首页 >出版文学> Villa Rubein and Other Stories>第3章
  "Iwaslikethoseboysonce,"saidHarz。
  Christianturnedtohimquickly。"Ah!thatwaswhyyoufelttheplay,somuch。"
  "It’smycountryupthere。Iwasbornamongstthemountains。I
  lookedafterthecows,andsleptinhay—cocks,andcutthetreesinwinter。Theyusedtocallmea’blacksheep,’a’loafer’inmyvillage。"
  "Why?"
  "Ah!why?Iworkedashardasanyofthem。ButIwantedtogetaway。DoyouthinkIcouldhavestayedthereallmylife?"
  Christian’seyesgreweager。
  "Ifpeopledon’tunderstandwhatitisyouwanttodo,theyalwayscallyoualoafer!"mutteredHarz。
  "Butyoudidwhatyoumeanttodoinspiteofthem,"Christiansaid。
  Forherselfitwassohardtofinishordecide。WhenintheolddaysshetoldGretastories,thelatter,whoseinstinctwasalwaysforthedefinite,wouldsay:"Andwhatcameattheend,Chris?Dofinishitthismorning!"butChristiannevercould。Herthoughtsweredeep,vague,dreamy,invadedbybothsidesofeveryquestion。Whatevershedid,herneedlework,herverse—making,herpainting,allhaditscharm;butitwasnotalwayswhatitwasintendedforatthebeginning。NicholasTreffryhadoncesaidofher:"WhenChrisstartsouttomakeahat,itmayturnoutanaltar—cloth,butyoumaybetitwon’tbeahat。"Itwasherinstincttolookforwhatthingsmeant;
  andthistookmorethanallhertime。Sheknewherselfbetterthanmostgirlsofnineteen,butitwasherreasonthathadinformedher,notherfeelings。Inhershelteredlife,herhearthadneverbeenruffledexceptbyrarefitsofpassion——"tantrums"oldNicholasTreffrydubbedthem——atwhatseemedtohermeanorunjust。
  "IfIwereaman,"shesaid,"andgoingtobegreat,Ishouldhavewantedtobeginattheverybottomasyoudid。"
  "Yes,"saidHarzquickly,"oneshouldbeabletofeeleverything。"
  Shedidnotnoticehowsimplyheassumedthathewasgoingtobegreat。Hewenton,asmiletwistinghismouthunpleasantlybeneathitsdarkmoustache"Notmanypeoplethinklikeyou!It’sacrimenottohavebeenbornagentleman。"
  "That’sasneer,"saidChristian;"Ididn’tthinkyouwouldhavesneered!"
  "Itistrue。Whatistheuseofpretendingthatitisn’t?"
  "Itmaybetrue,butitisfinernottosayit!"
  "ByHeavens!"saidHarz,strikingonehandintotheother,"ifmoretruthwerespokentherewouldnotbesomanyshams。"
  Christianlookeddownathimfromherseatonthestile。
  "Youarerightallthesame,FrauleinChristian,"headdedsuddenly;
  "that’saverylittlebusiness。Workiswhatmatters,andtryingtoseethebeautyintheworld。"
  Christian’sfacechanged。Sheunderstood,wellenough,thiscravingafterbeauty。Slippingdownfromthestile,shedrewaslowdeepbreath。
  "Yes!"shesaid。Neitherspokeforsometime,thenHarzsaidshyly:
  "IfyouandFrauleinGretawouldeverliketocomeandseemystudio,Ishouldbesohappy。Iwouldtryandcleanitupforyou!"
  "Ishouldliketocome。Icouldlearnsomething。Iwanttolearn。"
  Theywerebothsilenttillthepathjoinedtheroad。
  "Wemustbeinfrontoftheothers;it’snicetobeinfront——let’sdawdle。Iforgot——youneverdawdle,HerrHarz。"
  "Afterabigfitofwork,Icandawdleagainstanyone;thenIgetanotherfitofwork——it’slikeappetite。"
  "I’malwaysdawdling,"answeredChristian。
  Bytheroadsideapeasantwomanscreweduphersun—driedface,sayinginalowvoice:"Please,graciouslady,helpmetoliftthisbasket!"
