Christianwatchedtheirsoftuncertainrushes。Goingtothelittlesummer—housesheflungherselfdownonaseat,andpressedherhandstoherheart。
Therewasastrangeandsuddenachingthere。Washegoingfromher?
Ifso,whatwouldbeleft?Howlittleandhownarrowseemedtheoutlookofherlife——withtheworldwaitingforher,theworldofbeauty,effort,self—sacrifice,fidelity!Itwasasthoughaflashofthatsummerlightninghadfledby,singeingher,takingfromherallpowersofflight,burningoffherwings,asoffoneofthosepalehoveringmoths。Tearsstartedup,andtrickleddownherface。
’Blind!’shethought;’howcouldIhavebeensoblind?’
Someonecamedownthepath。
"Who’sthere?"shecried。
Harzstoodinthedoorway。
"Whydidyoucomeout?"hesaid。"Ah!whydidyoucomeout?"Hecaughtherhand;Christiantriedtodrawitfromhim,andtoturnhereyesaway,butshecouldnot。Heflunghimselfdownonhisknees,andcried:"Iloveyou!"
InaraptureofsoftterrorChristianbentherforeheaddowntohishand。
"Whatareyoudoing?"sheheardhimsay。"Isitpossiblethatyouloveme?"andshefelthiskissesonherhair。
"Mysweet!itwillbesohardforyou;youaresolittle,solittle,andsoweak。"Claspinghishandclosertoherface,shemurmured:"I
don’tcare。"
Therewasalong,softsilence,thatseemedtolastforever。
Suddenlyshethrewherarmsroundhisneckandkissedhim。
"Whatevercomes!"shewhispered,andgatheringherdress,escapedfromhimintothedarkness。
XII
Christianwokenextmorningwithasmile。Inherattitudes,hervoice,hereyes,therewasahappyandsweetseriousness,asifshewerehuggingsomeholythought。Afterbreakfastshetookabookandsatintheopenwindow,whenceshecouldseethepoplar—treesguardingtheentrance。Therewasabreeze;therosesclosebykeptnoddingtoher;thecathedralbellswereinfullchime;beeshummedabovethelavender;andintheskysoftcloudswerefloatinglikehuge,whitebirds。
ThesoundsofMissNaylor’sstaccatodictationtravelledacrosstheroom,andGreta’ssighsasshetookitdown,oneeyeonherpaper,oneeyeonScruff,wholaywithablackearflappedacrosshispaw,andhistaneyebrowsquivering。Hewasindisgrace,forDominique,comingonhimunawares,hadseenhim"sayhisprayers"beforeapudding,andtakethepuddingforreward。
Christianputherbookdowngently,andslippedthroughthewindow。
Harzwascominginfromtheroad。"Iamallyours!"shewhispered。
Hisfingersclosedonhers,andhewentintothehouse。
Sheslippedback,tookupherbook,andwaited。Itseemedlongbeforehecameout,butwhenhedidhewavedherback,andhurriedon;shehadaglimpseofhisface,whitetothelips。Feelingfaintandsick,sheflewtoherstepfather’sroom。
HerrPaulwasstandinginacornerwiththeutterlydisturbedappearanceofaneasy—goingman,visitedbytheunexpected。Hisfineshirt—frontwascrumpledasifhisbreasthadheavedtoosuddenlyunderstrongemotion;hissmokedeyeglassesdangleddownhisback;
hisfingerswereembeddedinhisbeard。Hewasfixinghiseyeonaspotinthefloorasthoughheexpectedittoexplodeandblowthemtofragments。InanothercornerMrs。Decie,withhalf—closedeyes,wasrunningherfinger—tipsacrossherbrow。
"Whathaveyousaidtohim?"criedChristian。
HerrPaulregardedherwithglassyeyes。
"MeinGott!"hesaid。"YourauntandI!"
"Whathaveyousaidtohim?"repeatedChristian。
"Theimpudence!Ananarchist!。Abeggar!"
