Bathshebaknewmoreofhimnow;hehadentirelybaredhisheartbeforeher,evenuntilhehadalmostworninhereyesthesorrylookofagrandbirdwithoutthefeathersthatmakeitgrand。Shehadbeenawestruckatherpasttemerity,andwasstrugglingtomakeamendswithoutthinkingwhetherthesinquitedeservedthepenaltyshewasschoolingherselftopay。Tohavebroughtallthisaboutherearswasterrible;butafterawhilethesituationwasnotwithoutafearfuljoy。Thefacilitywithwhicheventhemosttimidwomensometimesacquirearelishforthedreadfulwhenthatisamalgamatedwithalittletriumph,ismarvellous。
CHAPTERTWENTY-FOURThesameNight-TheFirPlantationAmongthemultifariousdutieswhichBathshebahadvoluntarilyimposeduponherselfbydispensingwiththeservicesofabailiff,wastheparticularoneoflookingroundthehomesteadbeforegoingtobed,toseethatallwasrightandsafeforthenight。Gabrielhadalmostconstantlyprecededherinthistoureveryevening,watchingheraffairsascarefullyasanyspeciallyappointedofficerofsurveillancecouldhavedone;butthistenderdevotionwastoagreatextentunknowntohismistress,andasmuchaswasknownwassomewhatthanklesslyreceived。Womenarenevertiredofbewailingman’sficklenessinlove,buttheyonlyseemtosnubhisconstancy。
Aswatchingisbestdoneinvisibly,sheusuallycarriedadarklanterninherhand,andeverynowandthenturnedonthelighttoexaminenooksandcornerswiththecoolnessofametropolitanpoliceman。Thiscoolnessmayhaveoweditsexistencenotsomuchtoherfearlessnessofexpecteddangerastoherfreedomfromthesuspicionofany;herworstanticipateddiscoverybeingthatahorsemightnotbewellbedded,thefowlsnotallin,oradoornotclosed。
Thisnightthebuildingswereinspectedasusual,andshewentroundtothefarmpaddock。Heretheonlysoundsdisturbingthestillnessweresteadymunchingsofmanymouths,andstentorianbreathingsfromallbutinvisiblenoses,endinginsnoresandpuffsliketheblowingofbellowsslowly。Thenthemunchingwouldrecommence,whenthelivelyimaginationmightassisttheeyetodiscernagroupofpink-whitenostrilsshapedascaverns,andveryclammyandhumidontheirsurfaces,notexactlypleasanttothetouchuntilonegotusedtothem;themouthsbeneathhavingagreatpartialityforclosinguponanylooseendofBathsheba’sapparelwhichcamewithinreachoftheirtongues。Aboveeachoftheseastillkeenervisionsuggestedabrownforeheadandtwostaringthoughnotunfriendlyeyes,andaboveallapairofwhitishcrescent-shapedhornsliketwoparticularlynewmoons,anoccasionalstolid`moo!’proclaimingbeyondtheshadeofadoubtthatthesephenomenawerethefeaturesandpersonsofDaisy,Whitefoot,Bonnylass,Jolly-O,Spot,Twinkle-eye,etc。,etc-therespectabledairyofDevoncowsbelongingtoBathshebaaforesaid。
Herwaybacktothehousewasbyapaththroughayoungplantationoftaperingfirs,whichhadbeenplantedsomeyearsearliertoshelterthepremisesfromthenorthwind。Byreasonofthedensityoftheinterwovenfoliageoverheaditwasgloomythereatcloudlessnoontide,twilightintheevening,darkasmidnightatdusk,andblackastheninthplagueofEgyptatmidnight。Todescribethespotistocallitavast,low,naturallyformedhall,theplumyceilingofwhichwassupportedbyslenderpillarsoflivingwood,thefloorbeingcoveredwithasoftduncarpetofdeadspikeletsandmildewedcones,withatuftofgrass-bladeshereandthere。
Thisbitofthepathwasalwaysthecruxofthenight’sramble,though,beforestarting,herapprehensionsofdangerwerenotvividenoughtoleadhertotakeacompanion。SlippingalongherecovertlyasTime,Bathshebafanciedshecouldhearfootstepsenteringthetrackattheoppositeend。
Itwascertainlyarustleoffootsteps。Herowninstantlyfellasgentlyassnowflakes。Shereassuredherselfbyaremembrancethatthepathwaspublic,andthatthetravellerwasprobablysomevillagerreturninghome;
regretting,atthesametime,thatthemeetingshouldbeabouttooccurinthedarkestpointofherroute,eventhoughonlyjustoutsideherowndoor。
Thenoiseapproached,cameclose,andafigurewasapparentlyonthepointofglidingpastherwhensomethingtuggedatherskirtandpinneditforciblytotheground。TheinstantaneouschecknearlythrewBathshebaoffherbalance。Inrecoveringshestruckagainstwarmclothesandbuttons。
`Arumstart,uponmysoul!’saidamasculinevoice,afootorsoaboveherhead。`HaveIhurtyou,mate?’
`No,’saidBathsheba,attemptingtoshrinkaway。
`Wehavegothitchedtogethersomehow,Ithink。’
`Yes。’
`Areyouawoman?’
`Yes。’
`Alady,Ishouldhavesaid。’
`Itdoesn’tmatter。’
`Iamaman。
`Oh!’
Bathshebasoftlytuggedagain,buttonopurpose。
`Isthatadarklanternyouhave?Ifancyso,’saidtheman。
`Yes。’
`Ifyou’llallowmeI’llopenit,andsetyoufree。’
Ahandseizedthelantern,thedoorwasopened,theraysburstoutfromtheirprison,andBathshebabeheldherpositionwithastonishment。
Themantowhomshewashookedwasbrilliantinbrassandscarlet。Hewasasoldier。Hissuddenappearancewastodarknesswhatthesoundofatrumpetistosilence。Gloom,thegeniuslociatalltimeshitherto,wasnowtotallyoverthrown,lessbythelantern-lightthanbywhatthelanternlighted。Thecontrastofthisrevelationwithheranticipationsofsomesinisterfigureinsombregarbwassogreatthatithaduponhertheeffectofafairytransformation。
Itwasimmediatelyapparentthatthemilitaryman’sspurhadbecomeentangledinthegimpwhichdecoratedtheskirtofherdregs。Hecaughtaviewofherface。
`I’llunfastenyouinonemoment,miss,’hesaid,withnew-borngallantry。
`Ono-Icandoit,thankyou,’shehastilyreplied,andstoopedfortheperformance。
Theunfasteningwasnotsuchatriflingaffair。Therowelofthespurhadsowounditselfamongthegimpcordsinthosefewmoments,thatseparationwaslikelytobeamatteroftime。
Hetoostooped,andthelanternstandingonthegroundbetwixtthemthrewthegleamfromitsopensideamongthefir-treeneedlesandthebladesoflongdampgrasswiththeeffectofalargeglowworm。Itradiatedupwardsintotheirfaces,andsentoverhalftheplantationgiganticshadowsofbothmanandwoman,eachduskyshapebecomingdistortedandmangleduponthetree-trunkstillitwastedtonothing。
Helookedhardintohereyeswhensheraisedthemforamoment;Bathshebalookeddownagain,forhisgazewastoostrongtobereceivedpoint-blankwithherown。Butshehadobliquelynoticedthathewasyoungandslim,andthatheworethreechevronsuponhissleeve。
Bathshebapulledagain。
`Youareaprisoner,miss;itisnouseblinkingthematter,’saidthesoldierdrily。`Imustcutyourdressifyouareinsuchahurry。’
`Yes-pleasedo!’sheexclaimedhelplessly。
`Itwouldn’tbenecessaryifyoucouldwaitamoment;’andheunwoundacordfromthelittlewheel。Shewithdrewherownhand,but,whetherbyaccidentordesign,hetouchedit。Bathshebawasvexed;shehardlyknewwhy。
Hisunravellingwenton,butitneverthelessseemedcomingtonoend。
Shelookedathimagain。
`Thankyouforthesightofsuchabeautifulface!’saidtheyoungsergeant,withoutceremony。
Shecolouredwithembarrassment。`’Twasunwillinglyshown,’sherepliedstiffly,andwithasmuchdignity-whichwasverylittle-asshecouldinfuseintoapositionofcaptivity。
`Ilikeyouthebetterforthatincivility,miss,’hesaid。
`Ishouldhaveliked-Iwish-youhadnevershownyourselftomebyintrudinghere!’Shepulledagain,andthegathersofherdressbegantogivewaylikelilliputianmusketry。
`Ideservethechastisementyourwordsgiveme。Butwhyshouldsuchafairanddutifulgirlhavesuchanaversiontoherfather’ssex?’
