Granicestoppedspeakingandlookedacrossthesmoke-fumesathislistener;butDenver'sfaceremainedinscrutable。
Atlengthhesaid:“Whydidyouwanttotellmethis?”
ThequestionstartledGranice。Hewasabouttoexplain,ashehadexplainedtoAscham;butsuddenlyitoccurredtohimthatifhismotivehadnotseemedconvincingtothelawyeritwouldcarrymuchlessweightwithDenver。Bothweresuccessfulmen,andsuccessdoesnotunderstandthesubtleagonyoffailure。Granicecastaboutforanotherreason。
“Why,I——thethinghauntsme……remorse,Isupposeyou'dcallit……“
Denverstrucktheashesfromhisemptypipe。
“Remorse?Bosh!”hesaidenergetically。
Granice'sheartsank。“Youdon'tbelievein——REMORSE?”
“Notanatom:inthemanofaction。Themerefactofyourtalkingofremorseprovestomethatyou'renotthemantohaveplannedandputthroughsuchajob。“
Granicegroaned。“Well——Iliedtoyouaboutremorse。I'veneverfeltany。“
Denver'slipstightenedscepticallyabouthisfreshly-filledpipe。“Whatwasyourmotive,then?Youmusthavehadone。“
“I'lltellyou——“AndGranicebeganagaintorehearsethestoryofhisfailure,ofhisloathingforlife。“Don'tsayyoudon'tbelievemethistime……thatthisisn'tarealreason!”hestammeredoutpiteouslyasheended。
Denvermeditated。“No,Iwon'tsaythat。I'veseentoomanyqueerthings。There'salwaysareasonforwantingtogetoutoflife——thewonderisthatwefindsomanyforstayingin!”
Granice'sheartgrewlight。“ThenyouDObelieveme?”hefaltered。
“Believethatyou'resickofthejob?Yes。Andthatyouhaven'tthenervetopullthetrigger?Oh,yes——that'seasyenough,too。
Butallthatdoesn'tmakeyouamurderer——thoughIdon'tsayitprovesyoucouldneverhavebeenone。“
“IHAVEbeenone,Denver——Isweartoyou。“
“Perhaps。“Hemeditated。“Justtellmeoneortwothings。“
“Oh,goahead。Youwon'tstumpme!”Graniceheardhimselfsaywithalaugh。
“Well——howdidyoumakeallthosetrialtripswithoutexcitingyoursister'scuriosity?Iknewyournighthabitsprettywellatthattime,remember。Youwereveryseldomoutlate。Didn'tthechangeinyourwayssurpriseher?”
“No;becauseshewasawayatthetime。ShewenttopayseveralvisitsinthecountrysoonafterwecamebackfromWrenfield,andwasonlyintownforanightortwobefore——beforeIdidthejob。“
“Andthatnightshewenttobedearlywithaheadache?”
“Yes——blinding。Shedidn'tknowanythingwhenshehadthatkind。
Andherroomwasatthebackoftheflat。“
Denveragainmeditated。“Andwhenyougotback——shedidn'thearyou?Yougotinwithoutherknowingit?”
“Yes。Iwentstraighttomywork——tookitupatthewordwhereI'dleftoff——WHY,DENVER,DON'TYOUREMEMBER?”Granicesuddenly,passionatelyinterjected。
“Remember——?”
“Yes;howyoufoundme——whenyoulookedinthatmorning,betweentwoandthree……yourusualhour……?”
“Yes,“theeditornodded。
Granicegaveashortlaugh。“Inmyoldcoat——withmypipe:
lookedasifI'dbeenworkingallnight,didn'tI?Well,I
hadn'tbeeninmychairtenminutes!”
Denveruncrossedhislegsandthencrossedthemagain。“Ididn'tknowwhetherYOUrememberedthat。“
“What?”
“Mycominginthatparticularnight——ormorning。“
Graniceswungroundinhischair。“Why,manalive!That'swhyI'mherenow。Becauseitwasyouwhospokeformeattheinquest,whentheylookedroundtoseewhatalltheoldman'sheirshadbeendoingthatnight——youwhotestifiedtohavingdroppedinandfoundmeatmydeskasusual……IthoughtTHATwouldappealtoyourjournalisticsenseifnothingelsewould!”
Denversmiled。“Oh,myjournalisticsenseisstillsusceptibleenough——andtheidea'spicturesque,Igrantyou:askingthemanwhoprovedyouralibitoestablishyourguilt。“
“That'sit——that'sit!”Granice'slaughhadaringoftriumph。
“Well,buthowabouttheotherchap'stestimony——Imeanthatyoungdoctor:whatwashisname?NedRanney。Don'tyouremembermytestifyingthatI'dmethimattheelevatedstation,andtoldhimIwasonmywaytosmokeapipewithyou,andhissaying:
'Allright;you'llfindhimin。Ipassedthehousetwohoursago,andsawhisshadowagainsttheblind,asusual。'Andtheladywiththetoothacheintheflatacrosstheway:shecorroboratedhisstatement,youremember。“
“Yes;Iremember。“
Well,then?”
“Simpleenough。BeforestartingIriggedupakindofmannikinwitholdcoatsandacushion——somethingtocastashadowontheblind。Allyoufellowswereusedtoseeingmyshadowthereinthesmallhours——Icountedonthat,andknewyou'dtakeanyvagueoutlineasmine。“
“Simpleenough,asyousay。Butthewomanwiththetoothachesawtheshadowmove——youremembershesaidshesawyousinkforward,asifyou'dfallenasleep。“
“Yes;andshewasright。ItDIDmove。Isupposesomeextra-
heavydraymusthavejoltedbytheflimsybuilding——atanyrate,somethinggavemymannikinajar,andwhenIcamebackhehadsunkforward,halfoverthetable。“
Therewasalongsilencebetweenthetwomen。Granice,withathrobbingheart,watchedDenverrefillhispipe。Theeditor,atanyrate,didnotsneerandflouthim。Afterall,journalismgaveadeeperinsightthanthelawintothefantasticpossibilitiesoflife,preparedonebettertoallowfortheincalculablenessofhumanimpulses。
“Well?”Granicefalteredout。
Denverstoodupwithashrug。“Lookhere,man——what'swrongwithyou?Makeacleanbreastofit!Nervesgonetosmash?I'dliketotakeyoutoseeachapIknow——anex-prize-fighter——who'sawonderatpullingfellowsinyourstateoutoftheirhole——“
“Oh,oh——“Granicebrokein。Hestoodupalso,andthetwomeneyedeachother。“Youdon'tbelieveme,then?”
“Thisyarn——howcanI?Therewasn'taflawinyouralibi。“
“Buthaven'tIfilleditfullofthemnow?”
Denvershookhishead。“ImightthinksoifIhadn'thappenedtoknowthatyouWANTEDto。There'sthehitch,don'tyousee?”
Granicegroaned。“No,Ididn't。Youmeanmywantingtobefoundguilty——?”
