首页 >出版文学> Villa Rubein and Other Stories>第16章
  tryingtoconjureup,nodoubt,thatlong—agoimageofhisyoungbrideinherdress"thecolourofapigeon’sfeathers,"withherblueeyesandyellowhair,thelittlefrownbetweenherbrows,thefirmlyshutredlips,openingtospeakthewords,"Forbetter,forworse,forricher,forpoorer,insicknessandinhealth。"
  "Atthattime,sir,"hewentonsuddenly,"Iwasabitofadandy。I
  wore,Iremember,abluefrock—coat,withwhitetrousers,andagreytophat。EvennowIshouldalwaysprefertobewelldressed……
  "Wehadanexcellentlunch,anddrankVeuveClicquot,awinethatyoucannotgetinthesedays!Daltoncamewithustotherailwaystation。Ican’tbearpartings;andyet,theymustcome。
  "Thateveningwewalkedoutinthecoolundertheaspen—trees。WhatshouldIrememberinallmylifeifnotthatnight——theyoungbullockssnufflinginthegateways——thecampionflowersalllightedupalongthehedges——themoonwithahalo—bats,too,inandoutamongthestems,andtheshadowsofthecottagesasblackandsoftasthatseadownthere。Foralongtimewestoodontheriver—bankbeneathalime—tree。Thescentofthelimeflowers!Amancanonlyendureabouthalfhisjoy;abouthalfhissorrow。Lucyandherhusband,"hewenton,presently,"hisnamewasFrankTor——amanlikeanoldViking,whoatenothingbutmilk,bread,andfruit——wereverygoodtous!ItwaslikeParadiseinthatinn——thoughthecommissariat,Iamboundtosay,waslimited。Thesweetbriargrewroundourbedroomwindows;whenthebreezeblewtheleavesacrosstheopening——itwaslikeabathofperfume。Eiliegrewasbrownasagipsywhilewewerethere。Idon’tthinkanymancouldhavelovedhermorethanIdid。
  Butthereweretimeswhenmyheartstoodstill;itdidn’tseemasifsheunderstoodhowmuchIlovedher。Oneday,Iremember,shecoaxedmetotakehercamping。Wedrifteddown—streamalltheafternoon,andintheeveningpulledintothereedsunderthewillow—boughsandlitafireforhertocookby——though,asamatteroffact,ourprovisionswerecookedalready——butyouknowhowitis;alltheromancewasinhavingarealfire。’Wewon’tpretend,’shekeptsaying。Whilewewereeatingoursupperaharecametoourclearing—
  —abigfellow——howsurprisedhelooked!’Thetallhare,’Eiliecalledhim。Afterthatwesatbytheashesandwatchedtheshadows,tillatlastsheroamedawayfromme。Thetimewentveryslowly;I
  gotuptolookforher。Itwaspastsundown。Icalledandcalled。
  ItwasalongtimebeforeIfoundher——andshewaslikeawildthing,hotandflushed,herprettyfrocktorn,herhandsandfacescratched,herhairdown,likesomebeautifulcreatureofthewoods。Ifoneloves,alittlethingwillscareone。Ididn’tthinkshehadnoticedmyfright;butwhenwegotbacktotheboatshethrewherarmsroundmyneck,andsaid,’Iwon’teverleaveyouagain!’
  "OnceinthenightIwoke——awater—henwascrying,andinthemoonlightakingfisherflewacross。Thewonderontheriver——thewonderofthemoonandtrees,thesoftbrightmist,thestillness!Itwaslikeanotherworld,peaceful,enchanted,farholierthanours。
  Itseemedlikeavisionofthethoughtsthatcometoone——howseldom!
