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  Shehadtakenthewholeofacabinonthequieterdeckbelowthepromenade,payingforitnearlyhalfofwhatwasleftofthefourthousandfrancs。Thefirstthreedaysshekepttohercabinexceptatthedinner-hour,whensheventuredtothedeckjustoutsideandwalkedupanddownforexercise。Thenfollowedfourdaysofnastyweatherduringwhichshedidnotleaveherbed。Astheseacalmed,she,wretchedandreckless,hadachairputforherselfunderherwindowandsatthere,veiledandswathedandturningherfaceawaywheneverararewanderingpassengerhappenedtopassalong。Towardnoonamanpausedbeforehertolightacigarette。She,forgettingforthemomentherprecautions,lookedathim。Itchancedthathelookedatheratexactlythesameinstant。Theirglancesmet。Hestartednervously,movedonafewsteps,returned。Saidshemockingly:
  ``Youknowyouneedn’tspeakifyoudon’twantto,Stanley。’’
  ``Thereisn’tasoulonboardthatanybodyeverkneworthateverknewanybody,’’saidhe。``Sowhynot?’’
  ``Andyoulookhorriblybored。’’
  ``Unspeakably,’’repliedBaird。``I’vespokentonoonesinceIleftParis。’’
  ``Whatareyoudoingonthisship?’’inquiredshe。
  ``Tobeperfectlyhonest,’’saidhe,``Icamethiswaytoavoidyou。Iwasafraidyou’dtakepassageonmysteamerjusttoamuseyourselfwithmynervousness。
  And——hereyouare!’’
  ``Amusingmyselfwithyournervousness。’’
  ``ButI’mnotnervous。There’snodanger。Willyouletmehaveachairputbesideyours?’’
  ``Itwillbeacharityonyourpart,’’saidshe。
  Whenhewascomfortablysettled,heexplainedhisuneasiness。``IseeI’vegottotellyou,’’saidhe,``forIdon’twantyoutothinkmeashoutingass。Thefactismywifewantstogetadivorcefrommeandtosoakmeforbigalimony。She’sawomanwho’lldoanythingtogainherend,and——well,forsomereasonshe’salwaysbeenjealousofyou。Ididn’tcaretogetintotrouble,ortogetyouintotrouble。’’
  ``I’mtravelingasMaryStevens,’’saidMildred。
  ``NooneknowsI’maboard。’’
  ``Oh,I’msurewe’requitesafe。Wecanenjoytherestofthisvoyage。’’
  Aseavoyagenotmerelyinducesbutcompelsafeelingofabsolutedetachmentfromtheworld。TobothStanleyandMildredtheiraffairs——thedifficultiesinwhichtheywereinvolvedonterrafirma——ceasedforthetimetohaveanyreality。Theuniversewasnothingbutavaststretchofwaterunderavaststretchofsky。theearthandthethingsthereofwerearetrospectandaforeboding。Withoutanalyzingit,bothheandshefeltthattheywerefree——freefromcares,fromresponsibilities——freetoamusethemselves。Andtheyproceededtoenjoythemselvesinthenecessarilyquietandlimitedwayimposedbythelittlenessoftheirpresentworldandthemeagernessoftheresources。
  Asneitherhadthekindofmindthatexpandsinabstractions,theyweresoontalkinginthemostintimateandpersonalwayaboutthemselves——wereconfessingthingswhichneitherwouldhavebreathedtoanyoneonland。Itwasthemanwhosettheexampleofbreakingthroughthebarriersofconventionalrestraint——
  perhapsofdelicacy,thoughitmustbesaidthathumanbeingsarerarelysofineintheirreticencesasthetheoryofrefinementwouldhaveusbelieve。SaidStanley,afterthepreliminariesofpartialconfidenceandhaltingavowalthatcouldnotbeomitted,evenatsea,byamanof``gentlemanlyinstinct’’:
  ``Idon’tknowwhyIshouldn’townup。Iknowyou’llnevertellanybody。Factis,Iandmywifewereneverinlovewitheachotherforasecond。Wemarriedbecausewewereinthesamesetandbecauseourincomestogethergaveusenoughtodothethingratherwell。’’
  Afterasolemnpause。``Iwasinlovewithanotherwoman——oneIcouldn’tmarry。ButI’llnotgointothat。Asformywife,Idon’tthinkshewasinlovewithanyone。She’sascoldasastone。’’
  Mildredsmiledironically。
  Bairdsawandflushed。``Atleast,shewastome。
  Iwasreadytomakeasortofbluff。Yousee,amanfeelsguiltyinthosecircumstancesanddoesn’twanttohumiliateawoman。Butshe——’’helaughedunpleasantly——``shewasn’tbotheringaboutMYfeelings。
  That’sanice,selfishlittlewayyouladieshave。’’
  ``Sheprobablysawthroughyouandhatedyouforplayingthehypocritetoher,’’saidMildred。
  ``Youmayberight,Ineverthoughtofthat,’’
  confessedhe。``Shecertainlyhadaviciouswayofhammeringtheotherwomanindirectly。Notthatsheeveradmittedbeingjealous。Iguesssheknew。Everybodyusuallyknowseverything。’’
  ``Andtherewasagreatdealoftalkaboutyouandme,’’saidMildredplacidly。
  ``Ididn’tsayitwasyou,’’protestedStanley,reddening。
  ``Nomatter,’’saidMildred。``Don’tbotheraboutthat。It’sallpastandgone。’’
  ``Well,atanyrate,mymarriagewasthemistakeofmylife。I’mdeterminedthatsheshan’ttripmeupandtrimmeforanyalimony。Andasmattersstand,shecan’t。Sheleftmeofherownaccord。’’
  ``Then,’’saidMildredthoughtfully,``ifthewifeleavesofherownaccord,shecan’tgetalimony?’’
  ``Certainlynot——notacent。’’
  ``Isupposedso,’’saidshe。``I’mnotsureI’dtakeitifIcouldgetit。Still,IsupposeIwould。’’Shelaughed。``What’stheuseofbeingahypocritewithoneself?IknowIwould。AllIcouldget。’’
  ``ThenyouhadnoLEGALexcuseforleaving?’’
  ``No,’’saidshe。``I——justbolted。Idon’tknowwhat’stobecomeofme。Iseemnottocare,atpresent,butnodoubtIshallassoonasweseelandagain。’’
  ``You’llgobacktohim,’’saidStanley。
  ``No,’’repliedshe,withoutemphasisoranyaccentwhatever。
  ``Sureyouwill,’’rejoinedhe。``It’syourliving。
  Whatelsecanyoudo?’’
  ``That’swhatImustfindout。Surelythere’ssomethingelseforawomanbesidessuchamarriedlifeasmine。Ican’tandwon’tgobacktomyhusband。AndIcan’tandwon’tgotothehouseatHangingRock。
  Thosetwothingsaresettled。’’
  ``Youmeanthat?’’
  ``Absolutely。AndI’vegot——lessthanthreehundredandfiftydollarsinthewholeworld。’’
  Bairdwassilent。Hewasrousedfromhisabstractionbygradualconsciousnessofanironicalsmileonthefaceofthegirl,forshedidnotlooklikeamarriedwoman。``Youarelaughingatme。Why?’’inquiredhe。
  ``Iwasreadingyourthoughts。’’
  ``Youthinkyou’vefrightenedme?’’
