AlthoughallVronsky’sinnerlifewasabsorbedinhispassion,hisexternallifeunalterablyandinevitablyfollowedalongtheoldaccustomedlinesofhissocialandregimentaltiesandinterests。TheinterestsofhisregimenttookanimportantplaceinVronsky’slife,bothbecausehewasfondoftheregiment,andstillmorebecausetheregimentwasfondofhim。TheywerenotonlyfondofVronskyinhisregiment,theyrespectedhimtoo,andwereproudofhim;proudthatthisman,withhisimmensewealth,hisbrillianteducationandabilities,andthepathopenbeforehimtoeverykindofsuccess,distinctionandambition,haddisregardedallthat,andofalltheinterestsoflifehadtheinterestsofhisregimentandhiscomradesnearesttohisheart。Vronskywasawareofhiscomrades’viewofhim,andinadditiontohislikingforthatsortoflife,hefeltboundtokeepupthatreputation。
Itneednotbesaidthathedidnotspeakofhislovetoanyofhiscomrades,nordidhebetrayhissecreteveninthewildestdrinkingboutsthoughindeedhewasneversodrunkastoloseallcontrolofhimself。Andheclosedthemouthsofanyofhisthoughtlesscomradeswhoattemptedtoalludetohisliaison。But,inspiteofthat,hislovewasknowntoallthetown;everyoneguessedwithmoreorlesscertaintyathisrelationswithMadameKarenina。Themajorityoftheyoungermenenviedhimforjustwhatwasthemostirksomefactorinhislove-theexaltedpositionofKarenin,andtheconsequenttransparencytosociety,oftheirliaison。
Thegreaternumberoftheyoungwomen,whoenviedAnnaandhadlongbeenwearyofhavinghercalledrighteous,rejoicedatthefulfillmentoftheirpredictions,andwereonlywaitingforadecisiveturninpublicopiniontofalluponherwithalltheweightoftheirscorn。Theywerealreadymakingreadytheirhandfulsofmudtocastatherwhentherightmomentarrived。Thegreaternumberofthemiddle-agedpeopleandcertaingreatpersonagesweredispleasedattheprospectoftheimpendingscandalinsociety。
Vronsky’smother,onhearingofhisliaison,wasatfirstpleasedbyit,becausenothingtohermindgavesuchafinishingtouchtoabrilliantyoungmanasaliaisoninthehighestsociety;shewaspleased,too,thatMadameKarenina,whohadsotakenherfancy,andhadtalkedsomuchofherson,was,afterall,justlikealltheotherprettyanddecentwomen-accordingtotheCountessVronskaia’sideas。Butshehadheardoflatethathersonhadrefusedapositionofferedhimofgreatimportancetohiscareer,simplyinordertoremainintheregiment,wherecouldbeconstantlyseeingMadameKarenina;sheheardthatgreatpersonagesweredispleasedwithhimonthisaccount,andshechangedheropinion。Shewasvexed,too,thatfromallshecouldlearnofthisliaisonitwasnotthatbrilliant,graceful,worldlyliaisonwhichshewouldhavewelcomed,butasortofWerther’sdesperatepassion,soshewastold,whichmightwellleadhimintofollies。ShehadnotseenhimsincehisabruptdeparturefromMoscow,andshesenthereldersontobidhimtocometoher。
Thiselderbrother,too,wasdispleasedwithhisyoungerbrother。Hedidnotdistinguishwhatsortoflovehismightbe,bigorlittle,passionateorpassionless,pureorimpurehekeptaballetgirlhimself,thoughhewasthefatherofafamily,sohewasratherindulgent,butheknewthatthislovedispleasedthosewhomitwasnecessarytoplease,andthereforehedidnotapproveofhisbrother’sconduct。
Besidestheserviceandsociety,Vronskyhadanothergreatinterest-horses;hewaspassionatelyfondofhorses。
Thatyearracesandasteeplechasehadbeenarrangedfortheofficers。Vronskyhadputhisnamedown,boughtathoroughbredEnglishmare,andinspiteofhislove,hewaslookingforwardtotheraceswithintense,thoughreserved,excitement……
Thesetwopassionsdidnotinterferewithoneanother。Onthecontrary,heneededoccupationanddistractionquiteapartfromhislove,soastorecruitandresthimselffromtheviolentemotionsthatagitatedhim。
OnthedayoftheracesatKrasnoeSelo,Vronskyhadcomeearlierthanusualtoeatbeefsteakinthecommonmessroomoftheregiment。Hehadnoneedtobestrictwithhimself,ashisweightwasexactlytherequiredone;butstillhehadtoavoidgainingflesh,andsoheeschewedfarinaceousandsweetdishes。Hesatwithhiscoatunbuttonedoverawhitewaistcoat,restingbothelbowsonthetable,and,whilewaitingforthesteakhehadordered,waslookingoveraFrenchnovelthatlayopenonhisplate。Hewasonlylookingatthebooktoavoidconversationwiththeofficerscominginandout;hewasthinking。
HewasthinkingofAnna’spromisetoseehimtodayaftertheraces。Buthehadnotseenherforthreedays,andasherhusbandhadjustreturnedfromabroad,hedidnotknowwhethershewouldbeabletomeethimtodayornot,andhedidnotknowhowtofindout。HehadhadhislastinterviewwithherathiscousinBetsy’ssummervilla。HevisitedthesummervillaoftheKareninsasrarelyaspossible。Nowhewantedtogothere,andheponderedthequestionofhowtodoit。
`OfcourseIshallsayBetsyhassentmetoaskwhethershe’scomingtotheraces。Ofcourse,I’llgo,’hedecided,liftinghisheadfromthebook。Andashevividlypicturedthehappinessofseeingher,hisfacelightedup。
`Sendtomyhouse,andtellthemtohaveoutthecarriageandthreehorsesasquicklyastheycan,’hesaidtotheservant,whohandedhimthesteakonahotsilverdish,andmovingthedishuptowardhim,hebeganeating。
Fromtheadjoiningbilliardroomcamethesoundofballsclicking,oftalkandlaughter。Twoofficersappearedattheentrancedoor:one,ayoungfellowwithaweak,delicateface,whohadlatelyjoinedtheregimentfromtheCorpsofPages;theother,aplump,elderlyofficer,withabraceletonhiswrist,andlittleeyes,lostinfat。
Vronskyglancedatthem,frowned,andlookingdownathisbookasthoughhehadnotnoticedthem,heproceededtoeatandreadatthesametime。
`What?Fortifyingyourselfforyourwork?’saidtheplumpofficer,sittingdownbesidehim。
`Asyousee,’respondedVronsky,knittinghisbrows,wipinghismouth,andwithoutlookingattheofficer。
`Soyou’renotafraidofgettingfat?saidthelatter,turningachairroundfortheyoungofficer。
`What?’saidVronskyangrily,makingawryfaceofdisgustandshowinghisheavyteeth。
`You’renotafraidofgettingfat?’
`Waiter,sherry!’saidVronsky,withoutreplying,andmovingthebooktotheothersideofhim,hewentonreading。
Theplumpofficertookupthelistofwinesandturnedtotheyoungofficer。
`Youchoosewhatwe’retodrink,’hesaid,handinghimthecard,andlookingathim。
`Rhinewine,please,’saidtheyoungofficer,stealingatimidglanceatVronsky,andtryingtopullhisscarcelyvisiblemustache。SeeingthatVronskydidnotturnround,theyoungofficergotup。
`Let’sgointothebilliardroom,’hesaid。
Theplumpofficerrosesubmissively,andtheymovedtowardthedoor。
Atthatmomenttherewalkedintotheroomthetanandwell-builtCaptainIashvin。Noddingwithanairofloftycontempttothetwoofficers,hewentuptoVronsky。
`Ah!Hereheis!’hecried,bringinghisbighanddownheavilyonhisepaulet。Vronskylookedroundangrily,buthisfacelightedupimmediatelywithhischaracteristicexpressionofcalmandfirmfriendliness。
`That’sit,Aliosha,’saidthecaptain,inhisloudbaritone。`Haveabiteanddrinkonetinyglass。’
`Oh,I’mnotveryhungry。’
`Theregotheinseparables,’Iashvindropped,glancingsarcasticallyatthetwoofficerswhowereatthatinstantleavingtheroom。Andhebenthislonglegs,swathedintightridingbreeches,andsatdowninthechair,toolowforhim,sothathiskneeswerecrampedupinasharpangle。`Whydidn’tyouturnupatTheateratKrasnoeSeloyesterday?Numerovawasn’tatallbad。Wherewereyou?’
