Myintendantwasstilltalkingofme。Theroomwascrowded,forRodenardalonehadbroughtwithhimmytwentyfollowers。OneoftheselookedupasIbrushedpasthim,andutteredacryofsurpriseuponrecognizingme。ButRodenardtalkedon,engrossedinhisthemetotheexclusionofallelse。
“MonsieurleMarquis。”hewassaying,“isagentlemanwhomitis,indeed,anhonourtoserve-“
Ascreamburstfromhimwiththelastword,forthelashofmywhiphadburntawhealuponhiswell-fedsides。
“Itisanhonourthatshallbeyoursnomore,youdog!“Icried。
Heleapthighintotheairasmywhipcuthimagain。Heswunground,hisfacetwistedwithpain,hisflabbycheekswhitewithfear,andhiseyeswildwithanger,forasyetthefullforceofthesituationhadnotbeenborneinuponhim。Then,seeingmethere,andcatchingsomethingoftheawfulpassionthatmusthavebeenstampeduponmyface,hedroppedonhiskneesandcriedoutsomethingthatIdidnotunderstandforIwaspastunderstandingmuchjustthen。
Thelashwhistledthroughtheairagainandcaughthimabouttheshoulders。Hewrithedandroaredinhisanguishofbothfleshandspirit。ButIwaspitiless。Hehadruinedmylifeformewithhistalking,and,asGodlived,heshouldpaytheonlypricethatitlayinhispowertopay-thepriceofphysicalsuffering。Againandagainmywhiphissedabouthisheadandcutintohissoftwhiteflesh,whilstroaringformercyhemovedandrockedonhiskneesbeforeme。Instinctivelyheapproachedmetohampermymovements,whilstImovedbacktogivemylashthebetterplay。Heheldouthisarmsandjoinedhisfathandsinsupplication,butthelashcaughttheminitssinuoustormentingembrace,andstartedaredwhealacrosstheirwhiteness。Hetuckedthemintohisarmpitswithascream,andfellproneupontheground。
ThenIrememberthatsomeofmymenessayedtorestrainme,whichtomypassionwasasthewindtoablaze。Icrackedmywhipabouttheirheads,commandingthemtokeeptheirdistancelesttheyweremindedtosharehiscastigation。AndsofearfulanairmustI
haveworn,that,daunted,theyhungbackandwatchedtheirleader’spunishmentinsilence。
WhenIthinkofitnow,ItakenolittleshameatthememoryofhowIbeathim。Itis,indeed,withdeepreluctanceandyetdeepershamethatIhavebroughtmyselftowriteofit。IfIoffendyouwiththisaccountofthathorsewhipping,letnecessitybemyapology;
forthehorsewhippingitselfIhave,unfortunately,noapology,savetheblindfurythatobsessedme-whichisnoapologyatall。
UponthemorrowIrepentedmealreadywithmuchbitterness。ButinthathourIknewnoreason。Iwasmad,andofmymadnesswasbornthisharshbrutality。
“Youwouldtalkofmeandmyaffairsinatavern,youhound!“I
cried,outofbreathbothbyvirtueofmypassionandmyexertions。
“Letthememoryofthisactasacurbuponyourpoisonoustongueinfuture。”
“Monseigneur!“hescreamed。“Misericorde,monseigneur!“
“Aye,youshallhavemercy-justsomuchmercyasyoudeserve。
HaveItrustedyoualltheseyears,anddidmyfathertrustyoubeforeme,forthis?Haveyougrownsleekandfatandsmuginmyservicethatyoushouldrequitemethus?Sangdieu,Rodenard!Myfatherhadhangedyouforthehalfofthetalkingthatyouhavedonethisnight。Youdog!Youmiserableknave!“
“Monseigneur。”heshriekedagain,“forgive!Foryoursaintedmother’ssake,forgive!Monseigneur,Ididnotknow-“
“Butyouarelearning,cur;youarelearningbythepainofyourfatcarcase;isitnotso,carrion?”
Hesankdown,hisstrengthexhausted,alimp,moaning,bleedingmassofflesh,intowhichmywhipstillcutrelentlessly。
Ihaveapicturemmymindofthatill-lightedroom,ofthestartledfacesonwhichtheflickeringglimmerofthecandlesshedoddshadows;ofthehummingandcrackingofmywhip;ofmyownvoiceraisedinoathsandepithetsofcontempt;ofRodenard’sscreams;ofthecriesraisedhereandthereinremonstranceorinentreaty,andofsomemoreboldthatcalledshameuponme。Thenotherstookupthatcryof“Shame!“sothatatlastIpausedandstoodtheredrawnuptomyfullheight,asifinchallenge。Toweringabovetheheadsofanyinthatroom,Iheldmywhipmenacingly。Iwasunusedtocriticism,andtheirexpressionsofcondemnationrousedme。
“Whoquestionsmyright?”Idemandedarrogantly,whereupontheyoneandallfellsilent。“Ifanyherebeboldenoughtostepout,heshallhavemyanswer。”Then,asnoneresponded,Isignifiedmycontemptforthembyalaugh。
“Monseigneur!“wailedRodenardatmyfeet,hisvoicegrowingfeeble。
Bywayofanswer,Igavehimafinalcut,thenIflungthewhip-
whichhadgrownraggedinthefray-backtotheostlerfromwhomI
hadborrowedit。
“Letthatsufficeyou,Rodenard。”Isaid,touchinghimwithmyfoot。
“SeethatIneverseteyesuponyouagain,ifyoucherishyourmiserablelife!“
“Notthat,monseigneur。”groanedthewretch。“Oh,notthat!Youhavepunishedme;youhavewhippedmeuntilIcannotstand;forgiveme,monseigneur,forgivemenow!“
“Ihaveforgivenyou,butIneverwishtoseeyouagain,lestI
shouldforgetthatIhaveforgivenyou。Takehimaway,someofyou。”
Ibademymen,andinswift,silentobediencetwoofthemsteppedforwardandborethegroaning,sobbingfellowfromtheroom。Whenthatwasdone“Host。”Icommanded,“preparemearoom。Attendme,acoupleofyou。”
Igaveordersthereafterforthedisposalofmybaggage,someofwhichmylacqueysbroughtuptothechamberthatthelandlordhadinhastemadereadyforme。InthatchamberIsatuntilverylate;
apreytotheutmostmiseryanddespair。Myragebeingspent,I
mighthavetakensomethoughtforpoorGanymedeandhiscondition,butmyownaffairscrowdedover-heavilyuponmymind,andsattheundisputedrulersofmythoughtsthatnight。
AtonemomentIconsideredjourneyingtoLavedan,onlytodismisstheideathenext。Whatcoulditavailmenow?WouldRoxalannebelievethetaleIhadtotell?Wouldshenotthink,naturallyenough,thatIwasbutmakingthebestofthesituation,andthatmyavowalofthetruthofastorywhichitwasnotinmypowertodenywasnotspontaneous,butforcedfrommebycircumstances?No,therewasnothingmoretobedone。Ascoreofamourshadclaimedmyattentioninthepastandreceivedit;yettherewasnotoneofthoseaffairswhosemiscarriagewouldhaveaffordedmetheslightestconcernormortification。Itseemedlikeanirony,likeaDiesire,thatitshouldhavebeenlefttothisfirsttruepassionofmylifetohavegoneawry。
