I
LittleGyp,agednearlyfourandahalfthatfirstofMay,stoodattheedgeofthetulipborder,bowingtotwohenturkeyswhowerepokingtheirheadselegantlyhereandthereamongtheflowers。Shewasabsurdlylikehermother,thesameoval-shapedface,darkarchedbrows,largeandclearbrowneyes;butshehadthemodernchild’sopen-airlook;herhair,thatcurledoverattheends,wasnotallowedtobelong,andherpolishedbrownlegswerebaretotheknees。”Turkeys!Youaren’tgood,areyou?ComeON!”And,stretchingoutherhandswiththepalmsheldup,shebackedawayfromthetulip-bed。Theturkeys,trailingdelicatelytheirlong-toedfeetandutteringsoft,liquidinterrogations,movedafterherinhopesofwhatshewasnotholdinginherlittlebrownhands。Thesun,downinthewest,foritwaspasttea-time,slantedfromovertheroofoftheredhouse,andpaintedupthatsmallprocession——thedeepbluefrockoflittleGyp,theglintofgoldinthechestnutofherhair;thedaisy-starredgrass;thedarkbirdswithtranslucentreddewlaps,andcheckeredtailsandthetulipbackground,puceandredandyellow。Whenshehadluredthemtotheopengate,littleGypraisedherself,andsaid:”Aren’tyouduffies,dears?Shoo!”Andonthetailsoftheturkeyssheshutthegate。Thenshewenttowhere,underthewalnut-tree——theonelargetreeofthatwalledgarden——averyoldScotchterrierwaslying,andsittingdownbesidehim,beganstrokinghiswhitemuzzle,saying:”Ossy,Ossy,doyouloveme?”
Presently,seeinghermotherintheporch,shejumpedup,andcryingout:”Ossy——Ossy!Walk!”rushedtoGypandembracedherlegs,whiletheoldScotchterrierslowlyfollowed。
Thusheldprisoner,Gypwatchedthedog’sapproach。Nearlythreeyearshadchangedheralittle。Herfacewassofter,andrathermoregrave,herformalittlefuller,herhair,ifanything,darker,anddonedifferently——insteadofwavinginwingsandbeingcoiledupbehind,itwassmoothlygatheredroundinasoftandlustroushelmet,bywhichfashiontheshapeofherheadwasbetterrevealed。”Darling,goandaskPettancetoputafreshpieceofsulphurinOssy’swater-bowl,andtocutuphismeatfiner。YoucangiveHotspurandBrownietwolumpsofsugareach;andthenwe’llgoout。”Goingdownonherkneesintheporch,shepartedtheolddog’shair,andexaminedhiseczema,thinking:”Imustrubsomemoreofthatstuffinto-night。Oh,ducky,you’renotsmellingyourbest!Yes;only——notmyface!”
Atelegraph-boywascomingfromthegate。GypopenedthemissivewiththefainttremorshealwaysfeltwhenSummerhaywasnotwithher。
Detained;shallbedownbylasttrain;neednotcomeupto-morrow——
BRYAN。”
Whentheboywasgone,shestoopeddownandstrokedtheolddog’shead。”Masterhomealldayto-morrow,Ossy——masterhome!”
Avoicefromthepathsaid,”Beautifulevenin’,ma’am。”
The”oldscoundrel,”Pettance,stifferintheankle-joints,withmorelinesinhisgargoyle’sface,fewerstumpsinhisgargoyle’smouth,morefilmoverhisdark,burninglittleeyes,wasstandingbeforeher,and,behindhim,littleGyp,onefootratherbeforetheother,asGyphadbeenwonttostand,waitedgravely。”Oh,Pettance,Mr。Summerhaywillbeathomeallto-morrow,andwe’llgoalongride:andwhenyouexercise,willyoucallattheinn,incaseIdon’tgothatway,andtellMajorWintonIexpecthimtodinnerto-night?””Yes,ma’am;andI’veseentheponyforlittleMissGypthismorning,ma’am。It’samousepony,fiveyearold,sound,goodtemper,prettylittlepaces。Isaystotheman:’Don’tyoucomeitoverme,’Isays;’Iwasbornonan’orse。Talkoftwentypounds,forthatpony!Ten,andluckytogetit!’’Well,’hesays,’Pettance,it’snogoodtotalkroundan’roundwithyou。
Fifteen!’hesays。’I’llthrowyouonein,’Isays,’Eleven!Takeitorleaveit。’’Ah!’hesays,’Pettance,YOUknow’owtobuyan’orse。Allright,’hesays;’twelve!’She’sworthalloffifteen,ma’am,andthemajor’spassedher。Soifyoulikestohave’er,theresheis!”
Gyplookedatherlittledaughter,whohadgivenoneexcitedhop,butnowstoodstill,hereyesflyingupathermotherandherlipsparted;andshethought:”Thedarling!Sheneverbegsforanything!””Verywell,Pettance;buyher。”
The”oldscoundrel”touchedhisforelock:”Yes,ma’am——verygood,ma’am。Beautifulevenin’,ma’am。”And,withdrawingathisgaitofonewhosefeetareatpermanentrightanglestothelegs,hemused:’Andthat’llbetwoinmypocket。’
TenminuteslaterGyp,littleGyp,andOssianemergedfromthegardengatefortheireveningwalk。Theywent,notasusual,uptothedowns,buttowardtheriver,makingforwhattheycalled”thewild。”Thiswasanoutlyingplotofneglectedgroundbelongingtotheirfarm,twosedgymeadows,hedgedbybanksonwhichgrewoaksandashes。Anoldstonelinhay,coveredtoitsbrokenthatchbyahugeivybush,stoodattheanglewherethemeadowsmet。Thespothadastrangelifetoitselfinthatsmooth,kemptcountrysideofcornfields,grass,andbeech-clumps;itwasfavouredbybeastsandbirds,andlittleGyphadrecentlyseentwobabyharesthere。Fromanoak-tree,wherethecrinkledleaveswerenotyetlargeenoughtohidehim,acuckoowascallingandtheystoppedtolookatthegreybirdtillheflewoff。Thesingingandserenity,thegreenandgoldenoaksandashes,theflowers——marsh-orchis,ladies’smocks,andcuckoo-buds,starringtherushygrass——allbroughttoGypthatfeelingoftheuncapturablespiritwhichliesbehindtheformsofnature,theshadowy,hoveringsmileoflifethatisevervanishingandeverspringingagainoutofdeath。Whiletheystoodthereclosetotheoldlinhayabirdcameflyingroundtheminwidecircles,utteringshrillcries。Ithadalongbeakandlong,pointedwings,andseemeddistressedbytheirpresence。LittleGypsqueezedhermother’shand。”Poorbird!Isn’titapoorbird,mum?””Yes,dear,it’sacurlew——Iwonderwhat’sthematterwithit。
Perhapsitsmateishurt。””Whatisitsmate?””Thebirditliveswith。””It’safraidofus。It’snotlikeotherbirds。Isitarealbird,mum?Oroneoutofthesky?””Ithinkit’sreal。Shallwegoonandseeifwecanfindoutwhat’sthematter?””Yes。”
Theywentonintothesedgygrassandthecurlewcontinuedtocircle,vanishingandreappearingfrombehindthetrees,alwaysutteringthoseshrillcries。LittleGypsaid:”Mum,couldwespeaktoit?Becausewe’renotgoingtohurtnothing,arewe?””Ofcoursenot,darling!ButI’mafraidthepoorbird’stoowild。
Try,ifyoulike。Calltoit:’Courlie!Courlie!”’