"Paul!"murmuredMrs。Decie。
"Theoutlaw!Thefellow!"HerrPaulbegantostrideabouttheroom。
Quiveringfromheadtofoot,Christiancried:"Howdaredyou?"andranfromtheroom,pushingasideMissNaylorandGreta,whostoodblanchedandfrightenedinthedoorway。
HerrPaulstoppedinhistramp,and,stillwithhiseyesfixedonthefloor,growled:
"Afinething—hein?What’scoming?Willyoupleasetellme?Ananarchist——abeggar!"
"Paul!"murmuredMrs。Decie。
"Paul!Paul!Andyou!"hepointedtoMissNaylor——"Twowomenwitheyes!——hein!"
"Thereisnothingtobegainedbyviolence,"Mrs。Deciemurmured,passingherhandkerchiefacrossherlips。MissNaylor,whosethinbrowncheekshadflushed,advancedtowardshim。
"Ihopeyoudonot——"shesaid;"IamsuretherewasnothingthatI
couldhaveprevented——Ishouldbegladifthatwereunderstood。"
And,turningwithsomedignity,thelittleladywentaway,closingthedoorbehindher。
"Youhear!"HerrPaulsaid,violentlysarcastic:"nothingshecouldhaveprevented!Enfin,!WillyoupleasetellmewhatIamtodo?"
"Menoftheworld"——whosephilosophyisacreatureofcircumstanceandacceptedthings——findanydeviationfromthepathoftheirconvictionsdangerous,shocking,andanintolerablebore。HerrPaulhadspenthislifelaughingatconvictions;thematterhadbuttotouchhimpersonally,andthetapoflaughterwasturnedoff。Thatanyonetowhomhewasthelawfulguardianshouldmarryotherthanawell—groomedman,properlyendowedwithgoods,properlyselected,wasbeyondexpressionhorrid。Fromhispointofviewhehadgreatexcuseforhorror;andhewasnaturallyunabletojudgewhetherhehadexcuseforhorrorfromotherpointsofview。Hisamazementhadinitaspiceofthepathetic;hewaslikeachildinthepresenceofathingthatheabsolutelycouldnotunderstand。Theinterviewhadlefthimwithasenseofinsecuritywhichhefelttobeparticularlyunfair。
Thedoorwasagainopened,andGretaflewin,hercheeksflushed,herhairfloatingbehindher,andtearsstreamingdownhercheeks。
"Papa!"shecried,"youhavebeencrueltoChris。Thedoorislocked;Icanhearhercrying——whyhaveyoubeencruel?"Withoutwaitingtobeanswered,sheflewoutagain。
HerrPaulseizedhishairwithbothhishands:"Good!Verygood!Myownchild,please!Whatnextthen?"
Mrs。Decierosefromherchairlanguidly。"Myheadisverybad,"shesaid,shadinghereyesandspeakinginlowtones:"Itisnousemakingafuss——nothingcancomeofthis——hehasnotapenny。
Christianwillhavenothingtillyoudie,whichwillnotbeforalongtimeyet,ifyoucanbutavoidanapoplecticfit!"
AttheselastwordsHerrPaulgaveastartofrealdisgust。"Hum!"
hemuttered;itwasasiftheworldwerebentonbeingbrutaltohim。
Mrs。Deciecontinued:
"IfIknowanythingofthisyoungman,hewillnotcomehereagain,afterthewordsyouhavespoken。AsforChristian——youhadbettertalktoNicholas。Iamgoingtoliedown。"
HerrPaulnervouslyfingeredtheshirt—collarroundhisstout,shortneck。
"Nicholas!Certainly——agoodidea。Quellediabled’afaire!"
’French!’thoughtMrs。Decie;’weshallsoonhavepeace。PoorChristian!I’msorry!Afterall,thesethingsareamatteroftimeandopportunity。’Thisconsoledheragooddeal。
ButforChristianthehourswerealongnightmareofgriefandshame,fearandanger。Wouldheforgive?Wouldhebetruetoher?Orwouldhegoawaywithoutaword?Sinceyesterdayitwasasifshehadsteppedintoanotherworld,andlostitagain。Inplaceofthatnewfeeling,intoxicatingaswine,whatwascoming?Whatbitter;
dreadfulending?
Arudeentrancethisintothelifeoffacts,andprimitiveemotions!
