HENRYGOWERwasdeadatsixty-one——theendofalifelongfraudwhichneverhadbeensuspected,andneverwouldbe。Withtheworld,withhisacquaintancesandneighbors,withhiswifeandsonanddaughter,hepassedasagenerous,warm-hearted,good-naturedman,readyatalltimestodoanythingtohelpanybody,incapableofenvyorhatredormeanness。Infact,notonceinallhisdayshadheeverthoughtordoneasinglethingexceptforhisowncomfort。Likeallintenselyselfishpeoplewhoarewise,hewascheerfulandamiable,becausethatwasthewaytobehealthyandhappyandtohavethosearoundoneagreeableandinthemoodtodowhatonewishedthemtodo。Hetoldpeople,notthetruth,nottheunpleasantthingthatmighthelpthem,butwhattheywishedtohear。Hisfamilylivedinluxuriouscomfortonlybecausehehimselfwasfondofluxuriouscomfort。
Hiswifeandhisdaughterdressedfashionablyandwentaboutandentertainedinthefashionable,expensivewayonlybecausethatwasthesortoflifethatgratifiedhisvanity。Helivedtogetwhathewanted。hegotiteverydayandeveryhourofalifeintowhichnoraineverfell。hedied,honored,respected,beloved,andlamented。
Theclevertrickhehadplayeduponhisfellowbeingscameveryneartodiscoveryafewdaysafterhisdeath。Hiswidowandhersonanddaughter-in-lawanddaughterwereintheliving-roomofthecharminghouseatHangingRock,nearNewYork,alternatingbetweensorrowingsoverthedeadmanandplanningsforthefuture。Saidthewidow:
``IfHenryhadonlythoughtwhatwouldbecomeofusifheweretakenaway!’’
``Ifhehadsavedevenasmallpartofwhathemadeeveryyearfromthetimehewastwenty-six——forhealwaysmadeabigincome,’’saidhisson,Frank。
``Buthewassogenerous,sosoft-hearted!’’
exclaimedthewidow。``Hecoulddenyusnothing。’’
``Hecouldn’tbearseeinguswiththeslightestwishungratified,’’saidFrank。
``Hewasthebestfatherthateverlived!’’criedthedaughter,Mildred。
AndMrs。GowertheelderandMrs。Gowertheyoungerwept。andMildredturnedawaytohidetheemotiondistortingherface。andFrankstaredgloomilyatthecarpetandsighed。Thehideoussecretofthelifeofduplicitywassafe,safeforever。
Infact,HenryGowerhadoftenthoughtofthefateofhisfamilyifheshoulddie。Inthefirstyearofhismarriedlife,atatimewhenpassionforabeautifulbridewasalmostsweepinghimintogenerousthought,hehadlistenedforupwardofanhourtotheeloquenceofalifeinsuranceagent。Thentheagent,misledbyGower’seffusivelygenerousandunselfishexpressions,hadtakenafalsetack。Hehaddescanteduponthesupremesatisfactionthatwouldbefeltbyadyingmanashereflectedhowhisyoungwidowwouldbeleftinaffluence。Hemadeavividpicture。Gowersaw——
sawhisbridehappierafterhisdeaththanshehadbeenduringhislife,andattractingaswarmofadmirersbyherbeauty,wellsetoffinbecomingblack,andbyherindependentincome。Thegenerousimpulsethenandthereshriveledtoitsweakandshallowroots。Withtearsinhiskind,cleareyeshethankedtheagentandsaid:
``Youhaveconvincedme。Youneedsaynomore。
I’llsendforyouinafewdays。’’
Theagentnevergotintohispresenceagain。
Gowerliveduptohisincome,secureintheknowledgethathisabilityasalawyermadehimcertainofplentyofmoneyaslongasheshouldlive。Butitwouldshowanutterlackofcomprehensionofhispeculiarspeciesofcharactertoimaginethathelethimselfintothesecretofhisownicy-heartednessbyceasingtothinkoftheproblemofhiswifeandtwochildrenwithouthimtotakecareofthem。Onthecontrary,hethoughtofiteveryday,andplannedwhathewoulddoaboutit——to-morrow。Andforhisdelayhehadexcellentconvincingexcuses。Didhenottakecareofhisnaturallyrobusthealth?Wouldhenotcertainlyout-
livehiswife,whowasalwaysdoctoringmoreorless?
Frankwouldbeabletotakecareofhimself。anyhow,itwasnotwelltobringaboyuptoexpectations,becauseeverymanshouldbeself-supportingandself-
reliant。AsforMildred,why,withherbeautyandherclevernessshecouldnotbutmakeabrilliantmarriage。
Really,therewasforhimnoproblemofanorphanedfamily’sfuture。therewasnoreasonwhyheshoulddenyhimselfanycomfortorluxury,orhisvanityanyofthetitillationsthatcomefromsocialdisplay。
Thatoneofhiscalculationswhichwasthemostvitalandseemedthesurestprovedtobeworthless。Itisnottheweaklingswhodie,afterinfancyandyouth,butthestrong,healthymenandwomen。Theweaklingshavetolookoutforthemselves,receiveamplewarninginthedisastrousobviouseffectsoftheslightestimprudence。Therobust,eventhewariestofthem,eventheHenryGowers,overestimateandovertaxtheirstrength。Gower’sdownfallwaschampagne。Hecouldnotresistabottleofitfordinnereverynight。
Assooftenhappens,thecollapseofthekidneyscamewithoutanywarningthatamanofpowerfulconstitutionwoulddeemworthyofnotice。Bythetimethedoctorbegantosuspectthegravityofhistroublehewastoofargone。
Frank,candidlygreedyandselfish——``Suchacontrasttohisfather!’’everyonesaid——wasmarriedtotheprettiestgirlinHangingRockandhadasatisfactorylawpracticeinNewYork。Hisincomewasaboutfifteenthousandayear。Buthiswifehadtastesasextravagantashisown。andHangingRockisoneofthosesuburbsofNewYorkwheregatherwell-to-domiddle-classpeopletoliveluxuriouslyandtodeludeeachotherandthemselveswiththenotionthattheyarefashionable,richNewYorkerswhoprefertoliveinthecountry``liketheEnglish。’’Thus,HenryGower’swidowanddaughtercouldcountonlittlehelpfromFrank——andtheyknewit。
``YouandMillywillhavetomovetosomelessexpensiveplacethanHangingRock,’’saidFrank——itwastheliving-roomconferenceafewdaysafterthefuneral。
Mildredflushedandhereyesflashed。Sheopenedherlipstospeak——closedthemagainwiththeangryretortunuttered。Afterall,Frankwashermother’sandhersoledependence。Theycouldhopeforlittlefromhim,butnothingmustbesaidthatwouldgivehimandhismean,selfishwifeachancetobreakwiththemandrefusetodoanythingwhatever。
``AndMildredmustgetmarried,’’saidNatalie。
InHangingRockmostofthegirlsandmanyoftheboyshadgivennamestakenfromBurke’sPeerage,theAlmanacdeGotha,andfashionablenovels。
AgainMildredflushed。buthereyesdidnotflash,neitherdidsheopenherlipstospeak。Thelittleremarkofhersister-in-law,apparentlysoharmlessandsensible,wasinfactapoisonedarrow。ForMildredwastwenty-three,hadbeen``out’’fiveyears,andwasnoteveninthewaytobecomeengaged。Sheandeveryonehadassumedfromherlovelybabyhoodthatshewouldmarrysplendidly,wouldmarrywealthandsocialposition。Howcoulditbeotherwise?Hadshenotbeauty?Hadshenotfamilyandposition?Hadshenotstyleandcleverness?Yet——fiveyearsoutandnota``serious’’proposal。Animpudentpoorfellowwithnoprospectshadaskedher。AnimpudentrichmanfromfashionableNewYorkhadhungafterher——andhadpresentlyabandonedwhateverdarkprojectshemayhavebeenconcealingandhadmarriedinhisownset,``astheyalwaysdo,themiserablesnobs,’’
ravedMrs。Gower,whohadbeenbuildinghighuponthoselavishoutpouringsofcandy,flowers,andautomobilerides。Mildred,however,hadacceptedthedefectionmorephilosophically。ShehadhadenoughvanitytoliketheattentionsoftherichandfashionableNewYorker,enoughgoodsensetosuspect,perhapsnotdefinitely,whatthoseattentionsmeant,butcertainlywhattheydidnotmean。Also,inthebackofherheadhadbeenanintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,ifbychanceheshouldaskher。Wasthereanysubstancetothisintention,sprungfromherdislikingtheconceited,self-assuredsnobasmuchasshelikedhiswealthandstation?Perhapsnot。Whocansay?Atanyrate,maywenotclaimcreditforourgoodintentions——solongas,eventhroughlackofopportunity,wehavenotstultifiedthem?