LittleGyp’spipingjoinedthecurlew’scriesandotherbird-songsinthebrightshadowyquietoftheeveningtillGypsaid:”Oh,look;it’sdippingclosetotheground,overthereinthatcorner——it’sgotanest!Wewon’tgonear,willwe?”
LittleGypechoedinahushedvoice:”It’sgotanest。”
Theystolebackoutofthegateclosetothelinhay,thecurlewstillfightingandcryingbehindthem。”Aren’twegladthemateisn’thurt,mum?”
Gypansweredwithashiver:”Yes,darling,fearfullyglad。Nowthen,shallwegodownandaskGrandytocomeuptodinner?”
LittleGyphopped。Andtheywenttowardtheriver。
At”TheBowlofCream,”Wintonhadfortwoyearshadrooms,whichheoccupiedasoftenashispursuitspermitted。HehadrefusedtomakehishomewithGyp,desiringtobeonhandonlywhenshewantedhim;andasimplelifeofitheledinthosesimplequarters,ridingwithherwhenSummerhaywasintown,visitingthecottagers,smokingcigars,layingplansforthedefenceofhisdaughter’sposition,anddevotinghimselftothewhimsoflittleGyp。Thismoment,whenhisgrandchildwastobegintoride,wasinamannersacredtooneforwhomlifehadscantmeaningapartfromhorses。
Lookingatthem,handinhand,Gypthought:’Dadlovesherasmuchashelovesmenow——more,Ithink。’
LonelydinnerattheinnwasaninflictionwhichhestudiouslyconcealedfromGyp,soheacceptedtheirinvitationwithoutalacrity,andtheywalkedonupthehill,withlittleGypinthemiddle,supportedbyahandoneachside。
TheRedHousecontainednothingthathadbeeninGyp’smarriedhomeexceptthepiano。Ithadwhitewalls,furnitureofoldoak,andforpicturesreproductionsofherfavourites。”TheDeathofProcris”hunginthedining-room。Wintonneverfailedtoscrutinizeitwhenhecameintoameal——that”deucedrumaffair”
appearedtohaveafascinationforhim。Heapprovedofthedining-
roomaltogether;itsnarrowoak”lastsupper”tablemadegaybyastripofbluelinen,oldbrickhearth,casementwindowshungwithfloweredcurtains——allhadapleasingausterity,uncannilyredeemedtosoftness。HegotonwellenoughwithSummerhay,butheenjoyedhimselfmuchmorewhenhewastherealonewithhisdaughter。Andthiseveninghewasespeciallygladtohavehertohimself,forshehadseemedoflaterathergraveandabsent-minded。Whendinnerwasoverandtheywereundisturbed,hesaid:”Itmustbeprettydullforyou,mydear,sometimes。Iwishyousawmorepeople。””Ohno,Dad。”
Watchinghersmile,hethought:’That’snotsourgrapes”——Whatisthetrouble,then?’”Isupposeyou’venotheardanythingofthatfellowFiorsenlately?””Notaword。Buthe’splayingagaininLondonthisseason,Isee。””Ishe?Ah,that’llcheerthem。”Andhethought:’It’snotthat,then。Butthere’ssomething——I’llswear!’”IhearthatBryan’sgoingahead。Imetamanintownlastweekwhospokeofhimasaboutthemostpromisingjunioratthebar。””Yes;he’sdoingawfullywell。”Andasoundlikeafaintsighcaughthisears。”Wouldyousayhe’schangedmuchsinceyouknewhim,Dad?””Idon’tknow——perhapsalittlelessjokey。””Yes;he’slosthislaugh。”
Itwasveryevenlyandsoftlysaid,yetitaffectedWinton。”Can’texpecthimtokeepthat,”heanswered,”turningpeopleinsideout,dayafterday——andmostofthemrotten。ByGeorge,whatalife!”
Butwhenhehadlefther,strollingbackinthebrightmoonlight,herevertedtohissuspicionsandwishedhehadsaidmoredirectly:”Lookhere,Gyp,areyouworryingaboutBryan——orhavepeoplebeenmakingthemselvesunpleasant?”
Hehad,intheselastthreeyears,becomeunconsciouslyinimicaltohisownclassandtheirimitators,andmorethaneverfriendlytothepoor——visitingthelabourers,smallfarmers,andsmalltradesmen,doingthemlittleturnswhenhecould,givingtheirchildrensixpences,andsoforth。Thefactthattheycouldnotaffordtoputonairsofvirtueescapedhim;heperceivedonlythattheywererespectfulandfriendlytoGypandthiswarmedhishearttowardtheminproportionashegrewexasperatedwiththetwoorthreelandedfamilies,andthatparvenulotintheriversidevillas。
Whenhefirstcamedown,thechieflandowner——amanhehadknownforyears——hadinvitedhimtolunch。Hehadacceptedwiththedeliberateintentionoffindingoutwherehewas,andhadtakenthefirstnaturalopportunityofmentioninghisdaughter。Shewas,hesaid,devotedtoherflowers;theRedHousehadquiteagoodgarden。Hisfriend’swife,slightlyliftingherbrows,hadansweredwithanervoussmile:”Oh!yes;ofcourse——yes。”A
silencehad,notunnaturally,fallen。Sincethen,Wintonhadsalutedhisfriendandhisfriend’swifewithsuchfrigidpolitenessasfrozetheverymarrowintheirbones。HehadnotgonetherefishingforGyptobecalledon,buttoshowthesepeoplethathisdaughtercouldnotbeslightedwithimpunity。
Foolishofhim,for,manoftheworldtohisfingertips,heknewperfectlywellthatawomanlivingwithamantowhomshewasnotmarriedcouldnotberecognizedbypeoplewithanypretensionstoorthodoxy;Gypwasbeyondeventhedebatablegroundonwhichstoodthosewhohavebeendivorcedandaremarriedagain。Butevenamanoftheworldisnotproofagainstthewarpingofdevotion,andWintonwasreadytochargeanywindmillatanymomentonherbehalf。
Outsidetheinndoor,exhalingthelastpuffsofhisgood-nightcigarette,hethought:’Whatwouldn’tIgivefortheolddays,andachancetowingsomeofthesemoralupstarts!’
