Thegeneralsmiledgenially。``IthinkImaysaywithoutconceitthatyouwilllikemeasyouknowmebetter。Ihavenobadhabits——I’vetoomuchregardformyhealthtoover-indulgeorrunloose。InmyboyhooddaysImayhaveputinratheraheavysowingofwildoats’’——thegenerallaughed。Mildredconjuredupthewintriestandfaintestofechoingsmiles——``butthat’sallpast,’’hewenton,``andthere’snothingthatcouldriseuptointerferewithourhappiness。Youarefondofchildren?’’
Apause,thenMildredsaidquiteevenly,``Yes。’’
``Excellent,’’saidthegeneral。``I’llexpectyouandyourmotherandfathertodinnerSundaynight。Isthatsatisfactory?’’
``Yes,’’saidMildred。
Alongishpause。Thenthegeneral:``Youseemtobealittle——afraidofme。Idon’tknowwhyitisthatpeoplearealwaysthatwaywithme。’’Ahalt,togivehertheopportunitytosaytheobviousflatteringthing。
Mildredsaidnothing,gavenosign。Hewenton:``Itwillwearawayasweknoweachotherbetter。Iamasimple,plainman——kindandgenerousinmyinstincts。
OfcourseIamdignified,andIdonotlikefamiliarity。
ButIdonotmeantoinspirefearandawe。’’
Astilllongerpause。``Well,everythingissettled,’’
saidthegeneral。``Weunderstandeachotherclearly?——
notanengagement,nothingbindingoneitherside——simplya——a——anoptionwithoutforfeit。’’Andhelaughed——hislaughwasaghoulishsound,notloudbutexplosiveandaninstantcheckupondemonstrationofmirthfromanyoneelse。
``Iunderstand,’’saidMildredwithaglancetowardthedoorthroughwhichPresburyandhiswifehaddisappeared。
``Now,we’lljointheothers,andI’llshowyouthehouse’’——againthelaugh——``whatmaybeyourfuturehome——oneofthem。’’
Thefourweresoonstarteduponwhatwasforthreeofthemawearifuljourneydespitetheelevatorthatsparedthemtheascentsofthestairways。Thehousewasanexaggeratedreproductionofalltheestablishmentsoftherichwhoconfuseexpenditurewithluxuryandcomfort。BillSiddallhadbought``thebestofeverything’’。thatis,thethingsintowhichthepurveyorsofcostlyfurnishingshaveputthemostexcusesforcharging。Oftaste,ofcomfort,ofdiscrimination,therewerefewtracesandtheseobviouslyaccidental。
``Ipickedoutthemenacknowledgedtobethebestintheirdifferentlines,’’saidthegeneral,``andIgavethemcarteblanche。’’
``Iseethatataglance,’’saidPresbury。``You’vedonethegrandthingonthegrandestpossiblescale。’’
``I’velookedintothefinestofthefamousplacesontheotherside,’’saidthegeneral。``AllIcansayis,I’vehadnoregrets。’’
``Ishouldsaynot,’’criedMrs。Presbury。
Withanaffectationofmodesthesitation——toshowthathewasagentlemanwithagentleman’sfineappreciationofthedueofmaidenmodesty——Siddallpausedattheouterdoorofhisownapartments。ButatonesentenceofurgingfromMrs。Presburyheopenedthedoorandusheredthemin。Andsoonhewasshowingthemeverything——hisCarraramarblebathroomandbathing-pool,hisbedthathadbeenusedbyseveralFrenchkings,hisdressing-roomwithitsappliancesofgoldandplatinumandpreciousstones,hisclothing。
Theyhadtoinspectaroomfullofsuits,hugechiffonierscrowdedwithshirtsandtiesandunderclothes。
Heexhibitedsilkdressing-robesandpajamas,pointedoutthemarksofthefashionableLondonandParismakers,themonograms,theliningsofermineandsable。
``I’mveryparticularabouteverythingthattouchesme,’’explainedhe。``Itseemstomeagentlemancan’tbetooparticular。’’WithameaningglanceatMildred,``AndI’dfeelthesamewayaboutmywife。’’
``Youhearthat,Mildred?’’saidPresbury,withanastylittlelaugh。Hehadbeenrelievingthetediumofthissight-seeingtourbyobserving——andfromtimetotimeaggravating——Mildred’ssufferings。
Thegeneralreleasedhismirth-stranglinggoatlaugh。
Mrs。Presburyechoeditwithagaleofratherwildhysterics。SowellpleasedwasthegeneralwiththeexcursionandsofardidhefeeladvancedtowardintimacythatonthewaydownthemajesticmarblestairwayheventuredtogiveMildred’sarmagentle,playfulsqueeze。Andatthepartinghekissedherhand。Presburyhadchangedhismindaboutreturningtothecountry。OnthewaytothehotelhegirdedatMildred,reviewingallthatthelittlegeneralhadsaidanddone,andsneering,jeeringatit。Mildredmadenotasingleretortuntiltheywereupstairsinthehotel。AtthedoortoherroomshesaidtoPresbury——saiditinaquiet,cold,terribleway:
``Ifyoureallywantmetogothroughwiththisthing,youwillstopinsultinghimandme。Ifyoudoitagain,I’llgiveup——andgoonthestreetsbeforeI’llmarryhim。’’
Presburyshruggedhisshouldersandwentontotheotherroom。Buthedidnotbeginagainthenextday,andfromthattimeforthavoidedreferencetothegeneral。Infact,therewasanastonishingchangeinhiswholedemeanor。Heceasedtobaithiswife,becamepolite,evenaffable。Ifhehadconductedhimselfthusfromtheoutset,hewouldhavegotfarlesscredit,wouldhavemadefarlessprogresstowardwinningthelikingofhiswife,andofherdaughter,thanhedidinabrieftwoweeksofchangefrompettyandmalignanttyranttogood-natured,interestinglytalkativeoldgentleman。
Afterthemannerofhumannature,Mildredandhermother,intheirrelief,intheirpleasurethroughthisamazingsuddenandwhollyunexpectedgeniality,notmerelyforgavebutforgotalltheyhadsufferedathishands。Mildredwasnotwithoutasuspicionofthetruththatthischange,inauguratedinhisowngoodtime,wasfreshevidenceofhiscontemptforbothofthem——ofhisfeelingthathecouldeasilymakereparationwithalittlekindnessanddecencyandputhimselfinthewayofgettinganypossiblebenefitsfromtherichalliance。Butthoughshepracticallyknewwhatwasgoingoninhismind,shecouldnotpreventherselffromsofteningtowardhim。
Nowfollowedasuccessionofdinners,oftheater-andopera-goings,ofweek-endsatthegeneral’snewcountrypalaceinthefashionableregionofLongIsland。
Allthesefestivitieswereofthesameformalandtediouscharacter。Atallthegeneralwasthecentralsunwiththeothersdimanddraggledsatellites,hardlymoreimportantthantheouterrimofsatelliteservants。Hedidmostofthetalking。hewasthesoletopicofconversation。forwhenhewasnottalkingabouthimselfhewishedtobehearingabouthimself。IfMildredhadnotbeenseeingmoreandmoreplainlythatotherandrealpersonalityofhis,hercontemptforhimandforherselfwouldhavegrownbeyondcontrol。But,withhimorawayfromhim,ateveryinstanttherewasthesenseofthatotherrealWilliamSiddall——ashadowymenacefullofterror。Shedreamedofit——wasstartledfromsleepbyvisionsofamonstrousandmightydistortionofthelittlegeneral’sgrotesqueexterior。``IshallmarryhimifIcan,’’shesaidtoherself。``But——canI?’’Andshefearedandhopedthatshecouldnot,thatcouragewouldfailher,orwouldcometoherrescue,whicheveritwas,andthatshewouldrefusehim。Asidefromthesenseofherbodythatcannotbutbewithanywomanwhoisbeautiful,shehadnevertheretoforebeenespeciallyphysicalinthought。Thatsideoflifehadremainedvague,asshehadneverindulgedinorevenbeenstronglytemptedwiththethingsthatrouseitfromitsvirginalsleep。
Butnowshethoughtonlyofherbody,becausethatitwas,andthatalone,thathaddrawnthisprospectivepurchaser,andhiseyesneverletherforgetit。Shefellintothehabitoflookingatherselfintheglass——
atherface,athershoulders,atherwholeperson,notinvanitybutinakindofwonderoraversion。Andinthevisions,boththewakingandthesleeping,shereachedtheclimaxofhorrorwhenthemonstertouchedher——withclammy,creepyfingers,withmunchinglips,withthesharpendsofthemustacheorimperial。
SaidMrs。Presburytoherhusband,``I’mafraidthegeneralwillbeirritatedbyMildred’sunresponsiveness。’’
``Don’tworry,’’repliedPresbury。``He’ssocrazyabouthimselfthatheimaginesthewholeworldisinthesamestate。’’
``Isn’titstrangethathedoesn’tgiveherpresents?
