Martha,shehadbeenfussingaroundsomeflowerbusheswithapairofshearsandgloveson。ShelooksupwhenIsaysthat,andshesizesusallupstandingbythegate,andhereyespopsopen,andsodoeshermouth,andsheissosurprisedtoseemeshedropshershears。
Andshelooksscared,too。
“IsMissBucknerathome?”astsColonelTom,liftinghishatverypolite。
“MissB-B-Buckner?”Marthastutters,veryscared-like,andnottakinghereyesoffofmetoanswerhim。
“MissHampton,Martha,“Isays。
“Y-y-y-es,s-sh-sheis,“saysMartha。Iwonderedwhatwasthematterwithher。
Itisalwaysmylucktogetleftallalonewithmytroubles。Thedoctorandthecolonel,theywalkedrightpastuswhenshesaidyes,anduptowardthehouse,andleftherandmestandingthere。I
couldofwentalongandbuttedin,mebby。ButI
saystomyselfIwillhavethedernedthingouthereandnow,andknowtheworst。AndIwassointerestedinmytroubleandMarthathatIdidn'tevennoticeifMissLucymet'ematthedoor,andifso,howsheacted。WhenInextlookeduptheywasallinthehouse。
“Martha——“Ibegins。Butshebreaksin。
“Danny,“shesays,lookinglikesheisgoingtocry,“don'tl-l-lookatmel-l-likethat。IfyouknewALLyouwouldn'tblameme。You——“
“Wouldn'tblameyoufurwhat?”Iastsher。
“Iknowit'swrongofme,“shesays,begging-like。
“Mebbyitisandmebbyitain't,“Isays。“Butwhatisit?”
“Butyouneverwrotetome,“shesays。
“Youneverwrotetome,“Isays,notwantinghertogetthebestofme,whateveritwasshemightbetalkingabout。
“AndthenHEcametotown!——“
“Who?”Iastsher。
“Don'tyouknow?”shesays。“ThemanIamgoingtomarry。“
WhenshesaidthatIfelt,allofasudden,likewhenyouarebrokeandhungryandrunacrostahalfdollaryouhadforgotaboutinyourotherpants。
IwassogladIjumped。
“Greatguns!”Isays。
Ihadneverreallyknowedwhatbeinggladwasbefore。
“Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,puttingherhandsinfrontofherface,“andhereyouhavecometoclaimmeforyourbride!”
Whichshowedmewhyshehadlookedsoscared。
Thattheregirlhadwentandgotengagedtoanotherfeller。AndhadbeenlayingawakenightssufferingfurfearIwouldturnupagin。AndnowIhad。
Looey,healwayssaidnevertotrustawoman!
“Martha,“Isays,“youain'tactedrightwithme。“
“Oh,Danny,Danny,“shesays,“Iknowit!I
knowit!”
“Somefellersinmyplace,“Isays,“wouldraiseadickensofarow。“
“IDIDloveyouonce,“shesays,lookingatmefrombetweenherfingers。
“Yes,“saysI,actingrealmelancholy,“youdid。
Andnowyou'vequitit,theydon'tseemtometobenothinglefttolivefur。“Martha,shewasanawfulromancefulgirl。Igotthenotionthatmebbyshewasenjoyingherownremorsefulnessalittlebit。
IfetchedadeepsighandIsays:
“Somefellerswouldkilltheirselvesonthespot!”
“Oh!——Oh!——Oh!——“saysMartha。
“But,Martha,“saysI,“Iain'tthatmean。I
ain'tgoingtodothat。“
Thatderngirlackshellaygivemeadisappointedlook!Ifanything,shewasjestabitTOOromanceful,Marthawas。
“No,“saysI,cheeringupalittle,“Iamgoingtodosomethingtheyain'tmanyfellerswoulddo,Martha。I'mgoingtoforgiveyou。Freeandfairandopen。Andgiveyoubackmyhalfofthatring,and——“
Dernit!IhadforgotIhadlostthathalfofthattherering!Irememberedsoquickitstoppedme。
“Youalwayskeptit,Danny?”sheastsme,verysoft-spoken,soasnottogivepaintoonesofaithfulandsonobleaswhatIwas。“Letmeseeit,Danny。“
ImadelikeIwasfeelingthroughallmypocketsfurit。Butthatcouldn'tlastforever。Irunoutofpocketspurtysoon。Andherfacebeguntoshowshewassmellingarat。FinallyIsays:
“Theseain'tmyotherclothes——itmustbeinthem。“
“Danny,“shesays,“IbelieveyouLOSTit。“
“Martha,“Isays,takingachancet,“youknowyoulostYOURhalf!”
