’Whynot?’
’Ithoughtyouhadbetternot,asitdoesnotconcernmefurthernow。Thesolicitorsarelabouringunderamistakeinsupposingthatitdoes。Ihavetowriteatonceandinformthemthattheannuityisnotminetoreceive。’
’Whatastrangemysteryinyourlife!’shesaid,forcingaperplexedsmile。’Somethingtobalancethetragedyinmine。Iamabsolutelyinthedarkastoyourpasthistory,itseems。AndyetIhadthoughtyoutoldmeeverything。’
’Icouldnottellyouthat,Viviette,becauseitwouldhaveendangeredourrelations——thoughnotinthewayyoumaysuppose。
Youwouldhavereprovedme。You,whoaresogenerousandnoble,wouldhaveforbiddenmetodowhatIdid;andIwasdeterminednottobeforbidden。’
’Todowhat?’
’Tomarryyou。’
’WhyshouldIhaveforbidden?’
’MustItell——whatIwouldnot?’hesaid,placinghishandsuponherarms,andlookingsomewhatsadlyather。’Well,perhapsasithascometothisyououghttoknowall,sinceitcanmakenopossibledifferencetomyintentionsnow。Weareoneforever——legalblundersnotwithstanding;forhappilytheyarequicklyreparable——
andthisquestionofadevisefrommyuncleJocelynonlyconcernedmewhenIwasasingleman。’
Thereupon,withobviouslynoconsiderationofthepossibilitiesthatwerereopenedofthenullityoftheirmarriagecontract,herelatedindetail,andnotwithoutmisgivingforhavingconcealedthemsolong,theeventsthathadoccurredonthemorningoftheirwedding—
day;howhehadmetthepostmanonhiswaytoWarborneafterdressinginthecabin,andhowhehadreceivedfromhimtheletterhisdeadunclehadconfidedtohisfamilylawyers,informinghimoftheannuity,andoftheimportantrequestattached——thatheshouldremainunmarrieduntilhisfive—and—twentiethyear;howincomparisonwiththepossessionofherdearselfhehadreckonedtheincomeasnought,abandonedallideaofitthereandthen,andhadcomeontotheweddingasifnothinghadhappenedtointerruptforamomenttheworkingoutoftheirplan;howhehadscarcelythoughtwithanyclosenessofthecircumstancesofthecasesince,untilremindedofthembythisnoteshehadseen,andapreviousoneofalikesortreceivedfromthesamesolicitors。
’OSwithin!Swithin!’shecried,burstingintotearsassherealizeditall,andsinkingontheobserving—chair;’Ihaveruinedyou!yes,Ihaveruinedyou!’
Theyoungmanwasdismayedbyherunexpectedgrief,andendeavouredtosootheher;butsheseemedtouchedbyapoignantremorsewhichwouldnotbecomforted。
’Andnow,’shecontinued,assoonasshecouldspeak,’whenyouareoncemorefree,andinaposition——actuallyinapositiontoclaimtheannuitythatwouldbethemakingofyou,Iamcompelledtocometoyou,andbeseechyoutoundoyourselfagain,merelytosaveme!’
’Nottosaveyou,Viviette,buttoblessme。Youdonotaskmetore—marry;itisnotaquestionofalternativesatall;itismystraightcourse。Idonotdreamofdoingotherwise。IshouldbewretchedifyouthoughtforonemomentIcouldentertaintheideaofdoingotherwise。’
Butthemorehesaidtheworsehemadethematter。Itwasastateofaffairsthatwouldnotbeardiscussionatall,andtheunsophisticatedviewhetookofhiscourseseemedtoincreaseherresponsibility。
’Whydidyouruncleattachsuchacruelconditiontohisbounty?’
shecriedbitterly。’O,helittlethinkshowhardhehitsmefromthegrave——me,whohaveneverdonehimwrong;andyou,too!
Swithin,areyousurethathemakesthatconditionindispensable?
