Bathsheba,stillunhappy,wentindoorsagain。InthecourseoftheafternoonshesaidtoLiddy,whohadbeeninformedoftheoccurrence,`WhatwasthecolourofpoorFannyRobin’shair?Doyouknow?Icannotrecollect-I
onlysawherforadayortwo。’
`Itwaslight,ma’am;butsheworeitrathershort,addpackedawayunderhercap,sothatyouwouldhardlynoticeit。ButIhaveseenherletitdownwhenshewasgoingtobed,anditlookedbeautifulthen。Realgoldenhair。’
`Heryoungmanwasasoldier,washenot?’
`Yes。InthesameregimentasMrTroy。Hesaysheknewhimverywell。’
`What,MrTroysaysso?Howcamehetosaythat?’
`OnedayIjustnamedittohim,andaskedhimifheknewFanny’syoungman。Hesaid,“Oyes,heknewtheyoungmanaswellasheknewhimself,andthattherewasn’tamanintheregimenthelikedbetter。”’
`Ah!Saidthat,didhe?’
`Yes;andhesaidtherewasastronglikenessbetweenhimselfandtheotheryoungman,sothatsometimespeoplemistookthem——’
`Liddy,forHeaven’ssakestopyourtalking!’saidBathsheba,withthenervouspetulancethatcomesfromworryingperceptions。
CHAPTERFORTY-TWOJosephandhisBurden-Buck’sHeadAwallboundedthesiteofCasterbridgeUnion-house,exceptalongaportionoftheend。Hereahighgablestoodprominent,anditwascoveredlikethefrontwithamastofivy。Inthisgablewasnowindow,chimney,ornament,orprotuberanceofanykind。Thesinglefeatureappertainingtoit,beyondtheexpanseofdarkgreenleaves,wasasmalldoor。
Thesituationofthedoorwaspeculiar。Thesillwasthreeorfourfeetabovetheground,andforamomentonewasatalossforanexplanationofthisexceptionalaltitude,tillrutsimmediatelybeneathsuggestedthatthedoorwasusedsolelyforthepassageofarticlesandpersonstoandfromthelevelofavehiclestandingontheoutside。Uponthewhole,thedoorseemedtoadvertiseitselfasaspeciesofTraitor’sGatetranslatedtoanothersphere。Thatentryandexitherebywasonlyatrareintervalsbecameapparentonnotingthattuftsofgrasswereallowedtoflourishundisturbedinthechinksofthesill。
AstheclockovertheSouth-streetAlms-housepointedtofiveminutestothree,abluespringwaggon,pickedoutwithred,andcontainingboughsandflowers,passedtheendofthestreet,anduptowardsthissideofthebuilding。Whilstthechimeswereyetstammeringoutashatteredformof`Malbrook’,JosephPoorgrassrangthebell,andreceiveddirectionstobackhiswaggonagainstthehighdoorunderthegable。Thedoorthenopened,andaplainelmcoffinwasslowlythrustforth,andlaidbytwomeninfustianalongthemiddleofthevehicle。
Oneofthementhensteppedupbesideit,tookfromhispocketalumpofchalk,andwroteuponthecoverthenameandafewotherwordsinalargescrawlinghand。Webelievethattheydothesethingsmoretenderlynow,andprovideaplate。Hecoveredthewholewithablackcloth,threadbare,butdecent,thetail-boardofthewaggonwasreturnedtoitsplace,oneofthemenhandedacertificateofregistrytoPoorgrass,andbothenteredthedoor,closingitbehindthem。Theirconnectionwithher,shortasithadbeen,wasoverforever。
Josephthenplacedtheflowersasenjoined,andtheevergreensaround,theflowers,tillitwasdifficulttodivinewhatthewaggoncontained;
hesmackedhiswhip,andtheratherpleasingfuneralcarcreptdownthehill,andalongtheroadtoWeatherbury。
Theafternoondrewonapace,and,lookingtotherighttowardstheseaashewalkedbesidethehorse,Poorgrasssawstrangecloudsandscrollsofmistrollingoverthelongridgeswhichgirtthelandscapeinthatquarter。
Theycameinyetgreatervolumes,andindolentlycreptacrosstheinterveningvalleys,andaroundthewitheredpaperyflagsofthemoorandriverbrinks。
Thentheirdankspongyformsclosedinuponthesky。Itwasasuddenovergrowthofatmosphericfungiwhichhadtheirrootsintheneighbouringsea,andbythetimethathorse,man,andcorpseenteredYalburyGreatWood,thesesilentworkingsofoninvisiblehandhadreachedthem,andtheywerecompletelyenveloped,thisbeingthefirstarrivaloftheautumnfogs,andthefirstfogoftheseries。
Theairwasasaneyesuddenlystruckblind。Thewaggonanditsloadrollednolongeronthehorizontaldivisionbetweenclearnessandopacity,butwereimbeddedinanelasticbodyofamonotonouspallorthroughout。
Therewasnoperceptiblemotionintheair,notavisibledropofwaterfelluponaleafofthebeeches,birches,andfirscomposingthewoodoneitherside。Thetreesstoodinanattitudeofintentness,asiftheywaitedlonginglyforawindtocomeandrockthem。Astartlingquietoverhungallsurroundingthings-socompletely,thatthecrunchingofthewaggon-wheelswasasagreatnoise,andsmallrustles,whichhadneverobtainedahearingexceptbynight,weredistinctlyindividualized。
JosephPoorgrasslookedrounduponhissadburdenasitloomedfaintlythroughthefloweringlaurustinus,thenattheunfathomablegloomamidthehightreesoneachhand,indistinct,shadowless,andspectre-likeintheirmonochromeofgrey。Hefeltanythingbutcheerful,andwishedhehadthecompanyevenofachildordog。Stoppingthehorsehelistened。
Notafootsteporwheelwasaudibleanywherearound,andthedeadsilencewasbrokenonlybyaheavyparticlefallingfromatreethroughtheevergreensandalightingwithasmarttapuponthecoffinofpoorFanny。Thefogbythistimehadsaturatedthetrees,andthiswasthefirstdroppingofwaterfromtheoverbrimmingleaves。ThehollowechoofitsfallremindedthewaggonerpainfullyofthegrimLeveller。Thenhardbycamedownanotherdrop,thentwoorthree。Presentlytherewasacontinualtappingoftheseheavydropsuponthedeadleaves,theroad,andthetravellers。Thenearerboughswerebeadedwiththemisttothegreynessofagedmen,andtherusty-redleavesofthebeecheswerehungwithsimilardrops,likediamondsonauburnhair。’
AttheroadsidehamletcalledRoy-Town,justbeyondthiswood,wastheoldinnBuck’sHead。ItwasaboutamileandahalffromWeatherbury,andinthemeridiantimesofstage-coachtravellinghadbeentheplacewheremanycoacheschangedandkepttheirrelaysofhorses。Alltheoldstablingwasnowpulleddown,andlittleremainedbesidesthehabitableinnitself,which,standingalittlewaybackfromtheroad,signifieditsexistencetopeoplefarupanddownthehighwaybyasignhangingfromthehorizontalboughofanelmontheoppositesideoftheway。
Travellers-forthevarietytouristhadhardlydevelopedintoadistinctspeciesatthisdate-sometimessaidinpassing,whentheycasttheireyesuptothesign-bearingtree,thatartistswerefondofrepresentingthesignboardhangingthus,butthattheythemselveshadneverbeforenoticedsoperfectaninstanceinactualworkingorder。ItwasnearthistreethatthewaggonwasstandingintowhichGabrielOakcreptonhisfirstjourneytoWeatherbury;but,owingtothedarkness,thesignandtheinnhadbeenunobserved。
Themannersoftheinnwereoftheold-establishedtype。Indeed,inthemidstofitsfrequenterstheyexistedasunalterableformulæ;:e。g——Rapwiththebottomofyourpintformoreliquor。
Fortobaccoshout。
Incallingforthegirlinwaiting,say,Maid!’
