Shedisappeared。Fiorsencouldhearawoman’sacidvoice,aman’s,ratherhoarseandgreasy,thesoundofasmackingkiss。And,withaviciousshrug,hestoodatbay。Trapped!Thelittledevil!Thelittledovelikedevil!Hesawaladyinasilkdress,greenshotwithbeetrootcolour,ashort,thickgentlemanwitharound,greyishbeard,inagreysuit,havingasmalldahliainhisbuttonhole,and,behindthem,DaphneWing,flushed,andveryround-
eyed。Hetookastep,intendingtoescapewithoutmoreado。Thegentlemansaid:”Introduceus,Daisy。Ididn’tquitecatch——Mr。Dawson?Howdoyoudo,sir?Oneofmydaughter’simpresarios,Ithink。’Appytomeetyou,I’msure。”
Fiorsentookalongbreath,andbowed。Mr。Wagge’ssmallpiggyeyeshadfixedthemselvesonthelittletrees。”She’sgotanicelittleplacehereforherwork——quietandunconventional。Ihopeyouthinkwellofhertalent,sir?Youmightgofurtherandfareworse,Ibelieve。”
AgainFiorsenbowed。”Youmaybeproudofher,”hesaid;”sheistherisingstar。”
Mr。Waggeclearedhisthroat。”Ow,”hesaid;”ye’es!Fromalittlething,wethoughtshehadstuffinher。I’vecometotakeagreatinterestinherwork。
It’snotinmyline,butIthinkshe’sasticker;Iliketoseeperseverance。Whereyou’vegotthat,you’vegothalfthebattleofsuccess。Somanyoftheseyoungpeopleseemtothinklife’sallplay。Youmustseealotofthatinyourprofession,sir。””Robert!”
AshiverrandownFiorsen’sspine。”Ye-es?””ThenamewasnotDAWson!”
Therefollowedalongmoment。Ontheonesidewasthatvinegarywomanpokingherheadforwardlikeanangryhen,ontheother,DaphneWing,hereyesrounderandrounder,hercheeksredderandredder,herlipsopening,herhandsclaspedtoherperfectbreast,and,inthecentre,thatbroad,grey-beardedfigure,withreddeningfaceandangryeyesandhoarseningvoice:”Youscoundrel!Youinfernalscoundrel!”Itlurchedforward,raisingapudgyfist。Fiorsensprangdownthestairsandwrenchedopenthedoor。Hewalkedawayinawhirlofmortification。Shouldhegobackandtakethatpug-facedvulgarianbythethroat?Asforthatminx!ButhisfeelingsaboutHERweretoocomplicatedforexpression。Andthen——sodarkandrandomarethewaysofthemind——
histhoughtsdartedbacktoGyp,sittingontheoakenchest,makingherconfession;andthewhipsandstingsofitscoredhimworsethanever。
X
Thatsameevening,standingatthecornerofBuryStreet,SummerhaywatchedGypgoingswiftlytoherfather’shouse。Hecouldnotbringhimselftomovewhiletherewasstillachancetocatchaglimpseofherface,asignfromherhand。Gone!Hewalkedawaywithhisheaddown。Themoreblissfulthehoursjustspent,thegreaterthedesolationwhentheyareover。Ofsuchisthenatureoflove,ashewasnowdiscerning。Thelongingtohaveheralwayswithhimwasgrowingfast。Sinceherhusbandknew——whywait?
Therewouldbenorestforeitheroftheminanexistenceofmeetingsandpartingslikethis,withthemenaceofthatfellow。
Shemustcomeawaywithhimatonce——abroad——untilthingshaddeclaredthemselves;andthenhemustfindaplacewheretheycouldliveandshefeelsafeandhappy。Hemustshowhewasindeadearnest,sethisaffairsinorder。Andhethought:’Nogooddoingthingsbyhalves。Mothermustknow。Thesoonerthebetter。Getitover——atonce!’And,withagrimaceofdiscomfort,hesetoutforhisaunt’shouseinCadoganGardens,wherehismotheralwaysstayedwhenshewasintown。
LadySummerhaywasintheboudoir,waitingfordinnerandreadingabookondreams。Ared-shadedlampcastamellowtingeoverthegreyfrock,overonereddishcheekandonewhiteshoulder。Shewasastrikingperson,tallandwellbuilt,herveryblondehaironlyjustturninggrey,forshehadmarriedyoungandbeenawidowfifteenyears——oneofthosewomenwhosenaturallyfreespiritshavebeennettedbyassociationwithpeopleofpublicposition。Bubbleswerestillrisingfromhersubmergedsoul,butitwasobviousthatitwouldnotagainseteyesonthehorizon。Withviewsneithernarrownorilliberal,asviewsinsocietygo,shejudgedeverythingnowaspeopleofpublicpositionmust——discussion,ofcourse,butnoalterationinone’swayofliving。Speculationandideasdidnotaffectsocialusage。Thecountlessmovementsinwhichsheandherfriendswereinterestedfortheemancipationandbenefitofotherswere,infact,onlychannelsforlettingoffhersuperfluousgoodwill,conduit-pipes,forthedirectingspiritbredinher。Shethoughtandactedintermsofthepublicgood,regulatedbywhatpeopleofpositionsaidatluncheonanddinner。Anditwassurelynotherfaultthatsuchpeoplemustlunchanddine。Whenhersonhadbentandkissedher,sheheldupthebooktohimandsaid:”Well,Bryan,Ithinkthisman’sbookdisgraceful;hesimplyrunshissex-ideatodeath。Really,wearen’tallquitesoobsessedasthat。Idothinkheoughttobeputinhisownlunaticasylum。”
Summerhay,lookingdownathergloomily,answered:”I’vegotbadnewsforyou,Mother。”
LadySummerhayclosedthebookandsearchedhisfacewithapprehension。Sheknewthatexpression。Sheknewthatpoiseofhishead,asifbuttingatsomething。Helookedlikethatwhenhecametoheringamblingscrapes。Wasthisanother?Bryanhadalwaysbeenapickle。Hisnextwordstookherbreathaway。”ThepeopleatMildenham,MajorWintonandhisdaughter——youknow。
Well,I’minlovewithher——I’m——I’mherlover。”
LadySummerhayutteredagasp。”But——but——Bryan——””Thatfellowshemarrieddrinks。He’simpossible。Shehadtoleavehimayearago,withherbaby——otherreasons,too。Lookhere,Mother:Thisishateful,butyou’dgottoknow。Ican’ttalkofher。There’snochanceofadivorce。”Hisvoicegrewhigher。”Don’ttrytopersuademeoutofit。It’snogood。”
LadySummerhay,fromwhosecomelyfaceafrock,asitwere,hadslipped,claspedherhandstogetheronthebook。
Suchaswiftdescentof”life”ononetowhomithadforsolongbeenaseriesof”cases”wascruel,andhersonfeltthiswithoutquiterealizingwhy。Inthegripofhisnewemotions,hestillretainedenoughbalancetoappreciatewhatanabominablydesolatepieceofnewsthismustbetoher,whatadisturbanceanddisappointment。And,takingherhand,heputittohislips。”Cheerup,Mother!It’sallright。She’shappy,andsoamI。”
LadySummerhaycouldonlypressherhandagainsthiskiss,andmurmur:”Yes;that’snoteverything,Bryan。Isthere——istheregoingtobeascandal?””Idon’tknow。Ihopenot;but,anyway,HEknowsaboutit。””Societydoesn’tforgive。”
Summerhayshruggedhisshoulders。”AwfullysorryforYOU,Mother。””Oh,Bryan!”
