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  Martha,shehadbeenfussingaroundsomeflowerbusheswithapairofshearsandgloveson。ShelooksupwhenIsaysthat,andshesizesusallupstandingbythegate,andhereyespopsopen,andsodoeshermouth,andsheissosurprisedtoseemeshedropshershears。
  Andshelooksscared,too。
  “IsMissBucknerathome?”astsColonelTom,liftinghishatverypolite。
  “MissB-B-Buckner?”Marthastutters,veryscared-like,andnottakinghereyesoffofmetoanswerhim。
  “MissHampton,Martha,“Isays。
  “Y-y-y-es,s-sh-sheis,“saysMartha。Iwonderedwhatwasthematterwithher。
  Itisalwaysmylucktogetleftallalonewithmytroubles。Thedoctorandthecolonel,theywalkedrightpastuswhenshesaidyes,anduptowardthehouse,andleftherandmestandingthere。I
  couldofwentalongandbuttedin,mebby。ButI
  saystomyselfIwillhavethedernedthingouthereandnow,andknowtheworst。AndIwassointerestedinmytroubleandMarthathatIdidn'tevennoticeifMissLucymet'ematthedoor,andifso,howsheacted。WhenInextlookeduptheywasallinthehouse。
  “Martha——“Ibegins。Butshebreaksin。
  “Danny,“shesays,lookinglikesheisgoingtocry,“don'tl-l-lookatmel-l-likethat。IfyouknewALLyouwouldn'tblameme。You——“
  “Wouldn'tblameyoufurwhat?”Iastsher。
  “Iknowit'swrongofme,“shesays,begging-like。
  “Mebbyitisandmebbyitain't,“Isays。“Butwhatisit?”
  “Butyouneverwrotetome,“shesays。
  “Youneverwrotetome,“Isays,notwantinghertogetthebestofme,whateveritwasshemightbetalkingabout。
  “AndthenHEcametotown!——“
  “Who?”Iastsher。
  “Don'tyouknow?”shesays。“ThemanIamgoingtomarry。“
  WhenshesaidthatIfelt,allofasudden,likewhenyouarebrokeandhungryandrunacrostahalfdollaryouhadforgotaboutinyourotherpants。
  IwassogladIjumped。
  “Greatguns!”Isays。
  Ihadneverreallyknowedwhatbeinggladwasbefore。
  “Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,puttingherhandsinfrontofherface,“andhereyouhavecometoclaimmeforyourbride!”
  Whichshowedmewhyshehadlookedsoscared。
  Thattheregirlhadwentandgotengagedtoanotherfeller。AndhadbeenlayingawakenightssufferingfurfearIwouldturnupagin。AndnowIhad。
  Looey,healwayssaidnevertotrustawoman!
  “Martha,“Isays,“youain'tactedrightwithme。“
  “Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,“Iknowit!I
  knowit!”
  “Somefellersinmyplace,“Isays,“wouldraiseadickensofarow。“
  “IDIDloveyouonce,“shesays,lookingatmefrombetweenherfingers。
  “Yes,“saysI,actingrealmelancholy,“youdid。
  Andnowyou'vequitit,theydon'tseemtometobenothinglefttolivefur。“Martha,shewasanawfulromancefulgirl。Igotthenotionthatmebbyshewasenjoyingherownremorsefulnessalittlebit。
  IfetchedadeepsighandIsays:
  “Somefellerswouldkilltheirselvesonthespot!”
  “Oh!——Oh!——Oh!——“saysMartha。
  “But,Martha,“saysI,“Iain'tthatmean。I
  ain'tgoingtodothat。“
  Thatderngirlackshellaygivemeadisappointedlook!Ifanything,shewasjestabitTOOromanceful,Marthawas。
  “No,“saysI,cheeringupalittle,“Iamgoingtodosomethingtheyain'tmanyfellerswoulddo,Martha。I'mgoingtoforgiveyou。Freeandfairandopen。Andgiveyoubackmyhalfofthatring,and——“
  Dernit!IhadforgotIhadlostthathalfofthattherering!Irememberedsoquickitstoppedme。
  “Youalwayskeptit,Danny?”sheastsme,verysoft-spoken,soasnottogivepaintoonesofaithfulandsonobleaswhatIwas。“Letmeseeit,Danny。“
  ImadelikeIwasfeelingthroughallmypocketsfurit。Butthatcouldn'tlastforever。Irunoutofpocketspurtysoon。Andherfacebeguntoshowshewassmellingarat。FinallyIsays:
  “Theseain'tmyotherclothes——itmustbeinthem。“
  “Danny,“shesays,“IbelieveyouLOSTit。“
  “Martha,“Isays,takingachancet,“youknowyoulostYOURhalf!”