Neveranythingbutcandyandflowers。’’
``Andheneverwill,’’saidPresbury。
``Notuntilthey’remarried,Isuppose。’’
Presburywassilent。
``Ican’thelpthinkingthatifMillyweretorouseherselfandshowsome——someliking——oratleastinterest,it’dbewiser。’’
``She’stakingthebestpossiblecourse,’’saidPresbury。``Unconsciouslytobothofthem,she’sleadinghimon。Hethinksthat’sthewayaladyshouldact——
restrained,refined。’’
Mildred’sattitudewassimpleinertia。Themostpositiveeffortshemadewasavoidingsayingordoinganythingtodispleasehim——nodifficultmatter,asshewassilentandalmostlifelesswhenhewasnear。Withoutanyencouragementfromherhegraduallygotadeeprespectforher——whichmeantthathebecameconvincedofhercoldnessandexclusiveness,ofherabsolutetrustworthiness。Presburywasmoreprofoundlyrightthanheknew。Thegirlpursuedtheonlycoursethatmadepossiblethesuccessshelongedfor,yetdreadedandloathed。ForattheoutsetSiddallhadnotbeennearlysostronglyinearnestinhismatrimonialprojectashehadprofessedandhadbelievedhimself。Hewishedtomarry,wishedtoaddtohispossessionstheadmirableshow-pieceandexhibitionopportunityaffordedbytherightsortofwife。butinthebottomofhishearthefeltthatsuchawomanashedreamedofdidnotexistinallthefoolish,fickle,andshallowfemalesex。Thisgirl——socold,soproud,beautifulyetnoteagertodisplayhercharmsortohavethempraised——shewastherarebirdhesought。
Inamonthheaskedhertomarryhim。thatis,hesaid:``Mydear,IfindthatIamreadytogothelimit——ifyouare。’’Andsheassented。Heputhisarmaroundherandkissedhercheek——andwasdelightedtodiscoverthatthealluringembracemadenoimpressionupontheiceofher``purityandladylikedignity。’’Uptotheverylastmomentoftheformalcourtshipheheldhimselfreadytowithdrawshouldsherevealtohiswatchfulnesstheslightestsignofhavingany``unladylike’’tendenciesorfeelings。Sherevealednosuchsign,butremained``ladylike’’。andcertainly,sothegeneralreasoned,awomanwhocouldthusresisthim,eveninthelicenseoftheformalengagement,wouldresistanybody。
Assoonastheengagementwasformallyconcluded,thegeneralhurriedonthepreparationsforthewedding。
HeopenedaccountsathalfadozenshopsinNewYork——dressmakers,milliners,dealersinfineandfashionableclothingofeverykind——andgavethemorderstoexecutewhatevercommandsMissGowerorhermother——forHER——mightgivethem。Whenhetoldherofthismunificenceandmagnificenceandpausedfortheoutburstofgratitude,helistenedinvain。
Mildredcoloredtotherootsofherhairandwassilent,wasseekingthecouragetorefuse。
``Iknowthatyouandyourpeoplecan’taffordtodothethingasthingsrelatedtomemustbedone,’’hewentontosay。``SoIdecidedtojuststartinalittleearlyatwhatI’vegottodoanyhow。NotthatIblameyouforyournothavingmoney,mydear。Onthecontrary,that’soneofyourmeritswithme。Iwouldn’tmarryawomanwithmoney。Itputsthefamilylifeonawrongbasis。’’
``Ihadplannedaquietwedding,’’saidMildred。
``I’dmuchpreferit。’’
``Nowyoucanbefrankwithme,mydear,’’saidthegeneral。``Iknowyouladies——howcheatedyoufeelifyouaren’tmarriedwithallthefrillsandfixings。
Sothat’sthewayitshallbedone。’’
``Really,’’protestedMildred,``I’mabsolutelyfrank。
Iwishittobequitequiet——inourdrawing-room,withnoguests。’’
Siddallsmiled,genialandtolerant。``Don’targuewithme,mydear。Iknowwhatyouwant,andI’llseethatyougetit。Goaheadwiththeseshop-peopleI’veputatyourdisposal——andgoasfarasyoulike。
Thereisn’tanything——ANYTHING——inthewayofclothesthatyoucan’thave——thatyoumustn’thave。
Mrs。GeneralSiddallisgoingtobethebest-dressedwomanintheworld——assheistheprettiest。Ihaven’topenedanaccountforyouwithTiffany’soranyofthosepeople。I’lllookoutforthatpartofthebusiness,myself。’’
``Idon’tcareforjewelry,’’saidMildred。
``Naturallynotforthekindthat’sbeenwithinyourmeansheretofore,’’repliedhe。``butyou’llopenyoureyeswhenyouseeMYjewelryforMYwife。Allingoodtime,mydear。Youandyourmothermuststartrightinwiththeshopping。and,aweekorsobeforethewedding,I’llsendmypeopledowntotransformthehouse。Imaybewrong,butIratherthinkthattheSiddallweddingwillcausesometalk。’’
Hewasnotwrong。Throughhisconfidentialsecretary,Hardingthethorough,thenewspaperpresswasinducedtotakeaninterestintheincredibleextravaganceSiddallwasperpetratinginarrangingforafittingweddingforGeneralWilliamSiddall。FormanydaysbeforetheceremonythereweredailycolumnsabouthimandhisromanticcareerandhisromanticwooingoftheNewJerseygirlofexcellentfamilyandsocialpositionbutofcomparativelymodestmeans。
Theshopkeepersgaveinterviewsonthetrousseau。Thedecoratorsandcaterersdetailedthesplendorsandthecostlinessofthepreparationsofwhichtheyhadcharge。
FrommorninguntildarkacrowdhungroundthehouseatHangingRock,andontheweddingdaythestreetsleadingtoitwereblocked——chieflywithpeoplecomefromadistance,manyofthemfromNewYork。
AttheoutsetallthisnoisewasdeeplydistastefultoMildred,butafterafewdayssherecoveredhernormalpointofview,forgotthekindofmanshewasmarry-
ingintheexcitementandexultationoverhersuddensplendorandfame。Sostronglydidthedelusionpresentlybecome,thatshewaslookingatthelittlegeneralwithanythingbutunfavorableeyes。Heseemedtoheraquaint,fascinating,benevolentnecromancer,havingmiraculouspowerswhichhewasexercisinginherbehalf。
Sheevenreproachedherselfwithingratitudeinnotbeingwildlyinlovewithhim。Wouldnotanyothergirl,inherplace,havefallenoverearsinlovewiththismarvelousman?
