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  Julian'sfacedarkenedominously。
  "Thisconfirmsmyworstfears,"hesaid。"HaveyouhadanycommunicationwithLadyJanet?"
  Mercyrepliedbyshowinghimhisaunt'snote。Hereaditcarefullythrough。
  "DidInottellyou,"hesaid,"thatshewouldfindsomeexcuseforrefusingtohearyourconfession?Shebeginsbydelayingit,simplytogaintimeforsomethingelsewhichshehasitinhermindtodo。Whendidyoureceivethisnote?Soonafteryouwentupstairs?"
  "Aboutaquarterofanhourafter,aswellasIcanguess。"
  "Doyouknowwhathappeneddownhereafteryouleftus?"
  "HoracetoldmethatLadyJanethadofferedMissRoseberrytheuseofherboudoir。"
  "Anymore?"
  "Hesaidthatyouhadshownherthewaytotheroom。"
  "Didhetellyouwhathappenedafterthat?"
  "No。"
  "ThenImusttellyou。IfIcandonothingmoreinthisseriousstateofthings,Icanatleastpreventyourbeingtakenbysurprise。Inthefirstplace,itisrightyoushouldknowthatIhadamotiveforaccompanyingMissRoseberrytotheboudoir。Iwasanxiousforyoursaketomakesomeappealtoherbetterself——ifshehadanybetterselftoaddress。IownIhaddoubtsofmysuccess——judgingbywhatIhadalreadyseenofher。Mydoubtswereconfirmed。IntheordinaryintercourseoflifeIshouldmerelyhavethoughtheracommonplace,uninterestingwoman。SeeingherasIsawherwhilewewerealone——inotherwords,penetratingbelowthesurface——Ihavenever,inallmysadexperience,metwithsuchahopelesslynarrow,mean,andlownatureashers。Understanding,asshecouldnotfailtodo,whatthesuddenchangeinLadyJanet'sbehaviortowardherreallymeant,heroneideawastotakethecruelestpossibleadvantageofit。Sofarfromfeelinganyconsiderationforyou,shewasonlyadditionallyimbitteredtowardyou。Sheprotestedagainstyourbeingpermittedtoclaimthemeritofplacingherinherrightpositionherebyyourownvoluntaryavowalofthetruth。Sheinsistedonpubliclydenouncingyou,andonforcingLadyJanettodismissyou,unheard,beforethewholehousehold!'NowIcanhavemyrevenge!AtlastLadyJanetisafraidofme!'Thosewereherownwords——Iamalmostashamedtorepeatthem——those,onmyhonor,wereherownwords!Everypossiblehumiliationtobeheapedonyou;noconsiderationtobeshownforLadyJanet'sageandLadyJanet'sposition;nothing,absolutelynothing,tobeallowedtointerferewithMissRoseberry'svengeanceandMissRoseberry'striumph!Thereisthiswoman'sshamelessviewofwhatisduetoher,asstatedbyherselfintheplainestterms。Ikeptmytemper;IdidallIcouldtobringhertoabetterframeofmind。Imightaswellhavepleaded——Iwon'tsaywithasavage;savagesaresometimesaccessibletoremonstrance,ifyouknowhowtoreachthem——Imightaswellhavepleadedwithahungryanimaltoabstainfromeatingwhilefoodwaswithinitsreach。Ihadjustgivenupthehopelesseffortindisgust,whenLadyJanet'smaidappearedwithamessageforMissRoseberryfromhermistress:'Mylady'scompliments,ma'am,andshewillbegladtoseeyouatyourearliestconvenience,inherroom。'"
  Anothersurprise!GraceRoseberryinvitedtoaninterviewwithLadyJanet!Itwouldhavebeenimpossibletobelieveit,ifJulianhadnotheardtheinvitationgivenwithhisownears。
  "Sheinstantlyrose,"Julianproceeded。"'Iwon'tkeepherladyshipwaitingamoment,'shesaid;'showmetheway。'Shesignedtothemaidtogooutoftheroomfirst,andthenturnedroundandspoketomefromthedoor。Idespairofdescribingtheinsolentexultationofhermanner。Icanonlyrepeatherwords:'ThisisexactlywhatIwanted!IhadintendedtoinsistonseeingLadyJanet:shesavesmethetrouble。Iaminfinitelyobligedtoher。'Withthatshenoddedtome,andclosedthedoor。Ihavenotseenher,Ihavenotheardofher,since。ForallIknow,shemaybestillwithmyaunt,andHoracemayhavefoundhertherewhenheenteredtheroom。"
  "WhatcanLadyJanethavetosaytoher?"Mercyasked,eagerly。
  "Itisimpossibleeventoguess。Whenyoufoundmeinthedining-roomIwasconsideringthatveryquestion。IcannotimaginethatanyneutralgroundcanexistonwhichitispossibleforLadyJanetandthiswomantomeet。InherpresentframeofmindshewillinallprobabilityinsultLadyJanetbeforeshehasbeenfiveminutesintheroom。IownIamcompletelypuzzled。TheoneconclusionIcanarriveatisthatthenotewhichmyauntsenttoyou,theprivateinterviewwithMissRoseberrywhichhasfollowed,andthesummonstoHoracewhichhassucceededinitsturn,arealllinksinthesamechainofevents,andarealltendingtothatrenewedtemptationagainstwhichIhavealreadywarnedyou。"
  Mercyheldupherhandforsilence。Shelookedtowardthedoorthatopenedonthehall;hadsheheardafootstepoutside?No。Allwasstill。NotasignyetofHorace'sreturn。
  "Oh!"sheexclaimed,"whatwouldInotgivetoknowwhatisgoingonupstairs!"
  "Youwillsoonknowitnow,"saidJulian。"Itisimpossiblethatourpresentuncertaintycanlastmuchlonger。"
  Heturnedaway,intendingtogobacktotheroominwhichshehadfoundhim。Lookingathersituationfromaman'spointofview,henaturallyassumedthatthebestservicehecouldnowrendertoMercywouldbetoleavehertoprepareherselffortheinterviewwithHorace。Beforehehadtakenthreestepsawayfromhersheshowedhimthedifferencebetweenthewoman'spointofviewandtheman's。Theideaofconsideringbeforehandwhatsheshouldsayneverenteredhermind。Inherhorrorofbeingleftbyherselfatthatcriticalmoment,sheforgoteveryotherconsideration。EventhewarningremembranceofHorace'sjealousdistrustofJulianpassedawayfromher,forthemoment,ascompletelyasifitneverhadaplaceinhermemory。"Don'tleaveme!"shecried。"Ican'twaitherealone。Comeback——comeback!"