  Sheownsupshehaslostitalongwhileago。
  Andwhenshelostit,shesays,sheknowedthatwasfateandthatourlovewasomenedinunderanevilstar。Andwhowasshe,shesays,tostruggleaginfate?
  “Martha,“Isays,“I'llbehonestwithyou。
  FategotawaywithmyhalftooonedaywhenI
  didn'tknowtheywascrookslikeherstickingaround。“
  Well,Iseenthatgirlseenthroughmethen。
  Marthawasawfulsmartsometimes。Andeachonewassodernedtickledtheotheronewasn'tgo-
  ingtodoanypiningawayweliketooffellintolovealloveragin。Butnotquite。Furneitheronewouldevertrusttheotheroneagin。Sowefeltmorecomfortablewitheachother。Youain'tnevercomfortablewithapersonyouknowismorehonestthanyoube。
  “But,“saysMartha,afteraminute,“ifyoudidn'tcomebacktomakememarryyou,whatdoesDoctorKirbywanttoseeMissHamptonabout?
  Andwhowasthatwithhim?”
  Ihadbeennightoforgettingthemainthingwehadallcomeherefur,inmygladnessatgettingridofanydangerofmarryingMartha。ButitcometomealltooncetIhadbeenmissingalotthatmustbetakingplaceinsidethathouse。Ihadevenmissedthewaytheyfirstlookedwhenshemet'ematthedoor,andIwouldn'tofmissedthatfuralot。AndIseenalltooncetwhatabigpieceofnewsitwillbetoMartha。
  “Martha,“Isays,“theyain'tnoDr。HartleyL。
  Kirby。ThemanknownassuchisDavidArm-
  strong!”
  IneverseenanyonesopeetrifiedasMarthawasfuraminute。
  “Yes,“saysI,“andtheotheroneisMissLucy'sbrother。Andtheyareallthreeintherestraighten-
  ingthemselvesoutandfindingwhereeverybodygetsoffat,andwhy。Oneofthesehereserioustimesyoureadabout。Andyouandmearemissingitall,likeacoupleofgumps。Howcanwehear?”
  Marthasaysshedon'tknow。
  “YouTHINK,“Itoldher。“We'vewastedfivegoodminutesalready。I'veGOTtoheartherestofit。Wherewouldtheybe?”
  Marthaguessestheywillallbeinthesittingroom,whichhasgotthebestchairsinit。
  “Whatisnexttoit?Abackparlour,orabed-
  room,orwhat?”IwasthinkingofhowIhappenedtooverhearPerfessorBoothandhisfamblythat-a-way。
  Marthasaystheyisnothinglikethattobetried。
  “Martha,“Isays,“thisisserious。Thisherestorytheyarethrashingoutinthereistheonlydernedsure-enoughromancefulstoryeitheryouormeiseverlibletorunupagainstpersonalinallourlives。Itwouldofbeenagooddealniceriftheyhadastusintoseethewind-upofit。Fur,ifithadn'tofbeenfurme,theyneverwouldofbeenreunitedandrejuvenatedthewaytheybe。Butsomepeoplegetstingystreakswiththeirconcerns。
  Youthink!”
  Martha,shesays:“Danny,itwouldn'tbehonourabletolisten。“
  “Martha,“Itellsher,“afterthewayyouandmewentandjiltedeachother,whatkindofsensesofhonourhaveWEgottobragabout?”
