首页 >出版文学> The Parent’s Assistant>第12章
  Mr。Fisher,saidDr。Middleton,astoyou,Ishallnotpunishyou。I
  havenohopeofmakingyoueitherwiserorbetter。Doyouknowthispaper?——thepaperappearedtobeabillforcandlesandatinder-box。
  Idesiredhimtobuythosethings,sir,saidArcher,colouring。
  Anddidyoudesirehimnottopayforthem?
  No,saidArcher,hehadhalfacrownonpurposetopayforthem。
  Iknowhehad,buthechosetoapplyittohisprivateuse,andgaveittothegipsytobuytwelvebunsforhisowneating。Toobtaincreditforthetinder-boxandcandles,hemadeuseofTHISname,saidhe,turningtotheothersideofthebill,andpointingtoDeGrey’sname,whichwaswrittenattheendofacopyofoneofDeGrey’sexercises。
  Iassureyou,sir——criedArcher。
  Youneednotassureme,sir,saidDr。Middleton。Icannotsuspectaboyofyourtemperofhavinganypartinsobaseanaction。WhenthepeopleintheshoprefusedtoletMr。Fisherhavethethingswithoutpayingforthem,hemadeuseofDeGrey’sname,whowasknownthere。
  Suspectingsomemischief,however,fromthepurchaseofthetinder-box,theshopkeeperinformedmeofthecircumstance。NothinginthiswholebusinessgavemehalfsomuchpainasIfelt,foramoment,whenI
  suspectedthatDeGreywasconcernedinit。Aloudcry,inwhichArcher’svoicewasheardmostdistinctly,declaredDeGrey’sinnocence。
  Dr。Middletonlookedroundattheireager,honestfaces,withbenevolentapprobation。Archer,saidhe,takinghimbythehand,Iamheartilygladtoseethatyouhavegotthebetterofyourpartyspirit。Iwishyoumaykeepsuchafriendasyouhavenowbesideyou。onesuchfriendisworthtwosuchparties。Asforyou,Mr。Fisher,depart。youmustneverreturnhitheragain。InvainhesolicitedArcherandDeGreytointercedeforhim。Everybodyturnedawaywithcontempt。andhesneakedout,whimperinginadolefulvoice,WhatshallIsaytomyAuntBarbara?
  THEBRACELETS。
  InabeautifulandretiredpartofEnglandlivedMrs。Villars,aladywhoseaccurateunderstanding,benevolentheart,andsteadytemperpeculiarlyfittedherforthemostdifficult,aswellasmostimportant,ofalloccupations——theeducationofyouth。Thistaskshehadundertaken。andtwentyyoungpersonswereputunderhercare,withtheperfectconfidenceoftheirparents。Noyoungpeoplecouldbehappier。
  theyweregoodandgay,emulous,butnotenviousofeachother。forMrs。
  Villarswasimpartiallyjust。herpraisetheyfelttobetherewardofmerit,andherblametheyknewtobethenecessaryconsequenceofill-
  conduct。Totheone,therefore,theypatientlysubmitted,andintheotherconsciouslyrejoiced。Theyrosewithfreshcheerfulnessinthemorning,eagertopursuetheirvariousoccupations。Theyreturnedintheeveningwithrenewedardourtotheiramusements,andretiredtorestsatisfiedwiththemselvesandpleasedwitheachother。
  Nothingsomuchcontributedtopreserveaspiritofemulationinthislittlesocietyasasmallhonorarydistinction,givenannually,asaprizeofsuccessfulapplication。Theprizethisyearwaspeculiarlydeartoeachindividual,asitwasthepictureofafriendwhomtheydearlyloved。ItwasthepictureofMrs。Villarsinasmallbracelet。Itwantedneithergold,pearlsnorpreciousstonestogiveitvalue。
  ThetwoforemostcandidatesforthisprizewereCeciliaandLeonora。
  CeciliawasthemostintimatefriendofLeonora。butLeonorawasonlythefavouritecompanionofCecilia。
  Ceciliawasofanactive,ambitious,enterprisingdisposition,moreeagerinthepursuitthanhappyintheenjoymentofherwishes。Leonorawasofacontented,unaspiringtemperatecharacter。noteasilyrousedtoaction,butindefatigablewhenonceexcited。Leonorawasproud。Ceciliawasvain。Hervanitymadehermoredependentupontheapprobationofothers,andthereforemoreanxioustopleasethanLeonora。butthatveryvanitymadeher,atthesametime,moreapttooffend。Inshort,Leonorawasthemostanxioustoavoidwhatwaswrong。Cecilia,themostambitioustodowhatwasright。Fewofhercompanionsloved,butmanywereledbyCecilia,forshewasoftensuccessful。ManylovedLeonora,butnonewereevergovernedbyher,forshewastooindolenttogovern。
  OnthefirstdayofMay,aboutsixo’clockintheevening,agreatbellrang,tosummonthislittlesocietyintoahall,wheretheprizewastobedecided。Anumberofsmalltableswereplacedinacircleinthemiddleofthehall。Seatsfortheyoungcompetitorswereraisedoneaboveanother,inasemicircle,someyardsdistantfromthetable,andthejudges’chairs,undercanopiesoflilacsandlaburnums,forminganothersemicircle,closedtheamphitheatre。
  Everyoneputtheirwritings,theirdrawings,theirworksofvariouskindsuponthetablesappropriatedforeach。Howunsteadywerethelaststepstothesetables!Howeachlittlehandtrembledasitlaiddownitsclaims!Tillthismomenteveryonethoughtherselfsecureofsuccess。andtheheart,whichexultedwithhope,nowpalpitatedwithfear。
  Theworkswereexamined,thepreferenceadjudged,andtheprizewasdeclaredtobethehappyCecilia’s。Mrs。Villarscameforward,smiling,withthebraceletinherhand。Ceciliawasbehindhercompanions,onthehighestrow。Alltheothersgaveway,andshewasonthefloorinaninstant。Mrs。Villarsclaspedthebraceletonherarm。theclaspwasheardthroughthewholehall,andauniversalsmileofcongratulationfollowed。Mrs。VillarskissedCecilia’slittlehand。Andnow,saidshe,goandrejoicewithyourcompanions。theremainderofthedayisyours。
  Oh!youwhoseheartsareelatedwithsuccess,whosebosomsbeathighwithjoyinthemomentoftriumph,commandyourselves。Letthattriumphbemoderate,thatitmaybelasting。Consider,thatthoughyouaregood,youmaybebetter。and,thoughwise,youmaybeweak。
  AssoonasMrs。Villarshadgivenherthebracelet,allCecilia’slittlecompanionscrowdedroundher,andtheyallleftthehallinaninstant。
  Shewasfullofspiritsandvanity。Sheranon。Runningdowntheflightofstepswhichledtothegarden,inherviolenthaste,CeciliathrewdownthelittleLouisa,whohadachinamandarininherhand,whichhermotherhadsentherthatverymorning,andwhichwasallbrokentopiecesbyherfall。
  Oh,mymandarin!criedLouisa,burstingintotears。ThecrowdbehindCeciliasuddenlystopped。Louisasatontheloweststep,fixinghereyesuponthebrokenpieces。Then,turninground,shehidherfaceinherhandsuponthestepaboveher。Inturning,Louisathrewdowntheremainsofthemandarin。Thehead,whichsheplacedinthesocket,fellfromtheshoulders,androlled,boundingalongthegravelwalk。Ceciliapointedtotheheadandtothesocket,andburstintolaughter。Thecrowdbehindlaughed,too。
  AtanyothertimetheywouldhavebeenmoreinclinedtocrywithLouisa。
  butCeciliahadjustbeensuccessful,andsympathywiththevictoriousoftenmakesusforgetjustice。
  Leonora,however,preservedherusualconsistency。PoorLouisa!saidshe,lookingfirstather,andthenreproachfullyatCecilia。Ceciliaturnedsharplyround,colouring,halfwithshameandhalfwithvexation。
  Icouldnothelpit,Leonora,saidshe。
  Butyoucouldhavehelpedlaughing,Cecilia。
  Ididn’tlaughatLouisa。andIsurelymaylaugh,foritdoesnobodyanyharm。
  Iamsure,however,repliedLeonora,IshouldnothavelaughedifI
  had——
  No,tobesure,youwouldn’t,becauseLouisaisyourfavourite。Icanbuyheranothermandarinwhentheoldpeddlercomestothedoor,ifthat’sall。ICANdonomore,CANI?saidshe,againturningroundtohercompanions。No,tobesure,saidthey。that’sallfair。
  CecilialookedtriumphantlyatLeonora。Leonoraletgoherhand。sheranon,andthecrowdfollowed。Whenshegottotheendofthegarden,sheturnedroundtoseeifLeonorahadfollowedher,too。butwasvexedtoseeherstillsittingonthestepswithLouisa。I’msureIcandonomorethanbuyheranother,CANI!saidshe,againappealingtohercompanions。No,tobesure,saidthey,eagertobegintheirplay。
  Howmanygamesdidthesejuvenileplaymatesbeginandleaveoff,beforeCeciliacouldbesatisfiedwithany!Herthoughtswerediscomposed,andhermindwasrunninguponsomethingelse。Nowonder,then,thatshedidnotplaywithherusualaddress。Shegrewstillmoreimpatient。Shethrewdowntheninepins。Come,letusplayatsomethingelse——atthreadingtheneedle,saidshe,holdingoutherhand。Theyallyieldedtothehandwhichworethebracelet。ButCecilia,dissatisfiedwithherself,wasdiscontentedwitheverybodyelse。Hertonegrewmoreandmoreperemptory。Onewastoorude,anothertoostiff。onetooslow,anothertooquick。inshorteverythingwentwrong,andeverybodywastiredofherhumours。
  ThetriumphofSUCCESSisabsolute,butshort。Cecilia’scompanionsatlengthrecollectedthatthoughshehadembroideredatulip,andpaintedapeach,betterthanthey,yetthattheycouldplayaswell,andkeeptheirtempersbetter。forshewasdiscomposed。
  Walkingtowardsthehouseinapeevishmood,CeciliametLeonora,butpassedon。Cecilia!criedLeonora。
  Well,whatdoyouwantwithme?
