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  Shethoughtitprobablethatastheylivedinthesamecounty,Mrs。PalmermightbeabletogivesomemoreparticularaccountofWilloughby’sgeneralcharacter,thancouldbegatheredfromtheMiddletons’
  partialacquaintancewithhim;andshewaseagertogainfromanyone,suchaconfirmationofhismeritsasmightremovethepossibilityoffearfromMarianne。ShebeganbyinquiringiftheysawmuchofMr。WilloughbyatCleveland,andwhethertheywereintimatelyacquaintedwithhim。
  “Ohdear,yes;Iknowhimextremelywell,“
  repliedMrs。Palmer;——“NotthatIeverspoketohim,indeed;butIhaveseenhimforeverintown。
  SomehoworotherIneverhappenedtobestayingatBartonwhilehewasatAllenham。Mamasawhimhereoncebefore;——
  butIwaswithmyuncleatWeymouth。However,IdaresayweshouldhaveseenagreatdealofhiminSomersetshire,ifithadnothappenedveryunluckilythatweshouldneverhavebeeninthecountrytogether。HeisverylittleatCombe,Ibelieve;butifhewereeversomuchthere,IdonotthinkMr。Palmerwouldvisithim,forheisintheopposition,youknow,andbesidesitissuchawayoff。Iknowwhyyouinquireabouthim,verywell;
  yoursisteristomarryhim。Iammonstrousgladofit,forthenIshallhaveherforaneighbouryouknow。”
  “Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“youknowmuchmoreofthematterthanIdo,ifyouhaveanyreasontoexpectsuchamatch。”
  “Don’tpretendtodenyit,becauseyouknowitiswhateverybodytalksof。IassureyouIheardofitinmywaythroughtown。”
  “MydearMrs。Palmer!”
  “UponmyhonourIdid——ImetColonelBrandonMondaymorninginBond-street,justbeforewelefttown,andhetoldmeofitdirectly。”
  “Yousurprisemeverymuch。ColonelBrandontellyouofit!,Surelyyoumustbemistaken。Togivesuchintelligencetoapersonwhocouldnotbeinterestedinit,evenifitweretrue,isnotwhatIshouldexpectColonelBrandontodo。”
  “ButIdoassureyouitwasso,forallthat,andIwilltellyouhowithappened。Whenwemethim,heturnedbackandwalkedwithus;andsowebegantalkingofmybrotherandsister,andonethingandanother,andIsaidtohim,’So,Colonel,thereisanewfamilycometoBartoncottage,Ihear,andmamasendsmewordtheyareverypretty,andthatoneofthemisgoingtobemarriedtoMr。WilloughbyofCombeMagna。Isittrue,pray?forofcourseyoumustknow,asyouhavebeeninDevonshiresolately。’“
  “AndwhatdidtheColonelsay?”
  “Oh——hedidnotsaymuch;buthelookedasifheknewittobetrue,sofromthatmomentIsetitdownascertain。Itwillbequitedelightful,Ideclare!
  Whenisittotakeplace?”
  “Mr。BrandonwasverywellIhope?”
  “Oh!yes,quitewell;andsofullofyourpraises,hedidnothingbutsayfinethingsofyou。”
  “Iamflatteredbyhiscommendation。
  Heseemsanexcellentman;andIthinkhimuncommonlypleasing。”
  “SodoI——Heissuchacharmingman,thatitisquiteapityheshouldbesograveandsodull。
  MammasaysHEwasinlovewithyoursistertoo——
  Iassureyouitwasagreatcomplimentifhewas,forhehardlyeverfallsinlovewithanybody。”
  “IsMr。WilloughbymuchknowninyourpartofSomersetshire?”saidElinor。
  “Oh!yes,extremelywell;thatis,Idonotbelievemanypeopleareacquaintedwithhim,becauseCombeMagnaissofaroff;buttheyallthinkhimextremelyagreeableIassureyou。NobodyismorelikedthanMr。Willoughbywhereverhegoes,andsoyoumaytellyoursister。
  Sheisamonstrousluckygirltogethim,uponmyhonour;
  notbutthatheismuchmoreluckyingettingher,becausesheissoveryhandsomeandagreeable,thatnothingcanbegoodenoughforher。However,Idon’tthinkherhardlyatallhandsomerthanyou,Iassureyou;
  forIthinkyoubothexcessivelypretty,andsodoesMr。PalmertooIamsure,thoughwecouldnotgethimtoownitlastnight。”
  Mrs。Palmer’sinformationrespectingWilloughbywasnotverymaterial;butanytestimonyinhisfavour,howeversmall,waspleasingtoher。
  “Iamsogladwearegotacquaintedatlast,“
  continuedCharlotte——“AndnowIhopeweshallalwaysbegreatfriends。Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIlongedtoseeyou!
  Itissodelightfulthatyoushouldliveatthecottage!
  Nothingcanbelikeit,tobesure!,AndIamsogladyoursisterisgoingtobewellmarried!,IhopeyouwillbeagreatdealatCombeMagna。Itisasweetplace,byallaccounts。”
  “YouhavebeenlongacquaintedwithColonelBrandon,havenotyou?”
  “Yes,agreatwhile;eversincemysistermarried——
  HewasaparticularfriendofSirJohn’s。Ibelieve,“
  sheaddedinalowvoice,“hewouldhavebeenverygladtohavehadme,ifhecould。SirJohnandLadyMiddletonwisheditverymuch。Butmamadidnotthinkthematchgoodenoughforme,otherwiseSirJohnwouldhavementionedittotheColonel,andweshouldhavebeenmarriedimmediately。”
  “DidnotColonelBrandonknowofSirJohn’sproposaltoyourmotherbeforeitwasmade?,Hadheneverownedhisaffectiontoyourself?”
  “Oh,no;butifmamahadnotobjectedtoit,Idaresayhewouldhavelikeditofallthings。
  Hehadnotseenmethenabovetwice,foritwasbeforeIleftschool。However,IammuchhappierasIam。
  Mr。PalmeristhekindofmanIlike。”
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  CHAPTER21
  ThePalmersreturnedtoClevelandthenextday,andthetwofamiliesatBartonwereagainlefttoentertaineachother。Butthisdidnotlastlong;Elinorhadhardlygottheirlastvisitorsoutofherhead,hadhardlydonewonderingatCharlotte’sbeingsohappywithoutacause,atMr。Palmer’sactingsosimply,withgoodabilities,andatthestrangeunsuitablenesswhichoftenexistedbetweenhusbandandwife,beforeSirJohn’sandMrs。Jennings’sactivezealinthecauseofsociety,procuredhersomeothernewacquaintancetoseeandobserve。
  Inamorning’sexcursiontoExeter,theyhadmetwithtwoyoungladies,whomMrs。Jenningshadthesatisfactionofdiscoveringtobeherrelations,andthiswasenoughforSirJohntoinvitethemdirectlytothepark,assoonastheirpresentengagementsatExeterwereover。
  TheirengagementsatExeterinstantlygavewaybeforesuchaninvitation,andLadyMiddletonwasthrownintonolittlealarmonthereturnofSirJohn,byhearingthatshewasverysoontoreceiveavisitfromtwogirlswhomshehadneverseeninherlife,andofwhoseelegance,——
  whosetolerablegentilityeven,shecouldhavenoproof;
  fortheassurancesofherhusbandandmotheronthatsubjectwentfornothingatall。Theirbeingherrelationstoomadeitsomuchtheworse;andMrs。Jennings’sattemptsatconsolationwerethereforeunfortunatelyfounded,whensheadvisedherdaughternottocareabouttheirbeingsofashionable;becausetheywereallcousinsandmustputupwithoneanother。Asitwasimpossible,however,nowtopreventtheircoming,LadyMiddletonresignedherselftotheideaofit,withallthephilosophyofawell-bredwoman,contentingherselfwithmerelygivingherhusbandagentlereprimandonthesubjectfiveorsixtimeseveryday。
  Theyoungladiesarrived:theirappearancewasbynomeansungenteelorunfashionable。Theirdresswasverysmart,theirmannersverycivil,theyweredelightedwiththehouse,andinraptureswiththefurniture,andtheyhappenedtobesodoatinglyfondofchildrenthatLadyMiddleton’sgoodopinionwasengagedintheirfavourbeforetheyhadbeenanhouratthePark。
  Shedeclaredthemtobeveryagreeablegirlsindeed,whichforherladyshipwasenthusiasticadmiration。
  SirJohn’sconfidenceinhisownjudgmentrosewiththisanimatedpraise,andhesetoffdirectlyforthecottagetotelltheMissDashwoodsoftheMissSteeles’arrival,andtoassurethemoftheirbeingthesweetestgirlsintheworld。Fromsuchcommendationasthis,however,therewasnotmuchtobelearned;ElinorwellknewthatthesweetestgirlsintheworldweretobemetwithineverypartofEngland,undereverypossiblevariationofform,face,temperandunderstanding。
  SirJohnwantedthewholefamilytowalktotheParkdirectlyandlookathisguests。Benevolent,philanthropicman!,Itwaspainfultohimeventokeepathirdcousintohimself。
  “Docomenow,“saidhe——“praycome——youmustcome——I
  declareyoushallcome——Youcan’tthinkhowyouwilllikethem。Lucyismonstrouspretty,andsogoodhumouredandagreeable!,Thechildrenareallhangingaboutheralready,asifshewasanoldacquaintance。Andtheybothlongtoseeyouofallthings,fortheyhaveheardatExeterthatyouarethemostbeautifulcreaturesintheworld;
  andIhavetoldthemitisallverytrue,andagreatdealmore。YouwillbedelightedwiththemIamsure。
  Theyhavebroughtthewholecoachfullofplaythingsforthechildren。Howcanyoubesocrossasnottocome?
