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  HisrefusalofRalph’sovertureswasvaguelydisconcerting。fromthemomenthedeclinedtocometoGardencourtourfriendbegantothinkhimofimportance。HeaskedhimselfwhatitsignifiedtohimwhetherIsabel’sadmirersshouldbedesperadoesorlaggards。theywerenotrivalsofhisandwereperfectlywelcometoactouttheirgenius。
  NeverthelesshefeltmuchcuriosityastotheresultofMissStackpole’spromisedenquiryintothecausesofMr。Goodwood’sstiffness-acuriosityforthepresentungratified,inasmuchaswhenheaskedherthreedayslaterifshehadwrittentoLondonshewasobligedtoconfessshehadwritteninvain。Mr。Goodwoodhadnotreplied。
  Isupposehe’sthinkingitover,shesaid。hethinkseverythingover。he’snotreallyatallimpetuous。ButI’maccustomedtohavingmylettersansweredthesameday。ShepresentlyproposedtoIsabel,atallevents,thattheyshouldmakeanexcursiontoLondontogether。IfImusttellthetruth,sheobserved,I’mnotseeingmuchatthisplace,andIshouldn’tthinkyouwereeither。I’venotevenseenthataristocrat-what’shisname?-LordWashburton。Heseemstoletyouseverelyalone。
  LordWarburton’scomingto-morrow,Ihappentoknow,repliedherfriend,whohadreceivedanotefromthemasterofLockleighinanswertoherownletter。You’llhaveeveryopportunityofturninghiminsideout。
  Well,hemaydoforoneletter,butwhat’soneletterwhenyouwanttowritefifty?I’vedescribedallthesceneryinthisvicinityandravedaboutalltheoldwomenanddonkeys。Youmaysaywhatyouplease,scenerydoesn’tmakeavitalletter。ImustgobacktoLondonandgetsomeimpressionsofreallife。IwastherebutthreedaysbeforeIcameaway,andthat’shardlytimetogetintouch。
  AsIsabel,onherjourneyfromNewYorktoGardencourt,hadseenevenlessoftheBritishcapitalthanthis,itappearedahappysuggestionofHenrietta’sthatthetwoshouldgothitheronavisitofpleasure。TheideastruckIsabelascharming。shewascuriousofthethickdetailofLondon,whichhadalwaysloomedlargeandrichtoher。
  Theyturnedovertheirschemestogetherandindulgedinvisionsofromantichours。Theywouldstayatsomepicturesqueoldinn-oneoftheinnsdescribedbyDickens-anddriveoverthetowninthosedelightfulhansoms。Henriettawasaliterarywoman,andthegreatadvantageofbeingaliterarywomanwasthatyoucouldgoeverywhereanddoeverything。Theywoulddineatacoffee-houseandgoafterwardstotheplay。theywouldfrequenttheAbbeyandtheBritishMuseumandfindoutwhereDoctorJohnsonhadlived,andGoldsmithandAddison。IsabelgreweagerandpresentlyunveiledthebrightvisiontoRalph,whoburstintoafitoflaughterwhichscarceexpressedthesympathyshehaddesired。
  It’sadelightfulplan,hesaid。IadviseyoutogototheDuke’sHeadinCoventGarden,aneasy,informal,old-fashionedplace,andI’llhaveyouputdownatmyclub。
  Doyoumeanit’simproper?Isabelasked。Dearme,isn’tanythingproperhere?WithHenriettasurelyImaygoanywhere。sheisn’thamperedinthatway。ShehastravelledoverthewholeAmericancontinentandcanatleastfindherwayaboutthisminuteisland。
  Ahthen,saidRalph,letmetakeadvantageofherprotectiontogouptotownaswell。Imayneverhaveachancetotravelsosafely!
  CHAPTER14
  MissStackpolewouldhavepreparedtostartimmediately。butIsabel,aswehaveseen,hadbeennotifiedthatLordWarburtonwouldcomeagaintoGardencourt,andshebelieveditherdutytoremainthereandseehim。Forfourorfivedayshehadmadenoresponsetoherletter。thenhehadwritten,verybriefly,tosayhewouldcometoluncheontwodayslater。Therewassomethinginthesedelaysandpostponementsthattouchedthegirlandrenewedhersenseofhisdesiretobeconsiderateandpatient,nottoappeartourgehertoogrossly。aconsiderationthemorestudiedthatshewassosurehereallylikedher。Isabeltoldheruncleshehadwrittentohim,mentioningalsohisintentionofcoming。andtheoldman,inconsequence,lefthisroomearlierthanusualandmadehisappearanceatthetwoo’clockrepast。Thiswasbynomeansanactofvigilanceonhispart,butthefruitofabenevolentbeliefthathisbeingofthecompanymighthelptocoveranyconjoinedstrayingawayincaseIsabelshouldgivetheirnoblevisitoranotherhearing。ThatpersonagedroveoverfromLockleighandbroughttheelderofhissisterswithhim,ameasurepresumablydictatedbyreflexionsofthesameorderasMr。Touchett’s。ThetwovisitorswereintroducedtoMissStackpole,who,atluncheon,occupiedaseatadjoiningLordWarburton’s。Isabel,whowasnervousandhadnorelishfortheprospectofagainarguingthequestionhehadsoprematurelyopened,couldnothelpadmiringhisgood-humouredself-possession,whichquitedisguisedthesymptomsofthatpreoccupationwithherpresenceitwasnaturalsheshouldsupposehimtofeel。Heneitherlookedathernorspoketoher,andtheonlysignofhisemotionwasthatheavoidedmeetinghereyes。Hehadplentyoftalkfortheothers,however,andheappearedtoeathisluncheonwithdiscriminationandappetite。MissMolyneux,whohadasmooth,nun-likeforeheadandworealargesilvercrosssuspendedfromherneck,wasevidentlypreoccupiedwithHenriettaStackpole,uponwhomhereyesconstantlyrestedinamannersuggestingaconflictbetweendeepalienationandyearningwonder。OfthetwoladiesfromLockleighshewastheoneIsabelhadlikedbest。therewassuchaworldofhereditaryquietinher。
  IsabelwassuremoreoverthathermildforeheadandsilvercrossreferredtosomeweirdAnglicanmystery-somedelightfulreinstitutionperhapsofthequaintofficeofthecanoness。ShewonderedwhatMissMolyneuxwouldthinkofherifsheknewMissArcherhadrefusedherbrother。andthenshefeltsurethatMissMolyneuxwouldneverknow-
  thatLordWarburtonnevertoldhersuchthings。Hewasfondofherandkindtoher,butonthewholehetoldherlittle。Such,atleast,wasIsabel’stheory。when,attable,shewasnotoccupiedinconversationshewasusuallyoccupiedinformingtheoriesaboutherneighbours。AccordingtoIsabel,ifMissMolyneuxshouldeverlearnwhathadpassedbetweenMissArcherandLordWarburtonshewouldprobablybeshockedatsuchagirl’sfailuretorise。orno,ratherthiswasourheroine’slastpositionshewouldimputetotheyoungAmericanbutadueconsciousnessofinequality。
  WhateverIsabelmighthavemadeofheropportunities,atallevents,HenriettaStackpolewasbynomeansdisposedtoneglectthoseinwhichshenowfoundherselfimmersed。Doyouknowyou’rethefirstlordI’veeverseen?shesaidverypromptlytoherneighbour。IsupposeyouthinkI’mawfullybenighted。
  You’veescapedseeingsomeveryuglymen,LordWarburtonanswered,lookingatrifleabsentlyaboutthetable。
  Aretheyveryugly?TheytrytomakeusbelieveinAmericathatthey’reallhandsomeandmagnificentandthattheywearwonderfulrobesandcrowns。
  Ah,therobesandcrownsaregoneoutoffashion,saidLordWarburton,likeyourtomahawksandrevolvers。
  I’msorryforthat。Ithinkanaristocracyoughttobesplendid,
  Henriettadeclared。Ifit’snotthat,whatisit?
  Oh,youknow,itisn’tmuch,atthebest,herneighbourallowed。
  Won’tyouhaveapotato?
  Idon’tcaremuchfortheseEuropeanpotatoes。Ishouldn’tknowyoufromanordinaryAmericangentleman。
  DotalktomeasifIwereone,saidLordWarburton。Idon’tseehowyoumanagetogetonwithoutpotatoes。youmustfindsofewthingstoeatoverhere。
  Henriettawassilentalittle。therewasachancehewasnotsincere。I’vehadhardlyanyappetitesinceI’vebeenhere,shewentonatlast。soitdoesn’tmuchmatter。Idon’tapproveofyou,youknow。IfeelasifIoughttotellyouthat。
  Don’tapproveofme?
