首页 >出版文学> THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY>第6章
  Hisnighthadbeenuntroubledbyanyimagesofpleasureorofpain。Butyouthsmileswithoutanyreason。Itisoneofitschiefestcharms。
  Heturnedround,andleaninguponhiselbow,begantosiphischocolate。ThemellowNovembersuncamestreamingintotheroom。Theskywasbright,andtherewasagenialwarmthintheair。ItwasalmostlikeamorninginMay。
  Graduallytheeventsoftheprecedingnightcreptwithsilent,blood-stainedfeetintohisbrainandreconstructedthemselvestherewithterribledistinctness。Hewincedatthememoryofallthathehadsuffered,andforamomentthesamecuriousfeelingofloathingforBasilHallwardthathadmadehimkillhimashesatinthechaircamebacktohim,andhegrewcoldwithpassion。Thedeadmanwasstillsittingthere,too,andinthesunlightnow。Howhorriblethatwas!Suchhideousthingswereforthedarkness,notfortheday。
  Hefeltthatifhebroodedonwhathehadgonethroughhewouldsickenorgrowmad。Thereweresinswhosefascinationwasmoreinthememorythaninthedoingofthem,strangetriumphsthatgratifiedthepridemorethanthepassions,andgavetotheintellectaquickenedsenseofjoy,greaterthananyjoytheybrought,orcouldeverbring,tothesenses。
  Butthiswasnotoneofthem。Itwasathingtobedrivenoutofthemind,tobedruggedwithpoppies,tobestrangledlestitmightstrangleoneitself。
  Whenthehalf-hourstruck,hepassedhishandacrosshisforehead,andthengotuphastilyanddressedhimselfwithevenmorethanhisusualcare,givingagooddealofattentiontothechoiceofhisnecktieandscarf-pinandchanginghisringsmorethanonce。Hespentalongtimealsooverbreakfast,tastingthevariousdishes,talkingtohisvaletaboutsomenewliveriesthathewasthinkingofgettingmadefortheservantsatSelby,andgoingthroughhiscorrespondence。Atsomeoftheletters,hesmiled。Threeofthemboredhim。Onehereadseveraltimesoverandthentoreupwithaslightlookofannoyanceinhisface。Thatawfulthing,awoman’smemory!asLordHenryhadoncesaid。
  Afterhehaddrunkhiscupofblackcoffee,hewipedhislipsslowlywithanapkin,motionedtohisservanttowait,andgoingovertothetable,satdownandwrotetwoletters。Oneheputinhispocket,theotherhehandedtothevalet。
  Takethisroundto152,HertfordStreet,Francis,andifMr。
  Campbellisoutoftown,gethisaddress。
  Assoonashewasalone,helitacigaretteandbegansketchinguponapieceofpaper,drawingfirstflowersandbitsofarchitecture,andthenhumanfaces。SuddenlyheremarkedthateveryfacethathedrewseemedtohaveafantasticlikenesstoBasilHallward。Hefrowned,andgettingup,wentovertothebook-caseandtookoutavolumeathazard。
  Hewasdeterminedthathewouldnotthinkaboutwhathadhappeneduntilitbecameabsolutelynecessarythatheshoulddoso。
  Whenhehadstretchedhimselfonthesofa,helookedatthetitle-pageofthebook。ItwasGautier’sEmauxetCamees,Charpentier’sJapanese-paperedition,withtheJacquemartetching。Thebindingwasofcitron-greenleather,withadesignofgilttrellis-workanddottedpomegranates。IthadbeengiventohimbyAdrianSingleton。Asheturnedoverthepages,hiseyefellonthepoemaboutthehandofLacenaire,thecoldyellowhanddusuppliceencoremallavé。:e,withitsdownyredhairsanditsdoigtsdefaune。Heglancedathisownwhitetaperfingers,shudderingslightlyinspiteofhimself,andpassedon,tillhecametothoselovelystanzasuponVenice:
  Surunegammechromatique,Leseindeperiesruisselant,LaVé。nusdel’AdriatiqueSortdel’eausoncorpsroseetblanc。Lesdô。mes,surl’azurdesondesSuivantlaphraseaupurcontour,S’enflentcommedesgorgesrondesQuesoulè。veunsoupird’amour。L’esquifabordeetmedé。pose,Jetantsonamarreaupilier,Devantunefaç。aderose,Surlemarbred’unescalier。
  Howexquisitetheywere!Asonereadthem,oneseemedtobefloatingdownthegreenwater-waysofthepinkandpearlcity,seatedinablackgondolawithsilverprowandtrailingcurtains。Themerelineslookedtohimlikethosestraightlinesofturquoise-bluethatfollowoneasonepushesouttotheLido。Thesuddenflashesofcolourremindedhimofthegleamoftheopal-and-iris-throatedbirdsthatflutterroundthetallhoneycombedCampanile,orstalk,withsuchstatelygrace,throughthedim,dust-stainedarcades。Leaningbackwithhalf-closedeyes,hekeptsayingoverandovertohimself:
  Devantunefaç。aderose,Surlemarbred’unescalier。
  ThewholeofVenicewasinthosetwolines。Herememberedtheautumnthathehadpassedthere,andawonderfullovethathadstirredhimtomaddelightfulfollies。Therewasromanceineveryplace。ButVenice,likeOxford,hadkeptthebackgroundforromance,and,tothetrueromantic,backgroundwaseverything,oralmosteverything。Basilhadbeenwithhimpartofthetime,andhadgonewildoverTintoret。PoorBasil!Whatahorriblewayforamantodie!
  Hesighed,andtookupthevolumeagain,andtriedtoforget。
  HereadoftheswallowsthatflyinandoutofthelittlecafeatSmyrnawheretheHadjissitcountingtheiramberbeadsandtheturbanedmerchantssmoketheirlongtasselledpipesandtalkgravelytoeachother。hereadoftheObeliskinthePlacedelaConcordethatweepstearsofgraniteinitslonelysunlessexileandlongstobebackbythehot,lotus-coveredNile,wherethereareSphinxes,androse-redibises,andwhitevultureswithgildedclaws,andcrocodileswithsmallberyleyesthatcrawloverthegreensteamingmud。hebegantobroodoverthoseverseswhich,drawingmusicfromkiss-stainedmarble,tellofthatcuriousstatuethatGautiercomparestoacontraltovoice,themonstrecharmantthatcouchesintheporphyry-roomoftheLouvre。Butafteratimethebookfellfromhishand。Hegrewnervous,andahorriblefitofterrorcameoverhim。
  WhatifAlanCampbellshouldbeoutofEngland?Dayswouldelapsebeforehecouldcomeback。Perhapshemightrefusetocome。Whatcouldhedothen?