II
Thelasttrainwasnotduetilleleven-thirty,andhavingseenthattheeveningtrayhadsandwiches,GypwenttoSummerhay’sstudy,theroomatrightanglestothebodyofthehouse,overwhichwastheirbedroom。Here,ifshehadnothingtodo,shealwayscamewhenhewasaway,feelingnearertohim。Shewouldhavebeenhorrifiedifshehadknownofherfather’ssentimentsonherbehalf。Herinstantdenialofthewishtoseemorepeoplehadbeenquitegenuine。Theconditionsofherlife,inthatrespect,oftenseemedtoherideal。Itwassuchajoytobefreeofpeopleonedidnotcaretwostrawsabout,andofallemptysocialfunctions。
Everythingshehadnowwasreal——love,andnature,riding,music,animals,andpoorpeople。Whatelsewasworthhaving?Shewouldnothavechangedforanything。Itoftenseemedtoherthatbooksandplaysabouttheunhappinessofwomeninherpositionwereallfalse。Ifoneloved,whatcouldonewantbetter?Suchwomen,ifunhappy,couldhavenopride;orelsecouldnotreallylove!Shehadrecentlybeenreading”AnnaKarenina,”andhadoftensaidtoherself:”There’ssomethingnottrueaboutit——asifTolstoywantedtomakeusbelievethatAnnawassecretlyfeelingremorse。Ifoneloves,onedoesn’tfeelremorse。Evenifmybabyhadbeentakenaway,Ishouldn’thavefeltremorse。Onegivesoneselftolove——oronedoesnot。”
Sheevenderivedapositivejoyfromthefeelingthatherloveimposedasortofisolation;shelikedtobeapart——forhim。
Besides,byherverybirthshewasoutsidethefoldofsociety,herlovebeyondtheloveofthosewithinit——justasherfather’slovehadbeen。Andherpridewasgreaterthantheirs,too。Howcouldwomenmopeandmoanbecausetheywerecastout,andtrytoscratchtheirwaybackwheretheywerenotwelcome?Howcouldanywomandothat?Sometimes,shewonderedwhether,ifFiorsendied,shewouldmarryherlover。Whatdifferencewoulditmake?Shecouldnotlovehimmore。Itwouldonlymakehimfeel,perhaps,toosureofher,makeitallamatterofcourse。Forherself,shewouldrathergoonasshewas。Butforhim,shewasnotcertain,oflatehadbeenlessandlesscertain。Hewasnotboundnow,couldleaveherwhenhetired!Andyet——didheperhapsfeelhimselfmoreboundthaniftheyweremarried——unfairlybound?Itwasthisthought——
barelymorethantheshadowofathought——whichhadgivenher,oflate,theextragravitynoticedbyherfather。
Inthatunlightedroomwiththemoonbeamsdriftingin,shesatdownatSummerhay’sbureau,whereheoftenworkedtoolateathiscases,deprivingherofhimself。Shesatthererestingherelbowsonthebarewood,crossingherfinger-tips,gazingoutintothemoonlight,herminddriftingonastreamofmemoriesthatseemedtohavebeginningonlyfromtheyearwhenhecameintoherlife。Asmilecreptoutonherface,andnowandthensheutteredalittlesighofcontentment。
Somanymemories,nearlyallhappy!Surely,themostadroitworkofthejewellerwhoputthehumansoultogetherwashisprovisionofitspowertoforgetthedarkandremembersunshine。TheyearandahalfofherlifewithFiorsen,theemptymonthsthatfolloweditweregone,dispersedlikemistbytheradianceofthelastthreeyearsinwhoseskyhadhungjustonecloud,nobiggerthanahand,ofdoubtwhetherSummerhayreallylovedherasmuchasshelovedhim,whetherfromhercompanyhegotasmuchastheallshegotfromhis。Shewouldnothavebeenherdistrustfulselfifshecouldhavesettleddownincomplacentsecurity;andhermindwaseveratstretchonthatpoint,comparingpastdaysandnightswiththedaysandnightsofthepresent。Herprevisionthat,whensheloved,itwouldbedesperately,hadbeenfulfilled。Hehadbecomeherlife。Whenthisbefallsonewhosebesettingstrengthandweaknessalikeispride——nowonderthatshedoubts。
FortheirOdysseytheyhadgonetoSpain——thatbrownun-Europeanlandof”lyrio”flowers,andcriesof”Agua!”inthestreets,wherethemenseemclefttothewaistwhentheyareastrideofhorses,undertheirwideblackhats,andtheblack-clothedwomenwithwonderfuleyesstilllookasiftheymissedtheirEasternveils。
Ithadbeenamonthofgaietyandglamour,lastdaysofSeptemberandearlydaysofOctober,arevelofenchantedwanderingsinthestreetsofSeville,ofembracesandlaughter,ofstrangescentsandstrangersounds,oforangelightandvelvetyshadows,andallthewarmthanddeepgravityofSpain。TheAlcazar,thecigarette-
girls,theGipsydancersofTriana,theoldbrownruinstowhichtheyrode,thestreets,andthesquarewithitsgravetalkerssittingonbenchesinthesun,thewater-sellersandthemelons;
themules,andthedarkraggedmanoutofadream,pickinguptheendsofcigarettes,thewineofMalaga,burntfireandhoney!
Sevillehadbewitchedthem——theygotnofurther。TheyhadcomebackacrossthebrownuplandsofCastiletoMadridandGoyaandVelasquez,tillitwastimeforParis,beforethelaw-termbegan。
There,inaqueerlittleFrenchhotel——allbedrooms,andalift,coffeeandcarvedbeds,woodfires,andachambermaidwhoseemedallFrance,anddownbelowarestaurant,towhichsuchasknewabouteatingcame,withwaiterswholookedlikemonks,bothfatandlean——theyhadspentaweek。ThreespecialmemoriesofthatweekstartedupinthemoonlightbeforeGyp’seyes:ThelongdriveintheBoisamongthefallingleavesoftreesflashingwithcolourinthecrispairunderabrilliantsky。AmomentintheLouvrebeforetheLeonardo”Bacchus,”when——his”restored”pinkskinforgotten——
alltheworldseemedtodropawaywhileshelistened,withthelisteningfigurebeforeher,tosomemysteriousmusicofgrowingflowersandsecretlife。Andthatlastmostdisconcertingmemory,ofthenightbeforetheyreturned。Theywerehavingsupperafterthetheatreintheirrestaurant,when,inamirrorshesawthreepeoplecomeinandtakeseatsatatablealittlewaybehind——
Fiorsen,Rosek,andDaphneWing!Howshemanagedtoshownosignsheneverknew!Whiletheywereordering,shewassafe,forRosekwasagourmet,andthegirlwouldcertainlybehungry;butafterthat,sheknewthatnothingcouldsaveherbeingseen——Rosekwouldmarkdowneverywomanintheroom!Shouldshepretendtofeelfaintandslipoutintothehotel?OrletBryanknow?Orsittherelaughingandtalking,eatinganddrinking,asifnothingwerebehindher?
