"Butthatpooryoungerson,hehadbeeninlovewiththevillagevicar'sdaughterallhislife。That'snowondereither,forshewasmorebeautifulyet。Shecouldsingastheangels,butshehadn'tacent。Shelovedhimtodeath,too,ifhewasbonyandfreckledandred-haired——Idon'tmeanthat!Theydidn'tsaywhatcolorhishairwas,buthisfather'smusthavebeenthereddestever,forwhenhefoundoutaboutthem,anditwasn'tanythingsoterrible,HEJUSTCAVED!
"Theoldmanwenttoseethegirl——theprettyonewithnomoney,ofcourse——andhehurtherfeelingsuntilsheranaway。ShewenttoLondonandbeganstudyingmusic。Soonshegrewtobeafinesinger,soshejoinedacompanyandcametothiscountry。
"WhentheyoungersonfoundthatshehadleftLondon,hefollowedher。
Whenshegothereallalone,andafraid,andsawhimcomingtoher,why,shewassogladsheupandmarriedhim,justlikeanybodyelsewouldhavedone。Hedidn'twanthertotravelwiththetroupe,sowhentheyreachedChicagotheythoughtthatwouldbeagoodplace,andtheystopped,whilehehuntedwork。Itwasslowbusiness,becauseheneverhadbeentaughttodoausefulthing,andhedidn'tevenknowhowtohuntwork,leastofalltodoitwhenhefoundit;soprettysoonthingsweregoingwrong。Butifhecouldn'tfindwork,shecouldalwayssing,soshesangatnight,andmadelittlethingsinthedaytime。Hedidn'tlikehertosinginpublic,andhewouldn'tallowherwhenhecouldHELPhimself;
butwintercame,itwasverycold,andfirewasexpensive。
Rentswentup,andtheyhadtomovefartherouttocheaperandcheaperplaces;andyouwerecoming——Imean,theboythatislostwascoming——andtheywerealmostdistracted。Thenthemanwroteandtoldhisfatherallaboutit;andhisfathersenttheletterbackunopenedwithalinetellinghimnevertowriteagain。Whenthebabycame,therewasverylittlelefttopawnforfoodandadoctor,andnothingatallforanurse;soanoldneighborwomanwentinandtookcareoftheyoungmotherandthelittlebaby,becauseshewassosorryforthem。Bythattimetheywereawayinthesuburbsonthetopfloorofalittlewoodenhouse,amongalotofbigfactories,anditkeptgrowingcolder,withlesstoeat。
Thenthemangrewdesperateandhewentjusttofindsomethingtoeatandthewomanwasdesperate,too。Shegotup,lefttheoldwomantotakecareofherbaby,andwentintothecitytosingforsomemoney。Thewomanbecamesocoldsheputthebabyinbedandwenthome。Thenaboilerblewupinabigfactorybesidethelittlehouseandsetitonfire。Apieceofironwaspitchedacrossandbrokethroughtheroof。Itcamedownsmash,andcutjustonelittlehandoffthepoorbaby。Itscreamedandscreamed;andthefirekeptcomingcloserandcloser。
"Theoldwomanranoutwiththeotherpeopleandsawwhathadhappened。
Sheknewtherewasn'tgoingtobetimetowaitforfiremenoranything,sosheranintothebuilding。Shecouldhearthebabyscreaming,andshecouldn'tstandthat;sosheworkedherwaytoit。
Thereitwas,allhurtandbleeding。Thenshewasalmostscaredtodeathoverthinkingwhatitsmotherwoulddotoherforgoingawayandleavingit,sosherantoaHomeforlittlefriendlessbabies,thatwasclose,andbangedonthedoor。Thenshehidacrossthestreetuntilthebabywastakenin,andthensheranbacktoseeifherownhousewasburning。Thebigfactoryandthelittlehouseandalotofotherswereallgone。Thepeopletheretoldherthatthebeautifulladycamebackandranintothehousetofindherbaby。Shehadjustgoneinwhenherhusbandcame,andhewentinafterher,andthehousefelloverbothofthem。"
Freckleslayrigidly,withhiseyesontheAngel'sface,whileshetalkedrapidlytotheceiling。
"Thentheoldwomanwassickaboutthatpoorlittlebaby。ShewasafraidtotellthemattheHome,becausesheknewshenevershouldhaveleftit,butshewrotealetterandsentittowherethebeautifulwoman,whenshewasill,hadsaidherhusband'speoplelived。
Shetoldallaboutthelittlebabythatshecouldremember:
whenitwasborn,howitwasnamedfortheman'selderbrother,thatitshandhadbeencutoffinthefire,andwhereshehadputittobedoctoredandtakencareof。Shetoldthemthatitsmotherandfatherwerebothburned,andshebeggedandimploredthemtocomeafterit。
"You'dthinkthatwouldhavemeltedaheartofice,butthatoldmanhadn'tanyhearttomelt,forhegotthatletterandreadit。
Hehiditawayamonghispapersandnevertoldasoul。Afewmonthsagohedied。Whenhiseldersonwenttosettlehisbusiness,hefoundtheletteralmostthefirstthing。Hedroppedeverything,andcame,withhiswife,tohuntthatbaby,becausehealwayshadlovedhisbrotherdearly,andwantedhimback。Hehadhuntedforhimallhedaredalltheseyears,butwhenhegothereyouweregone——I
meanthebabywasgone,andIhadtotellyou,Freckles,foryousee,itmighthavehappenedtoyoulikethatjustaseasyastothatotherlostboy。"
FrecklesreachedupandturnedtheAngel'sfaceuntilhecompelledhereyestomeethis。
"Angel,"heaskedquietly,"whydon'tyoulookatmewhenyouaretellingaboutthatlostboy?"