However,whileshecouldnotquiteconvinceherselfthatsheloved,shebecameconvincedwithouteffortthatshewashappy,thatshewasgoingtobestillhappier。
Theexcitementwroughtherintoastateofexaltationandsweptherthroughtheweddingceremonyandthegoingawayasradiantabrideasamanwouldcaretohave。
Thereismuchtobesaidagainstthenoisy,showywedding。Certainlylovehasrarelybeenknowntodegradehimselftothepointofattendinganysuch。Butthereissomethingtobesaidforthatsortofmarriedstart——forinstance,whereloveisneitherinvitednordesired,aneffortmustbemadetocoverthepainfulvacancyhisabsencealwayscauses。
Thelittlegeneral’sinsistenceona``realwedding’’
wasmosthappyforhim。Itprobablygothimhisbride。
III
THEintoxicationofthatweddingheldonlongenoughandstronglyenoughtosoftenandbluntthedisillusionmentsofthefirstfewdaysofthehoneymoon。Intheprospectthatperiodhadseemed,eventoMildred’sratherunsophisticatedimagination,appallingbeyondherpowertoendure。Inthefact——thanksinlargeparttothatintoxication——itwascertainlynotunendurable。Ahumanbeing,evenaninnocentyounggirl,canusuallybearupunderanyexperiencetowhichahumanbeingcanbesubjected。Thegeneralinpajamas——
ofthefinestsilkandofpigeon’s-eggbluewithavastgorgeousmonogramonthepocket——wasmoregrotesque,ratherthanmorerepellent,thanthegeneralinmorningoreveningattire。Alsohe——thatis,hisexpertstaffofprovidersofluxury——hadarrangedforthebrideaseriesofthemostravishingsensationsinwhiskingher,liketheheroineofanArabianNight’stale,fromstraitenedcircumstancestotheveryparadiseofluxury。
Thegeneral’sideasonthesubjectofwomanwereoldfashioned,ofthehard-shellvariety。Womanwasmadeforluxury,andluxurywasmadeforwoman。Hiswomanmustbethemostdivinelyeasefuloftheluxurious。
Atalltimesshemustbefitandreadyforanyandeverysybariticideathatmightenterherhusband’shead——andotherpurposeshehadnone。Whenshewasnotdirectlyengagedinministeringtohisjoyshemustbebusypreparingherselfforhisnextcalluponher。Awomanwasaluxury,wastheluxuryofluxuries,musthaveandmustusetotheiruttermostallcapacitiesforgratifyinghissensesandhisvanity。
Alonewithhim,shemustmakehimconstantlyfeelhowrichandrareandexpensiveaprizehehadcaptured。
Whenotherswereabout,shemustbeconstantlymakingthemenvyandadmirehimforhavingexclusiverightsinsuchwonderfulpreserves。Allthiswithaninflexibledevotiontotheloftiestidealsofchastity。
Butthefirstrealizationsofherhusband’snotionsastowomenwerealtogetherpleasant。AssheenteredtheautomobileinwhichtheywenttotheprivatecarinthespecialtrainthattookthemtoNewYorkandthesteamer——assheenteredthatnewandprodigallyluxuriousautomobile,shehadafirst,keensenseofherchangedposition。Thentherewasthesuperbprivatecar——hercar,sinceshewashiswife——andtherewasthebeautifulsuiteinthemagnificentsteamer。Andateveryinstantmenialsthrustingattentionsuponher,addressingherasifshewereaqueen,revealingintheirnervoustonesandanxiouseyestheireagernesstoplease,theirfearofdispleasing。Andonthesteamer,fromNewYorktoCherbourg,shewasneverpermittedtolosesightofthematerialsplendorsthatwerenowhers。
Alltheservants,allthepassengers,remindedherbytheirlooks,theirtones。AtParis,inthehotel,intherestaurants,intheshops——especiallyintheshops——
thosesnobbishinstinctsthatarelatentinthesanestandthewisestofuswerefedandfattenedandpampereduntilherheadwasquiteturned。Andthegeneralbegantobuyjewelsforher。Suchjewels——
ropesofdiamondsandpearlsandemeralds,ringssuchasshehadneverdreamedexisted!ThoseshoppingexcursionsoftheirsintheRuedelaPaixwouldmakesuchataleasyourordinarysimplecitizen,ignorantoftheworld’sresourcesinluxuryandthereforeincredulousaboutthem,wouldreadwithalaughattheextravaganceoftheteller。
Beforetheintoxicationoftheweddinghadwornawayitwasre-enforcedbytheintoxicationofthehoney-
moon——notanintoxicationoflove’sproviding,butoneexceedingpotentinitsinfluenceuponourweakhumanbrainsandhearts,onefromwhichthestrongestofus,insteadofsneeringatpoorMildred,wouldbetterbeprayingtobedelivered。
Athermarriageshehadafewhundreddollarsleftofherpatrimony——threehundredandfiftyandodd,tobemoreexact。Shespentalittlemoneyofherownhereandthere——intips,inbuyingpresentsforhermother,inpickinguptriflesforherowntoilet。Thedaycamewhenshelookedinherpurseandfoundtwoone-francpieces,afifty-francnote,andafewcoppers。
Andsuddenlyshesatbackandstared,hermouthopenlikeheralmostemptygoldbag,whichthegeneralhadboughtherontheirfirstdayintheRuedelaPaix。
Abouttendollarsinalltheworld,andthegeneralhadforgottentospeak——ortomakeanyarrangement,atleastanyarrangementofwhichshewasaware——aboutafurthersupplyofmoney。
Theyhadbeenmarriednearlyamonth。Heknewthatshewaspoor。Whyhadn’thesaidsomethingor,betterstill,DONEsomething?Doubtlesshehadsimplyforgotten。Butsincehehadforgottenforamonth,mighthenotcontinuetoforget?True,hehadhimselfbeenpooratonetimeinhislife,verypoor,andthatforalongtime。Butithadbeensomanyyearsagothathehadprobablylostallsenseofthemeaningofpoverty。Shefrownedatthisevidenceofhislackofthefinersensibilities——bynomeansthefirsttimethatlackhadbeendisagreeablythrustuponher。Soonshewouldbewithoutmoney——andshemusthavemoney——notmuch,asalltheseriousexpenseswerelookedafterbythegeneral,butstillalittlemoney。Howcouldshegetit?Howcouldsheremindhimofhisneglectwithoutseemingtobeindelicate?Itwasadifficultproblem。Sheworkedatitmoreandmorecontinuously,andirritably,andnervously,asthedayswentbyandherfifty-twofrancsdwindledtofive。
Shelayawake,planninglongandelaborateconversationsthatwouldimperceptiblyleadhimuptowherehemustseewhatsheneededwithoutseeingthathehadbeenled。Shecarriedouttheseingeniousconversations。
Sheledhimalong,hedocilelyandunsuspectinglyfollowing。Shebroughthimuptowhereitseemedtoherimpossibleforanyhumanbeingendowedwiththeordinaryfacultiestofailtoseewhatwassoplainlyinview。Allinvain。GeneralWilliamSiddallgazedplacidly——andsawnothing。
Severaldaysofthesefailures,andwithherfundsreducedtoafifty-centimepieceandatwo-souscoppershemadeafrontalattack。Whentheywentforthfortheday’sshoppingshelefthergoldbagbehind。Afteranhourorsoshesaid:
