ThiswasthemoresubtlesanctionofMrsVerloc’smother’sheroismandunscrupulousness。Heractofabandonmentwasreallyanarrangementforsettlinghersonpermanentlyinlife。Otherpeoplemadematerialsacrificesforsuchanobject,sheinthatway。Itwastheonlyway。Moreover,shewouldbeabletoseehowitworked。Illorwellshewouldavoidthehorribleincertitudeonthedeath—bed。Butitwashard,hard,cruellyhard。
Thecabrattled,jingled,jolted;infact,thelastwasquiteextraordinary。
Byitsdisproportionateviolenceandmagnitudeitobliteratedeverysensationofonwardmovement;andtheeffectwasofbeingshakeninastationaryapparatuslikeamedievaldeviceforthepunishmentofcrime,orsomeverynew—fangledinventionforthecureofasluggishliver。Itwasextremelydistressing;andtheraisingofMrsVerloc’smother’svoicesoundedlikeawailofpain。
`Iknow,mydear,you’llcometoseemeasoftenasyoucansparethetime。Won’tyou?’
`Ofcourse,’answeredWinnie,shortly,staringstraightbeforeher。
Andthecabjoltedinfrontofasteamy,greasyshopinablazeofgasandinthesmelloffriedfish。
Theoldwomanraisedawailagain。
`And,mydear,ImustseethatpoorboyeverySunday。Hewon’tmindspendingthedaywithhisoldmother——’
Winniescreamedoutstolidly:
`Mind!Ishouldthinknot。Thatpoorboywillmissyousomethingcruel。
Iwishyouhadthoughtalittleofthat,mother。’
Notthinkofit!Theheroicwomanswallowedaplayfulandinconvenientobjectlikeabilliardball,whichhadtriedtojumpoutofherthroat。
Winniesatmuteforawhile,poutingatthefrontofthecab,thensnappedout,whichwasanunusualtonewithher:
`IexpectI’llhaveajobwithhimatfirst,he’llbethatrestless——’
`Whateveryoudo,don’tlethimworryyourhusband,mydear。’
Thustheydiscussedonfamiliarlinesthebearingsofanewsituation。
Andthecabjolted。MrsVerloc’smotherexpressedsomemisgivings。CouldSteviebetrustedtocomeallthatwayalone?Winniemaintainedthathewasmuchless`absent—minded’now。Theyagreedastothat。Itcouldnotbedenied。Muchless—hardlyatall。Theyshoutedateachotherinthejinglewithcomparativecheerfulness。Butsuddenlythematernalanxietybrokeoutafresh。Thereweretwoomnibusestotake,andashortwalkbetween。
Itwastoodifficult!Theoldwoman’gavewaytogriefandconsternation。
Winniestaredforward。
`Don’tyouupsetyourselflikethis,mother。Youmustseehim,ofcourse。
`No,mydear。I’lltrynotto。Shemoppedherstreamingeyes。’
`Butyoucan’tsparethetimetocomewithhim,andifheshouldforgethimselfandlosehiswayandsomebodyspoketohimsharply,hisnameandaddressmaysliphismemory,andhe’llremainlostfordaysanddays——’
ThevisionofaworkhouseinfirmaryforpoorStevie—ifonlyduringinquiries—wrungherheart。Forshewasaproudwoman。Winnie’sstarehadgrownhard,intent,inventive。
`Ican’tbringhimtoyoumyselfeveryweek,’shecried。`Butdon’tyouworry,mother。I’llseetoitthathedon’tgetlostforlong。’
Theyfeltapeculiarbump;avisionofbrickpillarslingeredbeforetherattlingwindowsofthecab;asuddencessationofatrociousjoltinganduproariousjinglingdazedthetwowomen。Whathadhappened?Theysatmotionlessandscaredintheprofoundstillness,tillthedoorcameopen,andarough,strainedwhisperingwasheard:
`’Ereyouare!’
