Hisnighthadbeenuntroubledbyanyimagesofpleasureorofpain。Butyouthsmileswithoutanyreason。Itisoneofitschiefestcharms。
Heturnedround,andleaninguponhiselbow,begantosiphischocolate。ThemellowNovembersuncamestreamingintotheroom。Theskywasbright,andtherewasagenialwarmthintheair。ItwasalmostlikeamorninginMay。
Graduallytheeventsoftheprecedingnightcreptwithsilent,blood-stainedfeetintohisbrainandreconstructedthemselvestherewithterribledistinctness。Hewincedatthememoryofallthathehadsuffered,andforamomentthesamecuriousfeelingofloathingforBasilHallwardthathadmadehimkillhimashesatinthechaircamebacktohim,andhegrewcoldwithpassion。Thedeadmanwasstillsittingthere,too,andinthesunlightnow。Howhorriblethatwas!Suchhideousthingswereforthedarkness,notfortheday。
Hefeltthatifhebroodedonwhathehadgonethroughhewouldsickenorgrowmad。Thereweresinswhosefascinationwasmoreinthememorythaninthedoingofthem,strangetriumphsthatgratifiedthepridemorethanthepassions,andgavetotheintellectaquickenedsenseofjoy,greaterthananyjoytheybrought,orcouldeverbring,tothesenses。
Butthiswasnotoneofthem。Itwasathingtobedrivenoutofthemind,tobedruggedwithpoppies,tobestrangledlestitmightstrangleoneitself。
Whenthehalf-hourstruck,hepassedhishandacrosshisforehead,andthengotuphastilyanddressedhimselfwithevenmorethanhisusualcare,givingagooddealofattentiontothechoiceofhisnecktieandscarf-pinandchanginghisringsmorethanonce。Hespentalongtimealsooverbreakfast,tastingthevariousdishes,talkingtohisvaletaboutsomenewliveriesthathewasthinkingofgettingmadefortheservantsatSelby,andgoingthroughhiscorrespondence。Atsomeoftheletters,hesmiled。Threeofthemboredhim。Onehereadseveraltimesoverandthentoreupwithaslightlookofannoyanceinhisface。Thatawfulthing,awoman’smemory!asLordHenryhadoncesaid。
Afterhehaddrunkhiscupofblackcoffee,hewipedhislipsslowlywithanapkin,motionedtohisservanttowait,andgoingovertothetable,satdownandwrotetwoletters。Oneheputinhispocket,theotherhehandedtothevalet。
Takethisroundto152,HertfordStreet,Francis,andifMr。
Campbellisoutoftown,gethisaddress。
Assoonashewasalone,helitacigaretteandbegansketchinguponapieceofpaper,drawingfirstflowersandbitsofarchitecture,andthenhumanfaces。SuddenlyheremarkedthateveryfacethathedrewseemedtohaveafantasticlikenesstoBasilHallward。Hefrowned,andgettingup,wentovertothebook-caseandtookoutavolumeathazard。
Hewasdeterminedthathewouldnotthinkaboutwhathadhappeneduntilitbecameabsolutelynecessarythatheshoulddoso。
Whenhehadstretchedhimselfonthesofa,helookedatthetitle-pageofthebook。ItwasGautier’sEmauxetCamees,Charpentier’sJapanese-paperedition,withtheJacquemartetching。Thebindingwasofcitron-greenleather,withadesignofgilttrellis-workanddottedpomegranates。IthadbeengiventohimbyAdrianSingleton。Asheturnedoverthepages,hiseyefellonthepoemaboutthehandofLacenaire,thecoldyellowhanddusuppliceencoremallavé。:e,withitsdownyredhairsanditsdoigtsdefaune。Heglancedathisownwhitetaperfingers,shudderingslightlyinspiteofhimself,andpassedon,tillhecametothoselovelystanzasuponVenice:
Surunegammechromatique,Leseindeperiesruisselant,LaVé。nusdel’AdriatiqueSortdel’eausoncorpsroseetblanc。Lesdô。mes,surl’azurdesondesSuivantlaphraseaupurcontour,S’enflentcommedesgorgesrondesQuesoulè。veunsoupird’amour。L’esquifabordeetmedé。pose,Jetantsonamarreaupilier,Devantunefaç。aderose,Surlemarbred’unescalier。
Howexquisitetheywere!Asonereadthem,oneseemedtobefloatingdownthegreenwater-waysofthepinkandpearlcity,seatedinablackgondolawithsilverprowandtrailingcurtains。Themerelineslookedtohimlikethosestraightlinesofturquoise-bluethatfollowoneasonepushesouttotheLido。Thesuddenflashesofcolourremindedhimofthegleamoftheopal-and-iris-throatedbirdsthatflutterroundthetallhoneycombedCampanile,orstalk,withsuchstatelygrace,throughthedim,dust-stainedarcades。Leaningbackwithhalf-closedeyes,hekeptsayingoverandovertohimself:
Devantunefaç。aderose,Surlemarbred’unescalier。
ThewholeofVenicewasinthosetwolines。Herememberedtheautumnthathehadpassedthere,andawonderfullovethathadstirredhimtomaddelightfulfollies。Therewasromanceineveryplace。ButVenice,likeOxford,hadkeptthebackgroundforromance,and,tothetrueromantic,backgroundwaseverything,oralmosteverything。Basilhadbeenwithhimpartofthetime,andhadgonewildoverTintoret。PoorBasil!Whatahorriblewayforamantodie!
Hesighed,andtookupthevolumeagain,andtriedtoforget。
HereadoftheswallowsthatflyinandoutofthelittlecafeatSmyrnawheretheHadjissitcountingtheiramberbeadsandtheturbanedmerchantssmoketheirlongtasselledpipesandtalkgravelytoeachother。hereadoftheObeliskinthePlacedelaConcordethatweepstearsofgraniteinitslonelysunlessexileandlongstobebackbythehot,lotus-coveredNile,wherethereareSphinxes,androse-redibises,andwhitevultureswithgildedclaws,andcrocodileswithsmallberyleyesthatcrawloverthegreensteamingmud。hebegantobroodoverthoseverseswhich,drawingmusicfromkiss-stainedmarble,tellofthatcuriousstatuethatGautiercomparestoacontraltovoice,themonstrecharmantthatcouchesintheporphyry-roomoftheLouvre。Butafteratimethebookfellfromhishand。Hegrewnervous,andahorriblefitofterrorcameoverhim。
WhatifAlanCampbellshouldbeoutofEngland?Dayswouldelapsebeforehecouldcomeback。Perhapshemightrefusetocome。Whatcouldhedothen?