  Sheroseimpulsivelywhileshespoke,asiftofollowhimintothedining-room,ifhepersistedinleavingher。
  AmomentaryexpressionofdoubtcrossedJulian'sfaceasheretracedhisstepsandsignedtohertobeseatedagain。Couldshebedependedonheaskedhimselftosustainthecomingtestofherresolution,whenshehadnotcourageenoughtowaitforeventsinaroombyherself?Julianhadyettolearnthatawoman'scourageriseswiththegreatnessoftheemergency。Askhertoaccompanyyouthroughafieldinwhichsomeharmlesscattlehappentobegrazing,anditisdoubtful,inninecasesoutoften,ifshewilldoit。Askher,asoneofthepassengersinashiponfire,tohelpinsettinganexampleofcomposuretotherest,anditiscertain,inninecasesoutoften,thatshewilldoit。AssoonasJulianhadtakenachairnearher,Mercywascalmagain。
  "Areyousureofyourresolution?"heasked。
  "Iamcertainofit,"sheanswered,"aslongasyoudon'tleavemebymyself。"
  Thetalkbetweenthemdroppedthere。Theysattogetherinsilence,withtheireyesfixedonthedoor,waitingforHoracetocomein。
  Afterthelapseofafewminutestheirattentionwasattractedbyasoundoutsideinthegrounds。Acarriageofsomesortwasplainlyaudibleapproachingthehouse。
  Thecarriagestopped;thebellrang;thefrontdoorwasopened。Hadavisitorarrived?Novoicecouldbeheardmakinginquiries。Nofootstepsbuttheservant'sfootstepscrossedthehall。Alongpausefollowed,thecarriageremainingatthedoor。Insteadofbringingsomeonetothehouse,ithadapparentlyarrivedtotakesomeoneaway。
  Thenexteventwasthereturnoftheservanttothefrontdoor。Theylistenedagain。Againnosecondfootstepwasaudible。Thedoorwasclosed;theservantrecrossedthehall;thecarriagewasdrivenaway。Judgingbysoundsalone,noonehadarrivedatthehouse,andnoonehadleftthehouse。
  JulianlookedatMercy。"Doyouunderstandthis?"heasked。
  Shesilentlyshookherhead。
  "Ifanypersonhasgoneawayinthecarriage,"Julianwenton,"thatpersoncanhardlyhavebeenaman,orwemusthaveheardhiminthehall。"
  TheconclusionwhichhercompanionhadjustdrawnfromthenoiselessdepartureofthesupposedvisitorraisedasuddendoubtinMercy'smind。
  "Goandinquire!"shesaid,eagerly。
  Julianlefttheroom,andreturnedagain,afterabriefabsence,withsignsofgraveanxietyinhisfaceandmanner。
  "ItoldyouIdreadedthemosttriflingeventsthatwerepassingaboutus,"hesaid。"Anevent,whichisfarfrombeingtrifling,hasjusthappened。Thecarriagewhichweheardapproachingalongthedriveturnsouttohavebeenacabsentforfromthehouse。Thepersonwhohasgoneawayinit——"
  "Isawoman,asyousupposed?"
  "Yes。"
  Mercyroseexcitedlyfromherchair。
  "Itcan'tbeGraceRoseberry?"sheexclaimed。
  "ItisGraceRoseberry。"
  "Hasshegoneawayalone?"
  "Alone——afteraninterviewwithLadyJanet。"
  "Didshegowillingly?"
  "Sheherselfsenttheservantforthecab。"
  "Whatdoesitmean?"
  "Itisuselesstoinquire。Weshallsoonknow。"
  Theyresumedtheirseats,waiting,astheyhadwaitedalready,withtheireyesonthelibrarydoor。
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  LADYJANETATBAY。
  THEnarrativeleavesJulianandMercyforawhile,and,ascendingtotheupperregionsofthehouse,followsthemarchofeventsinLadyJanet'sroom。
  Themaidhaddeliveredhermistress'snotetoMercy,andhadgoneawayagainonherseconderrandtoGraceRoseberryinherboudoir。LadyJanetwasseatedatherwriting-table,waitingfortheappearanceofthewomanwhomshehadsummonedtoherpresence。Asinglelampdifuseditsmildlightoverthebooks,pictures,andbustsroundher,leavingthefurtherendoftheroom,inwhichthebedwasplaced,almostlostinobscurity。Theworksofartwereallportraits;thebookswereallpresentationcopiesfromtheauthors。ItwasLadyJanet'sfancytoassociateherbedroomwithmemorialsofthevariouspersonswhomshehadknowninthelongcourseofherlife——allofthemmoreorlessdistinguished,mostofthem,bythistime,gatheredwiththedead。
  Shesatnearherwriting-table,lyingbackinhereasy-chair——thelivingrealizationofthepicturewhichJulian'sdescriptionhaddrawn。HereyeswerefixedonaphotographiclikenessofMercy,whichwassoraiseduponalittlegilteaselastoenablehertocontemplateitunderthefulllightofthelamp。Thebright,mobileoldfacewasstrangelyandsadlychanged。Thebrowwasfixed;themouthwasrigid;thewholefacewouldhavebeenlikeamask,moldedinthehardestformsofpassiveresistanceandsurpressedrage,butforthelightandlifestillthrownoveritbytheeyes。Therewassomethingunutterablytouchinginthekeenhungeringtendernessofthelookwhichtheyfixedontheportrait,intensifiedbyanunderlyingexpressionoffondandpatientreproach。ThedangerwhichJuliansowiselydreadedwasintherestoftheface;thelovewhichhehadsotrulydescribedwasintheeyesalone。Theystillspokeofthecruellyprofanedaffectionwhichhadbeentheoneimmeasurablejoy,theoneinexhaustiblehopeofLadyJanet'sclosinglife。Thebrowexpressednothingbutherobstinatedeterminationtostandbythewreckofthatjoy,torekindlethedeadashesofthathope。Thelipswereonlyeloquentofherunflinchingresolutiontoignorethehatefulpresentandtosavethesacredpast。"Mymydutytorequestaninterview,ifyouhadnotsentyourmaidtoinvitemeuphere。"
  "Youwouldhavefeltityourdutytorequestaninterview?"LadyJanetrepeated,veryquietly。"Why?"
  ThetoneinwhichthatonelastwordwasspokenembarrassedGraceattheoutset。ItestablishedasgreatadistancebetweenLadyJanetandherselfasifshehadbeenliftedinherchairandconveyedbodilytotheotherendoftheroom。
  "Iamsurprisedthatyourladyshipshouldnotunderstandme,"shesaid,strugglingtoconcealherconfusion。"Especiallyafteryourkindofferofyourownboudoir。"
  LadyJanetremainedperfectlyunmoved。"Idonotunderstandyou,"sheanswered,justasquietlyasever。
  Grace'stempercametoherassistance。Sherecoveredtheassurancewhichhadmarkedherfirstappearanceonthescene。
  "Inthatcase,"sheresumed,"Imustenterintoparticulars,injusticetomyself。Icanplacebutoneinterpretationontheextraordinarychangeinyourladyship'sbehaviortomedownstairs。Theconductofthatabominablewomanhasatlastopenedyoureyestothedeceptionthathasbeenpracticedonyou。Forsomereasonofyourown,however,youhavenotyetchosentorecognizemeopenly。Inthispainfulpositionsomethingisduetomyownself-respect。Icannot,andwillnot,permitMercyMerricktoclaimthemeritofrestoringmetomyproperplaceinthishouse。AfterwhatIhavesuffereditisquiteimpossibleformetoendurethat。Ishouldhaverequestedaninterviewifyouhadnotsentformefortheexpresspurposeofclaimingthisperson'simmediateexpulsionfromthehouse。IclaimitnowasaproperconcessiontoMe。WhateveryouorMr。JulianGraymaydo,Iwillnottamelypermithertoexhibitherselfasaninterestingpenitent。Itisreallyalittletoomuchtohearthisbrazenadventuressappointherowntimeforexplainingherself。Itistoodeliberatelyinsultingtoseehersailoutoftheroom——withaclergymanoftheChurchofEnglandopeningthedoorforher——asifshewaslayingmeunderanobligation!Icanforgivemuch,LadyJanet——includingthetermsinwhichyouthoughtitdecenttoordermeoutofyourhouse。Iamquitewillingtoaccepttheofferofyourboudoir,astheexpressiononyourpartofabetterframeofmind。ButevenChristianCharityhasitslimits。Thecontinuedpresenceofthatwretchunderyourroofis,youwillpermitmetoremark,notonlyamonumentofyourownweakness,butaperfectlyinsufferableinsulttoMe。"
  Thereshestoppedabruptly——notforwantofwords,butforwantofalistener。
  LadyJanetwasnotevenpretendingtoattendtoher。LadyJanet,withadeliberaterudenessentirelyforeigntoherusualhabits,wascomposedlybusyingherselfinarrangingthevariouspapersscatteredaboutthetable。Someshetiedtogetherwithlittlemorselsofstring;somesheplacedunderpaper-weights;someshedepositedinthefantasticpigeon-holesofalittleJapanesecabinet——workingwithaplacidenjoymentofherownorderlyoccupation,andperfectlyunaware,toalloutwardappearance,thatanysecondpersonwasintheroom。Shelookedup,withherpapersinbothhands,whenGracestopped,andsaid,quietly,"Haveyoudone?"