Arangeofgabledlittlehouses,eachwithonedimyellowwindow,onthegroundfloor,surroundedthedarkopenspaceofagrassplotplantedwithshrubsandrailedofffromthepatchworkoflightsandshadowsitthewideroad,resoundingwiththedullrumbleoftraffic。Beforethedoorofoneofthesetinyhouses—onewithoutalightinthelittledownstairswindow—the’cabhadcometoastandstill。MrsVerloc’smothergotoutfirst,backwards,withakeyinherhand。Winnielingeredontheflagstonepathtopaythecabman。Stevie,afterhelpingtocarryinsidealotofsmallparcels,cameoutandstoodunderthelightofagas—lampbelongingtotheCharity。Thecabmanlookedatthepiecesofsilver,which,appearingveryminuteinhisbig,grimypalm,symbolizedtheinsignificantresultswhichrewardtheambitiouscourageandtoilofamankindwhosedayisshortonthisearthofevil。
Hehadbeenpaiddecently—fourone—shillingpieces—andhecontemplatedtheminperfectstillness,asiftheyhadbeenthesurprisingtermsofamelancholyproblem。Theslowtransferofthattreasuretoaninnerpocketdemandedmuchlaboriousgropinginthedepthsofdecayedclothing。Hisformwassquatandwithoutflexibility。Stevie,slender,hisshouldersalittleup,andhishandsthrustdeepinthesidepocketsofhiswarmovercoat,stoodattheedgeofthepath,pouting。
Thecabman,pausinginhisdeliberatemovements,seemedstruckbysomemistyrecollection。
`Oh!’Ereyouare,youngfellow,’hewhispered。`You’llknowhimagain—wontyou?’
Steviewasstaringatthehorse,whosehindquartersappearedundulyelevatedbytheeffectofemancipation。Thelittlestifftailseemedtohavebeenfittedinforaheartlessjoke;andattheotherendthethin,flatneck,likeaplankcoveredwitholdhorse—hide,droopedtothegroundundertheweightofanenormousbonyhead。Theearshungatdifferentangles,negligently;andthemacabrefigureofthatmutedwellerontheearthsteamedstraightupfromribsandbackboneinthemuggystillnessoftheair。
ThecabmanstrucklightlyStevie’sbreastwiththeironhookprotrudingfromaragged,greasysleeve。
`Look’ereyoungfeller。’Owdyouliketositbehindthis’ossuptotwoo’clockinthemorningp’raps?’
Stevielookedvacantlyintothefiercelittleeyeswithred—edgedlids。
`Heain’tlame,’pursuedtheother,whisperingwithenergy。`Heain’tgotnosoreplaceson’im。’Ereheis。’Owwouldyoulike——’
Hisstrained,extinctvoiceinvestedhisutterancewithacharacterofvehementsecrecy。Stevie’svacantgazewaschangingslowlyintodread。
`Youmaywelllook!Tillthreeandfouro’clockinthemorning。Coldand’ungry。Lookingforfares。Drunks。’
Hisjovialpurplecheeksbristledwithwhitehairs;andlikeVirgil’sSilenus,who,hisfacesmearedwiththejuiceofberries,discoursedofOlympianGodstotheinnocentshepherdsofSicily,hetalkedtoStevieofdomesticmattersandtheaffairsofmenwhosesufferingsaregreatandimmortalitybynomeansassured。
`Iamanightcabby,Iam,’hewhispered,withasortofboastfulexasperation。
`I’vegottotakeoutwhattheywillbloomingwellgivemeattheyard。
I’vegotmymissusandfourkidsat’ome。
Themonstrousnatureofthatdeclarationofpaternityseemedtostriketheworlddumb。Asilencereigned,duringwhichtheflanksoftheoldhorse,thesteedofapocalypticmisery,smokedupwardsinthelightofthecharitablegas—lamp。
Thecabmangrunted,thenaddedinhismysteriouswhisper:`Thisain’taneasyworld。’
Stevie’sfacehadbeentwitchingforsometimeandatlasthisfeelingsburstoutintheirusualconcisefoam。
`Bad!Bad!’
