“Butatleast,Mamma,youcannotdenytheabsurdityoftheaccusation,thoughyoumaynotthinkitintentionallyill-natured。ColonelBrandoniscertainlyyoungerthanMrs。Jennings,butheisoldenoughtobeMYfather;
andifhewereeveranimatedenoughtobeinlove,musthavelongoutlivedeverysensationofthekind。
Itistooridiculous!,Whenisamantobesafefromsuchwit,ifageandinfirmitywillnotprotecthim?”
“Infirmity!”saidElinor,“doyoucallColonelBrandoninfirm?,Icaneasilysupposethathisagemayappearmuchgreatertoyouthantomymother;butyoucanhardlydeceiveyourselfastohishavingtheuseofhislimbs!”
“Didnotyouhearhimcomplainoftherheumatism?
andisnotthatthecommonestinfirmityofdeclininglife?”
“Mydearestchild,“saidhermother,laughing,“atthisrateyoumustbeincontinualterrorofMYdecay;
anditmustseemtoyouamiraclethatmylifehasbeenextendedtotheadvancedageofforty。”
“Mamma,youarenotdoingmejustice。
IknowverywellthatColonelBrandonisnotoldenoughtomakehisfriendsyetapprehensiveoflosinghiminthecourseofnature。
Hemaylivetwentyyearslonger。Butthirty-fivehasnothingtodowithmatrimony。”
“Perhaps,“saidElinor,“thirty-fiveandseventeenhadbetternothaveanythingtodowithmatrimonytogether。
Butifthereshouldbyanychancehappentobeawomanwhoissingleatsevenandtwenty,IshouldnotthinkColonelBrandon’sbeingthirty-fiveanyobjectiontohismarryingHER。”
“Awomanofsevenandtwenty,“saidMarianne,afterpausingamoment,“canneverhopetofeelorinspireaffectionagain,andifherhomebeuncomfortable,orherfortunesmall,Icansupposethatshemightbringherselftosubmittotheofficesofanurse,forthesakeoftheprovisionandsecurityofawife。
Inhismarryingsuchawomanthereforetherewouldbenothingunsuitable。Itwouldbeacompactofconvenience,andtheworldwouldbesatisfied。Inmyeyesitwouldbenomarriageatall,butthatwouldbenothing。
Tomeitwouldseemonlyacommercialexchange,inwhicheachwishedtobebenefitedattheexpenseoftheother。”
“Itwouldbeimpossible,Iknow,“repliedElinor,“toconvinceyouthatawomanofsevenandtwentycouldfeelforamanofthirty-fiveanythingnearenoughtolove,tomakehimadesirablecompaniontoher。
ButImustobjecttoyourdoomingColonelBrandonandhiswifetotheconstantconfinementofasickchamber,merelybecausehechancedtocomplainyesterdayaverycolddampdayofaslightrheumaticfeelinoneofhisshoulders。”
“Buthetalkedofflannelwaistcoats,“saidMarianne;
“andwithmeaflannelwaistcoatisinvariablyconnectedwithaches,cramps,rheumatisms,andeveryspeciesofailmentthatcanafflicttheoldandthefeeble。”
“Hadhebeenonlyinaviolentfever,youwouldnothavedespisedhimhalfsomuch。Confess,Marianne,isnottheresomethinginterestingtoyouintheflushedcheek,holloweye,andquickpulseofafever?”
Soonafterthis,uponElinor’sleavingtheroom,“Mamma,“saidMarianne,“IhaveanalarmonthesubjectofillnesswhichIcannotconcealfromyou。IamsureEdwardFerrarsisnotwell。Wehavenowbeenherealmostafortnight,andyethedoesnotcome。Nothingbutrealindispositioncouldoccasionthisextraordinarydelay。
WhatelsecandetainhimatNorland?”
“Hadyouanyideaofhiscomingsosoon?”
saidMrs。Dashwood。”Ihadnone。Onthecontrary,ifIhavefeltanyanxietyatallonthesubject,ithasbeeninrecollectingthathesometimesshowedawantofpleasureandreadinessinacceptingmyinvitation,whenItalkedofhiscomingtoBarton。DoesElinorexpecthimalready?”
“Ihavenevermentionedittoher,butofcourseshemust。”
“Iratherthinkyouaremistaken,forwhenI
wastalkingtoheryesterdayofgettinganewgrateforthesparebedchamber,sheobservedthattherewasnoimmediatehurryforit,asitwasnotlikelythattheroomwouldbewantedforsometime。”
“Howstrangethisis!whatcanbethemeaningofit!
Butthewholeoftheirbehaviourtoeachotherhasbeenunaccountable!Howcold,howcomposedweretheirlastadieus!Howlanguidtheirconversationthelasteveningoftheirbeingtogether!InEdward’sfarewelltherewasnodistinctionbetweenElinorandme:itwasthegoodwishesofanaffectionatebrothertoboth。TwicedidIleavethempurposelytogetherinthecourseofthelastmorning,andeachtimedidhemostunaccountablyfollowmeoutoftheroom。AndElinor,inquittingNorlandandEdward,criednotasIdid。Evennowherself-commandisinvariable。
Whenisshedejectedormelancholy?Whendoesshetrytoavoidsociety,orappearrestlessanddissatisfiedinit?”
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TheDashwoodswerenowsettledatBartonwithtolerablecomforttothemselves。Thehouseandthegarden,withalltheobjectssurroundingthem,werenowbecomefamiliar,andtheordinarypursuitswhichhadgiventoNorlandhalfitscharmswereengagedinagainwithfargreaterenjoymentthanNorlandhadbeenabletoafford,sincethelossoftheirfather。SirJohnMiddleton,whocalledonthemeverydayforthefirstfortnight,andwhowasnotinthehabitofseeingmuchoccupationathome,couldnotconcealhisamazementonfindingthemalwaysemployed。
Theirvisitors,exceptthosefromBartonPark,werenotmany;for,inspiteofSirJohn’surgententreatiesthattheywouldmixmoreintheneighbourhood,andrepeatedassurancesofhiscarriagebeingalwaysattheirservice,theindependenceofMrs。Dashwood’sspiritovercamethewishofsocietyforherchildren;andshewasresoluteindecliningtovisitanyfamilybeyondthedistanceofawalk。Therewerebutfewwhocouldbesoclassed;
anditwasnotallofthemthatwereattainable。
Aboutamileandahalffromthecottage,alongthenarrowwindingvalleyofAllenham,whichissuedfromthatofBarton,asformerlydescribed,thegirlshad,inoneoftheirearliestwalks,discoveredanancientrespectablelookingmansionwhich,byremindingthemalittleofNorland,interestedtheirimaginationandmadethemwishtobebetteracquaintedwithit。Buttheylearnt,onenquiry,thatitspossessor,anelderlyladyofverygoodcharacter,wasunfortunatelytooinfirmtomixwiththeworld,andneverstirredfromhome。
Thewholecountryaboutthemaboundedinbeautifulwalks。
Thehighdownswhichinvitedthemfromalmosteverywindowofthecottagetoseektheexquisiteenjoymentofairontheirsummits,wereahappyalternativewhenthedirtofthevalleysbeneathshutuptheirsuperiorbeauties;
andtowardsoneofthesehillsdidMarianneandMargaretonememorablemorningdirecttheirsteps,attractedbythepartialsunshineofashowerysky,andunablelongertobeartheconfinementwhichthesettledrainofthetwoprecedingdayshadoccasioned。Theweatherwasnottemptingenoughtodrawthetwoothersfromtheirpencilandtheirbook,inspiteofMarianne’sdeclarationthatthedaywouldbelastinglyfair,andthateverythreateningcloudwouldbedrawnofffromtheirhills;andthetwogirlssetofftogether。
