecolddawncreptthroughthewindow。Elizabethstillwatching,forshewasnotwillingtoloseasinglesceneofadramasoentrancinginitselfandsoimportanttoherinterests,sawhersistersuddenlysitupinbedandpressherhandstoherforehead,asthoughshewasstrivingtorecalladream。
ThenBeatricecoveredhereyeswithherhandsandgroanedheavily。
Nextshelookedatherwatch,rose,drankaglassofwater,anddressedherself,eventotheputtingonofanoldgreywaterproofwithahoodtoit,foritwaswetoutside。
“Sheisgoingtomeetherlover。”thoughtElizabeth。“IwishIcouldbetheretoseethattoo,butIhaveseenenough。”
Sheyawnedandappearedtowake。“What,Beatrice,goingoutalreadyinthispouringrain?”shesaid,withfeignedastonishment。
“Yes,IhavesleptbadlyandIwanttogetsomeair。”answeredBeatrice,startingandcolouring;“Isupposethatitwasthestorm。”
“Hastherebeenastorm?”saidElizabeth,yawningagain。“Iheardnothingofit——butthensomanythingshappenwhenoneisasleepofwhichoneknowsnothingatthetime。”sheaddedsleepily,likeonespeakingatrandom。“Mindthatyouarebacktosaygood-byetoMr。
Bingham;hegoesbytheearlytrain,youknow——butperhapsyouwillseehimoutwalking。”andappearingtowakeupthoroughly,sheraisedherselfinbedandgavehersisteronepiercinglook。
Beatricemadenoanswer;thatlooksentathrilloffearthroughher。
Oh;whathadhappened!Orwasitalladream?HadshedreamedthatshestoodfacetofacewithGeoffreyinhisroombeforeagreatdarknessstruckherandoverwhelmedher?Orwasitanawfultruth,andifatruth,howcameshehereagain?Shewenttothepantry,foundamorselofbreadandateit,forfaintnessstillpursuedher。Thenfeelingbetter,sheleftthehouseandsetherfacetowardsthebeach。
Itwasadrearymorning。Thegreatwindhadpassed;nowitonlyblewinlittlegustsheavywithdrivingrain。Theseawassullenandgreyandgrand。Itbeatinthunderontheshoreandflewoverthesunkenrocksincolumnsofleadenspray。Thewholeearthseemedonedesolation,andallitsgriefwascentredinthiswoman’sbrokenheart。
Geoffrey,too,wasup。Howhehadpassedtheremainderofthattragicnightweneednotinquire——nottoohappilywemaybesure。HeheardthefrontdoorclosebehindBeatrice,andfollowedoutintotherain。
Onthebeach,somehalfofamileaway,hefoundhergazingatthesea,agreatwhitegullwheelingaboutherhead。Nowordofgreetingpassedbetweenthem;theyonlygraspedeachother’shandsandlookedintoeachother’sholloweyes。
“Comeundertheshelterofthecliff。”hesaid,andshecame。Shestoodbeneaththecliff,herheadbowedlow,herfacehiddenbythehood,andspoke。
“Tellmewhathashappened。”shesaid;“Ihavedreamedsomething,aworsedreamthananythathavegonebefore——tellmeifitistrue。Donotspareme。”
AndGeoffreytoldherall。
Whenhehadfinishedshespokeagain。
“BywhatshallIswear。”shesaid,“thatIamnotthethingwhichyoumustthinkme?Geoffrey,IswearbymyloveforyouthatIaminnocent。IfIcame——oh,theshameofit!ifIcame——toyourroomlastnight,itwasmyfeetwhichledme,notmymindthatledmyfeet。I
wenttosleep,Iwaswornout,andthenIknewnomoretillIheardadreadfulsound,andsawyoubeforemeinablazeoflight,afterwhichtherewasdarkness。”
“Oh,Beatrice,donotbedistressed。”heanswered。“Isawthatyouwereasleep。Itisadreadfulthingwhichhashappened,butIdonotthinkthatwewereseen。”
“Idonotknow。”shesaid。“Elizabethlookedatmeverystrangelythismorning,andsheseeseverything。Geoffrey,formypart,Ineitherknownorcare。WhatIdocareforis,whatmust/you/thinkofme?Youmustbelieve,oh!——Icannotsayit。AndyetIaminnocent。Never,neverdidIdreamofthis。Tocometoyou——thus——oh,itisshameless!“
“Beatrice,donottalkso。ItellyouIknowit。Listen——Idrewyou。I
didnotmeanthatyoushouldcome。Ididnotthinkthatyouwouldcome,butitwasmydoing。Listentome,dear。”andhetoldherthatwhichwrittenwordscanillexpress。
Whenhehadfinished,shelookedup,withanotherface;thedeepshadowofhershamehadlefther。“Ibelieveyou,Geoffrey。”shesaid,“becauseIknowthatyouhavenotinventedthistoshieldme,forI
havefeltitalso。Seebyitwhatyouaretome。Youaremymasterandmyall。IcannotwithstandyouifIwould。Ihavelittlewillapartfromyoursifyouchoosetogainsaymine。Andnowpromisemethisuponyourword。Leavemeuninfluenced;donotdrawmetoyoutobeyourruin。Imakenopretence,Ihavelaidmylifeatyourfeet,butwhileIhaveanystrengthtostruggleagainstit,youshallnevertakeitupunlessyoucandosotoyourownhonour,andthatisnotpossible。Oh,mydear,wemighthavebeenveryhappytogether,happierthanmenandwomenoftenare,butitisdeniedtous。Wemustcarryourcross,wemustcrucifythefleshuponit;perhapsso——whocansay?——wemayglorifythespirit。Ioweyouagreatdeal。Ihavelearntmuchfromyou,Geoffrey。IhavelearnedtohopeagainforaHereafter。Nothingislefttomenow——butthat——thatandanhourhence——yourmemory。
“Oh,whyshouldIweep?Itisungrateful,whenIhaveyourlove,forwhichthismiseryisbutalittlepricetopay。Kissme,dear,andgo——andneverseememore。Youwillnotforgetme,Iknownowthatyouwill/never/forgetmeallyourlife。Afterwards——perhaps——whocantell?Ifnot,whythen——itwillindeedbebest——todie。”
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Itisnotwelltolingeroversuchasceneasthis。Afterall,too,itisnothing。Onlyanotherbrokenheartorso。Theworldbreakssomanythiswayandtheotherthatitcanhavelittlepleasureingloatingoversuchstalescenesofagony。
Besideswemustnotletoursympathiescarryusaway。GeoffreyandBeatricedeservedalltheygot;theyhadnobusinesstoputthemselvesintosuchaposition。Theyhaddefiedthecustomsoftheirworld,andtheworldavengeditselfuponthemandtheirpettypassions。Whathappenstothewormthattriestoburrowonthehighways?Grindingwheelsandcrushingfeet;theseareitsportion。BeatriceandGeoffreypointamoralandadornatale。Sofaraswecanseeandjudgetherewasnoneedforthemtohaveplungedintothatever-runningriverofhumanpain。Letthemstruggleanddrown,andletthosewhoareonthebanklearnwisdomfromthesight,andholdoutnohandtohelpthem。
Geoffreydrewaringfromhisfingerandgaveittohislove。Itwasacommonflat-sidedsilverringthathadbeentakenfromthegraveofaRomansoldier:onepeculiarityithad,however;onitsinnersurfacewereroughlycutthewords,“aveatquevale。”Greetingandfarewell!