  Yes。Idon’tsupposeanyoneeversaidsuchathingtoyoubefore,didthey?Idon’tapproveoflordsasaninstitution。I
  thinktheworldhasgotbeyondthem-farbeyond。
  Oh,sodoI。Idon’tapproveofmyselfintheleast。Sometimesitcomesoverme-howIshouldobjecttomyselfifIwerenotmyself,don’tyouknow?Butthat’srathergood,bytheway-nottobevainglorious。
  Whydon’tyougiveitupthen?MissStackpoleenquired。
  Giveup-a-?askedLordWarburton,meetingherharshinflexionwithaverymellowone。
  Giveupbeingalord。
  Oh,I’msolittleofone!OnewouldreallyforgetallaboutitifyouwretchedAmericanswerenotconstantlyremindingone。However,I
  dothinkofgivingitup,thelittlethereisleftofit,oneofthesedays。
  Ishouldliketoseeyoudoit!Henriettaexclaimedrathergrimly。
  I’llinviteyoutotheceremony。we’llhaveasupperandadance。
  Well,saidMissStackpole,Iliketoseeallsides。Idon’tapproveofaprivilegedclass,butIliketohearwhattheyhavetosayforthemselves。
  Mightylittle,asyousee!
  Ishouldliketodrawyououtalittlemore,Henriettacontinued。Butyou’realwayslookingaway。You’reafraidofmeetingmyeye。Iseeyouwanttoescapeme。
  No,I’monlylookingforthosedespisedpotatoes。
  Pleaseexplainaboutthatyounglady-yoursister-then。Idon’tunderstandabouther。IssheaLady?
  She’sacapitalgoodgirl。
  Idon’tlikethewayyousaythat-asifyouwantedtochangethesubject。Isherpositioninferiortoyours?
  Weneitherofushaveanypositiontospeakof。butshe’sbetteroffthanI,becauseshehasnoneofthebother。
  Yes,shedoesn’tlookasifshehadmuchbother。IwishIhadaslittlebotherasthat。Youdoproducequietpeopleoverhere,whateverelseyoumaydo。
  Ah,youseeonetakeslifeeasily,onthewhole,saidLordWarburton。Andthenyouknowwe’reverydull。Ah,wecanbedullwhenwetry!
  Ishouldadviseyoutotrysomethingelse。Ishouldn’tknowwhattotalktoyoursisterabout。shelookssodifferent。Isthatsilvercrossabadge?
  Abadge?
  Asignofrank。
  LordWarburton’sglancehadwanderedagooddeal,butatthisitmetthegazeofhisneighbour。Ohyes,heansweredinamoment。thewomengoinforthosethings。ThesilvercrossiswornbytheeldestdaughtersofViscounts。WhichwashisharmlessrevengeforhavingoccasionallyhadhiscredulitytooeasilyengagedinAmerica。AfterluncheonheproposedtoIsabeltocomeintothegalleryandlookatthepictures。andthoughsheknewhehadseenthepicturestwentytimesshecompliedwithoutcriticizingthispretext。Herconsciencenowwasveryeasy。eversinceshesenthimherlettershehadfeltparticularlylightofspirit。Hewalkedslowlytotheendofthegallery,staringatitscontentsandsayingnothing。andthenhesuddenlybrokeout:Ihopedyouwouldn’twritetomethatway。
  Itwastheonlyway,LordWarburton,saidthegirl。Dotryandbelievethat。
  IfIcouldbelieveitofcourseIshouldletyoualone。Butwecan’tbelievebywillingit。andIconfessIdon’tunderstand。Icouldunderstandyourdislikingme。thatIcouldunderstandwell。Butthatyoushouldadmityoudo-
  WhathaveIadmitted?Isabelinterrupted,turningslightlypale。
  Thatyouthinkmeagoodfellow。isn’tthatit?Shesaidnothing,andhewenton:Youdon’tseemtohaveanyreason,andthatgivesmeasenseofinjustice。
  Ihaveareason,LordWarburton。Shesaiditinatonethatmadehisheartcontract。
  Ishouldlikeverymuchtoknowit。
  I’lltellyousomedaywhenthere’smoretoshowforit。
  ExcusemysayingthatinthemeantimeImustdoubtofit。
  Youmakemeveryunhappy,saidIsabel。
  I’mnotsorryforthat。itmayhelpyoutoknowhowIfeel。Willyoukindlyanswermeaquestion?Isabelmadenoaudibleassent,butheapparentlysawinhereyessomethingthatgavehimcouragetogoon。Doyouprefersomeoneelse?
  That’saquestionI’drathernotanswer。
  Ah,youdothen!hersuitormurmuredwithbitterness。
  Thebitternesstouchedher,andshecriedout:You’remistaken!I
  don’t。
  Hesatdownonabench,unceremoniously,doggedly,likeamanintrouble。leaninghiselbowsonhiskneesandstaringatthefloor。
  Ican’tevenbegladofthat,hesaidatlast,throwinghimselfbackagainstthewall。forthatwouldbeanexcuse。
  Sheraisedhereyebrowsinsurprise。Anexcuse?MustIexcusemyself?
  Hepaid,however,noanswertothequestion。Anotherideahadcomeintohishead。Isitmypoliticalopinions?DoyouthinkIgotoofar?
  Ican’tobjecttoyourpoliticalopinions,becauseIdon’tunderstandthem。
  Youdon’tcarewhatIthink!hecried,gettingup。It’sallthesametoyou。
  Isabelwalkedtotheothersideofthegalleryandstoodthereshowinghimhercharmingback,herlightslimfigure,thelengthofherwhiteneckasshebentherhead,andthedensityofherdarkbraids。Shestoppedinfrontofasmallpictureasifforthepurposeofexaminingit。andtherewassomethingsoyoungandfreeinhermovementthatherverypliancyseemedtomockathim。Hereyes,however,sawnothing。theyhadsuddenlybeensuffusedwithtears。Inamomenthefollowedher,andbythistimeshehadbrushedhertearsaway。butwhensheturnedroundherfacewaspaleandtheexpressionofhereyesstrange。ThatreasonthatIwouldn’ttellyou-I’lltellityouafterall。It’sthatIcan’tescapemyfate。
  Yourfate?
  IshouldtrytoescapeitifIweretomarryyou。
  Idon’tunderstand。Whyshouldnotthatbeyourfateaswellasanythingelse?
  Becauseit’snot,saidIsabelfemininely。Iknowit’snot。It’snotmyfatetogiveup-Iknowitcan’tbe。
  PoorLordWarburtonstared,aninterrogativepointineithereye。
  Doyoucallmarryingmegivingup?
  Notintheusualsense。It’sgetting-getting-gettingagreatdeal。Butit’sgivingupotherchances。
  Otherchancesforwhat?
  Idon’tmeanchancestomarry,saidIsabel,hercolourquicklycomingbacktoher。Andthenshestopped,lookingdownwithadeepfrown,asifitwerehopelesstoattempttomakehermeaningclear。
  Idon’tthinkitpresumptuousinmetosuggestthatyou’llgainmorethanyou’lllose,hercompanionobserved。
  Ican’tescapeunhappiness,saidIsabel。InmarryingyouI
  shallbetryingto。
  Idon’tknowwhetheryou’dtryto,butyoucertainlywould:thatImustincandouradmit!heexclaimedwithananxiouslaugh。
  Imustn’t-Ican’t!criedthegirl。
  Well,ifyou’rebentonbeingmiserableIdon’tseewhyyoushouldmakemeso。Whatevercharmsalifeofmiserymayhaveforyou,ithasnoneforme。
  I’mnotbentonalifeofmisery,saidIsabel。I’vealwaysbeenintenselydeterminedtobehappy,andI’veoftenbelievedIshouldbe。
  I’vetoldpeoplethat。youcanaskthem。ButitcomesovermeeverynowandthenthatIcanneverbehappyinanyextraordinaryway。notbyturningaway,byseparatingmyself。
  Byseparatingyourselffromwhat?
  Fromlife。Fromtheusualchancesanddangers,fromwhatmostpeopleknowandsuffer。
  LordWarburtonbrokeintoasmilethatalmostdenotedhope。Why,mydearMissArcher,hebegantoexplainwiththemostconsiderateeagerness,Idon’tofferyouanyexonerationfromlifeorfromanychancesordangerswhatever。IwishIcould。dependuponitIwould!