Theygailyascendedthedowns,rejoicingintheirownpenetrationateveryglimpseofbluesky;andwhentheycaughtintheirfacestheanimatinggalesofahighsouth-westerlywind,theypitiedthefearswhichhadpreventedtheirmotherandElinorfromsharingsuchdelightfulsensations。
“Isthereafelicityintheworld,“saidMarianne,“superiortothis?——Margaret,wewillwalkhereatleasttwohours。”
Margaretagreed,andtheypursuedtheirwayagainstthewind,resistingitwithlaughingdelightforabouttwentyminuteslonger,whensuddenlythecloudsunitedovertheirheads,andadrivingrainsetfullintheirface——
Chagrinedandsurprised,theywereobliged,thoughunwillingly,toturnback,fornoshelterwasnearerthantheirownhouse。
Oneconsolationhoweverremainedforthem,towhichtheexigenceofthemomentgavemorethanusualpropriety;
itwasthatofrunningwithallpossiblespeeddownthesteepsideofthehillwhichledimmediatelytotheirgardengate。
Theysetoff。Mariannehadatfirsttheadvantage,butafalsestepbroughthersuddenlytotheground;
andMargaret,unabletostopherselftoassisther,wasinvoluntarilyhurriedalong,andreachedthebottominsafety。
Agentlemancarryingagun,withtwopointersplayingroundhim,waspassingupthehillandwithinafewyardsofMarianne,whenheraccidenthappened。
Heputdownhisgunandrantoherassistance。Shehadraisedherselffromtheground,butherfoothadbeentwistedinherfall,andshewasscarcelyabletostand。
Thegentlemanofferedhisservices;andperceivingthathermodestydeclinedwhathersituationrenderednecessary,tookherupinhisarmswithoutfartherdelay,andcarriedherdownthehill。Thenpassingthroughthegarden,thegateofwhichhadbeenleftopenbyMargaret,heboreherdirectlyintothehouse,whitherMargaretwasjustarrived,andquittednothisholdtillhehadseatedherinachairintheparlour。
Elinorandhermotherroseupinamazementattheirentrance,andwhiletheeyesofbothwerefixedonhimwithanevidentwonderandasecretadmirationwhichequallysprungfromhisappearance,heapologizedforhisintrusionbyrelatingitscause,inamannersofrankandsogracefulthathisperson,whichwasuncommonlyhandsome,receivedadditionalcharmsfromhisvoiceandexpression。Hadhebeenevenold,ugly,andvulgar,thegratitudeandkindnessofMrs。Dashwoodwouldhavebeensecuredbyanyactofattentiontoherchild;
buttheinfluenceofyouth,beauty,andelegance,gaveaninteresttotheactionwhichcamehometoherfeelings。
Shethankedhimagainandagain;and,withasweetnessofaddresswhichalwaysattendedher,invitedhimtobeseated。Butthishedeclined,ashewasdirtyandwet。
Mrs。Dashwoodthenbeggedtoknowtowhomshewasobliged。
Hisname,hereplied,wasWilloughby,andhispresenthomewasatAllenham,fromwhencehehopedshewouldallowhimthehonourofcallingtomorrowtoenquireafterMissDashwood。Thehonourwasreadilygranted,andhethendeparted,tomakehimselfstillmoreinteresting,inthemidstofanheavyrain。
Hismanlybeautyandmorethancommongracefulnesswereinstantlythethemeofgeneraladmiration,andthelaughwhichhisgallantryraisedagainstMariannereceivedparticularspiritfromhisexteriorattractions——
Marianneherselfhadseenlessofhispersonthattherest,fortheconfusionwhichcrimsonedoverherface,onhisliftingherup,hadrobbedherofthepowerofregardinghimaftertheirenteringthehouse。Butshehadseenenoughofhimtojoininalltheadmirationoftheothers,andwithanenergywhichalwaysadornedherpraise。
Hispersonandairwereequaltowhatherfancyhadeverdrawnfortheheroofafavouritestory;andinhiscarryingherintothehousewithsolittlepreviousformality,therewasarapidityofthoughtwhichparticularlyrecommendedtheactiontoher。Everycircumstancebelongingtohimwasinteresting。Hisnamewasgood,hisresidencewasintheirfavouritevillage,andshesoonfoundoutthatofallmanlydressesashooting-jacketwasthemostbecoming。
Herimaginationwasbusy,herreflectionswerepleasant,andthepainofasprainedanklewasdisregarded。
SirJohncalledonthemassoonasthenextintervaloffairweatherthatmorningallowedhimtogetoutofdoors;andMarianne’saccidentbeingrelatedtohim,hewaseagerlyaskedwhetherheknewanygentlemanofthenameofWilloughbyatAllenham。
“Willoughby!”criedSirJohn;“what,isHE
inthecountry?Thatisgoodnewshowever;Iwillrideovertomorrow,andaskhimtodinneronThursday。”
“Youknowhimthen,“saidMrs。Dashwood。
“Knowhim!tobesureIdo。Why,heisdownhereeveryyear。”
“Andwhatsortofayoungmanishe?”
“Asgoodakindoffellowaseverlived,I
assureyou。
Averydecentshot,andthereisnotabolderriderinEngland。”
“Andisthatallyoucansayforhim?”criedMarianne,indignantly。”Butwhatarehismannersonmoreintimateacquaintance?Whathispursuits,histalents,andgenius?”
SirJohnwasratherpuzzled。
“Uponmysoul,“saidhe,“IdonotknowmuchabouthimastoallTHAT。Butheisapleasant,goodhumouredfellow,andhasgotthenicestlittleblackbitchofapointerIeversaw。Wassheoutwithhimtoday?”
ButMariannecouldnomoresatisfyhimastothecolourofMr。Willoughby’spointer,thanhecoulddescribetohertheshadesofhismind。
“Butwhoishe?”saidElinor。”Wheredoeshecomefrom?,HasheahouseatAllenham?”
OnthispointSirJohncouldgivemorecertainintelligence;
andhetoldthemthatMr。Willoughbyhadnopropertyofhisowninthecountry;thatheresidedthereonlywhilehewasvisitingtheoldladyatAllenhamCourt,towhomhewasrelated,andwhosepossessionshewastoinherit;adding,“Yes,yes,heisverywellworthcatchingIcantellyou,MissDashwood;hehasaprettylittleestateofhisowninSomersetshirebesides;
andifIwereyou,Iwouldnotgivehimuptomyyoungersister,inspiteofallthistumblingdownhills。
MissMariannemustnotexpecttohaveallthementoherself。
Brandonwillbejealous,ifshedoesnottakecare。”
“Idonotbelieve,“saidMrs。Dashwood,withagoodhumouredsmile,“thatMr。WilloughbywillbeincommodedbytheattemptsofeitherofMYdaughterstowardswhatyoucallCATCHINGhim。Itisnotanemploymenttowhichtheyhavebeenbroughtup。Menareverysafewithus,letthembeeversorich。Iamgladtofind,however,fromwhatyousay,thatheisarespectableyoungman,andonewhoseacquaintancewillnotbeineligible。”
“Heisasgoodasortoffellow,Ibelieve,aseverlived,“repeatedSirJohn。”IrememberlastChristmasatalittlehopatthepark,hedancedfromeighto’clocktillfour,withoutoncesittingdown。”
“Didheindeed?”criedMariannewithsparklingeyes,“andwithelegance,withspirit?”
