首页 >出版文学> The Secret Sharer>第4章
  InthesetermsdidMrVerlocdeclarehisthirstforrevenge。Itwasaveryappropriaterevenge。ItwasinharmonywiththepromptingsofMrVerloc’sgenius。Ithadalsotheadvantageofbeingwithintherangeofhispowersandofadjustingitselfeasilytothepracticeofhislife,whichhadconsistedpreciselyinbetrayingthesecretandunlawfulproceedingsofhisfellowmen。Anarchistsordiplomatswereallonetohim。MrVerlocwastemperamentallynorespecterofpersons。Hisscornwasequallydistributedoverthewholefieldofhisoperations。Butasamemberofarevolutionaryproletariat—whichheundoubtedlywas—henourishedaratherinimicalsentimentagainstsocialdistinction。
  `Nothingonearthcanstopmenow,’headded,andpaused,lookingfixedlyathiswife,whowaslookingfixedlyatablankwall。
  Thesilenceinthekitchenwasprolonged,andMrVerlocfeltdisappointed。
  Hehadexpectedhiswifetosaysomething。ButMrsVerloc’slips,composedintheirusualform,preservedastatuesqueimmobilityliketherestofherface。AndMrVerlocwasdisappointed。Yettheoccasiondidnot,herecognized,demandspeechfromher。Shewasawomanofveryfewwords。
  Forreasonsinvolvedintheveryfoundationofhispsychology。,MrVerlocwasinclinedtoputhistrustinanywomanwhohadgivenherselftohim。
  Thereforehetrustedhiswife。Theiraccordwasperfect,butitwasnotprecise。Itwasatacitaccord,congenialtoMrsVerloc’sincuriosityandtoMrVerloc’shabitsofmind,whichwereindolentandsecret。Theyrefrainedfromgoingtothebottomoffactsandmotives。
  Thisreserve,expressing,inaway,theirprofoundconfidenceineachother,introducedatthesametimeacertainelementofvaguenessintotheirintimacy。Nosystemofconjugalrelationsisperfect。MrVerlocpresumedthathiswifehadunderstoodhimbuthewouldhavebeengladtohearhersaywhatshethoughtatthemoment。Itwouldhavebeenacomfort。
  Therewereseveralreasonswhythiscomfortwasdeniedhim。Therewasaphysicalobstacle:MrsVerlochadnotsufficientcommandoverhervoice。
  Shedidnotseeanyalternativebetweenscreamingandsilence,andinstinctivelyshechosethesilence。WinnieVerlocwastemperamentallyasilentperson。
  Andtherewastheparalysingatrocityofthethoughtwhichoccupiedher。
  Hercheekswereblanched,herlipsashy,herimmobilityamazing。AndshethoughtwithoutlookingatMrVerloc:`Thismantooktheboyawaytomurderhim。Hetooktheboyfromhishometomurderhim。Hetooktheboyawayfrommetomurderhim!’
  MrsVerloc’swholebeingwasrackedbythatinconclusiveandmaddeningthought。Itwasinherveins,inherbones,intherootsofherhair。Mentallysheassumedthebiblicalattitudeofmourning—thecoveredface,therentgarments;thesoundofwailingandlamentationfilledherhead。Butherteethwereviolentlyclenched,andhertearlesseyeswerehotwithrage,becauseshewasnotasubmissivecreature。Theprotectionshehadextendedoverherbrotherhadbeeninitsoriginofafierceandindignantcomplexion。
  Shehadtolovehimwithamilitantlove。Shehadbattledforhim—evenagainstherself。Hislosshadthebitternessofdefeat,withtheanguishofabaffledpassion。Itwasnotanordinarystrokeofdeath。Moreover,itwasnotdeaththattookSteviefromher。ItwasMrVerlocwhotookhimaway。Shehadseenhim。Shehadwatchedhim,withoutraisingahand,taketheboyaway。Andshehadlethimgo,like—likeafool—ablindfool。
  Thenafterhehadmurderedtheboyhecamehometoher。Justcamehomelikeanyothermanwouldcomehometohiswife……
  ThroughhersetteethMrsVerlocmutteredatthewall:`AndIthoughthehadcaughtacold。’MrVerlocheardthesewordsandappropriatedthem。
  `Itwasnothing,’hesaid,moodily。`Iwasupset。Iwasupsetonyouraccount。
  MrsVerloc,turningherheadslowly,transferredherstarefromthewalltoherhusband’sperson。MrVerloc,withthetipsofhisfingersbetweenhislips,waslookingontheground。