  Sheremembersthatthesparebedroomisrightoverthesittingroom。Thehouseisheatedwithstovesinthewintertime。Thereisaregisterrightthroughthefloorofthesparebedroomandtheceilingofthesittingroom。Notthekindofaregisterthatcomesfromatwisted-aroundshaftinahousethatusesfurnaceheat。Butjestreallyaholeinthefloor,withacast-irongrating,tolettheheatfromtheroombelowintotheoneabove。
  Shesayssheguessestwopeoplethatwasn'tsoveryhonourablemightsneakintothehousethebackway,andupthebackstairs,andintothesparebedroom,andlaydownontheirstummicksonthefloor,beingcarefultomakenonoise,andbothseeandhearthroughthatregister。Whichwedoneit。
  CHAPTERXXIV
  Icouldhearwellenough,butatfirstIcouldn'tseeanyofthem。ButIgatheredthatMissLucywasstandingupwhilstshewastalking,andmovingaroundabitnowandthen。Iseenoneofhersleeves,andthenawispofherhair。Whichwasaggervating,furIwantedtoknowwhatshewaslike。Buthervoicewassosoftandquietthatyoukindofknowedbeforeyouseenherhowsheorterlook。
  “PrentissMcMakincametomethatday,“shewassaying,“withanappeal——Ihardlyknowhowtotellyou。“Shebrokeoff。
  “Goahead,Lucy,“saysColonelTom'svoice。
  “Hewasinsulting,“shesaid。“Hehadbeendrink-
  ing。Hewantedmeto——to——heappealedtometorunoffwithhim。
  “Iwasfurious——NATURALLY。“HervoicechangedasshesaiditenoughsoyoucouldfeelhowfuriousMissLucycouldget。ShewaslikeherbrotherTominsomeways。
  “Iorderedhimoutofthehouse。Hisanswertothatwasanoffertomarryme。YoucanimaginethatIwassurprisedaswellasangry——Iwasperplexed。
  “'ButIAMmarried!'Icried。Theideathatanyofmyownpeople,oranyonewhomIhadknownathome,wouldthinkIwasn'tmarriedwastoomuchformetotakeinallatonce。
  “'YouTHINKyouare,'saidPrentissMcMakin,withasmile。
  “Inspiteofmyselfmybreathstopped。Itwasasifachillyhandhadtakenholdofmyheart。
  Imean,physically,Ifeltlikethat。
  “'IAMmarried,'Irepeated,simply。
  “IsupposethatMcMakinhadgotthestoryofourweddingfromYOU。“Shestoppedaminute。
  Thedoctor'svoiceanswered:
  “Isupposeso,“likehewasaverytiredman。
  “Anyhow,“shewenton,“heknewthatwewentfirsttoClarksville。Hesaid:
  “'Youthinkyouaremarried,Lucy,butyouarenot。'
  “IwishyoutounderstandthatPrentissMcMakindiditallvery,verywell。Thatismyexcuse。Heactedwell。Therewassomethingabouthim——I
  scarcelyknowhowtoputit。Itsoundsodd,butthetruthisthatPrentissMcMakinwasalwaysamoreconvincingsortofapersonwhenhehadbeendrinkingalittlethanwhenhewassober。Helackedwarmth——helackedtemperament。Isupposejusttherightamountputitintohim。Itputthedevilintohim,too,Ireckon。
  “Hetoldmethatyouandhe,Tom,hadbeentoClarksville,andhadmadeinvestigations,andthattheweddingwasafraud。Andhetolditwithawealthofconvincingdetail。Inthemidstofithebrokeofftoasktoseemyweddingcertificate。Ashetalked,helaughedatit,andtoreitup,sayingthatthethingwasnotworththepaperitwason,andhethrewthepiecesofpaperintothegrate。I
  listened,andIlethimdoit——notthatthepaperitselfmatteredparticularly。ButtheveryfactthatIlethimtearitshowedme,myself,thatIwasbelievinghim。
  “Heendedwithanimpassionedappealtometogowithhim。
  “Ishowedhimthedoor。IpretendedtothelastthatIthoughthewaslyingtome。ButIdidnotthinkso。Ibelievedhim。Hehaddoneitallverycleverly。YoucanunderstandhowImight——
  inviewofwhathadhappened?”