  "Isyourladyship'spurposeinsendingformetotreatmewithstudiedrudeness?"Graceretorted,angrily。
  "Mypurposeinsendingforyouistosaysomethingassoonasyouwillallowmetheopportunity。"
  TheimpenetrablecomposureofthatreplytookGracecompletelybysurprise。Shehadnoretortready。Insheerastonishmentshewaitedsilentlywithhereyesrivetedonthemistressofthehouse。
  LadyJanetputdownherpapers,andsettledherselfcomfortablyintheeasy-chair,preparatorytoopeningtheinterviewonherside。
  "ThelittlethatIhavetosaytoyou,"shebegan,"maybesaidinaquestion。AmIrightinsupposingthatyouhavenopresentemployment,andthatalittleadvanceinmoneydelicatelyofferedwouldbeveryacceptabletoyou?"
  "Doyoumeantoinsultme,LadyJanet?"
  "Certainlynot。Imeantoaskyouaquestion。"
  "Yourquestionisaninsult。"
  "Myquestionisakindness,ifyouwillonlyunderstanditasitisintended。Idon'tcomplainofyournotunderstandingit。Idon'tevenholdyouresponsibleforanyoneofthemanybreachesofgoodmannerswhichyouhavecommittedsinceyouhavebeeninthisroom。Iwashonestlyanxioustobeofsomeservicetoyou,andyouhaverepelledmyadvances。Iamsorry。Letusdropthesubject。"
  Expressingherselfinthemostperfecttemperinthoseterms,LadyJanetresumedthearrangementofherpapers,andbecameunconsciousoncemoreofthepresenceofanysecondpersonintheroom。
  Graceopenedherlipstoreplywiththeutmostintemperanceofanangrywoman,andthinkingbetterofit,controlledherself。ItwasplainlyuselesstotaketheviolentwaywithLadyJanetRoy。Herageandhersocialpositionwereenoughofthemselvestorepelanyviolence。Sheevidentlyknewthat,andtrustedtoit。Graceresolvedtomeettheenemyontheneutralgroundofpoliteness,asthemostpromisinggroundthatshecouldoccupyunderpresentcircumstances。
  "IfIhavesaidanythinghasty,Ibegtoapologizetoyourladyship,"shebegan。"MayIaskifyouronlyobjectinsendingformewastoinquireintomypecuniaryaffairs,withaviewtoassistingme?"
  "That,"saidLadyJanet,"wasmyonlyobject。"
  "YouhadnothingtosaytomeonthesubjectofMercyMerrick?"
  "Nothingwhatever。IamwearyofhearingofMercyMerrick。Haveyouanymorequestionstoaskme?"
  "Ihaveonemore。"
  "Yes?"
  "IwishtoaskyourladyshipwhetheryouproposetorecognizemeinthepresenceofyourhouseholdasthelateColonelRoseberry'sdaughter?"
  "Ihavealreadyrecognizedyouasaladyinembarrassedcircumstances,whohaspeculiarclaimsonmyconsiderationandforbearance。Ifyouwishmetorepeatthosewordsinthepresenceoftheservantsabsurdasitis,Iamreadytocomplywithyourrequest。"
  Grace'stemperbegantogetthebetterofherprudentresolutions。
  "LadyJanet!"shesaid;"thiswon'tdo。Imustrequestyoutoexpressyourselfplainly。Youtalkofmypeculiarclaimsonyourforbearance。Whatclaimsdoyoumean?"
  "Itwillbepainfultobothofusifweenterintodetails,"repliedLadyJanet。"Praydon'tletusenterintodetails。"
  "Iinsistonit,madam。"
  "Praydon'tinsistonit。"
  Gracewasdeaftoremonstrance。
  "Iaskyouinplainwords,"shewenton,"doyouacknowledgethatyouhavebeendeceivedbyanadventuresswhohaspersonatedme?Doyoumeantorestoremetomyproperplaceinthishouse?"
  LadyJanetreturnedtothearrangementofherpapers。
  "Doesyourladyshiprefusetolistentome?"
  LadyJanetlookedupfromherpapersasblandlyasever。
  "Ifyoupersistinreturningtoyourdelusion,"shesaid,"youwillobligemetopersistinreturningtomypapers。"
  "Whatismydelusion,ifyouplease?"
  "Yourdelusionisexpressedinthequestionsyouhavejustputtome。Yourdelusionconstitutesyourpeculiarclaimonmyforbearance。Nothingyoucansayordowillshakemyforbearance。WhenIfirstfoundyouinthedining-room,Iactedmostimproperly;Ilostmytemper。Ididworse;Iwasfoolishenoughandimprudentenoughtosendforapoliceofficer。Ioweyoueverypossibleatonementafflictedasyouarefortreatingyouinthatcruelmanner。Iofferedyoutheuseofmyboudoir,aspartofmyatonement。Isentforyou,inthehopethatyouwouldallowmetoassistyou,aspartofmyatonement。Youmaybehaverudelytome,youmayspeakinthemostabusivetermsofmyadopteddaughter;Iwillsubmittoanything,aspartofmyatonement。Solongasyouabstainfromspeakingononepainfulsubject,Iwilllistentoyouwiththegreatestpleasure。WheneveryoureturntothatsubjectIshallreturntomypapers。"
  GracelookedatLadyJanetwithanevilsmile。
  "Ibegintounderstandyourladyship,"shesaid。"Youareashamedtoacknowledgethatyouhavebeengrosslyimposedupon。Youronlyalternative,ofcourse,istoignoreeverythingthathashappened。Praycountonmyforbearance。Iamnotatalloffended——Iammerelyamused。Itisnoteverydaythataladyofhighrankexhibitsherselfinsuchapositionasyourstoanobscurewomanlikeme。Yourhumaneconsiderationformedates,Ipresume,fromthetimewhenyouradopteddaughtersetyoutheexample,byorderingthepoliceofficeroutoftheroom?"
  LadyJanet'scomposurewasproofevenagainstthisassaultonit。ShegravelyacceptedGrace'sinquiryasaquestionaddressedtoherinperfectgoodfaith。
  "Iamnotatallsurprised,"shereplied,"tofindthatmyadopteddaughter'sinterferencehasexposedhertomisrepresentation。Sheoughttohaveremonstratedwithmeprivatelybeforesheinterfered。Butshehasonefault——sheistooimpulsive。Ihavenever,inallmyexperience,metwithsuchawarm-heartedpersonassheis。Alwaystooconsiderateofothers;alwaystooforgetfulofherself!Themereappearanceofthepoliceofficerplacedyouinasituationtoappealtohercompassion,andherimpulsescarriedherawayasusual。Myfault!Allmyfault!"
  Gracechangedhertoneoncemore。ShewasquickenoughtodiscernthatLadyJanetwasamatchforherwithherownweapons。
  "Wehavehadenoughofthis,"shesaid。"Itistimetobeserious。YouradopteddaughterasyoucallherisMercyMerrick,andyouknowit。"
  LadyJanetreturnedtoherpapers。
  "IamGraceRoseberry,whosenameshehasstolen,andyouknowthat。"
  LadyJanetwentonwithherpapers。
  Gracegotupfromherchair。
  "Iacceptyoursilence,LadyJanet,"shesaid,"asanacknowledgmentofyourdeliberateresolutiontosuppressthetruth。Youareevidentlydeterminedtoreceivetheadventuressasthetruewoman;andyoudon'tscrupletofacetheconsequencesofthatproceeding,bypretendingtomyfacetobelievethatIammad。Iwillnotallowmyselftobeimpudentlycheatedoutofmyrightsinthisway。Youwillhearfrommeagainmadam,whentheCanadianmailarrivesinEngland。"
  Shewalkedtowardthedoor。ThistimeLadyJanetanswered,asreadilyandasexplicitlyasitwaspossibletodesire。
  "Ishallrefusetoreceiveyourletters,"shesaid。
  Gracereturnedafewsteps,threateningly。
  "Mylettersshallbefollowedbymywitnesses,"sheproceeded。
  "Ishallrefusetoreceiveyourwitnesses。"
  "Refuseatyourperil。Iwillappealtothelaw。"
  LadyJanetsmiled。
  "Idon'tpretendtomuchknowledgeofthesubject,"shesaid;"butIshouldbesurprisedindeedifIdiscoveredthatyouhadanyclaimonmewhichthelawcouldenforce。However,letussupposethatyoucansetthelawinaction。YouknowaswellasIdothattheonlymotivepowerwhichcandothatis——money。Iamrich;fees,costs,andalltherestofitaremattersofnosortofconsequencetome。MayIaskifyouareinthesameposition?"