Thisrepetitionofherplaintjarredhisnerves。”Don’trunaheadofthings。Youneedn’ttellEdithorFlo。Youneedn’ttellanybody。Wedon’tknowwhat’llhappenyet。”
ButinLadySummerhayallwastoosoreandblank。Thiswomanshehadneverseen,whoseoriginwasdoubtful,whosemarriagemusthavesoiledher,whowassomekindofasiren,nodoubt。Itreallywastoohard!Shebelievedinherson,haddreamedofpublicpositionforhim,or,rather,felthewouldattainitasamatterofcourse。
Andshesaidfeebly:”ThisMajorWintonisamanofbreeding,isn’the?””Rather!”And,stoppingbeforeher,asifhereadherthoughts,headded:”Youthinkshe’snotgoodenoughforme?She’sgoodenoughforanyoneonearth。Andshe’stheproudestwomanI’veevermet。
Ifyou’rebotheringastowhattodoabouther——don’t!Shewon’twantanythingofanybody——Icantellyouthat。Shewon’tacceptanycrumbs。””That’slucky!”hoveredonLadySummerhay’slips;but,gazingatherson,shebecameawarethatshestoodonthebrinkofadownfallinhisheart。Thenthebitternessofherdisappointmentrisingupagain,shesaidcoldly:”Areyougoingtolivetogetheropenly?””Yes;ifshewill。””Youdon’tknowyet?””Ishall——soon。”
LadySummerhaygotup,andthebookondreamsslippedoffherlapwithathump。Shewenttothefireplace,andstoodtherelookingatherson。Hehadaltered。Hismerrylookwasgone;hisfacewasstrangetoher。Sheremembereditlikethat,onceintheparkatWidrington,whenhelosthistemperwithaponyandcamegallopingpasther,sittingback,hiscurlyhairstivereduplikealittledemon’s。Andshesaidsadly:”Youcanhardlyexpectmetolikeitforyou,Bryan,evenifsheiswhatyousay。Andisn’ttheresomestoryabout——””Mydearmother,themorethereisagainsther,themoreIshallloveher——that’sobvious。”
LadySummerhaysighedagain。”Whatisthismangoingtodo?Iheardhimplayonce。””Idon’tknow。Nothing,Idaresay。Morallyandlegally,he’soutofcourt。IonlywishtoGodheWOULDbringacase,andIcouldmarryher;butGypsayshewon’t。”
LadySummerhaymurmured:”Gyp?Isthathername?”Andasuddenwish,almostalonging,notafriendlyone,toseethiswomanseizedher。”Willyoubringhertoseeme?I’maloneheretillWednesday。””I’llaskher,butIdon’tthinkshe’llcome。”Heturnedhisheadaway。”Mother,she’swonderful!”
AnunhappysmiletwistedLadySummerhay’slips。Nodoubt!
Aphroditeherselfhadvisitedherboy。Aphrodite!And——afterward?
Sheaskeddesolately:”DoesMajorWintonknow?””Yes。””Whatdoeshesaytoit?””Say?Whatcananyonesay?Fromyourpointofview,orhis,it’srotten,ofcourse。Butinherposition,anything’srotten。”
Atthatencouragingword,theflood-gatesgavewayinLadySummerhay,andshepouredforthastreamofwords。”Oh,mydear,can’tyoupullup?I’veseensomanyoftheseaffairsgowrong。Itreallyisnotfornothingthatlawandconventionsarewhattheyare——believeme!Really,Bryan,experiencedoesshowthatthepressure’stoogreat。It’sonlyonceinaway——veryexceptionalpeople,veryexceptionalcircumstances。
Youmayn’tthinknowit’llhamperyou,butyou’llfinditwill——
mostfearfully。It’snotasifyouwereawriteroranartist,whocantakehisworkwherehelikesandliveinadesertifhewants。
You’vegottodoyoursinLondon,yourwholecareerisboundupwithsociety。Dothink,beforeyougobuttingupagainstit!It’sallverywelltosayit’snoaffairofanyone’s,butyou’llfinditis,Bryan。Andthen,canyou——canyoupossiblymakeherhappyinthelong-run?”
Shestoppedattheexpressiononhisface。Itwasasifheweresaying:”Ihaveleftyourworld。Talktoyourfellows;allthisisnothingtome。””Lookhere,Mother:youdon’tseemtounderstand。I’mdevoted——
devotedsothatthere’snothingelseforme。””Howlongwillthatlast,Bryan?Youmeanbewitched。”
Summerhaysaid,withpassion:”Idon’t。ImeanwhatIsaid。Good-night!”Andhewenttothedoor。”Won’tyoustaytodinner,dear?”
Buthewasgone,andthefullofvexation,anxiety,andwretchednesscameonLadySummerhay。Itwastoohard!Shewentdowntoherlonelydinner,desolateandsore。Andtothebookondreams,openedbesideherplate,sheturnedeyesthattookinnothing。
Summerhaywentstraighthome。Thelampswerebrighteningintheearly-autumndusk,andadraughty,rufflingwindflickedayellowleafhereandtherefromofftheplanetrees。Itwasjustthemomentwheneveningbluecomesintothecolouringofthetown——thathouroffusionwhenday’shardandstaringshapesaresoftening,growingdark,mysterious,andallthatbroodsbehindthelivesofmenandtreesandhousescomesdownonthewingsofillusiontorepossesstheworld——thehourwhenanypoetryinamanwellsup。
ButSummerhaystillheardhismother’s,”Oh,Bryan!”and,forthefirsttime,knewthefeelingthathishandwasagainsteveryone’s。
Therewasadifferencealready,orsoitseemedtohim,intheexpressionofeachpasser-by。Nothinganymorewouldbeamatterofcourse;andhewasofaclasstowhomeverythinghasalwaysbeenamatterofcourse。Perhapshedidnotrealizethisclearlyyet;
buthehadbeguntotakewhatthenursescall”notice,”asdothoseonlywhoareforcedontothedefensiveagainstsociety。
Puttinghislatch-keyintothelock,herecalledthesensationwithwhich,thatafternoon,hehadopenedtoGypforthefirsttime——
halffurtive,halfdefiant。Itwouldbealldefiancenow。Thiswastheendoftheoldorder!And,lightingafireinhissitting-
room,hebeganpullingoutdrawers,sortinganddestroying。Heworkedforhours,burning,makinglists,packingpapersandphotographs。Finishingatlast,hedrankastiffwhiskyandsoda,andsatdowntosmoke。Nowthattheroomwasquiet,Gypseemedtofillitagainwithherpresence。Closinghiseyes,hecouldseehertherebythehearth,justasshestoodbeforetheyleft,turningherfaceuptohim,murmuring:”Youwon’tstoplovingme,nowyou’resosureIloveyou?”Stoplovingher!Themoreshelovedhim,themorehewouldloveher。Andhesaidaloud:”ByGod!
