首页 >出版文学> The Price She Paid>第1章
  HENRYGOWERwasdeadatsixty-one——theendofalifelongfraudwhichneverhadbeensuspected,andneverwouldbe。Withtheworld,withhisacquaintancesandneighbors,withhiswifeandsonanddaughter,hepassedasagenerous,warm-hearted,good-naturedman,readyatalltimestodoanythingtohelpanybody,incapableofenvyorhatredormeanness。Infact,notonceinallhisdayshadheeverthoughtordoneasinglethingexceptforhisowncomfort。Likeallintenselyselfishpeoplewhoarewise,hewascheerfulandamiable,becausethatwasthewaytobehealthyandhappyandtohavethosearoundoneagreeableandinthemoodtodowhatonewishedthemtodo。Hetoldpeople,notthetruth,nottheunpleasantthingthatmighthelpthem,butwhattheywishedtohear。Hisfamilylivedinluxuriouscomfortonlybecausehehimselfwasfondofluxuriouscomfort。
  Hiswifeandhisdaughterdressedfashionablyandwentaboutandentertainedinthefashionable,expensivewayonlybecausethatwasthesortoflifethatgratifiedhisvanity。Helivedtogetwhathewanted。hegotiteverydayandeveryhourofalifeintowhichnoraineverfell。hedied,honored,respected,beloved,andlamented。
  Theclevertrickhehadplayeduponhisfellowbeingscameveryneartodiscoveryafewdaysafterhisdeath。Hiswidowandhersonanddaughter-in-lawanddaughterwereintheliving-roomofthecharminghouseatHangingRock,nearNewYork,alternatingbetweensorrowingsoverthedeadmanandplanningsforthefuture。Saidthewidow:
  ``IfHenryhadonlythoughtwhatwouldbecomeofusifheweretakenaway!’’
  ``Ifhehadsavedevenasmallpartofwhathemadeeveryyearfromthetimehewastwenty-six——forhealwaysmadeabigincome,’’saidhisson,Frank。
  ``Buthewassogenerous,sosoft-hearted!’’
  exclaimedthewidow。``Hecoulddenyusnothing。’’
  ``Hecouldn’tbearseeinguswiththeslightestwishungratified,’’saidFrank。
  ``Hewasthebestfatherthateverlived!’’criedthedaughter,Mildred。
  AndMrs。GowertheelderandMrs。Gowertheyoungerwept。andMildredturnedawaytohidetheemotiondistortingherface。andFrankstaredgloomilyatthecarpetandsighed。Thehideoussecretofthelifeofduplicitywassafe,safeforever。
  Infact,HenryGowerhadoftenthoughtofthefateofhisfamilyifheshoulddie。Inthefirstyearofhismarriedlife,atatimewhenpassionforabeautifulbridewasalmostsweepinghimintogenerousthought,hehadlistenedforupwardofanhourtotheeloquenceofalifeinsuranceagent。Thentheagent,misledbyGower’seffusivelygenerousandunselfishexpressions,hadtakenafalsetack。Hehaddescanteduponthesupremesatisfactionthatwouldbefeltbyadyingmanashereflectedhowhisyoungwidowwouldbeleftinaffluence。Hemadeavividpicture。Gowersaw——
  sawhisbridehappierafterhisdeaththanshehadbeenduringhislife,andattractingaswarmofadmirersbyherbeauty,wellsetoffinbecomingblack,andbyherindependentincome。Thegenerousimpulsethenandthereshriveledtoitsweakandshallowroots。Withtearsinhiskind,cleareyeshethankedtheagentandsaid:
  ``Youhaveconvincedme。Youneedsaynomore。
  I’llsendforyouinafewdays。’’
  Theagentnevergotintohispresenceagain。
  Gowerliveduptohisincome,secureintheknowledgethathisabilityasalawyermadehimcertainofplentyofmoneyaslongasheshouldlive。Butitwouldshowanutterlackofcomprehensionofhispeculiarspeciesofcharactertoimaginethathelethimselfintothesecretofhisownicy-heartednessbyceasingtothinkoftheproblemofhiswifeandtwochildrenwithouthimtotakecareofthem。Onthecontrary,hethoughtofiteveryday,andplannedwhathewoulddoaboutit——to-morrow。Andforhisdelayhehadexcellentconvincingexcuses。Didhenottakecareofhisnaturallyrobusthealth?Wouldhenotcertainlyout-
  livehiswife,whowasalwaysdoctoringmoreorless?
  Frankwouldbeabletotakecareofhimself。anyhow,itwasnotwelltobringaboyuptoexpectations,becauseeverymanshouldbeself-supportingandself-
  reliant。AsforMildred,why,withherbeautyandherclevernessshecouldnotbutmakeabrilliantmarriage。
  Really,therewasforhimnoproblemofanorphanedfamily’sfuture。therewasnoreasonwhyheshoulddenyhimselfanycomfortorluxury,orhisvanityanyofthetitillationsthatcomefromsocialdisplay。
  Thatoneofhiscalculationswhichwasthemostvitalandseemedthesurestprovedtobeworthless。Itisnottheweaklingswhodie,afterinfancyandyouth,butthestrong,healthymenandwomen。Theweaklingshavetolookoutforthemselves,receiveamplewarninginthedisastrousobviouseffectsoftheslightestimprudence。Therobust,eventhewariestofthem,eventheHenryGowers,overestimateandovertaxtheirstrength。Gower’sdownfallwaschampagne。Hecouldnotresistabottleofitfordinnereverynight。
  Assooftenhappens,thecollapseofthekidneyscamewithoutanywarningthatamanofpowerfulconstitutionwoulddeemworthyofnotice。Bythetimethedoctorbegantosuspectthegravityofhistroublehewastoofargone。
  Frank,candidlygreedyandselfish——``Suchacontrasttohisfather!’’everyonesaid——wasmarriedtotheprettiestgirlinHangingRockandhadasatisfactorylawpracticeinNewYork。Hisincomewasaboutfifteenthousandayear。Buthiswifehadtastesasextravagantashisown。andHangingRockisoneofthosesuburbsofNewYorkwheregatherwell-to-domiddle-classpeopletoliveluxuriouslyandtodeludeeachotherandthemselveswiththenotionthattheyarefashionable,richNewYorkerswhoprefertoliveinthecountry``liketheEnglish。’’Thus,HenryGower’swidowanddaughtercouldcountonlittlehelpfromFrank——andtheyknewit。
  ``YouandMillywillhavetomovetosomelessexpensiveplacethanHangingRock,’’saidFrank——itwastheliving-roomconferenceafewdaysafterthefuneral。
  Mildredflushedandhereyesflashed。Sheopenedherlipstospeak——closedthemagainwiththeangryretortunuttered。Afterall,Frankwashermother’sandhersoledependence。Theycouldhopeforlittlefromhim,butnothingmustbesaidthatwouldgivehimandhismean,selfishwifeachancetobreakwiththemandrefusetodoanythingwhatever。
  ``AndMildredmustgetmarried,’’saidNatalie。
  InHangingRockmostofthegirlsandmanyoftheboyshadgivennamestakenfromBurke’sPeerage,theAlmanacdeGotha,andfashionablenovels。
  AgainMildredflushed。buthereyesdidnotflash,neitherdidsheopenherlipstospeak。Thelittleremarkofhersister-in-law,apparentlysoharmlessandsensible,wasinfactapoisonedarrow。ForMildredwastwenty-three,hadbeen``out’’fiveyears,andwasnoteveninthewaytobecomeengaged。Sheandeveryonehadassumedfromherlovelybabyhoodthatshewouldmarrysplendidly,wouldmarrywealthandsocialposition。Howcoulditbeotherwise?Hadshenotbeauty?Hadshenotfamilyandposition?Hadshenotstyleandcleverness?Yet——fiveyearsoutandnota``serious’’proposal。Animpudentpoorfellowwithnoprospectshadaskedher。AnimpudentrichmanfromfashionableNewYorkhadhungafterher——andhadpresentlyabandonedwhateverdarkprojectshemayhavebeenconcealingandhadmarriedinhisownset,``astheyalwaysdo,themiserablesnobs,’’
  ravedMrs。Gower,whohadbeenbuildinghighuponthoselavishoutpouringsofcandy,flowers,andautomobilerides。Mildred,however,hadacceptedthedefectionmorephilosophically。ShehadhadenoughvanitytoliketheattentionsoftherichandfashionableNewYorker,enoughgoodsensetosuspect,perhapsnotdefinitely,whatthoseattentionsmeant,butcertainlywhattheydidnotmean。Also,inthebackofherheadhadbeenanintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,ifbychanceheshouldaskher。Wasthereanysubstancetothisintention,sprungfromherdislikingtheconceited,self-assuredsnobasmuchasshelikedhiswealthandstation?Perhapsnot。Whocansay?Atanyrate,maywenotclaimcreditforourgoodintentions——solongas,eventhroughlackofopportunity,wehavenotstultifiedthem?
