MadameMerleslowlyseatedherself,withherarmsfoldedandherwhitehandsarrangedasasupporttooneofthemandanornament,asitwere,totheother。Shelookedexquisitelycalmbutimpressivelysad。Onyourside,don’ttrytofrightenme。Iwonderifyouguesssomeofmythoughts。
ItroubleaboutthemnomorethanIcanhelp。I’vequiteenoughofmyown。
That’sbecausethey’resodelightful。
Osmondrestedhisheadagainstthebackofhischairandlookedathiscompanionwithacynicaldirectnesswhichseemedalsopartlyanexpressionoffatigue。Youdoaggravateme,heremarkedinamoment。
I’mverytired。
Ehmoidonc!criedMadameMerle。
Withyouit’sbecauseyoufatigueyourself。Withmeit’snotmyownfault。
WhenIfatiguemyselfit’sforyou。I’vegivenyouaninterest。
That’sagreatgift。
Doyoucallitaninterest?Osmondenquiredwithdetachment。
Certainly,sinceithelpsyoutopassyourtime。
Thetimehasneverseemedlongertomethanthiswinter。
You’veneverlookedbetter。you’veneverbeensoagreeable,sobrilliant。
Damnmybrilliancy!hethoughtfullymurmured。Howlittle,afterall,youknowme!
IfIdon’tknowyouIknownothing,smiledMadameMerle。You’vethefeelingofcompletesuccess。
No,IshallnothavethattillI’vemadeyoustopjudgingme。
Ididthatlongago。Ispeakfromoldknowledge。Butyouexpressyourselfmoretoo。
Osmondjusthungfire。Iwishyou’dexpressyourselfless!
Youwishtocondemnmetosilence?RememberthatI’veneverbeenachatterbox。AtanyratetherearethreeorfourthingsIshouldliketosaytoyoufirst。Yourwifedoesn’tknowwhattodowithherself,shewentonwithachangeoftone。
Pardonme。sheknowsperfectly。Shehasalinesharplydrawn。Shemeanstocarryoutherideas。
Herideasto-daymustberemarkable。
Certainlytheyare。Shehasmoreofthemthanever。
Shewasunabletoshowmeanythismorning,saidMadameMerle。
Sheseemedinaverysimple,almostinastupid,stateofmind。Shewascompletelybewildered。
Youhadbettersayatoncethatshewaspathetic。
Ahno,Idon’twanttoencourageyoutoomuch。
Hestillhadhisheadagainstthecushionbehindhim。theankleofonefootrestedontheotherknee。Sohesatforawhile。Ishouldliketoknowwhat’sthematterwithyou,hesaidatlast。
Thematter-thematter-!AndhereMadameMerlestopped。Thenshewentonwithasuddenoutbreakofpassion,aburstofsummerthunderinaclearsky:ThematteristhatIwouldgivemyrighthandtobeabletoweep,andthatIcan’t!
Whatgoodwoulditdoyoutoweep?
ItwouldmakemefeelasIfeltbeforeIknewyou。
IfI’vedriedyourtears,that’ssomething。ButI’veseenyoushedthem。
Oh,Ibelieveyou’llmakemecrystill。Imeanmakemehowllikeawolf。I’veagreathope,I’veagreatneed,ofthat。Iwasvilethismorning。Iwashorrid,shesaid。
IfIsabelwasinthestupidstateofmindyoumentionsheprobablydidn’tperceiveit,Osmondanswered。
Itwaspreciselymydeviltrythatstupefiedher。Icouldn’thelpit。Iwasfullofsomethingbad。Perhapsitwassomethinggood。I
don’tknow。You’venotonlydriedupmytears。you’vedriedupmysoul。
It’snotIthenthatamresponsibleformywife’scondition,
Osmondsaid。It’spleasanttothinkthatIshallgetthebenefitofyourinfluenceuponher。Don’tyouknowthesoulisanimmortalprinciple?Howcanitsufferalteration?
Idon’tbelieveatallthatit’sanimmortalprinciple。Ibelieveitcanperfectlybedestroyed。That’swhathashappenedtomine,whichwasaverygoodonetostartwith。andit’syouIhavetothankforit。You’reverybad,sheaddedwithgravityinheremphasis。
Isthisthewaywe’retoend?Osmondaskedwiththesamestudiedcoldness。
Idon’tknowhowwe’retoend。IwishIdid!Howdobadpeopleend?-especiallyastotheircommoncrimes。Youhavemademeasbadasyourself。
Idon’tunderstandyou。Youseemtomequitegoodenough,saidOsmond,hisconsciousindifferencegivinganextremeeffecttothewords。
MadameMerle’sself-possessiontendedonthecontrarytodiminish,andshewasnearerlosingitthanonanyoccasiononwhichwehavehadthepleasureofmeetingher。Theglowofhereyeturnedsombre。hersmilebetrayedapainfuleffort。GoodenoughforanythingthatI’vedonewithmyself?Isupposethat’swhatyoumean。
Goodenoughtobealwayscharming!Osmondexclaimed,smilingtoo。
OhGod!hiscompanionmurmured。and,sittingthereinherripefreshness,shehadrecoursetothesamegestureshehadprovokedonIsabel’spartinthemorning:shebentherfaceandcovereditwithherhands。
Areyougoingtoweepafterall?Osmondasked。andonherremainingmotionlesshewenton:
HaveIevercomplainedtoyou?
Shedroppedherhandquickly。No,you’vetakenyourrevengeotherwise-youhavetakenitonher。
Osmondthrewbackhisheadfurther。helookedawhileattheceilingandmighthavebeensupposedtobeappealing,inaninformalway,totheheavenlypowers。Oh,theimaginationofwomen!It’salwaysvulgar,atbottom。Youtalkofrevengelikeathird-ratenovelist。
Ofcourseyouhaven’tcomplained。You’veenjoyedyourtriumphtoomuch。
I’mrathercurioustoknowwhatyoucallmytriumph。
You’vemadeyourwifeafraidofyou。
Osmondchangedhisposition。heleanedforward,restinghiselbowsonhiskneesandlookingawhileatabeautifuloldPersianrug,athisfeet。Hehadanairofrefusingtoacceptanyone’svaluationofanything,evenoftime,andofpreferringtoabidebyhisown。apeculiaritywhichmadehimatmomentsanirritatingpersontoconversewith。Isabel’snotafraidofme,andit’snotwhatIwish,hesaidatlast。Towhatdoyouwanttoprovokemewhenyousaysuchthingsasthat?
I’vethoughtoveralltheharmyoucandome,MadameMerleanswered。Yourwifewasafraidofmethismorning,butinmeitwasreallyyoushefeared。
Youmayhavesaidthingsthatwereinverybadtaste。I’mnotresponsibleforthat。Ididn’tseetheuseofyourgoingtoseeheratall:you’recapableofactingwithouther。I’venotmadeyouafraidofmethatIcansee,hewenton。howthenshouldIhavemadeher?
You’reatleastasbrave。Ican’tthinkwhereyou’vepickedupsuchrubbish。onemightsupposeyouknewmebythistime。Hegotupashespokeandwalkedtothechimney,wherehestoodamomentbendinghiseye,asifhehadseenthemforthefirsttime,onthedelicatespecimensofrareporcelainwithwhichitwascovered。Hetookupasmallcupandhelditinhishand。then,stillholdingitandleaninghisarmonthemantel,hepursued:Youalwaysseetoomuchineverything。youoverdoit。youlosesightofthereal。I’mmuchsimplerthanyouthink。
Ithinkyou’reverysimple。AndMadameMerlekepthereyeonhercup。I’vecometothatwithtime。Ijudgedyou,asIsay,ofold。butit’sonlysinceyourmarriagethatI’veunderstoodyou。I’veseenbetterwhatyouhavebeentoyourwifethanIeversawwhatyouwereforme。Pleasebeverycarefulofthatpreciousobject。
Italreadyhasaweebitofatinycrack,saidOsmonddrylyasheputitdown。Ifyoudidn’tunderstandmebeforeImarrieditwascruellyrashofyoutoputmeintosuchabox。However,Itookafancytomyboxmyself。Ithoughtitwouldbeacomfortablefit。Iaskedverylittle。Ionlyaskedthatsheshouldlikeme。
Thatsheshouldlikeyousomuch!
