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  Granicestoppedspeakingandlookedacrossthesmoke-fumesathislistener;butDenver'sfaceremainedinscrutable。
  Atlengthhesaid:“Whydidyouwanttotellmethis?”
  ThequestionstartledGranice。Hewasabouttoexplain,ashehadexplainedtoAscham;butsuddenlyitoccurredtohimthatifhismotivehadnotseemedconvincingtothelawyeritwouldcarrymuchlessweightwithDenver。Bothweresuccessfulmen,andsuccessdoesnotunderstandthesubtleagonyoffailure。Granicecastaboutforanotherreason。
  “Why,I——thethinghauntsme……remorse,Isupposeyou'dcallit……“
  Denverstrucktheashesfromhisemptypipe。
  “Remorse?Bosh!”hesaidenergetically。
  Granice'sheartsank。“Youdon'tbelievein——REMORSE?”
  “Notanatom:inthemanofaction。Themerefactofyourtalkingofremorseprovestomethatyou'renotthemantohaveplannedandputthroughsuchajob。“
  Granicegroaned。“Well——Iliedtoyouaboutremorse。I'veneverfeltany。“
  Denver'slipstightenedscepticallyabouthisfreshly-filledpipe。“Whatwasyourmotive,then?Youmusthavehadone。“
  “I'lltellyou——“AndGranicebeganagaintorehearsethestoryofhisfailure,ofhisloathingforlife。“Don'tsayyoudon'tbelievemethistime……thatthisisn'tarealreason!”hestammeredoutpiteouslyasheended。
  Denvermeditated。“No,Iwon'tsaythat。I'veseentoomanyqueerthings。There'salwaysareasonforwantingtogetoutoflife——thewonderisthatwefindsomanyforstayingin!”
  Granice'sheartgrewlight。“ThenyouDObelieveme?”hefaltered。
  “Believethatyou'resickofthejob?Yes。Andthatyouhaven'tthenervetopullthetrigger?Oh,yes——that'seasyenough,too。
  Butallthatdoesn'tmakeyouamurderer——thoughIdon'tsayitprovesyoucouldneverhavebeenone。“
  “IHAVEbeenone,Denver——Isweartoyou。“
  “Perhaps。“Hemeditated。“Justtellmeoneortwothings。“
  “Oh,goahead。Youwon'tstumpme!”Graniceheardhimselfsaywithalaugh。
  “Well——howdidyoumakeallthosetrialtripswithoutexcitingyoursister'scuriosity?Iknewyournighthabitsprettywellatthattime,remember。Youwereveryseldomoutlate。Didn'tthechangeinyourwayssurpriseher?”
  “No;becauseshewasawayatthetime。ShewenttopayseveralvisitsinthecountrysoonafterwecamebackfromWrenfield,andwasonlyintownforanightortwobefore——beforeIdidthejob。“
  “Andthatnightshewenttobedearlywithaheadache?”
  “Yes——blinding。Shedidn'tknowanythingwhenshehadthatkind。
  Andherroomwasatthebackoftheflat。“
  Denveragainmeditated。“Andwhenyougotback——shedidn'thearyou?Yougotinwithoutherknowingit?”
  “Yes。Iwentstraighttomywork——tookitupatthewordwhereI'dleftoff——WHY,DENVER,DON'TYOUREMEMBER?”Granicesuddenly,passionatelyinterjected。
  “Remember——?”
  “Yes;howyoufoundme——whenyoulookedinthatmorning,betweentwoandthree……yourusualhour……?”
  “Yes,“theeditornodded。
  Granicegaveashortlaugh。“Inmyoldcoat——withmypipe:
  lookedasifI'dbeenworkingallnight,didn'tI?Well,I
  hadn'tbeeninmychairtenminutes!”
  Denveruncrossedhislegsandthencrossedthemagain。“Ididn'tknowwhetherYOUrememberedthat。“
  “What?”
  “Mycominginthatparticularnight——ormorning。“
  Graniceswungroundinhischair。“Why,manalive!That'swhyI'mherenow。Becauseitwasyouwhospokeformeattheinquest,whentheylookedroundtoseewhatalltheoldman'sheirshadbeendoingthatnight——youwhotestifiedtohavingdroppedinandfoundmeatmydeskasusual……IthoughtTHATwouldappealtoyourjournalisticsenseifnothingelsewould!”
  Denversmiled。“Oh,myjournalisticsenseisstillsusceptibleenough——andtheidea'spicturesque,Igrantyou:askingthemanwhoprovedyouralibitoestablishyourguilt。“
  “That'sit——that'sit!”Granice'slaughhadaringoftriumph。
  “Well,buthowabouttheotherchap'stestimony——Imeanthatyoungdoctor:whatwashisname?NedRanney。Don'tyouremembermytestifyingthatI'dmethimattheelevatedstation,andtoldhimIwasonmywaytosmokeapipewithyou,andhissaying:
  'Allright;you'llfindhimin。Ipassedthehousetwohoursago,andsawhisshadowagainsttheblind,asusual。'Andtheladywiththetoothacheintheflatacrosstheway:shecorroboratedhisstatement,youremember。“
  “Yes;Iremember。“
  Well,then?”
  “Simpleenough。BeforestartingIriggedupakindofmannikinwitholdcoatsandacushion——somethingtocastashadowontheblind。Allyoufellowswereusedtoseeingmyshadowthereinthesmallhours——Icountedonthat,andknewyou'dtakeanyvagueoutlineasmine。“
  “Simpleenough,asyousay。Butthewomanwiththetoothachesawtheshadowmove——youremembershesaidshesawyousinkforward,asifyou'dfallenasleep。“
  “Yes;andshewasright。ItDIDmove。Isupposesomeextra-
  heavydraymusthavejoltedbytheflimsybuilding——atanyrate,somethinggavemymannikinajar,andwhenIcamebackhehadsunkforward,halfoverthetable。“
  Therewasalongsilencebetweenthetwomen。Granice,withathrobbingheart,watchedDenverrefillhispipe。Theeditor,atanyrate,didnotsneerandflouthim。Afterall,journalismgaveadeeperinsightthanthelawintothefantasticpossibilitiesoflife,preparedonebettertoallowfortheincalculablenessofhumanimpulses。
  “Well?”Granicefalteredout。
  Denverstoodupwithashrug。“Lookhere,man——what'swrongwithyou?Makeacleanbreastofit!Nervesgonetosmash?I'dliketotakeyoutoseeachapIknow——anex-prize-fighter——who'sawonderatpullingfellowsinyourstateoutoftheirhole——“
  “Oh,oh——“Granicebrokein。Hestoodupalso,andthetwomeneyedeachother。“Youdon'tbelieveme,then?”
  “Thisyarn——howcanI?Therewasn'taflawinyouralibi。“
  “Buthaven'tIfilleditfullofthemnow?”
  Denvershookhishead。“ImightthinksoifIhadn'thappenedtoknowthatyouWANTEDto。There'sthehitch,don'tyousee?”
  Granicegroaned。“No,Ididn't。Youmeanmywantingtobefoundguilty——?”