  andgoifonetriestograspthem。Magic——poetry—sacred!"Hewassilentaminute,thenwentoninawistfulvoice:"Ilookedather,sleepinglikeachild,withherhairloose,andherlipsapart,andI
  thought:’Goddosotome,ifeverIbringherpain!’HowwasItounderstandher?themysteryandinnocenceofhersoul!Theriverhashadallmylightandallmydarkness,thehappiestdays,andthehourswhenI’vedespaired;andIliketothinkofit,for,youknow,intimebittermemoriesfade,onlythegoodremain……Yetthegoodhavetheirownpain,adifferentkindofaching,forweshallnevergetthemback。Sir,"hesaid,turningtomewithafaintsmile,"it’snousecryingoverspiltmilk……IntheneighbourhoodofLucy’sinn,theRoseandMaybush——Canyouimagineaprettiername?I
  havebeenallovertheworld,andnowherefoundnamessoprettyasintheEnglishcountry。There,too,everybladeofgrass;andflower,hasakindofprideaboutit;knowsitwillbecaredfor;andalltheroads,trees,andcottages,seemtobecertainthattheywillliveforever……ButIwasgoingtotellyou:Halfamilefromtheinnwasaquietoldhousewhichweusedtocallthe’Convent’——thoughI
  believeitwasafarm。Wespentmanyafternoonsthere,trespassingintheorchard——Eiliewasfondoftrespassing;iftherewerealongwayroundacrosssomebodyelse’sproperty,shewouldalwaystakeit。
  Wespentourlastafternooninthatorchard,lyinginthelonggrass。
  IwasreadingChildeHaroldforthefirsttime——awonderful,amemorablepoem!Iwasatthatpassage——thebull—fight——youremember:
  "’Thricesoundstheclarion;lo!thesignalfalls,Thedinexpands,andexpectationmute’——
  whensuddenlyEiliesaid:’SupposeIweretoleaveofflovingyou?’
  Itwasasifsomeonehadstruckmeintheface。Ijumpedup,andtriedtotakeherinmyarms,butsheslippedaway;thensheturned,andbeganlaughingsoftly。Ilaughedtoo。Idon’tknowwhy……
  VI
  "WewentbacktoLondonthenextday;welivedquiteclosetotheschool,andaboutfivedaysaweekDaltoncametodinewithus。Hewouldhavecomeeveryday,ifhehadnotbeenthesortofmanwhorefusestoconsulthisownpleasure。Wehadmorepupilsthanever。
  InmyleisureItaughtmywifetofence。Ihaveneverseenanyonesolitheandquick;orsobeautifulasshelookedinherfencingdress,withembroideredshoes。
  "Iwascompletelyhappy。Whenamanhasobtainedhisdesirehebecomescarelessandself—satisfied;Iwaswatchful,however,forI
  knewthatIwasnaturallyaselfishman。Istudiedtoarrangemytimeandsavemymoney,togiveherasmuchpleasureasIcould。
  Whatshelovedbestintheworldjustthenwasriding。Iboughtahorseforher,andintheeveningsofthespringandsummerwerodetogether;butwhenitwastoodarktogooutlate,shewouldridealone,greatdistances,sometimesspendthewholedayinthesaddle,andcomebacksotiredshecouldhardlywalkupstairs——Ican’tsaythatIlikedthat。Itmademenervous,shewassoheadlong——butI
  didn’tthinkitrighttointerferewithher。Ihadagooddealofanxietyaboutmoney,forthoughIworkedhardandmademorethanever,thereneverseemedenough。Iwasanxioustosave——Ihoped,ofcourse——butwehadnochild,andthiswasatroubletome。Shegrewmorebeautifulthanever,andIthinkwashappy。Hasiteverstruckyouthateachoneofuslivesontheedgeofavolcano?Thereis,I