Dittoforthelandlady,`OldSoul!’,etc。,etc。ItwasarelieftoJoseph’sheartwhenthefriendlysignboardcameinview,and,stoppinghishorseimmediatelybeneathit,heproceededtofulfilanintentionmadealongtimebefore。Hisspiritswereoozingoutofhimquite。Heturnedthehorse’sheadtothegreenbank,andenteredthehostelforamugofale。
Goingdownintothekitchenoftheinn,thefloorofwhichwasastepbelowthepassage,whichinitsturnwasastepbelowtheroadoutside,whatshouldJosephseetogladdenhiseyesbuttwocopper-coloureddiscs,intheformofthecountenancesofMrJanCogganandMrMarkClark。Theseownersofthetwomostappreciativethroatsintheneighbourhood,withinthepaleofrespectability,werenowsittingfacetofaceoverathree-leggedcirculartable,havinganironrimtokeepcupsandpotsfrombeingaccidentallyelbowedofftheymighthavebeensaidtoresemblethesettingsunandthefillmoonshiningvis-à;-visacrosstheglobe。
`Why,’tisneighbourPoorgrass!’saidMarkClark。`I’msureyourfacedon’tpraiseyourmistress’stable,Joseph。’
`I’vehadaverypalecompanionforthelastfourmiles,’saidJoseph,indulginginashuddertoneddownbyresignation。`Andtospeakthetruth,’twasbeginningtotelluponme。Iassureye,Iha’n’tseedthecolourofvictualsordrinksincebreakfasttimethismorning,andthatwasnomorethanadew-bitafield。’
`Thendrink,Joseph,anddon’trestrainyourself’saidCoggan,handinghimahoopedmugthree-quartershill。
Josephdrankforamoderatelylongtime,thenforalongertime,saying,asheloweredthejug。`’Tisprettydrinking-veryprettydrinking,andismorethancheerfulonmymelancholyerrand,sotospeakit。’
`True,drinkisapleasantdelight,’saidJan,asonewhorepeatedatruismsofamiliartohisbrainthathehardlynoticeditspassageoverhistongue;and,liftingthecup,Coggantiltedhisheadgraduallybackwards,withclosedeyes,thathisexpectantsoulmightnotbedivertedforoneinstantfromitsblissbyirrelevantsurroundings。
`Well,Imustbeonagain,’saidPoorgrass。`NotbutthatIshouldlikeanothernipwithye;buttheparishmightloseconfidenceinmeifIwasseedhere。’
`Wherebeyetradingo’ttoto-day,then,Joseph?’
`BacktoWeatherbury。I’vegotpoorlittleFannyRobininmywaggonoutside,andImustbeatthechurchyardgatesataquartertofivewithher。’
`Ay-I’veheardofit。Andsoshe’snailedupinparishboardsafterall,andnobodytopaythebellshillingandthegravehalf-crown。’
`Theparishpaysthegravehalf-crown,butnotthebellshilling,becausethebell’saluxery:but’acanhardlydowithoutthegrave,poorbody。
However,Iexpectourmistresswillpayall。’
`AprettymaidaseverIsee!Butwhat’syerhurry,Joseph?Thepoorwoman’sdead,andyoucan’tbringhertolife,andyoumayaswellsitdowncomfortable,andfinishanotherwithus。’
`Idon’tmindtakingjusttheleastthimblefulyecandreamofmorewithye,sonnies。Butonlyafewminutes,because’tisas’tis。’
`Ofcourse,you’llhaveanotherdrop。Aman’stwicethemanafterwards。
Youfeelsowarmandglorious,andyouwhopandslapatyourworkwithoutanytrouble,andeverythinggoesonlikesticksa-breaking。Toomuchliquorisbad,andleadsustothathornedmaninthesmokyhouse;butafterallmanypeoplehaven’tthegiftofenjoyingawet,andsincewebehighlyfavouredwithapowerthatway,weshouldmakethemosto’t。’
`True,’saidMarkClark。“Tisatalentthelordhasmercifullybestoweduponus,andweoughtnottoneglectit。But,whatwiththeparsonsandclerksandschool-peopleandserioustea-parties,themerryoldwaysofgoodlifehavegonetothedogs-uponmycarcase,theyhave!’
`Well,really,Imustbeonwardagainnow,’saidJoseph。
`Now,now,Joseph;nonsense!Thepoorwomanisdead,isn’tshe,andwhat’syourhurry?’
`Well,IhopeProvidencewon’tbeinawaywithmeformydoings,’saidJoseph,againsittingdown。`I’vebeentroubledwithweakmoment’lately,’tistrue。I’vebeendrinkyoncethismonthalreadyandIdidnotgotochurcha-Sunday,andIdroppedacurseortwoyesterday;soIdon’twanttogotoofarformysafety。Yournextworldisyournextworld,andnottobesquanderedoffhand。’
`Ibelieveyetobeachapel-member,Joseph。ThatIdo。’
`Oh,no,no!Idon’tgosofarasthat。’
`Formypart,’saidCoggan,`I’mstaunchChurchofEngland。’
`Ay,andfaith,sobeI,’saidMarkClark。
`Iwon’tsaymuchformyself;Idon’twishto,’Coggancontinued,withthattendencytotalkonprincipleswhichischaracteristicofthebarley-corn。
`ButI’veneverchangedasingledoctrine:I’vestucklikeaplastertotheoldfaithIwasbornin。Yes;there’sthistobesaidfortheChurch,amancanbelongtotheChurchandbideinhischeerfuloldinn,andnevertroubleorworryhismindaboutdoctrinesatall。Buttobeameetinger,youmustgotochapelinallwindsandweathers,andmakeyerselfasfranticasaskitNotbutthatchapel-membersbecleverchapsenoughintheirway。
Theycanliftupbeautifulprayersoutoftheirownheads,allabouttheirfamiliesandshipwracksinthenewspapers。’
`Theycan-theycan,’saidMarkClark,withcorroborativefeeling;
`butweChurchmen,yousee,musthaveitallprintedaforehand,or,dangitall,weshouldnomoreknowwhattosaytoagreatgafferlikethelordthanbabesunborn。
`Chapel-folkbemorehand-in-glovewiththemabovethanwe,’saidJosephthoughtfully。
`Yes,’saidCoggan。`Weknowverywellthatifanybodydogotoheaven,theywill。They’veworkedhardforit,andtheydeservetohaveit,suchas’tis。Ibain’tsuchafoolastopretendthatwewhosticktotheChurchhavethesamechancesasthey,becauseweknowwehavenot。ButIhateafellerwho’llchangehisoldancientdoctrinesforthesakeofgettingtoheaven。I’dassoonturnking’s-evidenceforthefewpoundsyouget。
Why,neighbours,wheneveryoneofmytatieswerefrosted,ourPa’sonThirdlywerethemanwhogavemeasackforseed,thoughhehardlyhadoneforhisownuse,andnomoneytobuy’em。Ifithadn’tbeenforhim,Ishouldn’thaehadatatietoputinmygarden。D’yethinkI’dturnafterthat?No,I’llsticktomyside;andifwebeinthewrong,sobeit:I’llfallwiththefallen!’
`Wellsaid-verywellsaid,’observedJoseph-`However,folks,I
mustbemovingnow:uponmylifeImust。Pa’sonThirdlywillbewaitingatthechurchgates,andthere’sthewomana-bidingoutsideinthewaggon。’
`JosephPoorgrass,don’tbesomiserable!Pa’sonThirdlywon’tmind。
He’sagenerousman;he’sfoundmeintractsforyears,andI’veconsumedagoodmanyinthecourseofalongandshadylife;buthe’sneverbeenthemantocryoutattheexpense。Sitdown。’
ThelongerJosephPoorgrassremained,thelesshisspiritwastroubledbythedutieswhichdevolveduponhimthisafternoon。Theminutesglidedbyuncounted,untiltheeveningshadesbeganperceptiblytodeepen,andtheeyesofthethreewerebutsparklingpointsonthesurfaceofdarkness。
Coggan’srepeaterstrucksixfromhispocketintheunusualstillsmalltones。
Atthatmomenthastystepswereheardintheentry,andthedooropenedtoadmitthefigureofGabrielOak,followedbythemaidoftheinnbearingacandle。Hestaredsternlyattheonelengthyandtworoundfacesofthesitters,whichconfrontedhimwiththeexpressionsofafiddleandacoupleofwarming-pans。JosephPoorgrassblinked,andshrankseveralinchesintothebackground。
`Uponmysoul。I’mashamedofyou;’tisdisgraceful,Joseph,disgraceful!’
saidGabrielindignantly。`Coggan,youcallyourselfaman,anddon’tknowbetterthanthis。’
CogganlookedupindefinitelyatOak,oneorotherofhiseyesoccasionallyopeningandclosingofitsownaccord,asifitwerenotamember,butadozyindividualwithadistinctpersonality。
`Don’ttakeonso,shepherd!’saidMarkClark,lookingreproachfullyatthecandle,whichappearedtopossessspecialfeaturesofinterestforhiseyes。
`Nobodycanhurtadeadwoman,’atlengthsaidCoggan,withtheprecisionofamachine。`Allthatcouldbedoneforherisdone-she’sbeyondus;
andwhyshouldamanputhimselfinatearinghurryforlifelessclaythatcanneitherfeelnorsee,anddon’tknowwhatyoudowithheratall?Ifshe’dbeenalive,Iwouldhavebeenthefirsttohelpher。Ifshenowwantedvictualsanddrink,I’dpayforit,moneydown。Butshe’sdead,andnospeedofourswillbringhertolife。Thewoman’spastus-timespentuponheristhrowedaway;whyshouldwehurrytodowhat’snotrequired?