`IwaslateattheTverskys’,’saidVronsky。
`Ah!’respondedIashvin。
Iashvin,agamblerandarake,amannotmerelywithoutanyprinciples,butofimmoralprinciples-IashvinwasVronsky’sgreatestfriendintheregiment。Vronskylikedhimbothforhisexceptionalphysicalstrength,whichheshowedforthemostpartbybeingabletodrinklikeafishandtodowithoutsleepwithoutbeingintheslightestdegreeaffectedbyit;andforhisgreatstrengthofcharacter,whichheshowedinhisrelationswithhiscomradesandsuperiorofficers,commandingbothfearandrespect,andalsoatcards,whenhewouldplayfortensofthousandsand,howevermuchhemighthavedrunk,alwayswithsuchskillanddecisionthathewasreckonedthebestplayerintheEnglishClub。VronskyrespectedandlikedIashvinparticularlybecausehefeltIashvinlikedhim,notforhisnameandhismoney,butforhimself。AndofallmenhewastheonlyonewithwhomVronskywouldhavelikedtospeakofhislove。HefeltthatIashvin,inspiteofhisapparentcontemptforeverysortoffeeling,wastheonlymanwhocould,sohefancied,comprehendtheintensepassionwhichnowfilledhiswholelife。Moreover,hefeltcertainthatIashvin,asitwas,tooknodelightingossipandscandal,andinterpretedhisfeelingrightly-thatistosay,knewandbelievedthatthispassionwasnotajoke,notapastime,butsomethingmoreseriousandimportant。
Vronskyhadneverspokentohimofhispassion,buthewasawarethatheknewallaboutit,andthatheputtherightinterpretationonit,andhewasgladtoseethisinhiseyes。
`Ah!yes,’hesaid,totheannouncementthatVronskyhadbeenattheTverskys’;and,hisblackeyesshining,hepluckedathisleftmustache,andbegantwistingitintohismouth-abadhabithehad。
`Well,andwhatdidyoudoyesterday?Winanything?’askedVronsky。
`Eightthousand。Butthreedon’tcount;thechapwillhardlypayup。’
`Oh,thenyoucanaffordtoloseoverme,’saidVronsky,laughing。IashvinhadbettedheavilyonVronskyintheraces。
`Nochanceofmylosing。Makhotin’stheonlyonewho’sadangerousentrant。’
Andtheconversationpassedtoforecastsofthecomingrace,theonlythingVronskycouldthinkofjustnow。
`Comealong,I’vefinished,’saidVronsky,andgettinguphewenttothedoor。Iashvingotuptoo,stretchinghislonglegsandhislongback。
`It’stooearlyformetodine,butImusthaveadrink。I’llcomealongdirectly。Hi,wine!’heshouted,inhisrichvoice,thatwassofamousatdrill,andsetthewindowsshaking。`No,Idon’tneedit!’heshoutedagain,immediatelyafter。`You’regoinghome,soI’llgowithyou。’
AndhewalkedoutwithVronsky。
Vronskywasstayinginaroomy,clean,Finnishhut,dividedintotwobyapartition。Petritskylivedwithhimincamptoo。PetritskywasasleepwhenVronskyandIashvincameintothehut。
`Getup,don’tgoonsleeping,’saidIashvin,goingbehindthepartitionandgivingPetritsky,whowaslyingwithruffledhairandwithhisnoseinthepillow,aprodontheshoulder。
Petritskyjumpedupsuddenlyontohiskneesandlookedaround。
`Yourbrother’sbeenhere,’hesaidtoVronsky。`Hewakedmeup,thedeviltakehim,andsaidhe’dlookinagain。’Andpullinguptherugheflunghimselfbackonthepillow。`Ohdoquitthat,Iashvin!’hesaid,gettingfuriouswithIashvin,whowaspullingtherugoffhim。`Quitthat!’Heturnedoverandopenedhiseyes。`You’dbettertellmewhattodrink;I’vesuchanastytasteinmymouththat……’
`Vodka’sbetterthananything,’boomedIashvin。`Tereshchenko!Vodkaforyourmasterandcucumbers,’heshouted,obviouslytakingpleasureinthesoundofhisownvoice。
`Vodka,doyouthink?Eh?’queriedPetritsky,blinkingandrubbinghiseyes。`Andyou’lldrinksomething?Allrightthen,we’llhaveadrinktogether!Vronsky,haveadrink?’saidPetritsky,gettingupandwrappingthetiger-stripedbedcoverroundhim。Hewenttothedoorofthepartitionwall,raisedhishands,andhummedinFrench:``therewasakinginThu-u-le。’’Vronsky,willyouhaveadrink?’
`Goalong,’saidVronsky,puttingonthecoathisvalethandedhim。
`Whereareyouoffto?’askedIashvin。`Oh,hereisyourtroika,’headded,seeingthecarriagedriveup。
`Tothestables,andI’vegottoseeBriansky,too,aboutthehorses,’saidVronsky。
VronskyhadasafactpromisedtocallatBriansky’s,sometenverstasfromPeterhof,andtobringhimmoneyowingforsomehorses;andhehopedtohavetimetogetthatintoo。Buthiscomradeswereatonceawarethatthatwasnottheonlyplacehewasgoing。
Petritsky,stillhumming,winkedandmadeapoutwithhislips,asthoughhewouldsay:`Oh,yes,weknowyourBriansky!’
`Mindyou’renotlate!’wasIashvin’sonlycomment;and,tochangetheconversation:`How’smyroan?Ishedoingallright?’heinquired,lookingoutofthewindowattheshafthorse,whichhehadsoldtoVronsky。
`Stop!’criedPetritskytoVronsky,justashewasgoingout。`Yourbrotherleftaletterandanoteforyou。Waitabit;wherearethey?’
Vronskystopped。
`Well,wherearethey?’
`Wherearethey?That’sjustthequestion!’saidPetritskysolemnly,slidinghisforefingerupwardalonghisnose。
`Come,tellme;thisissilly!’saidVronskysmiling。
`Ihaven’tlightedthefire。Theymustbeheresomewhere。’
`Come,enoughfooling!Whereistheletter?’
`No,I’veforgotten,really。Orwasitadream?Waitabit,waitabit!Butwhat’stheuseofgettinginarage?Ifyou’ddrunkfourbottlespermanyesterdayasIdid,you’dforgetwhereyouwereat。Waitabit,I’llremember!’
Petritskywentbehindthepartitionandlaydownonhisbed。
`Waitabit!ThiswashowIwaslying,andthiswashowhewasstanding。Yes-yes-yes……Hereitis!’-andPetritskypulledaletteroutfromunderthemattress,wherehehadhiddenit。
Vronskytooktheletterandhisbrother’snote。Itwastheletterhewasexpecting-fromhismother,reproachinghimfornothavingbeentoseeher-andthenotewasfromhisbrothertosaythathemusthavealittletalkwithhim。Vronskyknewthatitwasallaboutthesamething。`Whatbusinessisitoftheirs!’thoughtVronsky,andcrumplingupthelettershethrustthembetweenthebuttonsofhiscoatsoastoreadthemcarefullyontheroad。Intheporchofthehuthewasmetbytwoofficers;oneofhisregimentandoneofanother。
Vronsky’squarterswerealwaysameetingplaceforalltheofficers。
`Whereareyouoffto?’
`ImustgotoPeterhof。’
`HasthemarecomefromTsarskoe?’
`Yes,butI’venotseenheryet。’
`TheysayMakhotin’sGladiator’slame。’
`Nonsense!However,areyougoingtoraceinthismud?’saidtheother。
`Herearemysaviors!’criedPetritsky,seeingthemcomein。Beforehimstoodthebatmanwithvodkaandpickledcucumbersonatray。`Here’sIashvin,orderingmetodrinkapick-me-up。’
`Well,youdidmakeithotforusyesterday,’saidoneofthosewhohadcomein;`youdidn’tletusgetawinkofsleepallnight。’
`Oh,didn’twemakeaprettyfinish!’saidPetritsky。`Volkovclimbedontotheroofandbegantellingushowsadhewas。Isaid:``Let’shavemusic,thefuneralmarch!’’Hefairlydroppedasleepontheroofoverthefuneralmarch。’
`Drinkitup;youpositivelymustdrinkthevodka,andthenSeltzerwater,andalotoflemon,’saidIashvin,standingoverPetritskylikeamothermakingachildtakemedicine,`andthenalittlechampagne-justaweebottle。’
`Come,there’ssomesenseinthat。Stopabit,Vronsky。We’llallhaveadrink。’
`No;good-by,allofyou。I’mnotgoingtodrinktoday。’
`Why,areyougainingweight?Allright,thenwemusthaveitalone。GiveustheSeltzerwaterandlemon。’
`Vronsky!’shoutedsomeonewhenhewasalreadyoutside。
`Well?’
