’I’llcome。But——youneedsaynothingaboutmyvisit。Icannotcometo—night,butIwillsometimethisweek。Yetonlythisonce,totrytheinstrument。Afterwardsyoumustbecontenttopursueyourstudiesalone。’
Swithinseemedbutlittleaffectedatthisannouncement。’HiltonandPimm’smanhandedmethebill,’hecontinued。
’Howmuchisit?’
Hetoldher。’Andthemanwhohasbuiltthehutanddome,anddonetheotherfixing,hassentinhis。’Henamedthisamountalso。
’Verywell。Theyshallbesettledwith。Mydebtsmustbepaidwithmymoney,whichyoushallhaveatonce,——incash,sinceachequewouldhardlydo。Cometothehouseforitthisevening。Butno,no——youmustnotcomeopenly;suchistheworld。Cometothewindow——thewindowthatisexactlyinalinewiththelongsnowdropbed,inthesouthfront——ateightto—night,andIwillgiveyouwhatisnecessary。’
’Certainly,LadyConstantine,’saidtheyoungman。
Ateightthateveningaccordingly,Swithinenteredlikeaspectreupontheterracetoseekoutthespotshehaddesignated。Theequatorialhadsoentirelyabsorbedhisthoughtsthathedidnottroublehimselfseriouslytoconjecturethewhyandwhereforeofhersecrecy。Ifhecasuallythoughtofit,hesetitdowninageneralwaytoanintenselygenerouswishonherpartnottolessenhisinfluenceamongthepoorerinhabitantsbymakinghimappeartheobjectofpatronage。
Whilehestoodbythelongsnowdropbed,whichlookedupathimlikeanetherMilkyWay,theFrenchcasementofthewindowoppositesoftlyopened,andahandborderedbyaglimmeroflacewasstretchedforth,fromwhichhereceivedacrisplittleparcel,——
bank—notes,apparently。Heknewthehand,andhelditlongenoughtopressittohislips,theonlyformwhichhadeveroccurredtohimofexpressinghisgratitudetoherwithouttheincumbranceofclumsywords,avehicleatthebestoftimesbutrudelysuitedtosuchdelicatemerchandise。Thehandwashastilywithdrawn,asifthetreatmenthadbeenunexpected。Thenseeminglymovedbysecondthoughtsshebentforwardandsaid,’Isthenightgoodforobservations?’
’Perfect。’
Shepaused。’ThenI’llcometo—night,’sheatlastsaid。’Itmakesnodifferencetome,afterall。Waitjustonemoment。’
Hewaited,andshepresentlyemerged,muffleduplikeanun;
whereupontheylefttheterraceandstruckacrosstheparktogether。
Verylittlewassaidbyeithertilltheywerecrossingthefallow,whenheaskedifhisarmwouldhelpher。Shedidnottaketheofferedsupportjustthen;butwhentheywereascendingtheprehistoricearthwork,undertheheavygloomofthefir—trees,sheseizedit,asifratherinfluencedbytheoppressivesolitudethanbyfatigue。
Thustheyreachedthefootofthecolumn,tenthousandspiritsinprisonseemingtogasptheirgriefsfromthefunerealboughsoverhead,andafewtwigsscratchingthepillarwiththedragofimpishclawsastenaciousasthosefiguringinSt。Anthony’stemptation。
’Howintenselydarkitisjusthere!’shewhispered。’Iwonderyoucankeepinthepath。ManyancientBritonslieburiedtheredoubtless。’
Heledherroundtotheotherside,where,feelinghiswaywithhishands,hesuddenlylefther,appearingamomentafterwithalight。
’Whatplaceisthis?’sheexclaimed。
’Thisisthenewwoodcabin,’saidhe。
Shecouldjustdiscerntheoutlineofalittlehouse,notunlikeabathing—machinewithoutwheels。
’Ihavekeptlightsreadyhere,’hewenton,’asIthoughtyoumightcomeanyevening,andpossiblybringcompany。’
’Don’tcriticizemeforcomingalone,’sheexclaimedwithsensitivepromptness。’TherearesocialreasonsforwhatIdoofwhichyouknownothing。’
’PerhapsitismuchtomydiscreditthatIdon’tknow。’
’Notatall。Youareallthebetterforit。HeavenforbidthatI
shouldenlightenyou。Well,Iseethisisthehut。ButIammorecurioustogotothetopofthetower,andmakediscoveries。’
Hebroughtalittlelanternfromthecabin,andlightedherupthewindingstaircasetothetempleofthatsublimemysteryonwhosethresholdhestoodaspriest。