  Witheverynaturaladvantageapparently,Mildred’sfailuretocatchahusbandseemedtobesomehowherownfault。Othergirls,lessendowedthanshe,weremarrying,weremarryingfairlywell。Why,then,wasMildredlagginginthemarket?
  Theremayhavebeenotherreasons,reasonsofaccident——for,inthehigherclassmatrimonialmarket,fewarecalledandfewerchosen。Therewasonereasonnotaccidental。HangingRockwasnoplaceforagirlsosuperioraswasMildredGowertofindafittinghusband。Ashasbeenhinted,HangingRockwasoneofthoseupper-middle-classcolonieswheresplurgeandsocialambitiondominatethecommunitylife。Insuchcoloniestheyoungmenareoftwoclasses——thosebeneathsuchagirlasMildred,andthosewhohadthelooks,themanners,theintelligence,andtheprospectstojustifytheminlookinghighersocially——inlookingamongtheveryrichandreallyfashionable。IntheHangingRocksortofcommunity,havingallthesnobbishnessofFifthAvenue,BackBay,andRittenhouseSquare,withtheaddedtormentofthesnobbishnessbeingperpetuallyungratified——insuchcommunities,beneathasurfacereekingcultureandidealisticfolderol,thereisacoarseandbrutalmaterialism,apassionformoney,forluxury,fordisplay,thatequalsaristocraticsocietiesattheirworst。Noonecanliveforawinter,muchlessgrowup,insuchaplacewithoutbecomingsaturatedwithsycophantry。Thus,onlybysomeimpossiblecombinationofchancescouldtherehavebeenatHangingRockayoungmanwhowouldhaveappreciatedMildredandhavehadthecourageofhisappreciation。Thiscombinationdidnothappen。
  InMildred’sgenerationandsettherewereonlythetwoclassesofmennotedabove。Themenoftheoneofthemwhichcouldnothaveattractedheracceptedtheirfateofmatingwithsecond-choicefemalestowhomtheywerethemselvessecondchoice。ThemenoftheotherclassrarelyappearedatHangingRockfunctions,hungabouttherichpeopleinNewYork,Newport,andonLongIsland,andwouldassoonhavethoughtoftakingaHangingRocksocietygirltowifeasofexchanginghundred-dollarbillsfortwenty-five-centpieces。Havingattractionsacceptableinthebestmarkets,theytookthemthere。HangingRockdenouncedthemassnobs,forHangingRockwasvirtuouslyeloquentonthesubjectofsnobbishness——wehumancreaturesbeingneversoeffectiveaswhenassailinginotherstheviceorweaknessweknowfromlifelong,intimate,internalassociationwithit。Butsecretlythesuccessfullyambitiousspurnersofthatsuburbansocietywereapproved,wereenvied。AndHangingRockwasmostgracioustothemwheneveritgotthechance。
  InherfiveyearsofsociallifeMildredhadgoneonlywiththevariousclassesoffashionablepeople,hadthereforeknownonlythemenwhoarefullofthepoisonofsnobbishness。Shehadbeenbornandbredinanenvironmentasimpregnatedwiththatpoisonastheairofakitchen-gardenwithonions。Sheknewnothingelse。ThesecretintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,shouldhepropose,wasthereforethemoreastonishing——andthemoresignificant。Fromtimetotimeinanygivenenvironmentyouwillfindsomeisolatedperson,somepersonality,withatraitwhollyforeignandoutofplacethere。Nowitisasoftvoiceandcourteousmannersinaslum。againitisalongingforalifeoffreedomandequalityinamemberofaroyalfamilythathasknownnothingbutsordidslaveryforcenturies。Or,inthepettyconventionalityofaprosperousmiddle-orupper-classcommunityyoucomeupononewhodreams——perhapsvaguelybutstilllongingly——ofanexistencewhereloveandideasshallelevateandglorifylife。Inspiteofhertraining,inspiteoftheteachingandexampleofallaboutherfromthemomentofheropeninghereyesupontheworld,MildredGowerattwenty-threestillretainedsomethingofthesedreamflowerssowninthesoilofhernaturallygoodmindbysomebookorplayorperhapsbysomecasuallyreadandsoonforgottenarticleinmagazineornewspaper。Wehavethehabitofthinkingonlyweedsproduceseedsthatpenetrateandprospereverywhereandanywhere。Thetruthisthatfineplantsofallkinds,vegetable,fruit,andflowerofrarestcolorandperfume,havethissamehardinessandfecundity。Pullawayattheweedsinyourgardenforawhile,andseeifthisisnotso。Thoughyoumayplantnothing,youwillbeamazedattheresultsifyoubutclearalittlespaceofitsweeds——whichyouhavebeenplantingandcultivating。
  Mildred——womanfashion——regardeditasareproachuponherthatshehadnotyetsucceededinmakingthemarriageeveryone,includingherself,predictedforherandexpectedofher。Onthecontrary,itwasthemostsavageindictmentpossibleofthemarriageableandmarryingmenwhohadmether——oftheirstupidity,oftheirshort-sightedandmean-souledcalculation,oftheirlackofcourage——thecouragetotakewhatthey,asmenoffleshandbloodwanted,insteadofwhattheirsnobbishnessordered。AndifStanleyBaird,thenearesttoaflesh-and-bloodmanofanywhohadknownher,hadnotbeensoprofoundlyafraidofhisfashionablemotherandofhissister,theCountessofWaring——Buthewasprofoundlyafraidofthem。so,itisidletospeculateabouthim。
  WhatdidmenseewhentheylookedatMildredGower?Usually,whenmenlookatawoman,theyhaveahazy,eitherpleasantorunpleasant,senseofsomethingfeminine。That,andnothingmore。Afterward,throughsomewhimorsomethrustfromchancetheymayseeinher,orfancytheyseeinher,thethingfemininethattheirsouls——itisalways``soul’’——mostyearnsafter。Butjustatfirstglance,socolorlessorconventionallycoloredistheusualhumanbeing,theaveragewoman——indeedeverywomanbutshewhoisexceptional——createsuponmanthemereimpressionofpleasantorunpleasantpetticoats。Intheexceptionalwomansomethingobtrudes。Shehasastonishinghair,orextraordinaryeyes,oramouththatseemstodrawamanlikeamagnet。oritistheallureofapeculiarsmileorofafigurewhosesinuositiesasshemovesseemtocauseacorrespondingwave-disturbanceinmasculinenerves。Further,thepossessionofoneofthesesignalcharmsusuallycausesallhercharmstohavemorethanordinarypotency。Thesightofthemanissobewitchedbytheonepotentcharmthatheseesthewholewomanunderaspell。
  MildredGower,ofthemediumheightandofaslenderandwell-formedfigure,hadafaceofthekindthatiscalledlovely。andhersmile,sweet,dreamy,revealingwhiteandeventeeth,gaveherlovelinessdelicateanimation。Shehadanabundanceofhair,neitherlightnordark。shehadafineclearskin。Hereyes,grayandratherseriousandwellsetunderlongstraightbrows,gaveheralookofhonestyandintelligence。
  Butthecharmthatwonmen,hercharmofcharms,washermouth——mobile,slightlypouted,nottoonarrow,ofawonderful,vividlyhealthyandvitalred。Shehadbeauty,shehadintelligence。Butitwasimpossibleforamantothinkofeither,oncehisglancehadbeencaughtbythoseexpressive,invitinglipsofhers,soyoung,sofresh,withtheirever-changing,ever-