Iwon’t!”Atthatremark,sovehementforthetimeofnight,theoldScotchterrier,Ossian,camefromhiscornerandshovedhislongblacknoseintohismaster’shand。”Comealongup,Ossy!Gooddog,Oss!”And,comfortedbythewarmthofthatblackbodybesidehiminthechair,Summerhayfellasleepinfrontofthefiresmoulderingwithblackenedfragmentsofhispast。
XI
ThoughGyphadneverseemedtolookroundshehadbeenquiteconsciousofSummerhaystillstandingwheretheyhadparted,watchingherintothehouseinBuryStreet。Thestrengthofherownfeelingsurprisedher,asabatherintheseaissurprised,findingherfeetwillnottouchbottom,thatsheiscarriedawayhelpless——only,thesewerethewatersofecstasy。
Forthesecondnightrunning,shehardlyslept,hearingtheclocksofSt。James’sstrike,andBigBenboom,hourafterhour。Atbreakfast,shetoldherfatherofFiorsen’sreappearance。Hereceivedthenewswithafrownandashrewdglance。”Well,Gyp?””Itoldhim。”
Hisfeelings,atthatmoment,wereperhapsasmixedastheyhadeverbeen——curiosity,parentaldisapproval,towhichheknewhewasnotentitled,admirationofherpluckinlettingthatfellowknow,fearsfortheconsequencesofthisconfession,and,morethanall,hisprofounddisturbanceatknowingheratlastlaunchedintothedeepwatersoflove。Itwastheleastofthesefeelingsthatfoundexpression。”Howdidhetakeit?””Rushedaway。TheonlythingIfeelsureofisthathewon’tdivorceme。””No,byGeorge;Idon’tsupposeevenhewouldhavethatimpudence!”
AndWintonwassilent,tryingtopenetratethefuture。”Well,”hesaidsuddenly,”it’sonthekneesofthegodsthen。Butbecareful,Gyp。”
Aboutnoon,Bettyreturnedfromthesea,withasolemn,dark-eyed,cooinglittleGyp,brownasaroastedcoffee-berry。Whenshehadbeengivenallthatshecouldwiselyeatafterthejourney,Gypcarriedherofftoherownroom,undressedherforsheerdelightofkissingherfromheadtofoot,andadmiringherplumpbrownlegs,thencuddledherupinashawlandlaydownwithheronthebed。A
fewsleepycoosandstrokings,andlittleGyphadleftforthelandofNod,whilehermotherlaygazingatherblacklasheswithakindofpassion。Shewasnotachild-loverbynature;butthischildofherown,withherdarksoftness,plumpdelicacy,givingdisposition,hercooingvoice,andconstantadjurationsto”dearmum,”wasadorable。Therewassomethingaboutherinsidiouslyseductive。Shehaddevelopedsoquickly,withthegracefulroundnessofalittleanimal,theperfectionofaflower。TheItalianbloodofhergreat-great-grandmotherwasevidentlyprepotentinherasyet;and,thoughshewasnotyettwoyearsold,herhair,whichhadlostitsbabydarkness,wasalreadycurvingroundherneckandwavingonherforehead。Oneofhertinybrownhandshadescapedtheshawlandgraspeditsedgewithdeterminedsoftness。AndwhileGypgazedatthepinkishnailsandtheirabsurdlyweehalf-moons,atthesleepingtranquillitystirredbybreathingnomorethanarose-leafonawindlessday,herlipsgrewfuller,trembled,reachedtowardthedarklashes,tillshehadtoreinherneckbackwithajerktostopsuchself-indulgence。
Soothed,hypnotized,almostinadream,shelaytherebesideherbaby。
Thatevening,atdinner,Wintonsaidcalmly:”Well,I’vebeentoseeFiorsen,andwarnedhimoff。FoundhimatthatfellowRosek’s。”Gypreceivedthenewswithavaguesensationofalarm。”AndImetthatgirl,thedancer,comingoutofthehouseasIwasgoingin——madeitplainI’dseenher,soIdon’tthinkhe’lltroubleyou。”
Anirresistibleimpulsemadeherask:”Howwasshelooking,Dad?”
Wintonsmiledgrimly。Howtoconveyhisimpressionofthefigurehehadseencomingdownthesteps——ofthoseeyesgrowingrounderandrounderatsightofhim,ofthatmouthopeninginan:”Oh!””Muchthesame。Ratherflabbergastedatseeingme,Ithink。A
whitehat——verysmart。Attractiveinherway,butcommon,ofcourse。ThosetwowereplayingthepianoandfiddlewhenIwentup。Theytriednottoletmein,butIwasn’ttobeputoff。
Queerplace,that!”
Gypsmiled。Shecouldseeitallsowell。Theblackwalls,thesilverstatuettes,Ropsdrawings,scentofdeadrose-leavesandpastillesandcigarettes——andthosetwobythepiano——andherfathersocoolanddry!”Onecan’tstandonceremonywithfellowslikethat。Ihadn’tforgottenthatPolishchap’sbehaviourtoyou,mydear。”
ThroughGyppassedaquiverofdread,avaguereturnofthefeelingsonceinspiredbyRosek。”I’malmostsorryyouwent,Dad。Didyousayanythingvery——””DidI?Let’ssee!No;IthinkIwasquitepolite。”Headded,withagrim,littlesmile:”Iwon’tswearIdidn’tcalloneofthemaruffian。Iknowtheysaidsomethingaboutmypresumingonbeingacripple。””Oh,darling!””Yes;itwasthatPolishchap——andsoheis!”
Gypmurmured:”I’dalmostratherithadbeen——theother。”Rosek’spale,suaveface,withtheeyesbehindwhichthereweresuchhiddenthings,andthelipssweetishandrestrainedandsensual——hewouldneverforgive!ButWintononlysmiledagain,pattingherarm。Hewaspleasedwithanencounterwhichhadrelievedhisfeelings。
Gypspentallthateveningwritingherfirstreallove-letter。Butwhen,nextafternoonatsix,infulfilmentofitswording,shecametoSummerhay’slittlehouse,herheartsank;fortheblindsweredownandithadadesertedlook。Ifhehadbeenthere,hewouldhavebeenatthewindow,waiting。Hadhe,then,notgotherletter,notbeenhomesinceyesterday?Andthatchillfearwhichbesetslovers’heartsatfailureofatrystsmoteherforthefirsttime。Inthethree-corneredgardenstoodadecayedstatueofanakedboywithabrokenbow——asparrowwasperchingonhisgreenishshoulder;sooty,heart-shapedlilacleaveshungroundhishead,andathislegstheoldScotchterrierwassniffing。Gypcalled:”Ossian!Ossy!”andtheolddogcame,wagginghistailfeebly。”Master!Whereisyourmaster,dear?”
