NowOak,withmarvellousingenuity,hadbeengoingtointroducethegallantsergeantthroughthechannelof`badcharacters’。Butallatoncetheschemebrokedown,itsuddenlyoccurringtohimthatthiswasratheraclumsyway,andtoobarefacedtobeginwith。Hetriedanotherpreamble。
`Andasthemanwhowouldnaturallycometomeetyouisawayfromhome,too-ImeanFarmerBoldwood-why,thinksI,I’llgo,hesaid。
`Ah,yes。’Shewalkedonwithoutturningherhead,andformanystepsnothingfartherwasheardfromherquarterthantherustleofherdressagainsttheheavycorn-ears。Thensheresumedrathertartly——
`Idon’tquiteunderstandwhatyoumeantbysayingthatMrBoldwoodwouldnaturallycometomeetme。
`Imeantonaccountoftheweddingwhichtheysayislikelytotakeplacebetweenyouandhim,miss。Forgivemyspeakingplainly。’
`Theysaywhatisnottrue,’shereturnedquickly。`Nomarriageislikelytotakeplacebetweenus。’
Gabrielnowputforthhisunobscuredopinion,forthemomenthadcome。
`Well,MissEverdene,’hesaid,`puttingasidewhatpeoplesay,Ineverinmylifesawanycourtingifhisisnotacourtingofyou。’
Bathshebawouldprobablyhaveterminatedtheconversationthereandthenbyflatlyforbiddingthesubject,hadnotherconsciousweaknessofpositionalluredhertopalterandargueinendeavourstobetterit。
`Sincethissubjecthasbeenmentioned,’shesaidveryemphatically,`Iamgladoftheopportunityofclearingupamistakewhichiiverycommonandveryprovoking。Ididn’tdefinitelypromiseMrBoldwoodanything。I
havenevercaredforhim。Irespecthim,andhehasurgedmetomarryhim。
ButIhavegivenhimnodistinctanswer。AssoonashereturnsIshalldoso;andtheanswerwillbethatIcannotthinkofmarryinghim。’
`Peoplearefallofmistakes,seemingly。’
`Theyare。’
`Theotherdaytheysaidyouweretriflingwithhim,andyoualmostprovedthatyouwerenot;latelytheyhavesaidthatyoubenot,andyoustraightawaybegintoshow——’
`ThatIam,Isupposeyoumean。’
`Well,Ihopetheyspeakthetruth。’
`Theydo,butwronglyapplied。Idon’ttriflewithhim;butthen,I
havenothingtodowithhim。’
OakwasunfortunatelyledontospeakofBoldwood’srivalinawrongtonetoherafterall。`IwishyouhadnevermetthatyoungSergeantTroy,miss,’hesighed。
Bathsheba’sstepsbecamefaintlyspasmodic。`Why?’sheasked。
`Heisnotgoodenoughfor’ee。’
`Didanyonetellyoutospeaktomelikethis?’
`Nobodyatall。’
`ThenitappearstomethatSergeantTroydoesnotconcernushere,’
shesaidintractably。`YetImustsaythatSergeantTroyisaneducatedman,andquiteworthyofanywoman。Heiswellborn。’
`Hisbeinghigherinlearningandbirththantherucko’soldiersisanythingbutaproofofhisworth。Itshowshiscoursetobedown’ard。’
`Icannotseewhatthishastodowithourconversation。MrTroy’scourseisnotbyanymeansdownward;andhissuperiorityisaproofofhisworth!’
`Ibelievehimtohavenoconscienceatall。AndIcannothelpbeggingyou,miss,tohavenothingtodowithhim。Listentomethisonce-onlythisonce!Idon’tsayhe’ssuchabadmanasIhavefancied-IpraytoGodheisnot。Butsincewedon’texactlyknowwhatheis,whynotbehaveasifhemightbebad,simplyforyourownsafety?Don’ttrusthim,mistress;Iaskyounottotrusthimso。’
`Why,pray?’
`Ilikesoldiers,butthisoneIdonotlike,’hesaidsturdily。`Hisclevernessinhiscallingmayhavetemptedhimastray,andwhatismirthtotheneighboursisruintothewoman。Whenhetriestotalkto’eeagain,whynotturnawaywithashort“Goodday“;andwhenyouseehimcomingoneway,turntheother。Whenhesaysanythinglaughable,failtoseethepointanddon’tsmile,andspeakofhimbeforethosewhowillreportyourtalkas“thatfantasticalman“,or“thatSergeantWhat’s-his-name“,“Thatmanofafamilythathascometothedogs。”Don’tbeunmannerlytowardsen,butharmless-uncivil,andsogetridoftheman。
NoChristmasrobindetainedbyawindow-paneeverpulsedasdidBathshebanow。
`Isay-Isayagain-thatitdoesn’tbecomeyoutotalkabouthim。
Whyheshouldbementionedpassesmequite!’sheexclaimeddesperately。
`Iknowthis,th-th-thatheisathoroughlyconscientiousman-bluntsometimeseventorudeness-butalwaysspeakinghismindaboutyouplaintoyourface!’
`Oh。’
`Heisasgoodasanybodyinthisparish!Heisveryparticular,too,aboutgoingtochurch-yes,heis!’
Iamafeardnobodyeversawhimthere。Ineverdid,certainly。’
`Thereasonofthatis,’shesaideagerly,`thathegoesinprivatelybytheoldtowerdoor,justwhentheservicecommences,andsitsatthebackofthegallery。Hetoldmeso。’
ThissupremeinstanceofTroy’sgoodnessfelluponGabriel’searslikethethirteenthstrokeofacrazyclock。Itwasnotonlyreceivedwithutterincredulityasregardeditself,butthrewadoubtonalltheassurancesthathadprecededit。
Oakwasgrievedtofindhowentirelyshetrustedhim。Hebrimmedwithdeepfeelingasherepliedinasteadyvoice,thesteadinessofwhichwasspoiltbythepalpablenessofhisgreatefforttokeepitso:——
`Youknowmistress,thatIloveyou,andshallloveyoualways。IonlymentionthistobringtoyourmindthatatanyrateIwouldwishtodoyounoharm:beyondthatIputitaside。Ihavelostintheraceformoneyandgoodthings,andIamnotsuchafoolastopretendto’eenowIampoor,andyouhavegotaltogetheraboveme。ButBathsheba,dearmistress,thisIbegyoutoconsider-that,bothtokeepyourselfwellhonouredamongtheworkfolk,andincommongenerositytoanhonourablemanwholovesyouaswellasI,youshouldbemorediscreetinyourbearingtowardsthissoldier。’
`Don’t,don’t,don’t!’sheexclaimed,inachokingvoice。
`Areyenotmoretomethanmyownaffairs,andevenlife!’hewenton。`Come,listentome!Iamsixyearsolderthanyou,andMrBoldwoodistenyearsolderthanI,andconsider-Idobegof’eetoconsiderbeforeitistoolate-howsafeyouwouldbeinhishands!’
Oak’sallusiontohisownloveforherlessened,tosomeextent,herangerathisinterference;butshecouldnotreallyforgivehimforlettinghiswishtomarryherbeeclipsedbyhiswishtodohergood,anymorethanforhisslightingtreatmentofTroy。
`Iwishyoutogoelsewhere,’shecommanded,apalenessoffaceinvisibletotheeyebeingsuggestedbythetremblingwords。`Donotremainonthisfarmanylonger。Idon’twantyou-Ibegyoutogo!’
`That’snonsense,’saidOakcalmly。`Thisisthesecondtimeyouhavepretendedtodismissme;andwhat’stheuseo’it?’
