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  Thegeneralsmiledgenially。``IthinkImaysaywithoutconceitthatyouwilllikemeasyouknowmebetter。Ihavenobadhabits——I’vetoomuchregardformyhealthtoover-indulgeorrunloose。InmyboyhooddaysImayhaveputinratheraheavysowingofwildoats’’——thegenerallaughed。Mildredconjuredupthewintriestandfaintestofechoingsmiles——``butthat’sallpast,’’hewenton,``andthere’snothingthatcouldriseuptointerferewithourhappiness。Youarefondofchildren?’’
  Apause,thenMildredsaidquiteevenly,``Yes。’’
  ``Excellent,’’saidthegeneral。``I’llexpectyouandyourmotherandfathertodinnerSundaynight。Isthatsatisfactory?’’
  ``Yes,’’saidMildred。
  Alongishpause。Thenthegeneral:``Youseemtobealittle——afraidofme。Idon’tknowwhyitisthatpeoplearealwaysthatwaywithme。’’Ahalt,togivehertheopportunitytosaytheobviousflatteringthing。
  Mildredsaidnothing,gavenosign。Hewenton:``Itwillwearawayasweknoweachotherbetter。Iamasimple,plainman——kindandgenerousinmyinstincts。
  OfcourseIamdignified,andIdonotlikefamiliarity。
  ButIdonotmeantoinspirefearandawe。’’
  Astilllongerpause。``Well,everythingissettled,’’
  saidthegeneral。``Weunderstandeachotherclearly?——
  notanengagement,nothingbindingoneitherside——simplya——a——anoptionwithoutforfeit。’’Andhelaughed——hislaughwasaghoulishsound,notloudbutexplosiveandaninstantcheckupondemonstrationofmirthfromanyoneelse。
  ``Iunderstand,’’saidMildredwithaglancetowardthedoorthroughwhichPresburyandhiswifehaddisappeared。
  ``Now,we’lljointheothers,andI’llshowyouthehouse’’——againthelaugh——``whatmaybeyourfuturehome——oneofthem。’’
  Thefourweresoonstarteduponwhatwasforthreeofthemawearifuljourneydespitetheelevatorthatsparedthemtheascentsofthestairways。Thehousewasanexaggeratedreproductionofalltheestablishmentsoftherichwhoconfuseexpenditurewithluxuryandcomfort。BillSiddallhadbought``thebestofeverything’’。thatis,thethingsintowhichthepurveyorsofcostlyfurnishingshaveputthemostexcusesforcharging。Oftaste,ofcomfort,ofdiscrimination,therewerefewtracesandtheseobviouslyaccidental。
  ``Ipickedoutthemenacknowledgedtobethebestintheirdifferentlines,’’saidthegeneral,``andIgavethemcarteblanche。’’
  ``Iseethatataglance,’’saidPresbury。``You’vedonethegrandthingonthegrandestpossiblescale。’’
  ``I’velookedintothefinestofthefamousplacesontheotherside,’’saidthegeneral。``AllIcansayis,I’vehadnoregrets。’’
  ``Ishouldsaynot,’’criedMrs。Presbury。
  Withanaffectationofmodesthesitation——toshowthathewasagentlemanwithagentleman’sfineappreciationofthedueofmaidenmodesty——Siddallpausedattheouterdoorofhisownapartments。ButatonesentenceofurgingfromMrs。Presburyheopenedthedoorandusheredthemin。Andsoonhewasshowingthemeverything——hisCarraramarblebathroomandbathing-pool,hisbedthathadbeenusedbyseveralFrenchkings,hisdressing-roomwithitsappliancesofgoldandplatinumandpreciousstones,hisclothing。
  Theyhadtoinspectaroomfullofsuits,hugechiffonierscrowdedwithshirtsandtiesandunderclothes。
  Heexhibitedsilkdressing-robesandpajamas,pointedoutthemarksofthefashionableLondonandParismakers,themonograms,theliningsofermineandsable。
  ``I’mveryparticularabouteverythingthattouchesme,’’explainedhe。``Itseemstomeagentlemancan’tbetooparticular。’’WithameaningglanceatMildred,``AndI’dfeelthesamewayaboutmywife。’’
  ``Youhearthat,Mildred?’’saidPresbury,withanastylittlelaugh。Hehadbeenrelievingthetediumofthissight-seeingtourbyobserving——andfromtimetotimeaggravating——Mildred’ssufferings。
  Thegeneralreleasedhismirth-stranglinggoatlaugh。
  Mrs。Presburyechoeditwithagaleofratherwildhysterics。SowellpleasedwasthegeneralwiththeexcursionandsofardidhefeeladvancedtowardintimacythatonthewaydownthemajesticmarblestairwayheventuredtogiveMildred’sarmagentle,playfulsqueeze。Andatthepartinghekissedherhand。Presburyhadchangedhismindaboutreturningtothecountry。OnthewaytothehotelhegirdedatMildred,reviewingallthatthelittlegeneralhadsaidanddone,andsneering,jeeringatit。Mildredmadenotasingleretortuntiltheywereupstairsinthehotel。AtthedoortoherroomshesaidtoPresbury——saiditinaquiet,cold,terribleway:
  ``Ifyoureallywantmetogothroughwiththisthing,youwillstopinsultinghimandme。Ifyoudoitagain,I’llgiveup——andgoonthestreetsbeforeI’llmarryhim。’’
  Presburyshruggedhisshouldersandwentontotheotherroom。Buthedidnotbeginagainthenextday,andfromthattimeforthavoidedreferencetothegeneral。Infact,therewasanastonishingchangeinhiswholedemeanor。Heceasedtobaithiswife,becamepolite,evenaffable。Ifhehadconductedhimselfthusfromtheoutset,hewouldhavegotfarlesscredit,wouldhavemadefarlessprogresstowardwinningthelikingofhiswife,andofherdaughter,thanhedidinabrieftwoweeksofchangefrompettyandmalignanttyranttogood-natured,interestinglytalkativeoldgentleman。
  Afterthemannerofhumannature,Mildredandhermother,intheirrelief,intheirpleasurethroughthisamazingsuddenandwhollyunexpectedgeniality,notmerelyforgavebutforgotalltheyhadsufferedathishands。Mildredwasnotwithoutasuspicionofthetruththatthischange,inauguratedinhisowngoodtime,wasfreshevidenceofhiscontemptforbothofthem——ofhisfeelingthathecouldeasilymakereparationwithalittlekindnessanddecencyandputhimselfinthewayofgettinganypossiblebenefitsfromtherichalliance。Butthoughshepracticallyknewwhatwasgoingoninhismind,shecouldnotpreventherselffromsofteningtowardhim。
  Nowfollowedasuccessionofdinners,oftheater-andopera-goings,ofweek-endsatthegeneral’snewcountrypalaceinthefashionableregionofLongIsland。
  Allthesefestivitieswereofthesameformalandtediouscharacter。Atallthegeneralwasthecentralsunwiththeothersdimanddraggledsatellites,hardlymoreimportantthantheouterrimofsatelliteservants。Hedidmostofthetalking。hewasthesoletopicofconversation。forwhenhewasnottalkingabouthimselfhewishedtobehearingabouthimself。IfMildredhadnotbeenseeingmoreandmoreplainlythatotherandrealpersonalityofhis,hercontemptforhimandforherselfwouldhavegrownbeyondcontrol。But,withhimorawayfromhim,ateveryinstanttherewasthesenseofthatotherrealWilliamSiddall——ashadowymenacefullofterror。Shedreamedofit——wasstartledfromsleepbyvisionsofamonstrousandmightydistortionofthelittlegeneral’sgrotesqueexterior。``IshallmarryhimifIcan,’’shesaidtoherself。``But——canI?’’Andshefearedandhopedthatshecouldnot,thatcouragewouldfailher,orwouldcometoherrescue,whicheveritwas,andthatshewouldrefusehim。Asidefromthesenseofherbodythatcannotbutbewithanywomanwhoisbeautiful,shehadnevertheretoforebeenespeciallyphysicalinthought。Thatsideoflifehadremainedvague,asshehadneverindulgedinorevenbeenstronglytemptedwiththethingsthatrouseitfromitsvirginalsleep。
  Butnowshethoughtonlyofherbody,becausethatitwas,andthatalone,thathaddrawnthisprospectivepurchaser,andhiseyesneverletherforgetit。Shefellintothehabitoflookingatherselfintheglass——
  atherface,athershoulders,atherwholeperson,notinvanitybutinakindofwonderoraversion。Andinthevisions,boththewakingandthesleeping,shereachedtheclimaxofhorrorwhenthemonstertouchedher——withclammy,creepyfingers,withmunchinglips,withthesharpendsofthemustacheorimperial。
  SaidMrs。Presburytoherhusband,``I’mafraidthegeneralwillbeirritatedbyMildred’sunresponsiveness。’’
  ``Don’tworry,’’repliedPresbury。``He’ssocrazyabouthimselfthatheimaginesthewholeworldisinthesamestate。’’
  ``Isn’titstrangethathedoesn’tgiveherpresents?