  imagine,noonewhohasnotsomeaffectionorinterestsostrongthathecountstherestfornothing,besideit。Nodoubtamanmaylivehislifethroughwithoutdiscoveringthat。Butsomeofus——!Iamnotcomplaining;whatis——is。"Hepulledthecaploweroverhiseyes,andclutchedhishandsfirmlyonthetopofhisstick。Hewaslikeamanwhorusheshishorseatsomehopelessfence,unwillingtogivehimselftime,forfearofcraningatthelastmoment。"Inthespringof’78,anewpupilcametome,ayoungmanoftwenty—onewhowasdestinedforthearmy。Itookafancytohim,anddidmybesttoturnhimintoagoodswordsman;buttherewasakindofperverserecklessnessinhim;forafewminutesonewouldmakeagreatimpression,thenhewouldgrowutterlycareless。’Francis,’Iwouldsay,’ifIwereyouIshouldbeashamed。’’Mr。Brune,’hewouldanswer,’whyshouldIbeashamed?Ididn’tmakemyself。’Godknows,Iwishtodohimjustice,hehadaheart——onedayhedroveupinacab,andbroughtinhispoordog,whohadbeenrunover,andwasdying:Forhalfanhourheshuthimselfupwithitsbody,wecouldhearhimsobbinglikeachild;hecameoutwithhiseyesallred,andcried:’Iknowwheretofindthebrutewhodroveoverhim,’andoffherushed。HehadbeautifulItalianeyes;aslightfigure,notverytall;darkhair,alittledarkmoustache;andhislipswerealwaysatrifleparted——itwasthat,andhiswalk,andthewayhedroopedhiseyelids,whichgavehimapeculiar,soft,proudlook。Iusedtotellhimthathe’dnevermakeasoldier!’Oh!’he’danswer,’that’llbeallrightwhenthetimecomes!Hebelievedinakindofluckthatwastodoeverythingforhim,whenthetimecame。OnedayhecameinasIwasgivingEilieherlesson。Thiswasthefirsttimetheysaweachother。Afterthathecamemoreoften,andsometimesstayedtodinnerwithus。Iwon’tdeny,sir,thatIwasgladtowelcomehim;I
  thoughtitgoodforEilie。Cantherebeanythingmoreodious,"heburstout,"thansuchaself—complacentblindness?Therearepeoplewhosay,’Poorman,hehadsuchfaith!’Faith,sir!Conceit!Iwasafool——inthisworldonepaysforfolly……
  "Thesummercame;andoneSaturdayinearlyJune,Eilie,I,andFrancis——Iwon’ttellyouhisothername——wentriding。Thenighthadbeenwet;therewasnodust,andpresentlythesuncameout——agloriousday!Werodealongway。Aboutseveno’clockwestartedback—slowly,foritwasstillhot,andtherewasallthecoolofnightbeforeus。Itwasnineo’clockwhenwecametoRichmondPark。
  Agrandplace,RichmondPark;andinthathalf—lightwonderful,thedeermovingsosoftly,youmighthavethoughttheywerespirits。Weweresilenttoo——greattreeshavethateffectonme……
  "Whocansaywhenchangescome?Likeashiftofthewind,theoldpasses,thenewisonyou。Iamtellingyounowofachangelikethat。Withoutasignofwarning,Eilieputherhorseintoagallop。
  ’Whatareyoudoing?’Ishouted。Shelookedbackwithasmile,thenhedashedpastmetoo。Ahornetmighthavestungthemboth:theygallopedoverfallentrees,underlowhangingbranches,uphillanddown。Ihadtowatchthatmadness!Myhorsewasnotsofast。I
  rodelikeademon;butfellfarbehind。Iamnotamanwhotakesthingsquietly。WhenIcameupwiththematlast,Icouldnotspeakforrage。Theywereridingsidebyside,thereinsonthehorses’
  necks,lookingineachother’sfaces。’Youshouldtakecare,’I
