Shethoughtitprobablethatastheylivedinthesamecounty,Mrs。PalmermightbeabletogivesomemoreparticularaccountofWilloughby’sgeneralcharacter,thancouldbegatheredfromtheMiddletons’
partialacquaintancewithhim;andshewaseagertogainfromanyone,suchaconfirmationofhismeritsasmightremovethepossibilityoffearfromMarianne。ShebeganbyinquiringiftheysawmuchofMr。WilloughbyatCleveland,andwhethertheywereintimatelyacquaintedwithhim。
“Ohdear,yes;Iknowhimextremelywell,“
repliedMrs。Palmer;——“NotthatIeverspoketohim,indeed;butIhaveseenhimforeverintown。
SomehoworotherIneverhappenedtobestayingatBartonwhilehewasatAllenham。Mamasawhimhereoncebefore;——
butIwaswithmyuncleatWeymouth。However,IdaresayweshouldhaveseenagreatdealofhiminSomersetshire,ifithadnothappenedveryunluckilythatweshouldneverhavebeeninthecountrytogether。HeisverylittleatCombe,Ibelieve;butifhewereeversomuchthere,IdonotthinkMr。Palmerwouldvisithim,forheisintheopposition,youknow,andbesidesitissuchawayoff。Iknowwhyyouinquireabouthim,verywell;
yoursisteristomarryhim。Iammonstrousgladofit,forthenIshallhaveherforaneighbouryouknow。”
“Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“youknowmuchmoreofthematterthanIdo,ifyouhaveanyreasontoexpectsuchamatch。”
“Don’tpretendtodenyit,becauseyouknowitiswhateverybodytalksof。IassureyouIheardofitinmywaythroughtown。”
“MydearMrs。Palmer!”
“UponmyhonourIdid——ImetColonelBrandonMondaymorninginBond-street,justbeforewelefttown,andhetoldmeofitdirectly。”
“Yousurprisemeverymuch。ColonelBrandontellyouofit!,Surelyyoumustbemistaken。Togivesuchintelligencetoapersonwhocouldnotbeinterestedinit,evenifitweretrue,isnotwhatIshouldexpectColonelBrandontodo。”
“ButIdoassureyouitwasso,forallthat,andIwilltellyouhowithappened。Whenwemethim,heturnedbackandwalkedwithus;andsowebegantalkingofmybrotherandsister,andonethingandanother,andIsaidtohim,’So,Colonel,thereisanewfamilycometoBartoncottage,Ihear,andmamasendsmewordtheyareverypretty,andthatoneofthemisgoingtobemarriedtoMr。WilloughbyofCombeMagna。Isittrue,pray?forofcourseyoumustknow,asyouhavebeeninDevonshiresolately。’“
“AndwhatdidtheColonelsay?”
“Oh——hedidnotsaymuch;buthelookedasifheknewittobetrue,sofromthatmomentIsetitdownascertain。Itwillbequitedelightful,Ideclare!
Whenisittotakeplace?”
“Mr。BrandonwasverywellIhope?”
“Oh!yes,quitewell;andsofullofyourpraises,hedidnothingbutsayfinethingsofyou。”
“Iamflatteredbyhiscommendation。
Heseemsanexcellentman;andIthinkhimuncommonlypleasing。”
“SodoI——Heissuchacharmingman,thatitisquiteapityheshouldbesograveandsodull。
MammasaysHEwasinlovewithyoursistertoo——
Iassureyouitwasagreatcomplimentifhewas,forhehardlyeverfallsinlovewithanybody。”
“IsMr。WilloughbymuchknowninyourpartofSomersetshire?”saidElinor。
“Oh!yes,extremelywell;thatis,Idonotbelievemanypeopleareacquaintedwithhim,becauseCombeMagnaissofaroff;buttheyallthinkhimextremelyagreeableIassureyou。NobodyismorelikedthanMr。Willoughbywhereverhegoes,andsoyoumaytellyoursister。
Sheisamonstrousluckygirltogethim,uponmyhonour;
notbutthatheismuchmoreluckyingettingher,becausesheissoveryhandsomeandagreeable,thatnothingcanbegoodenoughforher。However,Idon’tthinkherhardlyatallhandsomerthanyou,Iassureyou;
forIthinkyoubothexcessivelypretty,andsodoesMr。PalmertooIamsure,thoughwecouldnotgethimtoownitlastnight。”
Mrs。Palmer’sinformationrespectingWilloughbywasnotverymaterial;butanytestimonyinhisfavour,howeversmall,waspleasingtoher。
“Iamsogladwearegotacquaintedatlast,“
continuedCharlotte——“AndnowIhopeweshallalwaysbegreatfriends。Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIlongedtoseeyou!
Itissodelightfulthatyoushouldliveatthecottage!
Nothingcanbelikeit,tobesure!,AndIamsogladyoursisterisgoingtobewellmarried!,IhopeyouwillbeagreatdealatCombeMagna。Itisasweetplace,byallaccounts。”
“YouhavebeenlongacquaintedwithColonelBrandon,havenotyou?”
“Yes,agreatwhile;eversincemysistermarried——
HewasaparticularfriendofSirJohn’s。Ibelieve,“
sheaddedinalowvoice,“hewouldhavebeenverygladtohavehadme,ifhecould。SirJohnandLadyMiddletonwisheditverymuch。Butmamadidnotthinkthematchgoodenoughforme,otherwiseSirJohnwouldhavementionedittotheColonel,andweshouldhavebeenmarriedimmediately。”
“DidnotColonelBrandonknowofSirJohn’sproposaltoyourmotherbeforeitwasmade?,Hadheneverownedhisaffectiontoyourself?”
“Oh,no;butifmamahadnotobjectedtoit,Idaresayhewouldhavelikeditofallthings。
Hehadnotseenmethenabovetwice,foritwasbeforeIleftschool。However,IammuchhappierasIam。
Mr。PalmeristhekindofmanIlike。”
chapter21
CHAPTER21
ThePalmersreturnedtoClevelandthenextday,andthetwofamiliesatBartonwereagainlefttoentertaineachother。Butthisdidnotlastlong;Elinorhadhardlygottheirlastvisitorsoutofherhead,hadhardlydonewonderingatCharlotte’sbeingsohappywithoutacause,atMr。Palmer’sactingsosimply,withgoodabilities,andatthestrangeunsuitablenesswhichoftenexistedbetweenhusbandandwife,beforeSirJohn’sandMrs。Jennings’sactivezealinthecauseofsociety,procuredhersomeothernewacquaintancetoseeandobserve。
Inamorning’sexcursiontoExeter,theyhadmetwithtwoyoungladies,whomMrs。Jenningshadthesatisfactionofdiscoveringtobeherrelations,andthiswasenoughforSirJohntoinvitethemdirectlytothepark,assoonastheirpresentengagementsatExeterwereover。
TheirengagementsatExeterinstantlygavewaybeforesuchaninvitation,andLadyMiddletonwasthrownintonolittlealarmonthereturnofSirJohn,byhearingthatshewasverysoontoreceiveavisitfromtwogirlswhomshehadneverseeninherlife,andofwhoseelegance,——
whosetolerablegentilityeven,shecouldhavenoproof;
fortheassurancesofherhusbandandmotheronthatsubjectwentfornothingatall。Theirbeingherrelationstoomadeitsomuchtheworse;andMrs。Jennings’sattemptsatconsolationwerethereforeunfortunatelyfounded,whensheadvisedherdaughternottocareabouttheirbeingsofashionable;becausetheywereallcousinsandmustputupwithoneanother。Asitwasimpossible,however,nowtopreventtheircoming,LadyMiddletonresignedherselftotheideaofit,withallthephilosophyofawell-bredwoman,contentingherselfwithmerelygivingherhusbandagentlereprimandonthesubjectfiveorsixtimeseveryday。
Theyoungladiesarrived:theirappearancewasbynomeansungenteelorunfashionable。Theirdresswasverysmart,theirmannersverycivil,theyweredelightedwiththehouse,andinraptureswiththefurniture,andtheyhappenedtobesodoatinglyfondofchildrenthatLadyMiddleton’sgoodopinionwasengagedintheirfavourbeforetheyhadbeenanhouratthePark。
Shedeclaredthemtobeveryagreeablegirlsindeed,whichforherladyshipwasenthusiasticadmiration。
SirJohn’sconfidenceinhisownjudgmentrosewiththisanimatedpraise,andhesetoffdirectlyforthecottagetotelltheMissDashwoodsoftheMissSteeles’arrival,andtoassurethemoftheirbeingthesweetestgirlsintheworld。Fromsuchcommendationasthis,however,therewasnotmuchtobelearned;ElinorwellknewthatthesweetestgirlsintheworldweretobemetwithineverypartofEngland,undereverypossiblevariationofform,face,temperandunderstanding。
SirJohnwantedthewholefamilytowalktotheParkdirectlyandlookathisguests。Benevolent,philanthropicman!,Itwaspainfultohimeventokeepathirdcousintohimself。
“Docomenow,“saidhe——“praycome——youmustcome——I
declareyoushallcome——Youcan’tthinkhowyouwilllikethem。Lucyismonstrouspretty,andsogoodhumouredandagreeable!,Thechildrenareallhangingaboutheralready,asifshewasanoldacquaintance。Andtheybothlongtoseeyouofallthings,fortheyhaveheardatExeterthatyouarethemostbeautifulcreaturesintheworld;
andIhavetoldthemitisallverytrue,andagreatdealmore。YouwillbedelightedwiththemIamsure。
Theyhavebroughtthewholecoachfullofplaythingsforthechildren。Howcanyoubesocrossasnottocome?