  ``Naturally。Isn’taconfessionsuchasImadeenoughtofrightenaman?ItsoundedasthoughI
  weregettingreadytoaskalms。’’
  ``Soitdid,’’saidhe。``ButIwasn’tthinkingofitinthatway。YouWILLbeinafrightfulfixprettysoon,won’tyou?’’
  ``Itlooksthatway。Butyouneednotbeuneasy。’’
  ``Oh,Iwanttohelpyou。I’lldoeverythingIcan。
  Iwastryingtothinkofsomethingyoucouldmakemoneyat。Iwasthinkingofthestage,butIsupposeyou’dbalkatthat。I’lladmititisn’tthelifeforalady。Butthesamething’strueofwhatevermoneycanbemadeat。IfIwereyou,I’dgoback。’’
  ``IfIweremyself,I’dgoback,’’saidMildred。
  ``ButI’mnotmyself。’’
  ``Youwillbeagain,assoonasyoufacethesituation。’’
  ``No,’’saidsheslowly,``no,Ishallneverbemyselfagain。’’
  ``Butyoucouldhaveeverythingawomanwants。
  Except,ofcourse——perhaps——Butyouneverstruckmeasbeingespeciallysentimental。’’
  ``Sentimenthasnothingtodowithit,’’rejoinedshe。
  ``DoyouthinkIcouldgetaplaceonthestage?’’
  ``Oh,you’dhavetostudyawhile,Isuppose。’’
  ``ButIcan’taffordthat。IfIcouldaffordtostudy,I’dhavemyvoicetrained。’’
  Baird’sfacelightedupwithenthusiasm。``Theverything!’’hecried。``You’vegotavoice,agrand-operavoice。I’veheardlotsofpeoplesayso,anditsoundedthatwaytome。Youmustcultivateyourvoice。’’
  Mildredlaughed。``Don’ttalknonsense。EvenI
  knowthat’snonsense。Thelessonsalonewouldcostthousandsofdollars。AndhowcouldIliveforthefourorfiveyears?’’
  ``Youdidn’tletmefinish,’’saidBaird。``IwasgoingtosaythatwhenyougettoNewYorkyoumustgoandhaveyourvoicepassedon——bysomeimpartialperson。Ifthatpersonsaysit’sworthcultivating,why,I’mwillingtobackyou——asabusinessproposition。
  Icanaffordtotaketherisk。So,yousee,it’sallperfectlysimple。’’
  Hehadspokenrapidly,withacovertsuggestionoffearlestshewouldrebukehimsharplyforwhatshemightregardasanimpertinentoffer。Shesurprisedhimbylookingathimcalmly,reflectively,andsaying:
  ``Yes,youcouldaffordit,couldn’tyou?’’
  ``I’msureIcould。Andit’sthesortofthingthat’sdoneeveryday。Ofcourse,noone’dknowthatwehadmadethislittlebusinessarrangement。Butthat’seasilymanaged。I’dbegladifyou’dletmedoit,Mildred。
  I’dliketofeelthatIwasofsomeuseintheworld。
  AndI’dliketodosomethingforYOU。’’
  Bywayofexceedinglycautiousexperimentheventuredtoputeversoslightanaccentoftendernessuponthe``you。’’Heobservedherfurtivelybutnervously。
  Hecouldnotgetahintofwhatwasinhermind。Shegazedouttowardtherisingandfallinghorizonline。
  Presentlyshesaid:
  ``I’llthinkaboutit。’’
  ``Youmustletmedoit,Mildred。It’sthesensiblething——andyouknowmewellenoughtoknowthatmyfriendshipcanbecountedon。’’
  ``I’llthinkaboutit,’’wasallshewouldconcede。
  Theydiscussedthesingingcareerallthatandthesucceedingdays——thepossibilities,thehopes,thedangers——
  butthehopesagreatdealmorethanthedangers。
  Hebecamemoreandmoreinterestedinherandintheproject,asherbeautyshoneoutwiththetranquillizingseaandasheroldcharmofclevernessatsayingthingsthatamusedhimreasserteditself。She,dubiousandlukewarmatfirst,soonwastryingtocurbherownexcitedoptimism。butlongbeforetheysightedSandyHookshewasmerelypretendingtohangback。
  Hefeltdiscouragedbyherparting!``IfIdecidetogoon,I’llwriteyouinafewdays。’’Butheneednothavefeltso。Shehadmadeuphermindtoaccepthisoffer。Asforthecomplicationsinvolvedinsuchcuriouslyintimaterelationswithamanofhistemperament,habits,andinclinations,shesawthemveryvaguelyin-
  deed——refusedtopermitherselftoseethemanylessvaguely。Timeenoughtodealwithcomplicationswhenandastheyarose。whyneedlesslyandfoolishlyannoyherselfandhamperherself?Saidshetoherself,``Imustbegintobepractical。’’
  IV
  ATthepierMildredsenthermotheratelegram,givingthetrainbywhichshewouldarrive——thatandnothingmore。Asshedescendedfromtheparlor-cartherestoodMrs。Presburyupontheplatform,facewreathedinthemostjoyousofwelcomingsmiles,notasurfacetraceofthecuriosityandalarmstormingwithin。Aftertheyhadkissedandembracedwithagenuineemotionwhichtheydidnottrytohide,becausebothsuddenlybecameunconsciousofthatworldwhereofordinarilytheywereconstantlymindful——aftercaressesandtearsMrs。Presburysaid:
  ``It’sallverywelltodressplain,wheneveryoneknowsyoucanaffordthebest。Butdon’tyouthinkyou’reoverdoingitalittle?’’
  Mildredlaughedsomewhatnervously。``Waittillwe’resafeathome,’’saidshe。
  Onthewayupfromthestationinthecarriagetheychatteredawayintheliveliestfashion,tomaketheproperimpressionuponanyobservingHanging-
  Rockers。``Luckily,Presbury’sgonetotownto-day,’’
  saidhiswife。``Butreallyhe’squitelivable——hasn’tgonebacktohisoldways。Hedoesn’tknowit,buthe’srapidlygrowingdeaf。Heimaginesthateveryoneisspeakingmoreandmoreindistinctly,andhehaslostinterestinconversation。Then,too,hehasdonewellinWallStreet,andthathasputhiminagoodhumor。’’
  ``He’llnotbesurprisedtoseeme——alone,’’saidMildred。
  ``Waittillwe’rehome,’’saidhermothernervously。
  AtthehouseMrs。Presburycarriedonafoolish,false-soundingconversationforthebenefitoftheservants,andfinallyconductedMildredtoherbedroomandshutdoorsanddrewportieresandglancedintoclosetsbeforesaying:``Now,whatISthematter,Millie?
  WHEREisyourhusband?’’
  ``InParis,Isuppose,’’repliedMildred。``Ihavelefthim,andIshallnevergoback。’’
  ``Presburysaidyouwould!’’criedhermother。
  ``ButIdidn’tbelieveit。Idon’tbelieveit。Ibroughtyouuptodoyourduty,andIknowyouwill。’’
  ThiswasMildred’sfirstopportunityforfrankandplainspeaking。andthatishighlyconducivetofrankandplainthinking。Shenowbegantoseeclearlywhyshehadquitthegeneral。Saidshe:``Mamma,tobehonestandnotmincewords,I’velefthimbecausethere’snothinginit。’’
  ``Isn’therich?’’inquiredhermother。``I’vealwayshadakindofpresent——’’
  ``Oh,he’srich,allright,’’interruptedthegirl。
  ``ButhesawtoitthatIgotnobenefitfromthat。’’
  ``Butyouwrotemehowhewasbuyingyoueverything!’’