  Forwhatdoyoutakeme,pray?Heavenhelpme,I’mnottheEmperorofChina!AllIofferyouisthechanceoftakingthecommonlotinacomfortablesortofway。Thecommonlot?Why,I’mdevotedtothecommonlot!Strikeanalliancewithme,andIpromiseyouthatyoushallhaveplentyofit。Youshallseparatefromnothingwhatever-notevenfromyourfriendMissStackpole。
  She’dneverapproveofit,saidIsabel,tryingtosmileandtakeadvantageofthisside-issue。despisingherselftoo,notalittle,fordoingso。
  ArewespeakingofMissStackpole?hislordshipaskedimpatiently。
  Ineversawapersonjudgethingsonsuchtheoreticgrounds。
  NowIsupposeyou’respeakingofme,saidIsabelwithhumility。
  andsheturnedawayagain,forshesawMissMolyneuxenterthegallery,accompaniedbyHenriettaandbyRalph。
  LordWarburton’ssisteraddressedhimwithacertaintimidityandremindedhimsheoughttoreturnhomeintimefortea,asshewasexpectingcompanytopartakeofit。Hemadenoanswer-apparentlynothavingheardher。hewaspreoccupied,andwithgoodreason。MissMolyneux-asifhehadbeenRoyalty-stoodlikealady-in-waiting。
  Well,Inever,MissMolyneux!saidHenriettaStackpole。IfI
  wantedtogohe’dhavetogo。IfIwantedmybrothertodoathinghe’dhavetodoit。
  Oh,Warburtondoeseverythingonewants,MissMolyneuxansweredwithaquick,shylaugh。Howverymanypicturesyouhave!shewenton,turningtoRalph。
  Theylookagoodmany,becausethey’reallputtogether,saidRalph。Butit’sreallyabadway。
  Oh,Ithinkit’ssonice。IwishwehadagalleryatLockleigh。I’msoveryfondofpictures,MissMolyneuxwenton,persistently,toRalph,asifshewereafraidMissStackpolewouldaddressheragain。
  Henriettaappearedatoncetofascinateandtofrightenher。
  Ahyes,picturesareveryconvenient,saidRalph,whoappearedtoknowbetterwhatstyleofreflexionwasacceptabletoher。
  They’resoverypleasantwhenitrains,theyoungladycontinued。Ithasrainedoflatesoveryoften。
  I’msorryyou’regoingaway,LordWarburton,saidHenrietta。I
  wantedtogetagreatdealmoreoutofyou。
  I’mnotgoingaway,LordWarburtonanswered。
  Yoursistersaysyoumust。InAmericathegentlemenobeytheladies。
  I’mafraidwehavesomepeopletotea,saidMissMolyneux,lookingatherbrother。
  Verygood,mydear。We’llgo。
  Ihopedyouwouldresist!Henriettaexclaimed。IwantedtoseewhatMissMolyneuxwoulddo。
  Ineverdoanything,saidthisyounglady。
  Isupposeinyourpositionit’ssufficientforyoutoexist!
  MissStackpolereturned。Ishouldlikeverymuchtoseeyouathome。
  YoumustcometoLockleighagain,saidMissMolyneux,verysweetly,toIsabel,ignoringthisremarkofIsabel’sfriend。
  Isabellookedintoherquieteyesamoment,andforthatmomentseemedtoseeintheirgreydepthsthereflexionofeverythingshehadrejectedinrejectingLordWarburton-thepeace,thekindness,thehonour,thepossessions,adeepsecurityandagreatexclusion。ShekissedMissMolyneuxandthenshesaid:I’mafraidIcannevercomeagain。
  Neveragain?
  I’mafraidI’mgoingaway。
  Oh,I’msoverysorry,saidMissMolyneux。Ithinkthat’ssoverywrongofyou。
  LordWarburtonwatchedthislittlepassage。thenheturnedawayandstaredatapicture。Ralph,leaningagainsttherailbeforethepicturewithhishandsinhispockets,hadforthemomentbeenwatchinghim。
  Ishouldliketoseeyouathome,saidHenrietta,whomLordWarburtonfoundbesidehim。Ishouldlikeanhour’stalkwithyou。
  thereareagreatmanyquestionsIwishtoaskyou。
  Ishallbedelightedtoseeyou,theproprietorofLockleighanswered。butI’mcertainnottobeabletoanswermanyofyourquestions。Whenwillyoucome?
  WheneverMissArcherwilltakeme。We’rethinkingofgoingtoLondon,butwe’llgoandseeyoufirst。I’mdeterminedtogetsomesatisfactionoutofyou。
  IfitdependsuponMissArcherI’mafraidyouwon’tgetmuch。Shewon’tcometoLockleigh。shedoesn’tliketheplace。
  Shetoldmeitwaslovely!saidHenrietta。
  LordWarburtonhesitated。Shewon’tcome,allthesame。Youhadbettercomealone,headded。
  Henriettastraightenedherself,andherlargeeyesexpanded。
  WouldyoumakethatremarktoanEnglishlady?sheenquiredwithsoftasperity。
  LordWarburtonstared。Yes,ifIlikedherenough。
  You’dbecarefulnottolikeherenough。IfMissArcherwon’tvisityourplaceagainit’sbecauseshedoesn’twanttotakeme。Iknowwhatshethinksofme,andIsupposeyouthinkthesame-thatIoughtn’ttobringinindividuals。LordWarburtonwasataloss。hehadnotbeenmadeacquaintedwithMissStackpole’sprofessionalcharacterandfailedtocatchherallusion。MissArcherhasbeenwarningyou!
  shethereforewenton。
  Warningme?
  Isn’tthatwhyshecameoffalonewithyouhere-toputyouonyourguard?
  Ohdear,no,saidLordWarburtonbrazenly。ourtalkhadnosuchsolemncharacterasthat。
  Well,you’vebeenonyourguard-intensely。Isupposeit’snaturaltoyou。that’sjustwhatIwantedtoobserve。Andso,too,MissMolyneux-shewouldn’tcommitherself。Youhavebeenwarned,anyway,Henriettacontinued,addressingthisyounglady。butforyouitwasn’tnecessary。
  Ihopenot,saidMissMolyneuxvaguely。
  MissStackpoletakesnotes,Ralphsoothinglyexplained。She’sagreatsatirist。sheseesthroughusallandsheworksusup。
  Well,ImustsayIneverhavehadsuchacollectionofhadmaterial!Henriettadeclared,lookingfromIsabeltoLordWarburtonandfromthisnoblemantohissisterandtoRalph。There’ssomethingthematterwithyouall。you’reasdismalasifyouhadgotabadcable。
  Youdoseethroughus,MissStackpole,saidRalphinalowtone,givingheralittleintelligentnodasheledthepartyoutofthegallery。There’ssomethingthematterwithusall。
  Isabelcamebehindthesetwo。MissMolyneux,whodecidedlylikedherimmensely,hadtakenherarm,towalkbesideheroverthepolishedfloor。LordWarburtonstrolledontheothersidewithhishandsbehindhimandhiseyeslowered。Forsomemomentshesaidnothing。andthen,Isittrueyou’regoingtoLondon?heasked。
  Ibelieveithasbeenarranged。
  Andwhenshallyoucomeback?
  Inafewdays。butprobablyforaveryshorttime。I’mgoingtoPariswithmyaunt。
  When,then,shallIseeyouagain?
  Notforagoodwhile,saidIsabel。Butsomedayorother,I
  hope。
  Doyoureallyhopeit?