  Whytheyareyourcousins,youknow,afterafashion。
  YOUaremycousins,andtheyaremywife’s,soyoumustberelated。”
  ButSirJohncouldnotprevail。HecouldonlyobtainapromiseoftheircallingattheParkwithinadayortwo,andthenlefttheminamazementattheirindifference,towalkhomeandboastanewoftheirattractionstotheMissSteeles,ashehadbeenalreadyboastingoftheMissSteelestothem。
  WhentheirpromisedvisittotheParkandconsequentintroductiontotheseyoungladiestookplace,theyfoundintheappearanceoftheeldest,whowasnearlythirty,withaveryplainandnotasensibleface,nothingtoadmire;
  butintheother,whowasnotmorethantwoorthreeandtwenty,theyacknowledgedconsiderablebeauty;herfeatureswerepretty,andshehadasharpquickeye,andasmartnessofair,whichthoughitdidnotgiveactualeleganceorgrace,gavedistinctiontoherperson——
  Theirmannerswereparticularlycivil,andElinorsoonallowedthemcreditforsomekindofsense,whenshesawwithwhatconstantandjudiciousattentiontheyweremakingthemselvesagreeabletoLadyMiddleton。
  Withherchildrentheywereincontinualraptures,extollingtheirbeauty,courtingtheirnotice,andhumouringtheirwhims;andsuchoftheirtimeascouldbesparedfromtheimportunatedemandswhichthispolitenessmadeonit,wasspentinadmirationofwhateverherladyshipwasdoing,ifshehappenedtobedoinganything,orintakingpatternsofsomeelegantnewdress,inwhichherappearancethedaybeforehadthrownthemintounceasingdelight。
  Fortunatelyforthosewhopaytheircourtthroughsuchfoibles,afondmother,though,inpursuitofpraiseforherchildren,themostrapaciousofhumanbeings,islikewisethemostcredulous;herdemandsareexorbitant;
  butshewillswallowanything;andtheexcessiveaffectionandenduranceoftheMissSteelestowardsheroffspringwereviewedthereforebyLadyMiddletonwithoutthesmallestsurpriseordistrust。Shesawwithmaternalcomplacencyalltheimpertinentencroachmentsandmischievoustrickstowhichhercousinssubmitted。
  Shesawtheirsashesuntied,theirhairpulledabouttheirears,theirwork-bagssearched,andtheirknivesandscissorsstolenaway,andfeltnodoubtofitsbeingareciprocalenjoyment。ItsuggestednoothersurprisethanthatElinorandMarianneshouldsitsocomposedlyby,withoutclaimingashareinwhatwaspassing。
  “Johnisinsuchspiritstoday!”saidshe,onhistakingMissSteeles’spockethandkerchief,andthrowingitoutofwindow——“Heisfullofmonkeytricks。”
  Andsoonafterwards,onthesecondboy’sviolentlypinchingoneofthesamelady’sfingers,shefondlyobserved,“HowplayfulWilliamis!”
  “AndhereismysweetlittleAnnamaria,“sheadded,tenderlycaressingalittlegirlofthreeyearsold,whohadnotmadeanoiseforthelasttwominutes;
  “Andsheisalwayssogentleandquiet——Neverwastheresuchaquietlittlething!”
  Butunfortunatelyinbestowingtheseembraces,apininherladyship’sheaddressslightlyscratchingthechild’sneck,producedfromthispatternofgentlenesssuchviolentscreams,ascouldhardlybeoutdonebyanycreatureprofessedlynoisy。Themother’sconsternationwasexcessive;butitcouldnotsurpassthealarmoftheMissSteeles,andeverythingwasdonebyallthree,insocriticalanemergency,whichaffectioncouldsuggestaslikelytoassuagetheagoniesofthelittlesufferer。
  Shewasseatedinhermother’slap,coveredwithkisses,herwoundbathedwithlavender-water,byoneoftheMissSteeles,whowasonherkneestoattendher,andhermouthstuffedwithsugarplumsbytheother。
  Withsucharewardforhertears,thechildwastoowisetoceasecrying。Shestillscreamedandsobbedlustily,kickedhertwobrothersforofferingtotouchher,andalltheirunitedsoothingswereineffectualtillLadyMiddletonluckilyrememberingthatinasceneofsimilardistresslastweek,someapricotmarmaladehadbeensuccessfullyappliedforabruisedtemple,thesameremedywaseagerlyproposedforthisunfortunatescratch,andaslightintermissionofscreamsintheyoungladyonhearingit,gavethemreasontohopethatitwouldnotberejected——
  Shewascarriedoutoftheroomthereforeinhermother’sarms,inquestofthismedicine,andasthetwoboyschosetofollow,thoughearnestlyentreatedbytheirmothertostaybehind,thefouryoungladieswereleftinaquietnesswhichtheroomhadnotknownformanyhours。
  “Poorlittlecreatures!”saidMissSteele,assoonastheyweregone。”Itmighthavebeenaverysadaccident。”
  “YetIhardlyknowhow,“criedMarianne,“unlessithadbeenundertotallydifferentcircumstances。
  Butthisistheusualwayofheighteningalarm,wherethereisnothingtobealarmedatinreality。”
  “WhatasweetwomanLadyMiddletonis!”saidLucySteele。
  Mariannewassilent;itwasimpossibleforhertosaywhatshedidnotfeel,howevertrivialtheoccasion;
  anduponElinorthereforethewholetaskoftellinglieswhenpolitenessrequiredit,alwaysfell。Shedidherbestwhenthuscalledon,byspeakingofLadyMiddletonwithmorewarmththanshefelt,thoughwithfarlessthanMissLucy。
  “AndSirJohntoo,“criedtheeldersister,“whatacharmingmanheis!”
  Heretoo,MissDashwood’scommendation,beingonlysimpleandjust,cameinwithoutanyeclat。Shemerelyobservedthathewasperfectlygoodhumouredandfriendly。
  “Andwhatacharminglittlefamilytheyhave!
  I
  neversawsuchfinechildreninmylife——IdeclareI
  quitedoatuponthemalready,andindeedIamalwaysdistractedlyfondofchildren。”
  “Ishouldguessso,“saidElinor,withasmile,“fromwhatIhavewitnessedthismorning。”
  “Ihaveanotion,“saidLucy,“youthinkthelittleMiddletonsrathertoomuchindulged;perhapstheymaybetheoutsideofenough;butitissonaturalinLadyMiddleton;
  andformypart,Ilovetoseechildrenfulloflifeandspirits;Icannotbearthemiftheyaretameandquiet。”
  “Iconfess,“repliedElinor,“thatwhileI
  amatBartonPark,Ineverthinkoftameandquietchildrenwithanyabhorrence。”
  Ashortpausesucceededthisspeech,whichwasfirstbrokenbyMissSteele,whoseemedverymuchdisposedforconversation,andwhonowsaidratherabruptly,“AndhowdoyoulikeDevonshire,MissDashwood?,IsupposeyouwereverysorrytoleaveSussex。”
  Insomesurpriseatthefamiliarityofthisquestion,oratleastofthemannerinwhichitwasspoken,Elinorrepliedthatshewas。
  “Norlandisaprodigiousbeautifulplace,isnotit?”
  addedMissSteele。
  “WehaveheardSirJohnadmireitexcessively,“
  saidLucy,whoseemedtothinksomeapologynecessaryforthefreedomofhersister。
  “IthinkeveryoneMUSTadmireit,“repliedElinor,“whoeversawtheplace;thoughitisnottobesupposedthatanyonecanestimateitsbeautiesaswedo。”
  “Andhadyouagreatmanysmartbeauxthere?