  Christianstooped,butbeforeshecouldraiseit,Harzhoistedituponhisback。
  "Allright,"henodded;"thisgoodladydoesn’tmind。"
  Thewoman,lookingverymuchashamed,walkedalongbyChristian;shekeptrubbingherbrownhandstogether,andsaying;"Graciouslady,I
  wouldnothavewished。Itisheavy,butIwouldnothavewished。"
  "I’msurehe’drathercarryit,"saidChristian。
  Theyhadnotgonefaralongtheroad,however,beforetheotherspassedtheminacarriage,andatthestrangesightMissNaylorcouldbeseenpursingherlips;CousinTeresanoddingpleasantly;asmileonDawney’sface;andbesidehimGreta,verydemure。Harzbegantolaugh。
  "Whatareyoulaughingat?"askedChristian。
  "YouEnglisharesofunny。Youmustn’tdothishere,youmustn’tdothatthere,it’slikesittinginafieldofnettles。IfIweretowalkwithyouwithoutmycoat,thatlittleladywouldfalloffherseat。"HislaughinfectedChristian;theyreachedthestationfeelingthattheykneweachotherbetter。
  Thesunhaddippedbehindthemountainswhenthelittletrainsteameddownthevalley。Allweresubdued,andGreta,withanoddinghead,sleptfitfully。Christian,inhercorner,waslookingoutofthewindow,andHarzkeptstudyingherprofile。
  Hetriedtoseehereyes。Hehadremarkedindeedthat,whatevertheirexpression,thebrows,archedandratherwideapart,gavethemapeculiarlookofunderstanding。Hethoughtofhispicture。Therewasnothinginherfacetoseizeon,itwastoosympathetic,toomuchlikelight。Yetherchinwasfirm,almostobstinate。
  Thetrainstoppedwithajerk;shelookedroundathim。Itwasasthoughshehadsaid:"Youaremyfriend。"
  AtVillaRubein,HerrPaulhadkilledthefattedcalfforGreta’sFest。Whenthewholepartywereassembled,healoneremainedstanding;andwavinghisarmabovethecloth,cried:"Mydears!Yourhappiness!Therearegoodthingshere——Come!"Andwithaslylook,theairofaconjurerproducingrabbits,hewhippedthecoveroffthesouptureen:
  "Soup—turtle,fat,greenfat!"Hesmackedhislips。
  Noservantswereallowed,because,asGretasaidtoHarz:
  "Itisthatwearetobegladthisevening。"
  GenialityradiatedfromHerrPaul’scountenance,mellowasabowlofwine。Hetoastedeverybody,exhortingthemtopleasure。
  HarzpassedacrackersecretlybehindGreta’shead,andMissNaylor,movedbyamysteriousimpulse,pulleditwithasortofgleefulhorror;itexploded,andGretasprangoffherchair。Scruff,seeingthis,appearedsuddenlyonthesideboardwithhisforelegsinaplateofsoup;withoutmovingthem,heturnedhishead,andappearedtoaccusethecompanyofhisfalseposition。Itwasthesignalforshrieksoflaughter。Scruffmadenoattempttofreehisforelegs;
  butsniffedthesoup,andfindingthatnothinghappened,begantolapit。
  "Takehimout!Oh!takehimout!"wailedGreta,"heshallbeill!"