Drink,shepherd,andbefriends,fortomorrowwemaybelikeher。’
`Wemay,’addedMarkClarkemphatically,atoncedrinkinghimself,torunnofartherriskoflosinghischancebytheeventalludedto,Janmeanwhilemerginghisadditionalthoughtsofto-morrowinasong:——`To-morrowto-morrow!
Andwhilepeaceandplen-tyIfindatmyboard,Withaheartfreefromsick-nessandsor-rowWithmyfriendswillIsharewhatto-daymayaf-ford,Andletthemspreadthetableto-morrowTo-morrowto-mor——’`Doholdthyhorning,Jan!’saidOak;andturninguponPoorgrass,`asforyou,Joseph,whodoyourwickeddeedsinsuchconfoundedlyholyways,youareasdrunkasyoucanstand。’
`No,ShepherdOak,no!Listentoreason,shepherd。Allthat’sthematterwithmeistheafflictioncalledamultiplyingeye,andthat’showitisIlookdoubletoyou-Imean,youlookdoubletome。’
`Amultiplyingeyeisaverybadthing,’saidMarkClark。
`ItalwayscomesonwhenIhavebeeninapublic-housealittletime,’
saidJosephPoorgrassmeekly。`Yes;Iseetwoofeverysort,asifIweresomeholymanlivinginthetimesofKingNoahandenteringintotheark……
Y-y-y-yes,’headded,becomingmuchaffectedbythepictureofhimselfasapersonthrownaway,andsheddingtears;`IfeeltoogoodforEngland:
IoughttohavelivedinGenesisbyrights,liketheothermenofsacrifice,andthenIshouldn’thaveb-b-beencalledad-d-drunkardinsuchaway!’
`Iwishyou’dshowyourselfamanofspirit,andnotsitwhiningthere!’
`Showmyselfamanofspirit?……Ah,well!letmetakethenameofdrunkardhumbly-letmebeamanofcontriteknees-letitbe!IknowthatIalwaysdosay“PleaseGod“aforeIdoanything,frommygettinguptomygoingdownofthesame,andIbewillingtotakeasmuchdisgraceasthereisinthatholyact。Hah,yes!……Butnotamanofspirit?HaveIeverallowedthetoeofpridetobeliftedagainstmyhinderpartswithoutgroaningmanfullythatIquestiontherighttodoso!Iinquirethatqueryboldly?’
`Wecan’tsaythatyouhave,HeroPoorgrass,’admittedJan。
`NeverhaveIallowedsuchtreatmenttopassunquestioned!YettheshepherdsaysinthefaceofthatrichtestimonythatIbenotamanofspirit!
Well,letitpassby,anddeathisakindfriend!’
Gabriel,seeingthatneitherofthethreewasinafitstatetotakechargeofthewaggonfortheremainderofthejourney,madenoreply,but,closingthedooragainuponthem,wentacrosstowherethevehiclestood,nowgettingindistinctinthefogandgloomofthismildewytime。Hepulledthehorse’sheadfromthelargepatchofturfithadeatenbare,readjustedtheboughsoverthecoffin,anddrovealongthroughtheunwholesomenight。
IthadgraduallybecomerumouredinthevillagethatthebodytobebroughtandburiedthatdaywasallthatwasleftoftheunfortunateFannyRobinwhohadfollowedtheEleventhfromCasterbridgethroughMelchesterandonwards。But,thankstoBoldwood’sreticenceandOak’sgenerosity,thelovershehadfollowedhadneverbeenindividualizedasTroy。Gabrielhopedthatthewholetruthofthemattermightnotbepublishedtillatanyratethegirlhadbeeninhergraveforafewdays,whentheinterposingbarriersofearthandtime,andasensethattheeventshadbeensomewhatshutintooblivion,woulddeadenthestingthatrevelationandinvidiousremarkwouldhaveforBathshebajustnow。
BythetimethatGabrielreachedtheoldmanor-house,herresidence,whichlayinhiswaytothechurch,itwasquitedark。Amancamefromthegateandsaidthroughthefog,whichhungbetweenthemlikeblownflour——
`IsthatPoorgrasswiththecorpse?’
Gabrielrecognizedthevoiceasthatoftheparson。
`Thecorpseishere,sir,’saidGabriel。
`IhavejustbeentoinquireofMrsTroyifshecouldtellmethereasonofthedelay。Iamafraiditistoolatenowforthefuneraltobeperformedwithproperdecency。Haveyoutheregistrar’scertificate?’
`No,’saidGabriel。`IexpectPoorgrasshasthat;andhe’sattheBuck’sHead。Iforgottoaskhimforit。’
`Thenthatsettlesthematter。We’llputoffthefuneraltilltomorrowmorning。Thebodymaybebroughtontothechurch,oritmaybelefthereatthefarmandfetchedbythebearersinthemorning。Theywaitedmorethananhour,andhavenowgonehome。’
Gabrielhadhisreasonsforthinkingthelatteramostobjectionableplan,notwithstandingthatFannyhadbeenaninmateofthefarm-houseforseveralyearsinthelifetimeofBathsheba’suncle。Visionsofseveralunhappycontingencieswhichmightarisefromthisdelayflittedbeforehim。Buthiswillwasnotlaw,andhewentindoorstoinquireofhismistresswhatwereherwishesonthesubject。Hefoundherinanunusualmood:hereyesasshelookeduptohimweresuspiciousandperplexedaswithsomeantecedentthought。Troyhadnotyetreturned。AtfirstBathshebaassentedwithamienofindifferencetohispropositionthattheyshouldgoontothechurchatoncewiththeirburden;butimmediatelyafterwards,followingGabrieltothegate,sheswervedtotheextremeofsolicitousnessonFanny’saccount,anddesiredthatthegirlmightbebroughtintothehouse。Oakarguedupontheconvenienceofleavingherinthewaggon,justasshelaynow,withherflowersandgreenleavesabouther,merelywheelingthevehicleintothecoachhousetillthemorning,buttonopurpose。`Itisunkindandunchristian,’shesaid,`toleavethepoorthinginacoach-houseallnight。’
`Verywell,then,’saidtheparson。`AndIwillarrangethatthefuneralshalltakeplaceearlytomorrow。PerhapsMrsTroyisrightinfeelingthatwecannottreatadeadfellow-creaturetoothoughtfully。Wemustrememberthatthoughshemayhaveerredgrievouslyinleavingherhome,sheisstilloursister;anditistobebelievedthatGod’suncovenantedmerciesareextendedtowardsher,andthatsheisamemberoftheflockofChrist。’
Theparson’swordsspreadintotheheavyairwithasadyetunperturbedcadence,andGabrielshedanhonesttear。Bathshebaseemedunmoved。MrThirdlythenleftthem,andGabriellightedalantern。Fetchingthreeothermentoassisthim,theyboretheunconscioustruantindoors,placingthecoffinontwobenchesinthemiddleofalittlesitting-roomnextthehall,asBathshebadirected。
EveryoneexceptGabrielOakthenlefttheroom。Hestillindecisivelylingeredbesidethebody。HewasdeeplytroubledatthewretchedlyironicalaspectthatcircumstanceswereputtingonwithregardtoTroy’swife,andathisownpowerlessnesstocounteractthem。Inspiteofhiscarefulmanoeuvringallthisday,theveryworsteventthatcouldinanywayhavehappenedinconnectionwiththeburialhadhappenednow。Oakimaginedaterriblediscoveryresultingfromthisafternoon’sworkthatmightcastoverBathsheba’slifeashadewhichtheinterpositionofmanylapsingyearsmightbutindifferentlylighten,andwhichnothingatallmightaltogetherremove。
Suddenly,asinalastattempttosaveBathshebafrom,atanyrate,immediateanguish,helookedagain,ashehadlookedbefore,atthechalkwritinguponthecoffinlid。Thescrawlwasthissimpleone,`FannyRobinandchid’。Gabrieltookhishandkerchiefandcarefullyrubbedoutthetwolatterwords,leavingvisibleoneinscription`FannyRobin’
only。Hethenlefttheroom,andwentoutquietlybythefrontdoor。
CHAPTERFORTY-THREEFanny’sRevenge`Doyouwantmeanylonger,ma’am?’inquiredLiddy,atalaterhourthesameevening,standingbythedoorwithachambercandlestickinherhand,andaddressingBathsheba,whosatcheerlessandaloneinthelargeparlourbesidethefirstfireoftheseason。
`Nomoreto-night,Liddy。’
`I’llsitupformasterifyoulike,ma’am。IamnotatallafraidofFanny,ifImaysitinmyownroomandhaveacandle。Shewassuchachildlike,freshyoungthingthatherspiritcouldn’tappeartoanybodyifittried,I’mquitesure。’
`Ono,no!Yougotobed。I’llsitupforhimmyselftilltwelveo’clock,andifhehasnotarrivedbythattime,Ishallgivehimupandgotobedtoo。’
`Itishalf-pasttennow。’
`Oh:isit?’
