OnethingthereisthatImusthavepreachedcontinuallyinallmypulpitsandexpoundedandillustratedandenforcedinallmylectureships，saidEmmanuel，andthatis，mynewexampleandmynewlawofmotive。MyownmotivesalwaysmademeinallIsaidanddidtobewell-pleasinginMyFather’seyes，andatanycostImusthavepreachersandlecturerssetupinMansoulwhoshallassistMeinmakingMansoulaswell-pleasinginMyFather’ssightasIwasMyself。
　　’ForIamwareitistheseedofactGodholdsappraisinginHishollowpalm，Notactgrowngreatthenceastheworldbelieves，Leafageandbranchagevulgareyesadmire。’
　　Motives！gnashedDiabolus。Andhetorehislastcardintoathousandshredsandcasttheshredsunderhisfeetinhisrageandexasperation。Motives！Newmotives！TrulyThouartthethreatenedSeedofthewoman！TrulyThouartthethreatenedSonofGod！——Letallourpreachers，then，preachmuchonmotivetotheirpeople。ThecommonplacecrowdoftheirpeoplewillnotalllikethatpreachinganymorethanDiabolusdid；buttheirbestpeoplewillallafterwardsriseupintheirsalvationandblessthemforit。Onreformationalso，letthemeverySabbathpreach，butonlyonthereformationthatrisesoutofareformedmotive，andthatagainoutofareformedheart。Andifareformedmotive，areformedheart，andareformedlifearefoundbothbypreacherandhearertobeimpossible；ifallthatonlybringsoutthehopelessnessoftheirsalvationbyreasonoftheguiltandthepollutionandpowerofsin；thenallthatwillonlybetothemthatsameeverdeeperenteringofthelawintotheirheartswhichledPaultoaneverdeeperfaithandtrustinJesusChrist。Withaguilt，andapollution，andaslaverytosinlikeours，salvationfromsinwouldbeabsolutelyimpossible。Absolutelyimpossible，thatis，butforourSaviour，JesusChrist。ButwithHisatoningbloodandHisHolySpiritallthingsarepossible——evenoursalvation。
　　Letuschoose，then，aministerlikeMr。JohnMenzies。Letusreadthegreatbooksthatmakesalvationdifficult。Letusworkoutourownsalvation，dayandnight，withfearandtrembling，andwhenWisdomisjustifiedinherchildren，weshallbefoundjustifiedamongthem。Weshallbeopenlyacknowledgedandacquittedinthedayofjudgment，andmadeperfectlyblessedinthefullenjoyingofGodtoalleternity。
　　CHAPTERXV——MR。PRYWELL
　　’Searchme，OGod，andknowmyheart。’——David。
　　’Letamanexaminehimself。’——Paul’Looktoyourselves。’——John。
　　’Knowthyself。’——Apollo。
　　Theyear1668sawthepublicationofoneofthedeepestbooksinthewholeworld，Dr。JohnOwen’sRemaindersofIndwellingSininBelievers。Theheart-searchingdepth；theclear，fearless，humblingtruth，theintensespirituality，andthemassiveandmasculinestrengthofJohnOwen’sbookhaveallcombinedtomakeitoneoftheacknowledgedmasterpiecesofthegreatPuritanschool。
　　HadJohnOwen’sstylebeenatallequaltohisgreatlearning，tothedepthandthegraspofhismind，andtotheloftyholinessofhislife，JohnOwenwouldhavestoodintheveryforemostandselectestrankofapostolicalandevangelicaltheologians。ButinallhisbooksOwenlaboursunderthefataldrawbackofabadstyle。
　　Afinestyle，astylelikethatofHooker，orTaylor，orBunyan，orHowe，orLeighton，orLaw，issuchawinningintroductiontotheirworksandsuchanabidingcharmandspell。ThefulltitleofDr。
　　Owen’sgreatworkrunsthus:TheNature，Power，Deceit，andPrevalencyoftheRemaindersofIndwellingSininBelievers——atitlethatwilltellalltruestudentswhatawaitsthemwhentheyhavecourageandenterpriseenoughtoaddressthemselvestothissupremeandall-essentialsubject。FourteenyearsafterthepublicationofDr。Owen’sepoch-makingbook，JohnBunyan’sHolyWarfirstsawthelight。Equalinscripturalandinexperimentaldepth，asalsointheirspiritualloftinessandintensity，thosetwobooksareasdifferentasanytwobooks，writteninthesamelanguage，andwrittenonthesamesubject，couldbyanypossibilitybe。JohnOwen’sbookisthebookofagreatscholarwhohasreadtheFathersandtheSchoolmenandtheReformerstillheknowsthembyheart，andtillhehasbeenabletodigestallthatistruetoScriptureandtoexperienceinthemintohisrichandripebook。A
　　powerfulreasoner，asevere，bald，muscularwriter，JohnOweninalltheserespectsstandsattheveryoppositepoletothatofJohnBunyan。TheauthoroftheHolyWarhadnolearning，buthehadamindofimmensenaturalsagacity，combinedwithahabitofcloseanddeepobservationofhumanlife，andespeciallyofreligiouslife，andhehadnowalifetimeofmostfruitfulexperienceasaChristianmanandasaChristianministerbehindhim；and，allthat，takenupintoBunyan’ssplendidimagination，enabledhimtoproducethisextraordinarilyableandimpressivebook。AmodelofEnglishstyleastheHolyWaris，atthesametimeitdoesnotattainatalltotherankofthePilgrim’sProgress；butthen，tobesecondtothePilgrim’sProgressisrewardandhonourenoughforanybook。Letallgenuinestudents，then，whowouldknowthebestthathasbeenwrittenonexperimentalreligion，andwhowouldpreachtothedeepestanddivinestexperienceoftheirbestpeople，letthemkeepcontinuallywithintheirreachJohnOwen’sTemptation，hisMortificationofSininBelievers，hisNatureandPowerofIndwellingSin，andJohnBunyan’sHolyWarmadefortheRegainingoftheMetropolisofthisWorld。
　　Well，then，asHewhodwellsonhighwouldhaveit，therewasonewhosenamewasMr。Prywell，agreatloverofMansoul。Andhe，ashismannerwas，didgolisteningupanddowninMansoultoseeandhear，ifatanytimehemight，whethertherewasanydesignagainstitorno。Forhewasalwaysajealousman，andfearedsomemischiefwouldbefallit，eitherfromwithinorfromsomepowerwithout。Mr。PrywellwasalwaysaloverofMansoul，asoberandajudiciousman，amanthatwasnotattler，noraraiseroffalsereports，butonethatlovestolookintotheverybottomofmatters，andtalksnothingofnewsbutbyverysolidarguments。
　　Andthen，afterourhistorianhastoldussomeoftheeminentservicesthatMr。PrywellwasabletoperformbothfortheKingandforthecity，hegoesontotellushowthecaptainsdeterminedthatpublicthanksshouldbegivenbythetownofMansoultoMr。
　　Prywellforhissodiligentseekingofthewelfareofthetown；
　　and，further，that，forasmuchashewassonaturallyinclinedtoseektheirgood，andalsotounderminetheirfoes，theygavehimthecommissionofScoutmaster-generalforthegoodofMansoul。AndMr。PrywellmanagedhischargeandthetrustthatMansoulhadputintohishandswithgreatconscienceandgoodfidelity；forhegavehimselfwhollyuptohisemploy，andthatnotonlywithinthetown，buthealsowentoutsideofthetowntopry，tosee，andtohear。
　　Now，thatbeingso，itmayinterestandperhapsinstructyouto-
　　nighttolookforalittleatsomeofthefeaturesandatsomeofthefeatsoftheScoutmaster-generaloftheHolyWar，Mr。Prywell，ofthetownofMansoul。
　　1。’Well，now，asHewhodwellsonhighwouldhaveit，therewasonewhosenamewasMr。Prywell，agreatloverofthetownofMansoul。’Inotherwords:self-observation，self-examination，strict，jealous，sleeplessself-examination，isofGod。OurGodwhosearchesourheartsandtriesourreinswouldhaveitso。AndifHedoesnothaveitsoinus，oursoulsarenotasourGodwouldhavethemtobe。
　　’Bunyanemployspry，’saysMissPeacockinherexcellentnotes，’inamorefavourablesensethanitnowbears。As，forinstance，itissaidinanotherpartofthissamebookthatthemenofMansoulwereallowedtopryintothewordsoftheHolyGhostandtoexpoundthemtotheirbestadvantage。Honestanxietyforthewelfareofhisfellow-townsmenwasMr。Prywell’schiefcharacteristic。Pryisanotherformofpeer——tolooknarrowly，tolookclosely。’AndGod，saysJohnBunyan，wouldhaveitso。
　　2。’AgreatloverofMansoul，’’alwaysaloverofMansoul’；againandagainthatistestifiedconcerningMr。Prywell。ItwasnotlovefortheworkthatledMr。Prywelltogiveuphisdaysandhisnightsashishistorytellsushedid。Mr。Prywellranhimselfintomanydangeroussituationsbothwithinandwithoutthecity，andhelosthimselffarmorefriendsthanhemadebyhisdevotiontohisthanklesstask。Butnecessitywaslaiduponhim。AndwhatheldhimupwasthesureandcertainknowledgethathisKingwouldhavethatserviceathishands。That，andhisloveforthecity，forthesafetyandthedeliveranceofthecity，——allthatkeptMr。