Herownfaceinthemirrorhadaflush,andhereyeswerebright。
Whentheysawher,theywouldseethatshewashappy,safeinherlove。HerfootsoughtSummerhay’sbeneaththetable。Howsplendidandbrownandfithelooked,comparedwiththosetwopale,townycreatures!Andhewasgazingatherasthoughjustdiscoveringherbeauty。Howcouldsheever——thatmanwithhislittlebeardandhiswhitefaceandthoseeyes——howcouldsheever!Ugh!Andthen,inthemirror,shesawRosek’sdark-circledeyesfastenonherandbetraytheirrecognitionbyasuddengleam,sawhislipscompressed,andafaintredcomeupinhischeeks。Whatwouldhedo?Thegirl’sbackwasturned——herperfectback——andshewaseating。AndFiorsenwasstaringstraightbeforehiminthatmoodywaysheknewsowell。Alldependedonthatdeadlylittleman,whohadoncekissedherthroat。AsickfeelingseizedonGyp。Ifherloverknewthatwithinfiveyardsofhimwerethosetwomen!Butshestillsmiledandtalked,andtouchedhisfoot。Rosekhadseenthatshewasconscious——wasgettingfromitakindofsatisfaction。
Shesawhimleanoverandwhispertothegirl,andDaphneWingturningtolook,andhermouthopeningforasmothered”Oh!”GypsawhergiveanuneasyglanceatFiorsen,andthenbeginagaintoeat。Surelyshewouldwanttogetawaybeforehesaw。Yes;verysoonsherose。Whatlittleairsoftheworldshehadnow——quitemistressofthesituation!Thewrapmustbeplacedexactlyonhershoulders;andhowshewalked,givingjustonestartledlookbackfromthedoor。Gone!Theordealover!AndGypsaid:”Let’sgoup,darling。”
Shefeltasiftheyhadbothescapedadeadlyperil——notfromanythingthosetwocoulddotohimorher,butfromthecruelacheandjealousyofthepast,whichthesightofthatmanwouldhavebroughthim。
Women,fortheirage,aresurelyolderthanmen——marriedwomen,atallevents,thanmenwhohavenothadthatexperience。Andallthroughthosefirstweeksoftheirlifetogether,therewasakindofwisewatchfulnessinGyp。Hewasonlyaboyinknowledgeoflifeasshesawit,andthoughhischaracterwassomuchmoredecided,active,andinsistentthanherown,shefeltitlaywithhertoshapethecourseandavoidtheshallowsandsunkenrocks。
Thehousetheyhadseentogetherneartheriver,undertheBerkshiredowns,wasstillempty;andwhileitwasbeinggotready,theylivedataLondonhotel。Shehadinsistedthatheshouldtellnooneoftheirlifetogether。Ifthatmustcome,shewantedtobefirmlysettledin,withlittleGypandBettyandthehorses,sothatitshouldallbeforhimasmuchlikerespectablemarriedlifeaspossible。But,oneday,inthefirstweekaftertheirreturn,whileinherroom,justbackfromalongday’sshopping,acardwasbroughtuptoher:”LadySummerhay。”Herfirstimpulsewastobe”notathome”;hersecond,”I’dbetterfaceit。Bryanwouldwishmetoseeher!”Whenthepage-boywasgone,sheturnedtothemirrorandlookedatherselfdoubtfully。Sheseemedtoknowexactlywhatthattallwomanwhomshehadseenontheplatformwouldthinkofher——toosoft,notcapable,notrightforhim!——notevenifshewerelegallyhiswife。Andtouchingherhair,layingadabofscentonhereyebrows,sheturnedandwentdownstairsfluttering,butoutwardlycalmenough。
Inthelittlelow-roofedinnerloungeofthatoldhotel,whoseroomswereall”entirelyrenovated,”Gypsawhervisitorstandingatatable,rapidlyturningthepagesofanillustratedmagazine,aspeoplewillwhentheirmindsaresetuponacomingoperation。
Andshethought:’Ibelieveshe’smorefrightenedthanIam!’
LadySummerhayheldoutaglovedhand。”Howdoyoudo?”shesaid。”Ihopeyou’llforgivemycoming。”
Gyptookthehand。”Thankyou。Itwasverygoodofyou。I’msorryBryanisn’tinyet。Willyouhavesometea?””I’vehadtea;butdolet’ssitdown。Howdoyoufindthehotel?””Verynice。”
Onavelvetloungethathadsurvivedtherenovation,theysatsidebyside,screwedroundtowardeachother。”Bryan’stoldmewhatapleasanttimeyouhadabroad。He’slookingverywell,Ithink。I’mdevotedtohim,youknow。”
Gypansweredsoftly:”Yes,youmustbe。”Andherheartfeltsuddenlyashardasflint。
LadySummerhaygaveheraquicklook。”I——Ihopeyouwon’tmindmybeingfrank——I’vebeensoworried。
It’sanunhappyposition,isn’tit?”Gypdidnotanswer,andshehurriedon。”Ifthere’sanythingIcandotohelp,Ishouldbesoglad——itmustbehorridforyou。”
Gypsaidveryquietly:”Oh!no。I’mperfectlyhappy——couldn’tbehappier。”Andshethought:’Isupposeshedoesn’tbelievethat。’
LadySummerhaywaslookingatherfixedly。”Onedoesn’trealizethesethingsatfirst——neitherofyouwill,tillyouseehowdreadfullySocietycancold-shoulder。”
Gypmadeanefforttocontrolasmile。”Onecanonlybecold-shoulderedifoneputsoneselfinthewayofit。Ishouldneverwishtoseeorspeaktoanyonewhocouldn’ttakemejustforwhatIam。AndIdon’treallyseewhatdifferenceitwillmaketoBryan;mostmenofhisagehavesomeone,somewhere。”Shefeltmaliciouspleasurewatchinghervisitorjibandfrownatthecynicismofthatsoftspeech;akindofhatredhadcomeonherofthissocietywoman,who——disguiseitasshewould——
wasatheartherenemy,whoregardedher,mustregardher,asanenslaver,asadespoilerofherson’sworldlychances,aDelilahdragginghimdown。Shesaidstillmorequietly:”Heneedtellnooneofmyexistence;andyoucanbequitesurethatifeverhefeelshe’shadenoughofme,he’llneverbetroubledbythesightofmeagain。”
Andshegotup。LadySummerhayalsorose。”Ihopeyoudon’tthink——Ireallyamonlytooanxiousto——””Ithinkit’sbettertobequitefrank。Youwillneverlikeme,orforgivemeforensnaringBryan。Andsoithadbetterbe,please,asitwouldbeifIwerejusthiscommonmistress。Thatwillbeperfectlyallrightforbothofus。Itwasverygoodofyoutocome,though。Thankyou——andgood-bye。”
LadySummerhayliterallyfalteredwithspeechandhand。
Withamalicioussmile,Gypwatchedherretirementamongthelittletablesandelaboratelymodernchairstillhertallfigurehaddisappearedbehindacolumn。Thenshesatdownagainonthelounge,pressingherhandstoherburningears。Shehadnevertillthenknownthestrengthofthepride-demonwithinher;atthemoment,itwasalmoststrongerthanherlove。Shewasstillsittingthere,whenthepage-boybroughtheranothercard——herfather’s。Shesprangupsaying:”Yes,here,please。”
Wintoncameinallbriskandelatedatsightofherafterthislongabsence;and,throwingherarmsroundhisneck,shehuggedhimtight。Hewasdoublyprecioustoheraftertheencountershehadjustgonethough。WhenhehadgivenhernewsofMildenhamandlittleGyp,helookedathersteadily,andsaid:”Thecoast’llbeclearforyoubothdownthere,andatBuryStreet,wheneveryouliketocome,Gyp。Ishallregardthisasyourrealmarriage。Ishallhavetheservantsinandmakethatplain。”
Arowlikefamilyprayers——andDadstandingupverystraight,sayinginhisdryway:”Youwillbesogoodinfutureastoremember——””Ishallbeobligedifyouwill,”andsoon;Betty’sroundfacepoutingatbeingbroughtinwithalltheothers;
Markey’ssoft,inscrutable;Mrs。Markey’sdemureandgoggling;themaids’rabbit-faces;oldPettance’scarvedgrinthefilmliftingfromhislittleburningeyes:”Ha!Mr。BrynSummer’ay;heboughtherorse,andsoshe’sgoneto’im!”Andshesaid:”Darling,Idon’tknow!It’sawfullysweetofyou。We’llseelater。”
Wintonpattedherhand。”Wemuststandupto’em,youknow,Gyp。
Youmustn’tgetyourtaildown。”
Gyplaughed。”No,Dad;never!”