  Neveranythingbutcandyandflowers。’’
  ``Andheneverwill,’’saidPresbury。
  ``Notuntilthey’remarried,Isuppose。’’
  Presburywassilent。
  ``Ican’thelpthinkingthatifMillyweretorouseherselfandshowsome——someliking——oratleastinterest,it’dbewiser。’’
  ``She’stakingthebestpossiblecourse,’’saidPresbury。``Unconsciouslytobothofthem,she’sleadinghimon。Hethinksthat’sthewayaladyshouldact——
  restrained,refined。’’
  Mildred’sattitudewassimpleinertia。Themostpositiveeffortshemadewasavoidingsayingordoinganythingtodispleasehim——nodifficultmatter,asshewassilentandalmostlifelesswhenhewasnear。Withoutanyencouragementfromherhegraduallygotadeeprespectforher——whichmeantthathebecameconvincedofhercoldnessandexclusiveness,ofherabsolutetrustworthiness。Presburywasmoreprofoundlyrightthanheknew。Thegirlpursuedtheonlycoursethatmadepossiblethesuccessshelongedfor,yetdreadedandloathed。ForattheoutsetSiddallhadnotbeennearlysostronglyinearnestinhismatrimonialprojectashehadprofessedandhadbelievedhimself。Hewishedtomarry,wishedtoaddtohispossessionstheadmirableshow-pieceandexhibitionopportunityaffordedbytherightsortofwife。butinthebottomofhishearthefeltthatsuchawomanashedreamedofdidnotexistinallthefoolish,fickle,andshallowfemalesex。Thisgirl——socold,soproud,beautifulyetnoteagertodisplayhercharmsortohavethempraised——shewastherarebirdhesought。
  Inamonthheaskedhertomarryhim。thatis,hesaid:``Mydear,IfindthatIamreadytogothelimit——ifyouare。’’Andsheassented。Heputhisarmaroundherandkissedhercheek——andwasdelightedtodiscoverthatthealluringembracemadenoimpressionupontheiceofher``purityandladylikedignity。’’Uptotheverylastmomentoftheformalcourtshipheheldhimselfreadytowithdrawshouldsherevealtohiswatchfulnesstheslightestsignofhavingany``unladylike’’tendenciesorfeelings。Sherevealednosuchsign,butremained``ladylike’’。andcertainly,sothegeneralreasoned,awomanwhocouldthusresisthim,eveninthelicenseoftheformalengagement,wouldresistanybody。
  Assoonastheengagementwasformallyconcluded,thegeneralhurriedonthepreparationsforthewedding。
  HeopenedaccountsathalfadozenshopsinNewYork——dressmakers,milliners,dealersinfineandfashionableclothingofeverykind——andgavethemorderstoexecutewhatevercommandsMissGowerorhermother——forHER——mightgivethem。Whenhetoldherofthismunificenceandmagnificenceandpausedfortheoutburstofgratitude,helistenedinvain。
  Mildredcoloredtotherootsofherhairandwassilent,wasseekingthecouragetorefuse。
  ``Iknowthatyouandyourpeoplecan’taffordtodothethingasthingsrelatedtomemustbedone,’’hewentontosay。``SoIdecidedtojuststartinalittleearlyatwhatI’vegottodoanyhow。NotthatIblameyouforyournothavingmoney,mydear。Onthecontrary,that’soneofyourmeritswithme。Iwouldn’tmarryawomanwithmoney。Itputsthefamilylifeonawrongbasis。’’
  ``Ihadplannedaquietwedding,’’saidMildred。
  ``I’dmuchpreferit。’’
  ``Nowyoucanbefrankwithme,mydear,’’saidthegeneral。``Iknowyouladies——howcheatedyoufeelifyouaren’tmarriedwithallthefrillsandfixings。
  Sothat’sthewayitshallbedone。’’
  ``Really,’’protestedMildred,``I’mabsolutelyfrank。
  Iwishittobequitequiet——inourdrawing-room,withnoguests。’’
  Siddallsmiled,genialandtolerant。``Don’targuewithme,mydear。Iknowwhatyouwant,andI’llseethatyougetit。Goaheadwiththeseshop-peopleI’veputatyourdisposal——andgoasfarasyoulike。
  Thereisn’tanything——ANYTHING——inthewayofclothesthatyoucan’thave——thatyoumustn’thave。
  Mrs。GeneralSiddallisgoingtobethebest-dressedwomanintheworld——assheistheprettiest。Ihaven’topenedanaccountforyouwithTiffany’soranyofthosepeople。I’lllookoutforthatpartofthebusiness,myself。’’
  ``Idon’tcareforjewelry,’’saidMildred。
  ``Naturallynotforthekindthat’sbeenwithinyourmeansheretofore,’’repliedhe。``butyou’llopenyoureyeswhenyouseeMYjewelryforMYwife。Allingoodtime,mydear。Youandyourmothermuststartrightinwiththeshopping。and,aweekorsobeforethewedding,I’llsendmypeopledowntotransformthehouse。Imaybewrong,butIratherthinkthattheSiddallweddingwillcausesometalk。’’
  Hewasnotwrong。Throughhisconfidentialsecretary,Hardingthethorough,thenewspaperpresswasinducedtotakeaninterestintheincredibleextravaganceSiddallwasperpetratinginarrangingforafittingweddingforGeneralWilliamSiddall。FormanydaysbeforetheceremonythereweredailycolumnsabouthimandhisromanticcareerandhisromanticwooingoftheNewJerseygirlofexcellentfamilyandsocialpositionbutofcomparativelymodestmeans。
  Theshopkeepersgaveinterviewsonthetrousseau。Thedecoratorsandcaterersdetailedthesplendorsandthecostlinessofthepreparationsofwhichtheyhadcharge。
  FrommorninguntildarkacrowdhungroundthehouseatHangingRock,andontheweddingdaythestreetsleadingtoitwereblocked——chieflywithpeoplecomefromadistance,manyofthemfromNewYork。
  AttheoutsetallthisnoisewasdeeplydistastefultoMildred,butafterafewdayssherecoveredhernormalpointofview,forgotthekindofmanshewasmarry-
  ingintheexcitementandexultationoverhersuddensplendorandfame。Sostronglydidthedelusionpresentlybecome,thatshewaslookingatthelittlegeneralwithanythingbutunfavorableeyes。Heseemedtoheraquaint,fascinating,benevolentnecromancer,havingmiraculouspowerswhichhewasexercisinginherbehalf。
  Sheevenreproachedherselfwithingratitudeinnotbeingwildlyinlovewithhim。Wouldnotanyothergirl,inherplace,havefallenoverearsinlovewiththismarvelousman?