“Ofcourse!Ifsomebodyelsehadaccusedyou,thestorymighthavebeenworthlookinginto。Asitis,achildcouldhaveinventedit。Itdoesn'tdomuchcredittoyouringenuity。“
Graniceturnedsullenlytowardthedoor。Whatwastheuseofarguing?Butonthethresholdasuddenimpulsedrewhimback。
“Lookhere,Denver——Idaresayyou'reright。Butwillyoudojustonethingtoproveit?PutmystatementintheInvestigator,justasI'vemadeit。Ridiculeitasmuchasyoulike。Onlygivetheotherfellowsachanceatit——menwhodon'tknowanythingaboutme。Setthemtalkingandlookingabout。Idon'tcareadamnwhetherYOUbelieveme——whatIwantistoconvincetheGrandJury!Ioughtn'ttohavecometoamanwhoknowsme——
yourcursedincredulityisinfectious。Idon'tputmycasewell,becauseIknowinadvanceit'sdiscredited,andIalmostendbynotbelievingitmyself。That'swhyIcan'tconvinceYOU。It'saviciouscircle。“HelaidahandonDenver'sarm。“Sendastenographer,andputmystatementinthepaper。
ButDenverdidnotwarmtotheidea。“Mydearfellow,youseemtoforgetthatalltheevidencewasprettythoroughlysiftedatthetime,everypossiblecluefollowedup。ThepublicwouldhavebeenreadyenoughthentobelievethatyoumurderedoldLenman——
youoranybodyelse。Alltheywantedwasamurderer——themostimprobablewouldhaveserved。Butyouralibiwastooconfoundedlycomplete。Andnothingyou'vetoldmehasshakenit。“Denverlaidhiscoolhandovertheother'sburningfingers。
“Lookhere,oldfellow,gohomeandworkupabettercase——thencomeinandsubmitittotheInvestigator。“
IV
TheperspirationwasrollingoffGranice'sforehead。Everyfewminuteshehadtodrawouthishandkerchiefandwipethemoisturefromhishaggardface。
Foranhourandahalfhehadbeentalkingsteadily,puttinghiscasetotheDistrictAttorney。LuckilyhehadaspeakingacquaintancewithAllonby,andhadobtained,withoutmuchdifficulty,aprivateaudienceontheverydayafterhistalkwithRobertDenver。Intheintervalbetweenhehadhurriedhome,gotoutofhiseveningclothes,andgoneforthagainatonceintothedrearydawn。HisfearofAschamandthealienistmadeitimpossibleforhimtoremaininhisrooms。Anditseemedtohimthattheonlywayofavertingthathideousperilwasbyestablishing,insomesaneimpartialmind,theproofofhisguilt。Evenifhehadnotbeensoincurablysickoflife,theelectricchairseemednowtheonlyalternativetothestrait-
jacket。
AshepausedtowipehisforeheadhesawtheDistrictAttorneyglanceathiswatch。Thegesturewassignificant,andGraniceliftedanappealinghand。“Idon'texpectyoutobelievemenow——
butcan'tyouputmeunderarrest,andhavethethinglookedinto?”
Allonbysmiledfaintlyunderhisheavygrayishmoustache。Hehadaruddyface,fullandjovial,inwhichhiskeenprofessionaleyesseemedtokeepwatchoverimpulsesnotstrictlyprofessional。
“Well,Idon'tknowthatweneedlockyouupjustyet。ButofcourseI'mboundtolookintoyourstatement——“
Granicerosewithanexquisitesenseofrelief。SurelyAllonbywouldn'thavesaidthatifhehadn'tbelievedhim!
“That'sallright。ThenIneedn'tdetainyou。Icanbefoundatanytimeatmyapartment。“Hegavetheaddress。
TheDistrictAttorneysmiledagain,moreopenly。“Whatdoyousaytoleavingitforanhourortwothisevening?I'mgivingalittlesupperatRector's——quiet,littleaffair,youunderstand:
justMissMelrose——Ithinkyouknowher——andafriendortwo;andifyou'lljoinus……“
Granicestumbledoutoftheofficewithoutknowingwhatreplyhehadmade。
Hewaitedforfourdays——fourdaysofconcentratedhorror。
Duringthefirsttwenty-fourhoursthefearofAscham'salienistdoggedhim;andasthatsubsided,itwasreplacedbytheexasperatingsensethathisavowalhadmadenoimpressionontheDistrictAttorney。Evidently,ifhehadbeengoingtolookintothecase,Allonbywouldhavebeenheardfrombeforenow……
Andthatmockinginvitationtosuppershowedclearlyenoughhowlittlethestoryhadimpressedhim!
Granicewasovercomebythefutilityofanyfartherattempttoinculpatehimself。Hewaschainedtolife——a“prisonerofconsciousness。“Wherewasithehadreadthephrase?Well,hewaslearningwhatitmeant。Intheglaringnight-hours,whenhisbrainseemedablaze,hewasvisitedbyasenseofhisfixedidentity,ofhisirreducible,inexpugnableSELFNESS,keener,moreinsidious,moreunescapable,thananysensationhehadeverknown。Hehadnotguessedthatthemindwascapableofsuchintricaciesofself-realization,ofpenetratingsodeepintoitsowndarkwindings。Oftenhewokefromhisbriefsnatchesofsleepwiththefeelingthatsomethingmaterialwasclingingtohim,wasonhishandsandface,andinhisthroat——andashisbrainclearedheunderstoodthatitwasthesenseofhisownloathedpersonalitythatstucktohimlikesomethickviscoussubstance。
Then,inthefirstmorninghours,hewouldriseandlookoutofhiswindowattheawakeningactivitiesofthestreet——atthestreet-cleaners,theash-cartdrivers,andtheotherdingyworkersflittinghurriedlybythroughthesallowwinterlight。
Oh,tobeoneofthem——anyofthem——totakehischanceinanyoftheirskins!Theywerethetoilers——themenwhoselotwaspitied——thevictimsweptoverandrantedaboutbyaltruistsandeconomists;andhowgladlyhewouldhavetakenuptheloadofanyoneofthem,ifonlyhemighthaveshakenoffhisown!But,no——
theironcircleofconsciousnessheldthemtoo:eachonewashand-cuffedtohisownhideousego。Whywishtobeanyonemanratherthananother?Theonlyabsolutegoodwasnottobe……
AndFlint,comingintodrawhisbath,wouldaskifhepreferredhiseggsscrambledorpoachedthatmorning?
OnthefifthdayhewrotealongurgentlettertoAllonby;andforthesucceedingtwodayshehadtheoccupationofwaitingforananswer。Hehardlystirredfromhisrooms,inhisfearofmissingtheletterbyamoment;butwouldtheDistrictAttorneywrite,orsendarepresentative:apoliceman,a“secretagent,“
orsomeothermysteriousemissaryofthelaw?