Everymomentwasofvitalimportance。
Theyhadbeengreatfriendsonce,fiveyearsbefore——almostinseparable,indeed。Thentheintimacyhadcomesuddenlytoanend。Whentheymetinsocietynow,itwasonlyDorianGraywhosmiled:AlanCampbellneverdid。
Hewasanextremelycleveryoungman,thoughhehadnorealappreciationofthevisiblearts,andwhateverlittlesenseofthebeautyofpoetryhepossessedhehadgainedentirelyfromDorian。Hisdominantintellectualpassionwasforscience。AtCambridgehehadspentagreatdealofhistimeworkinginthelaboratory,andhadtakenagoodclassintheNaturalScienceTriposofhisyear。Indeed,hewasstilldevotedtothestudyofchemistry,andhadalaboratoryofhisowninwhichheusedtoshuthimselfupalldaylong,greatlytotheannoyanceofhismother,whohadsetherheartonhisstandingforParliamentandhadavagueideathatachemistwasapersonwhomadeupprescriptions。Hewasanexcellentmusician,however,aswell,andplayedboththeviolinandthepianobetterthanmostamateurs。
Infact,itwasmusicthathadfirstbroughthimandDorianGraytogether——musicandthatindefinableattractionthatDorianseemedtobeabletoexercisewheneverhewished——and,indeed,exercisedoftenwithoutbeingconsciousofit。TheyhadmetatLadyBerkshire’sthenightthatRubinsteinplayedthere,andafterthatusedtobealwaysseentogetherattheoperaandwherevergoodmusicwasgoingon。Foreighteenmonthstheirintimacylasted。
CampbellwasalwayseitheratSelbyRoyalorinGrosvenorSquare。Tohim,astomanyothers,DorianGraywasthetypeofeverythingthatiswonderfulandfascinatinginlife。Whetherornotaquarrelhadtakenplacebetweenthemnooneeverknew。ButsuddenlypeopleremarkedthattheyscarcelyspokewhentheymetandthatCampbellseemedalwaystogoawayearlyfromanypartyatwhichDorianGraywaspresent。Hehadchanged,too——wasstrangelymelancholyattimes,appearedalmosttodislikehearingmusic,andwouldneverhimselfplay,givingashisexcuse,whenhewascalledupon,thathewassoabsorbedinsciencethathehadnotimeleftinwhichtopractise。
Andthiswascertainlytrue。Everydayheseemedtobecomemoreinterestedinbiology,andhisnameappearedonceortwiceinsomeofthescientificreviewsinconnectionwithcertaincuriousexperiments。
ThiswasthemanDorianGraywaswaitingfor。Everysecondhekeptglancingattheclock。Astheminuteswentbyhebecamehorriblyagitated。
Atlasthegotupandbegantopaceupanddowntheroom,lookinglikeabeautifulcagedthing。Hetooklongstealthystrides。Hishandswerecuriouslycold。
Thesuspensebecameunbearable。Timeseemedtohimtobecrawlingwithfeetoflead,whilehebymonstrouswindswasbeingswepttowardsthejaggededgeofsomeblackcleftofprecipice。Heknewwhatwaswaitingforhimthere。sawit,indeed,and,shuddering,crushedwithdankhandshisburninglidsasthoughhewouldhaverobbedtheverybrainofsightanddriventheeyeballsbackintotheircave。Itwasuseless。Thebrainhaditsownfoodonwhichitbattened,andtheimagination,madegrotesquebyterror,twistedanddistortedasalivingthingbypain,dancedlikesomefoulpuppetonastandandgrinnedthroughmovingmasks。Then,suddenly,timestoppedforhim。Yes:thatblind,slow-breathingthingcrawlednomore,andhorriblethoughts,timebeingdead,racednimblyoninfront,anddraggedahideousfuturefromitsgrave,andshowedittohim。Hestaredatit。Itsveryhorrormadehimstone。
Atlastthedooropenedandhisservantentered。Heturnedglazedeyesuponhim。
Mr。Campbell,sir,saidtheman。
Asighofreliefbrokefromhisparchedlips,andthecolourcamebacktohischeeks。
Askhimtocomeinatonce,Francis。Hefeltthathewashimselfagain。Hismoodofcowardicehadpassedaway。
Themanbowedandretired。Inafewmoments,AlanCampbellwalkedin,lookingverysternandratherpale,hispallorbeingintensifiedbyhiscoal-blackhairanddarkeyebrows。
Alan!Thisiskindofyou。Ithankyouforcoming。
Ihadintendednevertoenteryourhouseagain,Gray。Butyousaiditwasamatteroflifeanddeath。Hisvoicewashardandcold。Hespokewithslowdeliberation。TherewasalookofcontemptinthesteadysearchinggazethatheturnedonDorian。HekepthishandsinthepocketsofhisAstrakhancoat,andseemednottohavenoticedthegesturewithwhichhehadbeengreeted。
Yes:itisamatteroflifeanddeath,Alan,andtomorethanoneperson。Sitdown。
Campbelltookachairbythetable,andDoriansatoppositetohim。Thetwomen’seyesmet。InDorian’stherewasinfinitepity。Heknewthatwhathewasgoingtodowasdreadful。
Afterastrainedmomentofsilence,heleanedacrossandsaid,veryquietly,butwatchingtheeffectofeachworduponthefaceofhimhehadsentfor,Alan,inalockedroomatthetopofthishouse,aroomtowhichnobodybutmyselfhasaccess,adeadmanisseatedatatable。
Hehasbeendeadtenhoursnow。Don’tstir,anddon’tlookatmelikethat。
Whothemanis,whyhedied,howhedied,aremattersthatdonotconcernyou。Whatyouhavetodoisthis——
Stop,Gray。Idon’twanttoknowanythingfurther。Whetherwhatyouhavetoldmeistrueornottruedoesn’tconcernme。Ientirelydeclinetobemixedupinyourlife。Keepyourhorriblesecretstoyourself。Theydon’tinterestmeanymore。
Alan,theywillhavetointerestyou。Thisonewillhavetointerestyou。Iamawfullysorryforyou,Alan。ButIcan’thelpmyself。Youaretheonemanwhoisabletosaveme。Iamforcedtobringyouintothematter。
Ihavenooption。Alan,youarescientific。Youknowaboutchemistryandthingsofthatkind。Youhavemadeexperiments。Whatyouhavegottodoistodestroythethingthatisupstairs——todestroyitsothatnotavestigeofitwillbeleft。Nobodysawthispersoncomeintothehouse。
Indeed,atthepresentmomentheissupposedtobeinParis。Hewillnotbemissedformonths。Whenheismissed,theremustbenotraceofhimfoundhere。You,Alan,youmustchangehim,andeverythingthatbelongstohim,intoahandfulofashesthatImayscatterintheair。
Youaremad,Dorian。
Ah!IwaswaitingforyoutocallmeDorian。
Youaremad,Itellyou——madtoimaginethatIwouldraiseafingertohelpyou,madtomakethismonstrousconfession。Iwillhavenothingtodowiththismatter,whateveritis。DoyouthinkIamgoingtoperilmyreputationforyou?Whatisittomewhatdevil’sworkyouareupto?
Itwassuicide,Alan。
Iamgladofthat。Butwhodrovehimtoit?You,Ishouldfancy。
Doyoustillrefusetodothisforme?
OfcourseIrefuse。Iwillhaveabsolutelynothingtodowithit。Idon’tcarewhatshamecomesonyou。Youdeserveitall。Ishouldnotbesorrytoseeyoudisgraced,publiclydisgraced。Howdareyouaskme,ofallmenintheworld,tomixmyselfupinthishorror?Ishouldhavethoughtyouknewmoreaboutpeople’scharacters。YourfriendLordHenryWottoncan’thavetaughtyoumuchaboutpsychology,whateverelsehehastaughtyou。Nothingwillinducemetostirasteptohelpyou。Youhavecometothewrongman。Gotosomeofyourfriends。Don’tcometome。
Alan,itwasmurder。Ikilledhim。Youdon’tknowwhathehadmademesuffer。Whatevermylifeis,hehadmoretodowiththemakingorthemarringofitthanpoorHarryhashad。Hemaynothaveintendedit,theresultwasthesame。
Murder!GoodGod,Dorian,isthatwhatyouhavecometo?Ishallnotinformuponyou。Itisnotmybusiness。Besides,withoutmystirringinthematter,youarecertaintobearrested。Nobodyevercommitsacrimewithoutdoingsomethingstupid。ButIwillhavenothingtodowithit。
Youmusthavesomethingtodowithit。Wait,waitamoment。listentome。Onlylisten,Alan。AllIaskofyouistoperformacertainscientificexperiment。Yougotohospitalsanddead-houses,andthehorrorsthatyoudotheredon’taffectyou。Ifinsomehideousdissecting-roomorfetidlaboratoryyoufoundthismanlyingonaleadentablewithredguttersscoopedoutinitforthebloodtoflowthrough,youwouldsimplylookuponhimasanadmirablesubject。Youwouldnotturnahair。Youwouldnotbelievethatyouweredoinganythingwrong。Onthecontrary,youwouldprobablyfeelthatyouwerebenefitingthehumanrace,orincreasingthesumofknowledgeintheworld,orgratifyingintellectualcuriosity,orsomethingofthatkind。WhatIwantyoutodoismerelywhatyouhaveoftendonebefore。Indeed,todestroyabodymustbefarlesshorriblethanwhatyouareaccustomedtoworkat。And,remember,itistheonlypieceofevidenceagainstme。Ifitisdiscovered,Iamlost。anditissuretobediscoveredunlessyouhelpme。
Ihavenodesiretohelpyou。Youforgetthat。Iamsimplyindifferenttothewholething。Ithasnothingtodowithme。
Alan,Ientreatyou。ThinkofthepositionIamin。JustbeforeyoucameIalmostfaintedwithterror。Youmayknowterroryourselfsomeday。No!don’tthinkofthat。Lookatthematterpurelyfromthescientificpointofview。Youdon’tinquirewherethedeadthingsonwhichyouexperimentcomefrom。Don’tinquirenow。Ihavetoldyoutoomuchasitis。ButI
begofyoutodothis。Wewerefriendsonce,Alan。
Don’tspeakaboutthosedays,Dorian——theyaredead。
Thedeadlingersometimes。Themanupstairswillnotgoaway。
Heissittingatthetablewithbowedheadandoutstretchedarms。Alan!