  ``SoIthought。InfacthewasbuyingMEnothing。’’
  Andshewentontoexplainthegeneral’ssystem。
  Hermotherlistenedimpatiently。Shewouldhavein-
  terruptedthelongandangryrecitalmanytimeshadnotMildredinsistedonafullhearingofhergrievances,oftheoutragesthathadbeenheapeduponher。
  ``And,’’sheended,``Isupposehe’sgotitsoarrangedthathecouldhavemearrestedasathieffortakingthegoldbag。’’
  ``Yes,it’sterribleandallthat,’’saidhermother。
  ``ButIshouldhavethoughtlivingwithmeherewhenPresburywascarryingonsodreadfullywouldhavetaughtyousomething。Yourcaseisn’tanexception,anymorethanmineis。That’sthesortofthingwewomenhavetoputupwithfrommen,whenwe’reintheirpower。’’
  ``NotI,’’saidMildredloftily。
  ``Yes,you,’’retortedhermother。``ANYwoman。
  EVERYwoman。Unlesswehavemoneyofourown,weallhavetroublewiththemenaboutmoney,soonerorlater,inonewayoranother。Andrichmen!——why,it’snotoriousthatthey’realwaysmoreorlessmeanaboutmoney。
  Awifehasgottousetact。Why,Ievenhadtousesometactwithyourfather,andhewasasgenerousamanaseverlived。Tact——that’sawoman’swholelife。
  Yououghttohaveusedtact。You’llgobacktohimandusetact。’’
  ``Youdon’tknowhim,mamma!’’criedMildred。
  ``He’samonster。Heisn’thuman。’’
  Mrs。Presburydrewalongfaceandsaidinasad,soothingvoice:``Yes,Iknow,dear。Menarevery,veryawful,insomeways,toanicewoman——withrefined,ladylikeinstincts。It’sagreatshocktoapure——’’
  ``Oh,gammon!’’interruptedMildred。``Don’tbesilly,mother。Itisn’tworthwhileforonewomantotalkthatkindofthingtoanother。Ididn’tfullyknowwhatIwasdoingwhenImarriedamanIdidn’tlove——amanwhowasalmostrepulsivetome。ButIknewenough。AndIwasgettingalongwellenough,asanywomandoes,nomatterwhatshemaysay——yes,youneedn’tlookshocked,forthat’shypocrisy,andIknowitnow——But,asIwassaying,Ididn’tbegintoHATE
  himuntilhetriedtomakeaslaveofme。Aslave!’’
  sheshuddered。``He’samonster!’’
  ``Alittletact,andyoucangeteverythingyouwant,’’
  insistedhermother。
  ``Itellyou,youdon’tknowtheman,’’criedMildred。
  ``BytactIsupposeyoumeanIcouldhavesoldthingsbehindhisback——andallthat。’’Shelaughed。``Hehasn’tgotanyback。Hehaditsoarrangedthatthosecold,wickedeyesofhiswerealwayswatchingme。Hissecondwifetried`tact。’Hecaughtheranddroveherintothestreets。I’dhavehadnochancetogetacent,andifIhadgottenitI’dnothavedaredspendit。DoyouimagineIranawayfromhimwithouthavingTHOUGHT?Ifthere’dbeenanywayofstayingon,anywayofmakingthingsevenendurable,I’dhavestayed。’’
  ``Butyou’vegottogoback,Milly,’’criedhermother,intears。
  ``Youmeanthatyoucan’tsupportme?’’
  ``AndyourbrotherFrank——’’Mrs。Presbury’seyesflashedandherratherstoutcheeksquivered。``I
  neverthoughtI’dtellanybody,butI’lltellyou。I
  neverlikedyourbrotherFrank,andheneverlikedme。
  Thatsoundsdreadful,doesn’tit?’’
  ``No,motherdear,’’saidMildredgently。``I’velearnedthatlifeisn’tatallas——aseverybodypretends。’’
  ``Indeeditisn’t,’’saidhermother。``Mothersalwayshavefavoritesamongtheirchildren,andveryoftenamotherdislikesoneofherchildren。Ofcourseshehidesherfeelinganddoesherduty。Butallthesameshecan’thelpthefeelingthatisdowninherheart。I
  hadapresentimentbeforehewasbornthatIwouldn’tlikehim,andsureenough,Ididn’t。Andhedidn’tlikeme,orhisfather,oranyofus。’’
  ``Itwouldneveroccurtometoturntohim,’’saidMildred。
  ``Thenyouseethatyou’vegottogobacktothegeneral。Youcan’tgetadivorceandalimony,foritwasyouthatlefthim——andfornocause。Hewaswithinhisrights。’’
  Mildredhesitated,confessed:``Ihadthoughtofgoingbacktohimandactinginsuchawaythathe’dbegladtogivemeadivorceandanallowance。’’
  ``Yes,youmightdothat,’’saidhermother。``A
  greatmanywomendo。And,afterall,haven’ttheyarightto?Aladyhasgottohavepropersupport,andisitjusttoaskhertolivewithamansheloathes?’’
  ``Ihaven’tthoughtoftherightorwrongofit,’’saidMildred。``Itlookstomeasthoughrightandwronghaveverylittletodowithlifeasit’slived。They’reforhypocrites——andfools。’’
  ``Mildred!’’exclaimedhermother,deeplyshocked。
  Mildredwasnotalittleshockedatherownthoughtsassheinspectedtheminthefulllightintowhichspeechhaddraggedthem。``Anyhow,’’shewenton,``Isoonsawthatsuchaplanwashopeless。He’snotthemantobetrifledwith。LongbeforeIcoulddrivehimtogivemealivingandletmegohewouldhavedrivenmetoflightorsuicide。’’
  HermotherhadnowhadtimetoreflectuponMildred’srevelations。Aidedbytheimpressionssheherselfhadgottenofthelittlegeneral,shebegantounderstandwhyherdaughterhadfledandwhyshewouldnotreturn。
  Shefeltthatthesituationwasonewhichtimealonecouldsolve。Saidshe:``Well,thebestthingisforyoutostayonhereandwaituntilhemakessomemove。’’
  ``He’llhavemewatched——that’sallhe’lldo,’’saidMildred。``Whenhegetsreadyhe’lldivorcemefordesertinghim。’’
  Mrs。Presburyfeltthatshewasright。But,concealingherdespondency,shesaid:``Allwecandoistowaitandsee。Youmustsendforyourluggage。’’
  ``I’venothingbutalargebag,’’saidMildred。``I
  checkeditintheparcel-roomoftheNewYorkstation。’’
  Mrs。Presburywasoverwhelmed。HowaccounttoHangingRockforthereappearanceofabaggagelessandhusbandlessbride?Butsheheldupbravely。
  Withacheerfulnessthatdidcredittoherheartandshowedhowwellshelovedherdaughtershesaid:``Wemustdothebestwecan。We’llgetupsomestory。’’
  ``No,’’saidMildred。``I’mgoingbacktoNewYork。Youcantellpeopleherewhatyouplease——
  thatI’vegonetorejoinhimortowaitforhim——anyoldthing。’’
  ``Atleastyou’llwaitandtalkwithPresbury,’’
  pleadedhermother。``HeisVERYsensible。’’
  ``Ifhehasanythingtosuggest,’’saidMildred,``hecanwriteit。I’llsendyoumyaddress。’’
  ``Milly,’’criedhermother,agitatedtothedepths,``whereAREyougoing?WHATareyougoingtodo?