  said。’Care!’shecried;’lifeisnotalltakingcare!’Myangerleftme。Idroppedbehind,asgroomsridebehindtheirmistresses……
  Jealousy!Notortureissoceaselessorsoblack……Inthoseminutesahundredthingscameupinme——ahundredmemories,true,untrue,whatdoIknow?Mysoulwaspoisoned。Itriedtoreasonwithmyself。Itwasabsurdtothinksuchthings!Itwasunmanly……
  Evenifitweretrue,oneshouldtrytobeagentleman!ButIfoundmyselflaughing;yes,sir,laughingatthatword。"Hespokefaster,asifpouringhisheartoutnottoalivelistener,buttothenight。
  "Icouldnotsleepthatnight。Tolienearherwiththosethoughtsinmybrainwasimpossible!Imadeanexcuse,andsatupwithsomepapers。Thehardestthinginlifeistoseeathingcomingandbeabletodonothingtopreventit。WhatcouldIdo?Haveyounoticedhowpeoplemaybecomeutterstrangerswithoutaword?Itonlyneedsathought……Theverynextdayshesaid:’IwanttogotoLucy’s。’
  ’Alone?’’Yes。’Ihadmadeupmymindbythenthatshemustdojustasshewished。PerhapsIactedwrongly;Idonotknowwhatoneoughttodoinsuchacase;butbeforeshewentIsaidtoher:’Eilie,whatisit?’’Idon’tknow,’sheanswered;andIkissedher——thatwasall……Amonthpassed;Iwrotetohernearlyeveryday,andIhadshortlettersfromher,tellingmeverylittleofherself。Daltonwasatorturetome,forIcouldnottellhim;hehadaconvictionthatshewasgoingtobecomeamother。’Ah,Brune!’hesaid,’mypoorwifewasjustlikethat。’Life,sir,isasomewhatironicalaffair……!He——Ifindithardtospeakhisname——cametotheschooltwoorthreetimesaweek。IusedtothinkIsawachange,apurposegrowingupthroughhisrecklessness;thereseemedaviolenceinhimasifhechafedagainstmyblade。IhadakindofjoyinfeelingI
  hadthemastery,andcouldtosstheironoutofhishandanyminutelikeastraw。Iwasashamed,andyetIgloriedinit。Jealousyisalowthing,sir——alow,basething!Whenheaskedmewheremywifewas,Itoldhim;Iwastooproudtohideit。Soonafterthathecamenomoretotheschool。
  "Onemorning,whenIcouldbearitnolonger,Iwrote,andsaidIwascomingdown。Iwouldnotforcemyselfonher,butIaskedhertomeetmeintheorchardoftheoldhousewecalledtheConvent。I
  askedhertobethereatfouro’clock。Ithasalwaysbeenmy,beliefthatamanmustneitherbeganythingofawoman,norforceanythingfromher。Womenaregenerous——theywillgiveyouwhattheycan。I
  sealedmyletter,andposteditmyself。AllthewaydownIkeptonsayingtomyself,’Shemustcome——surelyshewillcome!’
  VII
  "Iwasinhighspirits,butthenextmomenttrembledlikeamanwithague。Ireachedtheorchardbeforemytime。Shewasnotthere。Youknowwhatitisliketowait?Istoodstillandlistened;IwenttothepointwhenceIcouldseefarthest;Isaidtomyself,’Awatchedpotneverboils;ifIdon’tlookforhershewillcome。’Iwalkedupanddownwithmyeyesontheground。Thesicknessofit!AhundredtimesItookoutmywatch……Perhapsitwasfast,perhapsherswasslow——Ican’ttellyouathousandthpartofmyhopesandfears。
  Therewasaspringofwater,inonecorner。Isatbesideit,andthoughtofthelasttimeIhadbeenthere——andsomethingseemedtoburstinme。Itwasfiveo’clockbeforeIlostallhope;therecomesatimewhenyou’regladthathopeisdead,itmeansrest。’That’sover,’yousay,’nowIcanact。’ButwhatwasItodo?Ilaydownwithmyfacetotheground;whenone’sintrouble,it’stheonlythingthathelps——somethingtopressagainstandclingtothatcan’tgiveway。Ilaytherefortwohours,knowingallthetimethatI