Perhapshemeantthatyoushouldnotmarrybeneathyou;perhapshedidnotmeantoobjectinsuchacaseasyourmarrying(forgivemeforsayingit)alittleaboveyou。’
’Thereisnodoubtthathedidnotcontemplateacasewhichhasledtosuchhappinessasthishasdone,’theyouthmurmuredwithhesitation;forthoughhescarcelyrememberedawordofhisuncle’sletterofadvice,hehadadimapprehensionthatitwascouchedintermsalludingspecificallytoLadyConstantine。
’Areyousureyoucannotretainthemoney,andbemylawfulhusbandtoo?’sheaskedpiteously。’O,whatawrongIamdoingyou!Ididnotdreamthatitcouldbeasbadasthis。IknewIwaswastingyourtimebylettingyouloveme,andhamperingyourprojects;butI
thoughttherewerecompensatingadvantages。ThiswreckingofyourfutureatmyhandsIdidnotcontemplate。Youaresurethereisnoescape?Haveyouhisletterwiththeconditions,orthewill?Letmeseetheletterinwhichheexpresseshiswishes。’
’IassureyouitisallasIsay,’hepensivelyreturned。’EvenifIwerenotlegallyboundbytheconditionsIshouldbemorally。’
’Buthowdoesheputit?Howdoeshejustifyhimselfinmakingsuchaharshrestriction?Doletmeseetheletter,Swithin。Ishallthinkitawantofconfidenceifyoudonot。Imaydiscoversomewayoutofthedifficultyifyouletmelookatthepapers。
Eccentricwillscanbeevadedinallsortsofways。’
Stillhehesitated。’Iwouldratheryoudidnotseethepapers,’hesaid。
Butshepersistedasonlyafondwomancan。Herconvictionwasthatshewho,asawomanmanyyearshissenior,shouldhaveshownherloveforhimbyguidinghimstraightintothepathsheaimedat,hadblockedhisattemptedcareerforherownhappiness。Thismadehermoreintentthanevertofindoutadevicebywhich,whileshestillretainedhim,hemightalsoretainthelife—interestunderhisuncle’swill。
Herentreatieswereatlengthtoopotentforhisresistance。
Accompanyingherdownstairstothecabin,heopenedthedeskfromwhichtheotherpapershadbeentaken,andagainsthisbetterjudgmenthandedhertheominouscommunicationofJocelynSt。Cleevewhichlayintheenvelopejustasithadbeenreceivedthree—
quartersofayearearlier。
’Don’treaditnow,’hesaid。’Don’tspoilourmeetingbyenteringintoasubjectwhichisvirtuallypastanddonewith。Takeitwithyou,andlookitoveratyourleisure——merelyasanoldcuriosity,remember,andnotasastilloperativedocument。Ihavealmostforgottenwhatthecontentsare,beyondthegeneraladviceandstipulationthatIwastoremainabachelor。’
’Atanyrate,’sherejoined,’donotreplytothenoteIhaveseenfromthesolicitorstillIhavereadthisalso。’
Hepromised。’Butnowaboutourpublicwedding,’hesaid。’Likecertainroyalpersonages,weshallhavehadthereligiousriteandthecivilcontractperformedonindependentoccasions。Willyoufixtheday?Whenisittobe?andshallittakeplaceataregistrar’soffice,sincethereisnonecessityforhavingthesacredpartoveragain?’
’I’llthink,’repliedshe。’I’llthinkitover。’
’Andletmeknowassoonasyoucanhowyoudecidetoproceed。’
’Iwillwriteto—morrow,orcome。Idonotknowwhattosaynow。I
cannotforgethowIamwrongingyou。ThisisalmostmorethanIcanbear!’