  Everymomentwasofvitalimportance。
  Theyhadbeengreatfriendsonce,fiveyearsbefore——almostinseparable,indeed。Thentheintimacyhadcomesuddenlytoanend。Whentheymetinsocietynow,itwasonlyDorianGraywhosmiled:AlanCampbellneverdid。
  Hewasanextremelycleveryoungman,thoughhehadnorealappreciationofthevisiblearts,andwhateverlittlesenseofthebeautyofpoetryhepossessedhehadgainedentirelyfromDorian。Hisdominantintellectualpassionwasforscience。AtCambridgehehadspentagreatdealofhistimeworkinginthelaboratory,andhadtakenagoodclassintheNaturalScienceTriposofhisyear。Indeed,hewasstilldevotedtothestudyofchemistry,andhadalaboratoryofhisowninwhichheusedtoshuthimselfupalldaylong,greatlytotheannoyanceofhismother,whohadsetherheartonhisstandingforParliamentandhadavagueideathatachemistwasapersonwhomadeupprescriptions。Hewasanexcellentmusician,however,aswell,andplayedboththeviolinandthepianobetterthanmostamateurs。
  Infact,itwasmusicthathadfirstbroughthimandDorianGraytogether——musicandthatindefinableattractionthatDorianseemedtobeabletoexercisewheneverhewished——and,indeed,exercisedoftenwithoutbeingconsciousofit。TheyhadmetatLadyBerkshire’sthenightthatRubinsteinplayedthere,andafterthatusedtobealwaysseentogetherattheoperaandwherevergoodmusicwasgoingon。Foreighteenmonthstheirintimacylasted。
  CampbellwasalwayseitheratSelbyRoyalorinGrosvenorSquare。Tohim,astomanyothers,DorianGraywasthetypeofeverythingthatiswonderfulandfascinatinginlife。Whetherornotaquarrelhadtakenplacebetweenthemnooneeverknew。ButsuddenlypeopleremarkedthattheyscarcelyspokewhentheymetandthatCampbellseemedalwaystogoawayearlyfromanypartyatwhichDorianGraywaspresent。Hehadchanged,too——wasstrangelymelancholyattimes,appearedalmosttodislikehearingmusic,andwouldneverhimselfplay,givingashisexcuse,whenhewascalledupon,thathewassoabsorbedinsciencethathehadnotimeleftinwhichtopractise。
  Andthiswascertainlytrue。Everydayheseemedtobecomemoreinterestedinbiology,andhisnameappearedonceortwiceinsomeofthescientificreviewsinconnectionwithcertaincuriousexperiments。
  ThiswasthemanDorianGraywaswaitingfor。Everysecondhekeptglancingattheclock。Astheminuteswentbyhebecamehorriblyagitated。
  Atlasthegotupandbegantopaceupanddowntheroom,lookinglikeabeautifulcagedthing。Hetooklongstealthystrides。Hishandswerecuriouslycold。
  Thesuspensebecameunbearable。Timeseemedtohimtobecrawlingwithfeetoflead,whilehebymonstrouswindswasbeingswepttowardsthejaggededgeofsomeblackcleftofprecipice。Heknewwhatwaswaitingforhimthere。sawit,indeed,and,shuddering,crushedwithdankhandshisburninglidsasthoughhewouldhaverobbedtheverybrainofsightanddriventheeyeballsbackintotheircave。Itwasuseless。Thebrainhaditsownfoodonwhichitbattened,andtheimagination,madegrotesquebyterror,twistedanddistortedasalivingthingbypain,dancedlikesomefoulpuppetonastandandgrinnedthroughmovingmasks。Then,suddenly,timestoppedforhim。Yes:thatblind,slow-breathingthingcrawlednomore,andhorriblethoughts,timebeingdead,racednimblyoninfront,anddraggedahideousfuturefromitsgrave,andshowedittohim。Hestaredatit。Itsveryhorrormadehimstone。
  Atlastthedooropenedandhisservantentered。Heturnedglazedeyesuponhim。
  Mr。Campbell,sir,saidtheman。
  Asighofreliefbrokefromhisparchedlips,andthecolourcamebacktohischeeks。
  Askhimtocomeinatonce,Francis。Hefeltthathewashimselfagain。Hismoodofcowardicehadpassedaway。
  Themanbowedandretired。Inafewmoments,AlanCampbellwalkedin,lookingverysternandratherpale,hispallorbeingintensifiedbyhiscoal-blackhairanddarkeyebrows。
  Alan!Thisiskindofyou。Ithankyouforcoming。
  Ihadintendednevertoenteryourhouseagain,Gray。Butyousaiditwasamatteroflifeanddeath。Hisvoicewashardandcold。Hespokewithslowdeliberation。TherewasalookofcontemptinthesteadysearchinggazethatheturnedonDorian。HekepthishandsinthepocketsofhisAstrakhancoat,andseemednottohavenoticedthegesturewithwhichhehadbeengreeted。
  Yes:itisamatteroflifeanddeath,Alan,andtomorethanoneperson。Sitdown。
  Campbelltookachairbythetable,andDoriansatoppositetohim。Thetwomen’seyesmet。InDorian’stherewasinfinitepity。Heknewthatwhathewasgoingtodowasdreadful。
  Afterastrainedmomentofsilence,heleanedacrossandsaid,veryquietly,butwatchingtheeffectofeachworduponthefaceofhimhehadsentfor,Alan,inalockedroomatthetopofthishouse,aroomtowhichnobodybutmyselfhasaccess,adeadmanisseatedatatable。
  Hehasbeendeadtenhoursnow。Don’tstir,anddon’tlookatmelikethat。
  Whothemanis,whyhedied,howhedied,aremattersthatdonotconcernyou。Whatyouhavetodoisthis——
  Stop,Gray。Idon’twanttoknowanythingfurther。Whetherwhatyouhavetoldmeistrueornottruedoesn’tconcernme。Ientirelydeclinetobemixedupinyourlife。Keepyourhorriblesecretstoyourself。Theydon’tinterestmeanymore。
  Alan,theywillhavetointerestyou。Thisonewillhavetointerestyou。Iamawfullysorryforyou,Alan。ButIcan’thelpmyself。Youaretheonemanwhoisabletosaveme。Iamforcedtobringyouintothematter。
  Ihavenooption。Alan,youarescientific。Youknowaboutchemistryandthingsofthatkind。Youhavemadeexperiments。Whatyouhavegottodoistodestroythethingthatisupstairs——todestroyitsothatnotavestigeofitwillbeleft。Nobodysawthispersoncomeintothehouse。
  Indeed,atthepresentmomentheissupposedtobeinParis。Hewillnotbemissedformonths。Whenheismissed,theremustbenotraceofhimfoundhere。You,Alan,youmustchangehim,andeverythingthatbelongstohim,intoahandfulofashesthatImayscatterintheair。
  Youaremad,Dorian。
  Ah!IwaswaitingforyoutocallmeDorian。
  Youaremad,Itellyou——madtoimaginethatIwouldraiseafingertohelpyou,madtomakethismonstrousconfession。Iwillhavenothingtodowiththismatter,whateveritis。DoyouthinkIamgoingtoperilmyreputationforyou?Whatisittomewhatdevil’sworkyouareupto?
  Itwassuicide,Alan。
  Iamgladofthat。Butwhodrovehimtoit?You,Ishouldfancy。
  Doyoustillrefusetodothisforme?
  OfcourseIrefuse。Iwillhaveabsolutelynothingtodowithit。Idon’tcarewhatshamecomesonyou。Youdeserveitall。Ishouldnotbesorrytoseeyoudisgraced,publiclydisgraced。Howdareyouaskme,ofallmenintheworld,tomixmyselfupinthishorror?Ishouldhavethoughtyouknewmoreaboutpeople’scharacters。YourfriendLordHenryWottoncan’thavetaughtyoumuchaboutpsychology,whateverelsehehastaughtyou。Nothingwillinducemetostirasteptohelpyou。Youhavecometothewrongman。Gotosomeofyourfriends。Don’tcometome。
  Alan,itwasmurder。Ikilledhim。Youdon’tknowwhathehadmademesuffer。Whatevermylifeis,hehadmoretodowiththemakingorthemarringofitthanpoorHarryhashad。Hemaynothaveintendedit,theresultwasthesame。
  Murder!GoodGod,Dorian,isthatwhatyouhavecometo?Ishallnotinformuponyou。Itisnotmybusiness。Besides,withoutmystirringinthematter,youarecertaintobearrested。Nobodyevercommitsacrimewithoutdoingsomethingstupid。ButIwillhavenothingtodowithit。
  Youmusthavesomethingtodowithit。Wait,waitamoment。listentome。Onlylisten,Alan。AllIaskofyouistoperformacertainscientificexperiment。Yougotohospitalsanddead-houses,andthehorrorsthatyoudotheredon’taffectyou。Ifinsomehideousdissecting-roomorfetidlaboratoryyoufoundthismanlyingonaleadentablewithredguttersscoopedoutinitforthebloodtoflowthrough,youwouldsimplylookuponhimasanadmirablesubject。Youwouldnotturnahair。Youwouldnotbelievethatyouweredoinganythingwrong。Onthecontrary,youwouldprobablyfeelthatyouwerebenefitingthehumanrace,orincreasingthesumofknowledgeintheworld,orgratifyingintellectualcuriosity,orsomethingofthatkind。WhatIwantyoutodoismerelywhatyouhaveoftendonebefore。Indeed,todestroyabodymustbefarlesshorriblethanwhatyouareaccustomedtoworkat。And,remember,itistheonlypieceofevidenceagainstme。Ifitisdiscovered,Iamlost。anditissuretobediscoveredunlessyouhelpme。
  Ihavenodesiretohelpyou。Youforgetthat。Iamsimplyindifferenttothewholething。Ithasnothingtodowithme。
  Alan,Ientreatyou。ThinkofthepositionIamin。JustbeforeyoucameIalmostfaintedwithterror。Youmayknowterroryourselfsomeday。No!don’tthinkofthat。Lookatthematterpurelyfromthescientificpointofview。Youdon’tinquirewherethedeadthingsonwhichyouexperimentcomefrom。Don’tinquirenow。Ihavetoldyoutoomuchasitis。ButI
  begofyoutodothis。Wewerefriendsonce,Alan。
  Don’tspeakaboutthosedays,Dorian——theyaredead。
  Thedeadlingersometimes。Themanupstairswillnotgoaway。
  Heissittingatthetablewithbowedheadandoutstretchedarms。Alan!