  “Ofcourse!Ifsomebodyelsehadaccusedyou,thestorymighthavebeenworthlookinginto。Asitis,achildcouldhaveinventedit。Itdoesn'tdomuchcredittoyouringenuity。“
  Graniceturnedsullenlytowardthedoor。Whatwastheuseofarguing?Butonthethresholdasuddenimpulsedrewhimback。
  “Lookhere,Denver——Idaresayyou'reright。Butwillyoudojustonethingtoproveit?PutmystatementintheInvestigator,justasI'vemadeit。Ridiculeitasmuchasyoulike。Onlygivetheotherfellowsachanceatit——menwhodon'tknowanythingaboutme。Setthemtalkingandlookingabout。Idon'tcareadamnwhetherYOUbelieveme——whatIwantistoconvincetheGrandJury!Ioughtn'ttohavecometoamanwhoknowsme——
  yourcursedincredulityisinfectious。Idon'tputmycasewell,becauseIknowinadvanceit'sdiscredited,andIalmostendbynotbelievingitmyself。That'swhyIcan'tconvinceYOU。It'saviciouscircle。“HelaidahandonDenver'sarm。“Sendastenographer,andputmystatementinthepaper。
  ButDenverdidnotwarmtotheidea。“Mydearfellow,youseemtoforgetthatalltheevidencewasprettythoroughlysiftedatthetime,everypossiblecluefollowedup。ThepublicwouldhavebeenreadyenoughthentobelievethatyoumurderedoldLenman——
  youoranybodyelse。Alltheywantedwasamurderer——themostimprobablewouldhaveserved。Butyouralibiwastooconfoundedlycomplete。Andnothingyou'vetoldmehasshakenit。“Denverlaidhiscoolhandovertheother'sburningfingers。
  “Lookhere,oldfellow,gohomeandworkupabettercase——thencomeinandsubmitittotheInvestigator。“
  IV
  TheperspirationwasrollingoffGranice'sforehead。Everyfewminuteshehadtodrawouthishandkerchiefandwipethemoisturefromhishaggardface。
  Foranhourandahalfhehadbeentalkingsteadily,puttinghiscasetotheDistrictAttorney。LuckilyhehadaspeakingacquaintancewithAllonby,andhadobtained,withoutmuchdifficulty,aprivateaudienceontheverydayafterhistalkwithRobertDenver。Intheintervalbetweenhehadhurriedhome,gotoutofhiseveningclothes,andgoneforthagainatonceintothedrearydawn。HisfearofAschamandthealienistmadeitimpossibleforhimtoremaininhisrooms。Anditseemedtohimthattheonlywayofavertingthathideousperilwasbyestablishing,insomesaneimpartialmind,theproofofhisguilt。Evenifhehadnotbeensoincurablysickoflife,theelectricchairseemednowtheonlyalternativetothestrait-
  jacket。
  AshepausedtowipehisforeheadhesawtheDistrictAttorneyglanceathiswatch。Thegesturewassignificant,andGraniceliftedanappealinghand。“Idon'texpectyoutobelievemenow——
  butcan'tyouputmeunderarrest,andhavethethinglookedinto?”
  Allonbysmiledfaintlyunderhisheavygrayishmoustache。Hehadaruddyface,fullandjovial,inwhichhiskeenprofessionaleyesseemedtokeepwatchoverimpulsesnotstrictlyprofessional。
  “Well,Idon'tknowthatweneedlockyouupjustyet。ButofcourseI'mboundtolookintoyourstatement——“
  Granicerosewithanexquisitesenseofrelief。SurelyAllonbywouldn'thavesaidthatifhehadn'tbelievedhim!
  “That'sallright。ThenIneedn'tdetainyou。Icanbefoundatanytimeatmyapartment。“Hegavetheaddress。
  TheDistrictAttorneysmiledagain,moreopenly。“Whatdoyousaytoleavingitforanhourortwothisevening?I'mgivingalittlesupperatRector's——quiet,littleaffair,youunderstand:
  justMissMelrose——Ithinkyouknowher——andafriendortwo;andifyou'lljoinus……“
  Granicestumbledoutoftheofficewithoutknowingwhatreplyhehadmade。
  Hewaitedforfourdays——fourdaysofconcentratedhorror。
  Duringthefirsttwenty-fourhoursthefearofAscham'salienistdoggedhim;andasthatsubsided,itwasreplacedbytheexasperatingsensethathisavowalhadmadenoimpressionontheDistrictAttorney。Evidently,ifhehadbeengoingtolookintothecase,Allonbywouldhavebeenheardfrombeforenow……
  Andthatmockinginvitationtosuppershowedclearlyenoughhowlittlethestoryhadimpressedhim!
  Granicewasovercomebythefutilityofanyfartherattempttoinculpatehimself。Hewaschainedtolife——a“prisonerofconsciousness。“Wherewasithehadreadthephrase?Well,hewaslearningwhatitmeant。Intheglaringnight-hours,whenhisbrainseemedablaze,hewasvisitedbyasenseofhisfixedidentity,ofhisirreducible,inexpugnableSELFNESS,keener,moreinsidious,moreunescapable,thananysensationhehadeverknown。Hehadnotguessedthatthemindwascapableofsuchintricaciesofself-realization,ofpenetratingsodeepintoitsowndarkwindings。Oftenhewokefromhisbriefsnatchesofsleepwiththefeelingthatsomethingmaterialwasclingingtohim,wasonhishandsandface,andinhisthroat——andashisbrainclearedheunderstoodthatitwasthesenseofhisownloathedpersonalitythatstucktohimlikesomethickviscoussubstance。
  Then,inthefirstmorninghours,hewouldriseandlookoutofhiswindowattheawakeningactivitiesofthestreet——atthestreet-cleaners,theash-cartdrivers,andtheotherdingyworkersflittinghurriedlybythroughthesallowwinterlight。
  Oh,tobeoneofthem——anyofthem——totakehischanceinanyoftheirskins!Theywerethetoilers——themenwhoselotwaspitied——thevictimsweptoverandrantedaboutbyaltruistsandeconomists;andhowgladlyhewouldhavetakenuptheloadofanyoneofthem,ifonlyhemighthaveshakenoffhisown!But,no——
  theironcircleofconsciousnessheldthemtoo:eachonewashand-cuffedtohisownhideousego。Whywishtobeanyonemanratherthananother?Theonlyabsolutegoodwasnottobe……
  AndFlint,comingintodrawhisbath,wouldaskifhepreferredhiseggsscrambledorpoachedthatmorning?
  OnthefifthdayhewrotealongurgentlettertoAllonby;andforthesucceedingtwodayshehadtheoccupationofwaitingforananswer。Hehardlystirredfromhisrooms,inhisfearofmissingtheletterbyamoment;butwouldtheDistrictAttorneywrite,orsendarepresentative:apoliceman,a“secretagent,“
  orsomeothermysteriousemissaryofthelaw?