  However,whileshecouldnotquiteconvinceherselfthatsheloved,shebecameconvincedwithouteffortthatshewashappy,thatshewasgoingtobestillhappier。
  Theexcitementwroughtherintoastateofexaltationandsweptherthroughtheweddingceremonyandthegoingawayasradiantabrideasamanwouldcaretohave。
  Thereismuchtobesaidagainstthenoisy,showywedding。Certainlylovehasrarelybeenknowntodegradehimselftothepointofattendinganysuch。Butthereissomethingtobesaidforthatsortofmarriedstart——forinstance,whereloveisneitherinvitednordesired,aneffortmustbemadetocoverthepainfulvacancyhisabsencealwayscauses。
  Thelittlegeneral’sinsistenceona``realwedding’’
  wasmosthappyforhim。Itprobablygothimhisbride。
  III
  THEintoxicationofthatweddingheldonlongenoughandstronglyenoughtosoftenandbluntthedisillusionmentsofthefirstfewdaysofthehoneymoon。Intheprospectthatperiodhadseemed,eventoMildred’sratherunsophisticatedimagination,appallingbeyondherpowertoendure。Inthefact——thanksinlargeparttothatintoxication——itwascertainlynotunendurable。Ahumanbeing,evenaninnocentyounggirl,canusuallybearupunderanyexperiencetowhichahumanbeingcanbesubjected。Thegeneralinpajamas——
  ofthefinestsilkandofpigeon’s-eggbluewithavastgorgeousmonogramonthepocket——wasmoregrotesque,ratherthanmorerepellent,thanthegeneralinmorningoreveningattire。Alsohe——thatis,hisexpertstaffofprovidersofluxury——hadarrangedforthebrideaseriesofthemostravishingsensationsinwhiskingher,liketheheroineofanArabianNight’stale,fromstraitenedcircumstancestotheveryparadiseofluxury。
  Thegeneral’sideasonthesubjectofwomanwereoldfashioned,ofthehard-shellvariety。Womanwasmadeforluxury,andluxurywasmadeforwoman。Hiswomanmustbethemostdivinelyeasefuloftheluxurious。
  Atalltimesshemustbefitandreadyforanyandeverysybariticideathatmightenterherhusband’shead——andotherpurposeshehadnone。Whenshewasnotdirectlyengagedinministeringtohisjoyshemustbebusypreparingherselfforhisnextcalluponher。Awomanwasaluxury,wastheluxuryofluxuries,musthaveandmustusetotheiruttermostallcapacitiesforgratifyinghissensesandhisvanity。
  Alonewithhim,shemustmakehimconstantlyfeelhowrichandrareandexpensiveaprizehehadcaptured。
  Whenotherswereabout,shemustbeconstantlymakingthemenvyandadmirehimforhavingexclusiverightsinsuchwonderfulpreserves。Allthiswithaninflexibledevotiontotheloftiestidealsofchastity。
  Butthefirstrealizationsofherhusband’snotionsastowomenwerealtogetherpleasant。AssheenteredtheautomobileinwhichtheywenttotheprivatecarinthespecialtrainthattookthemtoNewYorkandthesteamer——assheenteredthatnewandprodigallyluxuriousautomobile,shehadafirst,keensenseofherchangedposition。Thentherewasthesuperbprivatecar——hercar,sinceshewashiswife——andtherewasthebeautifulsuiteinthemagnificentsteamer。Andateveryinstantmenialsthrustingattentionsuponher,addressingherasifshewereaqueen,revealingintheirnervoustonesandanxiouseyestheireagernesstoplease,theirfearofdispleasing。Andonthesteamer,fromNewYorktoCherbourg,shewasneverpermittedtolosesightofthematerialsplendorsthatwerenowhers。
  Alltheservants,allthepassengers,remindedherbytheirlooks,theirtones。AtParis,inthehotel,intherestaurants,intheshops——especiallyintheshops——
  thosesnobbishinstinctsthatarelatentinthesanestandthewisestofuswerefedandfattenedandpampereduntilherheadwasquiteturned。Andthegeneralbegantobuyjewelsforher。Suchjewels——
  ropesofdiamondsandpearlsandemeralds,ringssuchasshehadneverdreamedexisted!ThoseshoppingexcursionsoftheirsintheRuedelaPaixwouldmakesuchataleasyourordinarysimplecitizen,ignorantoftheworld’sresourcesinluxuryandthereforeincredulousaboutthem,wouldreadwithalaughattheextravaganceoftheteller。
  Beforetheintoxicationoftheweddinghadwornawayitwasre-enforcedbytheintoxicationofthehoney-
  moon——notanintoxicationoflove’sproviding,butoneexceedingpotentinitsinfluenceuponourweakhumanbrainsandhearts,onefromwhichthestrongestofus,insteadofsneeringatpoorMildred,wouldbetterbeprayingtobedelivered。
  Athermarriageshehadafewhundreddollarsleftofherpatrimony——threehundredandfiftyandodd,tobemoreexact。Shespentalittlemoneyofherownhereandthere——intips,inbuyingpresentsforhermother,inpickinguptriflesforherowntoilet。Thedaycamewhenshelookedinherpurseandfoundtwoone-francpieces,afifty-francnote,andafewcoppers。
  Andsuddenlyshesatbackandstared,hermouthopenlikeheralmostemptygoldbag,whichthegeneralhadboughtherontheirfirstdayintheRuedelaPaix。
  Abouttendollarsinalltheworld,andthegeneralhadforgottentospeak——ortomakeanyarrangement,atleastanyarrangementofwhichshewasaware——aboutafurthersupplyofmoney。
  Theyhadbeenmarriednearlyamonth。Heknewthatshewaspoor。Whyhadn’thesaidsomethingor,betterstill,DONEsomething?Doubtlesshehadsimplyforgotten。Butsincehehadforgottenforamonth,mighthenotcontinuetoforget?True,hehadhimselfbeenpooratonetimeinhislife,verypoor,andthatforalongtime。Butithadbeensomanyyearsagothathehadprobablylostallsenseofthemeaningofpoverty。Shefrownedatthisevidenceofhislackofthefinersensibilities——bynomeansthefirsttimethatlackhadbeendisagreeablythrustuponher。Soonshewouldbewithoutmoney——andshemusthavemoney——notmuch,asalltheseriousexpenseswerelookedafterbythegeneral,butstillalittlemoney。Howcouldshegetit?Howcouldsheremindhimofhisneglectwithoutseemingtobeindelicate?Itwasadifficultproblem。Sheworkedatitmoreandmorecontinuously,andirritably,andnervously,asthedayswentbyandherfifty-twofrancsdwindledtofive。
  Shelayawake,planninglongandelaborateconversationsthatwouldimperceptiblyleadhimuptowherehemustseewhatsheneededwithoutseeingthathehadbeenled。Shecarriedouttheseingeniousconversations。
  Sheledhimalong,hedocilelyandunsuspectinglyfollowing。Shebroughthimuptowhereitseemedtoherimpossibleforanyhumanbeingendowedwiththeordinaryfacultiestofailtoseewhatwassoplainlyinview。Allinvain。GeneralWilliamSiddallgazedplacidly——andsawnothing。
  Severaldaysofthesefailures,andwithherfundsreducedtoafifty-centimepieceandatwo-souscoppershemadeafrontalattack。Whentheywentforthfortheday’sshoppingshelefthergoldbagbehind。Afteranhourorsoshesaid:
  ``I’vegottogototheGalleriesLafayetteforsomelittlethings。Ishan’taskyoutosacrificeyourself。I
  knowyouhatethosestuffy,smellybigshops。’’
  ``Verywell,’’saidhe。``I’llusethetimeinacallonmybankers。’’
  Astheywereabouttoseparate,shetakingthemotorandhewalking,shemadeafaceofcharmingdismayandsaid:``Howprovoking!I’veleftmybagatthehotel。’’
  Insteadoftheexpectedpromptofferofmoneyhesaid,``It’llonlytakeyouaminuteorsotodrivethere。’’