OnthethirdmorningFlint,steppingsoftly——asif,confoundit!
hismasterwereill——enteredthelibrarywhereGranicesatbehindanunreadnewspaper,andproferredacardonatray。
Granicereadthename——J。B。Hewson——andunderneath,inpencil,“FromtheDistrictAttorney'soffice。“Hestartedupwithathumpingheart,andsignedanassenttotheservant。
Mr。Hewsonwasaslightsallownondescriptmanofaboutfifty——
thekindofmanofwhomoneissuretoseeaspecimeninanycrowd。“Justthetypeofthesuccessfuldetective,“Granicereflectedasheshookhandswithhisvisitor。
AnditwasinthatcharacterthatMr。Hewsonbrieflyintroducedhimself。HehadbeensentbytheDistrictAttorneytohave“aquiettalk“withMr。Granice——toaskhimtorepeatthestatementhehadmadeabouttheLenmanmurder。
Hismannerwassoquiet,soreasonableandreceptive,thatGranice'sself-confidencereturned。Herewasasensibleman——amanwhoknewhisbusiness——itwouldbeeasyenoughtomakeHIM
seethroughthatridiculousalibi!GraniceofferedMr。Hewsonacigar,andlightingonehimself——toprovehiscoolness——beganagaintotellhisstory。
Hewasconscious,asheproceeded,oftellingitbetterthaneverbefore。Practicehelped,nodoubt;andhislistener'sdetached,impartialattitudehelpedstillmore。HecouldseethatHewson,atleast,hadnotdecidedinadvancetodisbelievehim,andthesenseofbeingtrustedmadehimmorelucidandmoreconsecutive。
Yes,thistimehiswordswouldcertainlycarryconviction……
V
Despairingly,Granicegazedupanddowntheshabbystreet。
Besidehimstoodayoungmanwithbrightprominenteyes,asmoothbutnottoosmoothly-shavenface,andanIrishsmile。Theyoungman'snimbleglancefollowedGranice's。
“Sureofthenumber,areyou?”heaskedbriskly。
“Oh,yes——itwas104。“
“Well,then,thenewbuildinghasswalloweditup——that'scertain。“
Hetiltedhisheadbackandsurveyedthehalf-finishedfrontofabrickandlimestoneflat-housethatreareditsflimsyeleganceabovearowoftotteringtenementsandstables。
“Deadsure?”herepeated。
“Yes,“saidGranice,discouraged。“AndevenifIhadn'tbeen,I
knowthegaragewasjustoppositeLeffler'soverthere。“Hepointedacrossthestreettoatumble-downstablewithablotchedsignonwhichthewords“LiveryandBoarding“werestillfaintlydiscernible。
Theyoungmandashedacrosstotheoppositepavement。“Well,that'ssomething——maygetacluethere。Leffler's——samenamethere,anyhow。Yourememberthatname?”
“Yes——distinctly。“
GranicehadfeltareturnofconfidencesincehehadenlistedtheinterestoftheExplorer's“smartest“reporter。Ifthereweremomentswhenhehardlybelievedhisownstory,therewereotherswhenitseemedimpossiblethateveryoneshouldnotbelieveit;
andyoungPeterMcCarren,peering,listening,questioning,jottingdownnotes,inspiredhimwithanexquisitesenseofsecurity。McCarrenhadfastenedonthecaseatonce,“likealeech,“ashephrasedit——jumpedatit,thrilledtoit,andsettleddownto“drawthelastdropoffactfromit,andhadnotletgotillhehad。“NooneelsehadtreatedGraniceinthatway——evenAllonby'sdetectivehadnottakenasinglenote。Andthoughaweekhadelapsedsincethevisitofthatauthorizedofficial,nothinghadbeenheardfromtheDistrictAttorney'soffice:Allonbyhadapparentlydroppedthematteragain。ButMcCarrenwasn'tgoingtodropit——nothe!HepositivelyhungonGranice'sfootsteps。Theyhadspentthegreaterpartofthepreviousdaytogether,andnowtheywereoffagain,runningdownclues。
ButatLeffler'stheygotnone,afterall。Leffler'swasnolongerastable。Itwascondemnedtodemolition,andintherespitebetweensentenceandexecutionithadbecomeavagueplaceofstorage,ahospitalforbroken-downcarriagesandcarts,presidedoverbyablear-eyedoldwomanwhoknewnothingofFlood'sgarageacrosstheway——didnotevenrememberwhathadstoodtherebeforethenewflat-housebegantorise。
“Well——wemayrunLefflerdownsomewhere;I'veseenharderjobsdone,“saidMcCarren,cheerfullynotingdownthename。
AstheywalkedbacktowardSixthAvenueheadded,inalesssanguinetone:“I'dundertakenowtoputthethingthroughifyoucouldonlyputmeonthetrackofthatcyanide。“
Granice'sheartsank。Yes——therewastheweakspot;hehadfeltitfromthefirst!ButhestillhopedtoconvinceMcCarrenthathiscasewasstrongenoughwithoutit;andheurgedthereportertocomebacktohisroomsandsumupthefactswithhimagain。
“Sorry,Mr。Granice,butI'mdueattheofficenow。Besides,it'dbenousetillIgetsomefreshstufftoworkon。SupposeI
callyouuptomorrowornextday?”
HeplungedintoatrolleyandleftGranicegazingdesolatelyafterhim。
Twodayslaterhereappearedattheapartment,ashadelessjauntyindemeanor。
“Well,Mr。Granice,thestarsintheircoursesareagainstyou,asthebardsays。Can'tgetatraceofFlood,orofLefflereither。AndyousayyouboughtthemotorthroughFlood,andsolditthroughhim,too?”
“Yes,“saidGranicewearily。
“Whoboughtit,doyouknow?”
Granicewrinkledhisbrows。“Why,Flood——yes,Floodhimself。I
solditbacktohimthreemonthslater。“
“Flood?Thedevil!AndI'veransackedthetownforFlood。Thatkindofbusinessdisappearsasiftheearthhadswallowedit。“
Granice,discouraged,keptsilence。
“Thatbringsusbacktothepoison,“McCarrencontinued,hisnote-bookout。“Justgooverthatagain,willyou?”
AndGranicewentoveritagain。Ithadallbeensosimpleatthetime——andhehadbeensocleverincoveringuphistraces!Assoonashedecidedonpoisonhelookedaboutforanacquaintancewhomanufacturedchemicals;andtherewasJimDawes,aHarvardclassmate,inthedyeingbusiness——justtheman。Butatthelastmomentitoccurredtohimthatsuspicionmightturntowardsoobviousanopportunity,andhedecidedonamoretortuouscourse。
Anotherfriend,CarrickVenn,astudentofmedicinewhomirremediableill-healthhadkeptfromthepracticeofhisprofession,amusedhisleisurewithexperimentsinphysics,fortheexerciseofwhichhehadsetupasimplelaboratory。GranicehadthehabitofdroppingintosmokeacigarwithhimonSundayafternoons,andthefriendsgenerallysatinVenn'swork-shop,atthebackoftheoldfamilyhouseinStuyvesantSquare。Offthiswork-shopwasthecupboardofsupplies,withitsrowofdeadlybottles。CarrickVennwasanoriginal,amanofrestlesscurioustastes,andhisplace,onaSunday,wasoftenfullofvisitors:acheerfulcrowdofjournalists,scribblers,painters,experimentersindiversformsofexpression。Comingandgoingamongsomany,itwaseasyenoughtopassunperceived;andoneafternoonGranice,arrivingbeforeVennhadreturnedhome,foundhimselfaloneinthework-shop,andquicklyslippingintothecupboard,transferredthedrugtohispocket。
Butthathadhappenedtenyearsago;andVenn,poorfellow,waslongsincedeadofhisdraggingailment。Hisoldfatherwasdead,too,thehouseinStuyvesantSquarehadbeenturnedintoaboarding-house,andtheshiftinglifeofNewYorkhadpasseditsrapidspongeovereverytraceoftheirobscurelittlehistory。
EventheoptimisticMcCarrenseemedtoacknowledgethehopelessnessofseekingforproofinthatdirection。
“Andthere'sthethirddoorslammedinourfaces。“Heshuthisnote-book,andthrowingbackhishead,restedhisbrightinquisitiveeyesonGranice'sfurrowedface。
“Lookhere,Mr。Granice——youseetheweakspot,don'tyou?”