“Yes;andhewasupagainateighttoridetocovert。”
“ThatiswhatIlike;thatiswhatayoungmanoughttobe。Whateverbehispursuits,hiseagernessinthemshouldknownomoderation,andleavehimnosenseoffatigue。”
“Aye,aye,Iseehowitwillbe,“saidSirJohn,“Iseehowitwillbe。Youwillbesettingyourcapathimnow,andneverthinkofpoorBrandon。”
“Thatisanexpression,SirJohn,“saidMarianne,warmly,“whichIparticularlydislike。Iabhoreverycommon-placephrasebywhichwitisintended;and’settingone’scapataman,’or’makingaconquest,’arethemostodiousofall。Theirtendencyisgrossandilliberal;
andiftheirconstructioncouldeverbedeemedclever,timehaslongagodestroyedallitsingenuity。”
SirJohndidnotmuchunderstandthisreproof;
buthelaughedasheartilyasifhedid,andthenreplied,“Ay,youwillmakeconquestsenough,Idaresay,onewayorother。PoorBrandon!heisquitesmittenalready,andheisverywellworthsettingyourcapat,Icantellyou,inspiteofallthistumblingaboutandsprainingofankles。”
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CHAPTER10
Marianne’spreserver,asMargaret,withmoreelegancethanprecision,styledWilloughby,calledatthecottageearlythenextmorningtomakehispersonalenquiries。
HewasreceivedbyMrs。Dashwoodwithmorethanpoliteness;
withakindnesswhichSirJohn’saccountofhimandherowngratitudeprompted;andeverythingthatpassedduringthevisittendedtoassurehimofthesense,elegance,mutualaffection,anddomesticcomfortofthefamilytowhomaccidenthadnowintroducedhim。Oftheirpersonalcharmshehadnotrequiredasecondinterviewtobeconvinced。
MissDashwoodhadadelicatecomplexion,regularfeatures,andaremarkablyprettyfigure。
Mariannewasstillhandsomer。Herform,thoughnotsocorrectashersister’s,inhavingtheadvantageofheight,wasmorestriking;andherfacewassolovely,thatwheninthecommoncantofpraise,shewascalledabeautifulgirl,truthwaslessviolentlyoutragedthanusuallyhappens。
Herskinwasverybrown,but,fromitstransparency,hercomplexionwasuncommonlybrilliant;herfeatureswereallgood;hersmilewassweetandattractive;
andinhereyes,whichwereverydark,therewasalife,aspirit,aneagerness,whichcouldhardilybeseenwithoutdelight。FromWilloughbytheirexpressionwasatfirstheldback,bytheembarrassmentwhichtheremembranceofhisassistancecreated。Butwhenthispassedaway,whenherspiritsbecamecollected,whenshesawthattotheperfectgood-breedingofthegentleman,heunitedfranknessandvivacity,andaboveall,whensheheardhimdeclare,thatofmusicanddancinghewaspassionatelyfond,shegavehimsuchalookofapprobationassecuredthelargestshareofhisdiscoursetoherselffortherestofhisstay。
Itwasonlynecessarytomentionanyfavouriteamusementtoengagehertotalk。Shecouldnotbesilentwhensuchpointswereintroduced,andshehadneithershynessnorreserveintheirdiscussion。
Theyspeedilydiscoveredthattheirenjoymentofdancingandmusicwasmutual,andthatitarosefromageneralconformityofjudgmentinallthatrelatedtoeither。
Encouragedbythistoafurtherexaminationofhisopinions,sheproceededtoquestionhimonthesubjectofbooks;
herfavouriteauthorswerebroughtforwardanddweltuponwithsorapturousadelight,thatanyyoungmanoffiveandtwentymusthavebeeninsensibleindeed,nottobecomeanimmediateconverttotheexcellenceofsuchworks,howeverdisregardedbefore。Theirtastewasstrikinglyalike。
Thesamebooks,thesamepassageswereidolizedbyeach——
orifanydifferenceappeared,anyobjectionarose,itlastednolongerthantilltheforceofherargumentsandthebrightnessofhereyescouldbedisplayed。
Heacquiescedinallherdecisions,caughtallherenthusiasm;
andlongbeforehisvisitconcluded,theyconversedwiththefamiliarityofalong-establishedacquaintance。
“Well,Marianne,“saidElinor,assoonashehadleftthem,“forONEmorningIthinkyouhavedoneprettywell。
YouhavealreadyascertainedMr。Willoughby’sopinioninalmosteverymatterofimportance。YouknowwhathethinksofCowperandScott;youarecertainofhisestimatingtheirbeautiesasheought,andyouhavereceivedeveryassuranceofhisadmiringPopenomorethanisproper。
Buthowisyouracquaintancetobelongsupported,undersuchextraordinarydespatchofeverysubjectfordiscourse?
Youwillsoonhaveexhaustedeachfavouritetopic。
Anothermeetingwillsufficetoexplainhissentimentsonpicturesquebeauty,andsecondmarriages,andthenyoucanhavenothingfarthertoask。”——
“Elinor,“criedMarianne,“isthisfair?isthisjust?aremyideassoscanty?,ButIseewhatyoumean。
Ihavebeentoomuchatmyease,toohappy,toofrank。
Ihaveerredagainsteverycommon-placenotionofdecorum;
IhavebeenopenandsincerewhereIoughttohavebeenreserved,spiritless,dull,anddeceitful——hadItalkedonlyoftheweatherandtheroads,andhadI
spokenonlyonceintenminutes,thisreproachwouldhavebeenspared。”
“Mylove,“saidhermother,“youmustnotbeoffendedwithElinor——shewasonlyinjest。Ishouldscoldhermyself,ifshewerecapableofwishingtocheckthedelightofyourconversationwithournewfriend。”——
Mariannewassoftenedinamoment。
Willoughby,onhisside,gaveeveryproofofhispleasureintheiracquaintance,whichanevidentwishofimprovingitcouldoffer。Hecametothemeveryday。
ToenquireafterMariannewasatfirsthisexcuse;buttheencouragementofhisreception,towhicheverydaygavegreaterkindness,madesuchanexcuseunnecessarybeforeithadceasedtobepossible,byMarianne’sperfectrecovery。
Shewasconfinedforsomedaystothehouse;butneverhadanyconfinementbeenlessirksome。Willoughbywasayoungmanofgoodabilities,quickimagination,livelyspirits,andopen,affectionatemanners。HewasexactlyformedtoengageMarianne’sheart,forwithallthis,hejoinednotonlyacaptivatingperson,butanaturalardourofmindwhichwasnowrousedandincreasedbytheexampleofherown,andwhichrecommendedhimtoheraffectionbeyondeverythingelse。
Hissocietybecamegraduallyhermostexquisiteenjoyment。
Theyread,theytalked,theysangtogether;hismusicaltalentswereconsiderable;andhereadwithallthesensibilityandspiritwhichEdwardhadunfortunatelywanted。
InMrs。Dashwood’sestimationhewasasfaultlessasinMarianne’s;andElinorsawnothingtocensureinhimbutapropensity,inwhichhestronglyresembledandpeculiarlydelightedhersister,ofsayingtoomuchwhathethoughtoneveryoccasion,withoutattentiontopersonsorcircumstances。
Inhastilyformingandgivinghisopinionofotherpeople,insacrificinggeneralpolitenesstotheenjoymentofundividedattentionwherehisheartwasengaged,andinslightingtooeasilytheformsofworldlypropriety,hedisplayedawantofcautionwhichElinorcouldnotapprove,inspiteofallthatheandMariannecouldsayinitssupport。
Mariannebegannowtoperceivethatthedesperationwhichhadseizedheratsixteenandahalf,ofeverseeingamanwhocouldsatisfyherideasofperfection,hadbeenrashandunjustifiable。Willoughbywasallthatherfancyhaddelineatedinthatunhappyhourandineverybrighterperiod,ascapableofattachingher;
andhisbehaviourdeclaredhiswishestobeinthatrespectasearnest,ashisabilitieswerestrong。
Hermothertoo,inwhosemindnotonespeculativethoughtoftheirmarriagehadbeenraised,byhisprospectofriches,wasledbeforetheendofaweektohopeandexpectit;andsecretlytocongratulateherselfonhavinggainedtwosuchsons-in-lawasEdwardandWilloughby。
ColonelBrandon’spartialityforMarianne,whichhadsoearlybeendiscoveredbyhisfriends,nowfirstbecameperceptibletoElinor,whenitceasedtobenoticedbythem。Theirattentionandwitweredrawnofftohismorefortunaterival;andtheraillerywhichtheotherhadincurredbeforeanypartialityarose,wasremovedwhenhisfeelingsbeganreallytocallfortheridiculesojustlyannexedtosensibility。Elinorwasobliged,thoughunwillingly,tobelievethatthesentimentswhichMrs。Jenningshadassignedhimforherownsatisfaction,werenowactuallyexcitedbyhersister;andthathoweverageneralresemblanceofdispositionbetweenthepartiesmightforwardtheaffectionofMr。Willoughby,anequallystrikingoppositionofcharacterwasnohindrancetotheregardofColonelBrandon。Shesawitwithconcern;
forwhatcouldasilentmanoffiveandthirtyhope,whenopposedtoaverylivelyoneoffiveandtwenty?andasshecouldnotevenwishhimsuccessful,sheheartilywishedhimindifferent。Shelikedhim——inspiteofhisgravityandreserve,shebeheldinhimanobjectofinterest。
Hismanners,thoughserious,weremild;andhisreserveappearedrathertheresultofsomeoppressionofspiritsthanofanynaturalgloominessoftemper。SirJohnhaddroppedhintsofpastinjuriesanddisappointments,whichjustifiedherbeliefofhisbeinganunfortunateman,andsheregardedhimwithrespectandcompassion。
PerhapsshepitiedandesteemedhimthemorebecausehewasslightedbyWilloughbyandMarianne,who,prejudicedagainsthimforbeingneitherlivelynoryoung,seemedresolvedtoundervaluehismerits。
“Brandonisjustthekindofman,“saidWilloughbyoneday,whentheyweretalkingofhimtogether,“whomeverybodyspeakswellof,andnobodycaresabout;
whomallaredelightedtosee,andnobodyrememberstotalkto。”
“ThatisexactlywhatIthinkofhim,“criedMarianne。
“Donotboastofit,however,“saidElinor,“foritisinjusticeinbothofyou。Heishighlyesteemedbyallthefamilyatthepark,andIneverseehimmyselfwithouttakingpainstoconversewithhim。”
“ThatheispatronisedbyYOU,“repliedWilloughby,“iscertainlyinhisfavour;butasfortheesteemoftheothers,itisareproachinitself。WhowouldsubmittotheindignityofbeingapprovedbysuchawomanasLadyMiddletonandMrs。Jennings,thatcouldcommandtheindifferenceofanybodyelse?”
