’Shouldwelive……justasweare,exactly,……supposingI
agreed?’shefaintlyinquired。
’Yes,thatismyidea。’
’Quiteprivately,yousay。Howcould——themarriagebequiteprivate?’
’IwouldgoawaytoLondonandgetalicense。Thenyoucouldcometome,andreturnagainimmediatelyaftertheceremony。Icouldreturnatleisureandnotasoulintheworldwouldknowwhathadtakenplace。Think,dearest,withwhatafreeconscienceyoucouldthenassistmeinmyeffortstoplumbthesedeepsaboveus!Anyfeelingthatyoumaynowhaveagainstclandestinemeetingsassuchwouldthenberemoved,andourheartswouldbeatrest。’
Therewasacertainscientificpracticabilityeveninhislove—
making,anditherecameoutexcellently。Butshesatonwithsuspendedbreath,herheartwildlybeating,whilehewaitedinopen—
mouthedexpectation。Eachwasswayedbytheemotionwithinthem,muchasthecandle—flamewasswayedbythetempestwithout。Itwasthemostcriticaleveningoftheirlives。
Thepaleraysofthelittlelanternfelluponherbeautifulface,snuglyandneatlyboundinbyherblackbonnet;butnotabeamofthelanternleakedoutintothenighttosuggesttoanywatchfuleyethathumanlifeatitshighestexcitementwasbeatingwithinthedarkandisolatedtower;forthedomehadnowindows,andeveryshutterthataffordedanopeningforthetelescopewashermeticallyclosed。Predilectionsandmisgivingssoequallystrovewithinherstillyouthfulbreastthatshecouldnotutteraword;herintentionwheeledthiswayandthatlikethebalanceofawatch。Hisunexpectedpropositionhadbroughtaboutthesmartestencounterofinclinationwithprudence,ofimpulsewithreserve,thatshehadeverknown。
Ofallthereasonsthatshehadexpectedhimtogiveforhisurgentrequesttoseeherthisevening,anofferofmarriagewasprobablythelast。Whetherornotshehadeveramusedherselfwithhypotheticalfanciesonsuchasubject,——anditwasonlynaturalthatsheshouldvaguelyhavedoneso,——thecourageinherprotegecoollytoadvanceit,withoutahintfromherselfthatsuchaproposalwouldbetolerated,showedherthattherewasmoreinhischaracterthanshehadreckonedon:andthediscoveryalmostfrightenedher。Thehumour,attitude,andtenorofherattachmenthadbeenofquiteanunpremeditatedquality,unsuggestiveofanysuchaudacioussolutiontotheirdistressesasthis。
’Irepeatmyquestion,dearest,’hesaid,afterherlongpause。
’Shallitbedone?OrshallIexilemyself,andstudyasbestI
can,insomedistantcountry,outofsightandsound?’
’Arethosetheonlyalternatives?Yes,yes;Isupposetheyare!’
Shewaitedyetanothermoment,bentoverhiskneelingfigure,andkissedhisforehead。’Yes;itshallbedone,’shewhispered。’I
willmarryyou。’
’Myangel,Iamcontent!’
Hedrewheryieldingformtohisheart,andherheadsankuponhisshoulder,ashepressedhistwolipscontinuouslyuponhers。Tosuchhadthestudyofcelestialphysicsbroughttheminthespaceofeightmonths,oneweek,andafewodddays。
’Iamweakerthanyou,——fartheweaker,’shewenton,hertearsfalling。’RatherthanloseyououtofmysightIwillmarrywithoutstipulationorcondition。But——Iputittoyourkindness——grantmeonelittlerequest。’
Heinstantlyassented。
’Itisthat,inconsiderationofmypeculiarpositioninthiscounty,——O,youcan’tunderstandit!——youwillnotputanendtotheabsolutesecrecyofourrelationshipwithoutmyfullassent。Also,thatyouwillnevercometoWellandHousewithoutfirstdiscussingwithmetheadvisabilityofthevisit,acceptingmyopiniononthepoint。There,seehowatimidwomantriestofenceherselfin!’
’Mydearlady—love,neitherofthosetwohigh—handedcoursesshouldIhavetaken,evenhadyounotstipulatedagainstthem。Theveryessenceofourmarriageplanisthatthosetwoconditionsarekept。
Iseeaswellasyoudo,evenmorethanyoudo,howimportantitisthatforthepresent,——ay,foralongtimehence——Ishouldstillbebutthecurate’slonelyson,unattachedtoanybodyoranything,withnoobjectofinterestbuthisscience;andyoutherecluseladyofthemanor,towhomheisonlyanacquaintance。’
’Seewhatdeceitslovesowsinhonestminds!’