  OnthethirdmorningFlint,steppingsoftly——asif,confoundit!
  hismasterwereill——enteredthelibrarywhereGranicesatbehindanunreadnewspaper,andproferredacardonatray。
  Granicereadthename——J。B。Hewson——andunderneath,inpencil,“FromtheDistrictAttorney'soffice。“Hestartedupwithathumpingheart,andsignedanassenttotheservant。
  Mr。Hewsonwasaslightsallownondescriptmanofaboutfifty——
  thekindofmanofwhomoneissuretoseeaspecimeninanycrowd。“Justthetypeofthesuccessfuldetective,“Granicereflectedasheshookhandswithhisvisitor。
  AnditwasinthatcharacterthatMr。Hewsonbrieflyintroducedhimself。HehadbeensentbytheDistrictAttorneytohave“aquiettalk“withMr。Granice——toaskhimtorepeatthestatementhehadmadeabouttheLenmanmurder。
  Hismannerwassoquiet,soreasonableandreceptive,thatGranice'sself-confidencereturned。Herewasasensibleman——amanwhoknewhisbusiness——itwouldbeeasyenoughtomakeHIM
  seethroughthatridiculousalibi!GraniceofferedMr。Hewsonacigar,andlightingonehimself——toprovehiscoolness——beganagaintotellhisstory。
  Hewasconscious,asheproceeded,oftellingitbetterthaneverbefore。Practicehelped,nodoubt;andhislistener'sdetached,impartialattitudehelpedstillmore。HecouldseethatHewson,atleast,hadnotdecidedinadvancetodisbelievehim,andthesenseofbeingtrustedmadehimmorelucidandmoreconsecutive。
  Yes,thistimehiswordswouldcertainlycarryconviction……
  V
  Despairingly,Granicegazedupanddowntheshabbystreet。
  Besidehimstoodayoungmanwithbrightprominenteyes,asmoothbutnottoosmoothly-shavenface,andanIrishsmile。Theyoungman'snimbleglancefollowedGranice's。
  “Sureofthenumber,areyou?”heaskedbriskly。
  “Oh,yes——itwas104。“
  “Well,then,thenewbuildinghasswalloweditup——that'scertain。“
  Hetiltedhisheadbackandsurveyedthehalf-finishedfrontofabrickandlimestoneflat-housethatreareditsflimsyeleganceabovearowoftotteringtenementsandstables。
  “Deadsure?”herepeated。
  “Yes,“saidGranice,discouraged。“AndevenifIhadn'tbeen,I
  knowthegaragewasjustoppositeLeffler'soverthere。“Hepointedacrossthestreettoatumble-downstablewithablotchedsignonwhichthewords“LiveryandBoarding“werestillfaintlydiscernible。
  Theyoungmandashedacrosstotheoppositepavement。“Well,that'ssomething——maygetacluethere。Leffler's——samenamethere,anyhow。Yourememberthatname?”
  “Yes——distinctly。“
  GranicehadfeltareturnofconfidencesincehehadenlistedtheinterestoftheExplorer's“smartest“reporter。Ifthereweremomentswhenhehardlybelievedhisownstory,therewereotherswhenitseemedimpossiblethateveryoneshouldnotbelieveit;
  andyoungPeterMcCarren,peering,listening,questioning,jottingdownnotes,inspiredhimwithanexquisitesenseofsecurity。McCarrenhadfastenedonthecaseatonce,“likealeech,“ashephrasedit——jumpedatit,thrilledtoit,andsettleddownto“drawthelastdropoffactfromit,andhadnotletgotillhehad。“NooneelsehadtreatedGraniceinthatway——evenAllonby'sdetectivehadnottakenasinglenote。Andthoughaweekhadelapsedsincethevisitofthatauthorizedofficial,nothinghadbeenheardfromtheDistrictAttorney'soffice:Allonbyhadapparentlydroppedthematteragain。ButMcCarrenwasn'tgoingtodropit——nothe!HepositivelyhungonGranice'sfootsteps。Theyhadspentthegreaterpartofthepreviousdaytogether,andnowtheywereoffagain,runningdownclues。
  ButatLeffler'stheygotnone,afterall。Leffler'swasnolongerastable。Itwascondemnedtodemolition,andintherespitebetweensentenceandexecutionithadbecomeavagueplaceofstorage,ahospitalforbroken-downcarriagesandcarts,presidedoverbyablear-eyedoldwomanwhoknewnothingofFlood'sgarageacrosstheway——didnotevenrememberwhathadstoodtherebeforethenewflat-housebegantorise。
  “Well——wemayrunLefflerdownsomewhere;I'veseenharderjobsdone,“saidMcCarren,cheerfullynotingdownthename。
  AstheywalkedbacktowardSixthAvenueheadded,inalesssanguinetone:“I'dundertakenowtoputthethingthroughifyoucouldonlyputmeonthetrackofthatcyanide。“
  Granice'sheartsank。Yes——therewastheweakspot;hehadfeltitfromthefirst!ButhestillhopedtoconvinceMcCarrenthathiscasewasstrongenoughwithoutit;andheurgedthereportertocomebacktohisroomsandsumupthefactswithhimagain。
  “Sorry,Mr。Granice,butI'mdueattheofficenow。Besides,it'dbenousetillIgetsomefreshstufftoworkon。SupposeI
  callyouuptomorrowornextday?”
  HeplungedintoatrolleyandleftGranicegazingdesolatelyafterhim。
  Twodayslaterhereappearedattheapartment,ashadelessjauntyindemeanor。
  “Well,Mr。Granice,thestarsintheircoursesareagainstyou,asthebardsays。Can'tgetatraceofFlood,orofLefflereither。AndyousayyouboughtthemotorthroughFlood,andsolditthroughhim,too?”
  “Yes,“saidGranicewearily。
  “Whoboughtit,doyouknow?”
  Granicewrinkledhisbrows。“Why,Flood——yes,Floodhimself。I
  solditbacktohimthreemonthslater。“
  “Flood?Thedevil!AndI'veransackedthetownforFlood。Thatkindofbusinessdisappearsasiftheearthhadswallowedit。“
  Granice,discouraged,keptsilence。
  “Thatbringsusbacktothepoison,“McCarrencontinued,hisnote-bookout。“Justgooverthatagain,willyou?”
  AndGranicewentoveritagain。Ithadallbeensosimpleatthetime——andhehadbeensocleverincoveringuphistraces!Assoonashedecidedonpoisonhelookedaboutforanacquaintancewhomanufacturedchemicals;andtherewasJimDawes,aHarvardclassmate,inthedyeingbusiness——justtheman。Butatthelastmomentitoccurredtohimthatsuspicionmightturntowardsoobviousanopportunity,andhedecidedonamoretortuouscourse。
  Anotherfriend,CarrickVenn,astudentofmedicinewhomirremediableill-healthhadkeptfromthepracticeofhisprofession,amusedhisleisurewithexperimentsinphysics,fortheexerciseofwhichhehadsetupasimplelaboratory。GranicehadthehabitofdroppingintosmokeacigarwithhimonSundayafternoons,andthefriendsgenerallysatinVenn'swork-shop,atthebackoftheoldfamilyhouseinStuyvesantSquare。Offthiswork-shopwasthecupboardofsupplies,withitsrowofdeadlybottles。CarrickVennwasanoriginal,amanofrestlesscurioustastes,andhisplace,onaSunday,wasoftenfullofvisitors:acheerfulcrowdofjournalists,scribblers,painters,experimentersindiversformsofexpression。Comingandgoingamongsomany,itwaseasyenoughtopassunperceived;andoneafternoonGranice,arrivingbeforeVennhadreturnedhome,foundhimselfaloneinthework-shop,andquicklyslippingintothecupboard,transferredthedrugtohispocket。
  Butthathadhappenedtenyearsago;andVenn,poorfellow,waslongsincedeadofhisdraggingailment。Hisoldfatherwasdead,too,thehouseinStuyvesantSquarehadbeenturnedintoaboarding-house,andtheshiftinglifeofNewYorkhadpasseditsrapidspongeovereverytraceoftheirobscurelittlehistory。
  EventheoptimisticMcCarrenseemedtoacknowledgethehopelessnessofseekingforproofinthatdirection。
  “Andthere'sthethirddoorslammedinourfaces。“Heshuthisnote-book,andthrowingbackhishead,restedhisbrightinquisitiveeyesonGranice'sfurrowedface。
  “Lookhere,Mr。Granice——youseetheweakspot,don'tyou?”