Itwasafittinggifttopassbetweenpeopleintheirposition。
Beatrice,tremblingsorely,whisperedthatshewouldwearitonherheart,uponherhandshecouldnotputityetawhile——itmightberecognised。
Thenthricedidtheyembracethereuponthedesolateshore,once,asitwere,forpastjoy,onceforpresentpain,andonceforfuturehope,andparted。Therewasnotalkofaftermeetings——theyfeltthemtobeimpossible,atanyrateformanyyears。Howcouldtheymeetasindifferentfriends?Toomuchtheylovedforthat。Itwasafinalparting,thanwhichdeathhadbeenlessdreadful——forHopesitseverbythebedofdeath——andmiserycrushedthemtotheearth。
Helefther,andhappinesswentoutofhislifeasatnightfallthedaylightgoesoutoftheday。Well,atleasthehadhisworktogoto。
ButBeatrice,poorwoman,whathadshe?
Geoffreylefther。Whenhehadgonesomethirtypacesheturnedagainandgazedhislastuponher。Thereshestoodorratherleant,herhandrestingagainstthewetrock,lookingafterhimwithherwidegreyeyes。Eventhroughthedrizzlingrainhecouldseethegleamofherrichhair,themarkingofherlovelyface,andthecarmineofherlips。Shemotionedtohimtogoon。Hewent,andwhenhehadtraversedahundredpaceslookedroundoncemore。Shewasstillthere,butnowherfacewasablur,andagainthegreatwhitegullhoveredaboutherhead。
Thenthemistsweptupandhidher。
Ah,Beatrice,withallyourbrainsyoucouldneverlearnthosesimpleprinciplesnecessarytothehappinessofwoman;principlesinheritedthroughathousandgenerationsofsavageandsemi-civilizedancestresses。Toacceptthesituationandthemasterthatsituationbringswithit——thisisthegoldenruleofwell-being。Nottoputoutthehandofyouraffectionfurtherthanyoucandrawitback,thisisanother,atleastnotuntilyouarequitesurethatitsobjectiswellwithinyourgrasp。Ifbymisfortune,ortheangeroftheFates,youareendowedwiththosedeeperqualities,thoseextremecapacitiesofself-sacrificingaffection,suchasruinedyourhappiness,Beatrice,keeptheminstock;donotexposethemtotheworld。Theworlddoesnotbelieveinthem;theyareinconvenientandundesirable;theyareevenimmoral。Whattheworldwants,andveryrightly,inapersonofyourattractivenessisquietdomesticityofcharacter,nottheexhibitionofattributeswhichthoughtheymightqualifyyoufortherankofheroineinaGreekdrama,arenowadaysonlylikelytoqualifyyouforthereprobationofsociety。
What?youwouldratherkeepyourlove,yourreprehensiblelovewhichnevercanbesatisfied,andbearitsslingsandarrows,anddiehuggingashadowtoyourheart,strainingyoureyesintothedarknessofthatbeyondwhitheryoushallgo——murmuringwithyourpalelipsthat/there/youwillfindreasonandfulfilment?Whyitisfolly。
Whatgroundhaveyoutosupposethatyouwillfindanythingofthesort?Goandtaketheopinionofsomescientificpersonofeminenceuponthisinfatuationofyoursandthosevaguevisionsofglorythatshallbe。Hewillexplainitclearlyenough,willshowyouthatyourloveitselfisnothingbutanaturalpassion,acting,inyourcase,onasingularlysensitiveandetherealisedorganism。Befrankwithhim,tellhimofyoursecrethopes。Hewillsmiletenderly,andshowyouhowthosealsoareanemanationfromacravingheart,andtheinnatesuperstitionsofmankind。Indeedhewilllaughandillustratetheabsurdityofthewholethingbyafewpungentexamplesofwhatwouldhappeniftheseearthlyaffectionscouldbecarriedbeyondthegrave。
Takewhatyoucan/now/willbetheburdenofhissong,andforgoodness’sakedonotwasteyourprecioushoursindreamsofaToBe。
Beatrice,theworlddoesnotwantyourspirituality。Itisnotaspiritualworld;ithasnoclearideasuponthesubject——itpaysitsreligiouspremiumandworksoffitsaspirationsatitsweeklychurchgoing,andwouldthinkthepersonafoolwhoattemptedtocarrytheoriesofcelestialunionintoanearthlyruleoflife。ItcansympathisewithLadyHonoria;itcanhardlysympathisewith/you/。
Andyetyouwillstillchoosethisbetterpart:youwillstill“liveandlove,andlose。”
“Withblindingtearsandpassionatebeseeching,Andoutstretchedarmsthroughemptysilencereaching。”
Then,Beatrice,haveyourwill,sowyourseedoftears,andtakeyourchance。Youmayfindthatyouwererightandtheworldlingswrong,andyoumayreapaharvestbeyondthegraspoftheirpoorimaginations。
Andifyoufindthattheyarerightand/you/arewrong,whatwillitmattertoyouwhosleep?Forofthisatleastyouaresure。Ifthereisnofutureforsuchearthlyloveasyours,thenindeedthereisnoneforthechildrenofthisworldandalltheirtroubling。
CHAPTERXXIV
LADYHONORIATAKESTHEFIELD
GeoffreyhurriedtotheVicaragetofetchhisbaggageandsaygood-
bye。Hehadnotimeforbreakfast,andhewasgladofit,forhecouldnothaveeatenamorseltosavehislife。HefoundElizabethandherfatherinthesitting-room。
“Why,wherehaveyoubeenthiswetmorning,Mr。Bingham?”saidMr。
Granger。
“IhavebeenforawalkwithMissBeatrice;sheiscominghomebythevillage。”heanswered。“Idon’tmindrain,andIwantedtogetasmuchfreshairasIcouldbeforeIgobacktothemill。Thankyou——onlyacupoftea——IwillgetsomethingtoeatasIgo。”
“Howkindofhim。”reflectedMr。Granger;“nodoubthehasbeenspeakingtoBeatriceagainaboutOwenDavies。”
“Oh,bytheway。”headdedaloud,“didyouhappentohearanybodymovinginthehouselastnight,Mr。Bingham,justwhenthestormwasatitsheight?FirstofalladoorslammedsoviolentlythatIgotuptoseewhatitwas,andasIcamedownthepassageIcouldalmosthaveswornthatIsawsomethingwhitegointothespareroom。ButmycandlewentoutandbythetimethatIhadfoundalighttherewasnothingtobeseen。”
“Aclearcaseofghosts。”saidGeoffreyindifferently。Itwasindeeda“caseofghosts。”andtheywould,hereflected,haunthimformanyaday。
“Howveryodd。”putinElizabethvivaciously,herkeeneyesfixedintentlyonhisface。“DoyouknowIthoughtthatItwicesawthedoorofourroomopenandshutinthemostmysteriousfashion。IthinkthatBeatricemusthavesomethingtodowithit;sheissouncannyinherways。”
Geoffreynevermovedamuscle,hewastrainedtokeephiscountenance。
Onlyhewonderedhowmuchthiswomanknew。Shemustbesilencedsomehow。
“Excusemeforchangingthesubject。”hesaid,“butmytimeisshort,andIhavenonetosparetohuntthe’VicarageGhost。’Bytheway,there’sagoodtitleforsomebody。Mr。Granger,IbelievethatImayspeakofbusinessmattersbeforeMissElizabeth?”
