CONRAD:TheSecretAgent,Chapter11CHAPTER11
AFTERChiefInspectorHeathadlefthimMrVerlocmovedabouttheparlour。
Fromtimetotimeheeyedhiswifethroughtheopendoor。`Sheknowsallaboutitnow,’hethoughttohimselfwithcommiserationforhersorrowandwithsomesatisfactionasregardedhimself。MrVerloc’ssoul,iflackinggreatnessperhaps,wascapableoftendersentiments。Theprospectofhavingtobreakthenewstoherhadputhimintoafever。ChiefInspectorHeathadrelievedhimofthetask。Thatwasgoodasfarasitwent。Itremainedforhimnowtofacehergrief。
MrVerlochadneverexpectedtohavetofaceitonaccountofdeath,whosecatastrophiccharactercannotbearguedawaybysophisticatedreasoningorpersuasiveeloquence。MrVerlocnevermeantStevietoperishwithsuchabruptviolence。Hedidnotmeanhimtoperishatall。Steviedeadwasamuchgreaternuisancethaneverhehadbeenwhenalive。MrVerlochadauguredafavourableissuetohisenterprise,basinghimselfnotonStevie’sintelligence,whichsometimesplaysqueertrickswithaman,butontheblinddocilityandontheblinddevotionoftheboy。Thoughnotmuchofapsychologist,MrVerlochadgaugedthedepthofStevie’sfanaticism。
HedaredcherishthehopeofSteviewalkingawayfromthewallsoftheObservatoryashehadbeeninstructedtodo,takingthewayshowntohimseveraltimespreviously,andrejoininghisbrother—in—law,thewiseandgoodMrVerloc,outsidetheprecinctsofthepark。Fifteenminutesoughttohavebeenenoughfortheveriestfooltodeposittheengineandwalkaway。AndtheProfessorhadguaranteedmorethanfifteenminutes。ButSteviehadstumbledwithinfiveminutesofbeinglefttohimself。AndMrVerlocwasshakenmorallytopieces。Hehadforeseeneverythingbutthat。HehadforeseenSteviedistractedandlost—soughtfor—foundinsomepolicestationorprovincialworkhouseintheend。HehadforeseenSteviearrested,andwasnotafraid,becauseMrVerlochadagreatopinionofStevie’sloyalty,whichhadbeencarefullyindoctrinatedwiththenecessityofsilenceinthecourseofmanywalks。Likeaperipateticphilosopher,MrVerloc,strollingalongthestreetsofLondon,hadmodifiedStevie’sviewofthepolicebyconversationsfullofsubtlereasonings。Neverhadasageamoreattentiveandadmiringdisciple。ThesubmissionandworshipweresoapparentthatMrVerlochadcometofeelsomethinglikealikingfortheboy。Inanycase,hehadnotforeseentheswiftbringinghomeofhisconnection。Thathiswifeshouldhitupontheprecautionofsewingtheboy’saddressinsidehisovercoatwasthelastthingMrVerlocwouldhavethoughtof。Onecan’tthinkifeverything。ThatwaswhatshemeantwhenshesaidthatheneednotworryifhelostStevieduringtheirwalks。Shehadassuredhimthattheboywouldturnupallright。Well,hehadturnedupwithavengeance!
