首页 >出版文学> FAR FROM THE MADDING CROWD>第9章
  Thenextflarecame。Bathshebawasonthegroundnow,shoulderinganothersheaf,andsheboreitsdazzlewithoutflinching-thunderandall-andagainascendedwiththeload。Therewasthenasilenceeverywhereforfourorfiveminutes,andthecrunchofthespars,asGabrielhastilydrovethemin,couldagainbedistinctlyheard。Hethoughtthecrisisofthestormhadpassed。Buttherecameaburstoflight。
  `Holdon!’saidGabriel,takingthesheaffromhershoulder,andgraspingherarmagain。
  Heavenopenedthen,indeed。Theflashwasalmosttoonovelforitsinexpressiblydangerousnaturetobeatoncerealized,andtheycouldonlycomprehendthemagnificenceofitsbeauty。Itsprangfromeast,west,north,south,andwasaperfectdanceofdeath。Theformsofskeletonsappearedintheair,shapedwithbluefireforbones-dancing,leaping,striding,racingaround,andminglingaltogetherinunparalleledconfusion。Withthesewereintertwinedundulatingsnakesofgreen,andbehindthesewasabroadmassoflesserlight。Simultaneouslycamefromeverypartofthetumblingskywhatmaybecalledashout;since,thoughnoshoutevercamenearit,itwasmoreofthenatureofashoutthanofanythingelseearthly。InthemeantimeoneofthegrislyformshadalighteduponthepointofGabriel’srod,toruninvisiblydownit,downthechain,andintotheearth。Gabrielwasalmostblinded,andhecouldfeelBathsheba’swarmarmtrembleinhishand-asensationnovelandthrillingenough;butlove,life,everythinghuman,seemedsmallandtriflinginsuchclosejuxtapositionwithaninfuriateduniverse。
  Oakhadhardlytimetogatheruptheseimpressionsintoathought,andtoseehowstrangelytheredfeatherofherhatshoneinthislight,whenthetalltreeonthehillbeforementionedseemedonfiretoawhiteheat,andanewoneamongtheseterriblevoicesmingledwiththelastcrashofthosepreceding。Itwasastupefyingblast,harshandpitiless,anditfellupontheirearsinadead,flatblow,withoutthatreverberationwhichlendsthetonesofadrumtomoredistantthunder。Bythelustrereflectedfromeverypartoftheearthandfromthewidedomicalscoopaboveit,hesawthatthetreewassliceddownthewholelengthofitstall,straightstem,ahugeribandofbarkbeingapparentlyflungoffTheotherportionremainederect,andrevealedthebaredsurfaceasastripofwhitedownthefront。Thelightninghadstruckthetree。Asulphuroussmellfilledtheair;thenallwassilent,andblackasacaveinHinnom。
  `Wehadanarrowescape!’saidGabrielhurriedly。`Youhadbettergodown。’
  Bathshebasaidnothing;buthecoulddistinctlyhearherrhythmicalpants,andtherecurrentrustleofthesheafbesideherinresponsetoherfrightenedpulsations。Shedescendedtheladder,and,onsecondthoughts,hefollowedher。Thedarknesswasnowimpenetrablebythesharpestvision。
  Theybothstoodstillatthebottom,sidebyside。Bathshebaappearedtothinkonlyoftheweather-Oakthoughtonlyofherjustthen。Atlasthesaid——
  `Thestormseemstohavepassednow,atanyrate。’
  `Ithinksotoo,’saidBathsheba。`Thoughtherearemultitudesofgleams,look!’
  Theskywasnowfilledwithanincessantlight,frequentrepetitionmeltingintocompletecontinuity,asanunbrokensoundresultsfromthesuccessivestrokesonagong。
  `Nothingserious,’saidhe。`Icannotunderstandnorainfalling。ButHeavenbepraised,itisallthebetterforus。Iamgoingupagain。’
  `Gabriel,youarekinderthanIdeserve!Iwillstayandhelpyouyet。
  O,whyarenotsomeoftheothershere!’
  `Theywouldhavebeenhereiftheycould,’saidOak,inahesitatingway。
  `O,Iknowitall-all,’shesaid,addingslowly:`Theyareallasleepinthebarn,inadrunkensleep,andmyhusbandamongthem。That’sit,isitnot?Don’tthinkIamatimidwomanandcan’tendurethings。’
  `Iamnotcertain,’saidGabriel。`Iwillgoandsee。’
  Hecrossedtothebarn,leavinghertherealone。Helookedthroughthechinksofthedoor。Allwasintotaldarkness,ashehadleftit,andtherestillarose,asattheformertime,thesteadybuzzofmanysnores。
  Hefeltazephyrcurlingabouthischeek,andturned。ItwasBathsheba’sbreath-shehadfollowedhim,andwaslookingintothesamechink。
  Heendeavouredtoputofftheimmediateandpainfulsubjectoftheirthoughtsbyremarkinggently,`Ifyou’llcomebackagain,miss-ma’am,andhandupafewmore,itwouldsavemuchtime。’
  ThenOakwentbackagain,ascendedtothetop,steppedofftheladderforgreaterexpedition,andwentonthatching。Shefollowed,butwithoutasheaf。
  `Gabriel,’shesaid,inastrangeandimpressivevoice。
  Oaklookedupather。Shehadnotspokensinceheleftthebarn。Thesoftandcontinualshimmerofthedyinglightningshowedamarblefacehighagainsttheblackskyoftheoppositequarter。Bathshebawassittingalmostontheapexofthestack,herfeetgatheredupbeneathher,andrestingonthetoproundoftheladder。
  `Yes,mistress,’hesaid。
  `IsupposeyouthoughtthatwhenIgallopedawaytoBaththatnightitwasonpurposetobemarried?’
  `Ididatlast-notatfirst,’heanswered,somewhatsurprisedattheabruptnesswithwhichthisnewsubjectwasbroached。
  `Andothersthoughtso,too!’
  `Yes。’
  `Andyoublamedmeforit?’
  `Well-alittle。’
  `Ithoughtso。Now,Icarealittleforyourgoodopinion,andIwanttoplainsomething-IhavelongedtodoiteversinceIreturned,andyoulookedsogravelyatme。ForifIweretodie-andImaydiesoon-itwouldbedreadfulthatyoushouldalwaysthinkmistakenlyofme。Now,listen。’
  Gabrielceasedhisrustling。
  `IwenttoBaththatnightinthefillintentionofbreakingoffmyengagementtoMrTroy。ItwasowingtocircumstanceswhichoccurredafterIgottherethat-thatweweremarried。Now,doyouseethematterinanewlight?’
  `Ido-somewhat。’
  `Imust,Isuppose,saymore,nowthatIhavebegun。Andperhapsit’snoharm,foryouarecertainlyundernodelusionthatIeverlovedyou,orthatIcanhaveanyobjectinspeaking,morethanthatobjectIhavementioned。Well,Iwasaloneinastrangecity,andthehorsewaslame。
  AndatlastIdidn’tknowwhattodo。Isaw,whenitwastoolate,thatscandalmightseizeholdofmeformeetinghimaloneinthatway。ButI
  wascomingaway,whenhesuddenlysaidhehadthatdayseenawomanmorebeautifulthanI,andthathisconstancycouldnotbecountedonunlessIatoncebecamehis……AndIwasgrievedandtroubled——’Sheclearedhervoice,andwaitedamoment,asiftogatherbreath。`Andthen,betweenjealousyanddistraction,Imarriedhim!’shewhisperedwithdesperateimpetuosity。
  Gabrielmadenoreply。
  `Hewasnottoblame,foritwasperfectlytrueabout-abouthisseeingsomebodyelse,’shequicklynodded。`AndnowIdon’twishforasingleremarkfromyouuponthesubject-indeed,Iforbidit。Ionlywantedyoutoknowthatmisunderstoodbitofmyhistorybeforeatimecomeswhenyoucouldneverknowit-Youwantsomemoresheaves?’