Thatsamenight,acrossthestripofblacknessbetweentheirbeds,shesaid:”Bryan,promisemesomething!””Itdepends。Iknowyoutoowell。””No;it’squitereasonable,andpossible。Promise!””Allright;ifitis。””IwantyoutoletmetaketheleaseoftheRedHouse——letitbemine,thewholething——letmepayforeverythingthere。””Reasonable!What’sthepoint?””OnlythatIshallhaveaproperhomeofmyown。Ican’texplain,butyourmother’scomingto-daymademefeelImust。””Mychild,howcouldIpossiblyliveonYOUthere?It’sabsurd!””Youcanpayforeverythingelse;London——travelling——clothes,ifyoulike。Wecanmakeitsquareup。It’snotaquestionofmoney,ofcourse。Ionlywanttofeelthatif,atanymoment,youdon’tneedmeanymore,youcansimplystopcoming。””Ithinkthat’sbrutal,Gyp。””No,no;somanywomenlosemen’slovebecausetheyseemtoclaimthingsofthem。Idon’twanttoloseyoursthatway——that’sall。””That’ssilly,darling!””It’snot。Men——andwomen,too——alwaystugatchains。Andwhenthereisnochain——””Wellthen;letmetakethehouse,andyoucangoawaywhenyou’retiredofme。”Hisvoicesoundedsmothered,resentful;shecouldhearhimturningandturning,asifangrywithhispillows。Andshemurmured:”No;Ican’texplain。ButIreallymeanit。””We’rejustbeginninglifetogether,andyoutalkasifyouwanttosplititup。Ithurts,Gyp,andthat’sallaboutit。”
Shesaidgently:”Don’tbeangry,dear。””Well!Whydon’tyoutrustmemore?””Ido。OnlyImustmakeassureasIcan。”
Thesoundcameagainofhisturningandturning。”Ican’t!”
Gypsaidslowly:”Oh!Verywell!”
Adeadsilencefollowed,bothlyingquietinthedarkness,tryingtogetthebetterofeachotherbysheerlistening。Anhourperhapspassedbeforehesighed,and,feelinghislipsonhers,sheknewthatshehadwon。
III
There,inthestudy,themoonlighthadreachedherface;anowlwashootingnotfaraway,andstillmorememoriescame——thehappiestofall,perhaps——offirstdaysinthisoldhousetogether。
Summerhaydamagedhimselfouthuntingthatfirstwinter。Thememoryofnursinghimwasstrangelypleasant,nowthatitwastwoyearsold。ForconvalescencetheyhadgonetothePyrenees——
ArgelesinMarch,allalmond-blossomandsnowsagainsttheblue——awonderfulfortnight。InLondononthewaybacktheyhadtheirfirstawkwardencounter。Comingoutofatheatreoneevening,Gypheardawoman’svoice,closebehind,say:”Why,it’sBryan!Whatages!”Andhisanswerdefensivelydrawledout:”Halo!Howareyou,Diana?””Oh,awfullyfit。Whereareyou,nowadays?Whydon’tyoucomeandseeus?”
Againthedrawl:”Downinthecountry。Iwill,sometime。Good-bye。”
Atallwomanorgirl——red-haired,withoneofthosewonderfulwhiteskinsthatgotherewith;andbrown——yes,browneyes;Gypcouldseethoseeyessweepingherupanddownwithasortofburning-livecuriosity。Bryan’shandwasthrustunderherarmatonce。”Comeon,let’swalkandgetacab。”
Assoonastheywereclearofthecrowd,shepressedhishandtoherbreast,andsaid:”Didyoumind?””Mind?Ofcoursenot。It’sforyoutomind。””Whowasit?””Asecondcousin。DianaLeyton。””Doyouknowherverywell?””Ohyes——usedto。””Anddoyoulikeherverymuch?””Rather!”
Helookedroundintoherface,withlaughterbubblingupbehindhisgravity。Ah,butcouldoneteaseonsuchasubjectastheirlove?
Andtothisdaythefigureofthattallgirlwiththeburning-whiteskin,theburning-browneyes,theburning-redhairwasnotquiteapleasantmemorytoGyp。Afterthatnight,theygaveupallattempttohidetheirunion,goingtowhatevertheywished,whethertheywerelikelytomeetpeopleornot。GypfoundthatnothingwassoeasilyignoredasSocietywhentheheartwassetonotherthings。
Besides,theywereseldominLondon,andinthecountrydidnotwishtoknowanyone,inanycase。Butsheneverlostthefeelingthatwhatwasidealforhermightnotbeidealforhim。Heoughttogointotheworld,oughttomeetpeople。Itwouldnotdoforhimtobecutofffromsocialpleasuresandduties,andthensomedayfeelthatheowedhisstarvationtoher。TogouptoLondon,too,everydaywastiring,andshepersuadedhimtotakeasetofresidentialchambersintheTemple,andsleeptherethreenightsaweek。Inspiteofallhisentreaties,sheherselfneverwenttothosechambers,stayingalwaysatBuryStreetwhenshecameup。A
kindofsuperstitionpreventedher;shewouldnotriskmakinghimfeelthatshewashangingroundhisneck。Besides,shewantedtokeepherselfdesirable——solittleamatterofcoursethathewouldhankerafterherwhenhewasaway。Andsheneveraskedhimwherehewentorwhomhesaw。But,sometimes,shewonderedwhetherhecouldstillbequitefaithfultoherinthought,loveherasheusedto;andjoywouldgodownbehindaheavybankofclouds,till,athisreturn,thesuncameoutagain。Lovesuchashers——
passionate,adoring,protective,longingtosacrificeitself,togiveallthatithadtohim,yetsecretlydemandingallhisloveinreturn——forhowcouldaproudwomanloveonewhodidnotloveher?——
suchloveasthisisalwayslongingforaunionmorecompletethanitislikelytogetinaworldwhereallthingsmoveandchange。
Butagainstthegripofthislovesheneverdreamedoffightingnow。Fromthemomentwhensheknewshemustclingtohimratherthantoherbaby,shehadmadenoreservations;allhereggswereinonebasket,asherfather’shadbeenbeforeher——all!
