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  Itmayinterestreadersofthisstorytoknowthatitsauthorbelievesittohaveacertainfoundationinfact。
  Itwassaidaboutfive-and-twentyorthirtyyearsagothatanadventuroustrader,hearingfromsomenativesintheterritorythatliesatthebackofQuilimane,thelegendofagreattreasureburiedinoraboutthesixteenthcenturybyapartyofPortuguesewhowereafterwardsmassacred,asalastresourceattempteditsdiscoverybythehelpofamesmerist。Accordingtothishistorythechildwhowasusedasasubjectintheexperiment,wheninastateoftrance,detailedtheadventuresanddeathoftheunhappyPortuguesemenandwomen,twoofwhomleaptfromthepointofahighrockintotheZambesi。AlthoughheknewnotonguebutEnglish,thisclairvoyantchildisdeclaredtohaverepeatedinPortuguesetheprayerstheseunfortunatesofferedup,andeventohavesungtheveryhymnstheysang。Moreover,withmuchotherdetail,hedescribedtheburialofthegreattreasureanditsexactsituationsoaccuratelythatthewhitemanandthemesmeristwereabletodigforandfindtheplacewhere/ithadbeen/——forthebagsweregone,sweptoutbythefloodsoftheriver。
  Somegoldcoinsremained,however,oneofthemaducatofAloysiusMocenigo,DogeofVenice。Afterwardstheboywasagainthrownintoatranceinallhewasmesmerizedeighttimes,andrevealedwherethesacksstilllay;butbeforethewhitetradercouldrenewhissearchforthem,thepartywashuntedoutofthecountrybynativeswhosesuperstitiousfearswerearoused,barelyescapingwiththeirlives。
  Itshouldbeaddedthat,asinthefollowingtale,thechiefwhowasrulingtherewhenthetragedyhappened,declaredtheplacetobesacred,andthatifitwereenteredevilwouldbefallhistribe。Thusitcameaboutthatforgenerationsitwasneverviolated,untilatlengthhisdescendantsweredrivenfartherfromtheriverbywar,andfromoneofthemthewhitemanheardthelegend。
  BENITA
  ANAFRICANROMANCE
  I
  CONFIDENCES
  Beautiful,beautifulwasthatnight!Noairthatstirred;theblacksmokefromthefunnelsofthemailsteamer/Zanzibar/laylowoverthesurfaceofthesealikevast,floatingostrichplumesthatvanishedonebyoneinthestarlight。BenitaBeatrixClifford,forthatwasherfullname,whohadbeenchristenedBenitaafterhermotherandBeatrixafterherfather’sonlysister,leaningidlyoverthebulwarkrail,thoughttoherselfthatachildmighthavesailedthatseainaboatofbarkandcomesafelyintoport。
  Thenatallmanofaboutthirtyyearsofage,whowassmokingacigar,strolleduptoher。Athiscomingshemovedalittleasthoughtomakeroomforhimbesideher,andtherewassomethinginthemotionwhich,hadanyonebeentheretoobserveit,mighthavesuggestedthatthesetwowereupontermsoffriendship,orstillgreaterintimacy。Foramomenthehesitated,andwhilehedidsoanexpressionofdoubt,ofdistresseven,gatheredonhisface。Itwasasthoughheunderstoodthatagreatdealdependedonwhetherheacceptedordeclinedthatgentleinvitation,andknewnotwhichtodo。
  Indeed,muchdiddependuponit,nolessthanthedestiniesofbothofthem。IfRobertSeymourhadgonebytofinishhiscigarinsolitude,whythenthisstorywouldhavehadaverydifferentending;or,rather,whocansayhowitmighthaveended?Thedread,foredoomedeventwithwhichthatnightwasbigwouldhavecometoitsawfulbirthleavingcertainwordsunspoken。Violentseparationmusthaveensued,andevenifbothofthemhadsurvivedtheterror,whatprospectwastherethattheirliveswouldagainhavecrossedeachotherinthatwideAfrica?
  Butitwasnotsofated,forjustasheputhisfootforwardtocontinuehismarchBenitaspokeinherlowandpleasantvoice。”Areyougoingtothesmoking-roomortothesaloontodance,Mr。
  Seymour?Oneoftheofficersjusttoldmethatthereistobeadance,”sheadded,inexplanation,”becauseitissocalmthatwemightfancyourselvesashore。””Neither,”heanswered。”Thesmoking-roomisstuffy,andmydancingdaysareover。No;Iproposedtotakeexerciseafterthatbigdinner,andthentositinachairandfallasleep。But,”headded,andhisvoicegrewinterested,”howdidyouknowthatitwasI?Youneverturnedyourhead。””Ihaveearsinmyheadaswellaseyes,”sheansweredwithalittlelaugh,”andafterwehavebeennearlyamonthtogetheronthisshipI
  oughttoknowyourstep。””Ineverrememberthatanyoneeverrecognizeditbefore,”hesaid,moretohimselfthantoher,thencameandleanedovertherailatherside。Hisdoubtsweregone。Fatehadspoken。
  Forawhiletherewassilencebetweenthem,thenheaskedherifshewerenotgoingtothedance。
  Benitashookherhead。”Whynot?Youarefondofdancing,andyoudanceverywell。Alsothereareplentyofofficersforpartners,especiallyCaptain——”andhecheckedhimself。”Iknow,”shesaid;”itwouldbepleasant,but——Mr。Seymour,willyouthinkmefoolishifItellyousomething?””Ihaveneverthoughtyoufoolishyet,MissClifford,soIdon’tknowwhyIshouldbeginnow。Whatisit?””IamnotgoingtothedancebecauseIamafraid,yes,horriblyafraid。””Afraid!Afraidofwhat?””Idon’tquiteknow,but,Mr。Seymour,Ifeelasthoughwewereallofusupontheedgeofsomedreadfulcatastrophe——asthoughtherewereabouttobeamightychange,andbeyonditanotherlife,somethingnewandunfamiliar。Itcameovermeatdinner——thatwaswhyIleftthetable。QuitesuddenlyIlooked,andallthepeopleweredifferent,yes,allexceptafew。””WasIdifferent?”heaskedcuriously。”No,youwerenot,”andhethoughtheheardheradd”ThankGod!”