Witheverynaturaladvantageapparently,Mildred’sfailuretocatchahusbandseemedtobesomehowherownfault。Othergirls,lessendowedthanshe,weremarrying,weremarryingfairlywell。Why,then,wasMildredlagginginthemarket?
Theremayhavebeenotherreasons,reasonsofaccident——for,inthehigherclassmatrimonialmarket,fewarecalledandfewerchosen。Therewasonereasonnotaccidental。HangingRockwasnoplaceforagirlsosuperioraswasMildredGowertofindafittinghusband。Ashasbeenhinted,HangingRockwasoneofthoseupper-middle-classcolonieswheresplurgeandsocialambitiondominatethecommunitylife。Insuchcoloniestheyoungmenareoftwoclasses——thosebeneathsuchagirlasMildred,andthosewhohadthelooks,themanners,theintelligence,andtheprospectstojustifytheminlookinghighersocially——inlookingamongtheveryrichandreallyfashionable。IntheHangingRocksortofcommunity,havingallthesnobbishnessofFifthAvenue,BackBay,andRittenhouseSquare,withtheaddedtormentofthesnobbishnessbeingperpetuallyungratified——insuchcommunities,beneathasurfacereekingcultureandidealisticfolderol,thereisacoarseandbrutalmaterialism,apassionformoney,forluxury,fordisplay,thatequalsaristocraticsocietiesattheirworst。Noonecanliveforawinter,muchlessgrowup,insuchaplacewithoutbecomingsaturatedwithsycophantry。Thus,onlybysomeimpossiblecombinationofchancescouldtherehavebeenatHangingRockayoungmanwhowouldhaveappreciatedMildredandhavehadthecourageofhisappreciation。Thiscombinationdidnothappen。
InMildred’sgenerationandsettherewereonlythetwoclassesofmennotedabove。Themenoftheoneofthemwhichcouldnothaveattractedheracceptedtheirfateofmatingwithsecond-choicefemalestowhomtheywerethemselvessecondchoice。ThemenoftheotherclassrarelyappearedatHangingRockfunctions,hungabouttherichpeopleinNewYork,Newport,andonLongIsland,andwouldassoonhavethoughtoftakingaHangingRocksocietygirltowifeasofexchanginghundred-dollarbillsfortwenty-five-centpieces。Havingattractionsacceptableinthebestmarkets,theytookthemthere。HangingRockdenouncedthemassnobs,forHangingRockwasvirtuouslyeloquentonthesubjectofsnobbishness——wehumancreaturesbeingneversoeffectiveaswhenassailinginotherstheviceorweaknessweknowfromlifelong,intimate,internalassociationwithit。Butsecretlythesuccessfullyambitiousspurnersofthatsuburbansocietywereapproved,wereenvied。AndHangingRockwasmostgracioustothemwheneveritgotthechance。
InherfiveyearsofsociallifeMildredhadgoneonlywiththevariousclassesoffashionablepeople,hadthereforeknownonlythemenwhoarefullofthepoisonofsnobbishness。Shehadbeenbornandbredinanenvironmentasimpregnatedwiththatpoisonastheairofakitchen-gardenwithonions。Sheknewnothingelse。ThesecretintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,shouldhepropose,wasthereforethemoreastonishing——andthemoresignificant。Fromtimetotimeinanygivenenvironmentyouwillfindsomeisolatedperson,somepersonality,withatraitwhollyforeignandoutofplacethere。Nowitisasoftvoiceandcourteousmannersinaslum。againitisalongingforalifeoffreedomandequalityinamemberofaroyalfamilythathasknownnothingbutsordidslaveryforcenturies。Or,inthepettyconventionalityofaprosperousmiddle-orupper-classcommunityyoucomeupononewhodreams——perhapsvaguelybutstilllongingly——ofanexistencewhereloveandideasshallelevateandglorifylife。Inspiteofhertraining,inspiteoftheteachingandexampleofallaboutherfromthemomentofheropeninghereyesupontheworld,MildredGowerattwenty-threestillretainedsomethingofthesedreamflowerssowninthesoilofhernaturallygoodmindbysomebookorplayorperhapsbysomecasuallyreadandsoonforgottenarticleinmagazineornewspaper。Wehavethehabitofthinkingonlyweedsproduceseedsthatpenetrateandprospereverywhereandanywhere。Thetruthisthatfineplantsofallkinds,vegetable,fruit,andflowerofrarestcolorandperfume,havethissamehardinessandfecundity。Pullawayattheweedsinyourgardenforawhile,andseeifthisisnotso。Thoughyoumayplantnothing,youwillbeamazedattheresultsifyoubutclearalittlespaceofitsweeds——whichyouhavebeenplantingandcultivating。
Mildred——womanfashion——regardeditasareproachuponherthatshehadnotyetsucceededinmakingthemarriageeveryone,includingherself,predictedforherandexpectedofher。Onthecontrary,itwasthemostsavageindictmentpossibleofthemarriageableandmarryingmenwhohadmether——oftheirstupidity,oftheirshort-sightedandmean-souledcalculation,oftheirlackofcourage——thecouragetotakewhatthey,asmenoffleshandbloodwanted,insteadofwhattheirsnobbishnessordered。AndifStanleyBaird,thenearesttoaflesh-and-bloodmanofanywhohadknownher,hadnotbeensoprofoundlyafraidofhisfashionablemotherandofhissister,theCountessofWaring——Buthewasprofoundlyafraidofthem。so,itisidletospeculateabouthim。