"I——Ididn'tknowIwasn't,"falteredtheAngel。
"Itseemstome,"saidFreckles,hisbreathbeginningtocomeinsharpwheezes,"thatyougotusrathermixed,anditain'tlikeyoutobemixingthingstillonecan'tbeknowing。Iftheyweretellingyousomuch,didtheysaywhichhandwasforbeingoffthatlostboy?"
TheAngel'seyesescapedagain。
"It——itwasthesameasyours,"sheventured,barelybreathinginherfear。
StillFreckleslayrigidandwhiterthanthecoverlet。
"Wouldthatboybeasoldasme?"heasked。
"Yes,"saidtheAngelfaintly。
"Angel,"saidFrecklesatlast,catchingherwrist,"areyoutryingtotellmethatthereissomebodyhuntingaboythatyou'rethinkingmightbeme?Areyoubelavin'you'vefoundmerelations?"
ThentheAngel'seyescamehome。Thetimehadcome。ShepinionedFreckles'armstohissidesandbentabovehim。
"Howstrongareyou,dearheart?"shebreathed。"Howbraveareyou?
Canyoubearit?DareItellyouthat?"
"No!"gaspedFreckles。"Notifyou'resure!Ican'tbearit!
I'lldieifyoudo!"
ThedayhadbeenoneunremittingstrainwiththeAngel。
Nervetensionwasdrawntothefinestthread。Itsnappedsuddenly。
"Die!"sheflamed。"Die,ifItellyouthat!YousaidthismorningthatyouwoulddieifyouDIDN'Tknowyourname,andifyourpeoplewerehonorable。NowI'vegoneandfoundyouanamethatstandsforagesofhonor,amotherwholovedyouenoughtogointothefireanddieforyou,andthenicestkindofrelatives,andyouturnroundandsayyou'lldieoverthat!YOUJUSTTRYDYINGANDYOU'LL
GETAGOODSLAP!"
TheAngelstoodglaringathim。OnesecondFreckleslayparalyzedanddumbwithastonishment。ThenexttheIrishinhissoularoseaboveeverything。Alaughburstfromhim。TheterrifiedAngelcaughthiminherarmsandtriedtostiflethesound。Sheimploredandcommanded。Whenhewastooworntoutteranothersound,hiseyeslaughedsilently。
Afteralongtime,whenhewasquietandrested,theAngelcommencedtalkingtohimgently,andthistimeherbigeyes,humidwithtendernessandmellowwithhappiness,seemedasiftheycouldnotleavehisface。
"DearFreckles,"shewassaying,"acrossyourkneesthereisthefaceofthemotherwhowentintothefireforyou,andIknowthename——oldandfullofhonor——towhichyouwereborn。Dearheart,whichwillyouhavefirst?"
Freckleswasverytired;thebigdropsofperspirationrantogetheronhistemples;butthewatchingAngelcaughtthewordshislipsformed,"Memother!"
Sheliftedthelovelypicturedfaceandsetitinthenookofhisarm。
Frecklescaughtherhandanddrewherbesidehim,andtogethertheygazedatthepicturewhilethetearsslidovertheircheeks。
"Memother!Oh,memother!Canyoueverbeforgivingme?Oh,mebeautifullittlemother!"chantedFrecklesoverandoverinexaltedwonder,untilhewassocompletelyexhaustedthathislipsrefusedtoformthequestioninhiswearyeyes。
"Wait!"criedtheAngelwithinbornrefinement,forshecouldnomoreanswerthatquestionthanhecouldask。"Wait,Iwillwriteit!"
Shehurriedtothetable,caughtupthenurse'spencil,andonthebackofaprescriptiontabletscrawledit:"TerenceMaxwellO'More,DunderryHouse,CountyClare,Ireland。"
BeforeshehadfinishedcameFreckles'voice:"Angel,areyouhurrying?"
"Yes,"saidtheAngel;"Iam。Butthereisagooddealofit。Ihavetoputinyourhouseandcountry,sothatyouwillfeellocated。"
"Mehouse?"marveledFreckles。
"Ofcourse,"saidtheAngel。"Yourunclesaysyourgrandmotherleftyourfatherherdowerhouseandestate,becausesheknewhisfatherwouldcuthimoff。Yougetthat,andallyourshareofyourgrandfather'spropertybesides。Itisallsetoffforyouandwaiting。LordO'Moretoldmeso。IsuspectyouarericherthanMcLean,Freckles。"
Sheclosedhisfingersovertheslipandstraightenedhishair。
"Nowyouareallright,dearLimberlostguard,"shesaid。"Yougotosleepanddon'tthinkofathingbutjustpurejoy,joy,joy!
