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第7章

  ’Itis——anawakening。Inthinkingoftheheavenabove,Ididnotperceive——the——’
  ’Earthbeneath?’
  ’Thebetterheavenbeneath。Pray,dearLadyConstantine,givemeyourhandforamoment。’
  Sheseemedstartled,andthehandwasnotgiven。
  ’Iamsoanxioustogethome,’sherepeated。’Ididnotmeantostayheremorethanfiveminutes!’
  ’IfearIammuchtoblameforthisaccident,’hesaid。’Ioughtnottohaveintrudedhere。Butdon’tgrieve!Iwillarrangeforyourescape,somehow。Begoodenoughtofollowmedown。’
  Theyredescended,and,whisperingtoLadyConstantinetoremainafewstairsbehind,hebegantorattleandunlockthedoor。
  Themenprecipitatelyremovedtheirbench,andSwithinsteppedout,thelightofthesummernightbeingstillenoughtoenablethemtodistinguishhim。
  ’Well,Hezekiah,andSamuel,andNat,howareyou?’hesaidboldly。
  ’Well,sir,’tismuchasbeforewi’me,’repliedNat。’Onehouraweekwi’GodA’mightyandtherestwiththedevil,asachapmaysay。Andreally,nowyerpoorfather’sgone,I’dasliefthatthatSundayhourshouldpassliketherest;forPa’sonTarkenhamdoteaseafeller’sconsciencethatmuch,thatchurchisnohollerdayatalltothelimbs,asitwasinyerreverentfather’stime!Butwe’vebeenwaitinghere,Mr。SanCleeve,supposingyehadnotcome。’
  ’Ihavebeenstayingatthetop,andfastenedthedoornottobedisturbed。NowIamsorrytodisappointyou,butIhaveanotherengagementthisevening,sothatitwouldbeinconvenienttoadmityou。To—morrowevening,oranyeveningbutthis,Iwillshowyouthecometandanystarsyoulike。’
  Theyreadilyagreedtocomethenextnight,andpreparedtodepart。
  Butwhatwiththeflagon,andthepipes,andthefinalobservations,gettingawaywasamatteroftime。Meanwhileacloud,whichnobodyhadnoticed,arosefromthenorthoverhead,andlargedropsofrainbegantofallsorapidlythattheconclaveenteredthehuttillitshouldbeover。St。Cleevestrolledoffunderthefirs。
  Thenextmomenttherewasarustlingthroughthetreesatanotherpoint,andamanandwomanappeared。Thewomantookshelterunderatree,andtheman,bearingwrapsandumbrellas,cameforward。
  ’Mylady’smanandmaid,’saidSammy。
  ’Isherladyshiphere?’askedtheman。
  ’No。Ireckonherladyshipkeepsmorekissablecompany,’repliedNatChapman。
  ’Packo’stuff!’saidBlore。
  ’Nothere?Well,tobesure!Wecan’tfindheranywhereinthewidehouse!I’vebeensenttolookforherwiththeseoverclothesandumbrella。I’vesufferedhorse—fleshtraipsingupanddown,andcan’tfindhernowhere。Lord,Lord,wherecanshebe,andtwomonths’wagesowingtome!’
  ’Whysoanxious,AnthonyGreen,asIthinkyernameisshaped?Youbenotamarriedman?’saidHezzy。
  ’’Tiswhattheycallme,neighbours,whetherorno。’
  ’Butsurelyyouwasabachelorchapbylate,aforeherladyshipgotridoftheregularservantsandtookye?’
  ’Iwere;butthat’spast!’
