"Iwaslikethoseboysonce,"saidHarz。
Christianturnedtohimquickly。"Ah!thatwaswhyyoufelttheplay,somuch。"
"It’smycountryupthere。Iwasbornamongstthemountains。I
lookedafterthecows,andsleptinhay—cocks,andcutthetreesinwinter。Theyusedtocallmea’blacksheep,’a’loafer’inmyvillage。"
"Why?"
"Ah!why?Iworkedashardasanyofthem。ButIwantedtogetaway。DoyouthinkIcouldhavestayedthereallmylife?"
Christian’seyesgreweager。
"Ifpeopledon’tunderstandwhatitisyouwanttodo,theyalwayscallyoualoafer!"mutteredHarz。
"Butyoudidwhatyoumeanttodoinspiteofthem,"Christiansaid。
Forherselfitwassohardtofinishordecide。WhenintheolddaysshetoldGretastories,thelatter,whoseinstinctwasalwaysforthedefinite,wouldsay:"Andwhatcameattheend,Chris?Dofinishitthismorning!"butChristiannevercould。Herthoughtsweredeep,vague,dreamy,invadedbybothsidesofeveryquestion。Whatevershedid,herneedlework,herverse—making,herpainting,allhaditscharm;butitwasnotalwayswhatitwasintendedforatthebeginning。NicholasTreffryhadoncesaidofher:"WhenChrisstartsouttomakeahat,itmayturnoutanaltar—cloth,butyoumaybetitwon’tbeahat。"Itwasherinstincttolookforwhatthingsmeant;
andthistookmorethanallhertime。Sheknewherselfbetterthanmostgirlsofnineteen,butitwasherreasonthathadinformedher,notherfeelings。Inhershelteredlife,herhearthadneverbeenruffledexceptbyrarefitsofpassion——"tantrums"oldNicholasTreffrydubbedthem——atwhatseemedtohermeanorunjust。
"IfIwereaman,"shesaid,"andgoingtobegreat,Ishouldhavewantedtobeginattheverybottomasyoudid。"
"Yes,"saidHarzquickly,"oneshouldbeabletofeeleverything。"
Shedidnotnoticehowsimplyheassumedthathewasgoingtobegreat。Hewenton,asmiletwistinghismouthunpleasantlybeneathitsdarkmoustache"Notmanypeoplethinklikeyou!It’sacrimenottohavebeenbornagentleman。"
"That’sasneer,"saidChristian;"Ididn’tthinkyouwouldhavesneered!"
"Itistrue。Whatistheuseofpretendingthatitisn’t?"
"Itmaybetrue,butitisfinernottosayit!"
"ByHeavens!"saidHarz,strikingonehandintotheother,"ifmoretruthwerespokentherewouldnotbesomanyshams。"
Christianlookeddownathimfromherseatonthestile。
"Youarerightallthesame,FrauleinChristian,"headdedsuddenly;
"that’saverylittlebusiness。Workiswhatmatters,andtryingtoseethebeautyintheworld。"
Christian’sfacechanged。Sheunderstood,wellenough,thiscravingafterbeauty。Slippingdownfromthestile,shedrewaslowdeepbreath。
"Yes!"shesaid。Neitherspokeforsometime,thenHarzsaidshyly:
"IfyouandFrauleinGretawouldeverliketocomeandseemystudio,Ishouldbesohappy。Iwouldtryandcleanitupforyou!"
"Ishouldliketocome。Icouldlearnsomething。Iwanttolearn。"
Theywerebothsilenttillthepathjoinedtheroad。
"Wemustbeinfrontoftheothers;it’snicetobeinfront——let’sdawdle。Iforgot——youneverdawdle,HerrHarz。"
"Afterabigfitofwork,Icandawdleagainstanyone;thenIgetanotherfitofwork——it’slikeappetite。"
"I’malwaysdawdling,"answeredChristian。
Bytheroadsideapeasantwomanscreweduphersun—driedface,sayinginalowvoice:"Please,graciouslady,helpmetoliftthisbasket!"