  Verymuch。
  Hewentafewstepsinsilence。thenhestoppedandputouthishand。Good-bye。
  Good-bye,saidIsabel。
  MissMolyneuxkissedheragain,andsheletthetwodepart。Afterit,withoutrejoiningHenriettaandRalph,sheretreatedtoherownroom。inwhichapartment,beforedinner,shewasfoundbyMrs。
  Touchett,whohadstoppedonherwaytothesaloon。Imayaswelltellyou,saidthatlady,thatyourunclehasinformedmeofyourrelationswithLordWarburton。
  Isabelconsidered。Relations?They’rehardlyrelations。That’sthestrangepartofit:hehasseenmebutthreeorfourtimes。
  Whydidyoutellyouruncleratherthanme?Mrs。Touchettdispassionatelyasked。
  Againthegirlhesitated。BecauseheknowsLordWarburtonbetter。
  Yes,butIknowyoubetter。
  I’mnotsureofthat,saidIsabel,smiling。
  NeitheramI,afterall。especiallywhenyougivemethatratherconceitedlook。Onewouldthinkyouwereawfullypleasedwithyourselfandhadcarriedoffaprize!IsupposethatwhenyourefuseanofferlikeLordWarburton’sit’sbecauseyouexpecttodosomethingbetter。
  Ah,myuncledidn’tsaythat!criedIsabel,smilingstill。
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  IthadbeenarrangedthatthetwoyoungladiesshouldproceedtoLondonunderRalph’sescort,thoughMrs。Touchettlookedwithlittlefavourontheplan。Itwasjustthesortofplan,shesaid,thatMissStackpolewouldbesuretosuggest,andsheenquiredifthecorrespondentoftheInterviewerwastotakethepartytostayataboarding-house。
  Idon’tcarewhereshetakesustostay,solongasthere’slocalcolour,saidIsabel。That’swhatwe’regoingtoLondonfor。
  IsupposethatafteragirlhasrefusedanEnglishlordshemaydoanything,herauntrejoined。Afterthatoneneedn’tstandontrifles。
  ShouldyouhavelikedmetomarryLordWarburton?Isabelenquired。
  OfcourseIshould。
  IthoughtyoudislikedtheEnglishsomuch。
  SoIdo。butit’sallthegreaterreasonformakinguseofthem。
  Isthatyourideaofmarriage?AndIsabelventuredtoaddthatherauntappearedtohertohavemadeverylittleuseofMr。Touchett。
  Youruncle’snotanEnglishnobleman,saidMrs。Touchett,thoughevenifhehadbeenIshouldstillprobablyhavetakenupmyresidenceinFlorence。
  DoyouthinkLordWarburtoncouldmakemeanybetterthanIam?
  thegirlaskedwithsomeanimation。Idon’tmeanI’mtoogoodtoimprove。Imean-ImeanthatIdon’tloveLordWarburtonenoughtomarryhim。
  Youdidrighttorefusehimthen,saidMrs。Touchettinhersmallest,sparestvoice。Only,thenextgreatofferyouget,Ihopeyou’llmanagetocomeuptoyourstandard。
  Wehadbetterwaittilltheoffercomesbeforewetalkaboutit。
  IhopeverymuchImayhavenomoreoffersforthepresent。Theyupsetmecompletely。
  Youprobablywon’tbetroubledwiththemifyouadoptpermanentlytheBohemianmanneroflife。However,I’vepromisedRalphnottocriticize。
  I’lldowhateverRalphsaysisright,Isabelreturned。I’veunboundedconfidenceinRalph。
  Hismother’smuchobligedtoyou!thisladydrylylaughed。
  Itseemstomeindeedsheoughttofeelit!Isabelirrepressiblyanswered。
  Ralphhadassuredherthattherewouldbenoviolationofdecencyintheirpayingavisit-thelittlepartyofthree-tothesightsofthemetropolis。butMrs。Touchetttookadifferentview。LikemanyladiesofhercountrywhohadlivedalongtimeinEurope,shehadcompletelylosthernativetactonsuchpoints,andinherreaction,notinitselfdeplorable,againstthelibertyallowedtoyoungpersonsbeyondtheseas,hadfallenintogratuitousandexaggeratedscruples。RalphaccompaniedtheirvisitorstotownandestablishedthemataquietinninastreetthatranatrightanglestoPiccadilly。Hisfirstideahadbeentotakethemtohisfather’shouseinWinchesterSquare,alarge,dullmansionwhichatthisperiodoftheyearwasshroudedinsilenceandbrownholland。buthebethoughthimselfthat,thecookbeingatGardencourt,therewasnooneinthehousetogetthemtheirmeals,andPratt’sHotelaccordinglybecametheirresting-place。Ralph,onhisside,foundquartersinWinchesterSquare,havingadenthereofwhichhewasveryfondandbeingfamiliarwithdeeperfearsthanthatofacoldkitchen。HeavailedhimselflargelyindeedoftheresourcesofPratt’sHotel,beginninghisdaywithanearlyvisittohisfellowtravellers,whohadMr。Prattinperson,inalargebulgingwhitewaistcoat,toremovetheirdishcovers。Ralphturnedup,ashesaid,afterbreakfast,andthelittlepartymadeoutaschemeofentertainmentfortheday。AsLondonwearsinthemonthofSeptemberafaceblankbutforitssmearsofpriorservice,theyoungman,whooccasionallytookanapologetictone,wasobligedtoremindhiscompanion,toMissStackpole’shighderision,thattherewasn’tacreatureintown。
  Isupposeyoumeanthearistocracyareabsent,Henriettaanswered。
  butIdon’tthinkyoucouldhaveabetterproofthatiftheywereabsentaltogethertheywouldn’tbemissed。Itseemstometheplaceisaboutasfullasitcanbe。There’snoonehere,ofcourse,butthreeorfourmillionsofpeople。Whatisityoucallthem-thelower-middleclass?They’reonlythepopulationofLondon,andthat’sofnoconsequence。
  RalphdeclaredthatforhimthearistocracyleftnovoidthatMissStackpoleherselfdidn’tfill,andthatamorecontentedmanwasnowhereatthatmomenttobefound。Inthishespokethetruth,forthestaleSeptemberdays,inthehugehalf-emptytown,hadacharmwrappedinthemasacolouredgemmightbewrappedinadustycloth。
  WhenhewenthomeatnighttotheemptyhouseinWinchesterSquare,afterachainofhourswithhiscomparativelyardentfriends,hewanderedintothebigduskydining-room,wherethecandlehetookfromthehall-table,afterlettinghimselfin,constitutedtheonlyillumination。Thesquarewasstill,thehousewasstill。whenheraisedoneofthewindowsofthedining-roomtoletintheairheheardtheslowcreakofthebootsofaloneconstable。Hisownstep,intheemptyplace,seemedloudandsonorous。someofthecarpetshadbeenraised,andwheneverhemovedherousedamelancholyecho。Hesatdowninoneofthearmchairs。thebigdarkdiningtabletwinkledhereandthereinthesmallcandle-light。thepicturesonthewall,allofthemverybrown,lookedvagueandincoherent。Therewasaghostlypresenceasofdinnerslongsincedigested,oftable-talkthathadlostitsactuality。Thishintofthesupernaturalperhapshadsomethingtodowiththefactthathisimaginationtookaflightandthatheremainedinhischairalongtimebeyondthehouratwhichheshouldhavebeeninbed。doingnothing,notevenreadingtheeveningpaper。Isayhedidnothing,andImaintainthephraseinthefaceofthefactthathethoughtatthesemomentsofIsabel。TothinkofIsabelcouldonlybeforhimanidlepursuit,leadingtonothingandprofitinglittletoanyone。Hiscousinhadnotyetseemedtohimsocharmingasduringthesedaysspentinsounding,tourist-fashion,thedeepsandshallowsofthemetropolitanelement。
  Isabelwasfullofpremises,conclusions,emotions。ifshehadcomeinsearchoflocalcolourshefounditeverywhere。Sheaskedmorequestionsthanhecouldanswer,andlaunchedbravetheories,astohistoriccauseandsocialeffect,thathewasequallyunabletoacceptortorefute。ThepartywentmorethanoncetotheBritishMuseumandtothatbrighterpalaceofartwhichreclaimsforantiquevarietysolargeanareaofamonotonoussuburb。theyspentamorningintheAbbeyandwentonapenny-steamertotheTower。theylookedatpicturesbothinpublicandprivatecollectionsandsatonvariousoccasionsbeneaththegreattreesinKensingtonGardens。
  Henriettaprovedanindestructiblesight-seerandamorelenientjudgethanRalphhadventuredtohope。Shehadindeedmanydisappointments,andLondonatlargesufferedfromhervividremembranceofthestrongpointsoftheAmericancivicidea。butshemadethebestofitsdingydignitiesandonlyheavedanoccasionalsighandutteredadesultoryWell!whichlednofurtherandlostitselfinretrospect。Thetruthwasthat,asshesaidherself,shewasnotinherelement。I’venotasympathywithinanimateobjects,