  Arewefriends?
  Youknowbest,saidCecilia。
  Weare,ifyouwillletmetellLouisathatyouaresorry——
  Cecilia,interruptingher,Oh,prayletmehearnomoreaboutLouisa!
  What!notconfessthatyouwereinthewrong?Oh,Cecilia!Ihadabetteropinionofyou。
  Youropinionisofnoconsequencetomenow,foryoudon’tloveme。
  No。notwhenyouareunjust,Cecilia。
  Unjust!Iamnotunjust。andifIwere,youarenotmygoverness。
  No,butamnotIyourfriend?
  Idon’tdesiretohavesuchafriend,whowouldquarrelwithmeforhappeningtothrowdownlittleLouisa。HowcouldItellthatshehadamandarininherhand?andwhenitwasbroken,couldIdomorethanpromiseheranother。wasthatunjust?
  Butyouknow,Cecilia——
  IKNOW,ironically。Iknow,Leonora,thatyouloveLouisabetterthanyouloveme。that’stheinjustice!
  IfIdid,repliedLeonora,gravely,itwouldbenoinjustice,ifshedeserveditbetter。
  HowcanyoucompareLouisatome!exclaimedCecilia,indignantly。
  Leonoramadenoanswer。forshewasreallyhurtatherfriend’sconduct。
  Shewalkedontojointherestofhercompanions。Theyweredancinginarounduponthegrass。Leonoradeclineddancing。buttheyprevaileduponhertosingforthem。Hervoicewasnotsosprightly,butitwassweeterthanusual。WhosangsosweetlyasLeonora?orwhodancedsonimblyasLouisa?Awayshewasflying,allspiritsandgaiety,whenLeonora’seyesfulloftears,caughthers。Louisasilentlyletgohercompanion’shand,and,quittingthedance,ranuptoLeonoratoinquirewhatwasthematterwithher。Nothing,repliedshe,thatneedinterruptyou。Go,mydear。goanddanceagain。
  Louisaimmediatelyranawaytohergarden,andpullingoffherlittlestrawhat,shelineditwiththefresheststrawberry-leaves,andwasuponherkneesbeforethestrawberry-bedwhenCeciliacameby。CeciliawasnotdisposedtobepleasedwithLouisaatthatinstant,fortworeasons。
  becauseshewasjealousofher,andbecauseshehadinjuredher。Theinjury,however,Louisahadalreadyforgotten。Perhapstotellthingsjustastheywere,shewasnotquitesomuchinclinedtokissCeciliaasshewouldhavebeenbeforethefallofhermandarin。butthiswastheutmostextentofhermalice,ifitcanbecalledmalice。
  Whatareyoudoingthere,littleone?saidCecilia,inasharptone。
  Areyoueatingyourearlystrawberrieshereallalone?
  No,saidLouisa,mysteriously,Iamnoteatingthem。
  Whatareyoudoingwiththem?can’tyouanswer,then?I’mnotplayingwithyou,child!
  Oh,astothat,Cecilia,youknowIneednotansweryouunlessIchooseit。notbutwhatIwouldifyouwouldonlyaskmecivilly,andifyouwouldnotcallmeCHILD。
  WhyshouldnotIcallyouchild?
  Because——because——Idon’tknow。butIwishyouwouldstandoutofmylight,Cecilia,foryouaretramplinguponallmystrawberries。
  Ihavenottouchedone,youcovetouslittlecreature!
  Indeed——indeed,Cecilia,Iamnotcovetous。Ihavenoteatenoneofthem。theyareallforyourfriendLeonora。Seehowunjustyouare!
  Unjust!that’sacantwordwhichyoulearntofmyfriendLeonora,asyoucallher。butsheisnotmyfriendnow。
  Notyourfriendnow!exclaimedLouisa。thenIamsureyoumusthavedonesomethingVERYnaughty。
  How?criedCecilia,catchingholdofher。
  Letmego,letmego!criedLouisa,struggling。Iwon’tgiveyouoneofmystrawberries,forIdon’tlikeyouatall!
  Youdon’t,don’tyou?criedCecilia,provoked,and,catchingthehatfromLouisa,sheflungthestrawberriesoverthehedge。
  Willnobodyhelpme?exclaimedLouisa,snatchingherhatagain,andrunningawaywithallherforce。
  WhathaveIdone?saidCecilia,recollectingherself。Louisa!Louisa!
  shecalledveryloud,butLouisawouldnotturnback。shewasrunningtohercompanions,whowerestilldancing,handinhand,uponthegrass,whilstLeonora,sittinginthemiddle,wassingingtothem。
  Stop!stop!andhearme!criedLouisa,breakingthroughthem。and,rushinguptoLeonora,shethrewherhatatherfeet,andpantingforbreath——Itwasfull——almostfullofmyownstrawberries,saidshe,thefirstIevergotoutofmygarden。Theyshouldallhavebeenforyou,Leonora。butnowIhavenotoneleft。Theyareallgone!saidshe。andshehidherfaceinLeonora’slap。
  Gone!gonewhere?saideveryone,atoncerunninguptoher。
  Cecilia!Cecilia!saidshe,sobbing。
  Cecilia,repeatedLeonora,whatofCecilia?
  Yes,itwas——itwas。
  Comewithme,saidLeonora,unwillingtohaveherfriendexposed。
  Come,andIwillgetyousomemorestrawberries。
  Oh,Idon’tmindthestrawberries,indeed。butIwantedtohavehadthepleasureofgivingthemtoyou。
  Leonoratookherupinherarmstocarryheraway,butitwastoolate。
  What,Cecilia!Cecilia,whowontheprize!ItcouldnotsurelybeCecilia,whisperedeverybusytongue。
  Atthisinstantthebellsummonedthemin。Theresheis!Theresheis!criedthey,pointingtoanarbour,whereCeciliawasstandingashamedandalone。and,astheypassedher,somelifteduptheirhandsandeyeswithastonishment,otherswhisperedandhuddledmysteriouslytogether,asiftoavoidher。Leonorawalkedon,herheadalittlehigherthanusual。
  Leonora!saidCecilia,timorously,asshepassed。
  Oh,Cecilia!whowouldhavethoughtthatyouhadabadheart?Ceciliaturnedherheadasideandburstintotears。
  Oh,no,indeed,shehasnotabadheart!criedLouisa,runninguptoherandthrowingherarmsaroundherneck。She’sverysorry。arenotyou,Cecilia?Butdon’tcryanymore,forIforgiveyou,withallmyheart——andIloveyounow,thoughIsaidIdidnotwhenIwasinapassion。
  Oh,yousweet-temperedgirl!howIloveyou!saidCecilia,kissingher。
  Well,then,ifyoudo,comealongwithme,anddryyoureyes,fortheyaresored!
  Go,mydear,andI’llcomepresently。
  ThenIwillkeepaplaceforyou,nexttome。butyoumustmakehaste,oryouwillhavetocomeinwhenwehaveallsatdowntosupper,andthenyouwillbesostaredat!Sodon’tstay,now。
  CeciliafollowedLouisawithhereyestillshewasoutofsight。AndisLouisa,saidshe,toherself,theonlyonewhowouldstoptopityme?
  Mrs。Villarstoldmethatthisdayshouldbemine。Shelittlethoughthowitwouldend!