  ’Andhowcameyetobowyerheadto’t,Anthony?’Tiswhatyouneverwasinclinedto。Youwasbynomeansadotingmaninmytime。’
  ’Well,hadIbeenlefttomyownfreechoice,’tisaslikeasnotI
  shouldha’shunnedformingsuchkindred,beingatthattimeapoordayman,orweekly,atmyhighestluckinhiring。But’tiswearingworktoholdoutagainstthecustomofthecountry,andthewomanwantingyetostandbyherandsaveherfromunbornshame;so,sincecommonusagewouldhaveit,Iletmyselfbecarriedawaybyopinion,andtookher。Thoughshe’sneveroncethankedmeforcoveringherconfusion,that’strue!But,’tisthewayofthelostwhensafe,andIdon’tcomplain。Heresheis,justbehind,underthetree,ifyou’dliketoseeher?——averynicehomespunwomantolookat,too,forallherfewweather—stains……Well,well,wherecanmyladybe?AndIthetrustyjineralman——’tismorethanmyplaceisworthtoloseher!Comeforward,Christiana,andtalknicelytothework—
  folk。’
  Whilethewomanwastalkingtherainincreasedsomuchthattheyallretreatedfurtherintothehut。St。Cleeve,whohadimpatientlystoodalittlewayoff,nowsawhisopportunity,and,puttinginhishead,said,’Therainbeatsin;youhadbettershutthedoor。I
  mustascendandcloseupthedome。’
  SlammingthedooruponthemwithoutceremonyhequicklywenttoLadyConstantineinthecolumn,andtellinghertheycouldnowpassthevillagersunseenhegaveherhisarm。Thusheconductedheracrossthefrontofthehutintotheshadowsofthefirs。
  ’Iwillruntothehouseandharnessyourlittlecarriagemyself,’
  hesaidtenderly。’Iwillthentakeyouhomeinit。’
  ’No;pleasedon’tleavemealoneunderthesedismaltrees!’Neitherwouldshehearofhisgettingheranywraps;and,openingherlittlesunshadetokeeptherainoutofherface,shewalkedwithhimacrosstheinsulatingfield,afterwhichthetreesoftheparkaffordedherasufficientsheltertoreachhomewithoutmuchdamage。
  Swithinwastoogreatlyaffectedbywhathehadoverheardtospeakmuchtoherontheway,andprotectedherasifshehadbeenashornlamb。Afterafarewellwhichhadmoremeaningthansoundinit,hehastenedbacktoRings—HillSpeer。Thework—folkwerestillinthehut,and,bydintoffriendlyconverseandasipattheflagon,hadsocheeredMr。andMrs。AnthonyGreenthattheyneitherthoughtnorcaredwhathadbecomeofLadyConstantine。
  St。Cleeve’ssuddensenseofnewrelationswiththatsweetpatronesshadtakenawayinonehalf—hourhisnaturalingenuousness。
  Henceforthhecouldactapart。
  ’Ihavemadeallsecureatthetop,’hesaid,puttinghisheadintothehut。’Iamnowgoinghome。Whentherainstops,lockthisdoorandbringthekeytomyhouse。’
  XIV
  ThelabouredresistancewhichLadyConstantine’sjudgmenthadofferedtoherrebelliousaffectionereshelearntthatshewasawidow,nowpassedintoabashfulnessthatrenderedheralmostasunstableofmoodasbefore。Butshewasoneofthatmettle——fervid,cordial,andspontaneous——whohadnotthehearttospoilapassion;
  andheraffairshavinggonetorackandruinbynofaultofherownshewaslefttoapainfullynarrowedexistencewhichlentevensomethingofrationalitytoherattachment。Thusitwasthathertenderandunambitioussoulfoundcomfortinherreverses。
  AsforSt。Cleeve,thetardinessofhisawakeningwasthenaturalresultofinexperiencecombinedwithdevotiontoahobby。But,likeaspringbudhardinbursting,thedelaywascompensatedbyafterspeed。Atoncebreathlesslyrecognizinginthisfellow—watcheroftheskiesawomanwholovedhim,inadditiontothepatronessandfriend,hetrulytranslatedthenearlyforgottenkissshehadgivenhiminhermomentofdespair。