`Goonyourway,please。’
`What,Beauty,anddragyouafterme?Dobutlook;Ineversawsuchatangle!’
`O,’tisshamefulofyou;youhavebeenmakingitworseonpurposetokeepmehere-youhave!’
`Indeed,Idon’tthinkso,’saidthesergeant,withamerrytwinkle。
`Itellyouyouhave!’sheexclaimed,inhightemper。`Iinsistuponundoingit。Now,allowme!’
`Certainly,miss;Iamnotofsteel。’Headdedasighwhichhadasmucharchnessinitasasighcouldpossesswithoutlosingitsnaturealtogether。
`Iamthankfulforbeauty,evenwhen’tisthrowntomelikeahonetoadog。Thesemomentswillbeovertoosoon!’
Sheclosedherlipsinadeterminedsilence。
Bathshebawasrevolvinginhermindwhetherbyaboldanddesperaterushshecouldfreeherselfattheriskofleavingherskirtbodilybehindher。Thethoughtwastoodreadful。Thedress-whichshehadputontoappearstatelyatthesupper-wastheheadandfrontofherwardrobe;
notanotherinherstockbecamehersowell。WhatwomaninBathsheba’sposition,notnaturallytimid,andwithincallofherretainers,wouldhaveboughtescapefromadashingsoldieratsodearaprice?
`Allingoodtime;itwillsoonbedone,Iperceive,’saidhercoolfriend。
`Thistriflingprovokes,and-and——’
`Nottoocruel!’
`-Insultsme!’
`ItisdoneinorderthatImayhavethepleasureofapologizingtosocharmingawoman,whichIstraightwaydomosthumbly,madam,’hesaid,bowinglow。
Bathshebareallyknewnotwhattosay。
`I’veseenagoodmanywomeninmytime,’continuedtheyoungmaninamurmur,andmorethoughtfullythanhitherto,criticallyregardingherbentheadatthesametime;`butI’veneverseenawomansobeautifulasyou。Takeitorleaveit-beoffendedorlikeit-Idon’tcare。’
`Whoareyou,then,whocansowellaffordtodespiseopinion?’
`Nostranger。SergeantTroy。Iamstayinginthisplace-There!itisundoneatlast,yousee。Yourlightfingersweremoreeagerthanmine。
Iwishithadbeentheknotofknots,whichthere’snountying!’
Thiswasworseandworse。Shestartedup,andsodidhe。Howtodecentlygetawayfromhim-thatwasherdifficultynow。Shesidledoffinchbyinch,thelanterninherhand,tillshecouldseetherednessofhiscoatnolonger。
`Ah,Beauty;good-bye!’hesaid。
Shemadenoreply,and,reachingadistanceoftwentyorthirtyyards,turnedabout,andranindoors。
Liddyhadjustretiredtorest。Inascendingtoherownchamber,Bathshebaopenedthegirl’sdooraninchortwo,and,panting,said——
`Liddy,isanysoldierstayinginthevillage-sergeantsomebody-
rathergentlemanlyforasergeant,andgoodlooking-aredcoatwithbluefacings?’
`Nomiss……No,Isay;butreallyitmightbeSergeantTroyhomeonfurlough,thoughIhavenotseenhim。HewashereonceinthatwaywhentheregimentwasatCasterbridge。’
`Yes;that’sthename。Hadheamoustache-nowhiskersorbeard?’
`Hehad。’
`Whatkindofapersonishe?’
`O!miss-Iblushtonameit-agayman!ButIknowhimtobeveryquickandtrim,whomighthavemadehisthousands,likeasquire。Suchacleveryoungdandasheis!He’sadoctor’ssonbyname,whichisagreatdeal;andhe’sanearl’ssonbynature!’
`Whichisagreatdealmore。Fancy!Isittrue?’
`Yes。Andhewasbroughtupsowell,andsenttoCasterbridgeGrammarSchoolforyearsandyears。Learntalllanguageswhilehewasthere;anditwassaidhegotonsofarthathecouldtakedownChineseinshorthand;
butthatIdon’tanswerfor,asitwasonlyreported。However,hewastedhisgiftedlot,andlistedasoldier;buteventhenherosetobeasergeantwithouttryingatall。Ah!suchablessingitistobehigh-born;nobilityofbloodwillshineoutevenintheranksandfiles。Andishereallycomehome,miss?’
`Ibelieveso。Good-night,Liddy。’
Afterall,howcouldacheerfulwearerofskirtsbepermanentlyoffendedwiththeman?ThereareoccasionswhengirlslikeBathshebawillputupwithagreatdealofunconventionalbehaviour。Whentheywanttobepraised,whichisoften;whentheywanttobemastered,whichissometimes;andwhentheywantnononsense,whichisseldom。JustnowthefirstfeelingwasintheascendantwithBathsheba,withadashofthesecond。Moreover,bychanceorbydevilry,theministrantwasantecedentlymadeinterestingbybeingahandsomestrangerwhohadevidentlyseenbetterdays。
Soshecouldnotclearlydecidewhetheritwasheropinionthathehadinsultedherornot。
`Waseveranythingsoodd!’sheatlastexclaimedtoherself,inherownroom。`AndwaseveranythingsomeanlydoneaswhatIdid-toskulkawaylikethatfromamanwhowasonlycivilandkind!’Clearlyshedidnotthinkhisbarefacedpraiseofherpersonaninsultnow。
ItwasafatalomissionofBoldwood’sthathehadneveroncetoldhershewasbeautiful。
CHAPTERTWENTY-FIVETheNewAcquaintancedescribedIdiosyncrasyandvicissitudehadcombinedtostampSergeantTroyasanexceptionalbeing。
Hewasamantowhommemorieswereanincumbrance,andanticipationsasuperfluity。Simplyfeeling,considering,andcaringforwhatwasbeforehiseyes,hewasvulnerableonlyinthepresent。Hisoutlookupontimewasasatransientflashoftheeyenowandthen:thatprojectionofconsciousnessintodaysgonebyandtocome,whichmakesthepastasynonymforthepatheticandthefutureawordforcircumspection,wasforeigntoTroy。Withhimthepastwasyesterday;thefuture,to-morrow;never,thedayafter。
Onthisaccounthemight,incertainlights,havebeenregardedasoneofthemostfortunateofhisorder。Foritmaybearguedwithgreatplausibilitythatreminiscenceislessanendowmentthanadisease,andthatexpectationinitsonlycomfortableform-thatofabsolutefaith-ispracticallyanimpossibility;whilstintheformofhopeandthesecondarycompounds,patience,impatience,resolve,curiosity,itisaconstantfluctuationbetweenpleasureandpain。
SergeantTroy,beingentirelyinnocentofthepracticeofexpectation,wasneverdisappointed。Tosetagainstthisnegativegaintheremayhavebeensomepositivelossesfromacertainnarrowingofthehighertastesandsensationswhichitentailed。Butlimitationofthecapacityisneverrecognizedasalossbythelosertherefrom:inthisattributemoralorestheticpovertycontrastsplausiblywithmaterial,sincethosewhosufferdonotmindit,whilstthosewhominditsoonceasetosuffer。Itisnotadenialofanythingtohavebeenalwayswithoutit,andwhatTroyhadneverenjoyedhedidnotmiss;but,beingfullyconsciousthatwhatsoberpeoplemissedheenjoyed,hiscapacity,thoughreallyless,seemedgreaterthantheirs。