  ThequestionsilencedGrace。Sofarasmoneywasconcerned,shewasliterallyattheendofherresources。HeronlyfriendswerefriendsinCanada。Afterwhatshehadsaidtohimintheboudoir,itwouldbequiteuselesstoappealtothesympathiesofJulianGray。Inthepecuniarysense,andinoneword,shewasabsolutelyincapableofgratifyingherownvindictivelongings。AndtheresatthemistressofMablethorpeHouse,perfectlywellawareofit。
  LadyJanetpointedtotheemptychair。
  "Supposeyousitdownagain?"shesuggested。"ThecourseofourinterviewseemstohavebroughtusbacktothequestionthatIaskedyouwhenyoucameintomyroom。Insteadofthreateningmewiththelaw,supposeyouconsidertheproprietyofpermittingmetobeofsomeusetoyou。Iaminthehabitofassistingladiesinembarrassedcircumstances,andnobodyknowsofitbutmysteward——whokeepstheaccounts——andmyself。Oncemore,letmeinquireifalittleadvanceofthepecuniarysortdelicatelyofferedwouldbeacceptabletoyou?"
  Gracereturnedslowlytothechairthatshehadleft。Shestoodbyit,withonehandgraspingthetoprail,andwithhereyesfixedinmockingscrutinyonLadyJanet'sface。
  "Atlastyourladyshipshowsyourhand,"shesaid。"Hush-money!"
  "Youwillsendmebacktomypapers,"rejoinedLadyJanet。"Howobstinateyouare!"
  Grace'shandclosedtighterandtighterroundtherailofthechair。Withoutwitnesses,withoutmeans,withoutsomuchasarefuge——thankstoherowncoarsecrueltiesoflanguageandconduct——inthesympathiesofothers,thesenseofherisolationandherhelplessnesswasalmostmaddeningatthatfinalmoment。Awomanoffinersensibilitieswouldhaveinstantlylefttheroom。Grace'simpenetrablyhardandnarrowmindimpelledhertomeettheemergencyinaverydifferentway。Alastbasevengeance,towhichLadyJanethadvoluntarilyexposedherself,wasstillwithinherreach。"Forthepresent,"shethought,"thereisbutonewayofbeingevenwithyourladyship。Icancostyouasmuchaspossible。"
  "Praymakesomeallowancesforme,"shesaid。"Iamnotobstinate——Iamonlyalittleawkwardatmatchingtheaudacityofaladyofhighrank。Ishallimprovewithpractice。Myownlanguageis,asIampainfullyaware,onlyplainEnglish。Permitmetowithdrawit,andtosubstituteyours。Whatadvanceisyourladyshipdelicatelypreparedtoofferme?"
  LadyJanetopenedadrawer,andtookouthercheck-book。
  Themomentofreliefhadcomeatlast!Theonlyquestionnowlefttodiscusswasevidentlythequestionofamount。LadyJanetconsideredalittle。Thequestionofamountwastohermindinsomesortaquestionofconscienceaswell。HerloveforMercyandherloathingforGrace,herhorrorofseeingherdarlingdegradedandheraffectionprofanedbyapublicexposure,hadhurriedher——therewasnodisputingit——intotreatinganinjuredwomanharshly。HatefulasGraceRoseberrymightbe,herfatherhadlefther,inhislastmoments,withLadyJanet'sfullconcurrence,toLadyJanet'scare。ButforMercyshewouldhavebeenreceivedatMablethorpeHouseasLadyJanet'scompanion,withasalaryofonehundredpoundsayear。Ontheotherhand,howlongwithsuchatemperasshehadrevealedwouldGracehaveremainedintheserviceofherprotectress?Shewouldprobablyhavebeendismissedinafewweeks,withayear'ssalarytocompensateher,andwitharecommendationtosomesuitableemployment。Whatwouldbeafaircompensationnow?LadyJanetdecidedthatfiveyears'salaryimmediatelygiven,andfutureassistancerenderedifnecessary,wouldrepresentafitremembranceofthelateColonelRoseberry'sclaims,andaliberalpecuniaryacknowledgmentofanyharshnessoftreatmentwhichGracemighthavesustainedatherhands。Atthesametime,andforthefurthersatisfyingofherownconscience,shedeterminedtodiscoverthesumwhichGraceherselfwouldconsidersufficientbythesimpleprocessofmakingGraceherselfproposetheterms。
  "Itisimpossibleformetomakeyouanoffer,"shesaid,"forthisreason——yourneedofmoneywilldependgreatlyonyourfutureplans。Iamquiteignorantofyourfutureplans。"
  "Perhapsyourladyshipwillkindlyadviseme?"saidGrace,satirically。
  "Icannotaltogetherundertaketoadviseyou,"LadyJanetreplied。"IcanonlysupposethatyouwillscarcelyremaininEngland,whereyouhavenofriends。Whetheryougotolawwithmeornot,youwillsurelyfeelthenecessityofcommunicatingpersonallywithyourfriendsinCanada。AmIright?"
  Gracewasquitequickenoughtounderstandthisasitwasmeant。Properlyinterpreted,theanswersignified——"Ifyoutakeyourcompensationinmoney,itisunderstood,aspartofthebargainthatyoudon'tremaininEnglandtoannoyme。"
  "Yourladyshipisquiteright,"shesaid。"IshallcertainlynotremaininEngland。Ishallconsultmyfriends——and,"sheadded,mentally,"gotolawwithyouafterward,ifIpossiblycan,withyourownmoney!"
  "YouwillreturntoCanada,"LadyJanetproceeded;"andyourprospectstherewillbe,probably,alittleuncertainatfirst。Takingthisintoconsideration,atwhatamountdoyouestimate,inyourownmind,thepecuniaryassistancewhichyouwillrequire?"
  "MayIcountonyourladyship's,kindnesstocorrectmeifmyownignorantcalculationsturnouttobewrong?"Graceasked,innocently。
  Hereagainthewords,properlyinterpreted,hadaspecialsignificationoftheirown:"Itisstipulated,onmypart,thatIputmyselfuptoauction,andthatmyestimateshallberegulatedbyyourladyship'shighestbid。"Thoroughlyunderstandingthestipulation,LadyJanetbowed,andwaitedgravely。
  Gravely,onherside,Gracebegan。
  "IamafraidIshouldwantmorethanahundredpounds,"shesaid。
  LadyJanetmadeherfirstbid。"Ithinksotoo。"
  "More,perhaps,thantwohundred?"
  LadyJanetmadehersecondbid。"Probably。"
  "Morethanthreehundred?Fourhundred?Fivehundred?"