I'llkeepyourpeopleuntilyouwakeup。Youaretootiredtoseeanyoneelsejustnow!"
Frecklescaughtherskirtassheturnedfromhim。
"I'llgotosleepinfiveminutes,"hesaid,"ifyouwillbedoingjustonethingmoreforme。Sendforyourfather!Oh,Angel,sendforhimquick!HowwillIeverbewaitinguntilhecomes?"
OneinstanttheAngelstoodlookingathim。Thenextacrimsonwavedarklystainedherlovelyface。Herchinbeganaspasmodicquiveringandthetearssprangintohereyes。Herhandscaughtatherchestasifshewerestifling。Freckles'grasponhertighteneduntilhedrewherbesidehim。Heslippedhisarmaroundheranddrewherfacetohispillow。
"Don't,Angel;fortheloveofmercydon'tbedoingthat,"
heimplored。"Ican'tbebearingit。Tellme。Youmusttellme。"
TheAngelshookherhead。
"Thatain'tfair,Angel,"saidFreckles。"Youmademetellyouwhenitwasliketearingtheheartrawfrommebreast。Andyouwasformakingeverythingheaven——justheavenandnothingelseforme。
IfI'msomuchmorenowthanIwasanhourago,maybeIcanbethinkingofsomewaytofixthings。Youwillbetellingme?"hecoaxed,movinghischeekagainstherhair。
TheAngel'sheadmovedinnegation。Frecklesdidamomentofintentthinking。
"MaybeIcanbeguessing,"hewhispered。"Willyoubegivingmethreechances?"
Therewasthefaintestpossibleassent。
"Youdidn'twantmetobeknowingmename,"guessedFreckles。
TheAngel'sheadsprangfromthepillowandhertear-stainedfaceflamedwithoutragedindignation。
"Why,Ididtoo!"shecriedangrily。
"Onegone,"saidFrecklescalmly。"Youdidn'twantmetohaverelatives,ahome,andmoney。"
"Idid!"exclaimedtheAngel。"Didn'tIgomyself,allalone,intothecity,andfindthemwhenIwasafraidasdeath?Ididtoo!"
"Twogone,"saidFreckles。"Youdidn'twantthebeautifulestgirlintheworldtobetellingme——"
DownwenttheAngel'sfaceandaheavysobshookher。Freckles'
clasptightenedaroundhershoulders,whilehisface,initsconflictingemotions,wasastudy。Hewassostunnedandbewilderedbythemiraclethathadbeenperformedinbringingtolighthisnameandrelativesthathehadnostrengthleftforelaboratementalprocesses。Despiteallitmeanttohimtoknowhisnameatlast,andthathewasofhonorablebirth——knowledgewithoutwhichlifewasaneternaldisgraceandburdentheonethingthatwashammeringinFreckles'heartandbeatinginhisbrain,pastanyattemptedexpression,wasthefactthat,whilenamelessandpossiblyborninshame,theAngelhadtoldhimthatshelovedhim。
Hecouldfindnowordwithwhichtobegintovoicetheraptureofhisheartoverthat。Butifsheregrettedit——ifithadbeenathingdoneoutofherpityforhiscondition,orherfeelingofresponsibility,ifitkilledhimafterall,therewasonlyonethinglefttodo。NotforMcLean,notfortheBirdWoman,notfortheDuncanswouldFreckleshavedoneit——butfortheAngel——ifitwouldmakeherhappy——hewoulddoanything。
"Angel,"whisperedFreckles,withhislipsagainstherhair,"youhaven'tlearnedyourhistorybookverywell,orelseyou'veforgotten。"
"Forgottenwhat?"sobbedtheAngel。
"Forgottenabouttherealknight,Ladybird,"breathedFreckles。
"Don'tyouknowthat,ifanythinghappenedthatmadehisladysorry,arealknightjustsimplycouldn'tberememberingit?Angel,darlinglittleSwampAngel,youbelisteningtome。Therewasonenightonthetrail,onesolemn,grand,whitenight,thattherewasn'teveranyotherlikebeforeorsince,whenthedearBossputhisarmaroundmeandtoldmethathelovedme;butifyoucare,Angel,ifyoudon'twantitthatway,why,Iain'trememberingthatanyoneelseeverdid——notinmewholelife。"
TheAngelliftedherheadandlookedintothedepthsofFreckles'
honestgrayeyes,andtheymethersunwaveringly;butthepaininthemwaspitiful。
"Doyoumean,"shedemanded,"thatyoudon'trememberthatabrazen,forwardgirltoldyou,whenyouhadn'taskedher,thatshe"——theAngelchokedonitasecond,butshegaveagulpandbroughtitoutbravely——"thatshelovedyou?"
"No!"criedFreckles。"No!Idon'trememberanythingofthekind!"
Butallthesongbirdsofhissoulburstintomelodyoverthatonelittleclause:"Whenyouhadn'taskedher。"
"Butyouwill,"saidtheAngel。"Youmaylivetobeanold,oldman,andthenyouwill。"
"Iwillnot!"criedFreckles。"Howcanyouthinkit,Angel?"