  LadyConstantine,inbeingeightornineyearshissenior,wasanobjectevenbettercalculatedtonourishayouth’sfirstpassionthanagirlofhisownage,superiorityofexperienceandripenessofemotionexercisingthesamepeculiarfascinationoverhimasoverotheryoungmenintheirfirstventuresinthiskind。
  Thealchemywhichthustransmutedanabstractedastronomerintoaneagerlover——and,mustitbesaid,spoiltapromisingyoungphysicisttoproduceacommon—placeinamorato——maybealmostdescribedasworkingitschangeinoneshortnight。NextmorninghewassofascinatedwiththenovelsensationthathewantedtorushoffatoncetoLadyConstantine,andsay,’Iloveyoutrue!’intheintensesttonesofhismentalcondition,toregisterhisassertioninherheartbeforeanyofthoseaccidentswhich’creepin’twixtvows,andchangedecreesofkings,’shouldoccurtohinderhim。Buthisembarrassmentatstandinginanewpositiontowardsherwouldnotallowhimtopresenthimselfatherdoorinanysuchhurry。Hewaitedon,ashelplesslyasagirl,forachanceofencounteringher。
  Butthoughshehadtacitlyagreedtoseehimonanyreasonableoccasion,LadyConstantinedidnotputherselfinhisway。Sheevenkeptherselfoutofhisway。Nowthatforthefirsttimehehadlearnttofeelastrongimpatiencefortheirmeeting,hershynessforthefirsttimeledhertodelayit。Butgiventwopeoplelivinginoneparish,wholongfromthedepthsoftheirheartstobeineachother’scompany,whatresolvesofmodesty,policy,pride,orapprehensionwillkeepthemforanylengthoftimeapart?
  Oneafternoonhewaswatchingthesunfromhistower,halfechoingtheGreekastronomer’swishthathemightbesetclosetothatluminaryforthewonderofbeholdingitinallitsglory,undertheslightpenaltyofbeingconsumedthenextinstant。Heglancedoverthehigh—roadbetweenthefieldandthepark(whichsublunaryfeaturesnowtoooftendistractedhisattentionfromhistelescope),andsawherpassingalongthatway。
  Shewasseatedinthedonkey—carriagethathadnowtakentheplaceofherlandau,thewhiteanimallookingnolargerthanacatatthatdistance。Thebuttonedboy,whorepresentedbothcoachmanandfootman,walkedalongsidetheanimal’sheadatasolemnpace;thedogstalkedatthedistanceofayardbehindthevehicle,withoutindulginginasinglegambol;andthewholeturn—outresembledindignityadwarfedstateprocession。
  Herewasanopportunitybutfortwoobstructions:theboy,whomightbecurious;andthedog,whomightbarkandattracttheattentionofanylabourersorservantsnear。Yettheriskwastoberun,and,knowingthatshewouldsoonturnupacertainshadylaneatrightanglestotheroadshehadfollowed,heranhastilydownthestaircase,crossedthebarley(whichnowcoveredthefield)bythepathnotmorethanafootwidethathehadtroddenforhimself,andgotintothelaneattheotherend。Byslowlywalkingalonginthedirectionoftheturnpike—roadhesoonhadthesatisfactionofseeinghercoming。Tohissurprisehealsohadthesatisfactionofperceivingthatneitherboynordogwasinhercompany。
  Theybothblushedastheyapproached,shefromsex,hefrominexperience。Onethingsheseemedtoseeinamoment,thatintheintervalofherabsenceSt。Cleevehadbecomeaman;andashegreetedherwiththisnewandmaturerlightinhiseyesshecouldnothideherembarrassment,ormeettheirfire。
  ’IhavejustsentmypageacrosstothecolumnwithyourbookonCometaryNuclei,’shesaidsoftly;’thatyoumightnothavetocometothehouseforit。IdidnotknowIshouldmeetyouhere。’
  ’Didn’tyouwishmetocometothehouseforit?’
  ’Ididnot,frankly。Youknowwhy,doyounot?’