Somuch,ofcourse。insuchacaseoneasksthemaximum。Thatsheshouldadoreme,ifyouwill。Ohyes,Iwantedthat。
Ineveradoredyou,saidMadameMerle。
Ah,butyoupretendedto!
It’struethatyouneveraccusedmeofbeingacomfortablefit,
MadameMerlewenton。
Mywifehasdeclined-declinedtodoanythingofthesort,saidOsmond。Ifyou’redeterminedtomakeatragedyofthat,thetragedy’shardlyforher。
Thetragedy’sforme!MadameMerleexclaimed,risingwithalonglowsighbuthavingaglanceatthesametimeforthecontentsofhermantel-shelf。ItappearsthatI’mtobeseverelytaughtthedisadvantagesofafalseposition。
Youexpressyourselflikeasentenceinacopy-book。Wemustlookforourcomfortwherewecanfindit。Ifmywifedoesn’tlikeme,atleastmychilddoes。IshalllookforcompensationsinPansy。
FortunatelyIhaven’tafaulttofindwithher。
Ah,shesaidsoftly,ifIhadachild-!
Osmondwaited,andthen,withalittleformalair,Thechildrenofothersmaybeagreatinterest!heannounced。
You’remorelikeacopy-bookthanI。There’ssomethingafterallthatholdsustogether。
IsittheideaoftheharmImaydoyou?Osmondasked。
No。it’stheideaofthegoodImaydoforyou。It’sthat,
MadameMerlepursued,thatmademesojealousofIsabel。Iwantittobemywork,sheadded,withherface,whichhadgrownhardandbitter,relaxingtoitshabitofsmoothness。
Herfriendtookuphishatandhisumbrella,andaftergivingtheformerarticletwoorthreestrokeswithhiscoat-cuff,Onthewhole,Ithink,hesaid,youhadbetterleaveittome。
Afterhehadlefthershewent,thefirstthing,andliftedfromthemantel-shelftheattenuatedcoffee-cupinwhichhehadmentionedtheexistenceofacrack。butshelookedatitratherabstractedly。
HaveIbeensovileallfornothing?shevaguelywailed。
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AstheCountessGeminiwasnotacquaintedwiththeancientmonumentsIsabeloccasionallyofferedtointroducehertotheseinterestingrelicsandtogivetheirafternoondriveanantiquarianaim。TheCountess,whoprofessedtothinkhersister-in-lawaprodigyoflearning,nevermadeanobjection,andgazedatmassesofRomanbrickworkaspatientlyasiftheyhadbeenmoundsofmoderndrapery。
Shehadnotthehistoricsense,thoughshehadinsomedirectionstheanecdotic,andasregardsherselftheapologetic,butshewassodelightedtobeinRomethatsheonlydesiredtofloatwiththecurrent。ShewouldgladlyhavepassedanhoureverydayinthedampdarknessoftheBathsofTitusifithadbeenaconditionofherremainingatPalazzoRoccanera。Isabel,however,wasnotaseverecicerone。sheusedtovisittheruinschieflybecausetheyofferedanexcusefortalkingaboutothermattersthanthelove-affairsoftheladiesofFlorence,astowhichhercompanionwasneverwearyofofferinginformation。ItmustbeaddedthatduringthesevisitstheCountessforbadeherselfeveryformofactiveresearch。herpreferencewastositinthecarriageandexclaimthateverythingwasmostinteresting。ItwasinthismannerthatshehadhithertoexaminedtheColiseum,totheinfiniteregretofherniece,who-withalltherespectthatsheowedher-couldnotseewhysheshouldnotdescendfromthevehicleandenterthebuilding。Pansyhadsolittlechancetoramblethatherviewofthecasewasnotwhollydisinterested。itmaybedivinedthatshehadasecrethopethat,onceinside,herparents’guestmightbeinducedtoclimbtotheuppertiers。TherecameadaywhentheCountessannouncedherwillingnesstoundertakethisfeat-amildafternooninMarchwhenthewindymonthexpresseditselfinoccasionalpuffsofspring。ThethreeladieswentintotheColiseumtogether,butIsabellefthercompanionstowanderovertheplace。ShehadoftenascendedtothosedesolateledgesfromwhichtheRomancrowdusedtobellowapplauseandwherenowthewildflowerswhentheyareallowedbloominthedeepcrevices。andto-dayshefeltwearyanddisposedtositinthedespoiledarena。Itmadeanintermissiontoo,fortheCountessoftenaskedmorefromone’sattentionthanshegaveinreturn。andIsabelbelievedthatwhenshewasalonewithherniecesheletthedustgatherforamomentontheancientscandalsoftheArnide。Shesoremainedbelowtherefore,whilePansyguidedherundiscriminatingaunttothesteepbrickstaircaseatthefootofwhichthecustodianunlocksthetallwoodengate。Thegreatenclosurewashalfinshadow。thewesternsunbroughtoutthepaleredtoneofthegreatblocksoftravertine-thelatentcolourthatistheonlylivingelementintheimmenseruin。Hereandtherewanderedapeasantoratourist,lookingupatthefarsky-linewhere,intheclearstillness,amultitudeofswallowskeptcirclingandplunging。Isabelpresentlybecameawarethatoneoftheothervisitors,plantedinthemiddleofthearena,hadturnedhisattentiontoherownpersonandwaslookingatherwithacertainlittlepoiseoftheheadwhichshehadsomeweeksbeforeperceivedtobecharacteristicofbaffledbutindestructiblepurpose。Suchanattitude,today,couldbelongonlytoMr。EdwardRosier。andthisgentlemanprovedinfacttohavebeenconsideringthequestionofspeakingtoher。Whenhehadassuredhimselfthatshewasunaccompaniedhedrewnear,remarkingthatthoughshewouldnotanswerhislettersshewouldperhapsnotwhollycloseherearstohisspokeneloquence。Sherepliedthatherstepdaughterwascloseathandandthatshecouldonlygivehimfiveminutes。whereuponhetookouthiswatchandsatdownuponabrokenblock。
It’sverysoontold,saidEdwardRosier。I’vesoldallmybibelots!Isabelgaveinstinctivelyanexclamationofhorror。itwasasifhehadtoldherhehadhadallhisteethdrawn。I’vesoldthembyauctionattheHotelDrouot,hewenton。Thesaletookplacethreedaysago,andthey’vetelegraphedmetheresult。It’smagnificent。
I’mgladtohearit。butIwishyouhadkeptyourprettythings。
Ihavethemoneyinstead-fiftythousanddollars。WillMr。Osmondthinkmerichenoughnow?
Isitforthatyoudidit?Isabelaskedgently。
Forwhatelseintheworldcoulditbe?That’stheonlythingI
thinkof。IwenttoParisandmademyarrangements。Icouldn’tstopforthesale。Icouldn’thaveseenthemgoingoff。Ithinkitwouldhavekilledme。ButIputthemintogoodhands,andtheybroughthighprices。IshouldtellyouIhavekeptmyenamels。NowIhavethemoneyinmypocket,andhecan’tsayI’mpoor!theyoungmanexclaimeddefiantly。
He’llsaynowthatyou’renotwise,saidIsabel,asifGilbertOsmondhadneversaidthisbefore。
Rosiergaveherasharplook。DoyoumeanthatwithoutmybibelotsI’mnothing?Doyoumeantheywerethebestthingaboutme?
That’swhattheytoldmeinParis。ohtheywereveryfrankaboutit。
Buttheyhadn’tseenher!
Mydearfriend,youdeservetosucceed,saidIsabelverykindly。
Yousaythatsosadlythatit’sthesameasifyousaidI
shouldn’t。Andhequestionedhereyeswiththecleartrepidationofhisown。HehadtheairofamanwhoknowshehasbeenthetalkofParisforaweekandisfullhalfaheadtallerinconsequence,butwhoalsohasapainfulsuspicionthatinspiteofthisincreaseofstatureoneortwopersonsstillhavetheperversitytothinkhimdiminutive。IknowwhathappenedherewhileIwasaway,hewenton。WhatdoesMr。OsmondexpectaftershehasrefusedLordWarburton?