  I
  supposeyouhavenotsomanyinthispartoftheworld;
  formypart,Ithinktheyareavastadditionalways。”
  “Butwhyshouldyouthink,“saidLucy,lookingashamedofhersister,“thattherearenotasmanygenteelyoungmeninDevonshireasSussex?”
  “Nay,mydear,I’msureIdon’tpretendtosaythattherean’t。I’msurethere’savastmanysmartbeauxinExeter;
  butyouknow,howcouldItellwhatsmartbeauxtheremightbeaboutNorland;andIwasonlyafraidtheMissDashwoodsmightfinditdullatBarton,iftheyhadnotsomanyastheyusedtohave。Butperhapsyouyoungladiesmaynotcareaboutthebeaux,andhadasliefbewithoutthemaswiththem。Formypart,Ithinktheyarevastlyagreeable,providedtheydresssmartandbehavecivil。
  ButIcan’tbeartoseethemdirtyandnasty。Nowthere’sMr。RoseatExeter,aprodigioussmartyoungman,quiteabeau,clerktoMr。Simpson,youknow,andyetifyoudobutmeethimofamorning,heisnotfittobeseen——
  Isupposeyourbrotherwasquiteabeau,MissDashwood,beforehemarried,ashewassorich?”
  “Uponmyword,“repliedElinor,“Icannottellyou,forIdonotperfectlycomprehendthemeaningoftheword。
  ButthisIcansay,thatifheeverwasabeaubeforehemarried,heisonestillforthereisnotthesmallestalterationinhim。”
  “Oh!dear!oneneverthinksofmarriedmen’sbeingbeaux——theyhavesomethingelsetodo。”
  “Lord!Anne,“criedhersister,“youcantalkofnothingbutbeaux;——youwillmakeMissDashwoodbelieveyouthinkofnothingelse。”Andthentoturnthediscourse,shebeganadmiringthehouseandthefurniture。
  ThisspecimenoftheMissSteeleswasenough。
  Thevulgarfreedomandfollyoftheeldestlefthernorecommendation,andasElinorwasnotblindedbythebeauty,ortheshrewdlookoftheyoungest,toherwantofrealeleganceandartlessness,sheleftthehousewithoutanywishofknowingthembetter。
  NotsotheMissSteeles——TheycamefromExeter,wellprovidedwithadmirationfortheuseofSirJohnMiddleton,hisfamily,andallhisrelations,andnoniggardlyproportionwasnowdealtouttohisfaircousins,whomtheydeclaredtobethemostbeautiful,elegant,accomplished,andagreeablegirlstheyhadeverbeheld,andwithwhomtheywereparticularlyanxioustobebetteracquainted——
  Andtobebetteracquaintedtherefore,Elinorsoonfoundwastheirinevitablelot,forasSirJohnwasentirelyonthesideoftheMissSteeles,theirpartywouldbetoostrongforopposition,andthatkindofintimacymustbesubmittedto,whichconsistsofsittinganhourortwotogetherinthesameroomalmosteveryday。
  SirJohncoulddonomore;buthedidnotknowthatanymorewasrequired:tobetogetherwas,inhisopinion,tobeintimate,andwhilehiscontinualschemesfortheirmeetingwereeffectual,hehadnotadoubtoftheirbeingestablishedfriends。
  Todohimjustice,hedideverythinginhispowertopromotetheirunreserve,bymakingtheMissSteelesacquaintedwithwhateverhekneworsupposedofhiscousins’
  situationsinthemostdelicateparticulars,——andElinorhadnotseenthemmorethantwice,beforetheeldestofthemwishedherjoyonhersister’shavingbeensoluckyastomakeaconquestofaverysmartbeausinceshecametoBarton。
  “’Twillbeafinethingtohavehermarriedsoyoungtobesure,“saidshe,“andIhearheisquiteabeau,andprodigioushandsome。AndIhopeyoumayhaveasgoodluckyourselfsoon,——butperhapsyoumayhaveafriendinthecorneralready。”
  ElinorcouldnotsupposethatSirJohnwouldbemoreniceinproclaiminghissuspicionsofherregardforEdward,thanhehadbeenwithrespecttoMarianne;indeeditwasratherhisfavouritejokeofthetwo,asbeingsomewhatnewerandmoreconjectural;andsinceEdward’svisit,theyhadneverdinedtogetherwithouthisdrinkingtoherbestaffectionswithsomuchsignificancyandsomanynodsandwinks,astoexcitegeneralattention。TheletterF——
  hadbeenlikewiseinvariablybroughtforward,andfoundproductiveofsuchcountlessjokes,thatitscharacterasthewittiestletterinthealphabethadbeenlongestablishedwithElinor。
  TheMissSteeles,assheexpected,hadnowallthebenefitofthesejokes,andintheeldestofthemtheyraisedacuriositytoknowthenameofthegentlemanalludedto,which,thoughoftenimpertinentlyexpressed,wasperfectlyofapiecewithhergeneralinquisitivenessintotheconcernsoftheirfamily。ButSirJohndidnotsportlongwiththecuriositywhichhedelightedtoraise,forhehadatleastasmuchpleasureintellingthename,asMissSteelehadinhearingit。
  “HisnameisFerrars,“saidhe,inaveryaudiblewhisper;
  “butpraydonottellit,forit’sagreatsecret。”
  “Ferrars!”repeatedMissSteele;“Mr。Ferrarsisthehappyman,ishe?What!yoursister-in-law’sbrother,MissDashwood?averyagreeableyoungmantobesure;
  Iknowhimverywell。”
  “Howcanyousayso,Anne?”criedLucy,whogenerallymadeanamendmenttoallhersister’sassertions。
  “Thoughwehaveseenhimonceortwiceatmyuncle’s,itisrathertoomuchtopretendtoknowhimverywell。”
  Elinorheardallthiswithattentionandsurprise。
  “Andwhowasthisuncle?,Wheredidhelive?,Howcametheyacquainted?”Shewishedverymuchtohavethesubjectcontinued,thoughshedidnotchusetojoininitherself;
  butnothingmoreofitwassaid,andforthefirsttimeinherlife,shethoughtMrs。Jenningsdeficienteitherincuriosityafterpettyinformation,orinadispositiontocommunicateit。ThemannerinwhichMissSteelehadspokenofEdward,increasedhercuriosity;foritstruckherasbeingratherill-natured,andsuggestedthesuspicionofthatlady’sknowing,orfancyingherselftoknowsomethingtohisdisadvantage——Buthercuriositywasunavailing,fornofarthernoticewastakenofMr。Ferrars’snamebyMissSteelewhenalludedto,orevenopenlymentionedbySirJohn。
  chapter22
  CHAPTER22
  Marianne,whohadnevermuchtolerationforanythinglikeimpertinence,vulgarity,inferiorityofparts,orevendifferenceoftastefromherself,wasatthistimeparticularlyill-disposed,fromthestateofherspirits,tobepleasedwiththeMissSteeles,ortoencouragetheiradvances;andtotheinvariablecoldnessofherbehaviourtowardsthem,whichcheckedeveryendeavouratintimacyontheirside,Elinorprincipallyattributedthatpreferenceofherselfwhichsoonbecameevidentinthemannersofboth,butespeciallyofLucy,whomissednoopportunityofengagingherinconversation,orofstrivingtoimprovetheiracquaintancebyaneasyandfrankcommunicationofhersentiments。
  Lucywasnaturallyclever;herremarkswereoftenjustandamusing;andasacompanionforhalfanhourElinorfrequentlyfoundheragreeable;butherpowershadreceivednoaidfromeducation:shewasignorantandilliterate;andherdeficiencyofallmentalimprovement,herwantofinformationinthemostcommonparticulars,couldnotbeconcealedfromMissDashwood,inspiteofherconstantendeavourtoappeartoadvantage。Elinorsaw,andpitiedherfor,theneglectofabilitieswhicheducationmighthaverenderedsorespectable;butshesaw,withlesstendernessoffeeling,thethoroughwantofdelicacy,ofrectitude,andintegrityofmind,whichherattentions,herassiduities,herflatteriesattheParkbetrayed;
  andshecouldhavenolastingsatisfactioninthecompanyofapersonwhojoinedinsinceritywithignorance;
  whosewantofinstructionpreventedtheirmeetinginconversationontermsofequality,andwhoseconducttowardothersmadeeveryshewofattentionanddeferencetowardsherselfperfectlyvalueless。
  “Youwillthinkmyquestionanoddone,Idaresay,“
  saidLucytoheroneday,astheywerewalkingtogetherfromtheparktothecottage——“butpray,areyoupersonallyacquaintedwithyoursister-in-law’smother,Mrs。Ferrars?”