Sheownsupshehaslostitalongwhileago。
Andwhenshelostit,shesays,sheknowedthatwasfateandthatourlovewasomenedinunderanevilstar。Andwhowasshe,shesays,tostruggleaginfate?
“Martha,“Isays,“I'llbehonestwithyou。
FategotawaywithmyhalftooonedaywhenI
didn'tknowtheywascrookslikeherstickingaround。“
Well,Iseenthatgirlseenthroughmethen。
Marthawasawfulsmartsometimes。Andeachonewassodernedtickledtheotheronewasn'tgo-
ingtodoanypiningawayweliketooffellintolovealloveragin。Butnotquite。Furneitheronewouldevertrusttheotheroneagin。Sowefeltmorecomfortablewitheachother。Youain'tnevercomfortablewithapersonyouknowismorehonestthanyoube。
“But,“saysMartha,afteraminute,“ifyoudidn'tcomebacktomakememarryyou,whatdoesDoctorKirbywanttoseeMissHamptonabout?
Andwhowasthatwithhim?”
Ihadbeennightoforgettingthemainthingwehadallcomeherefur,inmygladnessatgettingridofanydangerofmarryingMartha。ButitcometomealltooncetIhadbeenmissingalotthatmustbetakingplaceinsidethathouse。Ihadevenmissedthewaytheyfirstlookedwhenshemet'ematthedoor,andIwouldn'tofmissedthatfuralot。AndIseenalltooncetwhatabigpieceofnewsitwillbetoMartha。
“Martha,“Isays,“theyain'tnoDr。HartleyL。
Kirby。ThemanknownassuchisDavidArm-
strong!”
IneverseenanyonesopeetrifiedasMarthawasfuraminute。
“Yes,“saysI,“andtheotheroneisMissLucy'sbrother。Andtheyareallthreeintherestraighten-
ingthemselvesoutandfindingwhereeverybodygetsoffat,andwhy。Oneofthesehereserioustimesyoureadabout。Andyouandmearemissingitall,likeacoupleofgumps。Howcanwehear?”
Marthasaysshedon'tknow。
“YouTHINK,“Itoldher。“We'vewastedfivegoodminutesalready。I'veGOTtoheartherestofit。Wherewouldtheybe?”
Marthaguessestheywillallbeinthesittingroom,whichhasgotthebestchairsinit。
“Whatisnexttoit?Abackparlour,orabed-
room,orwhat?”IwasthinkingofhowIhappenedtooverhearPerfessorBoothandhisfamblythat-a-way。
Marthasaystheyisnothinglikethattobetried。
“Martha,“Isays,“thisisserious。Thisherestorytheyarethrashingoutinthereistheonlydernedsure-enoughromancefulstoryeitheryouormeiseverlibletorunupagainstpersonalinallourlives。Itwouldofbeenagooddealniceriftheyhadastusintoseethewind-upofit。Fur,ifithadn'tofbeenfurme,theyneverwouldofbeenreunitedandrejuvenatedthewaytheybe。Butsomepeoplegetstingystreakswiththeirconcerns。
Youthink!”
Martha,shesays:“Danny,itwouldn'tbehonourabletolisten。“
“Martha,“Itellsher,“afterthewayyouandmewentandjiltedeachother,whatkindofsensesofhonourhaveWEgottobragabout?”