"Youwon'tevenLOOKasifyouremember?"
"Iwillnot!"persistedFreckles。"I'llbeswearingtoitifyouwantmeto。Ifyouwasn'ttootiredtothinkthisthingoutstraight,you'dbeseeingthatIcouldn't——thatIjustsimplycouldn't!I'drathergiveitallupnowandgointoeternityalone,withouteverseeingasoulofmesameblood,ormehome,orhearinganothermancallmebythenameIwasbornto,thantorememberanythingthatwouldbehurtingyou,Angel。Ishouldthinkyou'dbeunderstandingthatitain'tnowayspossibleformetodoit。"
TheAngel'stear-stainedfaceflashedintodazzlingbeauty。
Ahalf-hystericallittlelaughbrokefromherheartandbubbledoverherlips。
"Oh,Freckles,forgiveme!"shecried。"I'vebeenthroughsomuchthatI'mscarcelymyself,orIwouldn'tbeherebotheringyouwhenyoushouldbesleeping。Ofcourseyoucouldn't!Iknewitallthetime!
Iwasjustscared!Iwasforgettingthatyouwereyou!You'retoogoodaknighttorememberathinglikethat。Ofcourseyouare!
Andwhenyoudon'tremember,why,thenit'sthesameasifitneverhappened。IwasalmostkilledbecauseI'dgoneandspoiledeverything,butnowitwillbeallright。Nowyoucangoonanddothingslikeothermen,andIcanhavesomeflowers,andletters,andmysweetheartcoming,andwhenyouareSURE,why,thenYOUcantellMEthings,can'tyou?Oh,Freckles,I'msoglad!Oh,I'msohappy!
It'sdearofyounottoremember,Freckles;perfectlydear!
It'snowonderIloveyouso。ThewonderwouldbeifIdidnot。
Oh,IshouldliketoknowhowI'mevergoingtomakeyouunderstandhowmuchIloveyou!"
Pillowandall,shecaughthimtoherbreastonelongsecond;thenshewasgone。
Freckleslaydazedwithastonishment。Atlasthisamazedeyessearchedtheroomforsomethingapproachingthehumantowhichhecouldappeal,andfallingonhismother'sportrait,hesetitbeforehim。
"Fortheloveoflife!Melittlemother,"hepanted,"didyouhearthat?Didyouhearit!Tellme,amIliving,oramIdeadandallheavencometruethisminute?Didyouhearit?"
Heshooktheframeinhisimpatienceatreceivingnoanswer。
"Youareonlyapicturedface,"hesaidatlast,"andofcourseyoucan'ttalk;butthesoulofyoumustbesomewhere,andsurelyinthishouryouarecloseenoughtobehearing。Tellme,didyouhearthat?
Ican'teverbetellingalivingsoul;butdarlinglittlemother,whogaveyourlifeformine,Icanalwaysbetalkingofittoyou!Everydaywe'lltalkitoverandtrytounderstandthemiracleofit。Tellme,areallwomenlikethat?WereyoulikemeSwampAngel?Ifyouwere,thenI'munderstandingwhymefatherfollowedacrosstheoceanandwentintothefire。"
CHAPTERXX
WhereinFrecklesreturnstotheLimberlost,andLordO'MoreSailsforIrelandWithoutHimFreckles'voiceceased,hiseyesclosed,andhisheadrolledbackfromexhaustion。LaterinthedayheinsistedonseeingLordandLadyO'More,buthefaintedbeforetheresemblanceofanothermantohim,andgaveallofhisfriendsaterriblefright。
Thenextmorning,theManofAffairs,withaheartfilledwithmisgivings,undertooktheinterviewonwhichFrecklesinsisted。
Hisfearswerewithoutcause。Freckleswasthesoulofhonorandsimplicity。
"Havetheybeentellingyouwhat'scometome?"heaskedwithoutevenwaitingforagreeting。
"Yes,"saidtheAngel'sfather。
"Doyouthinkyouhavetheveryworstofitcleartoyourunderstanding?"
UnderFreckles'earnesteyestheManofAffairsansweredsoberly:
"IthinkIhave,Mr。O'More。"
ThatwasthefirsttimeFrecklesheardhisnamefromthelipsofanother。Onesecondhelayovercome;thenext,tearsfilledhiseyes,andhereachedouthishand。ThentheAngel'sfatherunderstood,andheclaspedthathandandhelditinastrong,firmgrasp。
"Terence,myboy,"hesaid,"letmedothetalking。Icameherewiththeunderstandingthatyouwantedtoaskmeformyonlychild。
Ishouldlike,atthepropertime,toregardhermarriage,ifshehasfoundthemanshedesirestomarry,notaslosingallIhave,butasgainingamanonwhomIcandependtoloveasasonandtotakechargeofmyaffairsforherwhenIretirefrombusiness。
Bendallofyourenergiestowardrapidrecovery,andfromthishourunderstandthatmydaughterandmyhomeareyours。"
"You'renotforgettingthis?"
