首页 >出版文学> THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY>第1章
  Theartististhecreatorofbeautifulthings。
  Torevealartandconcealtheartistisart’saim。
  Thecriticishewhocantranslateintoanothermanneroranewmaterialhisimpressionofbeautifulthings。
  Thehighestasthelowestformofcriticismisamodeofautobiography。
  Thosewhofinduglymeaningsinbeautifulthingsarecorruptwithoutbeingcharming。
  Thisisafault。
  Thosewhofindbeautifulmeaningsinbeautifulthingsarethecultivated。Forthesethereishope。
  Theyaretheelecttowhombeautifulthingsmeanonlybeauty。
  Thereisnosuchthingasamoraloranimmoralbook。Booksarewellwritten,orbadlywritten。
  Thatisall。
  ThenineteenthcenturydislikeofrealismistherageofCalibanseeinghisownfaceinaglass。
  ThenineteenthcenturydislikeofromanticismistherageofCalibannotseeinghisownfaceinaglass。
  Themorallifeofmanformspartofthesubject-matteroftheartist,butthemoralityofartconsistsintheperfectuseofanimperfectmedium。Noartistdesirestoproveanything。Eventhingsthataretruecanbeproved。
  Noartisthasethicalsympathies。
  Anethicalsympathyinanartistisanunpardonablemannerismofstyle。Noartistisevermorbid。Theartistcanexpresseverything。
  Thoughtandlanguagearetotheartistinstrumentsofanart。
  Viceandvirtuearetotheartistmaterialsforanart。
  Fromthepointofviewofform,thetypeofalltheartsistheartofthemusician。
  Fromthepointofviewoffeeling,theactor’scraftisthetype。
  Allartisatoncesurfaceandsymbol。
  Thosewhogobeneaththesurfacedosoattheirperil。
  Thosewhoreadthesymboldosoattheirperil。
  Itisthespectator,andnotlife,thatartreallymirrors。
  Diversityofopinionaboutaworkofartshowsthattheworkisnew,complex,andvital。
  Whencriticsdisagree,theartistisinaccordwithhimself。
  Wecanforgiveamanformakingausefulthingaslongashedoesnotadmireit。Theonlyexcuseformakingauselessthingisthatoneadmiresitintensely。
  Allartisquiteuseless。OSCARWILDE
  Thestudiowasfilledwiththerichodourofroses,andwhenthelightsummerwindstirredamidstthetreesofthegarden,therecamethroughtheopendoortheheavyscentofthelilac,orthemoredelicateperfumeofthepink-floweringthorn。
  FromthecornerofthedivanofPersiansaddle-bagsonwhichhewaslying,smoking,aswashiscustom,innumerablecigarettes,LordHenryWottoncouldjustcatchthegleamofthehoney-sweetandhoney-colouredblossomsofalaburnum,whosetremulousbranchesseemedhardlyabletobeartheburdenofabeautysoflamelikeastheirs。andnowandthenthefantasticshadowsofbirdsinflightflittedacrossthelongtussore-silkcurtainsthatwerestretchedinfrontofthehugewindow,producingakindofmomentaryJapaneseeffect,andmakinghimthinkofthosepallid,jade-facedpaintersofTokyowho,throughthemediumofanartthatisnecessarilyimmobile,seektoconveythesenseofswiftnessandmotion。Thesullenmurmurofthebeesshoulderingtheirwaythroughthelongunmowngrass,orcirclingwithmonotonousinsistenceroundthedustygilthornsofthestragglingwoodbine,seemedtomakethestillnessmoreoppressive。ThedimroarofLondonwaslikethebourdonnoteofadistantorgan。
  Inthecentreoftheroom,clampedtoanuprighteasel,stoodthefull-lengthportraitofayoungmanofextraordinarypersonalbeauty,andinfrontofit,somelittledistanceaway,wassittingtheartisthimself,BasilHallward,whosesuddendisappearancesomeyearsagocaused,atthetime,suchpublicexcitementandgaverisetosomanystrangeconjectures。
  Asthepainterlookedatthegraciousandcomelyformhehadsoskilfullymirroredinhisart,asmileofpleasurepassedacrosshisface,andseemedabouttolingerthere。Buthesuddenlystartedup,andclosinghiseyes,placedhisfingersuponthelids,asthoughhesoughttoimprisonwithinhisbrainsomecuriousdreamfromwhichhefearedhemightawake。
  Itisyourbestwork,Basil,thebestthingyouhaveeverdone,
  saidLordHenrylanguidly。YoumustcertainlysenditnextyeartotheGrosvenor。TheAcademyistoolargeandtoovulgar。WheneverIhavegonethere,therehavebeeneithersomanypeoplethatIhavenotbeenabletoseethepictures,whichwasdreadful,orsomanypicturesthatIhavenotbeenabletoseethepeople,whichwasworse。TheGrosvenorisreallytheonlyplace。
  Idon’tthinkIshallsenditanywhere,heanswered,tossinghisheadbackinthatoddwaythatusedtomakehisfriendslaughathimatOxford。No,Iwon’tsenditanywhere。
  LordHenryelevatedhiseyebrowsandlookedathiminamazementthroughthethinbluewreathsofsmokethatcurledupinsuchfancifulwhorlsfromhisheavy,opium-taintedcigarette。Notsenditanywhere?
  Mydearfellow,why?Haveyouanyreason?Whatoddchapsyoupaintersare!
  Youdoanythingintheworldtogainareputation。Assoonasyouhaveone,youseemtowanttothrowitaway。Itissillyofyou,forthereisonlyonethingintheworldworsethanbeingtalkedabout,andthatisnotbeingtalkedabout。AportraitlikethiswouldsetyoufarabovealltheyoungmeninEngland,andmaketheoldmenquitejealous,ifoldmenareevercapableofanyemotion。
  Iknowyouwilllaughatme,hereplied,butIreallycan’texhibitit。Ihaveputtoomuchofmyselfintoit。
  LordHenrystretchedhimselfoutonthedivanandlaughed。Yes,Iknewyouwould。butitisquitetrue,allthesame。Toomuchofyourselfinit!Uponmyword,Basil,Ididn’tknowyouweresovain。andIreallycan’tseeanyresemblancebetweenyou,withyourruggedstrongfaceandyourcoal-blackhair,andthisyoungAdonis,wholooksasifhewasmadeoutofivoryandrose-leaves。Why,mydearBasil,heisaNarcissus,andyou——well,ofcourseyouhaveanintellectualexpressionandallthat。
  Butbeauty,realbeauty,endswhereanintellectualexpressionbegins。
  Intellectisinitselfamodeofexaggeration,anddestroystheharmonyofanyface。Themomentonesitsdowntothink,onebecomesallnose,orallforehead,orsomethinghorrid。Lookatthesuccessfulmeninanyofthelearnedprofessions。Howperfectlyhideoustheyare!Except,ofcourse,intheChurch。ButthenintheChurchtheydon’tthink。Abishopkeepsonsayingattheageofeightywhathewastoldtosaywhenhewasaboyofeighteen,andasanaturalconsequencehealwayslooksabsolutelydelightful。
  Yourmysteriousyoungfriend,whosenameyouhavenevertoldme,butwhosepicturereallyfascinatesme,neverthinks。Ifeelquitesureofthat。
  Heissomebrainlessbeautifulcreaturewhoshouldbealwayshereinwinterwhenwehavenoflowerstolookat,andalwayshereinsummerwhenwewantsomethingtochillourintelligence。Don’tflatteryourself,Basil:youarenotintheleastlikehim。
  Youdon’tunderstandme,Harry,answeredtheartist。OfcourseIamnotlikehim。Iknowthatperfectlywell。Indeed,Ishouldbesorrytolooklikehim。Youshrugyourshoulders?Iamtellingyouthetruth。
  Thereisafatalityaboutallphysicalandintellectualdistinction,thesortoffatalitythatseemstodogthroughhistorythefalteringstepsofkings。Itisbetternottobedifferentfromone’sfellows。Theuglyandthestupidhavethebestofitinthisworld。Theycansitattheireaseandgapeattheplay。Iftheyknownothingofvictory,theyareatleastsparedtheknowledgeofdefeat。Theyliveasweallshouldlive——undisturbed,indifferent,andwithoutdisquiet。Theyneitherbringruinuponothers,noreverreceiveitfromalienhands。Yourrankandwealth,Harry。mybrains,suchastheyare——myart,whateveritmaybeworth。DorianGray’sgoodlooks——weshallallsufferforwhatthegodshavegivenus,sufferterribly。
  DorianGray?Isthathisname?askedLordHenry,walkingacrossthestudiotowardsBasilHallward。
  Yes,thatishisname。Ididn’tintendtotellittoyou。
  Butwhynot?