`Whydon’tyousitupstairs,ma’am?’
`Whydon’tI?’saidBathshebadesultorily。`Itisn’tworthwhile-there’safirehere,Liddy。’Shesuddenlyexclaimedinanimpulsiveandexcitedwhisper,`HaveyouheardanythingstrangesaidofFanny?’Thewordshadnosoonerescapedherthananexpressionofunutterableregretcrossedherface,andsheburstintotears。
`No-notaword!’saidLiddy,lookingattheweepingwomanwithastonishment。
`Whatisitmakesyoucryso,ma’am;hasanythinghurtyou?’ShecametoBathsheba’ssidewithafacehillofsympathy。
`No,Liddy-Idon’twantyouanymore。IcanhardlysaywhyIhavetakensotocryinglately:Ineverusedtocry。Good-night。’
Liddythenlefttheparlourandclosedthedoor。
Bathshebawaslonelyandmiserablenow;notlonelieractuallythanshehadbeenbeforehermarriage;butherlonelinessthenwastothatofthepresenttimeasthesolitudeofamountainistothesolitudeofacave。
Andwithinthelastdayortwohadcomethesedisquietingthoughtsaboutherhusband’spast。HerwaywardsentimentthateveningconcerningFanny’stemporaryresting-placehadbeentheresultofastrangecomplicationofimpulsesinBathsheba’sbosom。Perhapsitwouldbemoreaccuratelydescribedasadeterminedrebellionagainstherprejudices,arevulsionfromalowerinstinctofuncharitableness,whichwouldhavewithheldallsympathyfromthedeadwoman,becauseinlifeshehadprecededBathshebaintheattentionsofamanwhomBathshebahadbynomeansceasedfromloving,thoughherlovewassicktodeathjustnowwiththegravityofafurthermisgiving。
Infiveortenminutestherewasanothertapatthedoor。Liddyreappeared,andcominginalittlewaystoodhesitating,untilatlengthshesaid,`Maryannhasjustheardsomethingverystrange,butIknowitisn’ttrue。
Andweshallbesuretoknowtherightsofitinadayortwo。’
`Whatisit?’
`Oh,nothingconnectedwithyouorus,ma’am。Itis’boutFanny。Thatsamethingyouhaveheard。’
`Ihaveheardnothing。’
`ImeanthatawickedstoryisgottoWeatherburywithinthislasthour-that——’Liddycameclosetohermistressandwhisperedtheremainderofthesentenceslowlyintoherear,incliningherheadasshespokeinthedirectionoftheroomwhereFannylay。
Bathshebatrembledfromheadtofoot。
`Idon’tbelieveit!’shesaidexcitedly`Andthere’sonlyonenamewrittenonthecoffin-cover。’
`NorI,ma’am。Andagoodmanyothersdon’t;forweshouldsurelyhavebeentoldmoreaboutitifithadbeentrue-don’tyouthinkso’ma’am?’
`Wemightorwemightnot。’
Bathshebaturnedandlookedintothefire,thatLiddymightnotseeherface。Findingthathermistresswasgoingtosaynomore,Liddyglidedout,closedthedoorsoftly,andwenttobed。
Bathsheba’sface,asshecontinuedlookingintothefirethatevening,mighthavecitedsolicitousnessonheraccountevenamongthosewholovedherleast。ThesadnessofFannyRobin’sfatedidnotmakeBathsheba’sglorious,althoughshewastheEsthertothispoorVashti,andtheirfatesmightbesupposedtostandinsomerespectsascontraststoeachother。WhenLiddycameintotheroomasecondtimethebeautifuleyeswhichmethershadwornalistless,wearylook。Whenshewentoutaftertellingthestorytheyhadpressedwretchednessinfillactivity。Hersimplecountrynature,fedonold-fashionedprinciples,wastroubledbythatwhichwouldhavetroubledawomanoftheworldverylittle,bothFannyandherchild,ifshehadone,beingdead。
BathshebahadgroundsforconjecturingaconnectionbetweenherownhistoryandthedimlysuspectedtragedyofFanny’sendwhichOakandBoldwoodneverforamomentcreditedherwithpossessing。ThemeetingwiththelonelywomanonthepreviousSaturdaynighthadbeenunwitnessedandunspokenof。OakmayhavehadthebestofintentionsinwithholdingforasmanydaysaspossiblethedetailsofwhathadhappenedtoFanny;buthadheknownthatBathsheba’sperceptionshadalreadybeenexercisedinthematter,hewouldhavedonenothingtolengthentheminutesofsuspenseshewasnowundergoing,whenthecertaintywhichmustterminateitwouldbetheworstfactsuspectedafterall。
Shesuddenlyfeltalongingtospeaktosomeonestrongerthanherself,andsogetstrengthtosustainhersurmisedpositionwithdignityandhercarkingdoubtswithstoicism。Wherecouldshefindsuchafriend?nowhereinthehouse。Shewasbyfarthecoolestofthewomenunderherroof。
Patienceandsuspensionofjudgementforafewhourswerewhatshewantedtolearn,andtherewasnobodytoteachher。MightshebutgotoGabrielOak!-butthatcouldnotbe。WhatawayOakhad,shethought,ofenduringthings。Boldwood,whoseemedsomuchdeeperandhigherandstrongerinfeelingthanGabriel,hadnotyetlearnt,anymorethansheherself,thesimplelessonwhichOakshowedamasteryofbyeveryturnandlookhegave-thatamongthemultitudeofinterestsbywhichhewassurrounded,thosewhichaffectedhispersonalwellbeingwerenotthemostabsorbingandimportantinhiseyes。Oakmeditativelylookeduponthehorizonofcircumstanceswithoutanyspecialregardtohisownstandpointinthemidst。Thatwashowshewouldwishtobe。ButthenOakwasnotrackedbyincertitudeupontheinmostmatterofhisbosom,asshewasatthismoment。OakknewallaboutFannythatshewishedtoknow-shefeltconvincedofthat。Ifsheweretogotohimnowatonceandsaynomorethanthesefewwords,`Whatisthetruthofthestory?’hewouldfeelboundinhonourtotellher。
Itwouldbeaninexpressiblerelief。Nofurtherspeechwouldneedtobeuttered。Heknewhersowellthatnoeccentricityofbehaviourinherwouldalarmhim。
Sheflungacloakroundher,wenttothedoorandopenedit。Everyblade,everytwigwasstill。Theairwasyetthickwithmoisture,thoughsomewhatlessdensethanduringtheafternoon,andasteadysmackofdropsuponthefallenleavesundertheboughswasalmostmusicalinitssoothingregularity。
Itseemedbettertobeoutofthehousethanwithinit,andBathshebaclosedthedoor,andwalkedslowlydownthelanetillshecameoppositetoGabriel’scottage,wherehenowlivedalone,havingleftCoggan’shousethroughbeingpinchedforroom。Therewasalightinonewindowonly,andthatwasdownstairs。Theshutterswerenotclosed,norwasanyblindorcurtaindrawnoverthewindow,neitherrobberynorobservationbeingacontingencywhichcoulddomuchinjurytotheoccupantofthedomicile。Yes,itwasGabrielhimselfwhowassittingup;hewasreading。Fromherstanding-placeintheroadshecouldseehimplainly,sittingquitestill,hislightcurlyheaduponhishand,andonlyoccasionallylookinguptosnuffthecandlewhichstoodbesidehim。Atlengthhelookedattheclock,seemedsurprisedatthelatenessofthehour,closedhisbook,andarose。Hewasgoingtobed,sheknew,andifshetappeditmustbedoneatonce。
Alasforherresolve!Shefeltshecouldnotdoit。Notforworldsnowcouldshegiveahintabouthermiserytohim,muchlessaskhimplainlyforinformationonthecauseofFanny’sdeath。Shemustsuspect,andguess,andchafe,andbearitallalone。
Likeahomelesswanderershelingeredbythebank,asiflulledandfascinatedbytheatmosphereofcontentwhichseemedtospreadfromthatlittledwelling,andwassosadlylackinginherown。Gabrielappearedinanupperroom,placedhislightinthewindow-bench,andthen-kneltdowntopray。Thecontrastofthepicturewithherrebelliousandagitatedexistenceatthissametimewastoomuchforhertobeartolookuponlonger。
Itwasnotforhertomakeatrucewithtroublebyanysuchmeans。Shemusttreadhergiddydistractingmeasuretoitslastnote,asshehadbegunit。Withaswollenheartshewentagainupthelane,andenteredherowndoor。
MorefeverednowbyareactionfromthefirstfeelingswhichOak’sexamplehadraisedinher,shepausedinthehall,lookingatthedooroftheroomwhereinFannylay。Shelockedherfingers,threwbackherhead,andstrainedherhothandsrigidlyacrossherforehead,saying,withahystericalsob,`WouldtoGodyouwouldspeakandtellmeyoursecret,Fanny!……O,Ihopeitisnottruethattherearetwoofyou!……IfIcouldonlylookinuponyouforonelittleminute,Ishouldknowall!’