`Well,well,’mutteredMrVerlocinhiswonder。Whatdidshemeanbyit?SparehimthetroubleofkeepingananxiouseyeonStevie?Mostlikelyshehadmeantwell。Onlysheoughttohavetoldhimoftheprecautionshehadtaken。
MrVerlocwalkedbehindthecounteroftheshop。Hisintentionwasnottooverwhelmhiswifewithbitterreproaches。MrVerlocfeltnobitterness。
Theunexpectedmarchofeventshadconvertedhimtothedoctrineoffatalism。
Nothingcouldbehelpednow。Hesaid:
`Ididn’tmeananyharmtocometotheboy。’
MrsVerlocshudderedatthesoundofherhusband’svoice。Shedidnotuncoverherface。ThetrustedsecretagentofthelateBaronStott—Wartenheimlookedatherforatimewithaheavy,persistent,undiscerningglance。
Thetorneveningpaperwaslyingatherfeet。Itcouldnothavetoldhermuch。MrVerlocfelttheneedoftalkingtohiswife。
`It’sthatdamnedHeat—eh?’hesaid。`Heupsetyou。He’sabrute,blurtingitoutlikethistoawoman。Imademyselfillthinkingofhowtobreakittoyou。IsatforhoursinthelittleparlouroftheCheshireCheesethinkingoverthebestway。YouunderstandInevermeantanyharmtocometothatboy。’
MrVerloc,thesecretagent,wasspeakingthetruth。Itwashismaritalaffectionthathadreceivedthegreatestshockfromtheprematureexplosion。
Headded:
`Ididn’tfeelparticularlygaysittingthereandthinkingofyou。’
Heobservedanotherslightshudderofhiswife,whichaffectedhissensibility。
Asshepersistedinhidingherfaceinherhands,hethoughthehadbetterleaveheraloneforawhile。OnthisdelicateimpulseMrVerlocwithdrewintotheparlouragain,wherethegas—jetpurredlikeacontentedcat。
MrsVerloc’swifelyforethoughthadleftthecoldbeefonthetablewithcarvingknifeandforkandhalfaloafofbreadforMrVerloc’ssupper。
Henoticedallthesethingsnowforthefirsttime,andcuttinghimselfapieceofbreadandmeat,begantoeat。
Hisappetitedidnotproceedfromcallousness。MrVerlochadnoteatenanybreakfastthatday。Hehadlefthishomefasting。Notbeinganenergeticman,hefoundhisresolutioninnervousexcitement,whichseemedtoholdhimmainlybythethroat。Hecouldnothaveswallowedanythingsolid。Michaelis’scottagewasasdestituteofprovisionsasthecellofaprisoner。Theticket—of—leaveapostlelivedonalittlemilkandcrustsofstalebread。Moreover,whenMrVerlocarrivedhehadalreadygoneupstairsafterhisfrugalmeal。Absorbedinthetoilanddelightofliterarycomposition,hehadnotevenansweredMrVerloc’sshoutupthelittlestaircase。
`Iamtakingthisyoungfellowhomeforadayortwo。
And,intruth,MrVerlocdidnotwaitforananswer,buthadmarchedoutofthecottageatonce,followedbytheobedientStevie。
Nowthatallactionwasoverandhisfatetakenoutofhishandswithunexpectedswiftness,MrVerlocfeltterriblyemptyphysically。Hecarvedthemeat,cutthebread,anddevouredhissupperstandingbythetable,andnowandthencastingaglancetowardshiswife。Herprolongedimmobilitydisturbedthecomfortofhisreflection。Hewalkedagainintotheshop,andcameupveryclosetoher。ThissorrowwithaveiledfacemadeMrVerlocuneasy。Heexpected,ofcourse,hiswifetobeverymuchupset,buthewantedhertopullherselftogether。Heneededallherassistanceandallherloyaltyinthesenewconjunctureshisfatalismhadalreadyaccepted。
`Can’tbehelped,’hesaidinatoneofgloomysympathy。`Come,Winnie,we’vegottothinkoftomorrow。You’llwantallyourwitsaboutyouafterIamtakenaway。’
Hepaused。MrsVerloc’sbreastheavedconvulsively。ThiswasnotreassuringtoMrVerloc,inwhoseviewthenewlycreatedsituationrequiredfromthetwopeoplemostconcernedinitcalmness,decision,andotherqualitiesincompatiblewiththementaldisorderofpassionatesorrow。MrVerlocwasahumaneman;hehadcomehomepreparedtoalloweverylatitudetohiswife’saffectionforherbrother。Onlyhedidnotunderstandeitherthenatureorthewholeextentofthatsentiment。Andinthishewasexcusable,sinceitwasimpossibleforhimtounderstanditwithoutceasingtobehimself。Hewasstartledanddisappointed,andhisspeechconveyeditbyacertainroughnessoftone。
`Youmightlookatafellow,’heobservedafterwaitingawhile。
AsifforcedthroughthehandscoveringMrsVerloc’sfacetheanswercame,deadened,almostpitiful。
`Idon’twanttolookatyouaslongasIlive。’
`Eh?What!’MrVerlocwasmerelystartledbythesuperficialandliteralmeaningofthisdeclaration。Itwasobviouslyunreasonable,themerecryofexaggeratedgrief。Hethrewoveritthemantleofhismaritalindulgence。