  Sayingthesewords,Ceciliathrewherselfdownupontheground。herarmleaneduponaheapofturfwhichshehadraisedinthemorning,andwhich,intheprideandgaietyofherheart,shehadcalledherthrone。
  Atthisinstant,Mrs。Villarscameouttoenjoytheserenityoftheevening,and,passingbythearbourwhereCecilialay,shestarted。
  Ceciliarosehastily。
  Whoisthere?saidMrs。Villars。
  ItisI,madam。
  Andwhois_I_?
  Cecilia。
  Why,whatkeepsyouhere,mydear?Whereareyourcompanions?Thisis,perhaps,oneofthehappiestdaysofyourlife。
  Oh,no,madam,saidCecilia,hardlyabletorepresshertears。
  Why,mydear,whatisthematter?Ceciliahesitated。Speak,mydear。
  YouknowthatwhenIaskyoutotellmeanythingasyourfriend,Ineverpunishyouasyourgoverness。thereforeyouneednotbeafraidtotellmewhatisthematter。
  No,madam,Iamnotafraid,butashamed。YouaskedmewhyIwasnotwithmycompanions。Why,madam,becausetheyhaveallleftme,and——
  Andwhat,mydear?
  AndIseethattheyalldislikeme。andyetIdon’tknowwhytheyshould,forItakeasmuchpainstopleaseasanyofthem。Allmymastersseemsatisfiedwithme。andyouyourself,madam,werepleasedthisverymorningtogivemethisbracelet。andIamsureyouwouldnothavegivenittoanyonewhodidnotdeserveit。
  Certainlynot,saidMrs。Villars。Youwelldeserveitforyourapplication——foryoursuccessfulapplication。Theprizewasforthemostassiduous,notforthemostamiable。
  Then,ifithadbeenforthemostamiable,itwouldnothavebeenforme?
  Mrs。Villars,smiling,——Why,whatdoyouthinkyourself,Cecilia?YouarebetterabletojudgethanIam。IcandeterminewhetherornoyouapplytowhatIgiveyoutolearn。whetheryouattendtowhatIdesireyoutodo,andavoidwhatIdesireyounottodo。IknowthatIlikeyouasapupil,butIcannotknowthatIshouldlikeyouasacompanion,unlessIwereyourcompanion。ThereforeImustjudgeofwhatIshoulddo,byseeingwhatothersdointhesamecircumstances。
  Oh,praydon’t,madam!forthenyouwouldnotlovemeeither。AndyetI
  thinkyouwouldloveme。forIhopethatIamasreadytooblige,andasgood-naturedas——
  Yes,Cecilia,Idon’tdoubtbutthatyouwouldbeverygoodnaturedtome。butI’mafraidthatIshouldnotlikeyouunlessyouweregood-
  tempered,too。
  But,madam,bygood-naturedImeangood-tempered——it’sallthesamething。
  No,indeed,Iunderstandbythemtwoverydifferentthings。Youaregood-natured,Cecilia。foryouaredesiroustoobligeandserveyourcompanions——togainthempraise,andsavethemfromblame——togivethempleasure,andrelievethemfrompain。butLeonoraisgood-tempered,forshecanbearwiththeirfoibles,andacknowledgeherown。Withoutdisputingabouttheright,shesometimesyieldstothosewhoareinthewrong。Inshort,hertemperisperfectlygood。foritcanbearandforbear。
  Iwishthatminecould!saidCecilia,sighing。
  Itmay,repliedMrs。Villars。butitisnotwishesalonewhichcanimproveusinanything。Turnthesameexertionandperseverancewhichhavewonyoutheprizeto-daytothisobject,andyouwillmeetwiththesamesuccess。perhapsnotonthefirst,thesecond,orthethirdattempt。
  butdependuponitthatyouwillatlast。Everyneweffortwillweakenyourbadhabits,andstrengthenyourgoodones。Butyoumustnotexpecttosucceedallatonce。Irepeatittoyou,forhabitmustbecounteractedbyhabit。Itwouldbeasextravagantinustoexpectthatallourfaultscouldbedestroyedbyonepunishment,wereiteversosevere,asitwasintheRomanemperorwewerereadingofafewdaysago,towishthatalltheheadsofhisenemieswereupononeneck,thathemightcutthemoffatoneblow。
  HereMrs。VillarstookCeciliabythehand,andtheybegantowalkhome。
  SuchwasthenatureofCecilia’smind,thatwhenanyobjectwasforciblyimpressedonherimagination,itcausedatemporarysuspensionofherreasoningfaculties。Hopewastoostrongastimulusforherspirits。andwhenfeardidtakepossessionofhermind,itwasattendedwithtotaldebility。Hervanitywasnowasmuchmortifiedasinthemorningithadbeenelated。ShewalkedonwithMrs。Villarsinsilence,untiltheycameundertheshadeoftheelm-treewalk,andthere,fixinghereyesuponMrs。Villars,shestoppedshort。
  Doyouthink,madam,saidshe,withhesitation——doyouthink,madam,thatIhaveabadheart?
  Abadheart,——mydear!why,whatputthatintoyourhead?
  LeonorasaidthatIhad,madam,andIfeltashamedwhenshesaidso。
  But,mydear,howcanLeonoratellwhetheryourheartbegoodorbad?
  However,inthefirstplace,tellmewhatyoumeanbyabadheart。
  IndeedIdonotknowwhatismeantbyit,madam。butitissomethingwhicheverybodyhates。
  Andwhydotheyhateit?
  Becausetheythinkthatitwillhurtthem,ma’am,Ibelieve:andthatthosewhohavebadheartstakedelightindoingmischief。andthattheyneverdoanybodyanygoodbutfortheirownends。
  Thenthebestdefinition,saidMrs。Villars,whichyoucangivemeofabadheartis,thatitissomeconstantpropensitytohurtothers,andtodowrongforthesakeofdoingwrong。
  Yes,madam。butthatisnotalleither。Thereisstillsomethingelsemeant。somethingwhichIcannotexpress——which,indeed,Ineverdistinctlyunderstood。butofwhich,therefore,Iwasthemoreafraid。
  Well,then,tobeginwithwhatyoudounderstand,tellme,Cecilia,doyoureallythinkitpossibletobewickedmerelyfortheloveofwickedness?Nohumanbeingbecomeswickedallatonce。Amanbeginsbydoingwrongbecauseitis,orbecausehethinksit,forhisinterest。Ifhecontinuetodoso,hemustconquerhissenseofshameandlosehisloveofvirtue。Buthowcanyou,Cecilia,whofeelsuchastrongsenseofshame,andsuchaneagerdesiretoimprove,imaginethatyouhaveabadheart?
  Indeed,madam,Ineverdid,untileverybodytoldmeso,andthenIbegantobefrightenedaboutit。Thisveryevening,madam,whenIwasinapassion,IthrewlittleLouisa’sstrawberriesaway,which,Iamsure,I
  wasverysorryforafterwards。andLeonoraandeverybodycriedoutthatI
  hadabadheart——butIamsureIwasonlyinapassion。
  Verylikely。Andwhenyouareinapassion,asyoucallit,Cecilia,youseethatyouaretemptedtodoharmtoothers。Iftheydonotfeelangrythemselves,theydonotsympathizewithyou。Theydonotperceivethemotivewhichactuatesyou。andthentheysaythatyouhaveabadheart。Idaresay,however,whenyourpassionisover,andwhenyourecollectyourself,youareverysorryforwhatyouhavedoneandsaid。
  arenotyou?