Alan!Ifyoudon’tcometomyassistance,Iamruined。Why,theywillhangme,Alan!Don’tyouunderstand?TheywillhangmeforwhatIhavedone。
Thereisnogoodinprolongingthisscene。Iabsolutelyrefusetodoanythinginthematter。Itisinsaneofyoutoaskme。
Yourefuse?
Yes。
Ientreatyou,Alan。
Itisuseless。
ThesamelookofpitycameintoDorianGray’seyes。Thenhestretchedouthishand,tookapieceofpaper,andwrotesomethingonit。Hereaditovertwice,foldeditcarefully,andpusheditacrossthetable。Havingdonethis,hegotupandwentovertothewindow。
Campbelllookedathiminsurprise,andthentookupthepaper,andopenedit。Ashereadit,hisfacebecameghastlypaleandhefellbackinhischair。Ahorriblesenseofsicknesscameoverhim。Hefeltasifhisheartwasbeatingitselftodeathinsomeemptyhollow。
Aftertwoorthreeminutesofterriblesilence,Dorianturnedroundandcameandstoodbehindhim,puttinghishanduponhisshoulder。
Iamsosorryforyou,Alan,hemurmured,butyouleavemenoalternative。Ihavealetterwrittenalready。Hereitis。Youseetheaddress。Ifyoudon’thelpme,Imustsendit。Ifyoudon’thelpme,I
willsendit。Youknowwhattheresultwillbe。Butyouaregoingtohelpme。Itisimpossibleforyoutorefusenow。Itriedtospareyou。Youwilldomethejusticetoadmitthat。Youwerestern,harsh,offensive。Youtreatedmeasnomanhaseverdaredtotreatme——nolivingman,atanyrate。Iboreitall。Nowitisformetodictateterms。
Campbellburiedhisfaceinhishands,andashudderpassedthroughhim。
Yes,itismyturntodictateterms,Alan。Youknowwhattheyare。Thethingisquitesimple。Come,don’tworkyourselfintothisfever。
Thethinghastobedone。Faceit,anddoit。
AgroanbrokefromCampbell’slipsandheshiveredallover。Thetickingoftheclockonthemantelpieceseemedtohimtobedividingtimeintoseparateatomsofagony,eachofwhichwastooterribletobeborne。
Hefeltasifanironringwasbeingslowlytightenedroundhisforehead,asifthedisgracewithwhichhewasthreatenedhadalreadycomeuponhim。
Thehanduponhisshoulderweighedlikeahandoflead。Itwasintolerable。
Itseemedtocrushhim。
Come,Alan,youmustdecideatonce。
Icannotdoit,hesaid,mechanically,asthoughwordscouldalterthings。
Youmust。Youhavenochoice。Don’tdelay。
Hehesitatedamoment。Isthereafireintheroomupstairs?
Yes,thereisagas-firewithasbestos。
Ishallhavetogohomeandgetsomethingsfromthelaboratory。
No,Alan,youmustnotleavethehouse。Writeoutonasheetofnotepaperwhatyouwantandmyservantwilltakeacabandbringthethingsbacktoyou。
Campbellscrawledafewlines,blottedthem,andaddressedanenvelopetohisassistant。Doriantookthenoteupandreaditcarefully。
Thenherangthebellandgaveittohisvalet,withorderstoreturnassoonaspossibleandtobringthethingswithhim。
Asthehalldoorshut,Campbellstartednervously,andhavinggotupfromthechair,wentovertothechimney-piece。Hewasshiveringwithakindofague。Fornearlytwentyminutes,neitherofthemenspoke。
Aflybuzzednoisilyabouttheroom,andthetickingoftheclockwaslikethebeatofahammer。
Asthechimestruckone,Campbellturnedround,andlookingatDorianGray,sawthathiseyeswerefilledwithtears。Therewassomethinginthepurityandrefinementofthatsadfacethatseemedtoenragehim。
Youareinfamous,absolutelyinfamous!hemuttered。
Hush,Alan。Youhavesavedmylife,saidDorian。
Yourlife?Goodheavens!whatalifethatis!Youhavegonefromcorruptiontocorruption,andnowyouhaveculminatedincrime。IndoingwhatIamgoingtodo——whatyouforcemetodo——itisnotofyourlifethatIamthinking。
Ah,Alan,murmuredDorianwithasigh,IwishyouhadathousandthpartofthepityformethatIhaveforyou。Heturnedawayashespokeandstoodlookingoutatthegarden。Campbellmadenoanswer。
Afterabouttenminutesaknockcametothedoor,andtheservantentered,carryingalargemahoganychestofchemicals,withalongcoilofsteelandplatinumwireandtworathercuriouslyshapedironclamps。
ShallIleavethethingshere,sir?heaskedCampbell。
Yes,saidDorian。AndIamafraid,Francis,thatIhaveanothererrandforyou。WhatisthenameofthemanatRichmondwhosuppliesSelbywithorchids?
Harden,sir。
Yes——Harden。YoumustgodowntoRichmondatonce,seeHardenpersonally,andtellhimtosendtwiceasmanyorchidsasIordered,andtohaveasfewwhiteonesaspossible。Infact,Idon’twantanywhiteones。Itisalovelyday,Francis,andRichmondisaveryprettyplace——
otherwiseIwouldn’tbotheryouaboutit。
Notrouble,sir。AtwhattimeshallIbeback?