  beneathherbreath。”Andwereyoudifferent?””Idon’tknow。Ineverlookedatmyself;Iwastheseer,nottheseen。
  Ihavealwaysbeenlikethat。””Indigestion,”hesaidreflectively。”Weeattoomuchonboardship,andthedinnerwasverylongandheavy。Itoldyouso,that’swhyI’mtaking——ImeanwhyIwantedtotakeexercise。””Andtogotosleepafterwards。””Yes,firsttheexercise,thenthesleep。MissClifford,thatistheruleoflife——anddeath。Withsleepthoughtends,thereforeforsomeofusyourcatastropheismuchtobedesired,foritwouldmeanlongsleepandnothought。””Isaidthattheywerechanged,notthattheyhadceasedtothink。
  Perhapstheythoughtthemore。””Thenletuspraythatyourcatastrophemaybeaverted。Iprescribeforyoubismuthandcarbonateofsoda。Alsointhisweatheritseemsdifficulttoimaginesuchathing。Looknow,MissClifford,”headded,withanoteofenthusiasminhisvoice,pointingtowardstheeast,”look。”
  Hereyesfollowedhisoutstretchedhand,andthere,abovethelevelocean,rosethegreatorboftheAfricanmoon。Lo!ofasuddenallthatoceanturnedtosilver,awidepathofripplingsilverstretchedfromittothem。Itmighthavebeentheroadofangels。Thesweetsoftlightbeatupontheirship,showingitstaperingmastsandeverydetailoftherigging。Itpassedonbeyondthem,andrevealedthelow,foam-fringedcoast-linerisinghereandthere,dottedwithkloofsandtheirclingingbush。EventheroundhutsofKaffirkraalsbecamefaintlyvisibleinthatradiance。Otherthingsbecamevisiblealso——
  forinstance,thefeaturesofthispair。
  Themanwaslightinhiscolouring,fair-skinned,withfairhairwhichalreadyshowedatendencytowardsgreyness,especiallyinthemoustache,forheworenobeard。Hisfacewascleancut,notparticularlyhandsome,since,theirfinenessnotwithstanding,hisfeatureslackedregularity;thecheekbonesweretoohighandthechinwastoosmall,smallfaultsredeemedtosomeextentbythesteadyandcheerfulgreyeyes。Fortherest,hewasbroad-shoulderedandwell-
  set-up,sealedwiththeindescribablestampoftheEnglishgentleman。
  SuchwastheappearanceofRobertSeymour。
  Inthatlightthegirlathissidelookedlovely,though,infact,shehadnorealclaimstoloveliness,exceptperhapsasregardsherfigure,whichwasagile,rounded,andpeculiarlygraceful。Herforeign-lookingfacewasunusual,dark-eyed,asomewhatlargeandverymobilemouth,fairandwavinghair,abroadforehead,asweetandattimeswistfulface,thoughtfulforthemostpart,butapttobeirradiatedbysuddensmiles。Notabeautifulwomanatall,butexceedinglyattractive,onepossessingmagnetism。
  Shegazed,firstatthemoonandthesilverroadbeneathit,then,turning,atthelandbeyond。”WeareveryneartoAfrica,atlast,”shesaid。”Toonear,Ithink,”heanswered。”IfIwerethecaptainIshouldstandoutapointortwo。Itisastrangecountry,fullofsurprises。
  MissClifford,willyouthinkmerudeifIaskyouwhyyouaregoingthere?Youhavenevertoldme——quite。””No,becausethestoryisratherasadone;butyoushallhearitifyouwish。Doyou?”
  Henodded,anddrewuptwodeckchairs,inwhichtheysettledthemselvesinacornermadebyoneoftheinboardboats,theirfacesstilltowardsthesea。”YouknowIwasborninAfrica,”shesaid,”andlivedtheretillIwasthirteenyearsold——why,IfindIcanstillspeakZulu;Ididsothisafternoon。MyfatherwasoneoftheearlysettlersinNatal。Hisfatherwasaclergyman,ayoungersonoftheLincolnshireCliffords。
  Theyaregreatpeopletherestill,thoughIdon’tsupposethattheyareawareofmyexistence。””Iknowthem,”answeredRobertSeymour。”Indeed,IwasshootingattheirplacelastNovember——whenthesmashcame,”andhesighed;”butgoon。””Well,myfatherquarrelledwithhisfather,Idon’tknowwhatabout,andemigrated。InNatalhemarriedmymother,aMissFerreira,whosename——likemineandhermother’s——wasBenita。Shewasoneoftwosisters,andherfather,AndreasFerreira,whomarriedanEnglishlady,washalfDutchandhalfPortuguese。Irememberhimwell,afineoldmanwithdarkeyesandaniron-greybeard。Hewaswealthyasthingswentinthosedays——thatistosay,hehadlotsoflandinNatalandtheTransvaal,andgreatherdsofstock。SoyouseeIamhalfEnglish,someDutch,andmorethanaquarterPortuguese——quiteamixtureofraces。Myfatherandmotherdidnotgetonwelltogether。
  Mr。Seymour,Imayaswelltellyouallthetruth:hedrank,andalthoughhewaspassionatelyfondofher,shewasjealousofhim。Alsohegambledawaymostofherpatrimony,andafteroldAndreasFerreira’sdeaththeygrewpoor。Onenighttherewasadreadfulscenebetweenthem,andinhismadnesshestruckher。”Well,shewasaveryproudwoman,determined,too,andsheturnedonhimandsaid——forIheardher——’Iwillneverforgiveyou;wehavedonewitheachother。’Nextmorning,whenmyfatherwassober,hebeggedherpardon,butshemadenoanswer,althoughhewasstartingsomewhereonafortnight’strek。WhenhehadgonemymotherorderedtheCapecart,packedupherclothes,tooksomemoneythatshehadputaway,drovetoDurban,andaftermakingarrangementsatthebankaboutasmallprivateincomeofherown,sailedwithmeforEngland,leavingaletterformyfatherinwhichshesaidthatshewouldneverseehimagain,andifhetriedtointerferewithmeshewouldputmeundertheprotectionoftheEnglishcourt,whichwouldnotallowmetobetakentothehomeofadrunkard。”InEnglandwewenttoliveinLondonwithmyaunt,whohadmarriedaMajorKing,butwasawidowwithfivechildren。Myfatheroftenwrotetopersuademymothertogobacktohim,butsheneverwould,whichI
  thinkwaswrongofher。Sothingswentonfortwelveyearsormore,tillonedaymymothersuddenlydied,andIcameintoherlittlefortuneofbetween£200and£300ayear,whichshehadtiedupsothatnobodycantouchit。Thatwasaboutayearago。Iwrotetotellmyfatherofherdeath,andreceivedapitifulletter;indeed,Ihavehadseveralofthem。Heimploredmetocomeouttohimandnottoleavehimtodieinhisloneliness,ashesoonwoulddoofabrokenheart,ifIdidnot。Hesaidthathehadlongagogivenupdrinking,whichwasthecauseoftheruinofhislife,andsentacertificatesignedbyamagistrateandadoctortothateffect。Well,intheend,althoughallmycousinsandtheirmotheradvisedmeagainstit,I
  consented,andhereIam。HeistomeetmeatDurban,buthowweshallgetontogetherismorethanIcansay,thoughIlongtoseehim,forafterallheismyfather。””Itwasgoodofyoutocome,underallthecircumstances。Youmusthaveabraveheart,”saidRobertreflectively。”Itismyduty,”sheanswered。”Andfortherest,IamnotafraidwhowasborntoAfrica。Indeed,oftenandoftenhaveIwishedtobebackthereagain,outontheveld,farawayfromtheLondonstreetsandfog。Iamyoungandstrong,andIwanttoseethings,naturalthings——
  notthosemadebyman,youknow——thethingsIrememberasachild。OnecanalwaysgobacktoLondon。””Yes,oratleastsomepeoplecan。Itisacuriousthing,MissClifford,butasithappensIhavemetyourfather。Youalwaysremindedmeoftheman,butIhadforgottenhisname。Nowitcomesbacktome;it/was/Clifford。””Whereonearth?”sheasked,astonished。”Inaqueerplace。AsItoldyou,IhavevisitedSouthAfricabefore,underdifferentcircumstances。FouryearsagoIwasoutherebig-gameshooting。GoinginfromtheEastcoastmybrotherandI——heisdeadnow,poorfellow——gotupsomewhereintheMatabelecountry,onthebanksoftheZambesi。Aswedidn’tfindmuchgamethereweweregoingtostrikesouth,whensomenativestoldusofawonderfulruinthatstoodonahilloverhangingtheriverafewmilesfartheron。So,leavingthewaggononthehithersideofthesteepnek,overwhichitwouldhavebeendifficulttodragit,mybrotherandItookourriflesandabagoffoodandstarted。Theplacewasfartheroffthanwethought,althoughfromthetopofthenekwecouldseeitclearlyenough,andbeforewereacheditdarkhadfallen。”Nowwehadobservedawaggonandatentoutsidethewallwhichwethoughtmustbelongtowhitemen,andheadedforthem。Therewasalightinthetent,andtheflapwasopen,thenightbeingveryhot。