  Yes,indeed,madam——verysorry。
  Thenmakethatsorryofusetoyou,Cecilia,andfixitsteadilyinyourthoughts,asyouhopetobegoodandhappy,thatifyousufferyourselftoyieldtoyourpassionuponeveryoccasion,angeranditsconsequenceswillbecomefamiliartoyourmind。and,inthesameproportion,yoursenseofshamewillbeweakened,tillwhatyoubeganwithdoingfromsuddenimpulseyouwillendwithdoingfromhabitandchoice:thenyouwould,indeed,accordingtoourdefinition,haveabadheart。
  Oh,madam!Ihope——IamsureInevershall。
  No,indeed,Cecilia。Ido,indeed,believethatyouneverwill。onthecontrary,Ithinkthatyouhaveaverygooddisposition,andwhatisofinfinitelymoreconsequencetoyou,anactivedesireofimprovement。
  Showmethatyouhaveasmuchperseveranceasyouhavecandour,andI
  shallnotdespairofyourbecomingeverythingthatIcouldwish。
  HereCecilia’scountenancebrightened,andsheranupthestepsinalmostashighspiritsassherandowntheminthemorning。
  Good-nighttoyou,Cecilia,saidMrs。Villars,asshewascrossingthehall。Good-nighttoyou,madam,saidCecilia。andsheranupstairstobed。Shecouldnotgotosleep。butshelayawake,reflectingupontheeventsoftheprecedingday,andformingresolutionsforthefuture,atthesametimethatshehadresolved,andresolvedwithouteffect,shewishedtogivehermindsomemorepowerfulmotive。Ambitionsheknewtobeitsmostpowerfulincentive。HaveInot,saidshetoherself,alreadywontheprizeofapplication,andcannotthesameapplicationprocuremeamuchhigherprize?Mrs。Villarssaidthatiftheprizehadbeenpromisedtothemostamiable,itwouldnothavebeengiventome。
  Perhapsitwouldnotyesterday,perhapsitmightnotto-morrow。butthatisnoreasonthatIshoulddespairofeverdeservingit……
  Inconsequenceofthisreasoning,Ceciliaformedadesignofproposingtohercompanionsthattheyshouldgiveaprize,thefirstoftheensuingmonththelstofJune,tothemostamiable。Mrs。Villarsapplaudedthescheme,andhercompanionsadopteditwiththegreatestalacrity。
  Lettheprize,saidthey,beabraceletofourownhair。andinstantlytheirshiningscissorswereproduced,andeachcontributedalockoftheirhair。Theyformedthemostbeautifulgradationofcolours,fromthepalestauburntothebrightestblack。Whowastohavethehonourofplaitingthem?wasnowthequestion。Carolinebeggedthatshemight,asshecouldplaitveryneatly,shesaid。Cecilia,however,wasequallysurethatshecoulddoitmuchbetter。andadisputewouldhaveinevitablyensued,ifCecilia,recollectingherselfjustashercolourrosetoscarlet,hadnotyielded——yielded,withnoverygoodgraceindeed,butaswellascouldbeexpectedforthefirsttime。Foritishabitwhichconfersease。andwithoutease,eveninmoralactions,therecanbenograce。
  ThebraceletwasplaitedintheneatestmannerbyCaroline,finishedroundtheedgewithsilvertwist,andonitwasworked,inthesmallestsilverletters,thismotto,TOTHEMOSTAMIABLE。Themomentitwascompleted,everybodybeggedtotryiton。Itfastenedwithlittlesilverclasps,andasitwasmadelargeenoughfortheeldestgirls,itwastoolargefortheyoungest。Ofthistheybitterlycomplained,andunanimouslyentreatedthatitmightbecuttofitthem。
  Howfoolish!exclaimedCecilia。don’tyouperceivethatifanyofyouwinit,youhavenothingtodobuttoputtheclipsalittlefurtherfromtheedge,butifwegetit,wecan’tmakeitlarger?
  Verytrue,saidthey。butyouneednottohavecalledusfoolish,Cecilia。
  ItwasbysuchhastyandunguardedexpressionsasthesethatCeciliaoffended。Aslightdifferenceinthemannermakesaverymaterialoneintheeffect。Cecilialostmorelovebygeneralpetulancethanshecouldgainbythegreatestparticularexertions。
  Howfarshesucceededincuringherselfofthisdefect——howfarshebecamedeservingofthebracelet,andtowhomthebraceletwasgiven——
  shallbetoldintheHistoryoftheFirstofJune——
  TheFirstofJunewasnowarrived,andalltheyoungcompetitorswereinastateofthemostanxioussuspense。LeonoraandCeciliacontinuedtobetheforemostcandidates。Theirquarrelhadneverbeenfinallyadjusted,andtheirdifferentpretensionsnowretardedallthoughtsofareconciliation。Cecilia,thoughshewascapableofacknowledginganyofherfaultsinpublicbeforeallhercompanions,couldnothumbleherselfinprivatetoLeonora。Leonorawasherequal。theywereherinferiors,andsubmissionismucheasiertoavainmind,whereitappearstobevoluntary,thanwhenitisthenecessarytributetojusticeorcandour。
  SostronglydidCeciliafeelthistruth,thatsheevendelayedmakinganyapology,orcomingtoanyexplanationwithLeonora,untilsuccessshouldoncemoregiveherthepalm。
  IfIwinthebracelet,to-day,saidshetoherself,IwillsolicitthereturnofLeonora’sfriendship。itwillbemorevaluabletomethaneventhebracelet,andatsuchatime,andaskedinsuchamanner,shesurelycannotrefuseittome。Animatedwiththishopeofadoubletriumph,Ceciliacanvassedwiththemostzealousactivity。Byconstantattentionandexertionshehadconsiderablyabatedtheviolenceofhertemper,andchangedthecourseofherhabits。Herpowersofpleasingwerenowexcited,insteadofherabilitiestoexcel。and,ifhertalentsappearedlessbrilliant,hercharacterwasacknowledgedtobemoreamiable。Sogreataninfluenceuponourmannersandconducthavetheobjectsofourambition。
  Ceciliawasnow,ifpossible,morethaneverdesirousofdoingwhatwasright,butshehadnotyetacquiredsufficientfearofdoingwrong。Thiswasthefundamentalerrorofhermind。itaroseinagreatmeasurefromherearlyeducation。Hermotherdiedwhenshewasveryyoung。andthoughherfatherhadsuppliedherplaceinthebestandkindestmanner,hehadinsensiblyinfusedintohisdaughter’smindaportionofthatenterprising,independentspiritwhichhejustlydeemedessentialtothecharacterofherbrother。ThisbrotherwassomeyearsolderthanCecilia,buthehadalwaysbeenthefavouritecompanionofheryouth。
  Whatherfather’spreceptsinculcated,hisexampleenforced。andevenCecilia’svirtuesconsequentlybecamesuchasweremoreestimableinamanthandesirableinafemale。Allsmallobjectsandsmallerrorsshehadbeentaughttodisregardastrifles。andherimpatientdispositionwasperpetuallyleadingherintomorematerialfaults。yethercandourinconfessingthese,shehadbeensufferedtobelieve,wassufficientreparationandatonement。
  Leonora,onthecontrary,whohadbeeneducatedbyhermotherinamannermoresuitedtohersex,hadacharacterandvirtuesmorepeculiartoafemale。Herjudgmenthadbeenearlycultivated,andhergoodsenseemployedintheregulationofherconduct。Shehadbeenhabituatedtothatrestraint,which,asawoman,shewastoexpectinlife,andearlyaccustomedtoyield。Complianceinherseemednaturalandgraceful。yetnotwithstandingthegentlenessofhertemper,shewasinrealitymoreindependentthanCecilia。Shehadmorerelianceuponherownjudgment,andmoresatisfactioninherownapprobation。Theuniformkindnessofhermanner,theconsistencyandequalityofhercharacter,hadfixedtheesteemandpassiveloveofhercompanions。
  Bypassivelovewemeanthatspeciesofaffectionwhichmakesusunwillingtooffendratherthananxioustooblige,whichismoreahabitthananemotionofthemind。ForCeciliahercompanionsfeltactivelove,forshewasactiveinshowingherlovetothem。
  Activelovearisesspontaneouslyinthemind,afterfeelingparticularinstancesofkindness,withoutreflectiononthepastconductorgeneralcharacter。Itexceedsthemeritsofitsobject,andisconnectedwithafeelingofgenerosity,ratherthanwithasenseofjustice。
  Withoutdeterminingwhichspeciesofloveisthemostflatteringtoothers,wecaneasilydecidewhichisthemostagreeablefeelingtoourminds。Wegiveourheartsmorecreditforbeinggenerousthanforbeingjust。andwefeelmoreself-complacencywhenwegiveourlovevoluntarily,thanwhenweyielditasatributewhichwecannotwithhold。
  ThoughCecilia’scompanionsmightnotknowallthisintheory,theyproveditinpractice。fortheylovedherinamuchhigherproportiontohermeritsthantheylovedLeonora。
  Eachoftheyoungjudgesweretosignifytheirchoicebyputtingaredorawhiteshellintoavasepreparedforthepurpose。Cecilia’scolourwasred,Leonora’swhite。
  Inthemorningnothingwastobeseenbuttheseshells。nothingtalkedofbutthelongexpectedeventoftheevening。Cecilia,followingLeonora’sexample,hadmadeitapointofhonournottoinquireofanyindividualhervote,previouslytotheirfinaldetermination。
  TheywerebothsittingtogetherinLouisa’sroom。Louisawasrecoveringfromthemeasles。Everyoneduringherillnesshadbeendesirousofattendingher。butLeonoraandCeciliaweretheonlytwothatwerepermittedtoseeher,astheyalonehadhadthedistemper。TheywerebothassiduousintheircareofLouisa,butLeonora’swantofexertiontoovercomeanydisagreeablefeelingsofsensibilityoftendeprivedherofpresenceofmind,andpreventedherfrombeingsoconstantlyusefulasCecilia。Cecilia,onthecontrary,oftenmadetoomuchnoiseandbustlewithherofficiousassistance,andwastooanxioustoinventamusementsandprocurecomfortsforLouisa,withoutperceivingthatillnesstakesawaythepowerofenjoyingthem。
  Asshewassittingatthewindowinthemorning,exertingherselftoentertainLouisa,sheheardthevoiceofanoldpeddlerwhooftenusedtocometothehouse。Downstairstheyranimmediately,toaskMrs。Villars’
  permissiontobringhimintothehall。Mrs。Villarsconsented,andawayCeciliarantoproclaimthenewstohercompanions。Then,firstreturningintothehall,shefoundthepeddlerjustunbucklinghisbox,andtakingitoffhisshoulders。
  Whatwouldyoubepleasedtowant,miss?saidthepeddler。I’veallkindsoftweezer-cases,rings,andlocketsofallsorts,continuedhe,openingalltheglitteringdrawerssuccessively。
  Oh!saidCecilia,shuttingthedraweroflocketswhichtemptedhermost,thesearenotthethingswhichIwant。Haveyouanychinafigures?anymandarins?