  ’Yes,Iknow。Well,mylongingisatrest。Ihavemetyouagain。
  Butareyouunwell,thatyoudriveoutinthischair?’
  ’No;Iwalkedoutthismorning,andamalittletired。’
  ’Ihavebeenlookingforyounightandday。Whydoyouturnyourfaceaside?Youusednottobeso。’Herhandrestedonthesideofthechair,andhetookit。’Doyouknowthatsincewelastmet,I
  havebeenthinkingofyou——daringtothinkofyou——asIneverthoughtofyoubefore?’
  ’Yes,Iknowit。’
  ’Howdidyouknow?’
  ’Isawitinyourfacewhenyoucameup。’
  ’Well,IsupposeIoughtnottothinkofyouso。Andyet,hadInotlearnedto,Ishouldneverfullyhavefelthowgentleandsweetyouare。OnlythinkofmylossifIhadlivedanddiedwithoutseeingmoreinyouthaninastronomy!ButIshallneverleaveoffdoingsonow。WhenyoutalkIshallloveyourunderstanding;whenyouaresilentIshallloveyourface。ButhowshallIknowthatyoucaretobesomuchtome?’
  Hermannerwasdisturbedassherecognizedtheimpendingself—
  surrender,whichsheknewnothowtoresist,andwasnotaltogetherateaseinwelcoming。
  ’O,LadyConstantine,’hecontinued,bendingoverher,’givemesomeproofmorethanmereseemingandinference,whichareallIhaveatpresent,thatyoudon’tthinkthisItellyouofpresumptioninme!
  IhavebeenunabletodoanythingsinceIlastsawyouforponderinguncertainlyonthis。Someproof,orlittlesign,thatweareoneinheart!’
  Ablushsettledagainonherface;andhalfineffort,halfinspontaneity,sheputherfingeronhercheek。Healmostdevotionallykissedthespot。
  ’Doesthatsuffice?’sheasked,scarcelygivingherwordsvoice。
  ’Yes;Iamconvinced。’
  ’Thenthatmustbetheend。Letmedriveon;theboywillbebackagainsoon。’Shespokehastily,andlookedaskancetohidetheheatofhercheek。
  ’No;thetowerdoorisopen,andhewillgotothetop,andwastehistimeinlookingthroughthetelescope。’
  ’Thenyoushouldrushback,forhewilldosomedamage。’
  ’No;hemaydowhathelikes,tinkerandspoiltheinstrument,destroymypapers,——anything,sothathewillstaythereandleaveusalone。’
  Sheglancedupwithaspeciesofpainedpleasure。
  ’Youneverusedtofeellikethat!’shesaid,andtherewaskeenself—reproachinhervoice。’Youwereoncesodevotedtoyoursciencethatthethoughtofanintruderintoyourtemplewouldhavedrivenyouwild。Nowyoudon’tcare;andwhoistoblame?Ah,notyou,notyou!’
  Theanimalambledonwithher,andhe,leaningonthesideofthelittlevehicle,kepthercompany。
  ’Well,don’tletusthinkofthat,’hesaid。’Ioffermyselfandallmyenergies,franklyandentirely,toyou,mydear,dearlady,whoseIshallbealways!Butmywordsintellingyouthiswillonlyinjuremymeaninginsteadofemphasizeit。Inexpressing,eventomyself,mythoughtsofyou,IfindthatIfallintophraseswhich,asacritic,Ishouldhithertohaveheartilydespisedfortheircommonness。What’stheuseofsaying,forinstance,asIhavejustsaid,thatIgivemyselfentirelytoyou,andshallbeyoursalways,——thatyouhavemydevotion,myhighesthomage?Thosewordshavebeenusedsofrequentlyinaflippantmannerthathonestuseofthemisnotdistinguishablefromtheunreal。’Heturnedtoher,andadded,smiling,’Youreyesaretobemystarsforthefuture。’
  ’Yes,Iknowit,——Iknowit,andallyouwouldsay!IdreadedevenwhileIhopedforthis,mydearyoungfriend,’shereplied,hereyesbeingfulloftears。’Iaminjuringyou;whoknowsthatIamnotruiningyourfuture,——Iwhooughttoknowbetter?Nothingcancomeofthis,nothingmust,——andIamonlywastingyourtime。WhyhaveI
  drawnyouofffromagrandcelestialstudytostudypoorlonelyme?