`You’dbettergetyourhaircut,it’llweighyoudown-especiallyatthebaldplace。’
Vronskywasinfactbeginning,prematurely,togetalittlebald。Helaughedgaily,showinghisheavyteeth,andpullinghiscapoverthethinplace,wentoutandgotintohiscarriage。
`Tothestables!’hesaid,andwasjustpullingouttheletterstoreadthemthrough,butthoughtbetterofit,andputoffreadingthemsoasnottodistracthisattentionbeforelookingatthemare。`Lateron!……’
Thetemporarystable,awoodenbooth,hadbeenputupclosetotheracecourse,andtherehismarewastohavebeentakenthepreviousday。Hehadnotyetseenherthere。Duringthelastfewdayshehadnotriddenheroutforexercisehimself,buthadputherinthechargeofthetrainer,andsonowheabsolutelydidnotknowinwhatconditionhismarehadarrivedyesterdayorwasintoday。Hehadscarcelygotoutofhiscarriagewhenhisstableboygroom,recognizingthecarriagesomewayoff,calledthetrainer。Adry-lookingEnglishman,inhighbootsandashortjacket,clean-shaven,exceptforatuftbelowhischin,cametomeethimwalkingwiththeuncouthgaitofajockey,turninghiselbowsoutandswayingfromsidetoside。
`Well,how’sFrou-Frou?’VronskyaskedinEnglish。
`Allright,sir,’theEnglishman’svoicerespondedsomewherefardowninhisthroat。`Betternotgoin,’headded,touchinghishat。`I’veputamuzzleonher,andthemare’sfidgety。Betternotgoin,it’llexcitethemare。’
`No,I’mgoingin。Iwanttolookather。’
`Comealong,then,’saidtheEnglishman,frowning,andspeakingwithhismouthshut,and,withswingingelbows,hewentoninfrontwithhisdisjointedgait。
Theywentintothelittleyardinfrontoftheshed。Thestableboyonduty,spruceandsmartinhisholidayattire,metthemwithabroominhishand,andfollowedthem。Intheshedtherewerefivehorsesintheirseparatestalls,andVronskyknewthathischiefrival,Makhotin’sGladiator,averytallchestnuthorse,hadbeenbroughtthere,andmustbestandingamongthem。Evenmorethanhismare,VronskylongedtoseeGladiator,whomhehadneverseen,butVronskyknewthatbytheetiquetteoftheracecourseitwasnotmerelyimpossibleforhimtoseethehorse,butimpropereventoaskquestionsabouthim。justashewaspassingalongthepassage,theboyopenedthedoorintothesecondhorseboxontheleft,andVronskycaughtaglimpseofabigchestnuthorsewithwhitelegs。HeknewthatthiswasGladiator,but,withthefeelingofamanturningawayfromthesightofanotherman’sopenletter,heturnedroundandwentintoFrou-Frou’sstall。
`ThestallbelongingtoMa-k……Mak……Inevercansaythename-ishere,’saidtheEnglishmanoverhisshoulder,pointinghisdirty-nailedthumbtowardGladiator’sstall。
`Makhotin?Yes,he’smymostseriousrival,’saidVronsky。
`Ifyouwereridinghim,’saidtheEnglishman,`I’dbetonyou。
`Frou-Frou’smorenervous,whiletheotherismorepowerful,’saidVronsky,smilingatthecomplimenttohisriding。
`Inasteeplechaseitalldependsonridingandonpluck,’saidtheEnglishman。
Ofpluck-thatis,energyandcourage-Vronskydidnotmerelyfeelthathehadenough;whatwasoffarmoreimportance,hewasfirmlyconvincedthatnooneintheworldcouldhavemoreofthispluckthanhehad。
`Don’tyouthinkIwantmoresweatingdown?’
`Oh,no,’answeredtheEnglishman。`Please,don’tspeakloud。Themare’sfidgety,’headded,noddingtowardthehorsebox,beforewhichtheywerestanding,andfromwhichcamethesoundofrestlessstampinginthestraw。
Heopenedthedoor,andVronskywentintothehorsebox,dimlylightedbyonelittlewindow。Inthehorseboxstoodadarkbaymare,withamuzzleon,shiftingherfeetonthefreshstraw。Lookingroundhiminthetwilightofthehorsebox,Vronskyunconsciouslytookinoncemoreinacomprehensiveglanceallthepointsofhisfavoritemare。Frou-Frouwasananimalofmediumsize,notaltogetherfreefromreproach,fromabreeder’spointofview。Shewassmall-bonedallover;thoughherchestwasextremelyprominentinfront,itwasnarrow。Herhindquarterswerealittledrooping,andinherforelegs,andstillmoreinherhindlegs,therewasanoticeablecurvature。Themusclesofbothhindlegsandforelegswerenotverythick;butacrosshershouldersthemarewasexceptionallybroad,apeculiarityspeciallystrikingnowthatshewasleanfromtraining。Thebonesofherlegsbelowthekneeslookednothickerthanafingerfrominfront,butwereextraordinarilythickseenfromtheside。Shelookedaltogether,exceptacrosstheshoulders,apparentlypinchedinatthesidesandpressedoutindepth。Butshehadinthehighestdegreethequalitythatmakesalldefectsforgotten:thatqualitywasblood,thebloodthattells,astheEnglishexpressionhasit。Themusclesstoodupsharplyunderthenetworkofsinews,coveredwiththedelicate,mobileskin,softassatin,andtheywerehardasbone。Herclean-cuthead,withprominent,bright,spiritedeyes,broadenedoutattheopennostrils,thatshowedtheredbloodinthecartilagewithin。Aboutallherfigure,andespeciallyherhead,therewasacertainexpressionofenergy,and,atthesametime,ofsoftness。Shewasoneofthosecreatureswhichseemdevoidofspeechonlybecausethemechanismoftheirmouthsdoesnotallowofit。
ToVronsky,atanyrate,itseemedthatsheunderstoodallhefeltatthatmomentashelookedather。
DirectlyVronskywenttowardher,shedrewinadeepbreath,and,turningbackherprominenteyetinthewhitelookedbloodshot,shestartedattheapproachingfiguresfromtheoppositeside,shakinghermuzzle,andshiftinglightlyfromonelegtotheother。
`There,youseehowfidgetysheis,’saidtheEnglishman。
`Whoa,darling!Whoa!’saidVronsky,goinguptothemareandspeakingsoothinglytoher。
Butthenearerhecame,themoreexcitedshegrew。Onlywhenhestoodbyherheadshewassuddenlyquieter,whilethemusclesquiveredunderhersoft,delicatecoat。Vronskypattedherstrongneck,straightenedoverhersharpwithersastraylockofhermanethathadfallenontheotherside,andmovedhisfacenearherdilatednostrils,transparentasabat’swing。Shedrewaloudbreathandsnortedoutthroughhertensenostrils,started,prickeduphersharpear,andputoutherstrong,blackliptowardVronsky,asthoughshewouldnipholdofhissleeve。Butrememberingthemuzzle,sheshookitandagainbeganrestlesslystampinghershapelylegsoneaftertheother。
`Calmdown,darling,calmdown!’hesaid,pattingheragainoverherhindquarters;and,withagladsensethathismarewasinthebestpossiblecondition,hewentoutofthehorsebox。
Themare’sexcitementhadinfectedVronsky。Hefeltthathisheartwasthrobbing,andthathe,too,likethemare,longedtomove,tobite;itwasbothfearfulanddelicious。
`Well,Irelyonyou,then,’hesaidtotheEnglishman,`half-pastsixontheground。’
`Allright,’saidtheEnglishman。`Oh,whereareyougoing,mylord?’heaskedsuddenly,usingthetitlemylord,whichhescarcelyeverused。
Vronskyinamazementraisedhishead,andstared,asheknewhowtostare,notintotheEnglishman’seyes,butathisforehead,astoundedattheimpertinenceofhisquestion。ButrealizingthatinaskingthistheEnglishmanhadbeenlookingathimnotasanemployer,butasajockey,heanswered:
`I’vegottogotoBriansky’s;Ishallbehomewithinanhour。’
`HowoftenI’maskedthatquestiontoday!’hesaidtohimself,andheblushed,athingwhichrarelyhappenedtohim。TheEnglishmanlookedgravelyathim;and,asthoughhe,too,knewwhereVronskywasgoing,headded:
`Thegreatthingistokeepquietbeforearace,’saidhe;`don’tgetoutoftemper,orupsetaboutanything。’
`Allright,’answeredVronsky,smiling;and,jumpingintohiscarriage,hetoldthemantodrivetoPeterhof。
Beforehehaddrivenmanypacesaway,thedarkcloudsthathadbeenthreateningrainalldaybroke,andtherewasaheavydownpourofrain。
`Whatapity!’thoughtVronsky,puttinguptheroofofthecarriage。`Itwasmuddybefore,nowitwillbeaperfectswamp。’Ashesatinsolitudeintheclosedcarriage,hetookouthismother’sletterandhisbrother’snote,andreadthemthrough。