Theothermadeadespairingmotion。“Iseesomany!”
“Yes:buttheonethatweakensalltheothers。Whythedeucedoyouwantthisthingknown?Whydoyouwanttoputyourheadintothenoose?”
Granicelookedathimhopelessly,tryingtotakethemeasureofhisquicklightirreverentmind。Noonesofullofacheerfulanimallifewouldbelieveinthecravingfordeathasasufficientmotive;andGranicerackedhisbrainforonemoreconvincing。Butsuddenlyhesawthereporter'sfacesoften,andmelttoanaivesentimentalism。
“Mr。Granice——hasthememoryofitalwayshauntedyou?”
Granicestaredamoment,andthenleaptattheopening。“That'sit——thememoryofit……always……“
McCarrennoddedvehemently。“Doggedyoursteps,eh?Wouldn'tletyousleep?ThetimecamewhenyouHADtomakeacleanbreastofit?”
“Ihadto。Can'tyouunderstand?”
Thereporterstruckhisfistonthetable。“God,sir!Idon'tsupposethere'sahumanbeingwithadropofwarmbloodinhimthatcan'tpicturethedeadlyhorrorsofremorse——“
TheCelticimaginationwasaflame,andGranicemutelythankedhimfortheword。WhatneitherAschamnorDenverwouldacceptasaconceivablemotivetheIrishreporterseizedonasthemostadequate;and,ashesaid,onceonecouldfindaconvincingmotive,thedifficultiesofthecasebecamesomanyincentivestoeffort。
“Remorse——REMORSE,“herepeated,rollingthewordunderhistonguewithanaccentthatwasacluetothepsychologyofthepopulardrama;andGranice,perversely,saidtohimself:“IfI
couldonlyhavestruckthatnoteIshouldhavebeenrunninginsixtheatresatonce。“
HesawthatfromthatmomentMcCarren'sprofessionalzealwouldbefannedbyemotionalcuriosity;andheprofitedbythefacttoproposethattheyshoulddinetogether,andgoonafterwardtosomemusic-hallortheatre。ItwasbecomingnecessarytoGranicetofeelhimselfanobjectofpre-occupation,tofindhimselfinanothermind。HetookakindofgraypenumbralpleasureinrivetingMcCarren'sattentiononhiscase;andtofeignthegrimacesofmoralanguishbecameapassionatelyengrossinggame。
Hehadnotenteredatheatreformonths;buthesatoutthemeaninglessperformanceinrigidtolerance,sustainedbythesenseofthereporter'sobservation。
Betweentheacts,McCarrenamusedhimwithanecdotesabouttheaudience:hekneweveryonebysight,andcouldliftthecurtainfromeveryphysiognomy。Granicelistenedindulgently。Hehadlostallinterestinhiskind,butheknewthathewashimselftherealcentreofMcCarren'sattention,andthateverywordthelatterspokehadanindirectbearingonhisownproblem。
“Seethatfellowoverthere——thelittledried-upmaninthethirdrow,pullinghismoustache?HISmemoirswouldbeworthpublishing,“McCarrensaidsuddenlyinthelastentr'acte。
Granice,followinghisglance,recognizedthedetectivefromAllonby'soffice。Foramomenthehadthethrillingsensethathewasbeingshadowed。
“Caesar,ifHEcouldtalk——!”McCarrencontinued。“Knowwhoheis,ofcourse?Dr。JohnB。Stell,thebiggestalienistinthecountry——“
Granice,withastart,bentagainbetweentheheadsinfrontofhim。“THATman——thefourthfromtheaisle?You'remistaken。
That'snotDr。Stell。“
McCarrenlaughed。“Well,IguessI'vebeenincourtenoughtoknowStellwhenIseehim。Hetestifiesinnearlyallthebigcaseswheretheypleadinsanity。“
AcoldshiverrandownGranice'sspine,butherepeatedobstinately:“That'snotDr。Stell。“
“NotStell?Why,man,IKNOWhim。Look——herehecomes。Ifitisn'tStell,hewon'tspeaktome。“
Thelittledried-upmanwasmovingslowlyuptheaisle。AshenearedMcCarrenhemadeaslightgestureofrecognition。
“How'do,DoctorStell?Prettyslimshow,ain'tit?”thereportercheerfullyflungoutathim。AndMr。J。B。Hewson,withanodofamicableassent,passedon。
Granicesatbenumbed。Heknewhehadnotbeenmistaken——themanwhohadjustpassedwasthesamemanwhomAllonbyhadsenttoseehim:aphysiciandisguisedasadetective。Allonby,then,hadthoughthiminsane,liketheothers——hadregardedhisconfessionasthemaunderingofamaniac。ThediscoveryfrozeGranicewithhorror——heseemedtoseethemad-housegapingforhim。
“Isn'tthereamanagooddeallikehim——adetectivenamedJ。B。
Hewson?”
ButheknewinadvancewhatMcCarren'sanswerwouldbe。“Hewson?
J。B。Hewson?Neverheardofhim。ButthatwasJ。B。Stellfastenough——Iguesshecanbetrustedtoknowhimself,andyousawheansweredtohisname。“
VI
SomedayspassedbeforeGranicecouldobtainawordwiththeDistrictAttorney:hebegantothinkthatAllonbyavoidedhim。
ButwhentheywerefacetofaceAllonby'sjovialcountenanceshowednosignofembarrassment。Hewavedhisvisitortoachair,andleanedacrosshisdeskwiththeencouragingsmileofaconsultingphysician。
Granicebrokeoutatonce:“Thatdetectiveyousentmetheotherday——“
Allonbyraisedadeprecatinghand。
“——Iknow:itwasStellthealienist。Whydidyoudothat,Allonby?”
Theother'sfacedidnotloseitscomposure。“BecauseIlookedupyourstoryfirst——andthere'snothinginit。“
“Nothinginit?”Granicefuriouslyinterposed。
“Absolutelynothing。Ifthereis,whythedeucedon'tyoubringmeproofs?Iknowyou'vebeentalkingtoPeterAscham,andtoDenver,andtothatlittleferretMcCarrenoftheExplorer。Haveanyofthembeenabletomakeoutacaseforyou?No。Well,whatamItodo?”
Granice'slipsbegantotremble。“Whydidyouplaymethattrick?”
“AboutStell?Ihadto,mydearfellow:it'spartofmybusiness。StellISadetective,ifyoucometothat——everydoctoris。“
ThetremblingofGranice'slipsincreased,communicatingitselfinalongquivertohisfacialmuscles。Heforcedalaughthroughhisdrythroat。“Well——andwhatdidhedetect?”
“Inyou?Oh,hethinksit'soverwork——overworkandtoomuchsmoking。Ifyoulookinonhimsomedayathisofficehe'llshowyoutherecordofhundredsofcaseslikeyours,andadviseyouwhattreatmenttofollow。It'soneofthecommonestformsofhallucination。Haveacigar,allthesame。“
“But,Allonby,Ikilledthatman!”