  fascinatinglineexpressinginathousandwaysthepassionandpoetryofthekiss。
  Ofallthemenwhohadadmiredherandhadedgedawaybecausetheyfearedshewouldbewitchthemintoforgettingwhattheworldcalls``goodcommonsense’’——
  ofallthosemenonlyonehadsuspectedtherealreasonforherphysicalpowerovermen。AllbutStanleyBairdhadthoughtthemselvesattractedbecauseshewassoprettyorsostylishorsocleverandamusingtotalkwith。Bairdhadlivedintelligentlyenoughtolearnthatfemininecharmisnevergeneral,isalwaysspecific。HeknewitwasMildredGower’slipsthathaunted,thatfrightenedambitiousmenaway,thatsentmenwhoknewtheyhadn’taghostofachancewithherdiscontentedlybacktothesecond-choicewomenwhoalonewereavailableforthem。FortunatelyforMildred,StanleyBaird,toowisetoflatterawomandiscriminatingly,didnottellherthesecretofherfascination。Ifhehadtoldher,shewouldnodoubthavetriedtotrainandtouseit——andsowouldinevitablyhavelostit。
  Togoonwiththatimportantconferenceinthesitting-roominthehandsome,roomyhouseoftheGowersatHangingRock,FrankGowereagerlyseizeduponhiswife’ssubtlynastyremark。``Idon’tseewhyinthunderyouhaven’tmarried,Milly,’’saidhe。``You’vehadeverychance,theselastfourorfiveyears。’’
  ``Andit’llbehardernow,’’moanedhermother。
  ``Foritlooksasthoughweweregoingtobewretchedlypoor。Andpovertyissorepulsive。’’
  ``Doyouthink,’’saidMildred,``thatgivingmetheideathatImustmarryrightawaywillmakeiteasierformetomarry?Everyonewhoknowsusknowsourcircumstances。’’ShelookedsignificantlyatFrank’swife,whohadbeenwailingthroughHangingRockthewoefulplightofherdeadfather-in-law’sfamily。
  TheyoungMrs。Gowerblushedandglancedaway。
  ``And,’’Mildredwenton,``everyoneissayingthatI
  mustmarryatonce——thatthere’snothingelseformetodo。’’Shesmiledbitterly。``WhenIgointothestreetagainIshallseenothingbutflyingmen。Andnomanwouldcometocallunlesshebroughtachaperonandawitnesswithhim。’’
  ``Howcanyoubesofrivolous?’’reproachedhermother。
  Mildredwasusedtobeingmisunderstoodbyhermother,whohadlongsincebeenmadehopelesslydullbythesuffocatinglifesheledandbypainfromherfeet,whichneverleftherateaseforamomentexceptwhenshehadthemsoakingincoldwater。Mrs。Gowerhadbeenbornwithordinaryfeet,neitheruglynorprettyandentirelyfitfortheusesforwhichnatureintendedfeet。Shehadspoiledthembywearingshoestomakethemlooksmallerandslimmerthantheywere。
  Insteadyweathershewasplaintive。inchangeableweathershevariedbetweenirritableandviolent。
  SaidMildredtoherbrother:``Howmuch——JUSThowmuchisthere?’’
  ``Ican’tsayexactly,’’repliedherbrother,whohadnotyetsolvedtohissatisfactionthemoralproblemofhowmuchoftheestateheoughttoallowhismotherandsisterandhowmuchheoughttoclaimforhimself——insuchawaythattheclaimcouldnotbedisputed。
  Mildredlookedfixedlyathim。Heshowedhisuneasinessnotbyglancingaway,butbytheappearanceofacertainharddefianceinhiseyes。Saidshe:
  ``Whatistheverymostwecanhopefor?’’
  Asilence。Hermotherbrokeit。``Mildred,howCANyoutalkofthosethings——already?’’
  ``Idon’tknow,’’repliedMildred。``Perhapsbecauseit’sgottobedone。’’
  Thisseemedtothemall——andtoherself——alameexcuseforsuchapparenthardnessofheart。HerfatherhadalwaysbeenSENDER-HEARTED——HADNEVER
  SPOKENOFMONEY,ORENCOURAGEDHISFAMILYINSPEAKINGOFIT。
  ALONGANDPAINFULSILENCE。THEN,THEWIDOW
  ABRUPTLY:
  ``YOU’RESURE,Frank,there’sNOinsurance?’’
  ``Fatheralwayssaidthatyoudislikedtheidea,’’
  repliedherson。``thatyouthoughtinsurancelookedlikeyourcalculatingonhisdeath。’’
  Underherhusband’sadroitpromptingMrs。Gowerhaddiscoveredsuchaviewofinsuranceinherbrain。
  Shenowrecalledexpressingit——andregretted。Butshewassilenced。Shetriedtotakehermindofthesub-
  jectofmoney。But,likeMildred,shecouldnot。Thethoughtofimminentpovertywasnaggingatthemliketoothache。``There’llbeenoughforayearorso?’’
  shesaid,timidlyinterrogative。
  ``Ihopeso,’’saidFrank。
  Mildredwaseyinghimfixedlyagain。Saidshe:
  ``Haveyoufoundanythingatall?’’
  ``Hehadabouteightthousanddollarsinbank,’’
  saidFrank。``Butmostofitwillgoforthepressingdebts。’’
  ``ButhowdidHEexpecttolive?’’urgedMildred。
  ``Yes,theremusthavebeenSOMETHING,’’saidhermother。
  ``Ofcourse,there’shisshareoftheunsettledandunfinishedbusinessofthefirm,’’admittedFrank。
  ``Howmuchwillthatbe?’’persistedMildred。
  ``Ican’ttell,offhand,’’saidFrank,withvirtuousreproach。``Mymind’sbeenon——otherthings。’’
  HenryGower’swidowwasnotwithouthershareofinstinctiveshrewdness。Neitherhadshe,unobservantthoughshewas,beenwithinsightofherson’scharacterfortwenty-eightyearswithouthavingunconfessed,unformedmisgivingsconcerningit。
  ``Youmustn’tbotheraboutthesethingsnow,Frankdear,’’saidshe。``I’llgetmybrothertolookintoit。’’
  ``Thatwon’tbenecessary,’’hastilysaidFrank。``I
  don’twantanyrivallawyerpeepingintoourfirm’saffairs。’’
  ``MybrotherWhartonisthesoulofhonor,’’saidMrs。Gower,theelder,withdignity。``Youaretooyoungtotakealltheresponsibilityofsettlingtheestate。Yes,I’llsendforWhartonto-morrow。’’
  ``It’lllookasthoughyoudidn’ttrustme,’’saidFranksourly。
  ``Wemustn’tdoanythingtostartthegossipsinthistown,’’saidhiswife,assisting。
  ``Thensendforhimyourself,Frank,’’saidMildred,``andgivehimchargeofthewholematter。’’
  Frankeyedherfuriously。``Howashamedfatherwouldbe!’’exclaimedhe。
  Butthissolemninvokingofthedeadman’sspiritwasuneffectual。Thespecterofpovertywastooinsistent,tooterrible。Saidthewidow:
  ``I’msure,inthecircumstances,mydeardeadhusbandwouldwantmetogethelpfromsomeoneolderandmoreexperienced。’’
  AndFrank,guiltyofconscienceandanexpertinthewaysofconventionalandhighlymoralrascality,ceasedtoresist。Hiswife,scentingdangertotheirgettingthesharethat``rightfullybelongstotheson,especiallywhenhehasbeenthebrainsofthefirmforseveralyears,’’madeangryandindiscreetbattlefornooutsideinterference。Thelongershetalkedthefirmerthewidowandthedaughterbecame,notonlybecausesheclarifiedsuspicionsthathadbeentoohazytotakeform,butalsobecausetheydislikedherintensely。
  ThefollowingdayWhartonConoverbecameunofficialadministrator。HehadnodifficultyinbafflingFrankGower’shalf-heartedandclumsyeffortstohidetwolargefeesduethedeadman’sestate。Hediscoveredclearassetsamountinginalltosixty-
  threethousanddollars,mostofitavailablewithinafewmonths。