Themoonlightwasshiningfullontheoldbureauandavaseoftulipsstandingthere,givingthoseflowerscolourthatwasnotcolour,andanunnamedlook,asiftheycamefromaworldwhichnohumanenters。ItglintedonabronzebustofoldVoltaire,whichshehadboughthimforaChristmaspresent,sothatthegreatwriterseemedtobesmilingfromthehollowsofhiseyes。Gypturnedthebustalittle,tocatchthelightonitsfarcheek;aletterwasdisclosedbetweenitandtheoak。Shedrewitoutthinking:’Blesshim!Heuseseverythingforpaper-weights’;and,inthestrangelight,itsfirstwordscaughthereyes:”DEARBRYAN,”ButIsay——youAREwastingyourself——”
Shelaiditdown,methodicallypushingitbackunderthebust。
Perhapshehadputitthereonpurpose!Shegotupandwenttothewindow,tocheckthetemptationtoreadtherestofthatletterandseefromwhomitwas。No!Shedidnotadmitthatshewastempted。
Onedidnotreadletters。Thenthefullimportofthosefewwordsstruckintoher:”DearBryan。ButIsay——youAREwastingyourself。”Aletterinachainofcorrespondence,then!Awoman’shand;butnothismother’s,norhissisters’——sheknewtheirwritings。Whohaddaredtosayhewaswastinghimself?Aletterinachainofletters!Anintimatecorrespondent,whosenameshedidnotknow,because——hehadnottoldher!Wastinghimself——onwhat?——onhislifewithherdownhere?Andwashe?Hadsheherselfnotsaidthatverynightthathehadlosthislaugh?Shebegansearchinghermemory。Yes,lastChristmasvacation——thatclear,cold,wonderfulfortnightinFlorence,hehadbeenfulloffun。ItwasMaynow。Wastherenomemorysince——ofhisoldinfectiousgaiety?Shecouldnotthinkofany。”ButIsay——youAREwastingyourself。”Asuddenhatredflaredupinheragainsttheunknownwomanwhohadsaidthatthing——andfever,runningthroughherveins,madeherearsburn。Shelongedtosnatchforthandteartopiecestheletter,withitsguardianshipofwhichthatbustseemedmockingher;andsheturnedawaywiththethought:
’I’llgoandmeethim;Ican’twaithere。’
Throwingonacloakshewalkedoutintothemoonlitgarden,andwentslowlydownthewhitenedroadtowardthestation。Amagical,dewlessnight!Themoonbeamshadstolenintothebeechclump,frostingthebolesandboughs,castingafineghostlygreyovertheshadow-patternedbeech-mast。Gyptooktheshortcutthroughit。
Notaleafmovedinthere,nolivingthingstirred;somightanearthbewhereonlytreesinhabited!Shethought:’I’llbringhimbackthroughhere。’Andshewaitedatthefarcorneroftheclump,wherehemustpass,somelittledistancefromthestation。Shenevergavepeopleunnecessaryfoodforgossip——anyslightingofherirritatedhim,shewascarefultosparehimthat。Thetraincamein;acarwentwhizzingby,acyclist,thenthefirstfoot-
passenger,atagreatpace,breakingintoarun。Shesawthatitwashe,and,callingouthisname,ranbackintotheshadowofthetrees。Hestoppeddeadinhistracks,thencamerushingafterher。
Thatpursuitdidnotlastlong,and,inhisarms,Gypsaid:”Ifyouaren’ttoohungry,darling,let’sstayherealittle——it’ssowonderful!”
Theysatdownonagreatroot,andleaningagainsthim,lookingupatthedarkbranches,shesaid:”Haveyouhadahardday?””Yes;gothungupbyalateconsultation;andoldLeytonaskedmetocomeanddine。”
Gypfeltasensationaswhenfeethappenongroundthatgivesalittle。”TheLeytons——that’sEatonSquare,isn’tit?Abigdinner?””No。Onlytheoldpeople,andBertieandDiana。””Diana?That’sthegirlwemetcomingoutofthetheatre,isn’tit?””When?Oh——ah——whatamemory,Gyp!””Yes;it’sgoodforthingsthatinterestme。””Why?Didsheinterestyou?”
Gypturnedandlookedintohisface。”Yes。Issheclever?””H’m!Isupposeyoumightcallherso。””Andinlovewithyou?””GreatScott!Why?””Isitveryunlikely?Iam。”
Hebegankissingherlipsandhair。And,closinghereyes,Gypthought:’Ifonlythat’snotbecausehedoesn’twanttoanswer!’
Then,forsomeminutes,theyweresilentasthemoonlitbeechclump。”Answermetruly,Bryan。Doyounever——never——feelasifyouwerewastingyourselfonme?”
Shewascertainofaquiverinhisgrasp;buthisfacewasopenandserene,hisvoiceasusualwhenhewasteasing。”Well,hardlyever!Aren’tyoufunny,dear?””Promisemefaithfullytoletmeknowwhenyou’vehadenoughofme。
Promise!””Allright!Butdon’tlookforfulfilmentinthislife。””I’mnotsosure。””Iam。”
Gypputupherlips,andtriedtodrownforeverinakissthememoryofthosewords:”ButIsay——youAREwastingyourself。”
IV
Summerhay,comingdownnextmorning,wentstraighttohisbureau;
hismindwasnotatease。”Wastingyourself!”WhathadhedonewiththatletterofDiana’s?HerememberedGyp’scominginjustashefinishedreadingit。Searchingthepigeonholesanddrawers,movingeverythingthatlayabout,hetwitchedthebust——andtheletterlaydisclosed。Hetookitupwithasighofrelief:”DEARBRYAN,”ButIsay——youAREwastingyourself。Why,mydear,ofcourse!
’Ilfautsefairevaloir!’Youhaveonlyonefoottoputforward;
theotherisplantedinIdon’tknowwhatmysterioushole。Onefootinthegrave——atthirty!Really,Bryan!Pullitout。
There’ssuchalotwaitingforyou。It’snogoodyourbeinghoity-
toity,andtellingmetomindmybusiness。I’mspeakingforeveryonewhoknowsyou。Weallfeeltheblightontherose。
Besides,youalwaysweremyfavouritecousin,eversinceIwasfiveandyouahorridlittlebullyoften;andIsimplyhatetothinkofyougoingslowlydowninsteadofquicklyup。Oh!Iknow’D——ntheworld!’But——areyou?Ishouldhavethoughtitwas’d——ning’you!
Enough!Whenareyoucomingtoseeus?I’vereadthatbook。Themanseemstothinkloveisnothingbutpassion,andpassionalwaysfatal。Iwonder!Perhapsyouknow。”Don’tbeangrywithmeforbeingsuchagrandmother。”Aurevoir。”Yourverygoodcousin,”DIANALEYTON。”
Hecrammedtheletterintohispocket,andsatthere,appalled。Itmusthavelaintwodaysunderthatbust!HadGypseenit?Helookedatthebronzeface;andthephilosopherlookedbackfromthehollowsofhiseyes,asiftosay:”Whatdoyouknowofthehumanheart,myboy——yourown,yourmistress’s,thatgirl’s,oranyone’s?
Aprettydancetheheartwillleadyouyet!Putitinapacket,tieitroundwithstring,sealitup,dropitinadrawer,lockthedrawer!Andto-morrowitwillbeoutandskippingonitswrappings。Ho!Ho!”AndSummerhaythought:’Youoldgoat。Youneverhadone!’Intheroomabove,Gypwouldstillbestandingashehadlefther,puttingthelasttouchtoherhair——amanwouldbeascoundrelwho,eveninthought,could——”Hallo!”theeyesofthebustseemedtosay。”Pity!That’squeer,isn’tit?Whynotpitythatred-hairedgirl,withtheskinsowhitethatitburnsyou,andtheeyessobrownthattheyburnyou——don’tthey?”OldSatan!Gyphadhisheart;nooneintheworldwouldevertakeitfromher!
Andinthechairwhereshehadsatlastnightconjuringupmemories,hetoonowconjured。Howhehadlovedher,didloveher!