Whytheyareyourcousins,youknow,afterafashion。
YOUaremycousins,andtheyaremywife’s,soyoumustberelated。”
ButSirJohncouldnotprevail。HecouldonlyobtainapromiseoftheircallingattheParkwithinadayortwo,andthenlefttheminamazementattheirindifference,towalkhomeandboastanewoftheirattractionstotheMissSteeles,ashehadbeenalreadyboastingoftheMissSteelestothem。
WhentheirpromisedvisittotheParkandconsequentintroductiontotheseyoungladiestookplace,theyfoundintheappearanceoftheeldest,whowasnearlythirty,withaveryplainandnotasensibleface,nothingtoadmire;
butintheother,whowasnotmorethantwoorthreeandtwenty,theyacknowledgedconsiderablebeauty;herfeatureswerepretty,andshehadasharpquickeye,andasmartnessofair,whichthoughitdidnotgiveactualeleganceorgrace,gavedistinctiontoherperson——
Theirmannerswereparticularlycivil,andElinorsoonallowedthemcreditforsomekindofsense,whenshesawwithwhatconstantandjudiciousattentiontheyweremakingthemselvesagreeabletoLadyMiddleton。
Withherchildrentheywereincontinualraptures,extollingtheirbeauty,courtingtheirnotice,andhumouringtheirwhims;andsuchoftheirtimeascouldbesparedfromtheimportunatedemandswhichthispolitenessmadeonit,wasspentinadmirationofwhateverherladyshipwasdoing,ifshehappenedtobedoinganything,orintakingpatternsofsomeelegantnewdress,inwhichherappearancethedaybeforehadthrownthemintounceasingdelight。
Fortunatelyforthosewhopaytheircourtthroughsuchfoibles,afondmother,though,inpursuitofpraiseforherchildren,themostrapaciousofhumanbeings,islikewisethemostcredulous;herdemandsareexorbitant;
butshewillswallowanything;andtheexcessiveaffectionandenduranceoftheMissSteelestowardsheroffspringwereviewedthereforebyLadyMiddletonwithoutthesmallestsurpriseordistrust。Shesawwithmaternalcomplacencyalltheimpertinentencroachmentsandmischievoustrickstowhichhercousinssubmitted。
Shesawtheirsashesuntied,theirhairpulledabouttheirears,theirwork-bagssearched,andtheirknivesandscissorsstolenaway,andfeltnodoubtofitsbeingareciprocalenjoyment。ItsuggestednoothersurprisethanthatElinorandMarianneshouldsitsocomposedlyby,withoutclaimingashareinwhatwaspassing。
“Johnisinsuchspiritstoday!”saidshe,onhistakingMissSteeles’spockethandkerchief,andthrowingitoutofwindow——“Heisfullofmonkeytricks。”
Andsoonafterwards,onthesecondboy’sviolentlypinchingoneofthesamelady’sfingers,shefondlyobserved,“HowplayfulWilliamis!”
“AndhereismysweetlittleAnnamaria,“sheadded,tenderlycaressingalittlegirlofthreeyearsold,whohadnotmadeanoiseforthelasttwominutes;
“Andsheisalwayssogentleandquiet——Neverwastheresuchaquietlittlething!”
Butunfortunatelyinbestowingtheseembraces,apininherladyship’sheaddressslightlyscratchingthechild’sneck,producedfromthispatternofgentlenesssuchviolentscreams,ascouldhardlybeoutdonebyanycreatureprofessedlynoisy。Themother’sconsternationwasexcessive;butitcouldnotsurpassthealarmoftheMissSteeles,andeverythingwasdonebyallthree,insocriticalanemergency,whichaffectioncouldsuggestaslikelytoassuagetheagoniesofthelittlesufferer。
Shewasseatedinhermother’slap,coveredwithkisses,herwoundbathedwithlavender-water,byoneoftheMissSteeles,whowasonherkneestoattendher,andhermouthstuffedwithsugarplumsbytheother。
Withsucharewardforhertears,thechildwastoowisetoceasecrying。Shestillscreamedandsobbedlustily,kickedhertwobrothersforofferingtotouchher,andalltheirunitedsoothingswereineffectualtillLadyMiddletonluckilyrememberingthatinasceneofsimilardistresslastweek,someapricotmarmaladehadbeensuccessfullyappliedforabruisedtemple,thesameremedywaseagerlyproposedforthisunfortunatescratch,andaslightintermissionofscreamsintheyoungladyonhearingit,gavethemreasontohopethatitwouldnotberejected——
Shewascarriedoutoftheroomthereforeinhermother’sarms,inquestofthismedicine,andasthetwoboyschosetofollow,thoughearnestlyentreatedbytheirmothertostaybehind,thefouryoungladieswereleftinaquietnesswhichtheroomhadnotknownformanyhours。
“Poorlittlecreatures!”saidMissSteele,assoonastheyweregone。”Itmighthavebeenaverysadaccident。”
“YetIhardlyknowhow,“criedMarianne,“unlessithadbeenundertotallydifferentcircumstances。
Butthisistheusualwayofheighteningalarm,wherethereisnothingtobealarmedatinreality。”
“WhatasweetwomanLadyMiddletonis!”saidLucySteele。
Mariannewassilent;itwasimpossibleforhertosaywhatshedidnotfeel,howevertrivialtheoccasion;
anduponElinorthereforethewholetaskoftellinglieswhenpolitenessrequiredit,alwaysfell。Shedidherbestwhenthuscalledon,byspeakingofLadyMiddletonwithmorewarmththanshefelt,thoughwithfarlessthanMissLucy。
“AndSirJohntoo,“criedtheeldersister,“whatacharmingmanheis!”
Heretoo,MissDashwood’scommendation,beingonlysimpleandjust,cameinwithoutanyeclat。Shemerelyobservedthathewasperfectlygoodhumouredandfriendly。
“Andwhatacharminglittlefamilytheyhave!
I
neversawsuchfinechildreninmylife——IdeclareI
quitedoatuponthemalready,andindeedIamalwaysdistractedlyfondofchildren。”
“Ishouldguessso,“saidElinor,withasmile,“fromwhatIhavewitnessedthismorning。”
“Ihaveanotion,“saidLucy,“youthinkthelittleMiddletonsrathertoomuchindulged;perhapstheymaybetheoutsideofenough;butitissonaturalinLadyMiddleton;
andformypart,Ilovetoseechildrenfulloflifeandspirits;Icannotbearthemiftheyaretameandquiet。”
“Iconfess,“repliedElinor,“thatwhileI
amatBartonPark,Ineverthinkoftameandquietchildrenwithanyabhorrence。”
Ashortpausesucceededthisspeech,whichwasfirstbrokenbyMissSteele,whoseemedverymuchdisposedforconversation,andwhonowsaidratherabruptly,“AndhowdoyoulikeDevonshire,MissDashwood?,IsupposeyouwereverysorrytoleaveSussex。”
Insomesurpriseatthefamiliarityofthisquestion,oratleastofthemannerinwhichitwasspoken,Elinorrepliedthatshewas。
“Norlandisaprodigiousbeautifulplace,isnotit?”
addedMissSteele。
“WehaveheardSirJohnadmireitexcessively,“
saidLucy,whoseemedtothinksomeapologynecessaryforthefreedomofhersister。
“IthinkeveryoneMUSTadmireit,“repliedElinor,“whoeversawtheplace;thoughitisnottobesupposedthatanyonecanestimateitsbeautiesaswedo。”
“Andhadyouagreatmanysmartbeauxthere?