  "Allons!Moncher!"criedHerrPaul,"c’estmagnifique,mais,voussavez,cenestguerelaguerre!"Scruff,withawildspring,leapedpasthimtotheground。
  "Ah!"criedMissNaylor,"thecarpet!"Freshmoansofmirthshookthetable;forhavingtastedthewineoflaughter,allwantedasmuchmoreastheycouldget。WhenScruffandhistraceswereeffaced,HerrPaultookaladleinhishand。
  "Ihaveatoast,"hesaid,wavingitforsilence;"atoastwewilldrinkalltogetherfromourhearts;thetoastofmylittledaughter,whoto—dayhasthirteenyearsbecome;andthereisalsoinourhearts,"hecontinued,puttingdowntheladleandsuddenlybecominggrave,"thethoughtofonewhoisnottodaywithustoseethisjoyfuloccasion;toher,too,inthisourhappinessweturnourheartsandglassesbecauseitisherjoythatweshouldyetbejoyful。Idrinktomylittledaughter;mayGodhershadowbless!"
  Allstoodup,clinkingtheirglasses,anddrank:then,inthehushthatfollowed,Greta,accordingtocustom,begantosingaGermancarol;attheendofthefourthlineshestopped,abashed。
  HeirPaulblewhisnoseloudly,and,takingupacapthathadfallenfromacracker,putiton。
  Everyonefollowedhisexample,MissNaylorattainingthedistinctionofapairofdonkey’sears,whichshewore,afteranotherglassofwine,withanairofsacrificingtothepublicgood。
  Attheendofsuppercamethemomentfortheofferingofgifts。HerrPaulhadtiedahandkerchiefoverGreta’seyes,andonebyonetheybroughtherpresents。Greta,underforfeitofakiss,wasboundtotellthegiverbythefeelofthegift。Herswift,supplelittlehandsexplorednoiselessly;andineverycasesheguessedright。
  Dawney’spresent,akitten,madeascenebyclawingatherhair。
  "ThatisDr。Edmund’s,"shecriedatonce。ChristiansawthatHarzhaddisappeared,butsuddenlyhecamebackbreathless,andtookhisplaceattheendoftherankofgivers。
  Advancingontiptoe,heputhispresentintoGreta’shands。ItwasasmallbronzecopyofaDonatellostatue。
  "Oh,HerrHarz!"criedGreta;"Isawitinthestudiothatday。Itstoodonthetable,anditislovely。"
  Mrs。Decie,thrustingherpaleeyesclosetoit,murmured:
  "Charming!"
  Mr。Treffrytookitinhisforgers。
  "Rumlittletoad!Costapotofmoney,Iexpect!"HeeyedHarzdoubtfully。
  Theywentintothenextroomnow,andHerrPaul,takingGreta’sbandage,transferredittohisowneyes。
  "Takecare——takecare,all!"hecried;"Iamadevilofacatcher,"
  and,feelingtheaircautiously,hemovedforwardlikeabearabouttohug。Hecaughtnoone。ChristianandGretawhiskedunderhisarmsandlefthimgraspingattheair。Mrs。Decieslippedpastwithastonishingagility。Mr。Treffry,smokinghiscigar,andbarricadedinacorner,jeered:"Bravo,Paul!Theactivebeggar!Can’therun!
  Goit,Greta!"
  AtlastHerrPaulcaughtCousinTeresa,who,fattenedagainstthewall,lostherhead,andstoodutteringtinyshrieks。
  SuddenlyMrs。DeciestartedplayingTheBlueDanube。HerrPauldroppedthehandkerchief,twistedhismoustacheupfiercely,glaredroundtheroom,andseizingGretabythewaist,begandancingfuriously,bobbingupanddownlikeacorkinlumpywater。CousinTeresafollowedsuitwithMissNaylor,bothverysolemn,anddancingquitedifferentsteps。Harz,wentuptoChristian。
  "Ican’tdance,"hesaid,"thatis,Ihaveonlydancedonce,but——ifyouwouldtrywithme!"