Frecklesliftedhisrightarm。
"Terence,I'msorrierthanIhavewordstoexpressaboutthat,"
saidtheManofAffairs。"It'sadamnablepity!Butifit'sformetochoosewhetherIgiveallIhaveleftinthisworldtoamanlackingahand,ortooneofthesegambling,tippling,immoralspendthriftsoftoday,withbothhandsandfeetofftheirsouls,andarottenspotinthecore,Ichooseyou;anditseemsthatmydaughterdoesthesame。Putwhatisleftyouofthatrightarmtothebestusesyoucaninthisworld,andneveragainmentionorfeelthatitisdefectivesolongasyoulive。Goodday,sir!"
"Oneminutemore,"saidFreckles。"YesterdaytheAngelwastellingmethattherewasmoneycomingtomefromtwosources。Shesaidthatmegrandmotherhadleftmefatherallofherfortuneandherhouse,becausesheknewthathisfatherwouldbecuttinghimoff,andalsothatmeunclehadsetasideformewhatwouldbemefather'sinterestinhisfather'sestate。
"Whateverthesumisthatmegrandmotherleftmefather,becauseshelovedhimandwantedhimtobehavingit,thatI'llbetaking。
'Twashersfromherfather,andshehadtherighttobegivingitasshechose。Anythingfromthemanthatknowinglyleftmefatherandmemothertogocoldandhungry,andintothefireinmisery,whenjustalittlewouldhavemadelifesobeautifultothem,andsavedmethiscrippledbody——moneythathewilledfrommewhenheknewIwasliving,ofhisbloodandoncharityamongstrangers,I
don'ttouch,notifIfreeze,starve,andburntoo!Ifthereain'tenoughbesidesthat,andIcan'tbeearningenoughtofixthingsfortheAngel——"
"Wearenotdiscussingmoney!"burstintheManofAffairs。
"Wedon'twantanyblood-money!Wehaveallweneedwithoutit。
Ifyoudon'tfeelrightandeasyoverit,don'tyoutouchacentofanyofit。"
"It'srightIshouldhavewhatmegrandmotherintindedformefather,andIwantit,"saidFreckles,"butI'ddiebeforeI'dtouchacentofmegrandfather'smoney!"
"Now,"saidtheAngel,"weareallgoinghome。WehavedoneallwecanforFreckles。Hispeoplearehere。Heshouldknowthem。Theyareveryanxioustobecomeacquaintedwithhim。We'llresignhimtothem。
Whenheiswell,why,thenhewillbeperfectlyfreetogotoIrelandorcometotheLimberlost,justashechooses。Wewillgoatonce。"
McLeanheldoutforaweek,andthenhecouldendureitnolonger。
HewashearthungryforFreckles。Communingwithhimselfinthelong,soundfulnightsoftheswamp,hehadlearnedtohisastonishmentthatforthepastyearhishearthadbeencirclingtheLimberlostwithFreckles。Hebegantowishthathehadnotlefthim。
Perhapstheboy——hisboybyfirstright,afterall——wasbeingneglected。
IftheBosshadbeenanervousoldwoman,hescarcelycouldhaveimaginedmorethingsthatmightbegoingwrong。
HestartedforChicago,loadedwithabigboxofgoldenrod,asters,fringedgentians,andcrimsonleaves,thattheAngelcarefullyhadgatheredfromFreckles'room,andalittle,longslenderpackage。
Hetraveledwithbiting,stingingjealousyinhisheart。Hewouldnotadmititeventohimself,buthewasunabletoremainlongerawayfromFrecklesandleavehimtothecareofLordO'More。
Inafewminutes'talk,whileMcLeanawaitedadmissiontoFreckles'
room,hislordshiphadchattedgeniallyofFreckles'rapidrecovery,ofhisdelightthathewasunspottedbyhisearlysurroundings,andhisdesiretovisittheLimberlostwithFrecklesbeforetheysailed;heexpressedthehopethathecouldprevailupontheAngel'sfathertoplaceherinhiswife'scareandhavehereducationfinishedinParis。HesaidtheywereanxioustodoalltheycouldtohelpbindFreckles'arrangementswiththeAngel,asbothheandLadyO'Moreregardedherasthemostpromisinggirltheyknew,andonewhocouldbefittedtofillthehighpositioninwhichFreckleswouldplaceher。
EverywordheutteredwaspungentwithbitternesstoMcLean。TheswamphadlostitsflavorwithoutFreckles;andyet,asLordO'Moretalked,McLeanferventlywishedhimselfintheheartofit。AsheenteredFreckles'roomhealmostlosthisbreath。Everythingwaschanged。
FreckleslaybesideawindowwherehecouldfollowLakeMichigan'sblueuntilthehorizondippedintoit。Hecouldseebigsoftclouds,white-cappedwaves,shimmeringsails,andpuffingsteamerstrailingbillowingbannersoflavenderandgrayacrossthesky。
Gullsandcurlewswheeledoverthewateranddippedtheirwingsinthefoam。Theroomwasfilledwitheveryluxurythattasteandmoneycouldintroduce。
AllthetanandsunburnhadbeenwashedfromFreckles'faceinsweatsofagony。Itwasasmooth,evenwhite,itsbrownriftscarcelyshowing。WhatthenursesandLadyO'MorehaddonetoFreckles'hairMcLeancouldnotguess,butitwasthemostbeautifulthatheeverhadseen。Fineasfloss,brightincolor,wavingandcrisp,itfellaroundthewhiteface。
Theyhadgottenhisarmsintoandhischestcoveredwithafinelyembroidered,pale-bluesilkshirt,withsoft,whitetieatthethroat。
Amongthemanychangesthathadtakenplaceduringhisabsence,thefactthatFreckleswasmostattractiveandbarelyescapedbeinghandsomeremainedalmostunnoticedbytheBoss,sogreatwashisastonishmentatseeingbothcuffsturnedbackandtherightarminview。Freckleswasusingthemaimedarmthatpreviouslyhealwayshadhidden。
"OhLord,sir,butI'mgladtoseeyou!"criedFreckles,almostrollingfromthebedashereachedtowardMcLean。"Tellmequick,istheAngelwellandhappy?CanmeLittleChickenspreadsixfeetofwingandsailtohismother?How'smenewfather,theBirdWoman,Duncans,andNellie——darlinglittlehigh-steppingNelie?