Christianstooped,butbeforeshecouldraiseit,Harzhoistedituponhisback。
"Allright,"henodded;"thisgoodladydoesn’tmind。"
Thewoman,lookingverymuchashamed,walkedalongbyChristian;shekeptrubbingherbrownhandstogether,andsaying;"Graciouslady,I
wouldnothavewished。Itisheavy,butIwouldnothavewished。"
"I’msurehe’drathercarryit,"saidChristian。
Theyhadnotgonefaralongtheroad,however,beforetheotherspassedtheminacarriage,andatthestrangesightMissNaylorcouldbeseenpursingherlips;CousinTeresanoddingpleasantly;asmileonDawney’sface;andbesidehimGreta,verydemure。Harzbegantolaugh。
"Whatareyoulaughingat?"askedChristian。
"YouEnglisharesofunny。Youmustn’tdothishere,youmustn’tdothatthere,it’slikesittinginafieldofnettles。IfIweretowalkwithyouwithoutmycoat,thatlittleladywouldfalloffherseat。"HislaughinfectedChristian;theyreachedthestationfeelingthattheykneweachotherbetter。
Thesunhaddippedbehindthemountainswhenthelittletrainsteameddownthevalley。Allweresubdued,andGreta,withanoddinghead,sleptfitfully。Christian,inhercorner,waslookingoutofthewindow,andHarzkeptstudyingherprofile。
Hetriedtoseehereyes。Hehadremarkedindeedthat,whatevertheirexpression,thebrows,archedandratherwideapart,gavethemapeculiarlookofunderstanding。Hethoughtofhispicture。Therewasnothinginherfacetoseizeon,itwastoosympathetic,toomuchlikelight。Yetherchinwasfirm,almostobstinate。
Thetrainstoppedwithajerk;shelookedroundathim。Itwasasthoughshehadsaid:"Youaremyfriend。"
AtVillaRubein,HerrPaulhadkilledthefattedcalfforGreta’sFest。Whenthewholepartywereassembled,healoneremainedstanding;andwavinghisarmabovethecloth,cried:"Mydears!Yourhappiness!Therearegoodthingshere——Come!"Andwithaslylook,theairofaconjurerproducingrabbits,hewhippedthecoveroffthesouptureen:
"Soup—turtle,fat,greenfat!"Hesmackedhislips。
Noservantswereallowed,because,asGretasaidtoHarz:
"Itisthatwearetobegladthisevening。"
GenialityradiatedfromHerrPaul’scountenance,mellowasabowlofwine。Hetoastedeverybody,exhortingthemtopleasure。
HarzpassedacrackersecretlybehindGreta’shead,andMissNaylor,movedbyamysteriousimpulse,pulleditwithasortofgleefulhorror;itexploded,andGretasprangoffherchair。Scruff,seeingthis,appearedsuddenlyonthesideboardwithhisforelegsinaplateofsoup;withoutmovingthem,heturnedhishead,andappearedtoaccusethecompanyofhisfalseposition。Itwasthesignalforshrieksoflaughter。Scruffmadenoattempttofreehisforelegs;
butsniffedthesoup,andfindingthatnothinghappened,begantolapit。
"Takehimout!Oh!takehimout!"wailedGreta,"heshallbeill!"
"Allons!Moncher!"criedHerrPaul,"c’estmagnifique,mais,voussavez,cenestguerelaguerre!"Scruff,withawildspring,leapedpasthimtotheground。
"Ah!"criedMissNaylor,"thecarpet!"Freshmoansofmirthshookthetable;forhavingtastedthewineoflaughter,allwantedasmuchmoreastheycouldget。WhenScruffandhistraceswereeffaced,HerrPaultookaladleinhishand。
"Ihaveatoast,"hesaid,wavingitforsilence;"atoastwewilldrinkalltogetherfromourhearts;thetoastofmylittledaughter,whoto—dayhasthirteenyearsbecome;andthereisalsoinourhearts,"hecontinued,puttingdowntheladleandsuddenlybecominggrave,"thethoughtofonewhoisnottodaywithustoseethisjoyfuloccasion;toher,too,inthisourhappinessweturnourheartsandglassesbecauseitisherjoythatweshouldyetbejoyful。Idrinktomylittledaughter;mayGodhershadowbless!"