Isabeldebated。Thatshe’llmarryanothernobleman。
Whatothernobleman?
Onethathe’llpickout。
Rosierslowlygotup,puttinghiswatchintohiswaistcoat-pocket。
You’relaughingatsomeone,butthistimeIdon’tthinkit’satme。
Ididn’tmeantolaugh,saidIsabel。Ilaughveryseldom。Nowyouhadbettergoaway。
Ifeelverysafe!Rosierdeclaredwithoutmoving。Thismightbe。
butitevidentlymadehimfeelmoresotomaketheannouncementinratheraloudvoice,balancinghimselfalittlecomplacentlyonhistoesandlookingallroundtheColiseumasifitwerefilledwithanaudience。SuddenlyIsabelsawhimchangecolour。therewasmoreofanaudiencethanhehadsuspected。Sheturnedandperceivedthathertwocompanionshadreturnedfromtheirexcursion。Youmustreallygoaway,shesaidquickly。
Ah,mydearlady,pityme!EdwardRosiermurmuredinavoicestrangelyatvariancewiththeannouncementIhavejustquoted。Andthenheaddedeagerly,likeamanwhointhemidstofhismiseryisseizedbyahappythought:IsthatladytheCountessGemini?I’veagreatdesiretobepresentedtoher。
Isabellookedathimamoment。Shehasnoinfluencewithherbrother。
Ah,whatamonsteryoumakehimout!AndRosierfacedtheCountess,whoadvanced,infrontofPansy,withananimationpartlydueperhapstothefactthatsheperceivedhersister-in-lawtobeengagedinconversationwithaveryprettyyoungman。
I’mgladyou’vekeptyourenamels!Isabelcalledasshelefthim。ShewentstraighttoPansy,who,onseeingEdwardRosier,hadstoppedshort,withloweredeyes。We’llgobacktothecarriage,shesaidgently。
Yes,it’sgettinglate,Pansyreturnedmoregentlystill。Andshewentonwithoutamurmur,withoutfalteringorglancingback。
Isabel,however,allowingherselfthislastliberty,sawthatameetinghadimmediatelytakenplacebetweentheCountessandMr。
Rosier。Hehadremovedhishatandwasbowingandsmiling。hehadevidentlyintroducedhimself,whiletheCountess’sexpressivebackdisplayedtoIsabel’seyeagraciousinclination。Thesefacts,nonetheless,werepresentlylosttosight,forIsabelandPansytooktheirplacesagaininthecarriage。Pansy,whofacedherstepmother,atfirstkepthereyesfixedonherlap。thensheraisedthemandrestedthemonIsabel’s。Thereshoneoutofeachofthemalittlemelancholyray-asparkoftimidpassionwhichtouchedIsabeltotheheart。Atthesametimeawaveofenvypassedoverhersoul,asshecomparedthetremulouslonging,thedefiniteidealofthechildwithherowndrydespair。PoorlittlePansy!sheaffectionatelysaid。
Ohnevermind!Pansyansweredinthetoneofeagerapology。
Andthentherewasasilence。theCountesswasalongtimecoming。
Didyoushowyouraunteverything,anddidsheenjoyit?Isabelaskedatlast。
Yes,Ishowedhereverything。Ithinkshewasverymuchpleased。
Andyou’renottired,Ihope。
Ohno,thankyou,I’mnottired。
TheCountessstillremainedbehind,sothatIsabelrequestedthefootmantogointotheColiseumandtellhertheywerewaiting。HepresentlyreturnedwiththeannouncementthattheSignoraContessabeggedthemnottowait-shewouldcomehomeinacab!
Aboutaweekafterthislady’squicksympathieshadenlistedthemselveswithMr。Rosier,Isabel,goingratherlatetodressfordinner,foundPansysittinginherroom。Thegirlseemedtohavebeenawaitingher。shegotupfromherlowchair。Pardonmytakingtheliberty,shesaidinasmallvoice。Itwillbethelast-forsometime。
Hervoicewasstrange,andhereyes,widelyopened,hadanexcited,frightenedlook。You’renotgoingaway!Isabelexclaimed。
I’mgoingtotheconvent。
Totheconvent?
Pansydrewnearer,tillshewasnearenoughtoputherarmsroundIsabelandrestherheadonhershoulder。Shestoodthiswayamoment,perfectlystill。buthercompanioncouldfeelhertremble。Thequiverofherlittlebodyexpressedeverythingshewasunabletosay。Isabelneverthelesspressedher。Whyareyougoingtotheconvent?
Becausepapathinksitbest。Hesaysayounggirl’sbetter,everynowandthen,formakingalittleretreat。Hesaystheworld,alwaystheworld,isverybadforayounggirl。Thisisjustachanceforalittleseclusion-alittlereflexion。Pansyspokeinshortdetachedsentences,asifshecouldscarcetrustherself。andthensheaddedwithatriumphofself-control:Ithinkpapa’sright。I’vebeensomuchintheworldthiswinter。
HerannouncementhadastrangeeffectonIsabel。itseemedtocarryalargermeaningthanthegirlherselfknew。Whenwasthisdecided?sheasked。I’veheardnothingofit。
Papatoldmehalfanhourago。hethoughtitbetteritshouldn’tbetoomuchtalkedaboutinadvance。MadameCatherine’stocomeformeataquarterpastseven,andI’monlytotaketwofrocks。It’sonlyforafewweeks。I’msureitwillbeverygood。Ishallfindallthoseladieswhousedtobesokindtome,andIshallseethelittlegirlswhoarebeingeducated。I’mveryfondoflittlegirls,saidPansywithaneffectofdiminutivegrandeur。AndI’malsoveryfondofMotherCatherine。Ishallbeveryquietandthinkagreatdeal。
Isabellistenedtoher,holdingherbreath。shewasalmostawe-struck。
Thinkofmesometimes。
Ah,comeandseemesoon!criedPansy。andthecrywasverydifferentfromtheheroicremarksofwhichshehadjustdeliveredherself。
Isabelcouldsaynothingmore。sheunderstoodnothing。sheonlyfelthowlittlesheyetknewherhusband。Heranswertohisdaughterwasalong,tenderkiss。
HalfanhourlatershelearnedfromhermaidthatMadameCatherinehadarrivedinacabandhaddepartedagainwiththesignorina。Ongoingtothedrawing-roombeforedinnershefoundtheCountessGeminialone,andthisladycharacterizedtheincidentbyexclaiming,withawonderfultossofthehead,Envoila,machere,unepose!Butifitwasanaffectationshewasatalosstoseewhatherhusbandaffected。Shecouldonlydimlyperceivethathehadmoretraditionsthanshesupposed。Ithadbecomeherhabittobesocarefulastowhatshesaidtohimthat,strangeasitmayappear,shehesitated,forseveralminutesafterhehadcomein,toalludetohisdaughter’ssuddendeparture:shespokeofitonlyaftertheywereseatedattable。ButshehadforbiddenherselfevertoaskOsmondaquestion。Allshecoulddowastomakeadeclaration,andtherewasonethatcameverynaturally。IshallmissPansyverymuch。
Helookedawhile,withhisheadinclinedalittle,atthebasketofflowersinthemiddleofthetable。Ahyes,hesaidatlast,I
hadthoughtofthat。Youmustgoandseeher,youknow。butnottoooften。IdaresayyouwonderwhyIsenthertothegoodsisters。butI
doubtifIcanmakeyouunderstand。Itdoesn’tmatter。don’ttroubleyourselfaboutit。That’swhyIhadnotspokenofit。Ididn’tbelieveyouwouldenterintoit。ButI’vealwayshadtheidea。I’vealwaysthoughtitapartoftheeducationofone’sdaughter。One’sdaughtershouldbefreshandfair。sheshouldbeinnocentandgentle。Withthemannersofthepresenttimesheisliabletobecomesodustyandcrumpled。Pansy’salittledusty,alittledishevelled。shehasknockedabouttoomuch。Thisbustling,pushingrabblethatcallsitselfsociety-oneshouldtakeheroutofitoccasionally。Conventsareveryquiet,veryconvenient,verysalutary。Iliketothinkofherthere,intheoldgarden,underthearcade,amongthosetranquilvirtuouswomen。Manyofthemaregentlewomenborn。severalofthemarenoble。Shewillhaveherbooksandherdrawing,shewillhaveherpiano。I’vemadethemostliberalarrangements。Thereistobenothingascetic。there’sjusttobeacertainlittlesenseofsequestration。