SheletGretaintoherroomafteratime,forthechildhadbegunsobbing;butshewouldnottalk,andsathourafterhouratthewindowwiththeairfanningherface,andthepaininhereyesturnedtotheskyandtrees。Afteroneortwoattemptsatconsolation,Gretasankonthefloor,andremainedthere,humblygazingathersisterinasilenceonlybrokenwhenChristianclearedherthroatoftears,andbythesongofbirdsinthegarden。Intheafternoonsheslippedawayanddidnotcomebackagain。
AfterhisinterviewwithMr。Treffry,HerrPaultookabath,perfumedhimselfwithprecision,andcausedittobeclearlyunderstoodthat,undercircumstancessuchasthese,aman’shousewasnotsuitedforapigtolivein。HeshortlyafterwardswentouttotheKurbaus,andhadnotreturnedbydinner—time。
Christiancamedownfordinner。Therewerecrimsonspotsinhercheeks,darkcirclesroundhereyes;shebehaved,however,asthoughnothinghadhappened。MissNaylor,affectedbythekindnessofherheartandtheshockhersystemhadsustained,rolledanumberofbreadpills,lookingateachasitcame,withanairofsurprise,andconcealingitwithdifficulty。Mr。Treffrywascoughing,andwhenhetalkedhisvoiceseemedtorumbleevenmorethanusual。Gretawasdumb,tryingtocatchChristian’seye;Mrs。Deciealoneseemedatease。AfterdinnerMr。Treffrywentofftohisroom,leaningheavilyonChristian’sshoulder。Ashesankintohischair,hesaidtoher:
"Pullyourselftogether,mydear!"Christiandidnotanswerhim。
OutsidehisroomGretacaughtherbythesleeve。
"Look!"shewhispered,thrustingapieceofpaperintoChristian’shand。"ItistomefromDr。Edmund,butyoumustreadit。"
Christianopenedthenote,whichranasfollows:
"MYPHILOSOPHERANDFRIEND,——Ireceivedyournote,andwenttoourfriend’sstudio;hewasnotin,buthalfanhouragoIstumbledonhiminthePlatz。Heisnotquitehimself;hashadatouchofthesun——nothingserious:Itookhimtomyhotel,whereheisinbed。Ifhewillstaytherehewillbeallrightinadayortwo。Inanycaseheshallnoteludemyclutchesforthepresent。
"MywarmrespectstoMistressChristian。——Yoursinfriendshipandphilosophy,EDMUNDDAWNEY。"
Christianreadandre—readthisnote,thenturnedtoGreta。
"WhatdidyousaytoDr。Dawney?"
Gretatookbackthepieceofpaper,andreplied:"Isaid:
"’DEARDR。EDMUND,——WeareanxiousaboutHerrHarz。Wethinkheisperhapsnotverywellto—day。We(IandChristian)shouldliketoknow。Youcantellus。Pleaseshallyou?GRETA。’
"ThatiswhatIsaid。"
Christiandroppedhereyes。"Whatmadeyouwrite?"
Gretagazedathermournfully:"Ithought——OChris!comeintothegarden。Iamsohot,anditissodullwithoutyou!"
ChristianbentherheadforwardandrubbedhercheekagainstGreta’s,thenwithoutanotherwordranupstairsandlockedherselfintoherroom。Thechildstoodlistening;hearingthekeyturninthelock,shesankdownonthebottomstepandtookScruffinherarms。
HalfanhourlaterMissNaylor,carryingacandle,foundhertherefastasleep,withherheadrestingontheterrier’sback,andtearstainsonhercheeks……
Mrs。Deciepresentlycameout,alsocarryingacandle,andwenttoherbrother’sroom。Shestoodbeforehischair,withfoldedhands。
"Nicholas,whatistobedone?"
Mr。Treffrywaspouringwhiskyintoaglass。
"Damnit,Con!"heanswered;"howshouldIknow?"