TheDistrictAttorney'slargehand,outstretchedonhisdesk,hadanalmostimperceptiblegesture,andamomentlater,asifananswertothecallofanelectricbell,aclerklookedinfromtheouteroffice。
“Sorry,mydearfellow——lotofpeoplewaiting。DropinonStellsomemorning,“Allonbysaid,shakinghands。
McCarrenhadtoownhimselfbeaten:therewasabsolutelynoflawinthealibi。Andsincehisdutytohisjournalobviouslyforbadehiswastingtimeoninsolublemysteries,heceasedtofrequentGranice,whodroppedbackintoadeeperisolation。ForadayortwoafterhisvisittoAllonbyhecontinuedtoliveindreadofDr。Stell。WhymightnotAllonbyhavedeceivedhimastothealienist'sdiagnosis?Whatifhewerereallybeingshadowed,notbyapoliceagentbutbyamad-doctor?Tohavethetruthout,hesuddenlydeterminedtocallonDr。Stell。
Thephysicianreceivedhimkindly,andrevertedwithoutembarrassmenttotheconditionsoftheirpreviousmeeting。“Wehavetodothatoccasionally,Mr。Granice;it'soneofourmethods。AndyouhadgivenAllonbyafright。“
Granicewassilent。Hewouldhavelikedtoreaffirmhisguilt,toproducethefreshargumentswhichhadoccurredtohimsincehislasttalkwiththephysician;buthefearedhiseagernessmightbetakenforasymptomofderangement,andheaffectedtosmileawayDr。Stell'sallusion。
“Youthink,then,it'sacaseofbrain-fag——nothingmore?”
“Nothingmore。AndIshouldadviseyoutoknockofftobacco。
Yousmokeagooddeal,don'tyou?”
Hedevelopedhistreatment,recommendingmassage,gymnastics,travel,oranyformofdiversionthatdidnot——thatinshort——
Graniceinterruptedhimimpatiently。“Oh,Iloatheallthat——andI'msickoftravelling。“
“H'm。Thensomelargerinterest——politics,reform,philanthropy?
Somethingtotakeyououtofyourself。“
“Yes。Iunderstand,“saidGranicewearily。
“Aboveall,don'tloseheart。Iseehundredsofcaseslikeyours,“thedoctoraddedcheerfullyfromthethreshold。
OnthedoorstepGranicestoodstillandlaughed。Hundredsofcaseslikehis——thecaseofamanwhohadcommittedamurder,whoconfessedhisguilt,andwhomnoonewouldbelieve!Why,therehadneverbeenacaselikeitintheworld。WhatagoodfigureStellwouldhavemadeinaplay:thegreatalienistwhocouldn'treadaman'smindanybetterthanthat!
Granicesawhugecomicopportunitiesinthetype。
Butashewalkedaway,hisfearsdispelled,thesenseoflistlessnessreturnedonhim。ForthefirsttimesincehisavowaltoPeterAschamhefoundhimselfwithoutanoccupation,andunderstoodthathehadbeencarriedthroughthepastweeksonlybythenecessityofconstantaction。Nowhislifehadoncemorebecomeastagnantbackwater,andashestoodonthestreetcornerwatchingthetidesoftrafficsweepby,heaskedhimselfdespairinglyhowmuchlongerhecouldenduretofloataboutinthesluggishcircleofhisconsciousness。
Thethoughtofself-destructionrecurredtohim;butagainhisfleshrecoiled。Heyearnedfordeathfromotherhands,buthecouldnevertakeitfromhisown。And,asidefromhisinsuperablephysicalreluctance,anothermotiverestrainedhim。
Hewaspossessedbythedoggeddesiretoestablishthetruthofhisstory。Herefusedtobesweptasideasanirresponsibledreamer——evenifhehadtokillhimselfintheend,hewouldnotdosobeforeprovingtosocietythathehaddeserveddeathfromit。
Hebegantowritelongletterstothepapers;butafterthefirsthadbeenpublishedandcommentedon,publiccuriositywasquelledbyabriefstatementfromtheDistrictAttorney'soffice,andtherestofhiscommunicationsremainedunprinted。Aschamcametoseehim,andbeggedhimtotravel。RobertDenverdroppedin,andtriedtojokehimoutofhisdelusion;tillGranice,mistrustfuloftheirmotives,begantodreadthereappearanceofDr。Stell,andsetaguardonhislips。Butthewordshekeptbackengenderedothersandstillothersinhisbrain。Hisinnerselfbecameahummingfactoryofarguments,andhespentlonghoursrecitingandwritingdownelaboratestatementsofhiscrime,whichheconstantlyretouchedanddeveloped。Thengraduallyhisactivitylanguishedunderthelackofanaudience,thesenseofbeingburiedbeneathdeepeningdriftsofindifference。Inapassionofresentmenthesworethathewouldprovehimselfamurderer,evenifhehadtocommitanothercrimetodoit;andforasleeplessnightortwothethoughtflamedredonhisdarkness。Butdaylightdispelledit。Thedeterminingimpulsewaslackingandhehatedtoopromiscuouslytochoosehisvictim……
Sohewasthrownbackontheunavailingstruggletoimposethetruthofhisstory。Asfastasonechannelclosedonhimhetriedtopierceanotherthroughtheslidingsandsofincredulity。
Buteveryissueseemedblocked,andthewholehumanraceleaguedtogethertocheatonemanoftherighttodie。
Thusviewed,thesituationbecamesomonstrousthathelosthislastshredofself-restraintincontemplatingit。Whatifhewerereallythevictimofsomemockingexperiment,thecentreofaringofholiday-makersjeeringatapoorcreatureinitsblinddashesagainstthesolidwallsofconsciousness?But,no——menwerenotsouniformlycruel:therewereflawsintheclosesurfaceoftheirindifference,cracksofweaknessandpityhereandthere……
Granicebegantothinkthathismistakelayinhavingappealedtopersonsmoreorlessfamiliarwithhispast,andtowhomthevisibleconformitiesofhislifeseemedafinaldisproofofitsonefiercesecretdeviation。Thegeneraltendencywastotakeforthewholeoflifetheslitseenbetweentheblindersofhabit:andinhiswalkdownthatnarrowvistaGranicecutacorrectenoughfigure。Toavisionfreetofollowhiswholeorbithisstorywouldbemoreintelligible:itwouldbeeasiertoconvinceachanceidlerinthestreetthanthetrainedintelligencehamperedbyasenseofhisantecedents。Thisideashotupinhimwiththetropicluxurianceofeachnewseedofthought,andhebegantowalkthestreets,andtofrequentout-
of-the-waychop-housesandbarsinhissearchfortheimpartialstrangertowhomheshoulddisclosehimself。
Atfirsteveryfacelookedencouragement;butatthecrucialmomenthealwaysheldback。Somuchwasatstake,anditwassoessentialthathisfirstchoiceshouldbedecisive。Hedreadedstupidity,timidity,intolerance。Theimaginativeeye,thefurrowedbrow,werewhathesought。Hemustrevealhimselfonlytoaheartversedinthetortuousmotionsofthehumanwill;andhebegantohatethedullbenevolenceoftheaverageface。Onceortwice,obscurely,allusively,hemadeabeginning——oncesittingdownataman'ssideinabasementchop-house,anotherdayapproachingaloungeronaneast-sidewharf。Butinbothcasesthepremonitionoffailurecheckedhimonthebrinkofavowal。Hisdreadofbeingtakenforamanintheclutchofafixedideagavehimanunnaturalkeennessinreadingtheexpressionofhisinterlocutors,andhehadprovidedhimselfinadvancewithaseriesofverbalalternatives,trap-doorsofevasionfromthefirstdartofridiculeorsuspicion。
Hepassedthegreaterpartofthedayinthestreets,cominghomeatirregularhours,dreadingthesilenceandorderlinessofhisapartment,andthecriticalscrutinyofFlint。Hisreallifewasspentinaworldsoremotefromthisfamiliarsettingthathesometimeshadthemysterioussenseofalivingmetempsychosis,afurtivepassagefromoneidentitytoanother——yettheotherasunescapablyhimself!