  Sayyouwillneverdespiseme,whenyougetolder,forthisepisodeinourlives。Butyouwill,——Iknowyouwill!Allmendo,whentheyhavebeenattractedintheirunsuspectingyouth,asIhaveattractedyou。Ioughttohavekeptmyresolve。’
  ’Whatwasthat?’
  ’Tobearanythingratherthandrawyoufromyourhighpurpose;tobelikethenoblecitizenofoldGreece,who,attendingasacrifice,lethimselfbeburnttothebonebyacoalthatjumpedintohissleeveratherthandisturbthesacredceremony。’
  ’ButcanInotstudyandloveboth?’
  ’Ihopeso,——Iearnestlyhopeso。Butyou’llbethefirstifyoudo,andIamtheresponsibleoneifyoudonot。’
  ’YouspeakasifIwerequiteachild,andyouimmenselyolder。
  Why,howolddoyouthinkIam?Iamtwenty。’
  ’Youseemyounger。Well,that’ssomuchthebetter。Twentysoundsstrongandfirm。HowolddoyouthinkIam?’
  ’Ihaveneverthoughtofconsidering。’Heinnocentlyturnedtoscrutinizeherface。Shewincedalittle。Buttheinstinctwaspremature。Timehadtakennolibertieswithherfeaturesasyet;
  norhadtroubleveryroughlyhandledher。
  ’Iwilltellyou,’shereplied,speakingalmostwithphysicalpain,yetasifdeterminationshouldcarryherthrough。’Iameight—and—
  twenty——nearly——Imeanalittlemore,afewmonthsmore。AmInotafearfuldealolderthanyou?’
  ’Atfirstitseemsagreatdeal,’heanswered,musing。’Butitdoesn’tseemmuchwhenonegetsusedtoit。’
  ’Nonsense!’sheexclaimed。’ItISagooddeal。’
  ’Verywell,then,sweetestLadyConstantine,letitbe,’hesaidgently。
  ’Youshouldnotletitbe!Apolitemanwouldhaveflatlycontradictedme……OIamashamedofthis!’sheaddedamomentafter,withasubdued,sadlookupontheground。’Iamspeakingbythecardoftheouterworld,whichIhaveleftbehindutterly;nosuchlipserviceisknowninyoursphere。Icarenothingforthosethings,really;butthatwhichiscalledtheEveinuswilloutsometimes。Well,wewillforgetthatnow,aswemust,atnoverydistantdate,forgetalltherestofthis。’
  Hewalkedbesideherthoughtfullyawhile,withhiseyesalsobentontheroad。’Whymustweforgetitall?’heinquired。
  ’Itisonlyaninterlude。’
  ’Aninterlude!Itisnointerludetome。Ohowcanyoutalksolightlyofthis,LadyConstantine?Andyet,ifIweretogoawayfromhere,Imight,perhaps,soonreduceittoaninterlude!Yes,’
  heresumedimpulsively,’Iwillgoaway。Lovedies,anditisjustaswelltostrangleitinitsbirth;itcanonlydieonce!I’llgo。’
  ’No,no!’shesaid,lookingupapprehensively。’Imisledyou。Itisnointerludetome,——itistragical。Ionlymeantthatfromaworldlypointofviewitisaninterlude,whichweshouldtrytoforget。Buttheworldisnotall。Youwillnotgoaway?’