’ItwouldbeahumiliationtoyouatpresentthatIcouldnotbearifamarriagebetweenusweremadepublic;aninconveniencewithoutanycompensatingadvantage。’
’Iamsogladyouassumeitwithoutmysettingitbeforeyou!NowI
knowyouarenotonlygoodandtrue,butpoliticandtrustworthy。’
’Well,then,hereisourcovenant。Myladyswearstomarryme;I,inreturnforsuchgreatcourtesy,swearnevertocompromiseherbyintrudingatWellandHouse,andtokeepthemarriageconcealedtillIhavewonapositionworthyofher。’
’OrtillIrequestittobemadeknown,’sheadded,possiblyforeseeingacontingencywhichhadnotoccurredtohim。
’Ortillyourequestit,’herepeated。
’Itisagreed,’murmuredLadyConstantine,XVI
Afterthisthereonlyremainedtobesettledbetweenthemthepracticaldetailsoftheproject。
Thesewerethatheshouldleavehomeinacoupleofdays,andtakelodgingseitherinthedistantcityofBathorinaconvenientsuburbofLondon,tillasufficienttimeshouldhaveelapsedtosatisfylegalrequirements;thatonafinemorningattheendofthistimesheshouldhieawaytothesameplace,andbemetatthestationbySt。Cleeve,armedwiththemarriagelicense;whencetheyshouldatonceproceedtothechurchfixeduponfortheceremony;
returninghomeindependentlyinthecourseofthenexttwoorthreedays。
Whilethesetacticswereunderdiscussionthetwo—and—thirtywindsofheavencontinued,asbefore,tobeataboutthetower,thoughtheironsetsappearedtobesomewhatlesseninginforce。Himselfnowcalmedandsatisfied,Swithin,asisthewontofhumanity,tookserenerviewsofNature’scrushingmechanicswithout,andsaid,’Thewinddoesn’tseemdisposedtoputthetragicperiodtoourhopesandfearsthatIspokeofinmymomentarydespair。’
’Thedispositionofthewindisasviciousasever,’sheanswered,lookingintohisfacewithpausingthoughtson,perhaps,othersubjectsthanthatdiscussed。’Itisyourmoodofviewingitthathaschanged。"Thereisnothingeithergoodorbad,butthinkingmakesitso。"’
And,asifflatlytostultifySwithin’sassumption,acircularhurricane,exceedinginviolenceanythathadprecededit,seizedholduponRings—HillSpeeratthatmomentwiththedeterminationofaconsciousagent。Thefirstsensationofaresultingcatastrophewasconveyedtotheirintelligencebytheflappingofthecandle—
flameagainstthelantern—glass;thenthewind,whichhithertotheyhadheardratherthanfelt,rubbedpastthemlikeafugitive。
Swithinbeheldaroundandabovehim,inplaceoftheconcavityofthedome,theopenheaven,withitsracingclouds,remotehorizon,andintermittentgleamofstars。Thedomethathadcoveredthetowerhadbeenwhirledoffbodily;andtheyhearditdescendcrashinguponthetrees。
FindinghimselfuntouchedSwithinstretchedouthisarmstowardsLadyConstantine,whoseapparelhadbeenseizedbythespinningair,nearlyliftingheroffherlegs。She,too,wasasyetunharmed。
Eachheldtheotherforamoment,when,fearingthatsomethingfurtherwouldhappen,theytookshelterinthestaircase。
’Dearest,whatanescape!’hesaid,stillholdingher。
’Whatistheaccident?’sheasked。’Hasthewholetopreallygone?’