IsleptillwhenatlastIsoughtmybed,andthroughthenightI
nursedmybittergrief,huddlingtomethecorpseoftheloveshehadbornemeasamothermaythecorpseofherfirst-born。
OnthemorrowIresolvedtoleaveToulouse-toquitthisprovincewhereinsomuchhadbefallenmeandrepairtoBeaugency,theretogrowoldinmisanthropicalseclusion。IhaddonewithCourts,I
haddonewithloveandwithwomen;Ihaddone,itseemedtome,withlifeitself。ProdigalhaditbeeningiftsthatIhadnotsoughtofit。Ithadspreadmytablewiththerichestofferings,buttheyhadbeenlittletomypalate,andIhadnauseatedquickly。Andnow,whenhereinthisremotecornerofFranceithadshownmetheoneprizeIcoveted,ithadbeenswifttoplaceitbeyondmyreach,therebysowingeverlastingdiscontentandmiseryinmyhithertopamperedheart。
IsawCastelrouxthatday,butIsaidnowordtohimofmyaffliction。HebroughtmenewsofChatellerault。TheCountwaslyinginadangerousconditionattheAubergeRoyale,andmightnotbemoved。Thephysicianattendinghimallbutdespairedofhislife。
“Heisaskingtoseeyou。”saidCastelroux。
ButIwasnotmindedtorespond。Forallthathehaddeeplywrongedme,forallthatIdespisedhimverycordially,thesightofhiminhispresentconditionmightarousemypity,andIwasinnomoodtowasteuponsuchaoneasChatelleraultevenonhisdeathbed-aqualityofwhichIhadsodireaneedjustthenformyowncase。
“Iwillnotgo。”saidI,afterdeliberation。“TellhimfrommethatIforgivehimfreelyifitbethatheseeksmyforgiveness;tellhimthatIbearhimnorancour,and-thathehadbettermakehiswill,tosavemetroublehereafter,ifheshouldchancetodie。”
IsaidthisbecauseIhadnomind,ifheshouldperishintestate,togoinquestofhisnextheirsandadvisethemthatmylatePicardyestateswerenowtheirproperty。
CastelrouxsoughtyettopersuademetovisittheCount,butIheldfirmlytomyresolve。
“IamleavingToulouseto-day。”Iannounced。
“Whitherdoyougo?”
“Tohell,ortoBeaugency-Iscarceknowwhich,nordoesitmatter。”
Helookedatmeinsurprise,but,beingamanofbreeding,askednoquestionsuponmattersthatheaccountedsecret。
“ButtheKing?”heventuredpresently。
“HisMajestyhasalreadydispensedmefrommydutiesbyhim。”
Nevertheless,Ididnotgothatday。Imaintainedtheintentionuntilsunset;then,seeingthatitwastoolate,Ipostponedmydepartureuntilthemorrow。Icanassignnoreasonformydallyingmood。Perhapsitsprangfromtheinertnessthatpervadedme,perhapssomemysterioushanddetainedme。Bethatasitmay,thatIremainedanothernightattheHoteldel’Epeewasoneofthosecontingencieswhich,thoughslightandseeminglyinconsequentialinthemselves,leadtogreatissues。HadIdepartedthatdayforBeaugency,itislikelythatyouhadneverheardofme——leastways,notfrommyownpen-forinwhatsofarIhavetoldyou,withoutthatwhichistofollow,thereishaplylittlethatwasworththelabourofsettingdown。
Inthemorning,then,Isetout;buthavingstartedlate,wegotnofartherthanGrenade,wherewelaythenightoncemoreattheHoteldelaCouronne。Andso,throughhavingdelayedmydeparturebyasingleday,diditcometopassthatamessagereachedmebeforeitmighthavebeentoolate。
Itwashighnoonofthemorrow。Ourhorsesstoodsaddled;indeed,someofmymenwerealreadymounted-forIwasnotmindedtodisbandthemuntilBeaugencywasreached-andmytwocoacheswerebothreadyforthejourney。ThehabitsofalifetimearenotsoeasytoabandonevenwhenNecessityraiseshercompellingvoice。
Iwasintheactofsettlingmyscorewiththelandlordwhenofasuddentherewerequickstepsinthepassage,theclankofarapieragainstthewall,andavoice-thevoiceofCastelroux-callingexcitedly“Bardelys!MonsieurdeBardelys!“
“Whatbringsyouhere?”Icriedingreeting,ashesteppedintotheroom。
“AreyoustillforBeaugency?”heaskedsharply,throwingbackhishead。
“Why,yes。”Ianswered,wonderingatthisexcitement。
“ThenyouhaveseennothingofSaint-Eustacheandhismen?”
“Nothing。”
“Yettheymusthavepassedthiswaynotmanyhoursago。”Thentossinghishatonthetableandspeakingwithsuddenvehemence:
“IfyouhaveanyinterestinthefamilyofLavedan,youwillreturnupontheinstanttoToulouse。”
ThementionofLavedanwasenoughtoquickenmypulses。YetinthepasttwodaysIhadmasteredresignation,andindoingthatweschoolourselvestomuchrestraint。Iturnedslowly,andsurveyedthelittleCaptainattentively。Hisblackeyessparkled,andhismoustachesbristledwithexcitement。Clearlyhehadnewsofimport。
Iturnedtothelandlord。
“Leaveus,Monsieurl’Hote。”saidIshortly;andwhenhehaddeparted,“WhatoftheLavedanfamily,Castelroux?”IinquiredascalmlyasImight。
“TheChevalierdeSaint-EustacheleftToulouseatsixo’clockthismorningforLavedan。”
Swiftthesuspicionofhiserrandbrokeuponmymind。
“HehasbetrayedtheVicomte?”Ihalfinquired,halfasserted。
Castelrouxnodded。“HehasobtainedawarrantforhisapprehensionfromtheKeeperoftheSeals,andisgonetoexecuteit。InthecourseofafewdaysLavedanwillbeindangerofbeingnomorethananame。ThisSaint-Eustacheisdrivingabrisktrade,byGod,andsomefineprizeshavealreadyfallentohislot。Butifyouaddthemalltogether,theyarenotlikelytoyieldasmuchasthishislatestexpedition。Unlessyouintervene,Bardelys,theVicomtedeLavedanisdoomedandhisfamilyhouseless。”
“Iwillintervene。”Icried。“ByGod,Iwill!AndasforSaint-Eustache-hewasbornunderapropitiousstar,indeed,ifheescapesthegallows。HelittledreamsthatIamstilltobereckonedwith。There,Castelroux,IwillstartforLavedanatonce。”
AlreadyIwasstridingtothedoor,whentheGasconcalledmeback。
“Whatgoodwillthatdo?”heasked。“WereitnotbetterfirsttoreturntoToulouseandobtainacounter-warrantfromtheKing?”