Yes,itwasthesamethingoverandoveragain。Everyone-hismother,hisbrother-everyonethoughtfittointerfereintheaffairsofhisheart。Thisinterferencearousedinhimafeelingofangryhatred-afeelinghehadrarelyknownbefore。`Whatbusinessisitoftheirs?Whydoeseverybodyfeelcalledupontoconcernhimselfaboutme?Andwhydotheyworrymeso?Justbecausetheyseethatthisissomethingtheycan’tunderstand。Ifitwereacommon,vulgar,worldlyintrigue,theywouldhaveleftmealone。Theyfeelthatthisissomethingdifferent,thatthisisnotamerepastime,thatthiswomanisdearertomethanlife。Andthisisincomprehensible,andthat’swhyitannoysthem。Whateverourdestinyisormaybe,wehavemadeitourselves,andwedonotcomplainofit,’hesaid,inthewordwelinkinghimselfwithAnna。`No,theymustneedsteachushowtolive。Theyhaven’tanideaofwhathappinessis;theydon’tknowthatwithoutourlovethereisforusneitherhappinessnorunhappiness-nolifeatall,’hethought。
Hewasangrywithallofthemfortheirinterferencejustbecausehefeltinhissoulthatthey,allthesepeople,wereright。HefeltthatthelovethatboundhimtoAnnawasnotamomentaryimpulse,whichwouldpass,asworldlyintriguesdopass,leavingnoothertracesinthelifeofeithersavepleasantorunpleasantmemories。Hefeltallthetortureofhisownpositionandhers,allthedifficultyinstoreforthem,conspicuousastheywereintheeyeofalltheworld-inconcealingtheirlove,inlyinganddeceiving;andinlying,deceiving,feigningandcontinuallythinkingofothers,whenthepassionthatunitedthemwassointensethattheywerebothobliviousofeverythingelsesavetheirlove。
Hevividlyrecalledalltheconstantlyrecurringinstancesofinevitablenecessityforlyinganddeceit,whichweresoagainsthisnaturalbent。Herecalledparticularlyvividlytheshamehehadmorethanoncedetectedinheratthisnecessityforlyinganddeceit。AndheexperiencedthestrangefeelingthathadsometimescomeuponhimsincehisrelationswithAnna。Thiswasafeelingofloathingforsomething-whetherforAlexeiAlexandrovich,orforhimself,orforthewholeworld,hecouldnothavesaid。Buthealwaysdroveawaythisstrangefeeling。Now,too,heshookitoffandcontinuedthethreadofhisthoughts。
`Yes,shewasunhappybefore,butproudandatpeace;andnowshecannotbeatpeaceandfeelsecureinherdignity,thoughshedoesnotshowit。Yes,wemustputanendtoit,’hedecided。
Andforthefirsttimetheideaclearlypresenteditselfthatitwasessentialtoputanendtothisfalseposition,andthesoonerthebetter。`Abandoneverythingmustwe-sheandI-andhideourselvessomewherealonewithourlove,’hesaidtohimself。
Theshowerdidnotlastlong,andbythetimeVronskyarrived,hisshafthorsetrottingatfullspeed,anddraggingtheoffhorsesgallopingthroughthemudwiththeirreinshangingloose,thesunhadpeepedoutagain,theroofsofthesummervillasandtheoldlimetreesinthegardensonbothsidesofthehighstreetsparkledwithwetbrilliance,andfromthetwigscameapleasantdrip,and,fromtheroofs,rushingstreamsofwater。Hethoughtnomoreofshowerspoilingtheracecourse,butwasnowrejoicingbecause-thankstotherain-hewouldbesuretofindherathomeandalone,asheknewthatAlexeiAlexandrovich,whohadlatelyreturnedfromawateringplace,hadnotmovedfromPeterburg。
Hopingtofindheralone,Vronskyalighted,ashealwaysdid,toavoidattractingattention,beforecrossingthebridge,andwalkedtothehouse。Hedidnotgoupthestepstothestreetdoor,butwentintothecourt。
`Hasyourmastercome?’heaskedagardener。
`No,sir。Themistressisathome。Butwillyoupleasegotothefrontdoor;thereareservantsthere,’thegardeneranswered。`They’llopenthedoor。’
`No,I’llgoinfromthegarden。’
Andfeelingsatisfiedthatshewasalone,andwantingtotakeherbysurprise,sincehehadnotpromisedtobetheretoday,andshewouldcertainlynotexpecthimtocomebeforetheraces,hewalked,holdinghisswordandsteppingcautiouslyoverthesandypath,borderedwithflowers,totheterracethatlookedoutuponthegarden。Vronskyforgotnowallthathehadthoughtonthewayofthehardshipsanddifficultiesofhisposition。Hethoughtofnothingbutthathewouldseeherdirectly,notinimagination,butliving,allofher,asshewasinreality。Hewasjustgoingin,steppingonhiswholefootsoasnottomakeanoise,upthewornstepsoftheterrace,whenhesuddenlyrememberedwhathealwaysforgot,andwhatcausedthemosttorturingsideofhisrelationswithher:herson,withhisquestioning,and,ashefancied,hostileeyes。
Thisboywasmoreoftenthananyoneelseacheckupontheirfreedom。Whenhewaspresent,bothVronskyandAnnadidnotmerelyavoidspeakingofanythingthattheycouldnothaverepeatedbeforeeveryone;theydidnotevenallowthemselvestoreferbyhintstoanythingtheboydidnotunderstand。Theyhadmadenoagreementaboutthis,ithadbeensettledofitself。Theywouldhavefeltitaswoundingthemselvestodeceivethechild。Inhispresencetheytalkedlikeacquaintances。But,inspiteofthiscaution,Vronskyoftensawthechild’sintent,bewilderedglancefixeduponhim,andastrangeshyness,uncertainty-atonetimetherewasfriendliness,atanothercoldnessandreserve,intheboy’smannertohim,asthoughthechildfeltthatbetweenthismanandhismotherthereexistedsomeimportantbond,thesignificanceofwhichhecouldnotunderstand。
Asamatteroffacttheboydidfeelthathecouldnotunderstandthisrelation,andhetriedpainfully,yetwasunable,tomakecleartohimselfwhatfeelingheoughttohaveforthisman。Withachild’skeeninstinctforeverymanifestationoffeelinghesawdistinctlythathisfather,hisgoverness,hisnurse-allnotmerelydislikedVronsky,butlookedonhimwithhorrorandaversion,thoughtheyneversaidanythingabouthim;whilehismotherlookedonhimashergreatestfriend。
`Whatdoesitmean?Whoishe?HowoughtItolovehim?IfIdon’tknow,it’smyfault;eitherI’mstupidoranaughtyboy,’thoughtthechild。Andthiswaswhatcausedhisdubious,inquiring,sometimeshostileexpression,andtheshynessanduncertaintywhichVronskyfoundsoirksome。Thischild’spresencealwaysandinfalliblycalledupinVronskythatstrangefeelingofinexplicableloathingwhichhehadexperiencedoflate。Thischild’spresencecalledupbothinVronskyandinAnnaafeelingakintothefeelingofasailorwhoseesbythecompassthatthedirectioninwhichheisswiftlymovingisfarfromtherightone,butthattoarresthismotionisnotinhispower,thateveryinstantiscarryinghimfartherandfartheraway,andthattoadmittohimselfhisdeviationfromtherightdirectionistantamounttoadmittinghiscertainruin。
Thischild,withhisinnocentoutlookuponlife,wasthecompassthatshowedthemthepointatwhichtheyhaddepartedfromwhattheyknew,yetdidnotwanttoknow。
ThistimeSeriozhawasnotathome,andshewascompletelyalone。Shewassittingontheterracewaitingforthereturnofherson,whohadgoneoutforastrollandhadbeencaughtintherain。Shehadsentoutamanservantandamaidtolookforhim,andwassittingherewaitingforthem。Dressedinawhitegown,deeplyembroidered,shewassittinginacorneroftheterracebehindsomeflowers,anddidnothearhim。Bendinghercurlydarkhead,shepressedherforeheadagainstacoolwateringpotthatstoodontheparapet,andbothherlovelyhands,withtheringsheknewsowell,claspedthepot。Thebeautyofherwholefigure,herhead,herneck,herhands,struckVronskyeverytimeassomethingnewandunexpected。Hestoodstill,gazingatherinecstasy。But,directlyhewouldhavemadeasteptocomenearertoher,shewasawareofhispresence,pushedawaythewateringpot,andturnedherflushedfacetowardhim。
`What’sthematter?Areyouunwell,’hesaidtoherinFrench,goinguptoher。Hewouldhaveruntoher,butrememberingthattheremightbeoutsiders,helookedroundtowardthebalconydoor,andreddened,ashealwaysreddened,feelingthathehadtobeafraidandbeonhisguard。
`No,I’mquitewell,’shesaid,gettingupandsqueezinghisoutstretchedhandtightly。`Ididnotexpect……thee。’
`MyGod!whatcoldhands!’hesaid。
`Youstartledme,’shesaid。`I’malone,andexpectingSeriozha;he’soutforawalk;they’llcomefromthisdirection。’
But,inspiteofhereffortstobecalm,herlipswerequivering。
`Forgivemeforcoming,butIcouldn’tpassthedaywithoutseeingyou,’hewenton,speakingFrench,ashealwaysdid,toavoidusingthestiffRussianpluralform,soimpossiblyfrigidbetweenthem,andthedangerouslyintimatesingular。
`Forgive-forwhatI’msoglad!’
`Butyou’reillorworried,’hewenton,withoutlettinggoherhandsandbendingoverher。`Whatwereyouthinkingof?’