’Thedomehasbeenblownofftheroof。’
Assoonasitwaspracticableherelittheextinguishedlantern,andtheyemergedagainupontheleads,wheretheextentofthedisasterbecameatonceapparent。Savingtheabsenceoftheenclosinghemisphereallremainedthesame。Thedome,beingconstructedofwood,waslightbycomparisonwiththerestofthestructure,andthewheelswhichallowedithorizontal,or,asSwithinexpressedit,azimuthmotion,denieditafirmholduponthewalls;sothatithadbeenliftedoffthemlikeacoverfromapot。Theequatorialstoodinthemidstasithadstoodbefore。
Havingexecuteditsgrotesquepurposethewindsanktocomparativemildness。Swithintookadvantageofthislullbycoveringuptheinstrumentswithcloths,afterwhichthebetrothedcouplepreparedtogodownstairs。
Buttheeventsofthenighthadnotyetfullydisclosedthemselves。
Atthismomenttherewasasoundoffootstepsandaknockingatthedoorbelow。
’Itcan’tbeforme!’saidLadyConstantine。’Iretiredtomyroombeforeleavingthehouse,andtoldthemonnoaccounttodisturbme。’
SheremainedatthetopwhileSwithinwentdownthespiral。InthegloomhebeheldHannah。
’OMasterSwithin,canyecomehome!Thewindhavebloweddownthechimleythatdon’tsmoke,andthepinning—endwithit;andtheoldancienthouse,thathavebeeninyourfamilysolongasthememoryofman,isnakedtotheworld!Itisamercythatyourgrammerwerenotkilled,sittingbythehearth,pooroldsoul,andsoontowalkwi’God,——for’a’sgettingwamblingonherpins,Mr。Swithin,asagedfolksdo。AsIsay,’awasallbutmurderedbytheelements,anddoingnomoreharmthanthebabesinthewood,norspeakingoneharmfulword。AndthefireandsmokewereblowedallacrosshouselikeachapterinRevelation;andyourpoorreverentfather’sfeaturesscorchedtoflakes,lookinglikethevilestruffian,andthegiltframespoiled!Everyflitch,everyeye—piece,andeverychineisburiedunderthewalling;andIfedthempigswithmyownhands,MasterSwithin,littlethinkingtheywouldcometothisend。
Doyecollectyourself,Mr。Swithin,andcomeatonce!’
’Iwill,——Iwill。I’llfollowyouinamoment。Doyouhastenbackagainandassist。’
WhenHannahhaddepartedtheyoungmanranuptoLadyConstantine,towhomheexplainedtheaccident。AftersympathizingwitholdMrs。
MartinLadyConstantineadded,’Ithoughtsomethingwouldoccurtomarourscheme!’
’Iamnotquitesureofthatyet。’
Onashortconsiderationwithhim,sheagreedtowaitatthetopofthetowertillhecouldcomebackandinformheriftheaccidentwerereallysoseriousastointerferewithhisplanfordeparture。
Hethenlefther,andthereshesatinthedark,alone,lookingovertheparapet,andstraininghereyesinthedirectionofthehomestead。
Atfirstallwasobscurity;butwhenhehadbeengoneabouttenminuteslightsbegantomovetoandfrointhehollowwherethehousestood,andshoutsoccasionallymingledwiththewind,whichretainedsomeviolenceyet,playingoverthetreesbeneathherasonthestringsofalyre。Butnotaboughofthemwasvisible,acloakofblacknesscoveringeverythingnetherward;whileoverheadthewindyskylookeddownwithastrangeanddisguisedface,thethreeorfourstarsthatalonewerevisiblebeingsodissociatedbycloudsthatsheknewnotwhichtheywere。UnderanyothercircumstancesLadyConstantinemighthavefeltanamelessfearinthussittingaloftonalonelycolumn,withaforestgroaningunderherfeet,andpalaeolithicdeadmenfeedingitsroots;buttherecentpassionatedecisionstirredherpulsestoanintensitybesidewhichtheordinarytremorsoffeminineexistenceassertedthemselvesinvain。
Theapocalypticeffectofthescenesurroundingherwas,indeed,notinharmonious,andaffordedanappropriatebackgroundtoherintentions。
Afterwhatseemedtoheraninterminablespaceoftime,quickstepsinthestaircasebecameaudibleabovetheroarofthefirs,andinafewinstantsSt。Cleeveagainstoodbesideher。
Thecaseofthehomesteadwasserious。Hannah’saccounthadnotbeenexaggeratedinsubstance:thegableendofthehousewasopentothegarden;thejoists,leftwithoutsupport,haddropped,andwiththemtheupperfloor。Bythehelpofsomelabourers,wholivednear,andLadyConstantine’smanAnthony,whowaspassingatthetime,thehomesteadhadbeenproppedup,andprotectedforthenightbysomerickcloths;butSwithinfeltthatitwouldbeselfishinthehighestdegreetoleavetwolonelyoldwomentothemselvesatthisjuncture。’Inshort,’heconcludeddespondently,’IcannotgotostayinBathorLondonjustnow;perhapsnotforanotherfortnight!’