`Pretended!Youshallgo,sir-yourlecturingIwillnothear!Iammistresshere。’
`Go,indeed-whatfollywillyousaynext?TreatingmelikeDick,TomandHarrywhenyouknowthatashorttimeagomypositionwasasgoodasyours!Uponmylife,Bathsheba,itistoobarefaced。Youknow,too,thatIcan’tgowithoutputtingthingsinsuchastraitasyouwouldn’tgetoutofIcan’ttellwhen。Unless,indeed,you’llpromisetohaveanunderstandingmanasbailiff,ormanager,orsomething。I’llgoatonceifyou’llpromisethat。’
`Ishallhavenobailiff,Ishallcontinuetobemyownmanager,’shesaiddecisively。
`Verywell,then;youshouldbethankfultomeforbiding。Howwouldthefarmgoonwithnobodytominditbutawoman?butmindthis,Idon’twish’eetofeelyouowemeanything。NotI。chatIdo,Ido。SometimesIsayIshouldbeasgladasabirdtoleavetheplace-fordon’tsupposeI’mcontenttobeanobody。Iwasmadeforbetterthings。However,Idon’tliketoseeyourconcernsgoingtoruin,astheymustifyoukeepinthismind……Ihatetakingmyownmeasuresoplain,but,uponmylife,yourprovokingwaysmakeamansaywhathewouldn’tdreamofatothertimes!
Iowntobeingratherinterfering。Butyouknowwellenoughhowitis,andwhosheisthatIliketoowell,andfeeltoomuchlikeafoolabouttobeciviltoher!’
Itismorethanprobablethatsheprivatelyandunconsciouslyrespectedhimalittleforthisgrimfidelity,whichhadbeenshowninhistoneevenmorethaninhiswords。Atanyrateshemurmuredsomethingtotheeffectthathemightstayifhewished。Shesaidmoredistinctly,`Willyouleavemealonenow?Idon’torderitasamistress-Iaskitasawoman,andIexpectyounottobesouncourteousastorefuse。’
`CertainlyIwill,MissEverdene,’saidGabrielgently。Hewonderedthattherequestshouldhavecomeatthismoment,forthestrifewasover,andtheywereonamostdesolatehill,farfromeveryhumanhabitation,andthehourwasgettinglate。Hestoodstillandallowedhertogetfaraheadofhimtillhecouldonlyseeherformuponthesky。
Adistressingexplanationofthisanxietytoberidofhimatthatpointnowensued。Afigureapparentlyrosefromtheearthbesideher。TheshapebeyondalldoubtwasTroy’s。Oakwouldnotbeevenapossiblelistener,andatonceturnedbacktillagoodtwohundredyardswerebetweentheloversandhimself。
Gabrielwenthomebywayofthechurchyard。Inpassingthetowerhethoughtofwhatshehadsaidaboutthesergeant’svirtuoushabitofenteringthechurchunperceivedatthebeginningofservice。Believingthatthelittlegallerydooralludedtowasquitedisused,heascendedtheexternalflightofstepsatthetopofwhichitstood,andexaminedit。Thepalelustreyethanginginthenorth-westernheavenwassufficienttoshowthatasprigofivyhadgrownfromthewallacrossthedoortoalengthofmorethanafoot,delicatelytyingthepaneltothestonejamb。ItwasadecisiveproofthatthedoorhadnotbeenopenedatleastsinceTroycamebacktoWeatherbury。
CHAPTERTHIRTYHotCheeksandTearfulEyesHalfanhourlaterBathshebaenteredherownhouse。Thereburntuponherfacewhenshemetthelightofthecandlestheflushandexcitementwhichwerelittlelessthanchronicwithhernow。ThefarewellwordsofTroy,whohadaccompaniedhertotheverydoor,stilllingeredinherears。Hehadbiddenheradieufortwodays,whichwere,sohestated,tobespentatBathinvisitingsomefriends。Hehadalsokissedherasecondtime。
ItisonlyfairtoBathshebatoexplainherealittlefactwhichdidnotcometolighttillalongtimeafterwards:thatTroy’spresentationofhimselfsoaptlyattheroadsidethiseveningwasnotbyanydistinctlypreconcertedarrangement。Hehadhinted-shehadforbidden;anditwasonlyonthechanceofhisstillcomingthatshehaddismissedOak,fearingameetingbetweenthemjustthen。
Shenowsankdownintoachair,wildandperturbedbyallthesenewandfeveringsequences。Thenshejumpedupwithamannerofdecision,andfetchedherdeskfromasidetable。
Inthreeminutes,withoutpauseormodification,shehadwrittenalettertoBoldwood,athisaddressbeyondCasterbridge,sayingmildlybutfirmlythatshehadwellconsideredthewholesubjecthehadbroughtbeforeherandkindlygivenhertimetodecideupon;thatherfinaldecisionwasthatshecouldnotmarryhim。ShehadexpressedtoOakanintentiontowaittillBoldwoodcamehomebeforecommunicatingtohimherconclusivereply。
ButBathshebafoundthatshecouldnotwait。
Itwasimpossibletosendthislettertillthenextday;yettoquellheruneasinessbygettingitoutofherhands,andso,asitwere,settingtheactinmotionatonce,shearosetotakeittoanyoneofthewomenwhomightbeinthekitchen。
Shepausedinthepassage。Adialoguewasgoingoninthekitchen,andBathshebaandTroywerethesubjectofit。
`Ifhemarryher,she’llgieupfarming。’
`’Twillbeagallantlife,butmaybringsometroublebetweenthemirth-sosayI。’
`Well,IwishIhadhalfsuchahusband。’
Bathshebahadtoomuchsensetomindseriouslywhatherservitorssaidabouther;buttoomuchwomanlyredundanceofspeechtoleavealonewhatwassaidtillitdiedthenaturaldeathofunmindedthings。Sheburstinuponthem。
`Whoareyouspeakingof?’sheasked。
Therewasapausebeforeanybodyreplied。AtlastLiddysaidfrankly,`Whatwaspassingwasabitofwordaboutyourself,miss。’
`Ithoughtso!MaryannandLiddyandTemperance-nowIforbidyoutosupposesuchthings。YouknowIdon’tcaretheleastforMrTroy-notI。EverybodyknowshowmuchIhatehim-Yes,’repeatedthefrowardyoungperson,`hatehim!’
`Weknowyoudo,miss,’saidLiddy;`andsodoweall。’
`Ihatehimtoo,’saidMaryann。
`Maryann-Oyouperjuredwoman!Howcanyouspeakthatwickedstory!’
saidBathshebaexcitedly`Youadmiredhimfromyourheartonlythismorningintheveryworld,youdid。Yes,Maryann,youknowit!’
`Yes,miss,butsodidyou。Heisawildscampnow,andyouarerighttohatehim。’
`He’snotawildscamp!Howdareyoutomyface!Ihavenorighttohatehim,noryou,noranybody。ButIamasillywoman!Whatisittomewhatheis?Youknowitisnothing。Idon’tcareforhim;Idon’tmeantodefendhisgoodname,notI。Mindthis,ifanyofyousayawordagainsthimyou’llbedismissedinstantly!’
Sheflungdowntheletterandsurgedbackintotheparlour,withabigheartandtearfuleyes,Liddyfollowingher。
`Omiss!’saidmildLiddy,lookingpitifullyintoBathsheba’sface。
`Iamsorrywemistookyouso!Ididthinkyoucaredforhim;butIseeyoudon’tnow。
`Shutthedoor,Liddy。’
Liddyclosedthedoor,andwenton:`Peoplealwayssaysuchfoolery,miss。I’llmakeanswerhencefor’ard,“OfcoursealadylikeMissEverdenecan’tlovehim“,I’llsayitoutinplainblackandwhite。’
Bathshebaburstout:`OLiddy,areyousuchasimpleton?Can’tyoureadriddles?Can’tyousee?Areyouawomanyourself?’
Liddy’scleareyesroundedwithwonderment。
`Yes,youmustbeablindthing,Liddy!’shesaidinrecklessabandonmentandgrief。`O,Ilovehimtoverydistractionandmiseryandagony!Don’tbefrightenedatme,thoughperhapsIamenoughtofrightenanyinnocentwoman。Comecloser-closer。’SheputherarmsroundLiddy’sneck。`Imustletitouttosomebody;itiswearingmeaway!Don’tyouyetknowenoughofmetoseethroughthatmiserabledenialofmine?OGod,whatalieitwas!Heavenandmyloveforgiveme。Anddon’tyouknowthatawomanwholovesatallthinksnothingofperjurywhenitisbalancedagainstherlove?There,gooutoftheroom;Iwanttobequitealone。’
Liddywenttowardsthedoor。
`Liddy,comehere。Solemnlysweartomethathe’snotafastman;thatitisallliestheysayabouthim!’