Hisgazeremainedfixedontheribsofthehorse,self—consciousandsombre,asthoughhewereafraidtolookabouthimatthebadnessoftheworld。Andhisslenderness,hisrosylipsandpale,clearcomplexion,gavehimtheaspectofadelicateboy,notwithstandingthefluffygrowthofgoldenhaironhischeeks。Hepoutedinascaredwaylikeachild。Thecabman,shortandbroad,eyedhimwithhisfiercelittleeyesthatseemedtosmartinaclearandcorrodingliquid。
`’Ardon’osses,butdam’sight’arderonpoorchapslikeme,’hewheezedjustaudibly。
`Poor!Poor!’stammeredoutStevie,pushinghishandsdeeperintohispocketswithconvulsivesympathy。Hecouldsaynothing;forthetendernesstoallpainandallmisery,thedesiretomakethehorsehappyandthecabmanhappy,hadreachedthepointofabizarrelongingtotakethemtobedwithhim。Andthat,heknew,wasimpossible。ForSteviewasnotmad。
Itwas,asitwere,asymboliclonging;andatthesametimeitwasverydistinct,becausespringingfromexperience,themotherofwisdom。Thuswhenasachildhecoweredinadarkcornerscared,wretched,sore,andmiserablewiththeblack,blackmiseryofthesoul,hissisterWinnieusedtocomealongandcarryhimofftobedwithher,asintoaheavenofconsolingpeace。Stevie,thoughapttoforgetmerefacts,suchashisnameandaddressforinstance,hadafaithfulmemoryofsensations。Tobetakenintoabedofcompassionwasthesupremeremedy,withtheonlyonedisadvantageofbeingdifficultofapplicationonalargescale。Andlookingatthecabman,Stevieperceivedthisclearly,becausehewasreasonable。
ThecabmanwentonwithhisleisurelypreparationsasifSteviehadnotexisted。Hemadeasiftohoisthimselfonthebox,butatthelastmoment,fromsomeobscuremotive,perhapsmerelyfromdisgustwithcarriageexercise,desisted。Heapproachedinsteadthemotionlesspartnerofhislabours,andstoopingtoseizethebridle,liftedupthebig,wearyheadtotheheightofhisshoulderwithoneeffortofhisrightarm,likeafeatofstrength。
`Comeon,’hewhispered,secretly。
Limping,heledthecabaway。Therewasanairofausterityinthisdeparture,thescrunchedgravelofthedrivecryingoutundertheslowlyturningwheels,thehorse’sleanthighsmovingwithasceticdeliberationawayfromthelightintotheobscurityoftheopenspacebordereddimlybythepointedroofsandthefeeblyshiningwindowsofthelittlealmshouses。
Theplaintofthegraveltravelledslowlyallroundthedrive。Betweenthelampsofthecharitablegatewaytheslowcortegereappeared,lightedupforamoment,theshort,thickmanlimpingbusily,withthehorse’sheadheldaloftinhisfist,thelankanimalwalkinginstiffandforlorndignity,thedark,lowboxonwheelsrollingbehindcomicallywithanairofwaddling。Theyturnedtotheleft。Therewasapubdownthestreet,withinfiftyyardsofthegate。
Stevie,leftalonebesidetheprivatelamp—postoftheCharity,hishandsthrustdeepintohispockets,glaredwithvacantsulkiness。Atthebottomofhispocketshisincapable,weakhandswereclenchedhardintoapairofangryfists。Inthefaceofanythingwhichaffecteddirectlyorindirectlyhismorbiddreadofpain,Stevieendedbyturningvicious。
Amagnanimousindignationswelledhisfrailchesttobursting,andcausedhiscandideyestosquint。Supremelywiseinknowinghisownpowerlessness,Steviewasnotwiseenoughtorestrainhispassions。Thetendernessofhisuniversalcharityhadtwophasesasindissolublyjoinedandconnectedasthereverseandobversesidesofamedal。Theanguishofimmoderatecompassionwassucceededbythepainofaninnocentbutpitilessrage。
Thosetwostatesexpressingthemselvesoutwardlybythesamesignsoffutilebodilyagitation,hissisterWinniesoothedhisexcitementwithouteverfathomingitstwofoldcharacter。MrsVerlocwastednoportionofthistransientlifeinseekingforfundamentalinformation。Thisisasortofeconomyhavingalltheappearancesandsomeoftheadvantagesofprudence。Obviouslyitmaybegoodforonenottoknowtoomuch。Andsuchaviewaccordsverywellwithconstitutionalindolence。