  Oh,Ican’texplain。WhenIlikepeopleimmensely,Inevertelltheirnamestoanyone。Itislikesurrenderingapartofthem。Ihavegrowntolovesecrecy。Itseemstobetheonethingthatcanmakemodernlifemysteriousormarvelloustous。Thecommonestthingisdelightfulifoneonlyhidesit。WhenIleavetownnowInevertellmypeoplewhereIamgoing。IfIdid,Iwouldloseallmypleasure。Itisasillyhabit,Idaresay,butsomehowitseemstobringagreatdealofromanceintoone’slife。Isupposeyouthinkmeawfullyfoolishaboutit?
  Notatall,answeredLordHenry,notatall,mydearBasil。
  YouseemtoforgetthatIammarried,andtheonecharmofmarriageisthatitmakesalifeofdeceptionabsolutelynecessaryforbothparties。
  Ineverknowwheremywifeis,andmywifeneverknowswhatIamdoing。
  Whenwemeet——wedomeetoccasionally,whenwedineouttogether,orgodowntotheDuke’s——wetelleachotherthemostabsurdstorieswiththemostseriousfaces。Mywifeisverygoodatit——muchbetter,infact,thanIam。Shenevergetsconfusedoverherdates,andIalwaysdo。Butwhenshedoesfindmeout,shemakesnorowatall。Isometimeswishshewould。
  butshemerelylaughsatme。
  Ihatethewayyoutalkaboutyourmarriedlife,Harry,saidBasilHallward,strollingtowardsthedoorthatledintothegarden。I
  believethatyouarereallyaverygoodhusband,butthatyouarethoroughlyashamedofyourownvirtues。Youareanextraordinaryfellow。Youneversayamoralthing,andyouneverdoawrongthing。Yourcynicismissimplyapose。
  Beingnaturalissimplyapose,andthemostirritatingposeIknow,criedLordHenry,laughing。andthetwoyoungmenwentoutintothegardentogetherandensconcedthemselvesonalongbambooseatthatstoodintheshadeofatalllaurelbush。Thesunlightslippedoverthepolishedleaves。Inthegrass,whitedaisiesweretremulous。
  Afterapause,LordHenrypulledouthiswatch。IamafraidI
  mustbegoing,Basil,hemurmured,andbeforeIgo,IinsistonyouransweringaquestionIputtoyousometimeago。
  Whatisthat?saidthepainter,keepinghiseyesfixedontheground。
  Youknowquitewell。
  Idonot,Harry。
  Well,Iwilltellyouwhatitis。Iwantyoutoexplaintomewhyyouwon’texhibitDorianGray’spicture。Iwanttherealreason。
  Itoldyoutherealreason。
  No,youdidnot。Yousaiditwasbecausetherewastoomuchofyourselfinit。Now,thatischildish。
  Harry,saidBasilHallward,lookinghimstraightintheface,everyportraitthatispaintedwithfeelingisaportraitoftheartist,notofthesitter。Thesitterismerelytheaccident,theoccasion。Itisnothewhoisrevealedbythepainter。itisratherthepainterwho,onthecolouredcanvas,revealshimself。ThereasonIwillnotexhibitthispictureisthatIamafraidthatIhaveshowninitthesecretofmyownsoul。
  LordHenrylaughed。Andwhatisthat?heasked。
  Iwilltellyou,saidHallward。butanexpressionofperplexitycameoverhisface。
  Iamallexpectation,Basil,continuedhiscompanion,glancingathim。
  Oh,thereisreallyverylittletotell,Harry,answeredthepainter。andIamafraidyouwillhardlyunderstandit。Perhapsyouwillhardlybelieveit。
  LordHenrysmiled,andleaningdown,pluckedapink-petalleddaisyfromthegrassandexaminedit。IamquitesureIshallunderstandit,
  hereplied,gazingintentlyatthelittlegolden,white-feathereddisk,andasforbelievingthings,Icanbelieveanything,providedthatitisquiteincredible。
  Thewindshooksomeblossomsfromthetrees,andtheheavylilac-blooms,withtheirclusteringstars,movedtoandfrointhelanguidair。Agrasshopperbegantochirrupbythewall,andlikeabluethreadalongthindragon-flyfloatedpastonitsbrowngauzewings。LordHenryfeltasifhecouldhearBasilHallward’sheartbeating,andwonderedwhatwascoming。
  Thestoryissimplythis,saidthepainteraftersometime。
  TwomonthsagoIwenttoacrushatLadyBrandon’s。Youknowwepoorartistshavetoshowourselvesinsocietyfromtimetotime,justtoremindthepublicthatwearenotsavages。Withaneveningcoatandawhitetie,asyoutoldmeonce,anybody,evenastock-broker,cangainareputationforbeingcivilized。Well,afterIhadbeenintheroomabouttenminutes,talkingtohugeoverdresseddowagersandtediousacademicians,Isuddenlybecameconsciousthatsomeonewaslookingatme。Iturnedhalf-wayroundandsawDorianGrayforthefirsttime。Whenoureyesmet,IfeltthatIwasgrowingpale。Acurioussensationofterrorcameoverme。IknewthatIhadcomefacetofacewithsomeonewhosemerepersonalitywassofascinatingthat,ifIallowedittodoso,itwouldabsorbmywholenature,mywholesoul,myveryartitself。Ididnotwantanyexternalinfluenceinmylife。Youknowyourself,Harry,howindependentIambynature。I
  havealwaysbeenmyownmaster。hadatleastalwaysbeenso,tillImetDorianGray。Then——butIdon’tknowhowtoexplainittoyou。SomethingseemedtotellmethatIwasonthevergeofaterriblecrisisinmylife。
  Ihadastrangefeelingthatfatehadinstoreformeexquisitejoysandexquisitesorrows。Igrewafraidandturnedtoquittheroom。Itwasnotconsciencethatmademedoso:itwasasortofcowardice。Itakenocredittomyselffortryingtoescape。
  Conscienceandcowardicearereallythesamethings,Basil。Conscienceisthetrade-nameofthefirm。Thatisall。
  Idon’tbelievethat,Harry,andIdon’tbelieveyoudoeither。
  However,whateverwasmymotive——anditmayhavebeenpride,forIusedtobeveryproud——Icertainlystruggledtothedoor。There,ofcourse,IstumbledagainstLadyBrandon。’Youarenotgoingtorunawaysosoon,Mr。Hallward?’shescreamedout。Youknowhercuriouslyshrillvoice?