I
supposeyouhavenotsomanyinthispartoftheworld;
formypart,Ithinktheyareavastadditionalways。”
“Butwhyshouldyouthink,“saidLucy,lookingashamedofhersister,“thattherearenotasmanygenteelyoungmeninDevonshireasSussex?”
“Nay,mydear,I’msureIdon’tpretendtosaythattherean’t。I’msurethere’savastmanysmartbeauxinExeter;
butyouknow,howcouldItellwhatsmartbeauxtheremightbeaboutNorland;andIwasonlyafraidtheMissDashwoodsmightfinditdullatBarton,iftheyhadnotsomanyastheyusedtohave。Butperhapsyouyoungladiesmaynotcareaboutthebeaux,andhadasliefbewithoutthemaswiththem。Formypart,Ithinktheyarevastlyagreeable,providedtheydresssmartandbehavecivil。
ButIcan’tbeartoseethemdirtyandnasty。Nowthere’sMr。RoseatExeter,aprodigioussmartyoungman,quiteabeau,clerktoMr。Simpson,youknow,andyetifyoudobutmeethimofamorning,heisnotfittobeseen——
Isupposeyourbrotherwasquiteabeau,MissDashwood,beforehemarried,ashewassorich?”
“Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“Icannottellyou,forIdonotperfectlycomprehendthemeaningoftheword。
ButthisIcansay,thatifheeverwasabeaubeforehemarried,heisonestillforthereisnotthesmallestalterationinhim。”
“Oh!dear!oneneverthinksofmarriedmen’sbeingbeaux——theyhavesomethingelsetodo。”
“Lord!Anne,“criedhersister,“youcantalkofnothingbutbeaux;——youwillmakeMissDashwoodbelieveyouthinkofnothingelse。”Andthentoturnthediscourse,shebeganadmiringthehouseandthefurniture。
ThisspecimenoftheMissSteeleswasenough。
Thevulgarfreedomandfollyoftheeldestlefthernorecommendation,andasElinorwasnotblindedbythebeauty,ortheshrewdlookoftheyoungest,toherwantofrealeleganceandartlessness,sheleftthehousewithoutanywishofknowingthembetter。
NotsotheMissSteeles——TheycamefromExeter,wellprovidedwithadmirationfortheuseofSirJohnMiddleton,hisfamily,andallhisrelations,andnoniggardlyproportionwasnowdealtouttohisfaircousins,whomtheydeclaredtobethemostbeautiful,elegant,accomplished,andagreeablegirlstheyhadeverbeheld,andwithwhomtheywereparticularlyanxioustobebetteracquainted——
Andtobebetteracquaintedtherefore,Elinorsoonfoundwastheirinevitablelot,forasSirJohnwasentirelyonthesideoftheMissSteeles,theirpartywouldbetoostrongforopposition,andthatkindofintimacymustbesubmittedto,whichconsistsofsittinganhourortwotogetherinthesameroomalmosteveryday。
SirJohncoulddonomore;buthedidnotknowthatanymorewasrequired:tobetogetherwas,inhisopinion,tobeintimate,andwhilehiscontinualschemesfortheirmeetingwereeffectual,hehadnotadoubtoftheirbeingestablishedfriends。
Todohimjustice,hedideverythinginhispowertopromotetheirunreserve,bymakingtheMissSteelesacquaintedwithwhateverhekneworsupposedofhiscousins’
situationsinthemostdelicateparticulars,——andElinorhadnotseenthemmorethantwice,beforetheeldestofthemwishedherjoyonhersister’shavingbeensoluckyastomakeaconquestofaverysmartbeausinceshecametoBarton。
“’Twillbeafinethingtohavehermarriedsoyoungtobesure,“saidshe,“andIhearheisquiteabeau,andprodigioushandsome。AndIhopeyoumayhaveasgoodluckyourselfsoon,——butperhapsyoumayhaveafriendinthecorneralready。”
ElinorcouldnotsupposethatSirJohnwouldbemoreniceinproclaiminghissuspicionsofherregardforEdward,thanhehadbeenwithrespecttoMarianne;indeeditwasratherhisfavouritejokeofthetwo,asbeingsomewhatnewerandmoreconjectural;andsinceEdward’svisit,theyhadneverdinedtogetherwithouthisdrinkingtoherbestaffectionswithsomuchsignificancyandsomanynodsandwinks,astoexcitegeneralattention。TheletterF——
hadbeenlikewiseinvariablybroughtforward,andfoundproductiveofsuchcountlessjokes,thatitscharacterasthewittiestletterinthealphabethadbeenlongestablishedwithElinor。
TheMissSteeles,assheexpected,hadnowallthebenefitofthesejokes,andintheeldestofthemtheyraisedacuriositytoknowthenameofthegentlemanalludedto,which,thoughoftenimpertinentlyexpressed,wasperfectlyofapiecewithhergeneralinquisitivenessintotheconcernsoftheirfamily。ButSirJohndidnotsportlongwiththecuriositywhichhedelightedtoraise,forhehadatleastasmuchpleasureintellingthename,asMissSteelehadinhearingit。
“HisnameisFerrars,“saidhe,inaveryaudiblewhisper;
“butpraydonottellit,forit’sagreatsecret。”
“Ferrars!”repeatedMissSteele;“Mr。Ferrarsisthehappyman,ishe?What!yoursister-in-law’sbrother,MissDashwood?averyagreeableyoungmantobesure;
Iknowhimverywell。”
“Howcanyousayso,Anne?”criedLucy,whogenerallymadeanamendmenttoallhersister’sassertions。
“Thoughwehaveseenhimonceortwiceatmyuncle’s,itisrathertoomuchtopretendtoknowhimverywell。”
Elinorheardallthiswithattentionandsurprise。
“Andwhowasthisuncle?,Wheredidhelive?,Howcametheyacquainted?”Shewishedverymuchtohavethesubjectcontinued,thoughshedidnotchusetojoininitherself;
butnothingmoreofitwassaid,andforthefirsttimeinherlife,shethoughtMrs。Jenningsdeficienteitherincuriosityafterpettyinformation,orinadispositiontocommunicateit。ThemannerinwhichMissSteelehadspokenofEdward,increasedhercuriosity;foritstruckherasbeingratherill-natured,andsuggestedthesuspicionofthatlady’sknowing,orfancyingherselftoknowsomethingtohisdisadvantage——Buthercuriositywasunavailing,fornofarthernoticewastakenofMr。Ferrars’snamebyMissSteelewhenalludedto,orevenopenlymentionedbySirJohn。
chapter22
CHAPTER22
Marianne,whohadnevermuchtolerationforanythinglikeimpertinence,vulgarity,inferiorityofparts,orevendifferenceoftastefromherself,wasatthistimeparticularlyill-disposed,fromthestateofherspirits,tobepleasedwiththeMissSteeles,ortoencouragetheiradvances;andtotheinvariablecoldnessofherbehaviourtowardsthem,whichcheckedeveryendeavouratintimacyontheirside,Elinorprincipallyattributedthatpreferenceofherselfwhichsoonbecameevidentinthemannersofboth,butespeciallyofLucy,whomissednoopportunityofengagingherinconversation,orofstrivingtoimprovetheiracquaintancebyaneasyandfrankcommunicationofhersentiments。
Lucywasnaturallyclever;herremarkswereoftenjustandamusing;andasacompanionforhalfanhourElinorfrequentlyfoundheragreeable;butherpowershadreceivednoaidfromeducation:shewasignorantandilliterate;andherdeficiencyofallmentalimprovement,herwantofinformationinthemostcommonparticulars,couldnotbeconcealedfromMissDashwood,inspiteofherconstantendeavourtoappeartoadvantage。Elinorsaw,andpitiedherfor,theneglectofabilitieswhicheducationmighthaverenderedsorespectable;butshesaw,withlesstendernessoffeeling,thethoroughwantofdelicacy,ofrectitude,andintegrityofmind,whichherattentions,herassiduities,herflatteriesattheParkbetrayed;
andshecouldhavenolastingsatisfactioninthecompanyofapersonwhojoinedinsinceritywithignorance;
whosewantofinstructionpreventedtheirmeetinginconversationontermsofequality,andwhoseconducttowardothersmadeeveryshewofattentionanddeferencetowardsherselfperfectlyvalueless。
“Youwillthinkmyquestionanoddone,Idaresay,“
saidLucytoheroneday,astheywerewalkingtogetherfromtheparktothecottage——“butpray,areyoupersonallyacquaintedwithyoursister-in-law’smother,Mrs。Ferrars?”