“Certainly,Mr。Bingham。”saidtheclergyman;“Elizabethismyrighthand,andhasthebestbusinessheadinBryngelly。”
Geoffreythoughtthatthiswasveryevident,andwenton。“Ionlywanttosaythis。Ifyougetintoanyfurtherdifficultieswithyourrascallytithe-payers,mindandletmeknow。IshallalwaysbegladtohelpyouwhileIcan。AndnowImustbegoing。”
Hespokethusfortworeasons。First,naturallyenough,hemeanttomakeithisbusinesstoprotectBeatricefromthepressureofpoverty,andwellknewthatitwouldbeuselesstoofferherdirectassistance。
Secondly,hewishedtoshowElizabeththatitwouldnotbetotheadvantageofherfamilytoquarrelwithhim。Ifshe/had/seenaghost,perhapsthisfactwouldmakeherreticentonthesubject。Hedidnotknowthatshewasplayingamuchbiggergameforherownhand,agameofwhichthestakeswerethousandsayear,andthatshewasmoreovermadwithjealousyandwhat,insuchawoman,mustpassforlove。
Elizabethmadenocommentonhisoffer,andbeforeMr。Granger’sprofusethankswerenearlyfinished,Geoffreywasgone。
ThreeweekspassedatBryngelly,andElizabethstillheldherhand。
Beatrice,paleandspiritless,wentaboutherdutiesasusual。
Elizabethneverspoketoherinanysensethatcouldawakenhersuspicions,andtheghoststorywas,orappearedtobe,prettywellforgotten。ButatlastaneventoccurredthatcausedElizabethtotakethefield。OnedayshemetOwenDavieswalkingalongthebeachinthesemi-insanewaywhichhenowaffected。Hestopped,and,withoutfurtherado,plungedintoconversation。
“Ican’tbearitanylonger。”hesaidwildly,throwinguphisarms。“I
sawheryesterday,andshecutmeshortbeforeIcouldspeakaword。I
haveprayedforpatienceanditwillnotcome,onlyaVoiceseemedtosaytomethatImustwaittendaysmore,tenshortdays,andthenBeatrice,mybeautifulBeatrice,wouldbemywifeatlast。”
“Ifyougooninthisway,Mr。Davies。”saidElizabethsharply,herheartfilledwithjealousanger,“youwillsoonbeoffyourhead。Areyounotashamedofyourselfformakingsuchafussaboutagirl’sprettyface?Ifyouwanttogetmarried,marrysomebodyelse。”
“Marrysomebodyelse。”hesaiddreamily;“Idon’tknowanybodyelsewhomIcouldmarryexceptyou,andyouarenotBeatrice。”
“No。”answeredElizabethangrily,“IshouldhopethatIhavemoresense,andifyouwantedtomarrymeyouwouldhavetosetaboutitinadifferentwayfromthis。IamnotBeatrice,thankHeaven,butIamhersister,andIwarnyouthatIknowmoreaboutherthanyoudo。AsafriendIwarnyoutobecareful。SupposingthatBeatricewerenotworthyofyou,youwouldnotwishtomarryher,wouldyou?”
NowOwenDavieswasatheartsomewhatafraidofElizabeth,likemostotherpeoplewhohadtheprivilegeofheracquaintance。Also,apartfrommattersconnectedwithhisinsanepassion,hewasveryfairlyshrewd。HesuspectedElizabethofsomething,hedidnotknowofwhat。
“No,no,ofcoursenot。”hesaid。“OfcourseIwouldnotmarryherifshewasnotfittobemywife——butImustknowthatfirst,beforeI
talkofmarryinganybodyelse。Goodafternoon,MissElizabeth。Itwillsoonbesettlednow;itcannotgoonmuchlongernow。Myprayerswillbeanswered,Iknowtheywill。”
“Youarerightthere,OwenDavies。”thoughtElizabeth,asshelookedafterhimwithineffablebitterness,nottosaycontempt。“Yourprayersshallbeansweredinawaythatwillastonishyou。YoushallnotmarryBeatrice,andyoushallmarry/me/。Thefishhasbeenonthelinelongenough,nowImustbegintopullin。”
CuriouslyenoughitneverreallyoccurredtoElizabeththatBeatriceherselfmightprovetobethetrueobstacletothemarriagesheplottedtoprevent。SheknewthathersisterwasfondofGeoffreyBingham,but,whenitcametothepointthatshewouldabsolutelyallowheraffectiontointerferewithsogloriousasuccessinlife,sheneverbelievedforonemoment。OfcourseshethoughtitwaspossiblethatifBeatricecouldgetpossessionofGeoffreyshemightprefertodoso,butfailinghim,judgingfromherownlowandvulgarstandard,ElizabethwasconvincedthatshewouldtakeOwen。Itdidnotseempossiblethatwhatwassopreciousinherowneyesmightbevaluelessandevenhatefultothoseofhersister。Asforthatlittlemidnightincident,well,itwasonethingandmarriagewasanother。
Peopleforgetsucheventswhentheymarry;sometimeseventheymarryinordertoforgetthem。
Yes,shemuststrike,buthow?Elizabethhadfeelingslikeotherpeople。Shedidnotmindruininghersisterandrival,butshewouldverymuchpreferitshouldnotbeknownthatherswasthehandtocutherdown。Ofcourse,iftheworstcametotheworst,shemustdoit。
Meanwhile,mightnotasubstitutebefound——somebodyinwhomtheactwouldseemnotoneofvengeance,butofvirtue?Ah!shehadit:LadyHonoria!Whocouldbebetterforsuchapurposethanthecruellyinjuredwife?Butthenhowshouldshecommunicatethefactstoherladyshipwithoutinvolvingherself?Againshehituponadevicemuchfavouredbysuchpeople——“unvieuxtrucmaistoujoursbon“——thepristineoneofananonymousletter,whichhasthestartlingmeritofnotcommittinganybodytoanything。Ananonymousletter,toallappearancewrittenbyaservant:itwastheverything!MostlikelyitwouldresultinasearchinginquirybyLadyHonoria,inwhicheventElizabeth,ofcourseagainstherwill,wouldbeforcedtosaywhatsheknew;almostcertainlyitwouldresultinaquarrelbetweenhusbandandwife,whichmightinducetheformertoshowhishand,oreventotakesomeopenstepasregardsBeatrice。ShewassorryforGeoffrey,againstwhomshehadnoillfeeling,butitcouldnotbehelped;hemustbesacrificed。
ThatveryeveningshewroteherletterandsentittobepostedbyanoldservantlivinginLondon。Itwasamaster-pieceinitsway,especiallyphonetically。Thispreciousepistle,whichwasmostexceedinglyillwritinalargecoarsehand,ranthus:
“MyLadi,——Myconsencedruvsmetoit,muchagainmywill。I’vetriedhard,myladi,nottospeek,firstacorseofmissB。asiheveknowedgoodandpeurandalsoforthesakesofyourevilusbandthatwulfinscheepscloathin。Butwhenithinkonyoumyladialorfullegelwifegudandvirtusandpeurandofthethingsasihevseenwhichisenuftobringablushtothefaceofastater,Iknowsitismyholydootytoriteyourladishippasfollers。YourladishippforgifmebutontheniteofwhittsundeylastMissB。Graingerwintaftermidniteintertheroomofyourbadusband——asIwastomishamthertose。Afterwardmorenoranhour,shecumoutainbeingcarred/inhisharmes/。Andifyourladishippdontbelievme,letyourladishippritetomisselizbeth,ashadthissamemisfortunetoseeasyourtrufrend,“TheRiter。”