Afewmomentspassed,andsheadded,slowly,`AndIwill。’
Bathshebainaftertimescouldnevergaugethemoodwhichcarriedherthroughtheactionsfollowingthismurmuredresolutiononthismemorableeveningofherlife。Shewenttothelumber-closetforascrewdriver。Attheendofashortthoughundefinedtimeshefoundherselfinthesmallroom,quiveringwithemotion,amistbeforehereyes,andanexcruciatingpulsationinherbrain,standingbesidetheuncoveredcoffinofthegirlwhoseconjecturedendhadsoentirelyengrossedher,andsayingtoherselfinahuskyvoiceasshegazedwithin——
`Itwasbesttoknowtheworst,andIknowitnow!’
Shewasconsciousofhavingbroughtaboutthissituationbyaseriesofactionsdoneasbyoneinanextravagantdream;offollowingthatideaastomethod,whichhadburstuponherinthehallwithglaringobviousness,byglidingtothetopofthestairs,assuringherselfbylisteningtotheheavybreathingofhermaidsthattheywereasleep,glidingdownagain,turningthehandleofthedoorwithinwhichtheyounggirllay,anddeliberatelysettingherselftodowhat,ifshehadanticipatedanysuchundertakingatnightandalone,wouldhavehorrifiedher,butwhich,whendone,wasnotsodreadfulaswastheconclusiveproofofherhusband’sconductwhichcamewithknowingbeyonddoubtthelastchapterofFanny’sstory。
Bathsheba’sheadsankuponherbosom,andthebreathwhichhadbeenbatedinsuspense,curiosity,andinterest,wasexhalednowintheformofawhisperedwail:`Oh-h-h!’shesaid,andthesilentroomaddedlengthtohermoan。
Hertearsfellfastbesidetheunconsciouspairinthecoffin;tearsofacomplicatedorigin,ofanatureindescribable,almostindefinableexceptasotherthanthoseofsimplesorrow。AssuredlytheirwontedfiresmusthavelivedinFanny’sasheswheneventsweresoshapedastochariotherhitherinthisnatural,unobtrusive,yeteffectualmanner。Theonefeatalone-thatofdying-bywhichameanconditioncouldberesolvedintoagrandone,FannyhadachievedAndtothathaddestinysubjoinedthisrencountertonight,whichhid,inBathsheba’swildimagining,turnedhercompanion’sfailuretosuccess,herhumiliationtotriumph,herlucklessnesstoascendency;ithadthrownoverherselfagarishlightofmockery,andsetuponallthingsaboutheranironicalsmile。
Fanny’sfacewasframedinbythatyellowhairofhers;andtherewasnolongermuchroomfordoubtastotheoriginofthecurlownedbyTroy。
InBathsheba’sheatedfancytheinnocentwhitecountenance-pressedadimtriumphantconsciousnessofthepainshewasretaliatingforherpainwithallthemercilessrigouroftheMosaiclaw;`Burningforburning;
woundforwound;strifeforstrife。’
Bathshebaindulgedincontemplationofescapefromherpositionbyimmediatedeath,which,thoughtshe,thoughitwasaninconvenientandawfulway,hadlimitstoitsinconvenienceandawfulnessthatcouldnotbeoverpassed;
whilsttheshamesoflifeweremeasureless。Yeteventhisschemeofextinctionbydeathwasbuttamelycopyingherrival’smethodwithoutthereasonswhichhadglorifieditinherrival’scase。Sheglidedrapidlyupanddowntheroom,aswasmostlyherhabitwhenexcited,herhandshangingclaspedinfrontofher,asshethoughtandinpartexpressedinbrokenwords:
`O,Ihateher,yetIdon’tmeanthatIhateher,foritisgrievousandwicked;andyetIhateheralittle!Yes,myfleshinsistsuponhatingher,whethermyspiritiswillingorno!……Ifshehadonlylived,Icouldhavebeenangryandcrueltowardsherwithsomejustification;buttobevindictivetowardsapoordeadwomanrecoilsuponmyself。OGod,havemercy!
Iammiserableatallthis!’
Bathshebabecameatthismomentsoterrifiedatherownstateofmindthatshelookedaroundforsomesortofrefugefromherself。ThevisionofOakkneelingdownthatnightrecurredtoher,andwiththeimitativeinstinctwhichanimateswomensheseizedupontheidea,resolvedtokneel,and,ifpossible,pray。Gabrielhadprayed;sowouldshe。
Shekneltbesidethecoffin,coveredherfacewithherhands,andforatimetheroomwassilentasatomb。Whetherfromapurelymechanical,orfromanyothercause,whenBathshebaaroseitwaswithaquietedspirit,andaregretfortheantagonisticinstinctswhichhadseizeduponherjustbefore。
Inherdesiretomakeatonementshetookflowersfromavasebythewindow,andbeganlayingthemaroundthedeadgirl’shead。Bathshebaknewnootherwayofshowingkindnesstopersonsdepartedthanbygivingthemflowers。Sheknewnothowlongsheremainedengagedthus。Sheforgottime,life,whereshewas,whatshewasdoing。Aslammingtogetherofthecoach-housedoorsintheyardbroughthertoherselfagain。Aninstantafter,thefrontdooropenedandclosed,stepscrossedthehall,andherhusbandappearedattheentrancetotheroom,lookinginuponher。
Hebehelditallbydegrees,staredinstupefactionatthescene,asifhethoughtitanillusionraisedbysomefiendishincantation。Bathsheba,pallidasacorpseonend,gazedbackathiminthesamewildway。
Solittleareinstinctiveguessesthefruitofalegitimateinductionthat,atthismoment,ashestoodwiththedoorinhishand,TroyneveroncethoughtofFannyinconnectionwithwhathesaw。Hisfirstconfusedideawasthatsomebodyinthehousehaddied。
`Well-what?’saidTroyblankly。
`Imustgo!Imustgo!’saidBathsheba,toherselfmorethantohim。
Shecamewithadilatedeyetowardsthedoor,topushpasthim。
`What’sthematter,inGod’sname?who’sdead?’saidTroy。`Icannotsay;letmegoout。Iwantair!’shecontinued。
`Butno;stay,Iinsist!’Heseizedherhand,andthenvolitionseemedtoleaveher,andshewentoffintoastateofpassivity。He,stillholdingher,cameuptheroom,andthus,handinhand,TroyandBathshebaapproachedthecoffin’sside。
Thecandlewasstandingonabureauclosebythem,andthelight,slanteddown,distinctlyenkindlingthecoldfeaturesofbothmotherandbabe。
Troylookedin,droppedhiswife’shand,knowledgeofitallcomeoverhiminaluridsheen,andhestoodstill。
Sostillheremainedthathecouldbeimaginedtohaveleftinhimnomotivepowerwhatever。Theclashesoffeelinginalldirectionsconfoundedoneanother,producedaneutrality,andtherewasmotioninnone。
`Doyouknowher?’saidBathsheba,inasmallenclosedecho,asfromtheinteriorofacell。
`Ido,’saidTroy。
`Isitshe?’
