Thenhewentupstairstohiswifewithacupofteabecauseshe,wasill,andbecauseitoccurredtohim。
“I’vebroughttheeacupo’tea,lass,“hesaid。
“Well,youneedn’t,foryouknowIdon’tlikeit,“shereplied。
“Drinkitup;it’llpoptheeofftosleepagain。”
Sheacceptedthetea。Itpleasedhimtoseehertakeit,andsipit。
“I’llbackmylifethere’snosugarin,“shesaid。
“Yi——there’sonebig’un,“hereplied,injured。
“It’sawonder,“shesaid,sippingagain。
Shehadawinsomefacewhenherhairwasloose。Helovedher,togrumbleathiminthismanner。Helookedatheragain,andwent,withoutanysortofleave-taking。Henevertookmorethantwoslices,ofbreadandbuttertoeatinthepit,soanappleoranorangewas,atreattohim。Healwayslikeditwhensheputoneoutforhim。
Hetiedascarfroundhisneck,putonhisgreat,heavyboots,hiscoat,withthebigpocket,thatcarriedhissnap-bagandhisbottleoftea,andwentforthintothefreshmorningair,closing,withoutlocking,thedoorbehindhim。Helovedtheearlymorning,andthewalkacross,thefields。Soheappearedatthepit-top,oftenwithastalk,fromthehedgebetweenhisteeth,whichhechewedalldaytokeep,hismouthmoist,downthemine,feelingquiteashappyaswhenhe,wasinthefield。
Later,whenthetimeforthebabygrewnearer,hewould,bustleroundinhisslovenlyfashion,pokingouttheashes,rubbingthefireplace,sweepingthehousebeforehewenttowork。
Then,feelingveryself-righteous,hewentupstairs。
“NowI’mcleanedupforthee:,tha’sno’casionsterstir,apegallday,butsitandreadthybooks。”
Whichmadeherlaugh,inspiteofherindignation。
“Andthedinnercooksitself?”sheanswered。
“Eh,Iknownowtaboutth’dinner。”
“You’dknowifthereweren’tany。”
“Ay,’appenso,“heanswered,departing。
Whenshegotdownstairs,shewouldfindthehousetidy,butdirty。Shecouldnotrestuntilshehadthoroughlycleaned;
soshewentdowntotheash-pitwithherdustpan。Mrs。Kirk,spyingher,wouldcontrivetohavetogotoherowncoal-placeat,thatminute。Then,acrossthewoodenfence,shewouldcall:
“Soyoukeepwaggingon,then?”
“Ay,“answeredMrs。Moreldeprecatingly。”There’snothing,elseforit。”
“HaveyouseenHose?”calledaverysmallwomanfromacross,theroad。ItwasMrs。Anthony,ablack-haired,strangelittlebody,whoalwaysworeabrownvelvetdress,tightfitting。
“Ihaven’t,“saidMrs。Morel。
“Eh,Iwishhe’dcome。I’vegotacopperfulofclothes,an’
I’msureIheeredhisbell。”
“Hark!,He’sattheend。”
Thetwowomenlookeddownthealley。AttheendoftheBottoms,amanstoodinasortofold-fashionedtrap,bendingoverbundles,ofcream-colouredstuff;whileaclusterofwomenhelduptheir,armstohim,somewithbundles。Mrs。Anthonyherselfhadaheap,ofcreamy,undyedstockingshangingoverherarm。
“I’vedonetendozenthisweek,“shesaidproudlytoMrs。Morel。
“T-t-t!”wenttheother。”Idon’tknowhowyoucanfindtime。”
“Eh!”saidMrs。Anthony。”Youcanfindtimeifyoumaketime。”
“Idon’tknowhowyoudoit,“saidMrs。Morel。”Andhowmuch,shallyougetforthosemany?”
“Tuppence-ha’pennyadozen,“repliedtheother。
“Well,“saidMrs。Morel。”I’dstarvebeforeI’dsitdown,andseamtwenty-fourstockingsfortwopenceha’penny。”
“Oh,Idon’tknow,“saidMrs。Anthony。”Youcanripalong,with’em。”
Hosewascomingalong,ringinghisbell。Womenwerewaitingat,theyard-endswiththeirseamedstockingshangingovertheirarms。
Theman,acommonfellow,madejokeswiththem,triedtoswindlethem,andbulliedthem。Mrs。Morelwentupheryarddisdainfully。
Itwasanunderstoodthingthatifonewomanwanted,herneighbour,sheshouldputthepokerinthefireandbangat,thebackofthefireplace,which,asthefireswerebacktoback,wouldmakeagreatnoiseintheadjoininghouse。Onemorning,Mrs。Kirk,mixingapudding,nearlystartedoutofherskinasshe,heardthethud,thud,inhergrate。Withherhandsallfloury,sherushedtothefence。
“Didyouknock,Mrs。Morel?”
“Ifyouwouldn’tmind,Mrs。Kirk。”
Mrs。Kirkclimbedontohercopper,gotoverthewall,ontoMrs。Morel’scopper,andranintoherneighbour。
“Eh,dear,howareyoufeeling?”shecriedinconcern。
“YoumightfetchMrs。Bower,“saidMrs。Morel。
Mrs。Kirkwentintotheyard,liftedupherstrong,shrillvoice,andcalled:
“Ag-gie——Ag-gie!”
ThesoundwasheardfromoneendoftheBottomstotheother。
AtlastAggiecamerunningup,andwassentforMrs。Bower,whilstMrs。Kirkleftherpuddingandstayedwithherneighbour。
Mrs。Morelwenttobed。Mrs。KirkhadAnnieandWilliam,fordinner。Mrs。Bower,fatandwaddling,bossedthehouse。
“Hashsomecoldmeatupforthemaster’sdinner,andmakehim,anapple-charlottepudding,“saidMrs。Morel。
“Hemaygowithoutpuddingthisday,“saidMrs。Bower。
Morelwasnotasaruleoneofthefirsttoappearatthebottom,ofthepit,readytocomeup。Somemenweretherebeforefouro’clock,whenthewhistleblewloose-all;butMorel,whosestall,apoorone,wasatthistimeaboutamileandahalfawayfromthebottom,workedusuallytillthefirstmatestopped,thenhefinishedalso。
Thisday,however,theminerwassickofthework。Attwoo’clock,helookedathiswatch,bythelightofthegreencandle——he,wasinasafeworking——andagainathalf-pasttwo。Hewashewing,atapieceofrockthatwasinthewayforthenextday’swork。
Ashesatonhisheels,orkneeled,givinghardblowswithhispick,“Uszza——uszza!”hewent。
“Shallterfinish,Sorry?”criedBarker,hisfellowbutty。
“Finish?,Niverwhiletheworldstands!”growledMorel。
Andhewentonstriking。Hewastired。
“It’saheart-breakingjob,“saidBarker。
ButMorelwastooexasperated,attheendofhistether,toanswer。Stillhestruckandhackedwithallhismight。
“Thamightaswellleaveit,Walter,“saidBarker。
“It’lldoto-morrow,withouttheehackin’thygutsout。”
“I’lllaynob——fingeronthisto-morrow,Isr’el!”criedMorel。
“Oh,well,ifthawunna,somebodyelse’llha’eto,“saidIsrael。
ThenMorelcontinuedtostrike。
“Hey-upthere——LOOSE-A’!”criedthemen,leavingthenextstall。
Morelcontinuedtostrike。
“Tha’llhappencatchmeup,“saidBarker,departing。
Whenhehadgone,Morel,leftalone,feltsavage。Hehad,notfinishedhisjob。Hehadoverworkedhimselfintoafrenzy。
Rising,wetwithsweat,hethrewhistooldown,pulledonhiscoat,blewouthiscandle,tookhislamp,andwent。Downthemainroad,thelightsoftheothermenwentswinging。Therewasahollow,soundofmanyvoices。Itwasalong,heavytrampunderground。
Hesatatthebottomofthepit,wherethegreatdropsofwater,fellplash。Manycollierswerewaitingtheirturnstogoup,talkingnoisily。Morelgavehisanswersshortanddisagreeable。
“It’srainin’,Sorry,“saidoldGiles,whohadhadthenews,fromthetop。
Morelfoundonecomfort。Hehadhisoldumbrella,whichheloved,inthelampcabin。Atlasthetookhisstandonthechair,andwasatthetopinamoment。Thenhehandedinhislampandgot,hisumbrella,whichhehadboughtatanauctionforone-and-six。He,stoodontheedgeofthepit-bankforamoment,lookingoutover,thefields;greyrainwasfalling。Thetrucksstoodfullofwet,brightcoal。Waterrandownthesidesofthewaggons,overthe,white“C。W。andCo。”。Colliers,walkingindifferenttotherain,werestreamingdownthelineandupthefield,agrey,dismalhost。
Morelputuphisumbrella,andtookpleasurefromthepepperingof,thedropsthereon。
AllalongtheroadtoBestwoodtheminerstramped,wetand,greyanddirty,buttheirredmouthstalkingwithanimation。
Morelalsowalkedwithagang,buthesaidnothing。Hefrowned,peevishlyashewent。ManymenpassedintothePrinceofWalesorinto,Ellen’s。Morel,feelingsufficientlydisagreeabletoresisttemptation,trudgedalongunderthedrippingtreesthatoverhungtheparkwall,anddownthemudofGreenhillLane。
Mrs。Morellayinbed,listeningtotherain,andthefeet,ofthecolliersfromMinton,theirvoices,andthebang,bangof,thegatesastheywentthroughthestileupthefield。
“There’ssomeherbbeerbehindthepantrydoor,“shesaid。
“Th’master’llwantadrink,ifhedoesn’tstop。”
Buthewaslate,sosheconcludedhehadcalledforadrink,sinceitwasraining。Whatdidhecareaboutthechildorher?