ThemindofMrVerloclackedprofundity。Underthemistakenimpressionthatthevalueofindividualsconsistsinwhattheyareinthemselves,hecouldnotpossiblycomprehendthevalueofStevieintheeyesofMrsVerloc。Shewastakingitconfoundedlyhard,hethoughttohimself。ItwasallthefaultofthatdamnedHeat。Whatdidhewanttoupsetthewomanfor?Butshemustn’tbeallowed,forherowngood,tocarryonsotillshegotquitebesideherself。
`Lookhere!Youcan’tsitlikethisintheshop,’hesaidwithaffectedseverity,inwhichtherewassomerealannoyance;forurgentpracticalmattersmustbetalkedoveriftheyhadtositupallnight。`Somebodymightcomeinatanyminute,’headded,andwaitedagain。Noeffectwasproduced,andtheideaofthefinalityofdeathoccurredtoMrVerlocduringthepause。Hechangedhistone。`Come。Thiswon’tbringhimback,’hesaid,gently,feelingreadytotakeherinhisarmsandpresshertohisbreast,whereimpatienceandcompassiondweltsidebyside。ButexceptforashortshudderMrsVerlocremainedapparentlyunaffectedbytheforceofthatterribletruism。ItwasMrVerlochimselfwhowasmoved。Hewasmovedinhissimplicitytourgemoderationbyassertingtheclaimsofhisownpersonality。
`Dobereasonable,Winnie。Whatwouldithavebeenifyouhadlostme?’
Hehadvaguelyexpectedtohearhercryout。Butshedidnotbudge。
Sheleanedbackalittle,quieteddowntoacomplete,unreadablestillness。
MrVerloc’sheartbegantobeatfasterwithexasperationandsomethingresemblingalarm。Helaidhishandonhershoulder,saying:
`Don’tbeafool,Winnie。’
Shegavenosign。Itwasimpossibletotalktoanypurposewithawomanwhosefaceonecannotsee。MrVerloccaughtholdofhiswife’swrists。
Butherhandsseemedgluedfast。Sheswayedforwardbodilytohistug,andnearlywentoffthechair。Startledtofeelhersohelplesslylimp,hewastryingtoputherbackonthechairwhenshestiffenedsuddenlyallover,toreherselfoutofhishands,ranoutoftheshop,acrosstheparlourandintothekitchen。Thiswasveryswift。Hehadjustaglimpseofherfaceandthatmuchofhereyesthatheknewshehadnotlookedathim。
Itallhadtheappearanceofastruggleforthepossessionofachair,becauseMrVerlocinstantlytookhiswife’splaceinit。MrVerlocdidnotcoverhisfacewithhishands,butasombrethoughtfulnessveiledhisfeatures。Atermofimprisonmentcouldnotbeavoided。Hedidnotwishnowtoavoidit。Aprisonwasaplaceassafefromcertainunlawfulvengeancesasthegrave,withthisadvantage,thatinprisonthereisroomforhope。
Whathesawbeforehimwasatermofimprisonment,anearlyrelease,andthenlifeabroadsomewhere,suchashehadcontemplatedalready,incaseoffailure。Well,itwasafailure,ifnotexactlythesortoffailurehehadfeared。IthadbeensonearsuccessthathecouldhavepositivelyterrifiedMrVladimiroutofhisferociousscoffingwiththisproofofoccultefficiency。SoatleastitseemednowtoMrVerloc。HisprestigewiththeEmbassywouldhavebeenimmenseif—ifhiswifehadnothadtheunluckynotionofsewingontheaddressinsideStevie’sovercoat。MrVerloc,whowasnofool,hadsoonperceivedtheextraordinarycharacteroftheinfluencehehadoverSteviethoughhedidnotunderstandexactlyitsorigin—thedoctrineofhissupremewisdomandgoodnessinculcatedbytwoanxiouswomen。InalltheeventualitieshehadforeseenMrVerlochadcalculatedwithcorrectinsightonStevie’sinstinctiveloyaltyandblinddiscretion。
Theeventualityhehadnotforeseenhadappalledhimasahumanemanandafondhusband。Fromeveryotherpointofviewitwasratheradvantageous。
Nothingcanequaltheeverlastingdiscretionofdeath。MrVerloc,sittingperplexedandfrightenedinthesmallparlouroftheCheshireCheese,couldnothelpacknowledgingthattohimself,becausehissensibilitydidnotstandinthewayofhisjudgement。Stevie’sviolentdisintegration,howeverdisturbingtothinkabout,onlyassuredthesuccess;for,ofcourse,theknockingdownofawallwasnottheaimofMrVladimir’smenaces,buttheproductionofamoraleffect。WithmuchtroubleanddistressonMrVerloc’sparttheeffectmightbesaidtohavebeenproduced。When,however,mostunexpectedly,itcamehometoroostinBrettStreet,MrVerloc,whohadbeenstrugglinglikeamaninanightmareforthepreservationofhisposition,acceptedtheblowinthespiritofaconvincedfatalist。Thepositionwasgonethroughnoone’sfaultreally。Asmall,tinyfacthaddoneit。Itwaslikeslippingonabitoforangepeelinthedarkandbreakingyourleg。
MrVerlocdrewawearybreath。Henourishednoresentmentagainsthiswife。Hethought:`Shewillhavetolookaftertheshopwhiletheykeepmelockedup。’AndthinkingalsohowcruellyshewouldmissStevieatfirst,hefeltgreatlyconcernedaboutherhealthandspirits。Howwouldshestandhersolitude—absolutelyaloneinthathouse?Itwouldnotdoforhertobreakdownwhilehewaslockedup。Whatwouldbecomeoftheshopthen?