MeAuntAliceisgoingtochoosethehatjustassoonasI'mmendedenoughtobegoingwithher。Howareallthegang?Havetheyfoundanymoregoodtrees?I'vebeenthinkingalot,sir。IbelieveIcanfindothersnearthatlastone。MeAuntAlicethinksmaybeIcan,andUncleTerencesaysit'slikely。Golly,butthey'renice,ilegantpeople。ItellyouI'mproudtobesamebloodwiththem!
Comecloser,quick!Iwasgoingtodothisyesterday,andsomehowIjustfeltthatyou'dsurelybecomingtodayandIwaited。
I'mselectingtheAngel'sringstone。Theringsheorderedformeisfinishedandtheysentittokeepmecompany。See?It'sanemerald——justmecolor,LordO'Moresays。"
Frecklesflourishedhishand。
"Ain'tthatfine?Nevertooksomuchcomfortwithanythinginmelife。Everycoloroftheoldswampisinit。IaskedtheAngeltohavealittleshamrockleafcutonit,soeverytimeIsawitI'dbethinkingofthe`love,truth,andvalor'ofthatsongshewasteachingme。Ain'tthatabeautifulsong?SomeofthesedaysI'mgoingtomakeitecho。I'malittleafraidtobedoingitwithmevoiceyet,butmeheart'stuningawayoniteveryblessedhour。
Willyoubelookingatthesenow?"
FrecklestiltedatrayofunsetstonesfromPeacock'sthatwouldhaveransomedseveralvaluablekings。HeheldthemtowardMcLean,stirringthemwithhisrightarm。
"ItellyouI'mgladtoseeyou,sir"hesaid。"ItriedtotellmeunclewhatIwanted,butthisain'tforhimtobemixedupin,anyway,andIdon'tthinkImadeitcleartohim。Icouldn'tseemtosaythewordsIwanted。Icanbetellingyou,sir。"
McLean'sheartbegantothumpasalover's。
"Goon,Freckles,"hesaidassuringly。
"It'sthis,"saidFreckles。"ItoldhimthatIwouldpayonlythreehundreddollarsfortheAngel'sstone。I'mthinkingthatwithwhathehaslaidupforme,andthebignessofthingsthattheAngeldidforme,itseemslikeastingylittlesumtohim。IknowhethinksIshouldbegivingmuchmore,butIfeelasifIjusthadtobebuyingthatstonewithmoneyIearnedmeself;andthatisallI
havesavedofmewages。Idon'tmindpayingforthemuff,orthedrexingtable,orMrs。Duncan'sthings,fromthatothermoney,andlatertheAngelcanhaveeverylastcentofmegrandmother's,ifshe'lltakeit;butjustnow——oh,sir,can'tyouseethatIhavetobebuyingthisstonewithwhatIhaveinthebank?I'mfeelingthatIcouldn'tdoanyotherway,anddon'tyouthinktheAngelwouldratherhavethebeststoneIcanbuywiththemoneyIearnedmeselfthanafineronepaidforwithothermoney?"