OnthateveningonwhichitmaybesaidthatMrsVerloc’smotherhavingpartedforgoodfromherchildrenhadalsodepartedthislife,WinnieVerlocdidnotinvestigateherbrother’spsychology。Thepoorboywasexcited,ofcourse。AfteroncemoreassuringtheoldwomanonthethresholdthatshewouldknowhowtoguardagainsttheriskofStevielosinghimselfforverylongonhispilgrimagesoffilialpiety,shetookherbrother’sarmtowalkaway。Steviedidnotevenmuttertohimself,butwiththespecialsenseofsisterlydevotiondevelopedinherearliestinfancy,shefeltthattheboywasverymuchexcitedindeed。Holdingtighttohisarm,undertheappearanceofleaningonit,shethoughtofsomewordssuitabletotheoccasion。
`Now,Stevie,youmustlookwellaftermeatthecrossings,andgetfirstintothebus,likeagoodbrother。’
ThisappealtomanlyprotectionwasreceivedbySteviewithhisusualdocility。Itflatteredhim。Heraisedhisheadandthrewouthischest。
`Don’tbenervous,Winnie。Mustn’tbenervous!Busallright,’heansweredinabrusque,slurringstammerpartakingofthetimorousnessofachildandtheresolutionofaman。Headvancedfearlesslywiththewomanonhisarm,buthislowerlipdrooped。Nevertheless,onthepavementofthesqualidandwidethoroughfare,whosepovertyinalltheamenitiesoflifestoodfoolishlyexposedbyamadprofusionofgas—lights,theirresemblancetoeachotherwassopronouncedastostrikethecasualpassers—by。
Beforethedoorsofthepublic—houseatthecorner,wheretheprofusionofgas—lightreachedtheheightofpositivewickedness,afour—wheeledcabstandingbythekerbstone,withnooneonthebox,seemedcastoutintothegutteronaccountofirremediabledecay。MrsVerlocrecognizedtheconveyance。Itsaspectwassoprofoundlylamentable,withsuchaperfectionofgrotesquemiseryandweirdnessofmacabredetail,asifitweretheCabofDeathitselfthatMrsVerloc,withthatreadycompassionofawomanforahorse(whensheisnotsittingbehindhim),exclaimedvaguely!
`Poorbrute。’
Hangingbacksuddenly,Stevieinflictedanarrestingjerkuponhissister。
`Poor!Poor!’heejaculatedappreciatively。`Cabmanpoor,too。Hetoldmehimself。’
Thecontemplationoftheinfirmandlonelysteedovercamehim。Jostled,butobstinate,hewouldremainthere,tryingtoexpresstheviewnewlyopenedtohissympathiesofthehumanandequinemiseryincloseassociation。
Butitwasverydifficult。`Poorbrute,’poorpeople!’wasallhecouldrepeat。Itdidnotseemforcibleenough,andhecametoastopwithanangrysplutter。`Shame!’Steviewasnomasterofphrases,andperhapsforthatveryreasonhisthoughtslackedclearnessandprecision。Buthefeltwithgreatcompletenessandsomeprofundity。Thatlittlewordcontainedallhissenseofindignationandhorroratonesortofwretchednesshavingtofeedupontheanguishoftheother—asthepoorcabmanbeatingthepoorhorseinthename,asitwere,ofhispoorkidsathome。AndStevieknewwhatitwastobebeaten。Heknewitfromexperience。Itwasabadworld。Bad!Bad!
MrsVerloc,hisonlysister,guardian,andprotector,couldnotpretendtosuchdepthsofinsight。Moreover,shehadnotexperiencedthemagicofthecabman’seloquence。Shewasinthedarkastotheinwardnessoftheword`Shame’。Andshesaidplacidly:
`Comealong,Stevie。Youcan’thelpthat。’
ThedocileSteviewentalong;butnowhewentalongwithoutpride,shamblingly,andmutteringhalfwords,andevenwordsthatwouldhavebeenwholeiftheyhadnotbeenmadeupofhalvesthatdidnotbelongtoeachother。
Itwasasthoughhehadbeentryingtofitallthewordshecouldremembertohissentimentsinordertogetsomesortofcorrespondingidea。And,asamatteroffact,hegotitatlast。Hehungbacktoutteritatonce。
`Badworldforpoorpeople。’
Directlyhehadexpressedthatthoughthebecameawarethatitwasfamiliartohimalreadyinallitsconsequences。Thiscircumstancestrengthenedhisconvictionimmensely,butalsoaugmentedhisindignation。Somebody,hefelt,oughttobepunishedforit—punishedwithgreatseverity。Beingnosceptic,butamoralcreature,hewasinamanneratthemercyofhisrighteouspassions。
`Beastly!’headded,concisely。
ItwascleartoMrsVerlocthathewasgreatlyexcited。
`Nobodycanhelpthat,’shesaid。`Docomealong。Isthatthewayyou’retakingcareofme?’