Thetopofthecolumnwasquitechanged。Thetub—shapedspacewithintheparapet,formerlyopentotheairandsun,wasnowarchedoverbyalightdomeoflath—workcoveredwithfelt。Butthisdomewasnotfixed。Atthelinewhereitsbasedescendedtotheparapettherewerehalfadozenironballs,preciselylikecannon—shot,standinglooselyinagroove,andonthesethedomeresteditswholeweight。Inthesideofthedomewasaslit,throughwhichthewindblewandtheNorthStarbeamed,andtowardsittheendofthegreattelescopewasdirected。Thislattermagnificentobject,withitscircles,axes,andhandlescomplete,wassecurelyfixedinthemiddleofthefloor。
’Butyoucanonlyseeonepartoftheskythroughthatslit,’saidshe。
Theastronomerstretchedouthisarm,andthewholedometurnedhorizontallyround,runningontheballswitharumblelikethunder。
InsteadofthestarPolaris,whichhadfirstbeenpeepinginthroughtheslit,therenowappearedthecountenancesofCastorandPollux。
Swithinthenmanipulatedtheequatorial,andputitthroughitscapabilitiesinlikemanner。
Shewasenchanted;beingratherexcitablesheevenclappedherhandsjustonce。Sheturnedtohim:’Nowareyouhappy?’
’ButitisallYOURS,LadyConstantine。’
’Atthismoment。Butthat’sadefectwhichcansoonberemedied。
Whenisyourbirthday?’
’Nextmonth,——theseventh。’
’Thenitshallallbeyours,——abirthdaypresent。’
Theyoungmanprotested;itwastoomuch。
’No,youmustacceptitall,——equatorial,domestand,hut,andeverythingthathasbeenputhereforthisastronomicalpurpose。
Thepossessionoftheseapparatuswouldonlycompromiseme。Alreadytheyarereputedtobeyours,andtheymustbemadeyours。Thereisnohelpforit。Ifever’(herehervoicelostsomefirmness),——’ifeveryougoawayfromme,——fromthisplace,Imean,——andmarry,andsettleinanewhomeelsewhereforgood,andforgetme,youmusttakethesethings,equatorialandall,andnevertellyourwifeoranybodyhowtheycametobeyours。’
’IwishIcoulddosomethingmoreforyou!’exclaimedthemuch—movedastronomer。’Ifyoucouldbutsharemyfame,——supposingIgetany,whichImaydiebeforedoing,——itwouldbealittlecompensation。
Astomygoingawayandmarrying,Icertainlyshallnot。Imaygoaway,butIshallnevermarry。’
’Whynot?’
’Abelovedscienceisenoughwifeforme,——combined,perhaps,withalittlewarmfriendshipwithoneofkindredpursuits。’
’Whoisthefriendofkindredpursuits?’
’YourselfIshouldlikeittobe。’
’YouwouldhavetobecomeawomanbeforeIcouldbethat,publicly;
orIaman,’shereplied,withdrymelancholy。
’WhyIawoman,oryouaman,dearLadyConstantine?’
’Icannotexplain。No;youmustkeepyourfameandyoursciencealltoyourself,andImustkeepmy——troubles。’
Swithin,todivertherfrommelancholy——notknowingthatintheexpressionofhermelancholythusandnowshefoundmuchpleasure,——
changedthesubjectbyaskingiftheyshouldtakesomeobservations。
’Yes;thesceneryiswellhungto—night,’shesaidlookingoutupontheheavens。
Thentheyproceededtoscanthesky,rovingfromplanettostar,fromsinglestarstodoublestars,fromdoubletocolouredstars,inthecursorymannerofthemerelycurious。Theyplungeddowntothatatothertimesinvisiblemultitudeinthebackrowsofthecelestialtheatre:remotelayersofconstellationswhoseshapeswerenewandsingular;prettytwinklerswhichforinfiniteageshadspenttheirbeamswithoutcallingforthfromasingleearthlypoetasingleline,orbeingabletobestowarayofcomfortonasinglebenightedtraveller。
’Andtothink,’saidLadyConstantine,’thatthewholeraceofshepherds,sincethebeginningoftheworld,——eventhoseimmortalshepherdswhowatchednearBethlehem,——shouldhavegoneintotheirgraveswithoutknowingthatforonestarthatlightedthemintheirlabours,therewereahundredasgoodbehindtryingtodoso!……
IhaveafeelingforthisinstrumentnotunliketheaweIshouldfeelinthepresenceofagreatmagicianinwhomIreallybelieved。
Itspowersaresoenormous,andweird,andfantastical,thatI
shouldhaveapersonalfearinbeingwithitalone。Musicdrewanangeldown,saidthepoet:butwhatisthattodrawingdownworlds!’