  Sheputherhandonhisarm,andtheybegan。Shedanced,lightasafeather,eyesshining,feetflying,herbodybentalittleforward。
  Itwasnotagreatsuccessatfirst,butassoonasthetimehadgotintoHarz’sfeet,theywentswingingonwhenalltheresthadstopped。Sometimesonecoupleoranotherslippedthroughthewindowtodanceontheveranda,andcamewhirlinginagain。Thelamplightglowedonthegirls’whitedresses;onHerrPaul’sperspiringface。
  Heconstitutedinhimselfaperfectorgy,andwhenthemusicstoppedflunghimself,fulllength,onthesofagaspingout:
  "MyGod!But,myGod!"
  SuddenlyChristianfeltHarzclingtoherarm。
  Glowingandpantingshelookedathim。
  "Giddy!"hemurmured:"Idancesobadly;butI’llsoonlearn。"
  Gretaclappedherhands:"Everyeveningwewilldance,everyeveningwewilldance。"
  HarzlookedatChristian;thecolourhaddeepenedinherface。
  "I’llshowyouhowtheydanceinmyvillage,feetupontheceiling!"
  AndrunningtoDawney,hesaid:
  "Holdmehere!Liftme——so!Now,on——two,"hetriedtoswinghisfeetabovehishead,but,withan"Ouch!"fromDawney,theycollapsed,andsatabruptlyonthefloor。Thisuntimelyeventbroughttheeveningtoanend。Dawneyleft,escortingCousinTeresa,andHarzstrodehomehummingTheBlueDanube,stillfeelingChristian’swaistagainsthisarm。
  Intheirroomthetwogirlssatlongatthewindowtocoolthemselvesbeforeundressing。
  "Ah!"sighedGreta,"thisisthehappiestbirthdayIhavehad。"
  Cristiantoothought:’IhaveneverbeensohappyinmylifeasI
  havebeento—day。Ishouldlikeeverydaytobelikethis!’Andsheleantoutintothenight,tolettheaircoolhercheeks。
  "Chris!"saidGretasomedaysafterthis,"MissNaylordancedlastevening;Ithinksheshallhaveaheadacheto—day。ThereismyFrenchandmyhistorythismorning。"
  "Well,Icantakethem。"
  "Thatisnice;thenwecantalk。Iamsorryabouttheheadache。I
  shallgivehersomeofmyEaudeCologne。"
  MissNaylor’sheadachesafterdancingwerethingsonwhichtocalculate。Thegirlscarriedtheirbooksintothearbour;itwasashoweryday,andtheyhadtorunforshelterthroughtheraindropsandsunlight。
  "TheFrenchfirst,Chris!"GretalikedherFrench,inwhichshewasnotfarinferiortoChristian;thelessonthereforeproceededinanadmirablefashion。Afteronehourexactlybyherwatch(Mr。Treffry’sbirthdaypresentlovedandadmiredatleastonceeveryhour)Gretarose。
  "Chris,Ihavenotfedmyrabbits。"
  "Bequick!there’snotmuchtimeforhistory。"
  Gretavanished。Christianwatchedthebrightwaterdrippingfromtheroof;herlipswerepartedinasmile。ShewasthinkingofsomethingHarzhadsaidthenightbefore。Adiscussionhavingbeenstartedastowhetheraverageopiniondid,ordidnot,safeguardSociety,Harz,aftersittingsilent,hadburstout:"Ithinkonemaninearnestisbetterthantwentyhalf—heartedmenwhofollowtamely;intheendhedoesSocietymostgood。"
  Dawneyhadanswered:"IfyouhadyourwaytherewouldbenoSociety。"
  "IhateSocietybecauseitlivesupontheweak。"
  "Bah!"HerrPaulchimedin;"theweakgoestothewall;thatisascertainasthatyouandIarehere。"
  "Letthemfallagainstthewall,"criedHarz;"don’tpushthemthere……"
  Gretareappeared,walkingpensivelyintherain。
  "Bino,"shesaid,sighing,"haseatentoomuch。Iremembernow,I
  didfeedthembefore。Mustwedothehistory,Chris?"
  "Ofcourse!"