  sheremarkedtoIsabelattheNationalGallery。andshecontinuedtosufferfromthemeagrenessoftheglimpsethathadasyetbeenvouchsafedtoheroftheinnerlife。LandscapesbyTurnerandAssyrianbullswereapoorsubstitutefortheliterarydinner-partiesatwhichshehadhopedtomeetthegeniusandrenownofGreatBritain。
  Whereareyourpublicmen,whereareyourmenandwomenofintellect?sheenquiredofRalph,standinginthemiddleofTrafalgarSquareasifshehadsupposedthistobeaplacewhereshewouldnaturallymeetafew。That’soneofthemonthetopofthecolumn,yousay-LordNelson?Washealordtoo?Wasn’thehighenough,thattheyhadtostickhimahundredfeetintheair?That’sthepast-I
  don’tcareaboutthepast。Iwanttoseesomeoftheleadingmindsofthepresent。Iwon’tsayofthefuture,becauseIdon’tbelievemuchinyourfuture。PoorRalphhadfewleadingmindsamonghisacquaintanceandrarelyenjoyedthepleasureofbutton-holingacelebrity。astateofthingswhichappearedtoMissStackpoletoindicateadeplorablewantofenterprise。IfIwereontheothersideIshouldcall,shesaid,andtellthegentleman,whoeverhemightbe,thatIhadheardagreatdealabouthimandhadcometoseeformyself。ButIgatherfromwhatyousaythatthisisnotthecustomhere。Youseemtohaveplentyofmeaninglesscustoms,butnoneofthosethatwouldhelpalong。Weareinadvance,certainly。IsupposeI
  shallhavetogiveupthesocialsidealtogether。andHenrietta,thoughshewentaboutwithherguidebookandpencilandwrotealettertotheInterviewerabouttheTowerinwhichshedescribedtheexecutionofLadyJaneGrey,hadasadsenseoffallingbelowhermission。
  TheincidentthathadprecededIsabel’sdeparturefromGardencourtleftapainfultraceinouryoungwoman’smind:whenshefeltagaininherface,asfromarecurrentwave,thecoldbreathofherlastsuitor’ssurprise,shecouldonlymuffleherheadtilltheaircleared。Shecouldnothavedonelessthanwhatshedid。thiswascertainlytrue。Buthernecessity,allthesame,hadbeenasgracelessassomephysicalactinastrainedattitude,andshefeltnodesiretotakecreditforherconduct。Mixedwiththisimperfectpride,nevertheless,wasafeelingoffreedomwhichinitselfwassweetandwhich,asshewanderedthroughthegreatcitywithherill-matchedcompanions,occasionallythrobbedintoodddemonstrations。WhenshewalkedinKensingtonGardensshestoppedthechildrenmainlyofthepoorersortwhomshesawplayingonthegrass。sheaskedthemtheirnamesandgavethemsixpenceand,whentheywerepretty,kissedthem。Ralphnoticedthesequaintcharities。henoticedeverythingshedid。Oneafternoon,thathiscompanionsmightpassthetime,heinvitedthemtoteainWinchesterSquare,andhehadthehousesetinorderasmuchaspossiblefortheirvisit。Therewasanotherguesttomeetthem,anamiablebachelor,anoldfriendofRalph’swhohappenedtobeintownandforwhompromptcommercewithMissStackpoleappearedtohaveneitherdifficultynordread。Mr。Bantling,astout,sleek,smilingmanofforty,wonderfullydressed,universallyinformedandincoherentlyamused,laughedimmoderatelyateverythingHenriettasaid,gaveherseveralcupsoftea,examinedinhersocietythebric-a-brac,ofwhichRalphhadaconsiderablecollection,andafterwards,whenthehostproposedtheyshouldgooutintothesquareandpretenditwasafete-champetre,walkedroundthelimitedenclosureseveraltimeswithherand,atadozenturnsoftheirtalk,boundedresponsive-aswithapositivepassionforargument-
  toherremarksupontheinnerlife。
  Oh,Isee。IdaresayyoufounditveryquietatGardencourt。
  Naturallythere’snotmuchgoingontherewhenthere’ssuchalotofillnessabout。Touchett’sverybad,youknow。thedoctorshaveforbiddenhisbeinginEnglandatall,andhehasonlycomebacktotakecareofhisfather。Theoldman,Ibelieve,hashalfadozenthingsthematterwithhim。Theycallitgout,buttomycertainknowledgehehasorganicdiseasesodevelopedthatyoumaydependuponithe’llgo,somedaysoon,quitequickly。Ofcoursethatsortofthingmakesadreadfullydullhouse。Iwondertheyhavepeoplewhentheycandosolittleforthem。ThenIbelieveMr。Touchett’salwayssquabblingwithhiswife。shelivesawayfromherhusband,youknow,inthatextraordinaryAmericanwayofyours。Ifyouwantahousewherethere’salwayssomethinggoingon,Irecommendyoutogodownandstaywithmysister,LadyPensil,inBedfordshire。I’llwritetohertomorrowandI’msureshe’llbedelightedtoaskyou。Iknowjustwhatyouwant-youwantahousewheretheygoinfortheatricalsandpicnicsandthatsortofthing。Mysister’sjustthatsortofwoman。
  she’salwaysgettingupsomethingorotherandshe’salwaysgladtohavethesortofpeoplewhohelpher。I’msureshe’llaskyoudownbyreturnofpost:she’stremendouslyfondofdistinguishedpeopleandwriters。Shewritesherself,youknow。butIhaven’treadeverythingshehaswritten。It’susuallypoetry,andIdon’tgoinmuchforpoetry-unlessit’sByron。IsupposeyouthinkagreatdealofByroninAmerica,Mr。Bantlingcontinued,expandinginthestimulatingairofMissStackpole’sattention,bringinguphissequencespromptlyandchanginghistopicwithaneasyturnofhand。Yethenonethelessgracefullykeptinsightoftheidea,dazzlingtoHenrietta,ofhergoingtostaywithLadyPensilinBedfordshire。I
  understandwhatyouwant。youwanttoseesomegenuineEnglishsport。TheTouchettsaren’tEnglishatall,youknow。theyhavetheirownhabits,theirownlanguage,theirownfood-someoddreligioneven,Ibelieve,oftheirown。Theoldmanthinksit’swickedtohunt,I’mtold。Youmustgetdowntomysister’sintimeforthetheatricals,andI’msureshe’llbegladtogiveyouapart。I’msureyouactwell。Iknowyou’reveryclever。Mysister’sfortyyearsoldandhassevenchildren,butshe’sgoingtoplaytheprincipalpart。Plainassheisshemakesupawfullywell-Iwillsayforher。Ofcourseyouneedn’tactifyoudon’twantto。
  InthismannerMr。BantlingdeliveredhimselfwhiletheystrolledoverthegrassinWinchesterSquare,which,althoughithadbeenpepperedbytheLondonsoot,invitedthetreadtolinger。Henriettathoughtherblooming,easy-voicedbachelor,withhisimpressibilitytofemininemeritandhissplendidrangeofsuggestion,averyagreeableman,andshevaluedtheopportunityheofferedher。Idon’tknowbutIwouldgo,ifyoursistershouldaskme。Ithinkitwouldbemyduty。Whatdoyoucallhername?
  Pensil。It’sanoddname,butitisn’tabadone。
  Ithinkonename’sasgoodasanother。Butwhat’sherrank?
  Oh,she’sabaron’swife。aconvenientsortofrank。You’refineenoughandyou’renottoofine。
  Idon’tknowbutwhatshe’dbetoofineforme。Whatdoyoucalltheplaceshelivesin-Bedfordshire?
  Shelivesawayinthenortherncornerofit。It’satiresomecountry,butIdaresayyouwon’tmindit。I’lltryandrundownwhileyou’rethere。
  AllthiswasverypleasanttoMissStackpole,andshewassorrytobeobligedtoseparatefromLadyPensil’sobligingbrother。Butithappenedthatshehadmetthedaybefore,inPiccadilly,somefriendswhomshehadnotseenforayear:theMissClimbers,twoladiesfromWilmington,Delaware,whohadbeentravellingontheContinentandwerenowpreparingtore-embark。HenriettahadhadalonginterviewwiththemonthePiccadillypavement,andthoughthethreeladiesalltalkedatoncetheyhadnotexhaustedtheirstore。IthadbeenagreedthereforethatHenriettashouldcomeanddinewiththemintheirlodgingsinJermynStreetatsixo’clockonthemorrow,andshenowbethoughtherselfofthisengagement。ShepreparedtostartforJermynStreet,takingleavefirstofRalphTouchettandIsabel,who,seatedongardenchairsinanotherpartoftheenclosure,wereoccupied-ifthetermmaybeused-withanexchangeofamenitieslesspointedthanthepracticalcolloquyofMissStackpoleandMr。Bantling。WhenithadbeensettledbetweenIsabelandherfriendthattheyshouldbereunitedatsomereputablehouratPratt’sHotel,Ralphremarkedthatthelattermusthaveacab。Shecouldn’twalkallthewaytoJermynStreet。
  Isupposeyoumeanit’simproperformetowalkalone!Henriettaexclaimed。Mercifulpowers,haveIcometothis?