  Insidetwomenwereseated,oneold,withagreybeard,andtheother,agood-lookingfellow——underforty,Ishouldsay——withaJewishface,dark,piercingeyes,andablack,pointedbeard。Theywereengagedinexaminingaheapofgoldbeadsandbangles,whichlayonthetablebetweenthem。AsIwasabouttospeak,theblack-beardedmanheardorcaughtsightofus,andseizingariflethatleanedagainstthetable,swungroundandcoveredme。”’ForGod’ssakedon’tshoot,Jacob,’saidtheoldman;’theyareEnglish。’”’Bestdead,anyway,’answeredtheother,inasoftvoice,withaslightforeignaccent,’wedon’twantspiesorthieveshere。’”’Weareneither,butIcanshootaswellasyou,friend,’Iremarked,forbythistimemyriflewasonhim。”Thenhethoughtbetterofit,anddroppedhisgun,andweexplainedthatweweremerelyonanarch?ologicalexpedition。Theendofitwasthatwebecamecapitalfriends,thoughneitherofuscouldcottonmuchtoMr。Jacob——Iforgethisothername。Hestruckmeastoohandywithhisrifle,andwas,Igathered,anindividualwithamysteriousandratherluridpast。Tocutalongstoryshort,whenhefoundoutthatwehadnointentionofpoaching,yourfather,foritwashe,toldusfranklythattheyweretreasure-hunting,havinggotholdofsomestoryaboutavaststoreofgoldwhichhadbeenhiddenawaytherebyPortuguesetwoorthreecenturiesbefore。Theirtroublewas,however,thattheMakalanga,wholivedinthefortress,whichwascalledBambatse,wouldnotallowthemtodig,becausetheysaidtheplacewashaunted,andiftheydidsoitwouldbringbadlucktotheirtribe。””Anddidtheyevergetin?”askedBenita。”IamsureIdon’tknow,forwewentnextday,thoughbeforeweleftwecalledontheMakalanga,whoadmittedusallreadilyenoughsolongaswebroughtnospadeswithus。Bytheway,thegoldwesawyourfatherandhisfriendexaminingwasfoundinsomeancientgravesoutsidethewalls,buthadnothingtodowiththebigandmythicaltreasure。””Whatwastheplacelike?Iloveoldruins,”brokeinBenitaagain。”Oh!wonderful。Agigantic,circularwallbuiltbyheavenknowswho,thenhalf-wayupthehillanotherwall,andnearthetopathirdwallwhich,Iunderstood,surroundedasortofholyofholies,andaboveeverything,onthebrinkoftheprecipice,agreatconeofgranite。””Artificialornatural?””Idon’tknow。Theywouldnotletusupthere,butwewereintroducedtotheirchiefandhighpriest,ChurchandStateinone,andawonderfuloldmanhewas,verywiseandverygentle。Irememberhetoldmehebelievedweshouldmeetagain,whichseemedanoddthingforhimtosay。Iaskedhimaboutthetreasureandwhyhewouldnotlettheotherwhitemenlookforit。Heansweredthatitwouldneverbefoundbyanyman,whiteorblack,thatonlyawomanwouldfinditattheappointedtime,whenitpleasedtheSpiritofBambatse,underwhoseguardianshipitwas。””WhowastheSpiritofBambatse,Mr。Seymour?””Ican’ttellyou,couldn’tmakeoutanythingdefiniteabouther,exceptthatshewassaidtobewhite,andtoappearsometimesatsunrise,orinthemoonlight,standinguponthetallpointofrockofwhichItoldyou。IrememberthatIgotupbeforethedawntolookforher——likeanidiot,forofcourseIsawnothing——andthat’sallIknowaboutthematter。””Didyouhaveanytalkwithmyfather,Mr。Seymour——alone,Imean?””Yes,alittle。Thenextdayhewalkedbacktoourwaggonwithus,beingglad,Ifancy,ofachangefromtheperpetualsocietyofhispartnerJacob。Thatwasn’twonderfulinamanwhohadbeenbroughtupatEtonandOxford,asIfoundouthehad,likemyself,andwhateverhisfailingsmayhavebeen——althoughwesawnosignofthem,forhewouldnottouchadropofspirits——wasagentleman,whichJacobwasn’t。Still,he——Jacob——hadreadalot,especiallyonout-of-the-waysubjects,andcouldtalkeverylanguageunderthesun——acleverandagreeablescoundrelinshort。””Didmyfathersayanythingabouthimself?””Yes;hetoldmethathehadbeenanunsuccessfulmanallhislife,andhadmuchtoreproachhimselfwith,forwegotquiteconfidentialatlast。HeaddedthathehadafamilyinEngland——whatfamilyhedidn’tsay——whomhewasanxioustomakewealthybywayofreparationforpastmisdeeds,andthatwaswhyhewastreasure-hunting。However,fromwhatyoutellme,Ifearheneverfoundanything。””No,Mr。Seymour,heneverfounditandneverwill,butallthesameI
  amgladtohearthathewasthinkingofus。AlsoIshouldliketoexplorethatplace,Bambatse。””SoshouldI,MissClifford,inyourcompany,andyourfather’s,butnotinthatofJacob。Ifeveryoushouldgotherewithhim,Isay:——
  ’BewareofJacob。’””Oh!IamnotafraidofJacob,”sheansweredwithalaugh,”althoughI
  believethatmyfatherstillhassomethingtodowithhim——atleastinoneofhislettershementionedhispartner,whowasaGerman。””AGerman!IthinkthathemusthavemeantaGermanJew。”
  Afterthistherewassilencebetweenthemforatime,thenhesaidsuddenly,”Youhavetoldmeyourstory,wouldyouliketohearmine?””Yes,”sheanswered。”Well,itwon’ttakeyoulongtolistentoit,for,MissClifford,likeCanning’sneedyknife-grinder,Ihavereallynonetotell。Youseebeforeyouoneofthemostuselesspersonsintheworld,anundistinguishedmemberofwhatiscalledinEnglandthe’leisuredclass,’whocandoabsolutelynothingthatisworthdoing,exceptshootstraight。””Indeed,”saidBenita。”Youdonotseemimpressedwiththataccomplishment,”hewenton,”yetitisanhonestfactthatforthelastfifteenyears——Iwasthirty-twothismonth——practicallymywholetimehasbeengivenuptoit,withalittlefishingthrownininthespring。AsIwanttomakethemostofmyself,IwilladdthatIamsupposedtobeamongthesixbestshotsinEngland,andthatmyambition——yes,greatHeavens!myambition——wastobecomebetterthantheotherfive。Bythatsinfellthepoormanwhospeakstoyou。Iwassupposedtohaveabilities,butIneglectedthemalltopursuethisformofidleness。Ienterednoprofession,I
  didnowork,withtheresultthatatthirty-twoIamruinedandalmosthopeless。””Whyruinedandhopeless?”sheaskedanxiously,forthewayinwhichtheywerespokengrievedhermorethanthewordsthemselves。”Ruinedbecausemyolduncle,theHonourableJohnSeymourSeymour,whoseheirIwas,committedtheindiscretionofmarryingayoungladywhohaspresentedhimwiththrivingtwins。Withtheappearanceofthosetwinsmyprospectsdisappeared,asdidtheallowanceof£1,500ayearthathewasgoodenoughtomakemeonwhichtokeepupapositionashisnext-of-kin。Ihadsomethingofmyown,butalsoIhaddebts,andatthepresentmomentadraftinmypocketfor£2,16314s。5d。,andalittleloosecash,representsthetotalofmyworldlygoods,justaboutthesumIhavebeenaccustomedtospendperannum。””Idon’tcallthatruin,Icallthatriches,”saidBenita,relieved。”With£2,000tobeginonyoumaymakeafortuneinAfrica。Buthowaboutthehopelessness?””IamhopelessbecauseIhaveabsolutelynothingtowhichtolookforward。Really,whenthat£2,000isgoneIdonotknowhowtoearnasixpence。InthisdilemmaitoccurredtomethattheonlythingI
  coulddowastoturnmyshootingtopracticalaccount,andbecomeahunterofbiggame。ThereforeIproposetokillelephantsuntilanelephantkillsme。Atleast,”headdedinachangedvoice,”Ididsoproposeuntilhalfanhourago。”
  II
  THEENDOFTHE”ZANZIBAR。””Untilhalfanhourago?Thenwhy——”andBenitastopped。”HaveIchangedmyverymodestschemeoflife?MissClifford,asyouaresogoodastobesufficientlyinterested,Iwilltellyou。ItisbecauseatemptationwhichhithertoIhavebeenabletoresist,hasduringthelastthirtyminutesbecometoostrongforme。Youknoweverythinghasitsbreakingstrain。”Hepuffednervouslyathiscigar,threwitintothesea,paused,thenwenton:”MissClifford,Ihavedaredtofallinlovewithyou。No;hearmeout。WhenIhavedoneitwillbequitetimeenoughtogivemetheanswerthatIexpect。
  Meanwhile,forthefirsttimeinmylife,allowmetheluxuryofbeinginearnest。Tomeitisanewsensation,andthereforeverypriceless。
  MayIgoon?”