  Alack-a-day,miss,Ihadagreatstockofthatsamechinaware。butnowI’mquiteoutofthemkindofthings。butIbelieve,saidhe,rummagingoneofthedeepestdrawers,IbelieveIhaveoneleft,andhereitis。
  Oh,thatistheverything!what’sitsprice?
  Onlythreeshillings,ma’am。Ceciliapaidthemoney,andwasjustgoingtocarryoffthemandarin,whenthepeddlertookoutofhisgreat-
  coatpocketaneatmahoganycase。Itwasaboutafootlong,andfastenedateachendbytwolittleclasps。Ithadbesides,asmalllockinthemiddle。
  Whatisthat?saidCecilia,eagerly。
  It’sonlyachinafigure,miss,whichIamgoingtocarrytoanelderlylady,wholivesnighhand,andwhoismightyfondofsuchthings。
  Couldyouletmelookatit?
  Andwelcome,miss,saidhe,andopenedthecase。
  Oh,goodness!howbeautiful!exclaimedCecilia。
  ItwasafigureofFlora,crownedwithroses,andcarryingabasketofflowersinherhand。Ceciliacontemplateditwithdelight。HowI
  shouldliketogivethistoLouisa!saidshetoherself。and,atlast,breakingsilence,Didyoupromiseittotheoldlady?
  Oh,no,miss,Ididn’tpromiseit——sheneversawit。andifsobethatyou’dliketotakeit,I’dmakenomorewordsaboutit。
  Andhowmuchdoesitcost?
  Why,miss,astothat,I’llletyouhaveitforhalf-a-guinea。
  Ceciliaimmediatelyproducedtheboxinwhichshekepthertreasure,and,emptyingituponthetable,shebegantocounttheshillings。Alas!
  therewerebutsixshillings。Howprovoking!saidshe。thenIcan’thaveit。Where’sthemandarin?Oh,Ihaveit,saidshe,takingitup,andlookingatitwiththeutmostdisgust。IsthisthesamethatIhadbefore?
  Yes,miss,theverysame,repliedthepeddler,who,duringthistime,hadbeenexaminingthelittleboxoutofwhichCeciliahadtakenhermoney——itwasofsilver。Why,ma’am,saidhe,sinceyou’vetakensuchafancytothepiece,ifyou’veamindtomakeuptheremainderofthemoney,Iwilltakethisherelittlebox,ifyoucaretopartwithit。
  NowthisboxwasakeepsakefromLeonoratoCecilia。No,saidCeciliahastily,blushingalittle,andstretchingoutherhandtoreceiveit。
  Oh,miss!saidhe,returningitcarelessly,Ihopethere’snooffence。
  Imeantbuttoserveyou,that’sall。Suchararepieceofchina-workhasnocausetogoa-begging,addedhe。Then,puttingtheFloradeliberatelyintothecase,andturningthekeywithajerk,heletitdropintohispocket。when,liftinguphisboxbytheleatherstraps,hewaspreparingtodepart。
  Oh,stayoneminute!saidCecilia,inwhosemindtherehadpassedaverywarmconflictduringthepeddler’sharangue。LouisawouldsolikethisFlora,saidshe,arguingwithherself。Besides,itwouldbesogenerousinmetogiveittoherinsteadofthatuglymandarin。thatwouldbedoingonlycommonjustice,forIpromisedittoher,andsheexpectsit。Though,whenIcometolookatthismandarin,itisnotevensogoodasherswas。Thegildingisallrubbedoff,sothatIabsolutelymustbuythisforher。Oh,yes!Iwill,andshewillbesodelighted!
  andtheneverybodywillsayitistheprettiestthingtheyeversaw,andthebrokenmandarinwillbeforgottenforever。
  HereCecilia’shandmoved,andshewasjustgoingtodecide:Oh,butstop,saidshetoherself,consider——Leonoragavemethisbox,anditisakeepsake。However,wehavenowquarrelled,andIdaresaythatshewouldnotmindmypartingwithit。I’msurethatIshouldnotcareifshewastogiveawaymykeepsake,thesmelling-bottle,ortheringwhichIgaveher。Thenwhatdoesitsignify?Besides,isitnotmyown?andhaveInotarighttodowhatIpleasewithit?
  Atthismoment,socriticalforCecilia,apartyofhercompanionsopenedthedoor。Sheknewthattheycameaspurchasers,andshedreadedherFlora’sbecomingtheprizeofsomehigherbidder。Here,saidshe,hastilyputtingtheboxintothepeddler’shand,withoutlookingatit。
  takeit,andgivemetheFlora。Herhandtrembled,thoughshesnatcheditimpatiently。Sheranby,withoutseemingtomindanyofhercompanions。
  Letthosewhoaretemptedtodowrongbythehopesoffuturegratification,ortheprospectofcertainconcealmentandimpunity,rememberthat,unlesstheyaretotallydepraved,theybearintheirownheartsamonitor,whowillpreventtheirenjoyingwhattheyillobtained。
  InvainCeciliarantotherestofhercompanions,todisplayherpresent,inhopesthattheapplauseofotherswouldrestoreherownself-
  complacency。invainshesawtheFlorapassinduepompfromhandtohand,eachvyingwiththeotherinextollingthebeautyofthegiftandthegenerosityofthegiver。Ceciliawasstilldispleasedwithherself,withthem,andevenwiththeirpraise。FromLouisa’sgratitude,however,sheyetexpectedmuchpleasure,andimmediatelysheranupstairstoherroom。
  Inthemeantime,Leonorahadgoneintothehalltobuyabodkin。shehadjustbrokenhers。Ingivingherchange,thepeddlertookoutofhispocket,withsomehalfpence,theveryboxwhichCeciliahadsoldtohim。
  Leonoradidnotintheleastsuspectthetruth,forhermindwasabovesuspicion。andbesides,shehadtheutmostconfidenceinCecilia。
  Ishouldliketohavethatbox,saidshe,foritislikeoneofwhichIwasveryfond。
  Thepeddlernamedtheprice,andLeonoratookthebox。SheintendedtogiveittolittleLouisa。Ongoingtoherroomshefoundherasleep,andshesatsoftlydownbyherbedside。Louisaopenedhereyes。
  IhopeIdidn’tdisturbyou,saidLeonora。
  Oh,no。Ididn’thearyoucomein。butwhathaveyougotthere?
  Onlyalittlebox。wouldyouliketohaveit?Iboughtonpurposeforyou,asIthoughtperhapsitwouldpleaseyou,becauseit’slikethatwhichIgaveCecilia。
  Oh,yes!thatoutofwhichsheusedtogivemeBarbarydrops。Iamverymuchobligedtoyou。Ialwaysthoughtthatexceedinglypretty,andthis,indeed,isaslikeitaspossible。Ican’tunscrewit。willyoutry?
  Leonoraunscrewedit。Goodness!exclaimedLouisa,thismustbeCecilia’sbox。Look,don’tyouseeagreatLatthebottomofit?
  Leonora’scolourchanged。Yes,sherepliedcalmly,Iseethat。butitisnoproofthatitisCecilia’s。YouknowthatIboughtthisboxjustnowofthepeddler。
  Thatmaybe,saidLouisa。butIrememberscratchingthatLwithmyownneedle,andCeciliascoldedmeforit,too。Dogoandaskherifshehaslostherbox——do,repeatedLouisa,pullingherbytheruffle,asshedidnotseemtolisten。
  Leonora,indeed,didnothear,forshewaslostinthought。Shewascomparingcircumstances,whichhadbeforeescapedherattention。SherecollectedthatCeciliahadpassedherasshecameintothehall,withoutseemingtoseeher,buthadblushedasshepassed。Sherememberedthatthepeddlerappearedunwillingtopartwiththebox,andwasgoingtoputitagaininhispocketwiththehalfpence。Andwhyshouldhekeepitinhispocket,andnotshowitwithhisotherthings?