  LadyJanetmadeherhighestbid。"Fivehundredpoundswilldo,"shesaid。
  Inspiteofherself,Grace'srisingcolorbetrayedherungovernableexcitement。Fromherearliestchildhoodshehadbeenaccustomedtoseeshillingsandsixpencescarefullyconsideredbeforetheywerepartedwith。Shehadneverknownherfathertopossesssomuchasfivegoldensovereignsathisowndisposalunencumberedbydebtinallherexperienceofhim。Theatmosphereinwhichshehadlivedandbreathedwastheall-stiflingoneofgenteelpoverty。TherewassomethinghorribleinthegreedyeagernessofhereyesastheywatchedLadyJanet,toseeifshewasreallysufficientlyinearnesttogiveawayfivehundredpoundssterlingwithastrokeofherpen。
  LadyJanetwrotethecheckinafewseconds,andpusheditacrossthetable。
  Grace'shungryeyesdevouredthegoldenline,"Paytomyselforbearerfivehundredpounds,"andverifiedthesignaturebeneath,"JanetRoy。"Oncesureofthemoneywhenevershechosetotakeit,thenativemeannessofhernatureinstantlyasserteditself。Shetossedherhead,andletthechecklieonthetable,withanoveractedappearanceofcaringverylittlewhethershetookitornot。
  "YourladyshipisnottosupposethatIsnapatyourcheck,"shesaid。
  LadyJanetleanedbackinherchairandclosedhereyes。TheverysightofGraceRoseberrysickenedher。HermindfilledsuddenlywiththeimageofMercy。Shelongedtofeasthereyesagainonthatgrandbeauty,tofillherearsagainwiththemelodyofthatgentlevoice。
  "Irequiretimetoconsider——injusticetomyownself-respect,"Gracewenton。
  LadyJanetwearilymadeasign,grantingtimetoconsider。
  "Yourladyship'sboudoiris,Ipresume,stillatmydisposal?"
  LadyJanetsilentlygrantedtheboudoir。
  "Andyourladyship'sservantsareatmyorders,ifIhaveoccasiontoemploythem?"
  LadyJanetsuddenlyopenedhereyes。"Thewholehouseholdisatyourorders,"shecried,furiously。"Leaveme!"
  Gracewasfarfrombeingoffended。Ifanything,shewasgratified——therewasacertaintriumphinhavingstungLadyJanetintoanopenoutbreakoftemper。Sheinsistedforthwithonanothercondition。
  "Intheeventofmydecidingtoreceivethecheck,"shesaid,"Icannot,consistentlywithmyownself-respect,permitittobedeliveredtomeotherwisethaninclosed。Yourladyshipwillifnecessarybesokindastoincloseit。Good-evening。"
  Shesaunteredtothedoor,lookingfromsidetoside,withanairofsupremedisparagement,atthepricelesstreasuresofartwhichadornedthewalls。HereyesdroppedsuperciliouslyonthecarpetthedesignofafamousFrenchpainter,asifherfeetcondescendedinwalkingoverit。Theaudacitywithwhichshehadenteredtheroomhadbeenmarkedenough;itshranktonothingbeforetheinfinitelysuperiorproportionsoftheinsolencewithwhichsheleftit。
  TheinstantthedoorwasclosedLadyJanetrosefromherchair。Recklessofthewintrychillintheouterair,shethrewopenoneofthewindows。"Pah!"sheexclaimed,withashudderofdisgust,"theveryairoftheroomistaintedbyher!"
  Shereturnedtoherchair。Hermoodchangedasshesatdownagain——herheartwaswithMercyoncemore。"Oh,mylove!"shemurmured"howlowIhavestooped,howmiserablyIhavedegradedmyself——andallforYou!"Thebitternessoftheretrospectwasunendurable。Theinbredforceofthewoman'snaturetookrefugefromitinanoutburstofdefianceanddespair。"Whatevershehasdone,thatwretchdeservesit!Notalivingcreatureinthishouseshallsayshehasdeceivedme。Shehasnotdeceivedme——shelovesme!WhatdoIcarewhethershehasgivenmehertruenameornot!Shehasgivenmehertrueheart。WhatrighthadJuliantoplayuponherfeelingsandpryintohersecrets?Mypoor,tempted,torturedchild!Iwon'thearherconfession。Notanotherwordshallshesaytoanylivingcreature。Iammistress——Iwillforbiditatonce!"Shesnatchedasheetofnotepaperfromthecase;hesitated,andthrewitfromheronthetable。"Whynotsendformydarling?"shethought。"Whywrite?"Shehesitatedoncemore,andresignedtheidea。"No!Ican'ttrustmyself!Idaren'tseeheryet!"
  Shetookupthesheetofpaperagain,andwrotehersecondmessagetoMercy。Thistimethenotebeganfondlywithafamiliarformofaddress。
  "MYDEARCHILD——Ihavehadtimetothinkandcomposemyselfalittle,sinceIlastwrote,requestingyoutodefertheexplanationwhichyouhadpromisedme。Ialreadyunderstandandappreciatethemotiveswhichledyoutointerfereasyoudiddownstairs,andInowaskyoutoentirelyabandontheexplanation。Itwill,Iamsure,bepainfultoyouforreasonsofyourownintowhichIhavenowishtoinquiretoproducethepersonofwhomyouspoke,andasyouknowalready,Imyselfamwearyofhearingofher。Besides,thereisreallynoneednowforyoutoexplainanything。Thestrangerwhosevisitsherehavecausedussomuchpainandanxietywilltroubleusnomore。SheleavesEnglandofherownfreewill,afteraconversationwithmewhichhasperfectlysucceededincomposingandsatisfyingher。Notawordmore,mydear,tome,ortomynephew,ortoanyotherhumancreature,ofwhathashappenedinthedining-roomto-day。Whenwenextmeet,letitbeunderstoodbetweenusthatthepastishenceforthandforeverburiedtooblivion。Thisisnotonlytheearnestrequest——itis,ifnecessary,thepositivecommand,ofyourmotherandfriend,JANETROY。
  "P。S——IshallfindopportunitiesbeforeyouleaveyourroomofspeakingseparatelytomynephewandtoHoraceHolmcroft。Youneeddreadnoembarrassment,whenyounextmeetthem。Iwillnotaskyoutoanswermynoteinwriting。Sayyestothemaidwhowillbringittoyou,andIshallknowweunderstandeachother。"
  Aftersealingtheenvelopewhichinclosedtheselines,LadyJanetaddressedit,asusual,to"MissGraceRoseberry。"Shewasjustrisingtoringthebell,whenthemaidappearedwithamessagefromtheboudoir。Thewoman'stonesandlooksshowedplainlythatshehadbeenmadetheobjectofGrace'sinsolentself-assertionaswellashermistress。
  "Ifyouplease,mylady,thepersondownstairswishes——"
  LadyJanet,frowningcontemptuously,interruptedthemessageattheoutset。"Iknowwhatthepersondownstairswishes。Shehassentyouforaletterfromme?"
  "Yes,mylady。"
  "Anythingmore?"
  "Shehassentoneofthemen-servants,mylady,foracab。Ifyourladyshiphadonlyheardhowshespoketohim!"
  LadyJanetintimatedbyasignthatshewouldrathernothear。Sheatonceinclosedthecheckinanundirectedenvelope。
  "Takethattoher,"shesaid,"andthencomebacktome。"
  DismissingGraceRoseberryfromallfurtherconsideration,LadyJanetsat,withherlettertoMercyinherhand,reflectingonherposition,andontheeffortswhichitmightstilldemandfromher。Pursuingthistrainofthought,itnowoccurredtoherthataccidentmightbringHoraceandMercytogetheratanymoment,andthat,inHorace'spresentframeofmind,hewouldcertainlyinsistontheveryexplanationwhichitwastheforemostinterestofherlifetosuppress。Thedreadofthisdisasterwasinfullpossessionofherwhenthemaidreturned。
  "WhereisMr。Holmcroft?"sheasked,themomentthewomanenteredtheroom。
  "Isawhimopenthelibrarydoor,mylady,justnow,onmywayupstairs。"
  "Washealone?"