Hewasmoderatelytruthfultowardsmen,buttowomenliedlikeaCretan-asystemofethicsaboveallotherscalculatedtowinpopularityatthefirstflushofadmissionintolivelysociety;andthepossibilityofthefavourgainedbeingtransitoryhadreferenceonlytothefuture。
Heneverpassedthelinewhichdividesthesprucevicesfromtheugly;
andhence,thoughhismoralshadhardlybeenapplauded,disapprovalofthemhadfrequentlybeentemperedwithasmile。Thistreatmenthadledtohisbecomingasortofregraterofothermen’sgallantries,tohisownaggrandizementasaCorinthian,’ratherthantothemoralprofitofhishearers。
Hisreasonandhispropensitieshadseldomanyreciprocatinginfluence,havingseparatedbymutualconsentlongago;thenceitsometimeshappenedthat,whilehisintentionswereashonourableascouldbewished,anyparticulardeedformedadarkbackgroundwhichthrewthemintofinerelief。Thesergeant’sviciousphasesbeingtheoffspringofimpulse,andhisvirtuousphasesofcoolmeditation,thelatterhadamodesttendencytobeoftenerheardofthanseen。
Troywasfullofactivity,buthisactivitieswerelessofalocomotivethanavegetativenature;and,neverbeingbaseduponanyoriginalchoiceoffoundationordirection,theywereexercisedonwhateverobjectchancemightplaceintheirway。Hence,whilsthesometimesreachedthebrilliantinspeechbecausethatwasspontaneous,hefellbelowthecommonplaceinaction,frominabilitytoguideincipienteffort。Hehadaquickcomprehensionandconsiderableforceofcharacter;but,beingwithoutthepowertocombinethem,thecomprehensionbecameengagedwithtrivialitieswhilstwaitingforthewilltodirectit,andtheforcewasteditselfinuselessgroovesthroughunheedingthecomprehension。
Hewasafairlywell-educatedmanforoneofmiddleclass-exceptionallywelleducatedforacommonsoldier。Hespokefluentlyandunceasingly。
Hecouldinthiswaybeonethingandseemanother;forinstance,hecouldspeakofloveandthinkofdinner;callonthehusbandtolookatthewife;
beeagertopayandintendtoowe。
Thewondrouspowerofflatteryinpassadosatwomanisaperceptionsouniversalastoberemarkeduponbymanypeoplealmostasautomaticallyastheyrepeataproverb,orsaythattheyareChristiansandthelike,withoutthinkingmuchoftheenormouscorollarieswhichspringfromtheproposition。Stilllessisitacteduponforthegoodofthecomplementalbeingalludedto。Withthemajoritysuchanopinionisshelvedwithallthosetriteaphorismswhichrequiresomecatastrophetobringtheirtremendousmeaningsthoroughlyhome。Whenexpressedwithsomeamountofreflectivenessitseemscoordinatewithabeliefthatthisflatterymustbereasonabletobeeffective。Itistothecreditofmenthatfewattempttosettlethequestionbyexperiment,anditisfortheirhappiness,perhaps,thataccidenthasneversettleditforthem。Nevertheless,thatamaledissemblerwhobydelugingherwithuntenablefictionscharmsthefemalewisely,mayacquirepowersreachingtotheextremityofperdition,isatruthtaughttomanybyunsoughtandwringingoccurrences。Andsomeprofesstohaveattainedtothesameknowledgebyexperimentasaforesaid,andjauntilycontinuetheirindulgenceinsuchexperimentswithterribleeffect。SergeantTroywasone。
Hehadbeenknowntoobservecasuallythatindealingwithwomankindtheonlyalternativetoflatterywascursingandswearing。Therewasnothirdmethod。`Treatthemfairly,andyouarealostman,’hewouldsay。
Thisphilosopher’spublicappearanceinWeatherburypromptlyfollowedhisarrivalthere。AweekortwoaftertheshearingBathsheba,feelinganamelessreliefofspiritsonaccountofBoldwood’sabsence,approachedherhayfieldsandlookedoverthehedgetowardsthehaymakers。Theyconsistedinaboutequalproportionsofgnarledandflexuousforms,theformerbeingthemen,thelatterthewomen,whoworetiltbonnetscoveredwithnankeen,whichhunginacurtainupontheirshoulders。CogganandMarkClarkweremowinginalessforwardmeadow,Clarkhummingatunetothestrokesofhisscythe,towhichJanmadenoattempttokeeptimewithhis。Inthefirstmeadtheywerealreadyloadinghay,thewomenrakingitintococksandwindrows,andthementossingituponthewaggon。
Frombehindthewaggonabrightscarletspotemerged,andwentonloadingunconcernedlywiththerest。Itwasthegallantsergeant,whohadcomehaymakingforpleasure;andnobodycoulddenythathewasdoingthemistressofthefarmrealknight-servicebythisvoluntarycontributionofhislabouratabusytime。
AssoonasshehadenteredthefieldTroysawher,andstickinghispitchforkintothegroundandpickinguphiscroporcane,hecameforward。
Bathshebablushedwithhalf-angryembarrassment,andadjustedhereyesaswellasherfeettothedirectlineofherpath。
CHAPTERTWENTY-SIXSceneontheVergeoftheHay-mead`Ah,MissEverdene!’saidthesergeant,touchinghisdiminutivecap。`LittledidIthinkitwasyouIwasspeakingtotheothernight。Andyet,ifI
hadreflected,the“QueenoftheCorn-market“truthistruthatanyhourofthedayornight,andIheardyousonamedinCasterbridgeyesterday,the“QueenoftheCorn-market“,Isay,couldbenootherwoman。Istepacrossnowtobegyourforgivenessathousandtimesforhavingbeenledbymyfeelingstoexpressmyselftoostronglyforastranger。TobesureIamnostrangertotheplace-IamSergeantTroy,asItoldyou,andIhaveassistedyouruncleinthesefieldsnoendoftimeswhenIwasalad。Ihavebeendoingthesameforyouto-day。’
`IsupposeImustthankyouforthat,SergeantTroy,’laidtheQueenoftheCorn-marketinanindifferentlygratefultone。
Thesergeantlookedhurtandsad。`Indeedyoumustnot,MissEverdene,’
hesaid。`whycouldyouthinksuchathingnecessary?’