  Yes。sheisapeacockineverythingbutbeauty,saidLordHenry,pullingthedaisytobitswithhislongnervousfingers。
  Icouldnotgetridofher。Shebroughtmeuptoroyalties,andpeoplewithstarsandgarters,andelderlyladieswithgigantictiarasandparrotnoses。Shespokeofmeasherdearestfriend。Ihadonlymetheroncebefore,butshetookitintoherheadtolionizeme。Ibelievesomepictureofminehadmadeagreatsuccessatthetime,atleasthadbeenchatteredaboutinthepennynewspapers,whichisthenineteenth-centurystandardofimmortality。SuddenlyIfoundmyselffacetofacewiththeyoungmanwhosepersonalityhadsostrangelystirredme。Wewerequiteclose,almosttouching。Oureyesmetagain。Itwasrecklessofme,butIaskedLadyBrandontointroducemetohim。Perhapsitwasnotsoreckless,afterall。Itwassimplyinevitable。Wewouldhavespokentoeachotherwithoutanyintroduction。Iamsureofthat。Doriantoldmesoafterwards。
  He,too,feltthatweweredestinedtoknoweachother。
  AndhowdidLadyBrandondescribethiswonderfulyoungman?
  askedhiscompanion。Iknowshegoesinforgivingarapidprecisofallherguests。Irememberherbringingmeuptoatruculentandred-facedoldgentlemancoveredalloverwithordersandribbons,andhissingintomyear,inatragicwhisperwhichmusthavebeenperfectlyaudibletoeverybodyintheroom,themostastoundingdetails。Isimplyfled。Iliketofindoutpeopleformyself。ButLadyBrandontreatsherguestsexactlyasanauctioneertreatshisgoods。Sheeitherexplainsthementirelyaway,ortellsoneeverythingaboutthemexceptwhatonewantstoknow。
  PoorLadyBrandon!Youarehardonher,Harry!saidHallwardlistlessly。
  Mydearfellow,shetriedtofoundasalon,andonlysucceededinopeningarestaurant。HowcouldIadmireher?Buttellme,whatdidshesayaboutMr。DorianGray?
  Oh,somethinglike,’Charmingboy——poordearmotherandIabsolutelyinseparable。Quiteforgetwhathedoes——afraidhe——doesn’tdoanything——oh,yes,playsthepiano——orisittheviolin,dearMr。Gray?’Neitherofuscouldhelplaughing,andwebecamefriendsatonce。
  Laughterisnotatallabadbeginningforafriendship,anditisfarthebestendingforone,saidtheyounglord,pluckinganotherdaisy。
  Hallwardshookhishead。Youdon’tunderstandwhatfriendshipis,Harry,hemurmured——orwhatenmityis,forthatmatter。Youlikeeveryone。thatistosay,youareindifferenttoeveryone。
  Howhorriblyunjustofyou!criedLordHenry,tiltinghishatbackandlookingupatthelittlecloudsthat,likeravelledskeinsofglossywhitesilk,weredriftingacrossthehollowedturquoiseofthesummersky。Yes。horriblyunjustofyou。Imakeagreatdifferencebetweenpeople。
  Ichoosemyfriendsfortheirgoodlooks,myacquaintancesfortheirgoodcharacters,andmyenemiesfortheirgoodintellects。Amancannotbetoocarefulinthechoiceofhisenemies。Ihavenotgotonewhoisafool。
  Theyareallmenofsomeintellectualpower,andconsequentlytheyallappreciateme。Isthatveryvainofme?Ithinkitisrathervain。
  Ishouldthinkitwas,Harry。ButaccordingtoyourcategoryImustbemerelyanacquaintance。
  MydearoldBasil,youaremuchmorethananacquaintance。
  Andmuchlessthanafriend。Asortofbrother,Isuppose?
  Oh,brothers!Idon’tcareforbrothers。Myelderbrotherwon’tdie,andmyyoungerbrothersseemnevertodoanythingelse。
  Harry!exclaimedHallward,frowning。
  Mydearfellow,Iamnotquiteserious。ButIcan’thelpdetestingmyrelations。Isupposeitcomesfromthefactthatnoneofuscanstandotherpeoplehavingthesamefaultsasourselves。IquitesympathizewiththerageoftheEnglishdemocracyagainstwhattheycallthevicesoftheupperorders。Themassesfeelthatdrunkenness,stupidity,andimmoralityshouldbetheirownspecialproperty,andthatifanyoneofusmakesanassofhimself,heispoachingontheirpreserves。WhenpoorSouthwarkgotintothedivorcecourt,theirindignationwasquitemagnificent。AndyetIdon’tsupposethattenpercentoftheproletariatlivecorrectly。
  Idon’tagreewithasinglewordthatyouhavesaid,and,whatismore,Harry,Ifeelsureyoudon’teither。
  LordHenrystrokedhispointedbrownbeardandtappedthetoeofhispatent-leatherbootwithatasselledebonycane。HowEnglishyouareBasil!Thatisthesecondtimeyouhavemadethatobservation。IfoneputsforwardanideatoatrueEnglishman——alwaysarashthingtodo——heneverdreamsofconsideringwhethertheideaisrightorwrong。Theonlythingheconsidersofanyimportanceiswhetheronebelievesitoneself。
  Now,thevalueofanideahasnothingwhatsoevertodowiththesincerityofthemanwhoexpressesit。Indeed,theprobabilitiesarethatthemoreinsincerethemanis,themorepurelyintellectualwilltheideabe,asinthatcaseitwillnotbecolouredbyeitherhiswants,hisdesires,orhisprejudices。However,Idon’tproposetodiscusspolitics,sociology,ormetaphysicswithyou。Ilikepersonsbetterthanprinciples,andIlikepersonswithnoprinciplesbetterthananythingelseintheworld。TellmemoreaboutMr。DorianGray。Howoftendoyouseehim?
  Everyday。Icouldn’tbehappyifIdidn’tseehimeveryday。
  Heisabsolutelynecessarytome。
  Howextraordinary!Ithoughtyouwouldnevercareforanythingbutyourart。
  Heisallmyarttomenow,saidthepaintergravely。Isometimesthink,Harry,thatthereareonlytwoerasofanyimportanceintheworld’shistory。Thefirstistheappearanceofanewmediumforart,andthesecondistheappearanceofanewpersonalityforartalso。Whattheinventionofoil-paintingwastotheVenetians,thefaceofAntinouswastolateGreeksculpture,andthefaceofDorianGraywillsomedaybetome。ItisnotmerelythatIpaintfromhim,drawfromhim,sketchfromhim。Ofcourse,Ihavedoneallthat。Butheismuchmoretomethanamodelorasitter。Iwon’ttellyouthatIamdissatisfiedwithwhatIhavedoneofhim,orthathisbeautyissuchthatartcannotexpressit。Thereisnothingthatartcannotexpress,andIknowthattheworkIhavedone,sinceImetDorianGray,isgoodwork,isthebestworkofmylife。Butinsomecuriousway——Iwonderwillyouunderstandme?——hispersonalityhassuggestedtomeanentirelynewmannerinart,anentirelynewmodeofstyle。Iseethingsdifferently,Ithinkofthemdifferently。Icannowrecreatelifeinawaythatwashiddenfrommebefore。’Adreamofformindaysofthought’——whoisitwhosaysthat?Iforget。butitiswhatDorianGrayhasbeentome。Themerelyvisiblepresenceofthislad——forheseemstomelittlemorethanalad,thoughheisreallyovertwenty——
  hismerelyvisiblepresence——ah!Iwondercanyourealizeallthatthatmeans?Unconsciouslyhedefinesformethelinesofafreshschool,aschoolthatistohaveinitallthepassionoftheromanticspirit,alltheperfectionofthespiritthatisGreek。Theharmonyofsoulandbody——howmuchthatis!Weinourmadnesshaveseparatedthetwo,andhaveinventedarealismthatisvulgar,anidealitythatisvoid。Harry!ifyouonlyknewwhatDorianGrayistome!Yourememberthatlandscapeofmine,forwhichAgnewofferedmesuchahugepricebutwhichIwouldnotpartwith?ItisoneofthebestthingsIhaveeverdone。Andwhyisitso?Because,whileI
  waspaintingit,DorianGraysatbesideme。Somesubtleinfluencepassedfromhimtome,andforthefirsttimeinmylifeIsawintheplainwoodlandthewonderIhadalwayslookedforandalwaysmissed。
  Basil,thisisextraordinary!ImustseeDorianGray。
  Hallwardgotupfromtheseatandwalkedupanddownthegarden。
  Aftersometimehecameback。Harry,hesaid,DorianGrayistomesimplyamotiveinart。Youmightseenothinginhim。Iseeeverythinginhim。
  Heisnevermorepresentinmyworkthanwhennoimageofhimisthere。
  Heisasuggestion,asIhavesaid,ofanewmanner。Ifindhiminthecurvesofcertainlines,inthelovelinessandsubtletiesofcertaincolours。
  Thatisall。
  Thenwhywon’tyouexhibithisportrait?askedLordHenry。
  Because,withoutintendingit,Ihaveputintoitsomeexpressionofallthiscuriousartisticidolatry,ofwhich,ofcourse,Ihavenevercaredtospeaktohim。Heknowsnothingaboutit。Heshallneverknowanythingaboutit。Buttheworldmightguessit,andIwillnotbaremysoultotheirshallowpryingeyes。Myheartshallneverbeputundertheirmicroscope。
  Thereistoomuchofmyselfinthething,Harry——toomuchofmyself!