Theshopwasanasset。ThoughMrVerloc’sfatalismacceptedhisundoingasasecretagent,hehadnomindtobeutterlyruined,mostly,itmustbeowned,fromregardforhiswife。
Silentandoutofhislineofsightinthekitchen,shefrightenedhim。
Ifonlyshehadhermotherwithher。Butthatsillyoldwoman—AnangrydismaypossessedMrVerloc。Hemusttalkwithhiswife。Hecouldtellhercertainlythatamandoesgetdesperateundercertaincircumstances。Buthedidnotgoincontinentlytoimparttoherthatinformation。Firstofall,itwascleartohimchatthiseveningwasnotimeforbusiness。Hegotuptoclosethestreetdoorandputthegasoutintheshop。
Havingthusassuredasolitudearoundhishearth—stoneMrVerlocwalkedintotheparlour,andglanceddownintothekitchen。MrsVerlocwassittingintheplacewherepoorStevieusuallyestablishedhimselfofaneveningwithpaperandpencilforthepastimeofdrawingthosecoruscationsofinnumerablecirclessuggestingchaosandeternity。Herarmswerefoldedonthetable,andherheadwaslyingonherarms。MrVerloccontemplatedherbackandthearrangementofherhairforatime,thenwalkedawayfromthekitchendoor。MrsVerloc’sphilosophical,almostdisdainfulincuriosity,thefoundationoftheiraccordindomesticlife,madeitextremelydifficulttogetintocontactwithher,nowthistragicnecessityhadarisen。MrVerlocfeltthisdifficultyacutely。Heturnedaroundthetableintheparlourwithhisusualairofalargeanimalinacage。
Curiositybeingoneoftheformsofself—revelation,asystematicallyincuriouspersonremainsalwayspartlymysterious。EverytimehepassednearthedoorMrVerlocglancedathiswifeuneasily。Itwasnotthathewasafraidofher。MrVerlocimaginedhimselflovedbythatwoman。Butshehadnotaccustomedhimtomakeconfidences。Andtheconfidencehehadtomakewasofaprofoundpsychologicalorder。Howwithhiswantofpracticecouldhetellherwhathehimselffeltbutvaguely:thatthereareconspiraciesoffataldestiny,thatanotiongrowsinamindsometimestillitacquiresanoutwardexistence,anindependentpowerofitsown,andevenasuggestivevoice?Hecouldnotinformherthatamanmaybehauntedbyafat,witty,clean—shavedfacetillthewildestexpedienttogetridofitappearsachildofwisdom。
OnthismentalreferencetoaFirstSecretaryofagreatEmbassy,MrVerlocstoppedinthedoorway,andlookingdownintothekitchenwithanangryfaceandclenchedfists,addressedhiswife。
`Youdon’tknowwhatabruteIhadtodealwith。’
Hestartedofftomakeanotherperambulationofthetable,thenwhenhehadcometothedooragainhestopped,glaringinfromtheheightoftwosteps。
`Asilly,jeering,dangerousbrute,withnomoresensethan—Afteralltheseyears!Amanlikeme!AndIhavebeenplayingmyheadatthatgame。Youdidn’tknow。Quiteright,too。WhatwasthegoodoftellingyouthatIstoodtheriskofhavingaknifestuckintomeanytimethesesevenyearswe’vebeenmarried?Iamnotachaptoworryawomanthat’sfondofme。Youhadnobusinesstoknow。’
MrVerloctookanotherturnroundtheparlour,fuming。
`Avenomousbeast,’hebeganagainfromthedoorway。`Drivemeoutintoaditchtostarveforajoke。Icouldseehethoughtitwasadamnedgoodjoke。Amanlikeme!Lookhere!Someofthehighestintheworldgottothankmeforwalkingontheirtwolegstothisday。That’sthemanyou’vegotmarriedto,mygirl!’