  Benitamadenoanswer。Herosewithacertaindeliberatenesswhichcharacterizedallhismovements——forRobertSeymourneverseemedtobeinahurry——andstoodinfrontofhersothatthemoonlightshoneuponherface,whilehisownremainedinshadow。”Beyondthat£2,000ofwhichIhavespoken,andincidentallyitsowner,Ihavenothingwhatsoevertooffertoyou。Iamanindigentandworthlessperson。Eveninmyprosperousdays,whenIcouldlookforwardtoalargeestate,althoughitwasoftensuggestedtome,I
  neverconsideredmyselfjustifiedinaskinganyladytoshare——theprospectiveestate。IthinknowthattherealreasonwasthatInevercaredsufficientlyforanylady,sinceotherwisemyselfishnesswouldprobablyhaveovercomemyscruples,asitdoesto-night。Benita,forI
  willcallyouso,ifforthefirstandlasttime,I——I——loveyou。”Listennow,”hewenton,droppinghismeasuredmanner,andspeakinghurriedly,likeamanwithanearnestmessageandlittletimeinwhichtodeliverit,”itisanoddthing,anincomprehensiblething,buttrue,true——IfellinlovewithyouthefirsttimeIsawyourface。
  Youremember,youstoodthereleaningoverthebulwarkwhenIcameonboardatSouthampton,andasIwalkedupthegangway,Ilookedandmyeyesmetyours。ThenIstopped,andthatstoutoldladywhogotoffatMadeirabumpedintome,andaskedmetobegoodenoughtomakeupmymindifIweregoingbackwardorforward。Doyouremember?””Yes,”sheansweredinalowvoice。”Whichthingsareanallegory,”hecontinued。”Ifeltitsoatthetime。Yes,Ihadhalfamindtoanswer’Backward’andgiveupmyberthinthisship。ThenIlookedatyouagain,andsomethinginsideofmesaid’Forward。’SoIcameuptherestofthegangwayandtookoffmyhattoyou,asalutationIhadnorighttomake,butwhich,Irecall,youacknowledged。”
  Hepaused,thencontinued:”Asitbegan,soithasgoneon。Itisalwayslikethat,isitnot?Thebeginningiseverything,theendmustfollow。Andnowithascomeout,asIwasfullydeterminedthatitshouldnotdohalfanhourago,whensuddenlyyoudevelopedeyesinthebackofyourhead,and——oh!dearest,Iloveyou。No,pleasebequiet;Ihavenotdone。IhavetoldyouwhatIam,andreallythereisn’tmuchmoretosayaboutme,forIhavenoparticularvicesexcepttheworstofthemall,idleness,andnottheslightesttraceofanyvirtuethatIcandiscover。ButIhaveacertainknowledgeoftheworldacquiredinalongcourseofshootingparties,andasamanoftheworldIwillventuretogiveyouabitofadvice。Itispossiblethattoyoumylifeanddeathaffairisamerematterofboard-shipamusement。Yetitispossiblealsothatyoumighttakeanotherviewofthematter。Inthatcase,asafriendandamanoftheworld,I
  entreatyou——don’t。Havenothingtodowithme。Sendmeaboutmybusiness;youwillneverregretit。””Areyoumakingfun,orisallthismeant,Mr。Seymour?”askedBenita,stillspeakingbeneathherbreath,andlookingstraightbeforeher。”Meant?Ofcourseitismeant。Howcanyouask?””BecauseIhavealwaysunderstoodthatonsuchoccasionspeoplewishtomakethebestofthemselves。””Quiteso,butIneverdowhatIought,afactforwhichIamgratefulnowcometothinkofit,sinceotherwiseIshouldnotbehereto-night。Iwishtomaketheworstofmyself,theveryworst,forwhateverIamnot,atleastIamhonest。NowhavingtoldyouthatI
  am,orwashalfanhourago,anidler,agood-for-nothing,prospectlessfailure,Iaskyou——ifyoucaretohearanymore?”
  Shehalfrose,and,glancingathimforthefirsttime,sawhisfacecontractitselfandturnpaleinthemoonlight。Itmaybethatthesightofitaffectedher,eventotheextentofremovingsomeadverseimpressionleftbythebittermockingofhisself-blame。Atanyrate,Benitaseemedtochangehermind,andsatdownagain,saying:”Goon,ifyouwish。”
  Hebowedslightly,andsaid:”Ithankyou。IhavetoldyouwhatI/was/halfanhourago;now,hopingthatyouwillbelieveme,IwilltellyouwhatI/am/。Iamatrulyrepentantman,oneuponwhomanewlighthasrisen。Iamnotveryold,andIthinkthatunderneathitallIhavesomeability。
  Opportunitymaystillcomemyway;ifitdoesnot,foryoursakeI
  willmaketheopportunity。Idonotbelievethatyoucaneverfindanyonewhowouldloveyoubetterorcareforyoumoretenderly。I
  desiretoliveforyouinthefuture,morecompletelyeventhaninthepastIhavelivedformyself。Idonotwishtoinfluenceyoubypersonalappeals,butinfactIstandatthepartingoftheways。IfyouwillgiveyourselftomeIfeelasthoughImightstillbecomeahusbandofwhomyoucouldbeproud——ifnot,Iwrite’Finis’uponthetombstoneofthepossibilitiesofRobertSeymour。Iadoreyou。YouaretheonewomanwithwhomIdesiretopassmydays;itisyouwhohavealwaysbeenlackingtomylife。Iaskyoutobebrave,totaketheriskofmarryingme,althoughIcanseenothingbutpovertyaheadofus,forIamanadventurer。””Don’tspeaklikethat,”shesaidquickly。”Weareallofusadventurersinthisworld,andImorethanyou。Wehavejusttoconsiderourselves,notwhatwehaveorhavenot。””Sobeit,MissClifford。ThenIhavenothingmoretosay;nowitisforyoutoanswer。”
  Justthenthesoundofthepianoandthefiddleinthesaloonceased。
  Oneofthewaltzeswasover,andsomeofthedancerscameupondecktoflirtortocoolthemselves。Onepair,engagedveryobviouslyintheformeroccupation,stationedthemselvessoneartoRobertandBenitathatfurtherconversationbetweenthemwasimpossible,andthereproceededtointerchangetheremarkscommontosuchoccasions。
  Foragoodtenminutesdidtheystandthus,carryingonamockquarrelastoadanceofwhichoneofthemwassupposedtohavebeendefrauded,untilRobertSeymour,generallyaveryphilosophicalperson,couldhaveslainthoseinnocentlovers。Hefelt,heknewnotwhy,thathischanceswereslippingawayfromhim;thatsensationofsomethingbadabouttohappen,ofwhichBenitahadspoken,spreadfromhertohim。Thesuspensegrewexasperating,terribleeven,norcoulditbeended。Toaskhertocomeelsewherewasunderthecircumstancesnotfeasible,especiallyashewouldalsohavebeenobligedtorequesttheotherpairtomakewayforthem,andallthistime,withasinkingoftheheart,hefeltthatprobablyBenitawasbeatingdownanytendernesswhichshemightfeeltowardshim;thatwhenherlong-