  Theothermadeadespairingmotion。“Iseesomany!”
  “Yes:buttheonethatweakensalltheothers。Whythedeucedoyouwantthisthingknown?Whydoyouwanttoputyourheadintothenoose?”
  Granicelookedathimhopelessly,tryingtotakethemeasureofhisquicklightirreverentmind。Noonesofullofacheerfulanimallifewouldbelieveinthecravingfordeathasasufficientmotive;andGranicerackedhisbrainforonemoreconvincing。Butsuddenlyhesawthereporter'sfacesoften,andmelttoanaivesentimentalism。
  “Mr。Granice——hasthememoryofitalwayshauntedyou?”
  Granicestaredamoment,andthenleaptattheopening。“That'sit——thememoryofit……always……“
  McCarrennoddedvehemently。“Doggedyoursteps,eh?Wouldn'tletyousleep?ThetimecamewhenyouHADtomakeacleanbreastofit?”
  “Ihadto。Can'tyouunderstand?”
  Thereporterstruckhisfistonthetable。“God,sir!Idon'tsupposethere'sahumanbeingwithadropofwarmbloodinhimthatcan'tpicturethedeadlyhorrorsofremorse——“
  TheCelticimaginationwasaflame,andGranicemutelythankedhimfortheword。WhatneitherAschamnorDenverwouldacceptasaconceivablemotivetheIrishreporterseizedonasthemostadequate;and,ashesaid,onceonecouldfindaconvincingmotive,thedifficultiesofthecasebecamesomanyincentivestoeffort。
  “Remorse——REMORSE,“herepeated,rollingthewordunderhistonguewithanaccentthatwasacluetothepsychologyofthepopulardrama;andGranice,perversely,saidtohimself:“IfI
  couldonlyhavestruckthatnoteIshouldhavebeenrunninginsixtheatresatonce。“
  HesawthatfromthatmomentMcCarren'sprofessionalzealwouldbefannedbyemotionalcuriosity;andheprofitedbythefacttoproposethattheyshoulddinetogether,andgoonafterwardtosomemusic-hallortheatre。ItwasbecomingnecessarytoGranicetofeelhimselfanobjectofpre-occupation,tofindhimselfinanothermind。HetookakindofgraypenumbralpleasureinrivetingMcCarren'sattentiononhiscase;andtofeignthegrimacesofmoralanguishbecameapassionatelyengrossinggame。
  Hehadnotenteredatheatreformonths;buthesatoutthemeaninglessperformanceinrigidtolerance,sustainedbythesenseofthereporter'sobservation。
  Betweentheacts,McCarrenamusedhimwithanecdotesabouttheaudience:hekneweveryonebysight,andcouldliftthecurtainfromeveryphysiognomy。Granicelistenedindulgently。Hehadlostallinterestinhiskind,butheknewthathewashimselftherealcentreofMcCarren'sattention,andthateverywordthelatterspokehadanindirectbearingonhisownproblem。
  “Seethatfellowoverthere——thelittledried-upmaninthethirdrow,pullinghismoustache?HISmemoirswouldbeworthpublishing,“McCarrensaidsuddenlyinthelastentr'acte。
  Granice,followinghisglance,recognizedthedetectivefromAllonby'soffice。Foramomenthehadthethrillingsensethathewasbeingshadowed。
  “Caesar,ifHEcouldtalk——!”McCarrencontinued。“Knowwhoheis,ofcourse?Dr。JohnB。Stell,thebiggestalienistinthecountry——“
  Granice,withastart,bentagainbetweentheheadsinfrontofhim。“THATman——thefourthfromtheaisle?You'remistaken。
  That'snotDr。Stell。“
  McCarrenlaughed。“Well,IguessI'vebeenincourtenoughtoknowStellwhenIseehim。Hetestifiesinnearlyallthebigcaseswheretheypleadinsanity。“
  AcoldshiverrandownGranice'sspine,butherepeatedobstinately:“That'snotDr。Stell。“
  “NotStell?Why,man,IKNOWhim。Look——herehecomes。Ifitisn'tStell,hewon'tspeaktome。“
  Thelittledried-upmanwasmovingslowlyuptheaisle。AshenearedMcCarrenhemadeaslightgestureofrecognition。
  “How'do,DoctorStell?Prettyslimshow,ain'tit?”thereportercheerfullyflungoutathim。AndMr。J。B。Hewson,withanodofamicableassent,passedon。
  Granicesatbenumbed。Heknewhehadnotbeenmistaken——themanwhohadjustpassedwasthesamemanwhomAllonbyhadsenttoseehim:aphysiciandisguisedasadetective。Allonby,then,hadthoughthiminsane,liketheothers——hadregardedhisconfessionasthemaunderingofamaniac。ThediscoveryfrozeGranicewithhorror——heseemedtoseethemad-housegapingforhim。
  “Isn'tthereamanagooddeallikehim——adetectivenamedJ。B。
  Hewson?”
  ButheknewinadvancewhatMcCarren'sanswerwouldbe。“Hewson?
  J。B。Hewson?Neverheardofhim。ButthatwasJ。B。Stellfastenough——Iguesshecanbetrustedtoknowhimself,andyousawheansweredtohisname。“
  VI
  SomedayspassedbeforeGranicecouldobtainawordwiththeDistrictAttorney:hebegantothinkthatAllonbyavoidedhim。
  ButwhentheywerefacetofaceAllonby'sjovialcountenanceshowednosignofembarrassment。Hewavedhisvisitortoachair,andleanedacrosshisdeskwiththeencouragingsmileofaconsultingphysician。
  Granicebrokeoutatonce:“Thatdetectiveyousentmetheotherday——“
  Allonbyraisedadeprecatinghand。
  “——Iknow:itwasStellthealienist。Whydidyoudothat,Allonby?”
  Theother'sfacedidnotloseitscomposure。“BecauseIlookedupyourstoryfirst——andthere'snothinginit。“
  “Nothinginit?”Granicefuriouslyinterposed。
  “Absolutelynothing。Ifthereis,whythedeucedon'tyoubringmeproofs?Iknowyou'vebeentalkingtoPeterAscham,andtoDenver,andtothatlittleferretMcCarrenoftheExplorer。Haveanyofthembeenabletomakeoutacaseforyou?No。Well,whatamItodo?”
  Granice'slipsbegantotremble。“Whydidyouplaymethattrick?”
  “AboutStell?Ihadto,mydearfellow:it'spartofmybusiness。StellISadetective,ifyoucometothat——everydoctoris。“
  ThetremblingofGranice'slipsincreased,communicatingitselfinalongquivertohisfacialmuscles。Heforcedalaughthroughhisdrythroat。“Well——andwhatdidhedetect?”
  “Inyou?Oh,hethinksit'soverwork——overworkandtoomuchsmoking。Ifyoulookinonhimsomedayathisofficehe'llshowyoutherecordofhundredsofcaseslikeyours,andadviseyouwhattreatmenttofollow。It'soneofthecommonestformsofhallucination。Haveacigar,allthesame。“
  “But,Allonby,Ikilledthatman!”