  IwantedtoseeMissLucy——howshelookedwhenshesaiddifferentthings,soIcouldmakeupmymindwhethershewasforgivingthedoctorornot。NotthatIhadmuchdoubtbutwhattheywouldgettheirpersonaltroublesfixedupintheend。Theirongratinginthefloorwashelddownbyfourgood-sizedscrews,oneateachcorner。Theywasn'tnofillingatallbetwixtitandtheirongratingthatwasintheceilingoftheroombelow。Thespacewashollow。Igotanideaandtookoutmyjack-knife。
  “Whatareyougoingtodo?”whispersMartha。
  “S-sh-sh,“Isays,“shutup,andyou'llsee。“
  Oneofthescrewswasloose,andIpickedherouteasyenough。ThesecondoneIbrokethepointoffofmyknifebladeon。Likeyounearlyalwaysdoonascrew。WhenitsnappedColonelTomhesays:
  “What'sthat?”Hewaspowerfulquickofhear-
  ing,ColonelTomwas。Ilaidlowtilltheywentontalkingagin。ThenMarthaslidesoutontiptoeandcomesbackinthreesecondswithoneoftheseherelittlescrew-driverstheyusearoundsewing-machinesandthelittleoilcanthatgoeswithit。Ioilsthemscrewsandhasthemoutinaholyminute,andliftsthegratingfromthefloorcarefulandlaysitcarefulontherug。
  BydoingallofwhichIcouldgetmyheadandshouldersdownintothattherehole。Andbytwist-
  ingmyneckagooddeal,seealittlewaystoeachsideintotheroom,insteadofjestunderneaththegrating。ThedoctorIcouldn'tseeyet,andonlyalittleofColonelTom,butMissLucyquiteplain。
  “Youmeanthing,“Marthawhispers,“youareblockingitupsoIcan'thear。“
  “Keepstill,“Iwhispers,pullingmyheadoutoftheholesothesoundwouldn'tfloatdownwardintotheroombelow。“Youarejestlikeallotherwomen——yougottoomuchcuriosity。“
  “Howaboutyourself?”saysshe。
  “Whowasitthoughtoftakingthegratingoff?”
  Iwhispersbacktoher。Whichsettleshertem-
  porary,butshesaysifIdon'tgiveherachancetatitpurtysoonshewillticklemyribs。
  WhenIlistensagintheyareburyingthattherePrentMcMakin。Butwithoutanyflowers。
  MissLucy,shewashalfsettingon,halfleaningagainst,thearmofachair。WhichherheadwasjestabitboweddownsothatIcouldn'tseehereyes。Buttheywasthebeginningsofasmileontoherface。Itwasbothsoftandsad。
  “Well,“saysColonelTom,“youtwohavewastedalmosttwentyyearsoflife。“
  “Thereisonegoodthing,“saysthedoctor。“Itisagoodthingthattherewasnochildtosufferbyourmistakes。“
  Sheraisedherfacewhenhesaidthat,MissLucydid,andlookedinhisdirection。
  “Youcallthatagoodthing?”shesays,inakindofwonder。Andafteraminuteshesighs。“Per-
  haps,“shesays,“youareright。Heavenonlyknows。PerhapsitWASbetterthathedied。“
  “DIED!”singsoutthedoctor。
  AndIhearnhischairscrapeback,likehehadriztohisfeetsudden。Inearlybustedmynecktryingfurtoseehim,butIcouldn't。Iwasalltwistedup,headdown,andthebloodgettingintomyheadfromitsoIhadtopullitouteverylittlewhile。
  “Yes,“shesays,withhereyeswide,“didn'tyouknowhedied?”AndthensheturnsquicktowardColonelTom。“Didn'tyoutellhim——“shebegins。Butthedoctorcutsin。
  “Lucy,“hesays,hisvoiceshakingandcroakinginhisthroat,“Ineverknewtherewasachild!”