`But,miss,howcanIsayheisnotif——’
`Yougracelessgirl!Howcanyouhavethecruelhearttorepeatwhattheysay?Unfeelingthingthatyouare……ButI’llseeifyouoranybodyelseinthevillage,ortowneither,daredosuchathing!’Shestartedoffpacingfromfireplacetodoor,andbackagain。
`No,miss。Idon’t-Iknowitisnottrue!’saidLiddyfrightenedatBathsheba’sunwontedvehemence。
`Isupposeyouonlyagreewithmelikethattopleaseme。ButLiddy,hecannotbebad,asissaid。Doyouhear?’
`Yes,miss,yes。’
`Andyoudon’tbelieveheis?’
`Idon’tknowwhattosay,miss,’saidLiddy,beginningtocry。`IfIsayNo,youdon’tbelieveme;andifIsayYes,yourageatme!’
`Sayyoudon’tbelieveit-sayyoudon’t!’
`Idon’tbelievehimtobesobadastheymakeout。’
`Heisnotbadatall……Mypoorlifeandheart,howweakIam!’shemoaned,inarelaxed,desultoryway,heedlessofLiddy’spresence。`O,howIwishIhadneverseenhim!lovingismiseryforwomenalways。IshallneverforgiveGodformakingmeawoman,anddearlyamIbeginningtopayforthehonourofowningaprettyface。’ShefreshenedandturnedtoLiddysuddenly。`Mindthis,LydiaSmallbury,ifyourepeatanywhereasinglewordofwhatIhavesaidtoyouinsidethiscloseddoor,I’llnevertrustyou,orloveyou,orhaveyouwithmeamomentlonger-notamoment!’
`Idon’twanttorepeatanything,’saidLiddy,withwomanlydignityofadiminutiveorder;`butIdon’twishtostaywithyou。And,ifyouplease,I’llgoattheendoftheharvest,orthisweek,orto-day……I
don’tseethatIdeservetobeputuponandstormedatfornothing!’concludedthesmallwoman,bigly。
`No,no,Liddy;youmuststay!’saidBathsheba,droppingfromhaughtinesstoentreatywithcapriciousinconsequence。`Youmustnotnoticemybeinginatakingjustnow。Youarenotasaservant-youareacompaniontome。Dear,dear-Idon’tknowwhatIamdoingsincethismiserableacheo’myhearthasweightedandwornuponmeso!WhatshallIcometo!IsupposeIshallgetfartherandfartherintotroubles。IwondersometimesifI
amdoomedtodieintheUnion。Iamfriendlessenough,Godknows!’
`Iwon’tnoticeanything,norwillIleaveyou!’sobbedLiddy,impulsivelyputtingupherlipstoBathsheba’s,andkissingher。
ThenBathshebakissedLiddy,andallwassmoothagain。
`Idon’toftencry,doI,Lidd?butyouhavemadetearscomeintomyeyes,’shesaid,asmileshiningthroughthemoisture。`Trytothinkhimagoodman,won’tyou,dearLiddy?’
`Iwill,miss,indeed。’
`Heisasortofsteadymaninawildwayyouknow。That’sbetterthantobeassomeare,wildinasteadyway。Iamafraidthat’showIam。Andpromisemetokeepmysecret-do,Liddy!Anddonotletthemknow`thatIhavebeencryingabouthim,becauseitwillbedreadfulforme,andnogoodtohim,poorthing!’
`Death’sheadhimselfshan’twringitfromme,mistress,ifI’veamindtokeepanything;andI’llalwaysbeyourfriend,’repliedLiddyemphatically,atthesametimebringingafewmoretearsintoherowneyes,notfromanyparticularnecessity,butfromanartisticsenseofmakingherselfinkeepingwiththeremainderofthepicture,whichseemstoinfluencewomenatsuchtimes。`IthinkGodlikesustobegoodfriends,don’tyou?’
`IndeedIdo。’
`And,dearmiss,youwon’tharrymeandstormatme,willyou?becauseyouseemtoswellsotallasalionthen,anditfrightensme!Doyouknow,Ifancyyouwouldbeamatchforanymanwhenyouareinoneofyourtakings。’
`Never!doyou?’saidBathsheba,slightlylaughing,thoughsomewhatseriouslyalarmedbythisAmazonianpictureofherself。`IhopeIamnotaboldsortofmaid-mannish?’shecontinuedwithsomeanxiety。
`Ono,notmannish;butsoalmightywomanish,that’tisgettingonthatwaysometimes。Ah!miss,’shesaid,afterhavingdrawnherbreathverysadlyinandsentitverysadlyout,`IwishIhadhalfyourfailingthatway。’Tisagreatprotectiontoapoormaidintheseillegit’matedays!’
CHAPTERTHIRTY-ONEBlame-FuryThenexteveningBathsheba,withtheideaofgettingoutofthewayofMrBoldwoodintheeventofhisreturningtoanswerhernoteinperson,proceededtofulfilanengagementmadewithLiddysomefewhoursearlier。
Bathsheba’scompanion,asagageoftheirreconciliation,hadbeengrantedaweek’sholidaytovisithersister,whowasmarriedtoathrivinghurdlerandcattle-crib-makerlivinginadelightfullabyrinthofhazelcopsenotfarbeyondYalbury。ThearrangementwasthatMissEverdeneshouldhonourthembycomingthereforadayortwotoinspectsomeingeniouscontrivanceswhichthismanofthewoodshadintroducedintohiswares。
LeavingherinstructionswithGabrielandMaryann,thattheyweretoseeeverythingcarefullylockedupforthenight,shewentoutofthehousejustatthecloseofatimelythunder-shower,whichhadrefinedtheair,anddaintilybathedthecoatoftheland,thoughallbeneathwasdryasever。Freshnesswasexhaledinanessencefromthevariedcontoursofbankandhollow,asiftheearthbreathedmaidenbreathandthepleasedbirdswerehymningtothescene。Beforeher,amongtheclouds,therewasacontrastintheshapeoflairsoffiercelightwhichshowedthemselvesintheneighbourhoodofahiddensun,lingeringontothefarthestnorth-westcorneroftheheavensthatthismidsummerseasonallowed。
Shehadwalkednearlytwomilesofherjourney,watchinghowthedaywasretreating,andthinkinghowthetimeofdeedswasquietlymeltingintothetimeofthought,togiveplaceinitsturntothetimeofprayerandsleep,whenshebeheldadvancingoverYalburyhilltheverymanshesoughtsoanxiouslytoelude。Boldwoodwassteppingon,notwiththatquiettreadofreservedstrengthwhichwashiscustomarygait,inwhichhealwaysseemedtobebalancingtwothoughts。Hismannerwasstunnedandsluggishnow。
Boldwoodhadforthefirsttimebeenawakenedtowoman’sprivilegesintergiversationevenwhenitinvolvesanotherperson’spossibleblight。
ThatBathshebawasafirmandpositivegirl,farlessinconsequentthanherfellows,hadbeentheverylungofhishope;forhehadheldthatthesequalitieswouldleadhertoadheretoastraightcourseforconsistency’ssake,andaccepthim,thoughherfancymightnotfloodhimwiththeiridescenthuesofuncriticallove。Buttheargumentnowcamebackassorrygleamsfromabrokenmirror。Thediscoverywasnolessascourgethanasurprise。
Hecameonlookingupontheground,anddidnotsecBathshebatilltheywerelessthanastone’sthrowapart。Helookedupatthesoundofherpit-pat,andhischangedappearancesufficientlydenotedtoherthedepthandstrengthofthefeelingsparalyzedbyherletter。
`Oh;isityou,MrBoldwood?’shefaltered,aguiltywarmthpulsinginherface。
Thosewhohavethepowerofreproachinginsilencemayfinditameansmoreeffectivethanwords。Thereareaccentsintheeyewhicharenotonthetongue,andmoretalescomefrompalelipsthancanenteranear。Itisboththegrandeurandthepainoftheremotermoodsthattheyavoidthepathwayofsound。Boldwood’slookwasunanswerable。
Seeingsheturnedalittleaside,hesaid,`What,areyouafraidofme?’