’Ioftenexperienceakindoffearoftheskyaftersittingintheobserving—chairalongtime,’heanswered。’AndwhenIwalkhomeafterwardsIalsofearit,forwhatIknowisthere,butcannotsee,asonenaturallyfearsthepresenceofavastformlesssomethingthatonlyrevealsaverylittleofitself。That’spartlywhatI
meantbysayingthatmagnitude,whichuptoacertainpointhasgrandeur,hasbeyonditghastliness。’
Thustheinterestoftheirsiderealobservationsledthemon,tilltheknowledgethatscarceanyotherhumanvisionwastravellingwithinahundredmillionmilesoftheirowngavethemsuchasenseoftheisolationofthatfacultyasalmosttobeasenseofisolationinrespectoftheirwholepersonality,causingashudderatitsabsoluteness。Atnight,whenhumandiscordsandharmoniesarehushed,inageneralsense,forthegreaterpartoftwelvehours,thereisnothingtomoderatetheblowwithwhichtheinfinitelygreat,thestellaruniverse,strikesdownupontheinfinitelylittle,themindofthebeholder;andthiswasthecasenow。Havinggotclosertoimmensitythantheirfellow—creatures,theysawatonceitsbeautyanditsfrightfulness。Theymoreandmorefeltthecontrastbetweentheirowntinymagnitudesandthoseamongwhichtheyhadrecklesslyplunged,tilltheywereoppressedwiththepresenceofavastnesstheycouldnotcopewithevenasanidea,andwhichhungaboutthemlikeanightmare。
Hestoodbyherwhilesheobserved;shebyhimwhentheychangedplaces。OncethatSwithin’semancipationfromatrammellingbodyhadbeeneffectedbythetelescope,andhewaswellawayinspace,shefeltherinfluenceoverhimdiminishingtonothing。Hewasquiteunconsciousofhisterrestrialneighbourings,andofherselfasoneofthem。Itstillfurtherreducedhertowardsunvarnishedsimplicityinhermannertohim。
Thesilencewasbrokenonlybythetickingoftheclock—workwhichgavediurnalmotiontotheinstrument。Thestarsmovedon,theendofthetelescopefollowed,buttheirtonguesstoodstill。Toexpectthathewasevervoluntarilygoingtoendthepausebyspeechwasapparentlyfutile。Shelaidherhanduponhisarm。
Hestarted,withdrewhiseyefromthetelescope,andbroughthimselfbacktotheearthbyavisible——almostpainful——effort。
’Docomeoutofit,’shecoaxed,withasoftnessinhervoicewhichanymanbutunpractisedSwithinwouldhavefelttobeexquisite。’I
feelthatIhavebeensofoolishastoputinyourhandsaninstrumenttoeffectmyownannihilation。Notawordhaveyouspokenforthelasttenminutes。’
’Ihavebeenmentallygettingonwithmygreattheory。Ihopesoontobeabletopublishittotheworld。What,areyougoing?Iwillwalkwithyou,LadyConstantine。Whenwillyoucomeagain?’