Steviemendedhispaceobediently。Hepridedhimselfonbeingagoodbrother。Hismorality,whichwasverycomplete,demandedthatfromhim。
YethewaspainedattheinformationimpartedbyhissisterWinnie—whowasgood。Nobodycouldhelpthat!Hecamealonggloomily,butpresentlyhebrightenedup。Liketherestofmankind,perplexedbythemysteryoftheuniverse,hehadhismomentsofconsolingtrustintheorganizedpowersoftheearth。
`Police,’hesuggested,confidently。
`Thepolicearen’tforthat,’observedMrsVerloc,cursorily,hurryingonherway。
Stevie’sfacelengthenedconsiderably。Hewasthinking。Themoreintensehisthinking,theslackerwasthedroopofhislowerjaw。Anditwaswithanaspectofhopelessvacancythathegaveuphisintellectualenterprise。
`Notforthat?’hemumbled,resignedbutsurprised。`Notforthat?’
Hehadformedforhimselfanidealconceptionforthemetropolitanpoliceasasortofbenevolentinstitutionforthesuppressionofevil。Thenotionofbenevolenceespeciallywasverycloselyassociatedwithhissenseofthepowerofthemeninblue。Hehadlikedallpoliceconstablestenderly,withaguilelesstrustfulness。Andhewaspained。Hewasirritated,too,byasuspicionofduplicityinthemembers’oftheforce。ForSteviewasfrankandasopenasthedayhimself。Whatdidtheymeanbypretendingthen?Unlikehissister,whoputhertrustinfacevalues,hewishedtogotothebottomofthematter。Hecarriedonhisinquirybymeansofanangrychallenge。
`Whataretheyforthen,Winn?Whataretheyfor?Tellme。’
Winniedislikedcontroversy。ButfearingmostafitofblackdepressionconsequentonSteviemissinghismotherverymuchatfirst,shedidnotaltogetherdeclinethediscussion’。Guiltlessofallirony,sheansweredyetinaformwhichwasnotperhapsunnaturalinthewifeofMrVerloc,DelegateoftheCentralRedCommittee,personalfriendofcertainanarchists,andavotaryofsocialrevolution。
`Don’tyouknowwhatthepolicearefor,Stevie?Theyaretheresothatthemashavenothingshouldn’ttakeanythingawayfromthemwhohave。’
Sheavoidedusingtheverb`tosteal’,becauseitalwaysmadeherbrotheruncomfortable。ForSteviewasdelicatelyhonest。Certainsimpleprincipleshadbeeninstilledintohimsoanxiously(onaccountofhis`queerness’)
thatthemerenamesofcertaintransgressionsfilledhimwithhorror。Hehadbeenalwayseasilyimpressedbyspeeches。Hewasimpressedandstartlednow,andhisintelligencewasveryalert。
`What?’heaskedatonce,anxiously。`Noteveniftheywerehungry?
Mustn’tthey?’