InduecoursethischarmingcommunicationreachedLadyHonoria,bearingaLondonpost-mark。Shereadandre-readit,andsoonmastereditsmeaning。Then,afteranight’sthought,shetookthe“Riter’s“
adviceandwrotetoElizabeth,sendingheracopyoftheletterherown,vehementlyrepudiatingallbeliefinit,andaskingforareplythatshoulddissipatethisfoulslanderfromhermindforever。
Theanswercamebyreturn。Itwasshortandartful。
“DearLadyHonoriaBingham。”itran,“youmustforgivemeifI
declinetoanswerthequestionsinyourletter。Youwilleasilyunderstandthatbetweenadesiretopreserveasister’sreputationandanincapacitytobeappreciatedbyeveryChristiantospeakotherthanthetruth——itispossibleforapersontobeplacedinthemostcruelofpositions——apositionwhichIamsurewillcommandevenyoursympathy,thoughundersuchcircumstancesIhavelittlerighttoexpectanyfromawifebelievingherselftohavebeencruellywronged。Letmeaddthatnothingshortofthecompulsionofacourtoflawwillsufficetounsealmylipsastothedetailsofthecircumstanceswhichare,Itrust,misunderstoodalludedtointhemaliciousanonymousletterofwhichyouincloseacopy。”
Thatveryevening,astheFateswouldhaveit,LadyHonoriaandherhusbandhadaquarrel。Asusual,itwasaboutEffie,foronmostothersubjectstheypreservedanarmedneutrality。Itsdetailsneednotbeenteredinto,butatlastGeoffrey,whowasinasadlyirritableconditionofmind,fairlylosthistemper。
“Thefactis。”hesaid,“thatyouarenotfittolookafterthechild。
Youonlythinkofyourself,Honoria。”
Sheturnedonhimwithadangerouslookuponhercoldandhandsomeface。
“Becarefulwhatyousay,Geoffrey。ItisyouwhoarenotfittohavechargeofEffie。BecarefullestItakeherawayfromyoualtogether,asIcanifIlike。”
“Whatdoyoumeanbythatthreat?”heasked。
“Doyouwanttoknow?ThenIwilltellyou。Iunderstandenoughlawtobeawarethatawifecangetaseparationfromanunfaithfulhusband,andwhatismore,cantakeawayhischildren。”
“AgainIaskwhatyoumean。”saidGeoffrey,turningcoldwithanger。
“Imeanthis,Geoffrey。ThatWelshgirlisyourmistress。ShepassedthenightofWhit-Sundayinyourroom,andwascarriedfromitinyourarms。”
“Itisalie。”hesaid;“sheisnothingofthesort。Idonotknowwhogaveyouthisinformation,butitisaslanderouslie,andsomebodyshallsufferforit。”
“Nobodywillsufferforit,Geoffrey,becauseyouwillnotdaretostirthematterup——forthegirl’ssakeifnotforyourown。CanyoudenythatyouwereseencarryingherinyourarmsfromyourroomonWhit-Sundaynight?Canyoudenythatyouareinlovewithher?”
“AndsupposingthatIaminlovewithher,isittobewonderedat,seeinghowyoutreatmeandhavetreatedmeforyears?”heansweredfuriously。“Itisutterlyfalsetosaythatsheismymistress。”
“Youhavenotansweredmyquestion。”saidLadyHonoriawithasmileoftriumph。“Wereyouseencarryingthatwomaninyourarmsandfromyourroomatthedeadofnight?Ofcourseitmeantnothing,nothingatall。
Whowoulddaretoaspersethecharacterofthisperfect,lovely,andintellectualschoolmistress?Iamnotjealous,Geoffrey——“
“Ishouldthinknot,Honoria,seeinghowthingsare。”
“Iamnotjealous,Irepeat,butpleaseunderstandthatIwillnothavethisgoon,inyourowninterestsandmine。Why,whatafoolyoumustbe。Don’tyouknowthatamanwhohasrisen,asyouhave,hasahundredenemiesreadytospringonhimlikeapackofwolvesandtearhimtopieces?Whymanyevenofthosewhofawnuponyouandflatteryoutoyourface,hateyoubitterlyinsecret,becauseyouhavesucceededwheretheyhavefailed。Don’tyouknowalsothattherearepapershereinLondonwhichwouldgivehundredsofpoundsforthechanceofpublishingsuchascandalasthis,especiallyagainstapowerfulpoliticalopponent。Letitoncecomeoutthatthisobscuregirlisyourmistress——“
“Honoria,Itellyousheisnothingofthesort。ItistrueIcarriedherfrommyroominafaintingfit,butshecamethereinhersleep。”
LadyHonorialaughed。“Really,Geoffrey,Iwonderthatyouthinkitworthwhiletotellmesuchnonsense。Keepitforthedivorcecourt,ifeverwegetthere,andseewhatajurysaystoit。Lookhere;besensible。Iamnotamoralist,andIamnotgoingtoplaytheoutragedwifeunlessyouforcemetoit。Idonotmeantotakeanyfurthernoticeofthisinterestinglittletaleasagainstyou。Butifyougoonwithit,beware!Iwillnotbemadetolookafool。Ifyouaregoingtoberuinedyoucanberuinedbyyourself。Iwarnyoufrankly,thatatthefirstsignofit,Ishallputmyselfintherightbycommencingproceedingsagainstyou。Now,ofcourse,Iknowthis,thatintheeventofasmash,youwouldbegladenoughtoberidofmeinorderthatyoumightwelcomeyourdearBeatriceinmyplace。Buttherearetwothingstoremember:first,thatyoucouldnotmarryher,supposingyoutobeidiotenoughtowishtodoso,becauseIshouldonlygetajudicialseparation,andyouwouldstillhavetosupportme。Secondly,ifIgo,Effiegoeswithme,forIhavearighttoclaimheratlaw;andthatfact,mydearGeoffrey,makesmemistressofthesituation,becauseIdonotsupposethatyouwouldpartwithEffieevenforthesakeofMissBeatrice。AndnowIwillleaveyoutothinkitover。”
Andwithalittlenodshesailedoutoftheroom,completelyvictorious。Shewasindeed,reflectedGeoffrey,“mistressofthesituation。”Supposingthatshebroughtasuitagainsthimwherewouldhebe?Shemusthaveevidence,orshewouldnothaveknownthestory。
Thewholedramahadclearlybeenwitnessedbysomeone,probablyeitherbyElizabethortheservantgirl,andthatsomeonehadbetrayedittoHonoriaandpossiblytoothers。Thethoughtmadehimsick。Hewasamanoftheworld,andapracticallawyer,andthough,indeed,theywereinnocent,heknewthatunderthecircumstancesfewwouldbefoundtobelieveit。Attheverybesttheremustbeaterribleandshockingscandal,andBeatricewouldlosehergoodname。Heplacedhimselfinthepositionofcounselforthepetitionerinalikecase,andthoughthowhewouldcrushandcrumplesuchadefenceinhisaddresstothejury。Aprobabletaleforsooth!