  TheDistrictAttorney'slargehand,outstretchedonhisdesk,hadanalmostimperceptiblegesture,andamomentlater,asifananswertothecallofanelectricbell,aclerklookedinfromtheouteroffice。
  “Sorry,mydearfellow——lotofpeoplewaiting。DropinonStellsomemorning,“Allonbysaid,shakinghands。
  McCarrenhadtoownhimselfbeaten:therewasabsolutelynoflawinthealibi。Andsincehisdutytohisjournalobviouslyforbadehiswastingtimeoninsolublemysteries,heceasedtofrequentGranice,whodroppedbackintoadeeperisolation。ForadayortwoafterhisvisittoAllonbyhecontinuedtoliveindreadofDr。Stell。WhymightnotAllonbyhavedeceivedhimastothealienist'sdiagnosis?Whatifhewerereallybeingshadowed,notbyapoliceagentbutbyamad-doctor?Tohavethetruthout,hesuddenlydeterminedtocallonDr。Stell。
  Thephysicianreceivedhimkindly,andrevertedwithoutembarrassmenttotheconditionsoftheirpreviousmeeting。“Wehavetodothatoccasionally,Mr。Granice;it'soneofourmethods。AndyouhadgivenAllonbyafright。“
  Granicewassilent。Hewouldhavelikedtoreaffirmhisguilt,toproducethefreshargumentswhichhadoccurredtohimsincehislasttalkwiththephysician;buthefearedhiseagernessmightbetakenforasymptomofderangement,andheaffectedtosmileawayDr。Stell'sallusion。
  “Youthink,then,it'sacaseofbrain-fag——nothingmore?”
  “Nothingmore。AndIshouldadviseyoutoknockofftobacco。
  Yousmokeagooddeal,don'tyou?”
  Hedevelopedhistreatment,recommendingmassage,gymnastics,travel,oranyformofdiversionthatdidnot——thatinshort——
  Graniceinterruptedhimimpatiently。“Oh,Iloatheallthat——andI'msickoftravelling。“
  “H'm。Thensomelargerinterest——politics,reform,philanthropy?
  Somethingtotakeyououtofyourself。“
  “Yes。Iunderstand,“saidGranicewearily。
  “Aboveall,don'tloseheart。Iseehundredsofcaseslikeyours,“thedoctoraddedcheerfullyfromthethreshold。
  OnthedoorstepGranicestoodstillandlaughed。Hundredsofcaseslikehis——thecaseofamanwhohadcommittedamurder,whoconfessedhisguilt,andwhomnoonewouldbelieve!Why,therehadneverbeenacaselikeitintheworld。WhatagoodfigureStellwouldhavemadeinaplay:thegreatalienistwhocouldn'treadaman'smindanybetterthanthat!
  Granicesawhugecomicopportunitiesinthetype。
  Butashewalkedaway,hisfearsdispelled,thesenseoflistlessnessreturnedonhim。ForthefirsttimesincehisavowaltoPeterAschamhefoundhimselfwithoutanoccupation,andunderstoodthathehadbeencarriedthroughthepastweeksonlybythenecessityofconstantaction。Nowhislifehadoncemorebecomeastagnantbackwater,andashestoodonthestreetcornerwatchingthetidesoftrafficsweepby,heaskedhimselfdespairinglyhowmuchlongerhecouldenduretofloataboutinthesluggishcircleofhisconsciousness。
  Thethoughtofself-destructionrecurredtohim;butagainhisfleshrecoiled。Heyearnedfordeathfromotherhands,buthecouldnevertakeitfromhisown。And,asidefromhisinsuperablephysicalreluctance,anothermotiverestrainedhim。
  Hewaspossessedbythedoggeddesiretoestablishthetruthofhisstory。Herefusedtobesweptasideasanirresponsibledreamer——evenifhehadtokillhimselfintheend,hewouldnotdosobeforeprovingtosocietythathehaddeserveddeathfromit。
  Hebegantowritelongletterstothepapers;butafterthefirsthadbeenpublishedandcommentedon,publiccuriositywasquelledbyabriefstatementfromtheDistrictAttorney'soffice,andtherestofhiscommunicationsremainedunprinted。Aschamcametoseehim,andbeggedhimtotravel。RobertDenverdroppedin,andtriedtojokehimoutofhisdelusion;tillGranice,mistrustfuloftheirmotives,begantodreadthereappearanceofDr。Stell,andsetaguardonhislips。Butthewordshekeptbackengenderedothersandstillothersinhisbrain。Hisinnerselfbecameahummingfactoryofarguments,andhespentlonghoursrecitingandwritingdownelaboratestatementsofhiscrime,whichheconstantlyretouchedanddeveloped。Thengraduallyhisactivitylanguishedunderthelackofanaudience,thesenseofbeingburiedbeneathdeepeningdriftsofindifference。Inapassionofresentmenthesworethathewouldprovehimselfamurderer,evenifhehadtocommitanothercrimetodoit;andforasleeplessnightortwothethoughtflamedredonhisdarkness。Butdaylightdispelledit。Thedeterminingimpulsewaslackingandhehatedtoopromiscuouslytochoosehisvictim……
  Sohewasthrownbackontheunavailingstruggletoimposethetruthofhisstory。Asfastasonechannelclosedonhimhetriedtopierceanotherthroughtheslidingsandsofincredulity。
  Buteveryissueseemedblocked,andthewholehumanraceleaguedtogethertocheatonemanoftherighttodie。
  Thusviewed,thesituationbecamesomonstrousthathelosthislastshredofself-restraintincontemplatingit。Whatifhewerereallythevictimofsomemockingexperiment,thecentreofaringofholiday-makersjeeringatapoorcreatureinitsblinddashesagainstthesolidwallsofconsciousness?But,no——menwerenotsouniformlycruel:therewereflawsintheclosesurfaceoftheirindifference,cracksofweaknessandpityhereandthere……
  Granicebegantothinkthathismistakelayinhavingappealedtopersonsmoreorlessfamiliarwithhispast,andtowhomthevisibleconformitiesofhislifeseemedafinaldisproofofitsonefiercesecretdeviation。Thegeneraltendencywastotakeforthewholeoflifetheslitseenbetweentheblindersofhabit:andinhiswalkdownthatnarrowvistaGranicecutacorrectenoughfigure。Toavisionfreetofollowhiswholeorbithisstorywouldbemoreintelligible:itwouldbeeasiertoconvinceachanceidlerinthestreetthanthetrainedintelligencehamperedbyasenseofhisantecedents。Thisideashotupinhimwiththetropicluxurianceofeachnewseedofthought,andhebegantowalkthestreets,andtofrequentout-
  of-the-waychop-housesandbarsinhissearchfortheimpartialstrangertowhomheshoulddisclosehimself。
  Atfirsteveryfacelookedencouragement;butatthecrucialmomenthealwaysheldback。Somuchwasatstake,anditwassoessentialthathisfirstchoiceshouldbedecisive。Hedreadedstupidity,timidity,intolerance。Theimaginativeeye,thefurrowedbrow,werewhathesought。Hemustrevealhimselfonlytoaheartversedinthetortuousmotionsofthehumanwill;andhebegantohatethedullbenevolenceoftheaverageface。Onceortwice,obscurely,allusively,hemadeabeginning——oncesittingdownataman'ssideinabasementchop-house,anotherdayapproachingaloungeronaneast-sidewharf。Butinbothcasesthepremonitionoffailurecheckedhimonthebrinkofavowal。Hisdreadofbeingtakenforamanintheclutchofafixedideagavehimanunnaturalkeennessinreadingtheexpressionofhisinterlocutors,andhehadprovidedhimselfinadvancewithaseriesofverbalalternatives,trap-doorsofevasionfromthefirstdartofridiculeorsuspicion。
  Hepassedthegreaterpartofthedayinthestreets,cominghomeatirregularhours,dreadingthesilenceandorderlinessofhisapartment,andthecriticalscrutinyofFlint。Hisreallifewasspentinaworldsoremotefromthisfamiliarsettingthathesometimeshadthemysterioussenseofalivingmetempsychosis,afurtivepassagefromoneidentitytoanother——yettheotherasunescapablyhimself!