  `Can’tbehelped,’hemumbled,lettinghishandfall。`Youmustpullyourselftogether。You’llwantallyourwitsaboutyou。Itisyouwhobroughtthepoliceaboutourears。Nevermind,Iwon’tsayanythingmoreaboutit,’continuedMrVerloc,magnanimously。`Youcouldn’tknow。’
  `Icouldn’t,’breathedoutMrsVerloc。Itwasasifacorpsehadspoken。
  MrVerloctookupthethreadofhisdiscourse。
  `Idon’tblameyou。I’llmakethemsitup。Onceunderlockandkeyitwillbesafeenoughformetotalk—youunderstand。Youmustreckononmebeingtwoyearsawayfromyou,’hecontinued,inatoneofsincereconcern。
  `Itwillbeeasierforyouthanforme。You’llhavesomethingtodo,whileI—Lookhere,Winnie,whatyoumustdoistokeepthisbusinessgoingfortwoyears。Youknowenoughforthat。You’veagoodheadonyou。I’llsendyouwordwhenit’stimetogoabouttryingtosell。You’llhavetobeextracareful。Thecomradeswillbekeepinganeyeonyouallthetime。
  You’llhavetobeasartfulasyouknowhow,andascloseasthegrave。
  Noonemustknowwhatyouaregoingtodo。IhavenomindtogetaknockontheheadorastabinthebackdirectlyIamletout。’
  ThusspokeMrVerloc,applyinghismindwithingenuityandforethoughttotheproblemsofthefuture。Hisvoicewassombre,becausehehadacorrectsentimentofthesituation。Everythingwhichhedidnotwishtopasshadcometopass。Thefuturehadbecomeprecarious。Hisjudgement,perhaps,hadbeenmomentarilyobscuredbyhisdreadofMrVladimir’struculentfolly。
  Amansomewhatoverfortymaybeexcusablythrownintoconsiderabledisorderbytheprospectoflosinghisemployment,especiallyifthemanisasecretagentofpoliticalpolice,dwellingsecureintheconsciousnessofhishighvalueandintheesteemofhighpersonages。Hewasexcusable。
  Nowthethinghadendedinacrash。MrVerlocwascool;buthewasnotcheerful。Asecretagentwhothrowshissecrecytothewindsfromdesireofvengeance,andflauntshisachievementsbeforethepubliceye,becomesthemarkfordesperateandbloodthirstyindignations。Withoutundulyexaggeratingthedanger,MrVerloctriedtobringitclearlybeforehiswife’smind。
  Herepeatedthathehadnointentionoflettingtherevolutionistsdoawaywithhim。
  Helookedstraightintohiswife’seyes。Theenlargedpupilsofthewomanreceivedhisstareintotheirunfathomabledepths。
  `Iamtoofondofyouforthat,’hesaid,withalittlenervouslaugh。
  AfaintflushcolouredMrsVerloc’sghastlyandmotionlessface。Havingdonewiththevisionsofthepast,shehadnotonlyheard,buthadalsounderstoodthewordsutteredbyherhusband。Bytheirextremedisaccordwithhermentalconditionthesewordsproducedonheraslightlysuffocatingeffect。MrsVerloc’smentalconditionhadthemeritofsimplicity;butitwasnotsound。Itwasgovernedtoomuchbyafixedidea。Everynookandcrannyofherbrainwasfilledwiththethoughtthatthisman,withwhomshehadlivedwithoutdistasteforsevenyears,hadtakenthe`poorboy’awayfromherinordertokillhim—themantowhomshehadgrownaccustomedinbodyandmind;themanwhomshehadtrusted,tooktheboyawaytokillhim!Initsform,initssubstance,initseffect,whichwasuniversal,alteringeventheaspectofinanimatethings,itwasathoughttositstillandmarvelatforeverandever。MrsVerlocsatstill。Andacrossthatthought(notacrossthekitchen)theformofMrVerlocwenttoandfro,familiarlyinhatandovercoat,stampingwithhisbootsuponherbrain。Hewasprobablytalking,too;butMrsVerloc’sthoughtforthemostpartcoveredthevoice。
  Nowandthen,however,thevoicewouldmakeitselfheard。Severalconnectedwordsemergedattimes。Theirpurportwasgenerallyhopeful。OneachoftheseoccasionsMrsVerloc’sdilatedpupils,losingtheirfar—offfixity,followedherhusband’smovementswiththeeffectofblackcareandimpenetrableattention。Wellinformeduponallmattersrelatingtohissecretcalling,MrVerlocauguredwellforthesuccessofhisplansandcombinations。Hereallybelievedthatitwouldbeuponthewholeeasyforhimtoescapetheknifeofinfuriatedrevolutionists。Hehadexaggeratedthestrengthoftheirfuryandthelengthoftheirarm(forprofessionalpurposes)toooftentohavemanyillusionsonewayortheotter。Fortoexaggeratewithjudgementonemustbinbymeasuringwithnicety。Heknewalsohowmuchvirtueandhowmuchinfamyisforgottenintwoyears—twolongyears。