TodiverthermindhebegantalkingaboutGreenwichObservatory,andthegreatinstrumentstherein,andhowhehadbeenreceivedbytheastronomers,andthedetailsoftheexpeditiontoobservetheTransitofVenus,togetherwithmanyothersubjectsofthesort,towhichshehadnotpowertolendherattention。
’Imustreachhomebeforethepeopleareoutofchurch,’sheatlengthsaidwearily。’IwishnobodytoknowIhavebeenoutthismorning。’AndforbiddingSwithintocrossintotheopeninhercompanyshelefthimontheedgeoftheisolatedplantation,whichhadlatterlyknownhertreadsowell。
XXXV
LadyConstantinecrossedthefieldandtheparkbeyond,andfoundonpassingthechurchthatthecongregationwasstillwithin。Therewasnohurryforgettingindoors,theopenwindowsenablinghertohearthatMr。Torkinghamhadonlyjustgivenouthistext。Soinsteadofenteringthehouseshewentthroughthegarden—doortotheoldbowling—green,andsatdowninthearbourthatLouishadoccupiedwhenheoverheardtheinterviewbetweenSwithinandtheBishop。Notuntilthendidshefindcouragetodrawouttheletterandpapersrelatingtothebequest,whichSwithininacriticalmomenthadhandedtoher。
HadhebeeneversolittleolderhewouldnothaveplacedthatunconsideredconfidenceinViviettewhichhadledhimtogivewaytohercuriosity。Buttheinfluenceoverhimwhicheightornineoutnumberingyearslentherwasimmenselyincreasedbyherhigherpositionandwiderexperiences,andhehadyieldedthepoint,asheyieldedallsocialpoints;whilethesameconditionsexemptedhimfromanydeepconsciousnessthatitwashisdutytoprotectherevenfromherself。
ThepreambleofDr。St。Cleeve’sletter,inwhichhereferredtohispleasureathearingoftheyoungman’spromiseasanastronomer,disturbedhernotatall——indeed,somewhatprepossessedherinfavouroftheoldgentlemanwhohadwrittenit。Thefirstitemofwhathecalled’unfavourablenews,’namely,theallusiontotheinadequacyofSwithin’sincometothewantsofascientificman,whoselinesofworkwerenotcalculatedtoproducepecuniaryemolumentformanyyears,deepenedthecastofherfacetoconcern。
Shereachedtheseconditemoftheso—calledunfavourablenews;andherfaceflushedasshereadhowthedoctorhadlearnt’thattherewassomethinginyourpathworsethannarrowmeans,andthatsomethingisawoman。’
’Tosaveyou,ifpossible,fromruinontheseheads,’shereadon,’Itakethepreventivemeasuresentailedbelow。’
Andthenfollowedtheannouncementofthe600poundsayearsettledontheyouthforlife,onthesingleconditionthatheremainedunmarriedtilltheageoftwenty—five——justasSwithinhadexplainedtoher。Shenextlearntthatthebequestwasforadefiniteobject—
—thathemighthaveresourcessufficienttoenablehimtotravelinaninexpensiveway,andbeginastudyofthesouthernconstellations,which,accordingtotheshrewdoldman’sjudgment,wereaminenotsothoroughlyworkedasthenorthern,andthereforetoberecommended。Thiswasfollowedbysomesentenceswhichhitherinthefacelikeaswitch:——
’Theonlyotherpreventivestepinmypoweristhatofexhortation……SwithinSt。Cleeve,don’tmakeafoolofyourself,asyourfatherdid。Ifyourstudiesaretobeworthanything,believemetheymustbecarriedonwithoutthehelpofawoman。Avoidher,andeveryoneofthesex,ifyoumeantoachieveanyworthything。
Eschewallofthatsortformanyayearyet。Moreover,Isay,theladyofyouracquaintanceavoidinparticular……Shehas,inadditiontoheroriginaldisqualificationasacompanionforyou(thatis,thatofsex),thesetwospecialdrawbacks:sheismucholderthanyourself——’
LadyConstantine’sindignantflushforsookher,andpaledespairsucceededinitsstead。Alas,itwastrue。Handsome,andinherprime,shemightbe;butshewastoooldforSwithin!