`Whyshouldyousaythat?’saidBathsheba。
`Ifanciedyoulookedso,’saidhe。`Anditismoststrange,becauseofitscontrastwithmyfeelingforyou。’
Sheregainedself-possession,fixedhereyescalmly,andwaited。
`Youknowwhatthatfeelingis,’continuedBoldwooddeliberately。`A
thingstrongasdeath。Nodismissalbyahastyletteraffectsthat。’
`Iwishyoudidnotfeelsostronglyaboutme,’shemurmured。`Itisgenerousofyou,andmorethanIdeserve,butImustnothearitnow。’
`Hearit?WhatdoyouthinkIhavetosay,then?Iamnottomarryyou,andthat’senough。Yourletterwasexcellentlyplain。Iwantyoutohearnothing-notI。’
Bathshebawasunabletodirectherwillintoanydefinitegrooveforfreeingherselffromthisfearfullyawkwardposition。Sheconfusedlysaid,`Goodevening,’andwasmovingon。Boldwoodwalkeduptoherheavilyanddully。
`Bathsheba-darling-isitfinalindeed?’
`Indeeditis。’
`OBathsheba-havepityuponme!’Boldwoodburstout。`God’ssake,yes-Iamcometothatlow,loweststage-toaskawomanforpity!Still,sheisyou-sheisyou。’
Bathshebacommandedherselfwell。Butshecouldhardlygetaclearvoiceforwhatcameinstinctivelytoherlips:`Thereislittlehonourtothewomaninthatspeech。’Itwasonlywhispered,forsomethingunutterablymournfulnolessthandistressinginthisspectacleofamanshowinghimselftobesoentirelythevaneofapassionenervatedthefeminineinstinctforpunctilios。
`Iambeyondmyselfaboutthis,andammad,’hesaid。`Iamnostoicatalltobesupplicatinghere;butIdosupplicatetoyou。Iwishyouknewwhatisinmeofdevotiontoyou;butitisimpossible,that。Inbarehumanmercytoalonelyman,don’tthrowmeoffnow!’
`Idon’tthrowyouoff-indeed,howcanI?Ineverhadyou。’Inhernoon-clearsensethatshehadneverlovedhimsheforgotforamomentherthoughtlessangleonthatdayinFebruary。
`Buttherewasatimewhenyouturnedtome,beforeIthoughtofyou!
Idon’treproachyou,forevennowIfeelthattheignorantandcolddarknessthatIshouldhavelivedinifyouhadnotattractedmebythatletter-valentineyoucallit-wouldhavebeenworsethanmyknowledgeofyou,thoughithasbroughtthismisery。But,Isay,therewasatimewhenI
knewnothingofyou,andcarednothingforyou,andyetyoudrewmeon。
Andifyousayyougavemenoencouragement,Icannotbutcontradictyou。’
`Whatyoucallencouragementwasthechildishgameofanidleminute。
Ihavebitterlyrepentedofit-ay,bitterly,andintears。Canyoustillgoonremindingme?’
`Idon’taccuseyouofit-Ideploreit。Itookforearnestwhatyouinsistwasjest,andnowthisthatIpraytobejestyousayisawful,wretchedearnest。Ourmoodsmeetatwrongplaces。Iwishyourfeelingwasmorelikemine,ormyfeelingmorelikeyours!O,couldIbuthaveforeseenthetorturethattriflingtrickwasgoingtoleadmeinto,howIshouldhavecursedyou;butonlyhavingbeenabletoseeitsince,Icannotdothat,forIloveyoutoowell!Butitisweak,idledrivellingtogoonlikethis……Bathsheba,youarethefirstwomanofanyshadeornaturethatIhaveeverlookedattolove,anditisthehavingbeensonearclaimingyouformyownthatmakesthisdenialsohardtobear。Hownearlyyoupromisedme!ButIdon’tspeaknowtomoveyourheart,andmakeyougrievebecauseofmypain;itisnouse,that。Imustbearit;mypainwouldgetnolessbypainingyou。’
`ButIdopityyou-deeply-O,sodeeply!’sheearnestlysaid。
`Donosuchthing-donosuchthing。Yourdearlove,Bathsheba,issuchavastthingbesideyourpity,thatthelossofyourpityaswellasyourloveisnogreatadditiontomysorrow,nordoesthegainofyourpitymakeitsensiblyless。Osweet-howdearlyyouspoketomebehindthespear-bedatthewashing-pool,andinthebarnattheshearing,andthatdearestlasttimeintheeveningatyourhome!Whereareyourpleasantwordsallgone-yourearnesthopetobeabletoloveme?Whereisyourfirmconvictionthatyouwouldgettocareformeverymuch?Reallyforgotten?-
really?’
Shecheckedemotion,lookedhimquietlyandclearlyintheface,andsaidinherlow,firmvoice,`MrBoldwood,Ipromisedyounothing。Wouldyouhavehadmeawomanofclaywhenyoupaidmethatfarthest,highestcomplimentamancanpayawoman-tellingherhelovesher?Iwasboundtoshowsomefeeling,ifIwouldnotbeagracelessshrew。Yeteachofthosepleasureswasjustfortheday-thedayjustforthepleasure。HowwasItoknowthatwhatisapastimetoallothermenwasdeathtoyou?
Havereason,do,andthinkmorekindlyofme!’
`Well,nevermindarguing-nevermind。Onethingissure:youwereallbutmine,andnowyouarenotnearlymine。Everythingischanged,andthatbyyoualone,remember。Youwerenothingtomeonce,andIwascontented;
youarenownothingtomeagain,andhowdifferentthesecondnothingisfromthefirst!WouldtoGodyouhadnevertakenmeup,sinceitwasonlytothrowmedown!’
Bathsheba,inspiteofhermettle,begantofeelunmistakablesignsthatshewasinherentlytheweakervessel。Shestrovemiserablyagainstthisfemininitywhichwouldinsistuponsupplyingunbiddenemotionsinstrongerandstrongercurrent。Shehadtriedtoeludeagitationbyfiringhermindonthetrees,sky,anytrivialobjectbeforehereyes,whilsthisreproachesfell,butingenuitycouldnotsavehernow。
`Ididnottakeyouup-surelyIdidnot!’sheansweredasheroicallyasshecould。`Butdon’tbeinthismoodwithme。IcanendurebeingtoldIaminthewrong,ifyouwillonlytellitmegently!Osir,willyounotkindlyforgiveme,andlookatitcheerfully?’
`Cheerfully!Canamanfooledtoutterheart-burningfindareasonforbeingmerry?IfIhavelost,howcanIbeasifIhadwon?Heavens,youmustbeheartlessquite!HadIknownwhatafearfullybittersweetthiswastobe,howIwouldhaveavoidedyou,andneverseenyou,andbeendeaftoyou。Itellyouallthis,butwhatdoyoucare!Youdon’tcare。’
Shereturnedsilentandweakdenialstohischarges,andswayedherheaddesperately,asiftothrustawaythewordsastheycameshoweringaboutherearsfromthelipsofthetremblingmanintheclimaxoflife,withhisbronzedI“omanfaceandfineframe。
`Dearest,dearest,Iamwaveringevennowbetweenthetwooppositesofrecklesslyrenouncingyou,andlabouringhumblyforyouagain。ForgetthatyouhavesaidNo,andletitbeasitwas!Say,Bathsheba,thatyouonlywrotethatrefusaltomeinfan-come,sayittome!’
`Itwouldbeuntrue,andpainfultobothofus。Youoverratemycapacityforlove。Idon’tpossesshalfthewarmthofnatureyoubelievemetohave。
Anunprotectedchildhoodinacoldworldhasbeatengentlenessoutofme。’
Heimmediatelysaidwithmoreresentment:`Thatmaybetrue,somewhat;
butah,MissEverdene,itwon’tdoasareason!Youarenotthecoldwomanyouwouldhavemebelieve。No,no!Itisn’tbecauseyouhavenofeelinginyouthatyoudon’tloveme。Younaturallywouldhavemethinkso-youwouldhidefrommethatyouhaveaburningheartlikemine。Youhaveloveenough,butitisturnedintoanewchannel。Iknowwhere。’
Theswiftmusicofherheartbecamehubbubnow,andshethrobbedtoextremity。HewascomingtoTroy。Hedidthenknowwhathadoccurred!Andthenamefellfromhislipsthenextmoment。
`WhydidTroynotleavemytreasurealone?’heaskedfiercely。`WhenIhadnothoughtofinjuringhim,whydidheforcehimselfuponyournotice!