Sheremembersthatthesparebedroomisrightoverthesittingroom。Thehouseisheatedwithstovesinthewintertime。Thereisaregisterrightthroughthefloorofthesparebedroomandtheceilingofthesittingroom。Notthekindofaregisterthatcomesfromatwisted-aroundshaftinahousethatusesfurnaceheat。Butjestreallyaholeinthefloor,withacast-irongrating,tolettheheatfromtheroombelowintotheoneabove。
Shesayssheguessestwopeoplethatwasn'tsoveryhonourablemightsneakintothehousethebackway,andupthebackstairs,andintothesparebedroom,andlaydownontheirstummicksonthefloor,beingcarefultomakenonoise,andbothseeandhearthroughthatregister。Whichwedoneit。
CHAPTERXXIV
Icouldhearwellenough,butatfirstIcouldn'tseeanyofthem。ButIgatheredthatMissLucywasstandingupwhilstshewastalking,andmovingaroundabitnowandthen。Iseenoneofhersleeves,andthenawispofherhair。Whichwasaggervating,furIwantedtoknowwhatshewaslike。Buthervoicewassosoftandquietthatyoukindofknowedbeforeyouseenherhowsheorterlook。
“PrentissMcMakincametomethatday,“shewassaying,“withanappeal——Ihardlyknowhowtotellyou。“Shebrokeoff。
“Goahead,Lucy,“saysColonelTom'svoice。
“Hewasinsulting,“shesaid。“Hehadbeendrink-
ing。Hewantedmeto——to——heappealedtometorunoffwithhim。
“Iwasfurious——NATURALLY。“HervoicechangedasshesaiditenoughsoyoucouldfeelhowfuriousMissLucycouldget。ShewaslikeherbrotherTominsomeways。
“Iorderedhimoutofthehouse。Hisanswertothatwasanoffertomarryme。YoucanimaginethatIwassurprisedaswellasangry——Iwasperplexed。
“'ButIAMmarried!'Icried。Theideathatanyofmyownpeople,oranyonewhomIhadknownathome,wouldthinkIwasn'tmarriedwastoomuchformetotakeinallatonce。
“'YouTHINKyouare,'saidPrentissMcMakin,withasmile。
“Inspiteofmyselfmybreathstopped。Itwasasifachillyhandhadtakenholdofmyheart。
Imean,physically,Ifeltlikethat。
“'IAMmarried,'Irepeated,simply。
“IsupposethatMcMakinhadgotthestoryofourweddingfromYOU。“Shestoppedaminute。
Thedoctor'svoiceanswered:
“Isupposeso,“likehewasaverytiredman。
“Anyhow,“shewenton,“heknewthatwewentfirsttoClarksville。Hesaid:
“'Youthinkyouaremarried,Lucy,butyouarenot。'
“IwishyoutounderstandthatPrentissMcMakindiditallvery,verywell。Thatismyexcuse。Heactedwell。Therewassomethingabouthim——I
scarcelyknowhowtoputit。Itsoundsodd,butthetruthisthatPrentissMcMakinwasalwaysamoreconvincingsortofapersonwhenhehadbeendrinkingalittlethanwhenhewassober。Helackedwarmth——helackedtemperament。Isupposejusttherightamountputitintohim。Itputthedevilintohim,too,Ireckon。
“Hetoldmethatyouandhe,Tom,hadbeentoClarksville,andhadmadeinvestigations,andthattheweddingwasafraud。Andhetolditwithawealthofconvincingdetail。Inthemidstofithebrokeofftoasktoseemyweddingcertificate。Ashetalked,helaughedatit,andtoreitup,sayingthatthethingwasnotworththepaperitwason,andhethrewthepiecesofpaperintothegrate。I
listened,andIlethimdoit——notthatthepaperitselfmatteredparticularly。ButtheveryfactthatIlethimtearitshowedme,myself,thatIwasbelievinghim。
“Heendedwithanimpassionedappealtometogowithhim。
“Ishowedhimthedoor。IpretendedtothelastthatIthoughthewaslyingtome。ButIdidnotthinkso。Ibelievedhim。Hehaddoneitallverycleverly。YoucanunderstandhowImight——
inviewofwhathadhappened?”