  ``Butit’soutoftheway,’’shereplied。``I’llneedonlyahundredfrancsorso。’’
  Saidhe:``I’veanaccountattheBonMarche。Gothereandhavethethingscharged。It’smuchthebestbigshopinParis。’’
  ``Verywell,’’wasallshecouldtrustherselftosay。
  Sheconcealedherangerbeneathacarelesssmileanddroveaway。Howdensehewas!Couldanythingbemoreexasperating——ormoredisagreeable?WhatSHOULDshedo?Thesituationwasintolerable。yethowcoulditbeended,exceptbyahumiliatingdirectrequestformoney?Shewonderedhowyoungwiveshabituallydealtwiththisproblem,whentheyhappenedtomarryhusbandssonegligent,nottosayunderbred,astocausethemtheawkwardnessandtheshame。Therefollowedseveraldaysduringwhichthemoneyideawasanobsession,naggingandgrinningathereveryin-
  stant。Thesightofmoneygaveherapeculiaritchingsensation。Whenthelittlegeneralpaidforanything——alwaysdrawingoutagreatsheafofbanknotesindoingit——sheflushedhotandcold,herglancefellguiltilyandsoughtthemoneyfurtively。Atlastherdesperationgavebirthtoaninspiration。
  Aboutherandthegeneral,or,rather,aboutthegeneral,revolvedtheusualrichman’ssmallarmyofsatellitesofvariousdegrees——secretaries,butlers,footmen,valets,otherservantsmaleandfemale,someofthemsupposedtobedevotedentirelytoherservice,butallinfactlookingevertothelittlegeneral。Themembersofthiscompany,regardlessofdifferencesofrankandpay,werebandedtogetherinasortofdemocraticfellowship,talkingfreelywithoneanother,ontermsofperfectequality。Sheherselfhad,curiously,gottenonexcellenttermswiththismotleyfraternityandfoundnosmallrelieffromthestrainofthegeneral’sformaldignityintalkingwiththemwithafreedomandeaseshehadneverbeforefeltinthesocietyofunderlings。
  ThemostconspicuousandmostagreeablefigureinthiscompanywasHarding,thegeneral’sfactotum。WhynotlaythecasebeforeHarding?Hewasnotablysensible,andsympathetic——anddiscreet。
  Thefollowingdayshedidso。Saidshe,blushingfuriously:``Mr。Harding,Ifindmyselfinaveryembarrassingposition。Iwonderifyoucanhelpme?’’
  Harding,ayoungmanandofoneofthebestblondtypes,said:``NodoubtIcan——andI’llbegladto。’’
  ``Thefactis’’——Hervoicewastremblingwithnervousness。Sheopenedthegoldbag,tookoutthelittlesilverpiecesandthebigcopperpiece,extendedherpinkpalmwiththemuponit——``there’sallI’vegotleftofthemoneyIbroughtwithme。’’
  Hardinggazedattheexhibittranquilly。Hewaschieflyremarkableforhisperfectself-possession。Saidhe:``Doyouwishmetocashacheckforyou?’’
  Thestupidityofmen!Tearsofvexationgatheredinhereyes。Whenshecouldspeakshefaltered:
  ``No。’’
  Hewaslookingathernow——agrave,kindglance。
  Shesomehowfeltencouragedandheartened。Shewenton:``Iwashoping——that——thatthegen——
  thatmyhusbandhadsaidsomethingtoyouandthatyouperhapshadnotthoughttosayanythingtome。’’
  Theirglancesmet,hismovinglysympatheticandunderstanding,herspiteouslyforlorn——thelookofalovelygirl,strandedandfriendlessinafarstrangeland。Presentlyhesaidgently:
  ``Yes,hetoldmetosaysomethingtoyou——ifyoushouldspeaktomeaboutthismatter。’’Histonecausedinherheartahorriblestillnessofsuspense。Hewenton:``Hesaid——Igiveyouhisexactwords:
  `Ifmywifeshouldaskyouformoney,tellhermyideasonthesubject。’’’
  Apause。Shestartedup,crimson,herglancedartingnervouslythiswayandthattoavoidhis。``Nevermind。Really,it’sofnoimportance。Thankyou——
  I’llgetonverywell——I’msorrytohavetroubledyou——’’
  ``Pardonme,Mrs。Siddall,’’heinterposed,``butI
  thinkyou’dbestletmefinish。’’
  Shestartedtoprotest,shetriedtomovetowardthedoor。Herstrengthfailedher,shesatdown,waited,nervouslyclaspingandunclaspingthecostly,jewel-
  embroideredbag。
  ``Hehasexplainedtome,manytimes,’’continuedHarding,``thathebelieveswomendonotunderstandthevalueofmoneyandoughtnottobetrustedwithit。
  Heproposestoprovideeverythingforyou,everycomfortandluxury——Iamusinghisownlanguage,Mrs。
  Siddall——andhehasopenaccountsattheprincipalshopsineverycitywhereyouwillgo——NewYork,Washington,Chicago,Denver,Paris,London,Rome。
  Hesaysyouareatlibertytogetpracticallyanythingyoupleaseattheseshops,andhewillpaythebills。
  Hethusentirelysparesyouthenecessityofeverspendinganymoney。Shouldyouseeanythingyouwishatsomeshopwherehehasnoaccount,youcanhaveitsentcollect,andIormyassistant,Mr。Drawl,willsettleforit。Allheasksisthatyouusediscretioninthisfreedom。Hesaysitwouldbeextremelypainfultohimtohavetowithdrawit。’’
  Hardinghadpronouncedthislongspeechinadrymonotonousvoice,likeonereadingmechanicallyfromadullbook。AsMildredlistened,herthoughtsbegantowhirlaboutthecentralideauntilshefellintoakindofstupor。Whenhefinishedshewasstaringvacantlyatthebaginherlap——thebagshewasholdingopenwide。
  Hardingcontinued:``Healsoinstructedmetosaysomethingabouthisformer——hisexperiences。ThefirstMrs。Siddallhemarriedwhenhewasveryyoungandpoor。Ashegrewrich,shebecamemadlyextravagant。
  Andastheyhadstartedonabasisonwhichshehadfreeaccesstohismoneyhecouldnotcheckher。
  Theresult,finally,wasasuccessionofbitterquarrels,andtheywereabouttodivorcewhenshedied。HemadethesecondMrs。Siddallanallowance,aliberalallowance。Herfolliescompelledhimtowithdrawit。
  Sheresortedtounderhandedmeanstogetmoneyfromhimwithouthisknowingit。Hedetectedthefraud。
  Afteraseriesofdisagreeableincidentsshecommittedtheindiscretionwhichcausedhimtodivorceher。Hesaysthattheseexperienceshaveconvincedhimthat——’’
  ``ThesecondMrs。Siddall,’’interruptedMildred,``isshestillalive?’’
  Hardinghesitated。``Yes,’’hesaidreluctantly。
  ``Isshe——poor?’’askedMildred。
  ``Ishouldprefernotto——’’
  ``Didthegeneralforbidyoutotellme?’’
  ``Onthecontrary,heinstructedme——ButI’drathernottalkaboutit,Mrs。Siddall。’’
  ``Isshepoor?’’repeatedMildred。
  ``Yes。’’
  ``Whatbecameofher?’’
  Alongpause。ThenHardingsaid:``Shewasapoorgirlwhenthegeneralmarriedher。Afterthedivorceshelivedforawhilewiththeman。Buthehadnothing。Theyseparated。Shetriedvariouskindsofwork——andotherthings。Sinceshelostherlooks——
  Shewritesfromtimetotime,askingformoney。’’
  ``Whichshenevergets?’’saidMildred。
  ``Whichshenevergets,’’saidHarding。``LatelyshewascashierorheadwaitressinacheaprestaurantinSt。Louis。’’
  AfteralongsilenceMildredsaid:``Iunderstand。
  Iunderstand。’’Shedrewalongbreath。``Ishallunderstandbetterastimegoeson,butIunderstandfairlywellnow。’’
  ``Ineednottellyou,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidHardinginhisgentle,tranquilway,``thatthegeneralisthekindestandmostgenerousofmen,buthehashisownmethods——
  aswhohasnot?’’