``I’vegottogototheGalleriesLafayetteforsomelittlethings。Ishan’taskyoutosacrificeyourself。I
knowyouhatethosestuffy,smellybigshops。’’
``Verywell,’’saidhe。``I’llusethetimeinacallonmybankers。’’
Astheywereabouttoseparate,shetakingthemotorandhewalking,shemadeafaceofcharmingdismayandsaid:``Howprovoking!I’veleftmybagatthehotel。’’
Insteadoftheexpectedpromptofferofmoneyhesaid,``It’llonlytakeyouaminuteorsotodrivethere。’’
``Butit’soutoftheway,’’shereplied。``I’llneedonlyahundredfrancsorso。’’
Saidhe:``I’veanaccountattheBonMarche。Gothereandhavethethingscharged。It’smuchthebestbigshopinParis。’’
``Verywell,’’wasallshecouldtrustherselftosay。
Sheconcealedherangerbeneathacarelesssmileanddroveaway。Howdensehewas!Couldanythingbemoreexasperating——ormoredisagreeable?WhatSHOULDshedo?Thesituationwasintolerable。yethowcoulditbeended,exceptbyahumiliatingdirectrequestformoney?Shewonderedhowyoungwiveshabituallydealtwiththisproblem,whentheyhappenedtomarryhusbandssonegligent,nottosayunderbred,astocausethemtheawkwardnessandtheshame。Therefollowedseveraldaysduringwhichthemoneyideawasanobsession,naggingandgrinningathereveryin-
stant。Thesightofmoneygaveherapeculiaritchingsensation。Whenthelittlegeneralpaidforanything——alwaysdrawingoutagreatsheafofbanknotesindoingit——sheflushedhotandcold,herglancefellguiltilyandsoughtthemoneyfurtively。Atlastherdesperationgavebirthtoaninspiration。
Aboutherandthegeneral,or,rather,aboutthegeneral,revolvedtheusualrichman’ssmallarmyofsatellitesofvariousdegrees——secretaries,butlers,footmen,valets,otherservantsmaleandfemale,someofthemsupposedtobedevotedentirelytoherservice,butallinfactlookingevertothelittlegeneral。Themembersofthiscompany,regardlessofdifferencesofrankandpay,werebandedtogetherinasortofdemocraticfellowship,talkingfreelywithoneanother,ontermsofperfectequality。Sheherselfhad,curiously,gottenonexcellenttermswiththismotleyfraternityandfoundnosmallrelieffromthestrainofthegeneral’sformaldignityintalkingwiththemwithafreedomandeaseshehadneverbeforefeltinthesocietyofunderlings。
ThemostconspicuousandmostagreeablefigureinthiscompanywasHarding,thegeneral’sfactotum。WhynotlaythecasebeforeHarding?Hewasnotablysensible,andsympathetic——anddiscreet。
Thefollowingdayshedidso。Saidshe,blushingfuriously:``Mr。Harding,Ifindmyselfinaveryembarrassingposition。Iwonderifyoucanhelpme?’’
Harding,ayoungmanandofoneofthebestblondtypes,said:``NodoubtIcan——andI’llbegladto。’’
``Thefactis’’——Hervoicewastremblingwithnervousness。Sheopenedthegoldbag,tookoutthelittlesilverpiecesandthebigcopperpiece,extendedherpinkpalmwiththemuponit——``there’sallI’vegotleftofthemoneyIbroughtwithme。’’
Hardinggazedattheexhibittranquilly。Hewaschieflyremarkableforhisperfectself-possession。Saidhe:``Doyouwishmetocashacheckforyou?’’
Thestupidityofmen!Tearsofvexationgatheredinhereyes。Whenshecouldspeakshefaltered:
``No。’’
Hewaslookingathernow——agrave,kindglance。
Shesomehowfeltencouragedandheartened。Shewenton:``Iwashoping——that——thatthegen——
thatmyhusbandhadsaidsomethingtoyouandthatyouperhapshadnotthoughttosayanythingtome。’’
Theirglancesmet,hismovinglysympatheticandunderstanding,herspiteouslyforlorn——thelookofalovelygirl,strandedandfriendlessinafarstrangeland。Presentlyhesaidgently:
``Yes,hetoldmetosaysomethingtoyou——ifyoushouldspeaktomeaboutthismatter。’’Histonecausedinherheartahorriblestillnessofsuspense。Hewenton:``Hesaid——Igiveyouhisexactwords:
`Ifmywifeshouldaskyouformoney,tellhermyideasonthesubject。’’’
Apause。Shestartedup,crimson,herglancedartingnervouslythiswayandthattoavoidhis。``Nevermind。Really,it’sofnoimportance。Thankyou——
I’llgetonverywell——I’msorrytohavetroubledyou——’’
``Pardonme,Mrs。Siddall,’’heinterposed,``butI
thinkyou’dbestletmefinish。’’
Shestartedtoprotest,shetriedtomovetowardthedoor。Herstrengthfailedher,shesatdown,waited,nervouslyclaspingandunclaspingthecostly,jewel-
embroideredbag。
``Hehasexplainedtome,manytimes,’’continuedHarding,``thathebelieveswomendonotunderstandthevalueofmoneyandoughtnottobetrustedwithit。
Heproposestoprovideeverythingforyou,everycomfortandluxury——Iamusinghisownlanguage,Mrs。
Siddall——andhehasopenaccountsattheprincipalshopsineverycitywhereyouwillgo——NewYork,Washington,Chicago,Denver,Paris,London,Rome。
Hesaysyouareatlibertytogetpracticallyanythingyoupleaseattheseshops,andhewillpaythebills。
Hethusentirelysparesyouthenecessityofeverspendinganymoney。Shouldyouseeanythingyouwishatsomeshopwherehehasnoaccount,youcanhaveitsentcollect,andIormyassistant,Mr。Drawl,willsettleforit。Allheasksisthatyouusediscretioninthisfreedom。Hesaysitwouldbeextremelypainfultohimtohavetowithdrawit。’’
Hardinghadpronouncedthislongspeechinadrymonotonousvoice,likeonereadingmechanicallyfromadullbook。AsMildredlistened,herthoughtsbegantowhirlaboutthecentralideauntilshefellintoakindofstupor。Whenhefinishedshewasstaringvacantlyatthebaginherlap——thebagshewasholdingopenwide。
Hardingcontinued:``Healsoinstructedmetosaysomethingabouthisformer——hisexperiences。ThefirstMrs。Siddallhemarriedwhenhewasveryyoungandpoor。Ashegrewrich,shebecamemadlyextravagant。
Andastheyhadstartedonabasisonwhichshehadfreeaccesstohismoneyhecouldnotcheckher。
Theresult,finally,wasasuccessionofbitterquarrels,andtheywereabouttodivorcewhenshedied。HemadethesecondMrs。Siddallanallowance,aliberalallowance。Herfolliescompelledhimtowithdrawit。
Sheresortedtounderhandedmeanstogetmoneyfromhimwithouthisknowingit。Hedetectedthefraud。
Afteraseriesofdisagreeableincidentsshecommittedtheindiscretionwhichcausedhimtodivorceher。Hesaysthattheseexperienceshaveconvincedhimthat——’’
``ThesecondMrs。Siddall,’’interruptedMildred,``isshestillalive?’’
Hardinghesitated。``Yes,’’hesaidreluctantly。
``Isshe——poor?’’askedMildred。
``Ishouldprefernotto——’’
``Didthegeneralforbidyoutotellme?’’
``Onthecontrary,heinstructedme——ButI’drathernottalkaboutit,Mrs。Siddall。’’
``Isshepoor?’’repeatedMildred。
``Yes。’’
``Whatbecameofher?’’