Beforeheworriedyouyourinclinationwastohaveme;whennextIshouldhavecometoyouyouranswerwouldhavebeenYes。Canyoudenyit-Iask,canyoudenyit?’
Shedelayedthereply,butwastoohonesttowithholdit。`Icannot,’
shewhispered。
`Iknowyoucannot。Buthestoleininmyabsenceandrobbedme。Whydidn’thewinyouawaybefore,whennobodywouldhavebeengrieved?-whennobodywouldhavebeensettale-bearing。Nowthepeoplesneeratme-theveryhillsandskyseemtolaughatmetillIblushshamefullyformyfolly。
Ihavelostmyrespect,mygoodname,mystanding-lostit,nevertogetitagain。Goandmarryyourman-goon!’
`Osir-MrBoldwood!’
`Youmayaswell。Ihavenofartherclaimuponyou。Asforme,Ihadbettergosomewherealone,andhide-andpray。Ilovedawomanonce。I
amnowashamed。WhenIamdeadthey’llsay,Miserablelove-sickmanthathewas。Heaven-heaven-ifIhadgotjiltedsecretly,andthedishonournotknown,andmypositionkept!Butnomatter,itisgone,andthewomannotgained。Shameuponhim-shame!’
Hisunreasonableangerterrifiedher,andsheglidedfromhim,withoutobviouslymoving,asshesaid,`Iamonlyagirl-donotspeaktomeso!’
`Allthetimeyouknew-howverywellyouknew-thatyournewfreakwasmymisery。Dazzledbybrassandscarlet-O,Bathsheba-thisiswoman’sfollyindeed!’
Shefiredupatonce。`Youaretakingtoomuchuponyourself!’shesaidvehemently。`Everybodyisuponme-everybody。Itisunmanlytoattackawomanso!Ihavenobodyintheworldtofightmybattlesforme;butnomercyisshown。Yetifathousandofyousneerandsaythingsagainstme,Iwillnotbeputdown!’
`You’llchatterwithhimdoubtlessaboutme。Saytohim,“Boldwoodwouldhavediedforme。”Yes,andyouhavegivenwaytohim,knowinghimtobenotthemanforyou。Hehaskissedyou-claimedyouashis。Doyouhear-hehaskissedyou。Denyit!’
Themosttragicwomaniscowedbyatragicman,andalthoughBoldwoodwas,invehemenceandglow,nearlyherownselfrenderedintoanothersex,Bathsheba’scheekquivered。Shegasped,`Leaveme,sir-leaveme!Iamnothingtoyou。Letmegoon!’
`Denythathehaskissedyou。’
`Ishallnot。’
`Ha-thenhehas!’camehoarselyfromthefarmer。
`Hehas,’shesaidslowly,and,inspiteofherfear,defiantly,`I
amnotashamedtospeakthetruth。’
`Thencursehim;andcursehim!’saidBoldwood,breakingintoawhisperedfury。`WhilstIwouldhavegivenworldstotouchyourhand,youhaveletarakecomeinwithoutrightorceremonyand-Kissyou!Heaven’smercy-kissyou!……Ah,atimeofhislifeshallcomewhenhewillhavetorepent,andthinkwretchedlyofthepainhehascausedanotherman;andthenmayheache,andwish,andcurse,andyearn-asIdonow!’
`Don’t,don’t,O,don’tpraydowneviluponhim!’sheimploredinamiserablecry。`Anythingbutthat-anything。O,beKindtohim,sir,forIlovehimtrue!’
Boldwood’sideashadreachedthatpointoffusionatwhichoutlineandconsistencyentirelydisappear。Theimpendingnightappearedtoconcentrateinhiseye。Hedidnothearheratallnow。
`I’llpunishhim-bymysoul,thatwillI!I’llmeethim,soldierorno,andI’llhorsewhiptheuntimelystriplingforhisrecklesstheftofmyonedelight。IfhewereahundredmenI’dhorsewhiphim——’Hedroppedhisvoicesuddenlyandunnaturally。`Bathsheba,sweet,lostcoquette,pardonme!I’vebeenblamingyou,threateningyou,behavinglikeachurltoyou,whenhe’sthegreatestsinner。Hestoleyourdearheartawaywithhisunfathomablelies!……Itisafortunatethingforhimthathe’sgonebacktohisregiment-thathe’sawayupthecountry,andnothere!Ihopehemaynotreturnherejustyet。IprayGodhemaynotcomeintomysight,forImaybetemptedbeyondmyself。O,Bathsheba,keephimaway-yes,keephimawayfromme!’
ForamomentBoldwoodstoodsoinertlyafterthisthathissoulseemedtohavebeenentirelyexhaledwiththebreathofhispassionatewords。
Heturnedhisfaceaway,andwithdrew,andhisformwassooncoveredoverbythetwilightashisfootstepsmixedinwiththelowhissoftheleadtrees。
Bathsheba,whohadbeenstandingmotionlessasamodelallthislattertime,flungherhandstoherface,andwildlyattemptedtoponderontheexhibitionwhichhadjustpassedaway。SuchastoundingwellsoffeveredfeelinginastillmanlikeMrBoldwoodwereincomprehensible,dreadful。
Insteadofbeingamantrainedtorepressionhewas-whatshehadseenhim。
Theforceofthefarmer’sthreatslayintheirrelationtoacircumstanceknownatpresentonlytoherself;herloverwascomingbacktoWeatherburyinthecourseoftheverynextdayortwo。TroyhadnotreturnedtohisdistantbarracksasBoldwoodandotherssupposed,buthadmerelygonetovisitsomeacquaintanceinBath,andhadyetaweekormoreremainingtohisfurlough。
Shefeltwretchedlycertainthatifherevisitedherjustatthisnickoftime,andcameintocontactwithBoldwood,afiercequarrelwouldbetheconsequence。ShepantedwithsolicitudewhenshethoughtofpossibleinjurytoTroy。Theleastsparkwouldkindlethefarmer’sswiftfeelingsofrageandjealousy;hewouldlosehisself-masteryashehadthisevening;
Troy’sblithenessmightbecomeaggressive;itmighttakethedirectionofderision,andBoldwood’sangermightthantakethedirectionofrevenge。
Withalmostamorbiddreadofbeingthoughtagushinggirl,thisguidelesswomantoowellconcealedfromtheworldunderamannerofcarelessnessthewarmdepthsofherstrongemotions。Butnowtherewasnoreserve。Inherdistraction,insteadofadvancingfurthershewalkedupanddown,beatingtheairwithherfingers,pressingherbrow,andsobbingbrokenlytoherself。
Thenshesatdownonaheapofstonesbythewaysidetothink。Theresheremainedlong。Abovethedakmarginoftheearthappearedforeshoresandpromontoriesofcopperycloud,boundingagreenandpellucidexpanseinthewesternsky。Amaranthineglossescameoverthemthen,andtheunrestingworldwheeledherroundtoacontrastingprospecteastward,intheshapeofindecisiveandpalpitatingstart。Shegazedupontheirsilentthroesamidtheshadesofspace,butrealizednoneatall。HertroubledspiritwasfarawaywithTroy。
CHAPTERTHIRTY-TWONight-HorsestrampingThevillageofWeatherburywasquietasthegraveyardinitsmidst,andthelivingwerelyingwellnighasstillasthedead。Thechurchclockstruckeleven。Theairwassoemptyofothersoundsthatthewhirroftheclock-workimmediatelybeforethestrokeswasdistinct,andsowasalsotheclickofthesameattheirclose。Thenotesflewforthwiththeusualblindobtusenessofinanimatethings-flappingandreboundingamongwalls,undulatingagainstthescatteredclouds,spreadingthroughtheirintersticesintounexploredmilesofspace。
Bathsheba’scranniedandmouldyhallswereto-nightoccupiedonlybyMaryann,Liddybeing,aswasstated,withhersister,whomBathshebahadsetouttovisit。Afewminutesafterelevenhadstruck,Maryannturnedinherbedwithasenseofbeingdisturbed。Shewastotallyunconsciousofthenatureoftheinterruptiontohersleep。Itledtoadream,andthedreamtoanawakening,withanuneasysensationthatsomethinghadhappened。Sheleftherbedandlikedoutofthewindow。Thepaddockabuttedonthisendofthebuilding,andinthepaddockshecouldjustdiscernbytheuncertaingrayamovingfigureapproachingthehorsethatwasfeedingthere。Thefigureseizedthehorsebytheforelock,andledittothecomerofthefield。Hereshecouldseesomeobjectwhichcircumstancesprovedtobeavehicle,forafterafewminutesspentapparentlyinharnessing,sheheardthetrotofthehorsedowntheroad,mingledwiththesoundoflightwheels。
Twovarietiesonlyofhumanitycouldhaveenteredthepaddockwiththeghost-likeglideofthatmysteriousfigure。Theywereawomanandagipsyman。Awomanwasoutofthequestioninsuchanoccupationatthishour,andthecomercouldbenolessthanathief,whomightprobablyhaveknowntheweaknessofthehouseholdonthisparticularnight,andhavechosenitonthataccountforhisdaringattempt。Moreover,toraisesuspiciontoconvictionitself,thereweregipsiesinWeatherburyBottom。
Maryann,whohadbeenafraidtoshoutintherobber’spresence,havingseenhimdeparthadnofear。Shehastilyslippedonherclothes,stumpeddownthedisjointedstaircasewithitshundredcreaks,rantoCoggan’s,thenearesthouse,andraisedanalarm。CoggancalledGabriel,whonowagainlodgedinhishouseasatfirst,andtogethertheywenttothepaddock。
Beyondalldoubtthehorsewasgone。
`Hark!’saidGabriel。
Theylistened。DistinctuponthestagnantaircamethesoundsofatrottinghorsepassingupLongpuddleLane-justblondthegipsies’encampmentinWeatherburyBottom。
`That’sourDainty-I’llsweartoherstep,’saidJan。
`Mightyme!Won’tmis’essstormandcallusstupidswhenshecomesback!’