  Poetsarenotsoscrupulousasyouare。Theyknowhowusefulpassionisforpublication。Nowadaysabrokenheartwillruntomanyeditions。
  Ihatethemforit,criedHallward。Anartistshouldcreatebeautifulthings,butshouldputnothingofhisownlifeintothem。Weliveinanagewhenmentreatartasifitweremeanttobeaformofautobiography。
  Wehavelosttheabstractsenseofbeauty。SomedayIwillshowtheworldwhatitis。andforthatreasontheworldshallneverseemyportraitofDorianGray。
  Ithinkyouarewrong,Basil,butIwon’targuewithyou。Itisonlytheintellectuallylostwhoeverargue。Tellme,isDorianGrayveryfondofyou?
  Thepainterconsideredforafewmoments。Helikesme,heansweredafterapause。Iknowhelikesme。OfcourseIflatterhimdreadfully。
  IfindastrangepleasureinsayingthingstohimthatIknowIshallbesorryforhavingsaid。Asarule,heischarmingtome,andwesitinthestudioandtalkofathousandthings。Nowandthen,however,heishorriblythoughtless,andseemstotakearealdelightingivingmepain。ThenI
  feel,Harry,thatIhavegivenawaymywholesoultosomeonewhotreatsitasifitwereaflowertoputinhiscoat,abitofdecorationtocharmhisvanity,anornamentforasummer’sday。
  Daysinsummer,Basil,areapttolinger,murmuredLordHenry。
  Perhapsyouwilltiresoonerthanhewill。Itisasadthingtothinkof,butthereisnodoubtthatgeniuslastslongerthanbeauty。Thataccountsforthefactthatwealltakesuchpainstoover-educateourselves。Inthewildstruggleforexistence,wewanttohavesomethingthatendures,andsowefillourmindswithrubbishandfacts,inthesillyhopeofkeepingourplace。Thethoroughlywell-informedman——thatisthemodernideal。
  Andthemindofthethoroughlywell-informedmanisadreadfulthing。Itislikeabric-a-bracshop,allmonstersanddust,witheverythingpricedaboveitspropervalue。Ithinkyouwilltirefirst,allthesame。Somedayyouwilllookatyourfriend,andhewillseemtoyoutobealittleoutofdrawing,oryouwon’tlikehistoneofcolour,orsomething。Youwillbitterlyreproachhiminyourownheart,andseriouslythinkthathehasbehavedverybadlytoyou。Thenexttimehecalls,youwillbeperfectlycoldandindifferent。Itwillbeagreatpity,foritwillalteryou。Whatyouhavetoldmeisquitearomance,aromanceofartonemightcallit,andtheworstofhavingaromanceofanykindisthatitleavesonesounromantic。
  Harry,don’ttalklikethat。AslongasIlive,thepersonalityofDorianGraywilldominateme。Youcan’tfeelwhatIfeel。Youchangetoooften。
  Ah,mydearBasil,thatisexactlywhyIcanfeelit。Thosewhoarefaithfulknowonlythetrivialsideoflove:itisthefaithlesswhoknowlove’stragedies。AndLordHenrystruckalightonadaintysilvercaseandbegantosmokeacigarettewithaself-consciousandsatisfiedair,asifhehadsummeduptheworldinaphrase。Therewasarustleofchirrupingsparrowsinthegreenlacquerleavesoftheivy,andthebluecloud-shadowschasedthemselvesacrossthegrasslikeswallows。Howpleasantitwasinthegarden!Andhowdelightfulotherpeople’semotionswere!——
  muchmoredelightfulthantheirideas,itseemedtohim。One’sownsoul,andthepassionsofone’sfriends——thosewerethefascinatingthingsinlife。HepicturedtohimselfwithsilentamusementthetediousluncheonthathehadmissedbystayingsolongwithBasilHallward。Hadhegonetohisaunt’s,hewouldhavebeensuretohavemetLordGoodbodythere,andthewholeconversationwouldhavebeenaboutthefeedingofthepoorandthenecessityformodellodging-houses。Eachclasswouldhavepreachedtheimportanceofthosevirtues,forwhoseexercisetherewasnonecessityintheirownlives。Therichwouldhavespokenonthevalueofthrift,andtheidlegrowneloquentoverthedignityoflabour。Itwascharmingtohaveescapedallthat!Ashethoughtofhisaunt,anideaseemedtostrikehim。HeturnedtoHallwardandsaid,Mydearfellow,Ihavejustremembered。
  Rememberedwhat,Harry?
  WhereIheardthenameofDorianGray。
  Wherewasit?askedHallward,withaslightfrown。
  Don’tlooksoangry,Basil。Itwasatmyaunt,LadyAgatha’s。
  ShetoldmeshehaddiscoveredawonderfulyoungmanwhowasgoingtohelpherintheEastEnd,andthathisnamewasDorianGray。Iamboundtostatethatshenevertoldmehewasgood-looking。Womenhavenoappreciationofgoodlooks。atleast,goodwomenhavenot。Shesaidthathewasveryearnestandhadabeautifulnature。Iatoncepicturedtomyselfacreaturewithspectaclesandlankhair,horriblyfreckled,andtrampingaboutonhugefeet。IwishIhadknownitwasyourfriend。
  Iamverygladyoudidn’t,Harry。
  Why?
  Idon’twantyoutomeethim。
  Youdon’twantmetomeethim?