  "Yes,mylady。"
  "Gotohim,andsayIwanttoseehimhereimmediately。"
  Themaidwithdrewonherseconderrand。LadyJanetroserestlessly,andclosedtheopenwindow。HerimpatientdesiretomakesureofHoracesocompletelymasteredherthatsheleftherroom,andmetthewomaninthecorridoronherreturn。ReceivingHorace'smessageofexcuse,sheinstantlysentbacktheperemptoryrejoinder,"Saythathewillobligemetogotohim,ifbepersistsinrefusingtocometome。And,stay!"sheadded,rememberingtheundeliveredletter。"SendMissRoseberry'smaidhere;Iwanther。"
  Leftaloneagain,LadyJanetpacedonceortwiceupanddownthecorridor——thengrewsuddenlywearyofthesightofit,andwentbacktoherroom。Thetwomaidsreturnedtogether。Oneofthem,havingannouncedHorace'ssubmission,wasdismissed。TheotherwassenttoMercy'sroomwithLadyJanet'sletter。Inaminuteortwothemessengerappearedagain,withthenewsthatshehadfoundtheroomempty。
  "HaveyouanyideawhereMissRoseberryis?"
  "No,mylady。"
  LadyJanetreflectedforamoment。IfHoracepresentedhimselfwithoutanyneedlessdelay,theplaininferencewouldhethatshehadsucceededinseparatinghimfromMercy。Ifhisappearancewassuspiciouslydeferred,shedecidedonpersonallysearchingforMercyinthereceptionroomsonthelowerfloorofthehouse。
  "Whathaveyoudonewiththeletter?"sheasked。
  "IleftitonMissRoseberry'stable,mylady。"
  "Verywell。Keepwithinhearingofthebell,incaseIwantyouagain。"
  AnotherminutebroughtLadyJanet'ssuspensetoanend。Sheheardthewelcomesoundofaknockatherdoorfromaman'shand。Horacehurriedlyenteredtheroom。
  "Whatisityouwantwithme,LadyJanet?"heinquired,notverygraciously。
  "Sitdown,Horace,andyoushallhear。"
  Horacedidnotaccepttheinvitation。"Excuseme,"hesaid,"ifImentionthatIamratherinahurry。"
  "Whyareyouinahurry?"
  "IhavereasonsforwishingtoseeGraceassoonaspossible。"
  "AndIhavereasons,"LadyJanetrejoined,"forwishingtospeaktoyouaboutGracebeforeyouseeher;seriousreasons。Sitdown。"
  Horacestarted。"Seriousreasons?"herepeated。"Yousurpriseme。"
  "IshallsurpriseyoustillmorebeforeIhavedone"
  TheireyesmetasLadyJanetansweredinthoseterms。Horaceobservedsignsofagitationinher,whichhenownoticedforthefirsttime。Hisfacedarkenedwithanexpressionofsullendistrust——andhetookthechairinsilence。
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  LADYJANET'SLETTER。
  THEnarrativeleavesLadyJanetandHoraceHolmcrofttogether,andreturnstoJulianandMercyinthelibrary。
  Anintervalpassed——alonginterval,measuredbytheimpatientreckoningofsuspense——afterthecabwhichhadtakenGraceRoseberryawayhadleftthehouse。Theminutesfollowedeachother;andstillthewarningsoundofHorace'sfootstepswasnotheardonthemarblepavementofthehall。Bycommonthoughunexpressedconsent,JulianandMercyavoidedtouchingupontheonesubjectonwhichtheywerenowbothinterestedalike。WiththeirthoughtsfixedsecretlyinvainspeculationonthenatureoftheinterviewwhichwasthentakingplaceinLadyJanet'sroom,theytriedtospeakontopicsindifferenttobothofthem——tried,andfailed,andtriedagain。Inalastandlongestpauseofsilencebetweenthem,thenexteventhappened。Thedoorfromthehallwassoftlyandsuddenlyopened。
  WasitHorace?No——notevenyet。ThepersonwhohadopenedthedoorwasonlyMercy'smaid。
  "Mylady'slove,miss;andwillyoupleasetoreadthisdirectly?"
  Givinghermessageinthoseterms,thewomanproducedfromthepocketofherapronLadyJanet'ssecondlettertoMercy,withastripofpaperoddlypinnedroundtheenvelope。Mercydetachedthepaper,andfoundontheinnersidesomelinesinpencil,hurriedlywritteninLadyJanet'shand。Theyranthus。
  "Don'tloseamomentinreadingmyletter。Andmindthis,whenH。returnstoyou——meethimfirmly:saynothing。"
  EnlightenedbythewarningwordswhichJulianhadspokentoher,Mercywasatnolosstoplacetherightinterpretationonthosestrangelines。Insteadofimmediatelyopeningtheletter,shestoppedthemaidatthelibrarydoor。Julian'ssuspicionofthemosttriflingeventsthatweretakingplaceinthehousehadfounditswayfromhismindtohers。"Wait!"shesaid。"Idon'tunderstandwhatisgoingonupstairs;Iwanttoaskyousomething。"
  Thewomancameback——notverywillingly。
  "HowdidyouknowIwashere?"Mercyinquired。
  "Ifyouplease,miss,herladyshiporderedmetotakethelettertoyousomelittletimesince。Youwerenotinyourroom,andIleftitonyourtable。"
  "Iunderstandthat。Buthowcameyoutobringtheletterhere?"
  "Myladyrangforme,miss。BeforeIcouldknockatherdoorshecameoutintothecorridorwiththatmorselofpaperinherhand——"
  "Soastokeepyoufromenteringherroom?"
  "Yes,miss。Herladyshipwroteonthepaperinagreathurry,andtoldmetopinitroundtheletterthatIhadleftinyourroom。Iwastotakethembothtogethertoyou,andtoletnobodyseeme。'YouwillfindMissRoseberryinthelibrary'herladyshipsays,'andrun,run,run!thereisn'tamomenttolose!'Thosewereherownwords,miss。"
  "DidyouhearanythingintheroombeforeLadyJanetcameoutandmetyou?"
  Thewomanhesitated,andlookedatJulian。
  "IhardlyknowwhetherIoughttotellyou,miss。"
  Julianturnedawaytoleavethelibrary。Mercystoppedhimbyamotionofherhand。
  "YouknowthatIshallnotgetyouintoanytrouble,"shesaidtothemaid。"AndyoumayspeakquitesafelybeforeMr。JulianGray。"
  Thusre-assured,themaidspoke。
  "Toownthetruth,miss,IheardMr。Holmcroftinmylady'sroom。Hisvoicesoundedasifhewasangry。Imaysaytheywerebothangry——Mr。Holmcroftandmylady。"SheturnedtoJulian。"Andjustbeforeherladyshipcameout,sir,Iheardyourname,asifitwasyoutheywerehavingwordsabout。Ican'tsayexactlywhatitwas;Ihadn'ttimetohear。AndIdidn'tlisten,miss;thedoorwasajar;andthevoicesweresoloudnobodycouldhelphearingthem。"
  Itwasuselesstodetainthewomananylonger。Havinggivenherleavetowithdraw,MercyturnedtoJulian。
  "Whyweretheyquarrelingaboutyou?"sheasked。
  Julianpointedtotheunopenedletterinherhand。
  "Theanswertoyourquestionmaybethere,"hesaid。"Readtheletterwhileyouhavethechance。AndifIcanadviseyou,saysoatonce。"
  Withastrangereluctancesheopenedtheenvelope。WithasinkingheartshereadthelinesinwhichLadyJanet,as"motherandfriend,"commandedherabsolutelytosuppresstheconfessionwhichshehadpledgedherselftomakeinthesacredinterestsofjusticeandtruth。Alowcryofdespairescapedher,asthecruelcomplicationinherpositionrevealeditselfinallitsunmeritedhardship。"Oh,LadyJanet,LadyJanet!"shethought,"therewasbutonetrialmoreleftinmyhardlot——anditcomestomefromyou!"