moanedMaryann。`HowIwishithadhappenedwhenshewasathome,andnoneofushadbeenanswerable!’
`Wemustrideafter,’saidGabrieldecisively。`I’llberesponsibletoMissEvendeneforwhatwedo。Yes,we’llfollow。’
`Faith,Idon’tseehow,’saidCoggan。`Allourhors’saretooheavyforthattrickexceptlittlePoppet,andwhat’sshebetweentwoofus?-
Ifweonlyhadthatpairoverthehedgewemightdosomething。’
`Whichpair?’
`MrBoldwood’sTidyandMoll。’
`ThenwaitheretillIcomehitheragain,’saidGabriel。HerandownthehilltowardsFarmerBoldwood’s。
`FarmerBoldwoodisnotathome,’saidMaryann。
`Allthebetter,’saidCoggan。`Iknowwhathe’sgonefor。’
LessthanfiveminutesbroughtupOakagain,runningatthesamepace,withtwohaltersdanglingfromhishand。
`Wheredidyoufind`em?’saidCoggan,turningroundandleapinguponthehedgewithoutwaitingforananswer。
`Undertheeaves。Iknewwheretheywerekept,’saidGabriel,followinghim。`Coggan,youcanridebare-backed?there’snotimetolookforsaddles。’
`Likeahero!’saidJan。
`Maryann,yougotobed,’Gabrielshoutedtoherfromthetopofthehedge。
SpringingdownintoBoldwood’spastures,eachpocketedhishaltertohideitfromthehorses,who,seeingthemenempty-handed,docilelyallowedthemselvestobeseizedbythemane,whenthehaltersweredexterouslyslippedon。Havingneitherbitnorbridle,OakandCogganextemporizedtheformerbypassingtheropeineachcasethroughtheanimal’smouthandloopingitontheotherside。Oakvaultedastride,andCogganclamberedupbyaidofthebank,whentheyascendedtothegateandgallopedoffinthedirectiontakenbyBathsheba’shorseandtherobber。Whosevehiclethehorsehadbeenharnessedtowasamatterofsomeuncertainty。
WeatherburyBottomwasreachedinthreeorfourminutes。Theyscannedtheshadygreenpatchbytheroadside。Thegipsiesweregone。
`Thevillains!’saidGabriel。`Whichwayhavetheygone,Iwonder?’
`Straighton,assureasGodmadelittleapples,’saidJan。
`Verywell;wearebettermounted,andmustovertake`era,’saidOak。
`Nowonatfallspeed!’
Nosoundoftheriderintheirvancouldnowbediscovered。Theroad-metalgrewsofterandmoreclayeyasWeatherburywasleftbehind,andthelaterainhadwetteditssurfacetoasomewhatplastic,butnotmuddystate。
Theycametocross-roads。CoggansuddenlypulledupMollandslippedoff。
`What’sthematter?’saidGabriel。
`Wemusttrytotrack`era,sincewecan’thear’em,’saidJan,fumblinginhispockets。Hestruckalight,andheldthematchtotheground。Therainhadbeenheavierhere,andallfootandhorsetracksmadeprevioustothestormhadbeenabradedandblurredbythedrops,andtheywerenowsomanylittlescoopsofwater,whichreflectedtheflameofthematchlikeeyes。Onesetoftrackswasfreshandhadnowaterinthem;onepairofrutswasalsoempty,andnotsmallcanals,liketheothers。Thefootprintsformingthisrecentimpressionwerefallofinformationastopace;theywereinequidistantpairs,threeorfourfeetapart,therightandleftfootofeachpairbeingexactlyoppositeoneanother。
`Straighton!’Janexclaimed。`Trackslikethatmeanastiffgallop。
Nowonderwedon’thearhim。Andthehorseisharnessed-lookattheruts。
Ay,that’sourmare,sureenough!’
`Howdoyouknow?’
`OldJimmyHarrisonlyshoedherlastweek,andI’dsweartohismakeamongtenthousand。’
`Therestofthegipsiesmustha’goneonearlier,orsomeotherway,’
saidOak。`Yousawtherewerenoothertracks?’
`True。’Theyrodealongsilentlyforalongwearytime。Coggancarriedanoldpinchbeckrepeaterwhichhehadinheritedfromsomegeniusinhisfamily;anditnowstruckone。Helightedanothermatch,andexaminedthegroundagain。
`’Tisacanternow,’hesaid,throwingawaythelight。`Atwisty,ricketypaceforagig。Thefactis,theyoverdroveheratstarting;weshallcatch`emyet。
Againtheyhastenedon,andenteredBlackmoreVale。Coggan’swatchstrucktwo。Whentheylookedagainthehoof-marksweresospacedastoformasortofzigzagifunited,likethelampsalongastreet。
`That’satrot,Iknow,’saidGabriel。
`Onlyatrotnow,’saidCoggancheerfully。`Weshallovertakehimintime。’
Theypushedrapidlyonforyettwoorthreemiles。`Ah!amoment,’saidJan。`Let’sseehowshewasdrivenupthishill。`Twillhelpus。’Alightwaspromptlystruckuponhisgaitersasbefore,andtheexaminationmade。
`Hurrah!’saidCoggan。`Shewalkeduphere-andwellshemight。Weshallgetthemintwomiles,foracrown。
Theyrodethree,andlistened。Nosoundwastobeheardsaveamillpondtricklinghoarselythroughahatch,andsuggestinggloomypossibilitiesofdrowningbyjumpingin。Gabrieldismountedwhentheycametoaturning。
Thetrackswereabsolutelytheonlyguideastothedirectionthattheynowhad,andgreatcautionwasnecessarytoavoidconfusingthemwithsomeotherswhichhadmadetheirappearancelately。
`Whatdoesthismean?-thoughIguess,’saidGabriel,lookingupatCogganashemovedthematchoverthegroundabouttheturning。Coggan,who,nolessthanthepantinghorses,hadlatterlyshownsignsofweariness,againscrutinizedthemysticcharacters。Thistimeonlythreewereoftheregularhorseshoeshape。Everyfourthwasadot。
Hescreweduphisface,andemittedalong`whew-w-w!’