Therewaswisdominhiswords-muchwisdom。Butmybloodwasafire,andIwasintoohotahastetoreason。
“ReturntoToulouse?”Iechoedscornfully。“Awasteoftime,Captain。No,IwillgostraighttoLavedan。Ineednocounter-warrant。IknowtoomuchofthisChevalier’saffairs,andmyverypresenceshouldbeenoughtostayhishand。Heisasfoulatraitorasyou’llfindinFrance;butforthemomentGodblesshimforaveryopportuneknave。Gilles!“Icalled,throwingwidethedoor。“Gilles!“
“Monseigneur。”heanswered,hasteningtome。
“Putbackthecarriagesandsaddlemeahorse。”Icommanded。“Andbidyourfellowsmountatonceandawaitmeinthecourtyard。WearenotgoingtoBeaugency,Gilles。Weridenorth-toLavedan。”
CHAPTERXVIII
SAINT-EUSTACHEISOBSTINATE
0ntheoccasionofmyfirstvisittoLavedanIhaddisregarded-or,rather,FatehadcontrivedthatIshoulddisregard-Chatellerault’ssuggestionthatIshouldgowithallthepanoplyofpower-withmyfollowers,myliveries,andmyequipagestocomposethemagnificenceallFrancehadcometoassociatewithmyname,andthusdazzlebymybrilliantlustretheladyIwascometowin。Asyoumayremember,Ihadcreptintothechateaulikeathiefinthenight,-wounded,bedraggled,andofmiserableaspect,seekingtoprovokecompassionratherthanadmiration。
NotsonowthatImademysecondvisit。IavailedmyselfofallthesplendourtowhichIowedmytitleof“Magnificent。”androdeintothecourtyardoftheChateaudeLavedanprecededbytwentywell-mountedknaveswearingthegorgeousSaint-Polliveriesofscarletandgold,withtheBardelysescutcheonbroideredonthebreastsoftheirdoublets-onafieldorabarazuresurchargedbythreeliliesofthefield。Theywerearmedwithswordsandmusketoons,andhadmoretheairofaroyalbodyguardthanofacompanyofattendantservants。
Ourcomingwasinawaywelltimed。IdoubtifwecouldhavestayedtheexecutionofSaint-Eustache’swarrantevenhadwearrivedearlier。Butforeffect-toproduceastrikingcoupdetheatre-
wecouldnothavecomemoreopportunely。
Acoachstoodinthequadrangle,atthefootofthechateausteps:
downthesetheVicomtewasdescending,withtheVicomtesse-grimandblasphemantasever,ononeside,andhisdaughter,whiteoffaceandwithtightlycompressedlips,ontheother。Betweenthesetwowomen-hiswifeandhischild-asdifferentinbodyastheyweredifferentinsoul,cameLavedanwithafirmstep,agoodcolour,andalookofwell-bred,loftyindifferencetohisfate。
Hedisposedhimselftoenterthecarriagewhichwastobearhimtoprisonwithmuchthesameairhewouldhaveassumedhadhisdestinationbeenaroyallevee。
AroundthecoachweregroupedascoreofmenofSaint-Eustache’scompany-halfsoldiers,halfploughboys-ill-garbedandindifferentlyaccoutredindullbreastplatesandsteelcaps,manyofwhichwererusted。Bythecarriagedoorstoodthelong,lankfigureoftheChevalierhimself,dressedwithhiswontedcare,andperfumed,curled,andberibbonedbeyondbelief。Hisweak,boyishfacesoughtbyscowlsandbytheadoptionofagrimsmiletoassumeanairofmartialferocity。
Suchwasthegroupinginthequadranglewhenmymen,withGillesattheirhead,thunderedacrossthedrawbridge,givingpausetothosewithin,anddrawinguponthemselvestheeyesofall,astheyrode,twobytwo,undertheold-worldarchofthekeepintothecourtyard。
AndGilles,whoknewourerrand,andwhowasasready-wittedarogueaseverrodewithme,tookinthesituationataglance。KnowinghowmuchIdesiredtomakeagoodlyshow,hewhisperedanorder。
Thisresultedinthecouplesdividingatthegateway,onegoingtotheleftandonetotheright,sothatastheycametheyspreadthemselvesinacrescent,anddrawingrein,theyfacedforward,confrontingandhalfsurroundingtheChevalier’scompany。
Aseachcoupleappeared,thecuriosity-theuneasiness,probably-ofSaint-Eustacheandhismen,hadincreased,andtheirexpectancywasontiptoetoseewhatlorditwaswentabroadwithsuchregalpomp,whenIappearedinthegatewayandadvancedatthetrotintothemiddleofthequadrangle。ThereIdrewreinanddoffedmyhattothemastheystood,open-mouthedandgapingoneandall。Ifitwasatheatricaldisplay,aparadeworthyofatilt-ground,itwasyetanobleandimposingadvent,andtheirgapingtoldmethatitwasnotwithouteffect。ThemenlookeduneasilyattheChevalier;
theChevalierlookeduneasilyathismen;mademoiselle,verypale,loweredhereyesandpressedherlipsyetmoretightly;theVicomtesseutteredanoathofastonishment;whilstLavedan,toodignifiedtomanifestsurprise,greetedmewithasoberbow。
BehindthemonthestepsIcaughtsightofagroupofdomestics,oldAnatolestandingslightlyinadvanceofhisfellows,andwondering,nodoubt,whetherthiswere,indeed,thebedraggledLesperonofalittlewhileago-forifIhadthoughtofpompinthedisplayofmylacqueys,nolesshadIconsidereditinthedeckingofmyownperson。Withoutanyoftheribbonsandfopperiesthatmarkthecoxcomb,yetwasIclad,plumed,andarmedwithamagnificencesuchasI’llswearhadnotbeenseenwithinthegreywallsofthatoldcastleinthelifetimeofanyofthosethatwerenowpresent。
GillesleaptfromhishorseasIdrewrein,andhastenedtoholdmystirrup,withamurmured“Monsieur。”whichtitledrewafreshastonishmentintotheeyesofthebeholders。
IadvancedleisurelytowardsSaint-Eustache,andaddressedhimwithsuchcondescensionasImightagroom,toimpressandquellamanofthistypeyourbestweaponisthearrogancethatanoblerspiritwouldresent。
“Aworldofoddmeetingsthis,Saint-Eustache。”Ismileddisdainfully。
“Aworldofstrangecomingsandgoings,andofrangetransformations。
ThelasttimewewereherewestoodmutuallyasguestsofMonsieurleVicomte;atpresentyouappeartobeofficiatingasa-atipstaff。”
“Monsieur!“Hecoloured,andheutteredthewordinaccentsofawakeningresentment。Ilookedintohiseyes,coldly,impassively,asifwaitingtohearwhathemighthavetoadd,andsoIstayeduntilhisglancefellandhisspiritwasfrozeninhim。Heknewme,andheknewhowmuchIwastobefeared。AwordfrommetotheKingmightsendhimtothewheel。ItwasuponthisIplayed。Presently,ashiseyefell“Isyourbusinesswithme,MonsieurdeBardelys?”heasked,andatthatutteranceofmynametherewasacommotiononthesteps,whilsttheVicomtestarted,andhiseyesfrowneduponme,andtheVicomtesselookedupsuddenlytoscanmewithafreshinterest。
Shebeheldatlastinthefleshthegentlemanwhohadplayedsonotoriousapart,tenyearsago,inthatscandalconnectedwiththeDuchessedeBourgogne,ofwhichshenevertiredofrecitingthedetails。Andthinkthatshehadsatattablewithhimdaybydayandbeenunconsciousofthatmomentousfact!Such,Imakenodoubt,waswhatpassedthroughhermindatthemoment,and,tojudgefromherexpression,IshouldsaythattheexcitementofbeholdingtheMagnificentBardelyshadforthenonceeclipsedbeholdingevenherhusband’sconditionandtheimminentsequestrationofLavedan。
“Mybusinessiswithyou,Chevalier。”saidI。“Itrelatestoyourmissionhere。”
Hisjawfell。“Youwish-?”