She’llhavetimetothink,andthere’ssomethingIwanthertothinkabout。Osmondspokedeliberately,reasonably,stillwithhisheadononeside,asifhewerelookingatthebasketofflowers。Histone,however,wasthatofamannotsomuchofferinganexplanationasputtingathingintowords-almostintopictures-tosee,himself,howitwouldlook。Heconsideredawhilethepicturehehadevokedandseemedgreatlypleasedwithit。Andthenhewenton:TheCatholicsareverywiseafterall。Theconventisagreatinstitution。wecan’tdowithoutit。itcorrespondstoanessentialneedinfamilies,insociety。It’saschoolofgoodmanners。it’saschoolofrepose。Oh,Idon’twanttodetachmydaughterfromtheworld,
headded。Idon’twanttomakeherfixherthoughtsonanyother。
Thisone’sverywell,assheshouldtakeit,andshemaythinkofitasmuchasshelikes。Onlyshemustthinkofitintherightway。
Isabelgaveanextremeattentiontothislittlesketch。shefounditindeedintenselyinteresting。Itseemedtoshowherhowfarherhusband’sdesiretobeeffectivewascapableofgoing-tothepointofplayingtheoretictricksonthedelicateorganismofhisdaughter。Shecouldnotunderstandhispurpose,no-notwholly。butsheunderstooditbetterthanhesupposedordesired,inasmuchasshewasconvincedthatthewholeproceedingwasanelaboratemystification,addressedtoherselfanddestinedtoactuponherimagination。Hehadwantedtodosomethingsuddenandarbitrary,somethingunexpectedandrefined。tomarkthedifferencebetweenhissympathiesandherown,andshowthatifheregardedhisdaughterasapreciousworkofartitwasnaturalheshouldbemoreandmorecarefulaboutthefinishingtouches。Ifhewishedtobeeffectivehehadsucceeded。theincidentstruckachillintoIsabel’sheart。Pansyhadknowntheconventinherchildhoodandhadfoundahappyhomethere。shewasfondofthegoodsisters,whowereveryfondofher,andtherewasthereforeforthemomentnodefinitehardshipinherlot。Butallthesamethegirlhadtakenfright。theimpressionherfatherdesiredtomakewouldevidentlybesharpenough。TheoldProtestanttraditionhadneverfadedfromIsabel’simagination,andasherthoughtsattachedthemselvestothisstrikingexampleofherhusband’sgenius-shesatlooking,likehim,atthebasketofflowers-poorlittlePansybecametheheroineofatragedy。Osmondwishedittobeknownthatheshrankfromnothing,andhiswifefoundithardtopretendtoeatherdinner。Therewasacertainreliefpresently,inhearingthehigh,strainedvoiceofhersister-in-law。
TheCountesstoo,apparently,hadbeenthinkingthethingout,buthadarrivedatadifferentconclusionfromIsabel。
It’sveryabsurd,mydearOsmond,shesaid,toinventsomanyprettyreasonsforpoorPansy’sbanishment。Whydon’tyousayatoncethatyouwanttogetheroutofmyway?Haven’tyoudiscoveredthatIthinkverywellofMr。Rosier?Idoindeed。heseemstomesimpaticissimo。Hehasmademebelieveintruelove。Ineverdidbefore!Ofcourseyou’vemadeupyourmindthatwiththoseconvictionsI’mdreadfulcompanyforPansy。
Osmondtookasipofaglassofwine。helookedperfectlygoodhumoured。MydearAmy,heanswered,smilingasifhewereutteringapieceofgallantry,Idon’tknowanythingaboutyourconvictions,butifIsuspectedthattheyinterferewithmineitwouldbemuchsimplertobanishyou。
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TheCountesswasnotbanished,butshefelttheinsecurityofhertenureofherbrother’shospitality。AweekafterthisincidentIsabelreceivedatelegramfromEngland,datedfromGardencourtandbearingthestampofMrs。Touchett’sauthorship。Ralphcannotlastmanydays,itran,andifconvenientwouldliketoseeyou。Wishesmetosaythatyoumustcomeonlyifyou’venototherduties。Say,formyself,thatyouusedtotalkagooddealaboutyourdutyandtowonderwhatitwas。shallbecurioustoseewhetheryou’vefounditout。Ralphisreallydying,andthere’snoothercompany。Isabelwaspreparedforthisnews,havingreceivedfromHenriettaStackpoleadetailedaccountofherjourneytoEnglandwithherappreciativepatient。Ralphhadarrivedmoredeadthanalive,butshehadmanagedtoconveyhimtoGardencourt,wherehehadtakentohisbed,which,asMissStackpolewrote,heevidentlywouldneverleaveagain。Sheaddedthatshehadreallyhadtwopatientsonherhandsinsteadofone,inasmuchasMr。Goodwood,whohadbeenofnoearthlyuse,wasquiteasailing,inadifferentway,asMr。Touchett。AfterwardsshewrotethatshehadbeenobligedtosurrenderthefieldtoMrs。
Touchett,whohadjustreturnedfromAmericaandhadpromptlygivenhertounderstandthatshedidn’twishanyinterviewingatGardencourt。IsabelhadwrittentoherauntshortlyafterRalphcametoRome,lettingherknowofhiscriticalconditionandsuggestingthatsheshouldlosenotimeinreturningtoEurope。Mrs。Touchetthadtelegraphedanacknowledgementofthisadmonition,andtheonlyfurthernewsIsabelreceivedfromherwasthesecondtelegramIhavejustquoted。
Isabelstoodamomentlookingatthelattermissive。then,thrustingitintoherpocket,shewentstraighttothedoorofherhusband’sstudy。Heresheagainpausedaninstant,afterwhichsheopenedthedoorandwentin。Osmondwasseatedatthetablenearthewindowwithafoliovolumebeforehim,proppedagainstapileofbooks。
Thisvolumewasopenatapageofsmallcolouredplates,andIsabelpresentlysawthathehadbeencopyingfromitthedrawingofanantiquecoin。Aboxofwater-coloursandfinebrusheslaybeforehim,andhehadalreadytransferredtoasheetofimmaculatepaperthedelicate,finely-tinteddisk。Hisbackwasturnedtowardthedoor,butherecognizedhiswifewithoutlookinground。
Excusemefordisturbingyou,shesaid。
WhenIcometoyourroomIalwaysknock,heanswered,goingonwithhiswork。
Iforgot。Ihadsomethingelsetothinkof。Mycousin’sdying。
Ah,Idon’tbelievethat,saidOsmond,lookingathisdrawingthroughamagnifyingglass。Hewasdyingwhenwemarried。he’lloutliveusall。
Isabelgaveherselfnotime,nothought,toappreciatethecarefulcynicismofthisdeclaration。shesimplywentonquickly,fullofherownintention:Myaunthastelegraphedforme。ImustgotoGardencourt。
WhymustyougotoGardencourt?Osmondaskedinthetoneofimpartialcuriosity。
ToseeRalphbeforehedies。
Tothis,forsometime,hemadenorejoinder。hecontinuedtogivehischiefattentiontohiswork,whichwasofasortthatwouldbrooknonegligence。
Idon’tseetheneedofit,hesaidatlast。Hecametoseeyouhere。didn’tlikethat。IthoughthisbeinginRomeagreatmistake。
ButItolerateditbecauseitwastobethelasttimeyoushouldseehim。Nowyoutellmeit’snottohavebeenthelast。Ah,you’renotgrateful!