  ``Asyouhavethegood-willofthefirmandasyourmotherandsisterhaveonlywhatcanberealizedincash,’’saidhetoFrank,``nodoubtyouwon’tinsistonyourthird。’’
  ``I’vegottoconsidermywife,’’saidFrank。``I
  can’tdoasI’dlike。’’
  ``Youaregoingtoinsistonyourthird?’’saidConover,withanaccentthatmadeFrankquiver。
  ``Ican’tdootherwise,’’saidheinadogged,shamedway。
  ``Um,’’saidConover。``Then,onbehalfofmysisterandherdaughterI’llhavetoinsistonamoredetailedaccountingthanyouhavebeenwillingtogive——andontheproductionofthatsmallbookboundinredleatherwhichdisappearedfrommybrother-in-law’sdesktheafternoonofhisdeath。’’
  AwaveofrageandfearsurgedupwithinFrankGowerandcrashedagainsttheseatofhislife。Fordaysthereafterhewasfromtimetotimeseizedwithviolentspasmsoftrembling。yearsafterwardhewasattributingprematureweaknessesofoldagetotheeffectsofthatmomentofhorror。Hisuncle’swordscameasasudden,highshotclimaxtoweeksofexasperatingpeepingandpryingandquestioning,ofsneerandinsinuation。Conoverhadbeenonlymoderatelysuccessfulatthelaw,hadlostclientstoFrank’sfather,hadbeenbeatenwhentheywereonoppositesides。Hehatedthefatherwiththesecret,hypocriticalhatredofthehighlymoralandreligiousman。Hede-
  spisedtheson。ItisnotoftenthataChristiangentlemanhassuchanopportunitytocombinejusticeandrevenge,tofeedtoburstinganancientgrudge,thewhileconsciousthatheisbutdoinghisduty。
  SaidFrank,whenhewasabletospeak:``Youhavebeenlisteningtotheliesofsometreacherousclerkhere。’’
  ``Don’tdestroythatlittlebook,’’proceededConovertranquilly。``Wecanprovethatyoutookit。’’
  YoungGowerrose。``Imustdeclinetohaveanythingfurthertosaytoyou,sir,’’saidhe。``Youwillleavethisoffice,andyouwillnotbeadmittedhereagainunlessyoucomewithproperpapersasadministrator。’’
  Conoversmiledwithcoldsatisfactionanddeparted。
  Therefollowedaseriesofquarrels——betweenFrankandhissister,betweenFrankandhismother,betweenFrank’swifeandhismother,betweenMildredandhermother,betweenthemotherandConover。Mrs。Gowerwassuspiciousofherson。butsheknewherbrotherforapinchpenny,exactingthelastdropofwhatheregardedashisown。Andshediscoveredthat,ifsheauthorizedhimtoactasadministratorforher,hecould——andbeyondquestionwould——takealargeshareoftheestate。TheupshotwasthatFrankpaidovertohismotherandsisterforty-seventhousanddollars,andhismotherandherbrotherstoppedspeakingtoeachother。
  ``Iseethatyouhaveturnedoverallyourmoneytomother,’’saidFranktoMildredafewdaysafterthesettlement。
  ``Ofcourse,’’saidMildred。Shewasinamoodofhighscornforsordidness——amoodinducedbythespectacleoftheshamefulmannersofConover,Frank,andhiswife。
  ``Doyouthinkthat’swise?’’suggestedFrank。
  ``Ithinkit’sdecent,’’saidMildred。
  ``Well,Ihopeyou’llnotlivetoregretit,’’saidherbrother。
  NeitherMrs。Gowernorherdaughterhadeverhadanyexperienceinthecareofmoney。Tobothforty-
  seventhousanddollarsseemedafortune——forty-seventhousanddollarsincashinthebank,readytoissueforthanddotheirbiddingatthemerewritingofafewfiguresandasignatureonapieceofpaper。Inasensetheyknewthatformanyyearsthefamily’sannualexpenseshadrangedbetweenfortyandfiftythousand,butinthesenseofactualitytheyknewnothingaboutit——astateofaffairscommonenoughinfamilieswherethemanisinabsolutecontrolandspendsallhemakes。Moneyalwayshadbeenforthcomcoming。{sic}
  thereforemoneyalwayswouldbeforthcoming。
  Themourningandthelossofthepersonwhohadfilledandemployedtheirlivescausedthewidowandthedaughtertoliveveryquietlyduringthesucceedingyear。Theyspentonlyhalfoftheircapital。Forreasonsofselfishandfar-sightedprudencewhichneednodetailingFrankmovedawaytoNewYorkwithinsixmonthsofhisfather’sdeathandreducedcommunicationbetweenhimselfandwifeandhismotherandsistertoafrigidandrapidlycongealingminimum。
  Hecalculatedthatbythetimetheircapitalwascon-
  sumedtheywouldhaveleftnofeelingofclaimuponhimorhefeelingofdutytowardthem。
  Itwasnotuntileighteenmonthsafterherfather’sdeath,whenthetotalcapitalwassunktolessthanfifteenthousanddollars,thatMildredawakenedtothetruthoftheirplight。Afewmonthsatmost,andtheywouldhavetogiveupthatbeautifulhousewhichhadbeenherhomeallherlife。Shetriedtograspthemeaningofthefactsasherintelligencepresentedthemtoher,butshecouldnot。Shehadnopracticaltrainingwhatever。Shehadbeenbroughtupasarichman’schild,tobemarriedtoarichman,andnevertoknowanythingofthematerialdetailsoflifebeyondwhatwasnecessaryinmanagingservantsaftertheindifferentfashionoftheusualAmericanwomanofthecomfortableclasses。Shehadalwayshadamaid。shecouldnotevendressherselfproperlywithoutthemaid’sassistance。Lifewithoutamaidwasinconceivable。
  lifewithoutservantswasimpossible。
  Shewanderedthroughthehouse,throughthegrounds。Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Wehavegottogiveupallthis,andbemiserablypoor——
  withnotaservant,withlessthanthetenementpeoplehave。’’Butthewordsconveyednomeaningtoher。
  Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Imustrousemyself。Imustdosomething。Imust——must——
  must!’’Butshedidnotrouse,becausetherewasnothingtorouse。Sofaraspracticallifewasconcernedshewasasdevoidofideasasanew-bornbaby。
  Therewasbuttheonehope——marriage,arichmarriage。Itisthehabitofmenwhocantakecareofthemselvesandofwomenwhoaresecurelywelltakencareoftoscornthewomanorthehelpless-bredmanwhomarriesformoneyorevenentertainsthatidea。
  Howlittleimaginationthesescornershave!Tomarryforamereliving,hardlybetterthanonecouldmakeforoneself,assuredlydoesshowapitifullackofself-
  reliance,amelancholylackofself-respect。Butformenorwomenalltheirlivesusedtoluxuryandwithnoabilitywhateveratearningmoney——forsuchpersonstomarrymoneyinordertosavethemselvesfromthemiseryandshamethatpovertymeanstothemisthemostnatural,themosthumanactionconceivable。Themanorthewomanwhosaysheorshewouldnotdoit,eitherisahypocriteoristalkingwithoutthinking。
  Youmayinhonestycriticizeandcondemnasocialsystemthatsuffersmenandwomentobesocrudelyandcriminallymiseducatedbybeinggivenluxurytheydidnotearn。Buttocondemnthevictimsofthatsystemforactingasitslogiccompelsissheerfollyorsheerphariseeism。