Heperceivedthathiswifehadsatup。MrsVerloc’sarmsremainedlyingstretchedonthetable。MrVerlocwatchedherbackasifhecouldreadtheretheeffectofhiswords。
`Thereisn’tamurderingplotforthelastelevenyearsthatIhadn’tmyfingerinattheriskofmylife。There’sscoresoftheserevolutionistsI’vesentoffwiththeirbombsintheirblamedpockets,togetthemselvescaughtonthefrontier。TheoldBaronknewwhatIwasworthtohiscountry。
Andheresuddenlyaswinecomesalong—anignorant,overbearingswine。’
MrVerloc,steppingslowlydowntwosteps,enteredthekitchen,tookatumbleroffthedresser,andholdingitinhishand,approachedthesink,withoutlookingathiswife。
`Itwasn’ttheoldBaronwhowouldhavehadthewickedfollyofgettingmetocallonhimateleveninthemorning。Therearetwoorthreeinthistownthat,iftheyhadseenmegoingin,wouldhavemadenobonesaboutknockingmeontheheadsoonerorlater。Itwasasilly,murderoustricktoexposefornothingaman—likeme。’
MrVerloc,turningonthetapabovethesink,pouredthreeglassesofwater,oneafteranother,downhisthroattoquenchthefiresofhisindignation。
MrVladimir’sconductwaslikeahotbrandwhichsethisinternaleconomyinablaze。Hecouldnotgetoverthedisloyaltyofit。Thisman,whowouldnotworkattheusualhardtaskswhichsocietysetstoitshumblermembers,hadexercisedhissecretindustrywithanindefatigabledevotion。TherewasinMrVerlocafundofloyalty。Hehadbeenloyaltohisemployers,tothecauseofsocialstability—andtohisaffections,too—asbecameapparentwhen,afterstandingthetumblerinthesink,heturnedabout,saying:
`IfIhadn’tthoughtofyouIwouldhavetakenthebullyingbrutebythethroatandrammedhisheadintothefireplace。I’dhavebeenmorethanamatchforthatpink—faced,smooth—shaved—’
MrVerlocneglectedtofinishthesentence,asiftherecouldbenodoubtoftheterminalword。Forthefirsttimeinhislifehewastakingthatincuriouswomanintohisconfidence。Thesingularityoftheevent,theforceandimportanceofthepersonalfeelingsarousedinthecourseofthisconfession,droveStevie’sfatecleanoutofMrVerloc’smind。
Theboy’sstutteringexistenceoffearsandindignations,togetherwiththeviolenceofhisend,hadpassedoutofMrVerloc’smentalsightforatime。Forthatreason,whenhelookeduphewasstartledbytheinappropriatecharacterofhiswife’sstare。Itwasnotawildstare,anditwasnotinattentive,butitsattentionwaspeculiarandnotsatisfactory,inasmuchthatitseemedconcentrateduponsomepointbeyondMrVerloc’sperson。
TheimpressionwassostrongthatMrVerlocglancedoverhisshoulder。
Therewasnothingbehindhim:therewasjustthewhitewashedwall。TheexcellenthusbandofWinnieVerlocsawnowritingonthewall。Heturnedtohiswifeagain,repeating,withsomeemphasis:
`Iwouldhavetakenhimbythethroat。AstrueasIstandhere,ifI
hadn’tthoughtofyouthenIwouldhavehalfchokedthelifeoutofthebrutebeforeIlethimgetup。Anddon’tyouthinkhewouldhavebeenanxioustocallthepolice—either。Hewouldn’thavedared。Youunderstandwhy—don’tyou?’
Heblinkedathiswifeknowingly。
`No,’saidMrsVerlocinanunresonantvoice,andwithoutlookingathimatall。`Whatareyoutalkingabout?’