“ButperhapstheabuseofsuchpeopleasyourselfandMariannewillmakeamendsfortheregardofLadyMiddletonandhermother。Iftheirpraiseiscensure,yourcensuremaybepraise,fortheyarenotmoreundiscerning,thanyouareprejudicedandunjust。”
“Indefenceofyourprotegeyoucanevenbesaucy。”
“Myprotege,asyoucallhim,isasensibleman;
andsensewillalwayshaveattractionsforme。
Yes,Marianne,eveninamanbetweenthirtyandforty。
Hehasseenagreatdealoftheworld;hasbeenabroad,hasread,andhasathinkingmind。Ihavefoundhimcapableofgivingmemuchinformationonvarioussubjects;
andhehasalwaysansweredmyinquirieswithreadinessofgood-breedingandgoodnature。”
“Thatistosay,“criedMariannecontemptuously,“hehastoldyou,thatintheEastIndiestheclimateishot,andthemosquitoesaretroublesome。”
“HeWOULDhavetoldmeso,Idoubtnot,hadImadeanysuchinquiries,buttheyhappenedtobepointsonwhichIhadbeenpreviouslyinformed。”
“Perhaps,“saidWilloughby,“hisobservationsmayhaveextendedtotheexistenceofnabobs,goldmohrs,andpalanquins。”
“ImayventuretosaythatHISobservationshavestretchedmuchfurtherthanyourcandour。
Butwhyshouldyoudislikehim?”
“Idonotdislikehim。Iconsiderhim,onthecontrary,asaveryrespectableman,whohaseverybody’sgoodword,andnobody’snotice;who,hasmoremoneythanhecanspend,moretimethanheknowshowtoemploy,andtwonewcoatseveryyear。”
“Addtowhich,“criedMarianne,“thathehasneithergenius,taste,norspirit。Thathisunderstandinghasnobrilliancy,hisfeelingsnoardour,andhisvoicenoexpression。”
“Youdecideonhisimperfectionssomuchinthemass,“
repliedElinor,“andsomuchonthestrengthofyourownimagination,thatthecommendationIamabletogiveofhimiscomparativelycoldandinsipid。Icanonlypronouncehimtobeasensibleman,well-bred,well-informed,ofgentleaddress,and,Ibelieve,possessinganamiableheart。”
“MissDashwood,“criedWilloughby,“youarenowusingmeunkindly。Youareendeavouringtodisarmmebyreason,andtoconvincemeagainstmywill。Butitwillnotdo。
Youshallfindmeasstubbornasyoucanbeartful。IhavethreeunanswerablereasonsfordislikingColonelBrandon;
hethreatenedmewithrainwhenIwantedittobefine;
hehasfoundfaultwiththehangingofmycurricle,andIcannotpersuadehimtobuymybrownmare。Ifitwillbeanysatisfactiontoyou,however,tobetold,thatIbelievehischaractertobeinotherrespectsirreproachable,Iamreadytoconfessit。Andinreturnforanacknowledgment,whichmustgivemesomepain,youcannotdenymetheprivilegeofdislikinghimasmuchasever。”
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CHAPTER11
LittlehadMrs。DashwoodorherdaughtersimaginedwhentheyfirstcameintoDevonshire,thatsomanyengagementswouldarisetooccupytheirtimeasshortlypresentedthemselves,orthattheyshouldhavesuchfrequentinvitationsandsuchconstantvisitorsastoleavethemlittleleisureforseriousemployment。Yetsuchwasthecase。
WhenMariannewasrecovered,theschemesofamusementathomeandabroad,whichSirJohnhadbeenpreviouslyforming,wereputintoexecution。Theprivateballsattheparkthenbegan;andpartiesonthewaterweremadeandaccomplishedasoftenasashoweryOctoberwouldallow。
IneverymeetingofthekindWilloughbywasincluded;
andtheeaseandfamiliaritywhichnaturallyattendedthesepartieswereexactlycalculatedtogiveincreasingintimacytohisacquaintancewiththeDashwoods,toaffordhimopportunityofwitnessingtheexcellenciesofMarianne,ofmarkinghisanimatedadmirationofher,andofreceiving,inherbehaviourtohimself,themostpointedassuranceofheraffection。
Elinorcouldnotbesurprisedattheirattachment。
Sheonlywishedthatitwerelessopenlyshewn;andonceortwicedidventuretosuggesttheproprietyofsomeself-commandtoMarianne。ButMarianneabhorredallconcealmentwherenorealdisgracecouldattendunreserve;
andtoaimattherestraintofsentimentswhichwerenotinthemselvesillaudable,appearedtohernotmerelyanunnecessaryeffort,butadisgracefulsubjectionofreasontocommon-placeandmistakennotions。
Willoughbythoughtthesame;andtheirbehaviouratalltimes,wasanillustrationoftheiropinions。
Whenhewaspresentshehadnoeyesforanyoneelse。
Everythinghedid,wasright。Everythinghesaid,wasclever。
Iftheireveningsattheparkwereconcludedwithcards,hecheatedhimselfandalltherestofthepartytogetheragoodhand。Ifdancingformedtheamusementofthenight,theywerepartnersforhalfthetime;
andwhenobligedtoseparateforacoupleofdances,werecarefultostandtogetherandscarcelyspokeawordtoanybodyelse。Suchconductmadethemofcoursemostexceedinglylaughedat;butridiculecouldnotshame,andseemedhardlytoprovokethem。
Mrs。Dashwoodenteredintoalltheirfeelingswithawarmthwhichlefthernoinclinationforcheckingthisexcessivedisplayofthem。Toheritwasbutthenaturalconsequenceofastrongaffectioninayoungandardentmind。
ThiswastheseasonofhappinesstoMarianne。
HerheartwasdevotedtoWilloughby,andthefondattachmenttoNorland,whichshebroughtwithherfromSussex,wasmorelikelytobesoftenedthanshehadthoughtitpossiblebefore,bythecharmswhichhissocietybestowedonherpresenthome。
Elinor’shappinesswasnotsogreat。
Herheartwasnotsomuchatease,norhersatisfactionintheiramusementssopure。Theyaffordedhernocompanionthatcouldmakeamendsforwhatshehadleftbehind,northatcouldteachhertothinkofNorlandwithlessregretthanever。
NeitherLadyMiddletonnorMrs。Jenningscouldsupplytohertheconversationshemissed;althoughthelatterwasaneverlastingtalker,andfromthefirsthadregardedherwithakindnesswhichensuredheralargeshareofherdiscourse。ShehadalreadyrepeatedherownhistorytoElinorthreeorfourtimes;andhadElinor’smemorybeenequaltohermeansofimprovement,shemighthaveknownveryearlyintheiracquaintancealltheparticularsofMr。Jenning’slastillness,andwhathesaidtohiswifeafewminutesbeforehedied。LadyMiddletonwasmoreagreeablethanhermotheronlyinbeingmoresilent。
Elinorneededlittleobservationtoperceivethatherreservewasamerecalmnessofmannerwithwhichsensehadnothingtodo。Towardsherhusbandandmothershewasthesameastothem;andintimacywasthereforeneithertobelookedfornordesired。Shehadnothingtosayonedaythatshehadnotsaidthedaybefore。
Herinsipiditywasinvariable,forevenherspiritswerealwaysthesame;andthoughshedidnotopposethepartiesarrangedbyherhusband,providedeverythingwereconductedinstyleandhertwoeldestchildrenattendedher,sheneverappearedtoreceivemoreenjoymentfromthemthanshemighthaveexperiencedinsittingathome;——
andsolittledidherpresenceaddtothepleasureoftheothers,byanyshareintheirconversation,thattheyweresometimesonlyremindedofherbeingamongstthembyhersolicitudeabouthertroublesomeboys。
InColonelBrandonalone,ofallhernewacquaintance,didElinorfindapersonwhocouldinanydegreeclaimtherespectofabilities,excitetheinterestoffriendship,orgivepleasureasacompanion。Willoughbywasoutofthequestion。Heradmirationandregard,evenhersisterlyregard,wasallhisown;buthewasalover;
hisattentionswerewhollyMarianne’s,andafarlessagreeablemanmighthavebeenmoregenerallypleasing。
ColonelBrandon,unfortunatelyforhimself,hadnosuchencouragementtothinkonlyofMarianne,andinconversingwithElinorhefoundthegreatestconsolationfortheindifferenceofhersister。
Elinor’scompassionforhimincreased,asshehadreasontosuspectthatthemiseryofdisappointedlovehadalreadybeenknowntohim。Thissuspicionwasgivenbysomewordswhichaccidentlydroppedfromhimoneeveningatthepark,whentheyweresittingdowntogetherbymutualconsent,whiletheothersweredancing。HiseyeswerefixedonMarianne,and,afterasilenceofsomeminutes,hesaid,withafaintsmile,“Yoursister,Iunderstand,doesnotapproveofsecondattachments。”
“No,“repliedElinor,“heropinionsareallromantic。”
“Orrather,asIbelieve,sheconsidersthemimpossibletoexist。”
“Ibelieveshedoes。Buthowshecontrivesitwithoutreflectingonthecharacterofherownfather,whohadhimselftwowives,Iknownot。Afewyearshoweverwillsettleheropinionsonthereasonablebasisofcommonsenseandobservation;andthentheymaybemoreeasytodefineandtojustifythantheynoware,byanybodybutherself。”
“Thiswillprobablybethecase,“hereplied;
“andyetthereissomethingsoamiableintheprejudicesofayoungmind,thatoneissorrytoseethemgivewaytothereceptionofmoregeneralopinions。”
“Icannotagreewithyouthere,“saidElinor。
“ThereareinconveniencesattendingsuchfeelingsasMarianne’s,whichallthecharmsofenthusiasmandignoranceoftheworldcannotatonefor。Hersystemshavealltheunfortunatetendencyofsettingproprietyatnought;
andabetteracquaintancewiththeworldiswhatIlookforwardtoashergreatestpossibleadvantage。”
Afterashortpauseheresumedtheconversationbysaying,——
“Doesyoursistermakenodistinctioninherobjectionsagainstasecondattachment?orisitequallycriminalineverybody?,Arethosewhohavebeendisappointedintheirfirstchoice,whetherfromtheinconstancyofitsobject,ortheperversenessofcircumstances,tobeequallyindifferentduringtherestoftheirlives?”