’Nevermind,’shesaid。’Afortnighthencewilldoaswell。’
’AndIhavetheseforyou,’hecontinued。’YourmanGreenwaspassingmygrandmother’sonhiswaybackfromWarborne,wherehehadbeen,hesays,foranylettersthathadcomeforyoubytheeveningpost。AshestayedtoassisttheothermenItoldhimIwouldgoontoyourhousewiththelettershehadbrought。OfcourseIdidnottellhimIshouldseeyouhere。’
’Thankyou。Ofcoursenot。NowI’llreturnatonce。’
Indescendingthecolumnhereyefelluponthesuperscriptionofoneoftheletters,andsheopenedandglancedoveritbythelanternlight。Sheseemedstartled,and,musing,said,’Thepostponementofour——intentionmustbe,Ifear,foralongtime。IfindthataftertheendofthismonthIcannotleavehomesafely,evenforaday。’
Perceivingthathewasabouttoaskwhy,sheadded,’Iwillnottroubleyouwiththereasonnow;itwouldonlyharassyou。Itisonlyafamilybusiness,andcannotbehelped。’
’Thenwecannotbemarriedtill——Godknowswhen!’saidSwithinblankly。’Icannotleavehometillafterthenextweekortwo;youcannotleavehomeunlesswithinthattime。Sowhatarewetodo?’
’Idonotknow。’
’Mydear,dearone,don’tletusbebeatenlikethis!Don’tletawell—consideredplanbeoverthrownbyamereaccident!Here’saremedy。DoYOUgoandstaytherequisitetimeintheparishwearetobemarriedin,insteadofme。WhenmygrandmotherisagainwellhousedIcancometoyou,insteadofyoutome,aswefirstsaid。
Thenitcanbedonewithinthetime。’
Reluctantly,shyly,andyetwithacertaingladnessofheart,shegavewaytohisproposalthattheyshouldchangeplacesintheprogramme。Therewasmuchthatshedidnotlikeinit,shesaid。
Itseemedtoherasifsheweretakingtheinitiativebygoingandattendingtothepreliminaries。Itwastheman’sparttodothat,inheropinion,andwasusuallyundertakenbyhim。
’But,’arguedSwithin,’therearecasesinwhichthewomandoesgivethenotices,andsoon;thatistosay,whenthemanisabsolutelyhinderedfromdoingso;andoursissuchacase。Theseemingisnothing;Iknowthetruth,andwhatdoesitmatter?Youdonotrefuse——retractyourwordtobemywife,because,toavoidasickeningdelay,theformalitiesrequireyoutoattendtotheminplaceofme?’
Shedidnotrefuse,shesaid。Inshortsheagreedtohisentreaty。
Theyhad,intruth,gonesofarintheirdreamofunionthattherewasnodrawingbacknow。Whicheverofthemwasforcedbycircumstancestobetheprotagonistintheenterprise,thethingmustbedone。Theirintentiontobecomehusbandandwife,atfirsthaltingandtimorous,hadaccumulatedmomentumwiththelapseofhours,tillitnowboredowneveryobstacleinitscourse。
’Sinceyoubegmeto,——sincethereisnoalternativebetweenmygoingandalongpostponement,’shesaid,astheystoodinthedarkporchofWellandHousebeforeparting,——’sinceIamtogofirst,andseemtobethepioneerinthisadventure,promiseme,Swithin,promiseyourViviette,thatinyearstocome,whenperhapsyoumaynotlovemesowarmlyasyoudonow——’
’Thatwillneverbe。’
’Well,hopingitwillnot,butsupposingitshould,promisemethatyouwillneverreproachmeastheonewhotooktheinitiativewhenitshouldhavebeenyourself,forgettingthatitwasatyourrequest;promisethatyouwillneversayIshowedimmodestreadinesstodoso,oranythingwhichmayimplyyourobliviousnessofthefactthatIactinobediencetonecessityandyourearnestprayer。’
