Hislipshadsaidit——nothers!Hehadgivenherthename。
"'MercyMerrick'isanEnglishname?"pursuedIgnatiusWetzel,withhiseyessteadilyfixedonher。"Isitnotso?"
TheholdonhermindofthepastassociationwithJulianGraybegantorelax。Onepresentandpressingquestionnowpossesseditselfoftheforemostplaceinherthoughts。ShouldshecorrecttheerrorintowhichtheGermanhadfallen?Thetimehadcome——tospeak,andassertherownidentity;ortobesilent,andcommitherselftothefraud。
HoraceHolmcroftenteredtheroomagainatthemomentwhenSurgeonWetzel'sstaringeyeswerestillfastenedonher,waitingforherreply。
"Ihavenotoverratedmyinterest,"hesaid,pointingtoalittleslipofpaperinhishand。"Hereisthepass。Haveyougotpenandink?Imustfilluptheform。"
Mercypointedtothewritingmaterialsonthetable。Horaceseatedhimself,anddippedthepenintheink。
"Praydon'tthinkthatIwishtointrudemyselfintoyouraffairs,"hesaid。"Iamobligedtoaskyouoneortwoplainquestions。Whatisyourname?"
Asuddentremblingseizedher。Shesupportedherselfagainstthefootofthebed。Herwholefutureexistencedependedonheranswer。Shewasincapableofutteringaword。
IgnatiusWetzelstoodherfriendforonce。Hiscroakingvoicefilledtheemptygapofsilenceexactlyattherighttime。Hedoggedlyheldthehandkerchiefunderhereyes。Heobstinatelyrepeated:"MercyMerrickisanEnglishname。Isitnotso?"
HoraceHolmcroftlookedupfromthetable。"MercyMerrick?"hesaid。"WhoisMercyMerrick?"
SurgeonWetzelpointedtothecorpseonthebed。
"Ihavefoundthenameonthehandkerchief,"hesaid。"Thislady,itseems,hadnotcuriosityenoughtolookforthenameofherowncountrywoman。"HemadethatmockingallusiontoMercywithatonewhichwasalmostatoneofsuspicion,andalookwhichwasalmostalookofcontempt。Herquicktemperinstantlyresentedthediscourtesyofwhichshehadbeenmadetheobject。Theirritationofthemoment——sooftendothemosttriflingmotivesdeterminethemostserioushumanactions——decidedheronthecoursethatsheshouldpursue。Sheturnedherbackscornfullyontherudeoldman,andlefthiminthedelusionthathehaddiscoveredthedeadwoman'sname。Horacereturnedtothebusinessoffillinguptheform。
"Pardonmeforpressingthequestion,"hesaid。"YouknowwhatGermandisciplineisbythistime。Whatisyourname?"
Sheansweredhimrecklessly,defiantly,withoutfairlyrealizingwhatshewasdoinguntilitwasdone。
"GraceRoseberry,"shesaid。
Thewordswerehardlyoutofhermouthbeforeshewouldhavegiveneverythingshepossessedintheworldtorecallthem。
"Miss?"askedHorace,smiling。
Shecouldonlyanswerhimbybowingherhead。
Hewrote:"MissGraceRoseberry"——reflectedforamoment——andthenadded,interrogatively,"ReturningtoherfriendsinEngland?"HerfriendsinEngland?Mercy'sheartswelled:shesilentlyrepliedbyanothersign。Hewrotethewordsafterthename,andshookthesandboxoverthewetink。"Thatwillbeenough,"hesaid,risingandpresentingthepasstoMercy;"Iwillseeyouthroughthelinesmyself,andarrangeforyourbeingsentonbytherailway。Whereisyourluggage?"
Mercypointedtowardthefrontdoorofthebuilding。"Inashedoutsidethecottage,"sheanswered。"Itisnotmuch;Icandoeverythingformyselfifthesentinelwillletmepassthroughthekitchen。"
Horacepointedtothepaperinherhand。"Youcangowhereyoulikenow,"hesaid。"ShallIwaitforyouhereoroutside?"
MercyglanceddistrustfullyatIgnatiusWetzel。Hewasagainabsorbedinhisendlessexaminationofthebodyonthebed。IfshelefthimalonewithMr。Holmcroft,therewasnoknowingwhatthehatefuloldmanmightnotsayofher。Sheanswered:
"Waitformeoutside,ifyouplease。"
Thesentineldrewbackwithamilitarysaluteatthesightofthepass。AlltheFrenchprisonershadbeenremoved;therewerenotmorethanhalf-a-dozenGermansinthekitchen,andthegreaterpartofthemwereasleep。MercytookGraceRoseberry'sclothesfromthecornerinwhichtheyhadbeenlefttodry,andmadefortheshed——aroughstructureofwood,builtoutfromthecottagewall。Atthefrontdoorsheencounteredasecondsentinel,andshowedherpassforthesecondtime。Shespoketothisman,askinghimifheunderstoodFrench。Heansweredthatheunderstoodalittle。Mercygavehimapieceofmoney,andsaid:"Iamgoingtopackupmyluggageintheshed。Bekindenoughtoseethatnobodydisturbsme。"Thesentinelsaluted,intokenthatheunderstood。Mercydisappearedinthedarkinterioroftheshed。
LeftalonewithSurgeonWetzel,HoracenoticedthestrangeoldmanstillbendingintentlyovertheEnglishladywhohadbeenkilledbytheshell。
"Anythingremarkable,"heasked,"inthemannerofthatpoorcreature'sdeath?"
"Nothingtoputinanewspaper,"retortedthecynic,pursuinghisinvestigationsasattentivelyasever。
"Interestingtoadoctor——eh?"saidHorace。
"Yes。Interestingtoadoctor,"wasthegruffreply。
Horacegood-humoredlyacceptedthehintimpliedinthosewords。Hequittedtheroombythedoorleadingintotheyard,andwaitedforthecharmingEnglishwoman,ashehadbeeninstructed,outsidethecottage。
Leftbyhimself,IgnatiusWetzel,afterafirstcautiouslookallroundhim,openedtheupperpartofGrace'sdress,andlaidhislefthandonherheart。Takingalittlesteelinstrumentfromhiswaistcoatpocketwiththeotherhand,heapplieditcarefullytothewound,raisedamorselofthebrokenanddepressedboneoftheskull,andwaitedfortheresult。"Aha!"hecried,addressingwithaterriblegayetythesenselesscreatureunderhishands。"TheFrenchmansaysyouaredead,mydear——doeshe?TheFrenchmanisaQuack!TheFrenchmanisanAss!"Heliftedhishead,andcalledintothekitchen。"Max!"AsleepyyoungGerman,coveredwithadresser'sapronfromhischintohisfeet,drewthecurtain,andwaitedforhisinstructions。"Bringmemyblackbag,"saidIgnatiusWetzel。Havinggiventhatorder,herubbedhishandscheerfully,andshookhimselflikeadog。"NowIamquitehappy,"croakedtheterribleoldman,withhisfierceeyesleeringsidelongatthebed。"Mydear,deadEnglishwoman,IwouldnothavemissedthismeetingwithyouforallthemoneyIhaveintheworld。Ha!youinfernalFrenchQuack,youcallitdeath,doyou?Icallitsuspendedanimationfrompressureonthebrain!"
Maxappearedwiththeblackbag。
IgnatiusWetzelselectedtwofearfulinstruments,brightandnew,andhuggedthemtohisbosom。"Mylittleboys,"hesaid,tenderly,asiftheywerehischildren;"myblessedlittleboys,cometowork!"Heturnedtotheassistant。"DoyourememberthebattleofSolferino,Max——andtheAustriansoldierIoperatedonforawoundonthehead?"
Theassistant'ssleepyeyesopenedwide;hewasevidentlyinterested。"Iremember,"hesaid。"Iheldthecandle。"
Themasterledthewaytothebed。
"IamnotsatisfiedwiththeresultofthatoperationatSolferino,"hesaid;"Ihavewantedtotryagaineversince。It'struethatIsavedtheman'slife,butIfailedtogivehimbackhisreasonalongwithit。Itmighthavebeensomethingwrongintheoperation,oritmighthavebeensomethingwrongintheman。Whicheveritwas,hewillliveanddiemad。Nowlookhere,mylittleMax,atthisdearyoungladyonthebed。ShegivesmejustwhatIwanted;hereisthecaseatSolferinooncemore。Youshallholdthecandleagain,mygoodboy;standthere,andlookwithallyoureyes。IamgoingtotryifIcansavethelifeandthereasontoothistime。"
Hetuckedupthecuffsofhiscoatandbegantheoperation。AshisfearfulinstrumentstouchedGrace'shead,thevoiceofthesentinelatthenearestoutpostwasheard,givingthewordinGermanwhichpermittedMercytotakethefirststeponherjourneytoEngland:
"PasstheEnglishlady!"