　　Prywell’sheartfixed。AmIthereforeyourenemy？hewouldsaytosomewhowouldhavehaditotherwisethantheKingwouldhaveit。
　　Butitisagoodthingtobezealouslyaffectedinaworklikemine，hewouldsay，inself-defenceandinself-encouragement。Andthen，thoughnotmany，therewerealwayssomeinthecitywhosaid，Lethimsmitemeanditshallbeakindness；lethimreprovemeanditshallbeanexcellentoilwhichshallnotbreakmyhead。ItwasinMansoulwithMr。PrywellasitwasinKidderminsterwithRichardBaxter，whensomeofhispeoplesaidtooneanother，’Wewilltakeallthingswellfromonethatweknowdothentirelyloveus。’
　　’Lovethem，’saidAugustine，’andthensayanythingyouliketothem。’Now，thatwasMr。Prywell’sway。HelovedMansoul，andthenhesaidmanythingstoherthatafalseloverandaflattererwouldneverhavedaredtosay。
　　3。Then，asthesayingis，itgoeswithoutsayingthat’Mr。
　　Prywellwasalwaysajealousman。’Greatloversarealwaysjealousmen，andMr。Prywellshowedhimselftobeagreatloverbythegreatheatofhisjealousyalso。’Vigilant，’saystheexcellenteditressagain；’cautiousagainstdishonour，reasonablymistrustful——lowLatinzelosus，fullofzeal。”Andhesaid，IhavebeenveryjealousfortheLordGodofhosts。”’Now，itsohappenedthatsomeofMr。Prywell’smostprivateandnotatallprofessionalpapers——papersevidently，andonthefaceofthem，connectedwiththestateofthespy’sownsoul——cameintomyhandsasgoodlotwouldhaveitjusttheothernight。Themoth-eatenchestwasfullofhisoldpapers，butthepiecesthattookmyheartmostwere，asitlookedtome，actuallygnashedthroughwithhisremorsefulteeth，andsoakedandsoddenpastrecognitionwithhissweatandhistearsandhisagonisinghands。ButaftersomelatehoursoverthoseremnantsImanagedtomakesomesensetomyselfoutofthem。
　　Therearesomepartsoftheparchmentsthatpassme；but，ifonlytoshowyouthatthisarch-spy’ssovigilantjealousywasnotalldirectedagainstotherpeople’sbadheartsandbadhabits，Ishallcopysomelinesoutoftheoldbox。’HaveIpenitence？’hebeginswithoutanypreface。’HaveIgrief，shame，pain，horror，wearinessformysin？DoIprayandrepent，ifnotseventimesadayasDaviddid，yetatleastthreetimes，asDaniel？IfnotasSolomon，atlength，yetshortlyasthepublican？IfnotlikeChrist，thewholenight，atleastforonehour？Ifnotonthegroundandinashes，atleastnotinmybed？Ifnotinsackcloth，atleastnotinpurpleandfinelinen？Ifnotaltogetherfreedfromall，atleastfromimmoderatedesires？DoIgive，ifnotasZaccheusdid，fourfold，asthelawcommands，withthefifthpartadded？Ifnotastherich，yetasthewidow？Ifnotthehalf，yetthethirtiethpart？Ifnotabovemypower，yetuptomypower？’AndthenoverthepagetherearesomeillegiblepencillingsfromoldauthorsofhissuchasthisfromAugustine:’Agoodmanwouldratherknowhisowninfirmitythanthefoundationsoftheearthortheheightsoftheheavens。’AndthisfromCicero:’Therearemanyhiding-placesandrecessesinthemind。’AndthisfromSeneca:’Youmustknowyourselfbeforeyoucanamendyourself。Anunknownsingrowsworseandworseandisdeprivedofcure。’AndthisfromCiceroagain:
　　’Catoexactedfromhimselfanaccountofeveryday’sbusinessatnight’；andalsoPythagoras，’NorletsweetsleepuponthineeyesdescendTillthouhastjudgeditsdeedsateachday’send。’
　　AndthisfromSenecaagain:’Whenthelightisremovedoutofsight，andmywife，whoisbythistimeawareofmypractice，isnowsilent，Ipassthewholeofmydayunderexamination，andI
　　reviewmydeedsandmywords。Ihidenothingfrommyself:Ipassovernothing。’AndtheninMr。Prywell’sboldestandleasttremblinghand:’Oyes！manyshallcomefromtheeastandthewestandshallsitdownwithAbrahamandIsaacandJacobinthekingdomofheaven，whenmanyofthechildrenofthekingdomshallbecastout。Oyes。’Now，this’Oyes！’MissPeacocktellsus，istheAnglicisedformofaFrenchwordforourLord’swords，Takeheedhowyehear！
　　4。’Asoberandajudiciousman’itissaidofMr。Prywellalso。
　　Toacertaintythat。Itcouldnotbeotherwisethanthat。ForMr。
　　Prywell’soffice，itsdiscoveriesanditsexperiences，wouldsoberanyman。’Iamsprungfromacountry，’saysAbelard，’ofwhichthesoilislight，andthetemperoftheinhabitantsislight。’SowasitwithMr。Prywelltobeginwith。ButevenAbelardwassoberedintime，andsowasMr。Prywell。LifesoberedAbelard，andMr。
　　Prywelltoo；life’scrooksandlife’scrosses，life’sdutiesandlife’sdisappointments，especiallyMr。Prywell。’Themorenarrowlyamanlooksintohimself，’saysAKempis，’themorehesorroweth。’
　　Notsober-mindednessalonecomestohimwholooksnarrowlyintohimself，butgreatsorrowofheartalso。Andifyouarenotbothsoberedinyourmindandfullofanunquenchablesorrowinyourheart，Oyes！attendtoit，foryouarenotyetbeguntobewhatGodwouldhaveyoutobe。Dr。Newman，withallhismistakesandallhisfaults，wasamasterintwothings:hisownheartandtheEnglishlanguage。Andinwritinghometohismotheraconfidentialletterfromcollegeonhisbirthday，heconfidestoherthatheoften’shuddersathimself。’’No，’heansweredtohismother’sfearsandadvicesaboutfoodandairandexercise:’No，Iamneithernervous，norinill-health，nordoIstudytoomuch。Iamneithermelancholy，normorose，noraustere，nordistant，norreserved，norsullen。Iamalwayscheerful，readyandeagertojoininanymerriment。Iamnotcloudedwithsadness，norabsentinmind，nordeficientinaction。No；takemewhenIammostfoolishathomeandextendmirthintochildishness；yetallthetimeIamshudderingatmyself。’Therespakethefutureauthoroftheimmortalsermons。TherespakeamindandaheartthathavedeepenedthemindsandtheheartsofChristianmenmorethananyotherinfluenceofthecentury；amindandaheart，moreover，thatwillshineandbeatinourbestliteratureandinourdeepestdevotionforcenturiestocome。YoumustallknowbythistimeanotherclassicalpassagefromthepenofanotherspiritualgeniusintheChurchofEngland，thatgreatlygiftedchurch。Letmerepeatittoillustratehowsober-mindednessandgreatsorrowofheartalwayscometothebestofmen。’Letanymanconsiderthatiftheworldknewallthatofhimwhichheknowsofhimself；iftheysawwhatvanityandwhatpassionsgovernhisinside，andwhatsecrettemperssullyandcorrupthisbestactions；andhewouldhavenomorepretencetobehonouredandadmiredforhisgoodnessandwisdomthanarottenanddistemperedbodyistobelovedandadmiredforitsbeautyandcomeliness。And，perhaps，thereareveryfewpeopleintheworldwhowouldnotratherchoosetodiethantohavealltheirsecretfollies，theerrorsoftheirjudgments，thevanityoftheirminds，thefalsenessoftheirpretences，thefrequencyoftheirvainanddisorderlypassions，theiruneasinesses，hatreds，envies，andvexationsmadeknowntotheworld。Andshallpridebeentertainedinaheartthusconsciousofitsownmiserablebehaviour？’NowonderthatMr。
　　Prywellwassober-minded！NowonderthatDr。Newmanshudderedathimself！AndnowonderthatWilliamLawchosestranglingandthepondratherthanthatanyothermanshouldseewhatwentoninhisheart！
　　5。Andasifallthatwerenotenough，andmorethanenough，tocommendMr。Prywelltous——toourtrust，toourconfidence，andtoourimitation——hisroyalcertificatecontinues，’Onethatlooksintotheverybottomofmatters，andtalksnothingofnews，butbyverysolidarguments。’Theverybottomofmatters——thatis，theverybottomofhisownandothermen’shearts。Mr。Prywellcountsnothingelseworthawiseman’slookingat。Letfoolsandchildrenlookatthepaintedanddeceitfulsurfaceofthings，butletmen，menofmatters，andespeciallymenofdivinematters，lookonlyattheirownandothermen’shearts。Theverybottomofallmattersisthere。Allwars，allpolicies，alldebates，alldisputes，allgoodandallevilcounsels，allthemuchwealandallthemultitudinouswoeofMansoul——allhavetheirbottomintheheart；
　　intheheartofGod，orintheheartofman，orintheheartofthedevil。TheheartistherootofabsolutelyeverymattertoMr。
　　Prywell。Hewouldnotwasteonehourofanyday，oronewatchofanynight，onanythingelse。Anditwasthisthatmadehimboththeextraordinarilysuccessfulscouthewas，andtheextraordinarilysoberandthoughtfulandjudiciousmanhewas。O