  No。
  Mr。DorianGrayisinthestudio,sir,saidthebutler,comingintothegarden。
  Youmustintroducemenow,criedLordHenry,laughing。
  Thepainterturnedtohisservant,whostoodblinkinginthesunlight。
  AskMr。Graytowait,Parker:Ishallbeininafewmoments。Themanbowedandwentupthewalk。
  ThenhelookedatLordHenry。DorianGrayismydearestfriend,
  hesaid。Hehasasimpleandabeautifulnature。Yourauntwasquiterightinwhatshesaidofhim。Don’tspoilhim。Don’ttrytoinfluencehim。Yourinfluencewouldbebad。Theworldiswide,andhasmanymarvellouspeopleinit。Don’ttakeawayfrommetheonepersonwhogivestomyartwhatevercharmitpossesses:mylifeasanartistdependsonhim。Mind,Harry,I
  trustyou。Hespokeveryslowly,andthewordsseemedwrungoutofhimalmostagainsthiswill。
  Whatnonsenseyoutalk!saidLordHenry,smiling,andtakingHallwardbythearm,healmostledhimintothehouse。
  ThePictureofDorianGray:Chapter2Chapter2AstheyenteredtheysawDorianGray。Hewasseatedatthepiano,withhisbacktothem,turningoverthepagesofavolumeofSchumann’sForestScenes。Youmustlendmethese,Basil,hecried。Iwanttolearnthem。
  Theyareperfectlycharming。
  Thatentirelydependsonhowyousitto-day,Dorian。
  Oh,Iamtiredofsitting,andIdon’twantalife-sizedportraitofmyself,answeredthelad,swingingroundonthemusic-stoolinawilful,petulantmanner。WhenhecaughtsightofLordHenry,afaintblushcolouredhischeeksforamoment,andhestartedup。Ibegyourpardon,Basil,butIdidn’tknowyouhadanyonewithyou。
  ThisisLordHenryWotton,Dorian,anoldOxfordfriendofmine。
  Ihavejustbeentellinghimwhatacapitalsitteryouwere,andnowyouhavespoiledeverything。
  Youhavenotspoiledmypleasureinmeetingyou,Mr。Gray,saidLordHenry,steppingforwardandextendinghishand。Myaunthasoftenspokentomeaboutyou。Youareoneofherfavourites,and,Iamafraid,oneofhervictimsalso。
  IaminLadyAgatha’sblackbooksatpresent,answeredDorianwithafunnylookofpenitence。IpromisedtogotoaclubinWhitechapelwithherlastTuesday,andIreallyforgotallaboutit。Weweretohaveplayedaduettogether——threeduets,Ibelieve。Idon’tknowwhatshewillsaytome。Iamfartoofrightenedtocall。
  Oh,Iwillmakeyourpeacewithmyaunt。Sheisquitedevotedtoyou。AndIdon’tthinkitreallymattersaboutyournotbeingthere。
  Theaudienceprobablythoughtitwasaduet。WhenAuntAgathasitsdowntothepiano,shemakesquiteenoughnoisefortwopeople。
  Thatisveryhorridtoher,andnotverynicetome,answeredDorian,laughing。
  LordHenrylookedathim。Yes,hewascertainlywonderfullyhandsome,withhisfinelycurvedscarletlips,hisfrankblueeyes,hiscrispgoldhair。Therewassomethinginhisfacethatmadeonetrusthimatonce。
  Allthecandourofyouthwasthere,aswellasallyouth’spassionatepurity。
  Onefeltthathehadkepthimselfunspottedfromtheworld。NowonderBasilHallwardworshippedhim。
  Youaretoocharmingtogoinforphilanthropy,Mr。Gray——fartoocharming。AndLordHenryflunghimselfdownonthedivanandopenedhiscigarette-case。
  Thepainterhadbeenbusymixinghiscoloursandgettinghisbrushesready。Hewaslookingworried,andwhenheheardLordHenry’slastremark,heglancedathim,hesitatedforamoment,andthensaid,Harry,Iwanttofinishthispictureto-day。WouldyouthinkitawfullyrudeofmeifIaskedyoutogoaway?
  LordHenrysmiledandlookedatDorianGray。AmItogo,Mr。
  Gray?heasked。
  Oh,pleasedon’t,LordHenry。IseethatBasilisinoneofhissulkymoods,andIcan’tbearhimwhenhesulks。Besides,IwantyoutotellmewhyIshouldnotgoinforphilanthropy。
  Idon’tknowthatIshalltellyouthat,Mr。Gray。Itissotediousasubjectthatonewouldhavetotalkseriouslyaboutit。ButIcertainlyshallnotrunaway,nowthatyouhaveaskedmetostop。Youdon’treallymind,Basil,doyou?Youhaveoftentoldmethatyoulikedyoursitterstohavesomeonetochatto。
  Hallwardbithislip。IfDorianwishesit,ofcourseyoumuststay。Dorian’swhimsarelawstoeverybody,excepthimself。
  LordHenrytookuphishatandgloves。Youareverypressing,Basil,butIamafraidImustgo。IhavepromisedtomeetamanattheOrleans。Good-bye,Mr。Gray。ComeandseemesomeafternooninCurzonStreet。
  Iamnearlyalwaysathomeatfiveo’clock。Writetomewhenyouarecoming。
  Ishouldbesorrytomissyou。
  Basil,criedDorianGray,ifLordHenryWottongoes,Ishallgo,too。Youneveropenyourlipswhileyouarepainting,anditishorriblydullstandingonaplatformandtryingtolookpleasant。Askhimtostay。
  Iinsistuponit。
  Stay,Harry,toobligeDorian,andtoobligeme,saidHallward,gazingintentlyathispicture。Itisquitetrue,InevertalkwhenI
  amworking,andneverlisteneither,anditmustbedreadfullytediousformyunfortunatesitters。Ibegyoutostay。
  ButwhataboutmymanattheOrleans?
  Thepainterlaughed。Idon’tthinktherewillbeanydifficultyaboutthat。Sitdownagain,Harry。Andnow,Dorian,getupontheplatform,anddon’tmoveabouttoomuch,orpayanyattentiontowhatLordHenrysays。Hehasaverybadinfluenceoverallhisfriends,withthesingleexceptionofmyself。
  DorianGraysteppeduponthedaiswiththeairofayoungGreekmartyr,andmadealittlemoueofdiscontenttoLordHenry,towhomhehadrathertakenafancy。HewassounlikeBasil。Theymadeadelightfulcontrast。Andhehadsuchabeautifulvoice。Afterafewmomentshesaidtohim,Haveyoureallyaverybadinfluence,LordHenry?AsbadasBasilsays?
  Thereisnosuchthingasagoodinfluence,Mr。Gray。Allinfluenceisimmoral——immoralfromthescientificpointofview。
  Why?
  Becausetoinfluenceapersonistogivehimone’sownsoul。
  Hedoesnotthinkhisnaturalthoughts,orburnwithhisnaturalpassions。
  Hisvirtuesarenotrealtohim。Hissins,iftherearesuchthingsassins,areborrowed。Hebecomesanechoofsomeoneelse’smusic,anactorofapartthathasnotbeenwrittenforhim。Theaimoflifeisself-development。
  Torealizeone’snatureperfectly——thatiswhateachofusisherefor。
  Peopleareafraidofthemselves,nowadays。Theyhaveforgottenthehighestofallduties,thedutythatoneowestoone’sself。Ofcourse,theyarecharitable。Theyfeedthehungryandclothethebeggar。Buttheirownsoulsstarve,andarenaked。Couragehasgoneoutofourrace。Perhapsweneverreallyhadit。Theterrorofsociety,whichisthebasisofmorals,theterrorofGod,whichisthesecretofreligion——thesearethetwothingsthatgovernus。Andyet——
  Justturnyourheadalittlemoretotheright,Dorian,likeagoodboy,saidthepainter,deepinhisworkandconsciousonlythatalookhadcomeintothelad’sfacethathehadneverseentherebefore。
  Andyet,continuedLordHenry,inhislow,musicalvoice,andwiththatgracefulwaveofthehandthatwasalwayssocharacteristicofhim,andthathehadeveninhisEtondays,Ibelievethatifonemanweretoliveouthislifefullyandcompletely,weretogiveformtoeveryfeeling,expressiontoeverythought,realitytoeverydream——Ibelievethattheworldwouldgainsuchafreshimpulseofjoythatwewouldforgetallthemaladiesofmediaevalism,andreturntotheHellenicideal——tosomethingfiner,richerthantheHellenicideal,itmaybe。Butthebravestmanamongstusisafraidofhimself。Themutilationofthesavagehasitstragicsurvivalintheself-denialthatmarsourlives。Wearepunishedforourrefusals。Everyimpulsethatwestrivetostranglebroodsinthemindandpoisonsus。Thebodysinsonce,andhasdonewithitssin,foractionisamodeofpurification。Nothingremainsthenbuttherecollectionofapleasure,ortheluxuryofaregret。Theonlywaytogetridofatemptationistoyieldtoit。Resistit,andyoursoulgrowssickwithlongingforthethingsithasforbiddentoitself,withdesireforwhatitsmonstrouslawshavemademonstrousandunlawful。Ithasbeensaidthatthegreateventsoftheworldtakeplaceinthebrain。Itisinthebrain,andthebrainonly,thatthegreatsinsoftheworldtakeplacealso。You,Mr。Gray,youyourself,withyourrose-redyouthandyourrose-whiteboyhood,youhavehadpassionsthathavemadeyouafraid,thoughtsthathavefinedyouwithterror,day-dreamsandsleepingdreamswhosemerememorymightstainyourcheekwithshame——
  Stop!falteredDorianGray,stop!youbewilderme。Idon’tknowwhattosay。Thereissomeanswertoyou,butIcannotfindit。Don’tspeak。Letmethink。Or,rather,letmetrynottothink。
  Fornearlytenminuteshestoodthere,motionless,withpartedlipsandeyesstrangelybright。Hewasdimlyconsciousthatentirelyfreshinfluenceswereatworkwithinhim。Yettheyseemedtohimtohavecomereallyfromhimself。ThefewwordsthatBasil’sfriendhadsaidtohim——wordsspokenbychance,nodoubt,andwithwilfulparadoxinthem——hadtouchedsomesecretchordthathadneverbeentouchedbefore,butthathefeltwasnowvibratingandthrobbingtocuriouspulses。
  Musichadstirredhimlikethat。Musichadtroubledhimmanytimes。
  Butmusicwasnotarticulate。Itwasnotanewworld,butratheranotherchaos,thatitcreatedinus。Words!Merewords!Howterribletheywere!