`Iamgladitisnot。’
`Why?ifImayaskwithoutoffence。’
`BecauseIdon’tmuchwanttothankyouforanything。’
`IamafraidIhavemadeaholeinmytonguethatmyheartwillnevermend。Otheseintolerabletimes:thatill-luckshouldfollowamanforhonestlytellingawomansheisbeautiful!’TwasthemostIsaid-youmustownthat;andtheleastIcouldsay-thatIownmyself。’
`ThereissometalkIcoulddowithoutmoreeasilythanmoney。`Indeed。
Thatremarkisasortofdigression。’
`No。ItmeansthatIwouldratherhaveyourroomthanyourcompany。
`AndIwouldratherhavecursesfromyouthankissesfromanyotherwoman;soI’llstayhere。’
Bathshebawasabsolutelyspeechless。Andyetshecouldnothelpfeelingthattheassistancehewasrenderingforbadeaharshrepulse。
`Well,’continuedTroy,`Isupposethereisapraisewhichisrudeness,andthatmaybemine。Atthesametimethereisatreatmentwhichisinjustice,andthatmaybeyours。Becauseaplainbluntman,whohasneverbeentaughtconcealment,speaksouthismindwithoutexactlyintendingit,he’stobesnappedofflikethesonofasinner。’
`Indeedthere’snosuchcasebetweenus,’shesaid,turningaway。`I
don’tallowstrangerstobeboldandimpudent-eveninpraiseofme。’
`Ah-itisnotthefactbutthemethodwhichoffendsyou,’hesaidcarelessly。`ButIhavethesadsatisfactionofknowingthatmywords,whetherpleasingoroffensive,areunmistakablytrue。Wouldyouhavehadmelookatyou,andtellmyacquaintancethatyouarequiteacommon-placewoman,tosaveyoutheembarrassmentofbeingstaredatiftheycomenearyou?NotI。Icouldn’ttellanysuchridiculouslieaboutabeautytoencourageasinglewomaninEnglandintooexcessiveamodesty。’
`Itisallpretence-whatyouaresaying!’exclaimedBathsheba,laughinginspiteofherselfatthesergeant’sslymethod。`Youhavearareinvention,SergeantTroy。Whycouldn’tyouhavepassedbymethatnight,andsaidnothing?-thatwasallImeanttoreproachyoufor。’
`BecauseIwasn’tgoingto。Halfthepleasureofafeelingliesinbeingabletoexpressitonthespurofthemoment,andIletoutmine。Itwouldhavebeenjustthesameifyouhadbeenthereverseperson-uglyandold-Ishouldhaveexclaimedaboutitinthesameway。’
`Howlongisitsinceyouhavebeensoafflictedwithstrongfeeling,then?’
`Oh,eversinceIwasbigenoughtoknowlovelinessfromdeformity。’
`’Tistobehopedyoursenseofthedifferenceyouspeakofdoesn’tstopatfaces,butextendstomoralsaswell。’
`Iwon’tspeakofmoralsorreligion-myownoranybodyelse’s。ThoughperhapsIshouldhavebeenaverygoodChristianifyouprettywomenhadn’tmademeanidolater。’
Bathshebamovedontohidetheirrepressibledimplingsofmerriment。
Troyfollowed,whirlinghiscrop。
`But-MissEverdene-youdoforgiveme?’
`Hardly。’
`Why?’
`Yousaysuchthings。’
`Isaidyouwerebeautiful,andI’llsaysostill,by-soyouare!
ThemostbeautifuleverIsaw,ormayIfalldeadthisinstant!Why,uponmy——’
`Don’t-don’t!Iwon’tlistentoyou-youaresoprofane!’shesaid,inarestlessstatebetweendistressathearinghimandapenchanttohearmore。
`Iagainsayyouareamostfascinatingwoman。There’snothingremarkableinmysayingso,isthere?I’msurethefactisevidentenough。MissEverdene,myopinionmaybetooforciblyletouttopleaseyou,and,forthematterofthat,tooinsignificanttoconvinceyou,butsurelyitishonest,andwhycan’titbeexcused?’
`Becauseit-itisn’tacorrectone,’shefemininelymurmured。
`O,fie-fie!AmIanyworseforbreakingthethirdofthatTerribleTenthanyouforbreakingtheninth?’
`Well,itdoesn’tseemquitetruetomethatIamfascinating,’
sherepliedevasively。
Notsotoyou:thenIsaywithallrespectthat,ifso,itisowingtoyourmodesty,MissEverdene。Butsurelyyoumusthavebeentoldbyeverybodyofwhateverybodynotices?Andyoushouldtaketheirwordsforit。’
`Theydon’tsaysoexactly。’
`Oyes,theymust!’
`Well,Imeantomyface,asyoudo,’shewenton,allowingherselftobefurtherladintoaconversationthatintentionhadrigorouslyforbidden。
`Butyouknowtheythinkso?’
`No-thatis-IcertainlyhaveheardLiddysaytheydo,but——’Shepaused。
Capitulation-thatwasthepurportofthesimplereply,guardedasitwas-capitulation,unknowntoherself。Neverdidafragiletaillesssentenceconveyamoreperfectmeaning。Thecarelesssergeantsmiledwithinhimself,andprobablytoothedevilsmiledfromaloopholeinTophet,forthemomentwastheturning-pointofacareer。Hertoneandmiensignifiedbeyondmistakethattheseedwhichwastoliftthefoundationhadtakenrootinthechink:theremainderwasamerequestionoftimeandnaturalchanges。
`Therethetruthcomesout!’saidthesoldier,inreply。`Nevertellmethatayoungladycanliveinabuzzofadmirationwithoutknowingsomethingaboutit。Ah,well,MissEverdene,youare-pardonmybluntway-youareratheraninjurytoourracethanotherwise。’
`How-indeed?’shesaid,openinghereyes。
`O,itistrueenough。Imayaswellbehungforasheepasalambanoldcountrysaying,notofmuchaccount,butitwilldoforaroughsoldier,andsoIwillspeakmymind,regardlessofyourpleasure,andwithouthopingorintendingtogetyourpardon。Why,MissEverdene,itisinthismannerthatyourgoodlooksmaydomoreharmthangoodintheworld。’Thesergeantlookeddownthemeadincriticalabstraction。`Probablysomeonemanonanaveragefallsinlovewitheachordinarywoman。Shecanmarryhim:heiscontent,andleadsausefullife。Suchwomenasyouahundredmenalwayscovet-youreyeswillbewitchscoresonscoresintoanunavailingfancyforyou-youcanonlymarryoneofthatmany。Outofthesesaytwentywillendeavourtodrownthebitternessofdespisedloveindrink;twentymorewillmopeawaytheirliveswithoutawishorattempttomakeamarkintheworld,becausetheyhavenoambitionapartfromtheirattachmenttoyou;twentymore-thesusceptiblepersonmyselfpossiblyamongthem-willbealwaysdragglingafteryou,gettingwheretheymayjustsecyou,doingdesperatethings。Menaresuchconstantfools!Therestmaytrytogetovertheirpassionwithmoreorlesssuccess。Butallthesemenwillbesaddened。Andnotonlythoseninety-ninemen,buttheninety-ninewomentheymighthavemarriedaresaddenedwiththem。There’smytale。That’swhyIsaythatawomansocharmingasyourself,MissEverdene,ishardlyablessingtoherrace。
Thehandsomesergeant’sfeatureswereduringthisspeechasrigidandsternasJohnKnox’sinaddressinghisgayyoungqueen。
Seeingshemadenoreply,hesaid,`DoyoureadFrench?’
`No;Ibegan,butwhenIgottotheverbs,fatherdied,’shesaidsimply。
`Ido-whenIhaveanopportunity,whichlatterlyhasnotbeenoftenmymotherwasaParisienne-andthere’saproverbtheyhave,Quiaimebienchâ;tiebien-“Hechastenswholoveswell。”Doyouunderstandme?’
`Ah!’shereplied,andtherewasevenalittletremulousnessintheusuallycoolgirl’svoice;`ifyoucanonlyfighthalfaswinninglyasyoucantalk,youareabletomakeapleasureofabayonetwound!’AndthenpoorBathshebainstantlyperceivedherslipinmakingthisadmission:
inhastilytryingtoretrieveit,shewentfrombadtoworse。`Don’t,however,supposethatIderiveanypleasurefromwhatyoutellme。’
`Iknowyoudonot-Iknowitperfectly,’saidTroy,withmuchheartyconvictionontheexteriorofhisface:andalteringtheexpressiontomoodiness;`whenadozenmenarereadytospeaktenderlytoyou,andgivetheadmirationyoudeservewithoutaddingthewarningyouneed,itstandstoreasonthatmypoorrough-and-readymixtureofpraiseandblamecannotconveymuchpleasure。FoolasImaybe,Iamnotsoconceitedastosupposethat!’