ElinorDIDthinkthequestionaveryoddone,andhercountenanceexpressedit,assheansweredthatshehadneverseenMrs。Ferrars。
“Indeed!”repliedLucy;“Iwonderatthat,forI
thoughtyoumusthaveseenheratNorlandsometimes。
Then,perhaps,youcannottellmewhatsortofawomansheis?”
“No,“returnedElinor,cautiousofgivingherrealopinionofEdward’smother,andnotverydesirousofsatisfyingwhatseemedimpertinentcuriosity——
“Iknownothingofher。”
“Iamsureyouthinkmeverystrange,forenquiringaboutherinsuchaway,“saidLucy,eyeingElinorattentivelyasshespoke;“butperhapstheremaybereasons——IwishImightventure;buthoweverIhopeyouwilldomethejusticeofbelievingthatIdonotmeantobeimpertinent。”
Elinormadeheracivilreply,andtheywalkedonforafewminutesinsilence。ItwasbrokenbyLucy,whorenewedthesubjectagainbysaying,withsomehesitation,“Icannotbeartohaveyouthinkmeimpertinentlycurious。
IamsureIwouldratherdoanythingintheworldthanbethoughtsobyapersonwhosegoodopinionissowellworthhavingasyours。AndIamsureIshouldnothavethesmallestfearoftrustingYOU;indeed,IshouldbeverygladofyouradvicehowtomanageinsuchanduncomfortablesituationasIam;but,however,thereisnooccasiontotroubleYOU。
IamsorryyoudonothappentoknowMrs。Ferrars。”
“IamsorryIdoNOT,“saidElinor,ingreatastonishment,“ifitcouldbeofanyusetoYOUtoknowmyopinionofher。
ButreallyIneverunderstoodthatyouwereatallconnectedwiththatfamily,andthereforeIamalittlesurprised,Iconfess,atsoseriousaninquiryintohercharacter。”
“Idaresayyouare,andIamsureIdonotatallwonderatit。ButifIdaredtellyouall,youwouldnotbesomuchsurprised。Mrs。Ferrarsiscertainlynothingtomeatpresent——butthetimeMAYcome——howsoonitwillcomemustdependuponherself——whenwemaybeveryintimatelyconnected。”
Shelookeddownasshesaidthis,amiablybashful,withonlyonesideglanceathercompaniontoobserveitseffectonher。
“Goodheavens!”criedElinor,“whatdoyoumean?
AreyouacquaintedwithMr。RobertFerrars?,Canyoube?”
Andshedidnotfeelmuchdelightedwiththeideaofsuchasister-in-law。
“No,“repliedLucy,“nottoMr。ROBERTFerrars——I
neversawhiminmylife;but,“fixinghereyesuponElinor,“tohiseldestbrother。”
WhatfeltElinoratthatmoment?Astonishment,thatwouldhavebeenaspainfulasitwasstrong,hadnotanimmediatedisbeliefoftheassertionattendedit。
SheturnedtowardsLucyinsilentamazement,unabletodivinethereasonorobjectofsuchadeclaration;andthoughhercomplexionvaried,shestoodfirminincredulity,andfeltinnodangerofanhystericalfit,oraswoon。
“Youmaywellbesurprised,“continuedLucy;
“fortobesureyoucouldhavehadnoideaofitbefore;
forIdaresayheneverdroppedthesmallesthintofittoyouoranyofyourfamily;becauseitwasalwaysmeanttobeagreatsecret,andIamsurehasbeenfaithfullykeptsobymetothishour。NotasoulofallmyrelationsknowofitbutAnne,andInevershouldhavementionedittoyou,ifIhadnotfeltthegreatestdependenceintheworlduponyoursecrecy;andIreallythoughtmybehaviourinaskingsomanyquestionsaboutMrs。Ferrarsmustseemsoodd,thatitoughttobeexplained。
AndIdonotthinkMr。Ferrarscanbedispleased,whenheknowsIhavetrustedyou,becauseIknowhehasthehighestopinionintheworldofallyourfamily,andlooksuponyourselfandtheotherMissDashwoodsquiteashisownsisters。”——Shepaused。
Elinorforafewmomentsremainedsilent。
Herastonishmentatwhatsheheardwasatfirsttoogreatforwords;butatlengthforcingherselftospeak,andtospeakcautiously,shesaid,withcalmnessofmanner,whichtolerablywellconcealedhersurpriseandsolicitude——
“MayIaskifyourengagementisoflongstanding?”
“Wehavebeenengagedthesefouryears。”
“Fouryears!”
“Yes。”
Elinor,thoughgreatlyshocked,stillfeltunabletobelieveit。
“Ididnotknow,“saidshe,“thatyouwereevenacquaintedtilltheotherday。”
“Ouracquaintance,however,isofmanyyearsdate。
Hewasundermyuncle’scare,youknow,aconsiderablewhile。”
“Youruncle!”
“Yes;Mr。Pratt。DidyouneverhearhimtalkofMr。Pratt?”
“IthinkIhave,“repliedElinor,withanexertionofspirits,whichincreasedwithherincreaseofemotion。
“Hewasfouryearswithmyuncle,wholivesatLongstaple,nearPlymouth。Itwasthereouracquaintancebegun,formysisterandmewasoftenstayingwithmyuncle,anditwasthereourengagementwasformed,thoughnottillayearafterhehadquittedasapupil;buthewasalmostalwayswithusafterwards。Iwasveryunwillingtoenterintoit,asyoumayimagine,withouttheknowledgeandapprobationofhismother;butIwastooyoung,andlovedhimtoowell,tobesoprudentasIoughttohavebeen——
Thoughyoudonotknowhimsowellasme,MissDashwood,youmusthaveseenenoughofhimtobesensibleheisverycapableofmakingawomansincerelyattachedtohim。”
“Certainly,“answeredElinor,withoutknowingwhatshesaid;butafteramoment’sreflection,sheadded,withrevivedsecurityofEdward’shonourandlove,andhercompanion’sfalsehood——“EngagedtoMr。EdwardFerrars!——Iconfessmyselfsototallysurprisedatwhatyoutellme,thatreally——Ibegyourpardon;
butsurelytheremustbesomemistakeofpersonorname。
WecannotmeanthesameMr。Ferrars。”
“Wecanmeannoother,“criedLucy,smiling。
“Mr。EdwardFerrars,theeldestsonofMrs。Ferrars,ofParkStreet,andbrotherofyoursister-in-law,Mrs。JohnDashwood,isthepersonImean;youmustallowthatIamnotlikelytobedeceivedastothenameofthemanonwhoallmyhappinessdepends。”
“Itisstrange,“repliedElinor,inamostpainfulperplexity,“thatIshouldneverhaveheardhimevenmentionyourname。”
“No;consideringoursituation,itwasnotstrange。
Ourfirstcarehasbeentokeepthemattersecret——
Youknewnothingofme,ormyfamily,and,therefore,therecouldbenoOCCASIONforevermentioningmynametoyou;and,ashewasalwaysparticularlyafraidofhissister’ssuspectinganything,THATwasreasonenoughforhisnotmentioningit。”
Shewassilent——Elinor’ssecuritysunk;butherself-commanddidnotsinkwithit。
“Fouryearsyouhavebeenengaged,“saidshewithafirmvoice。
“Yes;andheavenknowshowmuchlongerwemayhavetowait。PoorEdward!,Itputshimquiteoutofheart。”
Thentakingasmallminiaturefromherpocket,sheadded,“Topreventthepossibilityofmistake,besogoodastolookatthisface。Itdoesnotdohimjustice,tobesure,butyetIthinkyoucannotbedeceivedastothepersonitwasdrewfor——Ihavehaditabovethesethreeyears。”
Sheputitintoherhandsasshespoke;andwhenElinorsawthepainting,whateverotherdoubtsherfearofatoohastydecision,orherwishofdetectingfalsehoodmightsuffertolingerinhermind,shecouldhavenoneofitsbeingEdward’sface。Shereturneditalmostinstantly,acknowledgingthelikeness。
“Ihaveneverbeenable,“continuedLucy,“togivehimmypictureinreturn,whichIamverymuchvexedat,forhehasbeenalwayssoanxioustogetit!,ButIamdeterminedtosetforittheveryfirstopportunity。”
“Youarequiteintheright,“repliedElinorcalmly。
Theythenproceededafewpacesinsilence。Lucyspokefirst。
“Iamsure,“saidshe,“Ihavenodoubtintheworldofyourfaithfullykeepingthissecret,becauseyoumustknowofwhatimportanceitistous,nottohaveitreachhismother;forshewouldneverapproveofit,Idaresay。
Ishallhavenofortune,andIfancysheisanexceedingproudwoman。”
“Icertainlydidnotseekyourconfidence,“
saidElinor;
“butyoudomenomorethanjusticeinimaginingthatI
maybedependedon。Yoursecretissafewithme;