  Gretaopenedherbook,andputafingerinthepage。"HerrHarzisverykindtome,"shesaid。"Yesterdayhebroughtabirdwhichhad。
  comeintohisstudiowithahurtwing;hebroughtitverygentlyinhishandkerchief——heisverykind,thebirdwasnotevenfrightenedofhim。Youdidnotknowaboutthat,Chris?"
  Chrisflushedalittle,andsaidinahurtvoice"Idon’tseewhatithasto——dowithme。"
  "No,"assentedGreta。
  Christian’scolourdeepened。"Goonwithyourhistory,Greta。"
  "Only,"pursuedGreta,"thathealwaystellsyouallaboutthings,Chris。"
  "Hedoesn’t!Howcanyousaythat!"
  "Ithinkhedoes,anditisbecauseyoudonotmakehimangry。Itisveryeasytomakehimangry;youhaveonlytothinkdifferently,andheshallbeangryatonce。"
  "Youarealittlecat!"saidChristian;"itisn’ttrue,atall。Hehatesshams,andcan’tbearmeanness;anditismeantocoverupdislikesandpretendthatyouagreewithpeople。"
  "Papasaysthathethinkstoomuchabouthimself。"
  "Father!"beganChristianhotly;bitingherlipsshestopped,andturnedherwrathfuleyesonGreta。
  "Youdonotalwaysshowyourdislikes,Chris。"
  "I?Whathasthattodowithit?Becauseoneisacowardthatdoesn’tmakeitanybetter,doesit?"
  "Ithinkthathehasagreatmanydislikes,"murmuredGreta。
  "Iwishyouwouldattendtoyourownfaults,andnotpryintootherpeople’s,"andpushingthebookaside,Christiangazedinfrontofher。
  Someminutespassed,thenGretaleaningover,rubbedacheekagainsthershoulder。
  "Iamverysorry,Chris——Ionlywantedtobetalking。ShallIreadsomehistory?"
  "Yes,"saidChristiancoldly。
  "Areyouangrywithme,Chris?"
  Therewasnoanswer。Thelingeringraindropspattereddownontheroof。Gretapulledathersister’ssleeve。
  "Look,Chris!"shesaid。"ThereisHerrHarz!"
  Christianlookedup,droppedhereyesagain,andsaid:"Willyougoonwiththehistory,Greta?"
  Gretasighed。
  "Yes,Iwill——but,oh!Chris,thereistheluncheongong!"andshemeeklyclosedthebook。
  Duringthefollowingweekstherewasa"sitting"nearlyeveryafternoon。MissNaylorusuallyattendedthem;thelittleladywas,toacertainextent,carriedpastobjection。Shehadbeguntotakeaninterestinthepicture,andtowatchtheprocessoutofthecornerofhereye;inthedepthsofherdearmind,however,sheneverquitegotusedtothevanityandwasteoftime;herlipswouldmoveandherknitting—needlesclickinsuppressedremonstrances。
  WhatHarzdidfasthedidbest;ifhehadleisurehe"sawtoomuch,"
  lovinghisworksopassionatelythathecouldnevertellexactlywhentostop。Hehatedtolaythingsaside,alwaysthinking:"Icangetitbetter。"Gretawasfinished,butwithChristian,tryashewould,hewasnotsatisfied;fromdaytodayherfaceseemedtohimtochange,asifhersoulweregrowing。
  Therewerethingstooinhereyesthathecouldneitherreadnorreproduce。