  Buthecontinueddrearily,’Yes,yes,Iseeitall;youhaveenlightenedme。Itwillbehurtingyourprospectsevenmorethanmine,ifIstay。NowSirBlountisdead,youarefreeagain,——maymarrywhereyouwill,butforthisfancyofours。I’llleaveWellandbeforeharmcomesofmystaying。’
  ’Don’tdecidetodoathingsorash!’shebegged,seizinghishand,andlookingmiserableattheeffectofherwords。’Ishallhavenobodyleftintheworldtocarefor!AndnowIhavegivenyouthegreattelescope,andlentyouthecolumn,itwouldbeungratefultogoaway!Iwaswrong;believemethatIdidnotmeanthatitwasamereinterludetoME。Oifyouonlyknewhowvery,veryfaritisfromthat!Itismydoubtoftheresulttoyouthatmakesmespeaksoslightingly。’
  Theywerenowapproachingcross—roads,andcasuallylookinguptheybeheld,thirtyorfortyyardsbeyondthecrossing,Mr。Torkingham,whowasleaningoveragate,hisbackbeingtowardsthem。Asyethehadnotrecognizedtheirapproach。
  Themaster—passionhadalreadysupplantedSt。Cleeve’snaturalingenuousnessbysubtlety。
  ’WoulditbewellforustomeetMr。Torkinghamjustnow?’hebegan。
  ’Certainlynot,’shesaidhastily,andpullingthereinsheinstantlydrovedowntheright—handroad。’Icannotmeetanybody!’
  shemurmured。’Woulditnotbebetterthatyouleavemenow?——notformypleasure,butthattheremayarisenodistressingtalesaboutusbeforeweknow——howtoactinthis——this’——(shesmiledfaintlyathim)’heartachingextremity!’
  Theywerepassingunderahugeoak—tree,whoselimbs,irregularwithshoulders,knuckles,andelbows,stretchedhorizontallyoverthelaneinamannerrecallingAbsalom’sdeath。Aslightrustlingwasperceptibleamidtheleafageastheydrewoutfrombeneathit,andturninguphiseyesSwithinsawthatverybuttonedpagewhoseadventtheyhaddreaded,lookingdownwithinterestatthemfromaperchnotmuchhigherthanayardabovetheirheads。Hehadabunchofoak—applesinonehand,plainlytheobjectofhisclimb,andwasfurtivelywatchingLadyConstantinewiththehopethatshemightnotseehim。Butthatshehadalreadydone,thoughshedidnotrevealit,and,fearingthatthelatterwordsoftheirconversationhadbeenoverheard,theyspokenottilltheyhadpassedthenextturning。
  Shestretchedoutherhandtohis。’Thismustnotgoon,’shesaidimploringly。’Myanxietyastowhatmaybesaidofsuchmethodsofmeetingmakesmetoounhappy。Seewhathashappened!’Shecouldnothelpsmiling。’Outofthefrying—panintothefire!Aftermeanlyturningtoavoidtheparsonwehaverushedintoaworsepublicity。Itistoohumiliatingtohavetoavoidpeople,andlowersbothyouandme。Theonlyremedyisnottomeet。’
  ’Verywell,’saidSwithin,withasigh。’Soitshallbe。’
  Andwithsmilesthatmightmoretrulyhavebeentearstheypartedthereandthen。
  XV
  Thesummerpassedaway,andautumn,withitsinfinitesuiteoftints,camecreepingon。Darkergrewtheevenings,tearfullerthemoonlights,andheavierthedews。Meanwhilethecomethadwaxedtoitslargestdimensions,——solargethatnotonlythenucleusbutaportionofthetailhadbeenvisibleinbroadday。Itwasnowonthewane,thougheverynighttheequatorialstillaffordedanopportunityofobservingthesingularobjectwhichwouldsoondisappearaltogetherfromtheheavensforperhapsthousandsofyears。