`Lame,’saidOak。
`Yes。Daintyislamed;thenear-foot-afore,’saidCogganslowlystaringstillatthefootprints。
`We’llpushon,’saidGabriel,remountinghishumidsteed。
Althoughtheroadalongitsgreaterparthadbeenasgoodasanyturnpike-roadinthecountry,itwasnominallyonlyabyway。ThelastturninghadbroughtthemintothehighroadleadingtoBath。Cogganrecollectedhimself。
`Weshallhavehimnow!’heexclaimed。
`Where?’
`ShertonTurnpike。Thekeeperofthatgateisthesleepiestmanbetweenhereandlondon-DanRandall,that’shisname-knowedenforyears,whenhewasatCasterbridgegate。Betweenthelamenessaidthegate’tisadonejob。’
Theynowadvancedwithextremecaution。Nothingwassaiduntil,againstashadybackgroundoffoliage,fivewhitebarswerevisible,crossingtheirroutealittlewayahead。
`Hush-wearealmostclose!’saidGabriel。
`Ambleonuponthegrass,’saidCoggan。
Thewhitebarswereblottedoutinthemidstbyadarkshapeinfrontofthem。Thesilenceofthislonelytimewaspiercedbyanexclamationfromthatquarter。
`Hoy-a-hoy!Gate!’
Itappearedthattherehadbeenapreviouscallwhichtheyhadnotnoticed,forontheircloseapproachthedooroftheturnpike-houseopened,andthekeepercameouthalf-dressed,withacandleinhishand。Theraysilluminedthewholegroup。
`Keepthegateclose!’shoutedGabriel。`Hehasstolenthehorse!’
`Who?’saidtheturnpike-man。
Gabriellookedatthedriverofthegig,andsawawoman-Bathsheba,hismistress。
Onhearinghisvoiceshehadturnedherfaceawayfromthelight。Cogganhad,however,caughtsightofherinthemeanwhile。
`Why,’tismistress-I’lltakemyoath!’hesaid,amazed。
Bathshebaitcertainlywas,andshehadbythistimedonethetrickshecoulddosowellincrisesnotoflove,namely,maskasurprisebycoolnessofmanner。
`Well,Gabriel,’sheinquiredquietly,`whereareyougoing?’
`Wethought——’beganGabriel。
`IamdrivingtoBath,’shesaid,takingforherownusetheassurancethatGabriellacked。`AnimportantmattermadeitnecessaryformetogiveupmyvisittoLiddy,andgooffatonce。What,then,wereyoufollowingme?’
`Wethoughtthehorsewasstole。’
`Well-whatathing!HowveryfoolishofyounottoknowthatIhadtakenthetrapandhorse。IcouldneitherwakeMaryannnorgetintothehouse,thoughIhammeredfortenminutesagainstherwindow-sill。
Fortunately,Icouldgetthekeyofthecoach-house,soItroublednoonefarther。Didn’tyouthinkitmightbeme?’
`Whyshouldwe,miss?’
`Perhapsnot。Why,thoseareneverFarmerBoldwood’shorses!Goodnessmerry!whathaveyoubeendoing-bringingtroubleuponmeinthisway?
What!mustn’taladymoveaninchfromherdoorwithoutbeingdoggedlikeathief?’
`Buthowwaswetoknow,ifyouleftnoaccountofyourdoings?’expostulatedCoggan,`andladiesdon’tdriveatthesehours,miss,asajineralruleofsociety。
`Ididleaveanaccount-andyouwouldhaveseenitinthemorning。
Iwroteinchalkonthecoach-housedoorsthatIhadcomebackforthehorseandgig,anddrivenoff;thatIcouldarousenobody,andshouldreturnsoon。
`Butyou’llconsider,ma’am,thatwecouldn’tseethattillitgotdaylight。’
`True,’shesaid,andthoughvexedatfirstshehadtoomuchsensetoblamethemlongorseriouslyforadevotiontoherthatwasasvaluableasitwasrare。Sheaddedwithaveryprettygrace,`Well,Ireallythankyouheartilyfortakingallthistrouble;butIwishyouhadborrowedanybody’shorsesbutMrBoldwood’s。’
`Daintyislame,miss,’saidCoggan。`Canyegoon?’
`Itwasonlyastoneinhershoe。Igotdownandpulleditoutahundredyardsback。Icanmanageverywell,thankyou。IshallbeinBathbydaylight。
Willyounowreturn,please?’
Sheturnedherhead-thegateman’scandleshimmeringuponherquick,cleareyesasshedidso-passedthroughthegate,andwassoonwrappedintheemboweringshadesofmysterioussummerboughs。CogganandGabrielputabouttheirhorses,andfannedbythevelvetyairofthisJulynight,retracedtheroadbywhichtheyhadcome。
`Astrangevagary,thisofhers,isn’tit,Oak?’saidCoggancuriously。
`Yes,’saidGabrielshortly。`Shewon’tbeinBathbynodaylight!’
`Coggan,supposewekeepthisnight’sworkasquietaswecan?’
`Iamofoneandthesamemind。’
`Verywell。Weshallbehomebythreeo’clockorso,andcancreepintotheparishlikelambs。’
Bathsheba’sperturbedmeditationsbytheroadsidehadultimatelyevolvedaconclusionthattherewereonlytworemediesforthepresentdesperatestateofaffairs。ThefirstwasmerelytokeepTroyawayfromWeatherburytillBoldwood’sindignationhadcooled;thesecondtolistentoOak’sentreaties,andBoldwood’sdenunciations,andgiveupTroyaltogether。
Alas!Couldshegiveupthisnewlove-inducehimtorenounceherbysayingshedidnotlikehim-couldnomorespeaktohim,andbeghim,forhergood,toendhisfurloughinBath,andseeherandWeatherburynomore?
Itwasapicturefallofmisery,butforawhileshecontemplateditfirmly,allowingherself,nevertheless,asgirlswill,todwelluponthehappylifeshewouldhaveenjoyedhadTroybeenBoldwood,andthepathoflovethepathofduty-inflictinguponherselfgratuitoustorturesbyimagininghimtheloverofanotherwomanafterforgettingher;forshehadpenetratedTroy’snaturesofarastoestimatehistendenciesprettyaccurately,butunfortunatelylovedhimnolessinthinkingthathemightsoonceasetoloveher-indeed,considerablymore。
Shejumpedtoherfeet。Shewouldseehimatonce。Yes,shewouldimplorehimbywordofmouthtoassistherinthisdilemma。Alettertokeephimawaycouldnotreachhimintime,evenifheshouldbedisposedtolistentoit。
WasBathshebaaltogetherblindtotheobviousfactthatthesupportofalover’sarmsisnotofakindbestcalculatedtoassistaresolvetorenouncehim?Orwasshesophisticallysensible,withathrillofpleasure,thatbyadoptingthiscourseforgettingridofhimshewasensuringameetingwithhim,atanyrate,oncemore?
Itwasnowdark,andthehourmusthavebeennearlyten。TheonlywaytoaccomplishherpurposewastogiveupherideaofvisitingLiddyatYalbury,returntoWeatherburyFarm,putthehorseintothegig,anddriveatoncetoBath。Theschemeseemedatfirstimpossible;thejourneywasafearfullyheavyone,evenforastronghorse,atherownestimate,。andshemuchunderratedthedistance。Itwasmostventuresomeforawoman,atnight,andalone。
ButcouldshegoontoLiddy’sandleavethingstotaketheircourse?