  shouldplaythecoward。Atseveno’clockIlefttheorchardandwenttowardstheinn;Ihadbrokenmyword,butIfelthappy……Ishouldseeher——and,sir,nothing——nothingseemedtomatterbesidethat。
  Torwasinthegardensnippingathisroses。Hecameup,andIcouldseethathecouldn’tlookmeintheface。’Where’smywife?’Isaid。
  Heanswered,’Let’sgetLucy。’Iranindoors。Lucymetmewithtwoletters;thefirst——myown——unopened;andthesecond,this:
  "’Ihaveleftyou。Youweregoodtome,butnow——itisnouse。
  EILIE。’"
  "Shetoldmethataboyhadbroughtaletterformywifethedaybefore,fromayounggentlemaninaboat。WhenLucydelivereditsheasked,’Whoishe,MissEilie?WhatwillMr。Brunesay?’Mywifelookedatherangrily,butgavehernoanswer——andallthatdaysheneverspoke。Intheeveningshewasgone,leavingthisnoteonthebed……Lucycriedasifherheartwouldbreak。Itookherbytheshouldersandputherfromtheroom;Icouldn’tbearthenoise。I
  satdownandtriedtothink。WhileIwassittingthereTorcameinwithaletter。Itwaswrittenonthenotepaperofaninntwelvemilesuptheriver:thesewerethewords。
  "’Eilieismine。Iamreadytomeetyouwhereyoulike。’"
  Hewentonwithapainfulevennessofspeech。"WhenIreadthosewords,Ihadonlyonethought——toreachthem;Irandowntotheriver,andchoseoutthelightestboat。JustasIwasstarting,Torcamerunning。’Youdroppedthisletter,sir,’besaid。’Twopairofarmsarebetterthanone。’Hecameintotheboat。ItookthescullsandIpulledoutintothestream。Ipulledlikeamadman;andthatgreatman,withhisbarearmscrossed,waslikeahuge,tawnybullsittingthereoppositeme。Presentlyhetookmyplace,andItooktherudderlines。Icouldseehischest,coveredwithhair,heavingupanddown,itgavemeasortofcomfort——itmeantthatweweregettingnearer。Thenitgrewdark,therewasnomoon,Icouldbarelyseethebank;there’ssomethinginthedarkwhichdrivesoneintooneself。Peopletellyoutherecomesamomentwhenyournatureisdecided——’saved’or’lost’astheycallit——forgoodorevil。Thatisnottrue,yourselfisalwayswithyou,andcannotbealtered;
  but,sir,Ibelievethatinatimeofagonyonefindsoutwhatarethethingsonecando,andwhatarethoseonecannot。Yougettoknowyourself,that’sall。Andsoitwaswithme。Everythoughtandmemoryandpassionwassoclearandstrong!Iwantedtokillhim。I
  wantedtokillmyself。Buther——no!Wearetaughtthatwepossessourwives,bodyandsoul,wearebroughtupinthatfaith,wearecommandedtobelieveit——butwhenIwasfacetofacewithit,thosewordshadnomeaning;thatbelief,thosecommands,theywerewithoutmeaningtome,theywere——vile。Ohyes,Iwantedtofindcomfortinthem,Iwantedtoholdontothem——butIcouldn’t。Youmayforceabody;howcanyouforceasoul?No,no——cowardly!ButIwantedto——
  Iwantedtokillhimandforcehertocomebacktome!Andthen,suddenly,IfeltasifIwerepressingrightonthemostsecretnerveofmyheart。Iseemedtoseeherface,whiteandquivering,asifI’dstampedmyheelonit。Theysaythisworldisruledbyforce;itmaybetrue——IknowIhaveaweakspotinme……Icouldn’tbearit。
  AtlastIJumpedtomyfeetandshoutedout,’Turntheboatround!’