’Whenyourgreattheoryispublishedtotheworld。’
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LadyConstantine,ifnarrowlyobservedatthistime,wouldhaveseemedtobedeeplytroubledinconscience,andparticularlyaftertheinterviewabovedescribed。AshWednesdayoccurredinthecalendarafewdayslater,andshewenttomorningservicewithalookofgenuinecontritiononheremotionalandyearningcountenance。
Besidesherselfthecongregationconsistedonlyoftheparson,clerk,school—children,andthreeoldpeoplelivingonalms,whosatunderthereading—desk;andthus,whenMr。TorkinghamblazedforththedenunciatorysentencesoftheCommination,nearlythewholeforceofthemseemedtodescenduponherownshoulders。Lookingacrosstheemptypewsshesawthroughtheoneortwoclearpanesofthewindowoppositeayouthfulfigureinthechurchyard,andtheveryfeelingagainstwhichshehadtriedtoprayreturnedagainirresistibly。
Whenshecameoutandhadcrossedintotheprivatewalk,Swithincameforwardtospeaktoher。Thiswasamostunusualcircumstance,andarguedamatterofimportance。
’Ihavemadeanamazingdiscoveryinconnexionwiththevariablestars,’heexclaimed。’Itwillexcitethewholeastronomicalworld,andtheworldoutsidebutlittleless。Ihadlongsuspectedthetruesecretoftheirvariability;butitwasbythemerestchanceonearththatIhituponaproofofmyguess。Yourequatorialhasdoneit,mygood,kindLadyConstantine,andourfameisestablishedforever!’
Hesprangintotheair,andwavedhishatinhistriumph。
’Oh,Iamsoglad——sorejoiced!’shecried。’Whatisit?Butdon’tstoptotellme。Publishitatonceinsomepaper;nailyournametoit,orsomebodywillseizetheideaandappropriateit,——
forestallyouinsomeway。ItwillbeAdamsandLeverrieroveragain。’
’IfImaywalkwithyouIwillexplainthenatureofthediscovery。
ItaccountsfortheoccasionalgreentintofCastor,andeverydifficulty。IsaidIwouldbetheCopernicusofthestellarsystem,andIhavebeguntobe。Yetwhoknows?’
’Nowdon’tbesoupanddown!Ishallnotunderstandyourexplanation,andIwouldrathernotknowit。Ishallrevealitifitisverygrand。Women,youknow,arenotsafedepositariesofsuchvaluablesecrets。Youmaywalkwithmealittleway,withgreatpleasure。Thengoandwriteyouraccount,soastoinsureyourownershipofthediscovery……Buthowyouhavewatched!’
shecried,inasuddenaccessionofanxiety,assheturnedtolookmorecloselyathim。’Theorbitsofyoureyesareleaden,andyoureyelidsareredandheavy。Don’tdoit——praydon’t。Youwillbeill,andbreakdown。’
’Ihave,itistrue,beenupalittlelatethislastweek,’hesaidcheerfully。’Infact,Icouldn’ttearmyselfawayfromtheequatorial;itissuchawonderfulpossessionthatitkeepsmetheretilldaylight。Butwhatdoesthatmatter,nowIhavemadethediscovery?’
’Ah,itDOESmatter!Now,promiseme——Iinsist——thatyouwillnotcommitsuchimprudencesagain;forwhatshouldIdoifmyAstronomerRoyalweretodie?’
Shelaughed,butfartooapprehensivelytobeeffectiveasadisplayoflevity。
Theyparted,andhewenthometowriteouthispaper。Hepromisedtocallassoonashisdiscoverywasinprint。Thentheywaitedfortheresult。
ItisimpossibletodescribethetremulousstateofLadyConstantineduringtheinterval。ThewarminterestshetookinSwithinSt。
Cleeve——manywouldhavesaiddangerouslywarminterest——madehishopesherhopes;andthoughshesometimesadmittedtoherselfthatgreatallowancewasrequisitefortheoverweeningconfidenceofyouthinthefuture,shepermittedherselftobeblindedtoprobabilitiesforthepleasureofsharinghisdreams。Itseemednotunreasonabletosupposethepresenthourtobethebeginningofrealizationtoherdarlingwishthatthisyoungmanshouldbecomefamous。Hehadworkedhard,andwhyshouldhenotbefamousearly?