  Alan!Ifyoudon’tcometomyassistance,Iamruined。Why,theywillhangme,Alan!Don’tyouunderstand?TheywillhangmeforwhatIhavedone。
  Thereisnogoodinprolongingthisscene。Iabsolutelyrefusetodoanythinginthematter。Itisinsaneofyoutoaskme。
  Yourefuse?
  Yes。
  Ientreatyou,Alan。
  Itisuseless。
  ThesamelookofpitycameintoDorianGray’seyes。Thenhestretchedouthishand,tookapieceofpaper,andwrotesomethingonit。Hereaditovertwice,foldeditcarefully,andpusheditacrossthetable。Havingdonethis,hegotupandwentovertothewindow。
  Campbelllookedathiminsurprise,andthentookupthepaper,andopenedit。Ashereadit,hisfacebecameghastlypaleandhefellbackinhischair。Ahorriblesenseofsicknesscameoverhim。Hefeltasifhisheartwasbeatingitselftodeathinsomeemptyhollow。
  Aftertwoorthreeminutesofterriblesilence,Dorianturnedroundandcameandstoodbehindhim,puttinghishanduponhisshoulder。
  Iamsosorryforyou,Alan,hemurmured,butyouleavemenoalternative。Ihavealetterwrittenalready。Hereitis。Youseetheaddress。Ifyoudon’thelpme,Imustsendit。Ifyoudon’thelpme,I
  willsendit。Youknowwhattheresultwillbe。Butyouaregoingtohelpme。Itisimpossibleforyoutorefusenow。Itriedtospareyou。Youwilldomethejusticetoadmitthat。Youwerestern,harsh,offensive。Youtreatedmeasnomanhaseverdaredtotreatme——nolivingman,atanyrate。Iboreitall。Nowitisformetodictateterms。
  Campbellburiedhisfaceinhishands,andashudderpassedthroughhim。
  Yes,itismyturntodictateterms,Alan。Youknowwhattheyare。Thethingisquitesimple。Come,don’tworkyourselfintothisfever。
  Thethinghastobedone。Faceit,anddoit。
  AgroanbrokefromCampbell’slipsandheshiveredallover。Thetickingoftheclockonthemantelpieceseemedtohimtobedividingtimeintoseparateatomsofagony,eachofwhichwastooterribletobeborne。
  Hefeltasifanironringwasbeingslowlytightenedroundhisforehead,asifthedisgracewithwhichhewasthreatenedhadalreadycomeuponhim。
  Thehanduponhisshoulderweighedlikeahandoflead。Itwasintolerable。
  Itseemedtocrushhim。
  Come,Alan,youmustdecideatonce。
  Icannotdoit,hesaid,mechanically,asthoughwordscouldalterthings。
  Youmust。Youhavenochoice。Don’tdelay。
  Hehesitatedamoment。Isthereafireintheroomupstairs?
  Yes,thereisagas-firewithasbestos。
  Ishallhavetogohomeandgetsomethingsfromthelaboratory。
  No,Alan,youmustnotleavethehouse。Writeoutonasheetofnotepaperwhatyouwantandmyservantwilltakeacabandbringthethingsbacktoyou。
  Campbellscrawledafewlines,blottedthem,andaddressedanenvelopetohisassistant。Doriantookthenoteupandreaditcarefully。
  Thenherangthebellandgaveittohisvalet,withorderstoreturnassoonaspossibleandtobringthethingswithhim。
  Asthehalldoorshut,Campbellstartednervously,andhavinggotupfromthechair,wentovertothechimney-piece。Hewasshiveringwithakindofague。Fornearlytwentyminutes,neitherofthemenspoke。
  Aflybuzzednoisilyabouttheroom,andthetickingoftheclockwaslikethebeatofahammer。
  Asthechimestruckone,Campbellturnedround,andlookingatDorianGray,sawthathiseyeswerefilledwithtears。Therewassomethinginthepurityandrefinementofthatsadfacethatseemedtoenragehim。
  Youareinfamous,absolutelyinfamous!hemuttered。
  Hush,Alan。Youhavesavedmylife,saidDorian。
  Yourlife?Goodheavens!whatalifethatis!Youhavegonefromcorruptiontocorruption,andnowyouhaveculminatedincrime。IndoingwhatIamgoingtodo——whatyouforcemetodo——itisnotofyourlifethatIamthinking。
  Ah,Alan,murmuredDorianwithasigh,IwishyouhadathousandthpartofthepityformethatIhaveforyou。Heturnedawayashespokeandstoodlookingoutatthegarden。Campbellmadenoanswer。
  Afterabouttenminutesaknockcametothedoor,andtheservantentered,carryingalargemahoganychestofchemicals,withalongcoilofsteelandplatinumwireandtworathercuriouslyshapedironclamps。
  ShallIleavethethingshere,sir?heaskedCampbell。
  Yes,saidDorian。AndIamafraid,Francis,thatIhaveanothererrandforyou。WhatisthenameofthemanatRichmondwhosuppliesSelbywithorchids?
  Harden,sir。
  Yes——Harden。YoumustgodowntoRichmondatonce,seeHardenpersonally,andtellhimtosendtwiceasmanyorchidsasIordered,andtohaveasfewwhiteonesaspossible。Infact,Idon’twantanywhiteones。Itisalovelyday,Francis,andRichmondisaveryprettyplace——
  otherwiseIwouldn’tbotheryouaboutit。
  Notrouble,sir。AtwhattimeshallIbeback?