Theoperationproceeded。Thevoiceofthesentinelatthenextpostwasheardmorefaintly,initsturn:"PasstheEnglishlady!"
Theoperationended。IgnatiusWetzelhelduphishandforsilenceandputhisearclosetothepatient'smouth。
ThefirsttremblingbreathofreturninglifeflutteredoverGraceRoseberry'slipsandtouchedtheoldman'swrinkledcheek。"Aha!"hecried。"Goodgirl!youbreathe——youlive!"Ashespoke,thevoiceofthesentinelatthefinallimitoftheGermanlinesbarelyaudibleinthedistancegavethewordforthelasttime:
"PasstheEnglishlady!"
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[TableofContents]TheNewMagdalen,Chapter6SECONDSCENE。
MablethorpeHouse。
PREAMBLE。
THEplaceisEngland。
Thetimeiswinter,intheyeareighteenhundredandseventy。
Thepersonsare,JulianGray,HoraceHolmcroft,LadyJanetRoy,GraceRoseberry,andMercyMerrick。
CHAPTERVI。
LADYJANET'SCOMPANION。
ITisagloriouswinter'sday。Theskyisclear,thefrostishard,theicebearsforskating。
Thedining-roomoftheancientmansioncalledMablethorpeHouse,situatedintheLondonsuburbofKensington,isfamousamongartistsandotherpersonsoftasteforthecarvedwood-work,ofItalianorigin,whichcoversthewallsonthreesides。Onthefourthsidethemarchofmodernimprovementhasbrokenin,andhasvariedandbrightenedthescenebymeansofaconservatory,forminganentrancetotheroomthroughawinter-gardenofrareplantsandflowers。Onyourrighthand,asyoustandfrontingtheconservatory,themonotonyofthepaneledwallisrelievedbyaquaintlypatterneddoorofoldinlaidwood,leadingintothelibrary,andthence,acrossthegreathall,totheotherreception-roomsofthehouse。Acorrespondingdooronthelefthandgivesaccesstothebilliard-room,tothesmoking-roomnexttoit,andtoasmallerhallcommandingoneofthesecondaryentrancestothebuilding。Ontheleftsidealsoistheamplefireplace,surmountedbyitsmarblemantelpiece,carvedintheprofuselyandconfusedlyornatestyleofeightyyearssince。Totheeducatedeyethedining-room,withitsmodernfurnitureandconservatory,itsancientwallsanddoors,anditsloftymantelpieceneitherveryoldnorverynew,presentsastartling,almostarevolutionary,mixtureofthedecorativeworkmanshipofwidelydifferingschools。Totheignoranteyetheoneresultproducedisanimpressionofperfectluxuryandcomfort,unitedinthefriendliestcombination,anddevelopedonthelargestscale。
Theclockhasjuststrucktwo。Thetableisspreadforluncheon。
Thepersonsseatedatthetablearethreeinnumber。First,LadyJanetRoy。Second,ayoungladywhoisherreaderandcompanion。Third,agueststayinginthehouse,whohasalreadyappearedinthesepagesunderthenameofHoraceHolmcroft——attachedtotheGermanarmyaswarcorrespondentofanEnglishnewspaper。
LadyJanetRoyneedsbutlittleintroduction。EverybodywiththeslightestpretensiontoexperienceinLondonsocietyknowsLadyJanetRoy。
Whohasnotheardofheroldlaceandherpricelessrubies?Whohasnotadmiredhercommandingfigure,herbeautifullydressedwhitehair,herwonderfulblackeyes,whichstillpreservetheiryouthfulbrightness,afterfirstopeningontheworldseventyyearssince?Whohasnotfeltthecharmofherfrank,easilyflowingtalk,herinexhaustiblespirits,hergood-humored,gracioussociabilityofmanner?Whereisthemodernhermitwhoisnotfamiliarlyacquainted,byhearsayatleast,withthefantasticnoveltyandhumorofheropinions;withhergenerousencouragementofrisingmeritofanysort,inallranks,highorlow;withhercharities,whichknownodistinctionbetweenabroadandathome;withherlargeindulgence,whichnoingratitudecandiscourage,andnoservilitypervert?Everybodyhasheardofthepopularoldlady——thechildlesswidowofalong-forgottenlord。EverybodyknowsLadyJanetRoy。
Butwhoknowsthehandsomeyoungwomansittingonherrighthand,playingwithherluncheoninsteadofeatingit?Nobodyreallyknowsher。
Sheisprettilydressedingraypoplin,trimmedwithgrayvelvet,andsetoffbyaribbonofdeepredtiedinabowatthethroat。SheisnearlyastallasLadyJanetherself,andpossessesagraceandbeautyoffigurenotalwaysseeninwomenwhoriseabovethemediumheight。Judgingbyacertaininnategrandeurinthecarriageofherheadandintheexpressionofherlargemelancholygrayeyes,believersinbloodandbreedingwillbeapttoguessthatthisisanothernoblelady。Alas!sheisnothingbutLadyJanet'scompanionandreader。Herhead,crownedwithitslovelylightbrownhair,bendswithagentlerespectwhenLadyJanetspeaks。HerfinefirmhandiseasilyandincessantlywatchfultosupplyLadyJanet'sslightestwants。Theoldlady——affectionatelyfamiliarwithher——speakstoherasshemightspeaktoanadoptedchild。Butthegratitudeofthebeautifulcompanionhasalwaysthesamerestraintinitsacknowledgmentofkindness;thesmileofthebeautifulcompanionhasalwaysthesameunderlyingsadnesswhenitrespondstoLadyJanet'sheartylaugh。Istheresomethingwronghere,underthesurface?Isshesufferinginmind,orsufferinginbody?Whatisthematterwithher?
Thematterwithherissecretremorse。Thisdelicateandbeautifulcreaturepinesundertheslowtormentofconstantself-reproach。
Tothemistressofthehouse,andtoallwhoinhabititorenterit,sheisknownasGraceRoseberry,theorphanrelativebymarriageofLadyJanetRoy。ToherselfalonesheisknownastheoutcastoftheLondonstreets;theinmateoftheLondonRefuge;thelostwomanwhohasstolenherwayback——aftervainlytryingtofightherwayback——toHomeandName。Thereshesitsinthegrimshadowofherownterriblesecret,disguisedinanotherperson'sidentity,andestablishedinanotherperson'splace。MercyMerrickhadonlytodare,andtobecomeGraceRoseberryifshepleased。Shehasdared,andshehasbeenGraceRoseberryfornearlyfourmonthspast。
Atthismoment,whileLadyJanetistalkingtoHoraceHolmcroft,somethingthathaspassedbetweenthemhassetherthinkingofthedaywhenshetookthefirstfatalstepwhichcommittedhertothefraud。
Howmarvelouslyeasyofaccomplishmenttheactofpersonationhadbeen!AtfirstsightLadyJanethadyieldedtothefascinationofthenobleandinterestingface。Noneedtopresentthestolenletter;noneedtorepeattheready-madestory。Theoldladyhadputtheletterasideunopened,andhadstoppedthestoryatthefirstwords。"Yourfaceisyourintroduction,mydear;yourfathercansaynothingforyouwhichyouhavenotalreadysaidforyourself。"Therewasthewelcomewhichestablishedherfirmlyinherfalseidentityattheoutset。Thankstoherownexperience,andthankstothe"Journal"ofeventsatRome,questionsaboutherlifeinCanadaandquestionsaboutColonelRoseberry'sillnessfoundherreadywithanswerswhichevenifsuspicionhadexistedwouldhavedisarmedsuspiciononthespot。WhilethetrueGracewasslowlyandpainfullywinningherwaybacktolifeonherbedinaGermanhospital,thefalseGracewaspresentedtoLadyJanet'sfriendsastherelativebymarriageoftheMistressofMablethorpeHouse。FromthattimeforwardnothinghadhappenedtorouseinherthefaintestsuspicionthatGraceRoseberrywasotherthanadead-and-buriedwoman。Sofarasshenowknew——sofarasanyonenowknew——shemightliveoutherlifeinperfectsecurityifherconsciencewouldlether,respected,distinguished,andbeloved,inthepositionwhichshehadusurped。
Sheroseabruptlyfromthetable。Theeffortofherlifewastoshakeherselffreeoftheremembranceswhichhauntedherperpetuallyastheywerehauntinghernow。Hermemorywasherworstenemy;heronerefugefromitwasinchangeofoccupationandchangeofscene。
"MayIgointotheconservatory,LadyJanet?"sheasked。
"Certainly,mydear。"
Shebentherheadtoherprotectress,lookedforamomentwithasteady,compassionateattentionatHoraceHolmcroft,and,slowlycrossingtheroom,enteredthewinter-garden。TheeyesofHoracefollowedher,aslongasshewasinview,withacuriouscontradictoryexpressionofadmirationanddisapproval。Whenshehadpassedoutofsighttheadmirationvanished,butthedisapprovalremained。Thefaceoftheyoungmancontractedintoafrown:hesatsilent,withhisforkinhishand,playingabsentlywiththefragmentsonhisplate。
"TakesomeFrenchpie,Horace,"saidLadyJanet。
"No,thankyou。"
"Somemorechicken,then?"