  Onehumiliationhewasspared:thedesiretoliveneverrevivedinhim。Notforamomentwashetemptedtoashabbypactwithexistingconditions。Hewantedtodie,wanteditwiththefixedunwaveringdesirewhichaloneattainsitsend。Andstilltheendeludedhim!Itwouldnotalways,ofcourse——hehadfullfaithinthedarkstarofhisdestiny。Andhecouldproveitbestbyrepeatinghisstory,persistentlyandindefatigably,pouringitintoindifferentears,hammeringitintodullbrains,tillatlastitkindledaspark,andsomeoneofthecarelessmillionspaused,listened,believed……
  ItwasamildMarchday,andhehadbeenloiteringonthewest-
  sidedocks,lookingatfaces。Hewasbecominganexpertinphysiognomies:hiseagernessnolongermaderashdartsandawkwardrecoils。Heknewnowthefaceheneeded,asclearlyasifithadcometohiminavision;andnottillhefounditwouldhespeak。Ashewalkedeastwardthroughtheshabbyreekingstreetshehadapremonitionthatheshouldfinditthatmorning。
  Perhapsitwasthepromiseofspringintheair——certainlyhefeltcalmerthanformanydays……
  HeturnedintoWashingtonSquare,struckacrossitobliquely,andwalkedupUniversityPlace。Itsheterogeneouspassersalwaysalluredhim——theywerelesshurriedthaninBroadway,lessenclosedandclassifiedthaninFifthAvenue。Hewalkedslowly,watchingforhisface。
  AtUnionSquarehefeltasuddenrelapseintodiscouragement,likeavotarywhohaswatchedtoolongforasignfromthealtar。
  Perhaps,afterall,heshouldneverfindhisface……Theairwaslanguid,andhefelttired。Hewalkedbetweenthebaldgrass-plotsandthetwistedtrees,makingforanemptyseat。
  Presentlyhepassedabenchonwhichagirlsatalone,andsomethingasdefiniteasthetwitchofacordmadehimstopbeforeher。Hehadneverdreamedoftellinghisstorytoagirl,hadhardlylookedatthewomen'sfacesastheypassed。Hiscasewasman'swork:howcouldawomanhelphim?Butthisgirl'sfacewasextraordinary——quietandwideasacleareveningsky。Itsuggestedahundredimagesofspace,distance,mystery,likeshipshehadseen,asaboy,quietlyberthedbyafamiliarwharf,butwiththebreathoffarseasandstrangeharboursintheirshrouds……Certainlythisgirlwouldunderstand。Hewentuptoherquietly,liftinghishat,observingtheforms——wishinghertoseeatoncethathewas“agentleman。“
  “Iamastrangertoyou,“hebegan,sittingdownbesideher,“butyourfaceissoextremelyintelligentthatIfeel……IfeelitisthefaceI'vewaitedfor……lookedforeverywhere;andI
  wanttotellyou——“
  Thegirl'seyeswidened:sherosetoherfeet。Shewasescapinghim!
  Inhisdismayheranafewstepsafterher,andcaughtherroughlybythearm。
  “Here——wait——listen!Oh,don'tscream,youfool!”heshoutedout。
  Hefeltahandonhisownarm;turnedandconfrontedapoliceman。
  Instantlyheunderstoodthathewasbeingarrested,andsomethinghardwithinhimwasloosenedandrantotears。
  “Ah,youknow——youKNOWI'mguilty!”
  Hewasconsciousthatacrowdwasforming,andthatthegirl'sfrightenedfacehaddisappeared。Butwhatdidhecareaboutherface?Itwasthepolicemanwhohadreallyunderstoodhim。Heturnedandfollowed,thecrowdathisheels……
  VII
  Inthecharmingplaceinwhichhefoundhimselfthereweresomanysympatheticfacesthathefeltmorethaneverconvincedofthecertaintyofmakinghimselfheard。
  Itwasabadblow,atfirst,tofindthathehadnotbeenarrestedformurder;butAscham,whohadcometohimatonce,explainedthatheneededrest,andthetimeto“review“hisstatements;itappearedthatreiterationhadmadethemalittleconfusedandcontradictory。Tothisendhehadwillinglyacquiescedinhisremovaltoalargequietestablishment,withanopenspaceandtreesaboutit,wherehehadfoundanumberofintelligentcompanions,some,likehimself,engagedinpreparingorreviewingstatementsoftheircases,andothersreadytolendaninterestedeartohisownrecital。
  Foratimehewascontenttolethimselfgoonthetranquilcurrentofthisexistence;butalthoughhisauditorsgavehimforthemostpartanencouragingattention,which,insome,wentthelengthofreallybrilliantandhelpfulsuggestion,hegraduallyfeltarecurrenceofhisolddoubts。Eitherhishearerswerenotsincere,orelsetheyhadlesspowertoaidhimthantheyboasted。Hisinterminableconferencesresultedinnothing,andasthebenefitofthelongrestmadeitselffelt,itproducedanincreasedmentalluciditywhichrenderedinactionmoreandmoreunbearable。Atlengthhediscoveredthatoncertaindaysvisitorsfromtheouterworldwereadmittedtohisretreat;andhewroteoutlongandlogicallyconstructedrelationsofhiscrime,andfurtivelyslippedthemintothehandsofthesemessengersofhope。
  Thisoccupationgavehimafreshleaseofpatience,andhenowlivedonlytowatchforthevisitors'days,andscanthefacesthatsweptbyhimlikestarsseenandlostintheriftsofahurryingsky。
  Mostly,thesefaceswerestrangeandlessintelligentthanthoseofhiscompanions。Buttheyrepresentedhislastmeansofaccesstotheworld,akindofsubterraneanchannelonwhichhecouldsethis“statements“afloat,likepaperboatswhichthemysteriouscurrentmightsweepoutintotheopenseasoflife。
  Oneday,however,hisattentionwasarrestedbyafamiliarcontour,apairofbrightprominenteyes,andachininsufficientlyshaved。HesprangupandstoodinthepathofPeterMcCarren。
  Thejournalistlookedathimdoubtfully,thenheldouthishandwithastartleddeprecating,“WHY——?”
  “Youdidn'tknowme?I'msochanged?”Granicefaltered,feelingthereboundoftheother'swonder。
  “Why,no;butyou'relookingquieter——smoothedout,“McCarrensmiled。
  “Yes:that'swhatI'mherefor——torest。AndI'vetakentheopportunitytowriteoutaclearerstatement——“
  Granice'shandshooksothathecouldhardlydrawthefoldedpaperfromhispocket。Ashedidsohenoticedthatthereporterwasaccompaniedbyatallmanwithgravecompassionateeyes。ItcametoGraniceinawildthrillofconvictionthatthiswasthefacehehadwaitedfor……
  “Perhapsyourfriend——heISyourfriend?——wouldglanceoverit——
  orIcouldputthecaseinafewwordsifyouhavetime?”