Shewouldalwaysbewhatshewasandhadbeentohim。Andthesage’smouthseemedtotwistbeforehimwiththewords:”Quiteso,mydear!Buttheheart’sveryfunny——very——capacious!”Atinysoundmadehimturn。
LittleGypwasstandinginthedoorway。”Hallo!”hesaid。”Hallo,Baryn!”Shecameflyingtohim,andhecaughtherupsothatshestoodonhiskneeswiththesunlightshiningonherfluffedouthair。”Well,Gipsy!Who’sgettingatallgirl?””I’mgoin’toride。””Ho,ho!””Baryn,let’sdoHumpty-Dumpty!””Allright;comeon!”Heroseandcarriedherupstairs。
Gypwasstilldoingoneofthosehundredthingswhichoccupywomenforaquarterofanhouraftertheyare”quiteready,”andatlittleGyp’sshoutof,”Humpty!”shesuspendedherneedletowatchthesacredrite。
Summerhayhadseatedhimselfonthefoot-railofthebed,roundinghisarms,sinkinghisneck,blowingouthischeekstosimulateanegg;then,withanunexpectednessthatevenlittleGypcouldalwaysseethrough,herolledbackwardontothebed。
Andshe,simulating”alltheking’shorses,”triedinvaintoputhimupagain。Thisimmemorialgame,watchedbyGypahundredtimes,hadto-dayaspecialpreciousness。Ifhecouldbesoridiculouslyyoung,whatbecameofherdoubts?Lookingathisfacepulledthiswayandthat,lazilyimperturbableunderthepommelingsofthosesmallfingers,shethought:’AndthatgirldaredtosayhewasWASTINGHIMSELF!’Forinthenightconvictionhadcometoherthatthosewordswerewrittenbythetallgirlwiththewhiteskin,thegirlofthetheatre——theDianaofhislastnight’sdinner。
Humpty-Dumptywasuponthebed-railagainforthefinale;alltheking’shorseswereclaspedtohim,makingtheeggmoreround,andovertheybothwentwithshrieksandgurgles。Whataboyhewas!
Shewouldnot——no,shewouldnotbroodandspoilherdaywithhim。
Butthatafternoon,attheendofalonggalloponthedowns,sheturnedherheadawayandsaidsuddenly:”Issheahuntress?””Who?””Yourcousin——Diana。”
Inhislaziestvoice,heanswered:”Isupposeyoumean——doesshehuntme?”
Sheknewthattone,thatexpressiononhisface,knewhewasangry;
butcouldnotstopherself。”Idid。””Soyou’regoingtobecomejealous,Gyp?”
Itwasoneofthosecold,nakedsayingsthatshouldneverbespokenbetweenlovers——oneofthosesayingsatwhichtheheartoftheonewhospeakssinkswithakindofdismay,andtheheartoftheonewhohearsquivers。Shecanteredon。Andhe,perforce,afterher。
Whenshereinedinagain,heglancedintoherfaceandwasafraid。
Itwasallclosedupagainsthim。Andhesaidsoftly:”Ididn’tmeanthat,Gyp。”
Butsheonlyshookherhead。HeHADmeantit——hadwantedtohurther!Itdidn’tmatter——shewouldn’tgivehimthechanceagain。
Andshesaid:”Lookatthatlongwhitecloud,andtheapple-greeninthesky——
rainto-morrow。Oneoughttoenjoyanyfinedayasifitwerethelast。”
Uneasy,ashamed,yetstillalittleangry,Summerhayrodeonbesideher。
Thatnight,shecriedinhersleep;and,whenheawakenedher,clungtohimandsobbedout:”Oh!suchadreadfuldream!Ithoughtyou’dleftofflovingme!”
Foralongtimeheheldandsoothedher。Never,never!Hewouldneverleaveofflovingher!
Butacloudnobroaderthanyourhandcanspreadandcoverthewholeday。
V
Thesummerpassed,andalwaystherewasthatlittlepatchofsilenceinherheart,andinhis。Thetall,brightdaysgrewtaller,slowlypassedtheirzenith,slowlyshortened。OnSaturdaysandSundays,sometimeswithWintonandlittleGyp,butmoreoftenalone,theywentontheriver。ForGyp,ithadneverlostthemagicoftheirfirstafternoonuponit——neverlostitsglamourasofanenchantedworld。Alltheweekshelookedforwardtothesehoursofisolationwithhim,asifthesurroundingwatersecuredhernotonlyagainstaworldthatwouldtakehimfromher,ifitcould,butagainstthatsideofhisnature,which,solongagoshehadnamed”oldGeorgian。”Shehadonceadventuredtothelawcourtsbyherself,toseehiminhiswigandgown。Underthatstiffgreycrescentonhisbroadforehead,heseemedsohardandclever——soofaworldtowhichshenevercouldbelong,soofapiecewiththebrilliantbullyingofthewholeproceeding。Shehadcomeawayfeelingthatsheonlypossessedandknewonesideofhim。
Ontheriver,shehadthatsideutterly——herlovable,lazy,impudentlylovingboy,lyingwithhisheadinherlap,plunginginforaswim,splashingroundher;orwithhissleevesrolledup,hisneckbare,andasmileonhisface,plyinghisslowscullsdown-
stream,singing,”Away,myrollingriver,”orpuffinghomelikeademoninwantofhisdinner。Itwassuchablessingtoloseforafewhourseachweekthisgrowingconsciousnessthatshecouldneverhavethewholeofhim。Butallthetimethepatchofsilencegrew,fordoubtintheheartofoneloverreactsontheheartoftheother。
Whenthelongvacationcame,shemadeanheroicresolve。HemustgotoScotland,musthaveamonthawayfromher,agoodlongrest。
AndwhileBettywasattheseawithlittleGyp,shewouldtakeherfathertohiscure。Sheheldsoinflexiblytothisresolve,that,aftermanyprotests,hesaidwithashrug:”Verywell,Iwillthen——ifyou’resokeentogetridofme。””Keentogetrid!”Whenshecouldnotbeartobeawayfromhim!