  Shewentdowntheladder,andtheworkproceeded。Gabrielsoonperceivedalanguorinthemovementsofhismistressupanddown,andhesaidtoher,gentlyasamother——
  `Ithinkyouhadbettergoindoorsnow,youaretired。Icanfinishtherestalone。Ifthewinddoesnotchangetherainislikelytokeepoff。’
  `IfIamuselessIwillgo,’saidBathsheba,inaflaggingcadence。
  `ButO,ifyourlifeshouldbelost!’
  `Youarenotuseless;butIwouldrathernottireyoulonger。Youhavedonewell。’
  `Andyoubetter!’shesaidgratefully。`Thankyouforyourdevotion,athousandtimes,Gabriel!Good-night-Iknowyouaredoingyourverybestforme。’
  Shediminishedinthegloom,andvanished,andheheardthelatchofthegatefallasshepassedthrough。Heworkedinareverienow,musinguponherstory,anduponthecontradictorinessofthatfeminineheartwhichhadcausedhertospeakmorewarmlytohimto-nightthansheeverhaddonewhilstunmarriedandfreetospeakaswarmlyasshechose。
  Hewasdisturbedinhismeditationbyagratingnoisefromthecoach-house。
  Itwasthevaneontheroofturninground,andthischangeinthewindwasthesignalforadisastrousrain。
  CHAPTERTHIRTY-EIGHTRain-OneSolitarymeetsanotherItwasnowfiveo’clock,andthedawnwaspromisingtobreakinhuesofdrabandash。
  Theairchangeditstemperatureandstirreditselfmorevigorously。
  CoolbreezescoursedintransparenteddiesroundOak’sface。Thewindshiftedyetapointortwoandblewstronger。Intenminuteseverywindofheavenseemedtoberoamingatlarge。Someofthethatchingonthewheat-stackswasnowwhirledfantasticallyaloft,andhadtobereplacedandweightedwithsomerailsthatlaynearathand。Thisdone,Oakslavedawayagainatthebarley。Ahugedropofrainsmotehisface,andthewindsnarledroundeverycorner,thetreesrockedtothebasesoftheirtrunks,andthetwigsclashedinstrife。Drivinginsparsatanypointandonanysystem,inchbyinchhecoveredmoreandmoresafelyfromruinthisdistractingimpersonationofsevenhundredpounds。Theraincameoninearnest,andOaksoonfeltthewatertobetrackingcoldandclammyroutesdownhisback。Ultimatelyhewasreducedwell-nightoahomogeneoussop,andthedyesofhisclothestrickleddownandstoodinapoolatthefootoftheladder。Therainstretchedobliquelythroughthedullatmosphereinliquidspines,unbrokenincontinuitybetweentheirbeginningsinthecloudsandtheirpointsinhim。
  Oaksuddenlyrememberedthateightmonthsbeforethintimehehadbeenfightingagainstfireinthesamespotasdesperatelyashewasfightingagainstwaternow-andforafutileloveofthesamewoman。Asforher-ButOakwasgenerousandtrue,anddismissedhisreflections。
  Itwasaboutseveno’clockinthedarkleadenmorningwhenGabrielcamedownfromthelaststack,andthankfullyexclaimed,`Itisdone!’Hewasdrenched,weary,andsad,andyetnotsosadasdrenchedandweary,forhewascheeredbyasenseofsuccessinagoodcause。
  Faintsoundscamefromthebarn,andhelookedthatway。Figuressteppedsinglyandinpairsthroughthedoors-allwalkingawkwardly,andabashed,savetheforemost,whoworearedjacket,andadvancedwithhishandsinhispockets,whistling。Theothersshambledafterwithaconscience-strickenair;thewholeprocessionwasnotunlikeFlaxman’sgroupofthesuitorstotteringontowardstheinfernalregionsundertheconductofMercury:
  Thegnarledshapespassedintothevillage,Troy,theirleader,enteringthefarmhouse。Notasingleoneofthemhadturnedhisfacetothericks,orapparentlybestowedonethoughtupontheircondition。
  SoonOaktoowenthomeward,byadifferentroutefromtheirs。Infrontofhimagainstthewetglazedsurfaceofthelanehesawapersonwalkingyetmoreslowlythanhimselfunderanumbrella。Themanturnedandplainlystarted;hewasBoldwood。
  `Howareyouthismorning,sir?’saidOak。
  `Yes,itisawetday-Oh,Iamwell,verywell,Ithankyou;quitewell。’`Iamgladtohearit,sir。’
  Boldwoodseemedtoawaketothepresentbydegrees。`Youlooktiredandill,Oak,’hesaidthen,desultorilyregardinghiscompanion。
  `Iamtired。Youlookstrangelyaltered,sir。’
  `I?Notabitofit:Iamwellenough。Whatputthatintoyourhead?’
  `Ithoughtyoudidn’tlookquitesotoppingasyouusedto,thatwasall。’
  `Indeed,thenyouaremistaken,’saidBoldwoodshortly。`Nothinghurtsme。Myconstitutionisanironone。’
  `I’vebeenworkinghardtogetourrickscovered,andwasbarelyintime。Neverhadsuchastruggleinmylife……Yoursofcoursearesafe,sir。’
  `Oyes。’Boldwoodadded,afteranintervalofsilence:`Whatdidyouask,Oak?’
  `Yourricksareallcoveredbeforethistime?’
  `No。’
  `Atanyrate,thelargeonesuponthestonestaddles?’
  `Theyarenot。’
  `Themunderthehedge?’
  `No。Iforgottotellthethatchertosetaboutit。’
  `Northelittleonebythestile?’
  `Northelittleonebythestile。Ioverlookedthericksthisyear。’
  `Thennotatenthofyourcornwillcometomeasure,sir。’
  `Possiblynot。’
  `Overlookedthem,’repeatedGabrielslowlytohimself。ItisdifficulttodescribetheintenselydramaticeffectthatannouncementhaduponOakatsuchamoment。Allthenighthehadbeenfeelingthattheneglecthewaslabouringtorepairwasabnormalandisolated-theonlyinstanceofthekindwithinthecircuitofthecounty。Yetatthisverytime,withinthesameparish,agreaterwastehadbeengoingon,uncomplainedofanddisregarded。AfewmonthsearlierBoldwood’sforgettinghishusbandrywouldhavebeenaspreposterousanideaasasailorforgettinghewasinaship。
  OakwasjustthinkingthatwhateverhehimselfmighthavesufferedfromBathsheba’smarriage,herewasamanwhohadsufferedmore,whenBoldwoodspokeinachangedvoice-thatofonewhoyearnedtomakeaconfidenceandrelievehisheartbyanoutpouring。
  `Oak,youknowaswellasIthatthingshavegonewrongwithmelately。
  Imayaswellownit。Iwasgoingtogetalittlesettledinlife,butinsomewaymyplanhascometonothing。’
  `Ithoughtmymistresswouldhavemarriedyou,’saidGabriel,notknowingenoughofthefilldepthsofBoldwood’slovetokeepsilenceonthefarmer’saccount,anddeterminednottoevadedisciplinebydoingsoonhisown。
  `However,itissosometimes,andnothinghappensthatweexpect,’headded,withthereposeofamanwhommisfortunehadinuredratherthansubdued。
  `IdaresayIamajokeabouttheparish,’saidBoldwood,asifthesubjectcameirresistiblytohistongue,andwithamiserablelightnessmeanttoexpresshisindifference。
  `Ono-Idon’tthinkthat。’
  `-Buttherealtruthofthematteristhattherewasnot,assomefancy,anyjiltingon-herpart。NoengagementeverexistedbetweenmeandMissEverdene。Peoplesayso,butitisuntrue,sheneverpromisedme!’BoldwoodstoodstillnowandturnedhiswildfacetoOak,`O,Gabriel,’
  hecontinued,`Iamweakandfoolish,andIdon’tknowwhat,andIcan’tfendoffmymiserablegrief。IhadsomefaintbeliefinthemercyofGodtillIlostthatwoman。Yes,Hepreparedagourdtoshademe,andliketheprophetIthankedHimandwasglad。ButthenextdayHepreparedawormtosmitethegourdandwitherit;andIfeelitisbettertodiethantolive!’