  Youlooksostrange——notatalllikeyourself。’’
  ``I’mgoingtoahotelto-night——probablytoaboarding-houseto-morrow,’’saidMildred。``InafewdaysIshallbeginto——’’shehesitated,decidedagainstconfidence——’’begintosupportmyselfatsomethingorother。’’
  ``Youmustbecrazy!’’criedhermother。``Youwouldn’tdoanything——andyoucouldn’t。’’
  ``Let’snotdiscussit,mamma,’’saidthegirltranquilly。
  Themotherlookedatherwitheyesfullofthesuspiciononeladycannotbuthaveastotheprojectsofanotherladyinsuchcircumstances。
  ``Mildred,’’shesaidpleadingly,``youmustbecareful。You’llfindyourselfinvolvedinadreadfulscandal。
  Iknowyouwouldn’tDOanythingWRONGnomatterhowyouweredriven。But——’’
  ``I’llnotdoanythingFOOLISH,mamma,’’interruptedthegirl。``Youarethinkingaboutmen,aren’tyou?’’
  ``Menarealwaysreadytodestroyawoman,’’saidhermother。``Youmustbecareful——’’
  Mildredwaslaughing。``Oh,mamma,’’shecried,``dobesensibleanddogivemecreditforalittlesense。I’vegotaveryclearideaofwhatawomanoughttodoaboutmen,andIassureyouI’mnotgoingtobeFOOLISH。
  Andyouknowawomanwhoisn’tfoolishcanbetrustedwhereawomanwho’sonlyprotectedbyherprincipleswouldyieldtothefirsttemptation——orhuntroundforatemptation。’’
  ``Butyousimplycan’tgotoNewYorkandlivethereallalone——andwithnothing!’’
  ``CanIstayhere——formorethanafewdays?’’
  ``Butmaybe,afterafewdays——’’stammeredhermother。
  ``Yousee,I’vegottobegin,’’saidMildred。``Sowhydelay?I’dgainnothing。I’dsimplystartHangingRocktogossiping——andstartMr。Presburytoactinglikeafiendagain。’’
  Hermotherrefusedtobeconvinced——wasthefirmer,perhaps,becauseshesawthatMildredwasunshakableinherresolvetoleaveforthwith——theobviouslysensibleandlesstroublesomecourse。TheyemployedtherestofMildred’sthreehours’stopinarguing——whenMildredwasnotragingagainstthelittlegeneral。Hermotherwasmorethanwillingtoassistherinthisdenunciation,butMildredpreferredtodoitallherself。
  Shehad——perhapsbyunconsciouslyabsorbedtrainingfromherlawyerfather——anunusualdegreeofabilitytoseebothsidesofaquestion。Whensheassailedherhusband,shesawonlyherownside。butsomehowwhenhermotherrailedandraved,shebegantoseeanotherside——andthesightwasnotagreeable。Shewishedtofeelthatherhusbandwasaltogetherinthewrong。
  shedidnotwishtohaveintrudeduponhersuchfactsasthatshehadsoldherselftohim——quiteinthecustomarywayofladies,butneverthelessquiteshamelessly——orthatinstrictjusticeshehaddonenothingforhimtoentitlehertoaliberalmoneyallowanceoranyallowanceatall。
  Onthetrain,goingbacktoNewYork,sheadmittedtoherselfthattherepulsivelittlegeneralhadheldstrictlytothetermsofthebargain——’’butonlyadevilandonewithnotasinglegentlemanlyinstinctwouldinsistonsuchabargain。’’Ittookawaymuchoftheshame,andallofthesting,ofdespisingherselftofeelthatshewaslookingstilllowerwhensheturnedtodespisinghim。
  Toedgeoutthelittlegeneralshebegantothinkofhermother,butasshepassedinreviewwhathermotherhadsaidandhowshehadsaiditshesawthatforalltheprotestsandarguingshermotherwasmorethanresignedtoherdeparture。Mildredfeltnobitterness。
  eversinceshecouldrememberhermotherhadbeenashifterofresponsibility。Still,tostareintothefaceofsodisagreeableafactasthatonehadnoplaceonearthtogoto,nooneonearthtoturnto,notevenone’sownmother——tostareonatthatgrimacinguglinessdidnottendtocheerfulness。Mildredtriedtothinkofthefuture——buthowcouldshethinkofsomethingthatwasnothing?Sheknewthatshewouldgoon,somehow,insomedirection,butbynoeffortofherimaginationcouldshepictureit。Shewassoimpressedbythenecessityofconsideringthefuturethat,torouseherself,shetriedtofrightenherselfwithpicturesofpovertyandmisery,ofherselfaderelictinthevastandcolddesertofNewYork——perhapsinrags,hungry,ill,butallinvain。Shedidnotbelieveit。
  Alwaysshehadhadplentytowearandtoeat,andcomfortablesurroundings。Shecouldnomorethinkofherselfaswithoutthosethingsthanalivingpersoncanimaginehimselfdead。
  ``I’mafool,’’shesaidtoherself。``I’mcertaintogetintoallsortsoftrouble。Howcanitbeotherwise,whenI’venomoney,nofriends,noexperience,nowayofmakingaliving——nohonestway——perhapsnowayoftheotherkind,either?’’Therearemanywomenwhoecstasizetheireasilytickledvanitiesbyfancyingthatiftheyweresodisposedtheyneedonlyflutteraneyelidtohavemenbythelegionstrivingfortheirfavors,eachmanwithabagofgold。Mildred,inexperiencedasshewas,hadnosuchdelusions。Hermindhappenednottobeofthatchastelylicentiouscastewhichcontinuallyrevolvesandfantasticallyexaggeratesthethingsofthebody。
  Shecouldnotunderstandherownindifferenceaboutthefuture。ShedidnotrealizethatitwaswhollyduetoStanleyBaird’soffer。Shewasimaginingshewasregardingthatofferassomethingshemightpossiblyconsider,butprobablywouldnot。Shedidnotknowthathersoulhadseizeduponit,hadenfoldeditandwouldonnoaccountletitgo。Itisthehabitofoursecretselvesthustomakedecisionsandawaittheirowngoodtimeformakingusacquaintedwiththem。
  Withherbagontheseatbesidehershesetouttofindatemporarylodging。Notuntilseveralhotelshadrefusedheradmittanceonthepretextthattheywere``fullup’’didsherealizethatayoungwomanaloneisanobjectofsuspicioninNewYork。Whenafourthroom-clerkexpressedhispoliteregretsshelookedhimstraightintheeyeandsaid:
  ``Iunderstand。ButIcan’tsleepinthestreet。YoumusttellmewhereIcango。’’
  ``Well,there’stheRiponoverinSeventhAvenue,’’
  saidhe。
  ``Isitrespectable?’’saidshe。
  ``Oh,it’sverycleanandcomfortablethere,’’saidhe。
  ``They’lltreatyouright。’’
  ``Isitrespectable?’’saidshe。
  ``Well,now,itdoesn’tLOOKqueer,ifthat’swhatyoumean,’’repliedhe。``You’lldoverynicelythere。Youcanbejustasquietasyouwant。’’