Undoubtedly,too,Honoriawouldbeactingwiselyfromherpointofview。Publicsympathywouldbewithherthroughout。Heknewthat,asitwas,hewasbelievedgenerallytoowemuchofhissuccesstohishandsomeandhigh-bornwife。Nowitwouldbesaidthathehadusedherasaladderandthenthrownherover。Withallthis,however,hemightcope;hecouldevenbearwiththevulgarattacksofavulgarpress,andthegibesandjeersofhispoliticalandpersonalenemies,buttoloseEffiehecouldnotbear。Andifsuchacasewerebroughtagainsthimitwasalmostcertainthathewouldloseher,for,ifhewasworsted,custodyofthechildwouldbegiventotheinjuredwife。
ThentherewasBeatricetobeconsidered。ThesamemalicioustonguethathadrevealedthismattertoHonoriawouldprobablyrevealittotherestoftheworld,andevenifheescapedtheworstpenaltiesofoutragedmorality,theywouldcertainlybewreakeduponher。
Beatrice’sreputationwouldbeblasted,heremploymentlost,andherlifemadeaburdentoher。Yes,decidedly,Honoriahadthebestoftheposition;decidedly,also,shespokewordsofweightandcommonsense。
Whatwastobedone?Wastherenowayoutofit?AllthatnightasGeoffreysatintheHouse,hisarmsfoldedonhisbreast,andtoappearanceintentlylisteningtothelongharanguesoftheOpposition,thisquestionhauntedhim。Hearguedthesituationoutthiswayandthatway,tillatthelasthecametoaconclusion。Eitherhemustwaitforthescandaltoleakout,letBeatriceberuined,anddirecthiseffortstothesofteningofHonoria,andgenerallytoself-
preservation,orhemusttakethebullbythehorns,mustabandonhisgreatcareerandhiscountryandseekrefugeinanotherland,sayAmerica,takingBeatriceandEffiewithhim。Oncethechildwasoutofthejurisdiction,ofcoursenocourtcouldforceherfromhim。
Ofthetwocourses,eveninsofarashehimselfwasconcerned,whatbetweentheurgencyofthematterandtheunceasingpressureofhispassion,Geoffreyinclinedtothelatter。TherelationsbetweenhimselfandHonoriahadforyearsbeensostrained,sototallydifferentfromthosewhichshouldexistbetweenmanandwife,thattheygreatlymitigatedinhismindtheapparentiniquityofsuchastep。Norwouldhefeelmuchcompunctionatremovingthechildfromhermother,fortherewasnolovelostbetweenthetwo,andastimewentonheguessedshrewdlytherewouldbelessandless。Fortherest,hehadsomeseventeenthousandpoundsinhand;hewouldtakehalfandleaveHonoriahalf。Heknewthathecouldalwaysearnalivingwhereverhewent,andprobablymuchmorethanaliving,andofwhateverheearnedastrictmoietyshouldbepaidtoHonoria。Butfirstandaboveeverything,therewasBeatricetobeconsidered。Shemustbesaved,evenifheruinedhimselftosaveher。
LadyHonoria,itisscarcelynecessarytosay,hadlittleideathatshewasdrivingherhusbandtosuchdangerousanddeterminedcouncils。
ShewantedtofrightenGeoffrey,nottolosehimandallhemeanttoher;thiswasthelastthingthatshewouldwishtodo。ShedidnotgreatlycareabouttheBeatriceincident,buthershrewdcommonsensetoldherthatitmightwellbeusedasanenginetoruinthemall。
Thereforeshespokeasshedidspeak,thoughinrealitymatterswouldhavetobebadindeedbeforeshesoughttheaidofacourtoflaw,wheremanythingsconcerningherselfmightcometothelightofdaywhichshewouldprefertoleaveindarkness。
Nordidshestophere;shedeterminedtoattackGeoffrey’spositioninanotherway,namely,throughBeatriceherself。ForalongtimeHonoriahesitatedastothemethodofthisattack。Shehadsomeknowledgeoftheworldandofcharacter,andfromwhatsheknewofBeatriceshecametothesoundconclusionthatshewasnotawomantobethreatened,butratheronetobeappealedto。Soaftermuchthoughtshewrotetoherthus:——
“Astory,whichIstillhesitatetobelieve,hascometomebymeansofanonymousletters,astoyourconductwithmyhusband。I
donotwishtorepeatitnow,furtherthantosaythat,iftrue,itestablishescircumstanceswhichleavenodoubtastotheexistenceofrelationssointimatebetweenyouastoamounttoguilt。Itmaynotbetrueoritmay,inwhichlattereventIwishtosaythis:WithyourmoralityIhavenothingtodo;itisyouraffair。NordoIwishtopleadtoyouasaninjuredwifeortoreproachyou,fortherearethingstoowickedformerereproach。
ButIwillsaythis:ifthestoryistrue,Imustpresumethatyouhavesomeaffectionforthepartnerofyourshame。Iputmyselfoutofthequestion,andinthenameofthataffection,howeverguiltyitmaybe,Iaskyoutopushmattersnofurther。Todosowillbetobringitsobjecttoutterruin。/Ifyoucareforhim,severallconnectionwithhimutterlyandforever。/Otherwisehewilllivetocurseandhateyou。Shouldyouneglectthisadvice,andshouldthefactsthatIhaveheardbecomepublicproperty,I
warnyou,asIhavealreadywarnedhim,thatinself-preservationandforthesakeofself-respect,Ishallbeforcedtoappealtothelawformyremedy。Rememberthathiscareerisatstake,andthatinlosingitandmehewilllosealsohischild。Rememberthatifthiscomesaboutitwillbethrough/you/。Donotanswerthis,itwilldonogood,forIshallnaturallyputnofaithinyourprotestations,butifyouareinanywayormeasureguiltyofthisoffence,appealingtoyouasonewomantoanother,andforthesakeofthemanwhoisdeartoboth,Isaydoyourbesttoredeemtheevil,/bymakingallfurthercommunicationbetweenyourselfandhimanimpossibility/。H。B。”
Itwasacleverletter;LadyHonoriacouldnothavedevisedonemorepowerfultoworkonawomanlikeBeatrice。ThesamepostthattookittohertookanotherfromGeoffreyhimself。Itwaslong,thoughguarded,andneednotbequotedinitsentirety,butitputthewholepositionbeforeherinsomewhatveiledlanguage,andendedbysaying,“MarriageIcannotgiveyou,onlylife-longlove。Inothercircumstancestoofferthiswouldbeaninsult,butifthingsshouldbeasaIfear,itisworthyourconsideration。Idonotsaytoyou/come/,Isaycome/ifyouwish/。No,Beatrice,Iwillnotputthiscruelburdenofdecisionuponyou。Isay/come!/Idonotcommandyoutocome,becauseIpromisedtoleaveyouuninfluenced。ButIprayyoutodoso。Letusputanendtothiswretchedness,andcounttheworldwelllostasourpriceoflove。Come,dearestBeatrice——toleavemenomoretilldeath。Iputmylifeinyourhands;ifyoutakeitup,whatevertroubleyoumayhavetoface,youwillneverlosemyaffectionoresteem。Donotthinkofme,thinkofyourself。Youhavegivenmeyourloveasyouoncegavememylife。Iowesomethinginreturn;Icannotseeyoushamedandmakenoofferofreparation。