Agreatdiscouragement,theresultoffatigue,cameuponMrVerloc。
Hehadhadaveryfullday,andhisnerveshadbeentriedtotheutmost。
Afteramonthofmaddeningworry,endinginanunexpectedcatastrophe,thestorm—tossedspiritofMrVerloclongedforrepose。Hiscareerasasecretagenthadcometoanendinawaynoonecouldhaveforeseen;only,now,perhapshecouldmanagetogetanight’ssleepatlast。Butlookingathiswife,hedoubtedit。Shewastakingitveryhard—notatalllikeherself,hethought。Hemadeanefforttospeak。
`You’llhavetopullyourselftogether,mygirl,’hesaid,sympathetically。
`What’sdonecan’tbeundone。’
MrsVerlocgaveaslightstart,thoughnotamuscleofherwhitefacemovedintheleast。MrVerloc,whowasnotlookingather,continuedponderously:
`Yougotobednow。Whatyouwantisagoodcry。’
Thisopinionhadnothingtorecommenditbutthegeneralconsentofmankind。Itisuniversallyunderstoodthat,asifitwerenothingmoresubstantialthanvapourfloatinginthesky,everyemotionofawomanisboundtoendinashower。AnditisveryprobablethathadSteviediedinhisbedunderherdespairinggaze,inherprotectingarms,MrsVerloc’sgriefwouldhavefoundreliefinafloodofbitterandpuretears。MrsVerloc,incommonwithotherhumanbeings,wasprovidedwithafundofunconsciousresignationsufficienttomeetthenormalmanifestationofhumandestiny。Without`troublingherheadaboutit’,shewasawarethatit`didnotstandlookingintoverymuch’。ButthelamentablecircumstancesofStevie’send,whichtoMrVerloc’smindhadonlyanepisodiccharacter,aspartofagreaterdisaster,driedhertearsattheirverysource。Itwastheeffectofawhite—hotirondrawnacrosshereyes;atthesametimeherheart,hardenedandchilledintoalumpofice,keptherbodyinaninwardshudder,setherfeaturesintoafrozen,contemplativeimmobilityaddressedtoawhitewashedwallwithnowritingonit。TheexigenciesofMrsVerloc’stemperament,which,whenstrippedofitsphilosophicalreserve,wasmaternalandviolent,forcedhertorollaseriesofthoughtsinhermotionlesshead。Thesethoughtswereratherimaginedthanexpressed。MrsVerlocwasawomanofsingularlyfewwords,eitherforpublicorprivateuse。Withtherageanddismayofabetrayedwoman,shereviewedthetenorofherlifeinvisionsconcernedmostlywithStevie’sdifficultexistencefromitsearliestdays。Itwasalifeofsinglepurposeandofanobleunityofinspiration,likethoserarelivesthathavelefttheirmarkonthethoughtsandfeelingsofmankind。ButthevisionsofMrsVerloclackednobilityandmagnificence。Shesawherselfputtingtheboytobedbythelightofasinglecandleonthedesertedtopfloorofa`businesshouse’,darkundertheroofandscintillatingexceedinglywithlightsandcutglassatthelevelofthestreetlikeafairypalace。ThatmeretricioussplendourwastheonlyonetobemetinMrsVerloc’svisions。Sherememberedbrushingtheboy’shairandtyinghispinafores—herselfinapinaforestill;theconsolationsadministeredtoasmallandbadlyscaredcreaturebyanothercreaturenearlyassmallbutnotquitesobadlyscared;shehadthevisionoftheblowsintercepted(oftenwithherownhead),ofadoorhelddesperatelyshutagainstaman’srage(notforverylong);ofapokerflungonce(notveryfar),whichstilledthatparticularstormintothedumbandawfulsilencewhichfollowsathunder—clap。Andallthesescenesofviolencecameandwentaccompaniedbytheunrefinednoiseofdeepvociferationsproceedingfromamanwoundedinhispaternalpride,declaringhimselfobviouslyaccursedsinceoneofhiskidswasa`slobberingidjutandtheotherawickedshe—devil’。Itwasofherthatthishadbeensaidmanyyearsago。