WhatdidmenseewhentheylookedatMildredGower?Usually,whenmenlookatawoman,theyhaveahazy,eitherpleasantorunpleasant,senseofsomethingfeminine。That,andnothingmore。Afterward,throughsomewhimorsomethrustfromchancetheymayseeinher,orfancytheyseeinher,thethingfemininethattheirsouls——itisalways``soul’’——mostyearnsafter。Butjustatfirstglance,socolorlessorconventionallycoloredistheusualhumanbeing,theaveragewoman——indeedeverywomanbutshewhoisexceptional——createsuponmanthemereimpressionofpleasantorunpleasantpetticoats。Intheexceptionalwomansomethingobtrudes。Shehasastonishinghair,orextraordinaryeyes,oramouththatseemstodrawamanlikeamagnet。oritistheallureofapeculiarsmileorofafigurewhosesinuositiesasshemovesseemtocauseacorrespondingwave-disturbanceinmasculinenerves。Further,thepossessionofoneofthesesignalcharmsusuallycausesallhercharmstohavemorethanordinarypotency。Thesightofthemanissobewitchedbytheonepotentcharmthatheseesthewholewomanunderaspell。
MildredGower,ofthemediumheightandofaslenderandwell-formedfigure,hadafaceofthekindthatiscalledlovely。andhersmile,sweet,dreamy,revealingwhiteandeventeeth,gaveherlovelinessdelicateanimation。Shehadanabundanceofhair,neitherlightnordark。shehadafineclearskin。Hereyes,grayandratherseriousandwellsetunderlongstraightbrows,gaveheralookofhonestyandintelligence。
Butthecharmthatwonmen,hercharmofcharms,washermouth——mobile,slightlypouted,nottoonarrow,ofawonderful,vividlyhealthyandvitalred。Shehadbeauty,shehadintelligence。Butitwasimpossibleforamantothinkofeither,oncehisglancehadbeencaughtbythoseexpressive,invitinglipsofhers,soyoung,sofresh,withtheirever-changing,ever-
fascinatinglineexpressinginathousandwaysthepassionandpoetryofthekiss。
Ofallthemenwhohadadmiredherandhadedgedawaybecausetheyfearedshewouldbewitchthemintoforgettingwhattheworldcalls``goodcommonsense’’——
ofallthosemenonlyonehadsuspectedtherealreasonforherphysicalpowerovermen。AllbutStanleyBairdhadthoughtthemselvesattractedbecauseshewassoprettyorsostylishorsocleverandamusingtotalkwith。Bairdhadlivedintelligentlyenoughtolearnthatfemininecharmisnevergeneral,isalwaysspecific。HeknewitwasMildredGower’slipsthathaunted,thatfrightenedambitiousmenaway,thatsentmenwhoknewtheyhadn’taghostofachancewithherdiscontentedlybacktothesecond-choicewomenwhoalonewereavailableforthem。FortunatelyforMildred,StanleyBaird,toowisetoflatterawomandiscriminatingly,didnottellherthesecretofherfascination。Ifhehadtoldher,shewouldnodoubthavetriedtotrainandtouseit——andsowouldinevitablyhavelostit。
Togoonwiththatimportantconferenceinthesitting-roominthehandsome,roomyhouseoftheGowersatHangingRock,FrankGowereagerlyseizeduponhiswife’ssubtlynastyremark。``Idon’tseewhyinthunderyouhaven’tmarried,Milly,’’saidhe。``You’vehadeverychance,theselastfourorfiveyears。’’
``Andit’llbehardernow,’’moanedhermother。
``Foritlooksasthoughweweregoingtobewretchedlypoor。Andpovertyissorepulsive。’’
``Doyouthink,’’saidMildred,``thatgivingmetheideathatImustmarryrightawaywillmakeiteasierformetomarry?Everyonewhoknowsusknowsourcircumstances。’’ShelookedsignificantlyatFrank’swife,whohadbeenwailingthroughHangingRockthewoefulplightofherdeadfather-in-law’sfamily。
TheyoungMrs。Gowerblushedandglancedaway。
``And,’’Mildredwenton,``everyoneissayingthatI
mustmarryatonce——thatthere’snothingelseformetodo。’’Shesmiledbitterly。``WhenIgointothestreetagainIshallseenothingbutflyingmen。Andnomanwouldcometocallunlesshebroughtachaperonandawitnesswithhim。’’
``Howcanyoubesofrivolous?’’reproachedhermother。
Mildredwasusedtobeingmisunderstoodbyhermother,whohadlongsincebeenmadehopelesslydullbythesuffocatinglifesheledandbypainfromherfeet,whichneverleftherateaseforamomentexceptwhenshehadthemsoakingincoldwater。Mrs。Gowerhadbeenbornwithordinaryfeet,neitheruglynorprettyandentirelyfitfortheusesforwhichnatureintendedfeet。Shehadspoiledthembywearingshoestomakethemlooksmallerandslimmerthantheywere。
Insteadyweathershewasplaintive。inchangeableweathershevariedbetweenirritableandviolent。
SaidMildredtoherbrother:``Howmuch——JUSThowmuchisthere?’’
``Ican’tsayexactly,’’repliedherbrother,whohadnotyetsolvedtohissatisfactionthemoralproblemofhowmuchoftheestateheoughttoallowhismotherandsisterandhowmuchheoughttoclaimforhimself——insuchawaythattheclaimcouldnotbedisputed。
Mildredlookedfixedlyathim。Heshowedhisuneasinessnotbyglancingaway,butbytheappearanceofacertainharddefianceinhiseyes。Saidshe:
``Whatistheverymostwecanhopefor?’’
Asilence。Hermotherbrokeit。``Mildred,howCANyoutalkofthosethings——already?’’
``Idon’tknow,’’repliedMildred。``Perhapsbecauseit’sgottobedone。’’
Thisseemedtothemall——andtoherself——alameexcuseforsuchapparenthardnessofheart。HerfatherhadalwaysbeenSENDER-HEARTED——HADNEVER
SPOKENOFMONEY,ORENCOURAGEDHISFAMILYINSPEAKINGOFIT。
ALONGANDPAINFULSILENCE。THEN,THEWIDOW
ABRUPTLY:
``YOU’RESURE,Frank,there’sNOinsurance?’’
``Fatheralwayssaidthatyoudislikedtheidea,’’
repliedherson。``thatyouthoughtinsurancelookedlikeyourcalculatingonhisdeath。’’
Underherhusband’sadroitpromptingMrs。Gowerhaddiscoveredsuchaviewofinsuranceinherbrain。
Shenowrecalledexpressingit——andregretted。Butshewassilenced。Shetriedtotakehermindofthesub-
jectofmoney。But,likeMildred,shecouldnot。Thethoughtofimminentpovertywasnaggingatthemliketoothache。``There’llbeenoughforayearorso?’’
shesaid,timidlyinterrogative。
``Ihopeso,’’saidFrank。
Mildredwaseyinghimfixedlyagain。Saidshe:
``Haveyoufoundanythingatall?’’