  ElinorDIDthinkthequestionaveryoddone,andhercountenanceexpressedit,assheansweredthatshehadneverseenMrs。Ferrars。
  “Indeed!”repliedLucy;“Iwonderatthat,forI
  thoughtyoumusthaveseenheratNorlandsometimes。
  Then,perhaps,youcannottellmewhatsortofawomansheis?”
  “No,“returnedElinor,cautiousofgivingherrealopinionofEdward’smother,andnotverydesirousofsatisfyingwhatseemedimpertinentcuriosity——
  “Iknownothingofher。”
  “Iamsureyouthinkmeverystrange,forenquiringaboutherinsuchaway,“saidLucy,eyeingElinorattentivelyasshespoke;“butperhapstheremaybereasons——IwishImightventure;buthoweverIhopeyouwilldomethejusticeofbelievingthatIdonotmeantobeimpertinent。”
  Elinormadeheracivilreply,andtheywalkedonforafewminutesinsilence。ItwasbrokenbyLucy,whorenewedthesubjectagainbysaying,withsomehesitation,“Icannotbeartohaveyouthinkmeimpertinentlycurious。
  IamsureIwouldratherdoanythingintheworldthanbethoughtsobyapersonwhosegoodopinionissowellworthhavingasyours。AndIamsureIshouldnothavethesmallestfearoftrustingYOU;indeed,IshouldbeverygladofyouradvicehowtomanageinsuchanduncomfortablesituationasIam;but,however,thereisnooccasiontotroubleYOU。
  IamsorryyoudonothappentoknowMrs。Ferrars。”
  “IamsorryIdoNOT,“saidElinor,ingreatastonishment,“ifitcouldbeofanyusetoYOUtoknowmyopinionofher。
  ButreallyIneverunderstoodthatyouwereatallconnectedwiththatfamily,andthereforeIamalittlesurprised,Iconfess,atsoseriousaninquiryintohercharacter。”
  “Idaresayyouare,andIamsureIdonotatallwonderatit。ButifIdaredtellyouall,youwouldnotbesomuchsurprised。Mrs。Ferrarsiscertainlynothingtomeatpresent——butthetimeMAYcome——howsoonitwillcomemustdependuponherself——whenwemaybeveryintimatelyconnected。”
  Shelookeddownasshesaidthis,amiablybashful,withonlyonesideglanceathercompaniontoobserveitseffectonher。
  “Goodheavens!”criedElinor,“whatdoyoumean?
  AreyouacquaintedwithMr。RobertFerrars?,Canyoube?”
  Andshedidnotfeelmuchdelightedwiththeideaofsuchasister-in-law。
  “No,“repliedLucy,“nottoMr。ROBERTFerrars——I
  neversawhiminmylife;but,“fixinghereyesuponElinor,“tohiseldestbrother。”
  WhatfeltElinoratthatmoment?Astonishment,thatwouldhavebeenaspainfulasitwasstrong,hadnotanimmediatedisbeliefoftheassertionattendedit。
  SheturnedtowardsLucyinsilentamazement,unabletodivinethereasonorobjectofsuchadeclaration;andthoughhercomplexionvaried,shestoodfirminincredulity,andfeltinnodangerofanhystericalfit,oraswoon。
  “Youmaywellbesurprised,“continuedLucy;
  “fortobesureyoucouldhavehadnoideaofitbefore;
  forIdaresayheneverdroppedthesmallesthintofittoyouoranyofyourfamily;becauseitwasalwaysmeanttobeagreatsecret,andIamsurehasbeenfaithfullykeptsobymetothishour。NotasoulofallmyrelationsknowofitbutAnne,andInevershouldhavementionedittoyou,ifIhadnotfeltthegreatestdependenceintheworlduponyoursecrecy;andIreallythoughtmybehaviourinaskingsomanyquestionsaboutMrs。Ferrarsmustseemsoodd,thatitoughttobeexplained。
  AndIdonotthinkMr。Ferrarscanbedispleased,whenheknowsIhavetrustedyou,becauseIknowhehasthehighestopinionintheworldofallyourfamily,andlooksuponyourselfandtheotherMissDashwoodsquiteashisownsisters。”——Shepaused。
  Elinorforafewmomentsremainedsilent。
  Herastonishmentatwhatsheheardwasatfirsttoogreatforwords;butatlengthforcingherselftospeak,andtospeakcautiously,shesaid,withcalmnessofmanner,whichtolerablywellconcealedhersurpriseandsolicitude——
  “MayIaskifyourengagementisoflongstanding?”
  “Wehavebeenengagedthesefouryears。”
  “Fouryears!”
  “Yes。”
  Elinor,thoughgreatlyshocked,stillfeltunabletobelieveit。
  “Ididnotknow,“saidshe,“thatyouwereevenacquaintedtilltheotherday。”
  “Ouracquaintance,however,isofmanyyearsdate。
  Hewasundermyuncle’scare,youknow,aconsiderablewhile。”
  “Youruncle!”
  “Yes;Mr。Pratt。DidyouneverhearhimtalkofMr。Pratt?”
  “IthinkIhave,“repliedElinor,withanexertionofspirits,whichincreasedwithherincreaseofemotion。
  “Hewasfouryearswithmyuncle,wholivesatLongstaple,nearPlymouth。Itwasthereouracquaintancebegun,formysisterandmewasoftenstayingwithmyuncle,anditwasthereourengagementwasformed,thoughnottillayearafterhehadquittedasapupil;buthewasalmostalwayswithusafterwards。Iwasveryunwillingtoenterintoit,asyoumayimagine,withouttheknowledgeandapprobationofhismother;butIwastooyoung,andlovedhimtoowell,tobesoprudentasIoughttohavebeen——
  Thoughyoudonotknowhimsowellasme,MissDashwood,youmusthaveseenenoughofhimtobesensibleheisverycapableofmakingawomansincerelyattachedtohim。”
  “Certainly,“answeredElinor,withoutknowingwhatshesaid;butafteramoment’sreflection,sheadded,withrevivedsecurityofEdward’shonourandlove,andhercompanion’sfalsehood——“EngagedtoMr。EdwardFerrars!——Iconfessmyselfsototallysurprisedatwhatyoutellme,thatreally——Ibegyourpardon;
  butsurelytheremustbesomemistakeofpersonorname。
  WecannotmeanthesameMr。Ferrars。”
  “Wecanmeannoother,“criedLucy,smiling。
  “Mr。EdwardFerrars,theeldestsonofMrs。Ferrars,ofParkStreet,andbrotherofyoursister-in-law,Mrs。JohnDashwood,isthepersonImean;youmustallowthatIamnotlikelytobedeceivedastothenameofthemanonwhoallmyhappinessdepends。”
  “Itisstrange,“repliedElinor,inamostpainfulperplexity,“thatIshouldneverhaveheardhimevenmentionyourname。”
  “No;consideringoursituation,itwasnotstrange。
  Ourfirstcarehasbeentokeepthemattersecret——
  Youknewnothingofme,ormyfamily,and,therefore,therecouldbenoOCCASIONforevermentioningmynametoyou;and,ashewasalwaysparticularlyafraidofhissister’ssuspectinganything,THATwasreasonenoughforhisnotmentioningit。”
  Shewassilent——Elinor’ssecuritysunk;butherself-commanddidnotsinkwithit。
  “Fouryearsyouhavebeenengaged,“saidshewithafirmvoice。
  “Yes;andheavenknowshowmuchlongerwemayhavetowait。PoorEdward!,Itputshimquiteoutofheart。”
  Thentakingasmallminiaturefromherpocket,sheadded,“Topreventthepossibilityofmistake,besogoodastolookatthisface。Itdoesnotdohimjustice,tobesure,butyetIthinkyoucannotbedeceivedastothepersonitwasdrewfor——Ihavehaditabovethesethreeyears。”
  Sheputitintoherhandsasshespoke;andwhenElinorsawthepainting,whateverotherdoubtsherfearofatoohastydecision,orherwishofdetectingfalsehoodmightsuffertolingerinhermind,shecouldhavenoneofitsbeingEdward’sface。Shereturneditalmostinstantly,acknowledgingthelikeness。
  “Ihaveneverbeenable,“continuedLucy,“togivehimmypictureinreturn,whichIamverymuchvexedat,forhehasbeenalwayssoanxioustogetit!,ButIamdeterminedtosetforittheveryfirstopportunity。”
  “Youarequiteintheright,“repliedElinorcalmly。
  Theythenproceededafewpacesinsilence。Lucyspokefirst。
  “Iamsure,“saidshe,“Ihavenodoubtintheworldofyourfaithfullykeepingthissecret,becauseyoumustknowofwhatimportanceitistous,nottohaveitreachhismother;forshewouldneverapproveofit,Idaresay。
  Ishallhavenofortune,andIfancysheisanexceedingproudwoman。”
  “Icertainlydidnotseekyourconfidence,“
  saidElinor;
  “butyoudomenomorethanjusticeinimaginingthatI
  maybedependedon。Yoursecretissafewithme;