Needitbesaidthathepromisednevertoreproachherwiththatoranyotherthingaslongastheyshouldlive?Thefewdetailsofthereversedarrangementweresoonsettled,Bathbeingtheplacefinallydecidedon。Then,withawarmaudacitywhicheventshadencouraged,hepressedhertohisbreast,andshesilentlyenteredthehouse。
Hereturnedtothehomestead,theretoattendtotheunexpecteddutiesofrepairingthehavocwroughtbythegale。
Thatnight,inthesolitudeofherchamber,LadyConstantinereopenedandreadthesubjoinedletter——oneofthosehandedtoherbySt。Cleeve:——
"—————STREET,PICCADILLY,October15,18——。
’DEARVIVIETTE,——YouwillbesurprisedtolearnthatIaminEngland,andthatIamagainoutofharness——unlessyoushouldhaveseenthelatterinthepapers。RioJaneiromaydoformonkeys,butitwon’tdoforme。HavingresignedtheappointmentIhavereturnedhere,asapreliminarysteptofindinganotherventformyenergies;
inotherwords,anothermilchcowformysustenance。Iknewnothingwhateverofyourhusband’sdeathtilltwodaysago;sothatanyletterfromyouonthesubject,atthetimeitbecameknown,musthavemiscarried。Hypocrisyatsuchamomentisworsethanuseless,andIthereforedonotcondolewithyou,particularlyastheevent,thoughnewtoabanishedmanlikeme,occurredsolongsince。Youarebetterwithouthim,Viviette,andarenowjustthelimbfordoingsomethingforyourself,notwithstandingthethreadbarestateinwhichyouseemtohavebeencastupontheworld。Youarestillyoung,and,asIimagine(unlessyouhavevastlyalteredsinceI
beheldyou),good—looking:thereforemakeupyourmindtoretrieveyourpositionbyamatchwithoneofthelocalcelebrities;andyouwoulddowelltobegindrawingneighbouringcoversatonce。A
genialsquire,withmoreweightthanwit,morerealtythanweight,andmorepersonaltythanrealty(consideringthecircumstances),wouldbebestforyou。Youmightmakeapositionforusbothbysomesuchalliance;for,totellthetruth,Ihavehadbutin—and—
outlucksofar。Ishallbewithyouinlittlemorethanafortnight,whenwewilltalkoverthematterseriously,ifyoudon’tobject。——Youraffectionatebrother,LOUIS。’
Itwasthisallusiontoherbrother’scomingvisitwhichhadcaughthereyeinthetowerstaircase,andledtoamodificationintheweddingarrangement。
HavingreadtheletterthroughonceLadyConstantineflungitasidewithanimpatientlittlestampthatshookthedecayingoldfloorandcasement。Itscontentsproducedperturbation,misgiving,butnotretreat。Thedeepglowofenchantmentshedbytheideaofaprivateunionwithherbeautifulyoungloverkilledthepalelightofcoldreasoningfromanindifferentlygoodrelative。
’Oh,no,’shemurmured,asshesat,coveringherfacewithherhand。
’NotforwealthuntoldcouldIgivehimupnow!’
Noargument,shortofApolloinpersonfromtheclouds,wouldhaveinfluencedher。Shemadeherpreparationsfordepartureasifnothinghadintervened。
XVII
InherdaysofprosperityLadyConstantinehadoftengonetothecityofBath,eitherfrivolously,forshoppingpurposes,ormusico—
religiously,toattendchoirfestivalsintheabbey;sotherewasnothingsurprisinginherrevertingtoanoldpractice。Thatthejourneymightappeartobeofasomewhatsimilarnatureshetookwithhertheservantwhohadbeenaccustomedtoaccompanyheronformeroccasions,thoughthewoman,havingnowleftherservice,andsettledinthevillageasthewifeofAnthonyGreen,withayoungchildonherhands,couldwithsomedifficultyleavehome。LadyConstantineovercametheanxiousmother’sscruplesbyprovidingthatyoungGreenshouldbewellcaredfor;andknowingthatshecouldcountuponthiswoman’sfidelity,ifuponanybody’s,incaseofanaccident(foritwaschieflyLadyConstantine’sexertionsthathadmadeanhonestwifeofMrs。Green),shedepartedforafortnight’sabsence。