  Howclear,andvivid,andcruel!Onecouldnotescapefromthem。Andyetwhatasubtlemagictherewasinthem!Theyseemedtobeabletogiveaplasticformtoformlessthings,andtohaveamusicoftheirownassweetasthatofvioloroflute。Merewords!Wasthereanythingsorealaswords?
  Yes。therehadbeenthingsinhisboyhoodthathehadnotunderstood。
  Heunderstoodthemnow。Lifesuddenlybecamefiery-colouredtohim。Itseemedtohimthathehadbeenwalkinginfire。Whyhadhenotknownit?
  Withhissubtlesmile,LordHenrywatchedhim。Heknewtheprecisepsychologicalmomentwhentosaynothing。Hefeltintenselyinterested。
  Hewasamazedatthesuddenimpressionthathiswordshadproduced,and,rememberingabookthathehadreadwhenhewassixteen,abookwhichhadrevealedtohimmuchthathehadnotknownbefore,hewonderedwhetherDorianGraywaspassingthroughasimilarexperience。Hehadmerelyshotanarrowintotheair。Hadithitthemark?Howfascinatingtheladwas!
  Hallwardpaintedawaywiththatmarvellousboldtouchofhis,thathadthetruerefinementandperfectdelicacythatinart,atanyratecomesonlyfromstrength。Hewasunconsciousofthesilence。
  Basil,Iamtiredofstanding,criedDorianGraysuddenly。I
  mustgooutandsitinthegarden。Theairisstiflinghere。
  Mydearfellow,Iamsosorry。WhenIampainting,Ican’tthinkofanythingelse。Butyouneversatbetter。Youwereperfectlystill。AndIhavecaughttheeffectIwanted——thehalf-partedlipsandthebrightlookintheeyes。Idon’tknowwhatHarryhasbeensayingtoyou,buthehascertainlymadeyouhavethemostwonderfulexpression。Isupposehehasbeenpayingyoucompliments。Youmustn’tbelieveawordthathesays。
  Hehascertainlynotbeenpayingmecompliments。PerhapsthatisthereasonthatIdon’tbelieveanythinghehastoldme。
  Youknowyoubelieveitall,saidLordHenry,lookingathimwithhisdreamylanguorouseyes。Iwillgoouttothegardenwithyou。
  Itishorriblyhotinthestudio。Basil,letushavesomethingicedtodrink,somethingwithstrawberriesinit。
  Certainly,Harry。Justtouchthebell,andwhenParkercomesIwilltellhimwhatyouwant。Ihavegottoworkupthisbackground,soIwilljoinyoulateron。Don’tkeepDoriantoolong。IhaveneverbeeninbetterformforpaintingthanIamto-day。Thisisgoingtobemymasterpiece。
  Itismymasterpieceasitstands。
  LordHenrywentouttothegardenandfoundDorianGrayburyinghisfaceinthegreatcoollilac-blossoms,feverishlydrinkingintheirperfumeasifithadbeenwine。Hecameclosetohimandputhishanduponhisshoulder。Youarequiterighttodothat,hemurmured。Nothingcancurethesoulbutthesenses,justasnothingcancurethesensesbutthesoul。
  Theladstartedanddrewback。Hewasbareheaded,andtheleaveshadtossedhisrebelliouscurlsandtangledalltheirgildedthreads。Therewasalookoffearinhiseyes,suchaspeoplehavewhentheyaresuddenlyawakened。Hisfinelychisellednostrilsquivered,andsomehiddennerveshookthescarletofhislipsandleftthemtrembling。
  Yes,continuedLordHenry,thatisoneofthegreatsecretsoflife——tocurethesoulbymeansofthesenses,andthesensesbymeansofthesoul。Youareawonderfulcreation。Youknowmorethanyouthinkyouknow,justasyouknowlessthanyouwanttoknow。
  DorianGrayfrownedandturnedhisheadaway。Hecouldnothelplikingthetall,gracefulyoungmanwhowasstandingbyhim。Hisromantic,olive-colouredfaceandwornexpressioninterestedhim。Therewassomethinginhislowlanguidvoicethatwasabsolutelyfascinating。Hiscool,white,flowerlikehands,even,hadacuriouscharm。Theymoved,ashespoke,likemusic,andseemedtohavealanguageoftheirown。Buthefeltafraidofhim,andashamedofbeingafraid。Whyhaditbeenleftforastrangertorevealhimtohimself?HehadknownBasilHallwardformonths,butthefriendshipbetweenthemhadneveralteredhim。Suddenlytherehadcomesomeoneacrosshislifewhoseemedtohavedisclosedtohimlife’smystery。
  And,yet,whatwastheretobeafraidof?Hewasnotaschoolboyoragirl。
  Itwasabsurdtobefrightened。
  Letusgoandsitintheshade,saidLordHenry。Parkerhasbroughtoutthedrinks,andifyoustayanylongerinthisglare,youwillbequitespoiled,andBasilwillneverpaintyouagain。Youreallymustnotallowyourselftobecomesunburnt。Itwouldbeunbecoming。
  Whatcanitmatter?criedDorianGray,laughing,ashesatdownontheseatattheendofthegarden。
  Itshouldmattereverythingtoyou,Mr。Gray。
  Why?
  Becauseyouhavethemostmarvellousyouth,andyouthistheonethingworthhaving。
  Idon’tfeelthat,LordHenry。
  No,youdon’tfeelitnow。Someday,whenyouareoldandwrinkledandugly,whenthoughthassearedyourforeheadwithitslines,andpassionbrandedyourlipswithitshideousfires,youwillfeelit,youwillfeelitterribly。Now,whereveryougo,youcharmtheworld。Willitalwaysbeso?……Youhaveawonderfullybeautifulface,Mr。Gray。Don’tfrown。
  Youhave。Andbeautyisaformofgenius——ishigher,indeed,thangenius,asitneedsnoexplanation。Itisofthegreatfactsoftheworld,likesunlight,orspring-time,orthereflectionindarkwatersofthatsilvershellwecallthemoon。Itcannotbequestioned。Ithasitsdivinerightofsovereignty。Itmakesprincesofthosewhohaveit。Yousmile?Ah!whenyouhavelostityouwon’tsmile……Peoplesaysometimesthatbeautyisonlysuperficial。Thatmaybeso,butatleastitisnotsosuperficialasthoughtis。Tome,beautyisthewonderofwonders。Itisonlyshallowpeoplewhodonotjudgebyappearances。Thetruemysteryoftheworldisthevisible,nottheinvisible……Yes,Mr。Gray,thegodshavebeengoodtoyou。Butwhatthegodsgivetheyquicklytakeaway。Youhaveonlyafewyearsinwhichtolivereally,perfectly,andfully。Whenyouryouthgoes,yourbeautywillgowithit,andthenyouwillsuddenlydiscoverthattherearenotriumphsleftforyou,orhavetocontentyourselfwiththosemeantriumphsthatthememoryofyourpastwillmakemorebitterthandefeats。Everymonthasitwanesbringsyounearertosomethingdreadful。
  Timeisjealousofyou,andwarsagainstyourliliesandyourroses。Youwillbecomesallow,andhollow-cheeked,anddull-eyed。Youwillsufferhorribly……Ah!realizeyouryouthwhileyouhaveit。Don’tsquanderthegoldofyourdays,listeningtothetedious,tryingtoimprovethehopelessfailure,orgivingawayyourlifetotheignorant,thecommon,andthevulgar。Thesearethesicklyaims,thefalseideals,ofourage。Live!