Thetwohadpausedintheirwalk。
`Notiftheywereeverso,’saidMrsVerloc,withtheequanimityofapersonuntroubledbytheproblemofthedistributionofwealthandexploringtheperspectiveoftheroadwayforanomnibusoftherightcolour。`Certainlynot。Butwhat’stheuseoftalkingaboutallthat?Youaren’teverhungry。
Shecastaswiftglanceattheboy,likeayoungman,byherside。Shesawhimamiable,attractive,affectionateandonlyalittle,averylittlepeculiar。Andshecouldnotseehimotherwise,forhewasconnectedwithwhattherewasofthesaltofpassioninhertastelesslife—thepassionofindignation,ofcourage,ofpity,andevenofself—sacrifice。Shedidnotadd:`Andyouaren’tlikelyevertobeaslongasIlive。’Butshemightverywellhavedoneso,sinceshehadtakeneffectualstepstothatend。MrVerlocwasaverygoodhusband。Itwasherhonestimpressionthatnobodycouldhelplikingtheboy。Shecriedoutsuddenly:
`Quick,Stevie。Stopthatgreenbus。’
AndStevie,tremulousandimportantwithhissisterWinnieonhisarm,flunguptheotherhighabovehisheadattheapproachingbus,withcompletesuccess。
AnhourafterwardsMrVerlocraisedhiseyesfromanewspaperhewasreading,oratanyratelookingat,behindthecounter,andintheexpiringclatterofthedoor—bellbeheldWinnie,hiswife,enterandcrosstheshoponherwayupstairs,followedbyStevie,hisbrother—in—law。ThesightofhiswifewasagreeabletoMrVerloc。Itwashisidiosyncrasy。Thefigureofhisbrother—in—lawremainedimperceptibletohimbecauseofthemorosethoughtfulnessthatlatelyhadfallenlikeaveilbetweenMrVerlocandtheappearancesoftheworldofsenses。Helookedafterhiswifefixedly,withoutaword,asthoughshehadbeenaphantom。Hisvoiceforhomeusewashuskyandplacid,butnowitwasheardnotatall。Itwasnotheardatsupper,towhichhewascalledbyhiswifeintheusualbriefmanner:
`Adolf。’Hesatdowntoconsumeitwithoutconviction,wearinghishatpushedfarbackonhishead。Itwasnotdevotiontoanoutdoorlife,butthefrequentationofforeigncafeswhichwasresponsibleforthathabit,investingwithacharacterofunceremoniousimpermanencyMrVerloc’ssteadyfidelitytohisownfireside。Twiceattheclatterofthecrackedbellhearosewithoutaword,disappearedintotheshop,andcamebacksilently。
DuringtheseabsencesMrsVerloc,becomingacutelyawareofthevacantplaceatherrighthand,missedhermotherverymuchandstaredstonily;
whileStevie,fromthesamereason,keptonshufflinghisfeet,asthoughthefloorunderthetablewereuncomfortablyhot。WhenMrVerlocreturnedtositinhisplace,liketheveryembodimentofsilence,thecharacterofMrsVerloc’sstareunderwentasubtlechange,andStevieceasedtofidgetwithhisfeet,becauseofhisgreatandawedregardforhissister’shusband。
Hedirectedathimglancesofrespectfulcompassion。MrVerlocwassorry。
HissisterWinniehadimpresseduponhim(intheomnibus)thatMrVerlocwouldbefoundathomeinastateofsorrow,andmustnotbeworried。Hisfather’sanger,theirritabilityofgentlemenlodgers,andMrVerloc’spredispositiontoimmoderategrief,hadbeenthemainsanctionsofStevie’sself—restraint。Ofthesesentiments,alleasilyprovoked,butnotalwayseasytounderstand,thelasthadthegreatestmoralefficiency—becauseMrVerlocwasgood。Hismotherandhissisterhadestablishedthatethicalfactonanunshakablefoundation。Theyhadestablished,erected,consecrateditbehindMrVerloc’sback,forreasonsthathadnothingtodowithabstractmorality。AndMrVerlocwasnotawareofit。ItisbutbarejusticetohimtosaythathehadnonotionofappearinggoodtoStevie。
Yetsoitwas。HewaseventheonlymansoqualifiedinStevie’sknowledge,becausethegentlemenlodgershadbeentootransientandtooremotetohaveanythingverydistinctaboutthembutperhapstheirboots;andasregardsthedisciplinarymeasuresofhisfather,thedesolationofhismotherandsistershrankfromsettingupatheoryofgoodnessbeforethevictim。Itwouldhavebeentoocruel。AnditwasevenpossiblethatSteviewouldnothavebelievedthem。AsfarasMrVerlocwasconcerned,nothingcouldstandinthewayofStevie’sbelief。MrVerlocwasobviouslyyetmysteriouslygood。Andthegriefofagoodmanisaugust。
Steviegaveglancesofreverentialcompassiontohisbrother—in—law。