  ShesawthathotelNewYorkwouldnotbelieveherrespectable。SototheRiponshewent,andwasadmittedwithoutdiscussion。Asthelastrespectableclerkhadsaid,itdidnotLOOKqueer。ButitFELTqueer。sheresolvedthatshewouldgointoaboarding-housetheverynextday。
  Hereagainwhatseemedsimpleproveddifficult。Norespectableboarding-housewouldhaveMissMaryStevens。Shewasconfidentthatnothinginherdressormannerhintedmystery。Yetthosesharp-eyedland-
  ladiesseemedtoknowatoncethattherewassomethingpeculiarabouther。Mostofthembecamerudetheinstanttheyseteyesuponher。Afew——oftheobviouslylessprosperousclass——talkedwithher,seemedtobelisteningforsomethingwhichherfailingtosaydecidedthemuponallbutorderingheroutofthehouse。She,hinderedbyherinnocence,wasslowinrealizingthatshecouldnothopeforadmissiontoanyselectrespectablecircle,evenofhigh-classsalesladiesandclerks,unlessshegaveafreeandclearaccountofherself——
  whenceshehadcome,whatshewasdoing,howshegothermoney。
  Towardtheendofthesecondday’swearisomeandhumiliatingsearchshefoundahousethatwouldadmither。Itwasapretentious,well-furnishedbighouseinMadisonAvenue。Theprice——thirty-fivedollarsaweekforboard,abedroomwithafoldingbedinanalcove,andabath,wasmorethandoublewhatshehadcountedonpaying,butshediscoveredthatdecentandcleanlodgingsandfoodfittoeatwerenottobehadforless。``AndIsimplycan’tlivepig-fashion,’’saidshe。``I’dbesodepressedthatIcoulddonothing。I
  can’tlivelikeawildanimal,andIwon’t。’’Shehadsomevaguenotion——foreboding——thatthiswasnottheproperspiritwithwhichtofacelife。``IsupposeI’mhorriblyfoolish,’’reflectedshe,``butifImustgodown,I’llgodownwithmycolorsflying。’’Shedidnotknowpreciselywhatthatphrasemeant,butitsoundedfineandbraveandheartenedhertotaketheexpensivelodgings。
  ThelandladywasaMrs。Belloc。Mildredhadnottalkedwithhertwentyminutesbeforeshehadafeelingthatthisnamewasassumed。Theeveningofherfirstdayinthehouseshelearnedthatherguesswascorrect——learneditfromthelandladyherself。AfterdinnerMrs。Belloccameintoherroomtocheerherup,tofindoutaboutherandtotellheraboutherself。
  ``Nowthatyou’vecome,’’saidshe,``thehouseisfullup——exceptsomelittleroomsatthetopthatI’dasliefnotfill。Theprobabilitiesarethatanyladieswhowouldtakethemwouldn’tberefinedenoughtosuitthoseIhave。Therearesix,notcountingme,everyonewithabathandtwowithprivateparlors。Andasthey’reallhandsome,sensiblewomen,ladylikeandsteady,Ithinktheprospectsarethatthey’llpaypromptlyandthatIwon’thaveanytrouble。’’
  Mildredreflecteduponthiscuriousstatement。Itsoundedinnocentenough,yetwhatapeculiarwaytoputasimplefact。
  ``Ofcourseit’snoneofmybusinesshowpeopleliveaslongastheykeepuptherespectabilities,’’pursuedMrs。Belloc。``Itdon’tdotoinquireintopeopleinNewYork。Mostof’emcomeherebecausetheywanttoliveastheyplease。’’
  ``Nodoubt,’’saidMildredalittlenervously,forshesuspectedherlandladyofhittingather,andwonderedifshehadcometocross-examineherand,iftheresultswerenotsatisfactory,toputherintothestreet。
  ``Iknow_I_cameforthatreason,’’pursuedMrs。
  Belloc。``Iwasaschool-teacherupinNewEnglanduntilabouttwoyearsago。Didyoueverteachschool?’’
  ``Notyet,’’saidMildred。``AndIdon’tthinkIevershall。Idon’tknowenough。’’
  ``Oh,yes,youdo。Ateacherdoesn’tneedtoknowmuch。Thewagesaresopoor——atleastupinNewEngland——thattheydon’texpectyoutoknowanything。
  It’sallinthebooks。IleftbecauseIcouldn’tendurethelife。Lord!howdullthoselittletownsare!
  Everliveinalittletown?’’
  ``Allmylife,’’saidMildred。
  ``Well,you’llnevergoback。’’
  ``Ihopenot。’’
  ``Youwon’t。Whyshouldyou?Asensiblewomanwithlooks——especiallyifsheknowshowtocarryherclothes——canstayinNewYorkaslongasshepleases,andliveoffthefatoftheland。’’
  ``That’sgoodnews,’’saidMildred。Shebegantolikethelandlady——notforwhatshesaid,butforthefreeandfrankandfriendlywayofthesaying——ahumanway,acomradelyway,alive-and-let-liveway。
  ``Ididn’tescapefromNewEnglandwithoutastruggle,’’continuedMrs。Belloc,whowasplainlyshowingthatshehadtakenagreatfancyto``MaryStevens。’’
  ``Isupposeitwashardtosavethemoneyoutofyoursalary,’’saidMildred。
  Mrs。Belloclaughed。Shewasaboutthirty-fiveyearsold,thoughhereyesandherfigurewereyoungerthanthat。Hermouthwaspleasantenough,buthadlostsomeofitsfreshness。``Savemoney!’’criedshe。
  ``I’dneverhavesucceededthatway。I’dbethereyet。
  Ihadnevermarried——hadtwoorthreechances,butallfrompoorstickslookingforsomeonetosupportthem。Isawmyselfgettingold。IwaslookingyearsolderthanIdonow。Talkaboutseaairforfresheningawomanup——itisn’tinitwiththeairofNewYork。
  Here’sthetownwherewomenstayyoung。IfIhadcomeherefiveyearsagoIcouldalmosttryforthesquabclass。’’
  ``Squabclass?’’queriedMildred。
  ``Yes,squabs。Don’tyouseethemaroundeverywhere?——
  thewomendressedlikegirlsofsixteentoeighteen——andsomeofthemarethat,andyounger。
  Theygohoppingandlaughingabout——andtheyseemtopleasethemenandtohavenoendofagoodtime。
  Especiallytheoldishmen。Oh,yes,youknowasquabonsight——tightskirt,lowshoesandsilkstockings,cuteprettyface,alwayslaughing,hatsetonrakishlyandhairdonetomatch,andalwaysabigpurseorbag——withayellow-backorsoinit——asakindofahint,Iguess。’’
  Mildredhadseensquabs。``I’veenviedthem——inaway,’’saidshe。``Theirparentsseemtoletthemdoaboutastheyplease。’’
  ``Theirparentsdon’tknow——ordon’tcare。Sometimesit’sone,sometimestheother。Theytravelintwosets。Oneiswheretheymeetyoungfellowsoftheirownclass——thekindthey’llprobablymarry,unlesstheyhappentodrawthecapitalprize。Theothersettheytravelin——well,it’stheoldermentheymeetroundtheswellhotelsandsoon——theyellow-backmen。’’
  ``Howqueer!’’exclaimedMildred,beforewhoseeyesanewworldwasopening。``Buthowdothey——these——squabs——accountforthemoney?’’