"Nomorechicken。"
"Willnothingtemptyou?"
"Iwilltakesomemorewine,ifyouwillallowme。"
Hefilledhisglassforthefifthorsixthtimewithclaret,andemptieditsullenlyatadraught。LadyJanet'sbrighteyeswatchedhimwithsardonicattention;LadyJanet'sreadytonguespokeoutasfreelyasusualwhatwaspassinginhermindatthetime。
"TheairofKensingtondoesn'tseemtosuityou,myyoungfriend,"shesaid。"Thelongeryouhavebeenmyguest,theofteneryoufillyourglassandemptyyourcigar-case。Thosearebadsignsinayoungman。Whenyoufirstcamehereyouarrivedinvalidedbyawound。Inyourplace,Ishouldnothaveexposedmyselftobeshot,withnootherobjectinviewthandescribingabattleinanewspaper。Isupposetastesdiffer。Areyouill?Doesyourwoundstillplagueyou?"
"Notintheleast。"
"Areyououtofspirits?"
HoraceHolmcroftdroppedhisfork,restedhiselbowsonthetable,andanswered:
"Awfully。"
EvenLadyJanet'slargetolerationhaditslimits。Itembracedeveryhumanoffenseexceptabreachofgoodmanners。Shesnatchedupthenearestweaponofcorrectionathand——atablespoon——andrappedheryoungfriendsmartlywithitonthearmthatwasnearesttoher。
"Mytableisnottheclubtable,"saidtheoldlady。"Holdupyourhead。Don'tlookatyourfork——lookatme。IallownobodytobeoutofspiritsinMyhouse。IconsiderittobeareflectiononMe。Ifourquietlifeheredoesn'tsuityou,saysoplainly,andfindsomethingelsetodo。Thereisemploymenttobehad,Isuppose——ifyouchoosetoapplyforit?Youneedn'tsmile。Idon'twanttoseeyourteeth——Iwantananswer。"
Horaceadmitted,withallneedfulgravity,thattherewasemploymenttobehad。ThewarbetweenFranceandGermany,heremarked,wasstillgoingon:thenewspaperhadofferedtoemployhimagaininthecapacityofcorrespondent。
"Don'tspeakofthenewspapersandthewar!"criedLadyJanet,withasuddenexplosionofanger,whichwasgenuineangerthistime。"Idetestthenewspapers!Iwon'tallowthenewspaperstoenterthishouse。IlaythewholeblameofthebloodshedbetweenFranceandGermanyattheirdoor。"
Horace'seyesopenedwideinamazement。Theoldladywasevidentlyinearnest。"Whatcanyoupossiblymean?"heasked。"Arethenewspapersresponsibleforthewar?"
"Entirelyresponsible,"answeredLadyJanet。"Why,youdon'tunderstandtheageyoulivein!Doesanybodydoanythingnowadaysfightingincludedwithoutwishingtoseeitinthenewspapers?Isubscribetoacharity;thouartpresentedwithatestimonial;hepreachesasermon;wesufferagrievance;youmakeadiscovery;theygotochurchandgetmarried。AndI,thou,he;we,you,they,allwantoneandthesamething——wewanttoseeitinthepapers。Arekings,soldiers,anddiplomatistsexceptionstothegeneralruleofhumanity?Notthey!Itellyouseriously,ifthenewspapersofEuropehadoneandalldecidednottotakethesmallestnoticeinprintofthewarbetweenFranceandGermany,itismyfirmconvictionthewarwouldhavecometoanendforwantofencouragementlongsince。Letthepenceasetoadvertisethesword,andI,forone,canseetheresult。Noreport——nofighting。"
"Yourviewshavethemeritofperfectnovelty,ma'am,"saidHorace。"Wouldyouobjecttoseetheminthenewspapers?"
LadyJanetworstedheryoungfriendwithhisownweapons。
"Don'tIliveinthelatterpartofthenineteenthcentury?"sheasked。"Inthenewspapers,didyousay?Inlargetype,Horace,ifyouloveme!"
Horacechangedthesubject。
"Youblamemeforbeingoutofspirits,"hesaid;"andyouseemtothinkitisbecauseIamtiredofmypleasantlifeatMablethorpeHouse。Iamnotintheleasttired,LadyJanet。"Helookedtowardtheconservatory:thefrownshoweditselfonhisfaceoncemore。"Thetruthis,"heresumed,"IamnotsatisfiedwithGraceRoseberry。"
"WhathasGracedone?"
"Shepersistsinprolongingourengagement。Nothingwillpersuadehertofixthedayforourmarriage。"
Itwastrue!Mercyhadbeenmadenoughtolistentohim,andtolovehim。ButMercywasnotvileenoughtomarryhimunderherfalsecharacter,andinherfalsename。BetweenthreeandfourmonthshadelapsedsinceHoracehadbeensenthomefromthewar,wounded,andhadfoundthebeautifulEnglishwomanwhomhehadbefriendedinFranceestablishedatMablethorpeHouse。InvitedtobecomeLadyJanet'sguesthehadpassedhisholidaysasaschool-boyunderLadyJanet'sroof——freetospendtheidletimeofhisconvalescencefrommorningtonightinMercy'ssociety——theimpressionoriginallyproducedonhiminaFrenchcottagesoonstrengthenedintolove。BeforethemonthwasoutHoracehaddeclaredhimself,andhaddiscoveredthathespoketowillingears。Fromthatmomentitwasonlyaquestionofpersistinglongenoughintheresolutiontogainhispoint。Themarriageengagementwasratified——mostreluctantlyonthelady'sside——andtherethefurtherprogressofHoraceHolmcroft'ssuitcametoanend。Tryashemight,hefailedtopersuadehisbetrothedwifetofixthedayforthemarriage。Therewerenoobstaclesinherway。Shehadnonearrelationsofherowntoconsult。AsaconnectionofLadyJanet'sbymarriage,Horace'smotherandsisterswerereadytoreceiveherwithallthehonorsduetoanewmemberofthefamily。Nopecuniaryconsiderationsmadeitnecessary,inthiscase,towaitforafavorabletime。Horacewasanonlyson;andhehadsucceededtohisfather'sestatewithanampleincometosupportit。Onbothsidesaliketherewasabsolutelynothingtopreventthetwoyoungpeoplefrombeingmarriedassoonasthesettlementscouldbedrawn。Andyet,toallappearance,herewasalongengagementinprospect,withnobetterreasonthanthelady'sincomprehensibleperversitytoexplainthedelay。"CanyouaccountforGrace'sconduct?"askedLadyJanet。Hermannerchangedassheputthequestion。Shelookedandspokelikeapersonwhowasperplexedandannoyed"Ihardlyliketoownit,"Horaceanswered,"butIamafraidshehassomemotivefordeferringourmarriagewhichshecannotconfideeithertoyouortome。"
LadyJanetstarted。
"Whatmakesyouthinkthat?"sheasked。
"Ihaveonceortwicecaughtherintears。Everynowandthen——sometimeswhensheistalkingquitegayly——shesuddenlychangescolorandbecomessilentanddepressed。Justnow,whensheleftthetabledidn'tyounoticeit?,shelookedatmeinthestrangestway——almostasifshewassorryforme。Whatdothesethingsmean?"