Ossianpokedhislongnoseintohercalf,andthatgaveheralittlecomfort。Shepassed,perforce,awayfromthedesertedhouseandreturnedhome;butallmanneroffrightenedthoughtsbesether。
Wherehadhegone?Whyhadhegone?Whyhadhenotletherknow?
Doubts——thosehastyattendantsonpassion——camethronging,andscepticismranriot。Whatdidsheknowofhislife,ofhisinterests,ofhim,exceptthathesaidhelovedher?Wherehadhegone?ToWidrington,tosomesmarthouse-party,orevenbacktoScotland?Thejealousfeelingsthathadsobesiegedheratthebungalowwhenhislettersceasedcameagainnowwithredoubledforce。Theremustbesomewomanwho,beforetheirlovebegan,hadclaimonhim,orsomegirlthatheadmired。Henevertoldherofanysuch——ofcourse,hewouldnot!Shewasamazedandhurtbyhercapacityforjealousy。Shehadalwaysthoughtshewouldbetooproudtofeeljealousy——asensationsodarkandwretchedandundignified,but——alas!——sohorriblyrealandclinging。
Shehadsaidshewasnotdiningathome;soWintonhadgonetohisclub,andshewasobligedtopartakeofalittletrumped-uplonelymeal。Shewentuptoherroomafterit,buttherecameonhersuchrestlessnessthatpresentlysheputonherthingsandslippedout。
ShewentpastSt。James’sChurchintoPiccadilly,tothefurther,crowdedside,andbegantowalktowardthepark。Thiswasfoolish;
buttodoafoolishthingwassomerelief,andshewentalongwithafaintsmile,mockingherownrecklessness。Severalwomenofthetown——shipsofnightwithsailsset——cameroundingoutofsidestreetsordownthemainstream,withtheirskilled,rapid-seemingslowness。Andatthediscomfited,half-hostilestaresontheirrougedandpowderedfaces,Gypfeltawickedglee。Shewasdisturbing,hurtingthem——andshewantedtohurt。
Presently,aman,ineveningdress,withovercoatthrownopen,gazedpointblankintoherface,and,raisinghishat,rangedupbesideher。Shewalkedstraighton,stillwiththathalf-smile,knowinghimpuzzledandfearfullyattracted。Thenaninsensatewishtostabhimtotheheartmadeherturnherheadandlookathim。Attheexpressiononherface,hewiltedawayfromher,andagainshefeltthatwickedgleeathavinghurthim。
Shecrossedoutintothetraffic,totheparkside,andturnedbacktowardSt。James’s;andnowshewaspossessedbyprofound,blacksadness。Ifonlyherloverwerebesideherthatbeautifulevening,amongthelightsandshadowsofthetrees,inthewarmair!Whywashenotamongthesepassers-by?Shewhocouldbringanycasualmantohersidebyasmilecouldnotconjureuptheonlyoneshewantedfromthisgreatdesertofatown!Shehurriedalong,togetinandhideherlonging。ButatthecornerofSt。James’sStreet,shestopped。Thatwashisclub,nearlyopposite。Perhapshewasthere,playingcardsorbilliards,afewyardsaway,andyetasinanotherworld。Presentlyhewouldcomeout,gotosomemusic-hall,orstrollhomethinkingofher——perhapsnoteventhinkingofher!
Anotherwomanpassed,givingherafurtiveglance。ButGypfeltnogleenow。And,crossingover,closeunderthewindowsoftheclub,shehurriedhome。Whenshereachedherroom,shebrokeintoastormoftears。Howcouldshehavelikedhurtingthosepoorwomen,hurtingthatman——whowasonlypayingheraman’scompliment,afterall?Andwiththesetears,herjealous,wildfeelingspassed,leavingonlyherlonging。
Nextmorningbroughtaletter。Summerhaywrotefromaninnontheriver,askinghertocomedownbytheeleveno’clocktrain,andhewouldmeetheratthestation。Hewantedtoshowherahousethathehadseen;andtheycouldhavetheafternoonontheriver!Gypreceivedthisletter,whichbegan:”Mydarling!”withanecstasythatshecouldnotquiteconceal。AndWinton,whohadwatchedherface,saidpresently:”IthinkIshallgotoNewmarket,Gyp。Hometo-morrowevening。”
Inthetrainonthewaydown,shesatwithclosedeyes,inasortoftrance。Ifherloverhadbeenthereholdingherinhisarms,hecouldnothaveseemednearer。
Shesawhimasthetrainranin;buttheymetwithoutahand-clasp,withoutaword,simplylookingateachotherandbreakingintosmiles。
Alittlevictoria”dugup”——asSummerhaysaid——”horse,driverandall,”carriedthemslowlyupward。Undercoverofthelightrugstheirhandswereclasped,andtheyneverceasedtolookintoeachother’sfaces,exceptforthoseformalglancesofproprietywhichdeceivenoone。
Thedaywasbeautiful,asonlyearlySeptemberdayscanbe——whenthesunishot,yetnottoohot,anditslightfallsinasilkenradianceontreesjustlosingtheopulentmonotonyofsummer,onsilvery-goldreapedfields,silvery-greenuplands,goldenmustard;
whenshotsringoutinthedistance,and,asonegazes,aleaffalls,withoutreason,asitwouldseem。Presentlytheybranchedoffthemainroadbyalanepastaclumpofbeechesanddrewupatthegateofalonelyhouse,builtofveryoldredbrick,andcoveredbyVirginiacreeperjustturning——ahousewithaningle-
nookandlow,broadchimneys。Beforeitwasawalled,neglectedlawn,withpoplarsandonelargewalnut-tree。Thesunlightseemedtohavecollectedinthatgarden,andtherewasatremendoushumofbees。Abovethetrees,thedownscouldbeseenwhereracehorses,theysaid,weretrained。Summerhayhadthekeysofthehouse,andtheywentin。ToGyp,itwaslikeachild’s”pretending”——toimaginetheyweregoingtolivetheretogether,tosortouttheroomsandconsecrateeach。Shewouldnotspoilthisperfectdaybyargumentoradmissionoftheneedforadecision。Andwhenheasked:”Well,darling,whatdoyouthinkofit?”sheonlyanswered:”Oh,lovely,inaway;butlet’sgobacktotheriverandmakethemostofit。”
Theytookboatat’TheBowlofCream,’theriverinnwhereSummerhaywasstaying。Tohim,whohadbeenarowingmanatOxford,theriverwasknownfromLechladetoRichmond;butGyphadneverinherlifebeenonit,anditsplacidmagic,unlikethatofanyotherriverintheworld,almostoverwhelmedher。Onthisglistening,windlessday,todriftalongpastthebright,flatwater-lilyleavesoverthegreenishdepths,tolistentothepigeons,watchthedragon-fliesflittingpast,andthefishleapinglazily,notevensteering,lettingherhanddabbleinthewater,thencoolinghersun-warmedcheekwithit,andallthetimegazingatSummerhay,who,dippinghisscullsgently,gazedather——allthiswaslikeavoyagedownsomeriverofdreams,theveryfulfilmentoffelicity。Thereisadegreeofhappinessknowntothehumanheartwhichseemstobelongtosomeenchantedworld——abrightmazeintowhich,foramomentnowandthen,weescapeandwander。To-day,hewasmorethaneverlikeherBotticelli”YoungMan,”withhisneckbare,andhisfacesoclear-eyedandbroadandbrown。Hadshereallyhadalifewithanotherman?Andonlyayearago?Itseemedinconceivable!