Shewasveryillwhenherchildrenwereborn。
“Whatisit?”sheasked,feelingsicktodeath。
“Aboy。”
Andshetookconsolationinthat。Thethoughtofbeingthe,motherofmenwaswarmingtoherheart。Shelookedatthechild。
Ithadblueeyes,andalotoffairhair,andwasbonny。
Herlovecameuphot,inspiteofeverything。Shehaditinbed,withher。
Morel,thinkingnothing,draggedhiswayupthegardenpath,wearilyandangrily。Heclosedhisumbrella,andstooditinthe,sink;thenheslutheredhisheavybootsintothekitchen。
Mrs。Bowerappearedintheinnerdoorway。
“Well,“shesaid,“she’saboutasbadasshecanbe。
It’saboychildt。”
Theminergrunted,puthisemptysnap-bagandhistinbottle,onthedresser,wentbackintothesculleryandhunguphiscoat,thencameanddroppedintohischair。
“Hanyergotadrink?”heasked。
Thewomanwentintothepantry。Therewasheardthepop,ofacork。Shesetthemug,withalittle,disgustedrap,onthe,tablebeforeMorel。Hedrank,gasped,wipedhisbigmoustacheon,theendofhisscarf,drank,gasped,andlaybackinhischair。
Thewomanwouldnotspeaktohimagain。Shesethisdinnerbeforehim,andwentupstairs。
“Wasthatthemaster?”askedMrs。Morel。
“I’vegavehimhisdinner,“repliedMrs。Bower。
Afterhehadsatwithhisarmsonthetable——heresented,thefactthatMrs。Bowerputnoclothonforhim,andgavehim,alittleplate,insteadofafull-sizeddinner-plate——hebegan,toeat。Thefactthathiswifewasill,thathehadanotherboy,wasnothingtohimatthatmoment。Hewastootired;hewanted,hisdinner;hewantedtositwithhisarmslyingontheboard;
hedidnotlikehavingMrs。Bowerabout。Thefirewastoosmall,topleasehim。
Afterhehadfinishedhismeal,hesatfortwentyminutes;
thenhestokedupabigfire。Then,inhisstockingedfeet,hewentreluctantlyupstairs。Itwasastruggletofacehiswife,atthismoment,andhewastired。Hisfacewasblack,andsmeared,withsweat。Hissinglethaddriedagain,soakingthedirtin。
Hehadadirtywoollenscarfroundhisthroat。Sohestoodatthefoot,ofthebed。
“Well,howareter,then?”heasked。
“Is’llbeallright,“sheanswered。
“H’m!”
Hestoodatalosswhattosaynext。Hewastired,andthis,botherwasratheranuisancetohim,andhedidn’tquiteknow,wherehewas。
“Alad,thasays,“hestammered。
Sheturneddownthesheetandshowedthechild。
“Blesshim!”hemurmured。Whichmadeherlaugh,becausehe,blessedbyrote——pretendingpaternalemotion,whichhedidnotfeel,justthen。
“Gonow,“shesaid。
“Iwill,mylass,“heanswered,turningaway。
Dismissed,hewantedtokissher,buthedarednot。Shehalf,wantedhimtokissher,butcouldnotbringherselftogiveanysign。
Sheonlybreathedfreelywhenhewasgoneoutoftheroomagain,leavingbehindhimafaintsmellofpit-dirt。
Mrs。MorelhadavisiteverydayfromtheCongregationalclergyman。
Mr。Heatonwasyoung,andverypoor。Hiswifehaddiedatthe,birthofhisfirstbaby,soheremainedaloneinthemanse。
HewasaBachelorofArtsofCambridge,veryshy,andnopreacher。
Mrs。Morelwasfondofhim,andhedependedonher。Forhours,hetalkedtoher,whenshewaswell。Hebecamethegod-parent,ofthechild。
OccasionallytheministerstayedtoteawithMrs。Morel。Thenshe,laidtheclothearly,gotoutherbestcups,withalittlegreenrim,andhopedMorelwouldnotcometoosoon;indeed,ifhestayedforapint,shewouldnotmindthisday。Shehadalwaystwodinnerstocook,becauseshebelievedchildrenshouldhavetheirchiefmealatmidday,whereasMorelneededhisatfiveo’clock。SoMr。Heatonwouldhold,thebaby,whilstMrs。Morelbeatupabatter-puddingorpeeled,thepotatoes,andhe,watchingherallthetime,woulddiscuss,hisnextsermon。Hisideaswerequaintandfantastic。Shebrought,himjudiciouslytoearth。ItwasadiscussionoftheweddingatCana。
“WhenHechangedthewaterintowineatCana,“hesaid,“thatisasymbolthattheordinarylife,eventheblood,ofthemarriedhusbandandwife,whichhadbeforebeenuninspired,likewater,becamefilledwiththeSpirit,andwasaswine,because,whenloveenters,thewholespiritualconstitutionofamanchanges,isfilledwiththeHolyGhost,andalmosthisformisaltered。”
Mrs。Morelthoughttoherself:
“Yes,poorfellow,hisyoungwifeisdead;thatiswhyhe,makeshisloveintotheHolyGhost。”
Theywerehalfwaydowntheirfirstcupofteawhentheyheard,theslutherofpit-boots。
“Goodgracious!”exclaimedMrs。Morel,inspiteofherself。
Theministerlookedratherscared。Morelentered。Hewas,feelingrathersavage。Henoddeda“Howd’yerdo“totheclergyman,whorosetoshakehandswithhim。
“Nay,“saidMorel,showinghishand,“looktheeatit!
Thaniverwantstershakehandswi’ahandlikethat,doester?
There’stoomuchpick-haftandshovel-dirtonit。”
Theministerflushedwithconfusion,andsatdownagain。
Mrs。Morelrose,carriedoutthesteamingsaucepan。Moreltookoff,hiscoat,draggedhisarmchairtotable,andsatdownheavily。
“Areyoutired?”askedtheclergyman。
“Tired?Ihamthat,“repliedMorel。”YOUdon’tknowwhatit,istobetired,asI’Mtired。”
“No,“repliedtheclergyman。
“Why,lookyer’ere,“saidtheminer,showingtheshoulders,ofhissinglet。”It’sabitdrynow,butit’swetasaclout,withsweatevenyet。Feelit。”
“Goodness!”criedMrs。Morel。”Mr。Heatondoesn’twanttofeel,yournastysinglet。”
Theclergymanputouthishandgingerly。
“No,perhapshedoesn’t,“saidMorel;“butit’s,allcomeoutofme,whetherornot。An’iv’ryday,alikemysinglet’swringin’wet。’Aven’tyougot,adrink,Missis,foramanwhenhecomeshomebarkledupfromthepit?”