　　yes，mybrethren，thebottomofmatters，whenyoutaketoit，willworkthesamechangeinyou。’Twothings，’saysonewhohadlonglookedathisownmatterswithMr。Prywell’seyes——’twothings，O
　　Lord，Irecogniseinmyself:nature，whichThouhastmade，andsin，whichIhaveadded。’Mybrethren，thatrecognition，thatdiscoveryinyourselves，whenitcomestoyou，willsoberyouasithassoberedsomanymenbeforeyou:whenitcomestoyou，thatis，aboutyourselves。Thatdiscoverymadeinyourselveswillmakeyoudeep-thinkingmen。Itwillmakecommonmenandunlearnedmenamongyoutobephilosophersandtheologiansandsaints。Itwillworkinyouathoughtfulness，aseriousness，adepth，anawe，aholyfear，andagreatdesirethatwillalreadyhavemadeyounewcreatures。
　　When，inexaminingyourselvesandincharacterisingyourselves，youcomeonwhatsomeclear-eyedmenhavecomeoninthemselves，andwhatoneofthemhasdescribedas’thediabolicalanimusofthehumanmind’——whenyoumakethatdiscoveryinyourselves，thatwillsoberyou，thatwillhumbleyouandfillyoufullofremorseandcompunction。AndifinGod’sgracetoyou，thatweretobegintobewroughtinyouthisweek，therewouldbeone，atanyrate，eatingofthatbreadnextLord’sday，anddrinkingofthatcupasGodwouldhaveit。
　　6。’Amanthatisnotattler，norraiseroffalsereports，andthattalksnothingofnews，butbyverysolidarguments。’Mr。
　　Prywellwasmoretakenupwithhisownmattersathome，farmorethanthegreatestbusybodiesarewithothermen’smattersabroad。
　　Hisname，Ifear，willstillsoundsomewhatillinyourears，butI
　　canassureyoualltheillforyouliesinthesound。Mr。Prywellwouldnothurtahairofyourhead:thetruthis，hedoesnotknowwhetherthereisahaironyourheadorno。Thisman’snamecomestohimandstickstohim，notbecausehepriesintoyouraffairs，forhedoesnot，andneverdid，butbecauseheissodrawndownintohisown。Mr。Prywellhasnoeyeforyourwindowsandhehasnoearforyourdoors。Ifyourservantisaleakyslave，Prywell，ofallyourneighbours，hasnoearforhisidletales。Thismanisnoeavesdropper；yourevilsecretshaveonlyasoberingandasaddeningandasilencingeffectuponhim。Yourhousemightbefullofskeletonsforanythinghewouldeverdiscoverorremember。
　　Thebeaminhisowneyeissobigthathecannotseepastittospeakaboutyoursmallmote。’TheinwardChristian，’saysA
　　Kempis，’preferreththecareofhimselfbeforeallothercares。Hethatdiligentlyattendethtohimselfcaneasilykeepsilenceconcerningothermen。IfthouattendestuntoGodanduntothyself，thouwiltbebutlittlemovedwithwhatthouseestabroad。’Atthesametime，Mr。Prywellwasnofool，andnocoward，andnohoodwinkedwitness。Hecouldtellhistale，whenitwasdemandedofhim，withsuchtruth，andwithsuchpunctuality，andonsuchamplegrounds，thataconvictionofthetruthinstantlyfellonallwhoheardhim。’Sirs，’saidthosewhoheardhimbreaksilence，’itisnotirrationalforustobelieveit，’withsuchsolidargumentsandwithsuchanabsenceofmeresuspicionandofallidletalesdidhespeak。Ononeoccasion，onamere’inkling，’hewokeuptheguard；only，itwassotrueaninklingthatitsavedthecity。ButIcannotfollowMr。Prywellanyfurtherto-night。HowhewentupanddownMansoullistening；howhekepthiseyesandhisearsbothshutandopen；whatsplendidservicesheperformedintheprogress，andspeciallytowardtheend，ofthewar；howthethanksofthecitywerevotedtohim；howhewasmadeScoutmaster-generalforthegoodofthetownofMansoul，andthegreatconscienceandgoodfidelitywithwhichhemanagedthatgreattrust——allthatyouwillreadforyourselvesunderthismarginalindex，’ThestoryofMr。
　　Prywell。’
　　Now，mybrethren，astheoutcomeofallthat，wemustallexamineourselvesasbeforeGodallthisweek。WemustwaitonHiswordandonHisprovidenceswhiletheyexamineusallthisweek。Wemustprywellintoourselvesallthisweek。Come，letuscompelourselvestodoit。Letussearchandtryourwaysallthisweekasweshallgiveanaccount。LetusaskourselveshowmanyCommuniontableswehavesatat，andathowmanymorewearelikelytosit。LetusaskwhyitisthatwehavegotsolittlegoodoutofallourCommunions。Letusaskwhoistoblameforthat，andwheretheblamelies。Letusgotothebottomofmatterswithourselves，andcompelourselvestosayjustwhatitisthatisthecauseofGod’scontroversywithus。Whatvow，whatsolemnpromise，madewhentroublewasuponus，havewecompletelycastbehindourback？Whataboutsecretprayer？Atwhattimes，forwhatthings，andforwhatpeopledoweinsecretpray？Whataboutsecretsin？
　　Whatisitsname，andwhatdoesitdeserve，andwhatfruitarewealreadyreapingoutofit？Whatisourbesettingsin，andwhatstepsdowetake，asGodknows，tocrucifyit？Dowelovemoneytoomuch？Dowelovepraisetoomuch？Doweloveeatinganddrinkingtoomuch？Doesenvymakeourheartaveryhell？Letusnamethemanweenvy，andletuskeepourCommunioneyeuponhim。
　　LetusmixhisnamewithallthepsalmsandprayersandsermonsofthisCommunionseason。Orisitdiabolicalill-will？Orisitawickedtongueagainstanunsuspectingfriend？LetusexamineourselvesasPauldid，asPrywelldid，andasGodwouldhaveusdoit，andweshalldiscoverthingsinourselvessobadthatifIweretoputwordsonthemto-night，youwouldstopyourearsinhorrorandfleeoutofthechurch。Letamanseehimselfatleastasothersseehim；andthenhewillbeledonfromthattoseehimselfasGodseeshim；andthenhewilljudgehimselfsoseverelyasthatheshallnotneedtobejudgedattheJudgmentDay，andwillcondemnhimselfsosufficientlyasthatheshallnotbecondemnedwithacondemnedworldatthelast。
　　CHAPTERXVI——YOUNGCAPTAINSELF-DENIAL
　　’IfanymanwillcomeafterMe，lethimdenyhimselfandtakeuphiscrossdailyandfollowMe。’——OurLord。
　　’Nowthesiegewaslong，andmanyafierceattemptdidtheenemymakeuponthetown，andmanyashrewdbrushdidsomeofthetownsmenmeetwithfromtheenemy，especiallyCaptainSelf-denial，towhosecarebothEar-gateandEye-gatehadbeenintrusted。ThisCaptainSelf-denialwasayoungman，butstout，andatownsmaninMansoul。Thisyoungcaptain，therefore，beingahardyman，andamanofgreatcouragetoboot，andwillingtoventurehimselfforthegoodofthetown，hewouldnowandthensallyoutupontheenemy；butyoumustthinkthiscouldnoteasilybedone，buthemustmeetwithsomesharpbrusheshimself，and，indeed，hecarriedseveralofsuchmarksonhisface，yea，andsomeonsomeotherpartsofhisbody。’Thus，Bunyan。Ishallnowgoonto-nighttoofferyousomeannotationsandsomereflectionsonthisshortbutexcellenthistoryofyoungCaptainSelf-denial。
　　1。Well，tobeginwith，thisCaptainSelf-denialwasstillayoungman。’And，now，itcomesintomymind，saidGoodmanGainsaftersupper，Iwilltellyouastorywellworththehearing，asIthink。
　　Thereweretwomenonceuponatimethatwentonpilgrimage；theonebeganwhenhewasyoungandtheotherbeganwhenhewasold。
　　Theyoungmanhadstrongcorruptionstograpplewith，whereastheoldman’scorruptionsweredecayedwiththedecaysofnature。Theyoungmantrodhisstepsasevenasdidtheoldone，andwaseverywayaslightashe；who，now，orwhichofthem，hadtheirgracesshiningclearest，sincebothseemedtobealike？Why，theyoungman’s，doubtless，answeredMr。Honest。Forthatwhichheadsagainstthegreatestoppositiongivesbestdemonstrationthatitisstrongest。Ayoungman，therefore，hastheadvantageofthefairestdiscoveryofaworkofgracewithinhim。Andthustheysattalkingtillthebreakofday。’
　　Now，IhavetakenupCaptainSelf-denialto-nightbecausetheyoungmenandIaretobeginastudyto-nighttowhichIwasfirstattractedbecauseittaughtmelessonsaboutmyself，andaboutself-denial，andthusaboutbothayoungman’sandanoldman’sdeepestandmostpersistentcorruptions——lessonssuchasIhaveneverbeentaughtinanyotherschool。Inallmyphilosophical，theological，moral，andexperimentalreading，sotodescribeit，I