``Hehadabouteightthousanddollarsinbank,’’
saidFrank。``Butmostofitwillgoforthepressingdebts。’’
``ButhowdidHEexpecttolive?’’urgedMildred。
``Yes,theremusthavebeenSOMETHING,’’saidhermother。
``Ofcourse,there’shisshareoftheunsettledandunfinishedbusinessofthefirm,’’admittedFrank。
``Howmuchwillthatbe?’’persistedMildred。
``Ican’ttell,offhand,’’saidFrank,withvirtuousreproach。``Mymind’sbeenon——otherthings。’’
HenryGower’swidowwasnotwithouthershareofinstinctiveshrewdness。Neitherhadshe,unobservantthoughshewas,beenwithinsightofherson’scharacterfortwenty-eightyearswithouthavingunconfessed,unformedmisgivingsconcerningit。
``Youmustn’tbotheraboutthesethingsnow,Frankdear,’’saidshe。``I’llgetmybrothertolookintoit。’’
``Thatwon’tbenecessary,’’hastilysaidFrank。``I
don’twantanyrivallawyerpeepingintoourfirm’saffairs。’’
``MybrotherWhartonisthesoulofhonor,’’saidMrs。Gower,theelder,withdignity。``Youaretooyoungtotakealltheresponsibilityofsettlingtheestate。Yes,I’llsendforWhartonto-morrow。’’
``It’lllookasthoughyoudidn’ttrustme,’’saidFranksourly。
``Wemustn’tdoanythingtostartthegossipsinthistown,’’saidhiswife,assisting。
``Thensendforhimyourself,Frank,’’saidMildred,``andgivehimchargeofthewholematter。’’
Frankeyedherfuriously。``Howashamedfatherwouldbe!’’exclaimedhe。
Butthissolemninvokingofthedeadman’sspiritwasuneffectual。Thespecterofpovertywastooinsistent,tooterrible。Saidthewidow:
``I’msure,inthecircumstances,mydeardeadhusbandwouldwantmetogethelpfromsomeoneolderandmoreexperienced。’’
AndFrank,guiltyofconscienceandanexpertinthewaysofconventionalandhighlymoralrascality,ceasedtoresist。Hiswife,scentingdangertotheirgettingthesharethat``rightfullybelongstotheson,especiallywhenhehasbeenthebrainsofthefirmforseveralyears,’’madeangryandindiscreetbattlefornooutsideinterference。Thelongershetalkedthefirmerthewidowandthedaughterbecame,notonlybecausesheclarifiedsuspicionsthathadbeentoohazytotakeform,butalsobecausetheydislikedherintensely。
ThefollowingdayWhartonConoverbecameunofficialadministrator。HehadnodifficultyinbafflingFrankGower’shalf-heartedandclumsyeffortstohidetwolargefeesduethedeadman’sestate。Hediscoveredclearassetsamountinginalltosixty-
threethousanddollars,mostofitavailablewithinafewmonths。
``Asyouhavethegood-willofthefirmandasyourmotherandsisterhaveonlywhatcanberealizedincash,’’saidhetoFrank,``nodoubtyouwon’tinsistonyourthird。’’
``I’vegottoconsidermywife,’’saidFrank。``I
can’tdoasI’dlike。’’
``Youaregoingtoinsistonyourthird?’’saidConover,withanaccentthatmadeFrankquiver。
``Ican’tdootherwise,’’saidheinadogged,shamedway。
``Um,’’saidConover。``Then,onbehalfofmysisterandherdaughterI’llhavetoinsistonamoredetailedaccountingthanyouhavebeenwillingtogive——andontheproductionofthatsmallbookboundinredleatherwhichdisappearedfrommybrother-in-law’sdesktheafternoonofhisdeath。’’
AwaveofrageandfearsurgedupwithinFrankGowerandcrashedagainsttheseatofhislife。Fordaysthereafterhewasfromtimetotimeseizedwithviolentspasmsoftrembling。yearsafterwardhewasattributingprematureweaknessesofoldagetotheeffectsofthatmomentofhorror。Hisuncle’swordscameasasudden,highshotclimaxtoweeksofexasperatingpeepingandpryingandquestioning,ofsneerandinsinuation。Conoverhadbeenonlymoderatelysuccessfulatthelaw,hadlostclientstoFrank’sfather,hadbeenbeatenwhentheywereonoppositesides。Hehatedthefatherwiththesecret,hypocriticalhatredofthehighlymoralandreligiousman。Hede-
spisedtheson。ItisnotoftenthataChristiangentlemanhassuchanopportunitytocombinejusticeandrevenge,tofeedtoburstinganancientgrudge,thewhileconsciousthatheisbutdoinghisduty。
SaidFrank,whenhewasabletospeak:``Youhavebeenlisteningtotheliesofsometreacherousclerkhere。’’
``Don’tdestroythatlittlebook,’’proceededConovertranquilly。``Wecanprovethatyoutookit。’’
YoungGowerrose。``Imustdeclinetohaveanythingfurthertosaytoyou,sir,’’saidhe。``Youwillleavethisoffice,andyouwillnotbeadmittedhereagainunlessyoucomewithproperpapersasadministrator。’’
Conoversmiledwithcoldsatisfactionanddeparted。
Therefollowedaseriesofquarrels——betweenFrankandhissister,betweenFrankandhismother,betweenFrank’swifeandhismother,betweenMildredandhermother,betweenthemotherandConover。Mrs。Gowerwassuspiciousofherson。butsheknewherbrotherforapinchpenny,exactingthelastdropofwhatheregardedashisown。Andshediscoveredthat,ifsheauthorizedhimtoactasadministratorforher,hecould——andbeyondquestionwould——takealargeshareoftheestate。TheupshotwasthatFrankpaidovertohismotherandsisterforty-seventhousanddollars,andhismotherandherbrotherstoppedspeakingtoeachother。
``Iseethatyouhaveturnedoverallyourmoneytomother,’’saidFranktoMildredafewdaysafterthesettlement。
``Ofcourse,’’saidMildred。Shewasinamoodofhighscornforsordidness——amoodinducedbythespectacleoftheshamefulmannersofConover,Frank,andhiswife。
``Doyouthinkthat’swise?’’suggestedFrank。
``Ithinkit’sdecent,’’saidMildred。
``Well,Ihopeyou’llnotlivetoregretit,’’saidherbrother。
NeitherMrs。Gowernorherdaughterhadeverhadanyexperienceinthecareofmoney。Tobothforty-
seventhousanddollarsseemedafortune——forty-seventhousanddollarsincashinthebank,readytoissueforthanddotheirbiddingatthemerewritingofafewfiguresandasignatureonapieceofpaper。Inasensetheyknewthatformanyyearsthefamily’sannualexpenseshadrangedbetweenfortyandfiftythousand,butinthesenseofactualitytheyknewnothingaboutit——astateofaffairscommonenoughinfamilieswherethemanisinabsolutecontrolandspendsallhemakes。Moneyalwayshadbeenforthcomcoming。{sic}
thereforemoneyalwayswouldbeforthcoming。
Themourningandthelossofthepersonwhohadfilledandemployedtheirlivescausedthewidowandthedaughtertoliveveryquietlyduringthesucceedingyear。Theyspentonlyhalfoftheircapital。Forreasonsofselfishandfar-sightedprudencewhichneednodetailingFrankmovedawaytoNewYorkwithinsixmonthsofhisfather’sdeathandreducedcommunicationbetweenhimselfandwifeandhismotherandsistertoafrigidandrapidlycongealingminimum。
Hecalculatedthatbythetimetheircapitalwascon-
sumedtheywouldhaveleftnofeelingofclaimuponhimorhefeelingofdutytowardthem。
Itwasnotuntileighteenmonthsafterherfather’sdeath,whenthetotalcapitalwassunktolessthanfifteenthousanddollars,thatMildredawakenedtothetruthoftheirplight。Afewmonthsatmost,andtheywouldhavetogiveupthatbeautifulhousewhichhadbeenherhomeallherlife。Shetriedtograspthemeaningofthefactsasherintelligencepresentedthemtoher,butshecouldnot。Shehadnopracticaltrainingwhatever。Shehadbeenbroughtupasarichman’schild,tobemarriedtoarichman,andnevertoknowanythingofthematerialdetailsoflifebeyondwhatwasnecessaryinmanagingservantsaftertheindifferentfashionoftheusualAmericanwomanofthecomfortableclasses。Shehadalwayshadamaid。shecouldnotevendressherselfproperlywithoutthemaid’sassistance。Lifewithoutamaidwasinconceivable。
lifewithoutservantswasimpossible。
Shewanderedthroughthehouse,throughthegrounds。Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Wehavegottogiveupallthis,andbemiserablypoor——
withnotaservant,withlessthanthetenementpeoplehave。’’Butthewordsconveyednomeaningtoher。
Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Imustrousemyself。Imustdosomething。Imust——must——
must!’’Butshedidnotrouse,becausetherewasnothingtorouse。Sofaraspracticallifewasconcernedshewasasdevoidofideasasanew-bornbaby。