  ShehandedthelettertoJulian。Hetookitfromherinsilence。Hispalecomplexionturnedpalerstillashereadit。Hiseyesrestedonhercompassionatelyashehandeditback。
  "Tomymind,"hesaid,"LadyJanetherselfsetsallfurtherdoubtatrest。HerlettertellsmewhatshewantedwhenshesentforHorace,andwhymynamewasmentionedbetweenthem。"
  "Tellme!"criedMercy,eagerly。
  Hedidnotimmediatelyanswerher。Hesatdownagaininthechairbyherside,andpointedtotheletter。
  "HasLadyJanetshakenyourresolution?"heasked。
  "Shehasstrengthenedmyresolution,"Mercyanswered。"Shehasaddedanewbitternesstomyremorse。"
  Shedidnotmeanitharshly,butthereplysoundedharshlyinJulian'sears。Itstirredthegenerousimpulses,whichwerethestrongestimpulsesinhisnature。HewhohadoncepleadedwithMercyforcompassionateconsiderationforherselfnowpleadedwithherforcompassionateconsiderationforLadyJanet。Withpersuasivegentlenesshedrewalittlenearer,andlaidhishandonherarm。
  "Don'tjudgeherharshly,"hesaid。"Sheiswrong,miserablywrong。Shehasrecklesslydegradedherself;shehasrecklesslytemptedyou。Still,isitgenerous——isitevenjust——toholdherresponsiblefordeliberatesin?Sheisatthecloseofherdays;shecanfeelnonewaffection;shecanneverreplaceyou。Viewherpositioninthatlight,andyouwillseeasIseethatitisnobasemotivewhichhasledherastray。Thinkofherwoundedheartandherwastedlife——andsaytoyourselfforgivingly,Shelovesme!"
  Mercy'seyesfilledwithtears。
  "Idosayit!"sheanswered。"Notforgivingly——itisIwhohaveneedofforgiveness。IsayitgratefullywhenIthinkofher——IsayitwithshameandsorrowwhenIthinkofmyself。"
  Hetookherhandforthefirsttime。Helooked,guiltlesslylooked,atherdowncastface。Hespokeashehadspokenatthememorableinterviewbetweenthemwhichhadmadeanewwomanofher。
  "Icanimaginenocruelertrial,"hesaid,"thanthetrialthatisnowbeforeyou。Thebenefactresstowhomyouoweeverythingasksnothingfromyoubutyoursilence。Thepersonwhomyouhavewrongedisnolongerpresenttostimulateyourresolutiontospeak。HoracehimselfunlessIamentirelymistakenwillnotholdyoutotheexplanationthatyouhavepromised。Thetemptationtokeepyourfalsepositioninthishouseis,Idonotscrupletosay,allbutirresistible。Sisterandfriend!canyoustilljustifymyfaithinyou?Willyoustillownthetruth,withoutthebasefearofdiscoverytodriveyoutoit?"
  Sheliftedherhead,withthesteadylightofresolutionshiningagaininhergrand,grayeyes。Herlow,sweetvoiceansweredhim,withoutafalteringnoteinit,"Iwill!"
  "Youwilldojusticetothewomanwhomyouhavewronged——unworthyassheis;powerlessassheistoexposeyou?"
  "Iwill!"
  "Youwillsacrificeeverythingyouhavegainedbythefraudtothesacreddutyofatonement?Youwillsufferanything——eventhoughyouoffendthesecondmotherwhohaslovedyouandsinnedforyou——ratherthansufferthedegradationofyourself?"
  Herhandclosedfirmlyonhis。Again,andforthelasttime,sheanswered,"Iwill!"
  Hisvoicehadnottrembledyet。Itfailedhimnow。Hisnextwordswerespokeninfaintwhisperingtones——tohimself;nottoher。
  "ThankGodforthisday!"hesaid。"IhavebeenofsomeservicetooneofthenoblestofGod'screatures!"
  Somesubtleinfluence,ashespoke,passedfromhishandtohers。Ittrembledthroughhernerves;itentwineditselfmysteriouslywiththefinestsensibilitiesinhernature;itsoftlyopenedherhearttoafirstvaguesurmisingofthedevotionthatshehadinspiredinhim。Afaintglowofcolor,lovelyinitsfaintness,stoleoverherfaceandneck。Herbreathingquickenedtremblingly。Shedrewherhandawayfromhim,andsighedwhenshehadreleasedit。
  Herosesuddenlytohisfeetandlefther,withoutawordoralook,walkingslowlydownthelengthoftheroom。Whenheturnedandcamebacktoher,hisfacewascomposed;hewasmasterofhimselfagain。
  Mercywasthefirsttospeak。SheturnedtheconversationfromherselfbyrevertingtotheproceedingsinLadyJanet'sroom。
  "YouspokeofHoracejustnow,"shesaid,"intermswhichsurprisedme。Youappearedtothinkthathewouldnotholdmetomyexplanation。IsthatoneoftheconclusionswhichyoudrawfromLadyJanet'sletter?"
  "Mostassuredly,"Juliananswered。"YouwillseetheconclusionasIseeitifwereturnforamomenttoGraceRoseberry'sdeparturefromthehouse。"
  Mercyinterruptedhimthere。"Canyouguess,"sheasked,"howLadyJanetprevaileduponhertogo?"
  "Ihardlyliketoownit,"saidJulian。"ThereisanexpressionintheletterwhichsuggeststomethatLadyJanethasofferedhermoney,andthatshehastakenthebribe。"
  "Oh,Ican'tthinkthat!"
  "LetusreturntoHorace。MissRoseberryonceoutofthehouse,butoneseriousobstacleisleftinLadyJanet'sway。ThatobstacleisHoraceHolmcroft。"
  "HowisHoraceanobstacle?"
  "Heisanobstacleinthissense。Heisunderanengagementtomarryyouinaweek'stime;andLadyJanetisdeterminedtokeephimassheisdeterminedtokeepeveryoneelseinignoranceofthetruth。Shewilldothatwithoutscruple。Buttheinbredsenseofhonorinherisnotutterlysilencedyet。Shecannot,shedarenot,letHoracemakeyouhiswifeunderthefalseimpressionthatyouareColonelRoseberry'sdaughter。Youseethesituation?Ontheonehand,shewon'tenlightenhim。Ontheotherhand,shecannotallowhimtomarryyoublindfold。Inthisemergencywhatisshetodo?ThereisbutonealternativethatIcandiscover。ShemustpersuadeHoraceorshemustirritateHoraceintoactingforhimself,andbreakingofftheengagementonhisownresponsibility。"
  Mercystoppedhim。"Impossible!"shecried,warmly。"Impossible!"
  "Lookagainatherletter,"Julianrejoined。"Ittells,youplainlythatyouneedfearnoembarrassmentwhenyounextmeetHorace。Ifwordsmeananything,thosewordsmeanthathewillnotclaimfromyoutheconfidencewhichyouhavepromisedtoreposeinhim。Onwhatconditionisitpossibleforhimtoabstainfromdoingthat?Ontheoneconditionthatyouhaveceasedtorepresentthefirstandforemostinterestofhislife。"
  Mercystillheldfirm。"YouarewrongingLadyJanet,"shesaid。
  Juliansmiledsadly。
  "Trytolookatit,"heanswered,"fromLadyJanet'spointofview。Doyousupposesheseesanythingderogatorytoherinattemptingtobreakoffthemarriage?Iwillanswerforit,shebelievessheisdoingyouakindness。Inonesenseitwouldbeakindnesstospareyoutheshameofahumiliatingconfession,andtosaveyoupossiblyfrombeingrejectedtoyourfacebythemanyoulove。Inmyopinion,thethingisdonealready。Ihavereasonsofmyownforbelievingthatmyauntwillsucceedfarmoreeasilythanshecouldanticipate。Horace'stemperwillhelpher。"
  Mercy'smindbegantoyieldtohim,inspiteofherself。
  "WhatdoyoumeanbyHorace'stemper?"sheinquired。
  "Mustyouaskmethat?"hesaid,drawingbackalittlefromher。
  "Imust。"
  "ImeanbyHorace'stemper,Horace'sunworthydistrustoftheinterestthatIfeelinyou。"
  Sheinstantlyunderstoodhim。Andmorethanthat,shesecretlyadmiredhimforthescrupulousdelicacywithwhichhehadexpressedhimself。Anothermanwouldnothavethoughtofsparingherinthatway。Anothermanwouldhavesaid,plainly,"Horaceisjealousofme。"
  Juliandidnotwaitforhertoanswerhim。Heconsideratelywenton。
  "ForthereasonthatIhavejustmentioned,"hesaid,"Horacewillbeeasilyirritatedintotakingacoursewhich,inhiscalmermoments,nothingwouldinducehimtoadopt。UntilIheardwhatyourmaidsaidtoyouIhadthoughtforyoursakeofretiringbeforehejoinedyouhere。NowIknowthatmynamehasbeenintroduced,andhasmademischiefupstairs,IfeelthenecessityforyoursakeagainofmeetingHoraceandhistemperfacetofacebeforeyouseehim。Letme,ifIcan,preparehimtohearyouwithoutanyangryfeelinginhismindtowardyou。Doyouobjecttoretiretothenextroomforafewminutesintheeventofhiscomingbacktothelibrary?"