　　havenevermetwithanyschoolofauthorsforonemomenttobecomparedwiththegreatevangelicalmystics，especiallywhentheytreatofself，self-love，self-denial，thedailycross，andallsuchlikelessons。TakethegreatdoctrinalandexperimentalPuritans，suchasJohnOwen，ThomasGoodwin，RichardBaxter，JohnHowe，andJonathanEdwards，andaddontothemthegreatestandbestmystics，suchasJacobBehmen，ThomasAKempis，FrancisFenelon，JeremyTaylor，SamuelRutherford，RobertLeighton，andWilliamLaw，andyouwillhavetheprofoundest，themostcomplete，themostperfect，and，Iwilladd，themostfascinatingandenthrallingofspiritualteachinginalltheworld。AndIwillbeboldenoughtopromiseyouthatifyouwillbutjoinourYoungMen’sClassto-night，andwillbuyandreadourmysticalbooks，andwillresolvetoputinpracticewhatyouhearandreadintheclass，Iwillpromiseyou，Isay，thatbytheendofourshortsessionyouwillnotonlybetentimesmoreopenandhospitably-
　　mindedmen，butalsotentimesmorespiritually-mindedmen，tentimesmoreChrist-likemen，andwithyourjoyinChristandHisjoyinyouallbutfull。
　　2。TheCaptainSelf-denialwasayoungman，andhewasalsoatownsmaninMansoul。YoungSelf-denialandoneotherwereallofEmmanuel’scaptainswhoweretownsmeninMansoul。AllhisothercaptainsEmmanuelhadbroughtwithhim；buttheCaptainsSelf-
　　denialandExperiencewerebothbornandrearedtotheirfullmanhoodinthatbesiegedcity。’Atownsman。’Howmuchthereisforusallinthatoneword！Howmuchinstruction！Howmuchencouragement！Howmuchcautionandcorrection！Ourgreatestgrace；ourmostessentialandindispensablegrace；ourmostexperimentalandevidentialgrace；thatgrace，indeed，withoutwhichallourothergracesarebutspeciousshowsandpaintedsurfacesofgraces；thatgraceintowhichourLordheregathersupallourothergraces；——thatgreatestofgracescannotbeimputed，imported，orintroduced；itmustbeborn，bred，exercised，reareduptoitsfullmaturity，andsentforthtofightandtoconquer，andallwithinthewallsofitsownnativetown；inshort，ourself-denialmusthaveitsbeginningandmiddleandendinourownheart。Antinomianstherewere，asourPuritanfathersnicknamedallthosepersonswhoglorifiedChristbylettingHimdoallthingsforthem，bothHisownthingsandtheirthingstoo，boththeirjustificationandtheirsanctificationtoo。Andtherearemanygoodbutill-instructedmenamongourselveswhohavejustthistaintofthatoldheresycleavingtothemstill——thistaint，namely，thattheyaretemptedtocarryoverthesuretyshipandsubstitutionaryworkofChristintosuchregions，andtocarryittosuchlengthsinthoseregions，as，practically，tomakeChristtoministertotheirsoftandsinfulliving，andtotheirexcuseandindulgenceofthemselves。Iwillputitsquarelyandplainlytosomeofmyverybestfriendshereto-night。Isitnotthecase，now，thatyoudonotlikethisdirectionintowhichthistext，andthetruthofthistext，arenowtravelling？Isitnotsothatyoushiftbackinyourseatfromtheapproachingcross？Isitnottheveryandactualfactthatyouhavesecretwaysofsin，secrethabitsofself-indulgenceinyourbodyandinyoursoul，inyourmindandinyourheart，secretsinsthatyoumantleoverwiththerobeofChrist’srighteousness？Hisspotlessandimputedrighteousness？InyourpresenttemperyouwouldhavedislikeddeeplytheSermonontheMounthadyouheardit；andIseeyoushakingyourheadoveryourSabbath-daydinneratthistextwhenitwasfirstspoken。Laythisdownforalaw，allmybrethren，——aNewTestamentandanever-to-be-abrogatedlaw，——thatthebestandthesafestreligionforyouisthatwayofreligionthatishardestonyourpride，onyourself-importance，onyourself-esteem，aswellasonyourpurseandonyourbelly。Youarenotlikelytoerrbypractisingtoomuchofthecross。YoumayverywellhavetoomuchofthecrossofChristpreachedtoyou，andtoolittleofyourown。
　　Why！didnotChristdieforme？youindignantlysay。Yes；soHedid。Butonlythatyoumightdietoo。Hewascrucified，andsomustyoubecrucifiedeverydaybeforeonesingledropofHissin-
　　atoningbloodshalleverbewastedonYou。Benotdeceived:thecrossisnotmocked；foronlyasamannailshimself，bodyandsoul，tothecrosseverydayshallheeverbesavedfromsinanddeathandhellbymeansofit。And，exactlyasamandenieshimself——nomoreandnoless——hisappetites，hispassions，histhoughtsandwordsanddeeds，everydayandeveryhourofeveryday，justsomuchshallHewhosearchesourheartsandseesusinsecret，acknowledgeus，botheverydaynow，andatthelastdayofall。
　　3。ThissameCaptainSelf-denial，hishistorygoeson，wasstout，hewasanhardymanalso，andamanofgreatcourage。Stoutandhardyandofgreatcourageathome，thatis；inhisownmindandheart，soulandbody，thatis。YoungCaptainSelf-denialwasaperfectheroatsayingNo！andatsayingNo！tohimself。Itisaproverbthatthereisnothingsodifficultastosaythatmonosyllable。AndtheproverbisScripturetruthifyoutrytosayNo！toyourself。Ittakestheverystoutestofhearts，themostnoble，themostmanly，themostsoldierly，andthemostsaintlyofheartstosayNo！toitself，andtokeeponsayingNo！toitselftothebitterendofeverytrialandtemptationandopportunity。I
　　rememberreadinglongagoapageortwoofamedicalman’sdiary。
　　AndinithemadeaconfessionandanappealIhaveneverforgot；
　　though，tomyloss，Ihavenotalwaysacteduponit。Hesaidthatformanyyearshehadneverbeenentirelywell。Hehadconstantheadachesanddepressions，anditwasseldomthathewasnottosomeextentoutofsorts。But，allthetime，hehadashrewdguesswithinhimselfastowhatwasthematterwithhim。Hefeltashamedtoconfessiteventohimselfthatheover-atehimselfeverydayattable；till，atlast，summoningupalldivineandhumanhelp，hedeterminedthat，howeverhungryhewas，andhoweversavourythedishwas，andhoweverexcellentthewinewas，hewouldnevereitheraskfororacceptasecondhelping。Andthiswashistestimony，thatfromthatstoutandhardydayhegrewbetterinhealthdaily；
　　’myheadbecameclear，myeyebright，mycomplexionpure，mymindandfeelingswereredeemedfromallcloudsanddepressions。Andto-dayIamayoungermanatfiftythanIwasatthirty。’Now，ifjustsayingNo！tohimselfandtothewaiterattabledidworksuchanewbirthinaconfirmedgourmandofmiddlelife，whatwoulditnothavewroughtforhimhadhecarriedhisanswerstoutlyandcourageouslythroughalltheotherpartsofhisbodyandsoul？——asperhapshedid。Perhaps，havingtastedthesweetbeginningsofsalvation，hecarriedhisshortandsureregimenthrough。Ifhehasdoneso，lethimgiveushisfullautobiography。Whatablessed，whatapricelessbookitwouldbe！
　　4。StoutCaptainSelf-denialwascommandedtobeginhislifeasanofficerinEmmanuel’sarmybytakingespecialwatchoverEar-gateandEye-gate；andatourlastaccountsofourabstemiousdoctorhehadonlygotthelengthofMouth-gate。Buthavingbegunsowellwiththosethreegreatoutpostsofthesoul，ifthosetwotrustyofficersonlyheldon，andplayedthemancourageouslyenough，theywouldsoonbepromotedtostillmoreimportant，stillmorecentral，and，ifmoredifficultanddangerous，thenalsomuchmorehonourableandremunerativeposts。Appetite，deepanddeadlyasitsevilsare，is，afterall，onlyanoutworkofthesoul；andthesamesharpknifethattheepicureandthesotinalltheirstagesmustputtotheirthroat，thatsameknifemustbemadetodrawbloodinallpartsoftheirmindandtheirheart，intheirwillandintheirimagination，tillaperfectchorusofself-denialsringslikenoblestmartialmusicthroughallthegates，andstreets，andfortresses，andstrongholds，andverypalacesandtemplesofthesoul。IshallherestandasideandletthegreatestoftheEnglishmysticsspeaktoyouonthispresentpoint。’Whenwespeakofself-denial，’hesays，inhisChristianPerfection，’weareapttoconfineittoeatinganddrinking:butweoughttoconsiderthat，thoughastricttemperancebenecessaryinthesethings，yetthatthesearetheeasiestandthesmallestinstancesofself-denial。
　　Pride，vanity，self-love，covetousness，envy，andotherinclinationsofthelikenaturecallforamoreconstantandamorewatchfulself-denialthantheappetitesofhungerandthirst。Andtillweenterintothiscourseofuniversalself-denialweshallmakenoprogressinrealpiety，butourliveswillbearidiculousmixtureofIknownotwhat；soberandcovetous，proudanddevout，temperateandvain，regularinourformsofdevotionandirregularinallourpassions，circumspectinlittlemodesofbehaviourandcarelessandnegligentoftempersthemostessentialtopiety。Andthusitwillnecessarilybewithustillwelaytheaxetotherootofthetree，tillwedenyandrenouncethewholecorruptionofournature，andresignourselvesupentirelytotheSpiritofGod，tothinkandspeakandactbythewisdomandthepurityofreligion。’