  butpardonmeifIexpresssomesurpriseatsounnecessaryacommunication。Youmustatleasthavefeltthatmybeingacquaintedwithitcouldnotaddtoitssafety。”
  Asshesaidthis,shelookedearnestlyatLucy,hopingtodiscoversomethinginhercountenance;perhapsthefalsehoodofthegreatestpartofwhatshehadbeensaying;
  butLucy’scountenancesufferednochange。
  “IwasafraidyouwouldthinkIwastakingagreatlibertywithyou,“saidshe,“intellingyouallthis。
  Ihavenotknownyoulongtobesure,personallyatleast,butIhaveknownyouandallyourfamilybydescriptionagreatwhile;andassoonasIsawyou,Ifeltalmostasifyouwasanoldacquaintance。Besidesinthepresentcase,IreallythoughtsomeexplanationwasduetoyouaftermymakingsuchparticularinquiriesaboutEdward’smother;
  andIamsounfortunate,thatIhavenotacreaturewhoseadviceIcanask。Anneistheonlypersonthatknowsofit,andshehasnojudgmentatall;indeed,shedoesmeagreatdealmoreharmthangood,forIaminconstantfearofherbetrayingme。Shedoesnotknowhowtoholdhertongue,asyoumustperceive,andIamsureIwasinthegreatestfrightintheworldt’otherday,whenEdward’snamewasmentionedbySirJohn,lestsheshouldoutwithitall。
  Youcan’tthinkhowmuchIgothroughinmymindfromitaltogether。IonlywonderthatIamaliveafterwhatIhavesufferedforEdward’ssaketheselastfouryears。
  Everythinginsuchsuspenseanduncertainty;andseeinghimsoseldom——wecanhardlymeetabovetwicea-year。
  IamsureIwondermyheartisnotquitebroke。”
  Hereshetookoutherhandkerchief;butElinordidnotfeelverycompassionate。
  “Sometimes。”continuedLucy,afterwipinghereyes,“Ithinkwhetheritwouldnotbebetterforusbothtobreakoffthematterentirely。”,Asshesaidthis,shelookeddirectlyathercompanion。”ButthenatothertimesIhavenotresolutionenoughforit——
  Icannotbearthethoughtsofmakinghimsomiserable,asIknowtheverymentionofsuchathingwoulddo。
  Andonmyownaccounttoo——sodearasheistome——Idon’tthinkIcouldbeequaltoit。Whatwouldyouadvisemetodoinsuchacase,MissDashwood?,Whatwouldyoudoyourself?”
  “Pardonme,“repliedElinor,startledbythequestion;
  “butIcangiveyounoadviceundersuchcircumstances。
  Yourownjudgmentmustdirectyou。”
  “Tobesure,“continuedLucy,afterafewminutessilenceonbothsides,“hismothermustprovideforhimsometimeorother;butpoorEdwardissocastdownbyit!
  Didyounotthinkhimdreadfullow-spiritedwhenhewasatBarton?,HewassomiserablewhenheleftusatLongstaple,togotoyou,thatIwasafraidyouwouldthinkhimquiteill。”
  “Didhecomefromyouruncle’s,then,whenhevisitedus?”
  “Oh,yes;hehadbeenstayingafortnightwithus。
  Didyouthinkhecamedirectlyfromtown?”
  “No,“repliedElinor,mostfeelinglysensibleofeveryfreshcircumstanceinfavourofLucy’sveracity;
  “Irememberhetoldus,thathehadbeenstayingafortnightwithsomefriendsnearPlymouth。”
  Sherememberedtoo,herownsurpriseatthetime,athismentioningnothingfartherofthosefriends,athistotalsilencewithrespecteventotheirnames。
  “Didnotyouthinkhimsadlyoutofspirits?”
  repeatedLucy。
  “Wedid,indeed,particularlysowhenhefirstarrived。”
  “Ibeggedhimtoexerthimselfforfearyoushouldsuspectwhatwasthematter;butitmadehimsomelancholy,notbeingabletostaymorethanafortnightwithus,andseeingmesomuchaffected——
  Poorfellow!——Iamafraiditisjustthesamewithhimnow;
  forhewritesinwretchedspirits。IheardfromhimjustbeforeIleftExeter;“takingaletterfromherpocketandcarelesslyshowingthedirectiontoElinor。
  “Youknowhishand,Idaresay,acharmingoneitis;
  butthatisnotwrittensowellasusual——Hewastired,Idaresay,forhehadjustfilledthesheettomeasfullaspossible。”
  ElinorsawthatitWAShishand,andshecoulddoubtnolonger。Thispicture,shehadallowedherselftobelieve,mighthavebeenaccidentallyobtained;itmightnothavebeenEdward’sgift;butacorrespondencebetweenthembyletter,couldsubsistonlyunderapositiveengagement,couldbeauthorisedbynothingelse;forafewmoments,shewasalmostovercome——herheartsunkwithinher,andshecouldhardlystand;butexertionwasindispensablynecessary;
  andshestruggledsoresolutelyagainsttheoppressionofherfeelings,thathersuccesswasspeedy,andforthetimecomplete。
  “Writingtoeachother,“saidLucy,returningtheletterintoherpocket,“istheonlycomfortwehaveinsuchlongseparations。Yes,Ihaveoneothercomfortinhispicture,butpoorEdwardhasnotevenTHAT。
  Ifhehadbutmypicture,hesaysheshouldbeeasy。
  IgavehimalockofmyhairsetinaringwhenhewasatLongstaplelast,andthatwassomecomforttohim,hesaid,butnotequaltoapicture。Perhapsyoumightnoticetheringwhenyousawhim?”
  “Idid,“saidElinor,withacomposureofvoice,underwhichwasconcealedanemotionanddistressbeyondanythingshehadeverfeltbefore。Shewasmortified,shocked,confounded。
  Fortunatelyforher,theyhadnowreachedthecottage,andtheconversationcouldbecontinuednofarther。
  Aftersittingwiththemafewminutes,theMissSteelesreturnedtothePark,andElinorwasthenatlibertytothinkandbewretched。
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  CHAPTER23
  HoweversmallElinor’sgeneraldependenceonLucy’sveracitymightbe,itwasimpossibleforheronseriousreflectiontosuspectitinthepresentcase,wherenotemptationcouldbeanswerabletothefollyofinventingafalsehoodofsuchadescription。WhatLucyhadassertedtobetrue,therefore,Elinorcouldnot,darednotlongerdoubt;supportedasitwastoooneverysidebysuchprobabilitiesandproofs,andcontradictedbynothingbutherownwishes。TheiropportunityofacquaintanceinthehouseofMr。Prattwasafoundationfortherest,atonceindisputableandalarming;andEdward’svisitnearPlymouth,hismelancholystateofmind,hisdissatisfactionathisownprospects,hisuncertainbehaviourtowardsherself,theintimateknowledgeoftheMissSteelesastoNorlandandtheirfamilyconnections,whichhadoftensurprisedher,thepicture,theletter,thering,formedaltogethersuchabodyofevidence,asovercameeveryfearofcondemninghimunfairly,andestablishedasafact,whichnopartialitycouldsetaside,hisill-treatmentofherself——Herresentmentofsuchbehaviour,herindignationathavingbeenitsdupe,forashorttimemadeherfeelonlyforherself;
  butotherideas,otherconsiderations,soonarose。
  HadEdwardbeenintentionallydeceivingher?,Hadhefeignedaregardforherwhichhedidnotfeel?,WashisengagementtoLucyanengagementoftheheart?,No;whateveritmightoncehavebeen,shecouldnotbelieveitsuchatpresent。
  Hisaffectionwasallherown。Shecouldnotbedeceivedinthat。Hermother,sisters,Fanny,allhadbeenconsciousofhisregardforheratNorland;itwasnotanillusionofherownvanity。Hecertainlylovedher。
  Whatasofteneroftheheartwasthispersuasion!,Howmuchcoulditnottempthertoforgive!,Hehadbeenblamable,highlyblamable,inremainingatNorlandafterhefirstfeltherinfluenceoverhimtobemorethanitoughttobe。Inthat,hecouldnotbedefended;butifhehadinjuredher,howmuchmorehadheinjuredhimself;
  ifhercasewerepitiable,hiswashopeless。
  Hisimprudencehadmadehermiserableforawhile;butitseemedtohavedeprivedhimselfofallchanceofeverbeingotherwise。Shemightintimeregaintranquillity;
  butHE,whathadhetolookforwardto?,CouldheeverbetolerablyhappywithLucySteele;couldhe,werehisaffectionforherselfoutofthequestion,withhisintegrity,hisdelicacy,andwell-informedmind,besatisfiedwithawifelikeher——illiterate,artful,andselfish?