  DorianlookedatCampbell。Howlongwillyourexperimenttake,Alan?hesaidinacalmindifferentvoice。Thepresenceofathirdpersonintheroomseemedtogivehimextraordinarycourage。
  Campbellfrownedandbithislip。Itwilltakeaboutfivehours,
  heanswered。
  Itwillbetimeenough,then,ifyouarebackathalf-pastseven,Francis。Orstay:justleavemythingsoutfordressing。Youcanhavetheeveningtoyourself。Iamnotdiningathome,soIshallnotwantyou。
  Thankyou,sir,saidtheman,leavingtheroom。
  Now,Alan,thereisnotamomenttobelost。Howheavythischestis!I’lltakeitforyou。Youbringtheotherthings。Hespokerapidlyandinanauthoritativemanner。Campbellfeltdominatedbyhim。Theylefttheroomtogether。
  Whentheyreachedthetoplanding,Doriantookoutthekeyandturneditinthelock。Thenhestopped,andatroubledlookcameintohiseyes。Heshuddered。Idon’tthinkIcangoin,Alan,hemurmured。
  Itisnothingtome。Idon’trequireyou,saidCampbellcoldly。
  Dorianhalfopenedthedoor。Ashedidso,hesawthefaceofhisportraitleeringinthesunlight。Onthefloorinfrontofitthetorncurtainwaslying。Herememberedthatthenightbeforehehadforgotten,forthefirsttimeinhislife,tohidethefatalcanvas,andwasabouttorushforward,whenhedrewbackwithashudder。
  Whatwasthatloathsomereddewthatgleamed,wetandglistening,ononeofthehands,asthoughthecanvashadsweatedblood?Howhorribleitwas!——morehorrible,itseemedtohimforthemoment,thanthesilentthingthatheknewwasstretchedacrossthetable,thethingwhosegrotesquemisshapenshadowonthespottedcarpetshowedhimthatithadnotstirred,butwasstillthere,ashehadleftit。
  Heheavedadeepbreath,openedthedooralittlewider,andwithhalf-closedeyesandavertedhead,walkedquicklyin,determinedthathewouldnotlookevenonceuponthedeadman。Then,stoopingdownandtakingupthegold-and-purplehanging,heflungitrightoverthepicture。
  Therehestopped,feelingafraidtoturnround,andhiseyesfixedthemselvesontheintricaciesofthepatternbeforehim。HeheardCampbellbringingintheheavychest,andtheirons,andtheotherthingsthathehadrequiredforhisdreadfulwork。HebegantowonderifheandBasilHallwardhadevermet,and,ifso,whattheyhadthoughtofeachother。
  Leavemenow,saidasternvoicebehindhim。
  Heturnedandhurriedout,justconsciousthatthedeadmanhadbeenthrustbackintothechairandthatCampbellwasgazingintoaglisteningyellowface。Ashewasgoingdownstairs,heheardthekeybeingturnedinthelock。
  ItwaslongaftersevenwhenCampbellcamebackintothelibrary。
  Hewaspale,butabsolutelycalm。Ihavedonewhatyouaskedmetodo,
  hemutteredAndnow,good-bye。Letusneverseeeachotheragain。
  Youhavesavedmefromruin,Alan。Icannotforgetthat,saidDoriansimply。
  AssoonasCampbellhadleft,hewentupstairs。Therewasahorriblesmellofnitricacidintheroom。Butthethingthathadbeensittingatthetablewasgone。
  ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter15Chapter15Thatevening,ateight-thirty,exquisitelydressedandwearingalargebutton-holeofParmaviolets,DorianGraywasusheredintoLadyNarborough’sdrawing-roombybowingservants。Hisforeheadwasthrobbingwithmaddenednerves,andhefeltwildlyexcited,buthismannerashebentoverhishostess’shandwasaseasyandgracefulasever。Perhapsoneneverseemssomuchatone’seaseaswhenonehastoplayapart。CertainlynoonelookingatDorianGraythatnightcouldhavebelievedthathehadpassedthroughatragedyashorribleasanytragedyofourage。Thosefinelyshapedfingerscouldneverhaveclutchedaknifeforsin,northosesmilinglipshavecriedoutonGodandgoodness。Hehimselfcouldnothelpwonderingatthecalmofhisdemeanour,andforamomentfeltkeenlytheterriblepleasureofadoublelife。
  Itwasasmallparty,gotupratherinahurrybyLadyNarborough,whowasaverycleverwomanwithwhatLordHenryusedtodescribeastheremainsofreallyremarkableugliness。Shehadprovedanexcellentwifetooneofourmosttediousambassadors,andhavingburiedherhusbandproperlyinamarblemausoleum,whichshehadherselfdesigned,andmarriedoffherdaughterstosomerich,ratherelderlymen,shedevotedherselfnowtothepleasuresofFrenchfiction,Frenchcookery,andFrenchespritwhenshecouldgetit。
  Dorianwasoneofherespecialfavourites,andshealwaystoldhimthatshewasextremelygladshehadnotmethiminearlylife。Iknow,mydear,Ishouldhavefallenmadlyinlovewithyou,sheusedtosay,andthrownmybonnetrightoverthemillsforyoursake。Itismostfortunatethatyouwerenotthoughtofatthetime。Asitwas,ourbonnetsweresounbecoming,andthemillsweresooccupiedintryingtoraisethewind,thatIneverhadevenaflirtationwithanybody。However,thatwasallNarborough’sfault。Hewasdreadfullyshort-sighted,andthereisnopleasureintakinginahusbandwhoneverseesanything。
  Hergueststhiseveningwererathertedious。Thefactwas,assheexplainedtoDorian,behindaveryshabbyfan,oneofhermarrieddaughtershadcomeupquitesuddenlytostaywithher,and,tomakemattersworse,hadactuallybroughtherhusbandwithher。Ithinkitismostunkindofher,mydear,shewhispered。OfcourseIgoandstaywiththemeverysummerafterIcomefromHomburg,butthenanoldwomanlikememusthavefreshairsometimes,andbesides,Ireallywakethemup。Youdon’tknowwhatanexistencetheyleaddownthere。Itispureunadulteratedcountrylife。Theygetupearly,becausetheyhavesomuchtodo,andgotobedearly,becausetheyhavesolittletothinkabout。TherehasnotbeenascandalintheneighbourhoodsincethetimeofQueenElizabeth,andconsequentlytheyallfallasleepafterdinner。Youshan’tsitnexteitherofthem。
  Youshallsitbymeandamuseme。
  Dorianmurmuredagracefulcomplimentandlookedroundtheroom。
  Yes:itwascertainlyatediousparty。Twoofthepeoplehehadneverseenbefore,andtheothersconsistedofErnestHarrowden,oneofthosemiddle-agedmediocritiessocommoninLondonclubswhohavenoenemies,butarethoroughlydislikedbytheirfriends。LadyRuxton,anoverdressedwomanofforty-seven,withahookednose,whowasalwaystryingtogetherselfcompromised,butwassopeculiarlyplainthattohergreatdisappointmentnoonewouldeverbelieveanythingagainsther。Mrs。Erlynne,apushingnobody,withadelightfullispandVenetian-redhair。LadyAliceChapman,hishostess’sdaughter,adowdydullgirl,withoneofthosecharacteristicBritishfacesthat,onceseen,areneverremembered。andherhusband,ared-cheeked,white-whiskeredcreaturewho,likesomanyofhisclass,wasundertheimpressionthatinordinatejovialitycanatoneforanentirelackofideas。
  Hewasrathersorryhehadcome,tillLadyNarborough,lookingatthegreatormolugiltclockthatsprawledingaudycurvesonthemauve-drapedmantelshelf,exclaimed:HowhorridofHenryWottontobesolate!Isentroundtohimthismorningonchanceandhepromisedfaithfullynottodisappointme。
  ItwassomeconsolationthatHarrywastobethere,andwhenthedooropenedandheheardhisslowmusicalvoicelendingcharmtosomeinsincereapology,heceasedtofeelbored。
  Butatdinnerhecouldnoteatanything。Plateafterplatewentawayuntasted。LadyNarboroughkeptscoldinghimforwhatshecalledaninsulttopoorAdolphe,whoinventedthemenuspeciallyforyou,andnowandthenLordHenrylookedacrossathim,wonderingathissilenceandabstractedmanner。Fromtimetotimethebutlerfilledhisglasswithchampagne。
  Hedrankeagerly,andhisthirstseemedtoincrease。
  Dorian,saidLordHenryatlast,asthechaud-froidwasbeinghandedround,whatisthematterwithyouto-night?Youarequiteoutofsorts。
  Ibelieveheisinlove,criedLadyNarborough,andthatheisafraidtotellmeforfearIshouldbejealous。Heisquiteright。I
  certainlyshould。
  DearLadyNarborough,murmuredDorian,smiling,Ihavenotbeeninloveforawholeweek——not,infact,sinceMadamedeFerrollefttown。
  Howyoumencanfallinlovewiththatwoman!exclaimedtheoldlady。Ireallycannotunderstandit。
  Itissimplybecausesheremembersyouwhenyouwerealittlegirl,LadyNarborough,saidLordHenry。Sheistheonelinkbetweenusandyourshortfrocks。
  Shedoesnotremembermyshortfrocksatall,LordHenry。ButIrememberherverywellatViennathirtyyearsago,andhowdé。colleté。eshewasthen。
  Sheisstilldé。colleté。e,heanswered,takinganoliveinhislongfingers。andwhensheisinaverysmartgownshelookslikeané。ditiondeluxeofabadFrenchnovel。Sheisreallywonderful,andfullofsurprises。Hercapacityforfamilyaffectionisextraordinary。Whenherthirdhusbanddied,herhairturnedquitegoldfromgrief。
  Howcanyou,Harry!criedDorian。
  Itisamostromanticexplanation,laughedthehostess。Butherthirdhusband,LordHenry!Youdon’tmeantosayFerrolisthefourth?