“TodesireyoutowithdrawyouramenandquitLavedanatonce,abandoningtheexecutionofyourwarrant。”
Heflashedmealookofimpotenthate。“Youknowoftheexistenceofmywarrant,MonsieurdeBardelys,andyoumustthereforerealizethataroyalmandatealonecanexemptmefromdeliveringMonsieurdeLavedantotheKeeperoftheSeals。”
“Myonlywarrant。”Ianswered,somewhatbaffled,butfarfromabandoninghope,“ismyword。YoushallsaytotheGardedesSceauxthatyouhavedonethisupontheauthorityoftheMarquisdeBardelys,andyouhavemypromisethatHisMajestyshallconfirmmyaction。”
InsayingthatIsaidtoomuch,asIwasquicklytorealize。
“HisMajestywillconfirmit,monsieur?”hesaidinterrogatively,andheshookhishead。“ThatisariskIdarenotrun。MywarrantsetsmeunderimperativeobligationswhichImustdischarge-youwillseethejusticeofwhatIstate。”
Histonewasallhumility,allsubservience,neverthelessitwasfirmtothepointofbeinghard。Butmylastcard,thecarduponwhichIwasdepending,wasyettobeplayed。
“Willyoudomethehonourtostepasidewithme,Chevalier?”I
commandedratherthanbesought。
“Atyourservice,sir。”saidhe;andIdrewhimoutofearshotofthoseothers。
“Now,Saint-Eustache,wecantalk。”saidI,withanabruptchangeofmannerfromthecoldlyarroganttothecoldlymenacing。“I
marvelgreatlyatyourtemerityinpursuingthisIscariotbusinessafterlearningwhoIam,atToulousetwonightsago。”
Heclenchedhishands,andhisweakfacehardened。
“Iwouldbegyoutoconsideryourexpressions,monsieur,andtocontrolthem。”saidheinathickvoice。
Ivouchsafedhimastareoffreezingamazement。“YouwillnodoubtrememberinwhatcapacityIfindyouemployed。Nay,keepyourhandsstill,Saint-Eustache。Idon’tfightcatchpolls,andifyougivemetroublemymenareyonder。”AndIjerkedmythumbovermyshoulder。
“Andnowtobusiness。Iamnotmindedtotalkallday。IwassayingthatImarvelatyourtemerity,andmoreparticularlyatyourhavinglaidinformationagainstMonsieurdeLavedan,andhavingcomeheretoarresthim,knowing,asyoumustknow,thatIaminterestedintheVicomte。”
“Ihaveheardofthatinterest,monsieur。”saidhe,withasneerforwhichIcouldhavestruckhim。
“Thisactofyours。”Ipursued,ignoringhisinterpolation,“savoursverymuchofflyinginthefaceofDestiny。Italmostseemstomeasifyouweredefyingme。”
Hisliptrembled,andhiseyesshunnedmyglance。
“Indeed-indeed,monsieur-“hewasprotesting,whenIcuthimshort。
“YoucannotbesogreatafoolbutthatyoumustrealizethatifI
telltheKingwhatIknowofyou,youwillbestrippedofyourill-gottengains,andbrokenonthewheelforadoubletraitor-abetrayerofyourfellow-rebels。”
“Butyouwillnotdothat,monsieur?”hecried。“Itwouldbeunworthyinyou。”
AtthatIlaughedinhisface。“HeartofGod!Areyoutobewhatyouplease,anddoyoustillexpectthatmenshallbeniceindealingwithyou?Iwoulddothisthing,and,bymyfaith,MonsieurdeEustache,Iwilldoit,ifyoucompelme!“
Hereddenedandmovedhisfootuneasily。PerhapsIdidnottakethebestwaywithhim,afterall。Imighthaveconfinedmyselftosowingfearinhisheart;thatalonemighthavehadtheeffectI
desired;byvisitinguponhimatthesametimetheinsultsIcouldnotrepress,Imayhavearousedhisresistance,andexcitedhisdesireaboveallelsetothwartme。
“Whatdoyouwantofme?”hedemanded,withasuddenarrogancewhichalmostcastmineintotheshade。
“Iwantyou。”saidI,deemingthetimeripetomakeaplaintaleofit,“towithdrawyourmen,andtoridebacktoToulousewithoutMonsieurdeLavedandan,theretoconfesstotheKeeperoftheSealsthatyoursuspicionswereunfounded,andthatyouhaveculledevidencethattheVicomtehashadnorelationswithMonsieurtheKing’sbrother。”
Helookedatmeinamazement-amusedly,almost。
“AlikelystorythattobeartotheastutegentlemeninToulouse。”
saidhe。
“Aye,mafoi,amostlikelystory。”saidI。“WhentheycometoconsidertheprofitthatyouarelosingbynotapprehendingtheVicomte,andcanthinkofnonethatyouaremaking,theywillhavelittledifficultyinbelievingyou。”
“Butwhatofthisevidenceyoureferto?”
“Youhave,Itakeit,discoverednoincriminatingevidence-nodocumentsthatwilltellagainsttheVicomte?”