`Ithinkyou-areconceited,nevertheless,’saidBathsheba,lookingaskanceatareedshewasfitfullypullingwithonehand,havinglatelygrownfeverishunderthesoldier’ssystemofprocedure-notbecausethenatureofhiscajolerywasentirelyunperceived,butbecauseitsvigourwasoverwhelming。
`Iwouldnotownittoanybodyelse-nordoIexactlytoyou。Still,theremighthavebeensomeself-conceitinmyfoolishsuppositiontheothernight。IknewthatwhatIsaidinadmirationmightbeanopiniontoooftenforceduponyoutogiveanypleasure,butIcertainlydidthinkthatthekindnessofyournaturemightpreventyoujudginganuncontrolledtongueharshly-whichyouhavedone-andthinkingbadlyofmeandwoundingmethismorning,whenIamworkinghardtosaveyourhay。’
`Well,youneednotthinkmoreofthat:perhapsyoudidnotmeantoberudetomebyspeakingoutyourmind:indeed,Ibelieveyoudidnot,’
saidtheshrewdwoman,inpainfullyinnocentearnest。`AndIthankyouforgivinghelphere。But-butmindyoudon’tspeaktomeagaininthatway,orinanyother,unlessIspeaktoyou。’
`OMissBathsheba!Thatistoohard!’
`No,itisn’t。Whyisit?’
`Youwillneverspeaktome;forIshallnotbeherelong。Iamsoongoingbackagaintothemiserablemonotonyofdrill-andperhapsourregimentwillbeorderedoutsoon。Andyetyoutakeawaytheonelittleewe-lambofpleasurethatIhaveinthisdulllifeofmine。Well,perhapsgenerosityisnotawoman’smostmarkedcharacteristic。’
`Whenareyougoingfromhere?’sheaskedwithsomeinterest。`Inamonth。’
`Buthowcanitgiveyoupleasuretospeaktome?’
`Canyouask,MissEverdene-knowingasyoudo-whatmyoffenceisbasedon?’
`Ifyoudocaresomuchforasillytrifleofthatkind,then,Idon’tminddoingit,’sheuncertainlyanddoubtinglyanswered。`Butyoucan’treallycareforawordfromme?youonlysayso-Ithinkyouonlysayso。’
`That’sunjust-butIwon’trepeattheremark。Iamtoogratifiedtogetsuchamarkofyourfriendshipatanypricetocavilatthetone。IdoMissEverdene,careforit。Youmaythinkamanfoolishtowantamereword-justagoodmorning。Perhapsheis-Idon’tknow。Butyouhaveneverbeenamanlookinguponawoman,andthatwomanyourself’
`Well。’
`Thenyouknownothingofwhatsuchanexperienceislike-andHeavenforbidthatyouevershould!’
`Nonsense,flatterer!Whatisitlike?Iaminterestedinknowing。’
`Putshortly,itisnotbeingabletothink,hear,orlookinanydirectionexceptonewithoutwretchedness,northerewithouttorture。’
`Ah,sergeant,itwon’tdo-youarepretending!’shesaid,shakingherhead。`Yourwordsaretoodashingtobetrue。’
`Iamnot,uponthehonourofasoldier。’
`Butwhyisitso?-OfcourseIaskformerepastime。’
`Becauseyouaresodistracting-andIamsodistracted。’
`Youlooklikeit。’
`Iamindeed。’
`Why,youonlysawmetheothernight!’
`Thatmakesnodifference。Thelightningworksinstantaneously。Ilovedyouthen,atonce-asIdonow。’
Bathshebasurveyedhimcuriously,fromthefeetupward,ashighasshelikedtoventureherglance,whichwasnotquitesohighashiseyes。
`Youcannotandyoudon’t,’shesaiddemurely。`Thereisnosuchsuddenfeelinginpeople。Iwon’tlistentoyouanylonger。Dearme,IwishI
knewwhato’clockitis-Iamgoing-Ihavewastedtoomuchtimeherealready!’
Thesergeantlookedathiswatchandtoldher。`What,haven’tyouawatch,miss?’heinquired。
`Ihavenotjustatpresent-Iamabouttogetanewone。
`No。Youshallbegivenone。Yes-youshall。Agift,MissEverdene-agift。’
Andbeforesheknewwhattheyoungmanwasintending,aheavygoldwatchwasinherhand。
`Itisanunusuallygoodoneforamanlikemetopossess,’hequietlysaid。`Thatwatchhasahistory。Pressthespringandopentheback。’
Shedidso。
`Whatdoyousee?’
`Acrestandamotto。
`Acoronetwithfivepoints,andbeneath,Ceditamorrebus-
“Loveyieldstocircumstance。”It’sthemottooftheEarlsofSevern。ThatwatchbelongedtothelastLord,andwasgiventomymother’shusband,amedicalman,forhisusetillIcameofage,whenitwastobegiventome。ItwasallthefortunethateverIinherited。Thatwatchhasregulatedimperialinterestsinitstime-thestatelyceremonial,thecourtlyassignation,pompoustravels,andlordlysleeps。Nowitisyours。’
`But,SergeantTroy,Icannottakethis-Icannot!’sheexclaimedwithround-eyedwonder。`Agoldwatch!Whatareyoudoing?Don’tbesuchadissembler!’
Thesergeantretreatedtoavoidreceivingbackhisgift,whichsheheldoutpersistentlytowardshim。Bathshebafollowedasheretired。
`Keepit-do,MissEverdene-keepit!’saidtheerraticchildofimpulse。
`Thefactofyourpossessingitmakesitworthtentimesasmuchtome。
Amoreplebeianonewillanswermypurposejustaswell,andthepleasureofknowingwhoseheartmyoldonebeatsagainst-well,Iwon’tspeakofthat。Itisinfarworthierhandsthaneverithasbeeninbefore。’
`ButindeedIcan’thaveit。’shesaid,inaperfectsimmerofdistress。
`O,howcanyoudosuchathing;thatis,ifyoureallymeanit!Givemeyourdeadfather’swatch,andsuchavaluableone!Youshouldnotbesoreckless,indeed,SergeantTroy!’
`Ilovedmyfather:good;butbetter,Iloveyoumore。That’showI
candoit,’saidthesergeantwithanintonationofsuchexquisitefidelitytonaturethatitwasevidentlynotallactednow。Herbeauty,which,whilstithadbeenquiescent,hehadpraisedinjest,hadinitsanimatedphasesmovedhimtoearnest;andthoughhisseriousnesswaslessthansheimagined,itwasprobablymorethanheimaginedhimself。
Bathshebawasbrimmingwithagitatedbewilderment,andshesaid,inhalf-suspiciousaccentsoffeeling,`Canitbe!O,howcanitbe,thatyoucareforme,andsosuddenly!Youhaveseensolittleofme:Imaynotbereallyso-sonice-lookingasIseemtoyou。Please,dotakeit;
O,do!Icannotandwillnothaveit。Believeme,yourgenerosityistoogreat。Ihaveneverdoneyouasinglekindness,andwhyshouldyoubesokindtome?’
Afactitiousreplyhadbeenagainuponhislips,butitwasagainsuspended,andhelookedatherwithanarrestedeye。Thetruthwas,thatasshenowstood-excited,wild,andhonestastheday-heralluringbeautyboreoutsofullytheepithetshehadbestoweduponitthathewasquitestartledathistemerityinadvancingthemasfalse。Hesaidmechanically,`Ah,why?’andcontinuedtolookather。
`Andmyworkfolkseemefollowingyouaboutthefield,andarewondering。
O,thisisdreadful!’shewenton,unconsciousofthetransmutationshewaseffecting。
`Ididnotquitemeanyoutoacceptitatfirst,foritwasmyonepoorpatentofnobility,’hebrokeoutbluntly;`but,uponmysoul,Iwishyouwouldnow。Withoutanyshamming,come!Don’tdenymethehappinessofwearingitformysake?Butyouaretoolovelyeventocaretobekindasothersare。’
`No,no;don’tsayso!IhavereasonsforreservewhichIcannotexplain。’
`Letitbe’then,letitbe,’hesaid,receivingbackthewatchatlast;
`Imustbeleavingyounow。Andwillyouspeaktomeforthemefewweeksofmystay?’