Horace'sreply,insteadofincreasingLadyJanet'sanxiety,seemedtorelieveit。Hehadobservednothingwhichshehadnotnoticedherself。"Youfoolishboy!"shesaid,"themeaningisplainenough。Gracehasbeenoutofhealthforsometimepast。Thedoctorrecommendschangeofair。Ishalltakeherawaywithme。"
"Itwouldbemoretothepurpose,"Horacerejoined,"ifItookherawaywithme。Shemightconsent,ifyouwouldonlyuseyourinfluence。Isitaskingtoomuchtoaskyoutopersuadeher?Mymotherandmysistershavewrittentoher,andhaveproducednoeffect。Domethegreatestofallkindnesses——speaktoherto-day!"Hepaused,andpossessinghimselfofLadyJanet'shand,presseditentreatingly。"Youhavealwaysbeensogoodtome,"hesaid,softly,andpresseditagain。
Theoldladylookedathim。ItwasimpossibletodisputethattherewereattractionsinHoraceHolmcroft'sfacewhichmadeitwellworthlookingat。Manyawomanmighthaveenviedhimhisclearcomplexion,hisbrightblueeyes,andthewarmambertintinhislightSaxonhair。Men——especiallymenskilledinobservingphysiognomy——mighthavenoticedintheshapeofhisforeheadandinthelineofhisupperlipthesignsindicativeofamoralnaturedeficientinlargenessandbreadth——ofamindeasilyaccessibletostrongprejudices,andobstinateinmaintainingthoseprejudicesinthefaceofconvictionitself。
Totheobservationofwomentheseremotedefectsweretoofarbelowthesurfacetobevisible。Hecharmedthesexingeneralbyhisrarepersonaladvantages,andbythegracefuldeferenceofhismanner。ToLadyJanethewasendeared,notbyhisownmeritsonly,butbyoldassociationsthatwereconnectedwithhim。Hisfatherhadbeenoneofhermanyadmirersinheryoungdays。Circumstanceshadpartedthem。Hermarriagetoanothermanhadbeenachildlessmarriage。Inpasttimes,whentheboyHoracehadcometoherfromschool,shehadcherishedasecretfancytooabsurdtobecommunicatedtoanylivingcreaturethatheoughttohavebeenherson,andmighthavebeenherson,ifshehadmarriedhisfather!Shesmiledcharmingly,oldasshewas——sheyieldedashismothermighthaveyielded——whentheyoungmantookherhandandentreatedhertointerestherselfinhismarriage。"MustIreallyspeaktoGrace?"sheasked,withagentlenessoftoneandmannerfarfromcharacteristic,onordinaryoccasions,oftheladyofMablethorpeHouse。Horacesawthathehadgainedhispoint。Hesprangtohisfeet;hiseyesturnedeagerlyinthedirectionoftheconservatory;hishandsomefacewasradiantwithhope。LadyJanetwithhermindfullofhisfatherstolealastlookathim,sighedasshethoughtofthevanisheddays,andrecoveredherself。
"Gotothesmoking-room,"shesaid,givinghimapushtowardthedoor。"Awaywithyou,andcultivatethefavoriteviceofthenineteenthcentury。"Horaceattemptedtoexpresshisgratitude。"Goandsmoke!"wasallshesaid,pushinghimout。"Goandsmoke!"
Leftbyherself,LadyJanettookaturnintheroom,andconsideredalittle。
Horace'sdiscontentwasnotunreasonable。Therewasreallynoexcuseforthedelayofwhichhecomplained。Whethertheyoungladyhadaspecialmotiveforhangingback,orwhethershewasmerelyfrettingbecauseshedidnotknowherownmind,itwas,ineithercase,necessarytocometoadistinctunderstanding,soonerorlater,ontheseriousquestionofthemarriage。Thedifficultywas,howtoapproachthesubjectwithoutgivingoffense。"Idon'tunderstandtheyoungwomenofthepresentgeneration,"thoughtLadyJanet。"Inmytime,whenwewerefondofaman,wewerereadytomarryhimatamoment'snotice。Andthisisanageofprogress!Theyoughttobereadierstill。"
Arriving,byherownprocessofinduction,atthisinevitableconclusion,shedecidedtotrywhatherinfluencecouldaccomplish,andtotrusttotheinspirationofthemomentforexertingitintherightway。"Grace!"shecalledout,approachingtheconservatorydoor。Thetall,lithefigureinitsgraydressglidedintoview,andstoodrelievedagainstthegreenbackgroundofthewinter-garden。
"Didyourladyshipcallme?"
"Yes;Iwanttospeaktoyou。Comeandsitdownbyme。"
WiththosewordsLadyJanetledthewaytoasofa,andplacedhercompanionbyherside。
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[TableofContents]TheNewMagdalen,Chapter7CHAPTERVII。
THEMANISCOMING。
"Youlookverypalethismorning,mychild。"
Mercysighedwearily。"Iamnotwell,"sheanswered。"Theslightestnoisesstartleme。IfeeltiredifIonlywalkacrosstheroom。"
LadyJanetpattedherkindlyontheshoulder。"Wemusttrywhatachangewilldoforyou。Whichshallitbe?theContinentorthesea-side?"
"Yourladyshipistookindtome。"
"Itisimpossibletobetookindtoyou。"
Mercystarted。Thecolorflowedcharminglyoverherpaleface。"Oh!"sheexclaimed,impulsively。"Saythatagain!"
"Sayitagain?"repeatedLadyJanet,withalookofsurprise。
"Yes!Don'tthinkmepresuming;onlythinkmevain。Ican'thearyousaytoooftenthatyouhavelearnedtolikeme。Isitreallyapleasuretoyoutohavemeinthehouse?HaveIalwaysbehavedwellsinceIhavebeenwithyou?"
Theoneexcusefortheactofpersonation——ifexcusetherecouldbe——layintheaffirmativeanswertothosequestions。Itwouldbesomething,surely,tosayofthefalseGracethatthetrueGracecouldnothavebeenworthierofherwelcome,ifthetrueGracehadbeenreceivedatMablethorpeHouse!
LadyJanetwaspartlytouched,partlyamused,bytheextraordinaryearnestnessoftheappealthathadbeenmadetoher。
"Haveyoubehavedwell?"sherepeated。"Mydear,youtalkasifyouwereachild!"ShelaidherhandcaressinglyonMercy'sarm,andcontinued,inagravertone:"Itishardlytoomuchtosay,Grace,thatIblessthedaywhenyoufirstcametome。IdobelieveIcouldbehardlyfonderofyouifyouweremyowndaughter。"
Mercysuddenlyturnedherheadaside,soastohideherface。LadyJanet,stilltouchingherarm,feltittremble。"Whatisthematterwithyou?"sheasked,inherabrupt,downrightmanner。"Iamonlyverygratefultoyourladyship——thatisall。"
Thewordswerespokenfaintly,inbrokentones。ThefacewasstillavertedfromLadyJanet'sview。"WhathaveIsaidtoprovokethis?"wonderedtheoldlady。"Issheinthemeltingmoodto-day?Ifsheis,nowisthetimetosayawordforHorace!"Keepingthatexcellentobjectinview,LadyJanetapproachedthedelicatetopicwithallneedfulcautionatstarting。
"Wehavegotonsowelltogether,"sheresumed,"thatitwillnotbeeasyforeitherofustofeelreconciledtoachangeinourlives。Atmyage,itwillfallhardestonme。WhatshallIdo,Grace,whenthedaycomesforpartingwithmyadopteddaughter?"
Mercystarted,andshowedherfaceagain。Thetracesoftearswereinhereyes。"WhyshouldIleaveyou?"sheasked,inatoneofalarm。
"Surelyyouknow!"exclaimedLadyJanet。
"IndeedIdon't。Tellmewhy。"
"AskHoracetotellyou。"
Thelastallusionwastooplaintobemisunderstood。Mercy'sheaddrooped。Shebegantotrembleagain。LadyJanetlookedatherinblankamazement。
"IsthereanythingwrongbetweenHoraceandyou?"sheasked。
"No。"
"Youknowyourownheart,mydearchild?YouhavesurelynotencouragedHoracewithoutlovinghim?"
"Ohno!"
"Andyet——"
ForthefirsttimeintheirexperienceofeachotherMercyventuredtointerruptherbenefactress。"DearLadyJanet,"sheinterposed,gently,"Iaminnohurrytobemarried。Therewillbeplentyoftimeinthefuturetotalkofthat。Youhadsomethingyouwishedtosaytome。Whatisit?"