  Dawneywouldoftenstrollouttothemafterhisdailyvisit,andlyingonthegrass,hisarmscrossedbehindhishead,andabigcigarbetweenhislips,wouldgentlybantereverybody。Teacameatfiveo’clock,andthenMrs。Decieappearedarmedwithamagazineornovel,forshewasproudofherliteraryknowledge。Thesittingwassuspended;Harz,withacigarette,wouldmovebetweenthetableandthepicture,drinkinghistea,puttingatouchinhereandthere;heneversatdowntillitwasalloverfortheday。Duringthese"rests"therewastalk,usuallyendingindiscussion。Mrs。Deciewashappiestinconversationsofaliteraryorder,makingfrequentuseofsuchexpressionsas:"Afterall,itproducesanillusion——doesanythingelsematter?""Ratheraposeur,ishenot?""Aquestion,that,oftemperament,"or"Amatterofthedefinitionofwords";andothercharminggeneralities,whichsoundwell,andseemtogofar,andarepleasinglyirrefutable。SometimesthediscussionturnedonArt——onpointsofcolourortechnique;whetherrealismwasquitejustified;andshouldwebepre—Raphaelites?Whenthesediscussionsstarted,Christian’seyeswouldgrowbiggerandclearer,withasortofshiningreasonableness;asthoughtheyweretryingtoseeintothedepths。AndHarzwouldstareatthem。Butthelookinthoseeyeseludedhim,asiftheyhadnomoremeaningthanMrs。Decie’s,which,withtheirpale,watchfulsmile,alwaysseemedsaying:"Come,letustakealittleintellectualexercise。"
  Greta,pullingScruff’sears,wouldgazeupatthespeakers;whenthetalkwasover,shealwaysshookherself。Butifnoonecametothe"sittings,"therewouldsometimesbeveryearnest,quicktalk,sometimeslongsilences。
  OnedayChristiansaid:"Whatisyourreligion?"
  Harzfinishedthetouchhewasputtingonthecanvas,beforeheanswered:"RomanCatholic,Isuppose;IwasbaptisedinthatChurch。"
  "Ididn’tmeanthat。Doyoubelieveinafuturelife?"
  "Christian,"murmuredGreta,whowasplaitingbladesofgrass,"shallalwayswanttoknowwhatpeoplethinkaboutafuturelife;thatissofunny!"
  "HowcanItell?"saidHarz;"I’veneverreallythoughtofit——neverhadthetime。"
  "Howcanyouhelpthinking?"Christiansaid:"Ihaveto——itseemstomesoawfulthatwemightcometoanend。"
  Sheclosedherbook,anditslippedoffherlap。Shewenton:"Theremustbeafuturelife,we’resoincomplete。What’sthegoodofyourwork,forinstance?What’stheuseofdevelopingifyouhavetostop?"
  "Idon’tknow,"answeredHarz。"Idon’tmuchcare。AllIknowis,I’vegottowork。"
  "Butwhy?"
  "Forhappiness——therealhappinessisfighting——therestisnothing。
  Ifyouhavefinishedathing,doesiteversatisfyyou?Youlookforwardtothenextthingatonce;towaitiswretched!"
  Christianclaspedherhandsbehindherneck;sunlightflickeredthroughtheleavesontothebosomofherdress。
  "Ah!Staylikethat!"criedHarz。
  Shelethereyesrestonhisface,swingingherfootalittle。
  "Youworkbecauseyoumust;butthat’snotenough。Whydoyoufeelyoumust?Iwanttoknowwhat’sbehind。WhenIwastravellingwithAuntConstancethewinterbeforelastweoftentalked——I’veheardherdiscussitwithherfriends。ShesayswemoveincirclestillwereachNirvana。ButlastwinterIfoundIcouldn’ttalktoher;itseemedasifsheneverreallymeantanything。ThenIstartedreading——KantandHegel——"
  "Ah!"putinHarz,"iftheywouldteachmetodrawbetter,ortoseeanewcolourinaflower,oranexpressioninaface,Iwouldreadthemall。"
  Christianleanedforward:"Itmustberighttogetasneartruthaspossible;everystepgainedissomething。Youbelieveintruth;
  truthisthesameasbeauty——thatwaswhatyousaid——youtrytopaintthetruth,youalwaysseethebeauty。Buthowcanweknowtruth,unlessweknowwhatisattherootofit?"