Indeed,sofarasIamconcerned,IshallthinkallIloseasnothingcomparedtowhatIgainingainingyou。Willyoucome?Ifso,wewillleavethiscountryandbeginafreshelsewhere。Afterall,itmatterslittle,andwillmatterlesswheneverythingissaidanddone。Mylifehasforyearsbeenbutasanunwholesomedream。Theonerealthing,theonehappythingthatIhavefoundinithasbeenourlove。Donotletusthrowitaway,Beatrice。”
Byreturnofposthereceivedthisanswerwritteninpencil。
“No,dearGeoffrey。Thingsmusttaketheircourse——B。”
Thatwasall。
CHAPTERXXV
ELIZABETHSHOWSHERTEETH
HardhadbeenBeatrice’shourssincethatgreymorningofseparation。
Shemustbearalltheinnerwretchednessofherlot;shemustconcealhergrief,mustsuffertheslingsandarrowsofElizabeth’ssharptongue,andstrivetokeepOwenDaviesatadistance。Indeed,asthedayswenton,thislasttaskgrewmoreandmoreportentous。Themanwasquiteunmanageable;hispassion,whichwashumiliatingandhatefultoBeatrice,becamethetalkoftheplace。Everybodyknewofit,exceptherfather,andevenhiseyesbegantobeopened。
Onenight——itwasthesameuponwhichGeoffreyandHonoriarespectivelyhadpostedtheirletterstoBeatrice——anybodylookingintothelittleroomatBryngellyCastle,whichserveditsownerforallpurposesexceptthatofsleeping,wouldhavewitnessedaverystrangesight。OwenDavieswaswalkingtoandfro——walkingrapidlywithwildeyesanddishevelledhair。Attheturnofeachlengthoftheapartmenthewouldhalt,andthrowinghisarmsintotheairejaculate:
“Oh,God,hearme,andgivememydesire!Oh,God,answerme!“
Fortwolonghoursthushewalkedandthuscriedaloud,tillatlengthhesankpantingandexhaustedintoachair。Suddenlyheraisedhishead,andappearedtolistenintently。
“TheVoice。”hesaidaloud;“theVoiceagain。Whatdoesitsay?
To-morrow,to-morrowImustspeak;andIshallwinher。”
Hesprangupwithashout,andoncemorebeganhiswildmarch。“Oh,Beatrice!“hesaid,“to-morrowyouwillpromisetomarryme;theVoicesaysso,andsoon,soon,perhapsinoneshortmonth,youwillbemyown——mineonly!GeoffreyBinghamshallnotcomebetweenusthen,forI
willwatchyoudayandnight。Youshallbemyvery,veryown——myownbeautifulBeatrice。”andhestretchedouthisarmsandclaspedattheemptyair——acrazyandunpleasantsighttosee。
Andsohewalkedandspoketillthedawnwasgreyintheeast。ThisoccurredontheFridaynight。ItwasonthefollowingmorningthatBeatrice,theunfortunateandinnocentobjectoftheseamorousinvocations,receivedthetwoletters。Shehadgonetothepost-officeonherwaytotheschool,onthechanceoftherebeinganotefromGeoffrey。Poorwoman,hislettersweretheonebrightthinginherlife。Frommotivesofprudencetheywerewrittenintheusualsemi-
formalstyle,butshewasquicktoreadbetweenthelines,and,moreover,theycamefromhisdearhand。
Therewasthelettersureenough,andanotherinawoman’swriting。
SherecognisedthehandasthatofLadyHonoria,whichshehadoftenseenonenvelopesdirectedtoGeoffrey,andathrilloffearshotthroughher。Shetooktheletters,andwalkingasquicklyasshecouldtotheschool,lockedherselfinherownlittleroom,foritwasnotyetnineo’clock,andlookedatthemwithagatheringterror。Whatwasinthem?WhydidLadyHonoriawritetoher?Whichshouldshereadfirst?InamomentBeatricehadmadeuphermind。Shewouldfacetheworstatonce。WithasetfacesheopenedLadyHonoria’sletter,unfoldedit,andread。Wealreadyknowitscontents。Ashermindgraspedthemherlipsgrewashywhite,andbythetimethatthehorriblethingwasdoneshewasnightofainting。
Anonymousletters!oh,whocouldhavedonethiscruelthing?
Elizabeth,itmustbeElizabeth,whosaweverything,andthusstabbedherintheback。Wasitpossiblethatherownsistercouldtreatherso?SheknewthatElizabethdislikedher;shecouldneverfathomthecause,stillsheknewthefact。Butifthiswereherdoing,thenshemusthateher,andmostbitterly;andwhathadshedonetoearnsuchhate?AndnowGeoffreywasindangeronheraccount,dangerofruin,andhowcouldshepreventit?Thiswasherfirstidea。Mostpeoplemighthaveturnedtotheirownpositionandbeencontenttoleavetheirlovertofighthisownbattle。ButBeatricethoughtlittleofherself。Hewasindanger,andhowcouldsheprotecthim?Whyhereintheletterwastheanswer!“Ifyoucareforhimseverallconnectionwithhimutterly,andforever。Otherwise,hewilllivetocurseandhateyou。”No,no!Geoffreywouldneverdothat。ButLadyHonoriawasquiteright;inhisinterest,forhissake,shemustseverallconnectionwithhim——severitutterlyandforever。Buthow——how?
Shethrusttheletterintoherdress——aviperwouldhavebeenamorewelcomeguest——andopenedGeoffrey’s。
Ittoldthesametale,butofferedadifferentsolution。Thetearsstartedtohereyesasshereadhisoffertotakehertohimforgoodandall,andgoawaywithhertobeginlifeafresh。ItseemedawonderfulthingtoBeatricethatheshouldbewillingtosacrificesomuchuponsuchaworthlessaltarasherlove——awonderfulandmostgenerousthing。Shepressedthesenselesspapertoherheart,thenkisseditagainandagain。Butsheneverthoughtofyieldingtothisgreattemptation,neverforonesecond。Heprayedhertocome,butthatshewouldnotdowhileherwillremained。What,/she/bringGeoffreytoruin?No,shehadratherstarveinthestreetsorperishbyslowtorture。Howcouldheeverthinkthatshewouldconsenttosuchascheme?Indeedsheneverwould;shehadbroughtenoughtroubleonhimalready。Butoh,sheblessedhimforthatletter。Howdeeplymustheloveherwhenhecouldoffertodothisforhersake!