’Andsheissoimpoverished……Beyondthis,frankly,Idon’tthinkwellofher。Idon’tthinkwellofanywomanwhodotesuponamanyoungerthanherself……Tocaretobethefirstfancyofayoungfellowlikeyoushowsnogreatcommonsenseinher。Ifshewereworthhersaltshewouldhavetoomuchpridetobeintimatewithayouthinyourunassuredposition,tosaynomore。’
(Viviette’sfacebythistimetingledhotagain。)’Sheisoldenoughtoknowthataliaisonwithhermay,andalmostcertainlywould,beyourruin;and,ontheotherhand,thatamarriagewouldbepreposterous——unlesssheisacompletefool;andinthatcasethereisevenmorereasonforavoidingherthanifshewereinherfewsenses。
’Awomanofhonourablefeeling,nephew,wouldbecarefultodonothingtohinderyouinyourcareer,asthisputtingofherselfinyourwaymostcertainlywill。YetIhearthatsheprofessesagreatanxietyonthissamefutureofyoursasaphysicist。Thebestwayinwhichshecanshowtherealityofheranxietyisbyleavingyoutoyourself。’
Leavinghimtohimself!Shepaledagain,asifchilledbyaconvictionthatinthistheoldmanwasright。
’She’llblabyourmostsecretplansandtheoriestoeveryoneofheracquaintance,andmakeyouappearridiculousbyannouncingthembeforetheyarematured。Ifyouattempttostudywithawoman,you’llberuledbyhertoentertainfanciesinsteadoftheories,air—castlesinsteadofintentions,qualmsinsteadofopinions,sicklyprepossessionsinsteadofreasonedconclusions……
’Anexperiencedwomanwakingayoungman’spassionsjustatamomentwhenheisendeavouringtoshineintellectually,isdoinglittlelessthancommittingacrime。’
Thusmuchtheletter;anditwasenoughforher,indeed。Theflushesofindignationwhichhadpassedoverher,asshegatheredthisman’sopinionofherself,combinedwithflushesofgriefandshamewhensheconsideredthatSwithin——herdearSwithin——wasperfectlyacquaintedwiththiscynicalviewofhernature;that,rejectitashemight,andasheunquestionablydid,suchthoughtsofherhadbeenimplantedinhim,andlayinhim。Stifledastheywere,theylayinhimlikeseedstoodeepforgermination,whichaccidentmightsomedaybringnearthesurfaceandaerateintolife。
Thehumiliationofsuchapossibilitywasalmosttoomuchtoendure;
themortification——shehadknownnothinglikeittillnow。Butthiswasnotall。Theresucceededafeelingincomparisonwithwhichresentmentandmortificationwerehappymoods——amiserableconvictionthatthisoldmanwhospokefromthegravewasnotaltogetherwronginhisspeaking;thathewasonlyhalfwrong;thathewas,perhaps,virtuallyright。Onlythosepersonswhoarebynatureaffectedwiththatreadyesteemforothers’positionswhichinducesanundervaluingoftheirown,fullyexperiencethedeepsmartofsuchconvictionsagainstself——thewishforannihilationthatisengenderedinthemomentofdespair,atfeelingthatatlengthwe,ourbestandfirmestfriend,ceasetobelieveinourcause。
Viviettecouldhearthepeoplecomingoutofchurchontheothersideofthegardenwall。Theirfootstepsandtheircheerfulvoicesdiedaway;thebellrangforlunch;andshewentin。Butherlifeduringthatmorningandafternoonwaswhollyintrospective。Knowingthefullcircumstancesofhissituationassheknewthemnow——asshehadneverbeforeknownthem——oughtshetomakeherselfthelegalwifeofSwithinSt。Cleeve,andsosecureherownhonouratanypricetohim?suchwastheformidablequestionwhichLadyConstantinepropoundedtoherstartledunderstanding。Asasubjectivelyhonestwomanalone,beginninghercharityathome,therewasnodoubtthatsheought。SaveThyselfwassoundOldTestamentdoctrine,andnotaltogetherdiscountenancedintheNew。
Butwastherealineofconductwhichtranscendedmereself—
preservation?andwoulditnotbeanexcellentthingtoputitinpracticenow?