  WouldMildredGowerhavemarriedformoney?Astheweeksfled,asthebankaccountdwindled,shewouldhavegraspedeagerlyatanyrichmanwhomighthaveofferedhimself——nomatterhowrepellenthemighthavebeen。Shedidnotwantabareliving。shedidnotwantwhatpasseswiththemassofmiddle-classpeopleforcomfort。Shewantedwhatshehad——thebeautifulandspacioushouse,thecostlyandfashionableclothing,theservants,thecarriagesandmotors,thethousandandonecomforts,luxuries,andvanitiestowhichshehadalwaysbeenused。InthebrainofayoungwomanofpoororonlycomfortablyofffamilythethoughtsthatseethedinMildredGower’sbrainwouldhavebeensomanyindicationsofdepravity。InMildredGower’sbraintheywerethenatural,theinevitable,thoughts。
  Theyindicatedeverythingastohertraining,nothingastohercharacter。So,whenshe,thinkingonlyofarichmarriagewithnomatterwhom,andcontrastingherselfwiththefinewomenportrayedinthenovelsandplays,condemnedherselfasshamelessanddegraded,shedidherselfgraveinjustice。
  Butnorichman,whetherattractiveorrepulsive,offered。Indeed,nomanofanykindoffered。Instead,itwashermotherwhomarried。
  AwidowernamedJamesPresbury,elderly,withanincomeoffivetosixthousandayearfrominheritedwealth,stumbledintoHangingRocktolive,wasimpressedbythestylethewidowGowermaintained,believedtherumorthatherhusbandhadleftherbetteroffthanwasgenerallythought,proposed,andwasaccepted。AndtwoyearsandamonthafterHenryGower’sdeathhiswidowbecameMrs。JamesPresbury——andceasedtoveilfromhernewhusbandthetruthastoheraffairs。
  Mildredhadthoughtthat,thanthefamilyquarrelsincidenttosettlingherfather’sestate,humannaturecouldnolowerdescend。Shewasnowtobedisillusioned。
  Whenayoungmanorayoungwomanblundersintoapoormarriageintryingtomakearichone,heorsheisusuallywithheldfromimmediateandfrankexpressionbythetimidityofyouth。Notsotheelderlymanorwoman。Aswegrowolder,nomat-
  terhowtimidlyconventionalwearebynature,webecome,throughselfishnessorthroughindifferencetotheopinionofothersorthroughimpatienceofpettyrestraint,moreandmoreoutspoken。OldPresburydiscoveredhowhehadtrickedhimselffourdaysafterthewedding。HeandhisbridewereattheWaldorfinNewYork,a-honeymooning。
  Thebridehadneverprofessedtoberich。Shehadsimplycontinuedinherlifelongway,hadsimplyactedrich。Shewellknewthegaudydelusionsheradmirerwasentertaining,andshesawtoitthatnothingwassaidordonetodisturbhim。Sheinquiredintohisaffairs,madesureofthesubstantialityofthecomparativelysmallincomehepossessed,decidedtoaccepthimasherbestavailablechancetoescapebecomingachargeuponheranythingbuteagerandgenerousrelatives。Sheawaitedtheexplosionwithserenity。
  ShecarednotaflipforPresbury,whowasasoftandsillyoldfool,fullofantiquatedcomplimentsandsodrearilytheinferiorofHenryGower,physicallyandmentally,thatevenshecouldappreciatethedifference,thedescent。Sheratherenjoyedtheprospectofacombatwithhim,oftheendofdissimulatinghercontempt。Shehadthoughtoutandhadputinarsenalreadyforuseavarietyofsneers,jeers,andinsultsthatsuggestedthemselvestoherasshelistenedandsimperedandrespondedwhilehewascourting。
  Hadtheopportunityofferedearlierthanthefourthdayshewouldhaveseizedit,butnotuntilthatfourthmorningwassheinjusttherightmood。Shehadeatentoomuchdinnerthenightbefore,andhadfolloweditaftertwohoursinastuffytheaterwithanindigestiblesupper。Helikedthebedroomwindowsopenatnight。shelikedthemclosed。Aftershefellintoaheavysleep,heslippedoutofbedandopenedthewindowswide——toteachherbythenight’shappyexperiencethatshewasentirelymistakenastotheharmfulnessoffreshwinterair。Theresultwasthatsheawakenedwithafrightfulcoldandasplittingheadache。Andastheweatherwasabouttochangeshehadshootingpainsliketoothachethroughhertoestheinstantshethrustthemintohershoes。
  Theelderlygroom,believinghehadarichbride,wasallsolicitudeandinfuriatingattention。Shewaiteduntilhehadwroughthertotheproperpitchoffury。Thenshesaid——inreplytosomeremarkofhis:
  ``Yes,Ishallrelyuponyouentirely。Iwantyoutotakeabsolutechargeofmyaffairs。’’
  Thetearssprangtohiseyes。Hisweakoldmouth,rapidlyfallingtopieces,twistedandtwitchedwithemotion。``I’lltrytodeserveyourconfidence,darling,’’saidhe。``I’vehadlargebusinessexperience——
  inthewayofinvestingcarefully,Imean。Idon’tthinkyouraffairswillsufferinmyhands。’’
  ``Oh,I’msurethey’llnottroubleyou,’’saidsheinasweet,suretoneasthepainsshotthroughherfeetandherhead。``You’llhardlynoticemylittlemiteinyourproperty。’’Shepretendedtoreflect。``Letmesee——there’sseventhousandleft,butofcoursehalfofthatisMillie’s。’’
  ``Itmustbeverywellinvested,’’saidhe。``Thoseseventhousandsharesmustbeoftheverybest。’’
  ``Shares?’’saidshe,withagentlelittlelaugh。``I
  meandollars。’’
  Presburywasabouttoliftacupofcafeaulaittohislips。Instead,heturneditoverintotheplatterofeggsandbacon。
  ``We——MildredandI,’’pursuedhisbride,``wereleftwithonlyforty-oddthousandbetweenus。Ofcourse,wehadtolive。So,naturally,there’sverylittleleft。’’
  Presburywasshakingsoviolentlythathisheadandarmswaggledlikeajumping-jack’s。Hewrappedhiselegantwhitefingersaboutthearmsofhischairtosteadyhimself。Inasuffocatedvoicehesaid:``Doyoumeantosaythatyouhaveonlyseventhousanddollarsintheworld?’’
  ``Onlyhalfthat,’’correctedshe。``Oh,dear,howmyheadaches!Lessthanhalfthat,fortherearesomedebts。’’
  Shewasimpatientfortheexplosion。theagonyofherfeetandheadneededoutletandrelief。Buthedisappointedher。Thatwasoneofthesituationsinwhichoneappealsinvaintotheresourcesoflanguage。Heshrankandsankbackinhischair,hisjawdropped,andheventedastrange,imbecilecacklinglaugh。Itwasnotanexpressionofphilosophicmirth,ofsenseofthegrotesquenessofananti-climax。Itwasnotanexpressionofanyemotionwhatever。Itwassimplyasignalfromamindtemporarilydethroned。
  ``Whatareyoulaughingat?’’shesaidsharply。
  Hisanswerwasarepetitionoftheidioticsound。
  ``What’sthematterwithyou?’’demandedshe。
  ``Pleasecloseyourmouth。’’
  Itwasatimelypieceofadvice。forhisupperandfalseteethhadbecomepartiallydislodgedandthreatenedtodropupontheshirt-bosomgaylyshowingbetweenthelapelsofhisdark-bluesilkhouse-coat。Heslowlyclosedhismouth,movinghisteethbackintoplacewithhistongue——agesturethatmadeherfacetwitchwithrageanddisgust。
  ``Seventhousanddollars,’’hemumbleddazedly。
  ``Isaidlessthanhalfthat,’’retortedshesharply。
  ``AndI——thoughtyouwere——rich。’’
  Apeculiarrollingoftheeyesandtwistingofthelipsgavehertheideathathewasabouttoventthatrepulsivesoundagain。``Don’tyoulaugh!’’shecried。
  ``Ican’tbearyourlaugh——evenatitsbest。’’
  Suddenlyhegalvanizedintofury。``Thisisanoutrage!’’hecried,wavinghisuseless-lookingwhitefists。
  ``Youhaveswindledme——SWINDLEDme!’’