　　5。StoutasCaptainSelf-denialwas，andnotablealarmsandsomebriskexecutionashedidupontheenemy，yethemustmeetwithsomebrusheshimself；indeed，hecarriedseveralofthemarksofsuchbrushesonhisfaceaswellasonsomeotherpartsofhisbody。IfIhadreadinhishistorythatYoungCaptainSelf-denialhadlefthismarkuponhisenemies，Iwouldhavesaid，Welldone，andIwouldhaveaddedthatIalwaysexpectedasmuch。Butitisfarmoretomypurposetoreadthathehadnotalwaysgothimselfoffwithoutwoundsthatleftlastingscarsbothwheretheywereseenofall，andwheretheywereseenandfeltonlybySelf-denialhimself。AndnotSelf-denialonly，butevenPaul，inourflesh，andwithlikepassionswithus，hadthesameexperienceandhasleftusthesamerecord。’Ikeepmybodyunder’:soouremasculatedEnglishversionmakesusreadit。ButthevisualimageinthemasterlyoriginalGreekisnotsomealy-mouthed。Iboxandbuffetmyselfdayandnight，saysPaul。Iplaythetruculenttyrantoveralewdandlazyslave。Ihitmyselfblindingblowsonmytenderestpart。Iamashamedtolookatmyselfintheglass，forallundermyeyesIamblackandblue。IfDavid，afterthematterofUriah，haddonethattohimself，andevenmorethanthat，wewouldnothavewondered；wewouldhaveexpectedit，andwewouldhavesaid，Itisnomorethanwewouldhavedoneourselves。Butthataspotless，gentle，noblesoullikePaulshouldsohavemangledhimself，——thatquitedumfoundersus。IfPaul，then，who，touchingtherighteousnesswhichisinthelaw，wasblameless，hadtohandlehimselfinthatmannerinordertokeephimselfblameless，shallanyyoungmanherehopetoescapetemptationwithoutsuchblowsathimselfasshallleavetheirmarkonhimallhisdays？Nay，notonlyso，butafterSelf-denialhadthusexercisedhimselfandsubduedhimself，stillhisenemysometimesgotsuchanadvantageoverhimaslefthimashishistoryheredescribeshim。Allwhichissurelyfullofthemostexcellenthearteningtoallwhoread，inearnestandforanexample，hisfinehistory。
　　6。Thelastandcrowningexploitofourmatchlesscaptainwastocapture，andexecute，andquarter，andhanguponagallowsatthemarket-cross，theheadandthehandsandthefeetofhisoldest，mostsworn，andmostdeadlyenemy，oneSelf-love。SostoutandsoinsufferablewasourcaptaininthematterofSelf-lovethatwhenitwasproposedbysomeofhismanyinfluentialfriendsandhigh-
　　in-placerelationsinthecitythatthejudgmentofthecourt-
　　martialonSelf-loveshouldbedeferred，ourstoutsoldierwiththecutsonhisfaceandinsomeotherpartsofhisbodystoodup，andsaidthatthecityandthearmymustmakeuptheirmindeithertorelievehimofhissword，hackedandbrokenoffasitwas，orelsetoexecutethelawuponSelf-loveonthespot。Iwilllaydownmycommissionthisveryday，hesaid，withanextraordinaryindignation。Manyrichmeninthecity，andmanymendeepintheKing’sservice，mutteredmutinousthingswhentheirnearrelativewashurriedtotheopencause-way，butbythattimethesoldiersofSelf-denial’scompanyhadbrainedSelf-lovewiththebuttsoftheirmuskets。AnditwasthestandthatourcaptainmadeinthematterofSelf-lovethatatlastliftedtheyoungsoldierwheremanyhadfeltheshouldhavebeenliftedlongago。Fromthatdayhewasmadealord，amilitarypeer，andanadviserofthecrownandthecrownofficersinallthedeepestcounselsconcerningMansoul。
　　Only，withthecloakandthecoronetofSelf-denialthepresenthistoryallbutcomestoanend。For，beforetheoutcastremainsofSelf-lovehadmoulderedtotheirdustonthecitygate，theKing’schariothaddescendedintothestreet，hadascendeduptothepalaceattheheadofthestreet，andanewageofthecitylifehadbegun，thefullhistoryofwhichhasyettobetold。
　　Remainbehind，then，andbeginwithusto-night，allyouyoungmen。
　　Youcannotbeginthislifelongstudyandthislifelongpursuitofself-denialtooearly。For，evenifyoubegintoreadourbooksandtopractiseourdisciplineinyourveryboyhood，whenyouareoldmenandverysaintsofGodyouwillfeelthatyourself-loveisstillsofulloflifeandpower，thatyourself-denialhasscarcelybegun。Ah，me！men:botholdandyoungmen。Ah，me！whatalife’stasksetusofGoditistomakeusanewheart，tocleanseoutanuncleanheart，tolayinthedustaproudheart，andtokeepaheartatalltimes，andinallplaces，andtowardallpeople，withalldiligence！Whoissufficientforthesethings？
　　’NowwasChristiansomewhatinamaze。Butatlast，wheneverymanstartedbackforfear，Christiansawamanofaverystoutcountenancecomeuptohimthatsattherewiththeinkhorntowrite，saying，Setdownmyname，sir！Atwhichtherewasapleasantvoiceheardfromthosethatwerewithin，evenofthosewhowalkeduponthetopofthatplace，saying，”Comein，comein:
　　Eternalglorythoushaltwin。”
　　ThenChristiansmiled，andsaid:Ithink，verily，thatIknowthemeaningofallthisnow。’
　　CHAPTERXVII——FIVEPICKTMEN
　　’Itookwisemenandknownandmadethemcaptains。’——Moses。
　　JohnBunyanneverlosthisearlyloveforasoldier’slifeanymorethanheeverforgottheraredelightsofhisbell-ringingdays。
　　JohnBunyan，allhisdays，neversawabell-ropethathisfingersdidnottingle，andheneversawasoldierinuniformwithoutinstinctivelyshoulderinghisyouthfulmusket。Bunyanwasoneofthoseraremenwhoareofimaginationallcompact；andconsequentlyitisthatallhisbooksarefullofthescenes，theoccupations，andtheexperiencesofhisearlydays。Notthathesaysverymuch，inasmanywords，aboutwhathappenedtohiminthedayswhenhewasasoldier；itisonlyonceinallhismanybooksthathesaysthatwhenhewasasoldiersuchandsuchathinghappenedtohim。
　　Atthesametime，allhisbooksbeartheimpressofhisearlydaysuponthem；andasforthisspecialbookofBunyan’snowopenbeforeus，itisfullfromboardtoboardofthestrifeandthedinofhisearlybattles。TheHolyWarisjustJohnBunyan’ssoldierlylifespiritualised——spiritualisedandsoworkedupintothisfineEnglishClassic。
　　Well，then，afterMansoulwastakenandreduced，thevictoriousPrincedeterminedsotooccupythetownwithHissoldiersthatitshouldneveragaineitherbetakenbyforcefromwithout，oreveragainrevoltbyweaknessorbyfearfromwithin。AndwiththisviewHechoseoutfiveofHisbestcaptains——Myfivepicktmen，Healwayscalledthem——andplacedthosefivecaptainsandtheirthousandsundertheminthestrongholdsofthetown。OnthemarginofthispageourversatileauthorspeaksofthatstepofEmmanuel’sinthelanguageofaphilosopher，amoralist，andadivine。’Fivegraces，’hesays，’picktoutofanabundanceofcommonvirtues。’
　　Thissumming-upsentencestandsonhisstiffanddrymargin。Butintherichandlivingflowofthetextitselfourauthorgoesonwritinglikethemanofgeniusheis。Withallthewarmthandcolouranddramaticmovementofwhichthiswholebookisfull，thisgreatwritergoesontosetthosefivechoicecaptainsofoursalvationbeforeusinawaythatweshallneverforget。
　　1。’Thefirstwasthatfamouscaptain，thenobleCaptainCredence。
　　Hisweretheredcolours，andMr。Promisebarethem。AndforascutcheonhehadtheHolyLambandthegoldenshield；andhehadtenthousandmenathisfeet。’Now，thissameCaptainCredencefromfirsttolastofthewaralwaysledthevanbothwithinandaroundMansoul。Inordinaryandpeacefuldays；indaysoftruceandparley；whentheoppositearmieswerelaidupintheirwinterquarters，orwere，foranycause，drawnofffromoneanother，someoftheothercaptainsmightbemoreinevidence。Butineveryexploittobecalledanexploit；ineverysingleenterpriseofdanger；whenanynewpositionwastobetakenup，oranyforlornhopewastobeled，there，intheveryvanoflabourandofdanger，wassuretobeseenCaptainCredencewithhisblood-redcoloursinhisownhand。YouunderstandyourBunyanbythistime，mybrethren？CaptainCredence，yourlittleboyatschoolwilltellyou，isjustthesoldier-likefaithofyoursanctification。Credo，hewilltellyou，is’Ibelieve’；itistohavefaithinGodandinthewordofGod。YouwillborrowyourLatinfromyourlittleboy，andthenyouwillpayhimbackbytellinghimhowCaptainCredencehasalwaysledthevaninyoursoul。YouwilltellhimandshowhimwhatawonderfulwriteronthethingsofthesoulJohnBunyanis，tillyoumakeJohnBunyanoneofyourson’schoicestauthorsforallhisdays。YouwilldothisifyouwilltellhimhowandwhenthissameCaptainCredencewithhiscrimsoncoloursfirstledthevaninyoursalvation。YouwilltellhimthiswithmoreandmoredepthandmoreandmoreplainnessasyearafteryearhereadshisHolyWar，andbetterandbetterunderstandsit，tillhehashaditallfulfilledinhimselfasapicktcaptainandgoodsoldierofJesusChrist。Youwilltellhimaboutyourself，till，atthisforlornhopeinhisownlife，andatthatsoundedadvance，insomenewprovidenceandinsomenewduty；inthiscommandedattackonaninwardlyentrenchedenemy，andinthatresoluteassaultonsomebattlementofevilhabit，herecollectshisnoble，confiding，andlovingfatherandplaysthemanagain，andthatallthemoreifonlyforhisfather’ssake。Askyoursonwhatheknowsandwhatyoudonotknow，andthenaslongashisheartandhisearareopentellhimwhatyouknowandwhatyouhavebyfaithcomethrough，andthatwillbeapricelesspossessiontohim，especiallywhenheisputinpossessionofitbyyou。