  Hisfirstreallyconfidentialdiscoursetohiswifewasoptimisticfromconviction。Healsothoughtitgoodpolicytodisplayalltheassurancehecouldmuster。Itwouldputheartintothepoorwoman。Onhisliberation,whichharmonizingwiththewholetenorofhislife,wouldbesecret,ofcourse,theywouldvanishtogetherwithoutlossoftime。Astocoveringupthetracks,hebeggedhiswifetotrusthimforthat。Heknewhowitwastobedonesothatthedevilhimself——
  Hewavedhishand。Heseemedtoboast。Hewishedonlytoputheartintoher。Itwasabenevolentintention,butMrVerlochadthemisfortunenottobeinaccordwithhisaudience。
  Theself—confidenttonegrewuponMrsVerloc’searwhichletmostofthewordsgoby;forwhatwerewordstohernow?Whatcouldwordsdotoherforgoodorevilinthefaceofherfixedidea?Herblackglancefollowedthatmanwhowasassertinghisimpunity—themanwhohadtakenpoorSteviefromhometokillhimsomewhere。MrsVerloccouldnotrememberexactlywhere,butherheartbegantobeatveryperceptibly。
  MrVerloc,inasoftandconjugaltone,wasnowexpressinghisfirmbeliefthattherewereyetagoodfewyearsofquietlifebeforethemboth。
  Hedidnotgointothequestionofmeans。Aquietlifeitmustbeand,asitwere,nestlingintheshade,concealedamongmenwhosefleshisgrass;
  modest,likethelifeofviolets。ThewordsusedbyMrVerlocwere:`Lielowforabit。’AndfarfromEngland,ofcourse。ItwasnotclearwhetherMrVerlochadinhismindSpainorSouthAmerica;butatanyratesomewhereabroad。
  Thislastword,fallingintoMrsVerloc’sear,producedadefiniteimpression。
  Thismanwastalkingofgoingabroad。Theimpressionwascompletelydisconnected;
  andsuchistheforceofmentalhabitthatMrsVerlocatonceandautomaticallyaskedherself:`AndwhatofStevie?’
  Itwasasortofforgetfulness;butinstantlyshebecameawarethattherewasnolongeranyoccasionforanxietyonthatscore。Therewouldneverbeanyoccasionanymore。Thepoorboyhadbeentakenoutandkilled。
  Thepoorboywasdead。
  ThisshakingpieceofforgetfulnessstimulatedMrsVerloc’sintelligence。
  ShebegantoperceivecertainconsequenceswhichwouldhavesurprisedMrVerloc。Therewasnoneedforhernowtostaythere,inthatkitchen,inthathouse,withthatman—sincetheboywasgoneforever。Noneedwhatever。
  AndonthatMrsVerlocroseasifraisedbyaspring。Butneithercouldsheseewhattherewastokeepherintheworldatall。Andthisinabilityarrested,her。MrVerlocwatchedherwithmaritalsolicitude。
  `You’relookingmorelikeyourself,’hesaid,uneasily。Somethingpeculiarintheblacknessofhiswife’seyesdisturbedhisoptimism。AtthatprecisemomentMrsVerlocbegantolookuponherselfasreleasedfromallearthlyties。Shehadherfreedom。Hercontractwithexistence,asrepresentedbythatmanstandingoverthere,wasatanend。Shewasafreewoman。HadthisviewbecomeinsomewayperceptibletoMrVerlochewouldhavebeenextremelyshocked。InhisaffairsoftheheartMrVerlochadbeenalwayscarelesslygenerous,yetalwayswignootherideathanthatofbeinglovedforhimself。Uponthismatter,hisethicalnotionsbeinginagreementwithhisvanity,hewascompletelyincorrigible。Thatthisshouldbesointhecaseofhisvirtuousandlegalconnectionhewasperfectlycertain。Hehadgrownolder,fatter,heavier,inthebeliefthathelackednofascinationforbeinglovedforhisownsake。WhenhesawMrsVerlocstartingtowalkoutofthekitchenwithoutawordhewasdisappointed。
  `Whereareyougoingto?’hecalledoutrathersharply。`Upstairs?’