Hisverysimplicityinmundaneaffairsaffordedastrongpresumptionthatinthingscelestialhemightbewise。Toobtainsupportforthishypothesisshehadonlytothinkoverthelivesofmanyeminentastronomers。
Shewaitedfeverishlyfortheflourishoftrumpetsfromafar,bywhichsheexpectedtheannouncementofhisdiscoverytobegreeted。
Knowingthatimmediateintelligenceoftheoutburstwouldbebroughttoherbyhimself,shewatchedfromthewindowsoftheGreatHouseeachmorningforasightofhisfigurehasteningdowntheglade。
Buthedidnotcome。
Alongarrayofwetdayspassedtheirdrearyshapesbeforeher,andmadethewaitingstillmoretedious。Ononeoftheseoccasionssheranacrosstothetower,attheriskofaseverecold。Thedoorwaslocked。
Twodaysaftershewentagain。Thedoorwaslockedstill。Butthiswasonlytobeexpectedinsuchweather。Yetshewouldhavegoneontohishouse,hadtherenotbeenonereasontoomanyagainstsuchprecipitancy。Asastronomerandastronomertherewasnoharmintheirmeetings;butaswomanandmanshefearedthem。
Tendayspassedwithoutasightofhim;tenblurredanddrearydays,duringwhichthewholelandscapedrippedlikeamop;theparktreesswabbedthegravelfromthedrive,whiletheskywasazinc—colouredarchi—vaultofimmovablecloud。Itseemedasifthewholescienceofastronomyhadneverbeenreal,andthattheheavenlybodies,withtheirmotions,wereastheoreticalasthelinesandcirclesofabygonemathematicalproblem。
Shecouldcontentherselfnolongerwithfruitlessvisitstothecolumn,andwhentherainhadalittleabatedshewalkedtothenearesthamlet,andinaconversationwiththefirstoldwomanshemetcontrivedtoleaduptothesubjectofSwithinSt。Cleevebytalkingabouthisgrandmother。
’Ah,pooroldheart;’tisabadtimeforher,mylady!’exclaimedthedame。
’What?’
’Hergrandsonisdying;andsuchagentlemanthroughandthrough!’
’What!……Oh,ithassomethingtodowiththatdreadfuldiscovery!’
’Discovery,mylady?’
Shelefttheoldwomanwithanevasiveanswer,andwithabreakingheartcreptalongtheroad。Tearsbrimmedintohereyesasshewalked,andbythetimethatshewasoutofsightsobsburstforthtumultuously。
’Iamtoofondofhim!’shemoaned;’butIcan’thelpit;andI
don’tcareifit’swrong,——Idon’tcare!’
WithoutfurtherconsiderationsastowhobeheldherdoingssheinstinctivelywentstraighttowardsMrs。Martin’s。SeeingamancomingshecalmedherselfsufficientlytoaskhimthroughherdroppedveilhowpoorMr。St。Cleevewasthatday。Butsheonlygotthesamereply:’Theysayheisdying,mylady。’
WhenSwithinhadpartedfromLadyConstantine,onthepreviousAsh—
Wednesday,hehadgonestraighttothehomesteadandpreparedhisaccountof’ANewAstronomicalDiscovery。’Itwaswrittenperhapsintooglowingarhetoricforthetruescientifictoneofmind;buttherewasnodoubtthathisassertionmetwithamoststartlingaptnessallthedifficultieswhichhadaccompaniedthereceivedtheoriesonthephenomenaattendingthosechangeablesunsofmarvelloussystemssofaraway。Itaccountedforthenebulousmistthatsurroundssomeofthemattheirweakesttime;inshort,tookupapositionofprobabilitywhichhasneveryetbeensuccessfullyassailed。
Thepaperswerewrittenintriplicate,andcarefullysealedupwithbluewax。OnecopywasdirectedtoGreenwich,anothertotheRoyalSociety,anothertoaprominentastronomer。Abriefstatementoftheessenceofthediscoverywasalsopreparedfortheleadingdailypaper。
Heconsideredthesedocuments,embodyingastheydidtwoyearsofhisconstantthought,reading,andobservation,tooimportanttobeentrustedforpostingtothehandsofamessenger;tooimportanttobesenttothesub—post—officeathand。Thoughthedaywaswet,drippingwet,hewentonfootwiththemtoachiefoffice,fivemilesoff,andregisteredthem。Quiteexhaustedbythewalk,afterhislongnight—work,wetthrough,yetsustainedbythesenseofagreatachievement,hecalledatabookseller’sfortheastronomicalperiodicalstowhichhesubscribed;then,restingforashorttimeataninn,heploddedhiswayhomewards,readinghispapersashewent,andplanninghowtoenjoyareposeonhislaurelsofaweekormore。