`IndeedIwill。Yet,Idon’tknowifIwill!O,whydidyoucomeanddisturbmeso!’
`Perhapsinsettingagin,Ihavecaughtmyself。Suchthingshavehappened。
Well,willyouletmeworkinyourfields?’hecoaxed。
`Yes,Isupposeso;ifitisanypleasuretoyou。
`MissEverdene,Ithankyou。’
`No,no。’
`Good-bye!’
Thesergeantbroughthishandtothecapontheslopeofhishead,saluted,andreturnedtothedistantgroupofhaymakers。
Bathshebacouldnotfacethehaymakersnow。Herhearterraticallyflittinghitherandthitherfromperplexedexcitement,hot,andalmosttearful,sheretreatedhomeward,murmuring,`O,whathaveIdone!Whatdoesitmean!
IwishIknewhowmuchofitwastrue!’
CHAPTERTWENTY-SEVENHivingtheBeesTheWeatherburybeeswerelateintheirswarmingthisyear。ItwasinthelatterpartofJune,andthedayaftertheinterviewwithTroyinthehayfield,thatBathshebawasstandinginhergarden,watchingaswarmintheairandguessingtheirprobablesettlingplace。Notonlyweretheylatethisyear,butunruly。Sometimesthroughoutawholeseasonalltheswarmswouldalightonthelowestattainablebough-suchaspartofacurrant-bushorespalierapple-tree;nextyeartheywould,withjustthesameunanimity,makestraightofftotheuppermostmemberofsometall,gauntcostard,orquarrenden,andtheredefyallinvaderswhodidnotcomearmedwithladdersandstavestotakethem。
Thiswasthecaseatpresent。Bathsheba’seyes,shadedbyonehand,werefollowingtheascendingmultitudeagainsttheunexplorablestretchofbluetilltheyultimatelyhaltedbyoneoftheunwieldytreesspokenof。Aprocesssomewhatanalogoustothatofallegedformationsoftheuniverse,timeandtimesago,wasobservable。Thebustlingswarmhadswepttheskyinascatteredanduniformhaze,whichnowthickenedtoanebulouscentre:
thisglidedontoaboughandgrewstilldenser,tillitformedasolidblackspotuponthelight。
Themenandwomenbeingallbusilyengagedinsavingthehay-evenLiddyhadleftthehouseforthepurposeoflendingahand-Bathshebaresolvedtohivethebeesherself,ifpossible。Shehaddressedthehivewithherbsandhoney,fetchedaladder,brush,andcrook,madeherselfimpregnablewitharmourofleathergloves,strawhat,andlargegauzeveil-oncegreenbutnowfadedtosnuffcolour-andascendedadozenrungsoftheladder。Atoncesheheard,nottenyardsoffavoicethatwasbeginningtohaveastrangepowerinagitatingher。
`MissEverdene,letmeassistyou;youshouldnotattemptsuchathingalone。’
Troywasjustopeningthegardengate。
Bathshebaflungdownthebrush,crook,andemptyhive,pulledtheskirtofherdresstightlyroundheranklesinatremendousflurry,andaswellasshecouldsliddowntheladder。BythetimeshereachedthebottomTroywastherealso,andhestoopedtopickupthehive。
`HowfortunateIamtohavedroppedinatthismoment!’exclaimedthesergeant。
Shefoundhervoiceinaminute。`What!andwillyoushaketheminforme?’sheasked,inwhat,foradefiantgirl,wasafalteringway;though,foratimidgirl,itwouldhaveseemedabravewayenough。
`WillI!’saidTroy。`WhyofcourseIwill。Howbloomingyouareto-day!’
Troyflungdownhiscaneandputhisfootontheladdertoascend。
`Butyoumusthaveontheveilandgloves,oryou’llbestungfearfully!’
`Ah,yes。Imustputontheveilandgloves。Willyoukindlyshowmehowtofixthemproperly?’
`Andyoumusthavethebroad-brimmedhat,too;foryourcaphasnobrimtokeeptheveiloff,andthey’dreachyourface。’
`Thebroad-brimmedhat,too,byallmeans。’
Soawhimsicalfateorderedthatherhatshouldbetakenoff-veilandallattached-andplaceduponhishead,Troytossinghisownintoagooseberrybush。Thentheveilhadtobetiedatitsloweredgeroundhiscollarandtheglovesputonhim。
Helookedsuchanextraordinaryobjectinthisguisethat,flurriedasshewas,shecouldnotavoidlaughingoutright。Itwastheremovalofyetanotherstakefromthepalisadeofcoldmannerswhichhadkepthimoff。
Bathshebalookedonfromthegroundwhilsthewasbusysweepingandshakingthebeesfromthetree,holdingupthehivewiththeotherhandforthemtofallinto。Shemadeuseofanunobservedminutewhilsthisattentionwasabsorbedintheoperationtoarrangeherplumesalittle。
Hecamedownholdingthehiveatarm’slength,behindwhichtrailedacloudofbees。
`Uponmylife,’saidTroy,throughtheveil,`holdingupthishivemakesone’sarmacheworsethanaweekofsword-exercise。’Whenthemanoeuvrewascompleteheapproachedher。`Wouldyoubegoodenoughtountiemeandletmeout?Iamnearlystifledinsidethissilkcage。
Tohideherembarrassmentduringtheunwantedprocessofuntyingthestringabouthisneck,shesaid:
`Ihaveneverseenthatyouspokeof。’
`What?’
`Thesword-exercise。’
`Ah!wouldyouliketo?’saidTroy。
Bathshebahesitated。ShehadheardwondrousreportsfromtimetotimebydwellersinWeatherbury,whohadbychancesojournedawhileinCasterbridge,nearthebarracks,ofthisstrangeandgloriousperformance,thesword-exercise。
Menandboyswhohadpeepedthroughchinksoroverwallsintothebarrack-yardreturnedwithaccountsofitsbeingthemostflashingaffairconceivable;
accoutermentsandweaponsglisteninglikestars-here,there,around-
yetallbyruleandcompass。
Soshesaidmildlywhatshefeltstrongly:
`Yes;Ishouldliketoseeitverymuch。’
`Andsoyoushall;youshallseemegothroughit。’
`No!How?’
`Letmeconsider。’
`Notwithawalking-stick-Idon’tcaretoseethat。Itmustbearealsword。’
`Yes,Iknow;andIhavenoswordhere;butIthinkIcouldgetonebytheevening。Now,willyoudothis?’
Troybentoverherandmurmuredsomesuggestioninalowvoice。
`Ono,indeed!’saidBathsheba,blushing。`Thankyouverymuch,butIcouldn’tonanyaccount。
`Surelyyoumight?Nobodywouldknow。’
Sheshookherhead,butwithaweakenednegation。`IfIwereto,’shesaid,`ImustbringLiddytoo。MightInot?’