  Combiningallthesecircumstances,Leonorahadnolongeranydoubtofthetruth,forthoughshehadhonourableconfidenceinherfriends,shehadtoomuchpenetrationtobeimplicitlycredulous。
  Louisa,shebegan,butatthisinstantsheheardastep,which,byitsquickness,sheknewtobeCecilia’s,comingalongthepassage。Ifyouloveme,Louisa,saidLeonora,saynothingaboutthebox。
  Nay,butwhynot?Idaresayshehadlostit。
  No,mydear,I’mafraidshehasnot。Louisalookedsurprised。ButI
  havereasonsfordesiringyounottosayanythingaboutit。
  Well,then,Iwon’t,indeed。
  Ceciliaopenedthedoor,cameforwardsmiling,asifsecureofagoodreception,andtakingtheFloraoutofthecase,sheplaceditonthemantlepiece,oppositetoLouisa’sbed。Dear,howbeautiful!criedLouisa,startingup。
  Yes,saidCecilia,andguesswhoit’sfor。
  Forme,perhaps!saidtheingenuousLouisa。
  Yes,takeit,andkeepit,formysake。YouknowthatIbrokeyourmandarin。
  Oh,butthisisagreatdealprettierandlargerthanthat。
  Yes,Iknowitis。andImeantthatitshouldbeso。IshouldonlyhavedonewhatIwasboundtodoifIhadonlygivenyouamandarin。
  Well,repliedLouisa,andthatwouldhavebeenenough,surely。butwhatabeautifulcrownofroses!andthenthatbasketofflowers!theyalmostlookasifIcouldsmellthem。DearCecilia,I’mverymuchobligedtoyou。butIwon’ttakeitbywayofpaymentforthemandarinyoubroke。forI’msureyoucouldnothelpthat,and,besides,Ishouldhavebrokenitmyselfbythistime。Youshallgiveittomeentirely。
  andasyourkeepsake,I’llkeepitaslongasIlive。
  Louisastoppedshortandcoloured。thewordkeepsakerecalledtheboxtohermind,andallthetrainofideaswhichtheFlorahadbanished。
  But,saidshe,lookingupwistfullyinCecilia’sface,andholdingtheFloradoubtfully,didyou——
  Leonora,whowasjustquittingtheroom,turnedherheadback,andgaveLouisaalook,whichsilencedher。
  Ceciliawassoinfatuatedwithhervanity,thatsheneitherperceivedLeonora’ssignnorLouisa’sconfusion,butcontinuedshowingoffherpresent,byplacingitinvarioussituations,tillatlengthsheputitintothecase,andlayingitdownwithanaffectedcarelessnessuponthebed,Imustgonow,Louisa。Good-bye,saidshe,runningupandkissingher。butI’llcomeagainpresently,then,clappingthedoorafterhershewent。Butassoonastheformentationofherspiritssubsided,thesenseofshame,whichhadbeenscarcelyfeltwhenmixedwithsomanyothersensations,roseuppermostinhermind。What!saidshetoherself,isitpossiblethatIhavesoldwhatIpromisedtokeepforever?andwhatLeonoragaveme?andIhaveconcealedittoo,andhavebeenmakingaparadeofmygenerosity。Oh!whatwouldLeonora,whatwouldLouisa——whatwouldeverybodythinkofme,ifthetruthwereknown?
  Humiliatedandgrievedbythesereflections,Ceciliabegantosearchinherownmindforsomeconsolingidea。Shebegantocompareherconductwiththatofothersofherownage。andatlength,fixinghercomparisonuponherbrotherGeorge,asthecompanionofwhom,fromherinfancy,shehadbeenhabituallythemostemulous,sherecollectedthatanalmostsimilarcircumstancehadoncehappenedtohim,andthathehadnotonlyescapeddisgrace,buthadacquiredglory,byanintrepidconfessionofhisfault。Herfather’swordtoherbrother,ontheoccasion,shealsoperfectlyrecollected。
  Cometome,George,hesaidholdingouthishand,youareagenerous,braveboy:theywhodaretoconfesstheirfaultswillmakegreatandgoodmen。
  Thesewerehiswords。butCecilia,inrepeatingthemtoherself,forgottolaythatemphasisonthewordMEN,whichwouldhaveplaceditincontradistinctiontothewordWOMEN。Shewillinglybelievedthattheobservationextendedequallytobothsexes,andflatteredherselfthatsheshouldexceedherbrotherinmeritifsheownedafault,whichshethoughtthatitwouldbesomuchmoredifficulttoconfess。Yes,but,
  saidshe,stoppingherself,howcanIconfessit?Thisveryevening,inafewhours,theprizewillbedecided。LeonoraorIshallwinit。I
  havenowasgoodachanceasLeonora,perhapsabetter。andmustIgiveupallmyhopes——allthatIhavebeenlabouringforthismonthpast?Oh,Inevercan!Ifitwerebutto-morrow,oryesterday,oranydaybutthis,Iwouldnothesitate。butnowIamalmostcertainoftheprize,andifIwinit——well,whythenIwill——IthinkIwilltellall——yesIwill。
  Iamdetermined,saidCecilia。
  Hereabellsummonedthemtodinner。Leonorasatoppositetoher,andshewasnotalittlesurprisedtoseeCecilialooksogayandunconstrained。Surely,saidshetoherself,ifCeciliahaddonethatwhichIsuspect,shewouldnot,shecouldnot,lookasshedoes。ButLeonoralittleknewthecauseofhergaiety。Ceciliawasneverinhigherspirits,orbetterpleasedwithherself,thanwhenshehadresolveduponasacrificeoraconfession。
  Mustnotthiseveningbegiventothemostamiable?Whose,then,willitbe?AlleyesglancedfirstatCecilia,andthenatLeonora。Ceciliasmiled。Leonorablushed。Iseethatitisnotyetdecided,saidMrs。
  Villars。andimmediatelytheyranupstairs,amidstconfusedwhisperings。
  Cecilia’svoicecouldbedistinguishedfarabovetherest。Howcanshebesohappy!saidLeonoratoherself。OhCecilia,therewasatimewhenyoucouldnothaveneglectedmeso!whenwewerealwaystogetherthebestoffriendsandcompanions。ourwishes,tastes,andpleasuresthesame!Surelyshedidonceloveme,saidLeonora。butnowsheisquitechanged。Shehasevensoldmykeepsake。andshewouldratherwinabraceletofhairfromgirlswhomshedidnotalwaysthinksomuchsuperiortoLeonora,thanhavemyesteem,myconfidence,andmyfriendshipforherwholelife——yes,forherwholelife,forIamsureshewillbeanamiablewoman。Oh,thatthisbracelethadneverbeenthoughtof,orthatIwerecertainofherwinningit。forIamsurethatIdonotwishtowinitfromher。Iwouldrather——athousandtimesrather——thatwewereasweusedtobethanhaveallthegloryintheworld。AndhowpleasingCeciliacanbewhenshewishestoplease!——howcandidsheis!——
  howmuchshecanimproveherself!Letmebejust,thoughshehasoffendedme。sheiswonderfullyimprovedwithinthislastmonth。Foronefault,andTHATagainstmyself,shallIforgetallhermerits?
  AsLeonorasaidtheselastwords,shecouldbutjusthearthevoicesofhercompanions。Theyhadleftheraloneinthegallery。SheknockedsoftlyatLouisa’sdoor。Comein,saidLouisa。I’mnotasleep。Oh,
  saidshe,startingupwiththeFlorainherhand,theinstantthatthedoorwasopened。I’msogladyouarecome,Leonora,forIdidsolongtohearwhatyouallweremakingsuchanoiseabout。Haveyouforgotthatthebracelet——
  Oh,yes!isthistheevening?inquiredLeonora。
  Well,here’smywhiteshellforyou,saidLouisa。I’vekeptitinmypocketthisfortnight。andthoughCeciliadidgivemethisFlora,Istillloveyouagreatdealbetter。
  Ithankyou,Louisa,saidLeonora,gratefully。Iwilltakeyourshell,andIshallvalueitaslongasIlive。buthereisaredone,andifyouwishtoshowmethatyouloveme,youwillgivethistoCecilia。
  Iknowthatsheisparticularlyanxiousforyourpreference,andIamsurethatshedeservesit。
  Yes,ifIcouldIwouldchoosebothofyou,saidLouisa,butyouknowIcanonlychoosewhichIlikethebest。
  Ifyoumean,mydearLouisa,saidLeonora,thatyoulikemethebest,Iamverymuchobligedtoyou,for,indeed,Iwishyoutoloveme。butitisenoughformetoknowitinprivate。Ishouldnotfeeltheleastmorepleasureathearingitinpublic,orinhavingitmadeknowntoallmycompanions,especiallyatatimewhenitwouldgivepoorCeciliaagreatdealofpain。
  Butwhyshoulditgiveherpain?askedLouisa。Idon’tlikeherforbeingjealousofyou。
  Nay,Louisa,surelyyoudon’tthinkCeciliajealous?Sheonlytriestoexcel,andtoplease。sheismoreanxioustosucceedthanIam,itistrue,becauseshehasagreatdealmoreactivity,andperhapsmoreambition。Anditwouldreallymortifyhertolosethisprize——youknowthatsheproposeditherself。Ithasbeenherobjectforthismonthpast,andIamsureshehastakengreatpainstoobtainit。
  But,dearLeonora,whyshouldyouloseit?