  "I——think,"murmuredGreta,sottovoce,"youseeoneway——andheseesanother——because——youarenotoneperson。"
  "Ofcourse!"saidChristianimpatiently,"butwhy——"
  Asoundofhumminginterruptedher。
  NicholasTreffrywascomingfromthehouse,holdingtheTimesinonehand,andahugemeerschaumpipeintheother。
  "Aha!"hesaidtoHarz:"howgoesthepicture?"andheloweredhimselfintoachair。
  "Betterto—day,Uncle?"saidChristiansoftly。
  Mr。Treffrygrowled。"Confoundedhumbugs,doctors!"hesaid。"Yourfatherusedtoswearbythem;why,hisdoctorkilledhim——madehimdrinksuchalotofstuff!"
  "Whythendoyouhaveadoctor,UncleNic?"askedGreta。
  Mr。Treffrylookedather;hiseyestwinkled。"Idon’tknow,mydear。Iftheygethalfachance,theywon’tletgoofyou!"
  Therehadbeenagentlebreezeallday,butnowithaddiedaway;notaleafquivered,notabladeofgrasswasstirring;fromthehousewereheardfaintsoundsasofsomeoneplayingonapipe。A
  blackbirdcamehoppingdownthepath。
  "Whenyouwereaboy,didyougoafterbirds’nests,UncleNic?"
  Gretawhispered。
  "Ibelieveyou,Greta。"Theblackbirdhoppedintotheshrubbery。
  "Youfrightenedhim,UncleNic!PapasaysthatatSchlossKonig,wherehelivedwhenhewasyoung,hewouldalwaysbeafterjackdaws’
  nests。"
  "Gammon,Greta。Yourfathernevertookajackdaw’snest,hislegsaremuchtooround!"
  "Areyoufondofbirds,UncleNic?"
  "Askmeanother,Greta!Well,Is’poseso。"
  "Thenwhydidyougobird—nesting?Ithinkitiscruel"
  Mr。Treffrycoughedbehindhispaper:"Thereyouhaveme,Greta,"heremarked。
  Harzbegantogatherhisbrushes:"Thankyou,"hesaid,"that’sallI
  candoto—day。"
  "CanIlook?"Mr。Treffryinquired。
  "Certainly!"
  UncleNicgotupslowly,andstoodinfrontofthepicture。"Whenit’sforsale,"hesaidatlast,"I’llbuyit。"
  Harzbowed;butforsomereasonhefeltannoyed,asifhehadbeenaskedtopartwithsomethingpersonal。
  "Ithankyou,"hesaid。Agongsounded。
  "You’llstayandhaveasnackwithus?"saidMr。Treffry;"thedoctor’sstopping。"Gatheringuphispaper,hemovedofftothehousewithhishandonGreta’sshoulder,theterrierrunninginfront。HarzandChristianwereleftalone。Hewasscrapinghispalette,andshewassittingwithherelbowsrestingonherknees;
  betweenthem,agleamofsunlightdyedthepathgolden。Itwaseveningalready;thebushesandtheflowers,aftertheday’sheat,werebreathingoutperfume;thebirdshadstartedtheirevensong。
  "Areyoutiredofsittingforyourportrait,FrauleinChristian?"
  Christianshookherhead。
  "Ishallgetsomethingintoitthateverybodydoesnotsee——somethingbehindthesurface,thatwilllast。"
  Christiansaidslowly:"That’slikeachallenge。Youwererightwhenyousaidfightingishappiness——foryourself,butnotforme。I’macoward。Ihatetohurtpeople,Ilikethemtolikeme。Ifyouhadtodoanythingthatwouldmakethemhateyou,youwoulddoitallthesame,ifithelpedyourwork;that’sfine——it’swhatIcan’tdo。
  It’s——it’severything。DoyoulikeUncleNic?"
  Theyoungpainterlookedtowardsthehouse,whereundertheverandaoldNicholasTreffrywasstillinsight;asmilecameonhislips。