“Youknowyoudrankallthebeer,“saidMrs。Morel,pouringout,histea。
“An’wastherenomoretobegot?”Turningtotheclergyman——“A
mangetsthatcakedupwi’th’dust,youknow,——thatcloggedup,downacoal-mine,heNEEDSadrinkwhenhecomeshome。”
“Iamsurehedoes,“saidtheclergyman。
“Butit’stentooneifthere’sowtforhim。”
“There’swater——andthere’stea,“saidMrs。Morel。
“Water!,It’snotwateras’llclearhisthroat。”
Hepouredoutasaucerfuloftea,blewit,andsuckeditup,throughhisgreatblackmoustache,sighingafterwards。Thenhe,pouredoutanothersaucerful,andstoodhiscuponthetable。
“Mycloth!”saidMrs。Morel,puttingitonaplate。
“AmanascomeshomeasIdo’stootiredtocareaboutcloths,“
saidMorel。
“Pity!”exclaimedhiswife,sarcastically。
Theroomwasfullofthesmellofmeatandvegetables,andpit-clothes。
Heleanedovertotheminister,hisgreatmoustachethrustforward,hismouthveryredinhisblackface。
“Mr。Heaton,“hesaid,“amanashasbeendowntheblack,holeallday,dingin’awayatacoal-face,yi,asightharder,thanthatwall——“
“Needn’tmakeamoanofit,“putinMrs。Morel。
Shehatedherhusbandbecause,wheneverhehadanaudience,hewhinedandplayedforsympathy。William,sittingnursing,thebaby,hatedhim,withaboy’shatredforfalsesentiment,andforthestupidtreatmentofhismother。Anniehadneverlikedhim;
shemerelyavoidedhim。
Whentheministerhadgone,Mrs。Morellookedathercloth。
“Afinemess!”shesaid。
“Dos’tthinkI’mgoin’tositwi’myarmsdanglin’,costha’s,gotaparsonforteawi’thee?”hebawled。
Theywerebothangry,butshesaidnothing。Thebabybegan,tocry,andMrs。Morel,pickingupasaucepanfromthehearth,accidentallyknockedAnnieonthehead,whereuponthegirlbegan,towhine,andMoreltoshoutather。Inthemidstofthispandemonium,Williamlookedupatthebigglazedtextoverthemantelpiece,andreaddistinctly:
“GodBlessOurHome!”
WhereuponMrs。Morel,tryingtosoothethebaby,jumpedup,rushedathim,boxedhisears,saying:
“WhatareYOUputtinginfor?”
Andthenshesatdownandlaughed,tilltearsranover,hercheeks,whileWilliamkickedthestoolhehadbeensittingon,andMorelgrowled:
“Icannaseewhatthereissomuchtolaughat。”
Oneevening,directlyaftertheparson’svisit,feelingunable,tobearherselfafteranotherdisplayfromherhusband,shetook,Annieandthebabyandwentout。MorelhadkickedWilliam,andthemotherwouldneverforgivehim。
Shewentoverthesheep-bridgeandacrossacornerofthe,meadowtothecricket-ground。Themeadowsseemedonespaceofripe,eveninglight,whisperingwiththedistantmill-race。Shesat,onaseatunderthealdersinthecricket-ground,andfronted,theevening。Beforeher,levelandsolid,spreadthebiggreencricket-field,likethebedofaseaoflight。
Childrenplayedinthebluishshadowofthepavilion。Manyrooks,highup,camecawinghomeacrossthesoftly-wovensky。Theystooped,inalongcurvedownintothegoldenglow,concentrating,cawing,wheeling,likeblackflakesonaslowvortex,overatreeclump,thatmadeadarkbossamongthepasture。
Afewgentlemenwerepractising,andMrs。Morelcouldhear,thechockoftheball,andthevoicesofmensuddenlyroused;
couldseethewhiteformsofmenshiftingsilentlyoverthegreen,uponwhichalreadytheundershadowsweresmouldering。Awayat,thegrange,onesideofthehaystackswaslitup,theothersides,blue-grey。Awaggonofsheavesrockedsmallacrossthemelting,yellowlight。
Thesunwasgoingdown。Everyopenevening,thehillsof,Derbyshirewereblazedoverwithredsunset。Mrs。Morelwatchedthesun,sinkfromtheglisteningsky,leavingasoftflower-blueoverhead,whilethewesternspacewentred,asifallthefirehadswumdownthere,leavingthebellcastflawlessblue。Themountain-ashberriesacross,thefieldstoodfierilyoutfromthedarkleaves,foramoment。
Afewshocksofcorninacornerofthefallowstoodupasifalive;
sheimaginedthembowing;perhapshersonwouldbeaJoseph。
Intheeast,amirroredsunsetfloatedpinkoppositethewest’sscarlet。
Thebighaystacksonthehillside,thatbuttedintotheglare,wentcold。
WithMrs。Morelitwasoneofthosestillmomentswhenthe,smallfretsvanish,andthebeautyofthingsstandsout,andshe,hadthepeaceandthestrengthtoseeherself。Nowandagain,aswallowcutclosetoher。Nowandagain,Anniecameupwitha,handfulofalder-currants。Thebabywasrestlessonhismother’sknee,clamberingwithhishandsatthelight。
Mrs。Morellookeddownathim。Shehaddreadedthisbaby,likeacatastrophe,becauseofherfeelingforherhusband。
Andnowshefeltstrangelytowardstheinfant。Herheartwasheavy,becauseofthechild,almostasifitwereunhealthy,ormalformed。
Yetitseemedquitewell。Butshenoticedthepeculiarknitting,ofthebaby’sbrows,andthepeculiarheavinessofitseyes,asifitweretryingtounderstandsomethingthatwaspain。Shefelt,whenshelookedatherchild’sdark,broodingpupils,asifaburdenwere,onherheart。
“Helooksasifhewasthinkingaboutsomething——quitesorrowful,“
saidMrs。Kirk。
Suddenly,lookingathim,theheavyfeelingatthemother’sheart,meltedintopassionategrief。Shebowedoverhim,andafewtears,shookswiftlyoutofherveryheart。Thebabyliftedhisfingers。
“Mylamb!”shecriedsoftly。
Andatthatmomentshefelt,insomefarinnerplaceofhersoul,thatsheandherhusbandwereguilty。
Thebabywaslookingupather。Ithadblueeyeslikeherown,butitslookwasheavy,steady,asifithadrealisedsomething,thathadstunnedsomepointofitssoul。
Inherarmslaythedelicatebaby。Itsdeepblueeyes,alwayslookingupatherunblinking,seemedtodrawherinnermost,thoughtsoutofher。Shenolongerlovedherhusband;shehadnot,wantedthischildtocome,andthereitlayinherarmsandpulled,atherheart。Shefeltasifthenavelstringthathadconnected,itsfraillittlebodywithhershadnotbeenbroken。Awaveofhot,lovewentoverhertotheinfant。Shehelditclosetoherface,andbreast。Withallherforce,withallhersoulshewouldmakeup,toitforhavingbroughtitintotheworldunloved。Shewouldlove,itallthemorenowitwashere;carryitinherlove。Itsclear,knowingeyesgaveherpainandfear。Diditknowallabouther?
Whenitlayunderherheart,haditbeenlisteningthen?,Wasthere,areproachinthelook?,Shefeltthemarrowmeltinherbones,withfearandpain。
Oncemoreshewasawareofthesunlyingredontherim,ofthehillopposite。Shesuddenlyheldupthechildinherhands。
“Look!”shesaid。”Look,mypretty!”
Shethrusttheinfantforwardtothecrimson,throbbingsun,almostwithrelief。Shesawhimlifthislittlefist。Thensheput,himtoherbosomagain,ashamedalmostofherimpulsetogivehim,backagainwhencehecame。
“Ifhelives,“shethoughttoherself,“whatwillbecome,ofhim——whatwillhebe?”