Butwhen,inthelastbackwater,hetiedtheboatupandcametositwithheroncemore,itwasalreadygettinglate,andthevaguemelancholyofthenowshadowyriverwasstealingintoher。And,withasortofsinkinginherheart,sheheardhimbegin:”Gyp,weMUSTgoawaytogether。Wecanneverstanditgoingonapart,snatchinghourshereandthere。”
Pressinghishandtohercheeks,shemurmured:”Whynot,darling?Hasn’tthisbeenperfect?Whatcouldweeverhavemoreperfect?It’sbeenparadiseitself!””Yes;buttobethrownouteveryday!Tobewholedaysandnightswithoutyou!Gyp,youmust——youmust!Whatisthereagainstit?
Don’tyoulovemeenough?”
Shelookedathim,andthenawayintotheshadows。”Toomuch,Ithink。It’stemptingProvidencetochange。Let’sgoonasweare,Bryan。No;don’tlooklikethat——don’tbeangry!””Whyareyouafraid?Areyousorryforourlove?””No;butletitbelikethis。Don’tlet’sriskanything。””Risk?Isitpeople——society——you’reafraidof?IthoughtYOU
wouldn’tcare。”
Gypsmiled。”Society?No;I’mnotafraidofthat。””What,then?Ofme?””Idon’tknow。Mensoongettired。I’madoubter,Bryan,Ican’thelpit。””Asifanyonecouldgettiredofyou!Areyouafraidofyourself?”
AgainGypsmiled。”Notoflovingtoolittle,Itoldyou。””Howcanonelovetoomuch?”
Shedrewhisheaddowntoher。Butwhenthatkisswasover,sheonlysaidagain:”No,Bryan;let’sgoonasweare。I’llmakeuptoyouwhenI’mwithyou。Ifyouweretotireofme,Icouldn’tbearit。”
Foralongtimemorehepleaded——nowwithanger,nowwithkisses,nowwithreasonings;but,toall,sheopposedthatsametender,half-mournful”No,”and,atlast,hegaveitup,and,indoggedsilence,rowedhertothevillage,whenceshewastotaketrainback。Itwasduskwhentheylefttheboat,anddewwasfalling。
Justbeforetheyreachedthestation,shecaughthishandandpressedittoherbreast。”Darling,don’tbeangrywithme!PerhapsIwill——someday。”
And,inthetrain,shetriedtothinkherselfoncemoreintheboat,amongtheshadowsandthewhisperingreedsandallthequietwonderoftheriver。
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Onreachinghomesheletherselfinstealthily,and,thoughshehadnothaddinner,wentupatoncetoherroom。ShewasjusttakingoffherblousewhenBettyentered,herroundfacesplotchedwithred,andtearsrollingdownhercheeks。”Betty!Whatisit?””Oh,mydear,whereHAVEyoubeen?Suchadreadfulpieceofnews!
They’vestolenher!Thatwickedman——yourhusband——hetookherrightoutofherpram——andwentoffwithherinagreatcar——heandthatotherone!I’vebeenhalfoutofmymind!”Gypstaredaghast。”Iholleredtoapoliceman。’He’sstolenher——herfather!
Catchthem!’Isaid。’HowevershallIfacemymistress?’”Shestoppedforbreath,thenburstoutagain。”’He’sabadone,’I
said。’Aforeigner!They’rebothforeigners!’’Herfather?’hesaid。’Well,whyshouldn’the?He’sonlygivin’herajoyride。
He’llbringherback,neveryoufear。’AndIranhome——Ididn’tknowwhereyouwere。Ohdear!Themajorawayandall——whatwasI
todo?I’djustturnedroundtoshutthegateofthesquaregardens,andIneversawhimtillhe’dputhisgreatlongarmoverthepramandsnatchedherout。”And,sittingonthebed,shegavewayutterly。
Gypstoodstill。Nemesisforherhappiness?Thatvengefulwretch,Rosek!Thiswashisdoing。Andshesaid:”Oh,Betty,shemustbecrying!”
Afreshoutburstofmoanswastheonlyanswer。Gyprememberedsuddenlywhatthelawyerhadsaidoverayearago——ithadstruckherwithterroratthetime。Inlaw,Fiorsenownedandcouldclaimherchild。Shecouldhavegotherback,then,bybringingahorriblecaseagainsthim,butnow,perhaps,shehadnochance。
WasitherreturntoFiorsenthattheyaimedat——orthegivingupofherlover?Shewentovertohermirror,saying:”We’llgoatonce,Betty,andgetherbacksomehow。Washyourface。”
Whileshemadeready,shefoughtdownthosetwohorriblefears——oflosingherchild,oflosingherlover;thelessshefeared,thebettershecouldact,themoresubtly,theswifter。Sherememberedthatshehadsomewherealittlestiletto,givenheralongtimeago。Shehunteditout,slippedoffitsred-leathersheath,and,stabbingthepointintoatinycork,slippeditbeneathherblouse。
Iftheycouldstealherbaby,theywerecapableofanything。Shewroteanotetoherfather,tellinghimwhathadhappened,andsayingwhereshehadgone。Then,inataxi,theysetforth。ColdwaterandthecalmnessofhermistresshadremovedfromBettythemaintracesofemotion;butsheclaspedGyp’shandhardandgaveventtoheavysighs。
Gypwouldnotthink。Ifshethoughtofherlittleonecrying,sheknewshewouldcry,too。Butherhatredforthosewhohaddealtthiscowardlyblowgrewwithinher。Shetookaresolutionandsaidquietly:”Mr。Summerhay,Betty。That’swhythey’vestolenourdarling。I
supposeyouknowheandIcareforeachother。They’vestolenhersoastomakemedoanythingtheylike。”
Aprofoundsighansweredher。
Behindthatmoon-facewiththetroubledeyes,whatconflictwasinprogress——betweenunquestioningmoralityandunquestioningbeliefinGyp,betweenfearsforherandwishesforherhappiness,betweentheloyalretainer’shabitofacceptingandtheoldnurse’sfeelingofbeingincharge?Shesaidfaintly:”Ohdear!He’sanicegentleman,too!”Andsuddenly,wheezingitoutwithunexpectedforce:”Tosaytruth,Ineverdidholdyouwasrightlymarriedtothatforeignerinthathorribleregistryplace——
nomusic,noflowers,noblessin’asked,nornothing。Icriedmeeyesoutatthetime。”
Gypsaidquietly:”No;Betty,Ineverwas。IonlythoughtIwasinlove。”A
convulsivesqueezeandcreaking,whifflingsoundsheraldedafreshoutburst。”Don’tcry;we’rejustthere。Thinkofourdarling!”