Thenextdayfoundmistressandmaidsettledinlodgingsinanoldplum—colouredbrickstreet,whichahundredyearsagocouldboastofrankandfashionamongitsresidents,thoughnowthebroadfan—lightovereachbroaddooradmittedthesuntothehallsofalodging—
housekeeperonly。Thelamp—postswerestillthosethathaddonedutywithoillights;andrheumaticoldcoachmenandpostilions,thatoncehaddrivenandriddengloriouslyfromLondontoLand’sEnd,ornamentedwiththeirbentpersonsandbowlegsthepavementinfrontofthechiefinn,inthesorryhopeofearningsixpencetokeepbodyandsoultogether。
’Wearekeptwellinformedonthetimeo’day,mylady,’saidMrs。
Green,asshepulleddowntheblindsinLadyConstantine’sroomontheeveningoftheirarrival。’There’sachurchexactlyatthebackofus,andIheareveryhourstrike。’
LadyConstantinesaidshehadnoticedthattherewasachurchquitenear。
’Well,itisbettertohavethatatthebackthanotherfolks’
winders。Andifyourladyshipwantstogothereitwon’tbefartowalk。’
’That’swhatoccurredtome,’saidLadyConstantine,’IFIshouldwanttogo。’
Duringtheensuingdaysshefelttotheutmostthetediousnessofwaitingmerelythattimemightpass。Notasoulknewherthere,andsheknewnotasoul,acircumstancewhich,whileitaddedtohersenseofsecrecy,intensifiedhersolitude。Occasionallyshewenttoashop,withGreenashercompanion。Thoughtherewerepurchasestobemade,theywerebynomeansofapressingnature,andbutpoorlyfilledupthevacanciesofthosestrange,speculativedays,——
dayssurroundedbyashadeoffear,yetpoetizedbysweetexpectation。
OnthethirteenthdayshetoldGreenthatshewasgoingtotakeawalk,andleavingthehouseshepassedbytheobscureststreetstotheAbbey。Afterwanderingaboutbeneaththeaislestillhercouragewasscrewedtoitshighest,shewentoutattheotherside,and,lookingtimidlyroundtoseeifanybodyfollowed,walkedontillshecametoacertaindoor,whichshereachedjustatthemomentwhenherheartbegantosinktoitsverylowest,renderingallthescrewingupinvain。
WhetheritwasbecausethemonthwasOctober,orfromanyotherreason,thedesertedaspectofthequarteringeneralsatespeciallyonthisbuilding。Moreoverthepavementwasup,andheapsofstoneandgravelobstructedthefootway。Nobodywascoming,nobodywasgoing,inthatthoroughfare;sheappearedtobethesingleoneofthehumanracebentuponmarriagebusiness,whichseemedtohavebeenunanimouslyabandonedbyalltherestoftheworldasprovenfolly。ButshethoughtofSwithin,hisblondehair,ardenteyes,andeloquentlips,andwascarriedonwardbytheveryreflection。
Enteringthesurrogate’sroomLadyConstantinemanaged,atthelastjuncture,tostatehererrandintonessocollectedastostartleevenherselftowhichherlistenerrepliedalsoasifthewholethingwerethemostnaturalintheworld。Whenitcametotheaffirmationthatshehadlivedfifteendaysintheparish,shesaidwithdismay——
’Ono!Ithoughtthefifteendaysmeanttheintervalofresidencebeforethemarriagetakesplace。Ihavelivedhereonlythirteendaysandahalf。NowImustcomeagain!’