ItwasnoeasymattertodisconcertLadyJanetRoy。Butthatlastquestionfairlyreducedhertosilence。Afterallthathadpassed,theresatheryoungcompanion,innocentofthefaintestsuspicionofthesubjectthatwastobediscussedbetweenthem!"Whataretheyoungwomenofthepresenttimemadeof?"thoughttheoldlady,utterlyatalosstoknowwhattosaynext。Mercywaited,onherside,withanimpenetrablepatiencewhichonlyaggravatedthedifficultiesoftheposition。Thesilencewasfastthreateningtobringtheinterviewtoasuddenanduntimelyend,whenthedoorfromthelibraryopened,andaman-servant,bearingalittlesilversalver,enteredtheroom。
LadyJanet'srisingsenseofannoyanceinstantlyseizedontheservantasavictim。"Whatdoyouwant?"sheasked,sharply。"Ineverrangforyou。"
"Aletter,mylady。Themessengerwaitsforananswer。"
Themanpresentedhissalverwiththeletteronit,andwithdrew。
LadyJanetrecognizedthehandwritingontheaddresswithalookofsurprise。"Excuseme,mydear,"shesaid,pausing,withherold-fashionedcourtesy,beforesheopenedtheenvelope。Mercymadethenecessaryacknowledgment,andmovedawaytotheotherendoftheroom,littlethinkingthatthearrivalofthelettermarkedacrisisinherlife。LadyJanetputonherspectacles。"Oddthatheshouldhavecomebackalready!"shesaidtoherself,asshethrewtheemptyenvelopeonthetable。
Thelettercontainedtheselines,thewriterofthembeingnootherthanthemanwhohadpreachedinthechapeloftheRefuge:
"DEARAUNT——IambackagaininLondonbeforemytime。Myfriendtherectorhasshortenedhisholiday,andhasresumedhisdutiesinthecountry。Iamafraidyouwillblamemewhenyouhearofthereasonswhichhavehastenedhisreturn。ThesoonerImakemyconfession,theeasierIshallfeel。Besides,Ihaveaspecialobjectinwishingtoseeyouassoonaspossible。MayIfollowmylettertoMablethorpeHouse?AndmayIpresentaladytoyou——aperfectstranger——inwhomIaminterested?PraysayYes,bythebearer,andobligeyouraffectionatenephew,"JULIANGRAY。"
LadyJanetreferredagainsuspiciouslytothesentenceintheletterwhichalludedtothe"lady。"
JulianGraywasheronlysurvivingnephew,thesonofafavoritesisterwhomshehadlost。Hewouldhaveheldnoveryexaltedpositionintheestimationofhisaunt——whoregardedhisviewsinpoliticsandreligionwiththestrongestaversion——butforhismarkedresemblancetohismother。Thispleadedforhimwiththeoldlady,aidedasitwasbythepridethatshesecretlyfeltintheearlycelebritywhichtheyoungclergymanhadachievedasawriterandapreacher。Thankstothesemitigatingcircumstances,andtoJulian'sinexhaustiblegood-humor,theauntandthenephewgenerallymetonfriendlyterms。Apartfromwhatshecalled"hisdetestableopinions,"LadyJanetwassufficientlyinterestedinJuliantofeelsomecuriosityaboutthemysterious"lady"mentionedintheletter。Hadhedeterminedtosettleinlife?Washischoicealreadymade?Andifso,woulditprovetobeachoiceacceptabletothefamily?LadyJanet'sbrightfaceshowedsignsofdoubtassheaskedherselfthatlastquestion。Julian'sliberalviewswerecapableofleadinghimtodangerousextremes。Hisauntshookherheadominouslyassherosefromthesofaandadvancedtothelibrarydoor。
"Grace,"shesaid,pausingandturninground,"Ihaveanotetowritetomynephew。Ishallbebackdirectly。"
Mercyapproachedher,fromtheoppositeextremityoftheroom,withanexclamationofsurprise。
"Yournephew?"sherepeated。"Yourladyshipnevertoldmeyouhadanephew。"
LadyJanetlaughed。"Imusthavehaditonthetipofmytonguetotellyou,overandoveragain,"shesaid。"Butwehavehadsomanythingstotalkabout——and,toownthetruth,mynephewisnotoneofmyfavoritesubjectsofconversation。Idon'tmeanthatIdislikehim;Idetesthisprinciples,mydear,that'sall。However,youshallformyourownopinionofhim;heiscomingtoseemeto-day。WaitheretillIreturn;IhavesomethingmoretosayaboutHorace。"
Mercyopenedthelibrarydoorforher,closeditagain,andwalkedslowlytoandfroaloneintheroom,thinking。
WashermindrunningonLadyJanet'snephew?No。LadyJanet'sbriefallusiontoherrelativehadnotledherintoalludingtohimbyhisname。MercywasstillasignorantaseverthatthepreacherattheRefugeandthenephewofherbenefactresswereoneandthesameman。HermemorywasbusynowwiththetributewhichLadyJanethadpaidtoherattheoutsetoftheinterviewbetweenthem:"Itishardlytoomuchtosay,Grace,thatIblessthedaywhenyoufirstcametome。"Forthemomenttherewasbalmforherwoundedspiritintheremembranceofthosewords。GraceRoseberryherselfcouldsurelyhaveearnednosweeterpraisethanthepraisethatshehadwon。Thenextinstantshewasseizedwithasuddenhorrorofherownsuccessfulfraud。Thesenseofherdegradationhadneverbeensobitterlypresenttoherasatthatmoment。Ifshecouldonlyconfessthetruth——ifshecouldinnocentlyenjoyherharmlesslifeatMablethorpeHouse——whatagrateful,happywomanshemightbe!Wasitpossibleifshemadetheconfessiontotrusttoherowngoodconducttopleadherexcuse?No!Hercalmersensewarnedherthatitwashopeless。Theplaceshehadwon——honestlywon——inLadyJanet'sestimationhadbeenobtainedbyatrick。Nothingcouldalter,nothingcouldexcuse,that。Shetookoutherhandkerchiefanddashedawaytheuselesstearsthathadgatheredinhereyes,andtriedtoturnherthoughtssomeotherway。WhatwasitLadyJanethadsaidongoingintothelibrary?ShehadsaidshewascomingbacktospeakaboutHorace。Mercyguessedwhattheobjectwas;sheknewbuttoowellwhatHoracewantedofher。Howwasshetomeettheemergency?InthenameofHeaven,whatwastobedone?Couldsheletthemanwholovedher——themanwhomsheloved——driftblindfoldintomarriagewithsuchawomanasshehadbeen?No!itwasherdutytowarnhim。How?Couldshebreakhisheart,couldshelayhislifewastebyspeakingthecruelwordswhichmightpartthemforever?"Ican'ttellhim!Iwon'ttellhim!"sheburstout,passionately。"Thedisgraceofitwouldkillme!"Hervaryingmoodchangedasthewordsescapedher。Arecklessdefianceofherownbetternature——thatsaddestofalltheformsinwhichawoman'smiserycanexpressitself——filledherheartwithitspoisoningbitterness。Shesatdownagainonthesofawitheyesthatglitteredandcheekssuffusedwithanangryred。"Iamnoworsethananotherwoman!"shethought。"Anotherwomanmighthavemarriedhimforhismoney。"Thenextmomentthemiserableinsufficiencyofherownexcusefordeceivinghimshoweditshollowness,self-exposed。Shecoveredherfacewithherhands,andfoundrefuge——whereshehadoftenfoundrefugebefore——inthehelplessresignationofdespair。"Oh,thatIhaddiedbeforeIenteredthishouse!Oh,thatIcoulddieandhavedonewithitatthismoment!"Sothestrugglehadendedwithherhundredsoftimesalready。Soitendednow。
Thedoorleadingintothebilliard-roomopenedsoftly。HoraceHolmcrofthadwaitedtoheartheresultofLadyJanet'sinterferenceinhisfavoruntilhecouldwaitnolonger。
Helookedincautiously,readytowithdrawagainunnoticedifthetwowerestilltalkingtogether。TheabsenceofLadyJanetsuggestedthattheinterviewhadcometoanend。Washisbetrothedwifewaitingalonetospeaktohimonhisreturntotheroom?Headvancedafewsteps。Shenevermoved;shesatheedless,absorbedinherthoughts。Weretheythoughtsofhim?Headvancedalittlenearer,andcalledtoher。
"Grace!"
Shesprangtoherfeet,withafaintcry。"Iwishyouwouldn'tstartleme,"shesaid,irritably,sinkingbackonthesofa。"Anysuddenalarmsetsmyheartbeatingasifitwouldchokeme。"
Horacepleadedforpardonwithalover'shumility。Inherpresentstateofnervousirritationshewasnottobeappeased。Shelookedawayfromhiminsilence。Entirelyignorantoftheparoxysmofmentalsufferingthroughwhichshehadjustpassed,heseatedhimselfbyherside,andaskedhergentlyifshehadseenLadyJanet。Shemadeanaffirmativeanswerwithanunreasonableimpatienceoftoneandmannerwhichwouldhavewarnedanolderandmoreexperiencedmantogivehertimebeforehespokeagain。Horacewasyoung,andwearyofthesuspensethathehadenduredintheotherroom。Heunwiselypressedherwithanotherquestion。
"HasLadyJanetsaidanythingtoyou——"
Sheturnedonhimangrilybeforehecouldfinishthesentence。"Youhavetriedtomakeherhurrymeintomarryingyou,"sheburstout。"Iseeitinyourface!"