Hark!thechildrenwerewaiting;shemustgoandteach。Theletter,Geoffrey’sdearletter,couldbeansweredintheafternoon。Soshethrustitinherbreastwiththeother,butclosertoherheart,andwent。
ThatafternoonasMr。Granger,inahappyframeofmind——forwerenothisdebtspaid,andhadhenotfoundamostconvenientwayofprovidingagainstfutureembarrassment?——wasengagedpeaceablyincontemplatinghisstockoverthegateofhislittlefarmbuildings,hewasmuchastonishedsuddenlytodiscoverOwenDaviesathiselbow。
“Howdoyoudo,Mr。Davies?”hesaid;“howquietlyyoumusthavecome。”
“Yes。”answeredOwenabsently。“Thefactis,IhavefollowedyoubecauseIwanttospeaktoyoualone——quitealone。”
“Indeed,Mr。Davies——well,Iamatyourservice。Whatiswrong?Youdon’tlookverywell。”
“Oh,Iamquitewell,thankyou。Ineverwasbetter;andthere’snothingwrong,nothingatall。Everythingisgoingtobebrightnow,I
knowthatfullsurely。”
“Indeed。”saidMr。Granger,againlookingathimwithapuzzledair,“andwhatmayyouwanttoseemeabout?NotbutwhatIamalwaysatyourservice,asyouknow。”headdedapologetically。
“This。”heanswered,suddenlyseizingtheclergymanbythecoatinawaythatmadehimstart。
“What——mycoat,doyoumean?”
“Don’tbesofoolish,Mr。Granger。No,aboutBeatrice。”
“Oh。indeed,Mr。Davies。Nothingwrongattheschool,Ihope?Ithinkthatshedoesherdutiestothesatisfactionofthecommittee,thoughIadmitthatthearithmetic——“
“No!no,no!Itisnotabouttheschool。Idon’twishhertogototheschoolanymore。Iloveher,Mr。Granger,Iloveherdearly,andI
wanttomarryher。”
Theoldmanflushedwithpleasure。Wasitpossible?Didheheararight?OwenDavies,therichestmaninthatpartofWales,wantedtomarryhisdaughter,whohadnothingbutherbeauty。Itmustbetoogoodtobetrue!
“Iamindeedflattered。”hesaid。“Itismorethanshecouldexpect——
notbutwhatBeatriceisverygood-lookingandveryclever。”headdedhastily,fearinglesthewasdetractingfromhisdaughter’smarketvalue。
“Good-looking——clever;sheisanangel。”murmuredOwen。
“Oh,yes,ofcoursesheis。”saidherfather,“thatis,ifawoman——
yes,ofcourse——andwhatismore,Ithinkshe’sveryfondofyou。I
thinksheispiningforyou。I’vethoughsoforalongtime。”
“Isshe?”saidOwenanxiously。“ThenallIhavetosayisthatshetakesaverycuriouswayofshowingit。Shewon’tsayawordtome;
sheputsmeoffoneveryoccasion。Butitwillbeallrightnow——allrightnow。”
“Oh,there,there,Mr。Davies,maidswillbemaidsuntiltheyarewives。Weknowaboutallthat。”saidMr。Grangersententiously。
Hiswould-beson-in-lawlookedasthoughheknewverylittleaboutitindeed,althoughtheinferencewassufficientlyobvious。
“Mr。Granger。”hesaid,seizinghishand,“IwanttomakeBeatricemywife——Idoindeed。”
“Well,Ididnotsupposeotherwise,Mr。Davies。”
“IfyouhelpmeinthisIwilldowhateveryoulikeastomoneymattersandthatsortofthing,youknow。SheshallhaveasfineasettlementasanywomaninWales。Iknowthatgoesalongwaywithafather,andIshallraisenodifficulties。”
“Veryrightandproper,Iamsure。”saidMr。Granger,adoptingaloftiertoneashediscoveredtheadvantagesofhisposition。“ButofcourseonsuchmattersIshalltaketheadviceofalawyer。IdaresaythatMr。Binghamwouldadviseme。”headded,“asafriendofthefamily,youknow。Heisaverycleverlawyer,and,besides,hewouldn’tchargeanything。”
“Oh,no,notMr。Bingham。”answeredOwenanxiously。“Iwilldoanythingyoulike,orifyouwishtohavealawyerI’llpaythebillmyself。Butnevermindaboutthatnow。LetussettleitwithBeatricefirst。Comealongatonce。”
“Eh,buthadn’tyoubetterarrangethatpartofthebusinessprivately?”
“No,no。ShealwayssnubsmewhenItrytospeaktoheralone。Youhadbetterbethere,andMissElizabethtoo,ifshelikes。Iwon’tspeaktoheragainalone。IwillspeaktoherinthefaceofGodandman,asGoddirectedmetodo,andthenitwillbeallright——Iknowitwill。”
Mr。Grangerstaredathim。Hewasaclergymanofaverypracticalsort,anddidnotquiteseewhatthePowerabovehadtodowithOwenDavies’smatrimonialintentions。
“Ah,well。”hesaid,“Iseewhatyoumean;marriagesaremadeinheaven;yes,ofcourse。Well,ifyouwanttogetonwiththematter,I
daresaythatweshallfindBeatricein。”
SotheywalkedbacktotheVicarage,Mr。Grangerexultantandyetperplexed,foritstruckhimthattherewassomethingalittleoddabouttheproceeding,andOwenDaviesinsilenceormutteringoccasionallytohimself。
Inthesitting-roomtheyfoundElizabeth。
“WhereisBeatrice?”askedherfather。
“Idon’tknow。”sheanswered,andatthatmomentBeatrice,paleandtroubled,walkedintotheroom,likealambtotheslaughter。
“Ah,Beatrice。”saidherfather,“wewerejustaskingforyou。”
Sheglancedround,andwiththequickwitofahumananimal,instantlyperceivedthatsomenewdangerthreatenedher。
“Indeed。”shesaid,sinkingintoachairinanaccessoffeeblenessbornoffear。“Whatisit,father?”
Mr。GrangerlookedatOwenDaviesandthentookasteptowardsthedoor。Itstruckhimforciblythatthissceneshouldbeprivatetothetwopersonsprincipallyconcerned。
“Don’tgo。”saidOwenDaviesexcitedly,“don’tgo,eitherofyou;whatIhavetosayhadbetterbesaidbeforeyouboth。Ishouldliketosayitbeforethewholeworld;tocryitfromthemountaintops。”
Elizabethglaredathimfiercely——glaredfirstathimandthenattheinnocentBeatrice。Couldhebegoingtoproposetoher,then?Ah,whyhadshehesitated?Whyhadshenottoldhimthewholetruthbefore?