  MrsVerlocinthedoorwayturnedatthevoice。Aninstinctofprudencebornoffear,theexcessivefearofbeingapproachedandtouchedbythatman,inducedhertonodathimslightly(fromtheheightoftwosteps],withastirofthelipswhichtheconjugaloptimismofMrVerloctookforawananduncertainsmile。
  `That’sright,’heencouragedhergruffly。`Restandquiet’swhatyouwant。Goon。Itwon’tbelongbeforeIamwithyou。’
  MrsVerloc,thefreewomanwhohadhadreallynoideawhereshewasgoingto,obeyedthesuggestionwithrigidsteadiness。
  MrVerlocwatchedher。Shedisappearedupthestairs。Hewasdisappointed。
  Therewasthatwithinhimwhichwouldhavebeenmoresatisfiedifshehadbeenmovedtothrowherselfuponhisbreast。Buthewasgenerousandindulgent。
  Winniewasalwaysundemonstrativeandsilent。NeitherwasMrVerlochimselfprodigalofendearmentsandwordsasarule。Butthiswasnotanordinaryevening。Itwasanoccasionwhenamanwantstobefortifiedandstrengthenedbyopenproofsofsympathyandaffection。MrVerlocsighed,andputoutthegasinthekitchen。MrVerloc’ssympathywithhiswifewasgenuineandintense。Italmostbroughttearsintohiseyesashestoodintheparlourreflectingonthelonelinesshangingoverherhead。InthismoodMrVerlocmissedStevieverymuchoutofadifficultworld。Hethoughtmournfullyofhisend。Ifonlythatladhadnotstupidlydestroyedhimself!
  Thesensationofunappeasablehunger,notunknownafterthestrainofahazardousenterprisetoadventurersoftougherfibrethanMrVerloc,overcamehimagain。Thepieceofroastbeef,laidoutinthelikenessoffunerealbakedmeatsforStevie’sobsequies,offereditselflargelytohisnotice。AndMrVerlocagainpartook。Hepartookravenously,withoutrestraintanddecency,cuttingthicksliceswiththesharpcarvingknife,andswallowingthemwithoutbread。InthecourseofthatrefectionitoccurredtoMrVerlocthathewasnothearinghiswifemoveaboutinthebedroomasheshouldhavedone。ThethoughtoffindingherperhapssittingonthebedinthedarknotonlycutMrVerloc’sappetite,butalsotookfromhimtheinclinationtofollowherupstairsjustyet。Layingdownthecarvingknife,MrVerloclistenedwithcarewornattention。
  Hewascomfortedbyhearinghermoveatlast。Shewalkedsuddenlyacrosstheroom,andthrewthewindowup。Afteraperiodofstillnessupthere,duringwhichhefiguredhertohimselfwithherheadout,heheardthesashbeingloweredslowly。Thenshemadeafewsteps,andsatdown。EveryresonanceofthishousewasfamiliartoMrVerloc,whowasthoroughlydomesticated。
  Whennextheheardhiswife’sfootstepsoverheadheknew,aswellasifhehadseenherdoingit,thatshehadbeenputtingonherwalkingshoes。
  MrVerlocwriggledhisshouldersslightlyatthisominoussymptom,andmovingawayfromthetable,stoodwithhisbacktothefireplace,hisheadononeside,andgnawingperplexedlyatthetipsofhisfingers。Hekepttrackofhermovementsbythesound。Shewalkedhereandthereviolently,withabruptstoppages,nowbeforethechestofdrawers,theninfrontofthewardrobe。Animmenseloadofweariness,theharvestofadayofshocksandsurprises,weighedMrVerloc’senergiestotheground。
  Hedidnotraisehiseyestillheheardhiswifedescendingthestairs。
  Itwasashehadguessed,shewasdressedforgoingout。