Herheartwasanxious。
“IwillcallhimPaul,“shesaidsuddenly;sheknewnotwhy。
Afterawhileshewenthome。Afineshadowwasflungover,thedeepgreenmeadow,darkeningall。
Assheexpected,shefoundthehouseempty。ButMorelwas,homebyteno’clock,andthatday,atleast,endedpeacefully。
WalterMorelwas,atthistime,exceedinglyirritable。
Hisworkseemedtoexhausthim。Whenhecamehomehedidnotspeak,civillytoanybody。Ifthefirewereratherlowhebulliedaboutthat;
hegrumbledabouthisdinner;ifthechildrenmadeachatterhe,shoutedattheminawaythatmadetheirmother’sbloodboil,andmadethemhatehim。
OntheFriday,hewasnothomebyeleveno’clock。Thebaby,wasunwell,andwasrestless,cryingifhewereputdown。Mrs。Morel,tiredtodeath,andstillweak,wasscarcelyundercontrol。
“Iwishthenuisancewouldcome,“shesaidwearilytoherself。
Thechildatlastsankdowntosleepinherarms。Shewas,tootiredtocarryhimtothecradle。
“ButI’llsaynothing,whatevertimehecomes,“shesaid。
“Itonlyworksmeup;Iwon’tsayanything。ButIknowifhedoes,anythingit’llmakemybloodboil,“sheaddedtoherself。
Shesighed,hearinghimcoming,asifitweresomethingshe,couldnotbear。He,takinghisrevenge,wasnearlydrunk。Shekept,herheadbentoverthechildasheentered,notwishingtoseehim。
Butitwentthroughherlikeaflashofhotfirewhen,inpassing,helurchedagainstthedresser,settingthetinsrattling,andclutched,atthewhitepotknobsforsupport。Hehunguphishatandcoat,thenreturned,stoodgloweringfromadistanceather,asshesat,bowedoverthechild。
“Istherenothingtoeatinthehouse?”heasked,insolently,asiftoaservant。Incertainstagesofhisintoxicationhe,affectedtheclipped,mincingspeechofthetowns。Mrs。Morel,hatedhimmostinthiscondition。
“Youknowwhatthereisinthehouse,“shesaid,socoldly,itsoundedimpersonal。
Hestoodandglaredatherwithoutmovingamuscle。
“Iaskedacivilquestion,andIexpectacivilanswer,“
hesaidaffectedly。
“Andyougotit,“shesaid,stillignoringhim。
Hegloweredagain。Thenhecameunsteadilyforward。
Heleanedonthetablewithonehand,andwiththeotherjerked,atthetabledrawertogetaknifetocutbread。Thedrawerstuckbecausehe,pulledsideways。Inatemperhedraggedit,sothatitflew,outbodily,andspoons,forks,knives,ahundredmetallicthings,splashedwithaclatterandaclanguponthebrickfloor。
Thebabygavealittleconvulsedstart。
“Whatareyoudoing,clumsy,drunkenfool?”themothercried。
“Thenthashouldgettheflamin’thingthysen。Thashouldgetup,likeotherwomenhaveto,an’waitonaman。”
“Waitonyou——waitonyou?”shecried。”Yes,Iseemyself。”
“Yis,an’I’lllearntheetha’sgotto。WaitonME,yestha,sh’ltwaitonme——“
“Never,milord。I’dwaitonadogatthedoorfirst。”
“What——what?”
Hewastryingtofitinthedrawer。Atherlastspeech,beturnedround。Hisfacewascrimson,hiseyesbloodshot。
Hestaredatheronesilentsecondinthreat。
“P-h!”shewentquickly,incontempt。
Hejerkedatthedrawerinhisexcitement。Itfell,cutsharply,onhisshin,andonthereflexheflungitather。
Oneofthecornerscaughtherbrowastheshallowdrawer,crashedintothefireplace。Sheswayed,almostfellstunnedfrom,herchair。Toherverysoulshewassick;sheclaspedthechild,tightlytoherbosom。Afewmomentselapsed;then,withaneffort,shebroughtherselfto。Thebabywascryingplaintively。Herleft,browwasbleedingratherprofusely。Assheglanceddownatthechild,herbrainreeling,somedropsofbloodsoakedintoitswhiteshawl;
butthebabywasatleastnothurt。Shebalancedherheadto,keepequilibrium,sothatthebloodranintohereye。
WalterMorelremainedashehadstood,leaningonthetablewith,onehand,lookingblank。Whenhewassufficientlysureofhisbalance,hewentacrosstoher,swayed,caughtholdofthebackofher,rocking-chair,almosttippingherout;thenleaningforwardoverher,andswayingashespoke,hesaid,inatoneofwonderingconcern:
“Diditcatchthee?”
Heswayedagain,asifhewouldpitchontothechild。
Withthecatastrophehehadlostallbalance。
“Goaway,“shesaid,strugglingtokeepherpresenceofmind。
Hehiccoughed。”Let’s——let’slookatit,“hesaid,hiccoughingagain。
“Goaway!”shecried。
“Lemme——lemmelookatit,lass。”
Shesmelledhimofdrink,felttheunequalpullofhisswaying,grasponthebackofherrocking-chair。
“Goaway,“shesaid,andweaklyshepushedhimoff。
Hestood,uncertaininbalance,gazinguponher。Summoningall,herstrengthsherose,thebabyononearm。Byacrueleffortofwill,movingasifinsleep,shewentacrosstothescullery,whereshe,bathedhereyeforaminuteincoldwater;butshewastoodizzy。
Afraidlestsheshouldswoon,shereturnedtoherrocking-chair,tremblingineveryfibre。Byinstinct,shekeptthebabyclasped。
Morel,bothered,hadsucceededinpushingthedrawerback,intoitscavity,andwasonhisknees,groping,withnumbpaws,forthescatteredspoons。
Herbrowwasstillbleeding。PresentlyMorelgotupandcame,craninghisnecktowardsher。
“Whathasitdonetothee,lass?”heasked,inaverywretched,humbletone。
“Youcanseewhatit’sdone,“sheanswered。
Hestood,bendingforward,supportedonhishands,whichgrasped,hislegsjustabovetheknee。Hepeeredtolookatthewound。
Shedrewawayfromthethrustofhisfacewithitsgreatmoustache,avertingherownfaceasmuchaspossible。Ashelookedather,whowascoldandimpassiveasstone,withmouthshuttight,hesickenedwithfeeblenessandhopelessnessofspirit。
Hewasturningdrearilyaway,whenhesawadropofbloodfall,fromtheavertedwoundintothebaby’sfragile,glisteninghair。
Fascinated,hewatchedtheheavydarkdrophangintheglisteningcloud,andpulldownthegossamer。Anotherdropfell。Itwouldsoak,throughtothebaby’sscalp。Hewatched,fascinated,feelingit,soakin;then,finally,hismanhoodbroke。
“Whatofthischild?”wasallhiswifesaidtohim。
Butherlow,intensetonesbroughthisheadlower。Shesoftened:
“Getmesomewaddingoutofthemiddledrawer,“shesaid。
Hestumbledawayveryobediently,presentlyreturningwitha,pad,whichshesingedbeforethefire,thenputonherforehead,asshesatwiththebabyonherlap。
“Nowthatcleanpit-scarf。”
Againherummagedandfumbledinthedrawer,returningpresently,withared,narrowscarf。Shetookit,andwithtremblingfingers,proceededtobinditroundherhead。
“Letmetieitforthee,“hesaidhumbly。
“Icandoitmyself,“shereplied。Whenitwasdoneshe,wentupstairs,tellinghimtorakethefireandlockthedoor。
InthemorningMrs。Morelsaid:
“Iknockedagainstthelatchofthecoal-place,whenI
wasgettingarakerinthedark,becausethecandleblewout。”
Hertwosmallchildrenlookedupatherwithwide,dismayedeyes。
Theysaidnothing,buttheirpartedlipsseemedtoexpressthe,unconscioustragedytheyfelt。
WalterMorellayinbednextdayuntilnearlydinner-time。He,didnotthinkofthepreviousevening’swork。Hescarcelythought,ofanything,buthewouldnotthinkofthat。Helayandsufferedlike,asulkingdog。Hehadhurthimselfmost;andhewasthemoredamaged,becausehewouldneversayawordtoher,orexpresshissorrow。
Hetriedtowriggleoutofit。”Itwasherownfault,“hesaid,tohimself。Nothing,however,couldpreventhisinnerconsciousness,inflictingonhimthepunishmentwhichateintohisspiritlikerust,andwhichhecouldonlyalleviatebydrinking。
Hefeltasifhehadnottheinitiativetogetup,ortosayaword,ortomove,butcouldonlylielikealog。Moreover,hehadhimself,violentpainsinthehead。ItwasSaturday。Towardsnoonherose,cuthimselffoodinthepantry,ateitwithhisheaddropped,thenpulledonhisboots,andwentout,toreturnatthreeo’clock,slightlytipsyandrelieved;thenoncemorestraighttobed。
Heroseagainatsixintheevening,hadteaandwentstraightout。
Sundaywasthesame:,bedtillnoon,thePalmerstonArmstill,2。30,dinner,andbed;scarcelyawordspoken。WhenMrs。Morel,wentupstairs,towardsfouro’clock,toputonherSundaydress,hewasfastasleep。Shewouldhavefeltsorryforhim,ifhe,hadoncesaid,“Wife,I’msorry。”,Butno;heinsistedtohimself,itwasherfault。Andsohebrokehimself。Soshemerelyleft,himalone。Therewasthisdeadlockofpassionbetweenthem,andshewasstronger。
Thefamilybegantea。Sundaywastheonlydaywhenallsat,downtomealstogether。
“Isn’tmyfathergoingtogetup?”askedWilliam。
“Lethimlie,“themotherreplied。
Therewasafeelingofmiseryoverallthehouse。Thechildren,breathedtheairthatwaspoisoned,andtheyfeltdreary。Theywere,ratherdisconsolate,didnotknowwhattodo,whattoplayat。
ImmediatelyMorelwokehegotstraightoutofbed。Thatwas,characteristicofhimallhislife。Hewasallforactivity。
Theprostratedinactivityoftwomorningswasstiflinghim。
Itwasnearsixo’clockwhenhegotdown。Thistimeheentered,withouthesitation,hiswincingsensitivenesshavinghardenedagain。
Hedidnotcareanylongerwhatthefamilythoughtorfelt。
Thetea-thingswereonthetable。Williamwasreadingaloud,from“TheChild’sOwn“Annielisteningandaskingeternally“why?”