ButtheheartofBeatrice,whosatmomentarilyexpectingtobepubliclydenounced,greweverfainter。Thewatersofdesolationwereclosinginoverhersoul。
Mr。Grangersatdownfirmlyandworkedhimselfintotheseatofhischair,asthoughtosecureanadditionalfixednessoftenure。
Elizabethsetherteeth,andleanedherelbowonthetable,holdingherhandsoastoshadeherface。Beatricedroopeduponherseatlikeafadinglily,oraprisonerinthedock。Shewasoppositetothem,andOwenDavies,hisfacealightwithwildenthusiasm,stoodupandaddressedthemalllikethecounselfortheprosecution。
“Lastautumn。”hebegan,speakingtoMr。Granger,whomighthavebeenajudgeuncertainastothemeritsofthecase,“IaskedyourdaughterBeatricetomarryme。”
Beatricegaveasigh,andcollectedherscatteredenergies。Thestormhadburstatlast,andshemustfaceit。
“Iaskedhertomarryme,andshetoldmetowaitayear。IhavewaitedaslongasIcould,butIcouldnotwaitthewholeyear。Ihaveprayedagreatdeal,andIambiddentospeak。”
Elizabethmadeagestureofimpatience。Shewasapersonofstrongcommonsense,andthismixtureofreligionanderoticismdisgustedher。Shealsoknowthatthestormhadburst,andthat/she/mustfaceit。
“SoIcometotellyouthatIloveyourdaughterBeatrice,andwanttomakehermywife。Ihaveneverlovedanybodyelse,butIhavelovedherforyears;andIaskyourconsent。”
“Veryflattering,veryflattering,Iamsure,especiallyinthesehardtimes。”saidMr。Grangerapologetically,shakinghisthinhairdownoverhisforehead,andthenrumplingitupagain。“Butyousee,Mr。
Davies,youdon’twanttomarryme“hereBeatricesmiledfaintly——
“youwanttomarrymydaughter,soyouhadbetteraskherdirect——atleastIsupposeso。”
Elizabethmadeamovementasthoughtospeak,thenchangedhermindandlistened。
“Beatrice。”saidOwenDavies,“youhear。Iaskyoutomarryme。”
Therewasapause。Beatrice,whohadsatquitesilent,wasgatheringupherstrengthtoanswer。Elizabeth,watchingherfrombeneathherhand,thoughtthatshereaduponherfaceirresolution,softeningintoconsent。Whatshereallysawwasbutdoubtastothefittestandmostcertainmannerofrefusal。LikelightningitflashedintoElizabeth’smindthatshemuststrikenow,orholdherhandforever。IfonceBeatricespokethatfatal“yes。”herrevelationsmightbeofnoavail。
AndBeatricewouldspeakit;shewassureshewould。Itwasagoldenroadoutofhertroubles。
“Stop!“saidElizabethinashrill,hardvoice。“Stop!Imustspeak;
itismydutyasaChristian。Imusttellthetruth。Icannotallowanhonestmantobedeceived。”
Therewasanawfulpause。Beatricebrokeit。Nowshesawallthetruth,andknewwhatwasathand。Sheplacedherhanduponherhearttostillitsbeating。
“Oh,Elizabeth。”shesaid,“inourdeadmother’sname——“andshestopped。
“Yes。”answeredhersister,“inourdeadmother’sname,whichyouhavedishonoured,Iwilldoit。Listen,OwenDavies,andfather:Beatrice,whositsthere“——andshepointedatherwithherthinhand——“/Beatriceisascarletwoman!/“
“Ireallydon’tunderstand。”gaspedMr。Granger,whileOwenlookedroundwildly,andBeatricesunkherheaduponherbreast。
“ThenIwillexplain。”saidElizabeth,stillpointingathersister。
“SheisGeoffreyBingham’s/mistress/。OnthenightofWhit-Sundaylastsherosefrombedandwentintohisroomatoneinthemorning。I
sawherwithmyowneyes。Afterwardsshewasbroughtbacktoherbedinhisarms——Isawitwithmyowneyes,andIheardhimkissher。”
ThiswasapieceofembroideryonElizabeth’spart。“Sheishislover,andhasbeeninlovewithhimformonths。Itellyouthis,OwenDavies,because,thoughIcannotbeartobringdisgraceuponournameandtodefilemylipswithsuchatale,neithercanIbearthatyoushouldmarryagirl,believinghertobegood,whensheiswhatBeatriceis。”
“ThenIwishtoGodthatyouhadheldyourwickedtongue。”saidMr。
Grangerfiercely。
“No,father。Ihaveadutytoperform,andIwillperformitatanycost,andhowevermuchitpainsme。YouknowthatwhatIsayistrue。
YouheardthenoiseonthenightofWhit-Sunday,andgotuptoseewhatitwas。Yousawthewhitefigureinthepassage——itwasGeoffreyBinghamwithBeatriceinhisarms。Ah!wellmayshehangherhead。Letherdenyifitshecan。Letherdenythatsheloveshimtohershame,andthatshewasaloneinhisroomonthatnight。”
ThenBeatriceroseandspoke。Shewaspaleasdeathandmorebeautifulinhershameandherdespairthanevershehadbeenbefore;hergloriouseyesshone,andthereweredeepblacklinesbeneaththem。
“Myheartismyown。”shesaid,“andIwillmakenoanswertoyouaboutit。Thinkwhatyouwill。Fortherest,itisnottrue。IamnotwhatElizabethtellsyouthatIam。Iam/not/GeoffreyBingham’smistress。ItistruethatIwasinhisroomthatnight,anditistruethathecarriedmebacktomyown。ButitwasinmysleepthatIwentthere,notofmyownfreewill。Iawokethere,andfaintedwhenI
woke,andthenatonceheboremeback。”
Elizabethlaughedshrillandloud——itsoundedlikethecackleofafiend。
“Inhersleep。”shesaid;“oh,shewentthereinhersleep!“
“Yes,Elizabeth,inmysleep。Youdonotbelieveme,butitistrue。
Youdonotwishtobelieveme。Youwishtobringthesisterwhomyoushouldlove,whohasneveroffendedagainstyoubyactorword,toutterdisgraceandruin。InyourcowardlyspiteyouhavewrittenanonymousletterstoLadyHonoriaBingham,toprevailuponhertostriketheblowthatshoulddestroyherhusbandandmyself,andwhenyoufearthatthishasfailed,youcomeforwardandopenlyaccuseus。
YoudothisinthenameofChristianduty;inthenameofloveandcharity,youbelievetheworst,andseektoruinus。Shameonyou,Elizabeth!shameonyou!andmaythesamemeasurethatyouhavemetedouttomeneverbepaidbacktoyou。Wearenolongersisters。
Whateverhappens,Ihavedonewithyou。Goyourways。”
Elizabethshrankandquailedbeneathhersister’sscorn。Evenhervenomoushatredcouldnotbearupagainsttheflashofthoseroyaleyes,andthemajestyofthatoutragedinnocence。Shegaspedandbitherliptillthebloodstarted,butshesaidnothing。
ThenBeatriceturnedtoherfather,andspokeinanotherandapleadingvoice,stretchingoutherarmstowardshim。
“Oh,father。”shesaid,“atleasttellmethat/you/believeme。
ThoughyoumaythinkthatImightlovetoallextremes,surely,havingknownmesomanyyears,youcannotthinkthatIwouldlieevenformylove’ssake。”
Theoldmanlookedwildlyround,andshookhishead。
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