  Mercy'scourageinstantlyrosewiththeemergency。Sherefusedtoleavethetwomentogether。
  "Don'tthinkmeinsensibletoyourkindness,"shesaid。"IfIleaveyouwithHoraceImayexposeyoutoinsult。Irefusetodothat。Whatmakesyoudoubthiscomingback?"
  "Hisprolongedabsencemakesmedoubtit,"Julianreplied。"Inmybelief,themarriageisbrokenoff。HemaygoasGraceRoseberryhasgone。Youmayneverseehimagain。"
  Theinstanttheopinionwasuttered,itwaspracticallycontradictedbythemanhimself。Horaceopenedthelibrarydoor。
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  THECONFESSION
  HEstoppedjustinsidethedoor。HisfirstlookwasforMercy;hisissecondlookwasforJulian。
  "Iknewit!"hesaid,withanassumptionofsardoniccomposure。"IfIcouldonlyhavepersuadedLadyJanettobet,Ishouldhavewonahundredpounds。"HeadvancedtoJulian,withasuddenchangefromironytoanger。"Wouldyouliketohearwhatthebetwas?"heasked。
  "Ishouldpreferseeingyouabletocontrolyourselfinthepresenceofthislady,"Juliananswered,quietly。
  "IofferedtolayLadyJanettwohundredpoundstoone,"Horaceproceeded,"thatIshouldfindyouhere,makinglovetoMissRoseberrybehindmyback。"
  MercyinterferedbeforeJuliancouldreply。
  "Ifyoucannotspeakwithoutinsultingoneofus,"shesaid,"permitmetorequestthatyouwillnotaddressyourselftoMr。JulianGray。"
  Horacebowedtoherwithamockeryofrespect。
  "Praydon'talarmyourself——Iampledgedtobescrupulouslyciviltobothofyou,"hesaid。"LadyJanetonlyallowedmetoleaveheronconditionofmypromisingtobehavewithperfectpoliteness。WhatelsecanIdo?Ihavetwoprivilegedpeopletodealwith——aparsonandawoman。Theparson'sprofessionprotectshim,andthewoman'ssexprotectsher。Youhavegotmeatadisadvantage,andyoubothofyouknowit。IbegtoapologizeifIhaveforgottentheclergyman'sprofessionandthelady'ssex。"
  "Youhaveforgottenmorethanthat,"saidJulian。"Youhaveforgottenthatyouwerebornagentlemanandbredamanofhonor。SofarasIamconcerned,Idon'taskyoutorememberthatIamaclergyman——Iobtrudemyprofessiononnobody——Ionlyaskyoutorememberyourbirthandyourbreeding。Itisquitebadenoughtocruellyandunjustlysuspectanoldfriendwhohasneverforgottenwhatheowestoyouandtohimself。Butitisstillmoreunworthyofyoutoacknowledgethosesuspicionsinthehearingofawomanwhomyourownchoicehasdoublyboundyoutorespect。"
  Hestopped。Thetwoeyedeachotherforamomentinsilence。
  ItwasimpossibleforMercytolookatthem,asshewaslookingnow,withoutdrawingtheinevitablecomparisonbetweenthemanlyforceanddignityofJulianandthewomanishmaliceandirritabilityofHorace。Alastfaithfulimpulseofloyaltytowardthemantowhomshehadbeenbetrothedimpelledhertopartthem,beforeHoracehadhopelesslydegradedhimselfinherestimationbycontrastwithJulian。
  "Youhadbetterwaittospeaktome,"shesaidtohim,"untilwearealone。"
  "Certainly,"Horaceansweredwithasneer,"ifMr。JulianGraywillpermitit。"
  MercyturnedtoJulian,withalookwhichsaidplainly,"Pityusboth,andleaveus!"
  "Doyouwishmetogo?"heasked。
  "Addtoallyourotherkindnessestome,"sheanswered。"Waitformeinthatroom。"
  Shepointedtothedoorthatledintothedining-room。Julianhesitated。
  "YoupromisetoletmeknowitifIcanbeofthesmallestservicetoyou?"hesaid。
  "Yes,yes!"Shefollowedhimashewithdrew,andadded,rapidly,inawhisper,"Leavethedoorajar!"
  Hemadenoanswer。AsshereturnedtoHoraceheenteredthedining-room。Theoneconcessionhecouldmaketoherhedidmake。Heclosedthedoorsonoiselesslythatnotevenherquickhearingcoulddetectthathehadshutit。
  MercyspoketoHorace,withoutwaitingtolethimspeakfirst。
  "Ihavepromisedyouanexplanationofmyconduct,"shesaid,inaccentsthattrembledalittleinspiteofherself。"Iamreadytoperformmypromise。"
  "Ihaveaquestiontoaskyoubeforeyoudothat,"herejoined。"Canyouspeakthetruth?"
  "Iamwaitingtospeakthetruth。"
  "Iwillgiveyouanopportunity。AreyouorareyounotinlovewithJulianGray?"
  "Yououghttobeashamedtoaskthequestion!"
  "Isthatyouronlyanswer?"
  "Ihaveneverbeenunfaithfultoyou,Horace,eveninthought。IfIhadnotbeentruetoyou,shouldIfeelmypositionasyouseeIfeelitnow?"
  Hesmiledbitterly。"Ihavemyownopinionofyourfidelityandofhishonor,"hesaid。"Youcouldn'tevensendhimintothenextroomwithoutwhisperingtohimfirst。Nevermindthatnow。AtleastyouknowthatJulianGrayisinlovewithyou。"
  "Mr。JulianGrayhasneverbreathedawordofittome。"
  "Amancanshowawomanthathelovesher,withoutsayingitinwords。"
  Mercy'spowerofendurancebegantofailher。NotevenGraceRoseberryhadspokenmoreinsultinglytoherofJulianthanHoracewasspeakingnow。"WhoeversaysthatofMr。JulianGray,lies!"sheanswered,warmly。
  "ThenLadyJanetlies,"Horaceretorted。
  "LadyJanetneversaidit!LadyJanetisincapableofsayingit!"
  "Shemaynothavesaiditinsomanywords;butsheneverdenieditwhenIsaidit。IremindedherofthetimewhenJulianGrayfirstheardfrommethatIwasgoingtomarryyou:hewassooverwhelmedthathewasbarelycapableofbeingciviltome。LadyJanetwaspresent,andcouldnotdenyit。Iaskedherifshehadobserved,sincethen,signsofaconfidentialunderstandingbetweenyoutwo。Shecouldnotdenythesigns。Iaskedifshehadeverfoundyoutwotogether。Shecouldnotdenythatshehadfoundyoutogether,thisveryday,undercircumstanceswhichjustifiedsuspicion。Yes!yes!Lookasangryasyoulike!youdon'tknowwhathasbeengoingonupstairs。LadyJanetisbentonbreakingoffourengagement——andJulianGrayisatthebottomofit。"
  AstoJulian,Horacewasutterlywrong。ButastoLadyJanet,heechoedthewarningwordswhichJulianhimselfhadspokentoMercy。Shewasstaggered,butshestillheldtoherownopinion。"Idon'tbelieveit,"shesaid,firmly。