Allstoodup,clinkingtheirglasses,anddrank:then,inthehushthatfollowed,Greta,accordingtocustom,begantosingaGermancarol;attheendofthefourthlineshestopped,abashed。
HeirPaulblewhisnoseloudly,and,takingupacapthathadfallenfromacracker,putiton。
Everyonefollowedhisexample,MissNaylorattainingthedistinctionofapairofdonkey’sears,whichshewore,afteranotherglassofwine,withanairofsacrificingtothepublicgood。
Attheendofsuppercamethemomentfortheofferingofgifts。HerrPaulhadtiedahandkerchiefoverGreta’seyes,andonebyonetheybroughtherpresents。Greta,underforfeitofakiss,wasboundtotellthegiverbythefeelofthegift。Herswift,supplelittlehandsexplorednoiselessly;andineverycasesheguessedright。
Dawney’spresent,akitten,madeascenebyclawingatherhair。
"ThatisDr。Edmund’s,"shecriedatonce。ChristiansawthatHarzhaddisappeared,butsuddenlyhecamebackbreathless,andtookhisplaceattheendoftherankofgivers。
Advancingontiptoe,heputhispresentintoGreta’shands。ItwasasmallbronzecopyofaDonatellostatue。
"Oh,HerrHarz!"criedGreta;"Isawitinthestudiothatday。Itstoodonthetable,anditislovely。"
Mrs。Decie,thrustingherpaleeyesclosetoit,murmured:
"Charming!"
Mr。Treffrytookitinhisforgers。
"Rumlittletoad!Costapotofmoney,Iexpect!"HeeyedHarzdoubtfully。
Theywentintothenextroomnow,andHerrPaul,takingGreta’sbandage,transferredittohisowneyes。
"Takecare——takecare,all!"hecried;"Iamadevilofacatcher,"
and,feelingtheaircautiously,hemovedforwardlikeabearabouttohug。Hecaughtnoone。ChristianandGretawhiskedunderhisarmsandlefthimgraspingattheair。Mrs。Decieslippedpastwithastonishingagility。Mr。Treffry,smokinghiscigar,andbarricadedinacorner,jeered:"Bravo,Paul!Theactivebeggar!Can’therun!
Goit,Greta!"
AtlastHerrPaulcaughtCousinTeresa,who,fattenedagainstthewall,lostherhead,andstoodutteringtinyshrieks。
SuddenlyMrs。DeciestartedplayingTheBlueDanube。HerrPauldroppedthehandkerchief,twistedhismoustacheupfiercely,glaredroundtheroom,andseizingGretabythewaist,begandancingfuriously,bobbingupanddownlikeacorkinlumpywater。CousinTeresafollowedsuitwithMissNaylor,bothverysolemn,anddancingquitedifferentsteps。Harz,wentuptoChristian。
"Ican’tdance,"hesaid,"thatis,Ihaveonlydancedonce,but——ifyouwouldtrywithme!"
Sheputherhandonhisarm,andtheybegan。Shedanced,lightasafeather,eyesshining,feetflying,herbodybentalittleforward。
Itwasnotagreatsuccessatfirst,butassoonasthetimehadgotintoHarz’sfeet,theywentswingingonwhenalltheresthadstopped。Sometimesonecoupleoranotherslippedthroughthewindowtodanceontheveranda,andcamewhirlinginagain。Thelamplightglowedonthegirls’whitedresses;onHerrPaul’sperspiringface。
Heconstitutedinhimselfaperfectorgy,andwhenthemusicstoppedflunghimself,fulllength,onthesofagaspingout:
"MyGod!But,myGod!"
SuddenlyChristianfeltHarzclingtoherarm。
Glowingandpantingshelookedathim。
"Giddy!"hemurmured:"Idancesobadly;butI’llsoonlearn。"
Gretaclappedherhands:"Everyeveningwewilldance,everyeveningwewilldance。"
HarzlookedatChristian;thecolourhaddeepenedinherface。
"I’llshowyouhowtheydanceinmyvillage,feetupontheceiling!"