Butsheforcedherfeelingback,andsaid,smiling:”Atlast!There’sagoodboy!”Anything!Ifonlyitwouldbringhimbacktoherexactlyashehadbeen。Sheaskednoquestionsastowhere,ortowhom,hewouldgo。
TunbridgeWells,thatcharmingpurgatorywheretheretiredpreparetheirsoulsforamorepermanentretirement,wasdreamingonitshillsinlongrowsofadequatevillas。Itscommonsandwoodshadremainedunscorched,sothattheretiredhadnottoanyextentdesertedit,thatAugust,forthesea。TheystillshoppedinthePantiles,strolledtheuplands,orflourishedtheirgolf-clubsinthegrassyparks;theystilldrankteaineachother’shousesandfrequentedthemanychurches。Onecouldseetheirfaces,asitwere,goldenedbytheircomingglory,likethechinsofchildrenbyreflectionfrombuttercups。Fromeverykindoflifetheyhadretired,and,waitingnowforamoreperfectday,weredoingtheirutmosttopostponeit。Theylivedverylong。
Gypandherfatherhadroomsinahotelwherehecouldbatheanddrinkthewaterswithouthavingtoclimbthreehills。Thiswasthefirstcureshehadattendedsincethelong-pasttimeatWiesbaden。
Wasitpossiblethatwasonlysixyearsago?Shefeltsoutterly,sostrangelydifferent!Thenlifehadbeensparklingsipsofeverydrink,andofnonetoomuch;nowitwasonelongstilldraft,toquenchathirstthatwouldnotbequenched。
Duringtheseweekssheheldherselfabsolutelyatherfather’sdisposal,butshelivedforthepost,andif,byanychance,shedidnotgetherdailyletter,herheartsanktothedepths。Shewroteeveryday,sometimestwice,thentoreupthatsecondletter,rememberingforwhatreasonshehadsetherselftoundergothisseparation。Duringthefirstweek,hislettershadacertainequanimity;inthesecondweektheybecameardent;inthethird,theywerefitful——nowbeginningtolookforward,nowmoodyanddejected;andtheywereshorter。DuringthisthirdweekAuntRosamundjoinedthem。ThegoodladyhadbecomeastaunchsupporterofGyp’snewexistence,which,inherview,servedFiorsenright。
Whyshouldthepoorchild’slifebeloveless?Shehadadefinitelylowopinionofmen,andalowerofthestateofthemarriage-laws;
inherview,anywomanwhostruckablowinthatdirectionwassomethingofaheroine。AndshewasobliviousofthefactthatGypwasquiteguiltlessofthedesiretostrikeablowagainstthemarriage-laws,oranythingelse。AuntRosamund’saristocraticandrebelliousbloodboiledwithhatredofwhatshecalledthe”stuffypeople”whostillheldthatwomenweremen’sproperty。Ithadmadeherspeciallycarefulnevertoputherselfinthatposition。
ShehadbroughtGypapieceofnews。”IwaswalkingdownBondStreetpastthattea-and-tartshop,mydear——youknow,wheretheyhavethosespecialcoffee-creams,andwhoshouldcomeoutofitbutMissDaphneWingandourfriendFiorsen;andprettyhangdoghelooked。Hecameuptome,withhislittleladywatchinghimlikealynx。Really,mydear,Iwasrathersorryforhim;he’dgotthathungrylookofhis;she’dbeendoingalltheeating,I’msure。Heaskedmehowyouwere。Itoldhim,’Verywell。’”’Whenyouseeher,’hesaid,’tellherIhaven’tforgottenher,andnevershall。Butshewasquiteright;thisisthesortofladythatI’mfitfor。’Andthewayhelookedatthatgirlmademefeelquiteuncomfortable。Thenhegavemeoneofhislittlebows;andofftheywent,sheaspleasedasPunch。Ireallywassorryforhim。”
Gypsaidquietly:”Ah!youneedn’thavebeen,Auntie;he’llalwaysbeabletobesorryforhimself。”
Alittleshockedatherniece’scynicism,AuntRosamundwassilent。
ThepoorladyhadnotlivedwithFiorsen!
Thatsameafternoon,Gypwassittinginashelteronthecommon,abookonherknee——thinkingheronelongthought:’To-dayisThursday——Mondayweek!Elevendays——still!’——whenthreefigurescameslowlytowardher,aman,awoman,andwhatshouldhavebeenadog。Englishloveofbeautyandtherightsofmanhadforceditsnoseback,depriveditofhalfitsears,andallbutthreeinchesorsooftail。Ithadasthma——andwaddledindisillusionment。A
voicesaid:”This’lldo,Maria。Wecantakethesun’ere。”
Butforthatvoice,withthepermanentcoldhoarsenesscaughtbesideinnumerablegraves,GypmightnothaverecognizedMr。Wagge,forhehadtakenoffhisbeard,leavingnothingbutside-whiskers,andMrs。Waggehadfilledoutwonderfully。Theyweresometimesettlingdownbesideher。”Yousithere,Maria;youwon’tgetthesuninyoureyes。””No,Robert;I’llsithere。Yousitthere。””No,YOUsitthere。””No,Iwill。Come,Duckie!”
Butthedog,standingstockilyonthepathwaywasgazingatGyp,whilewhatwasleftofitsbroadnosemovedfromsidetoside。Mr。
Waggefollowedthedirectionofitsglance。”Oh!”hesaid,”oh,thisisasurprise!”Andfumblingathisstrawhat,hepassedhisotherhandoverhissleeveandhelditouttoGyp。Itfeltalmostdry,andfatterthanithadbeen。Whileshewasshakingit,thedogmovedforwardandsatdownonherfeet。
Mrs。Waggealsoextendedherhand,cladinashinyglove。”Thisisa——a——pleasure,”shemurmured。”WhoWOULDhavethoughtofmeetingyou!Oh,don’tletDuckiesitagainstyourprettyfrock!
Come,Duckie!”
ButDuckiedidnotmove,restinghisbackagainstGyp’sshin-bones。
Mr。Wagge,whosetonguehadbeenpassingoveramouthwhichshesawtoitsfulladvantageforthefirsttime,saidabruptly:”You’aven’tcometolivehere,’aveyou?””Ohno!I’monlywithmyfatherforthebaths。””Ah,Ithoughtnot,neverhavin’seenyou。We’vebeenretiredhereourselvesamatteroftwelvemonths。Aprettyspot。””Yes;lovely,isn’tit?””Wewantednature。Theairsuitsus,thoughabit——er——tooirony,asyoumightsay。Butit’salong-livedplace。Wewerequiteatimelookin’round。”
Mrs。Waggeaddedinherthinvoice:”Yes——we’dthoughtofWimbledon,yousee,butMr。Waggelikedthisbetter;hecangethiswalk,here;andit’smore——select,perhaps。
Wehaveseveralfriends。Thechurchisverynice。”
Mr。Wagge’sfaceassumedanuncertainexpression。Hesaidbluffly:”Iwasalwaysachapelman;but——Idon’tknowhowitis——there’ssomethinginaplacelikethisthatmakeschurchseemmore——moresuitable;mywifealwayshadaleaningthatway。Ineverconcealmyactions。”
Gypmurmured:”It’saquestionofatmosphere,isn’tit?”
Mr。Waggeshookhishead。”No;Idon’tholdwithincense——we’renot’IghChurch。ButhowareYOU,ma’am?Weoftenspeakofyou。You’relookingwell。”
Hisfacehadbecomeaduskyorange,andMrs。Wagge’sthecolourofadoubtfulbeetroot。ThedogonGyp’sfeetstirred,snuffled,turnedround,andfellheavilyagainstherlegsagain。Shesaidquietly:”IwashearingofDaisyonlyto-day。She’squiteastarnow,isn’tshe?”
Mrs。Waggesighed。Mr。Waggelookedawayandanswered:”It’sasoresubject。Theresheis,makingherfortyandfiftypoundaweek,andrunafterinallthepapers。She’sasuccess——nodoubtaboutit。Andsheworks。Savingamatteroffifteen’undredayear,Ishouldn’tbesurprised。Why,atmybest,theyearstheinfluenzawassobad,Ineverclearedathousandnet。No,she’sasuccess。”
Mrs。Waggeadded:”Haveyouseenherlastphotograph——theonewhereshe’sstandingbetweentwohydrangea-tubs?Itwasherownidea。”
Mr。Waggemumbledsuddenly:”I’malwaysgladtoseeherwhenshetakesarundowninacar。
ButI’vecomehereforquietafterthelifeI’veled,andIdon’twanttothinkaboutit,especiallybeforeyou,ma’am。Idon’t——
that’safact。”
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