  ``Howdoathousandandonewomeninthisfunnytownaccountathomeformoneyandthings?’’retortedMrs。Belloc。``Nothing’seasier。Forinstance,oftenthesesquabsdo——orpretendtodo——alittlesomethinginthewayofwork——alittlecanvassingorartists’
  modeloranythingyouplease。Thathelpsthemtoexplainathome——andalsotomakeeachoftheyellow-
  backmenthinkhe’stheonlyoneandthathe’sbeingalmostlovedforhimselfalone。’’
  Mrs。Belloclaughed。Mildredwastooastonishedtolaugh,andtoointerested——andtoostartledorshocked。
  ``ButIwastellingyouhow_I_gotdownhere,’’
  continuedthelandlady。``Upinmytowntherewasanoldman——aboutseventy-five——closeasthebarkonatree,anduglyandmean。’’Shepausedtodrawalongbreathandtoshakeherheadangrilyyettriumphantlyatsomefigureherfancyconjuredup。
  ``Oh,heWASapup!——andis!Well,anyhow,I
  decidedthatI’dmarryhim。SoIwrotehomeforfiftydollars。Iborrowedanotherfiftyhereandthere。I
  hadseventy-fivesavedupagainstsickness。IwentuptoBostonandlaiditalloutinunderclothesandhousethings——notshowybutfineandgoodtolookat。Thenoneday,whentheweatherwasfineandIknewtheoldmanwouldbeoutinhisbuggydrivinground——I
  dressedmyselfuptobeattheband。Itookhourstoit——scrubbing,powdering,sacheting,perfuming,fixingthehair,fixingmyfinger-nails,fixingupmyfeet,polishingeverynailandmakingthemlookbetterthanmosthands。’’
  Mildredwassointerestedthatshewasexcited。Whatstrangefreakwascoming?
  ``Younevercouldguess,’’pursuedMrs。Belloc,complacently。``Itookmysunshadeandwentout,allgotuptokill。AndIwalkedalongtheroaduntilIsawtheoldman’sbuggycomingwithhiminit。ThenI
  gavemyankleafrightfulwrench。My!Howithurt!’’
  ``Whatapity!’’saidMildredsympathetically。
  ``Whatashame!’’
  ``Apity?Ashame?’’criedMrs。Belloc,laughing。
  ``Why,mydear,Ididita-purpose。’’
  ``Onpurpose!’’exclaimedMildred。
  ``Certainly。Thatwasmygame。Iscreamedoutwithpain——andthescreamwasnofake,Icantellyou。AndIfelldownbytheroadsideonanicegrassyspotwherenodustwouldgetonme。Well,upcomestheoldskinflintinhisbuggy。Heclimbeddownandhelpedmegetoffmyslipperandstocking。IknewIhadhimtheminuteIsawhisoldfacelookingatthatfootIhadfixedupsobeautifully。’’
  ``HowDIDyoueverthinkofit?’’exclaimedMildred。
  ``Goandteachschoolfortenyearsinadulllittletown,mydear——andlookintheglasseverydayandseeyouryouthfadingaway——andyou’llthinkofmostanything。Well,tomakealongstoryshort,theoldmantookmeinthebuggytohishousewherehelivedwithhisdeaf,half-blindoldwidoweddaughter。Ihadtostaytherethreeweeks。Imarriedhimthefourthweek。AndjusttwomonthstoadayfromtheafternoonIsprainedmyankle,hegavemefiftydollarsaweek——allsignedandsealedbyalawyer——togoawayandleavehimalone。Imighthavestoodoutformore,butIwastooanxioustogettoNewYork。AndhereIam!’’Shegazedaboutthewell-furnishedroom,typicalofthatalmostluxurioushouse,withanairoftriumphantsatisfaction。Saidshe:``I’venopatiencewithawomanwhosaysshecan’tgeton。Where’sherbrains?’’
  Mildredwassilent。Perhapsitwasafeelingofwhatwashazilyintheyoungerwoman’smindandadesiretoansweritthatledMrs。Belloctosayfurther:``I
  supposethere’ssomethatwouldcriticizemywayofgettingthere。ButIwanttoknow,don’tallwomengettherebyworkingmen?Onlymostofthemaresostupidthattheyhavetogoonlivingwiththeman。
  Ithinkit’slowtolivewithamanyouhate。’’
  ``Oh,I’mnotcriticizinganybody,’’saidMildred。
  ``Ididn’tthinkyouwere,’’saidMrs。Belloc。``IfIhadn’tseenyouweren’tthatkind,I’dnothavebeensoconfidential。NotthatI’msecretivewithanybody。
  IsayanddowhatIplease。Anyonewhodoesn’tlikemywayormecantaketheothersideofthestreet。
  Ididn’tcometoNewYorktogoinsociety。IcameheretoLIVE。’’
  Mildredlookedatheradmiringly。TherewerethingsaboutMrs。Bellocthatshedidnotadmire。otherthings——suspectedratherthanknownthings——thatsheknewshewouldshrinkfrom,butsheheartilyadmiredandprofoundlyenviedherutterindifferencetotheopinionofothers,herfineindependentwayofwalkingherownpathatherowngait。
  ``Itookthisboarding-house,’’Mrs。Bellocwenton,``becauseIdidn’twanttobelonesome。Idon’tlikeall——orevenmostof——theladiesthatlivehere。Butthey’reallamusingtotalkwith——anddon’tputonairsexceptwiththeirmenfriends。Andoneortwoaretherealthing——good-hearted,fondofajoke,with-
  outanymeanness。Itellyou,NewYorkisamightyfineplaceifyouget`inright。’Ofcourse,ifyoudon’t,it’sh-e-l-l。’’Mrs。Belloctookoffitsunrefinededgebyspellingit。``Butwhatplaceisn’t?’’sheadded。
  ``Andyourhusbandneverbothersyou?’’inquiredMildred。
  ``Andneverwill,’’repliedMrs。Belloc。``WhenhediesI’llcomeintoalittlemore——aboutahundredandfiftyaweekinall。Notafortune,butenoughwithwhattheboarding-housebringsin。I’maprettyfairbusinesswoman。’’
  ``Ishouldsayso!’’exclaimedMildred。
  ``YousaidyouwereMissStevens,didn’tyou?’’saidMrs。Belloc——andMildredknewthatherturnhadcome。
  ``Yes,’’repliedshe。``ButIamalsoamarriedwoman。’’Shehesitated,reddened。``Ididn’tgiveyoumymarriedname。’’
  ``That’syourownbusiness,’’saidMrs。Bellocinhereasiestmanner。``Myrightnameisn’tBelloc,either。
  ButI’vedroppedthatotherlife。Youneedn’tfeelabitembarrassedinthishouse。SomeofmyboardersSEEMtobemarried。Allthathaveregular-appearinghusbandsSAYtheyare。WhatdoIcare,solongaseverythinggoesalongsmoothly?Idon’tgetexcitedabouttrifles。’’