  Granice'svoiceshooklikehishand。Ifthischanceescapedhimhefeltthathislasthopewasgone。McCarrenandthestrangerlookedateachother,andtheformerglancedathiswatch。
  “I'msorrywecan'tstayandtalkitovernow,Mr。Granice;butmyfriendhasanengagement,andwe'reratherpressed——“
  Granicecontinuedtoprofferthepaper。“I'msorry——IthinkI
  couldhaveexplained。Butyou'lltakethis,atanyrate?”
  Thestrangerlookedathimgently。“Certainly——I'lltakeit。“
  Hehadhishandout。“Good-bye。“
  “Good-bye,“Graniceechoed。
  Hestoodwatchingthetwomenmoveawayfromhimthroughthelonglighthall;andashewatchedthematearrandownhisface。Butassoonastheywereoutofsightheturnedandwalkedhastilytowardhisroom,beginningtohopeagain,alreadyplanninganewstatement。
  Outsidethebuildingthetwomenstoodstill,andthejournalist'scompanionlookedupcuriouslyatthelongmonotonousrowsofbarredwindows。
  “SothatwasGranice?”
  “Yes——thatwasGranice,poordevil,“saidMcCarren。
  “Strangecase!Isupposethere'sneverbeenonejustlikeit?
  He'sstillabsolutelyconvincedthathecommittedthatmurder?”
  “Absolutely。Yes。“
  Thestrangerreflected。“Andtherewasnoconceivablegroundfortheidea?Noonecouldmakeouthowitstarted?Aquietconventionalsortoffellowlikethat——wheredoyousupposehegotsuchadelusion?Didyouevergettheleastcluetoit?”
  McCarrenstoodstill,hishandsinhispockets,hisheadcockedupincontemplationofthebarredwindows。Thenheturnedhisbrighthardgazeonhiscompanion。
  “Thatwasthequeerpartofit。I'veneverspokenofit——butI
  DIDgetaclue。“
  “ByJove!That'sinteresting。Whatwasit?”
  McCarrenformedhisredlipsintoawhistle。“Why——thatitwasn'tadelusion。“
  Heproducedhiseffect——theotherturnedonhimwithapallidstare。
  “Hemurderedthemanallright。Itumbledonthetruthbythemerestaccident,whenI'dprettynearlychuckedthewholejob。“
  “Hemurderedhim——murderedhiscousin?”
  “Sureasyoulive。Onlydon'tsplitonme。It'saboutthequeerestbusinessIeverraninto……DOABOUTIT?Why,whatwasItodo?Icouldn'thangthepoordevil,couldI?Lord,butIwasgladwhentheycollaredhim,andhadhimstowedawaysafeinthere!”
  Thetallmanlistenedwithagraveface,graspingGranice'sstatementinhishand。
  “Here——takethis;itmakesmesick,“hesaidabruptly,thrustingthepaperatthereporter;andthetwomenturnedandwalkedinsilencetothegates。
  TheEndTHEDILETTANTE
  asfirstpublishedinHarper'sMonthly,December1903
  Itwasonanimpulsehardlyneedingtheargumentshefoundhimselfadvancinginitsfavor,thatThursdale,onhiswaytotheclub,turnedasusualintoMrs。Vervain'sstreet。
  The“asusual“washisownqualificationoftheact;aconvenientwayofbridgingtheinterval——indaysandothersequences——thatlaybetweenthisvisitandthelast。Itwascharacteristicofhimthatheinstinctivelyexcludedhiscalltwodaysearlier,withRuthGaynor,fromthelistofhisvisitstoMrs。Vervain:
  thespecialconditionsattendingithadmadeitnomorelikeavisittoMrs。Vervainthananengraveddinnerinvitationislikeapersonalletter。YetitwastotalkoverhiscallwithMissGaynorthathewasnowreturningtothesceneofthatepisode;
  anditwasbecauseMrs。Vervaincouldbetrustedtohandlethetalkingoverasskilfullyastheinterviewitselfthat,athercorner,hehadfeltthedilettante'sirresistiblecravingtotakealastlookataworkofartthatwaspassingoutofhispossession。
  Onthewhole,heknewnoonebetterfittedtodealwiththeunexpectedthanMrs。Vervain。Sheexcelledintherareartoftakingthingsforgranted,andThursdalefeltapardonableprideinthethoughtthatsheowedherexcellencetohistraining。
  EarlyinhiscareerThursdalehadmadethemistake,attheoutsetofhisacquaintancewithalady,oftellingherthathelovedherandexactingthesameavowalinreturn。Thelatterpartofthatepisodehadbeenlikethelongwalkbackfromapicnic,whenonehastocarryallthecrockeryonehasfinishedusing:itwasthelasttimeThursdaleeverallowedhimselftobeencumberedwiththedebrisofafeast。Hethusincidentallylearnedthattheprivilegeoflovingherisoneoftheleastfavorsthatacharmingwomancanaccord;andinseekingtoavoidthepitfallsofsentimenthehaddevelopedascienceofevasioninwhichthewomanofthemomentbecameamereimplementofthegame。Heowedagreatdealofdelicateenjoymenttothecultivationofthisart。Theperilsfromwhichithadbeenhisrefugebecamenaivelyharmless:wasitpossiblethathewhonowtookhiseasywayalongthelevelshadoncepreferredtogaspontherawheightsofemotion?Youthisahigh-coloredseason;buthehadthesatisfactionoffeelingthathehadenteredearlierthanmostintothatchiar'oscuroofsensationwhereeveryhalf-tonehasitsvalue。
  AsapromoterofthispleasurenoonehehadknownwascomparabletoMrs。Vervain。Hehadtaughtagoodmanywomennottobetraytheirfeelings,buthehadneverbeforehadsuchfinematerialtoworkin。Shehadbeensurprisinglycrudewhenhefirstknewher;
  capableofmakingthemostawkwardinferences,ofplungingthroughthinice,ofrecklesslyundressingheremotions;butshehadacquired,underthedisciplineofhisreticencesandevasions,askillalmostequaltohisown,andperhapsmoreremarkableinthatitinvolvedkeepingtimewithanytuneheplayedandreadingatsightsomeuncommonlydifficultpassages。
  IthadtakenThursdalesevenyearstoformthisfinetalent;buttheresultjustifiedtheeffort。Atthecrucialmomentshehadbeenperfect:herwayofgreetingMissGaynorhadmadehimregretthathehadannouncedhisengagementbyletter。Itwasanevasionthatconfessedadifficulty;adeviationimplyinganobstacle,where,bycommonconsent,itwasagreedtoseenone;itbetrayed,inshort,alackofconfidenceinthecompletenessofhismethod。Ithadbeenhispridenevertoputhimselfinapositionwhichhadtobequitted,asitwere,bythebackdoor;
  buthere,asheperceived,themainportalswouldhaveopenedforhimoftheirownaccord。Allthis,andmuchmore,hereadinthefinishednaturalnesswithwhichMrs。VervainhadmetMissGaynor。
  Hehadneverseenabetterpieceofwork:therewasnoover-
  eagerness,nosuspiciouswarmth,aboveallandthisgaveherartthegraceofanaturalqualitytherewerenoneofthosedamnableimplicationswherebyawoman,inwelcomingherfriend'sbetrothed,maykeephimonpinsandneedleswhileshelapstheladyincomplacency。Somasterlyaperformance,indeed,hardlyneededtheoffsetofMissGaynor'sdoor-stepwords——“Tobesokindtome,howshemusthavelikedyou!”——thoughhecaughthimselfwishingitlaywithintheboundsoffitnesstotransmitthem,asafinaltribute,totheonewomanheknewwhowasunfailinglycertaintoenjoyagoodthing。ItwasperhapstheonedrawbacktohisnewsituationthatitmightdevelopgoodthingswhichitwouldbeimpossibletohandontoMargaretVervain。