DorianlookedatCampbell。Howlongwillyourexperimenttake,Alan?hesaidinacalmindifferentvoice。Thepresenceofathirdpersonintheroomseemedtogivehimextraordinarycourage。
Campbellfrownedandbithislip。Itwilltakeaboutfivehours,
heanswered。
Itwillbetimeenough,then,ifyouarebackathalf-pastseven,Francis。Orstay:justleavemythingsoutfordressing。Youcanhavetheeveningtoyourself。Iamnotdiningathome,soIshallnotwantyou。
Thankyou,sir,saidtheman,leavingtheroom。
Now,Alan,thereisnotamomenttobelost。Howheavythischestis!I’lltakeitforyou。Youbringtheotherthings。Hespokerapidlyandinanauthoritativemanner。Campbellfeltdominatedbyhim。Theylefttheroomtogether。
Whentheyreachedthetoplanding,Doriantookoutthekeyandturneditinthelock。Thenhestopped,andatroubledlookcameintohiseyes。Heshuddered。Idon’tthinkIcangoin,Alan,hemurmured。
Itisnothingtome。Idon’trequireyou,saidCampbellcoldly。
Dorianhalfopenedthedoor。Ashedidso,hesawthefaceofhisportraitleeringinthesunlight。Onthefloorinfrontofitthetorncurtainwaslying。Herememberedthatthenightbeforehehadforgotten,forthefirsttimeinhislife,tohidethefatalcanvas,andwasabouttorushforward,whenhedrewbackwithashudder。
Whatwasthatloathsomereddewthatgleamed,wetandglistening,ononeofthehands,asthoughthecanvashadsweatedblood?Howhorribleitwas!——morehorrible,itseemedtohimforthemoment,thanthesilentthingthatheknewwasstretchedacrossthetable,thethingwhosegrotesquemisshapenshadowonthespottedcarpetshowedhimthatithadnotstirred,butwasstillthere,ashehadleftit。
Heheavedadeepbreath,openedthedooralittlewider,andwithhalf-closedeyesandavertedhead,walkedquicklyin,determinedthathewouldnotlookevenonceuponthedeadman。Then,stoopingdownandtakingupthegold-and-purplehanging,heflungitrightoverthepicture。
Therehestopped,feelingafraidtoturnround,andhiseyesfixedthemselvesontheintricaciesofthepatternbeforehim。HeheardCampbellbringingintheheavychest,andtheirons,andtheotherthingsthathehadrequiredforhisdreadfulwork。HebegantowonderifheandBasilHallwardhadevermet,and,ifso,whattheyhadthoughtofeachother。
Leavemenow,saidasternvoicebehindhim。
Heturnedandhurriedout,justconsciousthatthedeadmanhadbeenthrustbackintothechairandthatCampbellwasgazingintoaglisteningyellowface。Ashewasgoingdownstairs,heheardthekeybeingturnedinthelock。
ItwaslongaftersevenwhenCampbellcamebackintothelibrary。
Hewaspale,butabsolutelycalm。Ihavedonewhatyouaskedmetodo,
hemutteredAndnow,good-bye。Letusneverseeeachotheragain。
Youhavesavedmefromruin,Alan。Icannotforgetthat,saidDoriansimply。
AssoonasCampbellhadleft,hewentupstairs。Therewasahorriblesmellofnitricacidintheroom。Butthethingthathadbeensittingatthetablewasgone。
ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter15Chapter15Thatevening,ateight-thirty,exquisitelydressedandwearingalargebutton-holeofParmaviolets,DorianGraywasusheredintoLadyNarborough’sdrawing-roombybowingservants。Hisforeheadwasthrobbingwithmaddenednerves,andhefeltwildlyexcited,buthismannerashebentoverhishostess’shandwasaseasyandgracefulasever。Perhapsoneneverseemssomuchatone’seaseaswhenonehastoplayapart。CertainlynoonelookingatDorianGraythatnightcouldhavebelievedthathehadpassedthroughatragedyashorribleasanytragedyofourage。Thosefinelyshapedfingerscouldneverhaveclutchedaknifeforsin,northosesmilinglipshavecriedoutonGodandgoodness。Hehimselfcouldnothelpwonderingatthecalmofhisdemeanour,andforamomentfeltkeenlytheterriblepleasureofadoublelife。
Itwasasmallparty,gotupratherinahurrybyLadyNarborough,whowasaverycleverwomanwithwhatLordHenryusedtodescribeastheremainsofreallyremarkableugliness。Shehadprovedanexcellentwifetooneofourmosttediousambassadors,andhavingburiedherhusbandproperlyinamarblemausoleum,whichshehadherselfdesigned,andmarriedoffherdaughterstosomerich,ratherelderlymen,shedevotedherselfnowtothepleasuresofFrenchfiction,Frenchcookery,andFrenchespritwhenshecouldgetit。
Dorianwasoneofherespecialfavourites,andshealwaystoldhimthatshewasextremelygladshehadnotmethiminearlylife。Iknow,mydear,Ishouldhavefallenmadlyinlovewithyou,sheusedtosay,andthrownmybonnetrightoverthemillsforyoursake。Itismostfortunatethatyouwerenotthoughtofatthetime。Asitwas,ourbonnetsweresounbecoming,andthemillsweresooccupiedintryingtoraisethewind,thatIneverhadevenaflirtationwithanybody。However,thatwasallNarborough’sfault。Hewasdreadfullyshort-sighted,andthereisnopleasureintakinginahusbandwhoneverseesanything。
Hergueststhiseveningwererathertedious。Thefactwas,assheexplainedtoDorian,behindaveryshabbyfan,oneofhermarrieddaughtershadcomeupquitesuddenlytostaywithher,and,tomakemattersworse,hadactuallybroughtherhusbandwithher。Ithinkitismostunkindofher,mydear,shewhispered。OfcourseIgoandstaywiththemeverysummerafterIcomefromHomburg,butthenanoldwomanlikememusthavefreshairsometimes,andbesides,Ireallywakethemup。Youdon’tknowwhatanexistencetheyleaddownthere。Itispureunadulteratedcountrylife。Theygetupearly,becausetheyhavesomuchtodo,andgotobedearly,becausetheyhavesolittletothinkabout。TherehasnotbeenascandalintheneighbourhoodsincethetimeofQueenElizabeth,andconsequentlytheyallfallasleepafterdinner。Youshan’tsitnexteitherofthem。
Youshallsitbymeandamuseme。
Dorianmurmuredagracefulcomplimentandlookedroundtheroom。
Yes:itwascertainlyatediousparty。Twoofthepeoplehehadneverseenbefore,andtheothersconsistedofErnestHarrowden,oneofthosemiddle-agedmediocritiessocommoninLondonclubswhohavenoenemies,butarethoroughlydislikedbytheirfriends。LadyRuxton,anoverdressedwomanofforty-seven,withahookednose,whowasalwaystryingtogetherselfcompromised,butwassopeculiarlyplainthattohergreatdisappointmentnoonewouldeverbelieveanythingagainsther。Mrs。Erlynne,apushingnobody,withadelightfullispandVenetian-redhair。LadyAliceChapman,hishostess’sdaughter,adowdydullgirl,withoneofthosecharacteristicBritishfacesthat,onceseen,areneverremembered。andherhusband,ared-cheeked,white-whiskeredcreaturewho,likesomanyofhisclass,wasundertheimpressionthatinordinatejovialitycanatoneforanentirelackofideas。
Hewasrathersorryhehadcome,tillLadyNarborough,lookingatthegreatormolugiltclockthatsprawledingaudycurvesonthemauve-drapedmantelshelf,exclaimed:HowhorridofHenryWottontobesolate!Isentroundtohimthismorningonchanceandhepromisedfaithfullynottodisappointme。
ItwassomeconsolationthatHarrywastobethere,andwhenthedooropenedandheheardhisslowmusicalvoicelendingcharmtosomeinsincereapology,heceasedtofeelbored。
Butatdinnerhecouldnoteatanything。Plateafterplatewentawayuntasted。LadyNarboroughkeptscoldinghimforwhatshecalledaninsulttopoorAdolphe,whoinventedthemenuspeciallyforyou,andnowandthenLordHenrylookedacrossathim,wonderingathissilenceandabstractedmanner。Fromtimetotimethebutlerfilledhisglasswithchampagne。
Hedrankeagerly,andhisthirstseemedtoincrease。
Dorian,saidLordHenryatlast,asthechaud-froidwasbeinghandedround,whatisthematterwithyouto-night?Youarequiteoutofsorts。
Ibelieveheisinlove,criedLadyNarborough,andthatheisafraidtotellmeforfearIshouldbejealous。Heisquiteright。I
certainlyshould。
DearLadyNarborough,murmuredDorian,smiling,Ihavenotbeeninloveforawholeweek——not,infact,sinceMadamedeFerrollefttown。
Howyoumencanfallinlovewiththatwoman!exclaimedtheoldlady。Ireallycannotunderstandit。
Itissimplybecausesheremembersyouwhenyouwerealittlegirl,LadyNarborough,saidLordHenry。Sheistheonelinkbetweenusandyourshortfrocks。
Shedoesnotremembermyshortfrocksatall,LordHenry。ButIrememberherverywellatViennathirtyyearsago,andhowdé。colleté。eshewasthen。
Sheisstilldé。colleté。e,heanswered,takinganoliveinhislongfingers。andwhensheisinaverysmartgownshelookslikeané。ditiondeluxeofabadFrenchnovel。Sheisreallywonderful,andfullofsurprises。Hercapacityforfamilyaffectionisextraordinary。Whenherthirdhusbanddied,herhairturnedquitegoldfromgrief。
Howcanyou,Harry!criedDorian。
Itisamostromanticexplanation,laughedthehostess。Butherthirdhusband,LordHenry!Youdon’tmeantosayFerrolisthefourth?