Thecabstopped。Feelingforherlittleweapon,shegotout,andwithherhandslippedfirmlyunderBetty’sarm,ledthewayupstairs。Chillyshuddersrandownherspine——memoriesofDaphneWingandRosek,ofthatlargewoman——whatwashername?——ofmanyotherfaces,ofunholyhoursspentupthere,inaqueerstate,neverquitepresent,nevercomfortableinsoul;memoriesoflatereturningsdownthesewidestairsouttotheircab,ofFiorsenbesideherinthedarkness,hisdim,broad-cheekbonedfacemoodyinthecornerorpressedclosetohers。Oncetheyhadwalkedalongwayhomewardinthedawn,Rosekwiththem,Fiorsenplayingonhismutedviolin,tothescandalofthepolicemenandthecats。Dim,unrealmemories!GraspingBetty’sarmmorefirmly,sherangthebell。Whenthemanservant,whomsherememberedwell,openedthedoor,herlipsweresodrythattheycouldhardlyformthewords:”IsMr。Fiorsenin,Ford?””No,ma’am;Mr。FiorsenandCountRosekwentintothecountrythisafternoon。Ihaven’ttheiraddressatpresent。”Shemusthaveturnedwhite,forshecouldhearthemansaying:”AnythingIcangetyou,ma’am?””Whendidtheystart,please?””Oneo’clock,ma’am——bycar。CountRosekwasdrivinghimself。I
shouldsaytheywon’tbeawaylong——theyjusthadtheirbagswiththem。”Gypputoutherhandhelplessly;sheheardtheservantsayinaconcernedvoice:”Icouldletyouknowthemomenttheyreturn,ma’am,ifyou’dkindlyleavemeyouraddress。”
Givinghercard,andmurmuring:”Thankyou,Ford;thankyouverymuch,”shegraspedBetty’sarmagainandleanedheavilyonhergoingdownthestairs。
Itwasreal,blackfearnow。Tolosehelplessthings——children——
dogs——andknowforcertainthatonecannotgettothem,nomatterwhattheymaybesuffering!Tobepinneddowntoignoranceandhaveinherearsthecryingofherchild——thishorror,Gypsufferednow。Andnothingtobedone!Nothingbuttogotobedandwait——
hardestofalltasks!Mercifully——thankstoherlongdayintheopen——shefellatlastintoadreamlesssleep,andwhenshewascalled,therewasaletterfromFiorsenonthetraywithhertea。”Gyp:”Iamnotababy-stealerlikeyourfather。Thelawgivesmetherighttomyownchild。Butsweartogiveupyourlover,andthebabyshallcomebacktoyouatonce。Ifyoudonotgivehimup,I
willtakeherawayoutofEngland。Sendmeananswertothispost-
office,anddonotletyourfathertryanytricksuponme。”GUSTAVFIORSEN。”
BeneathwaswrittentheaddressofaWestEndpost-office。
WhenGyphadfinishedreading,shewentthroughsomemomentsofsuchmentalanguishasshehadneverknown,but——justaswhenBettyfirsttoldherofthestealing——herwitsandwarinesscamequicklyback。Hadhebeendrinkingwhenhewrotethatletter?Shecouldalmostfancythatshesmelledbrandy,butitwassoeasytofancywhatonewantedto。Shereaditthroughagain——thistime,shefeltalmostsurethatithadbeendictatedtohim。Ifhehadcomposedthewordinghimself,hewouldneverhaveresistedagibeatthelaw,oragibeathimselfforthussafeguardinghervirtue。ItwasRosek’sdoing。Herangerflamedupanew。Sincetheyusedsuchmean,cruelways,whyneedsheherselfbescrupulous?Shesprangoutofbedandwrote:”HowCOULDyoudosuchabrutalthing?Atallevents,letthedarlinghavehernurse。It’snotlikeyoutoletalittlechildsuffer。Bettywillbereadytocometheminuteyousendforher。
Asformyself,youmustgivemetimetodecide。Iwillletyouknowwithintwodays。”GYP。”
Whenshehadsentthisoff,andatelegramtoherfatheratNewmarket,shereadFiorsen’sletteroncemore,andwasmorethanevercertainthatitwasRosek’swording。And,suddenly,shethoughtofDaphneWing,whomherfatherhadseencomingoutofRosek’shouse。Throughhertheremightbeawayofgettingnews。
Sheseemedtoseeagainthegirllyingsowhiteandvoidofhopewhenrobbedbydeathofherownjust-bornbabe。Yes;surelyitwasworthtrying。
Anhourlater,hercabstoppedbeforetheWagges’doorinFranklandStreet。Butjustasshewasabouttoringthebell,avoicefrombehindhersaid:”Allowme;Ihaveakey。WhatmayI——Oh,it’syou!”Sheturned。
Mr。Wagge,inprofessionalhabiliments,wasstandingthere。”Comein;comein,”hesaid。”Iwaswonderingwhetherperhapsweshouldn’tbeseeingyouafterwhat’stranspired。”
Hanginghistallblackhat,crapednearlytothecrown,onaknobofthemahoganystand,hesaidhuskily:”IDIDthinkwe’dseenthelastofthat,”andopenedthedining-
roomdoor。”Comein,ma’am。Wecanputourheadstogetherbetterinhere。”
Inthattoowellrememberedroom,thetablewaslaidwithastainedwhitecloth,acruet-stand,andbottleofWorcestershiresauce。
Thelittlebluebowlwasgone,sothatnothingnowmarredtheharmonyofredandgreen。Gypsaidquickly:”Doesn’tDaph——Daisyliveathome,then,now?”
TheexpressiononMr。Wagge’sfacewassingular;suspicion,relief,andasortofcraftinesswereblendedwiththatfurtiveadmirationwhichGypseemedalwaystoexciteinhim。”DoIunderstandthatyou——er——””IcametoaskifDaisywoulddosomethingforme。”
Mr。Waggeblewhisnose。”Youdidn’tknow——”hebeganagain。”Yes;Idaresaysheseesmyhusband,ifthat’swhatyoumean;andIdon’tmind——he’snothingtomenow。”
Mr。Wagge’sfacebecamefurthercomplicatedbythesensationsofahusband。”Well,”hesaid,”it’snottobewonderedat,perhaps,inthecircumstances。I’msureIalwaysthought——”
Gypinterruptedswiftly。”Please,Mr。Wagge——please!WillyougivemeDaisy’saddress?”