  Mildredhadforgottenthathewasthere——notadifficultmatter,whenhehadinitsperfectionthesecretarialmannerofcompleteself-effacement。Saidshereflectively,likeonepuzzlingoutadifficultproblem:
  ``Hebuysawoman,ashebuysadogorahorse。
  Hedoesnotgivehisdog,hishorse,pocket-money。
  Whyshouldhegivehiswomanpocket-money?’’
  ``Willithelpmatters,Mrs。Siddall,togototheotherextremeanddohimagraveinjustice?’’
  Shedidnothear。Atthepicturepresentedtohermindbyherownthoughtsshegaveashortsatiricallaugh。``Howstupidofmenottohaveunderstoodfromtheoutset,’’saidshe。``Why,I’veoftenheardofthisverything。’’
  ``Itismoreandmorethecustomamongmenoflargeproperty,Ibelieve,’’saidHarding。``Perhaps,Mrs。
  Siddall,youwouldnotblamethemifyouwereintheirposition。Therichmenwhoarecareless——theyruineverybodyaboutthem,Iassureyou。I’veseenitagainandagain。’’
  Buttheyoungwifewasabsorbedinherownthoughts。Harding,feelinghermood,didnotinterrupt。
  Afterawhileshesaid:
  ``Imustaskyousomequestions。Thesejewelsthegeneralhasbeenbuying——’’
  Hardingmadeamovementofembarrassmentandprotest。Shesmiledironicallyandwenton:
  ``Onemoment,please。EverytimeIwishtowearanyofthemIhavetogotohimtogetthem。HeasksmetoreturnthemwhenIamundressing。Hesaysitissafertokeepeverythinginhisstrongbox。Ihavebeenassumingthatthatwastheonlyreason。Ibegintosuspect——AmIright,Mr。Harding?’’
  ``ReallyIcan’tsay,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidHarding。
  ``Thesearenotmatterstodiscusswithme,ifyouwillpermitmetosayso。’’
  ``Oh,yes,theyare,’’repliedshelaughingly。
  ``Aren’tweallinthesameboat?——allemployesofthegeneral?’’
  Hardingmadenoreply。
  Mildredwasbesideherselfwithakindofragethat,becauseoutletwasnecessaryandbecauseravingagainstthelittlegeneralwouldbeabsolutelyfutile,foundoutletinself-mockeryandrecklesssarcasm。
  ``Iunderstandaboutthejewels,too,’’shewenton。
  ``Theyarenotmine。Nothingismine。Everything,includingmyself,belongstohim。IfIgivesatisfactioninthepositionforwhichI’vebeenhiredformyboardandclothes,Imaycontinuetoeatthegeneral’sfoodandsleepinthegeneral’shouseandwearthegeneral’sjewelsanddressesandrideinthegeneral’strapsandbewaitedonbythegeneral’sservants。IfIdon’tlikemyplaceorhedoesn’tlikemywayoffillingit’’——shelaughedmerrily,mockingly——``outIgo——intothestreets——afterthesecondMrs。Siddall。Andthegeneralwillhireanew——’’Shepaused,castaboutforawordinvain,appealedtothesecretary,``Whatwouldyoucallit,Mr。Harding?’’
  Hardingrose,lookingatherwithaverysoothingtranquillity。``IfIwereyou,Mrs。Siddall,’’saidhe,``Ishouldgetintotheautoandgoforalongdrive——
  outtotheBois——outtoVersailles——along,longdrive。Ishouldbegonefourorfivehoursatleast,andIshouldlookatthethingfromallsides。Especially,I’dlookatitfromHISstandpoint。’’
  Mildred,somewhatquieter,butstillmocking,said:
  ``IfIshoulddecidetoquit,wouldmyexpensesbepaidbacktowhereIwasengaged?Ifancynot。’’
  Hardinglookedgrave。``Ifyouhadhadmoneyenoughtopayyourownexpensesabout,wouldyouhavemarriedhim?’’saidhe。``Isn’thepaying——payingliberally,Mrs。Siddall——forALLhegets?’’
  Mildred,stung,drewherselfuphaughtily,gavehimalookthatremindedhimwhoshewasandwhohewas。
  ButHardingwasnotimpressed。
  ``Yousaidamomentago——truly——thatweareallinthesameboat,’’observedhe。``IputthosequestionstoyoubecauseIhonestlywishtohelpyou——becauseIwishyounottoactfoolishly,hastily。’’
  ``Thankyou,Mr。Harding,’’saidMildredcoldly。
  Andwithaslightnodshewent,angryandashamedthatshehadsounaccountablyopeneduphersecretsoul,bareditsuglywounds,beforeamansheknewsoslightly,amaninapositionbutoneremovefrommenial。However,shetookhisadvice——notastotryingtoviewthematterfromallsides,forshewasconvincedthattherewasonlytheoneside,butastocalmingherselfbyalongdrivealoneinthewoodsandalongquietroads。Whenshereturnedshewasundercontroloncemore。
  Shefoundthegeneralimpatientlyawaitingher。
  Manypackageshadcome——fromthejewelers,fromthefurriers,fromashopwhosespecialtywasthethinnestandmostdelicateofhand-madeunderwear。Thegenerallovedtoopenandinspectfineryforher——
  loveditmorethanhelovedinspectingfineryforhimself,becausefemininefinerywasfarmoreattractivethanmasculine。Towhethispleasuretothekeenestshemustbetheretoadmirewithhim,totryon,toexhibit。Assheenteredthesalonwherethelittlemanwasfussingaboutamongthepackages,theirglancesmet。ShesawthatHardinghadtoldhim——atleastindiscreetoutline——oftheirconversation。Shealsosawthatifshereopenedthesubjectshewouldfindherselfstraightwaywhirledoutuponastormyseaofdangerthatmighteasilyoverwhelmherflimsyboat。Shesilentlyandsullenlydroppedintoherplace。sheministeredtothegeneral’spleasureinpackagesoffinery。
  Butshedidnotexclaim,oradmire,orrespondinanyway。Thehoneymoonwasover。Herdreamofwifehoodwasdissipated。
  Sheunderstoodnowthelookshesooftenhadseenonthefacesofrichmen’spoorwivesdrivinginstateinFifthAvenue。Thatnight,assheinspectedherselfintheglasswhilethegeneral’smaidforherbrushedherlongthickhair,shesawthebeginningsofthatlookinherownface。``Idon’tknowjustwhatIam,’’shesaidtoherself。``ButIdoknowwhatIamnot。Iamnotawife。’’
  Shesentawaythemaid,andsatthereinthedressing-
  roombeforethemirror,waiting,herglancetravelingaboutandnotingtheprofuseandprodigalluxury。Inthecornerstoodacircularrackloadedwithdressing-
  gowns——morethanascoreofexquisitecombinationsofsilkandlaceorsilkandchiffon。Itsohappenedthattherewasnowhereinsightasinglearticleofherapparelorforhertoiletthatwasnotboughtwiththegeneral’smoney。No,thereweresomehairpinsthatshehadpaidforherself,andacombwithwidelyseparatedteeththatshehadchancedtoseeinawindowwhenshewasaloneoneday。Anythingelse?