AndrunningtoDawney,hesaid:
"Holdmehere!Liftme——so!Now,on——two,"hetriedtoswinghisfeetabovehishead,but,withan"Ouch!"fromDawney,theycollapsed,andsatabruptlyonthefloor。Thisuntimelyeventbroughttheeveningtoanend。Dawneyleft,escortingCousinTeresa,andHarzstrodehomehummingTheBlueDanube,stillfeelingChristian’swaistagainsthisarm。
Intheirroomthetwogirlssatlongatthewindowtocoolthemselvesbeforeundressing。
"Ah!"sighedGreta,"thisisthehappiestbirthdayIhavehad。"
Cristiantoothought:’IhaveneverbeensohappyinmylifeasI
havebeento—day。Ishouldlikeeverydaytobelikethis!’Andsheleantoutintothenight,tolettheaircoolhercheeks。
"Chris!"saidGretasomedaysafterthis,"MissNaylordancedlastevening;Ithinksheshallhaveaheadacheto—day。ThereismyFrenchandmyhistorythismorning。"
"Well,Icantakethem。"
"Thatisnice;thenwecantalk。Iamsorryabouttheheadache。I
shallgivehersomeofmyEaudeCologne。"
MissNaylor’sheadachesafterdancingwerethingsonwhichtocalculate。Thegirlscarriedtheirbooksintothearbour;itwasashoweryday,andtheyhadtorunforshelterthroughtheraindropsandsunlight。
"TheFrenchfirst,Chris!"GretalikedherFrench,inwhichshewasnotfarinferiortoChristian;thelessonthereforeproceededinanadmirablefashion。Afteronehourexactlybyherwatch(Mr。Treffry’sbirthdaypresentlovedandadmiredatleastonceeveryhour)Gretarose。
"Chris,Ihavenotfedmyrabbits。"
"Bequick!there’snotmuchtimeforhistory。"
Gretavanished。Christianwatchedthebrightwaterdrippingfromtheroof;herlipswerepartedinasmile。ShewasthinkingofsomethingHarzhadsaidthenightbefore。Adiscussionhavingbeenstartedastowhetheraverageopiniondid,ordidnot,safeguardSociety,Harz,aftersittingsilent,hadburstout:"Ithinkonemaninearnestisbetterthantwentyhalf—heartedmenwhofollowtamely;intheendhedoesSocietymostgood。"
Dawneyhadanswered:"IfyouhadyourwaytherewouldbenoSociety。"
"IhateSocietybecauseitlivesupontheweak。"
"Bah!"HerrPaulchimedin;"theweakgoestothewall;thatisascertainasthatyouandIarehere。"
"Letthemfallagainstthewall,"criedHarz;"don’tpushthemthere……"
Gretareappeared,walkingpensivelyintherain。
"Bino,"shesaid,sighing,"haseatentoomuch。Iremembernow,I
didfeedthembefore。Mustwedothehistory,Chris?"
"Ofcourse!"
Gretaopenedherbook,andputafingerinthepage。"HerrHarzisverykindtome,"shesaid。"Yesterdayhebroughtabirdwhichhad。
comeintohisstudiowithahurtwing;hebroughtitverygentlyinhishandkerchief——heisverykind,thebirdwasnotevenfrightenedofhim。Youdidnotknowaboutthat,Chris?"
Chrisflushedalittle,andsaidinahurtvoice"Idon’tseewhatithasto——dowithme。"
"No,"assentedGreta。
Christian’scolourdeepened。"Goonwithyourhistory,Greta。"
"Only,"pursuedGreta,"thathealwaystellsyouallaboutthings,Chris。"
"Hedoesn’t!Howcanyousaythat!"
"Ithinkhedoes,anditisbecauseyoudonotmakehimangry。Itisveryeasytomakehimangry;youhaveonlytothinkdifferently,andheshallbeangryatonce。"
"Youarealittlecat!"saidChristian;"itisn’ttrue,atall。Hehatesshams,andcan’tbearmeanness;anditismeantocoverupdislikesandpretendthatyouagreewithpeople。"
"Papasaysthathethinkstoomuchabouthimself。"
"Father!"beganChristianhotly;bitingherlipsshestopped,andturnedherwrathfuleyesonGreta。
"Youdonotalwaysshowyourdislikes,Chris。"
"I?Whathasthattodowithit?Becauseoneisacowardthatdoesn’tmakeitanybetter,doesit?"
"Ithinkthathehasagreatmanydislikes,"murmuredGreta。
"Iwishyouwouldattendtoyourownfaults,andnotpryintootherpeople’s,"andpushingthebookaside,Christiangazedinfrontofher。
Someminutespassed,thenGretaleaningover,rubbedacheekagainsthershoulder。
"Iamverysorry,Chris——Ionlywantedtobetalking。ShallIreadsomehistory?"
"Yes,"saidChristiancoldly。
"Areyouangrywithme,Chris?"
Therewasnoanswer。Thelingeringraindropspattereddownontheroof。Gretapulledathersister’ssleeve。
"Look,Chris!"shesaid。"ThereisHerrHarz!"
Christianlookedup,droppedhereyesagain,andsaid:"Willyougoonwiththehistory,Greta?"