Onehumiliationhewasspared:thedesiretoliveneverrevivedinhim。Notforamomentwashetemptedtoashabbypactwithexistingconditions。Hewantedtodie,wanteditwiththefixedunwaveringdesirewhichaloneattainsitsend。Andstilltheendeludedhim!Itwouldnotalways,ofcourse——hehadfullfaithinthedarkstarofhisdestiny。Andhecouldproveitbestbyrepeatinghisstory,persistentlyandindefatigably,pouringitintoindifferentears,hammeringitintodullbrains,tillatlastitkindledaspark,andsomeoneofthecarelessmillionspaused,listened,believed……
ItwasamildMarchday,andhehadbeenloiteringonthewest-
sidedocks,lookingatfaces。Hewasbecominganexpertinphysiognomies:hiseagernessnolongermaderashdartsandawkwardrecoils。Heknewnowthefaceheneeded,asclearlyasifithadcometohiminavision;andnottillhefounditwouldhespeak。Ashewalkedeastwardthroughtheshabbyreekingstreetshehadapremonitionthatheshouldfinditthatmorning。
Perhapsitwasthepromiseofspringintheair——certainlyhefeltcalmerthanformanydays……
HeturnedintoWashingtonSquare,struckacrossitobliquely,andwalkedupUniversityPlace。Itsheterogeneouspassersalwaysalluredhim——theywerelesshurriedthaninBroadway,lessenclosedandclassifiedthaninFifthAvenue。Hewalkedslowly,watchingforhisface。
AtUnionSquarehefeltasuddenrelapseintodiscouragement,likeavotarywhohaswatchedtoolongforasignfromthealtar。
Perhaps,afterall,heshouldneverfindhisface……Theairwaslanguid,andhefelttired。Hewalkedbetweenthebaldgrass-plotsandthetwistedtrees,makingforanemptyseat。
Presentlyhepassedabenchonwhichagirlsatalone,andsomethingasdefiniteasthetwitchofacordmadehimstopbeforeher。Hehadneverdreamedoftellinghisstorytoagirl,hadhardlylookedatthewomen'sfacesastheypassed。Hiscasewasman'swork:howcouldawomanhelphim?Butthisgirl'sfacewasextraordinary——quietandwideasacleareveningsky。Itsuggestedahundredimagesofspace,distance,mystery,likeshipshehadseen,asaboy,quietlyberthedbyafamiliarwharf,butwiththebreathoffarseasandstrangeharboursintheirshrouds……Certainlythisgirlwouldunderstand。Hewentuptoherquietly,liftinghishat,observingtheforms——wishinghertoseeatoncethathewas“agentleman。“
“Iamastrangertoyou,“hebegan,sittingdownbesideher,“butyourfaceissoextremelyintelligentthatIfeel……IfeelitisthefaceI'vewaitedfor……lookedforeverywhere;andI
wanttotellyou——“
Thegirl'seyeswidened:sherosetoherfeet。Shewasescapinghim!
Inhisdismayheranafewstepsafterher,andcaughtherroughlybythearm。
“Here——wait——listen!Oh,don'tscream,youfool!”heshoutedout。
Hefeltahandonhisownarm;turnedandconfrontedapoliceman。
Instantlyheunderstoodthathewasbeingarrested,andsomethinghardwithinhimwasloosenedandrantotears。
“Ah,youknow——youKNOWI'mguilty!”
Hewasconsciousthatacrowdwasforming,andthatthegirl'sfrightenedfacehaddisappeared。Butwhatdidhecareaboutherface?Itwasthepolicemanwhohadreallyunderstoodhim。Heturnedandfollowed,thecrowdathisheels……
VII
Inthecharmingplaceinwhichhefoundhimselfthereweresomanysympatheticfacesthathefeltmorethaneverconvincedofthecertaintyofmakinghimselfheard。
Itwasabadblow,atfirst,tofindthathehadnotbeenarrestedformurder;butAscham,whohadcometohimatonce,explainedthatheneededrest,andthetimeto“review“hisstatements;itappearedthatreiterationhadmadethemalittleconfusedandcontradictory。Tothisendhehadwillinglyacquiescedinhisremovaltoalargequietestablishment,withanopenspaceandtreesaboutit,wherehehadfoundanumberofintelligentcompanions,some,likehimself,engagedinpreparingorreviewingstatementsoftheircases,andothersreadytolendaninterestedeartohisownrecital。
Foratimehewascontenttolethimselfgoonthetranquilcurrentofthisexistence;butalthoughhisauditorsgavehimforthemostpartanencouragingattention,which,insome,wentthelengthofreallybrilliantandhelpfulsuggestion,hegraduallyfeltarecurrenceofhisolddoubts。Eitherhishearerswerenotsincere,orelsetheyhadlesspowertoaidhimthantheyboasted。Hisinterminableconferencesresultedinnothing,andasthebenefitofthelongrestmadeitselffelt,itproducedanincreasedmentalluciditywhichrenderedinactionmoreandmoreunbearable。Atlengthhediscoveredthatoncertaindaysvisitorsfromtheouterworldwereadmittedtohisretreat;andhewroteoutlongandlogicallyconstructedrelationsofhiscrime,andfurtivelyslippedthemintothehandsofthesemessengersofhope。
Thisoccupationgavehimafreshleaseofpatience,andhenowlivedonlytowatchforthevisitors'days,andscanthefacesthatsweptbyhimlikestarsseenandlostintheriftsofahurryingsky。
Mostly,thesefaceswerestrangeandlessintelligentthanthoseofhiscompanions。Buttheyrepresentedhislastmeansofaccesstotheworld,akindofsubterraneanchannelonwhichhecouldsethis“statements“afloat,likepaperboatswhichthemysteriouscurrentmightsweepoutintotheopenseasoflife。
Oneday,however,hisattentionwasarrestedbyafamiliarcontour,apairofbrightprominenteyes,andachininsufficientlyshaved。HesprangupandstoodinthepathofPeterMcCarren。
Thejournalistlookedathimdoubtfully,thenheldouthishandwithastartleddeprecating,“WHY——?”
“Youdidn'tknowme?I'msochanged?”Granicefaltered,feelingthereboundoftheother'swonder。
“Why,no;butyou'relookingquieter——smoothedout,“McCarrensmiled。
“Yes:that'swhatI'mherefor——torest。AndI'vetakentheopportunitytowriteoutaclearerstatement——“
Granice'shandshooksothathecouldhardlydrawthefoldedpaperfromhispocket。Ashedidsohenoticedthatthereporterwasaccompaniedbyatallmanwithgravecompassionateeyes。ItcametoGraniceinawildthrillofconvictionthatthiswasthefacehehadwaitedfor……
“Perhapsyourfriend——heISyourfriend?——wouldglanceoverit——
orIcouldputthecaseinafewwordsifyouhavetime?”