  Yes,atwo-francboxofpins。Andthatwasall。
  Everythingelsebelongedtothegeneral。Intheclosets,inthetrunks——allthegeneral’s,partofthetrousseauhehadpaidfor。Notanundergarment。notanoutergarment。notahatorapairofshoes,notawrap,notapairofgloves。All,thegeneral’s。
  Hewasinthedoorofthedressing-room——thesmallwiryfigureinrose-silkpajamas。Themustacheandimperialwerecarefullywaxedasalways,dayandnight。
  Onthelittlefeetwerehigh-heeledslippers。Ontheheadwasarose-silkNeapolitannightcapwithgaytassel。
  Thenightcaphidthebaldspotfromwhichtheloftytoupeehadbeenremoved。Agrotesquelittlefigure,butnotgrotesquetoher。Throughthemaskofthevain,boastfullittlefaceshesawthegeneralwatchingher,asshehadseenhimthatafternoonwhenshecamein——themysteriousandterriblepersonalitythathadmadethevastfortune,thathadriddenruthlesslyoverfriendandfoe,overmanandwomanandchild——tothegoalofitsdesires。
  ``It’slate,mydear?’’saidthelittleman。``Cometobed。’’
  Sherosetoobey——sheinthegeneral’spurchasesoffilmynightgownunderapale-pinksilkdressing-gown。
  Hesmiledwiththatcuriousnoiselessmumblingandsmackingofthethinlips。Shesatdownagain。
  ``Don’tkeepmewaiting。It’schilly,’’hesaid,advancingtowardher。
  ``Ishallsleepinhereto-night——onthecouch,’’saidshe。Shewastremblingwithfrightatherownaudacity。
  Shecouldseeafifty-centimepieceandacopperdancingbeforehereyes。Shefelthorriblyaloneandweak,butshehadnodesiretoretractthewordswithwhichshehadthrowndownthegauntlet。
  Thelittlegeneralhalted。Themaskdropped。theman,themonster,lookedather。``What’sthematter?’’
  saidheinanominouslyquietvoice。
  ``Mr。Hardingdeliveredyourmessageto-day,’’saidshe,andhersteadyvoiceastonishedher。``SoIamgoingbackhome。’’
  Hewaited,lookingsteadilyather。
  ``AfterhetoldmeandIthoughtaboutit,Idecidedtosubmit,butjustnowIsawthatIcouldn’t。Idon’tknowwhatpossessesme。Idon’tknowwhatI’mgoingtodo,orhowI’mgoingtodoit。Butit’salloverbetweenus。’’Shesaidthisrapidly,fluently,inadecisiveway,quiteforeigntohercharacterasshehadthoughtit。
  ``Youarecomingtobed,whereyoubelong,’’saidhequietly。
  ``No,’’repliedshe,pressingherselfagainstherchairasifforcewerebeingusedtodragherfromit。Shecastaboutforsomethingthatwouldmakeyieldingimpossible。``Youare——repulsivetome。’’
  Helookedatherwithoutchangeofcountenance。
  Saidhe:``Cometobed。Iaskyouforthelasttime。’’
  Therewasnoangerinhisvoice,nomenaceeitheropenorcovert。simplyfinality——thelastwordofthemanwhohadmadehimselffearedandsecureinthemining-campswheretheequationofpersonalcourageisstraightwayappliedtoeverysituation。Mildredshivered。Shelongedtoyield,tostammeroutsomeexcuseandobeyhim。Butshecouldnot。norwassheabletorisefromherchair。Shesawinhishardeyesalookofastonishment,ofcuriosityastothisunaccountabledefianceinonewhohadseemeddocile,whohadapparentlynoalternativebutobedience。Hewasnotsoastonishedatherasshewasatherself。``Whatistobecomeofme?’’herterror-strickensoulwascrying。
  ``Imustdoashesays——Imust——yetIcannot!’’
  Andshelookedathimandsatmotionless。
  Heturnedaway,movedslowlytowardthedoor,haltedatthethresholdtogivehertime,wasgone。A
  fitoftremblingseizedher。sheleanedforwardandrestedherarmsuponthedressing-tableorshewouldhavefallenfromthechairtothefloor。Yet,evenasherfearmadehersickandweak,sheknewthatshewouldnotyield。
  Thecolddrovehertothecouch,tolieunderhalfadozenofthedressing-gownsandpresentlytofallintoasleepofexhaustion。Whensheawokeafterwhatshethoughtwasafewminutesofunconsciousness,theclamoroftrafficintheRuedeRivolistartledher。Shestartedup,glancedattheclockonthechimneypiece。
  Itwastenminutespastnine!When,byalltherulesgoverningtheactionofthenerves,sheoughttohavepassedawakefulnightshehadoversleptmorethananhour。Indeed,shehadhadthefirstsoundandprolongedsleepthathadcometohersincethehoneymoonbegan。foruntilthenshehadsleptaloneallherlifeandtheneworderhadalmostgivenherchronicinsomnia。
  Sherangforhermaidandbegantodress。Themaiddidnotcome。Sherangagainandagain。
  apparentlythebellwasbroken。Shefinisheddressingandwentoutintothehuge,grandlyandgaudilyfurnishedsalon。Hardingwasatacarvedold-goldandlacquerdesk,writing。Assheenteredheroseandbowed。
  ``Won’tyoupleasecalloneoftheservants?’’saidshe。``Iwantmycoffee。Iguessthebellinmyroomisbroken。Mymaiddoesn’tanswer。’’
  ``No,thebellisnotbroken,’’saidHarding。
  Shelookedathimquestioningly。
  ``Thegeneralhasissuedanorderthatnothingistobedoneinthisapartment,andnothingserved,unlesshepersonallyauthorizesit。’’
  Mildredpaled,drewherselfupinwhatseemedagestureofhaughtinessbutwasanefforttomusterherstrength。Tosaveherselffromthehumiliationofabreakdownbeforehim,shehastilyretreatedbythewayshehadcome。Afterperhapsaquarterofanhourshereappearedinthesalon。shewasnowdressedforthestreet。Hardinglookedupfromhiswriting,roseandbowedgravely。Saidshe:
  ``Iamgoingoutforawalk。I’llbebackinanhourorso。’’
  ``Onemoment,’’saidHarding,haltingherasshewasopeningthedoorintothepublichall。``Thegeneralhasissuedanorderthatifyougoout,youarenottobeallowedtoreturn。’’
  Herhandfellfromtheknob。Withflashingeyesshecried,``Butthatisimpossible!’’
  ``Itishisorders,’’saidHarding,inhisusualquietmanner。``Andashepaysthebillshewillbeobeyed。’’
  Shedebated。Againstherwill,hertremblinghandsoughttheknobagain。Againstherwill,herweakarmbegantodrawthedooropen。Hardingcametowardher,stoodbeforeherandlookeddirectlyintohereyes。
  Hiseyeshaddreadandentreatyinthem,buthisvoicewasasalwayswhenhesaid:
  ``Youknowhim,Mrs。Siddall。’’
  ``Yes,’’shesaid。
  ``ThereasonhehasgotALLhewanted——whateverhewanted——isthathewillgotoanylength。Everyotherhumanbeing,almost,hasalimit,beyondwhichtheywillnotgo——aphysicalfearoramoralfearorafearofpublicopinion。Butthegeneral——hehasnolimit。’’
  ``Yes,’’shesaid。Anddeathlypaleandalmoststag-
  geringshedrewopenthedoorandwentoutintothepublichall。
  ``ForGod’ssake,Mrs。Siddall!’’criedHarding,ingreatagitation。``Comeinquickly。Theyarewatching——
  theywilltellhim!Areyoumad?’’