Therewasbuttheonehope——marriage,arichmarriage。Itisthehabitofmenwhocantakecareofthemselvesandofwomenwhoaresecurelywelltakencareoftoscornthewomanorthehelpless-bredmanwhomarriesformoneyorevenentertainsthatidea。
Howlittleimaginationthesescornershave!Tomarryforamereliving,hardlybetterthanonecouldmakeforoneself,assuredlydoesshowapitifullackofself-
reliance,amelancholylackofself-respect。Butformenorwomenalltheirlivesusedtoluxuryandwithnoabilitywhateveratearningmoney——forsuchpersonstomarrymoneyinordertosavethemselvesfromthemiseryandshamethatpovertymeanstothemisthemostnatural,themosthumanactionconceivable。Themanorthewomanwhosaysheorshewouldnotdoit,eitherisahypocriteoristalkingwithoutthinking。
Youmayinhonestycriticizeandcondemnasocialsystemthatsuffersmenandwomentobesocrudelyandcriminallymiseducatedbybeinggivenluxurytheydidnotearn。Buttocondemnthevictimsofthatsystemforactingasitslogiccompelsissheerfollyorsheerphariseeism。
WouldMildredGowerhavemarriedformoney?Astheweeksfled,asthebankaccountdwindled,shewouldhavegraspedeagerlyatanyrichmanwhomighthaveofferedhimself——nomatterhowrepellenthemighthavebeen。Shedidnotwantabareliving。shedidnotwantwhatpasseswiththemassofmiddle-classpeopleforcomfort。Shewantedwhatshehad——thebeautifulandspacioushouse,thecostlyandfashionableclothing,theservants,thecarriagesandmotors,thethousandandonecomforts,luxuries,andvanitiestowhichshehadalwaysbeenused。InthebrainofayoungwomanofpoororonlycomfortablyofffamilythethoughtsthatseethedinMildredGower’sbrainwouldhavebeensomanyindicationsofdepravity。InMildredGower’sbraintheywerethenatural,theinevitable,thoughts。
Theyindicatedeverythingastohertraining,nothingastohercharacter。So,whenshe,thinkingonlyofarichmarriagewithnomatterwhom,andcontrastingherselfwiththefinewomenportrayedinthenovelsandplays,condemnedherselfasshamelessanddegraded,shedidherselfgraveinjustice。
Butnorichman,whetherattractiveorrepulsive,offered。Indeed,nomanofanykindoffered。Instead,itwashermotherwhomarried。
AwidowernamedJamesPresbury,elderly,withanincomeoffivetosixthousandayearfrominheritedwealth,stumbledintoHangingRocktolive,wasimpressedbythestylethewidowGowermaintained,believedtherumorthatherhusbandhadleftherbetteroffthanwasgenerallythought,proposed,andwasaccepted。AndtwoyearsandamonthafterHenryGower’sdeathhiswidowbecameMrs。JamesPresbury——andceasedtoveilfromhernewhusbandthetruthastoheraffairs。
Mildredhadthoughtthat,thanthefamilyquarrelsincidenttosettlingherfather’sestate,humannaturecouldnolowerdescend。Shewasnowtobedisillusioned。
Whenayoungmanorayoungwomanblundersintoapoormarriageintryingtomakearichone,heorsheisusuallywithheldfromimmediateandfrankexpressionbythetimidityofyouth。Notsotheelderlymanorwoman。Aswegrowolder,nomat-
terhowtimidlyconventionalwearebynature,webecome,throughselfishnessorthroughindifferencetotheopinionofothersorthroughimpatienceofpettyrestraint,moreandmoreoutspoken。OldPresburydiscoveredhowhehadtrickedhimselffourdaysafterthewedding。HeandhisbridewereattheWaldorfinNewYork,a-honeymooning。
Thebridehadneverprofessedtoberich。Shehadsimplycontinuedinherlifelongway,hadsimplyactedrich。Shewellknewthegaudydelusionsheradmirerwasentertaining,andshesawtoitthatnothingwassaidordonetodisturbhim。Sheinquiredintohisaffairs,madesureofthesubstantialityofthecomparativelysmallincomehepossessed,decidedtoaccepthimasherbestavailablechancetoescapebecomingachargeuponheranythingbuteagerandgenerousrelatives。Sheawaitedtheexplosionwithserenity。
ShecarednotaflipforPresbury,whowasasoftandsillyoldfool,fullofantiquatedcomplimentsandsodrearilytheinferiorofHenryGower,physicallyandmentally,thatevenshecouldappreciatethedifference,thedescent。Sheratherenjoyedtheprospectofacombatwithhim,oftheendofdissimulatinghercontempt。Shehadthoughtoutandhadputinarsenalreadyforuseavarietyofsneers,jeers,andinsultsthatsuggestedthemselvestoherasshelistenedandsimperedandrespondedwhilehewascourting。
Hadtheopportunityofferedearlierthanthefourthdayshewouldhaveseizedit,butnotuntilthatfourthmorningwassheinjusttherightmood。Shehadeatentoomuchdinnerthenightbefore,andhadfolloweditaftertwohoursinastuffytheaterwithanindigestiblesupper。Helikedthebedroomwindowsopenatnight。shelikedthemclosed。Aftershefellintoaheavysleep,heslippedoutofbedandopenedthewindowswide——toteachherbythenight’shappyexperiencethatshewasentirelymistakenastotheharmfulnessoffreshwinterair。Theresultwasthatsheawakenedwithafrightfulcoldandasplittingheadache。Andastheweatherwasabouttochangeshehadshootingpainsliketoothachethroughhertoestheinstantshethrustthemintohershoes。
Theelderlygroom,believinghehadarichbride,wasallsolicitudeandinfuriatingattention。Shewaiteduntilhehadwroughthertotheproperpitchoffury。Thenshesaid——inreplytosomeremarkofhis:
``Yes,Ishallrelyuponyouentirely。Iwantyoutotakeabsolutechargeofmyaffairs。’’
Thetearssprangtohiseyes。Hisweakoldmouth,rapidlyfallingtopieces,twistedandtwitchedwithemotion。``I’lltrytodeserveyourconfidence,darling,’’saidhe。``I’vehadlargebusinessexperience——
inthewayofinvestingcarefully,Imean。Idon’tthinkyouraffairswillsufferinmyhands。’’
``Oh,I’msurethey’llnottroubleyou,’’saidsheinasweet,suretoneasthepainsshotthroughherfeetandherhead。``You’llhardlynoticemylittlemiteinyourproperty。’’Shepretendedtoreflect。``Letmesee——there’sseventhousandleft,butofcoursehalfofthatisMillie’s。’’
``Itmustbeverywellinvested,’’saidhe。``Thoseseventhousandsharesmustbeoftheverybest。’’
``Shares?’’saidshe,withagentlelittlelaugh。``I
meandollars。’’
Presburywasabouttoliftacupofcafeaulaittohislips。Instead,heturneditoverintotheplatterofeggsandbacon。
``We——MildredandI,’’pursuedhisbride,``wereleftwithonlyforty-oddthousandbetweenus。Ofcourse,wehadtolive。So,naturally,there’sverylittleleft。’’
Presburywasshakingsoviolentlythathisheadandarmswaggledlikeajumping-jack’s。Hewrappedhiselegantwhitefingersaboutthearmsofhischairtosteadyhimself。Inasuffocatedvoicehesaid:``Doyoumeantosaythatyouhaveonlyseventhousanddollarsintheworld?’’
``Onlyhalfthat,’’correctedshe。``Oh,dear,howmyheadaches!Lessthanhalfthat,fortherearesomedebts。’’
Shewasimpatientfortheexplosion。theagonyofherfeetandheadneededoutletandrelief。Buthedisappointedher。Thatwasoneofthesituationsinwhichoneappealsinvaintotheresourcesoflanguage。Heshrankandsankbackinhischair,hisjawdropped,andheventedastrange,imbecilecacklinglaugh。Itwasnotanexpressionofphilosophicmirth,ofsenseofthegrotesquenessofananti-climax。Itwasnotanexpressionofanyemotionwhatever。Itwassimplyasignalfromamindtemporarilydethroned。
``Whatareyoulaughingat?’’shesaidsharply。
Hisanswerwasarepetitionoftheidioticsound。
``What’sthematterwithyou?’’demandedshe。
``Pleasecloseyourmouth。’’
Itwasatimelypieceofadvice。forhisupperandfalseteethhadbecomepartiallydislodgedandthreatenedtodropupontheshirt-bosomgaylyshowingbetweenthelapelsofhisdark-bluesilkhouse-coat。Heslowlyclosedhismouth,movinghisteethbackintoplacewithhistongue——agesturethatmadeherfacetwitchwithrageanddisgust。
``Seventhousanddollars,’’hemumbleddazedly。
``Isaidlessthanhalfthat,’’retortedshesharply。
``AndI——thoughtyouwere——rich。’’
Apeculiarrollingoftheeyesandtwistingofthelipsgavehertheideathathewasabouttoventthatrepulsivesoundagain。``Don’tyoulaugh!’’shecried。
``Ican’tbearyourlaugh——evenatitsbest。’’
Suddenlyhegalvanizedintofury。``Thisisanoutrage!’’hecried,wavinghisuseless-lookingwhitefists。
``Youhaveswindledme——SWINDLEDme!’’