  IhearsColonelTomhawkinHISthroatlikeamanwhoiseithergoingtospitorelsesaysomething。
  Buthedon'tdoeitherone。Noonesaysanythingfuraminute。AndthenMissLucysaysagin:
  “Yes——hedied。“
  Andthenshefellintoakindofamuse。Ihavebeenmyselfinthefixshelookedtobeinthen——soyouforgetfurawhilewhereyouare,orwhoisthere,whilstyouthinkaboutsomethingthathasbeeninthebackpartofyourmindfuralong,longtime。
  Whatshewasmusingaboutwasthatchildthathadn'tlived。Icouldtellthatbyherface。I
  couldtellhowshemusthavethoughtofit,oftenandoften,furyearsandyears,andlongedfurit,sothatitseemedtoherattimesshecouldalmosttouchit。Andhowgoodamothershewouldofbeentoit。SomewomenhasjestnatcherallyGOTtomothersomethingorother。MissLucywasoneofthatkind。Iknowedallinaflash,whilstI
  lookedatherthere,whyshehadadoptedMarthafurherchild。
  Itwasawonderfullookthatwasontoherface。
  Anditwasawonderfulfacethatlookwasonto。I
  feltlikeIhadknowedherforeverwhenIseenherthere。Likethethoughtsofherthedoctorhadbeencarryingaroundwithhimfuryearsandyears,andthatIhadcaughthimthinkingoncetortwicet,hadbeenmythoughtstoo,allmylife。
  MissLucy,shewasoneofthekindthere'snousetryingtodescribe。Thefellerthatcouldseeherthat-a-wayandnotfeelmadegoodbyitorterhaveawhaling。Notthekindofsticky,goodfeelingthatmakesyouuncomfortable,likebeingpesteredbyyourconsciencetojineachurchorquitcussing。
  Butthekindofgoodthatmakesyouforgettheyisanythingonearthbutjestbravenessofheartandbeingwillingtobearthingsyoucan'thelp。Youknowedtheworldhadhurtheralotwhenyouseenherstandingthere;butyoudidn'thavethenervetopityhernone,either。Furyoucouldseeshehadgotoverpityingherself。Evenwhenshewasinthatmuse,longingwithallhersoulfurthatchildshehadneverknowed,youdidn'thavethenervetopityhernone。
  “Hedied,“shesaysagin,purtysoon,withthatgentlekindofsmile。
  ColonelTom,heclearshisthroatagin。Likewhenyouareawfuldry。
  “Thetruthis——“hebegins。
  Andthenhebreaksoffagin。MissLucyturnstowardhimwhenhespeaks。Bythestrangelookthatcomeontoherfacetheremustofbeensome-
  thingrightcuriousinHISmannertoo。Iwasjestsimplylayingontomyforeheadmashingoneofmyderneyeballsthroughalittleholeinthegrating。
  ButIcouldn't,eventhatway,seefurenoughtoonesidetoseehowHElooked。
  “Thetruthis,“saysColonelTom,tryingitagin,“thatI——well,Lucy,thechildmaybedead,buthedidn'tdiewhenyouthoughthedid。“
  TherewasaflashofhopeflaredintoherfacethatIhatedtoseecomethere。Becausewhenitdiedoutinaminute,asIexpecteditwouldhaveto,itlookedtomelikeitmighttakeallherlifeoutwithit。Herlipspartedlikeshewasgoingtosaysomethingwiththem。Butshedidn't。Shejestlookedit。
  “Whydidyounevertellmethis——thattherewasachild?”saysthedoctor,veryeager。
  “Wait,“saysColonelTom,“letmetellthestoryinmyownway。“
  Whichhedoneit。ItseemswhenhehadwenttoGalesburgthisherechildhadonlybeenbornafewdays。AndMissLucywasstillsick。Andthekiditselfwassick,andliabletodieanyminute,bythelooksofthings。
  WhichColonelTomwishesthatitwoulddie,inhisheart。Hethinksthatitisanillegitimatechild,andhehatestheideaofitandhehatesthesightofit。Thesecondnightheisthereheissettinginhissister'sroom,andthewomanthathasbeennursingthekidandMissLucytooisinthenextroomwiththekid。
  Shecomestothedoorandbeckonstohim,thenursedoes。Hetiptoestowardher,andshesaystohim,verylow-voiced,that“itisallover。“
  Meaningthekidhasquitstrugglingfurtolive,andjestnatcherallyfloatedaway。ThenursehadthoughtMissLucyasleep,butasbothherandColonelTomturnquicktowardherbedtheyseethatshehasheardandseen,andsheturnsherfacetowardthewall。Whichhetriesfurtocomforther,ColonelTomdoes,tellingherashowitisanillegitimatechild,andfuritsownsakeitwasbetteritwasdeadbeforeiteverlivedany。Whichshedon'tanswerofhimback,butonlystaresinawild-
  eyedwayathim,andlaysthereandlooksdesperate,andsaysnothing。
  InhisheartColonelTomisawfulgladthatitisdead。Hecan'thelpfeelingthatway。Andhequitstryingtotalktohissister,furhesuspicionsthatshewillketchontothefactthatheisgladthatitisdead。Hegoesonintothenextroom。
  Hefindsthenurselookingawfulfunny,andbendingoverthedeadkid。Sheisputtingalook-
  ing-glasstoitslips。Heastsherwhy。