Alongpause。ThenHardingsaid:``Shewasapoorgirlwhenthegeneralmarriedher。Afterthedivorceshelivedforawhilewiththeman。Buthehadnothing。Theyseparated。Shetriedvariouskindsofwork——andotherthings。Sinceshelostherlooks——
Shewritesfromtimetotime,askingformoney。’’
``Whichshenevergets?’’saidMildred。
``Whichshenevergets,’’saidHarding。``LatelyshewascashierorheadwaitressinacheaprestaurantinSt。Louis。’’
AfteralongsilenceMildredsaid:``Iunderstand。
Iunderstand。’’Shedrewalongbreath。``Ishallunderstandbetterastimegoeson,butIunderstandfairlywellnow。’’
``Ineednottellyou,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidHardinginhisgentle,tranquilway,``thatthegeneralisthekindestandmostgenerousofmen,buthehashisownmethods——
aswhohasnot?’’
Mildredhadforgottenthathewasthere——notadifficultmatter,whenhehadinitsperfectionthesecretarialmannerofcompleteself-effacement。Saidshereflectively,likeonepuzzlingoutadifficultproblem:
``Hebuysawoman,ashebuysadogorahorse。
Hedoesnotgivehisdog,hishorse,pocket-money。
Whyshouldhegivehiswomanpocket-money?’’
``Willithelpmatters,Mrs。Siddall,togototheotherextremeanddohimagraveinjustice?’’
Shedidnothear。Atthepicturepresentedtohermindbyherownthoughtsshegaveashortsatiricallaugh。``Howstupidofmenottohaveunderstoodfromtheoutset,’’saidshe。``Why,I’veoftenheardofthisverything。’’
``Itismoreandmorethecustomamongmenoflargeproperty,Ibelieve,’’saidHarding。``Perhaps,Mrs。
Siddall,youwouldnotblamethemifyouwereintheirposition。Therichmenwhoarecareless——theyruineverybodyaboutthem,Iassureyou。I’veseenitagainandagain。’’
Buttheyoungwifewasabsorbedinherownthoughts。Harding,feelinghermood,didnotinterrupt。
Afterawhileshesaid:
``Imustaskyousomequestions。Thesejewelsthegeneralhasbeenbuying——’’
Hardingmadeamovementofembarrassmentandprotest。Shesmiledironicallyandwenton:
``Onemoment,please。EverytimeIwishtowearanyofthemIhavetogotohimtogetthem。HeasksmetoreturnthemwhenIamundressing。Hesaysitissafertokeepeverythinginhisstrongbox。Ihavebeenassumingthatthatwastheonlyreason。Ibegintosuspect——AmIright,Mr。Harding?’’
``ReallyIcan’tsay,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidHarding。
``Thesearenotmatterstodiscusswithme,ifyouwillpermitmetosayso。’’
``Oh,yes,theyare,’’repliedshelaughingly。
``Aren’tweallinthesameboat?——allemployesofthegeneral?’’
Hardingmadenoreply。
Mildredwasbesideherselfwithakindofragethat,becauseoutletwasnecessaryandbecauseravingagainstthelittlegeneralwouldbeabsolutelyfutile,foundoutletinself-mockeryandrecklesssarcasm。
``Iunderstandaboutthejewels,too,’’shewenton。
``Theyarenotmine。Nothingismine。Everything,includingmyself,belongstohim。IfIgivesatisfactioninthepositionforwhichI’vebeenhiredformyboardandclothes,Imaycontinuetoeatthegeneral’sfoodandsleepinthegeneral’shouseandwearthegeneral’sjewelsanddressesandrideinthegeneral’strapsandbewaitedonbythegeneral’sservants。IfIdon’tlikemyplaceorhedoesn’tlikemywayoffillingit’’——shelaughedmerrily,mockingly——``outIgo——intothestreets——afterthesecondMrs。Siddall。Andthegeneralwillhireanew——’’Shepaused,castaboutforawordinvain,appealedtothesecretary,``Whatwouldyoucallit,Mr。Harding?’’
Hardingrose,lookingatherwithaverysoothingtranquillity。``IfIwereyou,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidhe,``Ishouldgetintotheautoandgoforalongdrive——
outtotheBois——outtoVersailles——along,longdrive。Ishouldbegonefourorfivehoursatleast,andIshouldlookatthethingfromallsides。Especially,I’dlookatitfromHISstandpoint。’’
Mildred,somewhatquieter,butstillmocking,said:
``IfIshoulddecidetoquit,wouldmyexpensesbepaidbacktowhereIwasengaged?Ifancynot。’’
Hardinglookedgrave。``Ifyouhadhadmoneyenoughtopayyourownexpensesabout,wouldyouhavemarriedhim?’’saidhe。``Isn’thepaying——payingliberally,Mrs。Siddall——forALLhegets?’’
Mildred,stung,drewherselfuphaughtily,gavehimalookthatremindedhimwhoshewasandwhohewas。
ButHardingwasnotimpressed。
``Yousaidamomentago——truly——thatweareallinthesameboat,’’observedhe。``IputthosequestionstoyoubecauseIhonestlywishtohelpyou——becauseIwishyounottoactfoolishly,hastily。’’
``Thankyou,Mr。Harding,’’saidMildredcoldly。
Andwithaslightnodshewent,angryandashamedthatshehadsounaccountablyopeneduphersecretsoul,bareditsuglywounds,beforeamansheknewsoslightly,amaninapositionbutoneremovefrommenial。However,shetookhisadvice——notastotryingtoviewthematterfromallsides,forshewasconvincedthattherewasonlytheoneside,butastocalmingherselfbyalongdrivealoneinthewoodsandalongquietroads。Whenshereturnedshewasundercontroloncemore。
Shefoundthegeneralimpatientlyawaitingher。
Manypackageshadcome——fromthejewelers,fromthefurriers,fromashopwhosespecialtywasthethinnestandmostdelicateofhand-madeunderwear。Thegenerallovedtoopenandinspectfineryforher——
loveditmorethanhelovedinspectingfineryforhimself,becausefemininefinerywasfarmoreattractivethanmasculine。Towhethispleasuretothekeenestshemustbetheretoadmirewithhim,totryon,toexhibit。Assheenteredthesalonwherethelittlemanwasfussingaboutamongthepackages,theirglancesmet。ShesawthatHardinghadtoldhim——atleastindiscreetoutline——oftheirconversation。Shealsosawthatifshereopenedthesubjectshewouldfindherselfstraightwaywhirledoutuponastormyseaofdangerthatmighteasilyoverwhelmherflimsyboat。Shesilentlyandsullenlydroppedintoherplace。sheministeredtothegeneral’spleasureinpackagesoffinery。
Butshedidnotexclaim,oradmire,orrespondinanyway。Thehoneymoonwasover。Herdreamofwifehoodwasdissipated。
Sheunderstoodnowthelookshesooftenhadseenonthefacesofrichmen’spoorwivesdrivinginstateinFifthAvenue。Thatnight,assheinspectedherselfintheglasswhilethegeneral’smaidforherbrushedherlongthickhair,shesawthebeginningsofthatlookinherownface。``Idon’tknowjustwhatIam,’’shesaidtoherself。``ButIdoknowwhatIamnot。Iamnotawife。’’
Shesentawaythemaid,andsatthereinthedressing-
roombeforethemirror,waiting,herglancetravelingaboutandnotingtheprofuseandprodigalluxury。Inthecornerstoodacircularrackloadedwithdressing-
gowns——morethanascoreofexquisitecombinationsofsilkandlaceorsilkandchiffon。Itsohappenedthattherewasnowhereinsightasinglearticleofherapparelorforhertoiletthatwasnotboughtwiththegeneral’smoney。No,thereweresomehairpinsthatshehadpaidforherself,andacombwithwidelyseparatedteeththatshehadchancedtoseeinawindowwhenshewasaloneoneday。Anythingelse?