Bothchildrenhushedintosilenceastheyheardtheapproaching,thudoftheirfather’sstockingedfeet,andshrankasheentered。
Yethewasusuallyindulgenttothem。
Morelmadethemealalone,brutally。Heateanddrank,morenoisilythanhehadneed。Noonespoketohim。Thefamily,lifewithdrew,shrankaway,andbecamehushedasheentered。
Buthecarednolongerabouthisalienation。
Immediatelyhehadfinishedteaherosewithalacritytogoout。
Itwasthisalacrity,thishastetobegone,whichsosickened,Mrs。Morel。Assheheardhimsousingheartilyincoldwater,heardtheeagerscratchofthesteelcombonthesideofthebowl,ashewettedhishair,sheclosedhereyesindisgust。Ashebentover,lacinghisboots,therewasacertainvulgargustoinhismovement,thatdividedhimfromthereserved,watchfulrestofthefamily。
Healwaysranawayfromthebattlewithhimself。Eveninhisown,heart’sprivacy,heexcusedhimself,saying,“Ifshehadn’tsaid,so-and-so,itwouldneverhavehappened。Sheaskedforwhatshe’sgot。”
Thechildrenwaitedinrestraintduringhispreparations。Whenhe,hadgone,theysighedwithrelief。
Heclosedthedoorbehindhim,andwasglad。Itwasa,rainyevening。ThePalmerstonwouldbethecosier。Hehastened,forwardinanticipation。AlltheslateroofsoftheBottomsshone,blackwithwet。Theroads,alwaysdarkwithcoal-dust,werefull,ofblackishmud。Hehastenedalong。ThePalmerstonwindowsweresteamed,over。Thepassagewaspaddledwithwetfeet。Buttheairwaswarm,iffoul,andfullofthesoundofvoicesandthesmellofbeer,andsmoke。
“Whatsholltha’e,Walter?”criedavoice,assoonasMorel,appearedinthedoorway。
“Oh,Jim,mylad,wheriverhastheesprungfrae?”
Themenmadeaseatforhim,andtookhiminwarmly。Hewasglad。
Inaminuteortwotheyhadthawedallresponsibilityoutofhim,allshame,alltrouble,andhewasclearasabellforajollynight。
OntheWednesdayfollowing,Morelwaspenniless。Hedreaded,hiswife。Havinghurther,hehatedher。Hedidnotknowwhatto,dowithhimselfthatevening,havingnoteventwopencewithwhich,togotothePalmerston,andbeingalreadyratherdeeplyindebt。
So,whilehiswifewasdownthegardenwiththechild,hehunted,inthetopdrawerofthedresserwhereshekeptherpurse,foundit,andlookedinside。Itcontainedahalf-crown,twohalfpennies,andasixpence。Sohetookthesixpence,putthepursecarefullyback,andwentout。
Thenextday,whenshewantedtopaythegreengrocer,shelooked,inthepurseforhersixpence,andherheartsanktohershoes。
Thenshesatdownandthought:,“WASthereasixpence?,Ihadn’t,spentit,hadI?,AndIhadn’tleftitanywhereelse?”
Shewasmuchputabout。Shehuntedroundeverywhereforit。
And,asshesought,theconvictioncameintoherheartthather,husbandhadtakenit。Whatshehadinherpursewasallthemoney,shepossessed。Butthatheshouldsneakitfromherthuswasunbearable。
Hehaddonesotwicebefore。Thefirsttimeshehadnotaccusedhim,andattheweek-endhehadputtheshillingagainintoherpurse。
Sothatwashowshehadknownhehadtakenit。Thesecondtimehe,hadnotpaidback。
Thistimeshefeltitwastoomuch。Whenhehadhadhisdinner——
hecamehomeearlythatday——shesaidtohimcoldly:
“Didyoutakesixpenceoutofmypurselastnight?”
“Me!”hesaid,lookingupinanoffendedway。”No,Ididna!
Iniverclappedeyesonyourpurse。”
Butshecoulddetectthelie。
“Why,youknowyoudid,“shesaidquietly。
“ItellyouIdidna,“heshouted。”Yeratmeagain,areyer?
I’vehadaboutenoughon’t。”
“SoyoufilchsixpenceoutofmypursewhileI’mtaking,theclothesin。”
“I’llmayyerpayforthis,“hesaid,pushingbackhis,chairindesperation。Hebustledandgotwashed,thenwent,determinedlyupstairs。Presentlyhecamedowndressed,andwithabigbundleinablue-checked,enormoushandkerchief。
“Andnow,“hesaid,“you’llseemeagainwhenyoudo。”
“It’llbebeforeIwantto,“shereplied;andatthathemarched,outofthehousewithhisbundle。Shesattremblingslightly,butherheartbrimmingwithcontempt。Whatwouldshedoifhewent,tosomeotherpit,obtainedwork,andgotinwithanotherwoman?
Butsheknewhimtoowell——hecouldn’t。Shewasdeadsureofhim。
Neverthelessherheartwasgnawedinsideher。
“Where’smydad?”saidWilliam,cominginfromschool。
“Hesayshe’srunaway,“repliedthemother。
“Whereto?”