  Shesaysshethoughtshemightbemistakenafterall。Shecouldn'tsayjestWHENitdied。Itwasaliveandfeeble,andthenpurtysoonitshowednosignsoflife。Itwaslikeithadn'thadenoughstrengthtostayandhadjestwent。Ididn'tshowanypulse,anditdidn'tappeartobebreathing。
  Andshehadwatcheditanddoneeverythingbe-
  foreshebeckonedtoColonelTomandtoldhimthatitwasdead。Butasshecomebackintotheroomwhereitwasshethoughtshenoticedsomethingthatwastoolighttobecalledarealfluttermoveitseyelids,whichshehadcloseddownoveritseyes。
  Itwastheghostofamove,likeithadtriedtoraisethelids,ortheyhadtriedtoraisetheirselves,andhadbeentooweak。Soshehasgotbusyandwrappedahotclotharoundit,andgotadropofbrandyortwobetweenitslips,andwasfightingtobringitbacktolife。Andthoughtshewasdoingit。Thoughtshehadfeltalittleflutterinitschest,andwastryingifithadbreathatall。
  ColonelTomthinksofwhatbigfolkstheBucknerfamblyhasalwaysbeenathome。Andhowhightheyhadalwaysheldtheirheads。Andhownoneofthewomenhaseverbeenlikethisbefore。Nornodisgraceofanykind。Andthattherekid,ifitisalive,isasignofdisgrace。AndhehopedtoGod,hesaid,itwasn'talive。
  Buthedon'tsayso。Hestandsthereandwatchesthatnursefightfurtoholdontothelittlemistoflifeshethinksnowisstillintoit。Sheun-
  buttonsherdressandlaysthekidagainsttheheatofherownbreast。Andwillsfurittolive,andfightsfuritto,anddeterminesthatitmust,andjestnatcherallytriesfurtobullyragdeathintogoingaway。AndColonelTomwatching,andwishingthatitwouldn't。Buthegetsinterestedinthattherefight,andsopurtysoonheishopingbothwaysbyspells。Andthefightallgoingonwithoutawordspoken。
  Butfinallythenursebeginsfurtocry。Notbe-
  causesheissureitisdead。Butbecausesheissureitiscomingback。Whichitdoes,slow。
  “'ButIhavetoldHERthatitisdead,'“saysColonelTom,jerkinghisheadtowardtheotherroomwhereMissLucyislying。Hespeaksinalowvoiceandclosesthedoorwhenhespeaks。Furitlooksnowlikeitwasgettingstrongenoughsoitmightevensquallalittle。
  “Idon'tknowwhatkindofalooktherewasonmyface,“saysColonelTom,tellingofthestorytohissisterandthedoctor,“butshemusthaveseenthatIwas——andheavenhelpme,butIWAS!——sorrythatthebabywasalive。Itwouldhavebeensuchaneasywayoutofithaditbeenreallydead!
  “'Shemustn'tknowthatitisliving,'Isaidtothenurse,finally,“saysColonelTom,goingonwithhisstory。IhadbeenwatchingMissLucy'sfaceasColonelTomtalkedandshewassoworkedupbythatfightfurthekid'slifeshewasbreath-
  less。Buthereyeswascastdown,Iguesssoherbrothercouldn'tseethem。ColonelTomgoesonwithhisstory:
  “'Youdon'tmean——'saidthenurse,startled。
  “'No!No!'Isaid,'ofcourse——notthat!But——
  whyshouldsheeverknowthatitdidn'tdie?'“
  “'Itisillegitimate?'askedthenurse。
  “'Yes,'Isaid。“Thelongandshortofitwas,ColonelTomwentontotell,thatthenursewentoutandgothermother。Whichthetwoofthemlivedalone,onlyaroundthecorner。Andgivethechildintothekeepingofhermother,whotookitawaythenandthere。
  ColonelTomhadmadeuphismindtherewasn'tgoingtobenobastardsintheBucknerfambly。
  AndnowthatMissLucythoughtitwasdeadhewouldletherkeeponthinkingso。Andthatwouldbesettledforgoodandall。Hefiggeredthatitwouldn'teverhurthernoneifsheneverknowedit。
  Thenurse'smotherkeptitallthatweek,anditthrove。ColonelTomwascoaxingofhissistertogobacktoTennessee。Butshewouldn'tgo。SohehadmadeuphismindtogobackandgethisAuntLucyDavistocomeandhelphimcoax。Hewasonlywaitingfurhissistertogetwellenoughsohecouldleaveher。Shegotbetter,andsheneverastfurthekid,norsaidnothingaboutit。Whichwasprobablebecausesheseenhehateditso。Hehadmadeuphismind,beforehewentbackaftertheirAuntLucyDavis,totakethebabyhimselfandputitintosomekindofaninstitution。
  “Ithought,“hesaystoMissLucy,tellingofthestory,“thatyouyourselfwerealmostreconciledtothethoughtthatithadn'tlived。“
  MissLucyinterruptedhimwithalittlesound。
  Shewasbreathinghard,andshakingfromheadtofoot。Noonewouldhavethoughttolookatherthenshewasreconciledtotheideathatithadn'tlived。Itwascruelhardonhertotearhertopieceswiththenewsthatitreallyhadlived,buthadlivedawayfromheralltheseyearsshehadbeenlongingfurit。Andnochancetfurherevertomotherit。
  Andnowaytotellwhathadeverbecomeofit。I
  feltawfulsorryfurMissLucythen。
  “ButwhenIgotreadytoleaveGalesburg,“
  ColonelTomgoeson,“itsuddenlyoccurredtomethattherewouldbedifficultiesinthewayofputtingitinahomeofanysort。Ididn'tknowwhattodowithit——“
  “WhatDIDyou?WhatDIDyou?WHATDIDYOU?”