  ``SomedayperhapsI’lltellyouaboutmyself,’’saidMildred。``JustatpresentI——well,Iseemnottobeabletotalkaboutthings。’’
  ``It’snotabadideatokeepyourmouthshut,aslongasyouraffairsareunsettled,’’advisedMrs。Belloc。
  ``Icanseeyou’vehadlittleexperience。Butyou’llcomeoutallright。Justkeepcool,anddon’tfretabouttrifles。Anddon’tletanymanmakeafoolofyou。That’swherewewomengetleft。We’reafraidofmen。Weneedn’tbe。Wecanmightyeasilymakethemafraidofus。Usethesofthandtillyougethimwellinyourgrip。Thenthefirmhand。Nothingcoarseorcruelormean。Butfirmandself-respecting。’’
  MildredwastemptedtotakeMrs。Bellocfullyintoherconfidenceandgetthebenefitoftheadviceofshrewdnessandexperience。Sostrongwasthetemptation,shewouldhaveyieldedtoithadMrs。Bellocaskedafewtactful,penetratingquestions。ButMrs。
  Bellocrefrained,andMildred’stimidityordelicacyinducedhertopostpone。ThenextdayshewroteStanleyBaird,givingheraddressandhernameandaskinghimtocall``anyafternoonatfourorfive。’’Sheassumedthathewouldcomeonthefollowingday,buttheletterhappenedtoreachhimwithinanhourofhermailingit,andhecamethatveryafternoon。
  Whenshewentdowntothedrawing-roomtoreceivehim,shefoundhimstandinginthemiddleoftheroomgazingaboutwithaquizzicalexpression。Assoonasthegreetingswereoverhesaid:
  ``Youmustgetoutofhere,Mildred。Thiswon’tdo。’’
  ``IndeedIshan’t,’’saidshe。``I’velookedeverywhere,andthisistheonlycomfortableplaceIcouldfind——wheretherateswerereasonableandwherethelandladydidn’thavehernoseineverybody’sbusiness。’’
  ``Youdon’tunderstand,’’saidhe。``Thisisabird-
  cage。Highlygilded,butabird-cage。’’
  Shehadneverheardthephrase,butsheunderstood——
  andinstantlysheknewthathewasright。Shecoloredviolently,satdownabruptly。Butinamomentsherecoveredherself,andwithfinedefiancesaid:
  ``Idon’tcare。Mrs。Bellocisakind-heartedwoman,andit’saseasytoberespectablehereasanywhere。’’
  ``Sure,’’assentedhe。``Butyou’vegottoconsiderappearancestoacertainextent。Youwon’tbeabletofindtherightsortofaboarding-house——oneyou’dbecomfortablein。You’vegottohaveaflatofyourown。’’
  ``Ican’taffordit,’’saidMildred。``Ican’taffordthis,even。ButIsimplywillnotliveinashabby,mussyway。’’
  ``That’sright!’’criedStanley。``Youcan’tdoproperworkinpoorsurroundings。Somewomencould,butnotyoursort。Butdon’tworry。I’mgoingtoseeyouthrough。I’llfindaplace——rightaway。
  Youwanttostartinatonce,don’tyou?’’
  ``I’vegotto,’’saidMildred。
  ``Thenleaveitalltome。’’
  ``ButWHATamItodo?’’
  ``Sing,ifyoucan。Ifnot,thenact。We’llhaveyouonthestagewithinayearorso。I’msureofit。
  AndI’llgetmymoneyback,withinterest。’’
  ``Idon’tseehowIcanacceptit,’’saidMildredveryfeebly。
  ``You’vegotto,’’saidStanley。``Whatalternativeisthere?None。Solet’sbothernomoreaboutit。
  I’llconsultwiththosewhoknow,findoutwhatthethingcosts,andarrangeeverything。You’reashelplessasababy,andyouknowit。’’
  Yes,Mildredknewit。
  Helookedatherwithanamusedsmile。``Come,outwithit!’’hecried。``You’vegotsomethingonyourmind。Let’sgeteverythingstraight——andkeepitthatway。’’
  Mildredhungherhead。
  ``You’reuneasybecauseI,aman,amdoingthisforyou,ayoungwoman?Isthatit?’’
  ``Yes,’’sheconfessed。
  Heleanedbackinhischair,crossedhislegs,andspokeinabrisk,businesslikeway。``Inthefirstplace,it’sgottobedone,hasn’tit?Andsomeonehasgottodoit?Andthereisnooneofferingbutme?AmIright?’’
  Shenodded。
  ``Then_I_’vegottodoit,andyou’veGOTtoletme。
  There’slogic,ifevertherewaslogic。APhiladelphialawyercouldn’tknockaholeinit。Youtrustme,don’tyou?’’
  Shewassilent。
  ``Youdon’ttrustme,then,’’saidhecheerfully。
  ``Well,perhapsyou’reright。Butyoutrustyourself,don’tyou?’’
  Shemovedrestlessly,butremainedsilent。
  ``YouareafraidImightputyouinadifficultposition?’’
  ``Somethinglikethat,’’sheadmitted,inalow,embarrassedvoice。
  ``YoufearthatIexpectsomereturnwhichyoudonotintendtogive?’’
  Shewassilent。
  ``Well,Idon’t,’’saidhebluntly。``Soputyourmindatrest。SomedayI’lltellyouwhyIamdoingthis,butIwantyoutofeelthatIasknothingofyoubutmymoneybackwithinterest,whenyoucanaffordtopay。’’
  ``Ican’tfeelthat,’’saidshe。``You’reputtingmeinyourdebt——soheavilythatI’dfeelIoughttopayanythingyouasked。ButIcouldn’tandwouldn’tpay。’’
  ``Unlessyoufeltlikeit?’’suggestedhe。
  ``It’shonestformetowarnyouthatI’mnotlikelytofeelthatway。’’
  ``Thereissuchathingaswinningawoman’slove,isn’tthere?’’saidhejestingly。ItwasdifficulttotellwhenStanleyBairdwasjestingandwhenhewasinearnest。
  ``Isthatwhatyouexpect?’’saidshegravely。
  ``IfIsayyes?’’
  Sheloweredhereyesandlaughedinanembarrassedway。
  Hewasfranklyamused。``Yousee,youfeelthatyou’reinmypower。Andyouare。Sowhynotmakethebestofit?’’Apause,thenhesaidabruptlyandwithaconvincingmanliness,``Ithink,Mildred,youcantrustmenottobeabeast。’’
  Shecoloredandlookedathimwithquickcontrition。
  ``I’mashamedofmyself,’’saidshe。``PleaseforgetthatIsaidanything。I’lltakewhatImust,andI’llpayitbackassoonasIcan。And——thankyou,Stanley。’’
  Thetearswereinhereyes。``IfIhadanythingworthyourtakingI’dbegladtogiveittoyou。Whatvainfoolswewomenare!’’