　　Wellontowardtheendofthewar，theCaptainCredencehadsoacquittedhimselfthathewassummonedonedaytothePrince’squarters，whenthefollowingcolloquyensued:’WhathathmyLordtosaytoHisservant？’Andthen，afterasignortwooffavour，itwassaidtohim:’IhavemadetheelieutenantoveralltheforcesinMansoul；sothat，fromthisdayforward，allmeninMansoulshallbeatthyword；andthoushaltbehethatshallleadinandthatshallleadoutMansoul。Andatthycommandshallalltherestofthecaptainsbe。’Mybrethren，youwillhavethewholekeytoallthatinyourselvesifthissamewarhasgonethislengthinyou。Faith，yourfaithinGod，andinthewordofGod，will，asthisinwardwargoeson，notonlyleadthevaninyourheartandinyourlife，butjustbecauseyourfaithsoleadsinallthings，andissofittedtoleadinallthings，itwillatlastbeliftedupandsetoveryoursoul，andallthethingsofyoursoul，tillnothingshallbedoneinanyofthestreets，orgates，orwallsthereofthatfaithinGodandinHisworddoesnotfirstallowandadmit。Andthen，whenithascometothatwithinyou，thatisthebestmind，thatisthesafest，thehappiest，andthemostheavenlymindthatyoucanattaintointhispresentlife；andwhenfaithshallthusleadandruleoverallthingsinthysoul，bethoualwaysready，forthyspeedytranslationtoastillbetterlifeisjustatthedoor。
　　2。’Thesecondwasthatfamouscaptain，Good-hope。Hiswerethebluecolours。Hisstandard-bearerwasMr。Expectation，andforascutcheonhehadthreegoldenanchors；andhehadtenthousandmenathisfeet。’Thetimewas，mybrethren，whenallyourhopesandminewereasyetanchoredwithouttheveil。Butallthatisnowchanged。Westillhope，inamildkindofway，forthisthingandforthatinthispresentlife；butonlyinamildkindofway。Itwouldnotberightinusnottolookforward，say，fromspring-timetosummer，andfromsummertoharvest。Ifthehusbandmanhadnothopeintheformerandinthelatterrainhewouldnotsow；andasitiswiththehusbandmansoitiswithusall:sooughtittobe，andsoitmustbe。ButwesayGodwilling！allthetimethatweplotandplanandhope。AndwesayGodwilling！nolongerwithasigh，but，now，alwayswithasmile。InHiswillisourtranquillity，wesay，andweknowthatifitisnotHiswillthatthisandthatslightlyanchoredhopeshouldbefulfilled，thenthatonlymeansthatallourhopes，tobecalledhopes，aresoontoberealised。Ourgreenandsaladdaysinthematterofhopeareforeverpast。Ifwehaditallabsolutelysecuredtousthatthisworldisstillpromisingtoitssaladdupes，itwouldnotcomewithinathousandmilesofsatisfyingourhearts。Whetherthehopesofourheartsaretobefulfilledwithintheveilorno，thatremainstobeseen；butallthethingswithouttheveiltakentogetherdonotanylongerevenpretendtopromiseahopetoheartslikeours。OurForerunnerhascarriedawayourheartswithHim。
　　WehavenoheartleftforanyonebutHim，orforanythingwithoutorwithintheveilthatHeisnotandisnotin。Andtillthathopealsohasmadeusashamed，——tillHeandHispromiseshavefaileduslikealltherest，——wearegoingtoanchorourheartsonthat，andonthatonly，whichwebelieveiswithHimwithintheveil。IfourForerunneralsodisappointsus；ifweenterwhereHeis，onlytofindthatHeisnotthere；orthat，thoughthere，HeisnotabletosatisfyourhopeinHim，andmakeuslikeHimself，thenweshallbeofallmenthemostmiserable。Butnottillthen。No；
　　nottillthen。AndthusitisthatCaptainGood-hopehashisbilletinourheart；thusitisthathisbluecoloursfloatoverourhouse；andthusitisthathisthreegoldenanchorsareblazingoutinalltheirbeautyonthebestwallofourearthlyhouse。
　　3。’Thethirdwasthatvaliantcaptain，theCaptainCharity。Hisstandard-bearerwasMr。Pitiful，andforhisscutcheonhehadthreenakedorphansembracedinhisbosom；andhealsohadtenthousandmenathisfeet。’OCharity！OvaliantandpitifulCharity！
　　Divine-naturedandheavenly-mindedCharity！Whenwiltthoucomeanddwellinmyheart？When，bythineindwelling，shallIbeabletolovemyneighbour，andallmyneighbours，asmyself？When，inthystrength，shallIceasefromrepiningatmyneighbour’sgood；
　　andwhenshallIceasesecretlyrejoicingoverhisevil？WhenshallIbytheerenewingme，bemadeabletoceaseineverythingfromseekingfirstmyownwillandmyownway；myownpraiseandmyownglory？Whenshallitbeasmuchmynewnaturetolovemyneighbourasitisnowmyoldnaturetohatehim？WhenshallI
　　ceasetobesosoonangry，andhard，andbitter，andscornful，andunrelenting，andunforgiving？Whenshallmyneighbour’spresence，hisimage，andhisnamealwayscalluponlyloveandhonour，good-
　　willandaffectionatedelight？WhenandwhereshallI，underthee，feelforthelasttimeanyevilofanykindinmyheartagainstmybrother？Oh！toseethedaywhenIshallsufferlongandbekind！
　　WhenIshallneveragainvauntmyselforbepuffedup！WhenI
　　shallbearallthings，believeallthings，hopeallthings，endureallthings！Oblessed，blessedCharity！withthydivineheart，withthydove-likeeyes，andwiththybosomfullofpity，whenwiltthoucomeintomysinfulheartandbringallheaveninwiththee！
　　OCharity！tillthousocomestIshallwaitforthee。And，tillthoucomest，thystandard-bearershallbemydoorporter，andthyscutcheonshallhangnightanddayatmydoor-post！
　　4。’Thefourthcaptainwasthatgallantcommander，theCaptainInnocent。Hisstandard-bearerwasMr。Harmless；hiswerethewhitecolours，andforhisscutcheonhehadthreegoldendoves。’Mybrethren，howwellitwouldhavebeenwithusto-dayifwehadalwayslivedinnocently！Hadweonlybeeninnocentofthatman’s，andthatman’s，andthatman’s，andthatman’shurt！Letusnameallthementoourselves。Howmanymenhavewe，firstandlast，hurt！Someintentionally，andsomeunintentionally；somedeliberately，andsomeonlybyaccident；someofmalice，andsomeonlyofmisfortune；someinnocentlyandunknowingly，andwhomweneverproperlyhurt。Some，also，byourmereexistence；somebyourbestactions；somebecausewehavehelpedandnothurtothers；
　　andsomeoutofnothingelsebutthepureoriginaldevilryoftheirownevilhearts。Andthen，whenwetakeallthesemenhometoourhearts，whatheartsallthesemengiveus！Who，then，isthemanherewhohasdonetoothermenthemosthurt？Whohascausedorbeentheoccasionofmosthurt？Letthatsounhappymanjustthinkthatthegallantcommander，theCaptainInnocenthimself，withhiswhitecoloursandwithhisgoldendoves，isstandingandknockingatyourevildoor。Ounhappyman！Byallthehurtandharmyouhaveeverdone——byallthatyoucannevernowundo——bythosespotlesscoloursthatarestillsnowandnotyetscarletastheywaveoveryou——bythosethreegoldendovesthatareanemblemofthelifethatstillliesopenbeforeyou，aswellasaninvitationtoyoutoenteronthatlife——whywillyoudieofremorseanddespair？OpenthedoorofyourheartandadmitCaptainInnocent。
　　Heknowsthatofallhurtfulmenonthefaceoftheearthyouarethemosthurtful，butheisnotonthataccountafraidatyou；
　　indeed，itisonthataccountthathehascomesoneartoyou。Byadmittinghim，byenlistingunderhim，byservingunderhim，someofthemosthurtfulandinjuriousmenthateverlivedhavelivedaftertobethemostinnocentandthemostharmlessofmen，withtheirhandswashedeverydayininnocency，andwiththreegoldendovesasthescutcheonoftheirnewnatureandtheirChristiancharacter。Ohcomeintomyheart，CaptainInnocent；thereisroominmyheartforthee！