Plainasthewarningwasthistime,Horacestillfailedtointerpretitintherightway。"Don'tbeangry!"hesaid,good-humoredly。"IsitsoveryinexcusabletoaskLadyJanettointercedeforme?Ihavetriedtopersuadeyouinvain。Mymotherandmysistershavepleadedforme,andyouturnadeafear——"
Shecouldendureitnolonger。Shestampedherfootonthedoorwithhystericalvehemence。"Iamwearyofhearingofyourmotherandyoursisters!"shebrokeinviolently。"Youtalkofnothingelse。"
Itwasjustpossibletomakeonemoremistakeindealingwithher——andHoracemadeit。Hetookoffense,onhisside,androsefromthesofa。Hismotherandsisterswerehighauthoritiesinhisestimation;theyvariouslyrepresentedhisidealofperfectioninwomen。Hewithdrewtotheoppositeextremityoftheroom,andadministeredtheseverestreproofthathecouldthinkofonthespurofthemoment。
"Itwouldbewell,Grace,ifyoufollowedtheexamplesetyoubymymotherandmysisters,"hesaid。"Theyarenotinthehabitofspeakingcruellytothosewholovethem。"
Toallappearancetherebukefailedtoproducetheslightesteffect。Sheseemedtobeasindifferenttoitasifithadnotreachedherears。Therewasaspiritinher——amiserablespirit,bornofherownbitterexperience——whichroseinrevoltagainstHorace'shabitualglorificationoftheladiesofhisfamily。"Itsickensme,"shethoughttoherself,"tohearofthevirtuesofwomenwhohaveneverbeentempted!Whereisthemeritoflivingreputably,whenyourlifeisonecourseofprosperityandenjoyment?Hashismotherknownstarvation?Havehissistersbeenleftforsakeninthestreet?"Ithardenedherheart——italmostreconciledhertodeceivinghim——whenhesethisrelativesupaspatternsforher。Wouldheneverunderstandthatwomendetestedhavingotherwomenexhibitedasexamplestothem?Shelookedroundathimwithasenseofimpatientwonder。Hewassittingattheluncheon-table,withhisbackturnedonher,andhisheadrestingonhishand。Ifhehadattemptedtorejoinher,shewouldhaverepelledhim;ifhehadspoken,shewouldhavemethimwithasharpreply。Hesatapartfromher,withoututteringaword。Inaman'shandssilenceisthemostterribleofallproteststothewomanwholoveshim。Violenceshecanendure。Wordssheisalwaysreadytomeetbywordsonherside。Silenceconquersher。Afteramoment'shesitation,Mercyleftthesofaandadvancedsubmissivelytowardthetable。Shehadoffendedhim——andshealonewasinfault。Howshouldheknowit,poorfellow,whenheinnocentlymortifiedher?Stepbystepshedrewcloserandcloser。Heneverlookedround;henevermoved。Shelaidherhandtimidlyonhisshoulder。"Forgiveme,Horace,"shewhisperedinhisear。"Iamsufferingthismorning;Iamnotmyself。Ididn'tmeanwhatIsaid。Prayforgiveme。"Therewasnoresistingthecaressingtendernessofvoiceandmannerwhichaccompaniedthosewords。Helookedup;hetookherhand。Shebentoverhim,andtouchedhisforeheadwithherlips。"AmIforgiven?"sheasked。
"Oh,mydarling,"hesaid,"ifyouonlyknewhowIlovedyou!"
"Idoknowit,"sheanswered,gently,twininghishairroundherfinger,andarrangingitoverhisforeheadwherehishandhadruffledit。
Theywerecompletelyabsorbedineachother,ortheymust,atthatmoment,haveheardthelibrarydooropenattheotherendoftheroom。
LadyJanethadwrittenthenecessaryreplytohernephew,andhadreturned,faithfultoherengagement,topleadthecauseofHorace。Thefirstobjectthatmetherviewwasherclientpleading,withconspicuoussuccess,forhimself!"Iamnotwanted,evidently,"thoughttheoldlady。Shenoiselesslyclosedthedooragainandlefttheloversbythemselves。
Horacereturned,withunwisepersistency,tothequestionofthedeferredmarriage。Atthefirstwordsthathespokeshedrewbackdirectly——sadly,notangrily。
"Don'tpressmeto-day,"shesaid;"Iamnotwellto-day。"
Heroseandlookedatheranxiously。"Maylspeakaboutitto-morrow?"
"Yes,to-morrow。"Shereturnedtothesofa,andchangedthesubject。"WhatatimeLadyJanetisaway!"shesaid。"Whatcanbekeepinghersolong?"
HoracedidhisbesttoappearinterestedinthequestionofLadyJanet'sprolongedabsence。"Whatmadeherleaveyou?"heasked,standingatthebackofthesofaandleaningoverher。
"Shewentintothelibrarytowriteanotetohernephew。By-the-by,whoishernephew?"
"Isitpossibleyoudon'tknow?"
"Indeed,Idon't。"
"Youhaveheardofhim,nodoubt,"saidHorace。"LadyJanet'snephewisacelebratedman。"Hepaused,andstoopingnearertoher,liftedalove-lockthatlayoverhershoulderandpressedittohislips。"LadyJanet'snephew,"heresumed,"isJulianGray。"
Shestartedoffherseat,andlookedroundathiminblank,bewilderedterror,asifshedoubtedtheevidenceofherownsenses。
Horacewascompletelytakenbysurprise。"MydearGrace!"heexclaimed;"whathaveIsaidordonetostartleyouthistime?"
Sheheldupherhandforsilence。"LadyJanet'snephewisJulianGray,"sherepeated;"andIonlyknowitnow!"
Horace'sperplexityincreased。"Mydarling,nowyoudoknowit,whatistheretoalarmyou?"heasked。
Therewasenoughtoalarmtheboldestwomanliving——insuchaposition,andwithsuchatemperamentashers。TohermindthepersonationofGraceRoseberryhadsuddenlyassumedanewaspect:theaspectofafatality。IthadledherblindfoldtothehouseinwhichsheandthepreacherattheRefugeweretomeet。Hewascoming——themanwhohadreachedherinmostheart,whohadinfluencedherwholelife!Wasthedayofreckoningcomingwithhim?
"Don'tnoticeme,"shesaid,faintly。"Ihavebeenillallthemorning。Yousawityourselfwhenyoucameinhere;eventhesoundofyourvoicealarmedme。Ishallbebetterdirectly。IamafraidIstartledyou?"
"MydearGrace,italmostlookedasifyouwereterrifiedatthesoundofJulian'sname!Heisapubliccelebrity,Iknow;andIhaveseenladiesstartandstareathimwhenheenteredaroom。Butyoulookedperfectlypanic-stricken。"
Sheralliedhercouragebyadesperateeffort;shelaughed——aharsh,uneasylaugh——andstoppedhimbyputtingherhandoverhismouth。"Absurd!"shesaid,lightly。"AsifMr。JulianGrayhadanythingtodowithmylooks!Iambetteralready。Seeforyourself!"Shelookedroundathimagainwithaghastlygayety;andreturned,withadesperateassumptionofindifference,tothesubjectofLadyJanet'snephew。"OfcourseIhaveheardofhim,"shesaid。"Doyouknowthatheisexpectedhereto-day?Don'tstandtherebehindme——it'ssohardtotalktoyou。Comeandsitdown。"
Heobeyed——butshehadnotquitesatisfiedhimyet。Hisfacehadnotlostitsexpressionofanxietyandsurprise。Shepersistedinplayingherpart,determinedtosetatrestinhimanypossiblesuspicionthatshehadreasonsofherownforbeingafraidofJulianGray。"Tellmeaboutthisfamousmanofyours,"shesaid,puttingherarmfamiliarlythroughhisarm。"Whatishelike?"
ThecaressingactionandtheeasytonehadtheireffectonHorace。Hisfacebegantoclear;heansweredherlightlyonhisside。
"Prepareyourselftomeetthemostunclericalofclergymen,"hesaid。"Julianisalostsheepamongtheparsons,andathorninthesideofhisbishop。Preaches,iftheyaskhim,inDissenters'chapels。Declinestosetupanypretensionstopriestlyauthorityandpriestlypower。Goesaboutdoinggoodonaplanofhisown。Isquiteresignednevertorisetothehighplacesinhisprofession。Saysit'srisinghighenoughforhimtobetheArchdeaconoftheafflicted,theDeanofthehungry,andtheBishopofthepoor。Withallhisoddities,asgoodafellowaseverlived。Immenselypopularwiththewomen。Theyallgotohimforadvice。Iwishyouwouldgo,too。"
Mercychangedcolor。"Whatdoyoumean?"sheasked,sharply。
"Julianisfamousforhispowersofpersuasion,"saidHorace,smiling。"Ifhespoketoyou,Grace,hewouldprevailonyoutofixtheday。SupposeIaskJuliantopleadforme?"
Hemadetheproposalinjest。Mercy'sunquietmindaccepteditasaddressedtoherinearnest。"Hewilldoit,"shethought,withasenseofindescribableterror,"ifIdon'tstophim!"Thereisbutonechanceforher。TheonlycertainwaytopreventHoracefromappealingtohisfriendwastograntwhatHoracewishedforbeforehisfriendenteredthehouse。Shelaidherhandonhisshoulder;shehidtheterribleanxietiesthatweredevouringherunderanassumptionofcoquetrypainfulandpitiabletosee。
"Don'ttalknonsense!"shesaid,gayly。"Whatwerewesayingjustnow——beforewebegantospeakofMr。JulianGray?"
"WewerewonderingwhathadbecomeofLadyJanet,"Horacereplied。
Shetappedhimimpatientlyontheshoulder。"No!no!Itwassomethingyousaidbeforethat。"
Hereyescompletedwhatherwordshadleftunsaid。Horace'sarmstoleroundherwaist。
"IwassayingthatIlovedyou,"heanswered,inawhisper。
"Onlythat?"