WhatamItobegratefulfor?
GilbertOsmondlaiddownhislittleimplements,blewaspeckofdustfromhisdrawing,slowlygotup,andforthefirsttimelookedathiswife。Formynothavinginterferedwhilehewashere。
Ohyes,Iam。Irememberperfectlyhowdistinctlyyouletmeknowyoudidn’tlikeit。Iwasverygladwhenhewentaway。
Leavehimalonethen。Don’trunafterhim。
Isabelturnedhereyesawayfromhim。theyresteduponhislittledrawing。ImustgotoEngland,shesaid,withafullconsciousnessthathertonemightstrikeanirritablemanoftasteasstupidlyobstinate。
Ishallnotlikeitifyoudo,Osmondremarked。
WhyshouldImindthat?Youwon’tlikeitifIdon’t。Youlikenothingdoordon’tdo。YoupretendtothinkIlie。
Osmondturnedslightlypale。hegaveacoldsmile。That’swhyyoumustgothen?Nottoseeyourcousin,buttotakearevengeonme。
Iknownothingaboutrevenge。
Ido,saidOsmond。Don’tgivemeanoccasion。
You’reonlytooeagertotakeone。YouwishimmenselythatI
wouldcommitsomefolly。
Ishouldbegratifiedinthatcaseifyoudisobeyedme。
IfIdisobeyedyou?saidIsabelinalowtonewhichhadtheeffectofmildness。
Letitbeclear。IfyouleaveRometo-dayitwillbeapieceofthemostdeliberate,themostcalculated,opposition。
Howcanyoucallitcalculated?Ireceivedmyaunt’stelegrambutthreeminutesago。
Youcalculaterapidly。it’sagreataccomplishment。Idon’tseewhyweshouldprolongourdiscussion。youknowmywish。Andhestoodthereasifheexpectedtoseeherwithdraw。
Butshenevermoved。shecouldn’tmove,strangeasitmayseem。
shestillwishedtojustifyherself。hehadthepower,inanextraordinarydegree,ofmakingherfeelthisneed。Therewassomethinginherimaginationhecouldalwaysappealtoagainstherjudgement。You’venoreasonforsuchawish,saidIsabel,andI’veeveryreasonforgoing。Ican’ttellyouhowunjustyouseemtome。ButIthinkyouknow。It’syourownoppositionthat’scalculated。It’smalignant。
Shehadneverutteredherworstthoughttoherhusbandbefore,andthesensationofhearingitwasevidentlynewtoOsmond。Butheshowednosurprise,andhiscoolnesswasapparentlyaproofthathehadbelievedhiswifewouldinfactbeunabletoresistforeverhisingeniousendeavourtodrawherout。It’sallthemoreintensethen,
heanswered。Andheaddedalmostasifheweregivingherafriendlycounsel:Thisisaveryimportantmatter。Sherecognizedthat。shewasfullyconsciousoftheweightoftheoccasion。sheknewthatbetweenthemtheyhadarrivedatacrisis。Itsgravitymadehercareful。shesaidnothing,andhewenton。YousayI’venoreason?
Ihavetheverybest。Idislike,fromthebottomofmysoul,whatyouintendtodo。It’sdishonourable。it’sindelicate。it’sindecent。Yourcousinisnothingwhatevertome,andI’mundernoobligationtomakeconcessionstohim。I’vealreadymadetheveryhandsomest。Yourrelationswithhim,whilehewashere,keptmeonpinsandneedles。butIletthatpass,becausefromweektoweekI
expectedhimtogo。I’veneverlikedhimandhehasneverlikedme。
That’swhyyoulikehim-becausehehatesme,saidOsmondwithaquick,barelyaudibletremorinhisvoice。I’veanidealofwhatmywifeshoulddoandshouldnotdo。SheshouldnottravelacrossEuropealone,indefianceofmydeepestdesire,tositatthebedsideofothermen。Yourcousin’snothingtoyou。he’snothingtous。YousmilemostexpressivelywhenItalkaboutus,butIassureyouthatwe,Mrs。Osmond,isallIknow。Itakeourmarriageseriously。
youappeartohavefoundawayofnotdoingso。I’mnotawarethatwe’redivorcedorseparated。formewe’reindissolublyunited。Youarenearertomethananyhumancreature,andI’mnearertoyou。Itmaybeadisagreeableproximity。it’sone,atanyrate,ofourowndeliberatemaking。Youdon’tliketoberemindedofthat,Iknow。butI’mperfectlywilling,because-because-Andhepausedamoment,lookingasifhehadsomethingtosaywhichwouldbeverymuchtothepoint。
BecauseIthinkweshouldaccepttheconsequencesofouractions,andwhatIvaluemostinlifeisthehonourofathing!
Hespokegravelyandalmostgently。theaccentofsarcasmhaddroppedoutofhistone。Ithadagravitywhichcheckedhiswife’squickemotion。theresolutionwithwhichshehadenteredtheroomfounditselfcaughtinameshoffinethreads。Hislastwordswerenotcommand,theyconstitutedakindofappeal。and,thoughshefeltthatanyexpressionofrespectonhispartcouldonlybearefinementofegotism,theyrepresentedsomethingtranscendentandabsolute,likethesignofthecrossortheflagofone’scountry。
Hespokeinthenameofsomethingsacredandprecious-theobservanceofamagnificentform。Theywereasperfectlyapartinfeelingastwodisillusionedlovershadeverbeen。buttheyhadneveryetseparatedinact。Isabelhadnotchanged。heroldpassionforjusticestillabodewithinher。andnow,intheverythickofhersenseofherhusband’sblasphemoussophistry,itbegantothrobtoatunewhichforamomentpromisedhimthevictory。Itcameoverherthatinhiswishtopreserveappearanceshewasafterallsincere,andthatthis,asfarasitwent,wasamerit。Tenminutesbeforeshehadfeltallthejoyofirreflectiveaction-ajoytowhichshehadsolongbeenastranger。butactionhadbeensuddenlychangedtoslowrenunciation,transformedbytheblightofOsmond’stouch。Ifshemustrenounce,however,shewouldlethimknowshewasavictimratherthanadupe。Iknowyou’reamasteroftheartofmockery,shesaid。
Howcanyouspeakofanindissolubleunion-howcanyouspeakofyourbeingcontented?Where’sourunionwhenyouaccusemeoffalsity?
Where’syourcontentmentwhenyouhavenothingbuthideoussuspicioninyourheart?
Itisinourlivingdecentlytogether,inspiteofsuchdrawbacks。
Wedon’tlivedecentlytogether!criedIsabel。
Indeedwedon’tifyougotoEngland。
That’sverylittle。that’snothing。Imightdomuchmore。
Heraisedhiseyebrowsandevenhisshouldersalittle:hehadlivedlongenoughinItalytocatchthistrick。Ah,ifyou’vecometothreatenmeIprefermydrawing。Andhewalkedbacktohistable,wherehetookupthesheetofpaperonwhichhehadbeenworkingandstoodstudyingit。IsupposethatifIgoyou’llnotexpectmetocomeback,saidIsabel。
Heturnedquicklyaround,andshecouldseethismovementatleastwasnotdesigned。Helookedatheralittle,andthen,Areyououtofyourmind?heenquired。
Howcanitbeanythingbutarupture?shewenton。especiallyifallyousayistrue?Shewasunabletoseehowitcouldbeanythingbutarupture。shesincerelywishedtoknowwhatelseitmightbe。
Hesatdownbeforehistable。Ireallycan’targuewithyouonthehypothesisofyourdefyingme,hesaid。Andhetookuponeofhislittlebrushesagain。
Shelingeredbutamomentlonger。longenoughtoembracewithhereyehiswholedeliberatelyindifferentyetmostexpressivefigure。
afterwhichshequicklylefttheroom。Herfaculties,herenergy,herpassion,werealldispersedagain。shefeltasifacold,darkmisthadsuddenlyencompassedher。Osmondpossessedinasupremedegreetheartofelicitinganyweakness。OnherwaybacktoherroomshefoundtheCountessGeministandingintheopendoorwayofalittleparlourinwhichasmallcollectionofheterogeneousbookshadbeenarranged。TheCountesshadanopenvolumeinherhand。sheappearedtohavebeenglancingdownapagewhichfailedtostrikeherasinteresting。AtthesoundofIsabel’sstepsheraisedherhead。
Ahmydear,shesaid,you,whoaresoliterary,dotellmesomeamusingbooktoread!Everythinghere’sofadreariness-!Doyouthinkthiswoulddomeanygood?