  MrsVerlocwasafreewoman。ShehadthrownopenthewindowofthebedroomeitherwiththeintentionofscreamingMurder!Help!orofthrowingherselfout。Forshedidnotexactlyknowwhatusetomakeofherfreedom。Herpersonalityseemedtohavebeentornintotwopieces,whosementaloperationsdidnotadjustthemselvesverywelltoeachother。Thestreet,silentanddesertedfromendtoend,repelledherbytakingsideswiththatmanwhowassocertainofhisimpunity。Shewasafraidtoshoutlestnooneshouldcome。Obviouslynoonewouldcome。Herinstinctofself—preservationrecoiledfromthedepthofthefallintothatsortofslimy,deeptrench。MrsVerlocclosedthewindow,anddressedherselftogooutintothestreetbyanotherway。Shewasafreewoman。Shehaddressedherselfthoroughly,downtothetyingofablackveiloverherface。Assheappearedbeforehiminthelightoftheparlour,MrVerlocobservedthatshehadevenherlittlehandbaghangingfromherleftwrist……Flyingofftohermother,ofcourse。
  Thethoughtthatwomenwerewearisomecreaturesafterallpresenteditselftohisfatiguedbrain。Buthewastoogeneroustoharbouritformorethananinstant。Thisman,hurtcruellyinhisvanity,remainedmagnanimousinhisconduct,allowinghimselfnosatisfactionofabittersmileorofacontemptuousgesture。Withtruegreatnessofsoul,heonlyglancedatthewoodenclockonthewall,andsaidinaperfectlycalmbutforciblemanner:
  `Fiveandtwentyminutespasteight,Winnie。There’snosenseingoingovertheresolate。Youwillnevermanagetogetbacktonight。’
  BeforehisextendedhandMrsVerlochadstoppedshort。Headded,heavily:
  `Yourmotherwillbegonetobedbeforeyougetthere。Thisisthesortofnewsthatcanwait。’
  NothingwasfurtherfromMrsVerloc’sthoughtsthangoingtohermother。
  Sherecoiledatthemereidea,andfeelingachairbehindher,sheobeyedthesuggestionofthetouch,andsatdown。Herintentionhadbeensimplytogetoutsidethedoorforever。Andifthisfeelingwascorrect,itsmentalformtookanunrefinedshapecorrespondingtoheroriginandstation。
  `Iwouldratherwalkthestreetsallthedaysofmylife,’shethought。
  Butthiscreature,whosemoralnaturehadbeensubjectedtoashockofwhich,inthephysicalorder,themostviolentearthquakeofhistorycouldonlybeafaintandlanguidrendering,wasatthemercyofmeretrifles,ofcasualcontacts。Shesatdown。Withherhatandveilshehadtheairofavisitor,ofhavinglookedinonMrVerlocforamoment。Herinstantdocilityencouragedhim,whilstheraspectofonlytemporaryandsilentacquiescenceprovokedhimalittle。
  `Letmetellyou,Winnie,’hesaidwithauthority,`thatyourplaceisherethisevening。Hangitall!youbroughtthedamnedpolicehighandlowaboutmyears。Idon’tblameyou—butit’syourdoingallthesame。
  You’dbettertakethisconfoundedhatoff。Ican’tletyougoout,oldgirl,’headdedinasoftenedvoice。
  MrsVerloc’smindgotholdofthatdeclarationwithmorbidtenacity。
  `ThemanwhohadtakenStevieoutfromunderherveryeyestomurderhiminalocalitywhosenamewasatthemomentnotpresenttohermemorywouldnotallowhertogoout。Ofcoursehewouldn’t。NowhehadmurderedSteviehewouldneverlethergo。Hewouldwanttokeepherfornothing。Andonthischaracteristicreasoning,havingalltheforceofinsanelogic,MrsVerloc’sdisconnectedwitswenttoworkpractically。Shecouldslipbyhim,openthedoor,runout。Buthewoulddashoutafterher,seizeherroundthebody,dragherbackintotheshop。Shecouldscratch,kick,andbite—andstab,too;butforstabbingshewantedaknife。MrsVerlocsatstillunderherblackveil,inherownhouse,likeamaskedandmysteriousvisitorofimpenetrableintentions。
  MrVerloc’smagnanimitywasnotmorethanhuman。Shehadexasperatedhimatlast。
  `Can’tyousaysomething?Youhaveyourowndodgesforvexingaman。
  Oh,yes!Iknowyourdeaf—and—dumbtrick。I’veseenyouatitbeforetoday。
  Butjustnowitwon’tdo。Andtobeginwith,takethisdamnedthingoff。
  Onecan’ttellwhetheroneistalkingtoadummyortoalivewoman。’