  There’snottheslightestneedofyourwalkingalone,Mr。Bantlinggailyinterposed。Ishouldbegreatlypleasedtogowithyou。
  Isimplymeantthatyou’dbelatefordinner,Ralphreturned。
  Thosepoorladiesmayeasilybelievethatwerefuse,atthelast,tospareyou。
  Youhadbetterhaveahansom,Henrietta,saidIsabel。
  I’llgetyouahansomifyou’lltrustme,Mr。Bantlingwenton。
  Wemightwalkalittletillwemeetone。
  Idon’tseewhyIshouldn’ttrusthim,doyou?HenriettaenquiredofIsabel。
  Idon’tseewhatMr。Bantlingcoulddotoyou,Isabelobliginglyanswered。but,ifyoulike,we’llwalkwithyoutillyoufindyourcab。
  Nevermind。we’llgoalone。Comeon,Mr。Bantling,andtakecareyougetmeagoodone。
  Mr。Bantlingpromisedtodohisbest,andthetwotooktheirdeparture,leavingthegirlandhercousintogetherinthesquare,overwhichaclearSeptembertwilighthadnowbeguntogather。Itwasperfectlystill。thewidequadrangleofduskyhousesshowedlightsinnoneofthewindows,wheretheshuttersandblindswereclosed。thepavementswereavacantexpanse,and,puttingasidetwosmallchildrenfromaneighbouringslum,who,attractedbysymptomsofabnormalanimationintheinterior,pokedtheirfacesbetweentherustyrailsoftheenclosure,themostvividobjectwithinsightwasthebigredpillar-postonthesoutheastcorner。
  HenriettawillaskhimtogetintothecabandgowithhertoJermynStreet,Ralphobserved。HealwaysspokeofMissStackpoleasHenrietta。
  Verypossibly,saidhiscompanion。
  Orrather,no,shewon’t,hewenton。ButBantlingwillaskleavetogetin。
  Verylikelyagain。I’mverygladthey’resuchgoodfriends。
  Shehasmadeaconquest。Hethinksherabrilliantwoman。Itmaygofar,saidRalph。
  Isabelwasbrieflysilent。IcallHenriettaaverybrilliantwoman,butIdon’tthinkitwillgofar。Theywouldneverreallyknoweachother。Hehasnottheleastideawhatshereallyis,andshehasnojustcomprehensionofMr。Bantling。
  There’snomoreusualbasisofunionthanamutualmisunderstanding。ButitoughtnottobesodifficulttounderstandBobBantling,Ralphadded。Heisaverysimpleorganism。
  Yes,butHenrietta’sasimpleronestill。And,pray,whatamItodo?Isabelasked,lookingaboutherthroughthefadinglight,inwhichthelimitedlandscape-gardeningofthesquaretookonalargeandeffectiveappearance。Idon’timaginethatyou’llproposethatyouandI,forouramusement,shalldriveaboutLondoninahansom。
  There’snoreasonweshouldn’tstayhere-ifyoudon’tdislikeit。It’sverywarm。therewillbehalfanhouryetbeforedark。andifyoupermititI’lllightacigarette。
  Youmaydowhatyouplease,saidIsabel,ifyou’llamusemetillseveno’clock。Iproposeatthathourtogobackandpartakeofasimpleandsolitaryrepast-twopoachedeggsandamuffin-atPratt’sHotel。
  Mayn’tIdinewithyou?Ralphasked。
  No,you’lldineatyourclub。
  Theyhadwanderedbacktotheirchairsinthecentreofthesquareagain,andRalphhadlightedhiscigarette。Itwouldhavegivenhimextremepleasuretobepresentinpersonatthemodestlittlefeastshehadsketched。butindefaultofthishelikedevenbeingforbidden。Forthemoment,however,helikedimmenselybeingalonewithher,inthethickeningdusk,inthecentreofthemultitudinoustown。itmadeherseemtodependuponhimandtobeinhispower。Thispowerhecouldexertbutvaguely。thebestexerciseofitwastoacceptherdecisionssubmissively-whichindeedtherewasalreadyanemotionindoing。Whywon’tyouletmedinewithyou?hedemandedafterapause。
  BecauseIdon’tcareforit。
  Isupposeyou’retiredofme。
  Ishallbeanhourhence。YouseeIhavethegiftofforeknowledge。
  Oh,Ishallbedelightfulmeanwhile,saidRalph。Buthesaidnothingmore,andasshemadenorejoindertheysatsometimeinastillnesswhichseemedtocontradicthispromiseofentertainment。
  Itseemedtohimshewaspreoccupied,andhewonderedwhatshewasthinkingabout。thereweretwoorthreeverypossiblesubjects。Atlasthespokeagain。Isyourobjectiontomysocietythiseveningcausedbyyourexpectationofanothervisitor?
  Sheturnedherheadwithaglanceofherclear,faireyes。
  Anothervisitor?WhatvisitorshouldIhave?
  Hehadnonetosuggest。whichmadehisquestionseemtohimselfsillyaswellasbrutal。You’veagreatmanyfriendsthatIdon’tknow。You’veawholepastfromwhichIwasperverselyexcluded。
  Youwerereservedformyfuture。Youmustrememberthatmypastisoverthereacrossthewater。There’snoneofithereinLondon。
  Verygood,then,sinceyourfutureisseatedbesideyou。Capitalthingtohaveyourfuturesohandy。AndRalphlightedanothercigaretteandreflectedthatIsabelprobablymeantshehadreceivednewsthatMr。CasparGoodwoodhadcrossedtoParis。Afterhehadlightedhiscigarettehepuffeditawhile,andthenheresumed。I
  promisedjustnowtobeveryamusing。butyouseeIdon’tcomeuptothemark,andthefactisthere’sagooddealoftemerityinone’sundertakingtoamuseapersonlikeyou。Whatdoyoucareformyfeebleattempts?You’vegrandideas-you’veahighstandardinsuchmatters。Ioughtatleasttobringinabandofmusicoracompanyofmountebanks。
  Onemountebank’senough,andyoudoverywell。Praygoon,andinanothertenminutesIshallbegintolaugh。
  IassureyouI’mveryserious,saidRalph。Youdoreallyaskagreatdeal。
  Idon’tknowwhatyoumean。Iasknothing!
  Youacceptnothing,saidRalph。Shecoloured,andnowsuddenlyitseemedtoherthatsheguessedhismeaning。Butwhyshouldhespeaktoherofsuchthings?Hehesitatedalittleandthenhecontinued:
  There’ssomethingIshouldlikeverymuchtosaytoyou。It’saquestionIwishtoask。ItseemstomeI’vearighttoaskit,becauseI’veakindofinterestintheanswer。
  Askwhatyouwill,Isabelrepliedgently,andI’lltrytosatisfyyou。
  Wellthen,Ihopeyouwon’tmindmysayingthatWarburtonhastoldmeofsomethingthathaspassedbetweenyou。
  Isabelsuppressedastart。hesatlookingatheropenfan。Verygood。Isupposeitwasnaturalheshouldtellyou。
  Ihavehisleavetoletyouknowhehasdoneso。Hehassomehopestill,saidRalph。
  Still?
  Hehaditafewdaysago。
  Idon’tbelievehehasanynow,saidthegirl。
  I’mverysorryforhimthen。he’ssuchanhonestman。
  Pray,didheaskyoutotalktome?
  No,notthat。Buthetoldmebecausehecouldn’thelpit。We’reoldfriends,andhewasgreatlydisappointed。Hesentmealineaskingmetocomeandseehim,andIdroveovertoLockleighthedaybeforeheandhissisterlunchedwithus。Hewasveryheavy-hearted。hehadjustgotaletterfromyou。
  Didheshowyoutheletter?askedIsabelwithmomentaryloftiness。
  Bynomeans。Buthetoldmeitwasaneatrefusal。Iwasverysorryforhim,Ralphrepeated。
  ForsomemomentsIsabelsaidnothing。thenatlast,Doyouknowhowoftenhehadseenme?sheenquired。Fiveorsixtimes。
  That’stoyourglory。
  It’snotforthatIsayit。
  Whatthendoyousayitfor?NottoprovethatpoorWarburton’sstateofmind’ssuperficial,becauseI’mprettysureyoudon’tthinkthat。
  Isabelcertainlywasunabletosayshethoughtitbutpresentlyshesaidsomethingelse。Ifyou’venotbeenrequestedbyLordWarburtontoarguewithme,thenyou’redoingitdisinterestedly-orfortheloveofargument。
  I’venowishtoarguewithyouatall。Ionlywishtoleaveyoualone。I’msimplygreatlyinterestedinyourownsentiments。
  I’mgreatlyobligedtoyou!criedIsabelwithaslightlynervouslaugh。
  OfcourseyoumeanthatI’mmeddlinginwhatdoesn’tconcernme。
  Butwhyshouldn’tIspeaktoyouofthismatterwithoutannoyingyouorembarrassingmyself?What’stheuseofbeingyourcousinifIcan’thaveafewprivileges?What’stheuseofadoringyouwithouthopeofarewardifIcan’thaveafewcompensations?What’stheuseofbeingillanddisabledandrestrictedtomerespectatorshipatthegameoflifeifIreallycan’tseetheshowwhenI’vepaidsomuchformyticket?Tellmethis,Ralphwentonwhileshelistenedtohimwithquickenedattention。WhathadyouinmindwhenyourefusedLordWarburton?