  Livethewonderfullifethatisinyou!Letnothingbelostuponyou。Bealwayssearchingfornewsensations。Beafraidofnothing……AnewHedonism——thatiswhatourcenturywants。Youmightbeitsvisiblesymbol。
  Withyourpersonalitythereisnothingyoucouldnotdo。Theworldbelongstoyouforaseason……ThemomentImetyouIsawthatyouwerequiteunconsciousofwhatyoureallyare,ofwhatyoureallymightbe。TherewassomuchinyouthatcharmedmethatIfeltImusttellyousomethingaboutyourself。Ithoughthowtragicitwouldbeifyouwerewasted。Forthereissuchalittletimethatyouryouthwilllast——suchalittletime。
  Thecommonhill-flowerswither,buttheyblossomagain。ThelaburnumwillbeasyellownextJuneasitisnow。Inamonththerewillbepurplestarsontheclematis,andyearafteryearthegreennightofitsleaveswillholditspurplestars。Butwenevergetbackouryouth。Thepulseofjoythatbeatsinusattwentybecomessluggish。Ourlimbsfail,oursensesrot。Wedegenerateintohideouspuppets,hauntedbythememoryofthepassionsofwhichweweretoomuchafraid,andtheexquisitetemptationsthatwehadnotthecouragetoyieldto。Youth!Youth!Thereisabsolutelynothingintheworldbutyouth!
  DorianGraylistened,open-eyedandwondering。Thesprayoflilacfellfromhishanduponthegravel。Afurrybeecameandbuzzedrounditforamoment。Thenitbegantoscrambleallovertheovalstellatedglobeofthetinyblossoms。Hewatcheditwiththatstrangeinterestintrivialthingsthatwetrytodevelopwhenthingsofhighimportmakeusafraid,orwhenwearestirredbysomenewemotionforwhichwecannotfindexpression,orwhensomethoughtthatterrifiesuslayssuddensiegetothebrainandcallsonustoyield。Afteratimethebeeflewaway。HesawitcreepingintothestainedtrumpetofaTyrianconvolvulus。Theflowerseemedtoquiver,andthenswayedgentlytoandfro。
  Suddenlythepainterappearedatthedoorofthestudioandmadestaccatosignsforthemtocomein。Theyturnedtoeachotherandsmiled。
  Iamwaiting,hecried。Docomein。Thelightisquiteperfect,andyoucanbringyourdrinks。
  Theyroseupandsauntereddownthewalktogether。Twogreen-and-whitebutterfliesflutteredpastthem,andinthepear-treeatthecornerofthegardenathrushbegantosing。
  Youaregladyouhavemetme,Mr。Gray,saidLordHenry,lookingathim。
  Yes,Iamgladnow。IwondershallIalwaysbeglad?
  Always!Thatisadreadfulword。ItmakesmeshudderwhenIhearit。Womenaresofondofusingit。Theyspoileveryromancebytryingtomakeitlastforever。Itisameaninglessword,too。Theonlydifferencebetweenacapriceandalifelongpassionisthatthecapricelastsalittlelonger。
  Astheyenteredthestudio,DorianGrayputhishanduponLordHenry’sarm。Inthatcase,letourfriendshipbeacaprice,hemurmured,flushingathisownboldness,thensteppedupontheplatformandresumedhispose。
  LordHenryflunghimselfintoalargewickerarm-chairandwatchedhim。Thesweepanddashofthebrushonthecanvasmadetheonlysoundthatbrokethestillness,exceptwhen,nowandthen,Hallwardsteppedbacktolookathisworkfromadistance。Intheslantingbeamsthatstreamedthroughtheopendoorwaythedustdancedandwasgolden。Theheavyscentoftherosesseemedtobroodovereverything。
  AfteraboutaquarterofanhourHallwardstoppedpainting,lookedforalongtimeatDorianGray,andthenforalongtimeatthepicture,bitingtheendofoneofhishugebrushesandfrowning。Itisquitefinished,
  hecriedatlast,andstoopingdownhewrotehisnameinlongvermilionlettersontheleft-handcornerofthecanvas。
  LordHenrycameoverandexaminedthepicture。Itwascertainlyawonderfulworkofart,andawonderfullikenessaswell。
  Mydearfellow,Icongratulateyoumostwarmly,hesaid。Itisthefinestportraitofmoderntimes。Mr。Gray,comeoverandlookatyourself。
  Theladstarted,asifawakenedfromsomedream。
  Isitreallyfinished?hemurmured,steppingdownfromtheplatform。
  Quitefinished,saidthepainter。Andyouhavesatsplendidlyto-day。Iamawfullyobligedtoyou。
  Thatisentirelyduetome,brokeinLordHenry。Isn’tit,Mr。Gray?
  Dorianmadenoanswer,butpassedlistlesslyinfrontofhispictureandturnedtowardsit。Whenhesawithedrewback,andhischeeksflushedforamomentwithpleasure。Alookofjoycameintohiseyes,asifhehadrecognizedhimselfforthefirsttime。Hestoodtheremotionlessandinwonder,dimlyconsciousthatHallwardwasspeakingtohim,butnotcatchingthemeaningofhiswords。Thesenseofhisownbeautycameonhimlikearevelation。Hehadneverfeltitbefore。BasilHallward’scomplimentshadseemedtohimtobemerelythecharmingexaggerationoffriendship。
  Hehadlistenedtothem,laughedatthem,forgottenthem。Theyhadnotinfluencedhisnature。ThenhadcomeLordHenryWottonwithhisstrangepanegyriconyouth,histerriblewarningofitsbrevity。Thathadstirredhimatthetime,andnow,ashestoodgazingattheshadowofhisownloveliness,thefullrealityofthedescriptionflashedacrosshim。Yes,therewouldbeadaywhenhisfacewouldbewrinkledandwizen,hiseyesdimandcolourless,thegraceofhisfigurebrokenanddeformed。Thescarletwouldpassawayfromhislipsandthegoldstealfromhishair。Thelifethatwastomakehissoulwouldmarhisbody。Hewouldbecomedreadful,hideous,anduncouth。
  Ashethoughtofit,asharppangofpainstruckthroughhimlikeaknifeandmadeeachdelicatefibreofhisnaturequiver。Hiseyesdeepenedintoamethyst,andacrossthemcameamistoftears。Hefeltasifahandoficehadbeenlaiduponhisheart。
  Don’tyoulikeit?criedHallwardatlast,stungalittlebythelad’ssilence,notunderstandingwhatitmeant。
  Ofcoursehelikesit,saidLordHenry。Whowouldn’tlikeit?
  Itisoneofthegreatestthingsinmodernart。Iwillgiveyouanythingyouliketoaskforit。Imusthaveit。
  Itisnotmyproperty,Harry。
  Whosepropertyisit?
  Dorian’s,ofcourse,answeredthepainter。
  Heisaveryluckyfellow。
  Howsaditis!murmuredDorianGraywithhiseyesstillfixeduponhisownportrait。Howsaditis!Ishallgrowold,andhorrible,anddreadful。Butthispicturewillremainalwaysyoung。ItwillneverbeolderthanthisparticulardayofJune……Ifitwereonlytheotherway!IfitwereIwhowastobealwaysyoung,andthepicturethatwastogrowold!Forthat——forthat——Iwouldgiveeverything!Yes,thereisnothinginthewholeworldIwouldnotgive!Iwouldgivemysoulforthat!