  ``Aren’tyou,though!’’laughedhe。``Andnowit’sallsettled——untilyou’reonthestage,andfree,andthemoney’spaidback——WITHinterest。Ishallchargeyousixpercent。’’
  Whenshefirstknewhimshehadnotbeenintheleastimpressedbywhatnowseemedtoherhisfinestandraresttrait,for,inthosedaysshehadbeenasignorantoftherealitiesofhumannatureasonewhohasneveradventuredhisboatbeyondthemouthofthepeacefulland-lockedharborisignorantoftheopensea。Butinthehardyearsshehadbeenlearning——notonlyfromPresburyandGeneralSiddall,butfromthecookandthehousemaid,fromeverycreditor,everytradesman,everyonewhoseattitudesociallytowardherhadbeenmodifiedbyherchangedfortunes——andwhoseattitudehadnotbeenchanged?Thus,shewasnowabletoappreciate——atleastinsomemeasure——StanleyBaird’sdelicacyandtact。No,notdelicacyandtact,forthatimpliedeffort。Hisabilitytoputthisofferinsuchawaythatshecouldacceptwithoutseriousembarrassmentarosefromagenuineindifferencetomoneyasmoney,ahabitoflookinguponitsimplyasameanstoanend。Heofferedherthemoneypreciselyashewouldhaveofferedherhissuperiorstrengthifithadbeennecessarytocrossatoodeepandswiftcreek。Shehadthesensethathefelthewasdoingsomethingevenlessnotablethanheadmitted,andthathetalkedofitasavaluableandratherunusualservicesimplybecauseitwasthehabitthustoregardsuchmatters。
  Astheytalkedonof``thegreatcareer’’herspiritswentupandup。Itwasevidentthathenowhadanewandkeeninterestinlife,thatshewasdoinghimagreaterfavorthanhewasdoingher。Hehadalwayshadmoney,plentyofit,morethanhecoulduse。Henowhadmorethanever——for,severalrichrelativeshaddiedand,afterthehabitoftherich,hadlefteverythingtohim,theoneofalltheconnectionswhoneededitleast。Hehadaveryhumanaversiontospendingmoneyuponpeopleorthingshedidnotlike。Hewouldhavefoughttothelastcourtanattemptbyhiswifetogetalimony。Hehadareputationwiththe``charitygang’’ofbeingstingybecausehewouldnotgivethemsomuchasthepriceofabazaarticket。
  Also,theimpecuniousspongersathisclubsspreadhisfameasa``tight-wad’’becauseherefusedtoletthem``stickhimup’’forevenaroundofdrinks。Wheremanyareallystingymanyieldedthroughweaknessorfearofpublicopinion,hestoodfirm。Hisonenotablesurrenderofanykindhadbeenhismarriage。
  thatbitterexperiencehadcuredhimofthesurrenderinghabitforalltime。Thenceforthhedidabsolutelyandineverythingashepleased。
  Mildredhadheardthathewascloseaboutmoney。
  Shehadallbutforgottenit,becauseherownexperiencewithhimhadmadesuchachargeseemridiculous。
  Shenowassumed——sofarasshethoughtaboutitatall——thathewasextremelygenerous。Shedidnotrealizewhatafinediscriminatinggenerosityhiswas,orhowstrikinganevidenceofhisbeliefinheraswellasofhislikingforher。
  Asherosetogohesaid:``Youmustn’tforgetthatourarrangementisasecretbetweenus。Neitherofuscanaffordtohaveanyoneknowit。’’
  ``Thereisn’tanyoneintheworldwhowouldn’tmisunderstandit,’’saidshe,withouttheleastfeelingofembarrassment。
  ``Justso,’’saidhe。``AndIwantyoutoliveinsuchawaythatIcancometocall。Wemustarrangethingssothatyouwilltakeyourownname——’’
  ``IintendtousethenameMaryStevensinmywork,’’sheinterrupted。
  ``Buttheremustn’tbeanyconcealment,anymysterytoexcitecuriosityandscandal——’’
  Thistimetheinterruptionwasherexpression。Heturnedtoseewhathadstartledher,andsawinthedoorwayofthedrawing-roomthegrotesquelyneatandstylishfigureofthelittlegeneral。Beforeeithercouldspeakhesaid:
  ``Howd’youdo,Mr。Baird?You’llpardonmeifIaskyoutoleavemealonewithmyWIFE。’’
  Stanleymetthesituationwithperfectcoolness。
  ``Howareyou,General?’’saidhe。``Certainly,I
  wasjustgoing。’’HeextendedhishandtoMildred,saidinacorrecttoneofconventionalfriendliness,``Thenyou’llletmeknowwhenyou’resettled?’’Hebowed,movedtowardthedoor,shookhandswiththegeneral,andpassedout,givingfromstarttofinishamodelexampleofamanoftheworldextricatinghim-
  selffromanimpossiblesituationandleavingitthebetterforhishavingbeenentangled。ToamanofSiddall’sincessantandclumsyself-consciousnesssuchunaffectedeasecouldnotbutbeproofpositiveofMildred’sinnocence——unlesshehadoverheard。Andhisfirstwordsconvincedherthathehadnot。Saidhe:
  ``Soyousentforyouroldadmirer?’’
  ``Iranacrosshimaccidentally,’’repliedMildred。
  ``Iknow,’’saidthelittlegeneral。``Mymenpickedyouupatthepierandhaven’tlostsightofyousince。
  It’sfortunatethatI’vekeptmyselfinformed,orI
  mighthavemisunderstoodthatchap’sbeinghere。’’A
  queer,cloudylookcameintohiseyes。``Imustgivehimawarningforsafety’ssake。’’HewavedhishandindismissalofsuchanunimportanttrifleastheaccidentalBaird。Hewenton,hiswickedeyesbentcoldlyanddullyuponher:``Doyouknowwhatkindofahousethisis?’’
  ``StanleyBairdurgedmetoleave,’’repliedshe。
  ``ButIshallstayuntilIfindabetter——andthat’snoteasy。’’
  ``Yes,mymenhavereportedtomeonthedifficultiesyou’vehad。ItwascertainlyfortunateforyouthatIhadthemlookafteryou。OtherwiseI’dneverhaveunderstoodyourlandinginthissortofahouse。
  Youarereadytocomewithme?’’
  ``YoursecretaryexplainedthatifIleftthehotelitwastheend。’’
  ``Hetoldyouthatbymyorders。’’
  ``Soheexplained,’’saidMildred。Sheseatedherself,overcomebyasuddenlassitudethatwasaccompaniednotbyfear,butbyindifference。``Won’tyousitdown?
  Iamwillingtohearwhatyouhavetosay。’’
  Thelittlegeneral,abouttosit,wassoastonishedthathestraightenedandstiffenedhimself。``InconsentingtooverlookyourconductandtakeyoubackIhavegonefartherthanIeverintended。Ihavetakenintoconsiderationyouryouthandinexperience。’’
  ``ButIamnotgoingback,’’saidMildred。
  Thelittlegeneralslowlyseatedhimself。``Youhavelessthantwohundredandfiftydollarsleft,’’saidhe。
  ``Really?YourspiesknowbetterthanI。’’
  ``IhaveseenPresbury。Heassuresmethatinnocircumstanceswillheandyourmothertakeyouback。’’
  ``Theywillnothavethechancetorefuse,’’saidMildred。
  ``Asforyourbrother——’’
  ``Ihavenobrother,’’saidshecoldly。
  ``Thenyouarecomingbackwithme。’’
  ``No,’’saidMildred。``Ishould’’——shecastaboutforanimpressivealternative——``Ishouldstayonhere,rather。’’
  Thelittlegeneral——hisneatvarnishedleatherandbe-spattedshoesjusttouchedthefloor——examinedhishighlypolishedtop-hatatseveralangles。Finallyhesaid:``Youneednotfearthatyourmisconductwillberememberedagainstyou。Ishalltreatyouineverywayasmywife。Ishallassumethatyour——yourflightwasanimpulsethatyouregret。’’
  ``Ishan’tgoback,’’saidMildred。``Nothingyoucouldofferwouldchangeme。’’
  ``Icannotmakeanyimmediateconcessiononthe——
  thematterthatcausedyoutogo,’’pursuedhe,asifshehadnotspoken,``butifIseethatyouhavereliabilityandgoodsense,I’llagreetogiveyouanallowancelater。’’
  Mildredeyedhimcuriously。``Whyareyoumakingtheseoffers,theseconcessions?’’shesaid。``Youthinkeveryoneintheworldisafoolexceptyourself。You’regreatlydeceived。Iknowthatyoudon’tmeanwhatyou’vebeensaying。Iknowthatifyougotmeinyourpoweragain,youwoulddosomethingfrightful。
  I’veseenthroughthatmaskyouwear。Iknowthekindofmanyouare。’’