  criesoutMissLucy,pressingherhandtoherchest,likeshewassmothering。
  “ThefirstthingIdid,“saysColonelTom,“wastogetyoutoanotherhouse——youremember,Lucy?”
  “Yes,yes!”shesays,excited,“andwhatthen?”
  “PerhapsIdidaveryfoolishthing,“saysColonelTom。
  “AfterIhadseenyouinstalledinthenewplaceandhadbiddenyougood-bye,Igotacarriageanddrovebytheplacewherethenurseandhermotherlived。ItoldthewomanthatIhadchangedmymind——thatyouweregoingtoraisethebaby——
  thatIwasgoingtopermitit。Idon'tthinkshequitebelievedme,butshegavemethebaby。Whatelsecouldshedo?Besides,Ihadpaidherwell,whenIdischargedher,tosaynothingtoyou,andtokeepthebabyuntilIshouldcomeforit。Theyneededmoney;theywerepoor。
  “Iwasdeterminedthatitshouldneverbeheardofagain。ItwasaboutnoonwhenIleftGalesburg。
  Idroveallthatafternoon,withthebabyinabasketontheseatofthecarriagebesideme。Everybodyhasreadinbooks,sincebookswerefirstwritten——
  andseeninnewspapers,too——aboutchildrenbeingleftondoorsteps。Givenaninfanttodisposeof,thatisperhapsthefirstthingthatoccurstoaper-
  son。Therewasathickplaidshawlwrappedaboutthechild。Inthebasket,besidethebaby,wasanursingbottle。AboutduskIhaditrefilledwithwarmmilkatafarmhousenear——“
  Myheadwasbeginningfurtoswim。Ipulledmyheadoutofthattherehole,andrammedmyfootintoit。Itbangedagainstthatgratingandloosenedit。Itbustedloosesomeplaster,whichshowereddownintotheroomunderneath。MissLucy,shescreamed。AndthedoctorandColonelTombothyelledouttooncet:
  “Who'sthat?”
  “It'sme,“Iyells,bangingthatgratingagin。
  “Watchoutbelowthere!”AndthethirdlickI
  givehershebrokelooseandclattereddownrightontoacentretableandspilledoversomepho-
  tographsandavasefullofflowers,andbouncedoffontothefloor。
  “Lookoutbelow,“Iyells,“I'mcomingdown!”
  Iletmylegsthroughfirst,andswungthemsoI
  wouldlandtoonesideofthetable,andheldbymyhands,anddropped。Butstruckthetableaside-
  waysswipeandturneditover,andfellontothefloor。Thedoctor,hegrabbedmebythecollarandstraightenedmeup,andgivemeashakeandstoodmeontomyfeet。
  “Whatdoyoumean——“hebegins。ButI
  breaksin。
  “Nowthen,“IsaystoColonelTom,“didyouleavethattherechildsuckingthattherebottleonthedoorstepofablacksmith'shousenexttohisshopattheedgeofalittlecountrytownabouttwentymilesnortheastofGalesburgwrappedupinthatthereplaidshawl?”
  “Idid,“saysColonelTom。
  “Then,“saysI,turningtoMissLucy,“IcanunderstandwhyIhavebeenfeelingdrawedtoYOU
  furquiteaspell。I'mhim。“
  End