"There’ssomethinginChristianthatmakesinterferencedangerous。I
knowverywellthatI’venoinfluencewithheratall。"
"You’rerightthere,Con,"Mr。Treffryreplied。
Mrs。Decie’spaleeyes,fastenedonhisface,forcedhimtolookup。
"Iwishyouwouldleaveoffdrinkingwhiskyandattendtome。Paulisanelement——"
"Paul,"Mr。Treffrygrowled,"isanass!"
"Paul,"pursuedMrs。Decie,"isanelementofdangerinthesituation;anyill—timedoppositionofhismightdrivehertoIdon’tknowwhat。Christianisgentle,sheis’sympathetic’astheysay;
butthwarther,andsheisasobstinateas……
"YouorI!Leaveheralone!"
"Iunderstandhercharacter,butIconfessthatIamatalosswhattodo。"
"Donothing!"Hedrankagain。
Mrs。Decietookupthecandle。
"Men!"shesaidwithamysteriousintonation;shrugginghershoulders,shewalkedout。
Mr。Treffryputdownhisglass。
’Understand?’hethought;’no,youdon’t,andIdon’t。Whounderstandsayounggirl?Vapourings,dreams,moonshineI……Whatdoessheseeinthispainterfellow?Iwonder!’Hebreathedheavily。’Byheavens!Iwouldn’thavehadthishappenforahundredthousandpounds!’
XIII
FormanyhoursafterDawneyhadtakenhimtohishotel,Harzwasprostratewithstunningpainsintheheadandneck。Hehadbeenalldaywithoutfood,exposedtoburningsun,sufferingviolentemotion。
Movementofanysortcausedhimsuchagonythathecouldonlylieinstupor,countingthespotsdancingbefore,hiseyes。Dawneydideverythingforhim,andHarzresentedinalistlesswaytheintentscrutinyofthedoctor’scalm,blackeyes。
Towardstheendoftheseconddayhewasabletogetup;Dawneyfoundhimsittingonthebedinshirtandtrousers。
"Myson,"hesaid,"youhadbettertellmewhatthetroubleis——itwilldoyourstubborncarcasegood。"
"Imustgobacktowork,"saidHarz。
"Work!"saidDawneydeliberately:"youcouldn’t,ifyoutried。"
"Imust。"
"Mydearfellow,youcouldn’ttellonecolourfromanother。"
"Imustbedoingsomething;Ican’tsithereandthink。"
Dawneyhookedhisthumbsintohiswaistcoat:"Youwon’tseethesunforthreedaysyet,ifIcanhelpit。"
Harzgotup。
"I’mgoingtomystudioto—morrow,"hesaid。"Ipromisenottogoout。ImustbewhereIcanseemywork。IfIcan’tpaint,Icandraw;Icanfeelmybrushes,movemythingsabout。IshallgomadifIdonothing。"
Dawneytookhisarm,andwalkedhimupanddown。
"I’llletyougo,"hesaid,"butgivemeachance!It’sasmuchtometoputyoustraightasitistoyoutopaintadecentpicture。
Nowgotobed;I’llhaveacarriageforyouto—morrowmorning。"
Harzsatdownonthebedagain,andforalongtimestayedwithoutmoving,hiseyesfixedonthefloor。Thesightofhim,sodesperateandmiserable,hurttheyoungdoctor。
"Canyougettobedbyyourself?"heaskedatlast。
Harznodded。
"Then,good—night,oldchap!"andDawneylefttheroom。
HetookhishatandturnedtowardstheVilla。Betweenthepoplarshestoppedtothink。Thefarthertreeswerefret—workedblackagainstthelingeringgoldofthesunset;ahugemoth,attractedbythetipofhiscigar,cameflutteringinhisface。Themusicofaconcertinaroseandfell,likethesighingofsomedisillusionedspirit。Dawneystoodforseveralminutesstaringatthehouse。
HewasshowntoMrs。Decie’sroom。Shewasholdingamagazinebeforehereyes,andreceivedhimwithasmuchreliefasphilosophypermitted。
"YouaretheverypersonIwantedtosee,"shesaid。
Henoticedthatthemagazinesheheldwasuncut。
"Youareayoungman,"pursuedMrs。Decie,"butasmydoctorIhavearighttoyourdiscretion。"
Dawneysmiled;thefeaturesofhisbroad,clean—shavenfacelookedridiculouslysmallonsuchoccasions,buthiseyesretainedtheirairofcalculation。
"Thatisso,"heanswered。
"Itisaboutthisunfortunateaffair。IunderstandthatMr。Harziswithyou。Iwantyoutouseyourinfluencetodissuadehimfromattemptingtoseemyniece。"
"Influence!"saidDawney;"youknowHarz!"