"Areyoutiredofhearingit?"
Shesmiledcharmingly。"Areyousoverymuchinearnestabout——about——"Shestopped,andlookedawayfromhim。
"Aboutourmarriage?"
"Yes。"
"Itistheonedearestwishofmylife。"
"Really?"
"Really。"
Therewasapause。Mercy'sfingerstoyednervouslywiththetrinketsatherwatch-chain。"Whenwouldyoulikeittobe?"shesaid,verysoftly,withherwholeattentionfixedonthewatch-chain。
Shehadneverspoken,shehadneverlooked,asshespokeandlookednow。Horacewasafraidtobelieveinhisowngoodfortune。"Oh,Grace!"heexclaimed,"youarenottriflingwithme?"
"WhatmakesyouthinkIamtriflingwithyou?"
Horacewasinnocentenoughtoanswerherseriously。"Youwouldnotevenletmespeakofourmarriagejustnow,"hesaid。
"NevermindwhatIdidjustnow,"sheretorted,petulantly。"Theysaywomenarechangeable。Itisoneofthedefectsofthesex。"
"Heavenbepraisedforthedefectsofthesex!"criedHorace,withdevoutsincerity。"Doyoureallyleavemetodecide?"
"Ifyouinsistonit。"
Horaceconsideredforamoment——thesubjectbeingthelawofmarriage。"Wemaybemarriedbylicenseinafortnight,"hesaid。"Ifixthisdayfortnight。"
Sheheldupherhandsinprotest。
"Whynot?Mylawyerisready。Therearenopreparationstomake。Yousaidwhenyouacceptedmethatitwastobeaprivatemarriage。"
Mercywasobligedtoownthatshehadcertainlysaidthat。
"Wemightbemarriedatonce——ifthelawwouldonlyletus。Thisdayfortnight!Say——Yes!"Hedrewherclosertohim。Therewasapause。Themaskofcoquetry——badlywornfromthefirst——droppedfromher。Hersadgrayeyesrestedcompassionatelyonhiseagerface。"Don'tlooksoserious!"hesaid。"Onlyonelittleword,Grace!OnlyYes。"
Shesighed,andsaidit。Hekissedherpassionately。Itwasonlybyaresoluteeffortthatshereleasedherself。
"Leaveme!"shesaid,faintly。"Prayleavemebymyself!"
Shewasinearnest——strangelyinearnest。Shewastremblingfromheadtofoot。Horacerosetoleaveher。"IwillfindLadyJanet,"hesaid;"IlongtoshowthedearoldladythatIhaverecoveredmyspirits,andtotellherwhy。"Heturnedroundatthelibrarydoor。"Youwon'tgoaway?Youwillletmeseeyouagainwhenyouaremorecomposed?"
"Iwillwaithere,"saidMercy。
Satisfiedwiththatreply,helefttheroom。
Herhandsdroppedonherlap;herheadsankbackwearilyonthecushionsattheheadofthesofa。Therewasadazedsensationinher:hermindfeltstunned。Shewonderedvacantlywhethershewasawakeordreaming。HadshereallysaidthewordwhichpledgedhertomarryHoraceHolmcroftinafortnight?Afortnight!Somethingmighthappeninthattimetopreventit:shemightfindherwayinafortnightoutoftheterriblepositioninwhichshestood。Anyway,comewhatmightofit,shehadchosenthepreferablealternativetoaprivateinterviewwithJulianGray。Sheraisedherselffromherrecumbentpositionwithastart,astheideaoftheinterview——dismissedforthelastfewminutes——possesseditselfagainofhermind。HerexcitedimaginationfiguredJulianGrayaspresentintheroomatthatmoment,speakingtoherasHoracehadproposed。Shesawhimseatedcloseatherside——thismanwhohadshakenhertothesoulwhenhewasinthepulpit,andwhenshewaslisteningtohimunseenattheotherendofthechapel——shesawhimclosebyher,lookinghersearchinglyintheface;seeinghershamefulsecretinhereyes;hearingitinhervoice;feelingitinhertremblinghands;forcingitoutofherwordbyword,tillshefellprostrateathisfeetwiththeconfessionofthefraud。Herheaddroppedagainonthecushions;shehidherfaceinhorrorofthescenewhichherexcitedfancyhadconjuredup。Evennow,whenshehadmadethatdreadedinterviewneedless,couldshefeelsuremeetinghimonlyonthemostdistanttermsofnotbetrayingherself?Shecouldnotfeelsure。Somethinginhershudderedandshrankatthebareideaoffindingherselfinthesameroomwithhim。Shefeltit,sheknewit:herguiltyconscienceownedandfeareditsmasterinJulianGray!
Theminutespassed。Theviolenceofheragitationbegantotellphysicallyonherweakenedframe。
Shefoundherselfcryingsilentlywithoutknowingwhy。Aweightwasonherhead,awearinesswasinallherlimbs。Shesankloweronthecushions——hereyesclosed——themonotonoustickingoftheclockonthemantelpiecegrewdrowsilyfainterandfainteronherear。Littlebylittleshedroppedintoslumber——slumbersolightthatshestartedwhenamorselofcoalfellintothegrate,orwhenthebirdschirpedandtwitteredintheiraviaryinthewinter-garden。
LadyJanetandHoracecamein。Shewasfaintlyconsciousofpersonsintheroom。Afteranintervalsheopenedhereyes,andhalfrosetospeaktothem。Theroomwasemptyagain。Theyhadstolenoutsoftlyandlefthertorepose。Hereyesclosedoncemore。Shedroppedbackintoslumber,andfromslumber,inthefavoringwarmthandquietoftheplace,intodeepanddreamlesssleep。
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[TableofContents]TheNewMagdalen,Chapter8CHAPTERVIII。
THEMANAPPEARS。
AfteranintervalofrestMercywasarousedbytheshuttingofaglassdooratthefarendoftheconservatory。Thisdoor,leadingintothegarden,wasusedonlybytheinmatesofthehouse,orbyoldfriendsprivilegedtoenterthereception-roomsbythatway。AssumingthateitherHoraceorLadyJanetwasreturningtothedining-room,Mercyraisedherselfalittleonthe'sofaandlistened。
Thevoiceofoneofthemen-servantscaughtherear。Itwasansweredbyanothervoice,whichinstantlysethertremblingineverylimb。
Shestartedup,andlistenedagaininspeechlessterror。Yes!therewasnomistakingit。ThevoicethatwasansweringtheservantwastheunforgottenvoicewhichshehadheardattheRefuge。Thevisitorwhohadcomeinbytheglassdoorwas——JulianGray!
Hisrapidfootstepsadvancednearerandnearertothedining-room。Sherecoveredherselfsufficientlytohurrytothelibrarydoor。Herhandshooksothatshefailedatfirsttoopenit。Shehadjustsucceededwhensheheardhimagain——speakingtoher。
"Praydon'trunaway!Iamnothingveryformidable。OnlyLadyJanet'snephew——JulianGray。"
Sheturnedslowly,spell-boundbyhisvoice,andconfrontedhiminsilence。
Hewasstanding,hatinhand,attheentrancetotheconservatory,dressedinblack,andwearingawhitecravat,butwithastudiousavoidanceofanythingspeciallyclericalinthemakeandformofhisclothes。Youngashewas,thereweremarksofcarealreadyonhisface,andthehairwasprematurelythinandscantyoverhisforehead。Hisslight,activefigurewasofnomorethanthemiddleheight。Hiscomplexionwaspale。Thelowerpartofhisface,withoutbeardorwhiskers,wasinnowayremarkable。Anaverageobserverwouldhavepassedhimbywithoutnoticebutforhiseyes。Thesealonemadeamarkedmanofhim。Theunusualsizeoftheorbitsinwhichtheyweresetwasenoughofitselftoattractattention;itgaveagrandeurtohishead,whichthehead,broadandfirmasitwas,didnotpossess。Astotheeyesthemselves,thesoft,lustrousbrightnessofthemdefiedanalysisNotwopeoplecouldagreeabouttheircolor;dividedopiniondeclaringalternatelythattheyweredarkgrayorblack。Paintershadtriedtoreproducethem,andhadgivenuptheeffort,indespairofseizinganyoneexpressioninthebewilderingvarietyofexpressionswhichtheypresentedtoview。Theywereeyesthatcouldcharmatonemomentandterrifyatanother;eyesthatcouldsetpeoplelaughingorcryingalmostatwill。Inactionandinreposetheywereirresistiblealike。WhentheyfirstdescriedMercyrunningtothedoor,theybrightenedgaylywiththemerrimentofachild。Whensheturnedandfacedhim,theychangedinstantly,softeningandglowingastheymutelyownedtheinterestandtheadmirationwhichthefirstsightofherhadrousedinhim。Histoneandmanneralteredatthesametime。Headdressedherwiththedeepestrespectwhenhespokehisnextwords。
"Letmeentreatyoutofavormebyresumingyourseat,"hesaid。"AndletmeaskyourpardonifIhavethoughtlesslyintrudedonyou。"
Hepaused,waitingforherreplybeforeheadvancedintotheroom。Stillspell-boundbyhisvoice,sherecoveredself-controlenoughtobowtohimandtoresumeherplaceonthesofa。Itwasimpossibletoleavehimnow。Afterlookingatherforamoment,heenteredtheroomwithoutspeakingtoheragain。Shewasbeginningtoperplexaswellastointeresthim。"Nocommonsorrow,"hethought,"hassetitsmarkonthatwoman'sface;nocommonheartbeatsinthatwoman'sbreast。Whocanshebe?"