“No,monsieur,itistruethatIhavenot-“
Hestoppedandbithislip,mysmilemakinghimawareofhisindiscretion。
“Verywell,then,youmustinventsomeevidencetoprovethathewasinnoway,associatedwiththerebellion。”
“MonsieurdeBardelys。”saidheveryinsolently,“wewastetimeinidlewords。IfyouthinkthatIwillimperilmyneckforthesakeofservingyouortheVicomte,youaremostprodigiouslyatfault。”
“Ihaveneverthoughtso。ButIhavethoughtthatyoumightbeinducedtoimperilyourneck-asyouhave,it-foritsownsake,andtotheendthatyoumightsaveit。”
Hemovedaway。“Monsieur,youtalkinvain。Youhavenoroyalwarranttosupersedemine。DowhatyouwillwhenyoucometoToulouse。”andhesmileddarkly。“Meanwhile,theVicomtegoeswithme。”
“Youhavenoevidenceagainsthim!“Icried,scarcebelievingthathewoulddaretodefymeandthatIhadfailed。
“Ihavetheevidenceofmyword。IamreadytosweartowhatIknow-that,whilstIwashereatLavedan,someweeksago,Idiscoveredhisconnectionwiththerebels。”
“Andwhatthinkyou,miserablefool,shallyourwordweighagainstmine?”Icried。“Neverfear,MonsieurleChevalier,IshallbeinToulousetogiveyoutheliebyshowingthatyourwordisawordtowhichnomanmayattachfaith,andbyexposingtotheKingyourpastconduct。Ifyouthinkthat,afterIhavespoken,KingLouiswhomtheynamethejustwillsufferthetrialoftheVicomtetogofurtheronyourinstigation,orifyouthinkthatyouwillbeabletoslipyourownneckfromthenooseIshallhavesetaboutit,youareaninfinitelygreaterfoolthanIdeemyou。”
Hestoodandlookedatmeoverhisshoulder,hisfacecrimson,andhisbrowsblackasathundercloud。
“AllthismaybetidewhenyoucometoToulouse,MonsieurdeBardelys。”saidhedarkly,“butfromheretoToulouseitisamatterofsometwentyleagues。”
Withthat,heturnedonhisheelandleftme,baffledandangry,topuzzleouttheinnermeaningofhispartingwords。
Hegavehismentheordertomount,andbadeMonsieurdeLavedanenterthecoach,whereuponGillesshotmeaglanceofinquiry。Forasecond,asIsteppedslowlyaftertheChevalier,Iwasmindedtotryarmedresistance,andtoconvertthatgreycourtyardintoashambles。ThenIsawbetimesthefutilityofsuchastep,andI
shruggedmyshouldersinanswertomyservant’sglance。
IwouldhavespokentotheVicomteerehedeparted,butIwastoodeeplychagrinedandhumiliatedbymy,defeat。SomuchsothatI
hadnoroominmythoughtsevenfortheverynaturalconjectureofwhatLavedanmustbethinkingofme。IrepentedmethenofmyrashnessincomingtoLavedanwithouthavingseentheKing-asCastelrouxhadcounselledme。IhadcomeindulgingvaindreamsofasplendidoverthrowofSaint-Eustache。IhadthoughttoshineheroicallyinMademoiselle’seyes,andthusIhadhopedthatbothgratitudeforhavingsavedherfatherandadmirationatthemannerinwhichIhadachieveditwouldpredisposehertograntmeahearinginwhichImightpleadmyrehabilitation。Oncethatwereaccordedme,IdidnotdoubtIshouldprevail。
Nowmydreamwasalldispelled,andmypridehadsufferedjustsuchahumiliatingfallasthemoraliststelluspridemusteversuffer。
Thereseemedlittleleftmebuttogohencewithlambenttail,likeadogthathasbeenwhipped-mydazzlingescortbecomeamockerybutthatitservedthemoreloudlytoadvertisemytrueimpotency。
AsIapproachedthecarriage,theVicomtessesweptsuddenlydownthestepsandcametowardsmewithafriendlysmile。“MonsieurdeBardelys。”saidshe,“wearegratefulforyourinterventioninthecauseofthatrebelmyhusband。”
“Madame。”Ibesoughther,undermybreath,“ifyouwouldnottotallydestroyhim,Ibeseechyoutobecautious。Byyourleave,Iwillhavemymenrefreshed,andthereafterIshalltaketheroadtoToulouseagain。IcanonlyhopethatmyinterventionwiththeKingmaybearbetterfruit。”
AlthoughIspokeinasubduedkey,Saint-Eustache,whostoodnearus,overheardme,ashisfaceveryclearlytestified。
“Remainhere,sir。”shereplied,withsomeeffusion,“andfollowuswhenyouarerested。”
“Followyou?”Iinquired。“DoyouthengowithMonsieurdeLavedan?”
“No,Anne。”saidtheVicomtepolitelyfromthecarriage。“Itwillbetiringyouunnecessarily。Youwerebetteradvisedtoremainhereuntilmyreturn。”
IdoubtnotthatthepoorVicomtewasmoreconcernedwithhowshewouldtirehimthanwithhowthejourneymighttireher。ButtheVicomtessewasnottobegainsaid。TheChevalierhadsneeredwhentheVicomtespokeofreturning。Madamehadcaughtthatsneer,andsheswungrounduponhimnowwiththevehementfuryofavirago。
“He’llnotreturn,you,think,youJudas!“shesnarledathim,herlean,swarthyfacegrowingveryeviltosee。“Butheshall-byGod,heshall!Andlooktoyourskinwhenhedoes,monsieurthecatchpoll,for,onmyhonour,youshallhaveaforetasteofhellforyourtroubleinthismatter。”
TheChevaliersmiledwithmuchrestraint。“Awoman’stongue。”saidhe,“doesnoinjury。”
“Willawoman’sarm,thinkyou?”demandedthatwarlikematron。“Youmusk-stinkingtipstaff,I’ll-“
“Anne,mylove。”imploredtheVicomtesoothingly,“Ibegthatyouwillcontrolyourself。”
“ShallIsubmittotheinsolenceofthismisbegottenvassal?ShallI-“
“Rememberratherthatitdoesnotbecomethedignityofyourstationtoaddressthefellow。Weavoidvenomousreptiles,butwedonotpausetoreproachthemwiththeirvenom。Godmadethemso。”
Saint-Eustachecolouredtotherootsofhishair,then,turninghastilytothedriver,hebadehimstart。Hewouldhaveclosedthedoorwiththat,butthatmadamethrustherselfforward。
ThatwastheChevalier’schancetobeavenged。“Youcannotgo。”
saidhe。
“Cannot?”Hercheeksreddened。“Whynot,monsieurLesperon?