IwantedtoseeMissLucy——howshelookedwhenshesaiddifferentthings,soIcouldmakeupmymindwhethershewasforgivingthedoctorornot。NotthatIhadmuchdoubtbutwhattheywouldgettheirpersonaltroublesfixedupintheend。Theirongratinginthefloorwashelddownbyfourgood-sizedscrews,oneateachcorner。Theywasn'tnofillingatallbetwixtitandtheirongratingthatwasintheceilingoftheroombelow。Thespacewashollow。Igotanideaandtookoutmyjack-knife。
“Whatareyougoingtodo?”whispersMartha。
“S-sh-sh,“Isays,“shutup,andyou'llsee。“
Oneofthescrewswasloose,andIpickedherouteasyenough。ThesecondoneIbrokethepointoffofmyknifebladeon。Likeyounearlyalwaysdoonascrew。WhenitsnappedColonelTomhesays:
“What'sthat?”Hewaspowerfulquickofhear-
ing,ColonelTomwas。Ilaidlowtilltheywentontalkingagin。ThenMarthaslidesoutontiptoeandcomesbackinthreesecondswithoneoftheseherelittlescrew-driverstheyusearoundsewing-machinesandthelittleoilcanthatgoeswithit。Ioilsthemscrewsandhasthemoutinaholyminute,andliftsthegratingfromthefloorcarefulandlaysitcarefulontherug。
BydoingallofwhichIcouldgetmyheadandshouldersdownintothattherehole。Andbytwist-
ingmyneckagooddeal,seealittlewaystoeachsideintotheroom,insteadofjestunderneaththegrating。ThedoctorIcouldn'tseeyet,andonlyalittleofColonelTom,butMissLucyquiteplain。
“Youmeanthing,“Marthawhispers,“youareblockingitupsoIcan'thear。“
“Keepstill,“Iwhispers,pullingmyheadoutoftheholesothesoundwouldn'tfloatdownwardintotheroombelow。“Youarejestlikeallotherwomen——yougottoomuchcuriosity。“
“Howaboutyourself?”saysshe。
“Whowasitthoughtoftakingthegratingoff?”
Iwhispersbacktoher。Whichsettleshertem-
porary,butshesaysifIdon'tgiveherachancetatitpurtysoonshewillticklemyribs。
WhenIlistensagintheyareburyingthattherePrentMcMakin。Butwithoutanyflowers。
MissLucy,shewashalfsettingon,halfleaningagainst,thearmofachair。WhichherheadwasjestabitboweddownsothatIcouldn'tseehereyes。Buttheywasthebeginningsofasmileontoherface。Itwasbothsoftandsad。
“Well,“saysColonelTom,“youtwohavewastedalmosttwentyyearsoflife。“
“Thereisonegoodthing,“saysthedoctor。“Itisagoodthingthattherewasnochildtosufferbyourmistakes。“
Sheraisedherfacewhenhesaidthat,MissLucydid,andlookedinhisdirection。
“Youcallthatagoodthing?”shesays,inakindofwonder。Andafteraminuteshesighs。“Per-
haps,“shesays,“youareright。Heavenonlyknows。PerhapsitWASbetterthathedied。“
“DIED!”singsoutthedoctor。
AndIhearnhischairscrapeback,likehehadriztohisfeetsudden。Inearlybustedmynecktryingfurtoseehim,butIcouldn't。Iwasalltwistedup,headdown,andthebloodgettingintomyheadfromitsoIhadtopullitouteverylittlewhile。
“Yes,“shesays,withhereyeswide,“didn'tyouknowhedied?”AndthensheturnsquicktowardColonelTom。“Didn'tyoutellhim——“shebegins。Butthedoctorcutsin。
“Lucy,“hesays,hisvoiceshakingandcroakinginhisthroat,“Ineverknewtherewasachild!”
IhearsColonelTomhawkinHISthroatlikeamanwhoiseithergoingtospitorelsesaysomething。
Buthedon'tdoeitherone。Noonesaysanythingfuraminute。AndthenMissLucysaysagin:
“Yes——hedied。“
Andthenshefellintoakindofamuse。Ihavebeenmyselfinthefixshelookedtobeinthen——soyouforgetfurawhilewhereyouare,orwhoisthere,whilstyouthinkaboutsomethingthathasbeeninthebackpartofyourmindfuralong,longtime。
Whatshewasmusingaboutwasthatchildthathadn'tlived。Icouldtellthatbyherface。I
couldtellhowshemusthavethoughtofit,oftenandoften,furyearsandyears,andlongedfurit,sothatitseemedtoherattimesshecouldalmosttouchit。Andhowgoodamothershewouldofbeentoit。SomewomenhasjestnatcherallyGOTtomothersomethingorother。MissLucywasoneofthatkind。Iknowedallinaflash,whilstI
lookedatherthere,whyshehadadoptedMarthafurherchild。
Itwasawonderfullookthatwasontoherface。
Anditwasawonderfulfacethatlookwasonto。I