`Itis。’
Hehadoriginallystooderect。Andnow,inthewell-nighcongealedimmobilityofhisframecouldbediscernedanincipientmovement,asinthedarkestnightmaybediscernedlightafterawhile。Hewasgraduallysinkingforwards。
Thelinesofhisfeaturessoftened,anddismaymodulatedtoillimitablesadness。Bathshebawasregardinghimfromtheotherside,stillwithpartedlipsanddistractedeyes。Capacityforintensefeelingisproportionatetothegeneralintensityofthenature,andperhapsinallFanny’ssuffering,muchgreaterrelativelytoherstrength,thereneverwasatimewhenshesufferedinanabsolutesensewhatBathshebasufferednow。
WhatTroydidwastosinkuponhiskneeswithanindefinableunionofremorseandreverenceuponhisface,and,bendingeverFannyRobin,gentlykissedher,asonewouldkissaninfantasleeptoavoidawakeningit。
Atthesightandsoundofthat,toher,unendurableact,Bathshebasprangtowardshim。Allthestrongfeelingswhichhadbeenscatteredoverherexistencesincesheknewwhatfeelingwas,seemedgatheredtogetherintoonepulsationnow。Therevulsionfromherindignantmoodalittleearlier,whenshehadmeditateduponcompromisedhonour,forestalment,eclipseinmaternitybyanother,wasviolentandentire。Allthatwasforgotteninthesimpleandstillstrongattachmentofwifetohusband。Shehadsighedforherself-completenessthen,andnowshecriedaloudagainsttheseveranceoftheunionshehaddeplored。SheflungherarmsroundTroy’sneck,exclaimingwildlyfromthedeepestdeepofherheart——
`Don’t-don’tkissthem!O,Frank,Ican’tbearit-Ican’t!Iloveyoubetterthanshedid;kissmetoo,Frank-kissme!YouwillFrank,kissmetoo!’
TherewassomethingsoabnormalandstartlinginthechildlikepainandsimplicityofthisappealfromawomanofBathsheba’scalibreandindependence,thatTroy,looseninghertightlyclaspedarmsfromhisneck,lookedatherinbewilderment。Itwassuchanunexpectedrevelationofallwomenbeingalikeatheart,eventhosesodifferentintheiraccessoriesasFannyandthisonebesidehim,thatTroycouldhardlyseemtobelievehertobehisproudwifeBathsheba。Fanny’sownspiritseemedtobeanimatingherframe。Butthiswasthemoodofafewinstantsonly。Whenthemomentarysurprisehadpassed,hisexpressionchangedtoasilencingimperiousgaze。
`Iwillnotkissyou!’hesaid,pushingheraway。
Hadthewifenowbutgonenofurther。Yet,perhaps,undertheharrowingcircumstances,tospeakoutwastheonewrongactwhichcanbebetterunderstood,ifnotforgiveninher,thantherightandpoliticone,herrivalbeingnowbutacorpse。Allthefeelingshehadbeenbetrayedintoshowingshedrewbacktoherselfagainbyastrenuouseffortofself-command。
`Whathaveyoutosayasyourreason?’sheasked,herbittervoicebeingstrangelylow-quitethatofanotherwomannow。
`IhavetosaythatIhavebeenabad,black-heartedman’heanswered。
`Andthatthiswomanisyourvictim;andInotlessthanshe。’
`Ah!don’ttauntme,madam。Thiswomanismoretome,deadassheis,thaneveryouwere,orare,orcanbe。IfSatanhadnottemptedmewiththatfaceofyours,andthosecursedcoquetries,Ishouldhavemarriedher。Ineverhadanotherthoughttillyoucameinmyway。WouldtoGodthatIhad;butitisalltoolate!Ideservetoliveintormentforthis!’
HeturnedtoFannythen。`Butnevermind,darling,’hesaid;`inthesightofHeavenyouaremyvery,verywife!’
AtthesewordsarosefromBathsheba’slipsalong,lowcryofmeasurelessdespairandindignation,suchawailofanguishashadneverbeforebeenheardwithinthoseold-inhabitedwalls。ItwastheTetelestouofherunionwithTroy。
`Ifshe’s-that,-what-amI?’sheadded,asacontinuationofthesamecry,andsobbingpitifully;andtheraritywithherofsuchabandonmentonlymadetheconditionmoredire。
`Youarenothingtome-nothing,’saidTroyheartlessly。`Aceremonybeforeapriestdoesn’tmakeamarriage。Iamnotmorallyyours。
Avehementimpulsetofleefromhim,torunfromthisplace,hide,andescapehiswordsatanyprice,notstoppingshortofdeathitself,masteredBathshebanow。Shewaitednotaninstant,butturnedtothedoorandranout。
CHAPTERFORTY-FOURUnderaTree-ReactionBathshebawentalongthedarkroad,neitherknowingnorcaringaboutthedirectionorissueofherflight。Thefirsttimethatshedefinitelynoticedherpositionwaswhenshereachedagateleadingintoathicketoverhungbysomelargeoakandbeechtrees。Onlookingintotheplace,itoccurredtoherthatshehadseenitbydaylightonsomepreviousoccasion,andthatwhatappearedlikeanimpassablethicketwasinrealityabrakeoffernnowwitheringfast。Shecouldthinkofnothingbettertodowithherpalpitatingselfthantogoinhereandhide;andenteringshelightedonaspotshelteredfromthedampfogbyarecliningtrunk,whereshesankdownuponatangledcouchoffrondsandstems。Shemechanicallypulledsomearmfulsroundhertokeepoffthebreezes,andclosedhereyes。
WhethershesleptornotthatnightBathshebawasnotclearlyaware。
Butitwaswithafreshenedexistenceandacoolerbrainthat,alongtimeafterwards,shebecameconsciousofsomeinterestingproceedingswhichweregoingoninthetreesaboveherheadandaround。
Acoarse-throatedchatterwasthefirstsound。
Itwasasparrowjustwaking。
Next:`Chee-weeze-weeze-weeze!’fromanotherretreat。
Itwasafinch。
Third:`Tink-tink-tink-tink-a-chink!’fromthehedge。
Itwasarobin。
`Chuck-chuck-chuck!’overhead。
Asquirrel。
Then,fromtheroad,`Withmyra-ta-ta,andmyrum-tum-tum!’