  delayedanswerdidcomethechanceswereitwouldbe”No。”
  Thepianobegantoplayagaininthesaloon,andtheyoungpeople,stillsquabblingarchly,atlengthpreparedtodepart。Suddenlytherewasastiruponthebridge,andagainstthetenderskyRobertsawamandashforward。Nextinstanttheengine-roombellrangfiercely。Heknewthesignal——itwas”Stop,”followedatoncebyotherringingsthatmeant”Fullspeedastern。””Iwonderwhatisup?”saidtheyoungmantotheyoungwoman。
  Beforethewordshadlefthislipstheyknew。Therewasasensationasthoughallthehullofthegreatshiphadcometoacompletestandstill,whilethetoppartofhercontinuedtotravelforward;
  followedbyanothersensationstillmoreterribleandsickeninginitsnature——thatofslippingoversomething,helplessly,heavily,asamanslipsuponiceorapolishedfloor。Sparscracked,ropesflewintwowithanoiseasofpistolshots。Heavyobjectsrushedaboutthedeck,travellingforwardsallofthem。BenitawashurledfromherchairagainstRobertsothatthetwoofthemrolledintothescuppers。Hewasunhurtandpickedhimselfup,butshelaystill,andhesawthatsomethinghadstruckheruponthehead,forbloodwasrunningdownhercheek。Heliftedher,and,filledwithblackhorroranddespair——forhethoughthergone——pressedhishanduponherheart。ThankGod!itbegantobeatagain——shestilllived。
  Themusicinthesaloonhadstopped,andforalittlewhiletherewassilence。Thenofaninstanttherearosethehorribleclamourofshipwreck;wild-eyedpeoplerushedtoandfroaimlessly;hereandtherewomenandchildrenshrieked;aclergymanfelluponhiskneesandbegantopray。
  Thiswentonforaspace,tillpresentlythesecondofficerappearedand,affectinganunconcernedair,calledoutthatitwasallright,thecaptainsaidnoonewastobeafraid。Headdedthattheywerenotmorethansixmilesfromtheshore,andthattheshipwouldbebeachedinhalfanhour。Indeed,ashespoketheengines,whichhadbeenstopped,commencedtoworkagain,andherheadswungroundinawidecircle,pointingtotheland。Evidentlytheyhadpassedovertherockandwereoncemoreindeepwater,throughwhichtheytravelledatagoodspeedbutwithaheavylisttostarboard。Thepumpsgottoworkalsowithamonotonous,clangingbeat,throwingoutgreatcolumnsoffoamingwaterontotheoilysea。Menbegantocutthecoversofftheboats,andtoswingsomeofthemoutboard。Suchwerethethingsthatwentonaboutthem。
  WiththesenselessBenitaclaspedtohisbreast,thebloodfromhercutheadrunningdownhisshoulder,Robertstoodstillawhile,thinking。Thenhemadeuphismind。Asitchanced,shehadadeckcabin,andthitherheforcedhisway,carryinghertenderlyandwithpatiencethroughthedistractedthrongofpassengers,fortherewerefivehundredsoulsonboardthatship。Hereachedtheplacetofindthatitwasquiteempty,hercabinmatehavingfled。LayingBenitauponthelowerbunk,helittheswingingcandle。Assoonasitburneduphesearchedforthelifebeltsandbygoodfortunefoundtwoofthem,oneofwhich,notwithoutgreatdifficulty,hesucceededinfasteningroundher。Thenhetookaspongeandbathedherheadwithwater。Therewasagreatbruiseuponhertemplewheretheblockorwhateveritwashadstruckher,andthebloodstillflowed;butthewoundwasnotverydeeporextensive,nor,sofarashecoulddiscover,didtheboneappeartobebrokenordrivenin。Hehadgoodhopethatshewasonlystunned,andwouldrevivepresently。Unabletodomoreforher,athoughtstruckhim。Onthefloorofthecabin,thrownbytheshockfromtherack,layherwritingcase。Heopenedit,andtakingapieceofpaperwrotethesewordshurriedlyinpencil:”Yougavemenoanswer,anditismorethanprobablethatIshallreceivenoneinthisworldwhichoneorbothofusmaybeuponthevergeofleaving。Inthelattercasewecansettlethematterelsewhere——perhaps。Intheformer,shoulditbemylottogoandyourstostay,Ihopethatyouwillthinkkindlyofmeattimesasofonewholovedyoutruly。Shoulditbeyourstogo,thenyouwillneverreadthesewords。Yetiftothedeadisgivenknowledge,beassuredthatasyouleftmesoyoushallfindme,yoursandyoursalone。Orperhapswebothmaylive;Iprayso——S。R。S。”
  Foldingupthepaper,heundidabuttonofBenita’sblouseandthrustitawaythere,knowingthatthusshewouldcertainlyfinditshouldshesurvive。Thenhesteppedoutontothedecktoseewhatwashappening。Thevesselstillsteamed,butmadeslowprogress;moreover,thelisttostarboardwasnowsopronouncedthatitwasdifficulttostandupright。Onaccountofitnearlyallthepassengerswerehuddledtogetherupontheportside,havinginstinctivelytakenrefugeasfaraspossibleabovethewater。Amanwithawhite,distraughtfacestaggeredtowardshim,supportinghimselfbythebulwarks。Itwasthecaptain。Foramomenthepausedasthoughtothink,holdingtoastanchion。RobertSeymoursawhisopportunityandaddressedhim。”Forgiveme,”hesaid;”Idonotlikeinterferingwithotherpeople’sbusiness,butforreasonsunconnectedwithmyselfIsuggesttoyouthatitwouldbewisetostopthisshipandgetouttheboats。Theseaiscalm;ifitisnotlefttilltoolatethereshouldbenodifficultyinlaunchingthem。”
  Themanstaredathimabsently,thensaid:”Theywon’tholdeverybody,Mr。Seymour。Ihopetobeachher。””Atleasttheywillholdsome,”heanswered,”whereas——”Andhepointedtothewater,whichbynowwasalmostlevelwiththedeck。”Perhapsyouareright,Mr。Seymour。Itdoesn’tmattertome,anyway。
  Iamaruinedman;butthepoorpassengers——thepoorpassengers!”Andhescrambledawayfiercelytowardsthebridgelikeawoundedcatalongtheboughofatree,whenceinafewsecondsRobertheardhimshoutingorders。