Herheadstoppedaching。Thepainsinherfeeteitherceasedorsheforgotthem。Inasuspiciouslycalmvoiceshesaid:``Whatdoyoumean?’’
``Imeanthatyouareaswindler!’’heshouted,bangingonefistonthetableandwavingtheother。
Sheactedasthoughhismeaningwerejustdawninguponher。``Doyoumean,’’saidshetranquilly,``thatyoumarriedmeformoney?’’
``ImeanthatIthoughtyouasubstantialwoman,andthatIfindyouareanadventuress。’’
``Didyouthink,’’inquiredshe,``thatanywomanwhohadmoneywouldmarryYOU?’’Shelaughedveryquietly。``YouAREafool!’’
Hesatbacktolookather。Thismodeofcombatinsuchcircumstancespuzzledhim。
``Iknewthatyouwererich,’’shewenton,``oryouwouldnothavedaredofferyourselftome。Allmyfriendswereamazedatmystoopingtoacceptyou。
YourfatherwasanIrishTammanycontractor,wasn’the?——asortofcriminal?ButIsimplyhadtomarry。
SoIgaveyoumyfamilyandpositionandnameinexchangeforyourwealth——agoodbargainforyou,butapooroneforme。’’
ThesereferencestoHISwealthweremostdisconcerting,especiallyastheywereaccompaniedbyremarksabouthisorigin,ofwhichhewassoashamedthathehadchangedthespellingofhisnameintheefforttoclearhimselfofit。However,someretortwasimperative。
Helookedatherandsaid:
``Swindlerandadventuress!’’
``Don’trepeatthatlie,’’saidshe。``Youaretheadventurer——despitethefactthatyouareveryrich。’’
``Don’tsaythatagain,’’criedhe。``IneversaidorpretendedIwasrich。Ihaveaboutfivethousandayear——andyou’llnotgetacentofit,madam!’’
Sheknewhisincome,butnoonewouldhavesuspecteditfromherexpressionofhorror。``What!’’shegasped。``YoudaredtomarryMEwhenyouwerea——
beggar!Me——thewidowofHenryGower!Youimpudentoldwreck!Why,youhaven’tenoughtopaymyservants。Whatarewetoliveon,pray?’’
``Idon’tknowwhatYOU’LLliveon,’’repliedhe。
``_I_shallliveasIalwayshave。’’
``Abeggar!’’sheexclaimed。``I——marriedtoabeggar。’’Sheburstintotears。``Howmentakeadvantageofawomanalone!Ifmysonhadbeennearme!Butthere’ssurelysomelawtoprotectme。Yes,I’msurethereis。Oh,I’llpunishyouforhavingdeceivedme。’’Hereyesdriedasshelookedathim。
``Howdareyousitthere?Howdareyoufaceme,youmiserablefraud!’’
Earlyinheracquaintancewithhimshehaddiscoveredthatdeterminingfactorsinhischaracterweresensitivenessabouthisoriginandsensitivenessabouthissocialposition。Onthisknowledgeofhisweaknesseswassecurelybasedherconfidencethatshecouldactasshepleasedtowardhim。Toeaseherpainssheproceededtopouroutherprivateopinionofhim——allthedisagreeablethings,alltheinsultsshehadbeenstoringup。
Shewatchedhimasonlyawomancanwatchaman。
Shesawthathisragewasnotdangerous,thatshewasforcinghimintoapositionwherefearofherrevengingherselfbydisgracinghimwouldovercomeangeratthecollapseofhisfatuousdreamsofwealth。Shedidnotdespisehimthemoredeeplyforsittingthere,fornotflyingfromtheroomortryingtokillherorsomehowcompellinghertocheckthatflowofinsult。Shealreadydespisedhimutterly。also,sheattachedsmallimportancetoself-respect,havingnoknowledgeofwhatthatqualityreallyis。
Whenshegrewtired,shebecamequiet。Theysattherealongtimeinsilence。Atlastheranupthewhiteflagofabjectsurrenderbysaying:
``What’llweliveon——that’swhatI’dliketoknow?’’
Aneavesdropperupontheprecedingviolenceofupwardofanhourwouldhaveassumedthatatitsendthispairmustseparate,nevertoseeeachotheragainvoluntarily。Butthatidea,evenasapossibility,hadnotenteredthemindofeither。Theyhadlivedalongtime。
theywerepracticalpeople。Theyknewfromtheoutsetthatsomehowtheymustarrangetogoontogether。
Thealternativemeantamerepittanceofalimonyforher。meantforhimsocialostracismandthesmallincomecutinhalf。meantforbothscandalandconfusion。
Saidshefretfully:``Oh,Isupposewe’llgetalong,somehow。Idon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings。
I’vealwaysbeenlookedafter——keptfromcontactwiththesordidsideoflife。’’
``Thathouseyoulivein,’’hewenton,``doesitbelongtoyou?’’
Shegavehimacontemptuousglance。``Ofcourse,’’
saidshe。``Whatlowpeopleyoumusthavebeenusedto!’’
``Ithoughtperhapsyouhadrenteditforyourbuncogame,’’retortedhe。``Thefurniture,thehorses,themotor——allthosethings——dotheybelongtoyou?’’
``Ishallleavetheroomifyouinsultme,’’saidshe。
``Didyouincludethemintheseventhousanddollars?’’
``Themoneyisinthebank。Ithasnothingtodowithourhouseandourproperty。’’
Hereflected,presentlysaid:``Thehorsesandcarriagesmustbesoldatonce——andallthoseservantsdismissedexceptperhapstwo。Wecanliveinthehouse。’’
Shegrewpurplewithrage。``SellMYcarriages!
DischargeMYservants!I’dliketoseeyoutry!’’
``Who’stopayforkeepingupthatestablishment?’’
demandedhe。
Shewassilent。Shesawwhathehadinmind。
``Ifyouwanttokeepthathouseandlivecomfortably,’’
hewenton,``you’vegottocutexpensestothebone。Youseethat,don’tyou?’’
``Ican’tliveanywaybutthewayI’vebeenusedtoallmylife,’’wailedshe。
Heeyedherdisgustedly。Wasthereanythingequaltoawomanforfolly?
``We’vegottomakethemostofwhatlittlewehave,’’saidhe。
``ItellyouIdon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings,’’repeatedshe。``You’llhavetolookafterthem。
MildredandIaren’tlikethewomenyou’vebeenusedto。
Weareladies。’’
Presbury’srageboiledoveragainatthementionofMildred。``Thatdaughterofyours!’’hecried。
``What’stobedoneabouther?I’vegotnomoneytowasteonher。’’
``YoumiserableTammanyTHING!’’exclaimedshe。
``Don’tyoudareSPEAKofmydaughterexceptinthemostrespectfulway。’’
Andoncemoresheopenedoutuponhim,wreakinguponhimallherwrathagainstfate,allthepent-upfuryoftwoyears——furywhichhadbeendeniedsuchfury’susualandnaturalexpressionindenunciationsofthedeadbread-winner。Thegenerousandever-kindHenryGowercouldnotbetoblameforherwretchedplight。and,ofcourse,sheherselfcouldnotbetoblameforit。So,untilnowtherehadbeennoscapegoat。
Presburythereforereceivedthewholeburden。He,alarmedlestacreatureapparentlysoirrational,shouldinwildragedrivehimaway,ruinhimsocially,perhapsinduceasympatheticcourttoawardheralargepartofhisincomeasalimony,saidnotawordinreply。Hebadehiswrathwait。Lateron,whentheperilwasover,whenhehadafirmgripuponthesituation——thenhewouldtakehisrevenge。
TheygaveuptheexpensivesuiteattheWaldorfthatverydayandreturnedtoHangingRock。Theyalternatedbetweensilenceandthecoarsest,crudestquarrelings,forneitherhadtheintelligencetoquarrelwittilyortherefinementtoquarrelartistically。AssoonastheyarrivedattheGowerhouse,Mildredwasdraggedintothewrangle。
``Imarriedthisterriblemanforyoursake,’’wastheburdenofhermother’swail。``Andheisabeggar——
wantstoselloffeverythinganddismisstheservants。’’
``Youareapairofpaupers,’’criedtheoldman。
``Youareshamelesstricksters。Becarefulhowyougoadme!’’