Onhestrolledthroughtherain,holdingtheumbrellaverticallyovertheexposedpagetokeepitdrywhileheread。Suddenlyhiseyewasstruckbyanarticle。ItwasthereviewofapamphletbyanAmericanastronomer,inwhichtheauthorannouncedaconclusivediscoverywithregardtovariablestars。
ThediscoverywaspreciselythediscoveryofSwithinSt。Cleeve。
Anothermanhadforestalledhisfamebyaperiodofaboutsixweeks。
ThentheyouthfoundthatthegoddessPhilosophy,towhomhehadvowedtodedicatehiswholelife,wouldnotinreturnsupporthimthroughasinglehourofdespair。Intruth,theimpishnessofcircumstancewasnewertohimthanitwouldhavebeentoaphilosopherofthreescore—and—ten。Inawildwishforannihilationheflunghimselfdownonapatchofheatherthatlayalittleremovedfromtheroad,andinthishumidbedremainedmotionless,whiletimepassedbyunheeded。
Atlast,fromsheermiseryandweariness,hefellasleep。
TheMarchrainpeltedhimmercilessly,thebeadedmoisturefromtheheavilychargedlocksofheathpenetratedhimthroughbackandsides,andclottedhishairtounsightlytagsandtufts。Whenheawokeitwasdark。Hethoughtofhisgrandmother,andofherpossiblealarmatmissinghim。Onattemptingtorise,hefoundthathecouldhardlybendhisjoints,andthathisclotheswereasheavyasleadfromsaturation。Histeethchatteringandhiskneestremblinghepursuedhiswayhome,wherehisappearanceexcitedgreatconcern。Hewasobligedatoncetoretiretobed,andthenextdayhewasdeliriousfromthechill。
ItwasabouttendaysafterthisunhappyoccurrencethatLadyConstantinelearntthenews,asabovedescribed,andhastenedalongtothehomesteadinthatstateofanguishinwhichtheheartisnolongerunderthecontrolofthejudgment,andself—abandonmenteventoerror,vergesonheroism。
OnreachingthehouseinWellandBottomthedoorwasopenedtoherbyoldHannah,whoworeanassiduouslysorrowfullook;andLadyConstantinewasshownintothelargeroom,——sowidethatthebeamsbentinthemiddle,——whereshetookherseatinoneofamethodicrangeofchairs,beneathaportraitoftheReverendMr。St。Cleeve,herastronomer’serraticfather。
Theeightunwatereddyingplants,intherowofeightflower—pots,denotedthattherewassomethingwronginthehouse。Mrs。Martincamedownstairsfretting,herwonderatbeholdingLadyConstantinenotaltogetherdisplacingthepreviousmoodofgrief。
’Here’saprettykettleoffish,mylady!’sheexclaimed。
LadyConstantinesaid,’Hush!’andpointedinquiringlyupward。
’Heisnotoverhead,mylady,’repliedSwithin’sgrandmother。’Hisbedroomisatthebackofthehouse。’
’Howishenow?’
’Heisbetter,justatthismoment;andwearemorehopeful。Buthechangesso。’
’MayIgoup?Iknowhewouldliketoseeme。’
Herpresencehavingbeenmadeknowntothesufferer,shewasconductedupstairstoSwithin’sroom。Thewaythitherwasthroughthelargechamberhehadusedasastudyandforthemanufactureofopticalinstruments。Therelaythelargepasteboardtelescope,thathadbeenjustsuchafailureasCrusoe’slargeboat;therewerehisdiagrams,maps,globes,andcelestialapparatusofvarioussorts。
Theabsenceoftheworker,throughillnessordeathissufficienttotouchtheprosiestworkshopandtoolswiththehuesofpathos,anditwaswithaswellingbosomthatLadyConstantinepassedthroughthisarenaofhisyouthfulactivitiestothelittlechamberwherehelay。
OldMrs。Martinsatdownbythewindow,andLadyConstantinebentoverSwithin。
’Don’tspeaktome!’shewhispered。’Itwillweakenyou;itwillexciteyou。Ifyoudospeak,itmustbeverysoftly。’
Shetookhishand,andoneirrepressibletearfelluponit。
’Nothingwillexcitemenow,LadyConstantine,’hesaid;’notevenyourgoodnessincoming。MylastexcitementwaswhenIlostthebattle……Doyouknowthatmydiscoveryhasbeenforestalled?
Itisthatthat’skillingme。’
’Butyouaregoingtorecover;youarebetter,theysay。Isitso?’
’IthinkIam,to—day。Butwhocanbesure?’