No,no:anythingbutthat。Bathshebawasfallofastimulatingturbulence,besidewhichcautionvainlyprayedforahearing。Sheturnedbacktowardsthevillage。
Herwalkwasslow,forshewishednottoenterWeatherburytillthecottagerswereinbed,and,particularly,tillBoldwoodwassecure。HerplanwasnowtodrivetoBathduringthenight,seeSergeantTroyinthemorningbeforehesetouttocometoher,bidhimfarewell,anddismisshim;thentorestthehorsethoroughlyherselftoweepthewhile,shethought,startingearlythenextmorningonherreturnjourney。BythisarrangementshecouldtrotDaintygentlyalltheday,reachLiddyatYalburyintheevening,andcomehometoWeatherburywithherwhenevertheychose-sonobodywouldknowshehadbeentoBathatall。
SuchwasBathsheba’sscheme。Butinhertopographicalignoranceasalatercomertotheplace,shemisreckonedthedistanceofherjourneyasnotmuchmorethanhalfwhatitreallywas。Heridea,however,sheproceededtocarryout,withwhatinitialsuccesswehavealreadyseen。
CHAPTERTHIRTY-THREEIntheSun-AHarbingerAweekpassed,andtherewerenotidingsofBathsheba;norwasthereanyexplanationofherGilpin’srig。
ThenanotecameforMaryann,statingthatthebusinesswhichhadcalledhermistresstoBathstilldetainedherthere;butthatshehopedtoreturninthecourseofanotherweek。
Anotherweekpassed。Theoat-harvestbegan,andallthemenwereafieldunderamonochromaticLammassky,amidthetremblingairandshortshadowsofnoon。Indoorsnothingwastobeheardsavethedroningofbluebottleflies;out-of-doorsthewhettingofscythesandthehissoftressyoat-earsrubbingtogetherastheirperpendicularstalksofamber-yellowfellheavilytoeachswath。Everydropofmoisturenotinthemen’sbottlesandflagonsintheformofciderwasrainingasperspirationfromtheirforeheadsandcheeks。Droughtwaseverywhereelse。
Theywereabouttowithdrawforawhileintothecharitableshadeofatreeinthefence,whenCoggansawafigureinabluecoatandbrassbuttonsrunningtothemacrossthefield。
`Iwonderwhothatis?’hesaid。
`Ihopenothingiswrongaboutmistress,’saidMaryann,whowithsomeotherwomenwastyingthebundlesoatsbeingalwayssheafedonthisfarm,`butanunluckytokencametomeindoorsthismorning。Iwenttounlockthedooranddroppedthekey,anditfelluponthestonefloorandbrokeintotwopieces。Breakingakeyisadreadfulbodement。Iwishmis’esswashome。’
`’TisCainBall,’saidGabriel,pausingfromwhettinghisreaphook。
Oakwasnotboundbyhisagreementtoassistinthecorn-field;buttheharvestmonthisananxioustimeforafarmer,andthecornwasBathsheba’s,sohelentahand。
`He’sdressedupinhisbestclothes,’saidMatthewMoon。`Hehevbeenawayfromhomeforafewdays,sincehe’shadthatfelonuponhisfinger;
for`asaid,sinceIcan’tworkI’llhaveahollerday’
`Agoodtimeforone-a’excellenttime,’saidJosephPoorgrass,straighteninghisback;forhe,likesomeoftheothers,hadawayofrestingawhilefromhislabouronsuchhotdaysforreasonspreternaturallysmall;ofwhichCainBall’sadventonaweek-dayinhisSunday-clotheswasoneofthefirstmagnitude。`’TwasabadlegallowedmetoreadthePilgrim’sProgress,andMarkClarklearntAll-Fours’inawhitlow。’
`Ay,andmyfatherputhisarmoutofjointtohavetimetogocourting,’
saidJanCoggan,inaneclipsingtone,wipinghisfacewithhisshirt-sleeveandthrustingbackhishatuponthenapeofhisneck。
BythistimeCainywasnearingthegroupofharvesters,andwasperceivedtobecarryingalargesliceofbreadandhaminonehand,fromwhichhetookmouthfulsasheran,theotherbeingwrappedinabandage。Whenhecameclose,hismouthassumedthebellshapeandhebegantocoughviolently。
`Now,Cainy!’saidGabrielsternly。`HowmanymoretimesmustItellyoutokeepfromrunningsofastwhenyoubeeating?You’llchokeyourselfsomeday,that’swhatyou’lldo,CainBall。’
`Hok-hok-hok!’repliedCain。`Acrumbofmyvictualswentthewrongway-hok-hok!That’swhat’tis,MisterOak!AndI’vebeenvisitingtoBathbecauseIhadafelononmythumb;yes,andI’vebeen-ahok-hok!’
DirectlyCainmentionedBath,theyallthrewdowntheirhooksandforksanddrewroundhim。Unfortunatelytheerraticcrumbdidnotimprovehisnarrativepowers,andasupplementaryhindrancewasthatofasneeze,jerkingfromhispockethisratherlargewatch,whichdangledinfrontoftheyoungmanpendulum-wise。
`Yes,’hecontinued,directinghisthoughtstoBathandlettinghiseyesfollow,`I’veseedtheworldatlast-yes-andI’veseedourmis’ess-ahok-hok-hok!’
`Bothertheboy!’saidGabriel。`Somethingisalwaysgoingthewrongwaydownyourthroat,sothatyoucan’ttellwhat’snecessarytobetold。’
`Ahok!there!Please,MisterOak,agnathavejustfleedintomystomachandbroughtthecoughonagain!’
`Yes,that’sjustit。Yourmouthisalwaysopen,youyoungrascal!’
`’Tisterriblebadtohaveagnatflydownyerthroat,poreboy!’saidMatthewMoon。
`Well,atBathyousaw——’promptedGabriel。
`Isawourmistress,’continuedthejuniorshepherd,`andasojer,walkingalong。Andbymebytheygotcloserandcloser,andthentheywentarm-in-crook,likecourtingcompletehok-hok!likecourtingcomplete-hok!-courtingcomplete——’losingthethreadofhisnarrativeatthispointsimultaneouslywithhislossofbreath,theirinformantlookedupanddownthefieldapparentlyforsomecluetoit。`Well,Iseeourmis’essandasoldier-a-ha-a-wk!’
`Damntheboy!’saidGabriel。
`’Tisonlymymanner,MisterOak,ifye’llexcuseit,’saidCainBall,lookingreproachfullyatOak,witheyesdrenchedintheirowndew。
`Here’ssomeciderforhim-that’llcurehisthroat,’saidJanCoggan,liftingaflagonofcider,pullingoutthecork,andapplyingtheholetoCainy’smouth;JosephPoorgrassinthemeantimebeginningtothinkapprehensivelyoftheseriousconsequencesthatwouldfollowCainyBall’sstrangulationinhiscough,andthehistoryofhidBathadventuresdyingwithhim。
`Formypoorself,Ialwayssay“pleaseGod“aforeIdoanything,’saidJoseph,inanunboastfulvoice;`andsoshouldyou,CainBall。’Tisagreatsafeguard,andmightperhapssaveyoufrombeingchokedtodeathsomeday。’
MrCogganpouredtheliquorwithunstintedliberalityatthesufferingCain’scircularmouth;halfofitrunningdownthesideoftheflagon,andhalfofwhatreachedhismouthrunningdownoutsidehisthroat,andhalfofwhatraningoingthewrongway,andbeingcoughedandsneezedaroundthepersonsofthegatheredreapersintheformofaciderfog,whichforamomenthunginthesunnyairlikeasmallexhalation。
`There’sagreatclumsysneeze!Whycan’tyehavebettermanners,youyoungdog!’saidCoggan,withdrawingtheflagon。
`Theciderwentupmynose!’criedCainy,assoonashecouldspeak;
`andnow’tisgonedownmyneck,andintomypoordumbfelon,andovermyshinybuttonsandallmybestcloze!’
`Thepoorlad’scoughisterribleonfortunate,’saidMatthewMoon。`Andagreathistoryonhand,too。Bumphisback,shepherd。’
`’Tismynater,’mournedCain。`MothersaysIalwayswassoexcitablewhenmyfeelingswereworkeduptoapoint!’
`True,true,’saidJosephPoorgrass。`TheBallswerealwaysaveryexcitablefamily。Iknowedtheboy’sgrandfather-atrulynervousandmodestman,eventogenteelrefinery。’Twasblush,blushwithhim,almostasmuchas’tiswithme-notbutthat’tisafaultinme!’
`Notatall,MasterPoorgrass,’saidCoggan。`’Tisavarynoblequalityinye。’