’Ah——well——Ithinkyouneednotbesoparticular,’saidthesurrogate。’Asamatteroffact,thoughtheletterofthelawrequiresfifteendays’residence,manypeoplemakefivesufficient。
Theprovisionisinserted,asyoudoubtlessareaware,tohinderrunawaymarriagesasmuchaspossible,andsecretunions,andothersuchobjectionablepractices。Youneednotcomeagain。’
ThateveningLadyConstantinewrotetoSwithinSt。Cleevethelastletterofthefortnight:——
’MYDEAREST,——Docometomeassoonasyoucan。ByasortoffavouringblunderIhavebeenabletoshortenthetimeofwaitingbyaday。Comeatonce,forIamalmostbrokendownwithapprehension。
Itseemsratherrashatmoments,allthis,andIwishyouwereheretoreassureme。IdidnotknowIshouldfeelsoalarmed。Iamfrightenedateveryfootstep,anddreadlestanybodywhoknowsmeshouldaccostme,andfindoutwhyIamhere。IsometimeswonderhowIcouldhaveagreedtocomeandenactyourpart,butIdidnotrealizehowtryingitwouldbe。Yououghtnottohaveaskedme,Swithin;uponmyword,itwastoocruelofyou,andIwillpunishyouforitwhenyoucome!ButIwon’tupbraid。Ihopethehomesteadisrepairedthathascostmeallthissacrificeofmodesty。IfitwereanybodyintheworldbutYOUinquestionI
wouldrushhome,withoutwaitingherefortheendofit,——IreallythinkIwould!But,dearest,no。Imustshowmystrengthnow,orletitbeforeverhid。Thebarriersofceremonyarebrokendownbetweenus,anditisforthebestthatIamhere。’
Andyet,atnopointofthistryingpreludeneedLadyConstantinehavefearedforherstrength。Deedsinthisconnexiondemandtheparticularkindofcouragethatsuchperfervidwomenareendowedwith,thecourageoftheiremotions,inwhichyoungmenareoftenlamentablydeficient。Herfearwas,intruth,thefearofbeingdiscoveredinanunwontedposition;notoftheactitself。Andthoughherletterwasinitswayatrueexpositionofherfeeling,haditbeennecessarytogothroughthewholelegalprocessoveragainshewouldhavebeenfoundequaltotheemergency。
IthadbeenforsomedaysapointofanxietywithherwhattodowithGreenduringthemorningofthewedding。Chanceunexpectedlyhelpedherinthisdifficulty。ThedaybeforethepurchaseofthelicenseGreencametoLadyConstantinewithaletterinherhandfromherhusbandAnthony,herfaceaslongasafiddle。
’Ihopethere’snothingthematter?’saidLadyConstantine。
’Thechild’stookbad,mylady!’saidMrs。Green,withsuspendedfloodsofwaterinhereyes。’IlovethechildbetterthanIshallloveallthemthat’scomingputtogether;forhe’sbeenagoodboytohismothereversincetwelveweeksaforehewasborn!’Twashe,atenderdeary,thatmadeAnthonymarryme,andtherebyturnedhisselffromalittlecalamitytoalittleblessing!For,asyouknow,themanwereabackwardmaninthechurchparto’matrimony,mylady;thoughhe’lldoanythingwhenhe’sforcedabitbyhismanlyfeelings。Andnowtolosethechild——hoo—hoo—hoo!WhatshallIdoo!’
’Well,youwanttogohomeatonce,Isuppose?’
Mrs。Greenexplained,betweenhersobs,thatsuchwasherdesire;
andthoughthiswasadayortwosoonerthanhermistresshadwishedtobeleftalonesheconsentedtoGreen’sdeparture。Soduringtheafternoonherwomanwentoff,withdirectionstoprepareforLadyConstantine’sreturnintwoorthreedays。Butastheexactdayofherreturnwasuncertainnocarriagewastobesenttothestationtomeether,herintentionbeingtohireonefromthehotel。
LadyConstantinewasnowleftinuttersolitudetoawaitherlover’sarrival。
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AmorebeautifulOctobermorningthanthatofthenextdayneverbeamedintotheWellandvalleys。Theyearlydissolutionofleafagewassettinginapace。Thefoliageoftheparktreesrapidlyresolveditselfintothemultitudeofcomplexionswhichmarkthesubtlegradesofdecay,reflectingwetlightsofsuchinnumerablehuesthatitwasawondertothinktheirbeautiesonlyarepetitionofscenesthathadbeenexhibitedthereonscoresofpreviousOctobers,andhadbeenallowedtopassawaywithoutasingledirgefromtheimperturbablebeingswhowalkedamongthem。Farintheshadowssemi—opaquescreensofbluehazemademysteriesofthecommonestgravel—pit,dingle,orrecess。
ThewoodencabinatthefootofRings—HillSpeerhadbeenfurnishedbySwithinasasittingandsleepingapartment,somelittlewhilebeforethistime;forhehadfoundithighlyconvenient,duringnightobservationsatthetopofthecolumn,toremainonthespotallnight,nottodisturbhisgrandmotherbypassinginandoutofthehouse,andtosavehimselfthelabourofincessantlycrossingthefield。
Hewouldmuchhavelikedtotellherthesecret,and,haditbeenhisowntotell,wouldprobablyhavedoneso;butsharingitwithanobjectorwhoknewnothisgrandmother’saffectionsowellashedidhimself,therewasnoalternativetoholdinghistongue。Themoreeffectuallytoguardithedecidedtosleepatthecabinduringthetwoorthreenightsprevioustohisdeparture,leavingwordatthehomesteadthatinadayortwohewasgoingonanexcursion。
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