“Ihavenoreasonstoaffordyou。”heansweredbrutally。“Youcannotgo。”
“Yourpardon,Chevalier。”Iinterposed。“Yougobeyondyourrightsinseekingtopreventher。MonsieurleVicomteisnotyetconvicted。
Donot,Ibeseechyou,transcendthealreadyodiouscharacterofyourwork。”
AndwithoutmoreadoIshoulderedhimaside,andheldthedoorthatshemightenter。Sherewardedmewithasmile-halfvicious,halfwhimsical,andmountedthestep。Saint-Eustachewouldhaveinterfered。Hecameatmeasifresentingthatshoulder-thrustofmine,andforasecondIalmostthoughthewouldhavecommittedthemadnessofstrikingme。
“Takecare,Saint-Eustache。”Isaidveryquietly,myeyesfixedonhis。AndmuchasdeadCaesar’sghostmayhavethreatenedBrutuswithPhilippi“WemeetatToulouse,Chevalier。”saidI,andclosingthecarriagedoorIsteppedback。
Therewasaflutterofskirtsbehindme。Itwasmademoiselle。Sobraveandoutwardlysocalmuntilnow,themomentofactualseparation-andaddedthereuntoperhapshermother’sgoingandthelonelinessthatforherselfsheforesaw-provedmorethanshecouldendure。Isteppedaside,andshesweptpastmeandcaughtattheleathercurtainofthecoach。
“Father!“shesobbed。
Therearesomethingsthatamanofbreedingmaynotwitness-somethingstolookuponwhichisnearakintoeavesdroppingorreadingthelettersofanother。SuchascenedidInowaccountthepresentone,and,turning,Imovedaway。ButSaint-Eustachecutitshort,forscarcehadItakenthreepaceswhenhisvoicerangoutthecommandtomove。Thedriverhesitated,forthegirlwasstillhangingatthewindow。Butasecondcommand,accompaniedbyavigorousoath,overcame-hishesitation。Hegathereduphisreins,crackedhiswhip,andthelumberingwheelsbegantomove。
“Haveacare,child!“IheardtheVicomtecry“haveacare!Adieu,monenfant!“
Shesprangback,sobbing,andassuredlyshewouldhavefallen,thrownoutofbalancebythemovementofthecoach,butthatIputforthmyhandsandcaughther。
Idonotthinksheknewwhosewerethearmsthatheldherforthatbriefspace,sodesolatedwasshebythegriefsolongrepressed。
AtlastsherealizedthatitwasthisworthlessBardelysagainstwhomsherested;thismanwhohadwageredthathewouldwinandwedher;thisimpostorwhohadcometoherunderanassumedname;thisknavewhohadliedtoherasnogentlemancouldhavelied,swearingtoloveher,whilst,inreality,hedidnomorethanseektowinawager。Whenallthissherealized,sheshudderedasecond,thenmovedabruptlyfrommygrasp,and,withoutsomuchasaglanceatme,sheleftme,and,ascendingthestepsofthechateau,shepassedfrommysight。
IgavetheordertodismountasthelastofSaint-Eustache’sfollowersvanishedundertheportcullis。
CHAPTERXIX
THEFLINTANDTHESTEEL
Mademoisellewillseeyou,monsieur。”saidAnatoleatlast。
TwicealreadyhadhecarriedunavailinglymyrequestthatRoxalanneshouldaccordmeaninterviewereIdeparted。OnthisthethirdoccasionIhadbiddenhimsaythatIwouldnotstirfromLavedanuntilshehaddonemethehonourofhearingme。Seeminglythatthreathadprevailedwhereentreatieshadbeenscorned。
IfollowedAnatolefromthehalf-lightofthehallinwhichIhadbeenpacingintothesalonoverlookingtheterracesandtheriver,whereRoxalanneawaitedme。Shewasstandingatthefartherendoftheroombyoneofthelongwindows,whichwasopen,for,althoughwewerealreadyinthefirstweekofOctober,theairofLanguedocwasaswarmandbalmyasthatofParisorPicardyisinsummer。
Iadvancedtothecentreofthechamber,andthereIpausedandwaiteduntilitshouldpleasehertoacknowledgemypresenceandturntofaceme。Iwasnofledgling。Ihadseenmuch,Ihadlearntmuchandbeeninmanyplaces,andmybearingwaswonttoconveyit。
NeverinmylifehadIbeengauche,forwhichIthankmyparents,andifyearsago-longyearsago-acertaintimidityhadmarkedmyfirstintroductionstotheLouvreandtheLuxembourg,thattimiditywassomethingfromwhichIhadlongsincepartedcompany。Andyetitseemedtome,asIstoodinthatpretty,sunlitroomawaitingthepleasureofthatchild,scarceoutofherteens,thatsomeoftheawkwardnessIhadescapedinearlieryears,someofthetimidityoflongago,cametomethen。Ishiftedtheweightofmybodyfromonelegtotheother;IfingeredthetablebywhichIstood;IpulledatthehatIheld;mycolourcameandwent;Ilookedatherfurtivelyfromunderbentbrows,andIthankedGodthatherbackbeingtowardsmeshemightnotseetheclownImusthaveseemed。
Atlength,unablelongertobrookthatdiscomposingsilence-
“Mademoiselle!“Icalledsoftly。Thesoundofmyownvoiceseemedtoinvigorateme,tostripmeofmyawkwardnessandself-consciousness。
Itbrokethespellthatforamomenthadbeenoverme,andbroughtmebacktomyself-tothevain,self-confident,flamboyantBardelysthatperhapsyouhavepicturedfrommywritings。
“Ihope,monsieur。”sheanswered,withoutturning,“thatwhatyoumayhavetosaymayjustifyinsomemeasureyourveryimportunateinsistence。”
Onmylife,thiswasnotencouraging。ButnowthatIwasmasterofmyself,Iwasnotagainsoeasilytobedisconcerted。Myeyesresteduponherasshestoodalmostframedintheopeningofthatlongwindow。Howstraightandsuppleshewas,yethowdaintyandslightwithal!Shewasfarfrombeingatallwoman,buthercleanlengthoflimb,herveryslightness,andthehigh-bredpoiseofhershapelyhead,conveyedanillusionofheightunlessyoustoodbesideher。Theillusiondidnotswaymethen。Isawonlyachild;butachildwithagreatspirit,withagreatsoulthatseemedtoaccentuateherphysicalhelplessness。Thathelplessness,whichI
feltratherthansaw,woveintothewarpofmylove。Shewasingriefjustthen-ingriefatthearrestofherfather,andatthedarkfatethatthreatenedhim;ingriefattheunworthinessofalover。Ofthetwowhichmightbethemorebitteritwasnotminetojudge,butIburnedtogatherhertome,tocomfortandcherishher,tomakeheronewithme,andthus,whilstgivinghersomethingofmyman’sheightandstrength,cullfromhersomethingofthatpure,noblespirit,andthussanctifymyown。
Ihadamoment’sweaknesswhenshespoke。IwaswithinanaceofadvancingandcastingmyselfuponmykneeslikeanyLentenpenitent,tosueforgiveness。ButIsettheinclinationdownbetimes。Suchexpedientswouldnotavailmehere。
“WhatIhavetosay,mademoiselle。”Iansweredafterapause,“wouldjustifyasaintdescendinginto,hell;or,rather,tomakemymetaphormoreapt,wouldwarrantasinner’sintrusionintoheaven。”
Ispokesolemnly,yetnottoosolemnly;theleastslurofasardonichumourwasinmytones。
Shemovedherheaduponthewhitecolumnofherneck,andwiththegestureoneofherbrowncurlsbecamedisordered。Icouldfancytheupwardtiltofherdelicatenose,thescornfulcurveofherlipassheansweredshortly“Thensayitquickly,monsieur。”
And,beingthusbidden,Isaidquickly“Iloveyou,Roxalanne。”
Herheelbeattheshimmeringparquetofthefloor;shehalfturnedtowardsme,hercheekflushed,herliptremulouswithanger。
“Willyousaywhatyouhavetosay,monsieur?”shedemandedinaconcentratedvoice,“andhavingsaidit,willyougo?”