  Asilencefollowed。Boldwoodarousedhimselffromthemomentarymoodofconfidenceintowhichhehaddrifted,andwalkedonagain,resuminghisusualreserve。
  `No,Gabriel,’heresumed,withacarelessnesswhichwaslikethesimileonthecountenanceofaskull:`itwasmademoreofbyotherpeoplethaneveritwasbyus。Idofeelalittleregretoccasionally,butnowomaneverhadpowerovermeforanylengthoftime。Well,goodmorning;Icantrustyounottomentiontootherswhathaspassedbetweenustwohere。
  CHAPTERTHIRTY-NINEComingHome-CryOntheturnpikeroad,betweenCasterbridgeandWeatherbury,andaboutthreemilesfromtheformerplaceisYalburyHill,oneofthosesteeplongascentswhichpervadethehighwaysofthisundulatingpartofSouthWessex。Inreturningfrommarketitisusualforthefarmersandothergig-gentrytoalightatthebottomandwalkup。
  OneSaturdayeveninginthemonthofOctoberBathsheba’svehiclewasdulycreepingupthisincline。Shewassittinglistlesslyinthesecondseatofthegig,whilstwalkingbesideherinafarmer’smarketingsuitofunusuallyfashionablecutwasanerect,well-madeyoungman。Thoughonfoot,heheldthereinsandwhip,andoccasionallyaimedlightrutsatthehorse’searwiththeendofthelash,asarecreation。Thismanwasherhusband,formerlySergeantTroy,who,havingboughthisdischargewithBathsheba’smoney,wasgraduallytransforminghimselfintoafarmerofaspiritedandverymodernschool。Peopleofunalterableideasstillinsisteduponcallinghim`Sergeant’whentheymethim,whichwasinsomedegreeowingtohishavingstillretainedthewell-shapedmoustacheofhismilitarydays,andthesoldierlybearinginseparablefromhisformandtraining。
  `Yes,ifithadn’tbeenforthatwretchedrainIshouldhaveclearedtwohundredaseasyaslooking,mylove,’hewassaying。`Don’tyousee,italteredallthechances?TospeaklikeabookIonceread,wetweatheristhenarrative,andfinedaysaretheepisodes,ofourcountry’shistory;
  now,isn’tthattrue?’
  `Butthetimeofyeariscomeforchangeableweather。’
  `Well,yes。Thefactis,theseautumnracesaretheruinofeverybody。
  NeverdidIseesuchadayas’twas!’Tisawildopenplace,justoutofBudmouth,andadrabsearolledintowardsuslikeliquidmisery。Windandrain-goodLord!Dark?Why,’twasasblackasmyhatbeforethelastracewasrun。’Twasfiveo’clock,andyoucouldn’tseethehorsestilltheywerealmostin,leavealonecolours。Thegroundwasasheavyaslead,andalljudgementfromafellow’sexperiencewentfornothing。Horses,riders,people,wereallblownaboutlikeshipsatsea。Threeboothswereblownover,andthewretchedfolkinsidecrawledoutupontheirhandsandknees;andinthenextfieldwereasmanyasadozenhatsatonetime。
  Ay,Pimpernelregularlystuckfast,whenaboutsixtyyardsoff,andwhenIsawPolicysteppingon,itdidknockmyheartagainsttheliningofmyribs,Iassureyou,mylove!’
  `Andyoumean,Frank,’saidBathshebasadly-hervoicewaspainfullyloweredfromthefullnessandvivacityoftheprevioussummer-`thatyouhavelostmorethanahundredpoundsinamonthbythisdreadfulhorse-racing?
  O,Frank,itiscruel;itisfoolishofyoutotakeawaymymoneyso。Weshallhavetoleavethefarm;thatwillbetheendofit!’
  `Humbugaboutcruel。Now,there’tisagain-turnonthewaterworks;
  that’sjustlikeyou。’
  `Butyou’llpromisemenottogotoBudmouthsecondmeeting,won’tyou?’
  sheimplored。Bathshebawasatthehilldepthfortears,butshemaintainedadryeye。
  `Idon’tseewhyIshould;infact,ifitturnsouttobeafineday,Iwasthinkingoftakingyou。’
  `Never,never!I’llgoahundredmilestheotherwayfirst。Ihatethesoundoftheveryword!’
  `Butthequestionofgoingtoseetheraceorstayingathomehasverylittletodowiththematter。Betsareallbookedsafelyenoughbeforetheracebegins,youmaydepend。Whetheritisabadraceformeoragoodone,willhaveverylittletodowithourgoingtherenextMonday。’
  `Butyoudon’tmeantosaythatyouhaveriskedanythingonthisonetoo!’sheexclaimed,withanagonisedlook。
  `Therenow,don’tyoubealittlefool。Waittillyouaretold。Why,Bathsheba,youhavelostallthepluckandsaucinessyouformerlyhad,anduponmylifeifIhadknownwhatachicken-heartedcreatureyouwereunderallyourboldness,I’dneverhave-Iknowwhat。’
  AflashofindignationmighthavebeenseeninBathsheba’sdarkeyesasshelookedresolutelyaheadafterthisreply。Theymovedonwithoutfartherspeech,someearly-witheredleavesfromthetreeswhichhoodedtheroadatthisspotoccasionallyspinningdownwardacrosstheirpathtotheearth。
  Awomanappearedonthebrowofthehill。Theridgewasinacutting,sothatshewasverynearthehusbandandwifebeforeshebecamevisible。
  Troyhadturnedtowardsthegigtoremount,andwhilstputtinghisfootonthestepthewomanpassedbehindhim。
  Thoughtheovershadowingtreesandtheapproachofeventideenvelopedthemingloom,Bathshebacouldseeplainlyenoughtodiscerntheextremepovertyofthewoman’sgarb,andthesadnessofherface。
  `Please,sir,doyouknowatwhattimeCasterbridgeUnion-houseclosesatnight?’
  ThewomansaidthesewordstoTroyoverhisshoulder。
  Troystartedvisiblyatthesoundofthevoice;yetheseemedtorecoverpresenceofmindsufficienttopreventhimselffromgivingwaytohisimpulsetosuddenlyturnandfaceher。Hesaid,slowly——
  `Idon’tknow。’
  Thewoman,onhearinghimspeak,quicklylookedup,examinedthesideofhisface,andrecognizedthesoldierundertheyeoman’sgarb。Herfacewasdrawnintoanexpressionwhichhadgladnessandagonybothamongitselements。Sheutteredanhystericalcry,andfelldown。
  `O,poorthing!’exclaimedBathsheba,instantlypreparingtoalight。
  `Staywhereyouare,andattendtothehorse!’saidTroyperemptorily,throwingherthereinsandthewhip。`Walkthehorsetothetop;I’llseetothewoman。’
  `ButI——’
  `Doyouhear?Clk-Poppet!’