MrVerlocwassorry。ThebrotherofWinniehadneverbeforefelthimselfinsuchclosecommunionwiththemysteryofthatman’sgoodness。Itwasanunderstandablesorrow。AndSteviehimselfwassorry。Hewasverysorry。
Thesamesortofsorrow。Andhisattentionbeingdrawntothisunpleasantstate,Stevieshuffledhisfeet。Hisfeelingswerehabituallymanifestedbytheagitationofhislimbs。
`Keepyourfeetquiet,dear,’saidMrsVerloc,withauthorityandtenderness;
thenturningtowardsherhusbandinanindifferentvoice,themasterlyachievementofinstinctivetact:`Areyougoingouttonight?’sheasked。
ThemeresuggestionseemedrepugnanttoMrVerloc。Heshookhisheadmoodily,andthensatstillwithdowncasteyes,lookingatthepieceofcheeseonhisplateforawholeminute。Attheendofthattimehegotup,andwentout—wentrightoutintheclatteroftheshop—doorbell。
Heactedthusinconsistently,notfromanydesiretomakehimselfunpleasant,butbecauseofanunconquerablerestlessness。Itwasnoearthlygoodgoingout。HecouldnotfindanywhereinLondonwhathewanted。Buthewentout。
Heledacortegeofdismalthoughtsalongdarkstreets,throughlightedstreets,inandoutoftwoBashbars,asifinahalf—heartedattempttomakeanightofit,andfinallybackagaintohismenacedhome,wherehesatdownfatiguedbehindthecounter,andtheycrowdedurgentlyroundhim,likeapackofhungryblackhounds。Afterlockingupthehouseandputtingoutthegashetookthemupstairswithhim—adreadfulescortforamangoingtobed。Hiswifehadprecededhimsometimebefore,andwithherampleformdefinedvaguelyunderthecounterpane,herheadonthepillow,andahandunderthecheek,offeredtohisdistractiontheviewofearlydrowsinessarguingthepossessionofanequablesoul。Herbigeyesstaredwideopen,inertanddarkagainstthesnowywhitenessofthelinen。Shedidnotmove。
Shehadanequablesoul。Shefeltprofoundlythatthingsdonotstandmuchlookinginto。Shemadeherforceandherwisdomofthatinstinct。
ButthetaciturnityofMrVerlochadbeenlyingheavilyuponherforagoodmanydays。Itwas,asamatteroffact,affectinghernerves。Recumbentandmotionless,shesaidplacidly:
`You’llcatchcoldwalkingaboutinyoursockslikethis。’
Thisspeech,becomingthesolicitudeofthewifeandtheprudenceofthewoman,tookMrVerlocunawares。Hehadlefthisbootsdownstairs,buthehadforgottentoputonhisslippers,andhehadbeenturningaboutthebedroomonnoiselesspadslikeabearinacage。Atthesoundofhiswife’svoicehestoppedandstaredatherwithasomnambulistic,expressionlessgazesolongthatMrsVerlocmovedherlimbsslightlyunderthebedclothes。
Butshedidnotmoveherblackheadsunkinthewhitepillow,onehandunderhercheekandthebig,dark,unwinkingeyes。
Underherhusband’sexpressionlessstare,andrememberinghermother’semptyroomacrossthelanding,shefeltanacutepangofloneliness。Shehadneverbeenpartedfromhermotherbefore。Theyhadstoodbyeachother。
Shefeltthattheyhad,andshesaidtoherselfthatnowmotherwasgone—goneforgood。MrsVerlochadnoillusions。Stevieremained,however。
Andshesaid:
`Mother’sdonewhatshewantedtodo。There’snosenseinitthatI
cansee。I’msureshecouldn’thavethoughtyouhadenoughofher。It’sperfectlywicked,leavinguslikethat。’
MrVerlocwasnotawell—readperson;hisrangeofallusivephraseswaslimited,buttherewasapeculiaraptnessincircumstanceswhichmadehimthinkofratsleavingadoomedship。Heverynearlysaidso。Hehadgrownsuspiciousandembittered。Coulditbethattheoldwomanhadsuchanexcellentnose?Buttheunreasonablenessofsuchasuspicionwaspatent,andMrVerlocheldhistongue。Notaltogether,however。Hemuttered,heavily:
`Perhapsit’sjustaswell。’
Hebegantoundress。MrsVerlockeptverystill,perfectlystill,withhereyesfixedinadreamy,quietstare。Andherheartforthefractionofasecondseemedtostandstill,too。Thatnightshewas`notquiteherself’,asthesayingis,anditwasborneuponherwithsomeforcethatasimplesentencemayholdseveraldiversemeanings—mostlydisagreeable。Howwasitjustaswell?Andwhy?Butshedidnotallowherselftofallintotheidlenessofbarrenspeculation。Shewasratherconfirmedinherbeliefthatthingsdidnotstandbeinglookedinto。
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