"Inotherwords,Freckles,"saidtheBossinahuskyvoice,"youdon'twanttobuytheAngel'sringwithmoney。Youwanttogiveforityourfirstawfulfearoftheswamp。Youwanttopayforitwiththelonelinessandhearthungeryouhavesufferedthere,withlastwinter'sfreezingonthelineandthissummer'sburninginthesun。
Youwantittostandtoherforeveryhourinwhichyouriskedyourlifetofulfillyourcontracthonorably。Youwantthepriceofthatstonetobethefearsthathavechilledyourheart——thesweatandbloodofyourbody。"
Freckles'eyeswerefilledwithtearsandhisfacequiveringwithfeeling。
"DearMr。McLean,"hesaid,reachingwithacaressovertheBoss'sblackhairandhischeek。"DearBoss,that'swhyI'vewantedyouso。
Iknewyouwouldknow。Nowyouwillbelookingatthese?Idon'twantemeralds,becausethat'swhatshegaveme。"
Hepushedthegreenstonesintoalittleheapofrejectedones。
Thenhesingledoutallthepearls。
"Ain'ttheyprettythings?"hesaid。"I'llbegettinghersomeofthoselater。Theyarelikelilyfaces,turtle-headflowers,dewdropsintheshadeormoonlight;buttheyhaven'tthelifeinthemthatIwantinthestoneIgivetotheAngelrightnow。"
Frecklesheapedthepearlswiththeemeralds。Hestudiedthediamondsalongtime。
"Thesethingsaresofascinatingliketheyalmosttemptone,thoughtheyain'tquitetheproperthing,"hesaid。"I'vealwaysdearlylovedtobewatchingyours,sir。Imustgethersomeofthesebigones,too,someday。They'reliketheLimberlostinJanuary,whenit'sallice-coated,andthesunisinthewestandshinesthroughandmakesallyoucanseeofthewholeworldlooklikefireandice;butfireandiceain'tliketheAngel。"
Thediamondsjoinedtheemeraldsandpearls。Therewasleftalittleredheap,andFreckles'fingerstoucheditwithanewtenderness。Hiseyeswereflashing。
"I'mthinkinghere'smeAngel'sstone,"heexulted。"TheLimberlost,andmewithit,grewinmine;butit'sgoingtobloom,andherwithit,inthis!There'stheredofthewildpoppies,thecardinal-flowers,andthelittlebunchofcrushedfoxfirethatwefoundwheresheputittosaveme。There'sthelightofthecampfire,andthesunsettingoverSleepySnakeCreek。There'stheredofthebloodwewerewillingtogiveforeachother。It'slikeherlips,andlikethedropsthatdriedonherbeautifularmthatfirstday,andI'mthinkingitmustbelikethebrave,tender,clean,redheartofher。"
FrecklesliftedtherubytohislipsandhandedittoMcLean。
"I'llbesigningmechequeandyouhaveitset,"hesaid。"Iwantyoutodrawmemoneyandpayforitwiththoseverysamedollars,sir。"
AgaintheheartofMcLeantookhope。
"Freckles,mayIaskyousomething?"hesaid。
"Why,sure,"saidFreckles。"There'snothingyouwouldbeaskingthatitwouldn'tbegivingmejoytobetellingyou。"
McLean'seyestraveledtoFreckles'rightarmwithwhichhewasmovingthejewels。
"Oh,that!"criedFreckleswithalaugh。"You'rewantingtoknowwhereallthebitternessisgone?Wellsir,'twascarriedfrommesoul,heart,andbodyonthelipsofanAngel。Seemsthathurtwasnecessaryinthebeginningtomaketodaycometrue。Thewoundhadalwaysbeenraw,buttheAngelwashealingit。Ifshedoesn'tcare,Idon't。Medearnewfatherdoesn't,normeauntanduncle,andyouneverdid。WhyshouldIbefrettingallmelifeaboutwhatcan'tbehelped。Therealtruthis,thatsincewhathappenedtoitlastweek,I'msoeverlastinglyproudofitIcatchmeselfstickingitoutondisplayabit。"
FreckleslookedtheBossintheeyesandbegantolaugh。
"Wellthankheaven!"saidMcLean。
"Nowit'smeturn,"saidFreckles。"Idon'tknowasIoughttobeaskingyou,andyetIcan'tseeareasongoodenoughtokeepmefromit。It'sathingI'vehadonmemindeveryhoursinceI'vehadtimetostraightenthingsoutalittle。MayIbeaskingyouaquestion?"
McLeanreachedoverandtookFreckles'hand。Hisvoicewasshakenwithfeelingashereplied:"Freckles,youalmosthurtme。Willyouneverlearnhowmuchyouaretome——howhappyyoumakemeincomingtomewithanything,nomatterwhat?"
"Thenit'sthis,"saidFreckles,grippingthehandofMcLeanstrongly。
"Ifthisaccident,andallthat'scometomesince,hadneverhappened,wherewasityouhadplannedtosendmetoschool?
Whatwasityoumeantformetodo?"