butpardonmeifIexpresssomesurpriseatsounnecessaryacommunication。Youmustatleasthavefeltthatmybeingacquaintedwithitcouldnotaddtoitssafety。”
Asshesaidthis,shelookedearnestlyatLucy,hopingtodiscoversomethinginhercountenance;perhapsthefalsehoodofthegreatestpartofwhatshehadbeensaying;
butLucy’scountenancesufferednochange。
“IwasafraidyouwouldthinkIwastakingagreatlibertywithyou,“saidshe,“intellingyouallthis。
Ihavenotknownyoulongtobesure,personallyatleast,butIhaveknownyouandallyourfamilybydescriptionagreatwhile;andassoonasIsawyou,Ifeltalmostasifyouwasanoldacquaintance。Besidesinthepresentcase,IreallythoughtsomeexplanationwasduetoyouaftermymakingsuchparticularinquiriesaboutEdward’smother;
andIamsounfortunate,thatIhavenotacreaturewhoseadviceIcanask。Anneistheonlypersonthatknowsofit,andshehasnojudgmentatall;indeed,shedoesmeagreatdealmoreharmthangood,forIaminconstantfearofherbetrayingme。Shedoesnotknowhowtoholdhertongue,asyoumustperceive,andIamsureIwasinthegreatestfrightintheworldt’otherday,whenEdward’snamewasmentionedbySirJohn,lestsheshouldoutwithitall。
Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIgothroughinmymindfromitaltogether。IonlywonderthatIamaliveafterwhatIhavesufferedforEdward’ssaketheselastfouryears。
Everythinginsuchsuspenseanduncertainty;andseeinghimsoseldom——wecanhardlymeetabovetwicea-year。
IamsureIwondermyheartisnotquitebroke。”
Hereshetookoutherhandkerchief;butElinordidnotfeelverycompassionate。
“Sometimes。”continuedLucy,afterwipinghereyes,“Ithinkwhetheritwouldnotbebetterforusbothtobreakoffthematterentirely。”,Asshesaidthis,shelookeddirectlyathercompanion。”ButthenatothertimesIhavenotresolutionenoughforit——
Icannotbearthethoughtsofmakinghimsomiserable,asIknowtheverymentionofsuchathingwoulddo。
Andonmyownaccounttoo——sodearasheistome——Idon’tthinkIcouldbeequaltoit。Whatwouldyouadvisemetodoinsuchacase,MissDashwood?,Whatwouldyoudoyourself?”
“Pardonme,“repliedElinor,startledbythequestion;
“butIcangiveyounoadviceundersuchcircumstances。
Yourownjudgmentmustdirectyou。”
“Tobesure,“continuedLucy,afterafewminutessilenceonbothsides,“hismothermustprovideforhimsometimeorother;butpoorEdwardissocastdownbyit!
Didyounotthinkhimdreadfullow-spiritedwhenhewasatBarton?,HewassomiserablewhenheleftusatLongstaple,togotoyou,thatIwasafraidyouwouldthinkhimquiteill。”
“Didhecomefromyouruncle’s,then,whenhevisitedus?”
“Oh,yes;hehadbeenstayingafortnightwithus。
Didyouthinkhecamedirectlyfromtown?”
“No,“repliedElinor,mostfeelinglysensibleofeveryfreshcircumstanceinfavourofLucy’sveracity;
“Irememberhetoldus,thathehadbeenstayingafortnightwithsomefriendsnearPlymouth。”
Sherememberedtoo,herownsurpriseatthetime,athismentioningnothingfartherofthosefriends,athistotalsilencewithrespecteventotheirnames。
“Didnotyouthinkhimsadlyoutofspirits?”
repeatedLucy。
“Wedid,indeed,particularlysowhenhefirstarrived。”
“Ibeggedhimtoexerthimselfforfearyoushouldsuspectwhatwasthematter;butitmadehimsomelancholy,notbeingabletostaymorethanafortnightwithus,andseeingmesomuchaffected——
Poorfellow!——Iamafraiditisjustthesamewithhimnow;
forhewritesinwretchedspirits。IheardfromhimjustbeforeIleftExeter;“takingaletterfromherpocketandcarelesslyshowingthedirectiontoElinor。
“Youknowhishand,Idaresay,acharmingoneitis;
butthatisnotwrittensowellasusual——Hewastired,Idaresay,forhehadjustfilledthesheettomeasfullaspossible。”
ElinorsawthatitWAShishand,andshecoulddoubtnolonger。Thispicture,shehadallowedherselftobelieve,mighthavebeenaccidentallyobtained;itmightnothavebeenEdward’sgift;butacorrespondencebetweenthembyletter,couldsubsistonlyunderapositiveengagement,couldbeauthorisedbynothingelse;forafewmoments,shewasalmostovercome——herheartsunkwithinher,andshecouldhardlystand;butexertionwasindispensablynecessary;
andshestruggledsoresolutelyagainsttheoppressionofherfeelings,thathersuccesswasspeedy,andforthetimecomplete。
“Writingtoeachother,“saidLucy,returningtheletterintoherpocket,“istheonlycomfortwehaveinsuchlongseparations。Yes,Ihaveoneothercomfortinhispicture,butpoorEdwardhasnotevenTHAT。
Ifhehadbutmypicture,hesaysheshouldbeeasy。
IgavehimalockofmyhairsetinaringwhenhewasatLongstaplelast,andthatwassomecomforttohim,hesaid,butnotequaltoapicture。Perhapsyoumightnoticetheringwhenyousawhim?”
“Idid,“saidElinor,withacomposureofvoice,underwhichwasconcealedanemotionanddistressbeyondanythingshehadeverfeltbefore。Shewasmortified,shocked,confounded。
Fortunatelyforher,theyhadnowreachedthecottage,andtheconversationcouldbecontinuednofarther。
Aftersittingwiththemafewminutes,theMissSteelesreturnedtothePark,andElinorwasthenatlibertytothinkandbewretched。
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HoweversmallElinor’sgeneraldependenceonLucy’sveracitymightbe,itwasimpossibleforheronseriousreflectiontosuspectitinthepresentcase,wherenotemptationcouldbeanswerabletothefollyofinventingafalsehoodofsuchadescription。WhatLucyhadassertedtobetrue,therefore,Elinorcouldnot,darednotlongerdoubt;supportedasitwastoooneverysidebysuchprobabilitiesandproofs,andcontradictedbynothingbutherownwishes。TheiropportunityofacquaintanceinthehouseofMr。Prattwasafoundationfortherest,atonceindisputableandalarming;andEdward’svisitnearPlymouth,hismelancholystateofmind,hisdissatisfactionathisownprospects,hisuncertainbehaviourtowardsherself,theintimateknowledgeoftheMissSteelesastoNorlandandtheirfamilyconnections,whichhadoftensurprisedher,thepicture,theletter,thering,formedaltogethersuchabodyofevidence,asovercameeveryfearofcondemninghimunfairly,andestablishedasafact,whichnopartialitycouldsetaside,hisill-treatmentofherself——Herresentmentofsuchbehaviour,herindignationathavingbeenitsdupe,forashorttimemadeherfeelonlyforherself;
butotherideas,otherconsiderations,soonarose。
HadEdwardbeenintentionallydeceivingher?,Hadhefeignedaregardforherwhichhedidnotfeel?,WashisengagementtoLucyanengagementoftheheart?,No;whateveritmightoncehavebeen,shecouldnotbelieveitsuchatpresent。
Hisaffectionwasallherown。Shecouldnotbedeceivedinthat。Hermother,sisters,Fanny,allhadbeenconsciousofhisregardforheratNorland;itwasnotanillusionofherownvanity。Hecertainlylovedher。
Whatasofteneroftheheartwasthispersuasion!,Howmuchcoulditnottempthertoforgive!,Hehadbeenblamable,highlyblamable,inremainingatNorlandafterhefirstfeltherinfluenceoverhimtobemorethanitoughttobe。Inthat,hecouldnotbedefended;butifhehadinjuredher,howmuchmorehadheinjuredhimself;
ifhercasewerepitiable,hiswashopeless。
Hisimprudencehadmadehermiserableforawhile;butitseemedtohavedeprivedhimselfofallchanceofeverbeingotherwise。Shemightintimeregaintranquillity;
butHE,whathadhetolookforwardto?,CouldheeverbetolerablyhappywithLucySteele;couldhe,werehisaffectionforherselfoutofthequestion,withhisintegrity,hisdelicacy,andwell-informedmind,besatisfiedwithawifelikeher——illiterate,artful,andselfish?