  Thefactthathehadmadethemistakeofunderratinghisfriend'spowers,theconsciousnessthathiswritingmusthavebetrayedhisdistrustofherefficiency,seemedanaddedreasonforturningdownherstreetinsteadofgoingontotheclub。Hewouldshowherthatheknewhowtovalueher;hewouldaskhertoachievewithhimafeatinfinitelyrarerandmoredelicatethantheonehehadappearedtoavoid。Incidentally,hewouldalsodisposeoftheintervaloftimebeforedinner:eversincehehadseenMissGaynoroff,anhourearlier,onherreturnjourneytoBuffalo,hehadbeenwonderinghowheshouldputintherestoftheafternoon。Itwasabsurd,howhemissedthegirl……Yes,thatwasit;thedesiretotalkaboutherwas,afterall,atthebottomofhisimpulsetocallonMrs。Vervain!Itwasabsurd,ifyoulike——butitwasdelightfullyrejuvenating。Hecouldrecallthetimewhenhehadbeenafraidofbeingobvious:nowhefeltthatthisreturntotheprimitiveemotionsmightbeasrestorativeasaholidayintheCanadianwoods。Anditwaspreciselybythegirl'scandor,herdirectness,herlackofcomplications,thathewastaken。Thesensethatshemightsaysomethingrashatanymomentwaspositivelyexhilarating:ifshehadthrownherarmsabouthimatthestationhewouldnothavegivenathoughttohiscrumpleddignity。ItsurprisedThursdaletofindwhatfreshnessofhearthebroughttotheadventure;andthoughhissenseofironypreventedhisascribinghisintactnesstoanyconsciouspurpose,hecouldbutrejoiceinthefactthathissentimentaleconomieshadlefthimsuchalargesurplustodrawupon。
  Mrs。Vervainwasathome——asusual。Whenonevisitsthecemeteryoneexpectstofindtheangelonthetombstone,anditstruckThursdaleasanotherproofofhisfriend'sgoodtastethatshehadbeeninnounduehastetochangeherhabits。Thewholehouseappearedtocountonhiscoming;thefootmantookhishatandovercoatasnaturallyasthoughtherehadbeennolapseinhisvisits;andthedrawing-roomatonceenvelopedhiminthatatmosphereoftacitintelligencewhichMrs。Vervainimpartedtoherveryfurniture。
  Itwasasurprisethat,inthisgeneralharmonyofcircumstances,Mrs。Vervainshouldherselfsoundthefirstfalsenote。
  “You?”sheexclaimed;andthebooksheheldslippedfromherhand。
  Itwascrude,certainly;unlessitwereatouchofthefinestart。ThedifficultyofclassifyingitdisturbedThursdale'sbalance。
  “Whynot?”hesaid,restoringthebook。“Isn'titmyhour?”Andasshemadenoanswer,headdedgently,“Unlessit'ssomeoneelse's?”
  Shelaidthebookasideandsankbackintoherchair。“Mine,merely,“shesaid。
  “Ihopethatdoesn'tmeanthatyou'reunwillingtoshareit?”
  “Withyou?Bynomeans。You'rewelcometomylastcrust。“
  Helookedatherreproachfully。“Doyoucallthisthelast?”
  Shesmiledashedroppedintotheseatacrossthehearth。“It'sawayofgivingitmoreflavor!”
  Hereturnedthesmile。“Avisittoyoudoesn'tneedsuchcondiments。“
  Shetookthiswithjusttherightmeasureofretrospectiveamusement。
  “Ah,butIwanttoputintothisoneaveryspecialtaste,“sheconfessed。
  Hersmilewassoconfident,soreassuring,thatitlulledhimintotheimprudenceofsaying,“Whyshouldyouwantittobedifferentfromwhatwasalwayssoperfectlyright?”
  Shehesitated。“Doesn'tthefactthatit'sthelastconstituteadifference?”
  “Thelast——mylastvisittoyou?”
  “Oh,metaphorically,Imean——there'sabreakinthecontinuity。“
  Decidedly,shewaspressingtoohard:unlearninghisartsalready!
  “Idon'trecognizeit,“hesaid。“Unlessyoumakeme——“headded,withanotethatslightlystirredherattitudeoflanguidattention。
  Sheturnedtohimwithgraveeyes。“Yourecognizenodifferencewhatever?”
  “None——exceptanaddedlinkinthechain。“
  “Anaddedlink?”
  “Inhavingonemorethingtolikeyoufor——yourlettingMissGaynorseewhyIhadalreadysomany。“Heflatteredhimselfthatthisturnhadtakentheleasthintoffatuityfromthephrase。
  Mrs。Vervainsankintoherformereasypose。“Wasitthatyoucamefor?”sheasked,almostgaily。
  “Ifitisnecessarytohaveareason——thatwasone。“
  “TotalktomeaboutMissGaynor?”
  “Totellyouhowshetalksaboutyou。“
  “Thatwillbeveryinteresting——especiallyifyouhaveseenhersincehersecondvisittome。“
  “Hersecondvisit?”Thursdalepushedhischairbackwithastartandmovedtoanother。“Shecametoseeyouagain?”
  “Thismorning,yes——byappointment。“
  Hecontinuedtolookatherblankly。“Yousentforher?”
  “Ididn'thaveto——shewroteandaskedmelastnight。Butnodoubtyouhaveseenhersince。“
  Thursdalesatsilent。Hewastryingtoseparatehiswordsfromhisthoughts,buttheystillclungtogetherinextricably。“Isawheroffjustnowatthestation。“
  “Andshedidn'ttellyouthatshehadbeenhereagain?”
  “Therewashardlytime,Isuppose——therewerepeopleabout——“hefloundered。
  “Ah,she'llwrite,then。“
  Heregainedhiscomposure。“Ofcourseshe'llwrite:veryoften,Ihope。YouknowI'mabsurdlyinlove,“hecriedaudaciously。
  Shetiltedherheadback,lookingupathimasheleanedagainstthechimney-piece。Hehadleanedtheresooftenthattheattitudetouchedapulsewhichsetupathrobbinginherthroat。
  “Oh,mypoorThursdale!”shemurmured。
  “Isupposeit'sratherridiculous,“heowned;andassheremainedsilent,headded,withasuddenbreak——“Orhaveyouanotherreasonforpityingme?”
  Heranswerwasanotherquestion。“Haveyoubeenbacktoyourroomssinceyoulefther?”
  “SinceIleftheratthestation?Icamestraighthere。“
  “Ah,yes——youCOULD:therewasnoreason——“Herwordspassedintoasilentmusing。
  Thursdalemovednervouslynearer。“Yousaidyouhadsomethingtotellme?”
  “PerhapsIhadbetterletherdoso。Theremaybealetteratyourrooms。“
  “Aletter?Whatdoyoumean?AletterfromHER?Whathashappened?”
  Hispalenessshookher,andsheraisedahandofreassurance。
  “Nothinghashappened——perhapsthatisjusttheworstofit。YoualwaysHATED,youknow,“sheaddedincoherently,“tohavethingshappen:youneverwouldletthem。“
  “Andnow——?”
  “Well,thatwaswhatshecameherefor:Isupposedyouhadguessed。Toknowifanythinghadhappened。“
  “Hadhappened?”Hegazedatherslowly。“Betweenyouandme?”
  hesaidwitharushoflight。