  WhathadIinmind?
  Whatwasthelogic-theviewofyoursituation-thatdictatedsoremarkableanact?
  Ididn’twishtomarryhim-ifthat’slogic。
  No,that’snotlogic-andIknewthatbefore。It’sreallynothing,youknow。Whatwasityousaidtoyourself?Youcertainlysaidmorethanthat?
  Isabelreflectedamoment,thenansweredwithaquestionofherown。
  Whydoyoucallitaremarkableact?That’swhatyourmotherthinkstoo。
  Warburton’ssuchathoroughgoodsort。asaman,Iconsiderhehashardlyafault。Andthenhe’swhattheycallherenoendofaswell。Hehasimmensepossessions,andhiswifewouldbethoughtasuperiorbeing。Heunitestheintrinsicandtheextrinsicadvantages。
  Isabelwatchedhercousinastoseehowfarhewouldgo。I
  refusedhimbecausehewastooperfectthen。I’mnotperfectmyself,andhe’stoogoodforme。Besides,hisperfectionwouldirritateme。
  That’singeniousratherthancandid,saidRalph。Asafactyouthinknothingintheworldtooperfectforyou。
  DoyouthinkI’msogood?
  No,butyou’reexacting,allthesame,withouttheexcuseofthinkingyourselfgood。Nineteenwomenoutoftwenty,however,evenofthemostexactingsort,wouldhavemanagedtodowithWarburton。
  Perhapsyoudon’tknowhowhehasbeenstalked。
  Idon’twishtoknow。Butitseemstome,saidIsabel,thatonedaywhenwetalkedofhimyoumentionedoddthingsinhim。
  Ralphsmokinglyconsidered。IhopethatwhatIsaidthenhadnoweightwithyou。fortheywerenotfaults,thethingsIspokeof:theyweresimplypeculiaritiesofhisposition。IfIhadknownhewishedtomarryyouI’dneverhavealludedtothem。IthinkIsaidthatasregardsthatpositionhewasratherasceptic。Itwouldhavebeeninyourpowertomakehimabeliever。
  Ithinknot。Idon’tunderstandthematter,andI’mnotconsciousofanymissionofthatsort。You’reevidentlydisappointed,Isabeladded,lookingathercousinwithruefulgentleness。You’dhavelikedmetomakesuchamarriage。
  Notintheleast。I’mabsolutelywithoutawishonthesubject。I
  don’tpretendtoadviseyou,andIcontentmyselfwithwatchingyou-
  withthedeepestinterest。
  Shegaveratheraconscioussigh。IwishIcouldbeasinterestingtomyselfasIamtoyou!
  Thereyou’renotcandidagain。you’reextremelyinterestingtoyourself。Doyouknow,however,saidRalph,thatifyou’vereallygivenWarburtonhisfinalanswerI’mrathergladithasbeenwhatitwas。Idon’tmeanI’mgladforyou,andstilllessofcourseforhim。I’mgladformyself。
  Areyouthinkingofproposingtome?
  Bynomeans。FromthepointofviewIspeakofthatwouldbefatal。
  Ishouldkillthegoosethatsuppliesmewiththematerialofmyinimitableomelettes。Iusethatanimalasthesymbolofmyinsaneillusions。WhatImeanisthatIshallhavethethrillofseeingwhatayoungladydoeswhowon’tmarryLordWarburton。
  That’swhatyourmothercountsupontoo,saidIsabel。
  Ah,therewillbeplentyofspectators!Weshallhangontherestofyourcareer。Ishallnotseeallofit,butIshallprobablyseethemostinterestingyears。Ofcourseifyouweretomarryourfriendyou’dstillhaveacareer-averydecent,infactaverybrilliantone。Butrelativelyspeakingitwouldbealittleprosaic。
  Itwouldbedefinitelymarkedoutinadvance。itwouldbewantingintheunexpected。YouknowI’mextremelyfondoftheunexpected,andnowthatyou’vekeptthegameinyourhandsIdependonyourgivingussomegrandexampleofit。
  Idon’tunderstandyouverywell,saidIsabel,butIdosowellenoughtobeabletosaythatifyoulookforgrandexamplesofanythingfrommeIshalldisappointyou。
  You’lldosoonlybydisappointingyourself-andthatwillgohardwithyou!
  Tothisshemadenodirectreply。therewasanamountoftruthinitthatwouldbearconsideration。Atlastshesaidabruptly:Idon’tseewhatharmthereisinmywishingnottotiemyself。Idon’twanttobeginlifebymarrying。Thereareotherthingsawomancando。
  There’snothingshecandosowell。Butyou’reofcoursesomany-sided。
  Ifone’stwo-sidedit’senough,saidIsabel。
  You’rethemostcharmingofpolygons!hercompanionbrokeout。
  Ataglancefromhiscompanion,however,hebecamegrave,andtoproveitwenton:Youwanttoseelife-you’llbehangedifyoudon’t,astheyoungmensay。
  Idon’tthinkIwanttoseeitastheyoungmenwanttoseeit。ButIdowanttolookaboutme。
  Youwanttodrainthecupofexperience。
  No,Idon’twishtotouchthecupofexperience。It’sapoisoneddrink!Ionlywanttoseeformyself。
  Youwanttosee,butnottofeel,Ralphremarked。
  Idon’tthinkthatifone’sasentientbeingonecanmakethedistinction。I’magooddeallikeHenrietta。TheotherdaywhenI
  askedherifshewishedtomarryshesaid:’NottillI’veseenEurope!’Itoodon’twishtomarrytillI’veseenEurope。
  Youevidentlyexpectacrownedheadwillbestruckwithyou。
  No,thatwouldbeworsethanmarryingLordWarburton。Butit’sgettingverydark,Isabelcontinued,andImustgohome。Sherosefromherplace,butRalphonlysatstillandlookedather。Asheremainedthereshestopped,andtheyexchangedagazethatwasfulloneitherside,butespeciallyonRalph’s,ofutterancestoovagueforwords。
  You’veansweredmyquestion,hesaidatlast。You’vetoldmewhatIwanted。I’mgreatlyobligedtoyou。
  ItseemstomeI’vetoldyouverylittle。
  You’vetoldmethegreatthing:thattheworldinterestsyouandthatyouwanttothrowyourselfintoit。
  Hersilveryeyesshoneamomentinthedusk。Ineversaidthat。
  Ithinkyoumeantit。Don’trepudiateit。It’ssofine!
  Idon’tknowwhatyou’retryingtofastenuponme,forI’mnotintheleastanadventurousspirit。Womenarenotlikemen。
  Ralphslowlyrosefromhisseatandtheywalkedtogethertothegateofthesquare。No,hesaid。womenrarelyboastoftheircourage。
  Mendosowithacertainfrequency。
  Menhaveittoboastof!
  Womenhaveittoo。You’veagreatdeal。
  EnoughtogohomeinacabtoPratt’sHotel,butnotmore。
  Ralphunlockedthegate,andaftertheyhadpassedouthefastenedit。We’llfindyourcab,hesaid。andastheyturnedtowardaneighbouringstreetinwhichthisquestmightavailheaskedheragainifhemightn’tseehersafelytotheinn。
  Bynomeans,sheanswered。you’reverytired。youmustgohomeandgotobed。
  Thecabwasfound,andhehelpedherintoit,standingamomentatthedoor。WhenpeopleforgetI’mapoorcreatureI’moftenincommoded,hesaid。Butit’sworsewhentheyrememberit!