Certainly,LadyNarborough。
Idon’tbelieveawordofit。
Well,askMr。Gray。Heisoneofhermostintimatefriends。
Isittrue,Mr。Gray?
Sheassuresmeso,LadyNarborough,saidDorian。Iaskedherwhether,likeMargueritedeNavarre,shehadtheirheartsembalmedandhungathergirdle。Shetoldmeshedidn’t,becausenoneofthemhadhadanyheartsatall。
Fourhusbands!Uponmywordthatistropdezè。le。
Tropd’audace,Itellher,saidDorian。
Oh!sheisaudaciousenoughforanything,mydear。AndwhatisFerrollike?Idon’tknowhim。
Thehusbandsofverybeautifulwomenbelongtothecriminalclasses,
saidLordHenry,sippinghiswine。
LadyNarboroughhithimwithherfan。LordHenry,Iamnotatallsurprisedthattheworldsaysthatyouareextremelywicked。
Butwhatworldsaysthat?askedLordHenry,elevatinghiseyebrows。
Itcanonlybethenextworld。ThisworldandIareonexcellentterms。
EverybodyIknowsaysyouareverywicked,criedtheoldlady,shakingherhead。
LordHenrylookedseriousforsomemoments。Itisperfectlymonstrous,
hesaid,atlast,thewaypeoplegoaboutnowadayssayingthingsagainstonebehindone’sbackthatareabsolutelyandentirelytrue。
Isn’theincorrigible?criedDorian,leaningforwardinhischair。
Ihopeso,saidhishostess,laughing。Butreally,ifyouallworshipMadamedeFerrolinthisridiculousway,Ishallhavetomarryagainsoastobeinthefashion。
Youwillnevermarryagain,LadyNarborough,brokeinLordHenry。
Youwerefartoohappy。Whenawomanmarriesagain,itisbecauseshedetestedherfirsthusband。Whenamanmarriesagain,itisbecauseheadoredhisfirstwife。Womentrytheirluck。menrisktheirs。
Narboroughwasn’tperfect,criedtheoldlady。
Ifhehadbeen,youwouldnothavelovedhim,mydearlady,
wastherejoinder。Womenloveusforourdefects。Ifwehaveenoughofthem,theywillforgiveuseverything,evenourintellects。Youwillneveraskmetodinneragainaftersayingthis,Iamafraid,LadyNarborough,butitisquitetrue。
Ofcourseitistrue,LordHenry。Ifwewomendidnotloveyouforyourdefects,wherewouldyouallbe?Notoneofyouwouldeverbemarried。Youwouldbeasetofunfortunatebachelors。Not,however,thatthatwouldalteryoumuch。Nowadaysallthemarriedmenlivelikebachelors,andallthebachelorslikemarriedmen。
Findesiè。cle,murmuredLordHenry。
Finduglobe,answeredhishostess。
Iwishitwerefinduglobe,saidDorianwithasigh。
Lifeisagreatdisappointment。
Ah,mydear,criedLadyNarborough,puttingonhergloves,don’ttellmethatyouhaveexhaustedlife。Whenamansaysthatoneknowsthatlifehasexhaustedhim。LordHenryisverywicked,andIsometimeswishthatIhadbeen。butyouaremadetobegood——youlooksogood。Imustfindyouanicewife。LordHenry,don’tyouthinkthatMr。Grayshouldgetmarried?
Iamalwaystellinghimso,LadyNarborough,saidLordHenrywithabow。
Well,wemustlookoutforasuitablematchforhim。IshallgothroughDebrettcarefullyto-nightanddrawoutalistofalltheeligibleyoungladies。
Withtheirages,LadyNarborough?askedDorian。
Ofcourse,withtheirages,slightlyedited。Butnothingmustbedoneinahurry。IwantittobewhatTheMorningPostcallsasuitablealliance,andIwantyoubothtobehappy。
Whatnonsensepeopletalkabouthappymarriages!exclaimedLordHenry。Amancanbehappywithanywoman,aslongashedoesnotloveher。
Ah!whatacynicyouare!criedtheoldlady,pushingbackherchairandnoddingtoLadyRuxton。Youmustcomeanddinewithmesoonagain。Youarereallyanadmirabletonic,muchbetterthanwhatSirAndrewprescribesforme。Youmusttellmewhatpeopleyouwouldliketomeet,though。Iwantittobeadelightfulgathering。
Ilikemenwhohaveafutureandwomenwhohaveapast,heanswered。
Ordoyouthinkthatwouldmakeitapetticoatparty?
Ifearso,shesaid,laughing,asshestoodup。Athousandpardons,mydearLadyRuxton,sheadded,Ididn’tseeyouhadn’tfinishedyourcigarette。
Nevermind,LadyNarborough。Ismokeagreatdealtoomuch。I
amgoingtolimitmyself,forthefuture。
Praydon’t,LadyRuxton,saidLordHenry。Moderationisafatalthing。Enoughisasbadasameal。Morethanenoughisasgoodasafeast。
LadyRuxtonglancedathimcuriously。Youmustcomeandexplainthattomesomeafternoon,LordHenry。Itsoundsafascinatingtheory,
shemurmured,asshesweptoutoftheroom。
Now,mindyoudon’tstaytoolongoveryourpoliticsandscandal,
criedLadyNarboroughfromthedoor。Ifyoudo,wearesuretosquabbleupstairs。
Themenlaughed,andMr。Chapmangotupsolemnlyfromthefootofthetableandcameuptothetop。DorianGraychangedhisseatandwentandsatbyLordHenry。Mr。ChapmanbegantotalkinaloudvoiceaboutthesituationintheHouseofCommons。Heguffawedathisadversaries。
Theworddoctrinaire——wordfullofterrortotheBritishmind——
reappearedfromtimetotimebetweenhisexplosions。Analliterativeprefixservedasanornamentoforatory。HehoistedtheUnionJackonthepinnaclesofthought。Theinheritedstupidityoftherace——soundEnglishcommonsensehejoviallytermedit——wasshowntobetheproperbulwarkforsociety。
AsmilecurvedLordHenry’slips,andheturnedroundandlookedatDorian。
Areyoubetter,mydearfellow?heasked。Youseemedratheroutofsortsatdinner。
Iamquitewell,Harry。Iamtired。Thatisall。
Youwerecharminglastnight。Thelittleduchessisquitedevotedtoyou。ShetellsmesheisgoingdowntoSelby。
Shehaspromisedtocomeonthetwentieth。
IsMonmouthtobethere,too?
Oh,yes,Harry。
Heboresmedreadfully,almostasmuchasheboresher。Sheisveryclever,toocleverforawoman。Shelackstheindefinablecharmofweakness。Itisthefeetofclaythatmakethegoldoftheimageprecious。
Herfeetareverypretty,buttheyarenotfeetofclay。Whiteporcelainfeet,ifyoulike。Theyhavebeenthroughthefire,andwhatfiredoesnotdestroy,ithardens。Shehashadexperiences。
Howlonghasshebeenmarried?askedDorian。
Aneternity,shetellsme。Ibelieve,accordingtothepeerage,itistenyears,buttenyearswithMonmouthmusthavebeenlikeeternity,withtimethrownin。Whoelseiscoming?
Oh,theWilloughbys,LordRugbyandhiswife,ourhostess,GeoffreyClouston,theusualset。IhaveaskedLordGrotrian。
Ilikehim,saidLordHenry。Agreatmanypeopledon’t,butIfindhimcharming。Heatonesforbeingoccasionallysomewhatoverdressedbybeingalwaysabsolutelyover-educated。Heisaverymoderntype。
Idon’tknowifhewillbeabletocome,Harry。HemayhavetogotoMonteCarlowithhisfather。
Ah!whatanuisancepeople’speopleare!Tryandmakehimcome。
Bytheway,Dorian,youranoffveryearlylastnight。Youleftbeforeeleven。Whatdidyoudoafterwards?Didyougostraighthome?