`Alwaysofthesamething。’shesaid,withasmile。
Shespokethetruth。Ifeveratanymomentshehadbeenaskedwhatshewasthinkingof,shecouldhaveansweredtruly:Ofthesamething,ofherhappinessandherunhappiness。Shewasthinking,justwhenhecameuponher,ofthis:Whywasit,shewondered,thattoothers,toBetsyforinstancesheknewofhersecretconnectionwithTushkevich,allthiswassoeasy,whiletoheritwassuchtorture?Todaythisthoughtgainedspecialpoignancyfromcertainotherconsiderations。Sheaskedhimabouttheraces。Heansweredherquestions,and,seeingthatshewasagitated,tryingtocalmher,hebegantellingherinthesimplesttonethedetailsofhispreparationsfortheraces。
`ShallItellhim,ornot?’shethought,lookingintohiscalm,affableeyes。`Heissohappy,soabsorbedinhisracesthathewon’tunderstandasheshould;hewon’tunderstandallthesignificanceofthiseventtous。’
`Butyouhaven’ttoldmewhatyouwerethinkingofwhenIcamein,’hesaid,interruptinghisnarrative;`pray,tellme!’
Shedidnotanswer,and,bendingherheadalittle,shelookedinquiringlyathimfromunderherbrows,hereyesshiningundertheirlonglashes。Herhandshookasitplayedwithaleafshehadpicked。Hesawit,andhisfaceexpressedthatuttersubjection,thatslavishdevotion,whichhaddonesomuchtowinher。
`Iseesomethinghashappened。DoyousupposeIcanbeatpeace,knowingyouhaveatroubleIamnotsharing?Tellme,forGod’ssake!’herepeatedimploringly。
`Yes,Ishan’tbeabletoforgivehimifhedoesnotrealizeallthesignificanceofit。Betternottell;whyputhimtotheproof?’shethought,stillstaringathiminthesameway,andfeelingthatherhandthatheldtheleafwastremblingmoreandmore。
`ForGod’ssake!’herepeated,takingherhand。
`ShallItellyou?’
`Yes,yes,yes……’
`Iampregnant,’shesaid,softlyandslowly。
Theleafinherhandshookmoreviolently,butshedidnottakehereyesoffhim,watchinghowhewouldtakeit。Heturnedpale,wouldhavesaidsomething,butstopped;hedroppedherhand,andhisheadsankonhisbreast。`Yes,herealizesallthesignificanceofthefact,’shethought,andgratefullyshepressedhishand。
Butshewasmistakeninthinkingherealizedthesignificanceofthenewsasshe,awoman,realizedit。Onhearingit,hefeltcomeuponhimwithtenfoldintensitythatstrangefeelingofloathingofsomeone。But,atthesametime,herealizedthattheturningpointhehadbeenlongingforhadcomenow;thatitwasimpossibletogoonconcealingthingsfromherhusband,anditwasinevitableinonewayoranotherthattheyshouldsoonputanendtotheirunnaturalposition。But,besidesthat,heremotionphysicallyaffectedhiminthesameway。Helookedatherwithalookofsubmissivetenderness,kissedherhand,gotup,and,insilence,pacedupanddowntheterrace。
`Yes,’hesaid,goinguptoherresolutely。`NeitheryounorIhavelookedonourrelationsasapassingamusement,andnowourfateissealed。Itisabsolutelynecessarytoputanend’-helookedroundashespoke-`tothedeceptioninwhichweareliving。’
`Putanend?Putanendhow,Alexei?’shesaidsoftly。
Shewascalmernow,andherfacelightedupwithatendersmile。
`Leaveyourhusbandandmakeourlifeone。’
`Itisoneasitis,’sheanswered,scarcelyaudibly。
`Yes,butcompletely,completely。’
`Buthow,Alexei-tellmehow?’shesaidinmelancholymockeryatthehopelessnessofherownsituation。`Isthereanywayoutofsuchasituation?AmInotthewifeofmyhusband?’
`Thereisawayoutofeverysituation。Wemusttakeourstand,’hesaid。`Anything’sbetterthanthesituationinwhichyou’reliving。Ofcourse,Iseehowyoutortureyourselfovereverything-theworld,andyourson,andyourhusband。’
`Oh,notovermyhusband,’shesaid,withaplainsmile。`Idon’tknowhim,Idon’tthinkofhim。Hedoesn’texist。’
`You’renotspeakingsincerely。Iknowyou。Youworryabouthimtoo。’
`Oh,hedoesn’tevenknow,’shesaid,andsuddenlyahotflushcameoverherface;hercheeks,herbrow,herneckcrimsoned,andtearsofshamecameintohereyes。`Butletusnoteventalkofhim。’
Vronskyhadseveraltimesalready,thoughnotsoresolutelyasnow,triedtobringhertoconsiderherposition,andeverytimehehadbeenconfrontedbythesamesuperficialityandfrivolitywithwhichshemethisappealnow。Itwasasthoughthereweresomethinginthiswhichshecouldnotorwouldnotface,asthoughdirectlyshebegantospeakofthis,she,therealAnna,retreatedsomehowintoherself,andanotherstrangeandunaccountablewomancameout,whomhedidnotloveandwhomhefeared,andwhowasinoppositiontohim。Buttodayhewasresolvedtohaveitout。
`Whetherheknowsornot,’saidVronsky,inhisusualcalmandfirmtone,`whetherheknowsornot,hasnothingtodowithus。Wecannot……Youcannotstaylikethis,especiallynow。’
`What’stobedone,accordingtoyou?’sheaskedwiththesamefrivolousirony。Shewhohadsofearedhewouldtakeherconditiontoofrivolously,wasnowvexedwithhimfordeducingfromitthenecessityoftakingsomestep。
`Tellhimeverything,andleavehim。’
`Verywell,letussupposeIdothat,’shesaid。`Doyouknowwhattheresultofthatwouldbe?Icantellyouitallbeforehand,’andawickedlightgleamedinhereyes,thathadbeensotenderaminutebefore。```Eh,youloveanotherman,andhaveenteredintoacriminalliaisonwithhim?’’Mimickingherhusband,shethrewanemphasisontheword`criminal,’asAlexeiAlexandrovichdid。```Iwarnedyouoftheresultsinthereligious,thecivil,andthedomesticaspects。Youhavenotlistenedtome。NowIcannotletyoudisgracemyname’’-`andmyson,’shehadmeanttosay,butabouthersonshecouldnotjest-``disgracemyname,and’’-andmoreinthesamestyle,’sheadded。`Ingeneralterms,he’llsayinhisofficialmanner,andwithalldistinctnessandprecision,thathecannotletmego,butwilltakeallmeasuresinhispowertopreventscandal。Andhewillcalmlyandpunctiliouslyactinaccordancewithhiswords。That’swhatwillhappen。He’snotaman,butamachine-andaspitefulmachinewhenhe’sangry,’sheadded,recallingAlexeiAlexandrovichasshespoke,withallthepeculiaritiesofhisfigureandmannerofspeaking,andreckoningagainsthimeverydefectshecouldfindinhim,forgivinghimnothingforthegreatwrongsheherselfwasdoinghim。
`But,Anna,’saidVronsky,inasoftandpersuasivevoice,tryingtosootheher,`weabsolutelymusttellhim,atanyrate,andthenbeguidedbythelinehetakes。’
`What-runaway?’
`Andwhynotrunaway?Idon’tseehowwecankeeponlikethis。Andnotformysake-Iseethatyousuffer。’
`Yes,runaway,andbecomeyourmistress,’shesaidangrily。
`Anna,’hesaid,withreproachfultenderness。
`Yes,’shewenton,`becomeyourmistress,andcompletetheruinof……’
Againshewouldhavesaid`myson,’butshecouldnotutterthatword。
Vronskycouldnotunderstandhowshe,withherstrongandtruthfulnature,couldendurethisstateofdeceit,andnotlongtogetoutofit。Buthedidnotsuspectthatthechiefcauseofitwasthewordson,whichshecouldnotutter。Whenshethoughtofherson,andhisfutureattitudetohismother,whohadabandonedhisfather,shefeltsuchterroratwhatshehaddonethatshenolongerreasoned,but,beingawoman,couldonlytrytocomfortherselfwithlyingassurancesandwordssothateverythingshouldremainasitalwayshadbeen,andthatitwaspossibletoforgetthefearfulquestionofhowitwouldbewithherson。
`Ibegyou,Ientreatyou,’shesaidsuddenly,takinghishand,andspeakinginquiteadifferenttone,sincereandtender,`neverspeaktomeofthat!’