Troylookedfaraway。`Idon’tseewhyyouwanttobringher,’hesaidcoldly。
AnunconsciouslookofassentinBathsheba’seyesbetrayedthatsomethingmorethanhiscoldnesshadmadeheralsofeelthatLiddywouldbesuperfluousinthesuggestedscene。Shehadfeltit,evenwhilstmakingtheproposal。
`Well,Iwon’tbringLiddy-andI’llcome。Butonlyforaveryshorttime,’sheadded;`averyshorttime。’
`Itwillnottakefiveminutes,’saidTroy。
CHAPTERTWENTY-EIGHTTheHollowamidtheFernsThehilloppositeBathsheba’sdwellingextended,amileoff,intoanuncultivatedtractofland,dottedatthisseasonwithtallthicketsofbrakefernplumpanddiaphanousfromrecentrapidgrowth,andradiantinhuesofclearanduntaintedgreen。
Ateighto’clockthismidsummerevening,whilstthebristlingballofgoldintheweststillsweptthetipsofthefernswithitslongluxuriantrays,asoftbrushing-byofgarmentsmighthavebeenheardamongthem,andBathshebaappearedintheirmidst,theirsoft,featheryarmscaressingheruptohershoulders。Shepaused,turned,wentbackoverthehillandhalfwaytoherowndoor,whenceshecastafarewellglanceuponthespotshehadjustleft,havingresolvednottoremainneartheplaceafterall。
Shesawadimspotofartificialredmovingroundtheshoulderoftherise。Itdisappearedontheotherside。
Shewaitedoneminute-twominutes-thoughtofTroy’sdisappointmentathernon-fulfilmentofapromisedengagement,tillsheagainranalongthefield,clamberedoverthebank,andfollowedtheoriginaldirection。
Shewasnowliterallytremblingandpantingatthishertemerityinsuchanerrantundertaking;herbreathcameandwentquickly,andhereyesshonewithaninfrequentlight。Yetgoshemust。Shereachedthevergeofapitinthemiddleoftheferns。Troystoodinthebottom,lookinguptowardsher。
`IheardyourustlingthroughthefernbeforeIsawyou,’hesaid,comingupandgivingherhishandtohelpherdowntheslope。
Thepitwasasaucer-shapedconcave,naturallyformed,withatopdiameterofaboutthirtyfeet,andshallowenoughtoallowthesunshinetoreachtheirheads。Standinginthecentre,theskyoverheadwasmetbyacircularhorizonoffern:thisgrewnearlytothebottomoftheslopeandthenabruptlyceased。Themiddlewithinthebeltofverdurewasflooredwithathickflossycarpetofmossandgrassintermingled,soyieldingthatthefootwashalf-buriedwithinit。
`Now,’saidTroy,producingthesword,which,asheraiseditintothesunlight,gleamedasortofgreeting,likealivingthing;`first,wehavefourrightandfourleftcuts;fourrightandfourleftthrusts。Infantrycutsandguardsaremoreinterestingthanours,tomymind;buttheyarenotsoswashing。Theyhavesevencutsandthreethrusts。Somuchasapreliminary。
Well,next,ourcutoneisasifyouweresowingyourcorn-so。’Bathshebasawasortofrainbow,upsidedownintheair,andTroy’sarmwasstillagain。`Cuttwo,asifyouwerehedging-so。Three,asifyouwerereaping-so。Four,asifyouwerethreshing-inthatway。Thenthesameontheleft。Thethrustsarethese:one,two,three,four,right;one,two,three,four,left’Herepeatedthem。`Have`emagain?’hesaid。`One,two——
Shehurriedlyinterrupted:`I’drathernot;thoughIdon’tmindyourtwosandfours;butyouronesandthreesareterrible!’
`Verywell。I’llletyouofftheonesandthrees。Next,cuts,pointsandguardsaltogether。’Troydulyexhibitedthem。`Thenthere’spursuingpractice,inthisway。’Hegavethemovementsasbefore。`There,thosearethestereotypedforms。Theinfantryhavetwomostdiabolicalupwardcuts,whichwearetoohumanetouse。Likethis-three,four。’
`Howmurderousandbloodthirsty!’
`Theyareratherdeathy。NowI’llbemoreinteresting,andletyouseesomelooseplay-givingallthecutsandpoints,infantryandcavalry,quickerthanlightning,andaspromiscuously-withjustenoughruletoregulateinstinctandyetnottofetterit。Youaremyantagonist,withthisdifferencefromrealwarfare,thatIshallmissyoueverytimebyonehair’sbreadth,orperhapstwo。Mindyoudon’tflinch,whateveryoudo。’
`I’llbesurenotto!’shesaidinvincibly。
Hepointedtoaboutayardinfrontofhim。
Bathsheba’sadventurousspiritwasbeginningtofindsomegrainsofrelishinthesehighlynovelproceedings。Shetookupherpositionasdirected,facingTroy。
`NowjusttolearnwhetheryouhavepluckenoughtoletmedowhatI
wish,I’llgiveyouapreliminarytest。’
Heflourishedtheswordbywayofintroductionnumbertwo,andthenextthingofwhichshewasconsciouswasthatthepointandbladeoftheswordweredartingwithagleamtowardsherleftside,justaboveherhip;thenoftheirreappearanceonherrightside,emergingasitwerefrombetweenherribs,havingapparentlypassedthroughherbody。Thethirditemofconsciousnesswasthatofseeingthesamesword,perfectlycleanandfreefrombloodheldverticallyinTroy’shandinthepositiontechnicallycalled`recoverswords’。Allwasasquickaselectricity。
`Oh!’shecriedoutinaffright,pressingherhandtoherside。`Haveyourunmethrough?-no,youhavenot!Whateverhaveyoudone!’
`Ihavenottouchedyou,’saidTroyquietly。`Itwasmeresleightofhand。Theswordpassedbehindyou。Nowyouarenotafraid,areyou?BecauseifyouareIcan’tperform。IgivemywordthatIwillnotonlynothurtyou,butnotoncetouchyou。’
`Idon’tthinkIamafraid。Youarequitesureyouwillnothurtme?’
`Quitesure。’
`Istheswordverysharp?’
`Ono-onlystandasstillasastatue。Now!’InaninstanttheatmospherewastransformedtoBathsheba’seyes。
Beamsoflightcaughtfromthelowsun’srays,above,around,infrontofher,well-nighshutoutearthandheaven-allemittedinthemarvellousevolutionsofTroy’sreflectingblade,whichseemedeverywhereatonce,andyetnowherespecially。Thesecirclinggleamswereaccompaniedbyakeenrushthatwasalmostawhistling-alsospringingfromallsidesofheratonce。Inshort,shewasenclosedinafirmamentoflight,andofsharphisses,resemblingasky-fullofmeteorscloseathand。
NeversincethebroadswordbecamethenationalweaponhadtherebeenmoredexterityshowninitsmanagementthanbythehandsofSergeantTroy,andneverhadhebeeninsuchsplendidtemperfortheperformanceasnowintheeveningsunshineamongthefernswithBathsheba。Itmaysafelybeassertedwithrespecttotheclosenessofhiscuts,thathaditbeenpossiblefortheedgeoftheswordtoleaveintheairapermanentsubstancewhereveritflewpast,thespaceleftuntouchedwouldhavebeenalmostamouldofBathsheba’sfigure。
Behindtheluminousstreamsofthisauroramilitaris,shecouldseethehueofTroy’sswordarm,spreadinascarlethazeoverthespacecoveredbyitsmotions,likeatwangedharpstring,andbehindallToyhimselfmostlyfacingher;sometimes,toshowtherearcuts,half-turnedaway,hiseyeneverthelessalwayskeenlymeasuringherbreadthandoutline,andhislipstightlyclosedinsustainedeffort。Next,hismovementslapsedslower,andshecouldseethemindividually。Thehissingoftheswordhadceased,andhestoppedentirely。
`Thatouterlooselockofhairwantstidying,’hesaid,beforeshehadmovedorspoken。`Wait:I’lldoitforyou。’
Anarcofsilvershoneonherrightside:theswordhaddescended。Thelockdroppedtotheground。
`Bravelyborne!’saidTroy。`Youdidn’tflinchashade’sthickness。
Wonderfulinawoman!’
`ItwasbecauseIdidn’texpectit。O,youhavespoiltmyhair!’