MrsVerlocheardthewordsagaininaghostlyfashion,andthenthedrearyshadowoftheBelgravianmansiondescendeduponhershoulders。Itwasacrushingmemory,anexhaustingvisionofcountlessbreakfasttrayscarriedupanddowninnumerablestairs,ofendlesshagglingoverpence,oftheendlessdrudgeryofsweeping,dusting,cleaning,frombasementtoattics;whiletheimpotentmother,staggeringonswollenlegs,cookedinagrimykitchen,andpoorStevie,theunconsciouspresidinggeniusofalltheirtoil,blackedthegentlemen’sbootsinthescullery。ButthisvisionhadabreathofahotLondonsummerinit,andforacentralfigureayoungmanwearinghisSundaybest,withastrawhatonhisdarkheadandawoodenpipeinhismouth。Affectionateandjolly,hewasafascinatingcompanionforavoyagedownthesparklingstreamoflife;onlyhisboatwasverysmall。Therewasroominitforagirl—partnerattheoar,butnoaccommodationforpassengers。HewasallowedtodriftawayfromthethresholdoftheBelgravianmansionwhileWinnieavertedhertearfuleyes。Hewasnotalodger。ThelodgerwasMrVerloc,indolentandkeepinglatehours,sleepilyjocularofamorningfromunderhisbed—clothes,butwithgleamsofinfatuationinhisheavy—liddedeyes,andalwayswithsomemoneyinhispockets。Therewasnosparkleofanykindonthelazystreamofhislife。Itflowedthroughsecretplaces。Buthisbarqueseemedaroomycraft,andhistaciturnmagnanimityacceptedasamatterofcoursethepresenceofpassengers。
MrsVerlocpursuedthevisionsofsevenyears’securityforStevieloyallypaidforonherpart;ofsecuritygrowingintoconfidence,intoadomesticfeeling,stagnantanddeeplikeaplacidpool,whoseguardedsurfacehardlyshudderedontheoccasionalpassageofComradeOssipon,therobustanarchistwithshamelesslyinvitingeyes,whoseglancehadacorruptclearnesssufficienttoenlightenanywomannotabsolutelyimbecile。
Afewsecondsonlyhadelapsedsincethelastwordhadbeenutteredaloudinthekitchen,andMrsVerlocwasstaringalreadyatthevisionofanepisodenotmorethanafortnightold。WitheyeswhosepupilswereextremelydilatedshestaredatthevisionofherhusbandandpoorSteviewalkingupBrettStreetsidebysideawayfromtheshop。ItwasthelastsceneofanexistencecreatedbyMrsVerloc’sgenius;anexistenceforeigntoallgraceandcharm,withoutbeautyandalmostwithoutdecency,butadmirableinthecontinuityoffeelingandtenacityofpurpose。Andthislastvisionhadsuchplasticrelief,suchnearnessofform,suchafidelityofsuggestivedetail,thatitwrungfromMrsVerlocananguishedandfaintmurmur,reproducingthesupremeillusionofherlife,anappalledmurmurthatdiedoutonherblanchedlips。
`Mighthavebeenfatherandson。’
MrVerlocstopped,andraisedacarewornface。`Eh?Whatdidyousay?’
heasked。Receivingnoreply,heresumedhissinistertramping。Thenwithamenacingflourishofathick,fleshyfist,heburstout:
`Yes。TheEmbassypeople。Aprettylot,ain’tthey!Beforeaweek’soutI’llmakesomeofthemwishthemselvestwentyfeetunderground。Eh?
What?’
Heglancedsideways,withhisheaddown。MrsVerlocgazedatthewhitewashedwall。Ablankwall—perfectlyblank。Ablanknesstorunatanddashyourheadagainst。MrsVerlocremainedimmovablyseated。Shekeptstillasthepopulationofhalftheglobewouldkeepstillinastonishmentanddespair,werethesunsuddenlyputoutinthesummerskybytheperfidyofatrustedprovidence。
`TheEmbassy,’MrVerlocbeganagain,afterapreliminarygrimacewhichbaredhisteethwolfishly。`IwishIcouldgetlooseintherewithacudgelforhalfanhour。Iwouldkeeponhittingtilltherewasn’tasingleunbrokenboneleftamongstthewholelot。Butnevermind,I’llteachthemyetwhatitmeanstryingtothrowoutamanlikemetorotinthestreets。I’veatongueinmyhead。AlltheworldshallknowwhatI’vedoneforthem。
Iamnotafraid。Idon’tcare。Everything’llcomeout。Everydamnedthing。
Letthemlookout!’