Mr。Waggeremainedamomentindeepthought;thenhesaid,inagruff,jerkyvoice:”Seventy-threeComradeStreet,So’o。UptoseeinghimthereonTuesday,ImustsayIcherishedeveryhope。NowI’msorryIdidn’tstrikehim——hewastooquickforme——”Hehadraisedoneofhisglovedhandsandwassawingitupanddown。ThesightofthatblackobjectcleavingtheairnearlymadeGypscream,hernervesweresoonedge。”It’sherblastedindependence——Ibegpardon——butwhowouldn’t?”heendedsuddenly。
Gyppassedhim。”Whowouldn’t?”sheheardhisvoicebehindher。”Ididthinkshe’dhaverunstraightthistime——”Andwhileshewasfumblingattheouterdoor,hisred,pudgyface,withitsroundgreybeard,protrudedalmostoverhershoulder。”Ifyou’regoingtoseeher,I
hopeyou’ll——”
Gypwasgone。Inhercabsheshivered。OnceshehadlunchedwithherfatheratarestaurantintheStrand。IthadbeenfullofMr。
Wagges。But,suddenly,shethought:’It’shardonhim,poorman!’
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Seventy-threeComradeStreet,Soho,wasdifficulttofind;but,withtheaidofamilk-boy,Gypdiscoveredthealleyatlast,andtherightdoor。Thereherpridetooksuddenalarm,andbutforthemilk-boy’seyesfixedonherwhileheletouthisprofessionalhowl,shemighthavefled。Aplumpwhitehandandwristemergingtookthecan,andDaphneWing’svoicesaid:”Oh,where’sthecream?””Ain’tgotnone。””Oh!Itoldyoualways——twopennyworthattwelveo’clock。””Twopenn’orth。”Theboy’seyesgoggled。”Didn’tyouwanttospeaktoher,miss?”Hebeattheclosingdoor。”Lidywantstospeaktoyou!Good-mornin’,miss。”
ThefigureofDaphneWinginabluekimonowasrevealed。HereyespeeredroundatGyp。”Oh!”shesaid。”MayIcomein?””Oh,yes!Oh,do!I’vebeenpractising。Oh,Iamgladtoseeyou!”
Inthemiddleofthestudio,alittletablewaslaidfortwo。
DaphneWingwentuptoit,holdinginonehandthemilk-canandintheotherashortknife,withwhichshehadevidentlybeenopeningoysters。Placingtheknifeonthetable,sheturnedroundtoGyp。
Herfacewasdeeppink,andsowasherneck,whichranV-shapeddownintothefoldsofherkimono。Hereyes,roundassaucers,metGyp’s,fell,metthemagain。Shesaid:”Oh,Mrs。Fiorsen,Iamglad!Ireallyam。Iwantedyousomuchtoseemyroom——doyoulikeit?HowDIDyouknowwhereIwas?”
Shelookeddownandadded:”IthinkI’dbettertellyou。Mr。
Fiorsencamehere,and,sincethen,I’veseenhimatCountRosek’s——
and——and——””Yes;butdon’ttroubletotellme,please。”
DaphneWinghurriedon。”Ofcourse,I’mquitemistressofmyselfnow。”Then,allatonce,theuneasywoman-of-the-worldmaskdroppedfromherfaceandsheseizedGyp’shand。”Oh,Mrs。Fiorsen,Ishallneverbelikeyou!”
Withalittleshiver,Gypsaid:”Ihopenot。”Herpriderushedupinher。Howcouldsheaskthisgirlanything?Shechokedbackthatfeeling,andsaidstonily:”Doyouremembermybaby?No,ofcourse;youneversawher。HEandCountRosekhavejusttakenherawayfromme。”
DaphneWingconvulsivelysqueezedthehandofwhichshehadpossessedherself。”Oh,whatawickedthing!When?””Yesterdayafternoon。””Oh,IAMgladIhaven’tseenhimsince!Oh,IDOthinkthatwaswicked!Aren’tyoudreadfullydistressed?”TheleastofsmilesplayedonGyp’smouth。DaphneWingburstforth:”D’youknow——I
think——Ithinkyourself-controlissomethingawful。Itfrightensme。Ifmybabyhadlivedandbeenstolenlikethat,Ishouldhavebeenhalfdeadbynow。”
Gypansweredstonilyasever:”Yes;Iwantherback,andIwondered——”
DaphneWingclaspedherhands。”Oh,IexpectIcanmakehim——”Shestopped,confused,thenaddedhastily:”Areyousureyoudon’tmind?””Ishouldn’tmindifhehadfiftyloves。Perhapshehas。”
DaphneWingutteredalittlegasp;thenherteethcamedownratherviciouslyonherlowerlip。”ImeanhimtodowhatIwantnow,notwhathewantsme。That’stheonlywaywhenyoulove。Oh,don’tsmilelikethat,please;youdomakemefeelso——uncertain。””Whenareyougoingtoseehimnext?”
DaphneWinggrewverypink。”Idon’tknow。Hemightbecomingintolunch。Yousee,it’snotasifhewereastranger,isit?”Castinguphereyesalittle,sheadded:”Hewon’tevenletmespeakyourname;itmakeshimmad。
That’swhyI’msurehestilllovesyou;only,hisloveissofunny。”And,seizingGyp’shand:”Ishallneverforgethowgoodyouweretome。Idohopeyou——youlovesomebodyelse。”Gyppressedthosedamp,clingingfingers,andDaphneWinghurriedon:”I’msureyourbaby’sadarling。Howyoumustbesuffering!Youlookquitepale。Butitisn’tanygoodsuffering。Ilearnedthat。”
Hereyeslightedonthetable,andafaintruefulnesscameintothem,asifsheweregoingtoaskGyptoeattheoysters。
Gypbentforwardandputherlipstothegirl’sforehead。”Good-bye。Mybabywouldthankyouifsheknew。”
Andsheturnedtogo。Sheheardasob。DaphneWingwascrying;
then,beforeGypcouldspeak,shestruckherselfonthethroat,andsaid,inastrangledvoice:”Tha——that’sidiotic!I——Ihaven’tcriedsince——since,youknow。
I——I’mperfectmistressofmyself;only,I——only——Isupposeyouremindedme——INEVERcry!”