  Certainly,LadyNarborough。
  Idon’tbelieveawordofit。
  Well,askMr。Gray。Heisoneofhermostintimatefriends。
  Isittrue,Mr。Gray?
  Sheassuresmeso,LadyNarborough,saidDorian。Iaskedherwhether,likeMargueritedeNavarre,shehadtheirheartsembalmedandhungathergirdle。Shetoldmeshedidn’t,becausenoneofthemhadhadanyheartsatall。
  Fourhusbands!Uponmywordthatistropdezè。le。
  Tropd’audace,Itellher,saidDorian。
  Oh!sheisaudaciousenoughforanything,mydear。AndwhatisFerrollike?Idon’tknowhim。
  Thehusbandsofverybeautifulwomenbelongtothecriminalclasses,
  saidLordHenry,sippinghiswine。
  LadyNarboroughhithimwithherfan。LordHenry,Iamnotatallsurprisedthattheworldsaysthatyouareextremelywicked。
  Butwhatworldsaysthat?askedLordHenry,elevatinghiseyebrows。
  Itcanonlybethenextworld。ThisworldandIareonexcellentterms。
  EverybodyIknowsaysyouareverywicked,criedtheoldlady,shakingherhead。
  LordHenrylookedseriousforsomemoments。Itisperfectlymonstrous,
  hesaid,atlast,thewaypeoplegoaboutnowadayssayingthingsagainstonebehindone’sbackthatareabsolutelyandentirelytrue。
  Isn’theincorrigible?criedDorian,leaningforwardinhischair。
  Ihopeso,saidhishostess,laughing。Butreally,ifyouallworshipMadamedeFerrolinthisridiculousway,Ishallhavetomarryagainsoastobeinthefashion。
  Youwillnevermarryagain,LadyNarborough,brokeinLordHenry。
  Youwerefartoohappy。Whenawomanmarriesagain,itisbecauseshedetestedherfirsthusband。Whenamanmarriesagain,itisbecauseheadoredhisfirstwife。Womentrytheirluck。menrisktheirs。
  Narboroughwasn’tperfect,criedtheoldlady。
  Ifhehadbeen,youwouldnothavelovedhim,mydearlady,
  wastherejoinder。Womenloveusforourdefects。Ifwehaveenoughofthem,theywillforgiveuseverything,evenourintellects。Youwillneveraskmetodinneragainaftersayingthis,Iamafraid,LadyNarborough,butitisquitetrue。
  Ofcourseitistrue,LordHenry。Ifwewomendidnotloveyouforyourdefects,wherewouldyouallbe?Notoneofyouwouldeverbemarried。Youwouldbeasetofunfortunatebachelors。Not,however,thatthatwouldalteryoumuch。Nowadaysallthemarriedmenlivelikebachelors,andallthebachelorslikemarriedmen。
  Findesiè。cle,murmuredLordHenry。
  Finduglobe,answeredhishostess。
  Iwishitwerefinduglobe,saidDorianwithasigh。
  Lifeisagreatdisappointment。
  Ah,mydear,criedLadyNarborough,puttingonhergloves,don’ttellmethatyouhaveexhaustedlife。Whenamansaysthatoneknowsthatlifehasexhaustedhim。LordHenryisverywicked,andIsometimeswishthatIhadbeen。butyouaremadetobegood——youlooksogood。Imustfindyouanicewife。LordHenry,don’tyouthinkthatMr。Grayshouldgetmarried?
  Iamalwaystellinghimso,LadyNarborough,saidLordHenrywithabow。
  Well,wemustlookoutforasuitablematchforhim。IshallgothroughDebrettcarefullyto-nightanddrawoutalistofalltheeligibleyoungladies。
  Withtheirages,LadyNarborough?askedDorian。
  Ofcourse,withtheirages,slightlyedited。Butnothingmustbedoneinahurry。IwantittobewhatTheMorningPostcallsasuitablealliance,andIwantyoubothtobehappy。
  Whatnonsensepeopletalkabouthappymarriages!exclaimedLordHenry。Amancanbehappywithanywoman,aslongashedoesnotloveher。
  Ah!whatacynicyouare!criedtheoldlady,pushingbackherchairandnoddingtoLadyRuxton。Youmustcomeanddinewithmesoonagain。Youarereallyanadmirabletonic,muchbetterthanwhatSirAndrewprescribesforme。Youmusttellmewhatpeopleyouwouldliketomeet,though。Iwantittobeadelightfulgathering。
  Ilikemenwhohaveafutureandwomenwhohaveapast,heanswered。
  Ordoyouthinkthatwouldmakeitapetticoatparty?
  Ifearso,shesaid,laughing,asshestoodup。Athousandpardons,mydearLadyRuxton,sheadded,Ididn’tseeyouhadn’tfinishedyourcigarette。
  Nevermind,LadyNarborough。Ismokeagreatdealtoomuch。I
  amgoingtolimitmyself,forthefuture。
  Praydon’t,LadyRuxton,saidLordHenry。Moderationisafatalthing。Enoughisasbadasameal。Morethanenoughisasgoodasafeast。
  LadyRuxtonglancedathimcuriously。Youmustcomeandexplainthattomesomeafternoon,LordHenry。Itsoundsafascinatingtheory,
  shemurmured,asshesweptoutoftheroom。
  Now,mindyoudon’tstaytoolongoveryourpoliticsandscandal,
  criedLadyNarboroughfromthedoor。Ifyoudo,wearesuretosquabbleupstairs。
  Themenlaughed,andMr。Chapmangotupsolemnlyfromthefootofthetableandcameuptothetop。DorianGraychangedhisseatandwentandsatbyLordHenry。Mr。ChapmanbegantotalkinaloudvoiceaboutthesituationintheHouseofCommons。Heguffawedathisadversaries。
  Theworddoctrinaire——wordfullofterrortotheBritishmind——
  reappearedfromtimetotimebetweenhisexplosions。Analliterativeprefixservedasanornamentoforatory。HehoistedtheUnionJackonthepinnaclesofthought。Theinheritedstupidityoftherace——soundEnglishcommonsensehejoviallytermedit——wasshowntobetheproperbulwarkforsociety。
  AsmilecurvedLordHenry’slips,andheturnedroundandlookedatDorian。
  Areyoubetter,mydearfellow?heasked。Youseemedratheroutofsortsatdinner。
  Iamquitewell,Harry。Iamtired。Thatisall。
  Youwerecharminglastnight。Thelittleduchessisquitedevotedtoyou。ShetellsmesheisgoingdowntoSelby。
  Shehaspromisedtocomeonthetwentieth。
  IsMonmouthtobethere,too?
  Oh,yes,Harry。
  Heboresmedreadfully,almostasmuchasheboresher。Sheisveryclever,toocleverforawoman。Shelackstheindefinablecharmofweakness。Itisthefeetofclaythatmakethegoldoftheimageprecious。
  Herfeetareverypretty,buttheyarenotfeetofclay。Whiteporcelainfeet,ifyoulike。Theyhavebeenthroughthefire,andwhatfiredoesnotdestroy,ithardens。Shehashadexperiences。
  Howlonghasshebeenmarried?askedDorian。
  Aneternity,shetellsme。Ibelieve,accordingtothepeerage,itistenyears,buttenyearswithMonmouthmusthavebeenlikeeternity,withtimethrownin。Whoelseiscoming?
  Oh,theWilloughbys,LordRugbyandhiswife,ourhostess,GeoffreyClouston,theusualset。IhaveaskedLordGrotrian。
  Ilikehim,saidLordHenry。Agreatmanypeopledon’t,butIfindhimcharming。Heatonesforbeingoccasionallysomewhatoverdressedbybeingalwaysabsolutelyover-educated。Heisaverymoderntype。
  Idon’tknowifhewillbeabletocome,Harry。HemayhavetogotoMonteCarlowithhisfather。
  Ah!whatanuisancepeople’speopleare!Tryandmakehimcome。
  Bytheway,Dorian,youranoffveryearlylastnight。Youleftbeforeeleven。Whatdidyoudoafterwards?Didyougostraighthome?