Itwasaploughboy。Presentlyhecameopposite,andshebelievedfromhisvoicethathewasoneoftheboysonherownfarm。Hewasfollowedbyashamblingtrampofheavyfeet,andlookingthroughthefernsBathshebacouldjustdiscerninthewanlightofdaybreakateamofherownhorses。
Theystoppedtodrinkatapondontheothersideoftheway。Shewatchedthemflouncingintothepool,drinking,tossinguptheirheads,drinkingagain,thewaterdribblingfromtheirlipsinsilverthreads。Therewasanotherflounce,andtheycameoutofthepond,andturnedbackagaintowardsthefarm。
Shelookedfurtheraround。Daywasjustdawning,andbesideitscoolairandcoloursherheatedactionsandresolvesofthenightstoodoutinluridcontrast。Sheperceivedthatinherlap,andclingingtoherhair,wereredandyellowleaveswhichhadcomedownfromthetreeandsettledsilentlyuponherduringherpartialsleep。Bathshebashookherdresstogetridofthem,whenmultitudesofthesamefamilylyingroundaboutherroseandflutteredawayinthebreezethuscreated,`likeghostsfromanenchanterfleeing’
Therewasanopeningtowardstheeast,andtheglowfromtheasyetunrisensunattractedhereyesthither。Fromherfeet,andbetweenthebeautifulyellowingfernswiththeirfeatheryarms,thegroundslopeddownwardstoahollow,inwhichwasaspeciesofswamp,dottedwithfungi。Amorningmisthungoveritnow-anoisomeyetmagnificentsilveryveil,filloflightfromthesun,yetsemi-opaque-thehedgebehinditbeinginsomemeasurehiddenbyitshazyluminousness。Upthesidesofthisdepressiongrewsheavesofthecommonrush,andhereandthereapeculiarspeciesofflag,thebladesofwhichglistenedintheemergingsun,likescythes。
Butthegeneralaspectoftheswampwasmalignant。Fromitsmoistandpoisonouscoatseemedtobeexhaledtheessencesofevilthingsintheearth,andinthewatersundertheearth。Thefungigrewinallmannerofpositionsfromrottingleavesandtreestumps,someexhibitingtoherlistlessgazetheirclammytops,otherstheiroozinggills。Someweremarkedwithgreatsplotches,redasarterialblood,othersweresaffronyellow,andotherstallandattenuated,withstemslikemacaroni。Somewereleatheryandofrichestbrowns。Thehollowseemedanurseryofpestilencessmallandgreat,intheimmediateneighbourhoodofcomfortandhealth,andBathshebaarosewithatremoratthethoughtofhavingpassedthenightonthebrinkofsodismalaplace。
Therewerenowotherfootstepstobeheardalongtheroad。Bathsheba’snerveswerestillunstrung:shecroucheddownoutofsightagain,andthepedestriancameintoview。Hewasaschoolboy,withabagslungoverhisshouldercontaininghisdinner,andabookinhishand。Hepausedbythegate,and,withoutlookingup,continuedmurmuringwordsintonesquiteloudenoughtoreachherears。
“`OLord,OLord,OLord,OLord,OLord“:-thatIknowouto’book。
“Giveus,giveus,giveus,giveus,giveus“:-thatIknow。“Gracethat,gracethat,gracethat,gracethat“:-thatIknow。’Otherwordsfollowedtothesameeffect。Theboywasofthedunceclassapparently;thebookwasapsalter,andthiswashiswayoflearningthecollect。Intheworstattacksoftroublethereappearstobealwaysasuperficialfilmofconsciousnesswhichisleftdisengagedandopentothenoticeoftrifles,andBathshebawasfaintlyamusedattheboy’smethod,tillhetoopassedon。
Bythistimestuporhadgivenplacetoanxiety,andanxietybegantomakeroomforhungerandthirst。Aformnowappearedupontheriseontheothersideoftheswamp,half-hiddenbythemist,andcametowardsBathsheba。
Thewoman-foritwasawoman-approachedwithherfaceaskance,asiflookingearnestlyonallsidesofher。Whenshegotalittlefurtherroundtotheleft,anddrewnearer,Bathshebacouldseethenewcomer’sprofileagainstthesunnysky,andknewthewavysweepfromforeheadtochin,withneitheranglenordecisivelineanywhereaboutit,tobethefamiliarcontourofLiddySmallbury。
Bathsheba’sheartboundedwithgratitudeinthethoughtthatshewasnotaltogetherdeserted,andshejumpedup。`O,Liddy!’shesaid,orattemptedtosay;butthewordshadonlybeenframedbyherlips;therecamenosound。
Shehadlosthervoicebyexposuretothecloggedatmosphereallthesehoursofnight。
`O,ma’am!IamsogladIhavefoundyou,’saidthegirl,assoonasshesawBathsheba。
`Youcan’tcomeacross,’Bathshebasaidinawhisper,whichshevainlyendeavouredtomakeloudenoughtoreachLiddy’sears。Liddy,notknowingthis,steppeddownupontheswamp,saying,asshedidso,`Itwillbearmeup,Ithink。’
BathshebaneverforgotthattransientlittlepictureofLiddycrossingtheswamptoherthereinthemorninglight。Iridescentbubblesofdanksubterraneanbreathrosefromthesweatingsodbesidethewaiting-maid’sfeetasshetrod,hissingastheyburstandexpandedawaytojointhevapouryfirmamentabove。Liddydidnotsink,asBathshebahadanticipated。
Shelandedsafelyontheotherside,andlookedupatthebeautifulthoughpaleandwearyfaceofheryoungmistress。
`Poorthing!’saidLiddy,withtearsinhereyes。`Doheartenyourselfupalittle,ma’am。Howeverdid——’
`Ican’tspeakaboveawhisper-myvoiceisgoneforthepresent,’
saidBathshebahurriedly。`Isupposethedampairfromthathollowhastakenitaway。Liddy,don’tquestionme,mind。Whosentyou-anybody?’
`Nobody。Ithought,whenIfoundyouwerenotathome,thatsomethingcruelhadhappened。IfancyIheardhisvoicelatelastnight;andso,knowingsomethingwaswrong——’
`Isheathome?’
`No;heleftjustbeforeIcameout。’
`IsFannytakenaway?’
`Notyet。Shewillsoonbe-atnineo’clock。’
`Wewon’tgohomeatpresent,then。Supposewewalkaboutinthiswood?’
Liddy,withoutexactlyunderstandingeverything,oranything,inthisepisode,assented,andtheywalkedtogetherfurtheramongthetrees。
`Butyouhadbettercomein,ma’am,andhavesomethingtoeat。Youwilldieofachill!’
`Ishallnotcomeindoorsyet-perhapsnever。’
`ShallIgetyousomethingtoeat,andsomethingelsetoputoveryourheadbesidesthatlittleshawl?’
`Ifyouwill,Liddy!’
Liddyvanished,andattheendoftwentyminutesreturnedwithacloak,hat,someslicesofbreadandbutter,atea-cupsandsomehotteainalittlechinajug。
`IsFannygone?’saidBathsheba。
`No,’saidhercompanion,pouringoutthetea。
Bathshebawrappedherselfupandateanddranksparingly。Hervoicewasthenalittleclearer,andatriflingcolourreturnedtoherface。
`Nowwe’llwalkaboutagain,’shesaid。
Theywanderedaboutthewoodfornearlytwohours,BathshebareplyinginmonosyllablestoLiddy’sprattle,forhermindranononesubject,andoneonly。Sheinterruptedwith——
`IwonderifFannyisgonebythistime?’
`Iwillgoandsee。’
Shecamebackwiththeinformationthatthemenwerejusttakingawaythecorpse;thatBathshebahadbeeninquiredfor;thatshehadrepliedtotheeffectthathermistresswasunwellandcouldnotbeseen。
`ThentheythinkIaminmybedroom?’
`Yes。’Liddythenventuredtoadd:`YousaidwhenIfirstfoundyouthatyoumightnevergohomeagain-youdidn’tmeanit,ma’am?’
`No;I’vealteredmymind。Itisonlywomenwithnoprideinthemwhorunawayfromtheirhusbands。Thereisonepositionworsethanthatofbeingfounddeadinyourhusband’shousefromhisill-usage,andthatis,tobefoundalivethroughhavinggoneawaytothehouseofsomebodyelse。
I’vethoughtofitallthismorning,andI’vechosenmycourse。Arunawaywifeisanencumbrancetoeverybody,aburdentoherselfandabyword-
allofwhichmakeupaheapofmiserygreaterthananythatcomesbystayingathome-thoughthismayincludethetriflingitemsofinsult,beating,andstarvation。Liddy,ifeveryoumarry-Godforbidthatyouevershould!-
you’llfindyourselfinafearfulsituation;butmindthis,don’tyouflinch。Standyourground,andbecuttopieces。That’swhatI’mgoingtodo。’
`O,mistress,don’ttalkso!’saidLiddy,takingherhand,`butIknewyouhadtoomuchsensetobideaway。MayIaskwhatdreadfulthingitisthathashappenedbetweenyouandhim?’
`Youmayask;butImaynottell。’
Inabouttenminutestheyreturnedtothehousebyacircuitousroute,enteringattherear。Bathshebaglidedupthebackstairstoadisusedattic,andhercompanionfollowed。
`Liddy,’shesaid,withalighterheart,foryouthandhopehadbeguntoreassertthemselves;`youaretobemyconfidanteforthepresent-
somebodymustbe-andIchooseyou。Well,Ishalltakeupmyabodehereforawhile。Willyougetafirelighted,putdownapieceofcarpet,andhelpmetomaketheplacecomfortable?Afterwards,IwantyouandMaryanntobringupthatlittlestumpbedsteadinthesmallroom,andthebedbelongingtoit,andatable,andsomeotherthings。WhatshallIdotopasstheheavytimeaway?’