“Uponmyword,Iamnotacquaintedwiththeminutiaeofherprinciples。IonlyknowthatIneveryetheardheradmitanyinstanceofasecondattachment’sbeingpardonable。”
“This,“saidhe,“cannothold;butachange,atotalchangeofsentiments——No,no,donotdesireit;
forwhentheromanticrefinementsofayoungmindareobligedtogiveway,howfrequentlyaretheysucceededbysuchopinionsasarebuttoocommon,andtoodangerous!,Ispeakfromexperience。Ionceknewaladywhointemperandmindgreatlyresembledyoursister,whothoughtandjudgedlikeher,butwhofromaninforcedchange——fromaseriesofunfortunatecircumstances“——
Herehestoptsuddenly;appearedtothinkthathehadsaidtoomuch,andbyhiscountenancegaverisetoconjectures,whichmightnototherwisehaveenteredElinor’shead。
Theladywouldprobablyhavepassedwithoutsuspicion,hadhenotconvincedMissDashwoodthatwhatconcernedheroughtnottoescapehislips。Asitwas,itrequiredbutaslighteffortoffancytoconnecthisemotionwiththetenderrecollectionofpastregard。
Elinorattemptednomore。ButMarianne,inherplace,wouldnothavedonesolittle。Thewholestorywouldhavebeenspeedilyformedunderheractiveimagination;
andeverythingestablishedinthemostmelancholyorderofdisastrouslove。
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CHAPTER12
AsElinorandMariannewerewalkingtogetherthenextmorningthelattercommunicatedapieceofnewstohersister,whichinspiteofallthatsheknewbeforeofMarianne’simprudenceandwantofthought,surprisedherbyitsextravaganttestimonyofboth。
Mariannetoldher,withthegreatestdelight,thatWilloughbyhadgivenherahorse,onethathehadbredhimselfonhisestateinSomersetshire,andwhichwasexactlycalculatedtocarryawoman。Withoutconsideringthatitwasnotinhermother’splantokeepanyhorse,thatifsheweretoalterherresolutioninfavourofthisgift,shemustbuyanotherfortheservant,andkeepaservanttorideit,andafterall,buildastabletoreceivethem,shehadacceptedthepresentwithouthesitation,andtoldhersisterofitinraptures。
“HeintendstosendhisgroomintoSomersetshireimmediatelyforit,“sheadded,“andwhenitarriveswewillrideeveryday。Youshallshareitsusewithme。
Imaginetoyourself,mydearElinor,thedelightofagalloponsomeofthesedowns。”
Mostunwillingwasshetoawakenfromsuchadreamoffelicitytocomprehendalltheunhappytruthswhichattendedtheaffair;andforsometimesherefusedtosubmittothem。
Astoanadditionalservant,theexpensewouldbeatrifle;
Mammashewassurewouldneverobjecttoit;andanyhorsewoulddoforHIM;hemightalwaysgetoneatthepark;
astoastable,themerestshedwouldbesufficient。
Elinorthenventuredtodoubttheproprietyofherreceivingsuchapresentfromamansolittle,oratleastsolatelyknowntoher。Thiswastoomuch。
“Youaremistaken,Elinor,“saidshewarmly,“insupposingIknowverylittleofWilloughby。
Ihavenotknownhimlongindeed,butIammuchbetteracquaintedwithhim,thanIamwithanyothercreatureintheworld,exceptyourselfandmama。Itisnottimeoropportunitythatistodetermineintimacy;——
itisdispositionalone。Sevenyearswouldbeinsufficienttomakesomepeopleacquaintedwitheachother,andsevendaysaremorethanenoughforothers。Ishouldholdmyselfguiltyofgreaterimproprietyinacceptingahorsefrommybrother,thanfromWilloughby。OfJohnIknowverylittle,thoughwehavelivedtogetherforyears;
butofWilloughbymyjudgmenthaslongbeenformed。”
Elinorthoughtitwisesttotouchthatpointnomore。
Sheknewhersister’stemper。Oppositiononsotenderasubjectwouldonlyattachherthemoretoherownopinion。
Butbyanappealtoheraffectionforhermother,byrepresentingtheinconvenienceswhichthatindulgentmothermustdrawonherself,ifaswouldprobablybethecasesheconsentedtothisincreaseofestablishment,Mariannewasshortlysubdued;andshepromisednottotempthermothertosuchimprudentkindnessbymentioningtheoffer,andtotellWilloughbywhenshesawhimnext,thatitmustbedeclined。
Shewasfaithfultoherword;andwhenWilloughbycalledatthecottage,thesameday,Elinorheardherexpressherdisappointmenttohiminalowvoice,onbeingobligedtoforegotheacceptanceofhispresent。
Thereasonsforthisalterationwereatthesametimerelated,andtheyweresuchastomakefurtherentreatyonhissideimpossible。Hisconcernhoweverwasveryapparent;
andafterexpressingitwithearnestness,headded,inthesamelowvoice,——“But,Marianne,thehorseisstillyours,thoughyoucannotuseitnow。Ishallkeepitonlytillyoucanclaimit。WhenyouleaveBartontoformyourownestablishmentinamorelastinghome,QueenMabshallreceiveyou。”
ThiswasalloverheardbyMissDashwood;andinthewholeofthesentence,inhismannerofpronouncingit,andinhisaddressinghersisterbyherchristiannamealone,sheinstantlysawanintimacysodecided,ameaningsodirect,asmarkedaperfectagreementbetweenthem。
>Fromthatmomentshedoubtednotoftheirbeingengagedtoeachother;andthebeliefofitcreatednoothersurprisethanthatshe,oranyoftheirfriends,shouldbeleftbytemperssofrank,todiscoveritbyaccident。
Margaretrelatedsomethingtoherthenextday,whichplacedthismatterinastillclearerlight。
Willoughbyhadspenttheprecedingeveningwiththem,andMargaret,bybeingleftsometimeintheparlourwithonlyhimandMarianne,hadhadopportunityforobservations,which,withamostimportantface,shecommunicatedtohereldestsister,whentheywerenextbythemselves。
“Oh,Elinor!”shecried,“IhavesuchasecrettotellyouaboutMarianne。IamsureshewillbemarriedtoMr。Willoughbyverysoon。”
“Youhavesaidso,“repliedElinor,“almosteverydaysincetheyfirstmetonHigh-churchDown;andtheyhadnotknowneachotheraweek,Ibelieve,beforeyouwerecertainthatMarianneworehispictureroundherneck;
butitturnedouttobeonlytheminiatureofourgreatuncle。”
“Butindeedthisisquiteanotherthing。
Iamsuretheywillbemarriedverysoon,forhehasgotalockofherhair。”
“Takecare,Margaret。ItmaybeonlythehairofsomegreatuncleofHIS。”
“But,indeed,Elinor,itisMarianne’s。Iamalmostsureitis,forIsawhimcutitoff。Lastnightaftertea,whenyouandmamawentoutoftheroom,theywerewhisperingandtalkingtogetherasfastascouldbe,andheseemedtobebeggingsomethingofher,andpresentlyhetookupherscissorsandcutoffalonglockofherhair,foritwasalltumbleddownherback;
andhekissedit,andfoldeditupinapieceofwhitepaper;
andputitintohispocket-book。”
Forsuchparticulars,statedonsuchauthority,Elinorcouldnotwithholdhercredit;norwasshedisposedtoit,forthecircumstancewasinperfectunisonwithwhatshehadheardandseenherself。
Margaret’ssagacitywasnotalwaysdisplayedinawaysosatisfactorytohersister。WhenMrs。Jenningsattackedheroneeveningatthepark,togivethenameoftheyoungmanwhowasElinor’sparticularfavourite,whichhadbeenlongamatterofgreatcuriositytoher,Margaretansweredbylookingathersister,andsaying,“Imustnottell,mayI,Elinor?”