“Eh,Idon’tknow。He’stakenabundleinthebluehandkerchief,andsayshe’snotcomingback。”
“Whatshallwedo?”criedtheboy。
“Eh,nevertrouble,hewon’tgofar。”
“Butifhedoesn’tcomeback,“wailedAnnie。
AndsheandWilliamretiredtothesofaandwept。Mrs。Morel,satandlaughed。
“Youpairofgabeys!”sheexclaimed。”You’llseehimbefore,thenight’sout。”
Butthechildrenwerenottobeconsoled。Twilightcameon。
Mrs。Morelgrewanxiousfromveryweariness。Onepartofhersaid,itwouldbearelieftoseethelastofhim;anotherpartfretted,becauseofkeepingthechildren;andinsideher,asyet,shecould,notquitelethimgo。Atthebottom,sheknewverywellhecould,NOTgo。
Whenshewentdowntothecoal-placeattheendofthegarden,however,shefeltsomethingbehindthedoor。Soshelooked。
Andthereinthedarklaythebigbluebundle。Shesatonapiece,ofcoalandlaughed。Everytimeshesawit,sofatandyet,soignominious,slunkintoitscornerinthedark,withitsends,floppinglikedejectedearsfromtheknots,shelaughedagain。
Shewasrelieved。
Mrs。Morelsatwaiting。Hehadnotanymoney,sheknew,soifhestoppedhewasrunningupabill。Shewasverytiredofhim——
tiredtodeath。Hehadnoteventhecouragetocarryhisbundle,beyondtheyard-end。
Asshemeditated,ataboutnineo’clock,heopenedthedoor,andcamein,slinking,andyetsulky。Shesaidnotaword。
Hetookoffhiscoat,andslunktohisarmchair,wherehebegan,totakeoffhisboots。
“You’dbetterfetchyourbundlebeforeyoutakeyourbootsoff,“
shesaidquietly。
“YoumaythankyourstarsI’vecomebackto-night,“hesaid,lookingupfromunderhisdroppedhead,sulkily,tryingtobeimpressive。
“Why,whereshouldyouhavegone?,Youdaren’tevengetyour,parcelthroughtheyard-end,“shesaid。
Helookedsuchafoolshewasnotevenangrywithhim。
Hecontinuedtotakehisbootsoffandprepareforbed。
“Idon’tknowwhat’sinyourbluehandkerchief,“shesaid。
“Butifyouleaveitthechildrenshallfetchitinthemorning。”
Whereuponhegotupandwentoutofthehouse,returningpresently,andcrossingthekitchenwithavertedface,hurryingupstairs。
AsMrs。Morelsawhimslinkquicklythroughtheinnerdoorway,holdinghisbundle,shelaughedtoherself:,butherheartwasbitter,becauseshehadlovedhim。
CHAPTERIII
THECASTINGOFFOFMOREL——THETAKINGONOFWILLIAM
DURINGthenextweekMorel’stemperwasalmostunbearable。
Likeallminers,hewasagreatloverofmedicines,which,strangelyenough,hewouldoftenpayforhimself。
“Youmungetmeadropo’laxyvitral,“hesaid。”It’sa,winderaswecannaha’easupi’th’’ouse。”
SoMrs。Morelboughthimelixirofvitriol,hisfavourite,firstmedicine。Andhemadehimselfajugofwormwoodtea。Hehad,hangingintheatticgreatbunchesofdriedherbs:
wormwood,rue,horehound,elderflowers,parsley-purt,marshmallow,hyssop,dandelion,andcentaury。Usuallytherewasajugof,oneorotherdecoctionstandingonthehob,fromwhichhedranklargely。
“Grand!”hesaid,smackinghislipsafterwormwood。”Grand!”
Andheexhortedthechildrentotry。
“It’sbetterthananyofyourteaoryourcocoastews,“hevowed。
Buttheywerenottobetempted。
Thistime,however,neitherpillsnorvitriolnorallhisherbs,wouldshiftthe“nastypeensinhishead“。Hewassickeningforan,attackofaninflammationofthebrain。Hehadneverbeenwellsince,hissleepingonthegroundwhenhewentwithJerrytoNottingham。
Sincethenhehaddrunkandstormed。Nowhefellseriouslyill,andMrs。Morelhadhimtonurse。Hewasoneoftheworst,patientsimaginable。But,inspiteofall,andputtingasidethe,factthathewasbreadwinner,sheneverquitewantedhimtodie。
Stilltherewasonepartofherwantedhimforherself。
Theneighbourswereverygoodtoher:,occasionallysome,hadthechildrenintomeals,occasionallysomewoulddothe,downstairsworkforher,onewouldmindthebabyforaday。
Butitwasagreatdrag,nevertheless。Itwasnoteveryday,theneighbourshelped。Thenshehadnursingofbabyandhusband,cleaningandcooking,everythingtodo。Shewasquitewornout,butshedidwhatwaswantedofher。
Andthemoneywasjustsufficient。Shehadseventeen,shillingsaweekfromclubs,andeveryFridayBarkerandtheother,buttyputbyaportionofthestall’sprofitsforMorel’swife。
Andtheneighboursmadebroths,andgaveeggs,andsuchinvalids’
trifles。Iftheyhadnothelpedhersogenerouslyinthosetimes,Mrs。Morelwouldneverhavepulledthrough,withoutincurring,debtsthatwouldhavedraggedherdown。
Theweekspassed。Morel,almostagainsthope,grewbetter。
Hehadafineconstitution,sothat,onceonthemend,hewentstraight,forwardtorecovery。Soonhewaspotteringaboutdownstairs。
Duringhisillnesshiswifehadspoilthimalittle。Nowhewanted,hertocontinue。Heoftenputhisbandtohishead,pulleddown,thecomersofhismouth,andshammedpainshedidnotfeel。
Buttherewasnodeceivingher。Atfirstshemerelysmiledtoherself。
Thenshescoldedhimsharply。
“Goodness,man,don’tbesolachrymose。”
Thatwoundedhimslightly,butstillhecontinuedtofeignsickness。
“Iwouldn’tbesuchamardybaby,“saidthewifeshortly。
Thenhewasindignant,andcursedunderhisbreath,likeaboy。
Hewasforcedtoresumeanormaltone,andtoceasetowhine。
Nevertheless,therewasastateofpeaceinthehouseforsometime。
Mrs。Morelwasmoretolerantofhim,andhe,dependingonheralmost,likeachild,wasratherhappy。Neitherknewthatshewasmoretolerant,becauseshelovedhimless。Uptillthistime,inspiteofall,hehadbeenherhusbandandherman。Shehadfeltthat,moreorless,whathedidtohimselfhedidtoher。Herlivingdependedonhim。
Thereweremany,manystagesintheebbingofherloveforhim,butitwasalwaysebbing。
Now,withthebirthofthisthirdbaby,herselfnolongerset,towardshim,helplessly,butwaslikeatidethatscarcelyrose,standingofffromhim。Afterthisshescarcelydesiredhim。
And,standingmorealooffromhim,notfeelinghimsomuchpart,ofherself,butmerelypartofhercircumstances,shedidnotmind,somuchwhathedid,couldleavehimalone。
Therewasthehalt,thewistfulnessabouttheensuingyear,whichislikeautumninaman’slife。Hiswifewascastinghimoff,halfregretfully,butrelentlessly;castinghimoffandturning,nowforloveandlifetothechildren。Henceforwardhewasmore,orlessahusk。Andhehimselfacquiesced,assomanymendo,yieldingtheirplacetotheirchildren。
Duringhisrecuperation,whenitwasreallyoverbetweenthem,bothmadeanefforttocomebacksomewhattotheoldrelationship,ofthefirstmonthsoftheirmarriage。Hesatathomeand,whenthechildrenwereinbed,andshewassewing——shedidallher,sewingbyhand,madeallshirtsandchildren’sclothing——hewould,readtoherfromthenewspaper,slowlypronouncinganddelivering,thewordslikeamanpitchingquoits。Oftenshehurriedhimon,givinghimaphraseinanticipation。Andthenhetookherwordshumbly。
Thesilencesbetweenthemwerepeculiar。Therewouldbe,theswift,slight“cluck“ofherneedle,thesharp“pop“ofhis,lipsasheletoutthesmoke,thewarmth,thesizzleonthebars,ashespatinthefire。ThenherthoughtsturnedtoWilliam。
Alreadyhewasgettingabigboy。Alreadyhewastopoftheclass,andthemastersaidhewasthesmartestladintheschool。
Shesawhimaman,young,fullofvigour,makingtheworldglow,againforher。
AndMorelsittingthere,quitealone,andhavingnothing,tothinkabout,wouldbefeelingvaguelyuncomfortable。Hissoul,wouldreachoutinitsblindwaytoherandfindhergone。
Hefeltasortofemptiness,almostlikeavacuuminhissoul。
Hewasunsettledandrestless。Soonhecouldnotlivein,thatatmosphere,andheaffectedhiswife。Bothfeltanoppression,ontheirbreathingwhentheywerelefttogetherforsometime。
Thenhewenttobedandshesettleddowntoenjoyherselfalone,working,thinking,living。
Meanwhileanotherinfantwascoming,fruitofthislittlepeace,andtendernessbetweentheseparatingparents。Paulwasseventeen,monthsoldwhenthenewbabywasborn。Hewasthenaplump,palechild,quiet,withheavyblueeyes,andstillthepeculiar,slightknittingofthebrows。Thelastchildwasalsoaboy,fairandbonny。Mrs。Morelwassorrywhensheknewshewaswithchild,bothforeconomicreasonsandbecauseshedidnotloveherhusband;
butnotforthesakeoftheinfant。
TheycalledthebabyArthur。Hewasverypretty,witha,mopofgoldcurls,andhelovedhisfatherfromthefirst。
Mrs。Morelwasgladthischildlovedthefather。Hearingthe,miner’sfootsteps,thebabywouldputuphisarmsandcrow。
AndifMorelwereinagoodtemper,hecalledbackimmediately,inhishearty,mellowvoice:
“Whatthen,mybeauty?,Ish’llcometotheeinaminute。”
Andassoonashehadtakenoffhispit-coat,Mrs。Morelwould,putanapronroundthechild,andgivehimtohisfather。
“Whatasighttheladlooks!”shewouldexclaimsometimes,takingbackthebaby,thatwassmuttedonthefacefromhisfather’s,kissesandplay。ThenMorellaughedjoyfully。
“He’salittlecollier,blesshisbito’mutton!”heexclaimed。
Andthesewerethehappymomentsofherlifenow,whenthe,childrenincludedthefatherinherheart。
MeanwhileWilliamgrewbiggerandstrongerandmoreactive,whilePaul,alwaysratherdelicateandquiet,gotslimmer,andtrottedafterhismotherlikehershadow。Hewasusuallyactive,andinterested,butsometimeshewouldhavefitsofdepression。
Thenthemotherwouldfindtheboyofthreeorfourcryingon,thesofa。
“What’sthematter?”sheasked,andgotnoanswer。
“What’sthematter?”sheinsisted,gettingcross。
“Idon’tknow,“sobbedthechild。
Soshetriedtoreasonhimoutofit,ortoamusehim,butwithouteffect。Itmadeherfeelbesideherself。Thenthefather,alwaysimpatient,wouldjumpfromhischairandshout:
“Ifhedoesn’tstop,I’llsmackhimtillhedoes。”
“You’lldonothingofthesort,“saidthemothercoldly。
Andthenshecarriedthechildintotheyard,plumpedhimintohis,littlechair,andsaid:,“Nowcrythere,Misery!”