  Thehorse,gig,andBathshebamovedon。
  `Howonearthdidyoucomehere?Ithoughtyouweremilesaway,ordead!
  Whydidn’tyouwritetome?’saidTroytothewoman,inastrangelygentle,yethurriedvoice,asheliftedherup。
  `Ifearedto。’
  `Haveyouanymoney?’
  `None。’
  `GoodHeavens-IwishIhadmoretogiveyou!Here’s-wretched-themeresttrifle。ItiseveryfarthingIhaveleft。Ihavenonebutwhatmywifegivesme,youknow,andIcan’taskhernow。’
  Thewomanmadenoanswer。
  `Ihaveonlyanothermoment,’continuedTroy;`andnowlisten。Whereareyougoingto-night?CasterbridgeUnions’
  `Yes;Ithoughttogothere。’
  `Youshan’tgothere;yet,wait。Yes,perhapsfortonight;Icandonothingbetter-worseluck!Sleepthereto-night,andstaythereto-morrow。
  MondayisthefirstfreedayIhave;andonMondaymorning,attenexactly,meetmeonGrey’sBridge,justoutofthetown。I’llbringallthemoneyIcanmuster。Youshan’twant-I’llseethat,Fanny;thenI’llgetyoualodgingsomewhere。Good-byetillthen。Iamabrute-butgood-bye!’
  Afteradvancingthedistancewhichcompletedtheascentofthehill,Bathshebaturnedherhead。Thewomanwasuponherfeet,andBathshebasawherwithdrawingfromTroy,andgoingfeeblydownthehillbythethirdmilestonefromCasterbridge。Troythencameontowardshiswife,steppedintothegig,tookthereinsfromherhand,andwithoutmakinganyobservationwhippedthehorseintoatrot。Hewasratheragitated。
  `Doyouknowwhothatwomanwas?’saidBathsheba,lookingsearchinglyintohisface。
  `Ido,’hesaid,lookingboldlybackintohers。
  `Ithoughtyoudid,’saidshe,withangryhauteur,andstillregardinghim。`Whoisshe?’
  Hesuddenlyseemedtothinkthatfranknesswouldbenefitneitherofthewomen。
  `Nothingtoeitherofus,’hesaid。`Iknowherbysight。’
  `Whatishername?’
  `HowshouldIknowhername?’
  `Ithinkyoudo。’
  `Thinkifyouwill,andbe——’ThesentencewascompletedbyasmartcutofthewhiproundPoppet’sflank,whichcausedtheanimaltostartforwardatawildpace。Nomorewassaid。
  CHAPTERFORTYOnCasterbridgeHighwayForaconsiderabletimethewomanwalkedon。Herstepsbecamefeebler,andshestrainedhereyestolookafaruponthenakedroad,nowindistinctamidthepenumbræ;ofnight。Atlengthheronwardwalkdwindledtothemeresttotter,andsheopenedagatewithinwhichwasahaystack。Underneaththisshesatdownandpresentlyslept。
  Whenthewomanawokeitwastofindherselfinthedepthsofamoonlessandstarlessnight。Aheavyunbrokencrustofcloudstretchedacrossthesky,shuttingouteveryspeckofheaven;andadistanthalowhichhungoverthetownofCasterbridgewasvisibleagainsttheblackconcave,theluminosityappearingthebrighterbyitsgreatcontrastwiththecircumscribingdarkness。Towardsthisweak,softglowthewomanturnedhereyes。
  `IfIcouldonlygetthere!’shesaid。`Meethimthedayafterto-morrow:
  Godhelpme!PerhapsIshallbeinmygravebeforethen。’
  Amanor-houseclockfromthefardepthsofshadowstruckthehour,one,inasmall,attenuatedtone。Aftermidnightthevoiceofaclockseemstoloseinbreadthasmuchasinlength,andtodiminishitssonorousnesstoathinfalsetto。
  Afterwardsalight-twolights-arosefromtheremoteshade,andgrewlarger。Acarriagerolledalongtheroad,andpassedthegate。Itprobablycontainedsomelatediners-out。Thebeamsfromonelampshoneforamomentuponthecrouchingwoman,andthrewherfaceintovividrelief。Thefacewasyounginthegroundwork,oldinthefinish;thegeneralcontourswereflexuousandchildlike,butthefinerlineamentshadbeguntobesharpandthin。
  Thepedestrianstoodup,apparentlywithareviveddetermination,andlookedaround。Theroadappearedtobefamiliartoher,andshecarefullyscannedthefenceassheslowlywalkedalong。Presentlytherebecamevisibleadimwhiteshape;itwasanothermilestone。Shedrewherfingersacrossitsfacetofeelthemarks。
  `Twomore!’shesaid。
  Sheleantagainstthestoneasameansofrestforashortinterval,thenbestirredherself,andagainpursuedherway。Foraslightdistancesheboreupbravely,afterwardsflaggingasbefore。Thiswasbesidealonecopsewood,whereinheapsofwhitechipsstrewnupontheleafygroundshowedthatwoodmenhadbeenfaggotingandmakinghurdlesduringtheday。Nowtherewasnotarustle,notabreeze,notthefaintestclashoftwigstokeephercompany。Thewomanlookedoverthegate,openedit,andwentin。
  Closetotheentrancestoodarowoffaggots,boundandunbound,togetherwithstakesofallsizes。
  Forafewsecondsthewayfarerstoodwiththattensestillnesswhichsignifiesitselftobenottheend,butmerelythesuspension,ofapreviousmotion。Herattitudewasthatofapersonwholistens,eithertotheexternalworldofsound,ortotheimagineddiscourseofthought。Aclosecriticismmighthavedetectedsignsprovingthatshewasintentonthelatteralternative。
  Moreover,aswasshownbywhatfollowed,shewasoddlyexercisingthefacultyofinventionuponthespecialityofthecleverJacquetDroz,thedesignerofautomaticsubstitutesforhumanlimbs。
  BytheaidoftheCasterbridgeaurora,andbyfeelingwithherhands,thewomanselectedtwosticksfromtheheaps。Thesestickswerenearlystraighttotheheightofthreeorfourfeet,whereeachbranchedintoa,forkliketheletterY。Shesatdown,snappedoffthesmalluppertwigs,andcarriedtheremainderwithherintotheroad。Sheplacedoneoftheseforksundereacharmasacrutch,testedthem,timidlythrewherwholeweightuponthem-solittlethatitwas-andswungherselfforward。Thegirlhadmadeforherselfamaterialaid。
  Thecrutchesansweredwell。Thepatofherfeet,andthetapofhersticksuponthehighway,wereallthesoundsthatcamefromthetravellernow。Shehadpassedthelastmilestonebyagoodlongdistance,andbegantolookwistfullytowardsthebankasifcalculatinguponanothermilestonesoon。Thecrutches,thoughsoveryuseful,hadtheirlimitsofpower。Mechanismonlytransferslabour,beingpowerlesstosupersedeit,andtheoriginalamountofexertionwasnotclearedaway;itwasthrownintothebodyandarms。Shewasexhausted,andeachswingforwardbecamefainter。Atlastsheswayedsideways,andfell。
  Hereshelay,ashapelessheap,fortenminutesandmore。Themorningwindbegantoboomdullyovertheflats,andtomoveafreshdeadleaveswhichhadlainstillsinceyesterday。Thewomandesperatelyturnedrounduponherknees,andnextrosetoherfeet。Steadyingherselfbythehelpofonecrutch,sheessayedastep,thenanother,thenathird,usingthecrutchesnowaswalking-sticksonly。ThussheprogressedtilldescendingMellstockHillanothermilestoneappeared,andsoonthebeginningofaniron-railedfencecameintoview。Shestaggeredacrosstothefirstpost,clungtoit,andlookedaround。
  TheCasterbridgelightswerenowindividuallyvisible。Itwasgettingtowardsmorning,andvehiclesmightbehopedfor,ifnotexpectedsoon。
  Shelistened。Therewasnotasoundoflifesavethatacmeandsublimationofalldismalsounds,thebarkofafox,itsthreehollownotesbeingrenderedatintervalsofaminutewiththeprecisionofafuneralbell。
  `Lessthanamile!’thewomanmurmured。`No;more,’sheadded,afterapause。`Themileistothecounty-hall,andmyresting-placeisontheothersideCasterbridge。Alittleoveramile,andthereIam!’Afteranintervalsheagainspoke。`Fiveorsixstepstoayard-sixperhaps。I
  havetogoseventeenhundredyards。Ahundredtimessix,Fixhundred。Seventeentimesthat。Opityme,Lord!’