Isabelglancedatthetitleofthevolumesheheldout,butwithoutreadingorunderstandingit。I’mafraidIcan’tadviseyou。
I’vehadbadnews。Mycousin,RalphTouchett,isdying。
TheCountessthrewdownherbook。Ah,hewassosimpatico。I’mawfullysorryforyou。
Youwouldbesorrierstillifyouknew。
Whatistheretoknow?Youlookverybadly,theCountessadded。
YoumusthavebeenwithOsmond。
HalfanhourbeforeIsabelwouldhavelistenedverycoldlytoanintimationthatsheshouldeverfeeladesireforthesympathyofhersister-in-law,andtherecanbenobetterproofofherpresentembarrassmentthanthefactthatshealmostclutchedatthislady’sflutteringattention。I’vebeenwithOsmond,shesaid,whiletheCountess’sbrighteyesglitteredather。
I’msurethenhehasbeenodious!theCountesscried。DidhesayhewasgladpoorMr。Touchett’sdying?
Hesaidit’simpossibleIshouldgotoEngland。
TheCountess’smind,whenherinterestswereconcerned,wasagile。
shealreadyforesawtheextinctionofanyfurtherbrightnessinhervisittoRome。RalphTouchettwoulddie,Isabelwouldgointomourning,andthentherewouldbenomoredinner-parties。Suchaprospectproducedforamomentinhercountenanceanexpressivegrimace。butthisrapid,picturesqueplayoffeaturewasheronlytributetodisappointment。Afterall,shereflected,thegamewasalmostplayedout。shehadalreadyoverstayedherinvitation。AndthenshecaredenoughforIsabel’stroubletoforgetherown,andshesawthatIsabel’stroublewasdeep。Itseemeddeeperthanthemeredeathofacousin,andtheCountesshadnohesitationinconnectingherexasperatingbrotherwiththeexpressionofhersister-in-law’seyes。Herheartbeatwithanalmostjoyousexpectation,forifshehadwishedtoseeOsmondovertoppedtheconditionslookedfavourablenow。OfcourseifIsabelshouldgotoEnglandsheherselfwouldimmediatelyleavePalazzoRoccanera。nothingwouldinducehertoremaintherewithOsmond。NeverthelessshefeltanimmensedesiretohearthatIsabelwouldgotoEngland。
Nothing’simpossibleforyou,mydear,shesaidcaressingly。
Whyelseareyourichandcleverandgood?
Whyindeed?Ifeelstupidlyweak。
WhydoesOsmondsayit’simpossible?theCountessaskedinatonewhichsufficientlydeclaredthatshecouldn’timagine。
Fromthemomentshethusbegantoquestionher,however,Isabeldrewback。shedisengagedherhand,whichtheCountesshadaffectionatelytaken。Butsheansweredthisenquirywithfrankbitterness。Becausewe’resohappytogetherthatwecan’tseparateevenforafortnight。
Ah,criedtheCountesswhileIsabelturnedaway,whenIwanttomakeajourneymyhusbandsimplytellsmeIcanhavenomoney!
Isabelwenttoherroom,whereshewalkedupanddownforanhour。
Itmayappeartosomereadersthatshegaveherselfmuchtrouble,anditiscertainthatforawomanofahighspiritshehadallowedherselfeasilytobearrested。Itseemedtoherthatonlynowshefullymeasuredthegreatundertakingofmatrimony。Marriagemeantthatinsuchacaseasthis,whenonehadtochoose,onechoseasamatterofcourseforone’shusband。I’mafraid-yes,I’mafraid,
shesaidtoherselfmorethanonce,stoppingshortinherwalk。Butwhatshewasafraidofwasnotherhusband-hisdispleasure,hishatred,hisrevenge。itwasnotevenherownlaterjudgementofherconduct-aconsiderationwhichhadoftenheldherincheck。itwassimplytheviolencetherewouldbeingoingwhenOsmondwishedhertoremain。Agulfofdifferencehadopenedbetweenthem,butneverthelessitwashisdesirethatsheshouldstay,itwasahorrortohimthatsheshouldgo。Sheknewthenervousfinenesswithwhichhecouldfeelanobjection。Whathethoughtofhersheknew,whathewascapableofsayingtohershehadfelt。yettheyweremarried,forallthat,andmarriagemeantthatawomanshouldcleavetothemanwithwhom,utteringtremendousvows,shehadstoodatthealtar。Shesankdownonhersofaatlastandburiedherheadinapileofcushions。
WhensheraisedherheadagaintheCountessGeminihoveredbeforeher。Shehadcomeinallunperceived。shehadastrangesmileonherthinlipsandherwholefacehadgrowninanhourashiningintimation。Shelivedassuredly,itmightbesaid,atthewindowofherspirit,butnowshewasleaningfarout。Iknocked,shebegan,butyoudidn’tanswerme。SoIventuredin。I’vebeenlookingatyouforthelastfiveminutes。You’reveryunhappy。
Yes。butIdon’tthinkyoucancomfortme。
Willyougivemeleavetotry?AndtheCountesssatdownonthesofabesideher。Shecontinuedtosmile,andtherewassomethingcommunicativeandexultantinherexpression。Sheappearedtohaveadealtosay,anditoccurredtoIsabelforthefirsttimethathersister-in-lawmightsaysomethingreallyhuman。Shemadeplaywithherglitteringeyes,inwhichtherewasanunpleasantfascination。
Afterall,shesoonresumed,Imusttellyou,tobeginwith,thatI
don’tunderstandyourstateofmind。Youseemtohavesomanyscruples,somanyreasons,somanyties。WhenIdiscovered,tenyearsago,thatmyhusband’sdearestwishwastomakememiserableoflatehehassimplyletmealone-ah,itwasawonderfulsimplification!MypoorIsabel,you’renotsimpleenough。
No,I’mnotsimpleenough,saidIsabel。
There’ssomethingIwantyoutoknow,theCountessdeclared-becauseIthinkyououghttoknowit。Perhapsyoudo。
perhapsyou’veguessedit。Butifyouhave,allIcansayisthatI
understandstilllesswhyyoushouldn’tdoasyoulike。
Whatdoyouwishmetoknow?Isabelfeltaforebodingthatmadeherheartbeatfaster。TheCountesswasabouttojustifyherself,andthisalonewasportentous。
Butshewasneverthelessdisposedtoplayalittlewithhersubject。
InyourplaceIshouldhaveguesseditagesago。Haveyouneverreallysuspected?
I’veguessednothing。WhatshouldIhavesuspected?Idon’tknowwhatyoumean。
That’sbecauseyou’vesuchabeastlypuremind。Ineversawawomanwithsuchapuremind!criedtheCountess。
Isabelslowlygotup。You’regoingtotellmesomethinghorrible。
Youcancallitbywhatevernameyouwill!AndtheCountessrosealso,whilehergatheredperversitygrewvividanddreadful。Shestoodamomentinasortofglareofintentionand,asseemedtoIsabeleventhen,ofugliness。afterwhichshesaid:Myfirstsister-in-lawhadnochildren。
Isabelstaredbackather。theannouncementwasananticlimax。Yourfirstsister-in-law?
Isupposeyouknowatleast,ifonemaymentionit,thatOsmondhasbeenmarriedbefore!I’veneverspokentoyouofhiswife。Ithoughtitmightn’tbedecentorrespectful。Butothers,lessparticular,musthavedoneso。Thepoorlittlewomanlivedhardlythreeyearsanddiedchildless。Itwasn’ttillafterherdeaththatPansyarrived。
Isabel’sbrowhadcontractedtoafrown。herlipswerepartedinpale,vaguewonder。Shewastryingtofollow。thereseemedsomuchmoretofollowthanshecouldsee。Pansy’snotmyhusband’schildthen?