  Dorianglancedathimhurriedlyandfrowned。
  No,Harry,hesaidatlast,Ididnotgethometillnearlythree。
  Didyougototheclub?
  Yes,heanswered。Thenhebithislip。No,Idon’tmeanthat。
  Ididn’tgototheclub。Iwalkedabout。IforgetwhatIdid……Howinquisitiveyouare,Harry!Youalwayswanttoknowwhatonehasbeendoing。
  IalwayswanttoforgetwhatIhavebeendoing。Icameinathalf-pasttwo,ifyouwishtoknowtheexacttime。Ihadleftmylatch-keyathome,andmyservanthadtoletmein。Ifyouwantanycorroborativeevidenceonthesubject,youcanaskhim。
  LordHenryshruggedhisshoulders。Mydearfellow,asifIcared!
  Letusgouptothedrawing-room。Nosherry,thankyou,Mr。Chapman。Somethinghashappenedtoyou,Dorian。Tellmewhatitis。Youarenotyourselfto-night。
  Don’tmindme,Harry。Iamirritable,andoutoftemper。Ishallcomeroundandseeyouto-morrow,ornextday。MakemyexcusestoLadyNarborough。Ishan’tgoupstairs。Ishallgohome。Imustgohome。
  Allright,Dorian。IdaresayIshallseeyouto-morrowattea-time。
  Theduchessiscoming。
  Iwilltrytobethere,Harry,hesaid,leavingtheroom。Ashedrovebacktohisownhouse,hewasconsciousthatthesenseofterrorhethoughthehadstrangledhadcomebacktohim。LordHenry’scasualquestioninghadmadehimlosehisnervesforthemoment,andhewantedhisnervestill。
  Thingsthatweredangeroushadtobedestroyed。Hewinced。Hehatedtheideaofeventouchingthem。
  Yetithadtobedone。Herealizedthat,andwhenhehadlockedthedoorofhislibrary,heopenedthesecretpressintowhichhehadthrustBasilHallward’scoatandbag。Ahugefirewasblazing。Hepiledanotherlogonit。Thesmellofthesingeingclothesandburningleatherwashorrible。
  Ittookhimthree-quartersofanhourtoconsumeeverything。Attheendhefeltfaintandsick,andhavinglitsomeAlgerianpastillesinapiercedcopperbrazier,hebathedhishandsandforeheadwithacoolmusk-scentedvinegar。
  Suddenlyhestarted。Hiseyesgrewstrangelybright,andhegnawednervouslyathisunderlip。BetweentwoofthewindowsstoodalargeFlorentinecabinet,madeoutofebonyandinlaidwithivoryandbluelapis。Hewatcheditasthoughitwereathingthatcouldfascinateandmakeafraid,asthoughitheldsomethingthathelongedforandyetalmostloathed。Hisbreathquickened。Amadcravingcameoverhim。Helitacigaretteandthenthrewitaway。Hiseyelidsdroopedtillthelongfringedlashesalmosttouchedhischeek。Buthestillwatchedthecabinet。Atlasthegotupfromthesofaonwhichhehadbeenlying,wentovertoit,andhavingunlockedit,touchedsomehiddenspring。Atriangulardrawerpassedslowlyout。Hisfingersmovedinstinctivelytowardsit,dippedin,andclosedonsomething。
  ItwasasmallChineseboxofblackandgold-dustlacquer,elaboratelywrought,thesidespatternedwithcurvedwaves,andthesilkencordshungwithroundcrystalsandtasselledinplaitedmetalthreads。Heopenedit。
  Insidewasagreenpaste,waxyinlustre,theodourcuriouslyheavyandpersistent。
  Hehesitatedforsomemoments,withastrangelyimmobilesmileuponhisface。Thenshivering,thoughtheatmosphereoftheroomwasterriblyhot,hedrewhimselfupandglancedattheclock。Itwastwentyminutestotwelve。Heputtheboxback,shuttingthecabinetdoorsashedidso,andwentintohisbedroom。
  Asmidnightwasstrikingbronzeblowsupontheduskyair,DorianGray,dressedcommonly,andwithamufflerwrappedroundhisthroat,creptquietlyoutofhishouse。InBondStreethefoundahansomwithagoodhorse。Hehaileditandinalowvoicegavethedriveranaddress。
  Themanshookhishead。Itistoofarforme,hemuttered。
  Hereisasovereignforyou,saidDorian。Youshallhaveanotherifyoudrivefast。
  Allright,sir,answeredtheman,youwillbethereinanhour,
  andafterhisfarehadgotinheturnedhishorseroundanddroverapidlytowardstheriver。
  ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter16Chapter16Acoldrainbegantofall,andtheblurredstreet-lampslookedghastlyinthedrippingmist。Thepublic-houseswerejustclosing,anddimmenandwomenwereclusteringinbrokengroupsroundtheirdoors。Fromsomeofthebarscamethesoundofhorriblelaughter。Inothers,drunkardsbrawledandscreamed。
  Lyingbackinthehansom,withhishatpulledoverhisforehead,DorianGraywatchedwithlistlesseyesthesordidshameofthegreatcity,andnowandthenherepeatedtohimselfthewordsthatLordHenryhadsaidtohimonthefirstdaytheyhadmet,Tocurethesoulbymeansofthesenses,andthesensesbymeansofthesoul。Yes,thatwasthesecret。
  Hehadoftentriedit,andwouldtryitagainnow。Therewereopiumdenswhereonecouldbuyoblivion,densofhorrorwherethememoryofoldsinscouldbedestroyedbythemadnessofsinsthatwerenew。
  Themoonhunglowintheskylikeayellowskull。Fromtimetotimeahugemisshapencloudstretchedalongarmacrossandhidit。Thegas-lampsgrewfewer,andthestreetsmorenarrowandgloomy。Oncethemanlosthiswayandhadtodrivebackhalfamile。Asteamrosefromthehorseasitsplashedupthepuddles。Thesidewindowsofthehansomwerecloggedwithagrey-flannelmist。
  Tocurethesoulbymeansofthesenses,andthesensesbymeansofthesoul!Howthewordsranginhisears!Hissoul,certainly,wassicktodeath。Wasittruethatthesensescouldcureit?Innocentbloodhadbeenspilled。Whatcouldatoneforthat?Ah!forthattherewasnoatonement。butthoughforgivenesswasimpossible,forgetfulnesswaspossiblestill,andhewasdeterminedtoforget,tostampthethingout,tocrushitasonewouldcrushtheadderthathadstungone。Indeed,whatrighthadBasiltohavespokentohimashehaddone?Whohadmadehimajudgeoverothers?Hehadsaidthingsthatweredreadful,horrible,nottobeendured。
  Onandonploddedthehansom,goingslower,itseemedtohim,ateachstep。Hethrustupthetrapandcalledtothemantodrivefaster。
  Thehideoushungerforopiumbegantognawathim。Histhroatburnedandhisdelicatehandstwitchednervouslytogether。Hestruckatthehorsemadlywithhisstick。Thedriverlaughedandwhippedup。Helaughedinanswer,andthemanwassilent。
  Thewayseemedinterminable,andthestreetsliketheblackwebofsomesprawlingspider。Themonotonybecameunbearable,andasthemistthickened,hefeltafraid。
  Thentheypassedbylonelybrickfields。Thefogwaslighterhere,andhecouldseethestrange,bottle-shapedkilnswiththeirorange,fanliketonguesoffire。Adogbarkedastheywentby,andfarawayinthedarknesssomewanderingsea-gullscreamed。Thehorsestumbledinarut,thenswervedasideandbrokeintoagallop。
  Aftersometimetheylefttheclayroadandrattledagainoverrough-pavenstreets。Mostofthewindowsweredark,butnowandthenfantasticshadowsweresilhouettedagainstsomelamplitblind。Hewatchedthemcuriously。