Granice'svoiceshooklikehishand。Ifthischanceescapedhimhefeltthathislasthopewasgone。McCarrenandthestrangerlookedateachother,andtheformerglancedathiswatch。
“I'msorrywecan'tstayandtalkitovernow,Mr。Granice;butmyfriendhasanengagement,andwe'reratherpressed——“
Granicecontinuedtoprofferthepaper。“I'msorry——IthinkI
couldhaveexplained。Butyou'lltakethis,atanyrate?”
Thestrangerlookedathimgently。“Certainly——I'lltakeit。“
Hehadhishandout。“Good-bye。“
“Good-bye,“Graniceechoed。
Hestoodwatchingthetwomenmoveawayfromhimthroughthelonglighthall;andashewatchedthematearrandownhisface。Butassoonastheywereoutofsightheturnedandwalkedhastilytowardhisroom,beginningtohopeagain,alreadyplanninganewstatement。
Outsidethebuildingthetwomenstoodstill,andthejournalist'scompanionlookedupcuriouslyatthelongmonotonousrowsofbarredwindows。
“SothatwasGranice?”
“Yes——thatwasGranice,poordevil,“saidMcCarren。
“Strangecase!Isupposethere'sneverbeenonejustlikeit?
He'sstillabsolutelyconvincedthathecommittedthatmurder?”
“Absolutely。Yes。“
Thestrangerreflected。“Andtherewasnoconceivablegroundfortheidea?Noonecouldmakeouthowitstarted?Aquietconventionalsortoffellowlikethat——wheredoyousupposehegotsuchadelusion?Didyouevergettheleastcluetoit?”
McCarrenstoodstill,hishandsinhispockets,hisheadcockedupincontemplationofthebarredwindows。Thenheturnedhisbrighthardgazeonhiscompanion。
“Thatwasthequeerpartofit。I'veneverspokenofit——butI
DIDgetaclue。“
“ByJove!That'sinteresting。Whatwasit?”
McCarrenformedhisredlipsintoawhistle。“Why——thatitwasn'tadelusion。“
Heproducedhiseffect——theotherturnedonhimwithapallidstare。
“Hemurderedthemanallright。Itumbledonthetruthbythemerestaccident,whenI'dprettynearlychuckedthewholejob。“
“Hemurderedhim——murderedhiscousin?”
“Sureasyoulive。Onlydon'tsplitonme。It'saboutthequeerestbusinessIeverraninto……DOABOUTIT?Why,whatwasItodo?Icouldn'thangthepoordevil,couldI?Lord,butIwasgladwhentheycollaredhim,andhadhimstowedawaysafeinthere!”
Thetallmanlistenedwithagraveface,graspingGranice'sstatementinhishand。
“Here——takethis;itmakesmesick,“hesaidabruptly,thrustingthepaperatthereporter;andthetwomenturnedandwalkedinsilencetothegates。
TheEndTHEDILETTANTE
asfirstpublishedinHarper'sMonthly,December1903
Itwasonanimpulsehardlyneedingtheargumentshefoundhimselfadvancinginitsfavor,thatThursdale,onhiswaytotheclub,turnedasusualintoMrs。Vervain'sstreet。
The“asusual“washisownqualificationoftheact;aconvenientwayofbridgingtheinterval——indaysandothersequences——thatlaybetweenthisvisitandthelast。Itwascharacteristicofhimthatheinstinctivelyexcludedhiscalltwodaysearlier,withRuthGaynor,fromthelistofhisvisitstoMrs。Vervain:
thespecialconditionsattendingithadmadeitnomorelikeavisittoMrs。Vervainthananengraveddinnerinvitationislikeapersonalletter。YetitwastotalkoverhiscallwithMissGaynorthathewasnowreturningtothesceneofthatepisode;
anditwasbecauseMrs。Vervaincouldbetrustedtohandlethetalkingoverasskilfullyastheinterviewitselfthat,athercorner,hehadfeltthedilettante'sirresistiblecravingtotakealastlookataworkofartthatwaspassingoutofhispossession。
Onthewhole,heknewnoonebetterfittedtodealwiththeunexpectedthanMrs。Vervain。Sheexcelledintherareartoftakingthingsforgranted,andThursdalefeltapardonableprideinthethoughtthatsheowedherexcellencetohistraining。
EarlyinhiscareerThursdalehadmadethemistake,attheoutsetofhisacquaintancewithalady,oftellingherthathelovedherandexactingthesameavowalinreturn。Thelatterpartofthatepisodehadbeenlikethelongwalkbackfromapicnic,whenonehastocarryallthecrockeryonehasfinishedusing:itwasthelasttimeThursdaleeverallowedhimselftobeencumberedwiththedebrisofafeast。Hethusincidentallylearnedthattheprivilegeoflovingherisoneoftheleastfavorsthatacharmingwomancanaccord;andinseekingtoavoidthepitfallsofsentimenthehaddevelopedascienceofevasioninwhichthewomanofthemomentbecameamereimplementofthegame。Heowedagreatdealofdelicateenjoymenttothecultivationofthisart。Theperilsfromwhichithadbeenhisrefugebecamenaivelyharmless:wasitpossiblethathewhonowtookhiseasywayalongthelevelshadoncepreferredtogaspontherawheightsofemotion?Youthisahigh-coloredseason;buthehadthesatisfactionoffeelingthathehadenteredearlierthanmostintothatchiar'oscuroofsensationwhereeveryhalf-tonehasitsvalue。
AsapromoterofthispleasurenoonehehadknownwascomparabletoMrs。Vervain。Hehadtaughtagoodmanywomennottobetraytheirfeelings,buthehadneverbeforehadsuchfinematerialtoworkin。Shehadbeensurprisinglycrudewhenhefirstknewher;
capableofmakingthemostawkwardinferences,ofplungingthroughthinice,ofrecklesslyundressingheremotions;butshehadacquired,underthedisciplineofhisreticencesandevasions,askillalmostequaltohisown,andperhapsmoreremarkableinthatitinvolvedkeepingtimewithanytuneheplayedandreadingatsightsomeuncommonlydifficultpassages。
IthadtakenThursdalesevenyearstoformthisfinetalent;buttheresultjustifiedtheeffort。Atthecrucialmomentshehadbeenperfect:herwayofgreetingMissGaynorhadmadehimregretthathehadannouncedhisengagementbyletter。Itwasanevasionthatconfessedadifficulty;adeviationimplyinganobstacle,where,bycommonconsent,itwasagreedtoseenone;itbetrayed,inshort,alackofconfidenceinthecompletenessofhismethod。Ithadbeenhispridenevertoputhimselfinapositionwhichhadtobequitted,asitwere,bythebackdoor;
buthere,asheperceived,themainportalswouldhaveopenedforhimoftheirownaccord。Allthis,andmuchmore,hereadinthefinishednaturalnesswithwhichMrs。VervainhadmetMissGaynor。
Hehadneverseenabetterpieceofwork:therewasnoover-