`Hemminghandkerchiefsisaverygoodthing,’saidLiddy。
`Ono,no!Ihateneedlework-Ialwaysdid。’
`Knitting?’
`Andthattoo。’
`Youmightfinishyoursampler。Onlythecarnationsandpeacockswantfillingin;andthenitcouldbeframedandglazed,andhungbesideyouraunt’s,ma’am。’
`Samplersareoutofdate-horriblycountrified。No,Liddy,I’llread。
Bringupsomebooks-notnewones。Ihaven’thearttoreadanythingnew。’
`Someofyouruncle’soldones,ma’am?’
`Yes。Someofthosewestowedawayinboxes。’Afaintgleamofhumourpassedoverherfaceasshesaid:`BringBeaumontandFletcher’sMaid’sTragedy;andtheMourningBride;and-letmesee-NightThoughts;andtheVanityofHumanWishes。’
`Andthatstoryoftheblackman,whomurderedhiswifeDesdemona?Itisanicedismalonethatwouldsuityouexcellentjustnow。
`Now,Lidd,you’vebeenlookingintomybooks,withouttellingme;andIsaidyouwerenotto!Howdoyouknowitwouldsuitme?Itwouldn’tsuitmeatall。’
`Butiftheothersdo——’
`No,theydon’t;andIwon’treaddismalbooks。WhyshouldIreaddismalbooks,indeed?BringmeLoveinaVillage,andtheMaidoftheMill;andDoctorSyntax;andsomevolumesoftheSpectator。’
AllthatdayBathshebaandLiddylivedintheatticinastateofbarricade;
aprecautionwhichprovedtobeneedlessasagainstTroy,forhedidnotappearintheneighbourhoodortroublethematall。Bathshebasatatthewindowtillsunset,sometimesattemptingtoread,atothertimeswatchingeverymovementoutsidewithoutmuchpurpose,andlisteningwithoutmuchinteresttoeverysound。
Thesunwentdownalmostblood-redthatnight,andalividcloudreceiveditsraysintheeast。Upagainstthisdarkbackgroundthewestfrontofthechurchtower-theonlypartoftheedificevisiblefromthefarm-housewindows-rosedistinctandlustrous,thevaneuponthesummitbristlingwithrays。Hereabouts,atsixo’clock,theyoungmenofthevillagegathered,aswastheircustom,foragameofPrisoners’base。Thespothadbeenconsecratedtothisancientdiversionfromtimeimmemorial,theoldstocksconvenientlyformingabasefacingtheboundaryofthechurchyard,infrontofwhichthegroundwastroddenhardandbareasapavementbytheplayers。Shecouldseethebrownandblackheadsoftheyoungladsdartingaboutrightandleft,theirwhiteshirt-sleevesgleaminginthesun;whilstoccasionallyashoutandapealofheartylaughtervariedthestillnessoftheeveningair。Theycontinuedplayingforaquarterofanhourorso,whenthegameconcludedabruptly,andtheplayersleaptoverthewallandvanishedroundtotheothersidebehindayew-tree,whichwasalsohalfbehindabeech,nowspreadinginonemassofgoldenfoliage,onwhichthebranchestracedblacklines。
`Whydidthebase-playersfinishtheirgamesosuddenly?’Bathshebainquired,thenexttimethatLiddyenteredtheroom。
`Ithink’twasbecausetwomencamejustthenfromCasterbridgeandbeganputtingupagrandcarvedtombstone,’saidLiddy。`Theladswenttoseewhoseitwas。’
`Doyouknow?’Bathshebaasked。
`Idon’t,’saidLiddy。
CHAPTERFORTY-FIVETroy’sRomanticismWhenTroy’swifehadleftthehouseatthepreviousmidnighthisfirstactwastocoverthedeadfromsight。Thisdoneheascendedthestairs,andthrowinghimselfdownuponthebeddressedashewas,hewaitedmiserablyforthemorning。
Fatehaddealtgrimlywithhimthroughthelastfour-and-twentyhours。
Hisdayhadbeenspentinawaywhichvariedverymateriallyfromhisintentionsregardingit。Thereisalwaysaninertiatobeover-comeinstrikingoutanewlineofconduct-notmoreinourselves,itseems,thanincircumscribingevents,whichappearasifleaguedtogethertoallownonoveltiesinthewayofamelioration。
TwentypoundshavingbeensecuredfromBathsheba,hehadmanagedtoaddtothesumeveryfarthinghecouldmusteronhisownaccount,whichhadbeensevenpoundsten。Withthismoney,twenty-sevenpoundsteninall,hehadhastilydrivenfromthegatethatmorningtokeephisappointmentwithFannyRobin。
OnreachingCasterbridgeheleftthehorseandtrapataninn,andatfiveminutesbeforetencamebacktothebridgeatthelowerendofthetown,andsathimselfupontheparapet。Theclocksstruckthehour,andnoFannyappeared。Infact,atthatmomentshewasbeingrobedinhergrave-clothesbytwoattendantsattheUnionpoorhouse-thefirstandlasttiring-womenthegentlecreaturehadeverbeenhonouredwith。Thequarterwent,thehalf-hour。ArushofrecollectioncameuponTroyashewaited;thiswasthesecondtimeshehadbrokenaseriousengagementwithhim。Inangerhevoweditshouldbethelast,andateleveno’clock,whenhehadlingeredandwatchedthestonesofthebridgetillhekneweverylichenupontheirfaces,andheardthechinkoftheripplesunderneathtilltheyoppressedhim,hejumpedfromhisseat,wenttotheinnforhisgig,andinabittermoodofindifferenceconcerningthepast,andrecklessnessaboutthefuture,droveontoBudmouthraces。
Hereachedtherace-courseattwo-o’clock,andremainedeitherthereorinthetowntillnine。ButFanny’simage,asithadappearedtohiminthesombreshadowsofthatSaturdayevening,returnedtohismind,backedupbyBathsheba’sreproaches。Hevowedhewouldnotbet,andhekepthisvow,foronleavingthetownatnineo’clockintheeveninghehaddiminishedhiscashonlytotheextentofafewshillings。
Hetrottedslowlyhomeward,anditwasnowthathewasstruckforthefirsttimewithathoughtthatFannyhadbeenreallypreventedbyillnessfromkeepingherpromise。Thistimeshecouldhadmadenomistake。HeregrettedthathehadnotremainedinCasterbridgeandmadeinquiries。Reachinghomehequietlyunharnessedthehorseandcameindoors,aswehaveseen,tothefearfulshockthatawaitedhim。
Assoonasitgrewlightenoughtodistinguishobjects;Troyarosefromthecoverletofthebed,andinamoodofabsoluteindifferencetoBathsheba’swhereabouts,andalmostobliviousofherexistence,hestalkeddownstairsandleftthehousebythebackdoor。Hiswalkwastowardsthechurchyard,enteringwhichhesearchedaroundtillhefoundanewlydugunoccupiedgrave-thegravedugthedaybeforeforFanny。Thepositionofthishavingbeenmarked,hehastenedtoCasterbridge,onlypausingandmusingforawhileatthehillwhereonhehadlastseenFannyalive。
Reachingthetown,Troydescendedintoasidestreetandenteredapairofgatessurmountedbyaboardbearingthewords,`Lester,stoneandmarblemason’。Withinwgrelyingaboutstonesofallsizesanddesigns,inscribedasbeingsacredtothememoryofunnamedpersonswhohadnotyetdied。
Troywassounlikehimselfnowinlook,word,anddeed,thatthewantoflikenesswasperceptibleeventohisownconsciousness。Hismethodofengaginghimselfinthisbusinessofpurchasingatombwasthatofanabsolutelyunpractisedman。Hecouldnotbringhimselftoconsider,calculate,oreconomize。Hewaywardlywishedforsomething,andhesetaboutobtainingitlikeachildinanursery。`Iwantagoodtomb,’hesaidtothemanwhostoodinalittleofficewithintheyard。`Iwantasgoodaoneasyoucangivemefortwenty-sevenpounds。’
Itwasallthemoneyhepossessed。
`Thatsumtoincludeeverything?’
`Everything。Cuttingthename,carriagetoWeatherbury,anderection。