  Theymovedlikemonstrousmarionettesandmadegestureslikelivethings。
  Hehatedthem。Adullragewasinhisheart。Astheyturnedacorner,awomanyelledsomethingatthemfromanopendoor,andtwomenranafterthehansomforaboutahundredyards。Thedriverbeatatthemwithhiswhip。
  Itissaidthatpassionmakesonethinkinacircle。CertainlywithhideousiterationthebittenlipsofDorianGrayshapedandreshapedthosesubtlewordsthatdealtwithsoulandsense,tillhehadfoundinthemthefullexpression,asitwere,ofhismood,andjustified,byintellectualapproval,passionsthatwithoutsuchjustificationwouldstillhavedominatedhistemper。Fromcelltocellofhisbraincrepttheonethought。andthewilddesiretolive,mostterribleofallman’sappetites,quickenedintoforceeachtremblingnerveandfibre。Uglinessthathadoncebeenhatefultohimbecauseitmadethingsreal,becamedeartohimnowforthatveryreason。Uglinesswastheonereality。Thecoarsebrawl,theloathsomeden,thecrudeviolenceofdisorderedlife,theveryvilenessofthiefandoutcast,weremorevivid,intheirintenseactualityofimpression,thanallthegraciousshapesofart,thedreamyshadowsofsong。Theywerewhatheneededforforgetfulness。Inthreedayshewouldbefree。
  Suddenlythemandrewupwithajerkatthetopofadarklane。
  Overthelowroofsandjaggedchimney-stacksofthehousesrosetheblackmastsofships。Wreathsofwhitemistclunglikeghostlysailstotheyards。
  Somewhereabouthere,sir,ain’tit?heaskedhuskilythroughthetrap。
  Dorianstartedandpeeredround。Thiswilldo,heanswered,andhavinggotouthastilyandgiventhedrivertheextrafarehehadpromisedhim,hewalkedquicklyinthedirectionofthequay。Hereandtherealanterngleamedatthesternofsomehugemerchantman。Thelightshookandsplinteredinthepuddles。Aredglarecamefromanoutward-boundsteamerthatwascoaling。Theslimypavementlookedlikeawetmackintosh。
  Hehurriedontowardstheleft,glancingbacknowandthentoseeifhewasbeingfollowed。Inaboutsevenoreightminuteshereachedasmallshabbyhousethatwaswedgedinbetweentwogauntfactories。Inoneofthetop-windowsstoodalamp。Hestoppedandgaveapeculiarknock。
  Afteralittletimeheheardstepsinthepassageandthechainbeingunhooked。Thedooropenedquietly,andhewentinwithoutsayingawordtothesquatmisshapenfigurethatflatteneditselfintotheshadowashepassed。Attheendofthehallhungatatteredgreencurtainthatswayedandshookinthegustywindwhichhadfollowedhiminfromthestreet。
  Hedraggeditasideandenteredalonglowroomwhichlookedasifithadoncebeenathird-ratedancing-saloon。Shrillflaringgas-jets,dulledanddistortedinthefly-blownmirrorsthatfacedthem,wererangedroundthewalls。Greasyreflectorsofribbedtinbackedthem,makingquiveringdisksoflight。Thefloorwascoveredwithochre-colouredsawdust,trampledhereandthereintomud,andstainedwithdarkringsofspilledliquor。
  SomeMalayswerecrouchingbyalittlecharcoalstove,playingwithbonecountersandshowingtheirwhiteteethastheychattered。Inonecorner,withhisheadburiedinhisarms,asailorsprawledoveratable,andbythetawdrilypaintedbarthatranacrossonecompletesidestoodtwohaggardwomen,mockinganoldmanwhowasbrushingthesleevesofhiscoatwithanexpressionofdisgust。Hethinkshe’sgotredantsonhim,laughedoneofthem,asDorianpassedby。Themanlookedatherinterrorandbegantowhimper。
  Attheendoftheroomtherewasalittlestaircase,leadingtoadarkenedchamber。AsDorianhurriedupitsthreericketysteps,theheavyodourofopiummethim。Heheavedadeepbreath,andhisnostrilsquiveredwithpleasure。Whenheentered,ayoungmanwithsmoothyellowhair,whowasbendingoveralamplightingalongthinpipe,lookedupathimandnoddedinahesitatingmanner。
  Youhere,Adrian?mutteredDorian。
  WhereelseshouldIbe?heanswered,listlessly。Noneofthechapswillspeaktomenow。
  IthoughtyouhadleftEngland。
  Darlingtonisnotgoingtodoanything。Mybrotherpaidthebillatlast。Georgedoesn’tspeaktomeeither……Idon’tcare,headdedwithasigh。Aslongasonehasthisstuff,onedoesn’twantfriends。
  IthinkIhavehadtoomanyfriends。
  Dorianwincedandlookedroundatthegrotesquethingsthatlayinsuchfantasticposturesontheraggedmattresses。Thetwistedlimbs,thegapingmouths,thestaringlustrelesseyes,fascinatedhim。Heknewinwhatstrangeheavenstheyweresuffering,andwhatdullhellswereteachingthemthesecretofsomenewjoy。Theywerebetteroffthanhewas。Hewasprisonedinthought。Memory,likeahorriblemalady,waseatinghissoulaway。FromtimetotimeheseemedtoseetheeyesofBasilHallwardlookingathim。Yethefelthecouldnotstay。ThepresenceofAdrianSingletontroubledhim。Hewantedtobewherenoonewouldknowwhohewas。Hewantedtoescapefromhimself。
  Iamgoingontotheotherplace,hesaidafterapause。
  Onthewharf?
  Yes。
  Thatmad-catissuretobethere。Theywon’thaveherinthisplacenow。
  Dorianshruggedhisshoulders。Iamsickofwomenwholoveone。
  Womenwhohateonearemuchmoreinteresting。Besides,thestuffisbetter。
  Muchthesame。
  Ilikeitbetter。Comeandhavesomethingtodrink。Imusthavesomething。
  Idon’twantanything,murmuredtheyoungman。
  Nevermind。
  AdrianSingletonroseupwearilyandfollowedDoriantothebar。
  Ahalf-caste,inaraggedturbanandashabbyulster,grinnedahideousgreetingashethrustabottleofbrandyandtwotumblersinfrontofthem。
  Thewomensidledupandbegantochatter。DorianturnedhisbackonthemandsaidsomethinginalowvoicetoAdrianSingleton。
  Acrookedsmile,likeaMalaycrease,writhedacrossthefaceofoneofthewomen。Weareveryproudto-night,shesneered。
  ForGod’ssakedon’ttalktome,criedDorian,stampinghisfootontheground。Whatdoyouwant?Money?Hereitis。Don’tevertalktomeagain。
  Tworedsparksflashedforamomentinthewoman’ssoddeneyes,thenflickeredoutandleftthemdullandglazed。Shetossedherheadandrakedthecoinsoffthecounterwithgreedyfingers。Hercompanionwatchedherenviously。
  It’snouse,sighedAdrianSingleton。Idon’tcaretogoback。
  Whatdoesitmatter?Iamquitehappyhere。
  Youwillwritetomeifyouwantanything,won’tyou?saidDorian,afterapause。
  Perhaps。
  Goodnight,then。
  Goodnight,answeredtheyoungman,passingupthestepsandwipinghisparchedmouthwithahandkerchief。
  Dorianwalkedtothedoorwithalookofpaininhisface。Ashedrewthecurtainaside,ahideouslaughbrokefromthepaintedlipsofthewomanwhohadtakenhismoney。Theregoesthedevil’sbargain!