ThatshehadwrongedSt。Cleevebymarryinghim——thatshewouldwronghiminfinitelymorebycompletingthemarriage——therewas,inheropinion,nodoubt。Sheinherexperiencehadsoughtouthiminhisinexperience,andhadledhimlikeachild。Sheremembered——asifithadbeenherfault,thoughitwasinfactonlyhermisfortune—
—thatshehadbeentheonetogoforthelicenseandtakeupresidenceintheparishinwhichtheywerewedded。Hewasnowjustone—and—twenty。Withouther,hehadalltheworldbeforehim,sixhundredayear,andleavetocutasstraightaroadtofameasheshouldchoose:withher,thisstorywasnegatived。
Nomoneyfromhisuncle;nopowerofadvancement;butabondagewithawomanwhosedisparityofyears,thoughimmaterialjustnow,wouldoperateinthefutureasawetblanketuponhissocialambitions;
andthatcontentwithlifeasitwaswhichshehadnoticedmorethanonceinhimlatterly,acontentimperillinghisscientificspiritbyabstractinghiszealforprogress。
Itwasimpossible,inshort,toblindherselftotheinferencethatmarriagewithherhadnotbenefitedhim。Mattersmightimproveinthefuture;buttotakeuponherselfthewholeliabilityofSwithin’slife,asshewoulddobydeprivinghimofthehelphisunclehadoffered,wasafearfulresponsibility。Howcouldshe,anunendowedwoman,replacesuchassistance?HisrecentvisittoGreenwich,whichhadmomentarilyrevivedthatzestforhispursuitthatwasnowlessconstantthanheretofore,shouldbyrightsbesupplementedbyothersuchexpeditions。Itwouldbetruebenevolencenottodeprivehimofmeanstocontinuethem,soastokeephisardouralive,regardlessofthecosttoherself。
Itcouldbedone。BytheextraordinaryfavourofauniqueaccidentshehadnowanopportunityofredeemingSwithin’sseriouslycompromisedfuture,andrestoringhimtoastatenoworsethanhisfirst。Hisannuitycouldbeenjoyedbyhim,histravelsundertaken,hisstudiespursued,hishighvocationinitiated,byonelittlesacrifice——thatofherself。Sheonlyhadtorefusetolegalizetheirmarriage,topartfromhimforever,andallwouldbewellwithhimthenceforward。Thepaintohimwouldafterallbebutslight,whateveritmightbetohiswretchedViviette。
Theineptnessofretaininghimathersidelaynotonlyinthefactitselfofinjurytohim,butinthelikelihoodofhislivingtoseeitassuch,andreproachingherforselfishnessinnotlettinghimgointhisunprecedentedopportunityforcorrectingamoveprovedtobefalse。Hewishedtoexaminethesouthernheavens——perhapshisuncle’sletterwasthefatherofthewish——andtherewasnotellingwhatgoodmightnotresulttomankindatlargefromhisexploitsthere。Whyshouldshe,tosavehernarrowhonour,wastethewidepromiseofhisability?