Mercyralliedhercourage,andforcedherselftospeaktohim。
"LadyJanetisinthelibrary,Ibelieve,"shesaid,timidly。"ShallItellheryouarehere?"
"Don'tdisturbLadyJanet,anddon'tdisturbyourself。"Withthatanswerheapproachedtheluncheon-table,delicatelygivinghertimetofeelmoreatherease。HetookupwhatHoracehadleftofthebottleofclaret,andpoureditintoaglass。"Myaunt'sclaretshallrepresentmyauntforthepresent,"hesaid,smiling,asheturnedtowardheroncemore。"Ihavehadalongwalk,andImayventuretohelpmyselfinthishousewithoutinvitation。Isituselesstoofferyouanything?"
Mercymadethenecessaryreply。Shewasbeginningalready,afterherremarkableexperienceofhim,towonderathiseasymannersandhislightwayoftalking。
Heemptiedhisglasswiththeairofamanwhothoroughlyunderstoodandenjoyedgoodwine。"Myaunt'sclaretisworthyofmyaunt,"hesaid,withcomicgravity,ashesetdowntheglass。"BotharethegenuineproductsofNature。"Heseatedhimselfatthetableandlookedcriticallyatthedifferentdishesleftonit。Onedishespeciallyattractedhisattention。"Whatisthis?"hewenton。"AFrenchpie!ItseemsgrosslyunfairtotasteFrenchwineandtopassoverFrenchpiewithoutnotice。"Hetookupaknifeandfork,andenjoyedthepieascriticallyashehadenjoyedthewine。"WorthyoftheGreatNation!"heexclaimed,withenthusiasm。"VivelaFrance!"
Mercylistenedandlooked,ininexpressibleastonishment。Hewasutterlyunlikethepicturewhichherfancyhaddrawnofhimineverydaylife。Takeoffhiswhitecravat,andnobodywouldhavediscoveredthatthisfamouspreacherwasaclergyman!
Hehelpedhimselftoanotherplatefulofthepie,andspokemoredirectlytoMercy,alternatelyeatingandtalkingascomposedlyandpleasantlyasiftheyhadknowneachotherforyears。
"IcameherebywayofKensingtonGardens,"hesaid。"ForsometimepastIhavebeenlivinginaflat,ugly,barren,agriculturaldistrict。Youcan'tthinkhowpleasantIfoundthepicturepresentedbytheGardens,asacontrast。Theladiesintheirrichwinterdresses,thesmartnurserymaids,thelovelychildren,theevermovingcrowdskatingontheiceoftheRoundPond;itwasallsoexhilaratingafterwhatIhavebeenusedto,thatIactuallycaughtmyselfwhistlingasIwalkedthroughthebrilliantscene!Inmytimeboysusedalwaystowhistlewhentheywereingoodspirits,andIhavenotgotoverthehabityet。WhodoyouthinkImetwhenIwasinfullsong?"
Aswellasheramazementwouldlether,Mercyexcusedherselffromguessing。ShehadneverinallherlifebeforespokentoanylivingbeingsoconfusedlyandsounintelligentlyasshenowspoketoJulianGray!
Hewentonmoregaylythanever,withoutappearingtonoticetheeffectthathehadproducedonher。
"WhomdidImeet,"herepeated,"whenIwasinfullsong?Mybishop!IfIhadbeenwhistlingasacredmelody,hislordshipmightperhapshaveexcusedmyvulgarityoutofconsiderationformymusic。Unfortunately,thecompositionIwasexecutingatthemomentIamoneoftheloudestoflivingwhistlerswasbyVerdi——"LaDonnaeMobile"——familiar,nodoubt,tohislordshiponthestreetorgans。Herecognizedthetune,poorman,andwhenItookoffmyhattohimhelookedtheotherway。Strange,inaworldthatisburstingwithsinandsorrow,totreatsuchatrifleseriouslyasacheerfulclergymanwhistlingatune!"Hepushedawayhisplateashesaidthelastwords,andwentonsimplyandearnestlyinanalteredtone。"Ihaveneverbeenable,"hesaid,"toseewhyweshouldassertourselvesamongothermenasbelongingtoaparticularcaste,andasbeingforbidden,inanyharmlessthing,todoasotherpeopledo。Thedisciplesofoldsetusnosuchexample;theywerewiserandbetterthanweare。Iventuretosaythatoneoftheworstobstaclesinthewayofourdoinggoodamongourfellow-creaturesisraisedbythemereassumptionoftheclericalmannerandtheclericalvoice。Formypart,IsetupnoclaimtobemoresacredandmorereverendthananyotherChristianmanwhodoeswhatgoodhecan。"HeglancedbrightlyatMercy,lookingathiminhelplessperplexity。Thespiritoffuntookpossessionofhimagain。"AreyouaRadical?"heasked,withahumoroustwinkleinhislargelustrouseyes。"Iam!"
Mercytriedhardtounderstandhim,andtriedinvain。Couldthisbethepreacherwhosewordshadcharmed,purified,ennobledher?Wasthisthemanwhosesermonhaddrawntearsfromwomenaboutherwhomsheknewtobeshamelessandhardenedincrime?Yes!Theeyesthatnowrestedonherhumorouslywerethebeautifuleyeswhichhadoncelookedintohersoul。Thevoicethathadjustaddressedajestingquestiontoherwasthedeepandmellowvoicewhichhadoncethrilledhertotheheart。Inthepulpithewasanangelofmercy;outofthepulpithewasaboyletloosefromschool。
"Don'tletmestartleyou,"hesaid,good-naturedly,noticingherconfusion。"Publicopinionhascalledmebyhardernamesthanthenameof'Radical。'Ihavebeenspendingmytimelately——asItoldyoujustnow——inanagriculturaldistrict。Mybusinesstherewastoperformthedutyfortherectoroftheplace,whowantedaholiday。Howdoyouthinktheexperimenthasended?TheSquireoftheparishcallsmeaCommunist;thefarmersdenouncemeasanIncendiary;myfriendtherectorhasbeenrecalledinahurry,andIhavenowthehonorofspeakingtoyouinthecharacterofabanishedmanwhohasmadearespectableneighborhoodtoohottoholdhim。"
Withthatfrankavowalhelefttheluncheontable,andtookachairnearMercy。
"Youwillnaturallybeanxious,"hewenton,"toknowwhatmyoffensewas。DoyouunderstandPoliticalEconomyandtheLawsofSupplyandDemand?"
Mercyownedthatshedidnotunderstandthem。
"NomoredoI——inaChristiancountry,"hesaid。"Thatwasmyoffense。Youshallhearmyconfessionjustasmyauntwillhearitintwowords。"Hepausedforalittlewhile;hisvariablemannerchangedagain。Mercy,shylylookingathim,sawanewexpressioninhiseyes——anexpressionwhichrecalledherfirstremembranceofhimasnothinghadrecalledityet。"Ihadnoidea,"heresumed,"ofwhatthelifeofafarm-laborerreallywas,insomepartsofEngland,untilIundertooktherector'sduties。NeverbeforehadIseensuchdirewretchednessasIsawinthecottages。NeverbeforehadImetwithsuchnoblepatienceundersufferingasIfoundamongthepeople。Themartyrsofoldcouldendure,anddie。Iaskedmyselfiftheycouldendure,andlive,likethemartyrswhomIsawroundme?——live,weekafterweek,monthaftermonth,yearafteryear,onthebrinkofstarvation;live,andseetheirpiningchildrengrowinguproundthem,toworkandwantintheirturn;live,withthepoorman'sparishprisontolooktoastheend,whenhungerandlaborhavedonetheirworst!WasGod'sbeautifulearthmadetoholdsuchmiseryasthis?Icanhardlythinkofit,Icanhardlyspeakofit,evennow,withdryeyes!"
Hisheadsankonhisbreast。Hewaited——masteringhisemotionbeforehespokeagain。Now,atlast,sheknewhimoncemore。Nowhewastheman,indeed,whomshehadexpectedtosee。Unconsciouslyshesatlistening,withhereyesfixedonhisface,withhishearthangingonhiswords,intheveryattitudeoftheby-gonedaywhenshehadheardhimforthefirsttime!
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