  Indeed,mydear,itwouldbenolosstome。and,ifitwere,IwouldwillinglysufferitforCecilia。for,thoughweseemnottobesuchgoodfriendsasweusedtobe,Iloveherverymuch,andshewilllovemeagain——I’msureshewill。whenshenolongerfearsmeasarival,shewillagainlovemeasafriend。
  HereLeonoraheardanumberofhercompanionsrunningalongthegallery。
  Theyallknockedhastilyatthedoor,callingLeonora!Leonora!willyounevercome?Ceciliahasbeenwithusthishalf-hour。
  Leonorasmiled。Well,Louisa,saidshe,smiling,willyoupromiseme?
  Oh,Iamsure,bythewaytheyspeaktoyou,thattheywon’tgiveyoutheprize!saidthelittleLouisa,andthetearsstartedintohereyes。
  Theyloveme,though,forallthat,saidLeonora。andasfortheprize,youknowwhomIwishtohaveit。
  Leonora!Leonora!calledherimpatientcompanions。don’tyouhearus?
  Whatareyouabout?
  Oh,sheneverwilltakeanytroubleaboutanything,saidoneoftheparty。let’sgoaway。
  Oh,go,go!makehaste!criedLouisa。don’tstay。theyaresoangry。
  Remember,then,thatyouhavepromisedme,saidLeonora,andshelefttheroom。
  Duringallthistime,Ceciliahadbeeninthegardenwithhercompanions。
  Theambitionwhichshehadfelttowinthefirstprize——theprizeofsuperiortalentsandsuperiorapplication——wasnottobecomparedtotheabsoluteanxietywhichshenowexpressedtowinthissimpletestimonyoftheloveandapprobationofherequalsandrivals。
  Toemployherexuberantactivity,Ceciliahadbeendraggingbranchesoflilacsandlaburnums,rosesandsweetbriar,toornamentthebowerinwhichherfatewastobedecided。Itwasexcessivelyhot,buthermindwasengaged,andshewasindefatigable。Shestoodstillatlasttoadmireherworks。Hercompanionsalljoinedinloudapplause。Theywerenotalittleprejudicedinherfavourbythegreateagernesswhichsheexpressedtowintheirprize,andbythegreatimportancewhichsheseemedtoaffixtothepreferenceofeachindividual。Atlast,WhereisLeonora?criedoneofthem。andimmediately,aswehaveseen,theyrantocallher。
  Ceciliawasleftalone。Overcomewithheatandtooviolentexertion,shehadhardlystrengthtosupportherself。eachmomentappearedtoherintolerablylong。Shewasinastateoftheutmostsuspense,andallhercouragefailedher。Evenhopeforsookher。andhopeisacordialwhichleavestheminddepressedandenfeebled。
  Thetimeisnowcome,saidCecilia。inafewmomentsallwillbedecided。Inafewmoments——goodness!HowmuchdoIhazard?IfIshouldnotwintheprize,howshallIconfesswhatIhavedone?HowshallIbegLeonoratoforgiveme?I,whohopedtorestoremyfriendshiptoherasanhonour!Theyaregonetoseekforher。ThemomentsheappearsI
  shallbeforgotten。What——whatshallIdo?saidCecilia,coveringherfacewithherhands。
  SuchwasCecilia’ssituationwhenLeonora,accompaniedbyhercompanions,openedthehalldoor。TheymostofthemranforwardstoCecilia。AsLeonoracameintothebower,sheheldoutherhandtoCecilia。Wearenotrivals,butfriends,Ihope,saidshe。Ceciliaclaspedherhand。
  butshewasintoogreatagitationtospeak。
  Thetablewasnowsetinthearbour——thevasewasnowplacedinthemiddle。Well!saidCecilia,eagerly,whobegins?Caroline,oneofherfriends,cameforwardfirst,andthenalltheotherssuccessively。
  Cecilia’semotionwashardlyconceivable。Nowtheyareallin!Countthem,Caroline!
  One,two,three,four。thenumbersarebothequal。Therewasadeadsilence。No,theyarenot,exclaimedCecilia,pressingforward,andputtingashellintoavase。Ihavenotgivenmine,andIgiveittoLeonora。Then,snatchingthebracelet,Itisyours,Leonora,saidshe。takeit,andgivemebackyourfriendship。Thewholeassemblygaveoneuniversalclapandageneralshoutofapplause。
  Icannotbesurprisedatthisfromyou,Cecilia,saidLeonora。anddoyouthenstilllovemeasyouusedtodo?
  Oh,Leonora,stop!don’tpraiseme。Idon’tdeservethis,saidshe,turningtoherloudlyapplaudingcompanions。Youwillsoondespiseme。
  Oh,Leonora,youwillneverforgiveme!Ihavedeceivedyou。Ihavesold——
  Atthisinstant,Mrs。Villarsappeared。Thecrowddivided。Shehadheardallthatpassed,fromherwindow。Iapplaudyourgenerosity,Cecilia,saidshe,butIamtotellyouthat,inthisinstanceitisunsuccessful。YouhavenotitinyourpowertogivetheprizetoLeonora。Itisyours。Ihaveanothervotetogivetoyou。YouhaveforgottenLouisa。
  Louisa!exclaimedCecilia。butsurely,ma’am,LouisalovesLeonorabetterthanshedoesme。
  Shecommissionedme,however,saidMrs。Villars,togiveyouaredshell。andyouwillfinditinthisbox。
  Ceciliastarted,andturnedaspaleasdeath。itwasthefatalbox!
  Mrs。Villarsproducedanotherbox。Sheopenedit。itcontainedtheFlora。AndLouisaalsodesiredme,saidshe,toreturntoyouthisFlora。SheputitintoCecilia’shand。Ceciliatrembledsothatshecouldnotholdit。Leonoracaughtit。
  Oh,madam!Oh,Leonora!exclaimedCecilia。nowIhavenohopeleft。
  Iintended——Iwasjustgoingtotell——
  DearCecilia,saidLeonora,youneednottellitme。Iknowitalready。andIforgiveyouwithallmyheart。
  Yes,Icanprovetoyou,saidMrs。Villars,thatLeonorahasforgivenyou。Itisshewhohasgivenyoutheprize。itwasshewhopersuadedLouisatogiveyouhervote。Iwenttoseeheralittlewhileago。andperceiving,byhercountenance,thatsomethingwasthematter,Ipressedhertotellmewhatitwas。
  ’Why,madam,’saidshe,’LeonorahasmademepromisetogivemyshelltoCecilia。NowIdon’tloveCeciliahalfsowellasIdoLeonora。
  Besides,IwouldnothaveCeciliathinkIvoteforherbecauseshegavemeaFlora。’WhilstLouisawasspeaking,continuedMrs。Villars,Isawthissilverboxlyingonthebed。Itookitup,andaskedifitwasnotyours,andhowshecamebyit。’Indeed,madam,’saidLouisa,’IcouldhavebeenalmostcertainthatitwasCecilia’s。butLeonoragaveitme,andshesaidthatsheboughtitofthepeddlerthismorning。Ifanybodyelsehadtoldmeso,Icouldnothavebelievedthem,becauseIremembertheboxsowell。butIcan’thelpbelievingLeonora。’ButdidnotyouaskCeciliaaboutit?saidI。’No,madam,’repliedLouisa。’forLeonoraforbademe。Iguessedherreason。’Well,saidI,givemethebox,andI
  willcarryyourshellinittoCecilia。’Then,madam,’saidshe,’ifI
  mustgiveither,praydotaketheFlora,andreturnittoherfirst,thatshemaynotthinkitisforthatIdoit。’
  Oh,generousLouisa!exclaimedCecilia。but,indeed,Leonora,Icannottakeyourshell。
  Then,dearCecilia,acceptofmineinsteadofit!youcannotrefuseit。
  Ionlyfollowyourexample。Asforthebracelet,addedLeonora,takingCecilia’shand,IassureyouIdon’twishforit,andyoudo,andyoudeserveit。
  No,saidCecilia,indeed,Idonotdeserveit。Nexttoyou,surelyLouisadeservesitbest。
  Louisa!oh,yes,Louisa,exclaimedeverybodywithonevoice。
  Yes,saidMrs。Villars,andletCeciliacarrythebracelettoher。shedeservesthatreward。ForonefaultIcannotforgetallyourmerits,Cecilia,nor,Iamsure,willyourcompanions。
  Then,surely,notyourbestfriend,saidLeonora,kissingher。
  Everybodypresentwasmoved。TheylookeduptoLeonorawithrespectfulandaffectionateadmiration。
  Oh,Leonora,howIloveyou!andhowIwishtobelikeyou!exclaimedCecilia——tobeasgood,asgenerous!