Yourhusband’s-inperfection!Butnooneelse’shusband’s。Someoneelse’swife’s。Ah,mygoodIsabel,criedtheCountess,withyouonemustdotone’si’s!
Idon’tunderstand。Whosewife’s?Isabelasked。
ThewifeofahorridlittleSwisswhodied-howlong?-adozen,morethanfifteen,yearsago。HeneverrecognizedMissPansy,nor,knowingwhathewasabout,wouldhaveanythingtosaytoher。andtherewasnoreasonwhyheshould。Osmonddid,andthatwasbetter。
thoughhehadtofitonafterwardsthewholerigmaroleofhisownwife’shavingdiedinchildbirth,andofhishaving,ingriefandhorror,banishedthelittlegirlfromhissightforaslongaspossiblebeforetakingherhomefromnurse。Hiswifehadreallydied,youknow,ofquiteanothermatterandinquiteanotherplace:inthePiedmontesemountains,wheretheyhadgone,oneAugust,becauseherhealthappearedtorequiretheair,butwhereshewassuddenlytakenworse-fatallyill。Thestorypassed,sufficiently。itwascoveredbytheappearancessolongasnobodyheeded,asnobodycaredtolookintoit。ButofcourseIknew-withoutresearches,theCountesslucidlyproceeded。asalso,you’llunderstand,withoutawordsaidbetweenus-ImeanbetweenOsmondandme。Don’tyouseehimlookingatme,insilence,thatway,tosettleit?-thatistosettlemeifIshouldsayanything。Isaidnothing,rightorleft-neverawordtoacreature,ifyoucanbelievethatofme:onmyhonour,mydear,Ispeakofthethingtoyounow,afterallthistime,asI’venever,neverspoken。Itwastobeenoughforme,fromthefirst,thatthechildwasmyniece-fromthemomentshewasmybrother’sdaughter。Asforherveritablemother-!ButwiththisPansy’swonderfulauntdroppedinvoluntarily,fromtheimpressionofhersister-in-law’sface,outofwhichmoreeyesmighthaveseemedtolookatherthanshehadeverhadtomeet。
Shehadspokennoname,yetIsabelcouldbutcheck,onherownlips,anechooftheunspoken。Shesanktoherseatagain,hangingherhead。
Whyhaveyoutoldmethis?sheaskedinavoicetheCountesshardlyrecognized。
BecauseI’vebeensoboredwithyournotknowing。I’vebeenbored,frankly,mydear,withnothavingtoldyou。asif,stupidly,allthistimeIcouldn’thavemanaged!Camedepasse,ifyoudon’tmindmysayingso,thethings,allroundyou,thatyou’veappearedtosucceedinnotknowing。It’sasortofassistance-aidtoinnocentignorance-thatI’vealwaysbeenabadhandatrendering。andinthisconnexion,thatofkeepingquietformybrother,myvirtuehasatanyratefinallyfounditselfexhausted。It’snotablacklie,moreover,youknow,theCountessinimitablyadded。ThefactsareexactlywhatItellyou。
Ihadnoidea,saidIsabelpresently。andlookedupatherinamannerthatdoubtlessmatchedtheapparentwitlessnessofthisconfession。
SoIbelieved-thoughitwashardtobelieve。Haditneveroccurredtoyouthathewasforsixorsevenyearsherlover?
Idon’tknow。Thingshaveoccurredtome,andperhapsthatwaswhattheyallmeant。
Shehasbeenwonderfullyclever,shehasbeenmagnificent,aboutPansy!theCountess,beforeallthisviewofit,cried。
Oh,noidea,forme,Isabelwenton,everdefinitelytookthatform。Sheappearedtobemakingouttoherselfwhathadbeenandwhathadn’t。Andasitis-Idon’tunderstand。
Shespokeasonetroubledandpuzzled,yetthepoorCountessseemedtohaveseenherrevelationfallbelowitspossibilitiesofeffect。Shehadexpectedtokindlesomeresponsiveblaze,buthadbarelyextractedaspark。
Isabelshowedasscarcemoreimpressedthanshemighthavebeen,asayoungwomanofapprovedimagination,withsomefinesinisterpassageofpublichistory。Don’tyourecognizehowthechildcouldneverpassforherhusband’s?-thatiswithM。Merlehimself,hercompanionresumed。Theyhadbeenseparatedtoolongforthat,andhehadgonetosomefarcountry-IthinktoSouthAmerica。Ifshehadeverhadchildren-whichI’mnotsureof-shehadlostthem。Theconditionshappenedtomakeitworkable,understressImeanatsoawkwardapinch,thatOsmondshouldacknowledgethelittlegirl。
Hiswifewasdead-verytrue。butshehadnotbeendeadtoolongtoputacertainaccommodationofdatesoutofthequestion-fromthemoment,Imean,thatsuspicionwasn’tstarted。whichwaswhattheyhadtotakecareof。WhatwasmorenaturalthanthatpoorMrs。Osmond,atadistanceandforaworldnottroublingabouttrifles,shouldhaveleftbehindher,poverina,thepledgeofherbriefhappinessthathadcostherlife?Withtheaidofachangeofresidence-OsmondhadbeenlivingwithheratNaplesatthetimeoftheirstayintheAlps,andheinduecourseleftitforever-thewholehistorywassuccessfullysetgoing。Mypoorsister-in-law,inhergrave,couldn’thelpherself,andtherealmother,tosaveherskin,renouncedallvisiblepropertyinthechild。
Ah,poor,poorwoman!criedIsabel,whoherewithburstintotears。
Itwasalongtimesinceshehadshedany。shehadsufferedahighreactionfromweeping。ButnowtheyflowedwithanabundanceinwhichtheCountessGeminifoundonlyanotherdiscomfiture。
It’sverykindofyoutopityher!shediscordantlylaughed。
Yesindeed,youhaveawayofyourown-!
Hemusthavebeenfalsetohiswife-andsoverysoon!saidIsabelwithasuddencheck。
That’sallthat’swanting-thatyoushouldtakeuphercause!theCountesswenton。Iquiteagreewithyou,however,thatitwasmuchtoosoon。Buttome,tome-?AndIsabelhesitatedasifshehadnotheard。asifherquestion-thoughitwassufficientlythereinhereyes-wereallforherself。
Toyouhehasbeenfaithful?Well,itdepends,mydear,onwhatyoucallfaithful。Whenhemarriedyouhewasnolongertheloverofanotherwoman-suchaloverashehadbeen,caramia,betweentheirrisksandtheirprecautions,whilethethinglasted!Thatstateofaffairshadpassedaway。theladyhadrepented,oratallevents,forreasonsofherown,drawnback:shehadalwayshad,too,aworshipofappearancessointensethatevenOsmondhimselfhadgotboredwithit。Youmaythereforeimaginewhatitwas-whenhecouldn’tpatchitonconvenientlytoanyofthosehegoesinfor!Butthewholepastwasbetweenthem。
Yes,Isabelmechanicallyechoed,thewholepastisbetweenthem。
Ah,thislaterpastisnothing。Butforsixorsevenyears,asI
say,theyhadkeptitup。
Shewassilentalittle。Whythendidshewanthimtomarryme?
Ahmydear,that’shersuperiority!Becauseyouhadmoney。andbecauseshebelievedyouwouldbegoodtoPansy。
Poorwoman-andPansywhodoesn’tlikeher!criedIsabel。
That’sthereasonshewantedsomeonewhomPansywouldlike。Sheknowsit。sheknowseverything。
Willsheknowthatyou’vetoldmethis?