Dorianglancedathimhurriedlyandfrowned。
No,Harry,hesaidatlast,Ididnotgethometillnearlythree。
Didyougototheclub?
Yes,heanswered。Thenhebithislip。No,Idon’tmeanthat。
Ididn’tgototheclub。Iwalkedabout。IforgetwhatIdid……Howinquisitiveyouare,Harry!Youalwayswanttoknowwhatonehasbeendoing。
IalwayswanttoforgetwhatIhavebeendoing。Icameinathalf-pasttwo,ifyouwishtoknowtheexacttime。Ihadleftmylatch-keyathome,andmyservanthadtoletmein。Ifyouwantanycorroborativeevidenceonthesubject,youcanaskhim。
LordHenryshruggedhisshoulders。Mydearfellow,asifIcared!
Letusgouptothedrawing-room。Nosherry,thankyou,Mr。Chapman。Somethinghashappenedtoyou,Dorian。Tellmewhatitis。Youarenotyourselfto-night。
Don’tmindme,Harry。Iamirritable,andoutoftemper。Ishallcomeroundandseeyouto-morrow,ornextday。MakemyexcusestoLadyNarborough。Ishan’tgoupstairs。Ishallgohome。Imustgohome。
Allright,Dorian。IdaresayIshallseeyouto-morrowattea-time。
Theduchessiscoming。
Iwilltrytobethere,Harry,hesaid,leavingtheroom。Ashedrovebacktohisownhouse,hewasconsciousthatthesenseofterrorhethoughthehadstrangledhadcomebacktohim。LordHenry’scasualquestioninghadmadehimlosehisnervesforthemoment,andhewantedhisnervestill。
Thingsthatweredangeroushadtobedestroyed。Hewinced。Hehatedtheideaofeventouchingthem。
Yetithadtobedone。Herealizedthat,andwhenhehadlockedthedoorofhislibrary,heopenedthesecretpressintowhichhehadthrustBasilHallward’scoatandbag。Ahugefirewasblazing。Hepiledanotherlogonit。Thesmellofthesingeingclothesandburningleatherwashorrible。
Ittookhimthree-quartersofanhourtoconsumeeverything。Attheendhefeltfaintandsick,andhavinglitsomeAlgerianpastillesinapiercedcopperbrazier,hebathedhishandsandforeheadwithacoolmusk-scentedvinegar。
Suddenlyhestarted。Hiseyesgrewstrangelybright,andhegnawednervouslyathisunderlip。BetweentwoofthewindowsstoodalargeFlorentinecabinet,madeoutofebonyandinlaidwithivoryandbluelapis。Hewatcheditasthoughitwereathingthatcouldfascinateandmakeafraid,asthoughitheldsomethingthathelongedforandyetalmostloathed。Hisbreathquickened。Amadcravingcameoverhim。Helitacigaretteandthenthrewitaway。Hiseyelidsdroopedtillthelongfringedlashesalmosttouchedhischeek。Buthestillwatchedthecabinet。Atlasthegotupfromthesofaonwhichhehadbeenlying,wentovertoit,andhavingunlockedit,touchedsomehiddenspring。Atriangulardrawerpassedslowlyout。Hisfingersmovedinstinctivelytowardsit,dippedin,andclosedonsomething。
ItwasasmallChineseboxofblackandgold-dustlacquer,elaboratelywrought,thesidespatternedwithcurvedwaves,andthesilkencordshungwithroundcrystalsandtasselledinplaitedmetalthreads。Heopenedit。
Insidewasagreenpaste,waxyinlustre,theodourcuriouslyheavyandpersistent。
Hehesitatedforsomemoments,withastrangelyimmobilesmileuponhisface。Thenshivering,thoughtheatmosphereoftheroomwasterriblyhot,hedrewhimselfupandglancedattheclock。Itwastwentyminutestotwelve。Heputtheboxback,shuttingthecabinetdoorsashedidso,andwentintohisbedroom。
Asmidnightwasstrikingbronzeblowsupontheduskyair,DorianGray,dressedcommonly,andwithamufflerwrappedroundhisthroat,creptquietlyoutofhishouse。InBondStreethefoundahansomwithagoodhorse。Hehaileditandinalowvoicegavethedriveranaddress。
Themanshookhishead。Itistoofarforme,hemuttered。
Hereisasovereignforyou,saidDorian。Youshallhaveanotherifyoudrivefast。
Allright,sir,answeredtheman,youwillbethereinanhour,
andafterhisfarehadgotinheturnedhishorseroundanddroverapidlytowardstheriver。
ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter16Chapter16Acoldrainbegantofall,andtheblurredstreet-lampslookedghastlyinthedrippingmist。Thepublic-houseswerejustclosing,anddimmenandwomenwereclusteringinbrokengroupsroundtheirdoors。Fromsomeofthebarscamethesoundofhorriblelaughter。Inothers,drunkardsbrawledandscreamed。
Lyingbackinthehansom,withhishatpulledoverhisforehead,DorianGraywatchedwithlistlesseyesthesordidshameofthegreatcity,andnowandthenherepeatedtohimselfthewordsthatLordHenryhadsaidtohimonthefirstdaytheyhadmet,Tocurethesoulbymeansofthesenses,andthesensesbymeansofthesoul。Yes,thatwasthesecret。
Hehadoftentriedit,andwouldtryitagainnow。Therewereopiumdenswhereonecouldbuyoblivion,densofhorrorwherethememoryofoldsinscouldbedestroyedbythemadnessofsinsthatwerenew。
Themoonhunglowintheskylikeayellowskull。Fromtimetotimeahugemisshapencloudstretchedalongarmacrossandhidit。Thegas-lampsgrewfewer,andthestreetsmorenarrowandgloomy。Oncethemanlosthiswayandhadtodrivebackhalfamile。Asteamrosefromthehorseasitsplashedupthepuddles。Thesidewindowsofthehansomwerecloggedwithagrey-flannelmist。
Tocurethesoulbymeansofthesenses,andthesensesbymeansofthesoul!Howthewordsranginhisears!Hissoul,certainly,wassicktodeath。Wasittruethatthesensescouldcureit?Innocentbloodhadbeenspilled。Whatcouldatoneforthat?Ah!forthattherewasnoatonement。butthoughforgivenesswasimpossible,forgetfulnesswaspossiblestill,andhewasdeterminedtoforget,tostampthethingout,tocrushitasonewouldcrushtheadderthathadstungone。Indeed,whatrighthadBasiltohavespokentohimashehaddone?Whohadmadehimajudgeoverothers?Hehadsaidthingsthatweredreadful,horrible,nottobeendured。
Onandonploddedthehansom,goingslower,itseemedtohim,ateachstep。Hethrustupthetrapandcalledtothemantodrivefaster。
Thehideoushungerforopiumbegantognawathim。Histhroatburnedandhisdelicatehandstwitchednervouslytogether。Hestruckatthehorsemadlywithhisstick。Thedriverlaughedandwhippedup。Helaughedinanswer,andthemanwassilent。
Thewayseemedinterminable,andthestreetsliketheblackwebofsomesprawlingspider。Themonotonybecameunbearable,andasthemistthickened,hefeltafraid。
Thentheypassedbylonelybrickfields。Thefogwaslighterhere,andhecouldseethestrange,bottle-shapedkilnswiththeirorange,fanliketonguesoffire。Adogbarkedastheywentby,andfarawayinthedarknesssomewanderingsea-gullscreamed。Thehorsestumbledinarut,thenswervedasideandbrokeintoagallop。
Aftersometimetheylefttheclayroadandrattledagainoverrough-pavenstreets。Mostofthewindowsweredark,butnowandthenfantasticshadowsweresilhouettedagainstsomelamplitblind。Hewatchedthemcuriously。