Yes,atwo-francboxofpins。Andthatwasall。
Everythingelsebelongedtothegeneral。Intheclosets,inthetrunks——allthegeneral’s,partofthetrousseauhehadpaidfor。Notanundergarment。notanoutergarment。notahatorapairofshoes,notawrap,notapairofgloves。All,thegeneral’s。
Hewasinthedoorofthedressing-room——thesmallwiryfigureinrose-silkpajamas。Themustacheandimperialwerecarefullywaxedasalways,dayandnight。
Onthelittlefeetwerehigh-heeledslippers。Ontheheadwasarose-silkNeapolitannightcapwithgaytassel。
Thenightcaphidthebaldspotfromwhichtheloftytoupeehadbeenremoved。Agrotesquelittlefigure,butnotgrotesquetoher。Throughthemaskofthevain,boastfullittlefaceshesawthegeneralwatchingher,asshehadseenhimthatafternoonwhenshecamein——themysteriousandterriblepersonalitythathadmadethevastfortune,thathadriddenruthlesslyoverfriendandfoe,overmanandwomanandchild——tothegoalofitsdesires。
``It’slate,mydear?’’saidthelittleman。``Cometobed。’’
Sherosetoobey——sheinthegeneral’spurchasesoffilmynightgownunderapale-pinksilkdressing-gown。
Hesmiledwiththatcuriousnoiselessmumblingandsmackingofthethinlips。Shesatdownagain。
``Don’tkeepmewaiting。It’schilly,’’hesaid,advancingtowardher。
``Ishallsleepinhereto-night——onthecouch,’’saidshe。Shewastremblingwithfrightatherownaudacity。
Shecouldseeafifty-centimepieceandacopperdancingbeforehereyes。Shefelthorriblyaloneandweak,butshehadnodesiretoretractthewordswithwhichshehadthrowndownthegauntlet。
Thelittlegeneralhalted。Themaskdropped。theman,themonster,lookedather。``What’sthematter?’’
saidheinanominouslyquietvoice。
``Mr。Hardingdeliveredyourmessageto-day,’’saidshe,andhersteadyvoiceastonishedher。``SoIamgoingbackhome。’’
Hewaited,lookingsteadilyather。
``AfterhetoldmeandIthoughtaboutit,Idecidedtosubmit,butjustnowIsawthatIcouldn’t。Idon’tknowwhatpossessesme。Idon’tknowwhatI’mgoingtodo,orhowI’mgoingtodoit。Butit’salloverbetweenus。’’Shesaidthisrapidly,fluently,inadecisiveway,quiteforeigntohercharacterasshehadthoughtit。
``Youarecomingtobed,whereyoubelong,’’saidhequietly。
``No,’’repliedshe,pressingherselfagainstherchairasifforcewerebeingusedtodragherfromit。Shecastaboutforsomethingthatwouldmakeyieldingimpossible。``Youare——repulsivetome。’’
Helookedatherwithoutchangeofcountenance。
Saidhe:``Cometobed。Iaskyouforthelasttime。’’
Therewasnoangerinhisvoice,nomenaceeitheropenorcovert。simplyfinality——thelastwordofthemanwhohadmadehimselffearedandsecureinthemining-campswheretheequationofpersonalcourageisstraightwayappliedtoeverysituation。Mildredshivered。Shelongedtoyield,tostammeroutsomeexcuseandobeyhim。Butshecouldnot。norwassheabletorisefromherchair。Shesawinhishardeyesalookofastonishment,ofcuriosityastothisunaccountabledefianceinonewhohadseemeddocile,whohadapparentlynoalternativebutobedience。Hewasnotsoastonishedatherasshewasatherself。``Whatistobecomeofme?’’herterror-strickensoulwascrying。
``Imustdoashesays——Imust——yetIcannot!’’
Andshelookedathimandsatmotionless。
Heturnedaway,movedslowlytowardthedoor,haltedatthethresholdtogivehertime,wasgone。A
fitoftremblingseizedher。sheleanedforwardandrestedherarmsuponthedressing-tableorshewouldhavefallenfromthechairtothefloor。Yet,evenasherfearmadehersickandweak,sheknewthatshewouldnotyield。
Thecolddrovehertothecouch,tolieunderhalfadozenofthedressing-gownsandpresentlytofallintoasleepofexhaustion。Whensheawokeafterwhatshethoughtwasafewminutesofunconsciousness,theclamoroftrafficintheRuedeRivolistartledher。Shestartedup,glancedattheclockonthechimneypiece。
Itwastenminutespastnine!When,byalltherulesgoverningtheactionofthenerves,sheoughttohavepassedawakefulnightshehadoversleptmorethananhour。Indeed,shehadhadthefirstsoundandprolongedsleepthathadcometohersincethehoneymoonbegan。foruntilthenshehadsleptaloneallherlifeandtheneworderhadalmostgivenherchronicinsomnia。
Sherangforhermaidandbegantodress。Themaiddidnotcome。Sherangagainandagain。
apparentlythebellwasbroken。Shefinisheddressingandwentoutintothehuge,grandlyandgaudilyfurnishedsalon。Hardingwasatacarvedold-goldandlacquerdesk,writing。Assheenteredheroseandbowed。
``Won’tyoupleasecalloneoftheservants?’’saidshe。``Iwantmycoffee。Iguessthebellinmyroomisbroken。Mymaiddoesn’tanswer。’’
``No,thebellisnotbroken,’’saidHarding。
Shelookedathimquestioningly。
``Thegeneralhasissuedanorderthatnothingistobedoneinthisapartment,andnothingserved,unlesshepersonallyauthorizesit。’’
Mildredpaled,drewherselfupinwhatseemedagestureofhaughtinessbutwasanefforttomusterherstrength。Tosaveherselffromthehumiliationofabreakdownbeforehim,shehastilyretreatedbythewayshehadcome。Afterperhapsaquarterofanhourshereappearedinthesalon。shewasnowdressedforthestreet。Hardinglookedupfromhiswriting,roseandbowedgravely。Saidshe:
``Iamgoingoutforawalk。I’llbebackinanhourorso。’’
``Onemoment,’’saidHarding,haltingherasshewasopeningthedoorintothepublichall。``Thegeneralhasissuedanorderthatifyougoout,youarenottobeallowedtoreturn。’’
Herhandfellfromtheknob。Withflashingeyesshecried,``Butthatisimpossible!’’
``Itishisorders,’’saidHarding,inhisusualquietmanner。``Andashepaysthebillshewillbeobeyed。’’
Shedebated。Againstherwill,hertremblinghandsoughttheknobagain。Againstherwill,herweakarmbegantodrawthedooropen。Hardingcametowardher,stoodbeforeherandlookeddirectlyintohereyes。
Hiseyeshaddreadandentreatyinthem,buthisvoicewasasalwayswhenhesaid:
``Youknowhim,Mrs。Siddall。’’
``Yes,’’shesaid。
``ThereasonhehasgotALLhewanted——whateverhewanted——isthathewillgotoanylength。Everyotherhumanbeing,almost,hasalimit,beyondwhichtheywillnotgo——aphysicalfearoramoralfearorafearofpublicopinion。Butthegeneral——hehasnolimit。’’
``Yes,’’shesaid。Anddeathlypaleandalmoststag-
geringshedrewopenthedoorandwentoutintothepublichall。
``ForGod’ssake,Mrs。Siddall!’’criedHarding,ingreatagitation。``Comeinquickly。Theyarewatching——
theywilltellhim!Areyoumad?’’