  shehiccoughed,inahoarsevoice。
  Curseyou!heanswered,don’tcallmethat。
  Shesnappedherfingers。PrinceCharmingiswhatyouliketobecalled,ain’tit?sheyelledafterhim。
  Thedrowsysailorleapedtohisfeetasshespoke,andlookedwildlyround。Thesoundoftheshuttingofthehalldoorfellonhisear。
  Herushedoutasifinpursuit。
  DorianGrayhurriedalongthequaythroughthedrizzlingrain。
  HismeetingwithAdrianSingletonhadstrangelymovedhim,andhewonderediftheruinofthatyounglifewasreallytobelaidathisdoor,asBasilHallwardhadsaidtohimwithsuchinfamyofinsult。Hebithislip,andforafewsecondshiseyesgrewsad。Yet,afterall,whatdiditmattertohim?One’sdaysweretoobrieftotaketheburdenofanother’serrorsonone’sshoulders。Eachmanlivedhisownlifeandpaidhisownpriceforlivingit。Theonlypitywasonehadtopaysooftenforasinglefault。
  Onehadtopayoverandoveragain,indeed。Inherdealingswithman,destinyneverclosedheraccounts。
  Therearemoments,psychologiststellus,whenthepassionforsin,orforwhattheworldcallssin,sodominatesanaturethateveryfibreofthebody,aseverycellofthebrain,seemstobeinstinctwithfearfulimpulses。Menandwomenatsuchmomentslosethefreedomoftheirwill。Theymovetotheirterribleendasautomatonsmove。Choiceistakenfromthem,andconscienceiseitherkilled,or,ifitlivesatall,livesbuttogiverebellionitsfascinationanddisobedienceitscharm。Forallsins,astheologianswearynotofremindingus,aresinsofdisobedience。
  Whenthathighspirit,thatmorningstarofevil,fellfromheaven,itwasasarebelthathefell。
  Callous,concentratedonevil,withstainedmind,andsoulhungryforrebellion,DorianGrayhastenedon,quickeninghisstepashewent,butashedartedasideintoadimarchway,thathadservedhimoftenasashortcuttotheill-famedplacewherehewasgoing,hefelthimselfsuddenlyseizedfrombehind,andbeforebehadtimetodefendhimself,hewasthrustbackagainstthewall,withabrutalhandroundhisthroat。
  Hestruggledmadlyforlife,andbyaterribleeffortwrenchedthetighteningfingersaway。Inasecondheheardtheclickofarevolver,andsawthegleamofapolishedbarrel,pointingstraightathishead,andtheduskyformofashort,thick-setmanfacinghim。
  Whatdoyouwant?hegasped。
  Keepquiet,saidtheman。Ifyoustir,Ishootyou。
  Youaremad。WhathaveIdonetoyou?
  YouwreckedthelifeofSibylVane,wastheanswer,andSibylVanewasmysister。Shekilledherself。Iknowit。Herdeathisatyourdoor。IsworeIwouldkillyouinreturn。ForyearsIhavesoughtyou。
  Ihadnoclue,notrace。Thetwopeoplewhocouldhavedescribedyouweredead。Iknewnothingofyoubutthepetnamesheusedtocallyou。Ihearditto-nightbychance。MakeyourpeacewithGod,forto-nightyouaregoingtodie。
  DorianGraygrewsickwithfear。Ineverknewher,hestammered。
  Ineverheardofher。Youaremad。
  Youhadbetterconfessyoursin,forassureasIamJamesVane,youaregoingtodie。Therewasahorriblemoment。Doriandidnotknowwhattosayordo。Downonyourknees!growledtheman。Igiveyouoneminutetomakeyourpeace——nomore。Igoonboardto-nightforIndia,andImustdomyjobfirst。Oneminute。That’sall。
  Dorian’sarmsfelltohisside。Paralysedwithterror,hedidnotknowwhattodo。Suddenlyawildhopeflashedacrosshisbrain。Stop,
  hecried。Howlongagoisitsinceyoursisterdied?Quick,tellme!
  Eighteenyears,saidtheman。Whydoyouaskme?Whatdoyearsmatter?
  Eighteenyears,laughedDorianGray,withatouchoftriumphinhisvoice。Eighteenyears!Setmeunderthelampandlookatmyface!
  JamesVanehesitatedforamoment,notunderstandingwhatwasmeant。ThenheseizedDorianGrayanddraggedhimfromthearchway。
  Dimandwaveringaswasthewind-blownlight,yetitservedtoshowhimthehideouserror,asitseemed,intowhichhehadfallen,forthefaceofthemanhehadsoughttokillhadallthebloomofboyhood,alltheunstainedpurityofyouth。Heseemedlittlemorethanaladoftwentysummers,hardlyolder,ifolderindeedatall,thanhissisterhadbeenwhentheyhadpartedsomanyyearsago。Itwasobviousthatthiswasnotthemanwhohaddestroyedherlife。
  Heloosenedhisholdandreeledback。MyGod!myGod!hecried,andIwouldhavemurderedyou!
  DorianGraydrewalongbreath。Youhavebeenonthebrinkofcommittingaterriblecrime,myman,hesaid,lookingathimsternly。
  Letthisbeawarningtoyounottotakevengeanceintoyourownhands。
  Forgiveme,sir,mutteredJamesVane。Iwasdeceived。AchancewordIheardinthatdamneddensetmeonthewrongtrack。
  Youhadbettergohomeandputthatpistolaway,oryoumaygetintotrouble,saidDorian,turningonhisheelandgoingslowlydownthestreet。
  JamesVanestoodonthepavementinhorror。Hewastremblingfromheadtofoot。Afteralittlewhile,ablackshadowthathadbeencreepingalongthedrippingwallmovedoutintothelightandcameclosetohimwithstealthyfootsteps。Hefeltahandlaidonhisarmandlookedroundwithastart。Itwasoneofthewomenwhohadbeendrinkingatthebar。
  Whydidn’tyoukillhim?shehissedout,puttinghaggardfacequiteclosetohis。IknewyouwerefollowinghimwhenyourushedoutfromDaly’s。Youfool!Youshouldhavekilledhim。Hehaslotsofmoney,andhe’sasbadasbad。
  HeisnotthemanIamlookingfor,heanswered,andIwantnoman’smoney。Iwantaman’slife。ThemanwhoselifeIwantmustbenearlyfortynow。Thisoneislittlemorethanaboy。ThankGod,Ihavenotgothisblooduponmyhands。
  Thewomangaveabitterlaugh。Littlemorethanaboy!shesneered。
  Why,man,it’snighoneighteenyearssincePrinceCharmingmademewhatIam。
  Youlie!criedJamesVane。
  Sheraisedherhanduptoheaven。BeforeGodIamtellingthetruth,shecried。
  BeforeGod?
  Strikemedumbifitain’tso。Heistheworstonethatcomeshere。Theysayhehassoldhimselftothedevilforaprettyface。It’snighoneighteenyearssinceImethim。Hehasn’tchangedmuchsincethen。
  Ihave,though,sheadded,withasicklyleer。
  Youswearthis?
  Iswearit,cameinhoarseechofromherflatmouth。Butdon’tgivemeawaytohim,shewhined。Iamafraidofhim。Letmehavesomemoneyformynight’slodging。
  Hebrokefromherwithanoathandrushedtothecornerofthestreet,butDorianGrayhaddisappeared。Whenhelookedback,thewomanhadvanishedalso。
  ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter17Chapter17AweeklaterDorianGraywassittingintheconservatoryatSelbyRoyal,talkingtotheprettyDuchessofMonmouth,whowithherhusband,ajaded-lookingmanofsixty,wasamongsthisguests。Itwastea-time,andthemellowlightofthehuge,lace-coveredlampthatstoodonthetablelitupthedelicatechinaandhammeredsilveroftheserviceatwhichtheduchesswaspresiding。
  Herwhitehandsweremovingdaintilyamongthecups,andherfullredlipsweresmilingatsomethingthatDorianhadwhisperedtoher。LordHenrywaslyingbackinasilk-drapedwickerchair,lookingatthem。Onapeach-coloureddivansatLadyNarborough,pretendingtolistentotheduke’sdescriptionofthelastBrazilianbeetlethathehadaddedtohiscollection。Threeyoungmeninelaboratesmoking-suitswerehandingtea-cakestosomeofthewomen。Thehouse-partyconsistedoftwelvepeople,andthereweremoreexpectedtoarriveonthenextday。