  ButtheastronomeroftheRings—HillSpeerwasnolongeramatchforhiscelestialmaterials。Scientificallyhehadbecomebutadimvapourofhimself;theloverhadcomeintohimlikeanarmedman,andcastoutthestudent,andhisintellectualsituationwasgrowingalife—and—deathmatter。
  Theresolveofthepairhadbeensofarkept:theyhadnotseeneachotherinprivateforthreemonths。ButononedayinOctoberheventuredtowriteanotetoher:——
  ’Icandonothing!Ihaveceasedtostudy,ceasedtoobserve。Theequatorialisuselesstome。ThisaffectionIhaveforyouabsorbsmylife,andoutweighsmyintentions。Thepowertolabourinthisgrandestoffieldshasleftme。IstruggleagainsttheweaknesstillIthinkofthecause,andthenIblessher。Buttheverydesperationofmycircumstanceshassuggestedaremedy;andthisI
  wouldinformyouofatonce。
  ’Canyoucometome,sinceImustnotcometoyou?Iwillwaitto—
  morrownightattheedgeoftheplantationbywhichyouwouldentertothecolumn。Iwillnotdetainyou;myplancanbetoldintenwords。’
  Thenightafterpostingthismissivetoherhewaitedatthespotmentioned。
  Itwasamelancholyeveningforcomingabroad。Ablusterouswindhadrisenduringtheday,andstillcontinuedtoincrease。Yethestoodwatchfulinthedarkness,andwasultimatelyrewardedbydiscerningashadymuffledshapethatembodieditselffromthefield,accompaniedbythescratchingofsilkoverstubble。Therewasnolongeranydisguiseastothenatureoftheirmeeting。Itwasalover’sassignation,pureandsimple;andboldlyrealizingitassuchheclaspedherinhisarms。
  ’Icannotbearthisanylonger!’heexclaimed。’ThreemonthssinceIsawyoualone!Onlyaglimpseofyouinchurch,orabowfromthedistance,inallthattime!Whatafearfulstrugglethiskeepingaparthasbeen!’
  ’YetIwouldhavehadstrengthtopersist,sinceitseemedbest,’
  shemurmuredwhenshecouldspeak,’hadnotyourwordsonyourconditionsoalarmedandsaddenedme。Thisinabilityofyourstowork,orstudy,orobserve,——itisterrible!Soterribleastingisittomyconsciencethatyourhintaboutaremedyhasbroughtmeinstantly。’
  ’YetIdon’taltogethermindit,sinceitisyou,mydear,whohavedisplacedthework;andyetthelossoftimenearlydistractsme,whenIhaveneitherthepowertoworknorthedelightofyourcompany。’
  ’Butyourremedy!O,Icannothelpguessingit!Yes;youaregoingaway!’
  ’Letusascendthecolumn;wecanspeakmoreateasethere。ThenI
  willexplainall。Iwouldnotaskyoutoclimbsohighbutthehutisnotyetfurnished。’
  Heenteredthecabinatthefoot,andhavinglightedasmalllantern,conductedherupthehollowstaircasetothetop,whereheclosedtheslidesofthedometokeepoutthewind,andplacedtheobserving—chairforher。
  ’Icanstayonlyfiveminutes,’shesaid,withoutsittingdown。
  ’Yousaiditwasimportantthatyoushouldseeme,andIhavecome。
  Iassureyouitisatagreatrisk。IfIamseenhereatthistimeIamruinedforever。ButwhatwouldInotdoforyou?OSwithin,yourremedy——isittogoaway?Thereisnoother;andyetIdreadthatlikedeath!’