  Holdingtotherails,sheadvanced,thrustingonehandforwardupontherail,thentheother,thenleaningoveritwhilstshedraggedherfeetonbeneath。
  Thiswomanwasnotgiventosoliloquy;butextremityoffeelinglessenstheindividualityoftheweak,asitincreasesthatofthestrong。Shesaidagaininthesametone,`I’llbelievethattheendliesfivepostsforward,andnofurther,andsogetstrengthtopassthem’
  Thiswasapracticalapplicationoftheprinciplethatahalf-feignedandfictitiousfaithisbetterthannofaithatall。
  Shepassedfivepostsandheldontothefifth。
  `I’llpassfivemorebybelievingmylonged-forspotisatthenextfifth。Icandoit。’
  Shepassedfivemore。
  `Itliesonlyfivefarther。’
  Shepassedfivemore。
  `Butitisfivefarther。’
  Shepassedthem。
  `Thatstonebridgeistheendofmyjourney,’shesaid,whenthebridgeovertheFroomwasinview。
  Shecrawledtothebridge。Duringtheefforteachbreathofthewomanwentintotheairasifnevertoreturnagain。
  `Nowforthetruthofthematter,’shesaid,sittingdown。`Thetruthis,thatIhavelessthanhalfamile。’Self-beguilementwithwhatshehadknownallthetimetobefalsehadgivenherstrengthtocomeoverhalfamilethatshewouldhavebeenpowerlesstofaceinthelump。Theartificeshowedthatthewoman,bysomemysteriousintuition,hadgraspedtheparadoxicaltruththatblindnessmayoperatemorevigorouslythanprescience,andtheshort-sightedeffectmorethanthefar-seeing;thatlimitation,andnotcomprehensiveness,isneededforstrikingablow。
  Thehalf-milestoodnowbeforethesickandwearywomanlikeastolidJuggernaut。ItwasanimpassiveKingofherworld。TheroadhereranacrossDurnoverMoor,opentotheroadoneitherside。Shesurveyedthewidespace,thelights,herself,sighed,andlaydownagainstaguardstoneofthebridge。
  Neverwasingenuityexercisedsosorelyasthetravellerhereexercisedhers。Everyconceivableaid,method,stratagem,mechanism,bywhichtheselastdesperateeighthundredyardscouldbeoverpassedbyahumanbeingunperceived,wasrevolvedinherbusybrain,anddismissedasimpracticable。
  Shethoughtofsticks,wheels,crawling-sheeventhoughtofrolling。
  Buttheexertiondemandedbyeitheroftheselattertwowasgreaterthantowalkerect。Thefacultyofcontrivancewaswornout。Hopelessnesshadcomeatlast。
  `Nofarther!’shewhispered,andclosedhereyes。
  Fromthestripeofshadowontheoppositesideofthebridgeaportionofshadeseemedtodetachitselfandmoveintoisolationuponthepalewhiteoftheroad。Itglidednoiselesslytowardstherecumbentwoman。
  Shebecameconsciousofsomethingtouchingherhand;itwassoftnessanditwaswarmth。Sheopenedhereyes,andthesubstancetouchedherface。
  Adogwaslickinghercheek。
  Hewasahuge,heavy,andquietcreature,standingdarklyagainstthelowhorizon,andatleasttwofeethigherthanthepresentpositionofhereyes。WhetherNewfoundland,mastiffbloodhound,orwhatnot,itwasimpossibletosay。Heseemedtobeoftoostrangeandmysteriousanaturetobelongtoanyvarietyamongthoseofpopularnomenclature。Beingthusassignabletonobreed,hewastheidealembodimentofcaninegreatness-ageneralizationfromwhatwascommontoall。Night,initssad,solemn,andbenevolentaspect,apartfromitsstealthyandcruelside,waspersonifiedinthisform。Darknessendowsthesmallandordinaryonesamongmankindwithpoeticalpower,andeventhesufferingwomanthrewherideaintofigure。
  Inherrecliningpositionshelookeduptohimjustasinearliertimesshehad,whenstanding,lookeduptoman。Theanimal,whowasashomelessasshe,respectfullywithdrewasteportwowhenthewomanmoved,and,seeingthatshedidnotrepulsehim,helickedherhandagain。
  Athoughtmovedwithinherlikelightning。`PerhapsIcanmakeuseofhim-Imightdoitthen!’
  ShepointedinthedirectionofCasterbridge,andthedogseemedtomisunderstand:hetrottedon。Then,findingshecouldnotfollow,hecamebackandwhined。
  Theultimateandsaddestsingularityofwoman’seffortandinventionwasreachedwhen,withaquickenedbreathing,sherosetoastoopingposture,and,restinghertwolittlearmsupontheshouldersofthedog,leantfirmlythereon,andmurmuredstimulatingwords。Whilstshesorrowedinherheartshecheeredwithhervoice,andwhatwasstrangerthanthatthestrongshouldneedencouragementfromtheweakwasthatcheerfulnessshouldbesowellstimulatedbysuchutterdejection。Herfriendmovedforwardslowly,andshewithsmallmincingstepsmovedforwardbesidehim,halfherweightbeingthrownupontheanimal。Sometimesshesankasshehadsunkfromwalkingerect,fromthecrutches,fromtherails。Thedog,whonowthoroughlyunderstoodherdesireandherincapacity,wasfranticinhisdistressontheseoccasions;
  hewouldtugatherdressandrunforward。Shealwayscalledhimback,anditwasnowtobeobservedthatthewomanlistenedforhumansoundsonlytoavoidthem。Itwasevidentthatshehadanobjectinkeepingherpresenceontheroadandherforlornstateunknown。
  Theirprogresswasnecessarilyveryslow。Theyreachedthebottomofthetown,andtheCasterbridgelampslaybeforethemlikefallenPleiadsastheyturnedtotheleftintothedenseshadeofadesertedavenueofchestnuts,andsoskirtedtheborough。Thusthetownwaspassed,andthegoalwasreached。
  Onthismuch-desiredspotoutsidethetownroseapicturesquebuilding。
  Originallyithadbeenamerecasetoholdpeople。Theshellhadbeensothin,sodevoidofexcrescence,andsocloselydrawnovertheaccommodationgranted,thatthegrimcharacterofwhatwasbeneathshowedthroughit,astheshapeofabodyisvisibleunderawinding-sheet。
  ThenNature,asifoffended,lentahand。Massesofivygrewup,completelycoveringthewalls,tilltheplacelookedlikeanabbey;anditwasdiscoveredthattheviewfromthefront,overtheCasterbridgechimneys,wasoneofthemostmagnificentinthecounty。Aneighbouringearloncesaidthathewouldgiveupayear’srentaltohaveathisowndoortheviewenjoyedbytheinmatesfromtheirs-andveryprobablytheinmateswouldhavegivenuptheviewforhisyear’srental。
  Thisstoneedificeconsistedofacentralmassandtwowings,whereonstoodassentinelsafewslimchimneys,nowgurglingsorrowfullytotheslowwind。Inthewallwasagate,andbythegateabell-pullformedofahangingwire。Thewomanraisedherselfashighaspossibleuponherknees,andcouldjustreachthehandle。Shemoveditandfellforwardsinabowedattitude,herfaceuponherbosom。
  Itwasgettingontowardssixo’clock,andsoundsofmovementweretobeheardinsidethebuildingwhichwasthehavenofresttothisweariedsoul。Alittledoorbythelargeonewasopened,andamanappearedinside。
  Hediscernedthepantingheapofclothes,wentbackforalight,andcameagain。Heenteredasecondtime,andreturnedwithtwowomen。
  Theseliftedtheprostratefigureandassistedherinthroughthedoorway。
  Themanthenclosedthedoor。
  `Howdidshegethere?’saidoneofthewomen。
  `Thelordknows,’saidtheother。
  `Thereisadogoutside,’murmuredtheovercometraveller。`Whereishegone?Hehelpedme。’
  `Istonedhimaway,’saidtheman。
  Thelittleprocessionthenmovedforward-themaninfrontbearingthelight,thetwobonywomennext,supportingbetweenthemthesmallandsuppleone。Thustheyenteredthehouseanddisappeared。
  CHAPTERFORTY-ONESuspicion-FannyissentforBathshebasaidverylittletoherhusbandallthateveningoftheirreturnfrommarket,andhewasnotdisposedtosaymuchtoher。Heexhibitedtheunpleasantcombinationofarestlessconditionwithasilenttongue。Thenextday,whichwasSunday,passednearlyinthesamemannerasregardedtheirtaciturnity,Bathshebagoingtochurchbothmorningandafternoon。
  ThiswasthedaybeforetheBudmouthraces。IntheeveningTroysaid,suddenly——
  `Bathsheba,couldyouletmehavetwentypounds?’