Thisofcoursemadeeverybodylaugh;andElinortriedtolaughtoo。Buttheeffortwaspainful。
ShewasconvincedthatMargarethadfixedonapersonwhosenameshecouldnotbearwithcomposuretobecomeastandingjokewithMrs。Jennings。
Mariannefeltforhermostsincerely;butshedidmoreharmthangoodtothecause,byturningveryredandsayinginanangrymannertoMargaret,“Rememberthatwhateveryourconjecturesmaybe,youhavenorighttorepeatthem。”
“Ineverhadanyconjecturesaboutit,“repliedMargaret;
“itwasyouwhotoldmeofityourself。”
Thisincreasedthemirthofthecompany,andMargaretwaseagerlypressedtosaysomethingmore。
“Oh!pray,MissMargaret,letusknowallaboutit,“
saidMrs。Jennings。”Whatisthegentleman’sname?”
“Imustnottell,ma’am。ButIknowverywellwhatitis;
andIknowwhereheistoo。”
“Yes,yes,wecanguesswhereheis;athisownhouseatNorlandtobesure。HeisthecurateoftheparishIdaresay。”
“No,THATheisnot。Heisofnoprofessionatall。”
“Margaret,“saidMariannewithgreatwarmth,“youknowthatallthisisaninventionofyourown,andthatthereisnosuchpersoninexistence。”
“Well,then,heislatelydead,Marianne,forI
amsuretherewassuchamanonce,andhisnamebeginswithanF。”
MostgratefuldidElinorfeeltoLadyMiddletonforobserving,atthismoment,“thatitrainedveryhard,“
thoughshebelievedtheinterruptiontoproceedlessfromanyattentiontoher,thanfromherladyship’sgreatdislikeofallsuchinelegantsubjectsofrailleryasdelightedherhusbandandmother。Theideahoweverstartedbyher,wasimmediatelypursuedbyColonelBrandon,whowasoneveryoccasionmindfulofthefeelingsofothers;
andmuchwassaidonthesubjectofrainbybothofthem。
Willoughbyopenedthepiano-forte,andaskedMariannetositdowntoit;andthusamidstthevariousendeavoursofdifferentpeopletoquitthetopic,itfelltotheground。
ButnotsoeasilydidElinorrecoverfromthealarmintowhichithadthrownher。
ApartywasformedthiseveningforgoingonthefollowingdaytoseeaveryfineplaceabouttwelvemilesfromBarton,belongingtoabrother-in-lawofColonelBrandon,withoutwhoseinterestitcouldnotbeseen,astheproprietor,whowasthenabroad,hadleftstrictordersonthathead。
Thegroundsweredeclaredtobehighlybeautiful,andSirJohn,whowasparticularlywarmintheirpraise,mightbeallowedtobeatolerablejudge,forhehadformedpartiestovisitthem,atleast,twiceeverysummerforthelasttenyears。Theycontainedanoblepieceofwater;asailonwhichwastoaformagreatpartofthemorning’samusement;coldprovisionsweretobetaken,opencarriagesonlytobeemployed,andeverythingconductedintheusualstyleofacompletepartyofpleasure。
Tosomefewofthecompanyitappearedratheraboldundertaking,consideringthetimeofyear,andthatithadrainedeverydayforthelastfortnight;——
andMrs。Dashwood,whohadalreadyacold,waspersuadedbyElinortostayathome。
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CHAPTER13
TheirintendedexcursiontoWhitwellturnedoutverydifferentfromwhatElinorhadexpected。Shewaspreparedtobewetthrough,fatigued,andfrightened;
buttheeventwasstillmoreunfortunate,fortheydidnotgoatall。
Byteno’clockthewholepartywasassembledatthepark,wheretheyweretobreakfast。Themorningwasratherfavourable,thoughithadrainedallnight,asthecloudswerethendispersingacrossthesky,andthesunfrequentlyappeared。Theywereallinhighspiritsandgoodhumour,eagertobehappy,anddeterminedtosubmittothegreatestinconveniencesandhardshipsratherthanbeotherwise。
Whiletheywereatbreakfasttheletterswerebroughtin。
AmongtheresttherewasoneforColonelBrandon;——hetookit,lookedatthedirection,changedcolour,andimmediatelylefttheroom。
“WhatisthematterwithBrandon?”saidSirJohn。
Nobodycouldtell。
“Ihopehehashadnobadnews,“saidLadyMiddleton。
“ItmustbesomethingextraordinarythatcouldmakeColonelBrandonleavemybreakfasttablesosuddenly。”
Inaboutfiveminuteshereturned。
“Nobadnews,Colonel,Ihope;“saidMrs。Jennings,assoonasheenteredtheroom。
“Noneatall,ma’am,Ithankyou。”
“WasitfromAvignon?,Ihopeitisnottosaythatyoursisterisworse。”
“No,ma’am。Itcamefromtown,andismerelyaletterofbusiness。”
“Buthowcamethehandtodiscomposeyousomuch,ifitwasonlyaletterofbusiness?,Come,come,thiswon’tdo,Colonel;soletushearthetruthofit。”
“Mydearmadam,“saidLadyMiddleton,“recollectwhatyouaresaying。”
“PerhapsitistotellyouthatyourcousinFannyismarried?”saidMrs。Jennings,withoutattendingtoherdaughter’sreproof。
“No,indeed,itisnot。”
“Well,then,Iknowwhoitisfrom,Colonel。
AndI
hopesheiswell。”
“Whomdoyoumean,ma’am?”saidhe,colouringalittle。
“Oh!youknowwhoImean。”
“Iamparticularlysorry,ma’am,“saidhe,addressingLadyMiddleton,“thatIshouldreceivethislettertoday,foritisonbusinesswhichrequiresmyimmediateattendanceintown。”
“Intown!”criedMrs。Jennings。”Whatcanyouhavetodointownatthistimeofyear?”
“Myownlossisgreat,“becontinued,“inbeingobligedtoleavesoagreeableaparty;butIamthemoreconcerned,asIfearmypresenceisnecessarytogainyouradmittanceatWhitwell。”
Whatablowuponthemallwasthis!
“Butifyouwriteanotetothehousekeeper,Mr。Brandon,“
saidMarianne,eagerly,“willitnotbesufficient?”
Heshookhishead。
“Wemustgo,“saidSirJohn——“Itshallnotbeputoffwhenwearesonearit。Youcannotgototowntilltomorrow,Brandon,thatisall。”
“Iwishitcouldbesoeasilysettled。
Butitisnotinmypowertodelaymyjourneyforoneday!”
“Ifyouwouldbutletusknowwhatyourbusinessis,“
saidMrs。Jennings,“wemightseewhetheritcouldbeputoffornot。”
“Youwouldnotbesixhourslater,“saidWilloughby,“ifyouweretodeferyourjourneytillourreturn。”
“IcannotaffordtoloseONEhour。”——
ElinorthenheardWilloughbysay,inalowvoicetoMarianne,“Therearesomepeoplewhocannotbearapartyofpleasure。
Brandonisoneofthem。HewasafraidofcatchingcoldIdaresay,andinventedthistrickforgettingoutofit。
Iwouldlayfiftyguineastheletterwasofhisownwriting。”
“Ihavenodoubtofit,“repliedMarianne。
“Thereisnopersuadingyoutochangeyourmind,Brandon,Iknowofold,“saidSirJohn,“whenonceyouaredeterminedonanything。But,however,Ihopeyouwillthinkbetterofit。Consider,herearethetwoMissCareyscomeoverfromNewton,thethreeMissDashwoodswalkedupfromthecottage,andMr。Willoughbygotuptwohoursbeforehisusualtime,onpurposetogotoWhitwell。”
ColonelBrandonagainrepeatedhissorrowatbeingthecauseofdisappointingtheparty;butatthesametimedeclaredittobeunavoidable。
“Well,then,whenwillyoucomebackagain?”