  Herheadstoppedaching。Thepainsinherfeeteitherceasedorsheforgotthem。Inasuspiciouslycalmvoiceshesaid:``Whatdoyoumean?’’
  ``Imeanthatyouareaswindler!’’heshouted,bangingonefistonthetableandwavingtheother。
  Sheactedasthoughhismeaningwerejustdawninguponher。``Doyoumean,’’saidshetranquilly,``thatyoumarriedmeformoney?’’
  ``ImeanthatIthoughtyouasubstantialwoman,andthatIfindyouareanadventuress。’’
  ``Didyouthink,’’inquiredshe,``thatanywomanwhohadmoneywouldmarryYOU?’’Shelaughedveryquietly。``YouAREafool!’’
  Hesatbacktolookather。Thismodeofcombatinsuchcircumstancespuzzledhim。
  ``Iknewthatyouwererich,’’shewenton,``oryouwouldnothavedaredofferyourselftome。Allmyfriendswereamazedatmystoopingtoacceptyou。
  YourfatherwasanIrishTammanycontractor,wasn’the?——asortofcriminal?ButIsimplyhadtomarry。
  SoIgaveyoumyfamilyandpositionandnameinexchangeforyourwealth——agoodbargainforyou,butapooroneforme。’’
  ThesereferencestoHISwealthweremostdisconcerting,especiallyastheywereaccompaniedbyremarksabouthisorigin,ofwhichhewassoashamedthathehadchangedthespellingofhisnameintheefforttoclearhimselfofit。However,someretortwasimperative。
  Helookedatherandsaid:
  ``Swindlerandadventuress!’’
  ``Don’trepeatthatlie,’’saidshe。``Youaretheadventurer——despitethefactthatyouareveryrich。’’
  ``Don’tsaythatagain,’’criedhe。``IneversaidorpretendedIwasrich。Ihaveaboutfivethousandayear——andyou’llnotgetacentofit,madam!’’
  Sheknewhisincome,butnoonewouldhavesuspecteditfromherexpressionofhorror。``What!’’shegasped。``YoudaredtomarryMEwhenyouwerea——
  beggar!Me——thewidowofHenryGower!Youimpudentoldwreck!Why,youhaven’tenoughtopaymyservants。Whatarewetoliveon,pray?’’
  ``Idon’tknowwhatYOU’LLliveon,’’repliedhe。
  ``_I_shallliveasIalwayshave。’’
  ``Abeggar!’’sheexclaimed。``I——marriedtoabeggar。’’Sheburstintotears。``Howmentakeadvantageofawomanalone!Ifmysonhadbeennearme!Butthere’ssurelysomelawtoprotectme。Yes,I’msurethereis。Oh,I’llpunishyouforhavingdeceivedme。’’Hereyesdriedasshelookedathim。
  ``Howdareyousitthere?Howdareyoufaceme,youmiserablefraud!’’
  Earlyinheracquaintancewithhimshehaddiscoveredthatdeterminingfactorsinhischaracterweresensitivenessabouthisoriginandsensitivenessabouthissocialposition。Onthisknowledgeofhisweaknesseswassecurelybasedherconfidencethatshecouldactasshepleasedtowardhim。Toeaseherpainssheproceededtopouroutherprivateopinionofhim——allthedisagreeablethings,alltheinsultsshehadbeenstoringup。
  Shewatchedhimasonlyawomancanwatchaman。
  Shesawthathisragewasnotdangerous,thatshewasforcinghimintoapositionwherefearofherrevengingherselfbydisgracinghimwouldovercomeangeratthecollapseofhisfatuousdreamsofwealth。Shedidnotdespisehimthemoredeeplyforsittingthere,fornotflyingfromtheroomortryingtokillherorsomehowcompellinghertocheckthatflowofinsult。Shealreadydespisedhimutterly。also,sheattachedsmallimportancetoself-respect,havingnoknowledgeofwhatthatqualityreallyis。
  Whenshegrewtired,shebecamequiet。Theysattherealongtimeinsilence。Atlastheranupthewhiteflagofabjectsurrenderbysaying:
  ``What’llweliveon——that’swhatI’dliketoknow?’’
  Aneavesdropperupontheprecedingviolenceofupwardofanhourwouldhaveassumedthatatitsendthispairmustseparate,nevertoseeeachotheragainvoluntarily。Butthatidea,evenasapossibility,hadnotenteredthemindofeither。Theyhadlivedalongtime。
  theywerepracticalpeople。Theyknewfromtheoutsetthatsomehowtheymustarrangetogoontogether。
  Thealternativemeantamerepittanceofalimonyforher。meantforhimsocialostracismandthesmallincomecutinhalf。meantforbothscandalandconfusion。
  Saidshefretfully:``Oh,Isupposewe’llgetalong,somehow。Idon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings。
  I’vealwaysbeenlookedafter——keptfromcontactwiththesordidsideoflife。’’
  ``Thathouseyoulivein,’’hewenton,``doesitbelongtoyou?’’
  Shegavehimacontemptuousglance。``Ofcourse,’’
  saidshe。``Whatlowpeopleyoumusthavebeenusedto!’’
  ``Ithoughtperhapsyouhadrenteditforyourbuncogame,’’retortedhe。``Thefurniture,thehorses,themotor——allthosethings——dotheybelongtoyou?’’
  ``Ishallleavetheroomifyouinsultme,’’saidshe。
  ``Didyouincludethemintheseventhousanddollars?’’
  ``Themoneyisinthebank。Ithasnothingtodowithourhouseandourproperty。’’
  Hereflected,presentlysaid:``Thehorsesandcarriagesmustbesoldatonce——andallthoseservantsdismissedexceptperhapstwo。Wecanliveinthehouse。’’
  Shegrewpurplewithrage。``SellMYcarriages!
  DischargeMYservants!I’dliketoseeyoutry!’’
  ``Who’stopayforkeepingupthatestablishment?’’
  demandedhe。
  Shewassilent。Shesawwhathehadinmind。
  ``Ifyouwanttokeepthathouseandlivecomfortably,’’
  hewenton,``you’vegottocutexpensestothebone。Youseethat,don’tyou?’’
  ``Ican’tliveanywaybutthewayI’vebeenusedtoallmylife,’’wailedshe。
  Heeyedherdisgustedly。Wasthereanythingequaltoawomanforfolly?
  ``We’vegottomakethemostofwhatlittlewehave,’’saidhe。
  ``ItellyouIdon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings,’’repeatedshe。``You’llhavetolookafterthem。
  MildredandIaren’tlikethewomenyou’vebeenusedto。
  Weareladies。’’
  Presbury’srageboiledoveragainatthementionofMildred。``Thatdaughterofyours!’’hecried。
  ``What’stobedoneabouther?I’vegotnomoneytowasteonher。’’
  ``YoumiserableTammanyTHING!’’exclaimedshe。
  ``Don’tyoudareSPEAKofmydaughterexceptinthemostrespectfulway。’’
  Andoncemoresheopenedoutuponhim,wreakinguponhimallherwrathagainstfate,allthepent-upfuryoftwoyears——furywhichhadbeendeniedsuchfury’susualandnaturalexpressionindenunciationsofthedeadbread-winner。Thegenerousandever-kindHenryGowercouldnotbetoblameforherwretchedplight。and,ofcourse,sheherselfcouldnotbetoblameforit。So,untilnowtherehadbeennoscapegoat。
  Presburythereforereceivedthewholeburden。He,alarmedlestacreatureapparentlysoirrational,shouldinwildragedrivehimaway,ruinhimsocially,perhapsinduceasympatheticcourttoawardheralargepartofhisincomeasalimony,saidnotawordinreply。Hebadehiswrathwait。Lateron,whentheperilwasover,whenhehadafirmgripuponthesituation——thenhewouldtakehisrevenge。
  TheygaveuptheexpensivesuiteattheWaldorfthatverydayandreturnedtoHangingRock。Theyalternatedbetweensilenceandthecoarsest,crudestquarrelings,forneitherhadtheintelligencetoquarrelwittilyortherefinementtoquarrelartistically。AssoonastheyarrivedattheGowerhouse,Mildredwasdraggedintothewrangle。
  ``Imarriedthisterriblemanforyoursake,’’wastheburdenofhermother’swail。``Andheisabeggar——
  wantstoselloffeverythinganddismisstheservants。’’
  ``Youareapairofpaupers,’’criedtheoldman。
  ``Youareshamelesstricksters。Becarefulhowyougoadme!’’