  ``IthinkImustbe,’’saidshe。``Iamsickwithfear。
  Icanhardlykeepfromdroppingdownhereinafaint。
  Yet——’’astrangelook,aminglingofabjectterrorandpassionatedefiance,gaveheranaspectquiteinsane——``Iamgoing。PerhapsI,too,havenolimit。’’
  Andshewentalongthecorridor,pastagroupofgapingandfrightenedservants,downthestairwayandoutbytheprivateentranceforthegrandapartmentsofthehotelintheRueRaymonddel’Isle。ShecrossedtheRuedeRivoliandenteredtheTuileriesGardens。
  Itwasonlybracinglycoolinthesunshineofthatwinterday。Sheseatedherselfonachairontheterracetoregainherebbedstrength。Hardlyhadshesatdownwhenthewomancollectorcameandstoodwaitingforthetwosousforthechair。Mildredopenedherbag,foundtwocoins。Shegavethecopperstothewoman。Theother——allthemoneyshehad——wasthefifty-centimepiece。
  ``Butthebag——Icangetagooddealforthat,’’shesaidaloud。
  ``Ibegyourpardon——Ididn’tcatchthat。’’
  Shecamebacktoasenseofhersurroundings。StanleyBairdwasstandingafewfeetaway,smilingdownather。Hewas,ifpossible,evenmoreattractivelydressedthaninthedayswhenhehoveredabouther,hopingvaguethingsofwhichhewasashamedandtry-
  ingtogetthecouragetoputdownhissnobbishnessandmarryherbecauseshesoexactlysuitedhim。Hewaswearinganewkindofcollarandtie,strikingyetinexcellentquiettaste。Also,hisfaceandfigurehadfilledoutjustenough——hehadbeentoothinintheformerdays。Buthewasnowentereduponthatperiodofthefearsomefortieswhen,unlessamanamountstosomething,hebeginstolookinsignificant。Hedidnotamounttoanything。hewasthereforepalingandwaningasapersonality。
  ``WasIthinkingaloud?’’saidMildred,asshegavehimherhand。
  ``Yousaidsomethingabout`gettingagooddeal。’’’
  Heinspectedherwiththefreedomofanoldfriendandwiththethoroughnessofaconnoisseur。WomenwhotookpainswiththemselvesandweresatisfiedwiththeresultslikedStanleyBaird’sknowingandappreciativewayofnotingthebestpointsintheirtoilets。``You’relookingfine,’’declaredhe。``ItmustbeapleasuretothemupintheRuedelaPaixtodressyou。That’smorethancanbesaidfornineoutoftenofthewomenwhogothere。Yes,you’relookingfine——andingrandhealth,too。Why,youlookyoungerthanIeversawyou。Nothinglikemarriagetofreshenagirlup。
  Well,Isupposewaitingroundforahusbandwhomayormaynotturnupdoeswearawomandown。’’
  ``Italmostkilledme,’’laughedMildred。``Andyouwerelargelyresponsible。’’
  ``I?’’saidBaird。``Youdidn’twantme。Iwastoooldforyou。’’
  ``No,Ididn’twantyou,’’saidMildred。``Butyouspoiledme。Icouldn’tenduretheboysofmyownage。’’
  StanleywasrememberingthatMildredhadmarriedamanmucholderthanhe。Withsomenotionofacarelesssortoftactinmindhesaid,``Iwasbetwixtandbetween——neitheryoungenoughnoroldenough。’’
  ``You’vemarried,too,sincewemet。Bytheway,thankyouagainforthatcharmingremembrance。
  Youalwaysdidhavesuchgoodtaste。Butwhydidn’tyoucometothewedding——youandyourwife?’’
  Helaughed。``Wewerebusybustingup,’’saidhe。
  ``Youhadn’theard?It’sbeeninthepapers。She’sgonebacktoherpeople。Oh,nothingdisgracefuloneitherside。Simplythatweboredeachothertodeath。
  Shewascrazyabouthorsesanddogs,andthatset。I
  thinkthestable’stheplaceforhorses——don’tcaretohave’emparadingthroughthehouseallthetime,everyroom,everymeal,sleepingandwaking。Anddogs——
  theinfernalbrutesalwayshavefleas。Fleasonlytickledher,buttheybiteme——raiseweltsandhills。There’syourhusbandnow,isn’tit?’’
  BairdwaslookingupatthewindowsoftheContinental,acrossthestreet。Mildred’sglanceslowlyandcarelesslyfollowedhis。Atonewindowstoodthelittlegeneral,gazingabstractedlyoutoverthegardens。AtanotherwindowMildredsawHarding。atathird,hermaid。atafourth,Harding’sassistant,Drawl。atafifth,threeservantsoftheretinue。Exceptthegeneral,allwerelookingather。
  ``You’vemarriedaveryextraordinaryman,’’saidBaird,inacorrecttoneofadmiration。``Oneoftheablestandmostinterestingmenwe’vegot,_I_think。’’
  ``Soyouarefreeagain?’’saidMildred,lookingathimwithaqueer,coldsmile。
  ``Yes,andno,’’repliedStanley。``Ihopetobeentirelyfree。It’shermovenext。I’mexpectingiteveryday。ButI’mthoroughlyrespectable。Won’tyouandthegeneraldinewithme?’’
  ``Thanks,butI’msailingforhometo-morrowornextday。’’
  ``That’sinteresting,’’saidBaird,withenthusiasm。
  ``SoamI。Whatshipdoyougoon?’’
  ``Idon’tknowyet。I’mtodecidethisafternoon,afterlunch。’’Shelaughed。``I’msittingherewaitingforsomeonetoaskmetolunch。I’venothadevencoffeeyet。’’
  ``Lunchwithme!’’criedBaird。``I’llgogetthegeneral——Iknowhimslightly。’’
  ``Ididn’tsayanythingaboutthegeneral,’’saidMildred。
  Stanleysmiledapologetically。``Itwouldn’tdoforyoutogoaboutwithme——notwhenmymissusislookingforgroundsfordivorce。’’
  ``Whynot?’’saidMildred。``So’smyhusband。’’
  ``Youbustedup,too?Now,that’swhat_I_calljolly。’’Andhecastapuzzledglanceupattheabstractedgeneral。``Isay,Mildred,thisisnoplaceforeitherofus,isit?’’
  ``I’dratherbewherethere’sfood,’’confessedshe。
  ``Youthinkit’sajoke,butIassureyou——Oh,youWEREjoking——aboutYOURbust-up?’’
  ``No,indeed,’’sheassuredhim。``Iwalkedoutawhileago,andIcouldn’tgobackifIwould——andI
  don’tthinkIwouldifIcould。’’
  ``That’sfoolish。Bettergoback,’’advisedhe。Hewaspreparinghastilytodecampfromsoperilousaneighborhood。``Onemarriageisaboutlikeanother,onceyougetthroughthesurface。I’msureyou’llbebetteroffthan——backwithyourstepfather。’’
  ``I’venointentionofgoingtohishouse,’’shedeclared。
  ``Oh,there’syourbrother。Iforgot。’’
  ``SohadIforgottenhim。I’llnotgothere,either。
  Infact,I’venotthoughtwhereI’llgo。’’
  ``Youseemtohavedonemightylittlethinkingbeforeyoutookaveryseriousstepforawoman。’’Hewasuneasilyeyingtherigid,abstractedlittlefigureastoryupacrosstheway。
  ``Thosethingsaren’taquestionofthinking,’’saidsheabsently。``Ineverthoughtinmylife——don’tthinkIcouldifItried。ButwhenthetimecameI——
  Iwalkedout。’’Shecamebacktoherself,laughed。
  ``Idon’tunderstandwhyI’mtellingyouallthis,especiallyasyou’remadwithfrightandwildtogetaway。
  Well,good-by,Stanley。’’
  Heliftedhishat。``Good-by。We’llmeetwhenwecandosowithoutmygettingascandalonyou。’’Hewalkedafewpaces,turned,andcameback。``Bytheway,I’msailingontheDeutschland。Ithoughtyou’dliketoknow——sothatyouandIwouldn’tbyanychancecrossonthesameboat。’’
  ``Thanks,’’saidshedryly。
  ``What’sthematter?’’askedhe,arrested,despitehisanxietytobegone,bythesad,scornfullookinhereyes。
  ``Nothing。Why?’’