　　5。’Andthenthefifthwasthattrulyroyalandwell-belovedcaptain，theCaptainPatience。Hisstandard-bearerwasMr。Suffer-
　　long，andforascutcheonhehadthreearrowsthroughagoldenheart。’Threearrowsthroughagoldenheart！Mosteloquent，mostimpressive，andmostinstructiveofemblems！First，aheartofgold，andthenthatheartofgoldpierced，andpierced，andthenpiercedagainwitharrowafterarrow。PatiencewasthelastofEmmanuel’spicktgraces。CaptainPatiencewithhispiercedheartalwaysbroughtuptherearwhenthearmymarched。ButwhenCaptainPatienceandMr。Suffer-longdidenterandtakeuptheirquartersinanyhouseinMansoul，——thenwastherenohousemoresafe，moreprotected，morepeaceful，morequietly，sweetly，divinelyhappythanjustthathousewherethisloyalandwell-belovedcaptainboreinhisheart。Entertainpatience，mybrethren。Practisepatience，mybrethren。Makeyourhouseathomeadailyschooltoyouinwhichtolearnpatience。Besurethatyouwellunderstandthetimes，theoccasions，theopportunities，andtheinvitationsofpatience，andtakeprofitoutofthem；andthusbothyourprofitandthatofothersalsowillbegreat。Tribulationworkethpatience。Enduretribulation，then，forthesakeofitssoexcellentwork。Nothingworkethpatienceliketribulation，andthereforeitisthattribulationsoaboundsinthelivesofGod’speople。SomuchdoestribulationaboundinthelivesofGod’speoplethattheyareactuallyknowninheavenanddescribedtherebytheirexperienceoftribulation。’Thesearetheywhichcameoutofgreattribulation，andthereforearetheybeforethethrone。’
　　Thesearetheywiththethreesharparrowsshotthroughandthroughtheirheartsofgold。
　　CHAPTERXVIII——MR。DESIRES-AWAKE
　　’OnethinghaveIdesired。’——David。
　　Mr。Desires-awakedweltinaverymeancottageinMansoul。ThereweretwoverymeancottagesinMansoul，andthosetwocottagesstoodbesideoneanotherandleanedupononeanotherandheldoneanotherup。Mr。Desires-awakedweltintheoneofthosecottagesandMr。Wet-eyesintheother。Andthosetwomendicantmenwerewonttomeettogetherforsecretprayer，whenMr。Desires-awakewouldputaropeuponhishead，whileMr。Wet-eyeswouldnotbeabletospeakforwringinghishandsintearsallthetime。Manyatimedidthosetwomeanestandmostdespisedofmendeliverthatcity，accordingtotheproverbofthePreacher:Wisdomisbetterthanstrength，andthewordsofwisdomaretobeheardinsecretplaces，wherewisdomisfarbetterthanweaponsofwar。WhyshouldInotdoallforthemandthebestIcan？saidMr。Desires-awakewhenthemenofMansoulcametohimintheirextremity。IwillevenventuremylifeagainforthematthepavilionofthePrince。
　　Andaccordinglythismeanmanputhisropeuponhishead，aswashiswont，andwentouttothePrince’stentandaskedthereformadesifhemightseetheirMaster。ThenthePrince，comingtotheplacewherethepetitionerlayontheground，demandedwhathisnamewasandofwhatesteemhewasinMansoul，andwhyhe，ofallthemultitudesofMansoul，wassentouttoHisRoyaltentonsuchanerrand。ThensaidthemantothePrincestandingoverhim，hesaid:OhletnotmyLordbeangry；andwhyinquirestThouafterthenameofsuchadeaddogasIam？Passby，IprayThee，andtakenotnoticeofwhoIam，becausethereis，asThouverywellknowest，sogreatadisproportionbetweenTheeandme。Formypart，Iamoutofcharitywithmyself；who，then，shouldbeinlovewithme？YetliveIwould，andsowouldIthatmytownsmenshould；
　　andbecauseboththeyandmyselfareguiltyofgreattransgressions，thereforetheyhavesentme，andIhavecomeintheirnamestobegofmyLordformercy。LetitpleaseThee，therefore，toinclinetomercy；butasknotwhoThyservantis。
　　Allthis，andhowMr。Desires-awakeandMr。Wet-eyesspedintheirpetition，istobereadatlengthintheHolyHistory。Andnowletustakedownthekeythathangsinourauthor’swindowandgotoworkwithitonthesweetmysteryofMr。Desires-awake。
　　1。Well，then，tobeginwith，thispoorman’snameneednotdelayuslongseekingitout。Inshortertime，andwithsurersuccessthanIcouldgiveyouthedictionaryrootofhisname，ifyouwilllookwithinyouwillallseethevisualimageofthispoorman’snameinyourownheart。Forourheartsareallasfullastheycanholdofallkindsofdesires；somegoodandsomebad，someasleepandsomeawake，somealiveandsomedead，someraginglikeahundredhungrylions，andsomesatisfiedasasleepingchild。
　　Well，then，thismeanmanwascalledMr。Desires-awake，andwhathisdesireswereawakeafterandsetuponwehavealreadyseeninhishead-dressandheardinhisprayer。Hishouse，ontheotherhand，willnotbesowellknown。Foritwaslessahousethanahut——ahuthiddenawayoutofsightandbackbehindMr。Wet-eyes’
　　hut。Mr。Desires-awake’scottagewassomeanandmeagrethatnooneevercametovisithimunlessitwashisnext-doorneighbour。
　　Theyneverlefttheircottages，thosetwopoormen，unlessitwastoseeoneanother；or，strangetotell，unlessitwastogooutatthecitygatetoseeandtospeakwiththeirPrince。AndatsuchtimestheirventuresomenessbothastonishedthemselvesandamusedtheirPrince。Sometimeshelaughedtoseethembackathisdooragain；butmoreoftenhewepttoseeandhearthem；allwhichmadetheguardsofhispaviliontowonderwhothosetwostrangemenmightbe。AndthusitwasthatifatanylongintervaloftimeanyofthemenofthecitydesiredtoseeMr。Desires-awake，hewassuretobefoundatthepaviliondoorofhisPrince，orelseinhisneighbour’scottage，orelseathomeinhisown。Fromyear’sendtoyear’sendyoumightlookinvainforeitherofthosetwopoormeninthepublicresortsofMansoul。Whenallthetownwasabroadonholidaysandfair-daysandfeast-days，thosetwomeanmenwerethenclosestathome。Andwhentheboothsofthetownwerefullofallkindsofwaresandmerchandise，andallthegreensinthetownwerefullofgames，andplays，andcheats，andfools，andapes，andknaves，onlythosetwopennilessmenwouldabideshutupathome。
　　Athome；orelsetogethertheywouldgotoamarket-stancesetupbytheirPrinceoutsidethewallswhereonewasstationedtostandandtocry:’Ho！everyonethatthirsteth，comeyetothewaters，andhethathathnomoney。Whereforedoyespendmoneyforthatwhichisnotbread，andyourlabourforthatwhichsatisfiethnot？
　　Inclineyourearandcometome；hear，andyoursoulshalllive。’
　　AndsometimesthePrincewouldgooutinpersontomeetthetwomenwithnothingtopay，andwouldHimselfsaytothem，IcounseltheetobuyofMegoldtriedinthefire，andwhiteraiment，andanointthineeyeswitheye-salve，tillthetwomen，Mr。Desires-awakeandMr。Wet-eyes，wouldgohometotheirhutsladenwiththeirPrince’sfreegiftsandroyalbounties。
　　2。But，withallthat，Mr。Desires-awakeneverwentouttohisPrince’spaviliontillhehadagainputhisropeuponhishead。
　　And，howeverladenwithroyalpresentsheeverreturnedtohismeancottage，heneverlaidasidehisrope。Heateinhisrope，hesleptinhisrope，hevisitedhisnext-doorneighbourinhisrope，tilltheonlyinstructionheleftbehindhimwastoburyhiminaditch，andbesuretoputhisropeuponhishead。ThemenandtheboysofthetownjeeredatMr。Desires-awakeashepasseduptheirstreetsinhisrope，andtheverymothersinMansoultaughttheirchildreninarmstorunafterhimandtocry，Goup，thouropedhead！Goup，thouropedhead！Webefreemen，themenofthetowncalledafterhim；andweneverwereinbondagetoanyman’。Outwithhim；outwithhim！Heisbesidehimself。Muchrepentancehathmadehimmad！ButthroughallthatMr。Desires-awakewasasonethatheardthemnot。ForMr。Desires-awakewasfullofloudervoiceswithin。Thevoiceswithinhisbosomquitedrownedthebabelaroundhim。Thevoiceswithincalledhimfarworsenamesthanthestreetsofthecityevercalledhim；tillallhecoulddowastodrawhisropedownuponhisheadandpressonagaintothePrince’spavilion。Youunderstandaboutthatrope，mybrethren，doyounot？