  Headvanced,andstretchingouthishand,draggedtheveiloff,unmaskingastillunreadableface,againstwhichhisnervousexasperationwasshatteredlikeaglassbubbleSungagainstarock。`That’sbetter,’hesaid,tocoverhismomentaryuneasiness,andretreatedbacktohisoldstationbythemantelpiece。Itneverenteredhisheadthathiswifecouldgivehimup。
  Hefeltalittleashamedofhimself,forhewasfondandgenerous。Whatcouldhedo?Everythinghadbeensaidalready。Heprotestedvehemently。
  `Byheavens!YouknowthatIhuntedhighandlow。Irantheriskofgivingmyselfawaytofindsomebodyforthataccursedjob。AndItellyouagainIcouldn’tfindanyonecrazyenoughorhungenough。Whatdoyoutakemefor—amurderer,orwhat?Theboyisgone。DoyouthinkIwantedhimtoblowhimselfup?He’sgone。Histroublesareover。Oursarejustgoingtobegin,Itellyou,preciselybecausehedidblowhimselfup。I
  don’tblameyou。Butjusttrytounderstandthatitwasapureaccident;
  asmuchanaccidentasifhehadbeenrunoverbyabuswhilecrossingthestreet。’
  Hisgenerositywasnotinfinite,becausehewasahumanbeing—andnotamonster,asMrsVerlocbelievedhimtobe。Hepaused,andasnarlliftinghismoustachesaboveagleamofwhiteteethgavehimtheexpressionofareflectivebeast,notverydangerous—aslowbeastwithasleekhead,gloomierthanaseal,andwithahuskyvoice。
  `Andwhenitcomestothat,it’sasmuchyourdoingasmine。That’sso……Youmayglareasmuchasyoulike。Iknowwhatyoucandointhatway。StrikemedeadifIeverwouldhavethoughtoftheladforthatpurpose。
  ItwasyouwhokeptonshovinghiminmywaywhenIwashalfdistractedwiththeworryofkeepingthelotofusoutoftrouble。Whatthedevilmadeyou?Onewouldthinkyouweredoingitonpurpose。AndIamdamnedifIknowthatyoudidn’t。There’snosayinghowmuchofwhat’sgoingonyouhavegotholdofontheslywithyourinfernaldon’t—care—a—damnwayoflookingnowhereinparticular,andsayingnothingatall……’
  Hishusky,domesticvoiceceasedforawhile。MrsVerlocmadenoreply。
  Beforethatsilencehefeltashamedofwhathehadsaid。Butasoftenhappenstopeacefulmenindomestictiffs,beingashamedhepushedanotherpoint。
  `Youhaveadevilishwayofholdingyourtonguesometimes,’hebeganagain,withoutraisinghisvoice。`Enoughtomakesomemengomad。It’sluckyforyouthatIamnotsoeasilyputoutassomeofthemwouldbebyyourdeaf—and—dumbsulks。Iamfondofyou。Butdon’tyougotoofar。
  Thisisn’tthetimeforit。Weoughttobethinkingofwhatwe’vegottodo。AndIcan’tletyougoouttonight,gallopingofftoyourmotherwithsomecrazytaleorotheraboutme。Iwon’thaveit。Don’tyoumakeanymistakeaboutit:ifyouwillhaveitthatIkilledtheboy,thenyou’vekilledhimasmuchasI。’
  Insincerityoffeelingandopennessofstatement,thesewordswentfarbeyondanythingthathadeverbeensaidinthishome,keptuponthewagesofasecretindustryekedoutbythesaleofmoreorlesssecretwares:thepoorexpedientsdevisedbyamediocremankindforpreservinganimperfectsocietyfromthedangersofmoralandphysicalcorruption,bothsecret,too,oftheirkind。TheywerespokenbecauseMrVerlochadfelthimselfreallyoutraged;butthereticentdecenciesofthishomelife,nestlinginashadystreetbehindashopwherethesunnevershone,remainedapparentlyundisturbed。MrsVerlocheardhimoutwithperfectpropriety,andthenrosefromherchairinherhatandjacketlikeavisitorattheendofacall。Sheadvancedtowardsherhusband,onearmextendedasifforasilentleave—taking。Hernetveildanglingdownbyoneendoftheleftsideofherfacegaveanairofdisorderlyformalitytoherrestrainedmovements。Butwhenshearrivedasfarasthehearthrug,MrVerlocwasnolongerstandingthere。Hehadmovedoffinthedirectionofthesofa,withoutraisinghiseyestowatchtheeffectofhistirade。Hewastired,resignedinatrulymaritalspirit。Buthefelthurtinthetenderspotofhissecretweakness。Ifshewouldgoonsulkinginthatdreadfuloverchargedsilence—whythenshemust。Shewasamasterinthatdomesticart。MrVerlocflunghimselfheavilyuponthesofa,disregardingasusualthefateofhishat,which,asifaccustomedtotakecareofitself,madeforasafeshelterunderthetable。