  Ratherwish,Cecilia,interruptedMrs。Villars,tobeasjust。tobeasstrictlyhonourable,andasinvariablyconsistent。Remember,thatmanyofoursexarecapableofgreatefforts——ofmakingwhattheycallgreatsacrificestovirtueortofriendship。butfewtreattheirfriendswithhabitualgentleness,oruniformlyconductthemselveswithprudenceandgoodsense。
  THELITTLEMERCHANTS。
  CHAPTERI。
  Chidigallinanasce,conviencherozole。
  Astheoldcockcrows,socrowstheyoung。
  ThosewhohavevisitedItalygiveusanagreeablepictureofthecheerfulindustryofthechildrenofallagesinthecelebratedcityofNaples。
  TheirmanneroflivingandtheirnumerousemploymentsareexactlydescribedinthefollowingExtractfromaTraveller’sJournal。*
  *VarietiesofLiterature,vol。i。p。299。
  Thechildrenarebusiedinvariousways。AgreatnumberofthembringfishforsaletotownfromSantaLucia。othersareveryoftenseenaboutthearsenals,orwherevercarpentersareatwork,employedingatheringupthechipsandpiecesofwood。orbythesea-side,pickingupsticks,andwhateverelsehasdriftedashore,which,whentheirbasketisfull,theycarryaway。
  Childrenoftwoorthreeyearsold,whocanscarcelycrawlalongupontheground,incompanywithboysoffiveorsix,areemployedinthisprettytrade。Hencetheyproceedwiththeirbasketsintotheheartofthecity,whereinseveralplacestheyformasortoflittlemarket,sittingroundwiththeirstockofwoodbeforethem。Labourers,andthelowerorderofcitizens,buyitofthemtoburninthetripodsforwarmingthemselves,ortouseintheirscantykitchens。
  Otherchildrencarryaboutforsalethewaterofthesulphurouswells,which,particularlyinthespringseason,isdrunkingreatabundance。
  Othersagainendeavourtoturnafewpencebybuyingasmallmatteroffruit,ofpressedhoney,cakes,andcomfits,andthen,likelittlepeddlers,offerandsellthemtootherchildren,alwaysfornomoreprofitthanthattheymayhavetheirshareofthemfreeofexpense。
  Itisreallycurioustoseehowanurchin,whosewholestockandpropertyconsistinaboardandaknife,willcarryaboutawater-melon,orahalfroastedgourd,collectatroupofchildrenroundhim,setdownhisboard,andproceedtodividethefruitintosmallpiecesamongthem。
  Thebuyerskeepasharplookouttoseethattheyhaveenoughfortheirlittlepieceofcopper。andtheLilliputiantradesmenactwithnolesscautionastheexigenciesofthecasemayrequire,topreventhisbeingcheatedoutofamorsel。
  Theadvantagesoftruthandhonesty,andthevalueofacharacterforintegrity,areveryearlyfeltamongsttheselittlemerchantsintheirdailyintercoursewitheachother。Thefairdealerisalwayssoonerorlaterseentoprosper。Themostcunningcheatisatlastdetectedanddisgraced。
  NumerousinstancesofthetruthofthiscommonobservationwereremarkedbymanyNeapolitanchildren,especiallybythosewhowereacquaintedwiththecharactersandhistoryofPiedroandFrancisco,twoboysoriginallyequalinbirth,fortuneandcapacity,butdifferentintheireducation,andconsequentlyintheirhabitsandconduct。Franciscowasthesonofanhonestgardener,who,fromthetimehecouldspeak,taughthimtolovetospeakthetruth,showedhimthatliarsareneverbelieved——thatcheatsandthievescannotbetrusted,andthattheshortestwaytoobtainagoodcharacteristodeserveit。
  Youthandwhitepaper,astheproverbsays,takeallimpressions。Theboyprofitedmuchbyhisfather’sprecepts,andmorebyhisexample。healwaysheardhisfatherspeakthetruth,andsawthathedealtfairlywitheverybody。Inallhischildishtraffic,Francisco,imitatinghisparents,wasscrupulouslyhonest,andthereforeallhiscompanionstrustedhim——AshonestasFrancisco,becameasortofproverbamongstthem。
  AshonestasFrancisco,repeatedPiedro’sfather,whenheonedayheardthissaying。Letthemsayso。Isay,’AssharpasPiedro’。andletusseewhichwillgothroughtheworldbest。WiththeideaofmakinghissonSHARPhemadehimcunning。Hetaughthim,thattomakeaGOOD
  BARGAINwastodeceiveastothevalueandpriceofwhateverhewantedtodisposeof。togetasmuchmoneyaspossiblefromcustomersbytakingadvantageoftheirignoranceoroftheirconfidence。Heoftenrepeatedhisfavouriteproverb——Thebuyerhasneedofahundredeyes。thesellerhasneedbutofone。*Andhetookfrequentopportunitiesofexplainingthemeaningofthismaximtohisson。Hewasafisherman。andashisgainsdependedmoreuponfortunethanuponprudence,hetrustedhabituallytohisgoodluck。Afterbeingidleforawholeday,hewouldcasthislineorhisnets,andifhewasluckyenoughtocatchafinefish,hewouldgoandshowitintriumphtohisneighbourthegardener。
  *Chicomprahabisognadicent’occhi。chivenden’haassaidiuno。
  Youareobligedtoworkalldaylongforyourdailybread,hewouldsay。Lookhere。Iworkbutfiveminutes,andIhavenotonlydailybread,butdailyfish。
  Upontheseoccasions,ourfishermanalwaysforgot,orneglectedtocount,thehoursanddayswhichwerewastedinwaitingforafairwindtoputtosea,oranglinginvainontheshore。
  LittlePiedro,whousedtobaskinthesunuponthesea-shorebesidehisfather,andtoloungeorsleepawayhistimeinafishing-boat,acquiredhabitsofidleness,whichseemedtohisfatheroflittleconsequencewhilsthewasBUTACHILD。
  WhatwillyoudowithPiedroashegrowsup,neighbour?saidthegardener。Heissmartandquickenough,butheisalwaysinmischief。
  ScarcelyadayhaspassedforthisfortnightbutIhavecaughthimamongstmygrapes。Itrackhisfootstepsallovermyvineyard。
  HEISBUTACHILDyet,andknowsnobetter,repliedthefisherman。
  Butifyoudon’tteachhimbetternowheisachild,howwillheknowwhenheisaman?saidthegardener。
  Amightynoiseaboutabunchofgrapes,truly!criedthefisherman:afewgrapesmoreorlessinyourvineyard,whatdoesitsignify?
  Ispeakforyourson’ssake,andnotforthesakeofmygrapes,saidthegardener。andItellyouagain,theboywillnotdowellintheworld,neighbour,ifyoudon’tlookafterhimintime。
  He’lldowellenoughintheworld,youwillfind,answeredthefisherman,carelessly。Wheneverhecastsmynets,theynevercomeupempty。’Itisbettertobeluckythanwise。’*
  *Emeglioesserfortunatochesavio。
  ThiswasaproverbwhichPiedrohadfrequentlyheardfromhisfather,andtowhichhemostwillinglytrusted,becauseitgavehimlesstroubletofancyhimselffortunatethantomakehimselfwise。
  Comehere,child,saidhisfathertohim,whenhereturnedhomeaftertheprecedingconversationwiththegardener。howoldareyou,myboy?——
  twelveyearsold,isnotit?
  AsoldasFrancisco,andolderbysixmonths,saidPiedro。
  Andsmarterandmoreknowingbysixyears,saidhisfather。Here,takethesefishtoNaples,andletusseehowyou’llsellthemforme。
  Ventureasmallfish,astheproverbsays,tocatchagreatone。*Iwastoolatewiththematthemarketyesterday,butnobodywillknowbutwhattheyarejustfreshoutofthewater,unlessyougoandtellthem。
  *Buttaunasardellaperpigliarunluccio。