　　Mr。Desires-awake’scontinualrope？Inolddayswhenaguiltymancameofhisownaccordtothejudgetoconfesshimselfdeservingofdeath，hewouldputaropeuponhishead。Andthatropeasmuchassaidtothejudgeandtoallmen——themiserablemanasgoodassaid:Thisismydesert。Thisisthewagesofmysin。Ijustifymyjudge。Ijudgemyself。Iherebydomyselftodeath。Anditwasthisthatsoangeredthehappyholiday-makersofMansoul。Fortheyforgavethemselves。Theyjustifiedthemselves。Theyputahighpriceuponthemselves。Humiliationandsorrowforsinwasnotinalltheirthoughts；andtheyhatedandhuntedbackintohishutthehumblemanwhosegaitandgarbalwaysremindedthemoftheirpastlifeandoftheirlatterend。Butforalltheycoulddo，Mr。
　　Desires-awakewouldwearhisrope。Mysoulchoosethstranglingratherthansin，hewouldsay。Mysinhathfoundmeout，hewouldsay；Ihatemyself，hewouldsay，becauseofmysin。Icondemnanddenouncemyself。Ihangmyselfupwiththisropeontheaccursedtree。AndthusitwasthatwhileothermenwerecrucifyingtheirPrinceafresh，Mr。Desires-awakewascrucifyinghimselfwithandafterhisPrince。AndthusitwasthatwhilethemenandthewomenofthetownsohatedandsomockedMr。Desires-awake，hisPrincesolovedandsohonouredhim。
　　3。’OhletnotmyLordbeangry；andwhyinquirestThouafterthenameofsuchadeaddogasIam？’saidDesires-awaketohisPrince。
　　’Behold，now，IhavetakenuponmetospeakuntotheLordwhichambutdustandashes，’saidAbraham。’IfIwashmyselfwithsnowwater，andmakemyhandsneversoclean，yetshaltthouplungemeintotheditch，andmineownclothesshallabhorme，’saidJob。
　　’Mywoundsstinkandarecorrupt；myloinsarefilledwithaloathsomedisease，andthereisnosoundnessinmyflesh，’saidDavid。’Butweareallasanuncleanthing，’saidIsaiah，’andallourrighteousnessesareasfilthyrags。’’Iamthechiefofsinners，’saidtheapostle。’Holdyourpeace；Iamadevilandnotaman，’saidPhilipNeritohissons。’Iamasinner，andworsethanthechiefofsinners，yea，aguiltydevil，’saidSamuelRutherford。’Ihatedthelight；Iwasachief——thechiefofsinners，’saidOliverCromwell。’Iwasmoreloathsomeinmyowneyesthanatoad，’saidJohnBunyan。’Sinandcorruptionwouldasnaturallybubbleoutofmyheartaswaterwouldbubbleoutofafountain。Icouldhavechangedheartswithanybody。Ithoughtnonebutthedevilhimselfcouldequalmeforwickednessandpollutionofmind。’’ODespisemenot，’saidBishopAndrewes，’anuncleanworm，adeaddog，aputridcorpse。Thejustfallethseventimesaday；andI，anexceedingsinner，seventytimesseven。Me，OLord，ofsinnerschief，chiefest，andgreatest。’AndWilliamLaw，’Anuncleanworm，adeaddog，astinkingcarcass。Drive，I
　　beseechThee，theserpentandthebeastoutofme。OLord，I
　　detestandabhormyselfforallthesemysins，andforallmyabuseofThineinfinitemercy。’Fromallthis，then，youwillseethatthisdeaddogofourswiththeropeuponhisheadwasnostrangesightatEmmanuel’spavilion。AndyouandIshallstillbeinthesamesaintlysuccessionifwegocontinuallywithhiswordsinourmouth，andwithhisinstrumentinourhandsandonourheads。
　　4。’ThePrincetowhomIwent，’saidMr。Desires-awake，’issuchaoneforbeautyandforglorythatwhososeesHimmusteverafterbothloveandfearHim。I，formypart，’hesaid，’candonoless；
　　butIknownotwhattheendwillbeofallthesethings。’WhatmadeMr。Desires-awakesaythatlastthingwasthatwhenhewasprostrateinhisprayerthePrinceturnedHisheadaway，asifHewasoutofhumourandoutofpatiencewithHispetitioner；while，allthetime，theovercomePrincewasweepingwithloveandwithpityforDesires-awake。Onlythatpoormandidnotseethat，andwouldnothavebelievedthatevenifhehadseenit。’Icannottellwhattheendwillbe，’saidDesires-awake；’butonethingI
　　know，IshallneverbeabletoceasefrombothlovingandfearingthatPrince。IshallalwaysloveHimforHisbeautyandfearHimforHisglory。’Canyousayanythinglikethat，mybrethren？HaveyoubeenatHisseatwithsackcloth，andarope，andashes，andtears，andprayers，likeAbraham，andDavid，andIsaiah，andPaul，andJohnBunyan，andBishopAndrewes？And，whatevermaybetheend，doyousaythathenceforthandforeveryoumustbothloveandfearthatPrince？’ThoughHeslayme，’saidJob，’yetIshallbothloveandtrustHim。’Well，thePrinceisthePrince，andHewilltakebothHisowntimeandHisownwayoftakingoffyourropeandputtingachainofgoldroundyourneck，andanewsonginyourmouth，asHedidtoJob。Theremaybemoreweepingyet，bothonyoursideandonHisbeforeHedoesthat；butHewilldoit，andHewillnotdelayanhourthatHecanhelpindoingit。Only，doyoucontinueandincreasetoloveHisbeauty，andtofearHisglory。
　　Andthatofitselfwillberewardandblessingenoughtoyou。Nay，onceyouhaveseenbothHisbeautyandHisglory，thentolieadogunderHistable，andtobegatHisdoorwitharopeonyourheadtoalleternitywouldbeagloriouseternitytoyou。SamuelRutherfordsaidthattoseeChristthroughthekeyholeonceinathousandyearswouldbeheavenenoughforhim。ChristweptinheavenasRutherfordwrotethatletterinAberdeen，andifyoumakeHimweepinthesamewayHewillsoonmakeyoutolaughtoo。HewillsoonmakeyoutolaughasSamuelRutherfordandMr。Desires-
　　awakearelaughingnow。Only，mybrethren，answerthis——AreyourdesiresawakenedindeedafterJesusChrist？Youknowwhatadesireis。Yourheartsarefulltothebrimofdesires。Well，isthereonedesireinadayinyourheartforChrist？Inthemultitudeofyourdesireswithinyou，whatshareandwhatproportiongooutanduptoChrist？Youknowwhatbeautyis。Youknowandyoulovethebeautyofachild，ofawoman，ofaman，ofnature，ofart，andsoon。Doyouknow，haveyoueverseen，theineffablebeautyofChrist？IsthereonesaintofGodhere，——andHehasmanysaintshere——isthereoneofyouwhocansaywithDavidinthetext，OnethingdoIdesire？Thereshouldbemanysodesiringsaintshere；
　　forChrist’sbeautyisfarbetterandfarfairer，farmorecaptivating，farmoreenthralling，andfarmoresatisfyingtousthanitcouldbetoDavid。ShallwecallyouDesires-awake，then，afterthis？Canyousay——doyousay，OnethingdoIdesire，andthatisnothingandnoperson，nocreatedbeautyandnoearthlysweetness，butmyonedesireisforGod:tobeHis，andtobelikeHim，andtobeforeverwithHim？Then，itshallsoonallbe。
　　For，whatyoutrulydesire，——allthatyoualreadyare；andwhatyoualreadyare，——allthatyoushallsooncompletelyandforeverbe。
　　WhomhaveIinheavenbutThee？AndthereisnoneuponearththatIdesirebesideThee。Myfleshandmyheartfaileth；butGodisthestrengthofmyheart，andmyportionforever。
　　’Asforme，’saysthegreat-hearted，thehungry-heartedPsalmist，’Ishallbesatisfied，whenIawake，withThylikeness。’OnewouldhavesaidthatDavidhadallthatheartcoulddesireevenbeforehefellasleep。Forhehadathrone，thethroneofIsrael，andason，asonlikeSolomontosituponit。Alonglifealso，fulltothebrimofallkindsoftemporalandspiritualblessings。BlesstheLord，Omysoul，andforgetnotallHisbenefits；whoforgivethallthineiniquities；whohealethallthydiseases；whoredeemeththylifefromdestruction；whocrowneththeewithloving-kindnessandtendermercies；whosatisfieththymouthwithgoodthings，sothatthyyouthisrenewedliketheeagle’s。Allthat，andyetnotsatisfied！ODavid！David！surelyDesires-awakeisthynewname！
　　Oneofourownpoetshassaid:-
　　’Allthoughts，allpassions，alldelights，Whateverstirsthismortalframe，AllarebutministersofLove，AndfeedHissacredflame。’
　　Now，ifthatistrue，asitistrue，evenofearthlyandephemerallove，howmuchmoretrueisitofthelovethatisintheimmortalsoulofmanfortheeverlastingGod？Andwhatablessedlifethatalreadyiswhenallthingsthatcometous——joyandsorrow，goodandevil，natureandgrace，allthoughts，allpassions，alldelights——areallbutsomanyministerstooursoul’sdesireafterGod，aftertheDivineLikenessandfortheBeatificVision。
　　’Oh！Christ，HeistheFountain，ThedeepsweetWellofLove！
　　ThestreamsonearthI’vetasted，MoredeepI’lldrinkabove；
　　There，toanoceanfulness，Hismercydothexpand；
　　Andglory——glorydwellethInEmmanuel’sland。’
　　CHAPTERXIX——MR。WET-EYES
　　’Ohthatmyheadwerewaters！’——Jeremiah。
　　’Tearsgaineverything。’——Teresa。
　　NowMr。Desires-awake，whenhesawthathemustgoonthiserrand，besoughtthattheywouldgrantthatMr。Wet-eyesmightgowithhim。
　　NowthisMr。Wet-eyeswasanearneighbourofMr。Desires-awake，apoorman，andamanofabrokenspirit，yetonethatcouldspeakwelltoapetition；sotheygrantedthatheshouldgowithhim。