Thatinimmolatingherselfbyrefusinghim,andleavinghimfreetoworkwondersforthegoodofhisfellow—creatures,shewouldinallprobabilityaddtothesumofhumanfelicity,consoledherbyitsbreadthasanideaevenwhileittorturedherbymakingherselfthescapegoatorsingleunitonwhomtheevilwouldfall。Oughtapossiblylargenumber,Swithinincluded,toremainunbenefitedbecausetheoneindividualtowhomhisreleasewouldbeaninjurychancedtobeherself?Lovebetweenmanandwoman,whichinHomer,Moses,andotherearlyexhibitorsoflife,ismeredesire,hadforcenturiespastsofarbroadenedastoincludesympathyandfriendship;surelyitshouldinthisadvancedstageoftheworldincludebenevolencealso。Ifso,itwasherdutytosetheryoungmanfree。
Thusshelaboured,withagenerositymoreworthyeventhanitsobject,tosinkherloveforherowndecorumindevotiontotheworldingeneral,andtoSwithininparticular。Tocounselheractivitiesbyherunderstanding,ratherthanbyheremotionsasusual,washardworkforatenderwoman;butshestrovehard,andmadeadvance。Theself—centredattitudenaturaltooneinhersituationwasbecomingdisplacedbythesympatheticattitude,which,thoughithadtobeartificiallyfosteredatfirst,gaveher,bydegrees,acertainsweetsensethatshewasrisingaboveself—love。
Thatmaternalelementwhichhadfromtimetotimeevinceditselfinheraffectionfortheyouth,andwasimpartedbyhersuperiorripenessinexperienceandyears,appearednowagain,asshedrewnearertheresolvenottosecureproprietyinherownsocialconditionattheexpenseofthisyouth’searthlyutility。
Unexpectedlygrandfruitsaresometimesforcedforthbyharshpruning。TheilliberalletterofSwithin’sunclewassuggestingtoLadyConstantineanaltruismwhosethoroughnesswouldprobablyhaveamazedthatqueeroldgentlemanintoawithdrawaloftheconditionsthathadinducedit。ToloveSt。Cleevesofarbetterthanherselfasthiswastosurpasstheloveofwomenasconventionallyunderstood,andasmostlyexisting。
Before,however,clinchingherdecisionbyanydefinitestepsheworriedherlittlebrainbydevisingeverykindofingeniousscheme,inthehopeoflightingononethatmightshowherhowthatdecisioncouldbeavoidedwiththesamegoodresult。Buttosecureforhimtheadvantagesoffered,andtoretainhimlikewise;reflectiononlyshowedittobeimpossible。
YettolethimgoFOREVERwasmorethanshecouldendure,andatlengthshejumpedatanideawhichpromisedsomesortofimprovementonthatdesign。Shewouldproposethatreunionshouldnotbeentirelyabandoned,butsimplypostponed——namely,tillafterhistwenty—fifthbirthday——whenhemightbeherhusbandwithout,atanyrate,thelosstohimoftheincome。Bythistimehewouldapproximatetoaman’sfulljudgment,andthatpainfulaspectofherasonewhohaddeludedhisrawimmaturitywouldhavepassedforever。
Theplansomewhatappeasedherdisquietedhonour。Toletamarriagesinkintoabeyanceforfourorfiveyearswasnottonullifyit;andthoughshewouldleaveittohimtomoveitssubstantiationattheendofthattime,withoutpresentstipulations,shehadnotmuchdoubtupontheissue。
Theclockstruckfive。Thissilentmentaldebatehadoccupiedherwholeafternoon。Perhapsitwouldnothaveendednowbutforanunexpectedincident——theentryofherbrotherLouis。Hecameintotheroomwhereshewassitting,orratherwrithing,andafterafewwordstoexplainhowhehadgotthereandaboutthemistakeinthedateofSirBlount’sdeath,hewalkedupclosetoher。Hisnextremarkswereapologeticinform,butinessencetheywerebitternessitself。
’Viviette,’hesaid,’IamsorryformyhastywordstoyouwhenI
lastleftthishouse。Ireadilywithdrawthem。Mysuspicionstookawrongdirection。IthinknowthatIknowthetruth。YouhavebeenevenmadderthanIsupposed!’
’Inwhatway?’sheaskeddistantly。
’Ilatelythoughtthatunhappyyoungmanwasonlyyourtoo—favouredlover。’
’Youthoughtwrong:heisnot。’
’Heisnot——Ibelieveyou——forheismore。Inowampersuadedthatheisyourlawfulhusband。Canyoudenyit!’
’Ican。’
’Onyoursacredword!’