  Theyouthfulinfatuationofnineteenwouldnaturallyblindhimtoeverythingbutherbeautyandgoodnature;
  butthefoursucceedingyears——years,whichifrationallyspent,givesuchimprovementtotheunderstanding,musthaveopenedhiseyestoherdefectsofeducation,whilethesameperiodoftime,spentonhersideininferiorsocietyandmorefrivolouspursuits,hadperhapsrobbedherofthatsimplicitywhichmightoncehavegivenaninterestingcharactertoherbeauty。
  Ifinthesuppositionofhisseekingtomarryherself,hisdifficultiesfromhismotherhadseemedgreat,howmuchgreaterweretheynowlikelytobe,whentheobjectofhisengagementwasundoubtedlyinferiorinconnections,andprobablyinferiorinfortunetoherself。
  Thesedifficulties,indeed,withaheartsoalienatedfromLucy,mightnotpressveryharduponhispatience;
  butmelancholywasthestateofthepersonbywhomtheexpectationoffamilyoppositionandunkindness,couldbefeltasarelief!
  Astheseconsiderationsoccurredtoherinpainfulsuccession,sheweptforhim,morethanforherself。
  Supportedbytheconvictionofhavingdonenothingtomeritherpresentunhappiness,andconsoledbythebeliefthatEdwardhaddonenothingtoforfeitheresteem,shethoughtshecouldevennow,underthefirstsmartoftheheavyblow,commandherselfenoughtoguardeverysuspicionofthetruthfromhermotherandsisters。
  Andsowellwassheabletoanswerherownexpectations,thatwhenshejoinedthematdinneronlytwohoursaftershehadfirstsufferedtheextinctionofallherdearesthopes,noonewouldhavesupposedfromtheappearanceofthesisters,thatElinorwasmourninginsecretoverobstacleswhichmustdivideherforeverfromtheobjectofherlove,andthatMariannewasinternallydwellingontheperfectionsofaman,ofwhosewholeheartshefeltthoroughlypossessed,andwhomsheexpectedtoseeineverycarriagewhichdroveneartheirhouse。
  ThenecessityofconcealingfromhermotherandMarianne,whathadbeenentrustedinconfidencetoherself,thoughitobligedhertounceasingexertion,wasnoaggravationofElinor’sdistress。Onthecontraryitwasarelieftoher,tobesparedthecommunicationofwhatwouldgivesuchafflictiontothem,andtobesavedlikewisefromhearingthatcondemnationofEdward,whichwouldprobablyflowfromtheexcessoftheirpartialaffectionforherself,andwhichwasmorethanshefeltequaltosupport。
  Fromtheircounsel,ortheirconversation,sheknewshecouldreceivenoassistance,theirtendernessandsorrowmustaddtoherdistress,whileherself-commandwouldneitherreceiveencouragementfromtheirexamplenorfromtheirpraise。Shewasstrongeralone,andherowngoodsensesowellsupportedher,thatherfirmnesswasasunshaken,herappearanceofcheerfulnessasinvariable,aswithregretssopoignantandsofresh,itwaspossibleforthemtobe。
  MuchasshehadsufferedfromherfirstconversationwithLucyonthesubject,shesoonfeltanearnestwishofrenewingit;andthisformorereasonsthanone。
  Shewantedtohearmanyparticularsoftheirengagementrepeatedagain,shewantedmoreclearlytounderstandwhatLucyreallyfeltforEdward,whethertherewereanysincerityinherdeclarationoftenderregardforhim,andsheparticularlywantedtoconvinceLucy,byherreadinesstoenteronthematteragain,andhercalmnessinconversingonit,thatshewasnootherwiseinterestedinitthanasafriend,whichsheverymuchfearedherinvoluntaryagitation,intheirmorningdiscourse,musthaveleftatleastdoubtful。ThatLucywasdisposedtobejealousofherappearedveryprobable:itwasplainthatEdwardhadalwaysspokenhighlyinherpraise,notmerelyfromLucy’sassertion,butfromherventuringtotrustheronsoshortapersonalacquaintance,withasecretsoconfessedlyandevidentlyimportant。
  AndevenSirJohn’sjokingintelligencemusthavehadsomeweight。Butindeed,whileElinorremainedsowellassuredwithinherselfofbeingreallybelovedbyEdward,itrequirednootherconsiderationofprobabilitiestomakeitnaturalthatLucyshouldbejealous;
  andthatshewasso,herveryconfidencewasaproof。
  Whatotherreasonforthedisclosureoftheaffaircouldtherebe,butthatElinormightbeinformedbyitofLucy’ssuperiorclaimsonEdward,andbetaughttoavoidhiminfuture?,Shehadlittledifficultyinunderstandingthusmuchofherrival’sintentions,andwhileshewasfirmlyresolvedtoactbyheraseveryprincipleofhonourandhonestydirected,tocombatherownaffectionforEdwardandtoseehimaslittleaspossible;shecouldnotdenyherselfthecomfortofendeavouringtoconvinceLucythatherheartwasunwounded。Andasshecouldnowhavenothingmorepainfultohearonthesubjectthanhadalreadybeentold,shedidnotmistrustherownabilityofgoingthrougharepetitionofparticularswithcomposure。
  Butitwasnotimmediatelythatanopportunityofdoingsocouldbecommanded,thoughLucywasaswelldisposedasherselftotakeadvantageofanythatoccurred;
  fortheweatherwasnotoftenfineenoughtoallowoftheirjoininginawalk,wheretheymightmosteasilyseparatethemselvesfromtheothers;andthoughtheymetatleasteveryothereveningeitherattheparkorcottage,andchieflyattheformer,theycouldnotbesupposedtomeetforthesakeofconversation。
  SuchathoughtwouldneverentereitherSirJohnorLadyMiddleton’shead;andthereforeverylittleleisurewasevergivenforageneralchat,andnoneatallforparticulardiscourse。Theymetforthesakeofeating,drinking,andlaughingtogether,playingatcards,orconsequences,oranyothergamethatwassufficientlynoisy。
  Oneortwomeetingsofthiskindhadtakenplace,withoutaffordingElinoranychanceofengagingLucyinprivate,whenSirJohncalledatthecottageonemorning,tobeg,inthenameofcharity,thattheywouldalldinewithLadyMiddletonthatday,ashewasobligedtoattendtheclubatExeter,andshewouldotherwisebequitealone,excepthermotherandthetwoMissSteeles。
  Elinor,whoforesawafaireropeningforthepointshehadinview,insuchapartyasthiswaslikelytobe,moreatlibertyamongthemselvesunderthetranquilandwell-breddirectionofLadyMiddletonthanwhenherhusbandunitedthemtogetherinonenoisypurpose,immediatelyacceptedtheinvitation;Margaret,withhermother’spermission,wasequallycompliant,andMarianne,thoughalwaysunwillingtojoinanyoftheirparties,waspersuadedbyhermother,whocouldnotbeartohavehersecludeherselffromanychanceofamusement,togolikewise。
  Theyoungladieswent,andLadyMiddletonwashappilypreservedfromthefrightfulsolitudewhichhadthreatenedher。
  TheinsipidityofthemeetingwasexactlysuchasElinorhadexpected;itproducednotonenoveltyofthoughtorexpression,andnothingcouldbelessinterestingthanthewholeoftheirdiscoursebothinthediningparlouranddrawingroom:tothelatter,thechildrenaccompaniedthem,andwhiletheyremainedthere,shewastoowellconvincedoftheimpossibilityofengagingLucy’sattentiontoattemptit。Theyquitteditonlywiththeremovalofthetea-things。Thecard-tablewasthenplaced,andElinorbegantowonderatherselfforhavingeverentertainedahopeoffindingtimeforconversationatthepark。Theyallroseupinpreparationforaroundgame。
  “Iamglad,“saidLadyMiddletontoLucy,“youarenotgoingtofinishpoorlittleAnnamaria’sbasketthisevening;forIamsureitmusthurtyoureyestoworkfiligreebycandlelight。Andwewillmakethedearlittlelovesomeamendsforherdisappointmentto-morrow,andthenIhopeshewillnotmuchmindit。”
  Thishintwasenough,Lucyrecollectedherselfinstantlyandreplied,“Indeedyouareverymuchmistaken,LadyMiddleton;Iamonlywaitingtoknowwhetheryoucanmakeyourpartywithoutme,orIshouldhavebeenatmyfiligreealready。Iwouldnotdisappointthelittleangelforalltheworld:andifyouwantmeatthecard-tablenow,Iamresolvedtofinishthebasketaftersupper。”
  “Youareverygood,Ihopeitwon’thurtyoureyes——
  willyouringthebellforsomeworkingcandles?