“IhopeweshallseeyouatBarton,“addedherladyship,“assoonasyoucanconvenientlyleavetown;andwemustputoffthepartytoWhitwelltillyoureturn。”
“Youareveryobliging。Butitissouncertain,whenImayhaveitinmypowertoreturn,thatIdarenotengageforitatall。”
“Oh!hemustandshallcomeback,“criedSirJohn。
“Ifheisnotherebytheendoftheweek,Ishallgoafterhim。”
“Ay,sodo,SirJohn,“criedMrs。Jennings,“andthenperhapsyoumayfindoutwhathisbusinessis。”
“Idonotwanttopryintoothermen’sconcerns。
Isupposeitissomethingheisashamedof。”
ColonelBrandon’shorseswereannounced。
“Youdonotgototownonhorseback,doyou?”
addedSirJohn。
“No。OnlytoHoniton。Ishallthengopost。”
“Well,asyouareresolvedtogo,Iwishyouagoodjourney。Butyouhadbetterchangeyourmind。”
“Iassureyouitisnotinmypower。”
Hethentookleaveofthewholeparty。
“Istherenochanceofmyseeingyouandyoursistersintownthiswinter,MissDashwood?”
“Iamafraid,noneatall。”
“ThenImustbidyoufarewellforalongertimethanIshouldwishtodo。”
ToMarianne,hemerelybowedandsaidnothing。
“ComeColonel,“saidMrs。Jennings,“beforeyougo,doletusknowwhatyouaregoingabout。”
Hewishedheragoodmorning,and,attendedbySirJohn,lefttheroom。
Thecomplaintsandlamentationswhichpolitenesshadhithertorestrained,nowburstforthuniversally;
andtheyallagreedagainandagainhowprovokingitwastobesodisappointed。
“Icanguesswhathisbusinessis,however,“
saidMrs。Jenningsexultingly。
“Canyou,ma’am?”saidalmosteverybody。
“Yes;itisaboutMissWilliams,Iamsure。”
“AndwhoisMissWilliams?”askedMarianne。
“What!donotyouknowwhoMissWilliamsis?
Iamsureyoumusthaveheardofherbefore。SheisarelationoftheColonel’s,mydear;averynearrelation。Wewillnotsayhownear,forfearofshockingtheyoungladies。”
Then,loweringhervoicealittle,shesaidtoElinor,“Sheishisnaturaldaughter。”
“Indeed!”
“Oh,yes;andaslikehimasshecanstare。
IdaresaytheColonelwillleaveherallhisfortune。”
WhenSirJohnreturned,hejoinedmostheartilyinthegeneralregretonsounfortunateanevent;
concludinghoweverbyobserving,thatastheywereallgottogether,theymustdosomethingbywayofbeinghappy;andaftersomeconsultationitwasagreed,thatalthoughhappinesscouldonlybeenjoyedatWhitwell,theymightprocureatolerablecomposureofmindbydrivingaboutthecountry。Thecarriageswerethenordered;
Willoughby’swasfirst,andMarianneneverlookedhappierthanwhenshegotintoit。Hedrovethroughtheparkveryfast,andtheyweresoonoutofsight;
andnothingmoreofthemwasseentilltheirreturn,whichdidnothappentillafterthereturnofalltherest。
Theybothseemeddelightedwiththeirdrive;butsaidonlyingeneraltermsthattheyhadkeptinthelanes,whiletheotherswentonthedowns。
Itwassettledthatthereshouldbeadanceintheevening,andthateverybodyshouldbeextremelymerryalldaylong。
SomemoreoftheCareyscametodinner,andtheyhadthepleasureofsittingdownnearlytwentytotable,whichSirJohnobservedwithgreatcontentment。WilloughbytookhisusualplacebetweenthetwoelderMissDashwoods。
Mrs。JenningssatonElinor’srighthand;andtheyhadnotbeenlongseated,beforesheleantbehindherandWilloughby,andsaidtoMarianne,loudenoughforthembothtohear,“Ihavefoundyououtinspiteofallyourtricks。
Iknowwhereyouspentthemorning。”
Mariannecoloured,andrepliedveryhastily,“Where,pray?”——
“Didnotyouknow,“saidWilloughby,“thatwehadbeenoutinmycurricle?”
“Yes,yes,Mr。Impudence,Iknowthatverywell,andIwasdeterminedtofindoutWHEREyouhadbeento——
Ihopeyoulikeyourhouse,MissMarianne。Itisaverylargeone,Iknow;andwhenIcometoseeyou,Ihopeyouwillhavenew-furnishedit,foritwanteditverymuchwhenIwastheresixyearsago。”
Marianneturnedawayingreatconfusion。
Mrs。Jenningslaughedheartily;andElinorfoundthatinherresolutiontoknowwheretheyhadbeen,shehadactuallymadeherownwomanenquireofMr。Willoughby’sgroom;
andthatshehadbythatmethodbeeninformedthattheyhadgonetoAllenham,andspentaconsiderabletimethereinwalkingaboutthegardenandgoingalloverthehouse。
Elinorcouldhardlybelievethistobetrue,asitseemedveryunlikelythatWilloughbyshouldpropose,orMarianneconsent,toenterthehousewhileMrs。Smithwasinit,withwhomMariannehadnotthesmallestacquaintance。
Assoonastheyleftthedining-room,Elinorenquiredofheraboutit;andgreatwashersurprisewhenshefoundthateverycircumstancerelatedbyMrs。Jenningswasperfectlytrue。Mariannewasquiteangrywithherfordoubtingit。
“Whyshouldyouimagine,Elinor,thatwedidnotgothere,orthatwedidnotseethehouse?,Isnotitwhatyouhaveoftenwishedtodoyourself?”
“Yes,Marianne,butIwouldnotgowhileMrs。
Smithwasthere,andwithnoothercompanionthanMr。Willoughby。”
“Mr。Willoughbyhoweveristheonlypersonwhocanhavearighttoshewthathouse;andashewentinanopencarriage,itwasimpossibletohaveanyothercompanion。
Ineverspentapleasantermorninginmylife。”
“Iamafraid,“repliedElinor,“thatthepleasantnessofanemploymentdoesnotalwaysevinceitspropriety。”
“Onthecontrary,nothingcanbeastrongerproofofit,Elinor;foriftherehadbeenanyrealimproprietyinwhatIdid,Ishouldhavebeensensibleofitatthetime,forwealwaysknowwhenweareactingwrong,andwithsuchaconvictionIcouldhavehadnopleasure。”
“But,mydearMarianne,asithasalreadyexposedyoutosomeveryimpertinentremarks,doyounotnowbegintodoubtthediscretionofyourownconduct?”