’Onmysacredwordheisnotthateither。’
’Thankheavenforthatassurance!’saidLouis,exhalingabreathofrelief。’IwasnotsopositiveasIpretendedtobe——butIwantedtoknowthetruthofthismystery。SinceyouarenotfetteredtohiminthatwayIcarenothing。’
Louisturnedaway;andthataffordedheranopportunityforleavingtheroom。Thosefewwordswerethelastgrainsthathadturnedthebalance,andsettledherdoom。
ShewouldletSwithingo。Allthevoicesinherworldseemedtoclamourforthatconsummation。Themorning’smortification,theafternoon’sbenevolence,andtheevening’sinstinctsofevasionhadjoinedtocarrythepoint。
Accordinglyshesatdown,andwrotetoSwithinasummaryofthethoughtsabovedetailed。
’Weshallseparate,’sheconcluded。’Youtoobeyyouruncle’sordersandexplorethesouthernskies;Itowaitasonewhocanimplicitlytrustyou。Donotseemeagaintilltheyearshaveexpired。Youwillfindmestillthesame。Iamyourwifethroughalltime;theletterofthelawisnotneededtoreassertitatpresent;whiletheabsenceofthelettersecuresyourfortune。’
NothingcanexpresswhatitcostLadyConstantinetomarshalherarguments;butshedidit,andvanquishedself—comfortbyasenseofthegeneralexpediency。Itmayunhesitatinglybeaffirmedthattheonlyignoblereasonwhichmighthavedictatedsuchastepwasnon—
existent;thatistosay,aseriousdeclineinheraffection。
Tenderlyshehadlovedtheyouthatfirst,andtenderlyshelovedhimnow,astimeandherafter—conductproved。
Womenthemostdelicategetusedtostrangemoralsituations。EveprobablyregainedhernormalsweetcomposureaboutaweekaftertheFall。OnfirstlearningofheranomalouspositionLadyConstantinehadblushedhot,andherpureinstinctshadpromptedhertolegalizehermarriagewithoutamoment’sdelay。Heavenandearthweretobemovedatoncetoeffectit。Dayafterdayhadpassed;herunionhadremainedunsecured,andtheideaofitsnullityhadgraduallyceasedtobestrangetoher;tillitbecameoflittleaccountbesideherboldresolvefortheyoungman’ssake。
XXXVI
TheimmediateeffectuponSt。Cleeveofthereceiptofherwell—
reasonedargumentforretrocessionwas,naturally,abitterattackuponhimselfforhavingbeenguiltyofsuchcruelcarelessnessastoleaveinherwaythelawyer’sletterthathadfirstmadeherawareofhisuncle’sprovisionforhim。Immatureashewas,hecouldrealizeViviette’spositionsufficientlywelltoperceivewhatthepoorladymustsufferathavingsuddenlythrustuponhertheresponsibilityofrepairingherownsituationasawifebyruininghisasalegatee。True,itwasbythepurestinadvertencethathispendingsacrificeofmeanshadbeendiscovered;butheshouldhavetakenspecialpainstorendersuchamishapimpossible。Ifonthefirstoccasion,whenarevelationmighthavebeenmadewithimpunity,hewouldnotputitinthepowerofhergoodnaturetorelievehispositionbyrefusinghim,heshouldhaveshowndoublecarenottodosonow,whenshecouldnotexercisethatbenevolencewithoutthelossofhonour。
Withayoungman’sinattentiontoissueshehadnotconsideredhowsharpherfeelingsasawomanmustbeinthiscontingency。Ithadseemedtheeasiestthingintheworldtoremedythedefectintheirmarriage,andthereforenothingtobeanxiousabout。Andinhisinnocenceofanythoughtofappropriatingthebequestbytakingadvantageoftheloopholeinhismatrimonialbond,heundervaluedtheimportanceofconcealingtheexistenceofthatbequest。
TheloomingfearofunhappinessbetweenthemrevivedinSwithinthewarmemotionsoftheirearlieracquaintance。AlmostbeforethesunhadsethehastenedtoWellandHouseinsearchofher。Theairwasdisturbedbystiffsummerblasts,productiveofwindfallsandprematuredescentsofleafage。Itwasanhourwhenunripeapplesshowerdowninorchards,andunbrownedchestnutsdescendintheirhusksupontheparkglades。Therewasnohelpforitthisafternoonbuttocalluponherinadirectmanner,regardlessofsuspicions。