Mrs。Decie’svoicehardened。
"Everybody,"shesaid,"hashisweakpoints。Thisyoungmanisopentoapproachfromatleasttwoquarters——hisprideisone,hisworkanother。Iamseldomwrongingaugingcharacter;thesearehisvitalspots,andtheyareoftheessenceofthismatter。I’msorryforhim,ofcourse——butathisage,andlivingaman’slife,thesethings——"Hersmilewasextrapale。"Iwishyoucouldgivemesomethingformyhead。It’sfoolishtoworry。Nervesofcourse!
ButIcan’thelpit!Youknowmyopinion,Dr。Dawney。Thatyoungmanwillgofarifheremainsunfettered;hewillmakeaname。Youwillbedoinghimagreatserviceifyoucouldshowhimtheaffairasitreallyis——adragonhim,andquiteunworthyofhispride!Dohelpme!Youarejustthemantodoit!"
Dawneythrewuphisheadasiftoshakeoffthisimpeachment;thecurveofhischinthusdisplayedwasimposinginitsfulness;
altogetherhewasimposing,havinganairofcapability。
Shestruckhim,indeed,asreallyscared;itwasasifhermaskofsmilehadbecomeawry,andfailedtocoverheremotion;andhewaspuzzled,thinking,’Iwouldn’thavebelievedshehaditinher……’
"It’snotaneasybusiness,"hesaid;"I’llthinkitover。"
"Thankyou!"murmuredMrs。Decie。"Youaremostkind。"
Passingtheschoolroom,helookedinthroughtheopendoor。
Christianwassittingthere。Thesightofherfaceshockedhim,itwassowhite,soresolutelydumb。Abooklayonherknees;shewasnotreading,butstaringbeforeher。Hethoughtsuddenly:’Poorthing!IfIdon’tsaysomethingtoher,Ishallbeabrute!’
"MissDevorell,"hesaid:"Youcanreckononhim。"
Christiantriedtospeak,butherlipstrembledsothatnothingcameforth。
"Good—night,"saidDawney,andwalkedout……
ThreedayslaterHarzwassittinginthewindowofhisstudio。Itwasthefirstdayhehadfounditpossibletowork,andnow,tiredout,hestaredthroughtheduskattheslowlylengtheningshadowsoftherafters。Asolitarymosquitohummed,andtwohousesparrows,whohadbuiltbeneaththeroof,chirrupedsleepily。Swallowsdartedbythewindow,dippingtheirbluewingstowardsthequietwater;ahushhadstolenovereverything。Hefellasleep。
Hewoke,withadimimpressionofsomenearpresence。Inthepaleglimmerfrominnumerablestars,theroomwasfullofshadowyshapes。
Helithislantern。Theflamedartedforth,bickered,thenslowlylitupthegreatroom。
"Who’sthere?"
Arustlingseemedtoanswer。Hepeeredabout,wenttothedoorway,anddrewthecurtain。Awoman’scloakedfigureshrankagainstthewall。Herfacewasburiedinherhands;herarms,fromwhichthecloakfellback,werealonevisible。
"Christian?"
Sheranpasthim,andwhenhehadputthelanterndown,wasstandingatthewindow。Sheturnedquicklytohim。"Takemeawayfromhere!
Letmecomewithyou!"
"Doyoumeanit?"
"Yousaidyouwouldn’tgivemeup!"
"Youknowwhatyouaredoing?"
Shemadeamotionofassent。
"Butyoudon’tgraspwhatthismeans。Thingstobearthatyouknownothingof——hungerperhaps!Think,evenhunger!Andyourpeoplewon’tforgive——you’llloseeverything。"
Sheshookherhead。
"Imustchoose——it’sonethingortheother。Ican’tgiveyouup!