  Hercountenanceinstantlysank。`Twentypounds?’shesaid。
  `Thefactis,Iwantitbadly。’TheanxietyuponTroy’sfacewasunusualandverymarked。Itwasaculminationofthemoodhehadbeeninalltheday。
  `Ah!forthoseracesto-morrow。’
  Troyforthemomentmadenoreply。Hermistakehaditsadvantagestoamanwhoshrankfromhavinghismindinspectedashedidnow。`Well,supposeIdowantitforraces?’hesaid,atlast。
  `O,Frank!’Bathshebareplied,andtherewassuchavolumeofentreatyinthewords。`OnlysuchafewweeksagoyousaidthatIwasfarsweeterthanallyourotherpleasuresputtogether,andthatyouwouldgivethemallupforme;andnow,won’tyougiveupthisone,whichismoreaworrythanapleasure?Do,Frank。Come,letmefascinateyoubyallIcando-byprettywordsandprettylooks,andeverythingIcanthinkof-tostayathome。Sayyestoyourwife-sayyes!’
  ThetenderestandsoftestphasesofBathsheba’snaturewereprominentnow-advancedimpulsivelyforhisacceptance,withoutanyofthedisguisesanddefenceswhichthewarinessofhercharacterwhenshewascooltoofrequentlythrewoverthem。Fewmencouldhaveresistedthearchyetdignifiedentreatyofthebeautifulface,thrownalittlebackandsidewaysinthewell-knownattitudethatexpressesmorethanthewordsitaccompanies,andwhichseemstohavebeendesignedforthesespecialoccasions。Hadthewomannotbeenhiswife,Troywouldhavesuccumbedinstantly;asitwas,hethoughthewouldnotdeceiveherlonger。
  `Themoneyisnotwantedforracingdebtsatall,’hesaid。
  `Whatisitfor?’sheasked。`Youworrymeagreatdealbythesemysteriousresponsibilities,Frank。’
  Troyhesitated。Hedidnotnowloveherenoughtoallowhimselftobecarriedtoofarbyherways。Yetitwasnecessarytobecivil。`Youwrongmebysuchasuspiciousmanner,hesaid。`Suchstrait-waistcoatingasyoutreatmetoisnotbecominginyouatsoearlyadate。’
  `IthinkthatIhavearighttogrumblealittleifIpay,’shesaidwithfeaturesbetweenasmileandapout。
  `Exactly;and,theformerbeingdone,supposeweproceedtothelatter。
  Bathsheba,funisallverywell,butdon’tgotoofar,oryoumayhavecausetoregretsomething。’
  Shereddened。`Idothatalready,’shesaidquickly。`Whatdoyouregret?’
  `Thatmyromancehascometoanend。’
  `Allromancesendatmarriage。’
  `Iwishyouwouldn’ttalklikethat。Yougrievemetomysoulbybeingsmartatmyexpense。
  `Youaredullenoughatmine。Ibelieveyouhateme。’
  `Notyou-onlyyourfaults。Idohatethem。’
  `’Twouldbemuchmorebecomingifyousetyourselftocurethem。Come,let’sstrikeabalancewiththetwentypounds,andbefriends。’
  Shegaveasighofresignation。`Ihaveaboutthatsumhereforhouseholdexpenses。Ifyoumusthaveit,takeit。’
  `Verygood。Thankyou。IexpectIshallhavegoneawaybeforeyouareintobreakfasttomorrow。
  `Andmustyougo?Ah!therewasatime,Frank,whenitwouldhavetakenagoodmanypromisestootherpeopletodragyouawayfromme。Youusedtocallmedarling,then。Butitdoesn’tmattertoyouhowmydaysarepassednow。’
  `Imustgo,inspiteofsentiment。’Troy,ashespoke,lookedathiswatch,and,apparentlyactuatedbynonlucendoprinciples,openedthecaseattheback,revealing,snuglystowedwithinit,asmallcoilofhair。
  Bathsheba’seyeshadbeenaccidentallyliftedatthatmoment,andshesawtheactionandsawthehair。Sheflushedinpainandsurprise,andsomewordsescapedherbeforeshehadthoughtwhetherornotitwaswisetoutterthem。`Awoman’scurlofhair!’shesaid。`O,Frank,whoseisthat?’
  Troyhadinstantlyclosedhiswatch。Hecarelesslyreplied,asonewhocloakedsomefeelingsthatthesighthadstirred:`Why,yours,ofcourse。
  Whoseshoulditbe?IhadquiteforgottenthatIhadit。’
  `Whatadreadfulfib,Frank!’
  `ItellyouIhadforgottenit!’hesaidloudly。
  `Idon’tmeanthat-itwasyellowhair。’
  `Nonsense。’
  `That’sinsultingme。Iknowitwasyellow。Nowwhosewasit?Iwanttoknow。’
  `Verywell-I’lltellyou,somakenomoreado。ItisthehairofayoungwomanIwasgoingtomarrybeforeIknewyou。’
  `Yououghttotellmehername,then。’
  `Icannotdothat。’
  `Isshemarriedyet?’
  `No。’
  `Isshealive?’
  `Yes。’
  `Isshepretty?’
  `Yes。’
  `Itiswonderfulhowshecanbe,poorthing,undersuchanawfulaffliction!’