"Why,Freckles,"answeredMcLean,"I'mscarcelypreparedtostatedefinitely。Myideaswereratherhazy。Ithoughtwewouldmakeabeginningandseewhichwaythingswent。IfiguredontakingyoutoGrandRapidsfirst,andputtingyouinthecareofmymother。
Ihadanideaitwouldbebesttosecureaprivatetutortocoachyouforayearortwo,untilyouwerereadytoenterAnnArborortheChicagoUniversityingoodshape。ThenIthoughtwe'dfinishinthiscountryatYaleorHarvard,andendwithOxford,togetagood,all-roundflavor。"
"Isthatall?"askedFreckles。
"No;that'sleavingthemusicout,"saidMcLean。"Iintendedtohaveyourvoicetestedbysomemaster,andifyoureallywereendowedforacareerasagreatmusician,andhadinclinationsthatway,Iwishedtohaveyoudropsomeofthecollegeworkandmakemusicyourchiefstudy。Finally,IwantedustotakeatripthroughEuropeandcleararoundthecircletogether"
"Andthenwhat?"queriedFrecklesbreathlessly。
"Why,then,"saidMcLean,"youknowthatmyheartishopelesslyinthewoods。Ineverwillquitthetimberbusinesswhilethereistimbertohandleandbreathinmybody。Ithoughtifyoudidn'tmakeaprofessionofmusic,andhadanyinclinationmyway,wewouldstretchthepartnershiponemoreandtakeyouintothefirm,placingyourworkwithme。Thoseplansmaysoundjumbledinthetelling,buttheyhavegrownsteadilyonme,Freckles,asyouhavegrowndeartome。"
FrecklesliftedanxiousandeagereyestoMcLean。
"Youtoldmeonceonthetrail,andagainwhenwethoughtthatI
wasdying,thatyoulovedme。Dothesethingsthathavecometomemakeanydifferenceinanywaywithyourfeeingtowardme?"
"None,"saidMcLean。"Howcouldthey,Freckles?Nothingcouldmakemeloveyoumore,andyouneverwilldoanythingthatwillmakemeloveyouless。"
"GlorybetoGod!"criedFreckles。"GlorytotheAlmighty!HurryandbetellingyourmotherI'mcoming!JustassoonasIcangetonmefeetI'llbetakingthatringtomeAngel,andthenI'llgotoGrandRapidsandbemakingmestartjustasyouplanned,onlythatIcanbepayingmeownway。WhenI'meducatedenough,we'llall——theAngelandherfather,theBirdWoman,you,andme——allofuswillgotogetherandseemehouseandmerelationsandbetakingthattrip。Whenwegetback,we'lladdO'MoretotheLumberCompany,andgolly,sir,butwe'llmakethingshum!Goodland,sir!
Don'tdothat!Why,Mr。McLean,dearBoss,dearfather,don'tbedoingthat!Whatisit?"
"Nothing,nothing!"boomedMcLean'sdeepbass;"nothingatall!"
Heabruptlyturned,andhurriedtothewindow。
"Thisisamightyfineview,"hesaid。"Lake'sbeautifulthismorning。NowonderChicagopeoplearesoproudoftheircity'slocationonitsshore。But,Freckles,whatisLordO'Moregoingtosaytothis?"
"Idon'tknow,"saidFreckles。"Iamgoingtobecutdeepifhecares,forhe'sbeenmorethangoodtome,andLadyAliceisnexttomeAngel。He'smademefeelmebloodandracemeownpossession。
She'stalkedtomebythehourofmefatherandmotherandmegrandmother。She'smadethemallthatrealIcanlayclaimtothemandfeelthattheyaremine。I'mverysorrytobehurtingthem,ifitwill,butitcan'tbechanged。NobodyeverputsthewidthoftheoceanbetweenmeandtheAngel。FromheretotheLimberlostisallIcanbebearingpeaceable。Iwanttheeducation,andthenIwanttoworkandlivehereinthecountrywhereIwasborn,andwheretheashesofmefatherandmotherrest。
"I'llbegladtoseeIreland,andgladespecialtoseethoselittlepeoplewhoaremykin,butIain'teverstayinglong。AllmeheartistheAngel's,andtheLimberlostiscallingeveryminute。
You'rethinking,sir,thatwhenIlookfromthatwindowIseethebeautifulwater,ain'tyou?I'mnot。
"Iseesoft,slowcloudsoozingacrosstheblue,mebigblackchickenshangingupthere,andagreatfeathersoftlyslidingdown。
Iseemightytrees,swingingvines,brightflowers,andalwaysmassesofthewildroses,withthewildrosefaceofmeLadybirdlookingthrough。Iseetheswalerocking,smellthesweetnessofthebloomingthings,andthedamp,muckyodoroftheswamp;andI
hearmebirdssing,mesquirrelsbark,therattlershiss,andthestepofWessnerorBlackJackcoming;andwhetherit'sthethingsthatIlovedorthethingsthatIfeared,it'sallapartoftheday。
"Meheart'sallmeSwampAngel's,andmeloveisallhers,andI
haveherandtheswampsoconfusedinmemindInevercanbeseparatingthem。WhenIlookather,Iseebluesky,thesunriftingthroughtheleavesandpinkandredflowers;andwhenI
lookattheLimberlostIseeapinkfacewithblueeyes,goldhair,andredlips,and,it'sthetruth,sir,they'remixedtillthey'reonetome!
"I'mafraiditwillbehurtingsome,butIhavethefeeingthatI
canbemakingmydearpeopleunderstand,sothattheywillbewillingtoletmecomebackhome。SendLadyO'MoretoputtheseflowersGodmadeintheplaceoftheseglass-houseilegancies,andpleasebecuttingthestringofthislittlepackagetheAngel'ssentme。"
AsFrecklesheldupthepackage,thelightsoftheLimberlostflashedfromtheemeraldonhisfinger。Onthecoverwasprinted:
"TotheLimberlostGuard!"Underitwasabig,crisp,iridescentblackfeather。
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