  Youwouldhardlycareforsuchanarrangement,Basil,criedLordHenry,laughing。Itwouldberatherhardlinesonyourwork。
  Ishouldobjectverystrongly,Harry,saidHallward。
  DorianGrayturnedandlookedathim。Ibelieveyouwould,Basil。
  Youlikeyourartbetterthanyourfriends。Iamnomoretoyouthanagreenbronzefigure。Hardlyasmuch,Idaresay。
  Thepainterstaredinamazement。ItwassounlikeDoriantospeaklikethat。Whathadhappened?Heseemedquiteangry。Hisfacewasflushedandhischeeksburning。
  Yes,hecontinued,IamlesstoyouthanyourivoryHermesoryoursilverFaun。Youwilllikethemalways。Howlongwillyoulikeme?TillIhavemyfirstwrinkle,Isuppose。Iknow,now,thatwhenonelosesone’sgoodlooks,whatevertheymaybe,oneloseseverything。Yourpicturehastaughtmethat。LordHenryWottonisperfectlyright。Youthistheonlythingworthhaving。WhenIfindthatIamgrowingold,Ishallkillmyself。
  Hallwardturnedpaleandcaughthishand。Dorian!Dorian!hecried,don’ttalklikethat。Ihaveneverhadsuchafriendasyou,andIshallneverhavesuchanother。Youarenotjealousofmaterialthings,areyou?——youwhoarefinerthananyofthem!
  Iamjealousofeverythingwhosebeautydoesnotdie。Iamjealousoftheportraityouhavepaintedofme。WhyshoulditkeepwhatImustlose?Everymomentthatpassestakessomethingfrommeandgivessomethingtoit。Oh,ifitwereonlytheotherway!Ifthepicturecouldchange,andIcouldbealwayswhatIamnow!Whydidyoupaintit?Itwillmockmesomeday——mockmehorribly!Thehottearswelledintohiseyes。hetorehishandawayand,flinginghimselfonthedivan,heburiedhisfaceinthecushions,asthoughhewaspraying。
  Thisisyourdoing,Harry,saidthepainterbitterly。
  LordHenryshruggedhisshoulders。ItistherealDorianGray——
  thatisall。
  Itisnot。
  Ifitisnot,whathaveItodowithit?
  YoushouldhavegoneawaywhenIaskedyou,hemuttered。
  Istayedwhenyouaskedme,wasLordHenry’sanswer。
  Harry,Ican’tquarrelwithmytwobestfriendsatonce,butbetweenyoubothyouhavemademehatethefinestpieceofworkIhaveeverdone,andIwilldestroyit。Whatisitbutcanvasandcolour?Iwillnotletitcomeacrossourthreelivesandmarthem。
  DorianGrayliftedhisgoldenheadfromthepillow,andwithpallidfaceandtear-stainedeyes,lookedathimashewalkedovertothedealpainting-tablethatwassetbeneaththehighcurtainedwindow。Whatwashedoingthere?Hisfingerswerestrayingaboutamongthelitteroftintubesanddrybrushes,seekingforsomething。Yes,itwasforthelongpalette-knife,withitsthinbladeoflithesteel。Hehadfounditatlast。
  Hewasgoingtoripupthecanvas。
  Withastifledsobtheladleapedfromthecouch,and,rushingovertoHallward,toretheknifeoutofhishand,andflungittotheendofthestudio。Don’t,Basil,don’t!hecried。Itwouldbemurder!
  Iamgladyouappreciatemyworkatlast,Dorian,saidthepaintercoldlywhenhehadrecoveredfromhissurprise。Ineverthoughtyouwould。
  Appreciateit?Iaminlovewithit,Basil。Itispartofmyself。
  Ifeelthat。
  Well,assoonasyouaredry,youshallbevarnished,andframed,andsenthome。Thenyoucandowhatyoulikewithyourself。Andhewalkedacrosstheroomandrangthebellfortea。Youwillhavetea,ofcourse,Dorian?Andsowillyou,Harry?Ordoyouobjecttosuchsimplepleasures?
  Iadoresimplepleasures,saidLordHenry。Theyarethelastrefugeofthecomplex。ButIdon’tlikescenes,exceptonthestage。Whatabsurdfellowsyouare,bothofyou!Iwonderwhoitwasdefinedmanasarationalanimal。Itwasthemostprematuredefinitionevergiven。Manismanythings,butheisnotrational。Iamgladheisnot,afterall——
  thoughIwishyouchapswouldnotsquabbleoverthepicture。Youhadmuchbetterletmehaveit,Basil。Thissillyboydoesn’treallywantit,andIreallydo。
  Ifyouletanyonehaveitbutme,Basil,Ishallneverforgiveyou!criedDorianGray。andIdon’tallowpeopletocallmeasillyboy。
  Youknowthepictureisyours,Dorian。Igaveittoyoubeforeitexisted。
  Andyouknowyouhavebeenalittlesilly,Mr。Gray,andthatyoudon’treallyobjecttobeingremindedthatyouareextremelyyoung。
  Ishouldhaveobjectedverystronglythismorning,LordHenry。
  Ah!thismorning!Youhavelivedsincethen。
  Therecameaknockatthedoor,andthebutlerenteredwithaladentea-trayandsetitdownuponasmallJapanesetable。TherewasarattleofcupsandsaucersandthehissingofaflutedGeorgianurn。Twoglobe-shapedchinadisheswerebroughtinbyapage。DorianGraywentoverandpouredoutthetea。Thetwomensaunteredlanguidlytothetableandexaminedwhatwasunderthecovers。
  Letusgotothetheatreto-night,saidLordHenry。Thereissuretobesomethingon,somewhere。IhavepromisedtodineatWhite’s,butitisonlywithanoldfriend,soIcansendhimawiretosaythatIamill,orthatIampreventedfromcominginconsequenceofasubsequentengagement。Ithinkthatwouldbearatherniceexcuse:itwouldhaveallthesurpriseofcandour。
  Itissuchaboreputtingonone’sdress-clothes,mutteredHallward。
  And,whenonehasthemon,theyaresohorrid。
  Yes,answeredLordHenrydreamily,thecostumeofthenineteenthcenturyisdetestable。Itissosombre,sodepressing。Sinistheonlyrealcolour-elementleftinmodernlife。
  YoureallymustnotsaythingslikethatbeforeDorian,Harry。
  BeforewhichDorian?Theonewhoispouringoutteaforus,ortheoneinthepicture?
  Beforeeither。
  Ishouldliketocometothetheatrewithyou,LordHenry,saidthelad。
  Thenyoushallcome。andyouwillcome,too,Basil,won’tyou?
  Ican’t,really。Iwouldsoonernot。Ihavealotofworktodo。
  Well,then,youandIwillgoalone,Mr。Gray。
  Ishouldlikethatawfully。
  Thepainterbithislipandwalkedover,cupinhand,tothepicture。
  IshallstaywiththerealDorian,hesaid,sadly。
  IsittherealDorian?criedtheoriginaloftheportrait,strollingacrosstohim。AmIreallylikethat?
  Yes。youarejustlikethat。
  Howwonderful,Basil!
  Atleastyouarelikeitinappearance。Butitwillneveralter,
  sighedHallward。Thatissomething。
  Whatafusspeoplemakeaboutfidelity!exclaimedLordHenry。
  Why,eveninloveitispurelyaquestionforphysiology。Ithasnothingtodowithourownwill。Youngmenwanttobefaithful,andarenot。oldmenwanttobefaithless,andcannot:thatisallonecansay。
  Don’tgotothetheatreto-night,Dorian,saidHallward。Stopanddinewithme。
  Ican’t,Basil。
  Why?
  BecauseIhavepromisedLordHenryWottontogowithhim。
  Hewon’tlikeyouthebetterforkeepingyourpromises。Healwaysbreakshisown。Ibegyounottogo。
  DorianGraylaughedandshookhishead。