  TorlookedupatmeasifIhadgonemad。AndIhadgonemad。I
  seizedtheboat—hookandthreatenedhim;Icalledhimfearfulnames。
  ’Sir,’hesaid,’Idon’ttakesuchnamesfromanyone!’’You’lltakethemfromme,’Ishouted;’turntheboatround,youidiot,youhound,youfish!……’Ihaveaterribletemper,aperfectcursetome。Heseemedamazed,evenfrightened;hesatdownagainsuddenlyandpulledtheboatround。Ifellontheseat,andhidmyface。Ibelievethemooncameup;theremusthavebeenamisttoo,forIwascoldasdeath。Inthislife,sir,wecannothideourfaces——butbydegreesthepainofwoundsgrowsless。Somewillhaveitthatsuchblowsaremortal;itisnotso。Timeismerciful。
  "IntheearlymorningIwentbacktoLondon。Ihadfeveronme——andwasdelirious。IdaresayIshouldhavekilledmyselfifIhadnotbeensousedtoweapons——theyandIweretoooldfriends,Isuppose——
  Ican’texplain。ItwasalongwhilebeforeIwasupandabout。
  Daltonnursedmethroughit;hisgreatheavymoustachehadgrownquitewhite。Wenevermentionedher;whatwasthegood?Therewerethingstosettleofcourse,thelawyer——thiswasunspeakablydistastefultome。Itoldhimitwastobeasshewished,butthefellowwouldcometome,withhis——there,Idon’twanttobeunkind。
  Iwishedhimtosayitwasmyfault,buthesaid——Irememberhissmilenow——hesaid,thatwasimpossible,wouldbeseenthrough,talkedofcollusion——Idon’tunderstandthesethings,andwhat’smore,Ican’tbearthem,theyare——dirty。
  "Twoyearslater,whenIhadcomebacktoLondon,aftertheRusso—
  Turkishwar,Ireceivedaletterfromher。Ihaveithere。"Hetookanold,yellowsheetofpaperoutofaleathernpocketbook,spreaditinhisfingers,andsatstaringatit。Forsomeminuteshedidnotspeak。
  "Intheautumnofthatsameyearshediedinchildbirth。Hehaddesertedher。Fortunatelyforhim,hewaskilledontheIndianfrontier,thatveryyear。Ifshehadlivedshewouldhavebeenthirty—twonextJune;notagreatage……IknowIamwhattheycallacrank;doctorswilltellyouthatyoucan’tbecuredofabadillness,andbethesamemanagain。Ifyouarebent,toforceyourselfstraightmustleaveyouweakinanotherplace。Imustandwillthinkwellofwomen——everythingdone,andeverythingsaidagainstthemisastoneonherdeadbody。Couldyousit,andlistentoit?"Asthoughdrivenbyhisownquestion,herose,andpacedupanddown。Hecamebacktotheseatatlast。
  "That,sir,isthereasonofmybehaviourthisafternoon,andagainthisevening。Youhavebeensokind,Iwanted!——wantedtotellyou。
  Shehadalittledaughter——Lucyhashernow。MyfriendDaltonisdead;therewouldhavebeennodifficultyaboutmoney,but,Iamsorrytosay,thathewasswindled——disgracefully。Itfelltometoadministerhisaffairs——heneverknewit,buthediedpenniless;hehadtrustedsomewretchedfellows——hadanideatheywouldmakehisfortune。AsIverysoonfound,theyhadruinedhim。ItwasimpossibletoletLucy——suchadearwoman——bearthatburden。Ihavetriedtomakeprovision;but,yousee,"hetookholdofmysleeve,"I,too,havenotbeenfortunate;infact,it’sdifficulttosaveagreatdealoutofL190ayear;butthecapitalisperfectlysafe——
  andIgetL47,10s。aquarter,paidonthenail。Ihaveoftenbeentemptedtoreinvestatagreaterrateofinterest,butI’veneverdared。Anyway,therearenodebts——I’vebeenobligedtomakearulenottobuywhatIcouldn’tpayforonthespot……NowIamreallyplaguingyou——butIwantedtotellyou——incase—anythingshouldhappentome。"Heseemedtotakeasuddenscare,stiffened,twistedhismoustache,andmuttering,"Yourgreatkindness!Shallneverforget!"turnedhurriedlyaway。
  Hevanished;hisfootsteps,andthetapofhisstickgrewfainterandfainter。Theydiedout。Hewasgone。SuddenlyIgotupandhastenedafterhim。Isoonstopped——whatwastheretosay?