feltlikeIhadknowedherforeverwhenIseenherthere。Likethethoughtsofherthedoctorhadbeencarryingaroundwithhimfuryearsandyears,andthatIhadcaughthimthinkingoncetortwicet,hadbeenmythoughtstoo,allmylife。
MissLucy,shewasoneofthekindthere'snousetryingtodescribe。Thefellerthatcouldseeherthat-a-wayandnotfeelmadegoodbyitorterhaveawhaling。Notthekindofsticky,goodfeelingthatmakesyouuncomfortable,likebeingpesteredbyyourconsciencetojineachurchorquitcussing。
Butthekindofgoodthatmakesyouforgettheyisanythingonearthbutjestbravenessofheartandbeingwillingtobearthingsyoucan'thelp。Youknowedtheworldhadhurtheralotwhenyouseenherstandingthere;butyoudidn'thavethenervetopityhernone,either。Furyoucouldseeshehadgotoverpityingherself。Evenwhenshewasinthatmuse,longingwithallhersoulfurthatchildshehadneverknowed,youdidn'thavethenervetopityhernone。
“Hedied,“shesaysagin,purtysoon,withthatgentlekindofsmile。
ColonelTom,heclearshisthroatagin。Likewhenyouareawfuldry。
“Thetruthis——“hebegins。
Andthenhebreaksoffagin。MissLucyturnstowardhimwhenhespeaks。Bythestrangelookthatcomeontoherfacetheremustofbeensome-
thingrightcuriousinHISmannertoo。Iwasjestsimplylayingontomyforeheadmashingoneofmyderneyeballsthroughalittleholeinthegrating。
ButIcouldn't,eventhatway,seefurenoughtoonesidetoseehowHElooked。
“Thetruthis,“saysColonelTom,tryingitagin,“thatI——well,Lucy,thechildmaybedead,buthedidn'tdiewhenyouthoughthedid。“
TherewasaflashofhopeflaredintoherfacethatIhatedtoseecomethere。Becausewhenitdiedoutinaminute,asIexpecteditwouldhaveto,itlookedtomelikeitmighttakeallherlifeoutwithit。Herlipspartedlikeshewasgoingtosaysomethingwiththem。Butshedidn't。Shejestlookedit。
“Whydidyounevertellmethis——thattherewasachild?”saysthedoctor,veryeager。
“Wait,“saysColonelTom,“letmetellthestoryinmyownway。“
Whichhedoneit。ItseemswhenhehadwenttoGalesburgthisherechildhadonlybeenbornafewdays。AndMissLucywasstillsick。Andthekiditselfwassick,andliabletodieanyminute,bythelooksofthings。
WhichColonelTomwishesthatitwoulddie,inhisheart。Hethinksthatitisanillegitimatechild,andhehatestheideaofitandhehatesthesightofit。Thesecondnightheisthereheissettinginhissister'sroom,andthewomanthathasbeennursingthekidandMissLucytooisinthenextroomwiththekid。
Shecomestothedoorandbeckonstohim,thenursedoes。Hetiptoestowardher,andshesaystohim,verylow-voiced,that“itisallover。“
Meaningthekidhasquitstrugglingfurtolive,andjestnatcherallyfloatedaway。ThenursehadthoughtMissLucyasleep,butasbothherandColonelTomturnquicktowardherbedtheyseethatshehasheardandseen,andsheturnsherfacetowardthewall。Whichhetriesfurtocomforther,ColonelTomdoes,tellingherashowitisanillegitimatechild,andfuritsownsakeitwasbetteritwasdeadbeforeiteverlivedany。Whichshedon'tanswerofhimback,butonlystaresinawild-
eyedwayathim,andlaysthereandlooksdesperate,andsaysnothing。
InhisheartColonelTomisawfulgladthatitisdead。Hecan'thelpfeelingthatway。Andhequitstryingtotalktohissister,furhesuspicionsthatshewillketchontothefactthatheisgladthatitisdead。Hegoesonintothenextroom。
Hefindsthenurselookingawfulfunny,andbendingoverthedeadkid。Sheisputtingalook-
ing-glasstoitslips。Heastsherwhy。
Shesaysshethoughtshemightbemistakenafterall。Shecouldn'tsayjestWHENitdied。Itwasaliveandfeeble,andthenpurtysoonitshowednosignsoflife。Itwaslikeithadn'thadenoughstrengthtostayandhadjestwent。Ididn'tshowanypulse,anditdidn'tappeartobebreathing。
Andshehadwatcheditanddoneeverythingbe-
foreshebeckonedtoColonelTomandtoldhimthatitwasdead。Butasshecomebackintotheroomwhereitwasshethoughtshenoticedsomethingthatwastoolighttobecalledarealfluttermoveitseyelids,whichshehadcloseddownoveritseyes。