Hewasthunderstruckwhen,whilewaitinginthefullexpectationofbeingadmittedtoherpresence,theanswerbroughtbacktohimwasthatshewasunabletoseehim。
Thishadneverhappenedbeforeinthewholecourseoftheiracquaintance。Butheknewwhatitmeant,andturnedawaywithavaguedisquietude。HedidnotknowthatLadyConstantinewasjustabovehishead,listeningtohismovementswiththeliveliestemotions,and,whileprayingforhimtogo,longingforhimtoinsistonseeingherandspoilall。Butthefaintestsymptombeingalwayssufficienttoconvincehimofhavingblundered,heunwittinglytookheratherword,andwentrapidlyaway。
However,hecalledagainthenextday,andshe,havinggainedstrengthbyonevictoryoverherself,wasenabledtorepeatherrefusalwithgreaterease。Knowingthistobetheonlycoursebywhichherpointcouldbemaintained,sheclungtoitwithstrenuousandreligiouspertinacity。
Thusimmuredandself—controllingshepassedaweek。Herbrother,thoughhedidnotliveinthehouse(preferringthenearestwatering—placeatthistimeoftheyear),wascontinuallycomingthere;andonedayhehappenedtobepresentwhenshedeniedherselftoSwithinforthethirdtime。Louis,whodidnotobservethetearsinhereyes,wasastonishedanddelighted:shewascomingtohersensesatlast。Believingnowthattherehadbeennothingmorebetweenthemthanatoo—plainlyshownpartialityonherpart,heexpressedhiscommendationofherconducttoherface。Atthis,insteadofowningtoitsadvantagealso,hertearsburstforthoutright。
Notknowingwhattomakeofthis,Louissaid——
’Well,Iamsimplyupholdingyouinyourcourse。’
’Yes,yes;Iknowit!’shecried。’Anditismydeliberatelychosencourse。Iwishhe——SwithinSt。Cleeve——wouldgoonhistravelsatonce,andleavetheplace!Sixhundredayearhasbeenlefthimfortravelandstudyofthesouthernconstellations;andIwishhewoulduseit。Youmightrepresenttheadvantagetohimofthecourseifyoucaredto。’
LouisthoughthecoulddonobetterthanletSwithinknowthisassoonaspossible。AccordinglywhenSt。Cleevewaswritinginthehutthenextdayheheardthecrackleoffootstepsoverthefir—
needlesoutside,andjumpedup,supposingthemtobehers;but,tohisdisappointment,itwasherbrotherwhoappearedatthedoor。
’Excusemyinvadingthehermitage,St。Cleeve,’hesaidinhiscarelessway,’butIhaveheardfrommysisterofyourgoodfortune。’
’Mygoodfortune?’
’Yes,inhavinganopportunityforroving;andwithatraveller’sconceitIcouldn’thelpcomingtogiveyouthebenefitofmyexperience。Whendoyoustart?’
’Ihavenotformedanyplanasyet。Indeed,Ihadnotquitebeenthinkingofgoing。’
Louisstared。
’Notgoing?ThenImayhavebeenmisinformed。WhatIhaveheardisthatagoodunclehaskindlybequeathedyouasufficientincometomakeasecondIsaacNewtonofyou,ifyouonlyuseitashedirects。’
Swithinbreathedquickly,butsaidnothing。
’Ifyouhavenotdecidedsotomakeuseofit,letmeimploreyou,asyourfriend,andonenearlyoldenoughtobeyourfather,todecideatonce。Suchachancedoesnothappentoascientificyouthonceinacentury。’
’Thankyouforyourgoodadvice——foritisgoodinitself,Iknow,’
saidSwithin,inalowvoice。’ButhasLadyConstantinespokenofitatall?’
’ShethinksasIdo。’
’Shehasspokentoyouonthesubject?’
’Certainly。Morethanthat;itisatherrequest——thoughIdidnotintendtosayso——thatIcometospeaktoyouaboutitnow。’
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