“IftheimpertinentremarksofMrs。Jenningsaretobetheproofofimproprietyinconduct,wearealloffendingeverymomentofourlives。IvaluenothercensureanymorethanIshoulddohercommendation。
IamnotsensibleofhavingdoneanythingwronginwalkingoverMrs。Smith’sgrounds,orinseeingherhouse。
TheywillonedaybeMr。Willoughby’s,and——“
“Iftheywereonedaytobeyourown,Marianne,youwouldnotbejustifiedinwhatyouhavedone。”
Sheblushedatthishint;butitwasevenvisiblygratifyingtoher;andafteratenminutes’intervalofearnestthought,shecametohersisteragain,andsaidwithgreatgoodhumour,“Perhaps,Elinor,itWASratherill-judgedinmetogotoAllenham;butMr。Willoughbywantedparticularlytoshewmetheplace;anditisacharminghouse,Iassureyou——Thereisoneremarkablyprettysittingroomupstairs;ofanicecomfortablesizeforconstantuse,andwithmodernfurnitureitwouldbedelightful。
Itisacornerroom,andhaswindowsontwosides。
Ononesideyoulookacrossthebowling-green,behindthehouse,toabeautifulhangingwood,andontheotheryouhaveaviewofthechurchandvillage,and,beyondthem,ofthosefineboldhillsthatwehavesooftenadmired。
Ididnotseeittoadvantage,fornothingcouldbemoreforlornthanthefurniture,——butifitwerenewlyfittedup——acoupleofhundredpounds,Willoughbysays,wouldmakeitoneofthepleasantestsummer-roomsinEngland。”
CouldElinorhavelistenedtoherwithoutinterruptionfromtheothers,shewouldhavedescribedeveryroominthehousewithequaldelight。
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CHAPTER14
ThesuddenterminationofColonelBrandon’svisitatthepark,withhissteadinessinconcealingitscause,filledthemind,andraisedthewonderofMrs。Jenningsfortwoorthreedays;shewasagreatwonderer,aseveryonemustbewhotakesaverylivelyinterestinallthecomingsandgoingsofalltheiracquaintance。Shewondered,withlittleintermissionwhatcouldbethereasonofit;
wassuretheremustbesomebadnews,andthoughtovereverykindofdistressthatcouldhavebefallenhim,withafixeddeterminationthatheshouldnotescapethemall。
“Somethingverymelancholymustbethematter,Iamsure,“saidshe。”Icouldseeitinhisface。
Poorman!,Iamafraidhiscircumstancesmaybebad。
TheestateatDelafordwasneverreckonedmorethantwothousandayear,andhisbrotherlefteverythingsadlyinvolved。
Idothinkhemusthavebeensentforaboutmoneymatters,forwhatelsecanitbe?,Iwonderwhetheritisso。
Iwouldgiveanythingtoknowthetruthofit。PerhapsitisaboutMissWilliamsand,bythebye,Idaresayitis,becausehelookedsoconsciouswhenImentionedher。
Maybesheisillintown;nothingintheworldmorelikely,forIhaveanotionsheisalwaysrathersickly。
IwouldlayanywageritisaboutMissWilliams。
ItisnotsoverylikelyheshouldbedistressedinhiscircumstancesNOW,forheisaveryprudentman,andtobesuremusthaveclearedtheestatebythistime。
Iwonderwhatitcanbe!,MaybehissisterisworseatAvignon,andhassentforhimover。Hissettingoffinsuchahurryseemsverylikeit。Well,Iwishhimoutofallhistroublewithallmyheart,andagoodwifeintothebargain。”
Sowondered,sotalkedMrs。Jennings。
Heropinionvaryingwitheveryfreshconjecture,andallseemingequallyprobableastheyarose。Elinor,thoughshefeltreallyinterestedinthewelfareofColonelBrandon,couldnotbestowallthewonderonhisgoingsosuddenlyaway,whichMrs。Jenningswasdesirousofherfeeling;
forbesidesthatthecircumstancedidnotinheropinionjustifysuchlastingamazementorvarietyofspeculation,herwonderwasotherwisedisposedof。ItwasengossedbytheextraordinarysilenceofhersisterandWilloughbyonthesubject,whichtheymustknowtobepeculiarlyinterestingtothemall。Asthissilencecontinued,everydaymadeitappearmorestrangeandmoreincompatiblewiththedispositionofboth。Whytheyshouldnotopenlyacknowledgetohermotherandherself,whattheirconstantbehaviourtoeachotherdeclaredtohavetakenplace,Elinorcouldnotimagine。
Shecouldeasilyconceivethatmarriagemightnotbeimmediatelyintheirpower;forthoughWilloughbywasindependent,therewasnoreasontobelievehimrich。
HisestatehadbeenratedbySirJohnataboutsixorsevenhundredayear;buthelivedatanexpensetowhichthatincomecouldhardlybeequal,andhehadhimselfoftencomplainedofhispoverty。Butforthisstrangekindofsecrecymaintainedbythemrelativetotheirengagement,whichinfactconcealednothingatall,shecouldnotaccount;
anditwassowhollycontradictorytotheirgeneralopinionsandpractice,thatadoubtsometimesenteredhermindoftheirbeingreallyengaged,andthisdoubtwasenoughtopreventhermakinganyinquiryofMarianne。
Nothingcouldbemoreexpressiveofattachmenttothemall,thanWilloughby’sbehaviour。ToMarianneithadallthedistinguishingtendernesswhichalover’sheartcouldgive,andtotherestofthefamilyitwastheaffectionateattentionofasonandabrother。Thecottageseemedtobeconsideredandlovedbyhimashishome;
manymoreofhishourswerespenttherethanatAllenham;
andifnogeneralengagementcollectedthematthepark,theexercisewhichcalledhimoutinthemorningwasalmostcertainofendingthere,wheretherestofthedaywasspentbyhimselfatthesideofMarianne,andbyhisfavouritepointeratherfeet。
Oneeveninginparticular,aboutaweekafterColonelBrandonleftthecountry,hisheartseemedmorethanusuallyopentoeveryfeelingofattachmenttotheobjectsaroundhim;andonMrs。Dashwood’shappeningtomentionherdesignofimprovingthecottageinthespring,hewarmlyopposedeveryalterationofaplacewhichaffectionhadestablishedasperfectwithhim。
“What!”heexclaimed——“Improvethisdearcottage!
No。THATIwillneverconsentto。Notastonemustbeaddedtoitswalls,notaninchtoitssize,ifmyfeelingsareregarded。”
“Donotbealarmed,“saidMissDashwood,“nothingofthekindwillbedone;formymotherwillneverhavemoneyenoughtoattemptit。”
“Iamheartilygladofit“hecried。
“Mayshealwaysbepoor,ifshecanemployherrichesnobetter。”
“Thankyou,Willoughby。ButyoumaybeassuredthatI
wouldnotsacrificeonesentimentoflocalattachmentofyours,orofanyonewhomIloved,foralltheimprovementsintheworld。Dependuponitthatwhateverunemployedsummayremain,whenImakeupmyaccountsinthespring,Iwouldevenratherlayituselesslybythandisposeofitinamannersopainfultoyou。Butareyoureallysoattachedtothisplaceastoseenodefectinit?”
“Iam,“saidhe。”Tomeitisfaultless。
Nay,more,Iconsideritastheonlyformofbuildinginwhichhappinessisattainable,andwereIrichenoughIwouldinstantlypullCombedown,andbuilditupagainintheexactplanofthiscottage。”
“Withdarknarrowstairsandakitchenthatsmokes,Isuppose,“saidElinor。
“Yes,“criedheinthesameeagertone,“withallandeverythingbelongingtoit;——innooneconvenienceorINconvenienceaboutit,shouldtheleastvariationbeperceptible。Then,andthenonly,undersucharoof,I
mightperhapsbeashappyatCombeasIhavebeenatBarton。”
“Iflattermyself,“repliedElinor,“thatevenunderthedisadvantageofbetterroomsandabroaderstaircase,youwillhereafterfindyourownhouseasfaultlessasyounowdothis。”
“Therecertainlyarecircumstances,“saidWilloughby,“whichmightgreatlyendearittome;butthisplacewillalwayshaveoneclaimofmyaffection,whichnoothercanpossiblyshare。”
Mrs。DashwoodlookedwithpleasureatMarianne,whosefineeyeswerefixedsoexpressivelyonWilloughby,asplainlydenotedhowwellsheunderstoodhim。
“HowoftendidIwish,“addedhe,“whenIwasatAllenhamthistimetwelvemonth,thatBartoncottagewereinhabited!,Ineverpassedwithinviewofitwithoutadmiringitssituation,andgrievingthatnooneshouldliveinit。
HowlittledidIthenthinkthattheveryfirstnewsIshouldhearfromMrs。Smith,whenInextcameintothecountry,wouldbethatBartoncottagewastaken:andI
feltanimmediatesatisfactionandinterestintheevent,whichnothingbutakindofprescienceofwhathappinessI
shouldexperiencefromit,canaccountfor。Mustitnothavebeenso,Marianne?”speakingtoherinaloweredvoice。
Thencontinuinghisformertone,hesaid,“Andyetthishouseyouwouldspoil,Mrs。Dashwood?,Youwouldrobitofitssimplicitybyimaginaryimprovement!andthisdearparlourinwhichouracquaintancefirstbegan,andinwhichsomanyhappyhourshavebeensincespentbyustogether,youwoulddegradetotheconditionofacommonentrance,andeverybodywouldbeeagertopassthroughtheroomwhichhashithertocontainedwithinitselfmorerealaccommodationandcomfortthananyotherapartmentofthehandsomestdimensionsintheworldcouldpossiblyafford。”
Mrs。Dashwoodagainassuredhimthatnoalterationofthekindshouldbeattempted。
“Youareagoodwoman,“hewarmlyreplied。
“Yourpromisemakesmeeasy。Extenditalittlefarther,anditwillmakemehappy。Tellmethatnotonlyyourhousewillremainthesame,butthatIshalleverfindyouandyoursasunchangedasyourdwelling;andthatyouwillalwaysconsidermewiththekindnesswhichhasmadeeverythingbelongingtoyousodeartome。”
Thepromisewasreadilygiven,andWilloughby’sbehaviourduringthewholeoftheeveningdeclaredatoncehisaffectionandhappiness。
“Shallweseeyoutomorrowtodinner?”saidMrs。Dashwood,whenhewasleavingthem。”Idonotaskyoutocomeinthemorning,forwemustwalktothepark,tocallonLadyMiddleton。”
Heengagedtobewiththembyfouro’clock。