Itwastheghostofamove,likeithadtriedtoraisethelids,ortheyhadtriedtoraisetheirselves,andhadbeentooweak。Soshehasgotbusyandwrappedahotclotharoundit,andgotadropofbrandyortwobetweenitslips,andwasfightingtobringitbacktolife。Andthoughtshewasdoingit。Thoughtshehadfeltalittleflutterinitschest,andwastryingifithadbreathatall。
ColonelTomthinksofwhatbigfolkstheBucknerfamblyhasalwaysbeenathome。Andhowhightheyhadalwaysheldtheirheads。Andhownoneofthewomenhaseverbeenlikethisbefore。Nornodisgraceofanykind。Andthattherekid,ifitisalive,isasignofdisgrace。AndhehopedtoGod,hesaid,itwasn'talive。
Buthedon'tsayso。Hestandsthereandwatchesthatnursefightfurtoholdontothelittlemistoflifeshethinksnowisstillintoit。Sheun-
buttonsherdressandlaysthekidagainsttheheatofherownbreast。Andwillsfurittolive,andfightsfuritto,anddeterminesthatitmust,andjestnatcherallytriesfurtobullyragdeathintogoingaway。AndColonelTomwatching,andwishingthatitwouldn't。Buthegetsinterestedinthattherefight,andsopurtysoonheishopingbothwaysbyspells。Andthefightallgoingonwithoutawordspoken。
Butfinallythenursebeginsfurtocry。Notbe-
causesheissureitisdead。Butbecausesheissureitiscomingback。Whichitdoes,slow。
“'ButIhavetoldHERthatitisdead,'“saysColonelTom,jerkinghisheadtowardtheotherroomwhereMissLucyislying。Hespeaksinalowvoiceandclosesthedoorwhenhespeaks。Furitlooksnowlikeitwasgettingstrongenoughsoitmightevensquallalittle。
“Idon'tknowwhatkindofalooktherewasonmyface,“saysColonelTom,tellingofthestorytohissisterandthedoctor,“butshemusthaveseenthatIwas——andheavenhelpme,butIWAS!——sorrythatthebabywasalive。Itwouldhavebeensuchaneasywayoutofithaditbeenreallydead!
“'Shemustn'tknowthatitisliving,'Isaidtothenurse,finally,“saysColonelTom,goingonwithhisstory。IhadbeenwatchingMissLucy'sfaceasColonelTomtalkedandshewassoworkedupbythatfightfurthekid'slifeshewasbreath-
less。Buthereyeswascastdown,Iguesssoherbrothercouldn'tseethem。ColonelTomgoesonwithhisstory:
“'Youdon'tmean——'saidthenurse,startled。
“'No!No!'Isaid,'ofcourse——notthat!But——
whyshouldsheeverknowthatitdidn'tdie?'“
“'Itisillegitimate?'askedthenurse。
“'Yes,'Isaid。“Thelongandshortofitwas,ColonelTomwentontotell,thatthenursewentoutandgothermother。Whichthetwoofthemlivedalone,onlyaroundthecorner。Andgivethechildintothekeepingofhermother,whotookitawaythenandthere。
ColonelTomhadmadeuphismindtherewasn'tgoingtobenobastardsintheBucknerfambly。
AndnowthatMissLucythoughtitwasdeadhewouldletherkeeponthinkingso。Andthatwouldbesettledforgoodandall。Hefiggeredthatitwouldn'teverhurthernoneifsheneverknowedit。
Thenurse'smotherkeptitallthatweek,anditthrove。ColonelTomwascoaxingofhissistertogobacktoTennessee。Butshewouldn'tgo。SohehadmadeuphismindtogobackandgethisAuntLucyDavistocomeandhelphimcoax。Hewasonlywaitingfurhissistertogetwellenoughsohecouldleaveher。Shegotbetter,andsheneverastfurthekid,norsaidnothingaboutit。Whichwasprobablebecausesheseenhehateditso。Hehadmadeuphismind,beforehewentbackaftertheirAuntLucyDavis,totakethebabyhimselfandputitintosomekindofaninstitution。
“Ithought,“hesaystoMissLucy,tellingofthestory,“thatyouyourselfwerealmostreconciledtothethoughtthatithadn'tlived。“
MissLucyinterruptedhimwithalittlesound。
Shewasbreathinghard,andshakingfromheadtofoot。Noonewouldhavethoughttolookatherthenshewasreconciledtotheideathatithadn'tlived。Itwascruelhardonhertotearhertopieceswiththenewsthatitreallyhadlived,buthadlivedawayfromheralltheseyearsshehadbeenlongingfurit。Andnochancetfurherevertomotherit。
Andnowaytotellwhathadeverbecomeofit。I
feltawfulsorryfurMissLucythen。
“ButwhenIgotreadytoleaveGalesburg,“
ColonelTomgoeson,“itsuddenlyoccurredtomethattherewouldbedifficultiesinthewayofputtingitinahomeofanysort。Ididn'tknowwhattodowithit——“
“WhatDIDyou?WhatDIDyou?WHATDIDYOU?”