  Aminuteorsoafterwardsthesteamerstopped。Toolatethecaptainhaddecidedtosacrificehisshipandsavethoseshecarried。Theywerebeginningtogetouttheboats。NowRobertreturnedtothecabinwhereBenitawaslyingsenseless,andwrappedherupinacloakandsomeblankets。Then,seeingthesecondlifebeltonthefloor,byanafterthoughtheputiton,knowingthattherewastimetospare。NextheliftedBenita,andfeelingsurethattherushwouldbeforthestarboardside,onwhichtheboatswerequitenearthewater,carriedher,withdifficulty,fortheslopewassteep,totheport-cutter,whichheknewwouldbeinthechargeofagoodman,thesecondofficer,whomhehadseenincommandthereatSundayboat-drills。
  Here,ashehadanticipated,thecrowdwassmall,sincemostpeoplethoughtthatitwouldnotbepossibletogetthisboatdownsafelytothewater;oriftheirpowersofreflectionweregone,instincttoldthemso。Thatskilfulseaman,thesecondofficer,andhisappointedcrew,werealreadyatworkloweringthecutterfromthedavits。”Now,”hesaid,”womenandchildrenfirst。”
  Anumberrushedin,andRobertsawthattheboatwouldsoonbefull。”Iamafraid,”hesaid,”thatImustcountmyselfawomanasIcarryone,”andbyagreateffort,holdingBenitawithonearm,withtheotherhelethimselfdownthefallsand,assistedbyaquartermaster,gainedtheboatinsafety。
  Oneortwoothermenscrambledafterhim。”Pushheroff,”saidtheofficer;”shecanholdnomore,”andtheropeswereletgo。
  Whentheywereabouttwelvefeetfromtheship’sside,fromwhichtheythrustthemselvesclearwithoars,therecamearushofpeople,disappointedofplacesinthestarboardboats。Afewoftheboldestoftheseswarmeddownthefalls,othersjumpedandfellamongthem,ormissedanddroppedintothesea,orstruckuponthesidesoftheboatandwerekilled。Stillshereachedthewateruponanevenkeel,thoughnowmuchoverladen。Theoarsweregotout,andtheyrowedroundthebowofthegreatshipwallowinginherdeath-throes,theirfirstideabeingtomakefortheshore,whichwasnotthreemilesaway。
  Thisbroughtthemtothestarboardside,wheretheysawahideousscene。Hundredsofpeopleseemedtobefightingforroom,withtheresultthatsomeoftheboatswereoverturned,precipitatingtheiroccupantsintothewater。Othershungbytheproworthestern,theropeshavingjammedinthedavitsinthefrantichasteandconfusion,whilefromthemhumanbeingsdroppedonebyone。Roundothersnotyetlaunchedahellishstrugglewasinprogress,thestruggleofmen,women,andchildrenbattlingfortheirlives,inwhichthestrong,madwithterror,showednomercytotheweak。
  Fromthatmassofhumanity,mostofthemabouttoperish,wentupababelofsoundswhichinitssumshapeditselftooneprolongedscream,suchasmightproceedfromaTitaninhisagony。Allthisbeneathabrooding,moonlitsky,andonaseaassmoothasglass。Upontheship,whichnowlayuponherside,thesirenstillsentupitsyellsforsuccour,andsomebravemancontinuedtofirerockets,whichrushedheavenwardsandburstinshowersofstars。
  Robertrememberedthatthelastrockethehadseenwasfiredatanevening/fête/fortheamusementoftheaudience。Thecontraststruckhimasdreadful。Hewonderedwhethertherewereanypowerorinfernalpopulationthatcouldbeamusedbyatragedysuchasenacteditselfbeforehiseyes;howitcameaboutalsothatsuchatragedywaspermittedbythemercifulStrengthinwhichmankindputtheirfaith。
  Thevesselwasturningover,compressedairorsteamburstupthedeckswithloudreports;fragmentsofwreckageflewintotheair。
  Therethepoorcaptainstillclungtotherailofthebridge。Seymourcouldseehiswhiteface——themoonlightseemedtopaintitwithaghastlysmile。Theofficerincommandoftheirboatshoutedtothecrewtogivewaylesttheyshouldbesuckeddownwiththesteamer。
  Look!Nowshewallowedlikeadyingwhale,themoonraysshonewhiteuponherbottom,showingthejaggedrentmadeinitbytherockonwhichshehadstruck,andnowshewasgone。Onlyalittlecloudofsmokeandsteamremainedtomarkwherethe/Zanzibar/hadbeen。
  III
  HOWROBERTCAMEASHORE
  Inplaceofthe/Zanzibar/agreatpitonthefaceoftheocean,inwhichthewatersboiledandblackobjectsappearedanddisappeared。”Sitstill,foryourlives’sake,”saidtheofficerinaquietvoice;”thesuckiscoming。”
  Inanotherminuteitcame,draggingthemdownwardtillthewatertrickledoverthesidesoftheboat,andbackwardtowardsthepit。Butbeforeevertheyreacheditthedeephaddigesteditsprey,and,saveforthegreatair-bubbleswhichburstaboutthemandamixed,unnaturalswell,wascalmagain。Forthemomenttheyweresafe。”Passengers,”saidtheofficer,”Iamgoingtoputouttosea——atanyrate,tilldaylight。Wemaymeetavesselthere,andifwetrytorowashoreweshallcertainlybeswampedinthebreakers。”
  Nooneobjected;theyseemedtoostunnedtospeak,butRobertthoughttohimselfthatthemanwaswise。Theybegantomove,butbeforetheyhadgoneadozenyardssomethingdarkrosebesidethem。Itwasapieceofwreckage,andclingingtoitawoman,whoclaspedabundletoherbreast。More,shewasalive,forshebegantocrytothemtotakeherin。”Savemeandmychild!”shecried。”ForGod’ssakesaveme!”
  Robertrecognizedthechokingvoice;itwasthatofayoungmarriedladywithwhomhehadbeenveryfriendly,whowasgoingoutwithherbabytojoinherhusbandinNatal。Hestretchedouthishandandcaughtholdofher,whereontheofficersaid,heavily:”Theboatisalreadyoverladen。Imustwarnyouthattotakemoreaboardisnotsafe。”
  Thereonthepassengersawokefromtheirstupor。”Pushheroff,”criedavoice;”shemusttakeherchance。”Andtherewasamurmurofapprovalatthedreadfulwords。”ForChrist’ssake——forChrist’ssake!”wailedthedrowningwoman,whoclungdesperatelytoRobert’shand。”Ifyoutrytopullherin,wewillthrowyouoverboard,”saidthevoiceagain,andaknifewasliftedasthoughtohackathisarm。Thentheofficerspokeoncemore。”Thisladycannotcomeintotheboatunlesssomeonegoesoutofit。I
  wouldmyself,butitismydutytostay。Isthereanymanherewhowillmakeplaceforher?”