Theyouthfulinfatuationofnineteenwouldnaturallyblindhimtoeverythingbutherbeautyandgoodnature;
butthefoursucceedingyears——years,whichifrationallyspent,givesuchimprovementtotheunderstanding,musthaveopenedhiseyestoherdefectsofeducation,whilethesameperiodoftime,spentonhersideininferiorsocietyandmorefrivolouspursuits,hadperhapsrobbedherofthatsimplicitywhichmightoncehavegivenaninterestingcharactertoherbeauty。
Ifinthesuppositionofhisseekingtomarryherself,hisdifficultiesfromhismotherhadseemedgreat,howmuchgreaterweretheynowlikelytobe,whentheobjectofhisengagementwasundoubtedlyinferiorinconnections,andprobablyinferiorinfortunetoherself。
Thesedifficulties,indeed,withaheartsoalienatedfromLucy,mightnotpressveryharduponhispatience;
butmelancholywasthestateofthepersonbywhomtheexpectationoffamilyoppositionandunkindness,couldbefeltasarelief!
Astheseconsiderationsoccurredtoherinpainfulsuccession,sheweptforhim,morethanforherself。
Supportedbytheconvictionofhavingdonenothingtomeritherpresentunhappiness,andconsoledbythebeliefthatEdwardhaddonenothingtoforfeitheresteem,shethoughtshecouldevennow,underthefirstsmartoftheheavyblow,commandherselfenoughtoguardeverysuspicionofthetruthfromhermotherandsisters。
Andsowellwassheabletoanswerherownexpectations,thatwhenshejoinedthematdinneronlytwohoursaftershehadfirstsufferedtheextinctionofallherdearesthopes,noonewouldhavesupposedfromtheappearanceofthesisters,thatElinorwasmourninginsecretoverobstacleswhichmustdivideherforeverfromtheobjectofherlove,andthatMariannewasinternallydwellingontheperfectionsofaman,ofwhosewholeheartshefeltthoroughlypossessed,andwhomsheexpectedtoseeineverycarriagewhichdroveneartheirhouse。
ThenecessityofconcealingfromhermotherandMarianne,whathadbeenentrustedinconfidencetoherself,thoughitobligedhertounceasingexertion,wasnoaggravationofElinor’sdistress。Onthecontraryitwasarelieftoher,tobesparedthecommunicationofwhatwouldgivesuchafflictiontothem,andtobesavedlikewisefromhearingthatcondemnationofEdward,whichwouldprobablyflowfromtheexcessoftheirpartialaffectionforherself,andwhichwasmorethanshefeltequaltosupport。
Fromtheircounsel,ortheirconversation,sheknewshecouldreceivenoassistance,theirtendernessandsorrowmustaddtoherdistress,whileherself-commandwouldneitherreceiveencouragementfromtheirexamplenorfromtheirpraise。Shewasstrongeralone,andherowngoodsensesowellsupportedher,thatherfirmnesswasasunshaken,herappearanceofcheerfulnessasinvariable,aswithregretssopoignantandsofresh,itwaspossibleforthemtobe。
MuchasshehadsufferedfromherfirstconversationwithLucyonthesubject,shesoonfeltanearnestwishofrenewingit;andthisformorereasonsthanone。
Shewantedtohearmanyparticularsoftheirengagementrepeatedagain,shewantedmoreclearlytounderstandwhatLucyreallyfeltforEdward,whethertherewereanysincerityinherdeclarationoftenderregardforhim,andsheparticularlywantedtoconvinceLucy,byherreadinesstoenteronthematteragain,andhercalmnessinconversingonit,thatshewasnootherwiseinterestedinitthanasafriend,whichsheverymuchfearedherinvoluntaryagitation,intheirmorningdiscourse,musthaveleftatleastdoubtful。ThatLucywasdisposedtobejealousofherappearedveryprobable:itwasplainthatEdwardhadalwaysspokenhighlyinherpraise,notmerelyfromLucy’sassertion,butfromherventuringtotrustheronsoshortapersonalacquaintance,withasecretsoconfessedlyandevidentlyimportant。
AndevenSirJohn’sjokingintelligencemusthavehadsomeweight。Butindeed,whileElinorremainedsowellassuredwithinherselfofbeingreallybelovedbyEdward,itrequirednootherconsiderationofprobabilitiestomakeitnaturalthatLucyshouldbejealous;
andthatshewasso,herveryconfidencewasaproof。
Whatotherreasonforthedisclosureoftheaffaircouldtherebe,butthatElinormightbeinformedbyitofLucy’ssuperiorclaimsonEdward,andbetaughttoavoidhiminfuture?,Shehadlittledifficultyinunderstandingthusmuchofherrival’sintentions,andwhileshewasfirmlyresolvedtoactbyheraseveryprincipleofhonourandhonestydirected,tocombatherownaffectionforEdwardandtoseehimaslittleaspossible;shecouldnotdenyherselfthecomfortofendeavouringtoconvinceLucythatherheartwasunwounded。Andasshecouldnowhavenothingmorepainfultohearonthesubjectthanhadalreadybeentold,shedidnotmistrustherownabilityofgoingthrougharepetitionofparticularswithcomposure。
Butitwasnotimmediatelythatanopportunityofdoingsocouldbecommanded,thoughLucywasaswelldisposedasherselftotakeadvantageofanythatoccurred;
fortheweatherwasnotoftenfineenoughtoallowoftheirjoininginawalk,wheretheymightmosteasilyseparatethemselvesfromtheothers;andthoughtheymetatleasteveryothereveningeitherattheparkorcottage,andchieflyattheformer,theycouldnotbesupposedtomeetforthesakeofconversation。
SuchathoughtwouldneverentereitherSirJohnorLadyMiddleton’shead;andthereforeverylittleleisurewasevergivenforageneralchat,andnoneatallforparticulardiscourse。Theymetforthesakeofeating,drinking,andlaughingtogether,playingatcards,orconsequences,oranyothergamethatwassufficientlynoisy。
Oneortwomeetingsofthiskindhadtakenplace,withoutaffordingElinoranychanceofengagingLucyinprivate,whenSirJohncalledatthecottageonemorning,tobeg,inthenameofcharity,thattheywouldalldinewithLadyMiddletonthatday,ashewasobligedtoattendtheclubatExeter,andshewouldotherwisebequitealone,excepthermotherandthetwoMissSteeles。
Elinor,whoforesawafaireropeningforthepointshehadinview,insuchapartyasthiswaslikelytobe,moreatlibertyamongthemselvesunderthetranquilandwell-breddirectionofLadyMiddletonthanwhenherhusbandunitedthemtogetherinonenoisypurpose,immediatelyacceptedtheinvitation;Margaret,withhermother’spermission,wasequallycompliant,andMarianne,thoughalwaysunwillingtojoinanyoftheirparties,waspersuadedbyhermother,whocouldnotbeartohavehersecludeherselffromanychanceofamusement,togolikewise。
Theyoungladieswent,andLadyMiddletonwashappilypreservedfromthefrightfulsolitudewhichhadthreatenedher。
TheinsipidityofthemeetingwasexactlysuchasElinorhadexpected;itproducednotonenoveltyofthoughtorexpression,andnothingcouldbelessinterestingthanthewholeoftheirdiscoursebothinthediningparlouranddrawingroom:tothelatter,thechildrenaccompaniedthem,andwhiletheyremainedthere,shewastoowellconvincedoftheimpossibilityofengagingLucy’sattentiontoattemptit。Theyquitteditonlywiththeremovalofthetea-things。Thecard-tablewasthenplaced,andElinorbegantowonderatherselfforhavingeverentertainedahopeoffindingtimeforconversationatthepark。Theyallroseupinpreparationforaroundgame。
“Iamglad,“saidLadyMiddletontoLucy,“youarenotgoingtofinishpoorlittleAnnamaria’sbasketthisevening;forIamsureitmusthurtyoureyestoworkfiligreebycandlelight。Andwewillmakethedearlittlelovesomeamendsforherdisappointmentto-morrow,andthenIhopeshewillnotmuchmindit。”
Thishintwasenough,Lucyrecollectedherselfinstantlyandreplied,“Indeedyouareverymuchmistaken,LadyMiddleton;Iamonlywaitingtoknowwhetheryoucanmakeyourpartywithoutme,orIshouldhavebeenatmyfiligreealready。Iwouldnotdisappointthelittleangelforalltheworld:andifyouwantmeatthecard-tablenow,Iamresolvedtofinishthebasketaftersupper。”
“Youareverygood,Ihopeitwon’thurtyoureyes——
willyouringthebellforsomeworkingcandles?