Gretasighed。
"Yes,Iwill——but,oh!Chris,thereistheluncheongong!"andshemeeklyclosedthebook。
Duringthefollowingweekstherewasa"sitting"nearlyeveryafternoon。MissNaylorusuallyattendedthem;thelittleladywas,toacertainextent,carriedpastobjection。Shehadbeguntotakeaninterestinthepicture,andtowatchtheprocessoutofthecornerofhereye;inthedepthsofherdearmind,however,sheneverquitegotusedtothevanityandwasteoftime;herlipswouldmoveandherknitting—needlesclickinsuppressedremonstrances。
WhatHarzdidfasthedidbest;ifhehadleisurehe"sawtoomuch,"
lovinghisworksopassionatelythathecouldnevertellexactlywhentostop。Hehatedtolaythingsaside,alwaysthinking:"Icangetitbetter。"Gretawasfinished,butwithChristian,tryashewould,hewasnotsatisfied;fromdaytodayherfaceseemedtohimtochange,asifhersoulweregrowing。
Therewerethingstooinhereyesthathecouldneitherreadnorreproduce。
Dawneywouldoftenstrollouttothemafterhisdailyvisit,andlyingonthegrass,hisarmscrossedbehindhishead,andabigcigarbetweenhislips,wouldgentlybantereverybody。Teacameatfiveo’clock,andthenMrs。Decieappearedarmedwithamagazineornovel,forshewasproudofherliteraryknowledge。Thesittingwassuspended;Harz,withacigarette,wouldmovebetweenthetableandthepicture,drinkinghistea,puttingatouchinhereandthere;heneversatdowntillitwasalloverfortheday。Duringthese"rests"therewastalk,usuallyendingindiscussion。Mrs。Deciewashappiestinconversationsofaliteraryorder,makingfrequentuseofsuchexpressionsas:"Afterall,itproducesanillusion——doesanythingelsematter?""Ratheraposeur,ishenot?""Aquestion,that,oftemperament,"or"Amatterofthedefinitionofwords";andothercharminggeneralities,whichsoundwell,andseemtogofar,andarepleasinglyirrefutable。SometimesthediscussionturnedonArt——onpointsofcolourortechnique;whetherrealismwasquitejustified;andshouldwebepre—Raphaelites?Whenthesediscussionsstarted,Christian’seyeswouldgrowbiggerandclearer,withasortofshiningreasonableness;asthoughtheyweretryingtoseeintothedepths。AndHarzwouldstareatthem。Butthelookinthoseeyeseludedhim,asiftheyhadnomoremeaningthanMrs。Decie’s,which,withtheirpale,watchfulsmile,alwaysseemedsaying:"Come,letustakealittleintellectualexercise。"
Greta,pullingScruff’sears,wouldgazeupatthespeakers;whenthetalkwasover,shealwaysshookherself。Butifnoonecametothe"sittings,"therewouldsometimesbeveryearnest,quicktalk,sometimeslongsilences。
OnedayChristiansaid:"Whatisyourreligion?"
Harzfinishedthetouchhewasputtingonthecanvas,beforeheanswered:"RomanCatholic,Isuppose;IwasbaptisedinthatChurch。"
"Ididn’tmeanthat。Doyoubelieveinafuturelife?"
"Christian,"murmuredGreta,whowasplaitingbladesofgrass,"shallalwayswanttoknowwhatpeoplethinkaboutafuturelife;thatissofunny!"
"HowcanItell?"saidHarz;"I’veneverreallythoughtofit——neverhadthetime。"
"Howcanyouhelpthinking?"Christiansaid:"Ihaveto——itseemstomesoawfulthatwemightcometoanend。"
Sheclosedherbook,anditslippedoffherlap。Shewenton:"Theremustbeafuturelife,we’resoincomplete。What’sthegoodofyourwork,forinstance?What’stheuseofdevelopingifyouhavetostop?"
"Idon’tknow,"answeredHarz。"Idon’tmuchcare。AllIknowis,I’vegottowork。"
"Butwhy?"
"Forhappiness——therealhappinessisfighting——therestisnothing。
Ifyouhavefinishedathing,doesiteversatisfyyou?Youlookforwardtothenextthingatonce;towaitiswretched!"