Andthenabutterflyontherhubarb-leavesperhapscaughthiseye,oratlasthecriedhimselftosleep。Thesefitswerenotoften,buttheycausedashadowinMrs。Morel’sheart,andhertreatment,ofPaulwasdifferentfromthatoftheotherchildren。
Suddenlyonemorningasshewaslookingdownthealley,oftheBottomsforthebarm-man,sheheardavoicecallingher。
ItwasthethinlittleMrs。Anthonyinbrownvelvet。
“Here,Mrs。Morel,IwanttotellyouaboutyourWillie。”
“Oh,doyou?”repliedMrs。Morel。”Why,what’sthematter?”
“Aladasgets’oldofanotheran’ripshisclothesoff’n,’isback,“Mrs。Anthonysaid,“wantsshowingsomething。”
“YourAlfred’sasoldasmyWilliam,“saidMrs。Morel。
“’Appen’eis,butthatdoesn’tgivehimarighttogethold,oftheboy’scollar,an’fairripitcleanoffhisback。”
“Well,“saidMrs。Morel,“Idon’tthrashmychildren,andevenifIdid,Ishouldwanttoheartheirsideofthetale。”
“They’dhappenbeabitbetteriftheydidgetagoodhiding,“
retortedMrs。Anthony。”Whenitcomesterrippin’alad’sclean,collaroff’n’isbacka-purpose——“
“I’msurehedidn’tdoitonpurpose,“saidMrs。Morel。
“Makemealiar!”shoutedMrs。Anthony。
Mrs。Morelmovedawayandclosedhergate。Herhandtrembled,assheheldhermugofbarm。
“ButIs’llletyourmesterknow,“Mrs。Anthonycriedafterher。
Atdinner-time,whenWilliamhadfinishedhismealandwanted,tobeoffagain——hewasthenelevenyearsold——hismothersaidtohim:
“WhatdidyoutearAlfredAnthony’scollarfor?”
“WhendidItearhiscollar?”
“Idon’tknowwhen,buthismothersaysyoudid。”
“Why——itwasyesterday——an’itwastorna’ready。”
“Butyoutoreitmore。”
“Well,I’dgotacobbleras’adlickedseventeen——an’
AlfyAnt’ny’esays:
’Adaman’Evean’pinch-me,Wentdowntoarivertobade。
Adaman’Evegotdrownded,Whodoyerthinkgotsaved?’
An’soIsays:,’Oh,Pinch-YOU,’an’soIpinched’im,an’
’ewasmad,an’sohesnatchedmycobbleran’runoffwithit。
An’soIrunafter’im,an’whenIwasgettin’holdof’im,’edodged,an’itripped’iscollar。ButIgotmycobbler——“
Hepulledfromhispocketablackoldhorse-chestnuthangingon,astring。Thisoldcobblerhad“cobbled“——hitandsmashed——seventeen,othercobblersonsimilarstrings。Sotheboywasproudofhisveteran。
“Well,“saidMrs。Morel,“youknowyou’vegotnorighttorip,hiscollar。”
“Well,ourmother!”heanswered。”Inevermeanttr’adoneit——an’
itwason’yanoldindirrubbercollaraswastorna’ready。”
“Nexttime,“saidhismother,“YOUbemorecareful。
Ishouldn’tlikeitifyoucamehomewithyourcollartornoff。”
“Idon’tcare,ourmother;Ineverdidita-purpose。”
Theboywasrathermiserableatbeingreprimanded。
“No——well,youbemorecareful。”
Williamfledaway,gladtobeexonerated。AndMrs。Morel,whohatedanybotherwiththeneighbours,thoughtshewouldexplain,toMrs。Anthony,andthebusinesswouldbeover。
ButthateveningMorelcameinfromthepitlookingverysour。
Hestoodinthekitchenandglaredround,butdidnotspeakfor,someminutes。Then:
“Wheer’sthatWilly?”heasked。
“WhatdoyouwantHIMfor?”askedMrs。Morel,whohadguessed。
“I’lllet’imknowwhenIgethim,“saidMorel,banginghis,pit-bottleontothedresser。
“IsupposeMrs。Anthony’sgotholdofyouandbeenyarning,toyouaboutAlfy’scollar,“saidMrs。Morel,rathersneering。
“Nivermindwho’sgotholdofme,“saidMorel。”WhenIget,holdof’IMI’llmakehisbonesrattle。”
“It’sapoortale,“saidMrs。Morel,“thatyou’resoready,tosidewithanysnipeyvixenwholikestocometellingtales,againstyourownchildren。”
“I’lllearn’im!”saidMorel。”Itnonematterstomewhose,lad’eis;’e’snonegoin’rippin’an’tearin’aboutjustashe’s,amind。”
“’Rippingandtearingabout!’“repeatedMrs。Morel。
“HewasrunningafterthatAlfy,who’dtakenhiscobbler,andhe,accidentallygotholdofhiscollar,becausetheotherdodged——as,anAnthonywould。”
“Iknow!”shoutedMorelthreateningly。
“Youwould,beforeyou’retold,“repliedhiswifebitingly。
“Niveryoumind,“stormedMorel。”Iknowmybusiness。”
“That’smorethandoubtful,“saidMrs。Morel,“supposingsome,loud-mouthedcreaturehadbeengettingyoutothrashyourownchildren。”
“Iknow,“repeatedMorel。
Andhesaidnomore,butsatandnursedhisbadtemper。
SuddenlyWilliamranin,saying:
“CanIhavemytea,mother?”
“Thacanha’emorethanthat!”shoutedMorel。
“Holdyournoise,man,“saidMrs。Morel;“anddon’tlook,soridiculous。”
“He’lllookridiculousbeforeI’vedonewi’him!”shoutedMorel,risingfromhischairandglaringathisson。
William,whowasatallladforhisyears,butverysensitive,hadgonepale,andwaslookinginasortofhorrorathisfather。
“Goout!”Mrs。Morelcommandedherson。
Williamhadnotthewittomove。SuddenlyMorelclenched,hisfist,andcrouched。
“I’llGI’Ehim’goout’!”heshoutedlikeaninsanething。
“What!”criedMrs。Morel,pantingwithrage。”Youshall,nottouchhimforHERtelling,youshallnot!”