  Mypoorlittlegirlwouldbesadlydisappointed,Iknow,ifthebasketwasnotfinishedtomorrow,forthoughI
  toldheritcertainlywouldnot,Iamsureshedependsuponhavingitdone。”
  Lucydirectlydrewherworktablenearherandreseatedherselfwithanalacrityandcheerfulnesswhichseemedtoinferthatshecouldtastenogreaterdelightthaninmakingafiligreebasketforaspoiltchild。
  LadyMiddletonproposedarubberofCasinototheothers。
  NoonemadeanyobjectionbutMarianne,whowithherusualinattentiontotheformsofgeneralcivility,exclaimed,“YourLadyshipwillhavethegoodnesstoexcuseME——youknowIdetestcards。Ishallgotothepiano-forte;
  Ihavenottoucheditsinceitwastuned。”,Andwithoutfartherceremony,sheturnedawayandwalkedtotheinstrument。
  LadyMiddletonlookedasifshethankedheaventhatSHEhadnevermadesorudeaspeech。
  “Mariannecanneverkeeplongfromthatinstrumentyouknow,ma’am,“saidElinor,endeavouringtosmoothawaytheoffence;“andIdonotmuchwonderatit;foritistheverybesttonedpiano-forteIeverheard。”
  Theremainingfivewerenowtodrawtheircards。
  “Perhaps,“continuedElinor,“ifIshouldhappentocutout,ImaybeofsomeusetoMissLucySteele,inrollingherpapersforher;andthereissomuchstilltobedonetothebasket,thatitmustbeimpossibleIthinkforherlaboursingly,tofinishitthisevening。
  Ishouldliketheworkexceedingly,ifshewouldallowmeashareinit。”
  “IndeedIshallbeverymuchobligedtoyouforyourhelp,“criedLucy,“forIfindthereismoretobedonetoitthanIthoughttherewas;anditwouldbeashockingthingtodisappointdearAnnamariaafterall。”
  “Oh!thatwouldbeterrible,indeed,“saidMissSteele——
  “Dearlittlesoul,howIdoloveher!”
  “Youareverykind,“saidLadyMiddletontoElinor;
  “andasyoureallylikethework,perhapsyouwillbeaswellpleasednottocutintillanotherrubber,orwillyoutakeyourchancenow?”
  Elinorjoyfullyprofitedbythefirstoftheseproposals,andthusbyalittleofthataddresswhichMariannecouldnevercondescendtopractise,gainedherownend,andpleasedLadyMiddletonatthesametime。Lucymaderoomforherwithreadyattention,andthetwofairrivalswerethusseatedsidebysideatthesametable,and,withtheutmostharmony,engagedinforwardingthesamework。
  ThepianoforteatwhichMarianne,wrappedupinherownmusicandherownthoughts,hadbythistimeforgottenthatanybodywasintheroombesidesherself,wasluckilysonearthemthatMissDashwoodnowjudgedshemightsafely,undertheshelterofitsnoise,introducetheinterestingsubject,withoutanyriskofbeingheardatthecard-table。
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  CHAPTER24
  Inafirm,thoughcautioustone,Elinorthusbegan。
  “Ishouldbeundeservingoftheconfidenceyouhavehonouredmewith,ifIfeltnodesireforitscontinuance,ornofarthercuriosityonitssubject。Iwillnotapologizethereforeforbringingitforwardagain。”
  “Thankyou,“criedLucywarmly,“forbreakingtheice;youhavesetmyheartateasebyit;forIwassomehoworotherafraidIhadoffendedyoubywhatI
  toldyouthatMonday。”
  “Offendedme!Howcouldyousupposeso?Believeme,“
  andElinorspokeitwiththetruestsincerity,“nothingcouldbefartherfrommyintentionthantogiveyousuchanidea。Couldyouhaveamotiveforthetrust,thatwasnothonourableandflatteringtome?”
  “AndyetIdoassureyou,“repliedLucy,herlittlesharpeyesfullofmeaning,“thereseemedtometobeacoldnessanddispleasureinyourmannerthatmademequiteuncomfortable。Ifeltsurethatyouwasangrywithme;
  andhavebeenquarrellingwithmyselfeversince,forhavingtooksuchalibertyastotroubleyouwithmyaffairs。
  ButIamverygladtofinditwasonlymyownfancy,andthatyoureallydonotblameme。IfyouknewwhataconsolationitwastometorelievemyheartspeakingtoyouofwhatIamalwaysthinkingofeverymomentofmylife,yourcompassionwouldmakeyouoverlookeverythingelseIamsure。”
  “Indeed,Icaneasilybelievethatitwasaverygreatrelieftoyou,toacknowledgeyoursituationtome,andbeassuredthatyoushallneverhavereasontorepentit。
  Yourcaseisaveryunfortunateone;youseemtometobesurroundedwithdifficulties,andyouwillhaveneedofallyourmutualaffectiontosupportyouunderthem。
  Mr。Ferrars,Ibelieve,isentirelydependentonhismother。”
  “Hehasonlytwothousandpoundsofhisown;
  itwouldbemadnesstomarryuponthat,thoughformyownpart,Icouldgiveupeveryprospectofmorewithoutasigh。
  Ihavebeenalwaysusedtoaverysmallincome,andcouldstrugglewithanypovertyforhim;butIlovehimtoowelltobetheselfishmeansofrobbinghim,perhaps,ofallthathismothermightgivehimifhemarriedtopleaseher。
  Wemustwait,itmaybeformanyyears。Withalmosteveryothermanintheworld,itwouldbeanalarmingprospect;
  butEdward’saffectionandconstancynothingcandeprivemeofIknow。”
  “Thatconvictionmustbeeverythingtoyou;
  andheisundoubtedlysupportedbythesametrustinyour’s。
  Ifthestrengthofyourreciprocalattachmenthadfailed,asbetweenmanypeople,andundermanycircumstancesitnaturallywouldduringafouryears’engagement,yoursituationwouldhavebeenpitiable,indeed。”
  Lucyherelookedup;butElinorwascarefulinguardinghercountenancefromeveryexpressionthatcouldgiveherwordsasuspicioustendency。
  “Edward’sloveforme,“saidLucy,“hasbeenprettywellputtothetest,byourlong,verylongabsencesincewewerefirstengaged,andithasstoodthetrialsowell,thatIshouldbeunpardonabletodoubtitnow。
  Icansafelysaythathehasnevergavemeonemoment’salarmonthataccountfromthefirst。”
  Elinorhardlyknewwhethertosmileorsighatthisassertion。
  Lucywenton。”Iamratherofajealoustempertoobynature,andfromourdifferentsituationsinlife,fromhisbeingsomuchmoreintheworldthanme,andourcontinualseparation,Iwasenoughinclinedforsuspicion,tohavefoundoutthetruthinaninstant,iftherehadbeentheslightestalterationinhisbehaviourtomewhenwemet,oranylownessofspiritsthatIcouldnotaccountfor,orifhehadtalkedmoreofoneladythananother,orseemedinanyrespectlesshappyatLongstaplethanheusedtobe。IdonotmeantosaythatIamparticularlyobservantorquick-sightedingeneral,butinsuchacaseIamsureIcouldnotbedeceived。”
  “Allthis,“thoughtElinor,“isverypretty;
  butitcanimposeuponneitherofus。”
  “Butwhat,“saidsheafterashortsilence,“areyourviews?orhaveyounonebutthatofwaitingforMrs。Ferrars’sdeath,whichisamelancholyandshockingextremity?——Ishersondeterminedtosubmittothis,andtoallthetediousnessofthemanyyearsofsuspenseinwhichitmayinvolveyou,ratherthanruntheriskofherdispleasureforawhilebyowningthetruth?”