“Mademoiselle,Ihavealreadysaidit。”Ianswered,withawistfulsmile。
“Oh!“shegasped。Thensuddenlyfacingrounduponme,aworldofangerinherblueeyes-eyesthatIhadknowndreamy,butwhichwerenowverywideawake。“Wasittooffermethislastinsultyouforcedyourpresenceuponme?Wasittomockmewiththosewords,me-awoman,withnomanaboutmetopunishyou?Shame,sir!YetitisnomorethanImightlookforinyou。”
“Mademoiselle,youdomegrievouswrong-“Ibegan。
“Idoyounowrong。”sheansweredhotly,thenstopped,unwillinghaplytobedrawnintocontentionwithme。“Enfin,sinceyouhavesaidwhatyoucametosaywillyougo?”Andshepointedtothedoor。
“Mademoiselle,mademoiselle-“Ibeganinavoiceofearnestintercession。
“Go!“sheinterruptedangrily,andforasecondtheviolenceofhervoiceandgesturealmostremindedmeoftheVicomtesse。“Iwillhearnomorefromyou。”
“Mademoiselle,youshall。”Ianswerednowhitlessfirmly。
“Iwillnotlistentoyou。Talkifyouwill。Youshallhavethewallsforaudience。”Andshemovedtowardsthedoor,butIbarredherpassage。Iwascourteoustotinelastdegree;IbowedlowbeforeherasIputmyselfinherway。
“Itisallthatwaswanting-thatyoushouldoffermeviolence!“
sheexclaimed。
“Godforbid!“saidI:
“Thenletmepass。”
“Aye,whenyouhaveheardme。”
“Idonotwishtohearyou。Nothingthatyoumaysaycammattertome。Oh,monsieur,ifyouhaveanyinstinctsofgentility,ifyouhaveanypretensiontobeaccountedanythingbutamauvaissujet,I
beg;ofyoutorespectmygrief。Youwitnessed,yourself,thearrestofmyfather。Thisisnoseasonforsuchassceneasyouarecreating。”
“Pardon!Itisinsuchaseasonasthisthatyouneedthecomfortandsupportthatthemanyoulovealonecangiveyou。”
“ThemanIlove?”sheechoed,andfromPushedthattheyhadbeen,hercheekswentverypale。Hereyesfellforaninstant,then-
theywereraised;again,andtheirbluedepthswereofferedme。“I
think,sir。”shesaid,throughherteeth,“thatyourinsolencetranscendsallbelief。”
“Canyoudenyit?”Icried。“Canyoudenythatyouloveme?Ifyoucan-why,then,youliedtomethreenightsagoatToulouse!“
Thatsmoteherhard-sohardthatsheforgotherassurancethatshewouldnotlistentome-herpromisetoherselfthatshewouldstooptonocontentionwithme。
“If,inamomentaryweakness,inmynescienceofyouasyoutrulyare,Ididmakesomesuchadmission,Ididentertainsuchfeelingsforyou,thingshavecometomyknowledgesincethen,monsieur,thathaverevealedyoutomeasanotherman;IhavelearntsomethingthathasutterlywitheredsuchloveasIthenconfessed。Now,monsieur,areyousatisfied,andwillyouletmepass?”Shesaidthelastwordswithareturnofherimperiousness,alreadyangryathavingbeendrawnsofar。
“Iamsatisfied,mademoiselle。”Iansweredbrutally,“thatyoudidnotspeakthetruththreenightsago。Youneverlovedme。Itwaspitythatdeludedyou,shamethaturgedyou-shameattheDelilahpartyouhadplayedandatyourbetrayalofme。Now,mademoiselle,youmaypass。”saidI。
AndIstoodaside,assuredthatasshewasawomanshewouldnotpassmenow。Nordidshe。Sherecoiledastepinstead。Herlipquivered。Thensherecoveredquickly。Hermothermighthavetoldherthatshewasafoolforengagingherselfinsuchaduelwithme-me,theveteranofahundredamorouscombats。YetthoughIdoubtnotitwasherfirstassault-at-armsofthisdescription,shewasmorethanamatchforme,ashernextwordsproved。
“Monsieur,Ithankyouforenlighteningme。Icannot,indeed,havespokenthetruththreenightsago。Youareright,Idonotdoubtitnow,andyouliftfrommealoadofshame。”
Dieu!Itwaslikeathrustinthehighlines,anditshurtfulviolencestaggeredme。Iwasfinished,itseemed。Thevictorywashers,andshebutachildwithnopracticeofCupid’sartoffence!
“Now,monsieur。”sheadded,“nowthatyouaresatisfiedthatyoudidwrongtosayIlovedyou,nowthatwehavedisposedofthatquestion-adieu!“
“Amomentyet!“Icried。“Wehavedisposedofthat,buttherewasanotherpoint,anearlierone,whichforthemomentwehavedisregarded。Wehave-youhavedisprovedtheloveIwassopresumptuousastobelieveyoufosteredforme。WehaveyettoreckonwiththeloveIbearyou,mademoiselle,andofthatweshallnotbeabletodisposesoreadily。”
Withagestureofwearinessorofimpatience,sheturnedaside。
“Whatisityouwant?Whatdoyouseektogainbythusprovokingme?Towinyourwager?”Hervoicewascold。Whotohavelookeduponthatchildlikeface,uponthosemeek,ponderingeyes,couldhavebelievedhercapableofsomuchcruelty?
“Therecannolongerbeanyquestionofmywager;Ihavelostandpaidit。”saidI。
Shelookedupsuddenly。Herbrowsmetinafrownofbewilderment。
Clearlythisinterestedher。Againwasshedrawn。
“How?”sheasked。“Youhavelostandpaidit?”