  `Affliction-whataffliction?’heinquiredquickly。
  `Havinghairofthatdreadfulcolour。’
  `Oh-ho-Ilikethat!’saidTroy,recoveringhimself。`Why,herhairhasbeenadmiredbyeverybodywhohasseenhersinceshehaswornitloose,whichhasnotbeenlong。Itisbeautifulhair。Peopleusedtoturntheirheadstolookatit,poorgirl!’
  `Pooh!that’snothing!’sheexclaimed,inincipientaccentsofpique。
  `IfIcaredforyourloveasmuchasIusedtoIcouldsaypeoplehadturnedtolookatmine。’
  `Bathsheba,don’tbesofitfulandjealous。Youknewwhatmarriedlifewouldbelike,andshouldn’thaveentereditifyoufearedthesecontingencies。’
  Troyhadbythistimedrivenhertobitterness:herheartwasbiginherthroat,andtheductstohereyeswerepainfullyfull。Ashamedasshewastoshowemotion,atlastsheburstout:——
  `ThisisallIgetforlovingyousowell!Ah!whenImarriedyouyourlifewasdearertomethanmyown。Iwouldhavediedforyou-howtrulyIcansaythatIwouldhavediedforyou!Andnowyousneeratmyfoolishnessinmarryingyou。O!isitkindtometothrowmymistakeinmyface?Whateveropinionyoumayhaveofmywisdom,youshouldnottellmeofitsomercilessly,nowthatIaminyourpower。’
  `Ican’thelphowthingsfallout,’saidTroy;`uponmyheart,womenwillbethedeathofme!’
  `Well,youshouldn’tkeeppeople’shair。You’llburnit,won’tyou,Frank?’
  Frankwentonasifhehadnotheardher。`Thereareconsiderationsevenbeforemyconsiderationforyou;reparationstobemade-tiesyouknownothingof。Ifyourepentofmarrying,sodoI。’
  Tremblingnow,sheputherhanduponhisarm,saying,inmingledtonesofwretchednessandcoaxing,`Ionlyrepentitifyoudon’tlovemebetterthananywomanintheworld!Idon’totherwise,Frank。Youdon’trepentbecauseyoualreadylovesomebodybetterthanyouloveme,doyou?’
  `Idon’tknow。Whydoyousaythat?’
  `Youwon’tburnthatcurl。Youlikethewomanwhoownsthatprettyhair-yes;itispretty-morebeautifulthanmymiserableblackmane!Well,itisnouse;Ican’thelpbeingugly。Youmustlikeherbest,ifyouwill!’
  `Untilto-day,whenItookitfromadrawer,Ihaveneverlookeduponthatbitofhairforseveralmonths-thatIamreadytoswear。’
  `Butjustnowyousaid“ties“;andthen-thatwomanwemet?’
  `’Twasthemeetingwithherthatremindedmeofthehair。’
  `Isithers,then?’
  `Yes。There,nowthatyouhavewormeditoutofme,Ihopeyouarecontent。
  `Andwhataretheties?’
  `Oh!thatmeantnothing-amerejest。’
  `Amerejest!’shesaid,inmournfulastonishment。`CanyoujestwhenIamsowretchedlyinearnest?Tellmethetruth,Frank。Iamnotafool,youknow,althoughIamawoman,andhavemywoman’smoments。Come!treatmefairly,’shesaid,lookinghonestlyandfearlesslyintohisface。`I
  don’twantmuch;barejustice-that’sall!Ah!onceIfeltIcouldbecontentwithnothinglessthanthehighesthomagefromthehusbandIshouldchoose。Now,anythingshortofcrueltywillcontentme。Yes!theindependentandspiritedBathshebaiscometothis!’
  `ForHeaven’ssakedon’tbesodesperate!’Troysaidsnappishly,risingashedidso,andleavingtheroom。
  Directlyhehadgone,Bathshebaburstintogreatsobs-dry-eyedsobs,whichcutastheycame,withoutanysofteningbytears。Butshedeterminedtorepressallevidencesoffeeling。Shewasconquered;butshewouldneverownitaslongasshelived。Herpridewasindeedbroughtlowbydespairingdiscoveriesofherspoliationbymarriagewithaledpurenaturethanherown。Shechafedtoandfroinrebelliousness,likeacagedleopard;herwholesoulwasinarms,andthebloodfiredherface。UntilshehadmetTroy,Bathshebahadbeenproudofherpositionasawoman;ithadbeenaglorytohertoknowthatherlipshadbeentouchedbynoman’sonearth-thatherwaisthadneverbeenencircledbyalover’sarm。Shehatedherselfnow。Inthoseearlierdaysshehadalwaysnourishedasecretcontemptforgirlswhoweretheslavesofthefirstgood-lookingyoungfellowwhoshouldchoosetosalutethem。Shehadnevertakenkindlytotheideaofmarriageintheabstractasdidthemajorityofwomenshesawabouther。Intheturmoilofheranxietyforherlovershehadagreedtomarryhim;buttheperceptionthathadaccompaniedherhappiesthoursonthisaccountwasratherthatofselfsacrificethanofpromotionandhonour。Althoughshescarcelyknewthedivinity’sname,DianawasthegoddesswhomBathshebainstinctivelyadored。Thatshehadnever,bylook,word,orsign,encouragedamantoapproachher-thatshehadfeltherselfsufficienttoherself,andhadintheindependenceofhergirlishheartfanciedtherewasacertaindegradationinrenouncingthesimplicityofamaidenexistencetobecomethehumblerhalfofanindifferentmatrimonialwhole-werefactsnowbitterlyremembered。O,ifshehadneverstoopedtofollyofthiskind,respectableasitwas,andcouldonlystandagain,asshehadstoodonthehillatNorcombe,anddareTroyoranyothermantopolluteahairofherheadbyhisinterference!
  Thenextmorningsheroseearlierthanusual,andhadthehorsesaddledforherrideroundthefarminthecustomaryway。Whenshecameinathalf-pasteight-theirusualhourforbreakfasting-shewasinformedthatherhusbandhadrisen,takenhisbreakfast,anddrivenofftoCasterbridgewiththegigandPoppet。
  Afterbreakfastshewascoolandcollected-quiteherselfinfactandsherambledtothegate,intendingtowalktoanotherquarterofthefarm,whichshestillpersonallysuperintendedaswellasherdutiesinthehousewouldpermit,continually,however,findingherselfprecededinforethoughtbyGabrielOak,forwhomshebegantoentertainthegenuinefriendshipofasister。Ofcourse,shesometimesthoughtofhiminthelightofanoldlover,andhadmomentaryimaginingsofwhatlifewithhimasahusbandwouldhavebeenlike;alsooflifewithBoldwoodunderthesameconditions。
  ButBathsheba,thoughshecouldfeel,wasnotmuchgiventofutiledreaming,andhermusingsunderthisheadwereshortandentirelyconfinedtothetimeswhenTroy’sneglectwasmorethanordinarilyevident。
  ShesawcominguptheroadamanlikeMrBoldwood。ItwasMrBoldwood。
  Bathshebablushedpainfully,andwatched。Thefarmerstoppedwhenstillalongwayoff,andhelduphishandtoGabrielOak,whowasinafootpathacrossthefield。Thetwomenthenapproachedeachotherandseemedtoengageinearnestconversation。
  Thustheycontinuedforalongtime。JosephPoorgrassnowpassednearthem,wheelingabarrowofapplesupthehilltoBathsheba’sresidence。
  BoldwoodandGabrielcalledtohim,spoketohimforafewminutes,andthenallthreeparted,Josephimmediatelycomingupthehillwithhisbarrow。
  Bathsheba,whohadseenthispantomimewithsomesurprise,experiencedgreatreliefwhenBoldwoodturnedbackagain。`Well,what’sthemessage,Joseph?’shesaid。
  Hesetdownhisbarrow,and,puttinguponhimselftherefinedaspectthataconversationwithaladyrequired,spoketoBathshebaoverthegate。
  `You’llneverseeFannyRobinnomore-usenorprincipal-ma’am。’
  `Why?’