“ShonnaI?”shoutedMorel。”ShonnaI?”
And,glaringattheboy,heranforward。Mrs。Morelsprang,inbetweenthem,withherfistlifted。
“Don’tyouDARE!”shecried。
“What!”heshouted,baffledforthemoment。”What!”
Shespunroundtoherson。
“GOoutofthehouse!”shecommandedhiminfury。
Theboy,asifhypnotisedbyher,turnedsuddenlyandwasgone。
Morelrushedtothedoor,butwastoolate。Hereturned,paleunder,hispit-dirtwithfury。Butnowhiswifewasfullyroused。
“Onlydare!”shesaidinaloud,ringingvoice。”Onlydare,milord,tolayafingeronthatchild!,You’llregretitforever。”
Hewasafraidofher。Inatoweringrage,hesatdown。
Whenthechildrenwereoldenoughtobeleft,Mrs。Morel,joinedtheWomen’sGuild。Itwasalittleclubofwomenattached,totheCo-operativeWholesaleSociety,whichmetonMondaynight,inthelongroomoverthegroceryshopoftheBestwood“Co-op“。The,womenweresupposedtodiscussthebenefitstobederivedfrom,co-operation,andothersocialquestions。SometimesMrs。Morel,readapaper。Itseemedqueertothechildrentoseetheirmother,whowasalwaysbusyaboutthehouse,sittingwritinginher,rapidfashion,thinking,referringtobooks,andwritingagain。
Theyfeltforheronsuchoccasionsthedeepestrespect。
ButtheylovedtheGuild。Itwastheonlythingtowhichthey,didnotgrudgetheirmother——andthatpartlybecausesheenjoyedit,partlybecauseofthetreatstheyderivedfromit。TheGuild,wascalledbysomehostilehusbands,whofoundtheirwivesgetting,tooindependent,the“clat-fart“shop——thatis,thegossip-shop。It,istrue,fromoffthebasisoftheGuild,thewomencouldlookat,theirhomes,attheconditionsoftheirownlives,andfindfault。
Sothecolliersfoundtheirwomenhadanewstandardoftheirown,ratherdisconcerting。Andalso,Mrs。Morelalwayshadalotofnews,onMondaynights,sothatthechildrenlikedWilliamtobeinwhen,theirmothercamehome,becauseshetoldhimthings。
Then,whentheladwasthirteen,shegothimajobin,the“Co-op。”,office。Hewasaverycleverboy,frank,withrather,roughfeaturesandrealvikingblueeyes。
“Whatdostwantterma’eastool-harsedJackon’imfor?”
saidMorel。”Allhe’lldoistowearhisbritchesbehindoutan’
earnnowt。What’s’estartin’wi’?”
“Itdoesn’tmatterwhathe’sstartingwith,“saidMrs。Morel。
“Itwouldna!,Put’imi’th’pitweme,an’’ellearnaeasy,tenshillin’awikfromth’start。Butsixshillin’wearin’histruck-end,outonastool’sbetterthantenshillin’i’th’pitwi’me,Iknow。”
“HeisNOTgoinginthepit,“saidMrs。Morel,“andthere’s,anendofit。”
“Itworgoodenoughforme,butit’snongoodenoughfor’im。”
“Ifyourmotherputyouinthepitattwelve,it’snoreason,whyIshoulddothesamewithmylad。”
“Twelve!,Itworasightaforethat!”
“Wheneveritwas,“saidMrs。Morel。
Shewasveryproudofherson。Hewenttothenightschool,andlearnedshorthand,sothatbythetimehewassixteenhewas,thebestshorthandclerkandbook-keeperontheplace,exceptone。
Thenhetaughtinthenightschools。Buthewassofierythatonly,hisgood-natureandhissizeprotectedhim。
Allthethingsthatmendo——thedecentthings——Williamdid。
Hecouldrunlikethewind。Whenhewastwelvehewonafirst,prizeinarace;aninkstandofglass,shapedlikeananvil。
Itstoodproudlyonthedresser,andgaveMrs。Morelakeenpleasure。
Theboyonlyranforher。Heflewhomewithhisanvil,breathless,witha“Look,mother!”Thatwasthefirstrealtributetoherself。
Shetookitlikeaqueen。
“Howpretty!”sheexclaimed。
Thenhebegantogetambitious。Hegaveallhismoneyto,hismother。Whenheearnedfourteenshillingsaweek,shegavehim,backtwoforhimself,and,asheneverdrank,hefelthimselfrich。
HewentaboutwiththebourgeoisofBestwood。Thetownletcontained,nothinghigherthantheclergyman。Thencamethebankmanager,thenthedoctors,thenthetradespeople,andafterthatthehosts,ofcolliers。Willambegantoconsortwiththesonsofthechemist,theschoolmaster,andthetradesmen。Heplayedbilliardsin,theMechanics’Hall。Alsohedanced——thisinspiteofhismother。
AllthelifethatBestwoodofferedheenjoyed,fromthesixpenny-hops,downChurchStreet,tosportsandbilliards。
Paulwastreatedtodazzlingdescriptionsofallkindsof,flower-likeladies,mostofwhomlivedlikecutbloomsinWilliam’s,heartforabrieffortnight。
Occasionallysomeflamewouldcomeinpursuitofhererrant,swain。Mrs。Morelwouldfindastrangegirlatthedoor,andimmediatelyshesniffedtheair。
“IsMr。Morelin?”thedamselwouldaskappealingly。
“Myhusbandisathome,“Mrs。Morelreplied。
“I——ImeanYOUNGMr。Morel,“repeatedthemaidenpainfully。
“Whichone?,Thereareseveral。”
Whereuponmuchblushingandstammeringfromthefairone。
“I——ImetMr。Morel——atRipley,“sheexplained。
“Oh——atadance!”
“Yes。”
“Idon’tapproveofthegirlsmysonmeetsatdances。
AndheisNOTathome。”
Thenhecamehomeangrywithhismotherforhavingturnedthe,girlawaysorudely。Hewasacareless,yeteager-lookingfellow,whowalkedwithlongstrides,sometimesfrowning,oftenwithhiscap,pushedjollilytothebackofhishead。Nowhecameinfrowning。
Hethrewhiscapontothesofa,andtookhisstrongjawinhishand,andglareddownathismother。Shewassmall,withherhair,takenstraightbackfromherforehead。Shehadaquietair,ofauthority,andyetofrarewarmth。Knowinghersonwasangry,shetrembledinwardly。
“Didaladycallformeyesterday,mother?”heasked。
“Idon’tknowaboutalady。Therewasagirlcame。”
“Andwhydidn’tyoutellme?”
“BecauseIforgot,simply。”
Hefumedalittle。
“Agood-lookinggirl——seemedalady?”
“Ididn’tlookather。”
“Bigbrowneyes?”
“IdidNOTlook。Andtellyourgirls,myson,thatwhenthey’re,runningafteryou,they’renottocomeandaskyourmotherforyou。
Tellthemthat——brazenbaggagesyoumeetatdancing-classes。”
“I’msureshewasanicegirl。”
“AndI’msureshewasn’t。”
Thereendedthealtercation。Overthedancingtherewasagreat,strifebetweenthemotherandtheson。Thegrievancereachedits,heightwhenWilliamsaidhewasgoingtoHucknallTorkard——considered,alowtown——toafancy-dressball。HewastobeaHighlander。
Therewasadresshecouldhire,whichoneofhisfriends,hadhad,andwhichfittedhimperfectly。TheHighlandsuitcamehome。
Mrs。Morelreceiveditcoldlyandwouldnotunpackit。
“Mysuitcome?”criedWilliam。
“There’saparcelinthefrontroom。”
Herushedinandcutthestring。
“Howdoyoufancyyoursoninthis!”hesaid,enraptured,showingherthesuit。
“YouknowIdon’twanttofancyyouinit。”
Ontheeveningofthedance,whenhehadcomehometodress,Mrs。Morelputonhercoatandbonnet。
“Aren’tyougoingtostopandseeme,mother?”heasked。
“No;Idon’twanttoseeyou,“shereplied。
Shewasratherpale,andherfacewasclosedandhard。
Shewasafraidofherson’sgoingthesamewayashisfather。
Hehesitatedamoment,andhisheartstoodstillwithanxiety。
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