criesoutMissLucy,pressingherhandtoherchest,likeshewassmothering。
“ThefirstthingIdid,“saysColonelTom,“wastogetyoutoanotherhouse——youremember,Lucy?”
“Yes,yes!”shesays,excited,“andwhatthen?”
“PerhapsIdidaveryfoolishthing,“saysColonelTom。
“AfterIhadseenyouinstalledinthenewplaceandhadbiddenyougood-bye,Igotacarriageanddrovebytheplacewherethenurseandhermotherlived。ItoldthewomanthatIhadchangedmymind——thatyouweregoingtoraisethebaby——
thatIwasgoingtopermitit。Idon'tthinkshequitebelievedme,butshegavemethebaby。Whatelsecouldshedo?Besides,Ihadpaidherwell,whenIdischargedher,tosaynothingtoyou,andtokeepthebabyuntilIshouldcomeforit。Theyneededmoney;theywerepoor。
“Iwasdeterminedthatitshouldneverbeheardofagain。ItwasaboutnoonwhenIleftGalesburg。
Idroveallthatafternoon,withthebabyinabasketontheseatofthecarriagebesideme。Everybodyhasreadinbooks,sincebookswerefirstwritten——
andseeninnewspapers,too——aboutchildrenbeingleftondoorsteps。Givenaninfanttodisposeof,thatisperhapsthefirstthingthatoccurstoaper-
son。Therewasathickplaidshawlwrappedaboutthechild。Inthebasket,besidethebaby,wasanursingbottle。AboutduskIhaditrefilledwithwarmmilkatafarmhousenear——“
Myheadwasbeginningfurtoswim。Ipulledmyheadoutofthattherehole,andrammedmyfootintoit。Itbangedagainstthatgratingandloosenedit。Itbustedloosesomeplaster,whichshowereddownintotheroomunderneath。MissLucy,shescreamed。AndthedoctorandColonelTombothyelledouttooncet:
“Who'sthat?”
“It'sme,“Iyells,bangingthatgratingagin。
“Watchoutbelowthere!”AndthethirdlickI
givehershebrokelooseandclattereddownrightontoacentretableandspilledoversomepho-
tographsandavasefullofflowers,andbouncedoffontothefloor。
“Lookoutbelow,“Iyells,“I'mcomingdown!”
Iletmylegsthroughfirst,andswungthemsoI
wouldlandtoonesideofthetable,andheldbymyhands,anddropped。Butstruckthetableaside-
waysswipeandturneditover,andfellontothefloor。Thedoctor,hegrabbedmebythecollarandstraightenedmeup,andgivemeashakeandstoodmeontomyfeet。
“Whatdoyoumean——“hebegins。ButI
breaksin。
“Nowthen,“IsaystoColonelTom,“didyouleavethattherechildsuckingthattherebottleonthedoorstepofablacksmith'shousenexttohisshopattheedgeofalittlecountrytownabouttwentymilesnortheastofGalesburgwrappedupinthatthereplaidshawl?”
“Idid,“saysColonelTom。
“Then,“saysI,turningtoMissLucy,“IcanunderstandwhyIhavebeenfeelingdrawedtoYOU
furquiteaspell。I'mhim。“
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