`Onlyoncemore。`No-no!Iamafraidofyou-indeedIam!’shecried。
`Iwon’ttouchyouatall-notevenyourhair。Iamonlygoingtokillthatcaterpillarsettlingonyou。Now:still!’
Itappearedthatacaterpillarhadcomefromthefernandchosenthefrontofherbodiceashisrestingplace。Shesawthepointglistentowardsherbosom,andseeminglyenterit。Bathshebaclosedhereyesinthefullpersuasionthatshewaskilledatlast。However,feelingjustasusual,sheopenedthemagain。
`Thereitis,look,’saidthesergeant,holdinghisswordbeforehereyes。Thecaterpillarwasspitteduponitspoint。`Why,itismagic!’saidBathsheba,amazed。`Ono-dexterity。Imerelygavepointtoyourbosomwherethecaterpillarwas,andinsteadofrunningyouthroughcheckedtheextensionathousandthofaninchshortofyoursurface。’
`Buthowcouldyouchopoffacurlofmyhairwithaswordthathasnoedge?’
`Noedge!Thisswordwillshavelikearazor。Lookhere。’
Hetouchedthepalmofhishandwiththeblade,andthenliftingit,showedherathinshavingofscarfskindanglingtherefrom。
`Butyousaidbeforebeginningthatitwasbluntandcouldn’tcutme!’
`Thatwastogetyoutostandstill,andsomakesureofyoursafety。
Theriskofinjuringyouthroughyourmovingwastoogreatnottoforcemetotellyouafibtoescapeit。’
Sheshuddered。`Ihavebeenwithinaninchofmylife,anddidn’tknowit!’
`Morepreciselyspeaking,youhavebeenwithinhalfaninchofbeingparedalivetwohundredandninety-fivetimes。’
`Cruel,cruel,’tisofyou!’
`Youhavebeenperfectlysafe,nevertheless。Myswordnevererrs。’AndTroyreturnedtheweapontothescabbard。
Bathsheba,overcomebyahundredtumultuousfeelingsresultingfromthescene,abstractedlysatdownonatuftofheather。
`Imustleaveyounow,’saidToysoftly。`AndI’llventuretotakeandkeepthisinremembranceofyou。
Shesawhimstooptothegrass,pickupthewindinglockwhichhehadseveredfromhermanifoldtresses,twistitroundhisfingers,unfastenabuttoninthebreastofhiscoat,andcarefullyputitinside。Shefeltpowerlesstowithstandordenyhim。Hewasaltogethertoomuchforher,andBathshebaseemedasonewho,facingarevivingwind,findsitblowsostronglythatitstopsthebreath。
Hedrewnearandsaid,`Imustbeleavingyou。’Hedrewnearerstill。
Aminutelaterandshesawhisscarletformdisappearamidthefernythicket,almostinaflash,likeabrandswiftlywaved。
Thatminute’sintervalhadbroughtthebloodbeatingintoherface,setherstingingasifaflametotheveryhollowsofherfeet,andenlargedemotiontoacompasswhichquiteswampedthought。Ithadbroughtuponherastrokeresulting,asdidthatofMosesinHoreb,inaliquidstream-
hereastreamoftears。Shefeltlikeonewhohassinnedagreatsin。
ThecircumstancehadbeenthegentledipofTroy’smouthdownwardsuponherown。Hehadkissedher。
CHAPTERTWENTY-NINEParticularsofaTwilightWalkWenowseetheelementoffollydistinctlyminglingwiththemanyvaryingparticularswhichmadeupthecharacterofBathshebaEverdene。Itwasalmostforeigntoherintrinsicnature。IntroducedaslymphonthedartofErositeventuallypermeatedandcolouredherwholeconstitution。Bathsheba,thoughshehadtoomuchunderstandingtobeentirelygovernedbyherwomanliness,hadtoomuchwomanlinesstouseherunderstandingtothebestadvantage。
Perhapsinnominorpointdoeswomanastonishherhelpmatemorethaninthestrangepowershepossessesofbelievingcajoleriesthatsheknowstobefalse-except,indeed,inthatofbeingutterlyscepticalonstricturesthatsheknowstobetrue。
BathshebalovedTroyinthewaythatonlyself-reliantwomenlovewhentheyabandontheirself-reliance。Whenastrongwomanrecklesslythrowsawayherstrengthsheisworsethanaweakwomanwhohasneverhadanystrengthtothrowaway。Onesourceofherinadequacyisthenoveltyoftheoccasion。Shehasneverhadpracticeinmakingthebestofsuchacondition。
Weaknessisdoublyweakbybeingnew。
Bathshebawasnotconsciousofguileinthismatter。Thoughinonesenseawomanoftheworld,itwas,afterall,thatworldofdaylightcoteriesandgreencarpetswhereincattleformthepassingcrowdandwindsthebusyhum;whereaquietfamilyofrabbitsorhareslivesontheothersideofyourparty-wall,whereyourneighbouriseverybodyinthetything,andwherecalculationisconfinedtomarket-days。Ofthefabricatedtastesofgoodfashionablesocietysheknewbutlittle,andoftheformulatedself-indulgenceofbad,nothingatall。Hadherutmostthoughtsinthisdirectionbeendistinctlywordedandbyherselftheyneverwere,theywouldonlyhaveamountedtosuchamatterasthatshefeltherimpulsestobepleasanterguidesthanherdiscretion。Herlovewasentireasachild’s,andthoughwarmassummeritwasfreshasspring。Herculpabilitylayinhermakingnoattempttocontrolfeelingbysubtleandcarefulinquiryintoconsequences。Shecouldshowothersthesteepandthornyway,but`reck’dnotherownrede’。
AndTroy’sdeformitieslaydeepdownfromawoman’svision,whilsthisembellishmentswereupontheverysurface;thuscontrastingwithhomelyOak,whosedefectswerepatenttotheblindest,andwhosevirtueswereasmetalsinamine。
Thedifferencebetweenloveandrespectwasmarkedlyshowninherconduct。
BathshebahadspokenofherinterestinBoldwoodwiththegreatestfreedomtoLiddy,butshehadonlycommunedwithherownheartconcerningTroy。
AllthisinfatuationGabrielsaw,andwastroubledtherebyfromthetimeofhisdailyjourneya-fieldtothetimeofhisreturn,andontothesmallhoursofmanyanight。Thathewannotbelovedhadhithertobeenhisgreatsorrow;thatBathshebawasgettingintothetoilswasnowasorrowgreaterthanthefirst,andonewhichnearlyobscuredit。Itwasaresultwhichparalleledtheoft-quotedobservationofHippocratesconcerningphysicalpains。
Thatisanoblethoughperhapsanunpromisinglovewhichnoteventhefearofbreedingaversioninthebosomoftheonebelovedcandeterfromcombatinghisorhererrors。Oakdeterminedtospeaktohismistress。HewouldbasehisappealonwhatheconsideredherunfairtreatmentofFarmerBoldwood,nowabsentfromhome。
Anopportunityoccurredoneeveningwhenshehadgoneforashortwalkbyapaththroughtheneighboringcornfields。ItwasduskwhenOak,whohadnotbeenfara-fieldthatday,tookthesamepathandmetherreturning,quitepensively,ashethought。
Thewheatwasnowtall,andthepathwasnarrow;thusthewaywasquiteasunkengroovebetweentheembowingthicketoneitherside。Twopersonscouldnotwalkabreastwithoutdamagingthecrop,andOakstoodasidetoletherpass。
`Oh,isitGabriel?’shesaid。`Youaretakingawalktoo。Good-night。’
`IthoughtIwouldcometomeetyou,asitisratherlate,’saidOak,turningandfollowingatherheelswhenshehadbrushedsomewhatquicklybyhim。
`Thankyou,indeed,butIamnotveryfearful。’
`Ono;buttherearebadcharactersabout。’
`Inevermeetthem。’