  CHAPTER16
  Shehadhadnohiddenmotiveinwishinghimnottotakeherhome。itsimplystruckherthatforsomedayspastshehadconsumedaninordinatequantityofhistime,andtheindependentspiritoftheAmericangirlwhomextravaganceofaidplacesinanattitudethatsheendsbyfindingaffectedhadmadeherdecidethatforthesefewhoursshemustsufficetoherself。Shehadmoreoveragreatfondnessforintervalsofsolitude,whichsinceherarrivalinEnglandhadbeenbutmeagrelymet。Itwasaluxuryshecouldalwayscommandathomeandshehadwittinglymissedit。Thatevening,however,anincidentoccurredwhich-hadtherebeenacritictonoteit-wouldhavetakenallcolourfromthetheorythatthewishtobequitebyherselfhadcausedhertodispensewithhercousin’sattendance。
  Seatedtowardnineo’clockinthedimilluminationofPratt’sHotelandtryingwiththeaidoftwotallcandlestoloseherselfinavolumeshehadbroughtfromGardencourt,shesucceededonlytotheextentofreadingotherwordsthanthoseprintedonthepage-wordsthatRalphhadspokentoherthatafternoon。Suddenlythewell-muffledknuckleofthewaiterwasappliedtothedoor,whichpresentlygavewaytohisexhibition,evenasaglorioustrophy,ofthecardofavisitor。WhenthismementohadofferedtoherfixedsightthenameofMr。CasparGoodwoodsheletthemanstandbeforeherwithoutsignifyingherwishes。
  ShallIshowthegentlemanup,ma’am?heaskedwithaslightlyencouraginginflexion。
  Isabelhesitatedstillandwhileshehesitatedglancedatthemirror。Hemaycomein,shesaidatlast。andwaitedforhimnotsomuchsmoothingherhairasgirdingherspirit。
  CasparGoodwoodwasaccordinglythenextmomentshakinghandswithher,butsayingnothingtilltheservanthadlefttheroom。Whydidn’tyouanswermyletter?hethenaskedinaquick,full,slightlyperemptorytone-thetoneofamanwhosequestionswerehabituallypointedandwhowascapableofmuchinsistence。
  Sheansweredbyareadyquestion,HowdidyouknowIwashere?
  MissStackpoleletmeknow,saidCasparGoodwood。Shetoldmeyouwouldprobablybeathomealonethiseveningandwouldbewillingtoseeme。
  Wheredidsheseeyou-totellyouthat?
  Shedidn’tseeme。shewrotetome。Isabelwassilent。neitherhadsatdown。theystoodtherewithanairofdefiance,oratleastofcontention。Henriettanevertoldmeshewaswritingtoyou,shesaidatlast。Thisisnotkindofher。
  Isitsodisagreeabletoyoutoseeme?askedtheyoungman。
  Ididn’texpectit。Idon’tlikesuchsurprises。
  ButyouknewIwasintown。itwasnaturalweshouldmeet。
  Doyoucallthismeeting?IhopedIshouldn’tseeyou。InsobigaplaceasLondonitseemedverypossible。
  Itwasapparentlyrepugnanttoyoueventowritetome,hervisitorwenton。
  Isabelmadenoreply。thesenseofHenriettaStackpole’streachery,asshemomentarilyqualifiedit,wasstrongwithinher。
  Henrietta’scertainlynotamodelofallthedelicacies!sheexclaimedwithbitterness:Itwasagreatlibertytotake。
  IsupposeI’mnotamodeleither-ofthosevirtuesorofanyothers。Thefault’smineasmuchashers。
  AsIsabellookedathimitseemedtoherthathisjawhadneverbeenmoresquare。Thismighthavedispleasedher,butshetookadifferentturn。No,it’snotyourfaultsomuchashers。Whatyou’vedonewasinevitable,Isuppose,foryou。
  Itwasindeed!criedCasparGoodwoodwithavoluntarylaugh。
  AndnowthatI’vecome,atanyrate,mayn’tIstay?
  Youmaysitdown,certainly。
  Shewentbacktoherchairagain,whilehervisitortookthefirstplacethatoffered,inthemannerofamanaccustomedtopaylittlethoughttothatsortoffurtherance。I’vebeenhopingeverydayforananswertomyletter。Youmighthavewrittenmeafewlines。
  Itwasn’tthetroubleofwritingthatpreventedme。Icouldaseasilyhavewrittenyoufourpagesasone。Butmysilencewasanintention,Isabelsaid。Ithoughtitthebestthing。
  Hesatwithhiseyesfixedonherswhileshespoke。thenheloweredthemandattachedthemtoaspotinthecarpetasifheweremakingastrongefforttosaynothingbutwhatheought。Hewasastrongmaninthewrong,andhewasacuteenoughtoseethatanuncompromisingexhibitionofhisstrengthwouldonlythrowthefalsityofhispositionintorelief。Isabelwasnotincapableoftastinganyadvantageofpositionoverapersonofthisquality,andthoughlittledesiroustoflauntitinhisfaceshecouldenjoybeingabletosayYouknowyououghtn’ttohavewrittentomeyourself!andtosayitwithanairoftriumph。
  CasparGoodwoodraisedhiseyestoherownagain。theyseemedtoshinethroughthevizardofahelmet。Hehadastrongsenseofjusticeandwasreadyanydayintheyear-overandabovethis-toarguethequestionofhisrights。Yousaidyouhopednevertohearfrommeagain。Iknowthat。ButIneveracceptedanysuchruleasmyown。I
  warnedyouthatyoushouldhearverysoon。
  Ididn’tsayIhopednevertohearfromyou,saidIsabel。
  Notforfiveyearsthen。fortenyears。twentyyears。It’sthesamething。
  Doyoufinditso?Itseemstomethere’sagreatdifference。Icanimaginethatattheendoftenyearswemighthaveaverypleasantcorrespondence。Ishallhavematuredmyepistolarystyle。
  Shelookedawaywhileshespokethesewords,knowingthemofsomuchlessearnestacastthanthecountenanceofherlistener。Hereyes,however,atlastcamebacktohim,justashesaidveryirrelevantly:Areyouenjoyingyourvisittoyouruncle?
  Verymuchindeed。Shedropped,butthenshebrokeout。Whatgooddoyouexpecttogetbyinsisting?
  Thegoodofnotlosingyou。
  You’venorighttotalkoflosingwhat’snotyours。Andevenfromyourownpointofview,Isabeladded,yououghttoknowwhentoletonealone。
  Idisgustyouverymuch,saidCasparGoodwoodgloomily。notasiftoprovokehertocompassionforamanconsciousofthisblightingfact,butasiftosetitwellbeforehimself,sothathemightendeavourtoactwithhiseyesonit。
  Yes,youdon’tatalldelightme,youdon’tfitin,notinanyway,justnow,andtheworstisthatyourputtingittotheproofinthismannerisquiteunnecessary。Itwasn’tcertainlyasifhisnaturehadbeensoft,sothatpin-prickswoulddrawbloodfromit。andfromthefirstofheracquaintancewithhim,andofherhavingtodefendherselfagainstacertainairthathehadofknowingbetterwhatwasgoodforherthansheknewherself,shehadrecognizedthefactthatperfectfranknesswasherbestweapon。Toattempttosparehissensibilityortoescapefromhimedgewise,asonemightdofromamanwhohadbarredthewaylesssturdily-this,indealingwithCasparGoodwood,whowouldgraspateverythingofeverysortthatonemightgivehim,waswastedagility。Itwasnotthathehadnotsusceptibilities,buthispassivesurface,aswellashisactive,waslargeandhard,andhemightalwaysbetrustedtodresshiswounds,sofarastheyrequiredit,himself。Shecameback,evenforhermeasureofpossiblepangsandachesinhim,toheroldsensethathewasnaturallyplatedandsteeled,armedessentiallyforaggression。
  Ican’treconcilemyselftothat,hesimplysaid。Therewasadangerousliberalityaboutit。forshefelthowopenitwastohimtomakethepointthathehadnotalwaysdisgustedher。
  Ican’treconcilemyselftoiteither,andit’snotthestateofthingsthatoughttoexistbetweenus。Ifyou’donlytrytobanishmefromyourmindforafewmonthsweshouldbeongoodtermsagain。
  Isee。IfIshouldceasetothinkofyouatallforaprescribedtime,IshouldfindIcouldkeepitupindefinitely。
  IndefinitelyismorethanIask。It’smoreeventhanIshouldlike。
  Youknowthatwhatyouaskisimpossible,saidtheyoungman,takinghisadjectiveforgrantedinamannershefoundirritating。
  Aren’tyoucapableofmakingacalculatedeffort?shedemanded。
  You’restrongforeverythingelse。whyshouldn’tyoubestrongforthat?
  Aneffortcalculatedforwhat?Andthenasshehungfire,I’mcapableofnothingwithregardtoyou,hewenton,butjustofbeinginfernallyinlovewithyou。Ifone’sstrongonelovesonlythemorestrongly。