  Mildredhadanticipatedanunhappyendingtohermother’smarriage,butshehadnotknowledgeenoughoflifeorofhumannaturetoanticipateanysuchhorrorsasnowbegan。Everyday,alldaylongthevulgarfightraged。Hermotherandherstepfatherwithdrewfromeachother’spresenceonlytothinkupfreshinsultstoflingateachother。Assoonastheywerearmedtheyhastenedtogivebattleagain。SheavoidedPresbury。Hermothershecouldnotavoid。andwhenhermotherwasnotincombatwithhim,shewasweepingorwailingorrailingtoMildred。
  ItwasatMildred’surgingthathermotheracquiescedinPresbury’splansforreducingexpenseswithinincome。Atfirstthegirl,evenmoreignorantthanhermotherofpracticalaffairs,didnotappreciatethewisdom,nottosaythenecessity,ofwhathewishedtodo,butsoonshesawthathewasright,thattheservantsmustgo,thatthehorsesandcarriagesandthemotorsmustbesold。Whenshewasconvincedandhadconvincedhermother,shestilldidnotrealizewhatthethingreallymeant。Notuntilshenolongerhadamaiddidshecomprehend。Toawomanwhohasneverhadamaid,orwhohastakenonamaidasaluxury,itwillseemanexaggerationtosaythatMildredfeltashelplessasababylyingaloneinacribbeforeithaslearnedtocrawl。Yetthatisratheranunderstatementofherplight。Themaidleftintheafternoon。
  Mildred,notwithoutinconveniencesthathadinthenoveltytheiramusingside,contrivedtodressthateveningfordinnerandtogettobed。butwhensheawakenedinthemorningandwasreadytodress,thelossofTheresebecameatragedy。Ittookthegirlnearlyfourhourstogetherselftogetherpresentably——andthen,neverhadshelookedsounkempt。Withherhair,thickandsoft,shecoulddonothing。
  ``WhatawonderfulpersonTheresewas!’’thoughtshe。``AndIalwaysregardedherasratherstupid。’’
  Hermother,whohadnothadamaiduntilshewasaboutthirtyandhadneverbecomecompletelydependent,faredsomewhatbetter,though,hearinghermoans,youwouldhavethoughtshewasfaringworse。
  Mildred’sunhappinessincreasedfromdaytoday,asherwardrobefellintoconfusionanddisrepair。Shefeltthatshemustrisetothesituation,mustteachherself,mustsaveherselffromimpendingdowdinessandslovenliness。Butherbrainseemedtobeparalyzed。
  Shedidnotknowhoworwheretobegintolearn。Sheofteninsecretgavewaytothefutilityoftears。
  Therewerenowonlyacookandonehousemaidandamanofallwork——allthreenewcomers,forPresburyinsisted——mostwisely——thatnoneoftheservantsoftheluxurious,wastefuldayswouldbeusefulinthenewcircumstances。Hewasoneofthosesmall,orderlymenwhohaveageniusforjustsuchsituationsastheonehenowproceededtograpplewithandsolve。Inhispleasureatmanagingeverythingaboutthathouse,indistributingtheworkamongthethreeservants,inmarketing,and,ininspectingpurchasesandnosingintothegarbage-barrel,inlookingfordustonpicture-
  framesandtable-topsandforneglectedweedsinthegardenwalks——inthismultitudeofengrossingdelightsheforgothisangeroverthetrickthathadbeenplayeduponhim。Hestillfoughtwithhiswifeanddenouncedherandmetinsultwithinsult。Butthat,too,wasoneofhispleasures。Also,hefeltthatonthewholehehaddonewellinmarrying。Hehadbeenlonelyasabachelor,hadhadnoonetotalkwith,ortoquarrelwith,nothingtodo。Themarriagewasnotsoexpensive,ashiswifehadbroughthimahouse——anditsuchaoneashehadalwaysregardedastheapogeeofelegance。LivingwasnotdearinHangingRock,ifoneunderstoodmanagingandgavetimetoit。Andsociallyhewasatlastestablished。
  Soonhiswifewasaboutascontentedasshehadeverbeeninherlife。Shehatedanddespisedherhusband,butquarrelingwithhimandrailingagainsthimgaveheroccupationandaim——twovaluableassetstowardhappinessthatshehadtheretoforelacked。Herliving——shelter,food,clothingenough——wasnowsecure。
  Butthemostimportantfactorofallinhercontentwastheoneapparentlytootrivialtobeworthyofrecord。
  Fromgirlhoodshecouldnotrecallasingledayinwhichshehadnotsufferedfromherfeet。Andshehadbeenashamedtosayanythingaboutit——hadneverletanyone,evenhermaid,seeherfeet,whichwereabouttheonlyunsightlypartofher。Nonehadguessedthecauseofherchronicill-temperuntilPresbury,thatgeniusforthelittle,saidwithinaweekoftheirmarriage:
  ``Youtalkandactlikeawomanwithchroniccorns。’’
  Hedidnotdreamoftheeffectthischancethrusthaduponhiswife。Forthefirsttimehehadreally``landed。’’Sheconcealedherfrightandhershameasbestshecouldandwentonquarrelingmoreviciouslythanever。Buthepresentlyreturnedtotheattack。
  Saidhe:
  ``Yourfeethurtyou。I’msuretheydo。NowthatIthinkofit,youwalkthatway。’’
  ``IsupposeIdeservemyfate,’’saidshe。``Whenawomanmarriesbeneathhershemustexpectinsultandlowconversation。’’
  ``Youmustcureyourfeet,’’saidhe。``I’llnotliveinthehousewithapersonwhoismadefiendishbycorns。
  Ithinkit’sonlycorns。Iseenosignsofbunions。’’
  ``Youbrute!’’criedhiswife,rushingfromtheroom。
  Butwhentheymetagain,heatonceresumedthesubject,tellingherjusthowshecouldcureherself——andhekeptontellingher,sheapparentlyignoringbutsecretlyactingonhisadvice。Heknewwhathewasabout,andherfeetgrewbetter,grewwell——andshewashappierthanshehadbeensincegirlhoodwhenshebeganruiningherfeetwithtightshoes。
  Sixmonthsafterthemarriage,Presburyandhiswifeweregettingonaboutascomfortablyasitisgiventoaveragehumanitytogetoninthisworldofincessantstrugglebetweenuncomfortablemanandhisuncomfortableenvironment。ButMildredhadbecomemoreandmoreunhappy。Hermother,sometimesangrily,againreproachfully——andthatwasfarhardertobear——blamedherfor``mymiserablemarriagetothislow,quarrelsomebrute。’’Presburyletnodaypasswithouttellingheropenlythatshewasabeggarlivingoffhim,thatshewouldbettermarrysoonorhewouldtakedrasticstepstoreleasehimselfoftheburden。Whenheattackedherbeforehermother,therewasaviolentquarrelfromwhichMildredfledtohideinherroomorintheremotestpartofthegarden。Whenhehuntedherouttoinsultheralone,shesatorstoodwitheyesdownandfaceghastlypale,mute,quivering。Shedidnotinter-
  rupt,didnottrytoescape。Shewaslikethechainedandspiritlessdogthatcrouchesandtakestheshowerofblowsfromitscruelmaster。
  Wherecouldshego?Nowhere。Whatcouldshedo?Nothing。Inthedaysofprosperityshehadregardedherselfasproudandhighspirited。Shenowwonderedatherself!Whathadbecomeofthepride?