Thatwilldependuponwhetheryoutellher。She’spreparedforit,anddoyouknowwhatshecountsuponforherdefence?OnyourbelievingthatIlie。Perhapsyoudo。don’tmakeyourselfuncomfortabletohideit。Only,asithappensthistime,Idon’t。I’vetoldplentyoflittleidioticfibs,butthey’veneverhurtanyonebutmyself。
Isabelsatstaringathercompanion’sstoryasatabaleoffantasticwaressomestrollinggypsymighthaveunpackedonthecarpetatherfeet。WhydidOsmondnevermarryher?shefinallyasked。
Becauseshehadnomoney。TheCountesshadananswerforeverything,andifsheliedsheliedwell。Nooneknows,noonehaseverknown,whatsheliveson,orhowshehasgotallthosebeautifulthings。Idon’tbelieveOsmondhimselfknows。Besides,shewouldn’thavemarriedhim。
Howcanshehavelovedhimthen?
Shedoesn’tlovehiminthatway。Shedidatfirst,andthen,I
suppose,shewouldhavemarriedhim。butatthattimeherhusbandwasliving。BythetimeM。Merlehadrejoined-Iwon’tsayhisancestors,becauseheneverhadany-herrelationswithOsmondhadchanged,andshehadgrownmoreambitious。Besides,shehasneverhad,abouthim,theCountesswenton,leavingIsabeltowinceforitsotragicallyafterwards-shehadneverhad,whatyoumightcallanyillusionsofintelligence。Shehopedshemightmarryagreatman。thathasalwaysbeenheridea。Shehaswaitedandwatchedandplottedandprayed。butshehasneversucceeded。Idon’tcallMadameMerleasuccess,youknow。Idon’tknowwhatshemayaccomplishyet,butatpresentshehasverylittletoshow。Theonlytangibleresultshehaseverachieved-except,ofcourse,gettingtoknoweveryoneandstayingwiththemfreeofexpense-hasbeenherbringingyouandOsmondtogether。Oh,shedidthat,mydear。youneedn’tlookasifyoudoubtedit。I’vewatchedthemforyears。Iknoweverything-everything。
I’mthoughtagreatscatterbrain,butI’vehadenoughapplicationofmindtofollowupthosetwo。Shehatesme,andherwayofshowingitistopretendtobeforeverdefendingme。WhenpeoplesayI’vehadfifteenloversshelookshorrifiedanddeclaresthatquitehalfofthemwereneverproved。Shehasbeenafraidofmeforyears,andshehastakengreatcomfortinthevile,falsethingspeoplehavesaidaboutme。ShehasbeenafraidI’dexposeher,andshethreatenedmeonedaywhenOsmondbegantopayhiscourttoyou。ItwasathishouseinFlorence。doyourememberthatafternoonwhenshebroughtyouthereandwehadteainthegarden?SheletmeknowthenthatifIshouldtelltalestwocouldplayatthatgame。Shepretendsthere’sagooddealmoretotellaboutmethanabouther。Itwouldbeaninterestingcomparison!Idon’tcareafigaboutwhatshemaysay,simplybecauseIknowyoudon’tcareafig。Youcan’ttroubleyourheadaboutmelessthanyoudoalready。Soshemaytakeherrevengeasshechooses。Idon’tthinkshe’llfrightenyouverymuch。Hergreatideahasbeentobetremendouslyirreproachable-akindoffull-blownlily-theincarnationofpropriety。Shehasalwaysworshippedthatgod。
ThereshouldbenoscandalaboutCaesar’swife,youknow。and,asI
say,shehasalwayshopedtomarryCaesar。Thatwasonereasonshewouldn’tmarryOsmond。thefearthatonseeingherwithPansypeoplewouldputthingstogether-wouldevenseearesemblance。Shehashadaterrorlestthemothershouldbetrayherself。Shehasbeenawfullycareful。themotherhasneverdoneso。
Yes,yes,themotherhasdoneso,saidIsabel,whohadlistenedtoallthiswithafacemoreandmorewan。Shebetrayedherselftometheotherday,thoughIdidn’trecognizeher。ThereappearedtohavebeenachanceofPansy’smakingagreatmarriage,andinherdisappointmentatitsnotcomingoffshealmostdroppedthemask。
Ah,that’swhereshe’ddishherself!criedtheCountess。Shehasfailedsodreadfullythatshe’sdeterminedherdaughtershallmakeitup。
Isabelstartedatthewordsherdaughter,whichherguestthrewoffsofamiliarly。Itseemsverywonderful,shemurmured。andinthisbewilderingimpressionshehadalmostlosthersenseofbeingpersonallytouchedbythestory。
Nowdon’tgoandturnagainstthepoorinnocentchild!theCountesswenton。She’sverynice,inspiteofherdeplorableorigin。
ImyselfhavelikedPansy。not,naturally,becauseshewashers,butbecauseshehadbecomeyours。
Yes,shehasbecomemine。Andhowthepoorwomanmusthavesufferedatseeingme-!Isabelexclaimedwhilesheflushedatthethought。
Idon’tbelieveshehassuffered。onthecontrary,shehasenjoyed。
Osmond’smarriagehasgivenhisdaughteragreatlittlelift。Beforethatshelivedinahole。Anddoyouknowwhatthemotherthought?
Thatyoumighttakesuchafancytothechildthatyou’ddosomethingforher。Osmondofcoursecouldnevergiveheraportion。
Osmondwasreallyextremelypoor。butofcourseyouknowallaboutthat。Ah,mydear,criedtheCountess,whydidyoueverinheritmoney?ShestoppedamomentasifshesawsomethingsingularinIsabel’sface。Don’ttellmenowthatyou’llgiveheradot。You’recapableofthat,butIwouldrefusetobelieveit。Don’ttrytobetoogood。Bealittleeasyandnaturalandnasty。feelalittlewicked,forthecomfortofit,onceinyourlife!
It’sverystrange。IsupposeIoughttoknow,butI’msorry,
Isabelsaid。I’mmuchobligedtoyou。
Yes,youseemtobe!criedtheCountesswithamockinglaugh。
Perhapsyouare-perhapsyou’renot。Youdon’ttakeitasIshouldhavethought。
HowshouldItakeit?Isabelasked。
Well,IshouldsayasawomanwhohasbeenmadeuseofIsabelmadenoanswertothis。sheonlylistened,andtheCountesswenton。
They’vealwaysbeenboundtoeachother。theyremainedsoevenaftershebrokeoff-orhedid。Buthehasalwaysbeenmoreforherthanshehasbeenforhim。Whentheirlittlecarnivalwasovertheymadeabargainthateachshouldgivetheothercompleteliberty,butthateachshouldalsodoeverythingpossibletohelptheotheron。YoumayaskmehowIknowsuchathingasthat。Iknowitbythewaythey’vebehaved。Nowseehowmuchbetterwomenarethanmen!ShehasfoundawifeforOsmond,butOsmondhasneverliftedalittlefingerforher。Shehasworkedforhim,plottedforhim,sufferedforhim。
shehasevenmorethanoncefoundmoneyforhim。andtheendofitisthathe’stiredofher。She’sanoldhabit。therearemomentswhenheneedsher,butonthewholehewouldn’tmissherifshewereremoved。And,what’smore,to-daysheknowsit。Soyouneedn’tbejealous!theCountessaddedhumorously。
Isabelrosefromhersofaagain。shefeltbruisedandscantofbreath。herheadwashummingwithnewknowledge。I’mmuchobligedtoyou,sherepeated。Andthensheaddedabruptly,inquiteadifferenttone:Howdoyouknowallthis?
ThisenquiryappearedtoruffletheCountessmorethanIsabel’sexpressionofgratitudepleasedher。Shegavehercompanionaboldstare,withwhich,LetusassumethatI’veinventedit!shecried。
Shetoo,however,suddenlychangedhertoneand,layingherhandonIsabel’sarm,saidwiththepenetrationofhersharpbrightsmile:
Nowwillyougiveupyourjourney?
Isabelstartedalittle。sheturnedaway。Butshefeltweakandinamomenthadtolayherarmuponthemantel-shelfforsupport。Shestoodaminuteso,andthenuponherarmshedroppedherdizzyhead,withclosedeyesandpalelips。
I’vedonewrongtospeak-I’vemadeyouill!theCountesscried。
Ah,ImustseeRalph!Isabelwailed。notinresentment,notinthequickpassionhercompanionhadlookedfor。butinatoneoffar-reaching,infinitesadness。