`But,Anna……’
`Never。Leaveittome。Iknowallthebaseness,allthehorrorofmyposition;butit’snotsoeasytodecideasyouthink。Thereforeleaveittome,anddowhatIsay。Neverspeaktomeofit。Doyoupromiseme?……No,no,promise!……’
`Ipromiseeverything,butIcan’tbeatpeace,especiallyafterwhatyouhavetoldmeIcan’tbeatpeace,whenyoucan’tbeatpeace……’
`I?’sherepeated。`Yes,Iamworriedsometimes;butthatwillpass,ifyouwillnevertalkaboutthis。Whenyoutalkaboutit-it’sonlythenitworriesme。’
`Idon’tunderstand,’hesaid。
`Iknow,’sheinterruptedhim,`howharditisforyourtruthfulnaturetolie,andIgrieveforyou。Ioftenthink,howcouldyouruinyourwholelifeforme。’
`Iwasjustthinkingtheverysamething,’hesaid;`howcouldyousacrificeeverythingformysake?Ican’tforgivemyselfbecauseyou’reunhappy。’
`Iunhappy?’shesaid,comingclosertohim,andlookingathimwithanecstaticsmileoflove。`Iamlikeahungrymanwhohasbeengivenfood。Hemaybecold,anddressedinrags,andashamed,butheisnotunhappy。Iunhappy?No,thisismyhappiness……’
Shecouldhearthesoundofherson’svoicecomingtowardthem,and,glancingswiftlyroundtheterrace,shegotupimpulsively。Hereyesglowedwiththefireheknewsowell;witharapidmovementsheraisedherlovelyhands,coveredwithrings,tookhishead,lookedintohisfacewithaprotractedgaze,and,puttingupherfacewithsmiling,partedlips,swiftlykissedhismouthandbotheyes,andthrusthimaway。Shewouldhavegone,butheheldherback。
`When?’hemurmuredinawhisper,gazinginecstasyather。
`Tonight,atoneo’clock,’shewhispered,and,withaheavysigh,shewalkedwithherlight,swiftsteptomeetherson。
Seriozhahadbeencaughtbytheraininthebiggarden,andheandhisnursehadtakenshelterinabower。
`Well,aurevoir,’shesaidtoVronsky。`Imustsoonbegettingreadyfortheraces。Betsypromisedtofetchme。’
Vronsky,lookingathiswatch,hurriedlydroveoff。
WhenVronskyhadlookedathiswatchontheKarenins’balcony,hehadbeensogreatlyagitatedandlostinhisthoughtsthat,althoughhesawthehandsonthefaceofhiswatch,hecouldnottakeinwhattimeitwas。Hecameoutontothehighroadandwalked,pickinghiswaycarefullythroughthemud,tohiscarriage。HewassocompletelyabsorbedinhisfeelingforAnna,thathedidnoteventhinkwhato’clockitwas,andwhetherhehadtimetogotoBriansky’s。Hepreserved,asoftenhappens,onlytheexternalfacultyofmemory,thatpointsouteachsteponehastotake,oneaftertheother。Hewentuptohiscoachman,whowasdozingontheboxintheshadow,alreadylengthening,ofathicklimetree;headmiredtheshiftingcloudsofmidgescirclingoverthehothorses,and,wakingthecoachman,hejumpedintothecarriage,andtoldhimtodrivetoBriansky’s。Itwasonlyafterdrivingnearlysevenverstasthathehadsufficientlyrecoveredhimselftolookathiswatch,andrealizethatitwashalfpastfive,andthathewaslate。
Therewereseveralracessetforthatday:theBodyGuards’race,thentheofficers’two-verstarace,thenthefour-verstarace,andthentheraceforwhichhewasentered。Hecouldstillbeinrighttimeforhisrace,butifhewenttoBriansky’shecouldbeonlyinfulltime,andhewouldarrivewhenthewholeCourtwouldbeintheirplaces。Thatwouldbeapity。ButhehadpromisedBrianskytocome,andsohedecidedtodriveon,tellingthecoachmannottosparethehorses。
HereachedBriansky’s,spentfiveminutesthere,andgallopedback。Thisrapiddrivecalmedhim。AllthatwaspainfulinhisrelationswithAnna,allthefeelingofindefinitenessleftbytheirconversation,hadslippedoutofhismind。Hewasthinkingnowwithpleasureandexcitementoftherace,ofhisbeingintimeafterall,andnowandthenthethoughtofthehappinessofthisnight’sassignationflashedacrosshisimaginationlikeadazzlinglight。
Theexcitementoftheapproachingracegaineduponhimmoreandmoreashedrovefartherandfartherintotheatmosphereoftheraces,overtakingcarriagesdrivingupfromthesummervillasoroutofPeterburg。
Therewasnolongeranyoneathomeathisquarters;allwereattheraces,andhisvaletwaslookingoutforhimatthegate。Whilehewaschanginghisclothes,hisvalettoldhimthatthesecondracehadbegunalready,thatalotofgentlemenhadbeentoaskforhim,andaboyhadtwicerunupfromthestables。
Dressingwithouthurryheneverhurriedhimself,andneverlosthisself-possession,Vronskydrovetothesheds。Fromtheshedshecouldseeaperfectseaofcarriages,andpeopleonfoot,soldierssurroundingtheracecourse,andpavilionsswarmingwithpeople。Thesecondracewasapparentlygoingon,forjustashewentintotheshedsheheardabellringing。Goingtowardthestable,hemetthewhite-leggedchestnut,Makhotin’sGladiator,beingledtotheracecourseinablueandorangehorsecloth,withwhatlookedlikehugeearsedgedwithblue。
`Where’sCord?’heaskedthestableboy。
`Inthestable,puttingonthesaddle。’
IntheopenhorseboxstoodFrou-Frou,saddledready。Theywerejustgoingtoleadherout。
`I’mnottoolate?’
`Allright!Allright!’saidtheEnglishman;`don’tupsetyourself!’
Vronskyoncemoretookinatoneglancethebeautifullinesofhisfavoritemare,whowasquiveringallover,andwithanefforthetorehimselffromthesightofher,andwentoutofthestable。Hewenttowardthepavilionsatthemostfavorablemomentforescapingattention。Thetwo-verstaracewasjustfinishing,andalleyeswerefixedonthecavalryguardinfrontandthelighthussarbehind,urgingtheirhorsesonwithalasteffortclosetothewinningpost。Fromthecenterandoutsideoftheringallwerecrowdingtothewinningpost,andagroupofsoldiersandofficersofthecavalryguardswereshoutingloudlytheirdelightattheexpectedtriumphoftheirofficerandcomrade。Vronskymovedintothemiddleofthecrowdunnoticed,almostattheverymomentwhenthebellrangatthefinishoftherace,andthetall,mud-spatteredcavalryguardwhocameinfirst,leaningoverthesaddle,letgothereinsofhispantinggraystallionthatlookeddarkwithsweat。
Thestallion,stiffeningouthislegs,withaneffortstoppedhisrapidcourse,andtheofficerofthecavalryguardslookedroundhimlikeamanwakingupfromaheavysleep,andjustmanagedtosmile。Acrowdoffriendsandoutsiderspressedroundhim。
Vronskyintentionallyavoidedthatselectcrowdofupperworld,whichwasmovingandtalkingwithdiscreetfreedombeforethepavilions。HeknewthatMadameKareninawasthere,andBetsy,andhisbrother’swife,andhepurposelydidnotgonearthemforfearofsomethingdistractinghisattention。Buthewascontinuallymetandstoppedbyacquaintances,whotoldhimaboutthepreviousraces,andkeptaskinghimwhyhewassolate。
Atthetimewhentheracershadtogotothepaviliontoreceivetheprizes,andallattentionwasdirectedtothatpoint,Vronsky’selderbrother,Alexandre,acolonelwiththeshoulderknot,cameuptohim。Hewasnottall,thoughasbroadlybuiltasAlexei,andhandsomerandrosierthanhe;hehadarednose,andanopen,tipsyface。
`Didyougetmynote?’hesaid。`There’sneveranyfindingyou。’
AlexandreVronsky,inspiteofhisdissolutelife,andparticularlyhisdrunkenhabits,forwhichhewasnotorious,wasquiteoneoftheCourtcircle。
Now,ashetalkedtohisbrotherofamatterboundtobeexceedinglydisagreeabletohim,knowingthattheeyesofmanypeoplemightbefixeduponhim,hekeptasmilingcountenance,asthoughhewerejestingwithhisbrotheraboutsomethingoflittlemoment。
`Igotit,andIreallycan’tmakeoutwhatyouareworryingyourselfabout,’saidAlexei。
`I’mworryingmyselfbecausetheremarkhasjustbeenmadetomethatyouweren’there,andthatyouwereseeninPeterhofonMonday。’
`Therearematterswhichonlyconcernthosedirectlyinterestedinthem,andthematteryouaresoworriedaboutisofthatnature……’
`Yes,butifso,onedoesnotbelongintheservice,onedoesnot……’
`Ibegyounottomeddle,andthatisall。’
AlexeiVronsky’sfrowningfaceturnedpale,andhisprominentlowerjawquivered,whichhappenedrarelywithhim。Beingamanofverywarmheart,hewasseldomangry;butwhenhewasangry,andwhenhischinquivered,then,asAlexandreVronskyknew,hewasdangerous。AlexandreVronskysmiledgaily。
`Ionlywantedtogiveyoumother’sletter。Answeritanddon’tworryaboutanythingjustbeforetherace。Bonnechance,’headded,smiling,andhemovedawayfromhim。ButafterhimanotherfriendlygreetingbroughtVronskytoastandstill。
`Soyouwon’trecognizeyourfriends!Howareyou,moncher?’saidStepanArkadyevich,asconspicuouslybrilliantinthemidstofallthePeterburgbrillianceashewasinMoscow,hisfacerosy,andhiswhiskerssleekandglossy。`Icameupyesterday,andI’mdelightedbecauseIshallseeyourtriumph。Whenshallwemeet?’