’Thepoorboywassoupsetatfindingthathislabourhadbeenthrownaway,’saidhisgrandmother,’thathelaydownintherain,andchilledhislifeout。’
’Howcouldyoudoit?’LadyConstantinewhispered。’O,howcouldyouthinksomuchofrenown,andsolittleofme?Why,foreverydiscoverymadetherearetenbehindthatawaitmaking。Tocommitsuicidelikethis,asiftherewerenobodyintheworldtocareforyou!’
’Itwasdoneinmyhaste,andIamvery,verysorryforit!Ibegbothyouandallmyfewfriendsnever,nevertoforgiveme!Itwouldkillmewithself—reproachifyouweretopardonmyrashness!’
Atthismomentthedoctorwasannounced,andMrs。Martinwentdownstairstoreceivehim。LadyConstantinethoughtshewouldremaintohearhisreport,andforthispurposewithdrew,andsatdowninanookoftheadjoiningwork—roomofSwithin,thedoctormeetingherashepassedthroughitintothesickchamber。
Hewasthereatorturinglylongtime;butatlengthhecameouttotheroomshewaitedin,andcrosseditonhiswaydownstairs。Sheroseandfollowedhimtothestairhead。
’Howishe?’sheanxiouslyasked。’Willhegetoverit?’
Thedoctor,notknowingthedepthofherinterestinthepatient,spokewiththebluntcandournaturaltowardsacomparativelyindifferentinquirer。
’No,LadyConstantine,’hereplied;’there’sachangefortheworse。’
Andheretireddownthestairs。
ScarcelyknowingwhatshedidLadyConstantineranbacktoSwithin’sside,flungherselfuponthebedandinaparoxysmofsorrowkissedhim。
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TheplacidinhabitantsoftheparishofWelland,includingwarblingwaggoners,loneshepherds,ploughmen,theblacksmith,thecarpenter,thegardenerattheGreatHouse,thestewardandagent,theparson,clerk,andsoon,werehourlyexpectingtheannouncementofSt。
Cleeve’sdeath。Thesextonhadbeengoingtoseehisbrother—in—
law,ninemilesdistant,butpromptlypostponedthevisitforafewdays,thattheremightbetheregularprofessionalhandpresenttotollthebellinanoteofduefulnessandsolemnity;anattemptbyadeputy,onapreviousoccasionofhisabsence,havingdegeneratedintoamiserablestammeringclangthatwasadisgracetotheparish。
ButSwithinSt。Cleevedidnotdecease,afactofwhich,indeed,thehabituatedreaderwillhavebeenwellawareeversincetheraincamedownupontheyoungmanintheninthchapter,andledtohisalarmingillness。Though,forthatmatter,somanymaimedhistoriesarehourlyenactingthemselvesinthisdun—colouredworldastolendalmostapriorityofinteresttonarrativesconcerningthose’WholaygreatbasesforeternityWhichprovemoreshortthanwasteorruining。’
Howitarosethathedidnotdiewasinthiswise;andhisexampleaffordsanotherinstanceofthatreflexruleofthevassalsouloverthesovereignbody,which,operatingsowonderfullyinelasticnatures,andmoreorlessinall,originallygaverisetothelegendthatsupremacylayontheotherside。
Theeveningofthedayafterthetender,despairing,farewellkissofLadyConstantine,whenhewasalittlelessweakthanduringhervisit,helaywithhisfacetothewindow。Helayalone,quietandresigned。Hehadbeenthinking,sometimesofherandotherfriends,butchieflyofhislostdiscovery。Althoughnearlyunconsciousatthetime,hehadyetbeenawareofthatkiss,asthedelicateflushwhichfollowedituponhischeekwouldhavetold;buthehadattachedlittleimportancetoitasbetweenwomanandman。Hadhebeendyingofloveinsteadofwetweather,perhapstheimpulsiveactofthathandsomeladywouldhavebeenseizedonasaproofthathislovewasreturned。Asitwasherkissseemedbuttheevidenceofanaturallydemonstrativekindliness,felttowardshimchieflybecausehewasbelievedtobeleavingherforever。
Theredsofsunsetpassed,andduskdrewon。OldHannahcameupstairstopulldowntheblindsandassheadvancedtothewindowhesaidtoher,inafaintvoice,’Well,Hannah,whatnewsto—day?’
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