  Hewastired。Thelastparticleofhisnervousforcehadbeenexpendedinthewondersandagoniesofthisdayfullofsurprisingfailurescomingattheendofaharassingmonthofschemingandinsomnia。Hewastired。
  Amanisn’tmadeofstone。Hangeverything!MrVerlocreposedcharacteristically,cladinhisoutdoorgarments。Onesideofhisopenovercoatwaslyingpartlyontheground。MrVerlocwallowedonhisback。Buthelongedforamoreperfectrest—forsleep—forafewhoursofdeliciousforgetfulness。
  Thatwouldcomelater。Provisionallyherested。Andhethought:`Iwishshewouldgiveoverthisdamnednonsense。It’sexasperating。’
  TheremusthavebeensomethingimperfectinMrsVerloc’ssentimentofregainedfreedom。Insteadoftakingthewayofthedoorsheleanedback,withhershouldersagainstthetabletofthemantelpiece,asawayfarerrestsagainstafence。Atingeofwildnessinheraspectwasderivedfromtheblackveilhanginglikearagagainsthercheek,andfromthefixityofherblackgazewherethelightoftheroomwasabsorbedandlostwithoutthetraceofasinglegleam。Thiswoman,capableofabargainthemeresuspicionofwhichwouldhavebeeninfinitelyshockingtoMrVerloc’sideaoflove,remainedirresolute,asifscrupulouslyawareofsomethingwantingonherpartfortheformalclosingofthetransaction。
  OnthesofaMrVerlocwriggledhisshouldersintoperfectcomfort,andfromthefullnessofhisheartemittedawishwhichwascertainlyaspiousasanythinglikelytocomefromsuchasource。
  `Iwishtogoodness,’hegrowled,huskily,`IhadneverseenGreenwichParkoranythingbelongingtoit。’
  Theveiledsoundfilledthesmallroomwithitsmoderatevolume,welladaptedtothemodestnatureofthewish。Thewavesofairoftheproperlength,propagatedinaccordancewithcorrectmathematicalformulas,flowedaroundalltheinanimatethingsintheroom,lappedagainstMrsVerloc’sheadasifithadbeenaheadofstone。Andincredibleasitmayappear,theeyesofMrsVerlocseemedtogrowstilllarger。TheaudiblewishofMrVerloc’soverflowingheartflowedintoanenemyplaceinhiswife’smemory。GreenwichPark。Apark!That’swheretheboywaskilled。Apark—smashedbranches,tornleaves,gravel,bitsofbrotherlyfleshandbone,allspoutinguptogetherinthemannerofafirework。Sherememberednowwhatshehadheard,andsheremembereditpictorially。Theyhadtogatherhimupwiththeshovel。Tremblingalloverwithirrepressibleshudders,shesawbeforehertheveryimplementwithitsghastlyloadscrapedupfromtheground。MrsVerlocclosedhereyesdesperately,throwinguponthatvisionthenightofhereyelids,whereafterarain—likefallofmangledlimbsthedecapitatedheadofStevielingeredsuspendedalone,andfadingoutslowlylikethelaststarofapyrotechnicdisplay。MrsVerlocopenedhereyes。
  Herfacewasnolongerstony。Anybodycouldhavenotedthesubtlechangeonherfeatures,inthestareofhereyes,givingheranewandstartlingexpression;anexpressionseldomobservedbycompetentpersonsundertheconditionsofleisureandsecuritydemandedforthoroughanalysis,butwhosemeaningcouldnotbemistakenataglance。MrsVerloc’sdoubtsastotheendofthebargainnolongerexisted;herwitsnolongerdisconnected,wereworkingunderthecontrolofherwill。ButMrVerlocobservednothing。