  ``Youhadsucha——suchaqueerlook。’’
  ``Really?Good-by。’’
  Infact,shehadthought——hadhopedforthesakeofherlikingforhim——thathehadcomebacktomaketheglaringlyomittedofferofhelpthatshouldhavecomefromanyhumanbeinglearningthatafellowbeingwasintheprecariouspositioninwhichshehadtoldhimshewas。Notthatshewouldhaveacceptedanysuchoffer。Still,shewouldhavelikedtohaveheardthekindlywords。Shesatwatchinghishandsome,gracefulfigure,drapedinthemostartisticallycutoflongdarkovercoats,untilhedisappearedinthecrowdintheRuedeCastiglione。Then,withoutaglanceupattheinterested,nottosayexcitedwindowsofthegeneral’ssplendidandspreadingapartments,shestrolleddownthegardenstowardthePlaceConcorde。
  InParisthebeautiful,onabrightandbriskdayitisallbutimpossibletodespairwhenonestillhasleftyouthandhealth。Mildredwasnothappy——farfromit。Thefuture,theimmediatefuture,presseditsterrorsuponher。Butinmitigationtherewas,perhapsbornofyouthandinexperience,agiddysenseofrelief。
  Shehadnotrealizedhowabhorrentthegeneralwas——
  marriedlifewiththegeneral。Shehadbeenresigningherselftoit,acceptingitastheonlythingpossible,keepingitheavilydrapedwithhervanitiesofwealthandluxury——untilshediscoveredthatthewealthandtheluxurywereinrealitynomorehersthantheywerehermaid’s。Andnowshewasfree!
  Thatwordfreedidnothaveitsfullmeaningforher。
  Shehadneverknownwhatrealfreedomwas。womenofthecomfortableclass——andmen,too,forthatmatter——
  usuallyarebornintothepettyslaveryofconventionsatleast,andknownothingelsetheirwholelivesthrough——neverknowthejoyofthethoughtandtheactofafreemindandafreeheart。Still,shewasreleasedfromabondagethatseemedslavisheventoher,andthereleasegaveherasensationakintothejoyoffreedom。Aheavyhandthatwascrushingherverysoulhadbeenliftedoff——no,FLUNGoff,andbyherself。
  Thatthought,terrifyingthoughitwas,alsogaveheracertainnewandexaltingself-respect。Afterall,shewasnotaworm。Shemusthavesomewhereinherthegermsofsomethinglesscontemptiblethantheessentialcharacterofsomanyoftheeminentlyrespectablewomensheknew。Shecouldpicturetheminthesituationinwhichshehadfoundherself。Whatwouldtheyhavedone?Why,whateveryinstinctofhereducationimpelledhertodo。whatsomelatentloveoffreedom,someunsuspectedcourageofself-respecthadforbiddenhertodo,hadwithheldherfromdoing。
  Herthoughtsandthegorgeoussunshineandheryouthandhealthputherinasteadilylesscheerlessmoodasbyaroundaboutwayshesoughttheshopofthejewelerwhosoldthegeneralthegoldbagshehadselected。Theproprietorhimselfwasinthefrontpartoftheshopandreceived``MadamelaGenerale’’withallthehonorsofherhusband’swealth。Shebroughtnoexperienceandnonaturaltradingtalenttotheenterpriseshewasabouttoundertake。soshewentdirectlytothemainpoint。
  ``Thisbag,’’saidshe,layingitupontheglassbetweenthem,``Iboughtithereashorttimeago。’’
  ``Irememberperfectly,madame。Itisthehandsomest,themostartistic,wehavesoldthisyear。’’
  ``Iwishtosellitbacktoyou,’’saidshe。
  ``Youwishtogetsomethingelseandincludeitaspartpayment,madame?’’
  ``No,Iwishtogetthemoneyforit。’’
  ``Ah,butthatisdifficult。Wedonotoftenmakethosearrangements。Second-handarticles——’’
  ``Butthebagisquitenew。Anyhow,itmusthavesomevalue。OfcourseI’dnotexpectthefullprice。’’
  Thejewelersmiled。``Thefullprice?Ah,madame,weshouldnotthinkofofferingitagainasitis。
  Weshould——’’
  ``Nomatter,’’interruptedMildred。Theman’sexpression——thenormallypleasantandagreeablecountenanceturnedtorepulsivebycraftandlying——madehereagertobegone。``Whatisthemostyouwillgiveme?’’
  ``Ishallhavetoconsider——’’
  ``I’veonlyafewminutes。Pleasedonotirritateme。’’
  Themanwasstudyinghercountenancewithadesperatelook。Whywasshe,thebrideofthemonstrouslyrichAmerican,whywasshetryingtosellthebag?Diditmeantheendofherresources?Or,weretherestillhugeorderstobegotfromher?Hisshrewd-
  ness,trainedbythirtyyearsofdealingwithallkindsofluxurioushumanbeings,wentexploringinvain。Hewasalarmedbyherfrown。Hebeganhesitatingly:
  ``Thejewelsandthegoldareonlyasmallpartofthevalue。Thechiefvalueistheuniquedesign,soelegantyetsosimple。Forthejewelsandthegold,perhapstwothousandfrancs——’’
  ``Thepursewastwelvethousandfrancs,’’interruptedshe。
  ``Perfectly,madame。But——’’
  ``Iamingreathaste。Howmuchwillyougiveme?’’
  ``Themostwouldbefourthousand,Ifear。Ishallcountupmorecarefully,ifmadamewill——’’
  ``No,fourthousandwilldo。’’
  ``Iwillsendthemoneytomadameatherhotel。TheContinental,isitnot?’’
  ``No,Imusthaveitatonce。’’
  Thejewelerhesitated。Mildred,flushingscarletwithshame——butheluckilythoughtitanger——tookupthebagandmovedtowardthedoor。
  ``Pardon,madame,butcertainly。Doyouwishsomegoldorallnotes?’’
  ``Notes,’’answeredshe。``Fiftyandhundred-francnotes。’’
  Amomentlatershewasinthestreetwiththenotesinasmallbundleinthebosomofherwrap。Shewenthurriedlyupthestreet。Asshewasabouttoturnthecornerintotheboulevardsheonimpulseglancedback。
  Anautomobilehadjustdrawnupatthejeweler’sdoorandGeneralSiddall——top-hat,sable-linedovercoat,waxedmustacheandimperial,high-heeledboots,gold-
  mountedcane——wasdescending。Andsheknewthathehadawakenedtohisoneoversight,andwasonhiswaytorepairit。Butshedidnotknowthatthejeweler——oldandwiseinhumanways——wouldhastilyvanishwiththebagandthatanassistantwouldcomeforwardwithassurancesthatmadamehadnotbeenintheshopandthat,ifsheshouldcomein,nobusinesswouldbenegotiatedwithoutthegeneral’sexpressconsent。Sheallbutfaintedatthenarrownessofherescapeandfledroundintotheboulevard。SheenteredataxiandtoldthemantodrivetoFoyot’srestaurantontheleftbank——wherethegeneralwouldneverthinkoflookingforher。
  WhenshehadbreakfastedshestrolledintheLuxembourgGardens,inevenbetterhumorwithherselfandwiththeworld。Therewasstillthathorrid-facedfuture,butitwasnotleeringintoherveryface。Itwasnearlyfourthousandfrancsaway——``andifI
  hadn’tbeensostupid,I’dhavegoteightthousand,I’msure,’’shesaid。Butshewasratherproudofastupidityaboutmoneymatters。Andfourthousandfrancs,eighthundreddollars——thatwasquiteagoodsum。
  ShehadaninstinctthatthegeneralwoulddosomethingdisagreeableabouttheFrenchandEnglishportsofdepartureforAmerica。ButperhapshewouldnotthinkoftheItalianports。ThatnightshesetoutforGenoa,andthreedayslater,inadifferentdressandwithherhairdoneassheneverworeit,sailedasMissMaryStevensforAmericaonaGermanMediterraneanboat。