`Cometomorrowtothemessroom,’saidVronsky,andsqueezinghimbythesleeveofhisgreatcoat,withapologies,hemovedawaytothecenteroftheracecourse,wherethehorseswerebeingledforthegreatsteeplechase。
Thehorseswhohadruninthelastracewerebeingledhome,steamingandexhausted,bythestableboys,andoneafteranotherthefreshhorsesforthecomingracemadetheirappearance,forthemostpartEnglishracers,wearinghorseclothsandlookingwiththeirdrawn-upbellieslikestrange,hugebirds。OntherightFrou-Frouwasledin,leanandbeautiful,liftingupherelastic,ratherlongpasterns,asthoughmovedbysprings。Notfarfromhertheyweretakingthecaparisonoffthelop-caredGladiator。Thestrong,exquisite,perfectlycorrectlinesofthestallion,withhissuperbhindquartersandexcessivelyshortpasternsalmostoverhishoofs,attractedVronsky’sattentioninspiteofhimself。Hewouldhavegoneuptohismare,buthewasagaindetainedbyanacquaintance。
`Oh,there’sKarenin!’saidtheacquaintancewithwhomhewaschatting。`He’slookingforhiswife,andshe’sinthemiddleofthepavilion。Didn’tyouseeher?’
`No,Ididn’t,’answeredVronsky,andwithoutevenglancingroundtowardthepavilionwherehisfriendwaspointingoutMadameKarenina,hewentuptohismare。
Vronskyhadnothadtimetolookatthesaddle,aboutwhichhehadtogivesomedirection,whentheentrantsweresummonedtothepaviliontoreceivetheirnumbersandplacesintherowatstarting。Seventeenofficers,lookingseriousandsevere,manywithpalefaces,mettogetherinthepavilionanddrewthenumbers。Vronskydrewnumber7。Thecrywasheard:`Mount!’
Feelingthat,withtheothersridingintherace,hewasthecenteruponwhichalleyeswerefastened,Vronskywalkeduptohismareinthatstateofnervoustensioninwhichheusuallybecamedilatoryandcalminhismovements。Cord,inhonoroftheraces,hadputonhisbestclothes,ablackcoatbuttonedup,astifflystarchedcollar,whichproppeduphischeeks,ablackbowlerandHessianboots。Hewascalmanddignifiedasever,andwaswithhisownhandsholdingFrou-Froubybothreins,standingstraightinfrontofher。Frou-Frouwasstilltremblingasthoughinafever。Hereye,fulloffire,glancedsidewaysatVronsky。Vronskyslippedhisfingerunderthesaddlegirth。Themareglancedaslantathim,drewupherlip,andtwitchedherear。TheEnglishmanpuckereduphislips,intendingtoindicateasmilethatanyoneshouldverifyhissaddling。
`Getup;youwon’tfeelsoexcited。’
Vronskylookedroundforthelasttimeathisrivals。Heknewthathewouldnotseethemduringtherace。Twowerealreadyridingforwardtothepointfromwhichtheyweretostart。Galtsin,afriendofVronsky’sandoneofhismoreformidablerivals,wasmovingroundabayhorsethatwouldnotlethimmount。Alittlehussarofthelifeguardsintightridingbreechesrodeoffatagallop,croucheduplikeacatovertheporridge,inimitationofEnglishjockeys。PrinceKuzovlevsatwithawhitefaceonhisthoroughbredmarefromtheGrabovskystud,whileanEnglishgroomledherbythebridle。VronskyandallhiscomradesknewKuzovlevandhispeculiarityof`weaknerves’andterriblevanity。Theyknewthathewasafraidofeverything-afraidofridingalinehorse。Butnow,justbecauseitwasterrible,becausepeoplebroketheirnecks,andtherewasadoctorstandingateachobstacle,andanambulancewithacrossonit,andasisterofmercy,hehadmadeuphismindtotakepartintherace。Theireyesmet,andVronskygavehimafriendlyandencouragingnod。Onlyonehedidnotsee,hischiefrival,MakhotinonGladiator。
`Don’tbeinahurry,’saidCordtoVronsky,`andrememberonething:don’tholdherinatthefences,anddon’turgeheron;lethergoasshelikes。’
`Allright,allright,’saidVronsky,takingthereins。
`Ifyoucan,leadtherace;butdon’tlosehearttillthelastminute,evenifyou’rebehind。’
Beforethemarehadtimetomove,Vronskysteppedwithanagile,vigorousmovementintothesteel-toothedstirrup,andlightlyandfirmlyplacedhiscompactedbodyonthecreakingleatherofthesaddle。Gettinghisrightfootinthestirrup,hewithhabitualmovingsmoothedthedoublereinsbetweenhisfingers,andCordletgo。Asthoughshedidnotknowwhichfoottoputfirst,Frou-Froustarted,draggingatthereinswithherlongneck,andasthoughshewereonsprings,shakingherriderfromsidetoside。Cordquickenedhisstep,followinghim。Theexcitedmare,tryingtodeceiveherrider,pulledatthereins,firstononesideandthentheother,andVronskytriedinvainwithvoiceandhandtosootheher。
Theywerejustreachingthedammed-upstreamontheirwaytothestartingpoint。Severaloftheriderswereinfrontandseveralbehind,whensuddenlyVronskyheardthesoundofahorsegallopinginthebehindhim,andhewasovertakenbyMakhotinonhiswhite-legged,lop-earedGladiator。Makhotinsmiled,showinghislongteeth,butVronskylookedathimangrily。Hedidnotlikehim,andregardedhimnowashismostformidablerival。Hewasangrywithhimforgallopingpastandexcitinghismare。Frou-Froustartedintoagallop,herleftfootforward,madetwobounds,andfrettingatthetightenedreins,passedintoajoltingtrot,bumpingherriderupanddown。Cord,too,scowled,andfollowedVronskyalmostambling。
Therewereseventeenofficersinallridinginthisrace。Theracecoursewasalargefour-verstaringintheformofanellipseinfrontofthepavilion。Onthiscoursenineobstacleshadbeenarranged:thestream,abigandsolidbarriertwoarsheeneshigh,justbeforethepavilion,adryditch,aditchfullofwater,aprecipitousslope,anIrishbarricadeoneofthemostdifficultobstacles,consistingofamoundfencedwithbrushwood,beyondwhichwasaditchoutofsightforthehorses,sothatthehorsehadtoclearbothobstaclesorpossiblybekilled;thentwomoreditchesfilledwithwater,andonedryone;andtheendoftheracewasjustfacingthepavilion。Buttheracebegannotinthering,butahundredarsheenesawayfromit,andinthatpartofthecoursewasthefirstobstacle,adammed-upstream,threearsheenesinbreadth,whichtheracerscouldleaporwadethroughastheypreferred。
Threetimestheywererangedreadytostart,buteachtimesomehorsethrustitselfoutofline,andtheyhadtobeginagain。Thestarter,ColonelSestrin,wasbeginningtolosehistemper,whenatlast,forthefourthtime,heshouted`Away!’andtheridersstarted。
Everyeye,everyoperaglass,wasturnedonthebrightlycoloredgroupofridersatthemomenttheywereinlinetostart。
`They’reoff!They’restarting!’washeardonallsidesafterthehushofexpectation。
Andlittlegroupsandsolitaryfiguresamongthepublicbeganrunningfromplacetoplacetogetabetterview。Intheveryfirstminutetheclosegroupofhorsemenspreadout,anditcouldbeseenthattheywereapproachingthestreamintwosandthreesandonebehindanother。Tothespectatorsitseemedasthoughtheyhadallstartedsimultaneously,buttotheracersthereweresecondsofdifferencethathadgreatvaluetothem。
Frou-Frou,excitedandovernervous,hadlostthefirstmoment,andseveralhorseshadstartedbeforeher,butbeforereachingthestream,Vronsky,whowasholdinginthemarewithallhisforceasshetuggedatthebridle,easilyovertookthree,andtherewereleftinfrontofhimMakhotin’schestnutGladiator,whosehindquartersweremovinglightlyandrhythmicallyupanddownexactlyinfrontofVronsky,and,infrontofall,thedaintymareDianabearingthemoredeadthanaliveKuzovlev。
ForthefirstinstantVronskywasnotmastereitherofhimselforhismare。Uptothefirstobstacle,thestream,hecouldnotguidethemotionsofhismare。