Christianclaspedherhandsbehindherneck;sunlightflickeredthroughtheleavesontothebosomofherdress。
"Ah!Staylikethat!"criedHarz。
Shelethereyesrestonhisface,swingingherfootalittle。
"Youworkbecauseyoumust;butthat’snotenough。Whydoyoufeelyoumust?Iwanttoknowwhat’sbehind。WhenIwastravellingwithAuntConstancethewinterbeforelastweoftentalked——I’veheardherdiscussitwithherfriends。ShesayswemoveincirclestillwereachNirvana。ButlastwinterIfoundIcouldn’ttalktoher;itseemedasifsheneverreallymeantanything。ThenIstartedreading——KantandHegel——"
"Ah!"putinHarz,"iftheywouldteachmetodrawbetter,ortoseeanewcolourinaflower,oranexpressioninaface,Iwouldreadthemall。"
Christianleanedforward:"Itmustberighttogetasneartruthaspossible;everystepgainedissomething。Youbelieveintruth;
truthisthesameasbeauty——thatwaswhatyousaid——youtrytopaintthetruth,youalwaysseethebeauty。Buthowcanweknowtruth,unlessweknowwhatisattherootofit?"
"I——think,"murmuredGreta,sottovoce,"youseeoneway——andheseesanother——because——youarenotoneperson。"
"Ofcourse!"saidChristianimpatiently,"butwhy——"
Asoundofhumminginterruptedher。
NicholasTreffrywascomingfromthehouse,holdingtheTimesinonehand,andahugemeerschaumpipeintheother。
"Aha!"hesaidtoHarz:"howgoesthepicture?"andheloweredhimselfintoachair。
"Betterto—day,Uncle?"saidChristiansoftly。
Mr。Treffrygrowled。"Confoundedhumbugs,doctors!"hesaid。"Yourfatherusedtoswearbythem;why,hisdoctorkilledhim——madehimdrinksuchalotofstuff!"
"Whythendoyouhaveadoctor,UncleNic?"askedGreta。
Mr。Treffrylookedather;hiseyestwinkled。"Idon’tknow,mydear。Iftheygethalfachance,theywon’tletgoofyou!"
Therehadbeenagentlebreezeallday,butnowithaddiedaway;notaleafquivered,notabladeofgrasswasstirring;fromthehousewereheardfaintsoundsasofsomeoneplayingonapipe。A
blackbirdcamehoppingdownthepath。
"Whenyouwereaboy,didyougoafterbirds’nests,UncleNic?"
Gretawhispered。
"Ibelieveyou,Greta。"Theblackbirdhoppedintotheshrubbery。
"Youfrightenedhim,UncleNic!PapasaysthatatSchlossKonig,wherehelivedwhenhewasyoung,hewouldalwaysbeafterjackdaws’
nests。"
"Gammon,Greta。Yourfathernevertookajackdaw’snest,hislegsaremuchtooround!"
"Areyoufondofbirds,UncleNic?"
"Askmeanother,Greta!Well,Is’poseso。"
"Thenwhydidyougobird—nesting?Ithinkitiscruel"
Mr。Treffrycoughedbehindhispaper:"Thereyouhaveme,Greta,"heremarked。
Harzbegantogatherhisbrushes:"Thankyou,"hesaid,"that’sallI
candoto—day。"
"CanIlook?"Mr。Treffryinquired。
"Certainly!"
UncleNicgotupslowly,andstoodinfrontofthepicture。"Whenit’sforsale,"hesaidatlast,"I’llbuyit。"
Harzbowed;butforsomereasonhefeltannoyed,asifhehadbeenaskedtopartwithsomethingpersonal。
"Ithankyou,"hesaid。Agongsounded。
"You’llstayandhaveasnackwithus?"saidMr。Treffry;"thedoctor’sstopping。"Gatheringuphispaper,hemovedofftothehousewithhishandonGreta’sshoulder,theterrierrunninginfront。HarzandChristianwereleftalone。Hewasscrapinghispalette,andshewassittingwithherelbowsrestingonherknees;
betweenthem,agleamofsunlightdyedthepathgolden。Itwaseveningalready;thebushesandtheflowers,aftertheday’sheat,werebreathingoutperfume;thebirdshadstartedtheirevensong。
"Areyoutiredofsittingforyourportrait,FrauleinChristian?"
Christianshookherhead。
"Ishallgetsomethingintoitthateverybodydoesnotsee——somethingbehindthesurface,thatwilllast。"
Christiansaidslowly:"That’slikeachallenge。Youwererightwhenyousaidfightingishappiness——foryourself,butnotforme。I’macoward。Ihatetohurtpeople,Ilikethemtolikeme。Ifyouhadtodoanythingthatwouldmakethemhateyou,youwoulddoitallthesame,ifithelpedyourwork;that’sfine——it’swhatIcan’tdo。
It’s——it’severything。DoyoulikeUncleNic?"
Theyoungpainterlookedtowardsthehouse,whereundertheverandaoldNicholasTreffrywasstillinsight;asmilecameonhislips。