ThosewordsandthesoundofahiccoughaccompaniedGypdownthealleytohercab。
WhenshegotbacktoBuryStreet,shefoundBettysittinginthehallwithherbonneton。Shehadnotbeensentfor,norhadanyreplycomefromNewmarket。Gypcouldnoteat,couldsettletonothing。Shewentuptoherbedroomtogetawayfromtheservants’
eyes,andwentonmechanicallywithafrockoflittleGyp’sshehadbegunonthefatalmorningFiorsenhadcomeback。Everyotherminuteshestoppedtolistentosoundsthatnevermeantanything,wentahundredtimestothewindowtolookatnothing。Betty,too,hadcomeupstairs,andwasinthenurseryopposite;Gypcouldhearhermovingaboutrestlesslyamongherhouseholdgods。Presently,thosesoundsceased,and,peeringintotheroom,shesawthestoutwomanstillinherbonnet,sittingonatrunk,withherbackturned,utteringheavysighs。Gypstolebackintoherownroomwithasick,tremblingsensation。If——ifherbabyreallycouldnotberecoveredexceptbythatsacrifice!Ifthatcruelletterwerethelastword,andsheforcedtodecidebetweenthem!Whichwouldshegiveup?Whichfollow——herloverorherchild?
Shewenttothewindowforair——thepainaboutherheartwasdreadful。And,leaningthereagainsttheshutter,shefeltquitedizzyfromtheviolenceofastrugglethatrefusedcoherentthoughtorfeeling,andwasjustadumbpullofinstincts,bothsoterriblystrong——howterriblystrongshehadnottillthenperceived。
HereyesfellonthepicturethatremindedherofBryan;itseemednowtohavenoresemblance——none。Hewasmuchtooreal,andloved,andwanted。Lessthantwenty-fourhoursago,shehadturnedadeafeartohispleadingthatsheshouldgotohimforever。Howfunny!
Wouldshenotrushtohimnow——gowhenandwhereheliked?Ah,ifonlyshewerebackinhisarms!Nevercouldshegivehimup——
never!Buttheninherearssoundedthecooingwords,”Dearmum!”
Herbaby——thattinything——howcouldshegiveherup,andneveragainholdcloseandkissthatround,perfectlittlebody,thatgravelittledark-eyedface?
TheroarofLondoncameinthroughtheopenwindow。Somuchlife,somanypeople——andnotasoulcouldhelp!Sheleftthewindowandwenttothecottage-pianoshehadthere,outofWinton’sway。Butsheonlysatwitharmsfolded,lookingatthekeys。ThesongthatgirlhadsungatFiorsen’sconcert——songofthebrokenheart——camebacktoher。
No,no;shecouldn’t——couldn’t!Itwastoherlovershewouldcling。Andtearsrandownhercheeks。
Acabhadstoppedbelow,butnottillBettycamerushingindidshelookup。
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When,tremblingallover,sheenteredthedining-room,Fiorsenwasstandingbythesideboard,holdingthechild。
HecamestraightupandputherintoGyp’sarms。”Takeher,”hesaid,”anddowhatyouwill。Behappy。”
Huggingherbaby,closetothedoorasshecouldget,Gypanswerednothing。Herheartwasinsuchatumultthatshecouldnothavespokenawordtosaveherlife;relieved,asonedyingofthirstbyunexpectedwater;grateful,bewildered,abashed,yetinstinctivelyawareofsomethingevanescentandunrealinhisaltruism。DaphneWing!Whatbargaindidthisrepresent?
Fiorsenmusthavefeltthechillofthisinstinctivevision,forhecriedout:”Yes!Youneverbelievedinme;youneverthoughtmecapableofgood!Whydidn’tyou?”
Gypbentherfaceoverherbabytohidethequiveringofherlips。”Iamsorry——very,verysorry。”
Fiorsencamecloserandlookedintoherface。”ByGod,IamafraidIshallneverforgetyou——never!”
Tearshadcomeintohiseyes,andGypwatchedthem,moved,troubled,butstilldeeplymistrusting。
Hebrushedhishandacrosshisface;andthethoughtflashedthroughher:’Hemeansmetoseethem!Ah,whatacynicalwretchI
am!’
Fiorsensawthatthoughtpass,andmutteringsuddenly:”Good-bye,Gyp!Iamnotallbad。IAMNOT!”Hetorethedooropenandwasgone。
Thatpassionate”Iamnot!”savedGypfromabreakdown。No;evenathishighestpitchofabnegation,hecouldnotforgethimself。
Relief,ifoverwhelming,isslowlyrealized;butwhen,atlast,whatshehadescapedandwhatlaybeforeherwerestaringfullineachother’sface,itseemedtoherthatshemustcryout,andtellthewholeworldofherintoxicatinghappiness。AndthemomentlittleGypwasinBetty’sarms,shesatdownandwrotetoSummerhay:”DARLING,”I’vehadafearfultime。MybabywasstolenbyhimwhileIwaswithyou。HewrotemealettersayingthathewouldgiveherbacktomeifIgaveyouup。ButIfoundIcouldn’tgiveyouup,notevenformybaby。Andthen,afewminutesago,hebroughther——
nonetheworse。TomorrowweshallallgodowntoMildenham;butverysoon,ifyoustillwantme,I’llcomewithyouwhereveryoulike。MyfatherandBettywilltakecareofmytreasuretillwecomeback;andthen,perhaps,theoldredhousewesaw——afterall。
Only——nowisthetimeforyoutodrawback。Lookintothefuture——
lookfar!Don’tletanyfoolishpity——orhonour——weighwithyou;
beutterlysure,Idobeseechyou。IcanjustbearitnowifI
knowit’sforyourgood。Butafterwardit’llbetoolate。ItwouldbetheworstmiseryofallifImadeyouunhappy。Oh,makesure——makesure!Ishallunderstand。Imeanthiswitheverybitofme。Andnow,good-night,andperhaps——good-bye。”Your”GYP。”
Shereaditoverandshivered。Didshereallymeanthatshecouldbearitifhedrewback——ifhedidlookfar,farintothefuture,anddecidedthatshewasnotworththecandle?Ah,butbetternow——
thanlater。
Sheclosedandsealedtheletter,andsatdowntowaitforherfather。Andshethought:’Whydoesonehaveaheart?Whyisthereinonesomethingsomuchtoosoft?’
Tendayslater,atMildenhamstation,holdingherfather’shand,Gypcouldscarcelyseehimforthemistbeforehereyes。Howgoodhehadbeentoherallthoselastdays,sinceshetoldhimthatshewasgoingtotaketheplunge!Notawordofremonstranceorcomplaint。”Good-bye,mylove!Takecareofyourself;wirefromLondon,andagainfromParis。”And,smilingupather,headded:”Hehasluck;
Ihadnone。”
Themistbecametears,rolleddown,fellonhisglove。”Nottoolongoutthere,Gyp!”
Shepressedherwetcheekpassionatelytohis。Thetrainmoved,but,solongasshecouldsee,shewatchedhimstandingontheplatform,wavinghisgreyhat,then,inhercorner,satdown,blindedwithtearsbehindherveil。Shehadnotcriedwhenshelefthimthedayofherfatalmarriage;shecriednowthatshewasleavinghimtogotoherincrediblehappiness。
Strange!Butherhearthadgrownsincethen。
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