  Whatofthespirit?Sheavoidedlookingatherimageintheglass——thatthin,pallidface,thosecircledeyes,thedrawn,sickexpressionaboutthemouthandnose。
  ``I’mstunned,’’shesaidtoherself。``I’vebeenstunnedeversincefather’sdeath。I’veneverrecovered——norhasmother。’’Andshegavewaytotears——forherfather,shefancied。infact,fromshameatherweaknessandhelplessness。Shethought——hoped——thatshewouldnotbethusfeebleandcowardly,ifshewerenotlivingathome,inthehousesheloved,thehousewhereshehadspentherwholelife。Andsuchahouse!Comfortandluxuryandtaste。everyroom,everycornerofthegrounds,fullofthetenderestandmostbeautifulassociations。Also,therewasherpositioninHangingRock。Everywhereelseshewouldbeastrangerandwouldhaveeithernopositionatalloroneworsethanthatoftheutteroutsider。There,shewasofthefewlookeduptobythewholecommunity。Nooneknew,orevensuspected,howshewasdegradedbyherstep-
  father。Beforetheworldhewascourteousandconsideratetowardherastowardeverybody。Indeed,Presbury’snaturalinstinctsweregentleandkindly。HishatredofMildredandhispassionforhumiliatingherweretheresultofhisconvictionthathehadbeentrickedintothemarriageandhisinabilitytogratifyhisresentmentuponhiswife。Hecouldnotmakethemothersuffer。buthecouldmakethedaughtersuffer——andhedid。Besides,shewasofnousetohimandwouldpresentlybeanexpense。
  ``Yourmoneywillsoonbegone,’’hesaidtoher。
  ``Ifyoupaidyourjustshareoftheexpensesitwouldbegonenow。Whenitisgone,whatwillyoudo?’’
  Shewassilent。
  ``Yourmotherhaswrittentoyourbrotheraboutyou。’’
  Mildredliftedherhead,agleamofherformerspiritinhereyes。Thensheremembered,andbenthergazeupontheground。
  ``Buthe,likethecurthatheis,answeredthroughasecretarythathewishedtohavenothingtodowitheitherofyou。’’
  MildredguessedthatFrankhadmadethemarriageanexcuse。
  ``Surelysomeofyourrelativeswilldosomethingforyou。Ihavemyhandsfull,supportingyourmother。
  Idon’tproposetohavetwostrapping,worthlesswomenhangingfrommyneck。’’
  Shebentherheadlower,andremainedsilent。
  ``Iwarnyoutobestiryourself,’’hewenton。``I
  giveyoufourmonths。Afterthefirstoftheyearyoucan’tstayhereunlessyoupayyourshare——yourthird。’’
  Noanswer。
  ``YouhearwhatIsay,miss?’’hedemanded。
  ``Yes,’’repliedshe。
  ``Ifyouhadanysenseyouwouldn’twaituntilyourlastcentwasgone。You’dgotoNewYorknowandgetsomethingtodo。’’
  ``What?’’sheasked——allshecouldtrustherselftospeak。
  ``Howshould_I_know?’’retortedhefuriously。
  ``youareastrangertome。You’vebeeneducated,I
  assume。Surelythere’ssomethingyoucando。You’vebeenoutsixyearsnow,andhavehadnosuccess,foryou’reneithermarriednorengaged。Youcan’tcallitsuccesstobeflatteredandsoughtbypeoplewhowantedinvitationstothishousewhenitwasasocialcenter。’’
  Hepausedforresponsefromher。Nonecame。
  ``Youadmityouareafailure?’’hesaidsharply。
  ``Yes,’’saidshe。
  ``Youmusthaverealizeditseveralyearsago,’’hewenton。``Insteadofallowingyourmothertokeeponwastingmoneyinentertaininglavishlyheretogiveyouachancetomarry,youshouldhavebeenpreparingyourselftoearnaliving。’’Apause。``Isn’tthattrue,miss?’’
  Hehadawayofpronouncingtheword``miss’’thatmadeitanepithet,asneeratherunmarriedandun-
  marriageablestate。Shecolored,paled,murmured:
  ``Yes。’’
  ``Then,betterlatethannever。You’lldowelltofollowmyadviceandgotoNewYorkandlookaboutyou。’’
  ``I’ll——I’llthinkofit,’’stammeredshe。
  Andshedidthinkofit。Butinallherlifeshehadneverconsideredtheideaofmoney-making。Thatwassomethingformen,andforthemiddleandlowerclasses——whileHangingRockwasregardedasmostnoisomelymiddleclassbyfashionablepeople,itdidnotsoregarditself。Money-makingwasnotforladies。Likeallherclass,shewasaconstantandaseverecriticofthewomenofthelowerorderswhoworkedforherasmilliners,dressmakers,shop-attendants,cooks,maids。But,asshenowrealized,itisonethingtopassupontheworkofothers。itisanotherthingtodoworkoneself。
  She——Therewasliterallynothingthatshecoulddo。
  Anyoccupation,eventhemostmenial,waseitherbeyondherskillorbeyondherstrength,orbeyondboth。
  Suddenlysherecalledthatshecouldsing。Herprostratespiritsuddenlyleapederect。Yes,shecouldsing!
  Hervoicehadbeenpraisedbyexperts。Hersinginghadbeenindemandatcharityentertainmentswhereamateurshadtocompetewithprofessionals。Thendownshedroppedagain。Shesangwellenoughtoknowhowbadlyshesang——thelongandtoilsomeandexpensivetrainingthatlaybetweenherandoperaticorconcertorevenmusic-hallstage。Hervoicewasfineattimes。Again——mostofthetime——itwasunreliable。
  No,shecouldnothopetogetpayingemploymentevenasachurchchoir-singer。MissDresserwhosanginthechoiroftheGoodShepherdfortendollarsaSunday,hadnotnearlysogoodavoiceasshe,butitwasreliable。
  ``ThereisnothingIcando——nothing!’’
  Allatonce,withnoapparentbridgeacrossthevastchasm,herheartwentout,notinpitybutinhumanunderstandingandsisterlysympathy,tothewomenofthepariahclassatwhom,duringherstopsinNewYork,shehadsometimesgazedinwonderandhorror。``Why,weandtheyareonlyastepapart,’’shesaidtoherselfinamazement。``Weandtheyaremuchnearerthanmymaidorthecookandthey!’’
  Andthenherheartskippedabeatandherskingrewcoldandafogswirledoverherbrain。Ifsheshouldbecastout——ifshecouldfindnoworkandnoonetosupporther——wouldshe——``OmyGod!’’shemoaned。
  ``Imustbecrazy,tothinksuchthoughts。Inevercould!I’ddiefirst——DIE!’’Butifanyonehadpicturedtoherthekindoflifeshewasnowleading——thehumiliationanddegradationshewasmeeklyenduringwithnothoughtofflight,withaneverstrongerdesiretostayon,regardlessofprideandself-respect——ifanyonehadpicturedthistoheraswhatshewouldendure,whatwouldshehavesaid?Shecouldseeherselfflashingscornfuldenial,sayingthatshewouldratherkillherself。Yetshewasliving——andwasnotevencontemplatingsuicideasawayout!
  AfewdaysafterPresburygaveherwarning,hermothertookadvantageofhisabsenceforhisreligiouslyobserveddailyconstitutionaltosaytoher:
  ``Ihopeyoudidn’tthinkIwasbehindhiminwhathesaidtoyouaboutgoingaway?’’
  Mildredhadnotthoughtso,butinhermother’sguiltytoneandguiltiereyesshenowreadthathermotherwishedhertogo。
  ``It’dbeawfulformetobeleftherealonewithhim,’’
  wailedhermotherinsincerely。``Ofcoursewe’vegotnomoney,andbeggarscan’tbechoosers。Butit’djustaboutkillmetohaveyougo。’’
  Mildredcouldnotspeak。