  “Ifwecouldbecertainthatitwouldbeonlyforawhile!,ButMrs。Ferrarsisaveryheadstrongproudwoman,andinherfirstfitofangeruponhearingit,wouldverylikelysecureeverythingtoRobert,andtheideaofthat,forEdward’ssake,frightensawayallmyinclinationforhastymeasures。”
  “Andforyourownsaketoo,oryouarecarryingyourdisinterestednessbeyondreason。”
  LucylookedatElinoragain,andwassilent。
  “DoyouknowMr。RobertFerrars?”askedElinor。
  “Notatall——Ineversawhim;butIfancyheisveryunlikehisbrother——sillyandagreatcoxcomb。”
  “Agreatcoxcomb!”repeatedMissSteele,whoseearhadcaughtthosewordsbyasuddenpauseinMarianne’smusic——
  “Oh,theyaretalkingoftheirfavouritebeaux,Idaresay。”
  “Nosister,“criedLucy,“youaremistakenthere,ourfavouritebeauxareNOTgreatcoxcombs。”
  “IcananswerforitthatMissDashwood’sisnot,“
  saidMrs。Jennings,laughingheartily;“forheisoneofthemodestest,prettiestbehavedyoungmenIeversaw;
  butasforLucy,sheissuchaslylittlecreature,thereisnofindingoutwhoSHElikes。”
  “Oh,“criedMissSteele,lookingsignificantlyroundatthem,“IdaresayLucy’sbeauisquiteasmodestandprettybehavedasMissDashwood’s。”
  Elinorblushedinspiteofherself。Lucybitherlip,andlookedangrilyathersister。Amutualsilencetookplaceforsometime。Lucyfirstputanendtoitbysayinginalowertone,thoughMariannewasthengivingthemthepowerfulprotectionofaverymagnificentconcerto——
  “Iwillhonestlytellyouofoneschemewhichhaslatelycomeintomyhead,forbringingmatterstobear;
  indeedIamboundtoletyouintothesecret,foryouareapartyconcerned。IdaresayyouhaveseenenoughofEdwardtoknowthathewouldpreferthechurchtoeveryotherprofession;nowmyplanisthatheshouldtakeordersassoonashecan,andthenthroughyourinterest,whichIamsureyouwouldbekindenoughtouseoutoffriendshipforhim,andIhopeoutofsomeregardtome,yourbrothermightbepersuadedtogivehimNorlandliving;
  whichIunderstandisaverygoodone,andthepresentincumbentnotlikelytoliveagreatwhile。Thatwouldbeenoughforustomarryupon,andwemighttrusttotimeandchancefortherest。”
  “Ishouldalwaysbehappy,“repliedElinor,“toshowanymarkofmyesteemandfriendshipforMr。Ferrars;
  butdoyounotperceivethatmyinterestonsuchanoccasionwouldbeperfectlyunnecessary?,HeisbrothertoMrs。JohnDashwood——THATmustberecommendationenoughtoherhusband。”
  “ButMrs。JohnDashwoodwouldnotmuchapproveofEdward’sgoingintoorders。”
  “ThenIrathersuspectthatmyinterestwoulddoverylittle。”
  Theywereagainsilentformanyminutes。
  AtlengthLucyexclaimedwithadeepsigh,“Ibelieveitwouldbethewisestwaytoputanendtothebusinessatoncebydissolvingtheengagement。
  Weseemsobesetwithdifficultiesoneveryside,thatthoughitwouldmakeusmiserableforatime,weshouldbehappierperhapsintheend。Butyouwillnotgivemeyouradvice,MissDashwood?”
  “No,“answeredElinor,withasmile,whichconcealedveryagitatedfeelings,“onsuchasubjectIcertainlywillnot。Youknowverywellthatmyopinionwouldhavenoweightwithyou,unlessitwereonthesideofyourwishes。”
  “Indeedyouwrongme,“repliedLucy,withgreatsolemnity;“IknownobodyofwhosejudgmentIthinksohighlyasIdoofyours;andIdoreallybelieve,thatifyouwastosaytome,’IadviseyoubyallmeanstoputanendtoyourengagementwithEdwardFerrars,itwillbemoreforthehappinessofbothofyou,’
  Ishouldresolveupondoingitimmediately。”
  ElinorblushedfortheinsincerityofEdward’sfuturewife,andreplied,“ThiscomplimentwouldeffectuallyfrightenmefromgivinganyopiniononthesubjecthadIformedone。Itraisesmyinfluencemuchtoohigh;
  thepowerofdividingtwopeoplesotenderlyattachedistoomuchforanindifferentperson。”
  “’Tisbecauseyouareanindifferentperson,“
  saidLucy,withsomepique,andlayingaparticularstressonthosewords,“thatyourjudgmentmightjustlyhavesuchweightwithme。
  Ifyoucouldbesupposedtobebiasedinanyrespectbyyourownfeelings,youropinionwouldnotbeworthhaving。”
  Elinorthoughtitwisesttomakenoanswertothis,lesttheymightprovokeeachothertoanunsuitableincreaseofeaseandunreserve;andwasevenpartlydeterminednevertomentionthesubjectagain。Anotherpausethereforeofmanyminutes’duration,succeededthisspeech,andLucywasstillthefirsttoendit。
  “Shallyoubeintownthiswinter,MissDashwood?”
  saidshewithallheraccustomarycomplacency。
  “Certainlynot。”
  “Iamsorryforthat,“returnedtheother,whilehereyesbrightenedattheinformation,“itwouldhavegavemesuchpleasuretomeetyouthere!
  ButIdaresayyouwillgoforallthat。Tobesure,yourbrotherandsisterwillaskyoutocometothem。”
  “Itwillnotbeinmypowertoaccepttheirinvitationiftheydo。”
  “Howunluckythatis!Ihadquitedependeduponmeetingyouthere。AnneandmearetogothelatterendofJanuarytosomerelationswhohavebeenwantingustovisitthemtheseseveralyears!,ButIonlygoforthesakeofseeingEdward。HewillbethereinFebruary,otherwiseLondonwouldhavenocharmsforme;Ihavenotspiritsforit。”
  Elinorwassooncalledtothecard-tablebytheconclusionofthefirstrubber,andtheconfidentialdiscourseofthetwoladieswasthereforeatanend,towhichbothofthemsubmittedwithoutanyreluctance,fornothinghadbeensaidoneithersidetomakethemdislikeeachotherlessthantheyhaddonebefore;
  andElinorsatdowntothecardtablewiththemelancholypersuasionthatEdwardwasnotonlywithoutaffectionforthepersonwhowastobehiswife;butthathehadnoteventhechanceofbeingtolerablyhappyinmarriage,whichsincereaffectiononHERsidewouldhavegiven,forself-interestalonecouldinduceawomantokeepamantoanengagement,ofwhichsheseemedsothoroughlyawarethathewasweary。
  FromthistimethesubjectwasneverrevivedbyElinor,andwhenenteredonbyLucy,whoseldommissedanopportunityofintroducingit,andwasparticularlycarefultoinformherconfidante,ofherhappinesswhenevershereceivedaletterfromEdward,itwastreatedbytheformerwithcalmnessandcaution,anddismissedassoonascivilitywouldallow;
  forshefeltsuchconversationstobeanindulgencewhichLucydidnotdeserve,andwhichweredangeroustoherself。
  ThevisitoftheMissSteelesatBartonParkwaslengthenedfarbeyondwhatthefirstinvitationimplied。
  Theirfavourincreased;theycouldnotbespared;
  SirJohnwouldnothearoftheirgoing;andinspiteoftheirnumerousandlongarrangedengagementsinExeter,inspiteoftheabsolutenecessityofreturningtofulfillthemimmediately,whichwasinfullforceattheendofeveryweek,theywereprevailedontostaynearlytwomonthsatthepark,andtoassistintheduecelebrationofthatfestivalwhichrequiresamorethanordinaryshareofprivateballsandlargedinnerstoproclaimitsimportance。