Mypoorlittlegirlwouldbesadlydisappointed,Iknow,ifthebasketwasnotfinishedtomorrow,forthoughI
toldheritcertainlywouldnot,Iamsureshedependsuponhavingitdone。”
Lucydirectlydrewherworktablenearherandreseatedherselfwithanalacrityandcheerfulnesswhichseemedtoinferthatshecouldtastenogreaterdelightthaninmakingafiligreebasketforaspoiltchild。
LadyMiddletonproposedarubberofCasinototheothers。
NoonemadeanyobjectionbutMarianne,whowithherusualinattentiontotheformsofgeneralcivility,exclaimed,“YourLadyshipwillhavethegoodnesstoexcuseME——youknowIdetestcards。Ishallgotothepiano-forte;
Ihavenottoucheditsinceitwastuned。”,Andwithoutfartherceremony,sheturnedawayandwalkedtotheinstrument。
LadyMiddletonlookedasifshethankedheaventhatSHEhadnevermadesorudeaspeech。
“Mariannecanneverkeeplongfromthatinstrumentyouknow,ma’am,“saidElinor,endeavouringtosmoothawaytheoffence;“andIdonotmuchwonderatit;foritistheverybesttonedpiano-forteIeverheard。”
Theremainingfivewerenowtodrawtheircards。
“Perhaps,“continuedElinor,“ifIshouldhappentocutout,ImaybeofsomeusetoMissLucySteele,inrollingherpapersforher;andthereissomuchstilltobedonetothebasket,thatitmustbeimpossibleIthinkforherlaboursingly,tofinishitthisevening。
Ishouldliketheworkexceedingly,ifshewouldallowmeashareinit。”
“IndeedIshallbeverymuchobligedtoyouforyourhelp,“criedLucy,“forIfindthereismoretobedonetoitthanIthoughttherewas;anditwouldbeashockingthingtodisappointdearAnnamariaafterall。”
“Oh!thatwouldbeterrible,indeed,“saidMissSteele——
“Dearlittlesoul,howIdoloveher!”
“Youareverykind,“saidLadyMiddletontoElinor;
“andasyoureallylikethework,perhapsyouwillbeaswellpleasednottocutintillanotherrubber,orwillyoutakeyourchancenow?”
Elinorjoyfullyprofitedbythefirstoftheseproposals,andthusbyalittleofthataddresswhichMariannecouldnevercondescendtopractise,gainedherownend,andpleasedLadyMiddletonatthesametime。Lucymaderoomforherwithreadyattention,andthetwofairrivalswerethusseatedsidebysideatthesametable,and,withtheutmostharmony,engagedinforwardingthesamework。
ThepianoforteatwhichMarianne,wrappedupinherownmusicandherownthoughts,hadbythistimeforgottenthatanybodywasintheroombesidesherself,wasluckilysonearthemthatMissDashwoodnowjudgedshemightsafely,undertheshelterofitsnoise,introducetheinterestingsubject,withoutanyriskofbeingheardatthecard-table。
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CHAPTER24
Inafirm,thoughcautioustone,Elinorthusbegan。
“Ishouldbeundeservingoftheconfidenceyouhavehonouredmewith,ifIfeltnodesireforitscontinuance,ornofarthercuriosityonitssubject。Iwillnotapologizethereforeforbringingitforwardagain。”
“Thankyou,“criedLucywarmly,“forbreakingtheice;youhavesetmyheartateasebyit;forIwassomehoworotherafraidIhadoffendedyoubywhatI
toldyouthatMonday。”
“Offendedme!Howcouldyousupposeso?Believeme,“
andElinorspokeitwiththetruestsincerity,“nothingcouldbefartherfrommyintentionthantogiveyousuchanidea。Couldyouhaveamotiveforthetrust,thatwasnothonourableandflatteringtome?”
“AndyetIdoassureyou,“repliedLucy,herlittlesharpeyesfullofmeaning,“thereseemedtometobeacoldnessanddispleasureinyourmannerthatmademequiteuncomfortable。Ifeltsurethatyouwasangrywithme;
andhavebeenquarrellingwithmyselfeversince,forhavingtooksuchalibertyastotroubleyouwithmyaffairs。
ButIamverygladtofinditwasonlymyownfancy,andthatyoureallydonotblameme。IfyouknewwhataconsolationitwastometorelievemyheartspeakingtoyouofwhatIamalwaysthinkingofeverymomentofmylife,yourcompassionwouldmakeyouoverlookeverythingelseIamsure。”
“Indeed,Icaneasilybelievethatitwasaverygreatrelieftoyou,toacknowledgeyoursituationtome,andbeassuredthatyoushallneverhavereasontorepentit。
Yourcaseisaveryunfortunateone;youseemtometobesurroundedwithdifficulties,andyouwillhaveneedofallyourmutualaffectiontosupportyouunderthem。
Mr。Ferrars,Ibelieve,isentirelydependentonhismother。”
“Hehasonlytwothousandpoundsofhisown;
itwouldbemadnesstomarryuponthat,thoughformyownpart,Icouldgiveupeveryprospectofmorewithoutasigh。
Ihavebeenalwaysusedtoaverysmallincome,andcouldstrugglewithanypovertyforhim;butIlovehimtoowelltobetheselfishmeansofrobbinghim,perhaps,ofallthathismothermightgivehimifhemarriedtopleaseher。
Wemustwait,itmaybeformanyyears。Withalmosteveryothermanintheworld,itwouldbeanalarmingprospect;
butEdward’saffectionandconstancynothingcandeprivemeofIknow。”
“Thatconvictionmustbeeverythingtoyou;
andheisundoubtedlysupportedbythesametrustinyour’s。
Ifthestrengthofyourreciprocalattachmenthadfailed,asbetweenmanypeople,andundermanycircumstancesitnaturallywouldduringafouryears’engagement,yoursituationwouldhavebeenpitiable,indeed。”
Lucyherelookedup;butElinorwascarefulinguardinghercountenancefromeveryexpressionthatcouldgiveherwordsasuspicioustendency。
“Edward’sloveforme,“saidLucy,“hasbeenprettywellputtothetest,byourlong,verylongabsencesincewewerefirstengaged,andithasstoodthetrialsowell,thatIshouldbeunpardonabletodoubtitnow。
Icansafelysaythathehasnevergavemeonemoment’salarmonthataccountfromthefirst。”
Elinorhardlyknewwhethertosmileorsighatthisassertion。
Lucywenton。”Iamratherofajealoustempertoobynature,andfromourdifferentsituationsinlife,fromhisbeingsomuchmoreintheworldthanme,andourcontinualseparation,Iwasenoughinclinedforsuspicion,tohavefoundoutthetruthinaninstant,iftherehadbeentheslightestalterationinhisbehaviourtomewhenwemet,oranylownessofspiritsthatIcouldnotaccountfor,orifhehadtalkedmoreofoneladythananother,orseemedinanyrespectlesshappyatLongstaplethanheusedtobe。IdonotmeantosaythatIamparticularlyobservantorquick-sightedingeneral,butinsuchacaseIamsureIcouldnotbedeceived。”
“Allthis,“thoughtElinor,“isverypretty;
butitcanimposeuponneitherofus。”
“Butwhat,“saidsheafterashortsilence,“areyourviews?orhaveyounonebutthatofwaitingforMrs。Ferrars’sdeath,whichisamelancholyandshockingextremity?——Ishersondeterminedtosubmittothis,andtoallthetediousnessofthemanyyearsofsuspenseinwhichitmayinvolveyou,ratherthanruntheriskofherdispleasureforawhilebyowningthetruth?”