eagerness,nosuspiciouswarmth,aboveallandthisgaveherartthegraceofanaturalqualitytherewerenoneofthosedamnableimplicationswherebyawoman,inwelcomingherfriend'sbetrothed,maykeephimonpinsandneedleswhileshelapstheladyincomplacency。Somasterlyaperformance,indeed,hardlyneededtheoffsetofMissGaynor'sdoor-stepwords——“Tobesokindtome,howshemusthavelikedyou!”——thoughhecaughthimselfwishingitlaywithintheboundsoffitnesstotransmitthem,asafinaltribute,totheonewomanheknewwhowasunfailinglycertaintoenjoyagoodthing。ItwasperhapstheonedrawbacktohisnewsituationthatitmightdevelopgoodthingswhichitwouldbeimpossibletohandontoMargaretVervain。
Thefactthathehadmadethemistakeofunderratinghisfriend'spowers,theconsciousnessthathiswritingmusthavebetrayedhisdistrustofherefficiency,seemedanaddedreasonforturningdownherstreetinsteadofgoingontotheclub。Hewouldshowherthatheknewhowtovalueher;hewouldaskhertoachievewithhimafeatinfinitelyrarerandmoredelicatethantheonehehadappearedtoavoid。Incidentally,hewouldalsodisposeoftheintervaloftimebeforedinner:eversincehehadseenMissGaynoroff,anhourearlier,onherreturnjourneytoBuffalo,hehadbeenwonderinghowheshouldputintherestoftheafternoon。Itwasabsurd,howhemissedthegirl……Yes,thatwasit;thedesiretotalkaboutherwas,afterall,atthebottomofhisimpulsetocallonMrs。Vervain!Itwasabsurd,ifyoulike——butitwasdelightfullyrejuvenating。Hecouldrecallthetimewhenhehadbeenafraidofbeingobvious:nowhefeltthatthisreturntotheprimitiveemotionsmightbeasrestorativeasaholidayintheCanadianwoods。Anditwaspreciselybythegirl'scandor,herdirectness,herlackofcomplications,thathewastaken。Thesensethatshemightsaysomethingrashatanymomentwaspositivelyexhilarating:ifshehadthrownherarmsabouthimatthestationhewouldnothavegivenathoughttohiscrumpleddignity。ItsurprisedThursdaletofindwhatfreshnessofhearthebroughttotheadventure;andthoughhissenseofironypreventedhisascribinghisintactnesstoanyconsciouspurpose,hecouldbutrejoiceinthefactthathissentimentaleconomieshadlefthimsuchalargesurplustodrawupon。
Mrs。Vervainwasathome——asusual。Whenonevisitsthecemeteryoneexpectstofindtheangelonthetombstone,anditstruckThursdaleasanotherproofofhisfriend'sgoodtastethatshehadbeeninnounduehastetochangeherhabits。Thewholehouseappearedtocountonhiscoming;thefootmantookhishatandovercoatasnaturallyasthoughtherehadbeennolapseinhisvisits;andthedrawing-roomatonceenvelopedhiminthatatmosphereoftacitintelligencewhichMrs。Vervainimpartedtoherveryfurniture。
Itwasasurprisethat,inthisgeneralharmonyofcircumstances,Mrs。Vervainshouldherselfsoundthefirstfalsenote。
“You?”sheexclaimed;andthebooksheheldslippedfromherhand。
Itwascrude,certainly;unlessitwereatouchofthefinestart。ThedifficultyofclassifyingitdisturbedThursdale'sbalance。
“Whynot?”hesaid,restoringthebook。“Isn'titmyhour?”Andasshemadenoanswer,headdedgently,“Unlessit'ssomeoneelse's?”
Shelaidthebookasideandsankbackintoherchair。“Mine,merely,“shesaid。
“Ihopethatdoesn'tmeanthatyou'reunwillingtoshareit?”
“Withyou?Bynomeans。You'rewelcometomylastcrust。“
Helookedatherreproachfully。“Doyoucallthisthelast?”
Shesmiledashedroppedintotheseatacrossthehearth。“It'sawayofgivingitmoreflavor!”
Hereturnedthesmile。“Avisittoyoudoesn'tneedsuchcondiments。“
Shetookthiswithjusttherightmeasureofretrospectiveamusement。
“Ah,butIwanttoputintothisoneaveryspecialtaste,“sheconfessed。
Hersmilewassoconfident,soreassuring,thatitlulledhimintotheimprudenceofsaying,“Whyshouldyouwantittobedifferentfromwhatwasalwayssoperfectlyright?”
Shehesitated。“Doesn'tthefactthatit'sthelastconstituteadifference?”
“Thelast——mylastvisittoyou?”
“Oh,metaphorically,Imean——there'sabreakinthecontinuity。“
Decidedly,shewaspressingtoohard:unlearninghisartsalready!
“Idon'trecognizeit,“hesaid。“Unlessyoumakeme——“headded,withanotethatslightlystirredherattitudeoflanguidattention。
Sheturnedtohimwithgraveeyes。“Yourecognizenodifferencewhatever?”
“None——exceptanaddedlinkinthechain。“
“Anaddedlink?”
“Inhavingonemorethingtolikeyoufor——yourlettingMissGaynorseewhyIhadalreadysomany。“Heflatteredhimselfthatthisturnhadtakentheleasthintoffatuityfromthephrase。
Mrs。Vervainsankintoherformereasypose。“Wasitthatyoucamefor?”sheasked,almostgaily。
“Ifitisnecessarytohaveareason——thatwasone。“
“TotalktomeaboutMissGaynor?”
“Totellyouhowshetalksaboutyou。“
“Thatwillbeveryinteresting——especiallyifyouhaveseenhersincehersecondvisittome。“
“Hersecondvisit?”Thursdalepushedhischairbackwithastartandmovedtoanother。“Shecametoseeyouagain?”
“Thismorning,yes——byappointment。“
Hecontinuedtolookatherblankly。“Yousentforher?”
“Ididn'thaveto——shewroteandaskedmelastnight。Butnodoubtyouhaveseenhersince。“
Thursdalesatsilent。Hewastryingtoseparatehiswordsfromhisthoughts,buttheystillclungtogetherinextricably。“Isawheroffjustnowatthestation。“
“Andshedidn'ttellyouthatshehadbeenhereagain?”
“Therewashardlytime,Isuppose——therewerepeopleabout——“hefloundered。
“Ah,she'llwrite,then。“
Heregainedhiscomposure。“Ofcourseshe'llwrite:veryoften,Ihope。YouknowI'mabsurdlyinlove,“hecriedaudaciously。
Shetiltedherheadback,lookingupathimasheleanedagainstthechimney-piece。Hehadleanedtheresooftenthattheattitudetouchedapulsewhichsetupathrobbinginherthroat。
“Oh,mypoorThursdale!”shemurmured。
“Isupposeit'sratherridiculous,“heowned;andassheremainedsilent,headded,withasuddenbreak——“Orhaveyouanotherreasonforpityingme?”
Heranswerwasanotherquestion。“Haveyoubeenbacktoyourroomssinceyoulefther?”
“SinceIleftheratthestation?Icamestraighthere。“
“Ah,yes——youCOULD:therewasnoreason——“Herwordspassedintoasilentmusing。
Thursdalemovednervouslynearer。“Yousaidyouhadsomethingtotellme?”
“PerhapsIhadbetterletherdoso。Theremaybealetteratyourrooms。“
“Aletter?Whatdoyoumean?AletterfromHER?Whathashappened?”
Hispalenessshookher,andsheraisedahandofreassurance。
“Nothinghashappened——perhapsthatisjusttheworstofit。YoualwaysHATED,youknow,“sheaddedincoherently,“tohavethingshappen:youneverwouldletthem。“
“Andnow——?”
“Well,thatwaswhatshecameherefor:Isupposedyouhadguessed。Toknowifanythinghadhappened。“
“Hadhappened?”Hegazedatherslowly。“Betweenyouandme?”
hesaidwitharushoflight。