  `Becauseshe’sdeadintheUnion。`Fannydead-never!’
  `Yes,ma’am。’
  `Whatdidshediefrom?’
  `Idon’tknowforcertain;butIshouldbeinclinedtothinkitwasfromgeneralneshnessofconstitution。Shewassuchalimbermaidthat’acouldstandnohardship,evenwhenIknowedher,and’awentlikeacandle-snoff,so’tissaid。Shewastookbadinthemorning,and,beingquitefeebleandwornout,shediedintheevening。Shebelongsbylawtoourparish;andMrBoldwoodisgoingtosendawaggonatthreethisafternoontofetchherhomehereandburyher。’
  `IndeedIshallnotletMrBoldwooddoanysuchthing-Ishalldoit!
  Fannywasmyuncle’sservant,and,althoughIonlyknewherforacoupleofdays,shebelongstome。Howvery,verysadthisis!-theideaofFannybeinginaworkhouse。’Bathshebahadbeguntoknowwhatsufferingwas,andshespokewithrealfeeling……`SendacrosstoMrBoldwood’s,andsaythatMrsTroywilltakeuponherselfthedutyoffetchinganoldservantofthefamily。Weoughtnottoputherinawaggon;we’llgetahearse。’
  `Therewillhardlybetime,ma’am,willthere?’
  `Perhapsnot,’shesaid,musingly。`Whendidyousaywemustbeatthedoor-threeo’clock?’
  `Threeo’clockthisafternoon,ma’am,sotospeakit。’
  `Verywell-yougowithit。Aprettywaggonisbetterthananuglyhearse,afterall。Joseph,havethenewspringwaggonwiththebluebodyandredwheels,andwashitveryclean。And,Joseph——’
  `Yes,ma’am。’
  `Carrywithyousomeevergreensandflowerstoputuponhercoffin-
  indeed,gatheragreatmany,andcompletelyburyherinthem。Getsomeboughsoflaurustinus,andvariegatedbox,andyew,andboy’s-love;ay,andsomebunchesofchrysanthemum。AndletoldPleasantdrawher,becausesheknewhimsowell。’
  `Iwill,ma’am。IoughttohavesaidthattheUnion,intheformoffourlabouringmen,willmeetmewhenIgetstoourchurchyardgate,andtakeherandburyheraccordingtotheritesoftheBoardofGuardians,asbylawordained。’
  `Dearme-CasterbridgeUnion-andisFannycometothis?’saidBathsheba,musing。`IwishIhadknownofitsooner。Ithoughtshewasfaraway。Howlonghasshelivedthere?’
  `On’ybeenthereadayortwo。’
  `Oh!-thenshehasnotbeenstayingthereasaregularinmate?’
  `No。Shefirstwenttoliveinagarrison-townt’othersideo’Wessex,andsincethenshe’sbeenpickingupalivingatseampsteringinMelchesterforseveralmonths,atthehouseofaveryrespectablewidow-womanwhotakesinworkofthatsort。SheonlygothandytheUnion-houseonSundaymorning’ab’lieve,and’tissupposedhereandtherethatshehadtraipsedeverystepofthewayfromMelchester。WhysheleftherplaceIcan’tsay,forIdon’tknow;andastoalie,why,Iwouldn’ttellit。That’stheshortofthestory,ma’am。’
  `Ah-h!’
  Nogemeverflashedfromarosyraytoawhiteonemorerapidlythanchangedtheyoungwife’scountenancewhilstthiswordcamefromherinalong-drawnbreath。`Didshewalkalongourturnpike-road?’shesaid,inasuddenlyrestlessandeagervoice。
  `Ibelieveshedid……Ma’am,shallIcallLiddy?Youbain’twell,ma’am,surely?Youlooklikealily-sopaleandfainty!’
  `No;don’tcallher;itisnothing。WhendidshepassWeatherbury?’
  `LastSaturdaynight。’
  `Thatwilldo,Joseph;nowyoumaygo。’
  `Certainly,ma’am。’
  `Joseph,comehitheramoment。WhatwasthecolourofFannyRobin’shair?’
  `Really,mistress,nowthat’tisputtomesojudge-and-jurylike,I
  can’tcalltomind,ifye’llbelieveme!’
  `Nevermind;goonanddowhatItoldyou。Stop-well,no,goon。’
  Sheturnedherselfawayfromhim,thathemightnolongernoticethemoodwhichhadsetitssignsovisiblyuponher,andwentindoorswithadistressingsenseoffaintnessandabeatingbrow。Aboutanhourafter,sheheardthenoiseofthewaggonandwentout,stillwithapainfulconsciousnessofherbewilderedandtroubledlook’Joseph,dressedinhisbestsuitofclothes,wasputtinginthehorsetostart。Theshrubsandflowerswereallpiledinthewaggon,asshehaddirected。Bathshebahardlysawthemnow。
  `Whosesweetheartdidyousay,Joseph?’
  `Idon’tknow,ma’am。’
  `Areyouquitesure?’
  `Yes,ma’am,quitesure。’
  `Sureofwhat?’
  `I’msurethatallIknowisthatshearrivedinthemorninganddiedintheeveningwithoutfartherparley。WhatOakandMrBoldwoodtoldmewasonlythesefewwords“LittleFannyRobinisdead,Joseph。”Gabrielsaid,lookinginmyfaceinhissteadyoldway。Iwasverysorry,andI
  said,“Ah!-andhowdidshecometodie?““Well,she’sdeadinCasterbridgeUnion。”hesaid;“andperhaps’tisn’tmuchmatterabouthowshecametodie。ShereachedtheUnionearlySundaymorning,anddiedintheafternoon-that’sclearenough。”ThenIaskedwhatshe’dbeendoinglately,andMrBoldwoodturnedroundtomethen,andleftoffspittingathistlewiththeendofhisstick。HetoldmeaboutherhavinglivedbyseampsteringinMelchester,asImentionedtoyou,andthatshewalkedtherefromattheendoflastweek,passingnearhereSaturdaynightinthedusk。TheythensaidIhadbetterjustnameahentofherdeathtoyou,andawaytheywent。Herdeathmighthavebeenbroughtonbybidinginthenightwind,youknow,ma’am;forpeopleusedtosayshe’dgooffinadecline:sheusedtocoughagooddealinwintertime。However,’tisn’tmuchoddstousaboutthatnow,for’tisallover。’
  `Haveyouheardadifferentstoryatall?’ShelookedathimsointentlythatJoseph’seyesquailed。
  `Notaword,mistress,Iassure’ee!’hesaid。`Hardlyanybodyintheparishknowsthenewsyet。’
  `IwonderwhyGabrieldidn’tbringthemessagetomehimself。Hemostlymakesapointofseeingmeuponthemosttriflingerrand。’Thesewordsweremerelymurmured,andshewaslookingupontheground。
  `Perhapshewasbusy,ma’am,’Josephsuggested。`Andsometimesheseemstosufferfromthingsuponhismind,connectedwiththetimewhenhewasbetteroffthan’aisnow。’A’sratheracuriousitem,butaveryunderstandingshepherd,andlearnedinbooks。’
  `Didanythingseemuponhismindwhilsthewasspeakingtoyouaboutthis?’
  `Icannotbutsaythattheredid,ma’am。Hewasterribledown,andsowasFarmerBoldwood。’
  `Thankyou,Joseph。Thatwilldo。Goonnow,oryou’llbelate。’