``IthinkImustbe,’’saidshe。``Iamsickwithfear。
Icanhardlykeepfromdroppingdownhereinafaint。
Yet——’’astrangelook,aminglingofabjectterrorandpassionatedefiance,gaveheranaspectquiteinsane——``Iamgoing。PerhapsI,too,havenolimit。’’
Andshewentalongthecorridor,pastagroupofgapingandfrightenedservants,downthestairwayandoutbytheprivateentranceforthegrandapartmentsofthehotelintheRueRaymonddel’Isle。ShecrossedtheRuedeRivoliandenteredtheTuileriesGardens。
Itwasonlybracinglycoolinthesunshineofthatwinterday。Sheseatedherselfonachairontheterracetoregainherebbedstrength。Hardlyhadshesatdownwhenthewomancollectorcameandstoodwaitingforthetwosousforthechair。Mildredopenedherbag,foundtwocoins。Shegavethecopperstothewoman。Theother——allthemoneyshehad——wasthefifty-centimepiece。
``Butthebag——Icangetagooddealforthat,’’shesaidaloud。
``Ibegyourpardon——Ididn’tcatchthat。’’
Shecamebacktoasenseofhersurroundings。StanleyBairdwasstandingafewfeetaway,smilingdownather。Hewas,ifpossible,evenmoreattractivelydressedthaninthedayswhenhehoveredabouther,hopingvaguethingsofwhichhewasashamedandtry-
ingtogetthecouragetoputdownhissnobbishnessandmarryherbecauseshesoexactlysuitedhim。Hewaswearinganewkindofcollarandtie,strikingyetinexcellentquiettaste。Also,hisfaceandfigurehadfilledoutjustenough——hehadbeentoothinintheformerdays。Buthewasnowentereduponthatperiodofthefearsomefortieswhen,unlessamanamountstosomething,hebeginstolookinsignificant。Hedidnotamounttoanything。hewasthereforepalingandwaningasapersonality。
``WasIthinkingaloud?’’saidMildred,asshegavehimherhand。
``Yousaidsomethingabout`gettingagooddeal。’’’
Heinspectedherwiththefreedomofanoldfriendandwiththethoroughnessofaconnoisseur。WomenwhotookpainswiththemselvesandweresatisfiedwiththeresultslikedStanleyBaird’sknowingandappreciativewayofnotingthebestpointsintheirtoilets。``You’relookingfine,’’declaredhe。``ItmustbeapleasuretothemupintheRuedelaPaixtodressyou。That’smorethancanbesaidfornineoutoftenofthewomenwhogothere。Yes,you’relookingfine——andingrandhealth,too。Why,youlookyoungerthanIeversawyou。Nothinglikemarriagetofreshenagirlup。
Well,Isupposewaitingroundforahusbandwhomayormaynotturnupdoeswearawomandown。’’
``Italmostkilledme,’’laughedMildred。``Andyouwerelargelyresponsible。’’
``I?’’saidBaird。``Youdidn’twantme。Iwastoooldforyou。’’
``No,Ididn’twantyou,’’saidMildred。``Butyouspoiledme。Icouldn’tenduretheboysofmyownage。’’
StanleywasrememberingthatMildredhadmarriedamanmucholderthanhe。Withsomenotionofacarelesssortoftactinmindhesaid,``Iwasbetwixtandbetween——neitheryoungenoughnoroldenough。’’
``You’vemarried,too,sincewemet。Bytheway,thankyouagainforthatcharmingremembrance。
Youalwaysdidhavesuchgoodtaste。Butwhydidn’tyoucometothewedding——youandyourwife?’’
Helaughed。``Wewerebusybustingup,’’saidhe。
``Youhadn’theard?It’sbeeninthepapers。She’sgonebacktoherpeople。Oh,nothingdisgracefuloneitherside。Simplythatweboredeachothertodeath。
Shewascrazyabouthorsesanddogs,andthatset。I
thinkthestable’stheplaceforhorses——don’tcaretohave’emparadingthroughthehouseallthetime,everyroom,everymeal,sleepingandwaking。Anddogs——
theinfernalbrutesalwayshavefleas。Fleasonlytickledher,buttheybiteme——raiseweltsandhills。There’syourhusbandnow,isn’tit?’’
BairdwaslookingupatthewindowsoftheContinental,acrossthestreet。Mildred’sglanceslowlyandcarelesslyfollowedhis。Atonewindowstoodthelittlegeneral,gazingabstractedlyoutoverthegardens。AtanotherwindowMildredsawHarding。atathird,hermaid。atafourth,Harding’sassistant,Drawl。atafifth,threeservantsoftheretinue。Exceptthegeneral,allwerelookingather。
``You’vemarriedaveryextraordinaryman,’’saidBaird,inacorrecttoneofadmiration。``Oneoftheablestandmostinterestingmenwe’vegot,_I_think。’’
``Soyouarefreeagain?’’saidMildred,lookingathimwithaqueer,coldsmile。
``Yes,andno,’’repliedStanley。``Ihopetobeentirelyfree。It’shermovenext。I’mexpectingiteveryday。ButI’mthoroughlyrespectable。Won’tyouandthegeneraldinewithme?’’
``Thanks,butI’msailingforhometo-morrowornextday。’’
``That’sinteresting,’’saidBaird,withenthusiasm。
``SoamI。Whatshipdoyougoon?’’
``Idon’tknowyet。I’mtodecidethisafternoon,afterlunch。’’Shelaughed。``I’msittingherewaitingforsomeonetoaskmetolunch。I’venothadevencoffeeyet。’’
``Lunchwithme!’’criedBaird。``I’llgogetthegeneral——Iknowhimslightly。’’
``Ididn’tsayanythingaboutthegeneral,’’saidMildred。
Stanleysmiledapologetically。``Itwouldn’tdoforyoutogoaboutwithme——notwhenmymissusislookingforgroundsfordivorce。’’
``Whynot?’’saidMildred。``So’smyhusband。’’
``Youbustedup,too?Now,that’swhat_I_calljolly。’’Andhecastapuzzledglanceupattheabstractedgeneral。``Isay,Mildred,thisisnoplaceforeitherofus,isit?’’
``I’dratherbewherethere’sfood,’’confessedshe。
``Youthinkit’sajoke,butIassureyou——Oh,youWEREjoking——aboutYOURbust-up?’’
``No,indeed,’’sheassuredhim。``Iwalkedoutawhileago,andIcouldn’tgobackifIwould——andI
don’tthinkIwouldifIcould。’’
``That’sfoolish。Bettergoback,’’advisedhe。Hewaspreparinghastilytodecampfromsoperilousaneighborhood。``Onemarriageisaboutlikeanother,onceyougetthroughthesurface。I’msureyou’llbebetteroffthan——backwithyourstepfather。’’
``I’venointentionofgoingtohishouse,’’shedeclared。
``Oh,there’syourbrother。Iforgot。’’
``SohadIforgottenhim。I’llnotgothere,either。
Infact,I’venotthoughtwhereI’llgo。’’
``Youseemtohavedonemightylittlethinkingbeforeyoutookaveryseriousstepforawoman。’’Hewasuneasilyeyingtherigid,abstractedlittlefigureastoryupacrosstheway。
``Thosethingsaren’taquestionofthinking,’’saidsheabsently。``Ineverthoughtinmylife——don’tthinkIcouldifItried。ButwhenthetimecameI——
Iwalkedout。’’Shecamebacktoherself,laughed。
``Idon’tunderstandwhyI’mtellingyouallthis,especiallyasyou’remadwithfrightandwildtogetaway。
Well,good-by,Stanley。’’
Heliftedhishat。``Good-by。We’llmeetwhenwecandosowithoutmygettingascandalonyou。’’Hewalkedafewpaces,turned,andcameback。``Bytheway,I’msailingontheDeutschland。Ithoughtyou’dliketoknow——sothatyouandIwouldn’tbyanychancecrossonthesameboat。’’
``Thanks,’’saidshedryly。
``What’sthematter?’’askedhe,arrested,despitehisanxietytobegone,bythesad,scornfullookinhereyes。
``Nothing。Why?’’