Mildredhadanticipatedanunhappyendingtohermother’smarriage,butshehadnotknowledgeenoughoflifeorofhumannaturetoanticipateanysuchhorrorsasnowbegan。Everyday,alldaylongthevulgarfightraged。Hermotherandherstepfatherwithdrewfromeachother’spresenceonlytothinkupfreshinsultstoflingateachother。Assoonastheywerearmedtheyhastenedtogivebattleagain。SheavoidedPresbury。Hermothershecouldnotavoid。andwhenhermotherwasnotincombatwithhim,shewasweepingorwailingorrailingtoMildred。
ItwasatMildred’surgingthathermotheracquiescedinPresbury’splansforreducingexpenseswithinincome。Atfirstthegirl,evenmoreignorantthanhermotherofpracticalaffairs,didnotappreciatethewisdom,nottosaythenecessity,ofwhathewishedtodo,butsoonshesawthathewasright,thattheservantsmustgo,thatthehorsesandcarriagesandthemotorsmustbesold。Whenshewasconvincedandhadconvincedhermother,shestilldidnotrealizewhatthethingreallymeant。Notuntilshenolongerhadamaiddidshecomprehend。Toawomanwhohasneverhadamaid,orwhohastakenonamaidasaluxury,itwillseemanexaggerationtosaythatMildredfeltashelplessasababylyingaloneinacribbeforeithaslearnedtocrawl。Yetthatisratheranunderstatementofherplight。Themaidleftintheafternoon。
Mildred,notwithoutinconveniencesthathadinthenoveltytheiramusingside,contrivedtodressthateveningfordinnerandtogettobed。butwhensheawakenedinthemorningandwasreadytodress,thelossofTheresebecameatragedy。Ittookthegirlnearlyfourhourstogetherselftogetherpresentably——andthen,neverhadshelookedsounkempt。Withherhair,thickandsoft,shecoulddonothing。
``WhatawonderfulpersonTheresewas!’’thoughtshe。``AndIalwaysregardedherasratherstupid。’’
Hermother,whohadnothadamaiduntilshewasaboutthirtyandhadneverbecomecompletelydependent,faredsomewhatbetter,though,hearinghermoans,youwouldhavethoughtshewasfaringworse。
Mildred’sunhappinessincreasedfromdaytoday,asherwardrobefellintoconfusionanddisrepair。Shefeltthatshemustrisetothesituation,mustteachherself,mustsaveherselffromimpendingdowdinessandslovenliness。Butherbrainseemedtobeparalyzed。
Shedidnotknowhoworwheretobegintolearn。Sheofteninsecretgavewaytothefutilityoftears。
Therewerenowonlyacookandonehousemaidandamanofallwork——allthreenewcomers,forPresburyinsisted——mostwisely——thatnoneoftheservantsoftheluxurious,wastefuldayswouldbeusefulinthenewcircumstances。Hewasoneofthosesmall,orderlymenwhohaveageniusforjustsuchsituationsastheonehenowproceededtograpplewithandsolve。Inhispleasureatmanagingeverythingaboutthathouse,indistributingtheworkamongthethreeservants,inmarketing,and,ininspectingpurchasesandnosingintothegarbage-barrel,inlookingfordustonpicture-
framesandtable-topsandforneglectedweedsinthegardenwalks——inthismultitudeofengrossingdelightsheforgothisangeroverthetrickthathadbeenplayeduponhim。Hestillfoughtwithhiswifeanddenouncedherandmetinsultwithinsult。Butthat,too,wasoneofhispleasures。Also,hefeltthatonthewholehehaddonewellinmarrying。Hehadbeenlonelyasabachelor,hadhadnoonetotalkwith,ortoquarrelwith,nothingtodo。Themarriagewasnotsoexpensive,ashiswifehadbroughthimahouse——anditsuchaoneashehadalwaysregardedastheapogeeofelegance。LivingwasnotdearinHangingRock,ifoneunderstoodmanagingandgavetimetoit。Andsociallyhewasatlastestablished。
Soonhiswifewasaboutascontentedasshehadeverbeeninherlife。Shehatedanddespisedherhusband,butquarrelingwithhimandrailingagainsthimgaveheroccupationandaim——twovaluableassetstowardhappinessthatshehadtheretoforelacked。Herliving——shelter,food,clothingenough——wasnowsecure。
Butthemostimportantfactorofallinhercontentwastheoneapparentlytootrivialtobeworthyofrecord。
Fromgirlhoodshecouldnotrecallasingledayinwhichshehadnotsufferedfromherfeet。Andshehadbeenashamedtosayanythingaboutit——hadneverletanyone,evenhermaid,seeherfeet,whichwereabouttheonlyunsightlypartofher。Nonehadguessedthecauseofherchronicill-temperuntilPresbury,thatgeniusforthelittle,saidwithinaweekoftheirmarriage:
``Youtalkandactlikeawomanwithchroniccorns。’’
Hedidnotdreamoftheeffectthischancethrusthaduponhiswife。Forthefirsttimehehadreally``landed。’’Sheconcealedherfrightandhershameasbestshecouldandwentonquarrelingmoreviciouslythanever。Buthepresentlyreturnedtotheattack。
Saidhe:
``Yourfeethurtyou。I’msuretheydo。NowthatIthinkofit,youwalkthatway。’’
``IsupposeIdeservemyfate,’’saidshe。``Whenawomanmarriesbeneathhershemustexpectinsultandlowconversation。’’
``Youmustcureyourfeet,’’saidhe。``I’llnotliveinthehousewithapersonwhoismadefiendishbycorns。
Ithinkit’sonlycorns。Iseenosignsofbunions。’’
``Youbrute!’’criedhiswife,rushingfromtheroom。
Butwhentheymetagain,heatonceresumedthesubject,tellingherjusthowshecouldcureherself——andhekeptontellingher,sheapparentlyignoringbutsecretlyactingonhisadvice。Heknewwhathewasabout,andherfeetgrewbetter,grewwell——andshewashappierthanshehadbeensincegirlhoodwhenshebeganruiningherfeetwithtightshoes。
Sixmonthsafterthemarriage,Presburyandhiswifeweregettingonaboutascomfortablyasitisgiventoaveragehumanitytogetoninthisworldofincessantstrugglebetweenuncomfortablemanandhisuncomfortableenvironment。ButMildredhadbecomemoreandmoreunhappy。Hermother,sometimesangrily,againreproachfully——andthatwasfarhardertobear——blamedherfor``mymiserablemarriagetothislow,quarrelsomebrute。’’Presburyletnodaypasswithouttellingheropenlythatshewasabeggarlivingoffhim,thatshewouldbettermarrysoonorhewouldtakedrasticstepstoreleasehimselfoftheburden。Whenheattackedherbeforehermother,therewasaviolentquarrelfromwhichMildredfledtohideinherroomorintheremotestpartofthegarden。Whenhehuntedherouttoinsultheralone,shesatorstoodwitheyesdownandfaceghastlypale,mute,quivering。Shedidnotinter-
rupt,didnottrytoescape。Shewaslikethechainedandspiritlessdogthatcrouchesandtakestheshowerofblowsfromitscruelmaster。
Wherecouldshego?Nowhere。Whatcouldshedo?Nothing。Inthedaysofprosperityshehadregardedherselfasproudandhighspirited。Shenowwonderedatherself!Whathadbecomeofthepride?