Theymovedlikemonstrousmarionettesandmadegestureslikelivethings。
Hehatedthem。Adullragewasinhisheart。Astheyturnedacorner,awomanyelledsomethingatthemfromanopendoor,andtwomenranafterthehansomforaboutahundredyards。Thedriverbeatatthemwithhiswhip。
Itissaidthatpassionmakesonethinkinacircle。CertainlywithhideousiterationthebittenlipsofDorianGrayshapedandreshapedthosesubtlewordsthatdealtwithsoulandsense,tillhehadfoundinthemthefullexpression,asitwere,ofhismood,andjustified,byintellectualapproval,passionsthatwithoutsuchjustificationwouldstillhavedominatedhistemper。Fromcelltocellofhisbraincrepttheonethought。andthewilddesiretolive,mostterribleofallman’sappetites,quickenedintoforceeachtremblingnerveandfibre。Uglinessthathadoncebeenhatefultohimbecauseitmadethingsreal,becamedeartohimnowforthatveryreason。Uglinesswastheonereality。Thecoarsebrawl,theloathsomeden,thecrudeviolenceofdisorderedlife,theveryvilenessofthiefandoutcast,weremorevivid,intheirintenseactualityofimpression,thanallthegraciousshapesofart,thedreamyshadowsofsong。Theywerewhatheneededforforgetfulness。Inthreedayshewouldbefree。
Suddenlythemandrewupwithajerkatthetopofadarklane。
Overthelowroofsandjaggedchimney-stacksofthehousesrosetheblackmastsofships。Wreathsofwhitemistclunglikeghostlysailstotheyards。
Somewhereabouthere,sir,ain’tit?heaskedhuskilythroughthetrap。
Dorianstartedandpeeredround。Thiswilldo,heanswered,andhavinggotouthastilyandgiventhedrivertheextrafarehehadpromisedhim,hewalkedquicklyinthedirectionofthequay。Hereandtherealanterngleamedatthesternofsomehugemerchantman。Thelightshookandsplinteredinthepuddles。Aredglarecamefromanoutward-boundsteamerthatwascoaling。Theslimypavementlookedlikeawetmackintosh。
Hehurriedontowardstheleft,glancingbacknowandthentoseeifhewasbeingfollowed。Inaboutsevenoreightminuteshereachedasmallshabbyhousethatwaswedgedinbetweentwogauntfactories。Inoneofthetop-windowsstoodalamp。Hestoppedandgaveapeculiarknock。
Afteralittletimeheheardstepsinthepassageandthechainbeingunhooked。Thedooropenedquietly,andhewentinwithoutsayingawordtothesquatmisshapenfigurethatflatteneditselfintotheshadowashepassed。Attheendofthehallhungatatteredgreencurtainthatswayedandshookinthegustywindwhichhadfollowedhiminfromthestreet。
Hedraggeditasideandenteredalonglowroomwhichlookedasifithadoncebeenathird-ratedancing-saloon。Shrillflaringgas-jets,dulledanddistortedinthefly-blownmirrorsthatfacedthem,wererangedroundthewalls。Greasyreflectorsofribbedtinbackedthem,makingquiveringdisksoflight。Thefloorwascoveredwithochre-colouredsawdust,trampledhereandthereintomud,andstainedwithdarkringsofspilledliquor。
SomeMalayswerecrouchingbyalittlecharcoalstove,playingwithbonecountersandshowingtheirwhiteteethastheychattered。Inonecorner,withhisheadburiedinhisarms,asailorsprawledoveratable,andbythetawdrilypaintedbarthatranacrossonecompletesidestoodtwohaggardwomen,mockinganoldmanwhowasbrushingthesleevesofhiscoatwithanexpressionofdisgust。Hethinkshe’sgotredantsonhim,laughedoneofthem,asDorianpassedby。Themanlookedatherinterrorandbegantowhimper。
Attheendoftheroomtherewasalittlestaircase,leadingtoadarkenedchamber。AsDorianhurriedupitsthreericketysteps,theheavyodourofopiummethim。Heheavedadeepbreath,andhisnostrilsquiveredwithpleasure。Whenheentered,ayoungmanwithsmoothyellowhair,whowasbendingoveralamplightingalongthinpipe,lookedupathimandnoddedinahesitatingmanner。
Youhere,Adrian?mutteredDorian。
WhereelseshouldIbe?heanswered,listlessly。Noneofthechapswillspeaktomenow。
IthoughtyouhadleftEngland。
Darlingtonisnotgoingtodoanything。Mybrotherpaidthebillatlast。Georgedoesn’tspeaktomeeither……Idon’tcare,headdedwithasigh。Aslongasonehasthisstuff,onedoesn’twantfriends。
IthinkIhavehadtoomanyfriends。
Dorianwincedandlookedroundatthegrotesquethingsthatlayinsuchfantasticposturesontheraggedmattresses。Thetwistedlimbs,thegapingmouths,thestaringlustrelesseyes,fascinatedhim。Heknewinwhatstrangeheavenstheyweresuffering,andwhatdullhellswereteachingthemthesecretofsomenewjoy。Theywerebetteroffthanhewas。Hewasprisonedinthought。Memory,likeahorriblemalady,waseatinghissoulaway。FromtimetotimeheseemedtoseetheeyesofBasilHallwardlookingathim。Yethefelthecouldnotstay。ThepresenceofAdrianSingletontroubledhim。Hewantedtobewherenoonewouldknowwhohewas。Hewantedtoescapefromhimself。
Iamgoingontotheotherplace,hesaidafterapause。
Onthewharf?
Yes。
Thatmad-catissuretobethere。Theywon’thaveherinthisplacenow。
Dorianshruggedhisshoulders。Iamsickofwomenwholoveone。
Womenwhohateonearemuchmoreinteresting。Besides,thestuffisbetter。
Muchthesame。
Ilikeitbetter。Comeandhavesomethingtodrink。Imusthavesomething。
Idon’twantanything,murmuredtheyoungman。
Nevermind。
AdrianSingletonroseupwearilyandfollowedDoriantothebar。
Ahalf-caste,inaraggedturbanandashabbyulster,grinnedahideousgreetingashethrustabottleofbrandyandtwotumblersinfrontofthem。
Thewomensidledupandbegantochatter。DorianturnedhisbackonthemandsaidsomethinginalowvoicetoAdrianSingleton。
Acrookedsmile,likeaMalaycrease,writhedacrossthefaceofoneofthewomen。Weareveryproudto-night,shesneered。
ForGod’ssakedon’ttalktome,criedDorian,stampinghisfootontheground。Whatdoyouwant?Money?Hereitis。Don’tevertalktomeagain。
Tworedsparksflashedforamomentinthewoman’ssoddeneyes,thenflickeredoutandleftthemdullandglazed。Shetossedherheadandrakedthecoinsoffthecounterwithgreedyfingers。Hercompanionwatchedherenviously。
It’snouse,sighedAdrianSingleton。Idon’tcaretogoback。
Whatdoesitmatter?Iamquitehappyhere。
Youwillwritetomeifyouwantanything,won’tyou?saidDorian,afterapause。
Perhaps。
Goodnight,then。
Goodnight,answeredtheyoungman,passingupthestepsandwipinghisparchedmouthwithahandkerchief。
Dorianwalkedtothedoorwithalookofpaininhisface。Ashedrewthecurtainaside,ahideouslaughbrokefromthepaintedlipsofthewomanwhohadtakenhismoney。Theregoesthedevil’sbargain!