``Youhadsucha——suchaqueerlook。’’
``Really?Good-by。’’
Infact,shehadthought——hadhopedforthesakeofherlikingforhim——thathehadcomebacktomaketheglaringlyomittedofferofhelpthatshouldhavecomefromanyhumanbeinglearningthatafellowbeingwasintheprecariouspositioninwhichshehadtoldhimshewas。Notthatshewouldhaveacceptedanysuchoffer。Still,shewouldhavelikedtohaveheardthekindlywords。Shesatwatchinghishandsome,gracefulfigure,drapedinthemostartisticallycutoflongdarkovercoats,untilhedisappearedinthecrowdintheRuedeCastiglione。Then,withoutaglanceupattheinterested,nottosayexcitedwindowsofthegeneral’ssplendidandspreadingapartments,shestrolleddownthegardenstowardthePlaceConcorde。
InParisthebeautiful,onabrightandbriskdayitisallbutimpossibletodespairwhenonestillhasleftyouthandhealth。Mildredwasnothappy——farfromit。Thefuture,theimmediatefuture,presseditsterrorsuponher。Butinmitigationtherewas,perhapsbornofyouthandinexperience,agiddysenseofrelief。
Shehadnotrealizedhowabhorrentthegeneralwas——
marriedlifewiththegeneral。Shehadbeenresigningherselftoit,acceptingitastheonlythingpossible,keepingitheavilydrapedwithhervanitiesofwealthandluxury——untilshediscoveredthatthewealthandtheluxurywereinrealitynomorehersthantheywerehermaid’s。Andnowshewasfree!
Thatwordfreedidnothaveitsfullmeaningforher。
Shehadneverknownwhatrealfreedomwas。womenofthecomfortableclass——andmen,too,forthatmatter——
usuallyarebornintothepettyslaveryofconventionsatleast,andknownothingelsetheirwholelivesthrough——neverknowthejoyofthethoughtandtheactofafreemindandafreeheart。Still,shewasreleasedfromabondagethatseemedslavisheventoher,andthereleasegaveherasensationakintothejoyoffreedom。Aheavyhandthatwascrushingherverysoulhadbeenliftedoff——no,FLUNGoff,andbyherself。
Thatthought,terrifyingthoughitwas,alsogaveheracertainnewandexaltingself-respect。Afterall,shewasnotaworm。Shemusthavesomewhereinherthegermsofsomethinglesscontemptiblethantheessentialcharacterofsomanyoftheeminentlyrespectablewomensheknew。Shecouldpicturetheminthesituationinwhichshehadfoundherself。Whatwouldtheyhavedone?Why,whateveryinstinctofhereducationimpelledhertodo。whatsomelatentloveoffreedom,someunsuspectedcourageofself-respecthadforbiddenhertodo,hadwithheldherfromdoing。
Herthoughtsandthegorgeoussunshineandheryouthandhealthputherinasteadilylesscheerlessmoodasbyaroundaboutwayshesoughttheshopofthejewelerwhosoldthegeneralthegoldbagshehadselected。Theproprietorhimselfwasinthefrontpartoftheshopandreceived``MadamelaGenerale’’withallthehonorsofherhusband’swealth。Shebroughtnoexperienceandnonaturaltradingtalenttotheenterpriseshewasabouttoundertake。soshewentdirectlytothemainpoint。
``Thisbag,’’saidshe,layingitupontheglassbetweenthem,``Iboughtithereashorttimeago。’’
``Irememberperfectly,madame。Itisthehandsomest,themostartistic,wehavesoldthisyear。’’
``Iwishtosellitbacktoyou,’’saidshe。
``Youwishtogetsomethingelseandincludeitaspartpayment,madame?’’
``No,Iwishtogetthemoneyforit。’’
``Ah,butthatisdifficult。Wedonotoftenmakethosearrangements。Second-handarticles——’’
``Butthebagisquitenew。Anyhow,itmusthavesomevalue。OfcourseI’dnotexpectthefullprice。’’
Thejewelersmiled。``Thefullprice?Ah,madame,weshouldnotthinkofofferingitagainasitis。
Weshould——’’
``Nomatter,’’interruptedMildred。Theman’sexpression——thenormallypleasantandagreeablecountenanceturnedtorepulsivebycraftandlying——madehereagertobegone。``Whatisthemostyouwillgiveme?’’
``Ishallhavetoconsider——’’
``I’veonlyafewminutes。Pleasedonotirritateme。’’
Themanwasstudyinghercountenancewithadesperatelook。Whywasshe,thebrideofthemonstrouslyrichAmerican,whywasshetryingtosellthebag?Diditmeantheendofherresources?Or,weretherestillhugeorderstobegotfromher?Hisshrewd-
ness,trainedbythirtyyearsofdealingwithallkindsofluxurioushumanbeings,wentexploringinvain。Hewasalarmedbyherfrown。Hebeganhesitatingly:
``Thejewelsandthegoldareonlyasmallpartofthevalue。Thechiefvalueistheuniquedesign,soelegantyetsosimple。Forthejewelsandthegold,perhapstwothousandfrancs——’’
``Thepursewastwelvethousandfrancs,’’interruptedshe。
``Perfectly,madame。But——’’
``Iamingreathaste。Howmuchwillyougiveme?’’
``Themostwouldbefourthousand,Ifear。Ishallcountupmorecarefully,ifmadamewill——’’
``No,fourthousandwilldo。’’
``Iwillsendthemoneytomadameatherhotel。TheContinental,isitnot?’’
``No,Imusthaveitatonce。’’
Thejewelerhesitated。Mildred,flushingscarletwithshame——butheluckilythoughtitanger——tookupthebagandmovedtowardthedoor。
``Pardon,madame,butcertainly。Doyouwishsomegoldorallnotes?’’
``Notes,’’answeredshe。``Fiftyandhundred-francnotes。’’
Amomentlatershewasinthestreetwiththenotesinasmallbundleinthebosomofherwrap。Shewenthurriedlyupthestreet。Asshewasabouttoturnthecornerintotheboulevardsheonimpulseglancedback。
Anautomobilehadjustdrawnupatthejeweler’sdoorandGeneralSiddall——top-hat,sable-linedovercoat,waxedmustacheandimperial,high-heeledboots,gold-
mountedcane——wasdescending。Andsheknewthathehadawakenedtohisoneoversight,andwasonhiswaytorepairit。Butshedidnotknowthatthejeweler——oldandwiseinhumanways——wouldhastilyvanishwiththebagandthatanassistantwouldcomeforwardwithassurancesthatmadamehadnotbeenintheshopandthat,ifsheshouldcomein,nobusinesswouldbenegotiatedwithoutthegeneral’sexpressconsent。Sheallbutfaintedatthenarrownessofherescapeandfledroundintotheboulevard。SheenteredataxiandtoldthemantodrivetoFoyot’srestaurantontheleftbank——wherethegeneralwouldneverthinkoflookingforher。
WhenshehadbreakfastedshestrolledintheLuxembourgGardens,inevenbetterhumorwithherselfandwiththeworld。Therewasstillthathorrid-facedfuture,butitwasnotleeringintoherveryface。Itwasnearlyfourthousandfrancsaway——``andifI
hadn’tbeensostupid,I’dhavegoteightthousand,I’msure,’’shesaid。Butshewasratherproudofastupidityaboutmoneymatters。Andfourthousandfrancs,eighthundreddollars——thatwasquiteagoodsum。
ShehadaninstinctthatthegeneralwoulddosomethingdisagreeableabouttheFrenchandEnglishportsofdepartureforAmerica。ButperhapshewouldnotthinkoftheItalianports。ThatnightshesetoutforGenoa,andthreedayslater,inadifferentdressandwithherhairdoneassheneverworeit,sailedasMissMaryStevensforAmericaonaGermanMediterraneanboat。