  VIII
  ThefollowingdayIwasobligedtogotoNice,anddidnotreturntillmidnight。TheportertoldmethatJulesleFerrierhadbeentoseeme。Thenextmorning,whileIwasstillinbed,thedoorwasopened,andJulesappeared。Hisfacewasverypale;andthemomenthestoodstilldropsofperspirationbegancoursingdownhischeeks。
  "Georges!"hesaid,"heisdead。There,there!Howstupidyoulook!
  Mymanispacking。Ihavehalfanhourbeforethetrain;myevidenceshallcomefromItaly。Ihavedonemypart,therestisforyou。
  Whydidyouhavethatdinner?TheDonQuixote!Theidiot!Thepoorman!Don’tmove!Haveyouacigar?Listen!Whenyoufollowedhim,Ifollowedtheothertwo。Myinfernalcuriosity!Canyouconceiveagreaterfolly?Howfasttheywalked,thosetwo!feelingtheircheeks,asifhehadstruckthemboth,youknow;itwasfunny。Theysoonsawme,fortheireyeswereallroundabouttheirheads;theyhadthemarkofagloveontheircheeks。"Thecolourbegantocomeback,intoJules’sface;hegesticulatedwithhiscigarandbecamemoreandmoredramatic。"Theywaitedforme。’Tiens!’saidone,’thisgentlemanwaswithhim。Myfriend’snameisM。LeBaronde———。
  Themanwhostruckhimwasanodd—lookingperson;kindlyinformmewhetheritispossibleformyfriendtomeethim?’Eh!"commentedJules,"hewasoffensive!Wasitformetogiveourdignityaway?
  ’Perfectly,monsieur!’Ianswered。’Inthatcase,’hesaid,’pleasegivemehisnameandaddress……Icouldnotrememberhisname,andasfortheaddress,Ineverknewit……!Ireflected。’That,’Isaid,’Iamunabletodo,forspecialreasons。’’Aha!’hesaid,’reasonsthatwillpreventourfightinghim,Isuppose?’Onthecontrary,’I
  said。’Iwillconveyyourrequesttohim;ImaymentionthatIhaveheardheisthebestswordsmanandpistol—shotinEurope。Good—
  night!’Iwishedtogivethemsomethingtodreamof,youunderstand……Patience,mydear!Patience!Iwas,comingtoyou,butIthoughtIwouldletthemsleeponit——therewasplentyoftime!
  ButyesterdaymorningIcameintothePlace,andtherehewasonthebench,withabigdog。Ideclaretoyouheblushedlikeayounggirl。’Sir,’hesaid,’Iwashopingtomeetyou;lasteveningImadeagreatdisturbance。Itookanunpardonableliberty’——andheputinmyhandanenvelope。Myfriend,whatdoyousupposeitcontained——apairofgloves!SenorDonPunctilioso,hein?Hewasthedevil,thisfriendofyours;hefascinatedmewithhisgentleeyesandhiswhitemoustachettes,hishumility,hisflames——poorman……!ItoldhimI
  hadbeenaskedtotakehimachallenge。’Ifanythingcomesofit,’I
  said,’makeuseofme!’’Isthatso?’hesaid。’Iammostgratefulforyourkindoffer。Letmesee——itissolongsinceIfoughtaduel。Thesoonerit’soverthebetter。Couldyouarrangeto—morrowmorning?Weapons?Yes;letthemchoose。’Yousee,myfriend,therewasnohangingbackhere;nousvoilaentrain。"
  Julestookouthiswatch。"Ihavesixteenminutes。Itisluckyforyouthatyouwereawayyesterday,oryouwouldbeinmyshoesnow。I
  fixedtheplace,righthandoftheroadtoRoquebrune,justbytherailwaycutting,andthetime——five—thirtyofthemorning。ItwasarrangedthatIshouldcallforhim。Disgustinghour;IhavenotbeenupsoearlysinceIfoughtJacquesTirbautin’85。Atfiveo’clockIfoundhimreadyanddrinkingteawithruminit——singularman!hemademehavesometoo,brrr!Hewasshaved,anddressedinthatoldfrock—coat。Hisgreatdogjumpedintothecarriage,buthebadehergetout,tookherpawsonhisshoulders,andwhisperedinherearsomeItalianwords;acharm,hein!andbackshewent,thetailbetweenthelegs。Wedroveslowly,soasnottoshakehisarm。