“Ifwecouldbecertainthatitwouldbeonlyforawhile!,ButMrs。Ferrarsisaveryheadstrongproudwoman,andinherfirstfitofangeruponhearingit,wouldverylikelysecureeverythingtoRobert,andtheideaofthat,forEdward’ssake,frightensawayallmyinclinationforhastymeasures。”
“Andforyourownsaketoo,oryouarecarryingyourdisinterestednessbeyondreason。”
LucylookedatElinoragain,andwassilent。
“DoyouknowMr。RobertFerrars?”askedElinor。
“Notatall——Ineversawhim;butIfancyheisveryunlikehisbrother——sillyandagreatcoxcomb。”
“Agreatcoxcomb!”repeatedMissSteele,whoseearhadcaughtthosewordsbyasuddenpauseinMarianne’smusic——
“Oh,theyaretalkingoftheirfavouritebeaux,Idaresay。”
“Nosister,“criedLucy,“youaremistakenthere,ourfavouritebeauxareNOTgreatcoxcombs。”
“IcananswerforitthatMissDashwood’sisnot,“
saidMrs。Jennings,laughingheartily;“forheisoneofthemodestest,prettiestbehavedyoungmenIeversaw;
butasforLucy,sheissuchaslylittlecreature,thereisnofindingoutwhoSHElikes。”
“Oh,“criedMissSteele,lookingsignificantlyroundatthem,“IdaresayLucy’sbeauisquiteasmodestandprettybehavedasMissDashwood’s。”
Elinorblushedinspiteofherself。Lucybitherlip,andlookedangrilyathersister。Amutualsilencetookplaceforsometime。Lucyfirstputanendtoitbysayinginalowertone,thoughMariannewasthengivingthemthepowerfulprotectionofaverymagnificentconcerto——
“Iwillhonestlytellyouofoneschemewhichhaslatelycomeintomyhead,forbringingmatterstobear;
indeedIamboundtoletyouintothesecret,foryouareapartyconcerned。IdaresayyouhaveseenenoughofEdwardtoknowthathewouldpreferthechurchtoeveryotherprofession;nowmyplanisthatheshouldtakeordersassoonashecan,andthenthroughyourinterest,whichIamsureyouwouldbekindenoughtouseoutoffriendshipforhim,andIhopeoutofsomeregardtome,yourbrothermightbepersuadedtogivehimNorlandliving;
whichIunderstandisaverygoodone,andthepresentincumbentnotlikelytoliveagreatwhile。Thatwouldbeenoughforustomarryupon,andwemighttrusttotimeandchancefortherest。”
“Ishouldalwaysbehappy,“repliedElinor,“toshowanymarkofmyesteemandfriendshipforMr。Ferrars;
butdoyounotperceivethatmyinterestonsuchanoccasionwouldbeperfectlyunnecessary?,HeisbrothertoMrs。JohnDashwood——THATmustberecommendationenoughtoherhusband。”
“ButMrs。JohnDashwoodwouldnotmuchapproveofEdward’sgoingintoorders。”
“ThenIrathersuspectthatmyinterestwoulddoverylittle。”
Theywereagainsilentformanyminutes。
AtlengthLucyexclaimedwithadeepsigh,“Ibelieveitwouldbethewisestwaytoputanendtothebusinessatoncebydissolvingtheengagement。
Weseemsobesetwithdifficultiesoneveryside,thatthoughitwouldmakeusmiserableforatime,weshouldbehappierperhapsintheend。Butyouwillnotgivemeyouradvice,MissDashwood?”
“No,“answeredElinor,withasmile,whichconcealedveryagitatedfeelings,“onsuchasubjectIcertainlywillnot。Youknowverywellthatmyopinionwouldhavenoweightwithyou,unlessitwereonthesideofyourwishes。”
“Indeedyouwrongme,“repliedLucy,withgreatsolemnity;“IknownobodyofwhosejudgmentIthinksohighlyasIdoofyours;andIdoreallybelieve,thatifyouwastosaytome,’IadviseyoubyallmeanstoputanendtoyourengagementwithEdwardFerrars,itwillbemoreforthehappinessofbothofyou,’
Ishouldresolveupondoingitimmediately。”
ElinorblushedfortheinsincerityofEdward’sfuturewife,andreplied,“ThiscomplimentwouldeffectuallyfrightenmefromgivinganyopiniononthesubjecthadIformedone。Itraisesmyinfluencemuchtoohigh;
thepowerofdividingtwopeoplesotenderlyattachedistoomuchforanindifferentperson。”
“’Tisbecauseyouareanindifferentperson,“
saidLucy,withsomepique,andlayingaparticularstressonthosewords,“thatyourjudgmentmightjustlyhavesuchweightwithme。
Ifyoucouldbesupposedtobebiasedinanyrespectbyyourownfeelings,youropinionwouldnotbeworthhaving。”
Elinorthoughtitwisesttomakenoanswertothis,lesttheymightprovokeeachothertoanunsuitableincreaseofeaseandunreserve;andwasevenpartlydeterminednevertomentionthesubjectagain。Anotherpausethereforeofmanyminutes’duration,succeededthisspeech,andLucywasstillthefirsttoendit。
“Shallyoubeintownthiswinter,MissDashwood?”
saidshewithallheraccustomarycomplacency。
“Certainlynot。”
“Iamsorryforthat,“returnedtheother,whilehereyesbrightenedattheinformation,“itwouldhavegavemesuchpleasuretomeetyouthere!
ButIdaresayyouwillgoforallthat。Tobesure,yourbrotherandsisterwillaskyoutocometothem。”
“Itwillnotbeinmypowertoaccepttheirinvitationiftheydo。”
“Howunluckythatis!Ihadquitedependeduponmeetingyouthere。AnneandmearetogothelatterendofJanuarytosomerelationswhohavebeenwantingustovisitthemtheseseveralyears!,ButIonlygoforthesakeofseeingEdward。HewillbethereinFebruary,otherwiseLondonwouldhavenocharmsforme;Ihavenotspiritsforit。”
Elinorwassooncalledtothecard-tablebytheconclusionofthefirstrubber,andtheconfidentialdiscourseofthetwoladieswasthereforeatanend,towhichbothofthemsubmittedwithoutanyreluctance,fornothinghadbeensaidoneithersidetomakethemdislikeeachotherlessthantheyhaddonebefore;
andElinorsatdowntothecardtablewiththemelancholypersuasionthatEdwardwasnotonlywithoutaffectionforthepersonwhowastobehiswife;butthathehadnoteventhechanceofbeingtolerablyhappyinmarriage,whichsincereaffectiononHERsidewouldhavegiven,forself-interestalonecouldinduceawomantokeepamantoanengagement,ofwhichsheseemedsothoroughlyawarethathewasweary。
FromthistimethesubjectwasneverrevivedbyElinor,andwhenenteredonbyLucy,whoseldommissedanopportunityofintroducingit,andwasparticularlycarefultoinformherconfidante,ofherhappinesswhenevershereceivedaletterfromEdward,itwastreatedbytheformerwithcalmnessandcaution,anddismissedassoonascivilitywouldallow;
forshefeltsuchconversationstobeanindulgencewhichLucydidnotdeserve,andwhichweredangeroustoherself。
ThevisitoftheMissSteelesatBartonParkwaslengthenedfarbeyondwhatthefirstinvitationimplied。
Theirfavourincreased;theycouldnotbespared;
SirJohnwouldnothearoftheirgoing;andinspiteoftheirnumerousandlongarrangedengagementsinExeter,inspiteoftheabsolutenecessityofreturningtofulfillthemimmediately,whichwasinfullforceattheendofeveryweek,theywereprevailedontostaynearlytwomonthsatthepark,andtoassistintheduecelebrationofthatfestivalwhichrequiresamorethanordinaryshareofprivateballsandlargedinnerstoproclaimitsimportance。