GladiatorandDianacameuptoittogetherandalmostatthesameinstant;atastroketheyroseabovethestreamandflewacrosstotheotherside;Frou-Froudartedafterthemeasily,asifflying;butattheverymomentwhenVronskyfelthimselfintheair,hesuddenlysawalmostunderhismare’shoofsKuzovlev,whowasflounderingwithDianaonthefurthersideofthestream。Kuzovlevhadletgothereinsashetooktheleap,andthemarehadfallentogetherwithhimoverherhead。ThosedetailsVronskylearnedlater;atthemomentallhesawwasthatjustunderhim,whereFrou-Froumustalight,Diana’slegsorheadmightbeintheway。ButFrou-Froudrewupherlegsandbackintheveryactofleaping,likeafallingcat,and,clearingtheothermare,alightedbeyondher。
`Oh,youdarling!’flashedthroughVronsky’shead。
AftercrossingthestreamVronskyhadcompletecontrolofhismare,andbeganholdingherin,intendingtocrossthegreatbarrierbehindMakhotin,andtotrytoovertakehiminthecleargroundofabouttwohundredsazhenesthatfollowedit。
ThegreatbarrierstoodjustinfrontoftheImperialPavilion。TheCzarandthewholeCourt,andcrowdsofpeople,wereallgazingatthem-athim,andatMakhotin,alengthaheadofhim,astheydrewnearthe`devil,’asthesolidbarrierwascalled。Vronskywasawareofthoseeyesfasteneduponhimfromallsides,buthesawnothingexcepttheearsandneckofhisownmare,thegroundracingtomeethim,andthebackandwhitelegsofGladiatorbeatingtimeswiftlybeforehim,andkeepingalwaysthesamedistanceahead。Gladiatorrose,withnosoundofknockingagainstanything。WithawaveofhisshorttailhedisappearedfromVronsky’ssight。
`Bravo!’criedavoice。
Atthesameinstant,underVronsky’seyes,rightbeforehimflashedthepalingsofthebarrier。Withouttheslightestchangeinheractionhismareflewoverit;thepalingsvanished,andheheardonlyacrashbehindhim。Themare,excitedbyGladiator’skeepingahead,hadrisentoosoonbeforethebarrier,andgrazeditwithoneofherhindhoofs。Butherpaceneverchanged,andVronsky,feelingaspatterofmudinhisface,realizedthathewasoncemorethesamedistancefromGladiator。Oncemoreheperceivedinfrontofhimthesamebackandshorttail,andagainthesameswiftlymovingwhitelegsthatgotnofurtheraway。
AttheverymomentwhenVronskythoughtthatnowwasthetimetoovertakeMakhotin,Frou-Frouherself,understandinghisthoughts,withoutanyincitementonhispart,gainedconsiderably,andbegangettingalongsideofMakhotinonthemostfavorableside,closetotheinnerrope。Makhotinwouldnotletherpassthatside。Vronskyhadhardlyformedthethoughtthathecouldperhapspassontheouterside,whenFrou-Froushiftedherpaceandbeganovertakinghimontheotherside。Frou-Frou’sshoulder,beginningbynowtobedarkwithsweat,wasevenwithGladiator’sback。Forafewboundstheymovedevenly。Butbeforetheobstacletheywereapproaching,Vronskybeganworkingatthereins,anxioustoavoidhavingtotaketheoutercircle,andswiftlypassedMakhotinjustuponthedeclivity。Hecaughtaglimpseofhismud-stainedfaceasheflashedby。Heevenfanciedthathesmiled。VronskypassedMakhotin,buthewasimmediatelyawareofhimcloseuponhim,andheneverceasedhearingjustbehindhimtheeven-thuddinghoofsandtherapidandstillquitefreshbreathingofGladiator。
Thenexttwoobstacles,thewatercourseandthebarrier,wereeasilycrossed,butVronskybegantohearthesnortingandthudofGladiatorcloseruponhim。Heurgedonhismare,andtohisdelightfeltthatsheeasilyquickenedherpace,andthethudofGladiator’shoofswasagainheardatthesamedistanceaway。
Vronskywasattheheadoftherace,justashewantedtobeandasCordhadadvised,andnowhefeltsureofbeingthewinner。Hisexcitement,hisdelight,andhistendernessforFrou-Frougrewkeenerandkeener。Helongedtolookround,buthedidnotdaredothis,andtriedtobecoolandnottourgeonhismare,soastokeepthesamereserveofforceinherashefeltthatGladiatorstillkept。Thereremainedonlyoneobstacle,themostdifficult;ifhecouldcrossitaheadoftheothers,hewouldcomeinfirst。HewasflyingtowardtheIrishbarricade;Frou-Frouandhebothtogethersawthebarricadeinthedistance,andboththemanandthemarehadamoment’shesitation。Hesawtheuncertaintyinthemare’searsandliftedthewhip,butatthesametimefeltthathisfearsweregroundless;themareknewwhatwaswanted。Shequickenedherpaceandroserhythmically,justashehadfanciedshewould,andassheleftthegroundgaveherselfuptotheforceofherrush,whichcarriedherfarbeyondtheditch;andwiththesamerhythm,withouteffort,withthesamelegforward,Frou-Froufellbackintoherpaceagain。
`Bravo,Vronsky!’heheardshoutsfromaknotofmen-heknewtheywerehisfriendsandhisregimentcomrades-whowerestandingattheobstacle。HecouldnotfailtorecognizeIashvin’svoice,thoughhedidnotseehim。
`Omysweet!’hesaidinwardlytoFrou-Frou,ashelistenedforwhatwashappeningbehind。`He’sclearedit!’hethought,catchingthethudofGladiator’shoofsbehindhim。Thereremainedonlythelastditch,filledwithwaterandtwoarsheeneswide。Vronskydidnotevenlookatit,butanxioustocomeinalongwayaheadbegansawingawayatthereins,liftingthemare’sheadandlettingitgointimewithherpaces。Hefeltthatthemarewasatherverylastreserveofstrength;notherneckandshouldersmerelywerewet,butthesweatwasstandingindropsonhermane,herhead,hersharpears,andherbreathcameinshort,sharpgasps。Butheknewthatshehadstrengthleftmorethanenoughfortheremainingtwohundredsazhenes。ItwasonlyfromfeelinghimselfnearerthegroundandfromthepeculiarsmoothnessofhismotionthatVronskyknewhowgreatlythemarehadquickenedherpace。Sheflewovertheditchasthoughnotnoticingit。Sheflewoveritlikeabird;butatthesameinstantVronsky,tohishorror,feltthatfailingtokeepupwiththemare’space,hehad,hedidnotknowhow,madeanabominable,unpardonablemoveinrecoveringhisseatinthesaddle。Allatoncehispositionhadshiftedandheknewthatsomethingawfulhadhappened。Hecouldnotyetmakeoutwhathadhappened,whenthewhitelegsofachestnuthorseflashedbyclosetohim,andMakhotinpassedataswiftgallop。Vronskywastouchingthegroundwithonefoot,andhismarewassinkingonthatfoot。Hejusthadtimetofreehislegwhenshefellononeside,gaspingpainfully,and,makingvaineffortstorisewithherdelicate,soakingneck,sheflutteredonthegroundathisfeetlikeashotbird。TheclumsymovementmadebyVronskyhadbrokenherback。Butthatheonlyknewmuchlater。AtthatmomentheknewonlythatMakhotinhadflownswiftlyby,whilehestoodstaggeringaloneonthemuddy,motionlessground,andFrou-Froulaygaspingbeforehim,bendingherheadbackandgazingathimwithherexquisiteeye。Stillunabletorealizewhathadhappened,Vronskytuggedathismare’sreins。Againshestruggledalloverlikeafish,and,hershouldersmakingthewingsofthesaddlecrackle,sheroseonherfrontlegs;butunabletoliftherback,shequiveredalloverandagainfellonherside。Withhisfacehideouswithpassion,pale,hislowerjawtrembling,Vronskykickedherwithhisheelinthestomachandagainfelltotuggingattherein。Shedidnotstir,butthrustinghernoseintotheground,shesimplygazedathermasterwithherspeakingeyes。
`A-a-a!’groanedVronsky,clutchingathishead。`Ah!whathaveIdone!’hecried。`Theracelost!Andmyfault!shameful,unpardonable!Andthepoordarling,ruinedmare!Ah,whathaveIdone!’
Acrowdofmen,adoctorandhisassistant,theofficersofhisregiment,ranuptohim。Tohismiseryhefeltthathewaswholeandunhurt。Themarehadbrokenherback,anditwasdecidedtoshoother。Vronskycouldnotanswerquestions,couldnotspeaktoanyone。Heturned,andwithoutpickinguphisfallencap,walkedawayfromtheracecourse,unconsciousofwherehewasgoing。Hefeltutterlywretched。Forthefirsttimeinhislifeheknewthebitterestsortofmisfortune,misfortunebeyondremedy,andcausedbyhisownfault。
Iashvinovertookhimwithhiscap,andledhimhome,andhalfanhourlaterVronskyhadregainedhisself-possession。Butthememoryofthatraceremainedforlonginhisheart,thecruelestandbitterestmemoryofhislife。