  Butallthementhere——sevenofthem,besidesthecrew——hungtheirheadsandweresilent。”Giveway,”saidtheofficerinthesameheavyvoice;”shewilldropoffpresently。”
  WhilethewordspassedhislipsRobertseemedtoliveayear。Herewasanopportunityofatonementforhisidleandluxuriouslife。Anhouragohewouldhavetakenitgladly,butnow——now,withBenitasenselessonhisbreast,andthatanswerstilllockedinhersleepingheart?YetBenitawouldapproveofsuchadeathasthis,andevenifshelovedhimnotinlife,wouldlearntolovehismemory。Inaninstanthismindwasmadeup,andhewasspeakingrapidly。”Thompson,”hesaidtotheofficer,”ifIgo,willyousweartotakeherinandherchild?””Certainly,Mr。Seymour。””Thenlayto;Iamgoing。Ifanyofyoulive,tellthisladyhowI
  died,”andhepointedtoBenita,”andsayIthoughtthatshewouldwishit。””Sheshallbetold,”saidtheofficeragain,”andsaved,too,ifIcandoit。””HoldMrs。Jeffreys,then,tillIamoutofthis。I’llleavemycoattocoverher。”
  Asailorobeyed,andwithdifficultyRobertwrenchedfreehishand。
  VerydeliberatelyhepressedBenitatohisbreastandkissedherontheforehead,thenlethergentlyslideontothebottomoftheboat。
  Nextheslippedoffhisovercoatandslowlyrolledhimselfoverthegunwaleintothesea。”Now,”hesaid,”pullMrs。Jeffreysin。””Godblessyou;youareabraveman,”saidThompson。”IshallrememberyouifIliveahundredyears。”
  Butnooneelsesaidanything;perhapstheywerealltoomuchashamed,eventhen。”Ihaveonlydonemyduty,”Seymouransweredfromthewater。”Howfarisittotheshore?””Aboutthreemiles,”shoutedThompson。”Butkeeponthatplank,oryouwillneverlivethroughtherollers。Good-bye。””Good-bye,”answeredRobert。
  Thentheboatpassedawayfromhimandsoonvanishedinthemistyfaceofthedeep。
  RestingontheplankwhichhadsavedthelifeofMrs。Jeffreys,RobertSeymourlookedabouthimandlistened。Nowandagainheheardafaint,chokingscreamutteredbysomedrowningwretch,andafewhundredyardsawaycaughtsightofablackobjectwhichhethoughtmightbeaboat。Ifso,hereflectedthatitmustbefull。Moreover,hecouldnotovertakeit。No;hisonlychancewastomakefortheshore。Hewasastrongswimmer,andhappilythewaterwasalmostaswarmasmilk。
  Thereseemedtobenoreasonwhyheshouldnotreachit,supportedashewasbyalifebelt,ifthesharkswouldleavehimalone,whichtheymight,astherewasplentyforthemtofeedon。Thedirectionheknewwellenough,fornowinthegreatsilenceoftheseahecouldheartheboomofthemightyrollersbreakingonthebeach。
  Ah,thoserollers!HerememberedhowthatveryafternoonBenitaandhehadwatchedthemthroughhisfieldglasssproutingupagainstthecruelwallsofrock,andwonderedthatwhentheoceanwassocalmtheyhadstillsuchpower。Now,shouldhelivetoreachthem,hewasdoomedtomatchhimselfagainstthatpower。Well,thesoonerhedidsothesooneritwouldbeover,onewayortheother。Thiswasinhisfavour:
  thetidehadturned,andwasflowingshorewards。Indeed,hehadlittletodobuttorestuponhisplank,whichheplacedcrosswisebeneathhisbreast,andsteeredhimselfwithhisfeet。Eventhushemadegoodprogress,nearlyamileanhourperhaps。Hecouldhavegonefasterhadheswum,buthewassavinghisstrength。
  Itwasastrangejourneyuponthatsilentseabeneaththosesilentstars,andstrangethoughtscameintoRobert’ssoul。HewonderedwhetherBenitawouldliveandwhatshewouldsay。Perhaps,however,shewasalreadydead,andhewouldmeetherpresently。Hewonderedifheweredoomedtodie,andwhetherthissacrificeofhiswouldbeallowedtoatoneforhispasterrors。Hehopedso,andputupapetitiontothateffect,forhimselfandforBenita,andforallthepoorpeoplewhohadgonebefore,hurledfromtheirpleasureintothehallsofDeath。
  Sohefloatedonwhiletheboomofthebreakersgrewevernearer,companionedbyhiswild,fretfulthoughts,tillatlengthwhathetooktobeasharkappearedquiteclosetohim,andintheurgencyofthemomenthegaveupwondering。Itprovedtobeonlyapieceofwood,butlateronarealsharkdidcome,forhesawitsbackfin。However,thiscruelcreaturewaseithergorgedortimid,forwhenhesplasheduponthewaterandshouted,itwentaway,toreturnnomore。
  Now,atlength,Robertentereduponthedeephillandvalleyswellwhichprecededthefieldoftherollers。Suddenlyheshotdownasmoothslope,andwithouteffortofhisownfoundhimselfborneupanopposingsteep,fromthecrestofwhichhehadaviewofwhitelinesoffoam,andbeyondthemofadimandrockyshore。Atonespot,alittletohisright,thefoamseemedthinnerandthelineofclifftobebroken,asthoughheretherewasacleft。Forthiscleft,then,hesteeredhisplank,takingtheswellobliquely,whichbygoodfortunethesetofthetideenabledhimtodowithoutanygreatexertion。
  Thevalleysgrewdeeper,andthetopsoftheopposingridgeswerecrestedwithfoam。Hehadenteredtherollers,andthestruggleforlifebegan。Beforehimtheyrushedsolemnandmighty。Viewedfromsomesafeplaceeventhesightofthesecombersisterrible,asanywhohavewatchedthemfromthiscoast,orfromthatoftheIslandofAscension,canbearwitness。Whattheiraspectwastothisshipwreckedman,supportedbyasingleplank,maythereforebeimagined,seen,ashesawthem,inthemysteriousmoonlightandinutterloneliness。Yethisspiritrosetomeetthedreademergency;ifheweretodie,hewoulddiefighting。Hehadgrowncoldandtired,butnowthechillandwearinesslefthim;hefeltwarmandstrong。Fromthecrestofoneofthehighrollershethoughthesawthatabouthalfamileawayfromhimalittleriverrandownthecentreofthegorge,andforthemouthofthisriverhelaidhiscourse。
  Atfirstallwentwell。Hewasborneuptheseas;hesliddowntheseasinalatherofwhitefoam。Presentlytheriseandfallgrewsteeper,andthefoambegantobreakoverhishead。Robertcouldnolongerguidehimself;hemustgoashewascarried。Theninaninstanthewascarriedintoahellofwaterswhere,haditnotbeenforhislifebeltandtheplank,hemusthavebeenbeatendownandhaveperished。Asitwas,nowhewasdrivenintothedepths,andnowheemergedupontheirsurfacetoheartheirseethinghissaroundhim,andaboveitallacontinuousboomasofgreatguns——theboomofthebreakingseas。
  Theplankwasalmosttwistedfromhisgrasp,butheclungtoitdesperately,althoughitsedgestorehisarms。Whentherollersbrokeoverhimheheldhisbreath,andwhenhewastossedskywardsontheircurves,drewitagaininquick,sweetgasps。Nowhesatupontheverybrowofoneofthemasamermanmight;nowhedivedlikeadolphin,andnow,justashissenseswereleavinghim,hisfeettouchedbottom。
  AnothermomentandRobertwasbeingrolledalongthatbottomwithaweightonhimliketheweightofmountains。Theplankwasrentfromhim,buthiscorkjacketbroughthimup。Thebackwashdrewhimwithitintodeeperwater,wherehelayhelplessanddespairing,forhenolongerhadanystrengthtostruggleagainsthisdoom。
  Thenitwasthattherecameamightyroller,biggerthananythathehadseen——suchaoneasonthatcoasttheKaffirscall”afatherofwaves。”Itcaughthimintheembraceofitsvastgreencurve。Itborehimforwardasthoughhewerebutastraw,farforwardoverthestretchofcruelrocks。Itbrokeinthunder,dashinghimagainuponthestonesandsandofthelittleriverbar,rollinghimalongwithitsresistlessmight,tilleventhatmightwasexhausted,anditsfoambegantoreturnseawards,suckinghimwithit。
  Robert’smindwasalmostgone,butenoughofitremainedtotellhimthatifoncemorehewasdraggedintothedeepwaterhemustbelost。