  ’Icantellyouinamoment,butImustbeginatthebeginning。Allthisruinousidlenessanddistractioniscausedbythemiseryofournotbeingabletomeetwithfreedom。Thefearthatsomethingmaysnatchyoufrommekeepsmeinastateofperpetualapprehension。’
  ’Itistootruealsoofme!Idreadthatsomeaccidentmayhappen,andwastemydaysinmeetingthetroublehalf—way。’
  ’Soourlivesgoon,andourlaboursstandstill。Nowfortheremedy。DearLadyConstantine,allowmetomarryyou。’
  Shestarted,andthewindwithoutshookthebuilding,sendingupayetintensermoanfromthefirs。
  ’Imean,marryyouquiteprivately。Letitmakenodifferencewhatevertoouroutwardlivesforyears,forIknowthatinmypresentpositionyoucouldnotpossiblyacknowledgemeashusbandpublicly。Butbymarryingatoncewesecurethecertaintythatwecannotbedividedbyaccident,coaxing,orartifice;and,ateaseonthatpoint,Ishallembracemystudieswiththeoldvigour,andyouyours。’
  LadyConstantinewassoagitatedattheunexpectedboldnessofsuchaproposalfromonehithertosoboyishanddeferentialthatshesankintotheobserving—chair,herintentiontoremainforonlyafewminutesbeingquiteforgotten。
  Shecoveredherfacewithherhands。’No,no,Idarenot!’shewhispered。
  ’Butisthereasinglethingelselefttodo?’hepleaded,kneelingdownbesideher,lessinsupplicationthaninabandonment。’Whatelsecanwedo?’
  ’Waittillyouarefamous。’
  ’ButIcannotbefamousunlessIstrive,andthisdistractingconditionpreventsallstriving!’
  ’CouldyounotstriveonifI——gaveyouapromise,asolemnpromise,tobeyourswhenyournameisfairlywellknown?’
  St。Cleevebreathedheavily。’Itwillbealong,wearytime,’hesaid。’AndevenwithyourpromiseIshallworkbuthalf—heartedly。
  Everyhourofstudywillbeinterruptedwith"Supposethisorthishappens;""Supposesomebodypersuadeshertobreakherpromise;"
  worsestill,"Supposesomerivalmalignsme,andsoseducesheraway。"No,LadyConstantine,dearest,bestasyouare,thatelementofdistractionwouldstillremain,andwherethatis,nosustainedenergyispossible。Manyerroneousthingshavebeenwrittenandsaidbythesages,butneverdidtheyfloatagreaterfallacythanthatloveservesasastimulustowinthelovedonebypatienttoil。’
  ’Icannotarguewithyou,’shesaidweakly。
  ’Myonlypossibleotherchancewouldlieingoingaway,’heresumedafteramoment’sreflection,withhiseyesonthelanternflame,whichwavedandsmokedinthecurrentsofairthatleakedintothedomefromthefiercewind—streamwithout。’IfImighttakeawaytheequatorial,supposingitpossiblethatIcouldfindsomesuitableplaceforobservinginthesouthernhemisphere,——say,attheCape,——
  IMIGHTbeabletoapplymyselftoseriousworkagain,afterthelapseofalittletime。Thesouthernconstellationsofferalessexhaustedfieldforinvestigation。IwonderifImight!’
  ’Youmean,’sheanswereduneasily,’thatyoumightapplyyourselftoworkwhenyourrecollectionofmebegantofade,andmylifetobecomeamatterofindifferencetoyou?……Yes,go!No,——Icannotbearit!Theremedyisworsethanthedisease。Icannotletyougoaway!’
  ’ThenhowcanyourefusetheonlyconditiononwhichIcanstay,withoutruintomypurposeandscandaltoyourname?Dearest,agreetomyproposal,asyoulovebothmeandyourself!’
  Hewaited,whilethefir—treesrubbedandproddedthebaseofthetower,andthewindroaredaroundandshookit;butshecouldnotfindwordstoreply。
  ’WouldtoGod,’heburstout,’thatImightperishhere,likeWinstanleyinhislighthouse!Thenthedifficultywouldbesolvedforyou。’
  ’Youaresowrong,soverywrong,insayingso!’sheexclaimedpassionately。’Youmaydoubtmywisdom,pitymyshort—sightedness;
  butthereisonethingyoudoknow,——thatIloveyoudearly!’
  ’Youdo,——Iknowit!’hesaid,softenedinamoment。’ButitseemssuchasimpleremedyforthedifficultythatIcannotseehowyoucanmindadoptingit,ifyoucaresomuchformeasIdoforyou。’