  HewasmoregaythanI。Allthewayhetalkedtomeofyou:howkindyouwere!howgoodyouhadbeentohim!’Youdonotspeakofyourself!’Isaid。’Haveyounofriends,nothingtosay?Sometimesanaccidentwillhappen!’’Oh!’heanswered,’thereisnodanger;
  butifbyanychance——well,thereisaletterinmypocket。’’Andifyoushouldkillhim?’Isaid。’ButIshallnot,’heansweredslyly:
  ’doyouthinkIamgoingtofireathim?No,no;heistooyoung。’
  ’But,’Isaid,’I——’Iamnotgoingtostandthat!’’Yes,’hereplied,’Iowehimashot;butthereisnodanger——nottheleastdanger。’Wehadarrived;alreadytheywerethere。Ahbah!Youknowthepreliminaries,thepoliteness——thisduelling,youknow,itisabsurd,afterall。Weplacedthemattwentypaces。Itisnotabadplace。Therearepine—treesround,androcks;atthathouritwascoolandgreyasachurch。Ihandedhimthepistol。HowcanI
  describehimtoyou,standingthere,smoothingthebarrelwithhisfingers!’Whatabeautifulthingagoodpistol!’hesaid。’Onlyafooloramadmanthrowsawayhislife,’Isaid。’Certainly,’hereplied,’certainly;butthereisnodanger,’andheregardedme,raisinghismoustachette。
  "Theretheystoodthen,backtoback,withthemouthsoftheirpistolstothesky。’Un!’Icried,’deux!tirez!’Theyturned,I
  sawthesmokeofhisshotgostraightuplikeaprayer;hispistoldropped。Irantohim。Helookedsurprised,putouthishand,andfellintomyarms。Hewasdead。Thosefoolscamerunningup。’Whatisit?’criedone。Imadehimabow。’Asyousee,’Isaid;’youhavemadeaprettyshot。Myfriendfiredintheair。Messieurs,youhadbetterbreakfastinItaly。’Wecarriedhimtothecarriage,andcoveredhimwitharug;theothersdroveforthefrontier。Ibroughthimtohisroom。Hereishisletter。"Julesstopped;tearswererunningdownhisface。"Heisdead;Ihaveclosedhiseyes。Lookhere,youknow,weareallofuscads——itistherule;butthis——
  this,perhaps,wastheexception。"Andwithoutanotherwordherushedaway……
  Outsidetheoldfellow’slodgingadismountedcocherwasstandingdisconsolateinthesun。"HowwasItoknowtheyweregoingtofightaduel?"heburstoutonseeingme。"Hehadwhitehair——Icallyoutowitnesshehadwhitehair。Thisisbadforme:theywillravishmylicence。Aha!youwillsee——thisisbadforme!"Igavehimtheslipandfoundmywayupstairs。Theoldfellowwasalone,lyingonthebed,hisfeetcoveredwitharugasifhemightfeelcold;hiseyeswereclosed,butinthissleepofdeath,hestillhadthatairoffaintsurprise。Atfulllength,watchingthebedintently,Fredalay,asshelaynightlywhenhewasreallyasleep。Theshutterswerehalfopen;theroomstillsmeltslightlyofrum。Istoodforalongtimelookingattheface:thelittlewhitefansofmoustachebrushedupwardsevenindeath,thehollowsinhischeeks,thequietofhisfigure;hewaslikesomeoldknight……Thedogbrokethespell。
  Shesatup,andrestingherpawsonthebed,lickedhisface。Iwentdownstairs——Icouldn’tbeartohearherhowl。Thiswashislettertome,writteninapointedhandwriting:
  "MYDEARSIR,——Shouldyoureadthis,Ishallbegone。Iamashamedtotroubleyou——amanshouldsurelymanagesoasnottogivetrouble;