Whatofthespirit?Sheavoidedlookingatherimageintheglass——thatthin,pallidface,thosecircledeyes,thedrawn,sickexpressionaboutthemouthandnose。
``I’mstunned,’’shesaidtoherself。``I’vebeenstunnedeversincefather’sdeath。I’veneverrecovered——norhasmother。’’Andshegavewaytotears——forherfather,shefancied。infact,fromshameatherweaknessandhelplessness。Shethought——hoped——thatshewouldnotbethusfeebleandcowardly,ifshewerenotlivingathome,inthehousesheloved,thehousewhereshehadspentherwholelife。Andsuchahouse!Comfortandluxuryandtaste。everyroom,everycornerofthegrounds,fullofthetenderestandmostbeautifulassociations。Also,therewasherpositioninHangingRock。Everywhereelseshewouldbeastrangerandwouldhaveeithernopositionatalloroneworsethanthatoftheutteroutsider。There,shewasofthefewlookeduptobythewholecommunity。Nooneknew,orevensuspected,howshewasdegradedbyherstep-
father。Beforetheworldhewascourteousandconsideratetowardherastowardeverybody。Indeed,Presbury’snaturalinstinctsweregentleandkindly。HishatredofMildredandhispassionforhumiliatingherweretheresultofhisconvictionthathehadbeentrickedintothemarriageandhisinabilitytogratifyhisresentmentuponhiswife。Hecouldnotmakethemothersuffer。buthecouldmakethedaughtersuffer——andhedid。Besides,shewasofnousetohimandwouldpresentlybeanexpense。
``Yourmoneywillsoonbegone,’’hesaidtoher。
``Ifyoupaidyourjustshareoftheexpensesitwouldbegonenow。Whenitisgone,whatwillyoudo?’’
Shewassilent。
``Yourmotherhaswrittentoyourbrotheraboutyou。’’
Mildredliftedherhead,agleamofherformerspiritinhereyes。Thensheremembered,andbenthergazeupontheground。
``Buthe,likethecurthatheis,answeredthroughasecretarythathewishedtohavenothingtodowitheitherofyou。’’
MildredguessedthatFrankhadmadethemarriageanexcuse。
``Surelysomeofyourrelativeswilldosomethingforyou。Ihavemyhandsfull,supportingyourmother。
Idon’tproposetohavetwostrapping,worthlesswomenhangingfrommyneck。’’
Shebentherheadlower,andremainedsilent。
``Iwarnyoutobestiryourself,’’hewenton。``I
giveyoufourmonths。Afterthefirstoftheyearyoucan’tstayhereunlessyoupayyourshare——yourthird。’’
Noanswer。
``YouhearwhatIsay,miss?’’hedemanded。
``Yes,’’repliedshe。
``Ifyouhadanysenseyouwouldn’twaituntilyourlastcentwasgone。You’dgotoNewYorknowandgetsomethingtodo。’’
``What?’’sheasked——allshecouldtrustherselftospeak。
``Howshould_I_know?’’retortedhefuriously。
``youareastrangertome。You’vebeeneducated,I
assume。Surelythere’ssomethingyoucando。You’vebeenoutsixyearsnow,andhavehadnosuccess,foryou’reneithermarriednorengaged。Youcan’tcallitsuccesstobeflatteredandsoughtbypeoplewhowantedinvitationstothishousewhenitwasasocialcenter。’’
Hepausedforresponsefromher。Nonecame。
``Youadmityouareafailure?’’hesaidsharply。
``Yes,’’saidshe。
``Youmusthaverealizeditseveralyearsago,’’hewenton。``Insteadofallowingyourmothertokeeponwastingmoneyinentertaininglavishlyheretogiveyouachancetomarry,youshouldhavebeenpreparingyourselftoearnaliving。’’Apause。``Isn’tthattrue,miss?’’
Hehadawayofpronouncingtheword``miss’’thatmadeitanepithet,asneeratherunmarriedandun-
marriageablestate。Shecolored,paled,murmured:
``Yes。’’
``Then,betterlatethannever。You’lldowelltofollowmyadviceandgotoNewYorkandlookaboutyou。’’
``I’ll——I’llthinkofit,’’stammeredshe。
Andshedidthinkofit。Butinallherlifeshehadneverconsideredtheideaofmoney-making。Thatwassomethingformen,andforthemiddleandlowerclasses——whileHangingRockwasregardedasmostnoisomelymiddleclassbyfashionablepeople,itdidnotsoregarditself。Money-makingwasnotforladies。Likeallherclass,shewasaconstantandaseverecriticofthewomenofthelowerorderswhoworkedforherasmilliners,dressmakers,shop-attendants,cooks,maids。But,asshenowrealized,itisonethingtopassupontheworkofothers。itisanotherthingtodoworkoneself。
She——Therewasliterallynothingthatshecoulddo。
Anyoccupation,eventhemostmenial,waseitherbeyondherskillorbeyondherstrength,orbeyondboth。
Suddenlysherecalledthatshecouldsing。Herprostratespiritsuddenlyleapederect。Yes,shecouldsing!
Hervoicehadbeenpraisedbyexperts。Hersinginghadbeenindemandatcharityentertainmentswhereamateurshadtocompetewithprofessionals。Thendownshedroppedagain。Shesangwellenoughtoknowhowbadlyshesang——thelongandtoilsomeandexpensivetrainingthatlaybetweenherandoperaticorconcertorevenmusic-hallstage。Hervoicewasfineattimes。Again——mostofthetime——itwasunreliable。
No,shecouldnothopetogetpayingemploymentevenasachurchchoir-singer。MissDresserwhosanginthechoiroftheGoodShepherdfortendollarsaSunday,hadnotnearlysogoodavoiceasshe,butitwasreliable。
``ThereisnothingIcando——nothing!’’
Allatonce,withnoapparentbridgeacrossthevastchasm,herheartwentout,notinpitybutinhumanunderstandingandsisterlysympathy,tothewomenofthepariahclassatwhom,duringherstopsinNewYork,shehadsometimesgazedinwonderandhorror。``Why,weandtheyareonlyastepapart,’’shesaidtoherselfinamazement。``Weandtheyaremuchnearerthanmymaidorthecookandthey!’’
Andthenherheartskippedabeatandherskingrewcoldandafogswirledoverherbrain。Ifsheshouldbecastout——ifshecouldfindnoworkandnoonetosupporther——wouldshe——``OmyGod!’’shemoaned。
``Imustbecrazy,tothinksuchthoughts。Inevercould!I’ddiefirst——DIE!’’Butifanyonehadpicturedtoherthekindoflifeshewasnowleading——thehumiliationanddegradationshewasmeeklyenduringwithnothoughtofflight,withaneverstrongerdesiretostayon,regardlessofprideandself-respect——ifanyonehadpicturedthistoheraswhatshewouldendure,whatwouldshehavesaid?Shecouldseeherselfflashingscornfuldenial,sayingthatshewouldratherkillherself。Yetshewasliving——andwasnotevencontemplatingsuicideasawayout!
AfewdaysafterPresburygaveherwarning,hermothertookadvantageofhisabsenceforhisreligiouslyobserveddailyconstitutionaltosaytoher:
``Ihopeyoudidn’tthinkIwasbehindhiminwhathesaidtoyouaboutgoingaway?’’
Mildredhadnotthoughtso,butinhermother’sguiltytoneandguiltiereyesshenowreadthathermotherwishedhertogo。
``It’dbeawfulformetobeleftherealonewithhim,’’
wailedhermotherinsincerely。``Ofcoursewe’vegotnomoney,andbeggarscan’tbechoosers。Butit’djustaboutkillmetohaveyougo。’’
Mildredcouldnotspeak。