shehiccoughed,inahoarsevoice。
Curseyou!heanswered,don’tcallmethat。
Shesnappedherfingers。PrinceCharmingiswhatyouliketobecalled,ain’tit?sheyelledafterhim。
Thedrowsysailorleapedtohisfeetasshespoke,andlookedwildlyround。Thesoundoftheshuttingofthehalldoorfellonhisear。
Herushedoutasifinpursuit。
DorianGrayhurriedalongthequaythroughthedrizzlingrain。
HismeetingwithAdrianSingletonhadstrangelymovedhim,andhewonderediftheruinofthatyounglifewasreallytobelaidathisdoor,asBasilHallwardhadsaidtohimwithsuchinfamyofinsult。Hebithislip,andforafewsecondshiseyesgrewsad。Yet,afterall,whatdiditmattertohim?One’sdaysweretoobrieftotaketheburdenofanother’serrorsonone’sshoulders。Eachmanlivedhisownlifeandpaidhisownpriceforlivingit。Theonlypitywasonehadtopaysooftenforasinglefault。
Onehadtopayoverandoveragain,indeed。Inherdealingswithman,destinyneverclosedheraccounts。
Therearemoments,psychologiststellus,whenthepassionforsin,orforwhattheworldcallssin,sodominatesanaturethateveryfibreofthebody,aseverycellofthebrain,seemstobeinstinctwithfearfulimpulses。Menandwomenatsuchmomentslosethefreedomoftheirwill。Theymovetotheirterribleendasautomatonsmove。Choiceistakenfromthem,andconscienceiseitherkilled,or,ifitlivesatall,livesbuttogiverebellionitsfascinationanddisobedienceitscharm。Forallsins,astheologianswearynotofremindingus,aresinsofdisobedience。
Whenthathighspirit,thatmorningstarofevil,fellfromheaven,itwasasarebelthathefell。
Callous,concentratedonevil,withstainedmind,andsoulhungryforrebellion,DorianGrayhastenedon,quickeninghisstepashewent,butashedartedasideintoadimarchway,thathadservedhimoftenasashortcuttotheill-famedplacewherehewasgoing,hefelthimselfsuddenlyseizedfrombehind,andbeforebehadtimetodefendhimself,hewasthrustbackagainstthewall,withabrutalhandroundhisthroat。
Hestruggledmadlyforlife,andbyaterribleeffortwrenchedthetighteningfingersaway。Inasecondheheardtheclickofarevolver,andsawthegleamofapolishedbarrel,pointingstraightathishead,andtheduskyformofashort,thick-setmanfacinghim。
Whatdoyouwant?hegasped。
Keepquiet,saidtheman。Ifyoustir,Ishootyou。
Youaremad。WhathaveIdonetoyou?
YouwreckedthelifeofSibylVane,wastheanswer,andSibylVanewasmysister。Shekilledherself。Iknowit。Herdeathisatyourdoor。IsworeIwouldkillyouinreturn。ForyearsIhavesoughtyou。
Ihadnoclue,notrace。Thetwopeoplewhocouldhavedescribedyouweredead。Iknewnothingofyoubutthepetnamesheusedtocallyou。Ihearditto-nightbychance。MakeyourpeacewithGod,forto-nightyouaregoingtodie。
DorianGraygrewsickwithfear。Ineverknewher,hestammered。
Ineverheardofher。Youaremad。
Youhadbetterconfessyoursin,forassureasIamJamesVane,youaregoingtodie。Therewasahorriblemoment。Doriandidnotknowwhattosayordo。Downonyourknees!growledtheman。Igiveyouoneminutetomakeyourpeace——nomore。Igoonboardto-nightforIndia,andImustdomyjobfirst。Oneminute。That’sall。
Dorian’sarmsfelltohisside。Paralysedwithterror,hedidnotknowwhattodo。Suddenlyawildhopeflashedacrosshisbrain。Stop,
hecried。Howlongagoisitsinceyoursisterdied?Quick,tellme!
Eighteenyears,saidtheman。Whydoyouaskme?Whatdoyearsmatter?
Eighteenyears,laughedDorianGray,withatouchoftriumphinhisvoice。Eighteenyears!Setmeunderthelampandlookatmyface!
JamesVanehesitatedforamoment,notunderstandingwhatwasmeant。ThenheseizedDorianGrayanddraggedhimfromthearchway。
Dimandwaveringaswasthewind-blownlight,yetitservedtoshowhimthehideouserror,asitseemed,intowhichhehadfallen,forthefaceofthemanhehadsoughttokillhadallthebloomofboyhood,alltheunstainedpurityofyouth。Heseemedlittlemorethanaladoftwentysummers,hardlyolder,ifolderindeedatall,thanhissisterhadbeenwhentheyhadpartedsomanyyearsago。Itwasobviousthatthiswasnotthemanwhohaddestroyedherlife。
Heloosenedhisholdandreeledback。MyGod!myGod!hecried,andIwouldhavemurderedyou!
DorianGraydrewalongbreath。Youhavebeenonthebrinkofcommittingaterriblecrime,myman,hesaid,lookingathimsternly。
Letthisbeawarningtoyounottotakevengeanceintoyourownhands。
Forgiveme,sir,mutteredJamesVane。Iwasdeceived。AchancewordIheardinthatdamneddensetmeonthewrongtrack。
Youhadbettergohomeandputthatpistolaway,oryoumaygetintotrouble,saidDorian,turningonhisheelandgoingslowlydownthestreet。
JamesVanestoodonthepavementinhorror。Hewastremblingfromheadtofoot。Afteralittlewhile,ablackshadowthathadbeencreepingalongthedrippingwallmovedoutintothelightandcameclosetohimwithstealthyfootsteps。Hefeltahandlaidonhisarmandlookedroundwithastart。Itwasoneofthewomenwhohadbeendrinkingatthebar。
Whydidn’tyoukillhim?shehissedout,puttinghaggardfacequiteclosetohis。IknewyouwerefollowinghimwhenyourushedoutfromDaly’s。Youfool!Youshouldhavekilledhim。Hehaslotsofmoney,andhe’sasbadasbad。
HeisnotthemanIamlookingfor,heanswered,andIwantnoman’smoney。Iwantaman’slife。ThemanwhoselifeIwantmustbenearlyfortynow。Thisoneislittlemorethanaboy。ThankGod,Ihavenotgothisblooduponmyhands。
Thewomangaveabitterlaugh。Littlemorethanaboy!shesneered。
Why,man,it’snighoneighteenyearssincePrinceCharmingmademewhatIam。
Youlie!criedJamesVane。
Sheraisedherhanduptoheaven。BeforeGodIamtellingthetruth,shecried。
BeforeGod?
Strikemedumbifitain’tso。Heistheworstonethatcomeshere。Theysayhehassoldhimselftothedevilforaprettyface。It’snighoneighteenyearssinceImethim。Hehasn’tchangedmuchsincethen。
Ihave,though,sheadded,withasicklyleer。
Youswearthis?
Iswearit,cameinhoarseechofromherflatmouth。Butdon’tgivemeawaytohim,shewhined。Iamafraidofhim。Letmehavesomemoneyformynight’slodging。
Hebrokefromherwithanoathandrushedtothecornerofthestreet,butDorianGrayhaddisappeared。Whenhelookedback,thewomanhadvanishedalso。
ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter17Chapter17AweeklaterDorianGraywassittingintheconservatoryatSelbyRoyal,talkingtotheprettyDuchessofMonmouth,whowithherhusband,ajaded-lookingmanofsixty,wasamongsthisguests。Itwastea-time,andthemellowlightofthehuge,lace-coveredlampthatstoodonthetablelitupthedelicatechinaandhammeredsilveroftheserviceatwhichtheduchesswaspresiding。
Herwhitehandsweremovingdaintilyamongthecups,andherfullredlipsweresmilingatsomethingthatDorianhadwhisperedtoher。LordHenrywaslyingbackinasilk-drapedwickerchair,lookingatthem。Onapeach-coloureddivansatLadyNarborough,pretendingtolistentotheduke’sdescriptionofthelastBrazilianbeetlethathehadaddedtohiscollection。Threeyoungmeninelaboratesmoking-suitswerehandingtea-cakestosomeofthewomen。Thehouse-partyconsistedoftwelvepeople,andthereweremoreexpectedtoarriveonthenextday。