  Asthecurrenthaledhimalonghegrippedatthebottomwithhishands,andbythemercyofHeaventheyclosedonsomething。Itmayhavebeenatree-stumpembeddedthere,orarock——heneverknew。Atleast,itwasfirm,andtoithehungdespairingly。Wouldthatrushnevercease?Hislungswerebursting;hemustletgo!Oh!thefoamwasthinning;hisheadwasaboveitnow;nowithaddeparted,leavinghimlikeastrandedfishupontheshingle。Forhalfaminuteormorehelaytheregasping,thenlookedbehindhimtoseeanothercomberapproachingthroughthegloom。Hestruggledtohisfeet,fell,roseagain,andran,orrather,staggeredforwardwiththattigerishwaterhissingathisheels。Forward,stillforward,tillhewasbeyonditsreach——yes,ondrysand。Thenhisvitalforcesfailedhim;oneofhislegsgaveway,and,bleedingfromahundredhurts,hefellheavilyontohisface,andtherewasstill。
  TheboatinwhichBenitalay,beingsodeepinthewater,provedveryhardtorowagainstthetide,forthenumberofitspassengersencumberedtheoarsmen。Afterawhilealightofflandbreezesprangup,ashereitoftendoestowardsmorning;andtheofficer,Thompson,determinedtoriskhoistingthesail。Accordinglythiswasdone——withsomedifficulty,forthemasthadtobedrawnoutandshipped——
  althoughthewomenscreamedastheweightoftheairbenttheirfrailcraftovertillthegunwalewasalmostlevelwiththewater。”Anyonewhomovesshallbethrownoverboard!”saidtheofficer,whosteered,afterwhichtheywerequiet。
  Nowtheymadegoodprogressseawards,buttheanxietiesofthosewhoknewwereverygreat,sincethewindshowedsignsofrising,andifanyswellshouldspringupthatcrowdedcuttercouldscarcelyhopetolive。Infact,twohourslatertheywereforcedtolowerthesailagainanddrift,waitingforthedawn。Mr。Thompsonstrovetocheerthem,sayingthatnowtheywereinthetrackofvessels,andiftheycouldseenonewhenthelightcame,hewouldrunalongtheshoreinthehopeoffindingaplacefreeofbreakerswheretheymightland。Iftheydidnotinspirehope,atleasthiswordscalmedthem,andtheysatinheavysilence,watchingthesky。
  Atlengthitgrewgrey,andthen,withasuddenglorypeculiartoSouthAfrica,thegreatredsunaroseandbegantodispelthemistfromthesurfaceofthesea。Halfanhourmoreandthiswasgone,andnowthebrightraysbroughtlifebackintotheirchilledframesastheystaredateachothertoseewhichoftheircompanywerestillleftalive。Theyevenaskedforfood,andbiscuitwasgiventothemwithwater。
  AllthiswhileBenitaremainedunconscious。Indeed,onecallousfellow,whohadbeenusingherbodyasafootstool,saidthatshemustbedead,andhadbetterbethrownoverboard,asitwouldlightentheboat。”Ifyouthrowthatladyintothesea,livingordead,”saidMr。
  Thompson,withanominousliftofhiseye,”yougowithher,Mr。
  Batten。Rememberwhobroughtherhereandhowhedied。”
  ThenMr。Battenheldhispeace,whileThompsonstoodupandscannedthewideexpanseofsea。Presentlyhewhisperedtoasailornearhim,whoalsostoodup,looked,andnodded。”ThatwillbetheotherLine’sintermediateboat,”hesaid,andthepassengers,craningtheirheadsround,sawfarawaytotherightastreakofsmokeuponthehorizon。Ordersweregiven,alittlecornerofsailwashoisted,withawhiteclothofsomesorttiedaboveit,andtheoarsweregotout。Oncemorethecuttermovedforward,bearingtotheleftinthehopeofinterceptingthesteamer。
  Shecameonwithterribleswiftness,andtheywhohadmilesofwatertocover,daredhoistnomoresailinthatbreeze。Inhalfanhourshewasnearlyoppositetothem,andtheywerestillfaraway。Alittlemoresailwasletout,drivingthemthroughthewateratasquickarateastheycouldventuretogo。Thesteamerwaspassingthreemilesorsoaway,andblackdespairtookholdofthem。NowtheresourcefulThompson,withoutapologies,undressed,andremovingthewhiteshirtthathehadwornatthedance,badeasailortotieittoanoarandwaveittoandfro。
  Stillthesteamerwenton,untilpresentlytheyheardhersirengoing,andsawthatshewasputtingabout。”Shehasseenus,”saidThompson。”ThankGod,allofyou,forthereiswindcomingup。Pulldownthatsail;weshan’tneeditanymore。”
  Halfanhourlater,withmanyprecautions,forthewindheprophesiedwasalreadytroublingtheseaandsendinglittlesplashesofwateroverthesternoftheirdeeplyladenboat,theywerefasttoalinethrownfromthedeckofthethreethousandtonsteamer/Castle/,boundforNatal。Then,witharattle,downcametheaccommodationladder,andstrong-armedmen,standingonitsgrating,draggedthemonebyonefromthedeathtowhichtheyhadbeensonear。Thelasttobeliftedup,exceptThompson,wasBenita,roundwhomitwasnecessarytoreevearope。”Anyuse?”askedtheofficeronthegratingasheglancedatherquietform。”Can’tsay;Ihopeso,”answeredThompson。”Callyourdoctor。”Andgentlyenoughshewasborneuptheship’sside。
  Theywantedtocastofftheboat,butThompsonremonstrated,andintheendthatalsowasdraggedtodeck。Meanwhilethenewshadspread,andtheawakenedpassengersofthe/Castle/,cladinpyjamas,dressing-gowns,andevenblankets,werecrowdingroundthepoorcastawaysorhelpingthemtotheircabins。”Iamateetotaller,”saidsecondofficerThompsonwhenhehadmadeabriefreporttothecaptainofthe/Castle/,”butifanyonewillstandmeawhiskeyandsodaIshallbeobligedtohim。”
  IV
  MR。CLIFFORD
  Althoughtheshockoftheblowshehadreceiveduponherheadwassufficienttomakeherinsensibleforsomanyhours,Benita’sinjurieswerenotofareallyseriousnature,forasithappenedthefallingblock,orwhateveritmayhavebeen,hadhitherforeheadslantwise,andnotfull,towhichaccidentsheoweditthat,althoughtheskinwastornandthescalpbruised,herskullhadescapedfracture。Underpropermedicalcarehersensessooncamebacktoher,butasshewasquitedazedandthoughtherselfstillonboardthe/Zanzibar/,thedoctorconsidereditwisetopreserveherinthatillusionforawhile。Soaftershehadswallowedsomebrothhegaveherasleepingdraught,theeffectsofwhichshedidnotshakeofftillthefollowingmorning。
  Thenshecametoherselfcompletely,andwasastonishedtofeelthepaininherhead,whichhadbeenbandaged,andtoseeastrangestewardesssittingbyherwithacupofbeef-teainherhand。”WhereamI?Isitadream?”sheasked。”DrinkthisandIwilltellyou,”answeredthestewardess。
  Benitaobeyed,forshefelthungry,thenrepeatedherquestion。”Yoursteamerwasshipwrecked,”saidthestewardess,”andagreatmanypoorpeopleweredrowned,butyouweresavedinaboat。Look,thereareyourclothes;theywereneverinthewater。””Whocarriedmeintotheboat?”askedBenitainalowvoice。”Agentleman,theysay,Miss,whohadwrappedyouinablanketandputalifebeltonyou。”
  NowBenitarememberedeverythingthathappenedbeforethedarknessfell——thequestiontowhichshehadgivennoanswer,theyoungcouplewhostoodflirtingbyher——allcamebacktoher。”WasMr。Seymoursaved?”shewhispered,herfacegreywithdread。”Idaresay,Miss,”answeredthestewardessevasively。”Butthereisnogentlemanofthatnameaboardthisship。”
  Atthatmomentthedoctorcamein,andhim,too,shepliedwithquestions。ButhavinglearnedthestoryofRobert’sself-sacrificefromMr。Thompsonandtheothers,hewouldgivehernoanswer,forheguessedhowmattershadstoodbetweenthem,andfearedtheeffectsoftheshock。AllhecouldsaywasthathehopedMr。Seymourhadescapedinsomeotherboat。