Ishouldbeafraid!"
"But,dear;howcanyoucomewithme?Wecan’tbemarriedhere。"
"Iamgivingmylifetoyou。"
"Youaretoogoodforme,"saidHarz。"Thelifeyou’regoinginto——
maybedark,likethat!"hepointedtothewindow。
Asoundoffootstepsbrokethehush。Theycouldseeafigureonthepathbelow。Itstopped,seemedtoconsider,vanished。Theyheardthesoundsofgropinghands,ofacreakingdoor,ofuncertainfeetonthestairs。
Harzseizedherhand。
"Quick!"hewhispered;"behindthiscanvas!"
Christianwastremblingviolently。Shedrewherhoodacrossherface。Theheavybreathingandejaculationsofthevisitorwerenowplainlyaudible。
"He’sthere!Quick!Hide!"
Sheshookherhead。
Withathrillathisheart,Harzkissedher,thenwalkedtowardstheentrance。Thecurtainwaspulledaside。
ItwasHerrPaul,holdingacigarinonehand,hishatintheother,andbreathinghard。
"Pardon!"hesaidhuskily,"yourstairsaresteep,anddark!maisen,fin!nousvoila!Ihaveventuredtocomeforatalk。"Hisglancefellonthecloakedfigureintheshadow。
"Pardon!Athousandpardons!Ihadnoidea!Ibegyoutoforgivethisindiscretion!Imaytakeityouresignpretensionsthen?Youhavealadyhere——Ihavenothingmoretosay;Ionlybegamillionpardonsforintruding。Athousandtimesforgiveme!Good—night!"
Hebowedandturnedtogo。Christiansteppedforward,andletthehoodfallfromherhead。
"It’sI!"
HerrPaulpirouetted。
"GoodGod!"hestammered,droppingcigarandhat。"GoodGod!"
Thelanternflaredsuddenly,revealinghiscrimson,shakingcheeks。
"Youcamehere,atnight!You,thedaughterofmywife!"Hiseyeswanderedwithadullglareroundtheroom。
"Takecare!"criedHarz:"Ifyousayawordagainsther———"
Thetwomenstaredateachother’seyes。Andwithoutwarning,thelanternflickeredandwentout。Christiandrewthecloakroundheragain。HerrPaul’svoicebrokethesilence;hehadrecoveredhisself—possession。
"Ah!ah!"hesaid:"Darkness!Tantmieux!Therightthingforwhatwehavetosay。Sincewedonotesteemeachother,itiswellnottoseetoomuch。"
"Justso,"saidHarz。
Christianhadcomeclosetothem。Herpalefaceandgreatshiningeyescouldjustbeseenthroughthegloom。
HerrPaulwavedhisarm;thegesturewasimpressive,annihilating。
"Thisisamatter,Ibelieve,betweentwomen,"hesaid,addressingHarz。"Letuscometothepoint。Iwilldoyouthecredittosupposethatyouhaveamarriageinview。Youknow,perhaps,thatMissDevorellhasnomoneytillIdie?"
"Yes。"
"AndIampassablyyoung!Youhavemoney,then?"
"No。"
"Inthatcase,youwouldproposetoliveonair?"
"No,towork;ithasbeendonebefore。"
"Itiscalculatedtoincreasehunger!YouarepreparedtotakeMissDevorell,ayoungladyaccustomedtoluxury,intoplaceslike——this!"
hepeeredabouthim,"intoplacesthatsmellofpaint,intothemilieuof’thepeople,’intothesocietyofBohemians——whoknows?ofanarchists,perhaps?"
Harzclenchedhishands:"Iwillanswernomorequestions。"
"Inthatevent,wereachtheultimatum,"saidHerrPaul。"Listen,HerrOutlaw!Ifyouhavenotleftthecountrybynoonto—morrow,youshallbeintroducedtothepolice!"
Christianutteredacry。Foraminuteinthegloomtheonlysoundheardwastheshort,hardbreathingofthetwomen。
SuddenlyHarzcried:"Youcoward,Idefyyou!"
"Coward!"HerrPaulrepeated。"Thatisindeedthelastword。Looktoyourself,myfriend!"