“Evenso。Thatodious,cursed,infamouswager,wasthesomethingwhichIhintedatsooftenasstandingbetweenyouandme。TheconfessionthatsooftenIwasonthepointofmaking-thatsooftenyouurgedmetomake-concernedthatwager。WouldtoGod,Roxalanne,thatIhadtoldyou!“Icried,anditseemedtomethatthesincerityringinginmyvoicedrovesomeoftheharshnessfromhercountenance,someofthecoldnessfromherglance。
“Unfortunately。”Ipursued,“italwaysseemedtomeeithernotyettime,oralreadytoolate。YetsosoonasIregainedmyliberty,myfirstthoughtwasofthat。WhilethewagerexistedImightnotaskyoutobecomemywife,lestIshouldseemtobecarryingouttheoriginalintentionwhichembarkedmeuponthebusinessofwooingyou,andbroughtmeheretoLanguedoc。AndsomyfirststepwastoseekoutChatelleraultanddeliverhimmynoteofhandformyPicardypossessions,thebulk-byfarthegreaterbulk-ofallmyfortune。MysecondstepwastorepairtoyouattheHoteldel’Epee。
“AtlastIcouldapproachyouwithcleanhands;IcouldconfesswhatIhaddone;andsinceitseemedtomethatIhadmadetheutmostatonement,Iwasconfidentofsuccess。Alas!Icametoolate。IntheporchoftheaubergeImetyouasyoucameforth。FrommytalkativeintendantyouhadlearntalreadythestoryofthatbargainintowhichBardelyshadentered。YouhadlearntwhoIwas,andyouthoughtthatyouhadlearntwhyIwooedyou。Accordinglyyoucouldbutdespiseme。”
Shehadsunkintoachair。Herhandswerefoldedinalistlessmannerinherlap,andhereyeswerelowered,hercheekspale。Buttheswiftheaveofherbosomtoldmethatmywordswerenotwithouteffect。”DoyouknownothingofthebargainthatImadewithChatellerault?”sheaskedinavoicethatheld,Ithought,sometraceofmisery。
“Chatelleraultwasacheat!“Icried。“NomanofhonourinFrancewouldhaveaccountedhimselfunderobligationtopaythatwager。I
paidit,notbecauseIthoughtthepaymentdue,butthatbyitspaymentImightofferyouaculminatingproofofmysincerity。”
“Bethatasitmay。”saidshe,“Ipassedhimmywordto-tomarryhim,ifhesetyouatliberty。”
“Thepromisedoesnothold,forwhenyoumadeitIwasatlibertyalready。Besides,Chatelleraultisdeadbynow-orverynearit。”
“Dead?”sheechoed,lookingup。
“Yes,dead。Wefought-“Theghostofasmile,ofsudden,ofscornfulunderstanding,passedlikearayoflightacrossherface。
“Pardieu!“Icried,“youdomeawrongthere。Itwasnotbymyhandsthathefell。Itwasnotbymethattheduelwasinstigated。”
AndwiththatIgaveherthewholedetailsoftheaffair,includingtheinformationthatChatelleraulthadbeennopartytomyrelease,andthatforhisattemptedjudicialmurderofmetheKingwouldhavedealtveryhardlywithhimhadhenotsavedtheKingthetroublebythrowinghimselfuponhissword:
TherewasasilencewhenIhaddone。Roxalannesaton,andseemedtoponder。ToletallthatIhadsaidsinkinandadvocatemycause,astomewasveryclearitmust,Iturnedasideandmovedtooneofthewindows。
“Whydidyounottellmebefore?”sheaskedsuddenly。“Why-oh,why-didyounotconfesstomethewholeinfamousaffairassoonasyoucametoloveme,asyousayyoudid?”
“AsIsayIdid?”Irepeatedafterher。“Doyoudoubtit?CanyoudoubtitinthefaceofwhatIhavedone?”
“Oh,Idon’tknowwhattobelieve!“shecried,asobinhervoice。
“Youhavedeceivedmesofar,sooften。Whydidyounottellmethatnightontheriver?Orlater,whenIpressedyouinthisveryhouse?Oragain,theothernightintheprisonofToulouse?”
“Youaskmewhy。Canyounotanswerthequestionforyourself?
Canyounotconceivethefearthatwasinmethatyoushouldshrinkawayfrommeinloathing?Thefearthatifyoucaredalittle,I
mightforalltimestiflesuchaffectionasyouboreme?ThefearthatImustruinyourtrustinme?Oh,mademoiselle,canyounotseehowmyonlyhopelayinfirstowningdefeattoChatellerault,infirstpayingthewager?”
“Howcouldyouhavelentyourselftosuchabargain?”washernextquestion。
“How,indeed?”Iaskedinmyturn。“FromyourmotheryouhaveheardsomethingofthereputationthatattachestoBardelys。Iwasamanofcarelessways,satiatedwithallthesplendourslifecouldgiveme,nauseatedbyallitsluxuries。WasitwonderfulthatI
allowedmyselftobeluredintothisaffair?Itpromisedsomeexcitement,acertainnovelty,difficultiesinapaththatIhad-
alas!-everfoundalltoosmooth-forChatelleraulthadmadeyourreputedcoldnessthechiefbolsterofhisopinionthatIshouldnotwin。
“Again,Iwasnotgiventoover-nicescruples。Imakenosecretofmyinfirmities,butdonotblamemetoomuch。IfyoucouldseethefinedemoiselleswehaveinParis,ifyoucouldlistentotheirtenetsandtakeadeeplookintotheirlives,youwouldnotmarvelatme。Ihadneverknownanybutthese。OnthenightofmycomingtoLavedan,yoursweetness,yourpureinnocence,youralmostchildishvirtue,dazedmebytheirnovelty。FromthatfirstmomentIbecameyourslave。ThenIwasinyourgardendaybyday。Andhere,inthisoldLanguedocgardenwithyouandyourroses,duringthelanguorousdaysofmyconvalescence,isitwonderfulthatsomeofthepurity,someofthesweetnessthatwasofyouandofyourroses,shouldhavecreptintomyheartandcleanseditalittle?Ah,mademoiselle!“Icried-and,comingclosetoher,Iwouldhavebentmykneeinintercessionbutthatsherestrainedme。
“Monsieur。”sheinterrupted,“weharassourselvesinvain。Thiscanhavebutoneending。”
Hertoneswerecold,butthecoldnessIknewwasforced-elsehadshenotsaid“weharassourselves。”Insteadofquellingmyardour,itgaveitfuel。
“True,mademoiselle。”Icried,almostexultantly。“Itcanendbutoneway!“
Shecaughtmymeaning,andherfrowndeepened。Iwenttoofast,itseemed。
“Ithadbetterendnow,monsieur。Thereistoomuchbetweenus。
Youwageredtowinmetowife。”Sheshuddered。“Icouldneverforgetit。”
“Mademoiselle。”Ideniedstoutly,“Ididnot。”
“How?”Shecaughtherbreath。“Youdidnot?”
“No。”Ipursuedboldly。“Ididnotwagertowinyou。IwageredtowinacertainMademoiselledeLavedan,whowasunknowntome-
butnotyou,notyou。”
Shesmiled,withneversoslightatouchofscorn。
“Yourdistinctionsareveryfine-toofineforme,monsieur。”
“Iimploreyoutobereasonable。Thinkreasonably。”
“AmInotreasonable?DoInotthink?Butthereissomuchtothinkof!“shesighed。“Youcarriedyourdeceptionsofar。Youcamehere,forinstance,asMonsieurdeLesperon。Whythatduplicity?”
“Again,mademoiselle,Ididnot。”saidI。
Sheglancedatmewithpatheticdisdain。
“Indeed,indeed,monsieur,youdenythingsverybravely。”
“DidItellyouthatmynamewasLesperon?”DidIpresentmyselftomonsieuryourfatherasLesperon?”
“Surely-yes。”
“Surelyno;athousandtimesno。Iwasthevictimofcircumstancesinthat,andifIturnedthemtomyownaccountaftertheyhadbeenforceduponme,shallIbeblamedandaccountedacheat?WhilstI
wasunconscious,yourfather,seekingforacluetomyidentity,madeaninspectionofmyclothes。
“InthepocketofmydoublettheyfoundsomepapersaddressedtoRenedeLesperon-someloveletters,acommunicationfromtheDucd’Orleans,andawoman’sportrait。FromallofthisitwasassumedthatIwasthatLesperon。Uponmyreturntoconsciousnessyourfathergreetedmeeffusively,whereatIwondered;hepassedontodiscuss-nay,totellmeof-thestateoftheprovinceandofhisownconnectionwiththerebels,untilIlaygaspingathisegregioustemerity。Then,whenhegreetedmeasMonsieurdeLesperon,Ihadtheexplanationofit,buttoolate。CouldIdenytheidentitythen?